Living With Emunah (Part 301) - Silence the Amalek in You

okay good morning should be we should hear good news hostages should come home our soldiers should return to their families we should have a sweeping victory over our enemies mem we should hear Yeshua series is generously sponsored the series by Dr zavi and B Morgan in memory ofab Dr Brian galet and in memory of her mother Dr Ellen shanzer Z site is today who Z site is today so an enormous thank you Tavi and Bella we don't take their generosity and sponsorship for granted and Bella's mother Ellen shanz alah today where she is she's so proud of her children living in Israel and the dream helping sponsor Aruna we're so grateful the she is also sponsor in memory of Israel marges for his fourth year at site on 11th Dar children grandchildren and great-grandchildren we certainly miss him and he had a big impact on us and in our communi asav alyah and also sponsored anonymously in honor of Max finishing M so Ma on that accomplishment wonderful we have more copies of what we're going to learn over here but first we've got a lot to say you got a lot to say so I hope you have nowhere to be this morning some of you think I'm joking some of you know I'm not but we got a lot to say um we didn't meet last week because we were in Israel for a couple days every trip to Israel comes back brings with it lots of amuna stories Lots stories that I'm tempted to share from the soldiers in the bases to the survivors of October 7th in their communities that we visited who all after describing and giving us a tour of where we went pointed up and said it's only by virtue of Miracles it's only because of him him who they didn't necessarily know or believe in on October 6th but now they recognize and see we had a tour in Nal o from someone named Mickey who and I don't give give you the details right now we were in his home took us into his house riddled by bullets exploded by grenades and RPG for eight hours his wife and daughter were in the corner of their of their mmad while he fought off and shot and pushed back terrorists he killed 23 terrorists that day October 7th himself saving his family and going after he heard the cries of his neighbor the the bullet holes all over that house it looks exact way it did on October 7th he described the entire circumstance with which he did it and the details are just beyond belief um and afterwards when he said it's Miracles it's only Miracles that we're here that we're alive it's all because of him so from stories like that the soldiers we visited in the north and in the South to uh the everyday stories of losing keys and finding keys and getting to the airport in time despite not knowing those keys would be found and how they would be found there's lots and lots of stories which I really am tempted and want to share but I'm going to skip right to a couple of stories that people sent in I'll share mine for another time and then I want to share with you an Insight on the the great Reb of the war s ghetto of Colonus Shapiro murdered by the Nazis in the war Soto again we have a collection of his sermons that he buried among the shabas AR underneath the wars so ghetto we may not even have them all that third archive has yet to be found and uh and um we've studied before some of what he said in that circumstance so imagine purum in the war saw ghetto you don't have to imagine it because we have his short but very poignant sermon from them we'll take a look at that but first a couple of amuna emails shalom in Israel they like to call me Rim by the way I've discovered not go over whatever they want but I hope the email finds you well I'm writing to you from the holy city ofat since the War Began I took on to listen to your lections on Spotify every day and now more than ever I want to be connected to the ultimate truth as Jets Roar above and explosions go off in the not so distance we feel the war in a very real way in the north as I watch as many succumb to the enemy's desire to inst instill fear and trepidation within us I am saddened and refus to be weak I've always been stubborn and strong willed so choosing a moon which gives courage and strength over constant stress was a lifesaver for me your classes have helped to hold steadfast unw Clarity that Hashem loves us this gruesome reality has to be for our ultimate good whether or not we see it right now easy to give these classes from the safety of batone Florida much harder on the North last week we had that experience we visited matat an army Outpost up north and we saw those Brave incredible extraordinary soldiers up north and um then we became a target of Hezbollah we had to flee and run because they sent over a suicide drone and the Army said get in the car and get out of here as quickly as you can that was nothing but a sense of the drama if you think the war has not yet begun up north then you have not been up north or spoken to anyone from up North so this uh heroine this hero fromat living with that experience and that amuna that courage is real uh y y y blah blah blah blah blah currently I'm working three times weekly to cook nutritious meals for some of the soldiers in the northern border which helps ease a little bit of the guilt of not being able to do more to help our country against these animals whose only will is to destroy us for good God willing we'll see revealed goodness and flowing now to meet at the Final Redemption of Jewish people such a person lives in someone who writes like this thank you so much for these life-changing classes blah blah blah I also want to add a fun amuna moment I had today in contrast to the more challenging ones I've been Z to recently this morning I had an exercise class scheduled for 8:30 at 8:15 I was still in the bus which was taking the longest way around to get to the gym making some calculations I decided to get off the next stop and run to catch a bus just in front of the one I was on that would take me onto the direct route this way I'd still get to my class late but less I ask hasem for his up as I jump off the bus and make a Mad Dash I hate being late Hashem knows it and I told him this as the bus I wanted to get on drove off leaving me hanging on the sidewalk unfortunately I didn't accept this with joy after my son being kicked out of his childcare program yesterday not for bad behavior and not wanting a lot I badly wanted to win last week I wasn't so strong I was feeling insulted let down and rejected I had told him I trusted him but instead of coming through I thought he had failed me I tell hasm all about my frustrations even dare to ask why it has to be this way after venting I feel a little bit better and tell him I'd still like to get my exercise class on time and I trust he will get me there first I love that she's describing this whole conversation at the bus stop on the side of the road and spat she's having with Hashem that's Amun that's that's kind it's all in real time daving is not just from the which we'll say after the she daving is not just in sh daving is not just from the sitter the most authentic the most real daving doesn't appear in a text it is written on our heart are the words that we insert between the lines and paragraphs of our sitter as we've said countless times it's what we write on the Hallmark card that we give to God not just the text that we hand but we personalize it ourselves and this image of this person on the side of the road at the bus stop and spot having this conversation with Hashem about her child and daycare about her frustration now at least get me to my gym to my exercise class on time I would have been like look I tried to exercise what could I do I'm running late might as well go home might as well have lunch might as well have a donut so I admire this person for many reasons just as I finished saying these words I see my husband's friend outside of Sho getting into his car I wave at him with a smile and I managed to must up and ask him where I and he asks me where I need to go I tell him and he tells me get in I'll take you right to the gym on our way then goes on to tell me how he found himself outside at that moment he hadon and made his way back towards one of the forest inat where he likes to go for his bodus I love these people he DAV inates in meon and he likes to make his way back toas toat where he likes to do his bodus which is some Solitude to be alone to be in conversation with hem to turn the phone in airplane mode even while on the ground and just be alone and talking to hasem he usually goes straight there from DAV but today decided to stop at a Sho for a coffee not knowing why now he knew why to drive me to the gym I get to my class just in time feeling totally lucky and blessed to have such an all powerful and all good father above who has all the resources in the universe to get me where I want to go wherever I want how wrong and blinded I was in that moment if I missed after I missed the second bus our loving Hashem in heaven always has a better plan for us he's totally down to take the rains and let us chill but we're constantly getting in his way and choosing to be limited by our own finiteness it can continues to baffle me how I know all this and still struggle with letting go day in and day out God willing this story taught me that Hashem has got me I need to worry I needn't worry or stress he's got it all figured out I and we should all be able to really lean back and enjoy the ride so much more enjoyable this wayes right great email because it this email contains both living in the north and all that that means with the airplanes and the sirens and the missiles and life and also a lighter moment of being frustrated missing a bus but then Hashem sending the ride and the driver saying I don't know why I was here until I realized that he sent me to take he sent me to take you I'll read uh I'll read one more I'll save the other one for next week hi unfortunately I got a flat in Central Park on the way to an appointment from the west side to the east side I had to ride the flat all the way to Pep Boys and queens because there were not any local tire shops at first I was scared cuz I knew was going to have to ride over the Queensborough Bridge in traffic and the bridge is really one big pothole go move toat what are you doing in Manhattan or Florida on the way toat at least don't you feel like I'm gonna say this into the camera and I could say because the global campaign is finished now otherwise I'd lose a lot of donors but you don't have to live there it's okay you could get out there other places okay now that we said that I checked out the tire and thought to myself it looks like I can make it I was still a little bit anxious and uneasy I thought of RAB D and How brave he had to be when terrorists were ambing his car here I was just riding a flat tire and I tried to put things into perspective I was given a Moment of clarity when I thought of Arun Hashem does everything for a reason I wrote in the flat tire and these words came to my mind the whole world is a very narrow bridge and the main thing is not to be afraid at all just a quick aside who said those words RAB nak of brv only he didn't say that that's the song I will save you from singing it right now hopefully hopefully April 7th will here ATS the whole world is a very narrow bridge the main thing the main thing don't be afraid but that's not what he writes if you look at it inside what really wrote was not don't be afraid but he writes what's the difference and is some of you just broke out in hives allergic to dickk but my mother-in-law was the president of the Hebrew Club so she knows hpel what's hpel reflective reflexive what's reflexive reflective something you do to yourself soab was really teaching teaching was the whole world's a very narrow place and the main thing is not don't be afraid the main thing is don't make yourself afraid the main thing is not Don't Be Afraid some things are natural to be afraid of when we were up north in matatan the soldiers started looking to the sky and pointing their guns up there and told us oh Hezbollah must have spotted you in your mini bus and they've sent suicide drones don't worry we have a way of blowing them out of the sky just get out of here really quickly so that's a legitimate reason a little bit right a little anxious that's a good reason to be a little bit anxious or when I had to get to the wedding I was officiating and there were three traffic jams from the north back down my incredible friend who drove us hit 111 miles an hour there's a good reason the fck a little bit a little bit my hair by the way was dark brown before that car ride before that car ride it was dark brown so this a little a little bit myar was in the car her hands were gripping the seat but he got us he's trained policeman he's it was okay so this there's legitimate times someone's coming at you with a needle you're having a medical procedure it's G to hurt it's okay R is teaching is generally in the world when you don't know how it's going to turn out Lo don't make yourself crazy don't turn yourself inside out don't cause anxiety fear and worry which will prove to be unfounded and forfeit in the process your physical health your mental health your spiritual your emotional health all because we made ourselves crazy over something that never happened Mark Twain I believe is the one who once said I have seen I've lived many many troubles most of which never happened some quote like that Mark Twain I've lived many many troubles most of which never happened look but what if and what will be and how will it work out and I don't know and what's gonna H just relax L why are you making yourself crazy especially over what you cannot control let go and let God so we sing the song it's not part of my life mission to try to get everyone to do it right but it would be nice the whole world a very narrow bridge it's narrow it's narrow it's easy to fall off it's narrow and the main thing not there are times it's legitimate to be afraid don't make yourself afraid anyway back to our email so I began to sing in bumper-to-bumper traffic while riding a flat tire the whole world a very bridge and the main thing is have no fear at all and the main thing and she's singing along the bridge you got to Picture This scene too I'm not picturing it because of Kisha but we picture the scene the Queen's borrow bridge in traffic and she's D it's like I'm J and she's driving over and she's singing suddenly a sense of calm came over me because the main thing is the main thing and Hashem is in control but a half a mile away from the tire shop the car began to shake I was trying to stay calm I drove slowly I said Hashem it's up to you and I sang Hashem I ride the tire shop it was clear I rode down the tire but I made it has allowed me to be on that bridge for just a moment longer I would have had to replace the rim or Worse lost control of the car my husband and I have been through all this this past few months this is someone who's gone through a lot of struggles Hashem should shower her with BR with BR and Simas this appointment was to deal with one of the many complications I've had post miscarriage I missed the appointment but I learned a valuable lesson every so often Hashem Winks at us and he says I'm still here I still care about you no today will not be the day you drive off the bridge putting Jokes Aside how powerful it is that through a scary situation in life know that hem is with you even when the car was still shaking I felt a sense of ease hashem's in control whole world's a narrow bridge but the most important thing is don't be afraid now I continue to carry this attitude and gratitude for Hashem into other aspects of life may the am continue to give to keep on going and draw closer to Hashem may she be showered with BR and with ma not to be on narrow Bridges and not to have flat tires but if are there sing sing your way through it Sing Sing you're with me no matter where I go you're with me Wherever I Go sing my daughter one of my children who many ways has grown out of it but used to get anxious over certain situations but she was the type of kid who hated roller coasters but had to go on everyone so would be miserable and make you miserable right so so the whole line which is long wherever you go would be miserable and nauseous and anxious and hyperventilating and as soon as it finished said that was amazing let's do it again just to be anxious and nauseous and miserable so we would sing together on the line a and as it go you know when it's really designed to torture you as it climbs climbs climbs and you're waiting for that so we sing a playlist of go to songs when times get tough we should each have an our head a playlist of go to amuna songs when things don't go our way when we're frustrated disappointed sad anxious worried hurt a playlist of amuna songs to sing incredible people incredible emails P let me give you a little background to this p a little background a little background because this shabas is the shabas we're going to read the obligation to remember many years many years we struggle to remember because life is so safe life feels so tranquil and Serene and happy gol lucky and all is well and this year we're surrounded by a Malik Kamas has Bola Iran anti-Semitism On The Rise around us some prominent Jews who are aligning and accomplishes to a Malik in their own behavior and who are bowing to a Malik we're living in a time so this obligation to remember to never forget to pledge to eradicate is as important as it ever was as it ever was so what happened March 23rd 1940 March 23rd 24 the shabas of 1940 the war saw ghetto imagine don't imagine the responsibility of being a rabbi spiritual guide a man of Faith someone who supposed to be able to make sense of it all 1940 War so gets up to the Gathering of skeletons malnourished individuals barely struggling to hold on to survive many most of whom have already lost everything and what message can you give such a group remember what amalik did to you on your way out of Egypt the rebba returned to the theme that pervaded much of his work is Kesh much of the sermons that he gave in that time and uh he played on the double meaning of the Hebrew when he met you PK describes that when did amalik attack aash quote several interpretations cold Splash cold water on you you just came from the Amun you were on fire Hashem is amazing hem is everywhere hm has a plan I surrender to Hashem hashem's amazing Amal comes you walk out the am someone sees you sometimes you come home sometimes it's a friend sometimes a coworker something in life sometimes splashes cold water and say Hashem so amazing where is Hashem now cynicism and sarcasm and skepticism and AAL comes and splashes cold water on the way they cooled you off on the way and the rebba excoriated the weakening of religious enthusiasm and he said don't give into the secular society and secular wisdom don't assimilate your values don't be so taken by the secular and pop culture around you they're trying to cool off the fire that is Torah be on fire don't be Jewish be a Jew we're gonna read Sunday there was one man one Jew in the city of shushan whose name was morai the commentators say yeah everyone else was eating at the sud everybody else was running to eat at the at the marry party to drink and to eat out of the very holy utensils of defiled and profaned and they were they were eating at the meal of but there was one lone means be a proud Jew be a practicing Jew Proclaim with pride you're being a Jew display being a Jew Don't Be Afraid put on that yamaka wear that m d hang hang that mza put the flag on that car is y means that Mor was not jewi is Ish ish is a new term we didn't grow up with ish ish is what our kids say are you hungry ish is you want to go ish on time ish ish means not exactly sort of we it's not our language our vocabulary but kids ish Jew ish ish sort of sort of bagel and locks je ish it's time to not be jewi is it's time to be a proud Jew a practicing Jew to be a real Jew to be a real Jew and that's what the rebba was thinking and that's what the rebba was saying that that year the following Sunday purum would normally have been celebrated as a holiday with great rejoicing and here's a description Shimon hubber band and this comes from I'm reading to you from the tremendous work called toor from the years of Wrath that was written by uh Professor Abramson Henry Abramson who collected the is KES didn't just translate the P sermons but put them in a historical context of what was going on we've shared it previously so he quotes here from a firsthand account of Shimon Yuber band I went to the home of P rebba the rebba sat in the stral in a silk Crafton and he spoke with a few about the terrible situation of the Jews there would be no festive me meal and no celebration as was the practice every year the mood was terrible the predominant Spirit wasn't of purum but of Tish people consol each other by saying that spring was just around the corner and during the Spring of 1940 we would surely be saved and it was in that context that the Reb had a brief message about purum and here it is so that was 1940 March 1940 the Reb amalik don't let amalik first his messages on Z was don't let amalik be effective when we hide our jewishness the Jewish kid on college campus who won't put up a Maza won't wear yamaka won wear a mugging doid when we take Flags off cars or we're afraid to show that we're Jewish then we're giving into amalik we're surrendering to amalik don't surrender to amalik be strong be proud be practicing Proclaim don't surrender to amalik if we've learned anything it's that that doesn't work assimilation doesn't work work assimilations at an alltime high and anti-Semitism is at an all-time high which is just repeating and regurgitating the lesson of Germany of 1940 which is when you try to assimilate and disappear and integrate they don't love you when you try to be separate and apart and distinct They Don't Love You is it inevitable to not be loved maybe but it's not something we should ever tolerate or accept or stop fighting in the meantime stop hiding be a proud practicing Jew don't be Jewish be like Mor not Jewish be a Jew be a proud Jew what that means for each of us is different but be a Jew and support Jewish causes and Jewish institutions and the Jewish future and those who are fighting for it those who are going to create it and be living and will be vibrant and living that's what the Reb's message was that Z don't let the amalik so attractive all around us invites us to be part of the country club to be part of the culture to be part of the world just be like us it's a Malik it's pernicious it has a ploy and a plot for us to disappear stand apart stand up be different and this was his message on P he said the following it says we know that P and yum are two sides of a coin and yum this is not in that text I'm reading to you something separate we didn't even start the am yet we get there we haven't started yet and are two sides of the same coin there are many similarities and has many similarities we won't get into now and which one is greater higher loftier can we accomplish more spiritually Yumer is only y it's only like purum which means which one is greater because y you attain Holiness by living without by living apart P you find Holiness by diving in by living within by living within but anyway the Reb continues what if a Jew doesn't make it toer what if a Jew doesn't sincerely apologize doesn't have remorse doesn't repent doesn't repair what if a Jew doesn't experience yipper the way they're meant to does yum Kipper still work does y Kipper still wipe that slates clean does yum Kipper still offer clemency does yum Kipper work the answer is yes RAB tell us tells us the essence of the day atones again you still have to do the things you got to do not giving anyone a way out but the person who didn't do all that they were meant to do if you reach that day on the calendar you know sometimes every now and then think has happened in a while the government will announce that if you turn in your illegal weapon today nobody will be held accountable what's that day a day of clemency what's amnesty an Amnesty Day so Yumer according to this opinion is an Amnesty Day even if you don't do the right things you're not in the right place you didn't fast you didn't repent you weren't in you didn't open the and if that's true for forer even if a person is sad and despondent and down and out even if a person is in the war so ghetto with corpses and skeletons even if a person has lost everything and sees no way out they need to dig deep and find some small spark something of sim some little light something to take joy in but if they can the day of atones even if you didn't do the right things just like yipper can work even when you don't engage and feel the feelings you're supposed to feel per can also work even if you don't feel the joy you're supposed to feel so that's the image there's the PB sitting at his table wearing his beha and his stal with a Pera laid out in front of him but there's no joy there's no happiness there's none of the usual Countryman there's no none of the usual things that go with puram in his court in his home and what's his message his short message that P is sometimes and against certain backdrops when it's difficult or hard to be know that just like is and just like the seriousness and sobriety of Y can work even when you don't engage it so too the Sim and the joy of puram can work even when you don't feel it that's a very powerful imp poignant message for this year not for all of us I think we still can find there's so much light and there's so reason so much cause for Sim in Israel they have it they feel it they'll be feeling it they're encouraging us to as well but for many certainly those who've lost loved ones certainly those who still don't know the whereabout and the fate of their loved ones so we continue to D for the hostages and those who are serving those who will spend perm in Gaza or on the Lebanon border or having to arrest terrorists in territories that are very dangerous where's their purum know that purum has that capacity okay now let's start so in front of you turn to p b and I want to share with you I'll try to do it briefly I want to learn the following piece this comes from a safer that I was gifted this year B it's called B this is the safer nice little but thick safer it's written by Yim I don't know who he is I don't know anything about the author but it's a wonderful beautiful little saer on perum called B and here he summarizes the following this shab we're gonna read about aik and all of us have the Mandate the mission we have the obligation obliterate eliminate Purge get rid of amalik get rid of amalik so there is the external amalik there's the nation the people of amalik they're genetic biological people maybe we've lost track of who they are but had a tradition that anyone who has the same ideology of amalik is the modern day mik and I'm not saying that today one should fulfill the obligation of destroying men women children animals property that the world needs to purge on Malik I am not equating it I want to be as clear as I can I am not equating it but I will say that after October 7th we learned that human beings can forfeit their Godly soul and be pure animals and when they teach and indoctrinate even innocent young people around them with that ideology and capacity to be so l that they're animals we understand where the Mitzvah of comes in we understand like a cancer that could metastized if amalik is left in any measure they will resurface they will return they will come back to their mission to destroy our people and as painful as it is to admit and so many who fought that admission you go visit and and you go visit those communities in the south on October 6th they would have told you inoc civil Ians the innocent Palestinian people we have to give them a land we have to have another state with them and we take care of them and now those very same communities and those very same people who are exposed to what it means and I won't get into the graphic details of what we saw what we were told what was described to us what is inhumane it's just it's not believable it's not believable that those who walk on two feet could do these things such egregious and heinous impossible a human being should be incapable incapable of doing such things we understand even if they were not applying it in practice to be clear but we understand we're such a Mitzvah but many many of our great rabbis our great sadim encourage us to read and learn and think about amalik not only in the context of some external enemy but the voice and the attitude of that and the ideology of that amalik within ourselves that philosophy that tries to extinguish the fire with some cold water that tries to Splash cold water on us that voice of cynicism and skepticism in our own head maybe he's not true maybe he's not there maybe it is just a coincidence maybe it is random maybe he doesn't really care what I eat or what I say or what I look like look at or where I go maybe that voice of amalik that when we're on fire says wait don't be too right-wing don't be too fanatical don't be too extreme don't forget that you're supposed to be so don't get too into it you might become the people that you hate or that you spoken against don't get too into it what might it mean for you and for your life and for your lifestyle for your children that's the voice of amalik that when we're on fire we see and we feel and we talk to him and we hear him talking to us when we're ready to make that leap and make that change when we're ready to start being more careful in a particular area shabas or kasas or lashara or honesty in business or modesty in dress or where we eat out when we're ready to make that leap and we're ready to take that seriously and we're ready to not only be Jewish but be a Jew be an is there's that voice of amalik in our own head that says whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa you're not like that you're not like them don't join the world and go in that direction that's the voice of a Malik that tries to Splash cold water on that fire but what will my friends say what will they say and how will they judge me if I start wearing that or doing that or behaving like that if I get into it like that when we're on fire we ready to be an is instead of just je is that voice that's the voice ofik when we're ready to say you know what I'm on a very narrow bridge but the main thing is not to be afraid Hashem I'm in your hands hold me and take care of me and I surrender to you and then that voice ofik says once what are you doing you who says Hashem knows or cares or is involved in what's happening right now who says that's the voice of amalik trying to put that doubt trying to put that uncertainty trying to add those question marks amalik is not only andan amalik is not only the enemy outside amalik is in our own head and it's in our own heart and it tries to lead us in that direction or hold us back or put out that fire on the bottom of Page's entire mission's entire mandate the ideology the philosophy the attitude of a Malik is to introduce saf what does the word saf mean doubt to add doubt when we live with such certainty and confidence and clarity about Hashem and this world and our mission and our purpose and the life and the lifestyle we're meant to live a m comes along and says are you sure sure positive you're not a little doubtful not a little uncertain not a little curious and that's why the gamat the numerical value of aik man mamed K is the same as suff doubt aik equals suff aik is entirely about doubt the Jewish people asked that question we're held accountable for it when we said is God in our midst IM or not is God really running the show is there really a higher power is there really order and purpose to all that occurs you're sure not random or chance or statistics or data you sure it's not just a natural phenomena you're sure you're positive this parking spot this red light this airplane delay this business that sh this you're sure someone waiting for that child deeply in pain wonders is this really you sure it's all organized orchestrated from above person desperate to be married caught up in this crazy world of shim Waiting by that phone and says to them is God among I don't see him anywhere is God in this crazy process because I'm sitting here all alone I don't see him anywhere where does it come from this notion of doubt we should be living in a world where we should see Hashem everywhere should be clear as day to us that there is a God there is a Creator he's omnipotent and infinite he controls this universe he is aware of and involved in all that occurs and instead of living that way we live our lives daily in the backdrop and the background of everything we do and everything we do wrong is suff is doubt rabbis tell us that a person can only make a mistake the only reason that we make a mistake to begin with is why we have moments of insanity moments of insanity if you knew if you knew that eating that thing would give you diabetes abetes and heart disease and shorten your life the only way that you could eat it anyway is what you had a momentary lapse of Sanity that's what our brain does that's the way the Yar the evil inclination works it says turn off your brain so that I can get to work because if your brain is working I can't operate I can't operate you're GNA fly off the handle and react to your spouse or your child in that way do you know the damage you're going to do the relationship sometimes irreparably so your y says I'm going to make you stop thinking I'm going to make you just feel I'm going to make you fly off the handle because the only way I work is when you stop thinking so the whole way the works the whole the whole methodology and strategy of the evil inclination is to instill doubt because if you see clearly you'll always do the right thing you won't eat that you won't say that you won't watch that you won't go there you won't do the wrong thing often it's clear to know what's right and what's wrong you wouldn't stay up late reading binge watching doing depriving yourself if you knew the long-term implications of being sleep deprived and what that does to memory if you know how you'll feel the next morning when you have alarm goes off and you snooze it two times and the person next to you yells why can't you wake up the first time you have to wake me more than once hypothetically of course if you knew you'd never stay up late you'd never stay up late why do we suff doubt we blur the clarity instead of seeing clearly we shmear Vaseline over the lens and now you can't see anything clearly and that is how amalik works and where does that Trace itself back to it goes back to the the snake comes to are walking through the Gan they're naked in their birthday suit because there's no need for modesty because there's no Yara because they've never done anything wrong it's a place of purity of Holiness and God says enjoy everything the ultimate all you can eat schorg whatever you want it's all yours one tree don't touch and they have Clarity all this good that thing in the corner no good we got it we're clear what a life this is this is the Garden of Eden this is the Garden of Eden g aen comes along the snake and says you sure you can't just touch it you're not supposed to eat it but you could touch it you sure you can't just and through introducing that doubt it's okay you can look at it you could smell it you could touch it through introducing that doubt that uncertainty that lack of clarity we know the rest of this history ultimately are expelled and the Torah describes what does say snake and the letters of hisani are the snake said are you sure God put you here are you sure God told you you can't have this one thing are you sure that he can see what you're doing are you sure that he cares or that he holds you accountable that there'll be consequences is there consequence is there accountability does God know God does does God care is there God the reality is that which we know and see clearly should be much more compelling and yet the voice the voice of Doubt is so much louder the voice of doubt the voice of question the voice of uncertainty the voice of cynicism the voice of skepticism is so much louder it's so much louder when the comes and it says eat that say that look at that go there do that we say get out of here I would never do that but when thear realizes it can't come from the outside can't come get you this way so what does thear do comes from inside you just a little doubt little questions little uncertainty now it comes inside us it's so much more powerful it's true Torah serving hm is great it's not for you that fanatic that right-winger that extremist that super religious that fanatic it's for them you you're GNA start making bras before you eat you're gonna start being more careful on your income taxes you're G to start guarding your tongue or changing the conversation at the shabas table we still talk about we were at a shabas table in Israel many many summers ago in the balabusta that shabas table the conversation turned to what probably was lanara and the the woman of the house said shut it down remember that everyone was like okay and the conversation changed there was no there was no uncertainty and no lack of clarity she just said she said it with a with a certain it was cute so it was sweet and it worked she goes people shut it down move on and everybody realized like wow that was great we were talking lashara she said shut it down shut it down it was great it was great shut it down remember that shut it down so you say what I'm going to be one of those people who at my shabas table says shut it down I'm going to start covering my hair I'm going to start dressing more modestly I'm gonna start are you kidding I'm gonna start being careful about where I eat at home and when I eat out I'm gonna start for men learning Torah taking up the da going to that's not for me that's for my brother that's for my neighbor that's for my cousin that's for my friend that's for those Fanatics that's for those people that I always make fun of and I'm cynical of and I'm sarcastic about that's the that's a because if the came on the outside if a person came up to you and said why are you doing this Mitzvah you would say to that person what's the matter with you I'm an orthodox true but when it comes from inside us and says don't do it seriously don't do it scrupulously don't do more than you have to do don't do more than your parents did don't do more than your neighbor does don't do more than the way you were brought up now it comes inside us that's the voice of a Malik for all of us there's an internal amik there's an internal Roman and an internal Greek don't think of these enemies only on the outside each of these enemies are a description they come from the inside and go to the bottom paragraph in the time of when did the story occur you're going to keep it next week so it's important to know when it happened his historically when did it happen between the first and second B mikdash after the destruction of the first B mikdash before the rebuilding by by cus the second how did it happen is celebrating he makes this huge party and what does he serve out of the are the utensils of the temple the B mikdash that were destroyed that were captured Ed so imagine if you can it's not so hard imagine if you will the Jews are invited to the white house for a party where the utensils that they'll serve with come from the ransack shoes that were destroyed and the Jews go and they eat and it's okay because there's signs that say everything is guac kosher the wine is M and the and we're being and everything is top r could you imagine you can imagine there are Jewish people who would go and attend such a celebration marking their own demise but so ignorant and whose vision is so blurred that they can't even see clearly to realize that the host of that party is celebrating your own destruction by serving out of the it's not hard to imagine it's exactly what happened now why did make that party then so the gar tells us they all calculated there was a prophecy of how long that first Exile would last we had a prophecy 70 years and they miscalculated when the 70 years began and when it ended and when therefore the second B mdash would be built and just like an earlier miscalculation of mosha returning from the mountain let ended up with in a bad place their calculation they said this period of the prophecy has passed 70 years is over and no what does that mean there's a new covenant there's a new children of God there's a new time a new era he's not coming and therefore they made a party and who went along with it who accepted the invitation to such a party none other than the Jews of shushan the Jewish Jewish community of shushan they were exhausted spiritually spent from that period of waiting from surviving an exile they couldn't take it and comes and invites them says you know you've been on the run for so long pums and persecution and I feel bad for you but it's over don't worry he's not coming back you're not getting a Bas on mcdash but come come to my party come enjoy my Delicacies glat kosher and they were tired physically exhausted spiritually spent and they accepted the invitation and they came and why did they come because what was introduced in their mind suff doubt uncertainty a lack of clarity maybe he's right maybe that calculation is true maybe it's not going to happen maybe he's not really here maybe he gave up on on us maybe we're not really a purpose a people of a purpose and a mission maybe we're not really his chosen or his choosing children maybe maybe what if and maybe suff suff a Malik introduces suff into life the middle two words I told you we heard this from torski I shared it here the middle two letters of the word life in English are if if if what if if and if and if and if suff why even though we're living in the most prosperous times in history we're living in the most miserable unhappy and anxious times in history because if at the center of life is if the middle of that word life is if if if if this and if what if and what if and what if and if and if only if only and what if then you're G to be miserable and unhappy and anxious how do you say life in Hebrew and what are the middle two letters shame Hashem the middle of life for a Jew is no if and what if the middle of a life of a Jew is Hashem there's no if what if the middle of a life of a Jew is Shem a Malik says the middle of your life is if if what if what if if only if only and what if if only and what if in the middle of the life of a Jew is hasem that hasem is a plan and everything is from Hashem so what's the answer what's the antidote per the answer and the antidote the way we offset and defeat aik the external enemy the ideology the personality and the voice in our own head of amalik how do we defeat amalik certainty and Clarity putting Hashem in the middle of our life we're going to sing perov this beautiful period ends we want to announce to the world we have Clarity we have certainty you're in charge you're in control we are your children you have a plan we have a purpose that when Moshe raises his hands the Jewish people win when we put Hashem in the middle of our life Y and then y shm in the middle of our life when we have CL there is no joy like resolving doubt teach us this principle and I see it every day so do you the most torturous thing there is in the world is living with doubt you go for that medical test and you're waiting for the result even if it's a bad result you'll figure it out but what's the torture of waiting the doubt what if if only who knows sa saf is torturous it's torturous when you don't know how it will turn out how it will turn out the greatest is when we're able to resolve the doubt when we can return and restore a sense of clarity of what needs to be done even when it's not simple and even when it will be hard work that's our mission T we learn Torah the Torah gives us that sense of clarity to surrender to submit to see Hashem everywhere to let go and to live a life of clarity with no doubt he has a lot more to say the antidote and the answer is is per what do we do on perm person drinks they can no longer distinguish between there's a lot to say on this try to share some of it on per in the state of pum but I saw you know PM is 30 days before what PES per is exactly 30 days before PES exactly 30 days before PES I'll end with this 30 days before P 30 days before a holiday we already begin to learn to study we're obligated to already feel the energy of that holiday so when do you begin getting ready for p on you'll say the opposite it's all over the place but it means in aod in pus in the world of working on the spiritual energy of the time P begins on pum 30 days before p is p that's when we begin how is p the real introduction beginning of PES PES is a night of d of it is the greatest the Godless on P night we are royalty sitting around our Royal Regal table telling the story with absolute certainty and Clarity and confidence that Hashem caused 10 plagues and a splitting of a sea took us out of Egypt and he takes us wherever we need to go it is Mo the Godless there is a perspective of greatness we have our brain is big and on fire we see clearly we know with confidence we sit like royalty and we celebrate at is 30 days earlier and it's it's the opposite not moas of clarity and confidence and certainty and a d a knowledge and an Insight that's on fire it's the opposite we forfeit our Al together what does it mean of course we never believe in getting drunk to the point of being dangerous or being irresponsible but it means a person gets inebriated to the extent that they realize I can't see clearly I don't have good judgment right now I don't really know anything I can't comprehend anything going on why because even higher than having Clarity and confidence is realing I don't really have I don't really have D at all what's purm Pur is our surrender and submission Hashem this is your world and I read the Milla and I think it's a string of coincidences hashem's name does not appear in the Milla butm I really even though I'm spending my life wrestling with you who's in who's in control I'm spending my life wrestling with you who's in charge who's in control who's the Orbiter of my destiny and perm I let go and let God and I say Hashem it's all yours why do we wear costumes on perum when someone's wearing a costume you can't see who they are underneath so important we realize even though I think I can see everything even though I think I can see clearly even though I think I'm in charge of them in control I realize the world is filled with costumes with layers I don't really know what's inside or what's happening or what's really going on anywhere so we wear costumes and a person our we forfeit and surrender our Das are understanding Al together to make the statement to Hashem I think I'm in charge I think I know I think I understand I think I control I don't really understand anything it's all you it's all you we get ready to climb towards pesak when we'll see with Clarity and confidence by first going through the exercise of being willing to let go to Forfeit and surrender our doubt Al together I don't really understand I don't really have Clarity I don't really see clearly you're in charge and you're in control and I don't really know and that gives us a sense of when other comes we're filled with how do we get this when you defeat when you get rid of that voice of doubt and uncertainty you get rid of that doubt of skepticism of sarcasm everything good that we want to become that voice comes in aik so you're about to start that new Wellness life you're G to live well and amalik comes who are you fooling how many times have you dieted how many trainers have you hired how many pieces of exercise equipment are just clothing hangers who are you fooling you know what voice that is a Malik a mik you're gonna start daving you're gonna start practicing you're G to become an is Yi you're sick and tired of just being Jewish and you're ready to be a Jew to be a Jew a proud Jew a prominent Jew a practicing Jew that voice ofal comes and says who are you who are you what do you know you barely can say Olive Bas and you're going to be some proud Jew that's the voice of a Malik voice of a Malik but when we silence that voice of a when we extinguish that voice of aik there is no joy like getting rid of that doubt when you're Crossing that bridge with that flat tire realizing I'm not afraid afraid I'm not filled with if only what if because at the middle of life I have shame Hashem I have Hashem and when that bus doesn't come on time to take you to your gym class or whatever one is going through in life serious or less serious we defeat that voice of amalik and we're filled with Sim that life of V that life of clarity and confidence that life of seeing Hashem everywhere it brings this unbridled this incredible sense this incred sense of so you're all invited please stop by on purum Sunday 12:30 to2 at our home we're having a pum block party to stand with Israel bring your Israel flag send the pictures people in Israel will see on Perm we're thinking of them and it should be a PM that brings yeshua's should bring we should defeat our enemies and bring our hostages home should be a perum of joy and happiness but first we got to get rid of a Malik so everyone let's do our part please stay to say to hilum if everyone remains a few minutes we'll finish all of say for to shut it down tomor time what can I do to help you with it I want you to know I care about it so what can I do to help you with Itor e