Living With Emunah (Part 285) - Hashem Controls the Withdrawals but He Needs Us to Make Deposits

okay good morning it should be a good morning andem we should hear Yeshua please God we should hear only uh good news and good things unfortunately we woke up this morning not for good news our hearts are broken Shattered by the uh continued news of the price that claw Isel was paying in order to protect not only Israel protect the world to fight this evil so our learning shabas these precious soldiers young sweet beautiful innocent incredibly courageous and brave paid the ultimate price demonstrated the ultimate Devotion to our people to our homeland their should have an alyah their families should somehow find strength want to thank our Amun sponsors Dr zi and Bella Morgan in memory of Rabbi Dr Brian galet in memory of B's mother Dr Ellen shanzer we remain very grateful to the Morgans for the generosity sponsoring the amuna sheer Series this morning Shear is also sponsored by her engagement to Joseph Wolf we need Ms we need good news we need to that's how we build the they want to destroy and eliminate we build we continue and we add also dedicated in honor of Elsa SAR Bas par MAA and to Michelle R please God they should find their we should celebrate hearing good news and lastly sponsor leas Danny gr Shalom who year fifth year with this week big loss for our community and for the world and esas Gabriel Gabriel penas following the shear this morning we have the we're going to divide up all if 30 people stay each will take five minutes we can complete all of sa for on behalf of our brothers and sisters in Israel and certainly on behalf of the IDF who are in our thoughts 247 it's hard it's hard to live life it's hard to do anything mundane it's hard to focus when you think about what's happening when you think about what's on the line but that's where our amuna comes in I'll share with you couple of emails and then we'll look at this text that I think is relevant to how we feel and where we're at and what is going on Rabbi Goldberg your podcast blah blah blah blah especially now as I am a mom of an IDF Soldier I heard the email from the man who was struggling and I totally feel for if you remember last week we read about somebody who was struggling to find the Amun in this time went out to her car who wants to uh can't figure out how to go on the approach of everything Hashem does is for the best was not helpful for me in the situation when facing my fears of what could potentially happen I want to share something that has has been helpful to me when my mind goes in directions that I don't want to think about I visualize my son surrounded by a protective bubble of light of hashem's love for him this is caling for me and also increases my by making the positive outcome more real in my mind instead of just pick picturing her son going to battle vulnerable and exposed and fragile and that risk she likes to see this Aura of light this bubble this Cocoon of hashem's embrace and love somehow surrounding him and then she followed up and said it's a very beautiful idea another idea for anyone struggling with overly checking the news make a cabala make a commitment that before checking the news or social media you'll always first say a peric ofum if you find yourself obsessively keep checking and scrolling and checking and looking and checking that each time before you check say and then you frame your checking at least in the context of it's another opportunity to turn to to dve into and to ask Hashem certainly these are trying times for wives and mothers and family members of anybody in that Army in the Army and on those front lines and doing what they're and doing what they're doing I mentioned then chabas when I had the privilege last week of traveling with Rabbi bro and RAB gibber to Israel on your behalf on our behalf on our community's behalf representing and hugging as many as we could and showering with as much love and bringing as many supplies and visiting as many places as we could we met an outstanding outstanding Ron a r ofon amazing group of extraordinary people who were called up not to the Army but who business people who put their lives on hold and for the last month have done nothing but try to coordinate and help and support and they're led by raon Ron is not only a great but he's a he's a warrior he's a fierce Soldier he's called up to reservice and he's serving on the on the northern border the border of Lebanon we visited there 150 meters from from Lebanon and uh just to repeat because he he's on the front line literally the northern front line but the amuna that he lives with the amuna that he lives with is is contagious it is inspiring it's all inspiring and I told you the story that he reached into his his uniform to say want to see my secret weapon not to me but to somebody I know so you want to see my secret weapon they thought it's going to take out the latest laser the latest technology the latest gun and they took out the of the started waving it at the border atah take this take that take this take that sh that's our weapon that's our weapon we need other weapons it's the M Katana the smaller War we're fighting is the war with physical enemies but the bigger War the bigger battle spiritually we believe we don't we don't experience these things in a vacuum and they leave us flooded with questions that have no answers a feeling of where is Hashem being so distant which is also okay there's precedent for that in this week's para says that when he comes to the says take your son your only son the son that you love and despite your prosing and teaching the world that child sacrifice is egregiously immoral I want you to do it even though you've made a name you've become an influencer you've become you've gone viral for telling the world not what not to do the very thing you went viral to tell the world what not to do I want you to now do and I want you to do it with your son the one that you love the one that you waited for ab was prepared to listen to the will of Hashem but it's not easy for him in fact the medish tells us that all of these obstacles come in his way they try to stop him the river Rises and he struggles to cross it and the mountains and the whole journey is riddled with obstacles that try to to distract him and deflect him and he has to overcome them and the simple understanding of the medish is that the world itself was sort of opposing him to fulfill the will of hem in such a superhuman way understood this med to mean that these were all different voices within aram's own mind questions of doubt and uncertainty that he himself am is not binary it's not all or nothing you're not all there struggle the great a Who never doubted hashem's existence and never doubted hashem's word but struggled even though he got to the destination of where he needed to be it was a circuitous route it wasn't simple the mountains got in his way so the mountains represent the parents what AM my moral obligation to my parents how could I do it to my child each of the physical natural phenomena that presented as an impediment were representative his own mind of a struggle and even when he arrives at the Destin when he first sees the place that he's supposed to offer that he's supposed to offer he sees that place may it feels like Hashem is far away it's from a distance H is the name that we used for hasem when he's far away when you pay a Shiva call 13 families not sitting shiva 13 more families 13 soldiers so far should say so far 13 soldiers please God only in total in this ground invasion now sitting shiva those who pay a Shiva call daughter in seminary just returned from a Shiva call in they're getting an education nobody dream they'd get in their year in Israel this whole experience so you say that's the language why do we use that name for God May the M May the place simple understanding is God Is Here There and Everywhere God is in every place and even when he feels absent hasm is everywhere so hak hak he's everywhere even here even in the Sha house even at this horrifically tragic funeral I know these losses have impacted people in this room one of the young men killed lived in my parents building modan saw the video of outside the building today the street lined with people to escort the family hem is everywhere even even on that street even in those Shiva homes even at those funerals but first says the word h the name of of is the name that we invoke for Hashem when he feels far away when he feels at a great distance like where are you what's going on how could this happen we still believe we see him we don't waver we're uncompromising we're unyielding we still believe we're all in he's in charge he's in control we surrender we submit it's his world everything's for a reason but right now that just feels far away so when hem feels far away we say said at the the P we say why why do we use the name at the Seder because what follows the paragraph of the four sons and one of those Sons is the Russia and if a person's struggling with a child who's a Russia feels far away he feels far away so what's amazing is that for us he feels far away and it's understandable and for so many I'm sure do Ron he's right there Hashem he's right there casualties are are horrific devastating setbacks but Hashem is in charge and he's right by their side and and the Army it's in their eyes and you feel it and you see these videos are coming out of those who are going into Gaza and it's like tanak is coming alive what tanak says the Jewish Army does before they go in singing praying daving turning to us you've seen videos of soldiers telling all of us we're going in DAV so to wave that with everything else all we have all we can lean on is you it may appear this is a battle of in tunnels and around corners and urban Warfare It's a question of technology and drones and and and the newest missile defense and all that's accurate and true and we're grateful to those who fund it and support it and those who invent it and those who deploy it but all that is just the Matrix all of that is just the way it appears down here behind it as believing amuna faithful yid we believe that all of that is just the matrix it's the way it appears down here there's something bigger going on and the way that we influence and the weapons that we deploy in the Iron Dome that we invoke our our daving and our learning and our and our love for one another and our and we can't we can't waver we can't slow down we can't hesitate we can't get distracted if you go into Gaza you can't be distracted for a moment for a moment there's no luxury of being distracted for a moment and we don't have the luxury of being distracted Not For a Moment Not For a Moment so that's that's our mission K can be found even in these dark places and dark times sometimes it can most be found because there's nowhere else to go and no one else to lean on the more the world seems to be piling up against us a month ago nobody could have imagined depicted the countries the places the campuses the members of Congress the members of the media many are standing with us and for that we are so grateful but the data and the statistics of who are Rising against us could you ever imagine a month ago I tell you that Jewish students in Cooper Union would lock themselves in a library for their lives imagine I tell you that Cornell University they'd have to shut down the hill and tell Jewish students stay in your dorm room Colombia Jew students would be threatened for their lives thank God for the New Yorkers boy do they have Niel PEB but I'll tell you more and more videos are coming out these non-jewish New Yorkers who aren't tolerating those who are tearing down the posters unbelievable those who bless us should be blessed they should be blessed they got to clean up their mouths but they should be blessed you got you could watch watch the videos on silent turn watch the videos with the sound off just W watch the video with the sound off but boy it's nice it means something it feels it feels good when someone has a little solidarity but you look in the eyes of the soldiers and you see the will of CLA and the amuna and the how could waiver ride their coattails we've spoken in the past about when we're struggling use someone else's Hot Spot watch the video of the soldiers who are unwavering in their amuna so-called secular soldiers who never heard of Titus are put on fillan until now my friend Ru biston kabad of Parkland who's back in Israel this week for the second time he can't stay awake away just left me a voice note this morning describing they have a Sofer and a safer Torah and they're going Bas to base soldiers are writing in their letter to complete a safer Torah soldiers who never opened up Torah never felt Bound by Torah never were part of the community of Torah who are now writing their letter in Torah finding their place their name in Torah just amazing amazing things so there there are Hotpot you're you have no connection you're buffering you're in and out it's not a not a high speed not a low speed you're no connection find someone with a hot spot and the soldiers there they're are hot spot and connect through them because it's amazing it's amazing their their amuna their is just uplifting so let's look at this this comes from the amaros toos the the one who passed away just a couple months ago on this week's para but I saw it preparing the par and I said no no I got to save this for amuna I have to save this for amuna and he says the foll P side that's page 118 the left hand column he ques ques from the B woke up in the morning to the again that name the name forem m can mean Place m is a name of hem when he can feel at a distance us there quotes two Traditions Shak three times a day is it modeled after the carbonos is it modeled after Theos so one tradition is a instituted Shak and instituted and yov instituted Mar my wife's favorite joke you know why yov instituted Marv because if you had 12 children who had bath time and bedtime you'd also have to go out for Mar yov stituted Mar had to go out for Mar Mar's never had a good time never had a good time Mar could be at 5:00 it could be at 8:30 at night never a good time never a good time so the rabbis learned that AB woke up in the morning he was in the m and heak and we learned from here that just like abakus he began each and every day by leaning into that relationship with hem by surrendering and submitting by doing this exercise of humility by saying Hashem you're in charge you're in control here is a list of all the things universally we need s Snippets we're making our way now through the we started the nth Hashem we need livelihood we need income we need parasa we covered just now we need good health we need recovery we need strength physically emotionally spiritually we want we want salvation we want Redemption these 133 requests supplications the middle section of the amida are what authored of the universal needs a person could ever have if you want to know what should you consider what you need notice none of them are I need the latest iPhone I want a Tesla I need a bigger house I want a nicer vacation I need more jewelry all that you have to put into Shu there is no there's no BR you know what the braa is let's go back to the basics you know what the basics are what the BR is you need you need your mind you need your memory you need your intellect because if you're alive NE there are people suffering and struggling with dementia and Alzheimer's perfectly healthy physically but if you don't have your mind then what life are you living for the people struggling with it and those who take care of them heartbreaking that's a universal need that's a universal need and fight our fights because if your life is filled with struggle and fight and conflict what life that has no peace no Serenity andu Health if you don't have your health what do you have that's why is before if you don't have your health what good is your money you all know the famous Jewish comedian your money or your life who was it Jack Benny Jack Benny I'm thinking there's a whole new a whole new one for that I won't embarrass her but someone related to me who's in Israel for her year sent a little video with one of the sirens right outside the the shelter said hm there's no Wi-Fi in there should I stay here or go your money or your Wii your life or your Wi-Fi said no I don't even mean to make it she went in everyone relax my mother's watching she went in it was a joke on her way in she had a minute to get it was a joke but it's an updated version of that question your your life or your Wi-Fi you know so so AB Aina wakes up in the morning and he turns to Hashem he says the first thing to start his day is is the am the very first thing to start his day is Hashem here are the Universal needs a person could have and go through all the rest of them that's how he starts his day here's the only problem thank you so much here's the only problem that daving that AB did after which we model all of shakar every Jew everywhere in the world for thousands of years wakes up and starts their day by daving shakas and where do we get that from a here's the question about the shakas this question never ever occurred to me this a was not accepted at all why do we model all of our daving after a daving that AB asked and the answer was no which was this s it's an incredible question the B I don't understand we model and we learn all of our doing after a every day start your day begin your Day begin your day with an expression of humility expression of gratitude an expression of dependence and relying on hasem with reviewing what are our Universal needs what are our hierarchy what's our priority what matters what's important beautiful we all know that shaku here's the thing a got a know so we're modeling starting our day after aram's request that he got a no to can we find a yes can can we find an example of someone who got a yes and then we should begin our day modeling ourselves after the yes that abam got and he answers what you see from here is the opposite we Da Model art not only when there's a yes we model our after the opportunity to pour out our hearts to hem whether it's a yes or a no whatever the answer is Hashem heard he collected a Jew never gives up we never despair we never hopeless we never feel that a f was wasted it was squandered we don't ever feel what was the point there are people there are circumstances there are situations we poured out our heart we davened endlessly we DED relentlessly we DED with the greatest sincerity and and we didn't get a yes we didn't get the answer we didn't get the intervention we didn't get the response or the solution so was it all waste was it all for nothing was it all a waste of time Shalom where do we see that from the very first person who introduced us to this doing of shakas got a know tried he advocated he protested he objected tried and he set the precedent for all of us think about what ding is right there's all these questions protests debates I I don't understand it's not a criticism it's I don't understand I think it let me put it to you this way it would be wonderful if a thousand Jews went to Cornell University and went to the hill and sponsored dinner for all the Jewish students and said we're not afraid open up we're here these protests when are we going to have a million person March in Washington when are we going to fill the Streets of London and Paris and New York and Fort Lauderdale protest is all these questions and everyone's waiting for the other person to organize it and when and will and is it effective and is it a use of time and money resources and should we and all these questions but you know we start our day every day with the first protest of the day think about what daving is it's the first protest of the day hasem I don't like what you're doing over here I want you to change what's going on over there I'd like you to reconsider what's happening with me over here it's a protest there's no Banner there's no flag there's no megaphone but we begin our day daving is essentially a series of protests here are my objections here's my protest here I'm raising my voice here I'm expressing to you how I feel what I'm advocating for what I want you to change what I want you to switch what I want you to do differently where do we learn that from who gave us license why are we entitled he's the omnipotent Perfect all knowing God and who are we finite mere mortals why what right do we have where's our license because he says first says am I going to conceal from a what I plan to do with st and says thank you for thank you for trusting me and telling me honored I appreciate it now don't do it now that you invited me to have an opinion because you told me about it here's my opinion don't do it they've got to be 50 sikim 4540 they've got to please please reconsider I can't stand idly by I won't be in different I have to raise my voice Hashem whatever you decide in the end I'm with you you're in charge you're in control whatever you decide is right and righteous but I have to raise my voice that's why you gave me a voice that's why you gave me the power to speak adish was endowed with the power of speech long before came into existence whom did he speak to why was he given the gift of speech before there was anyone to talk to because the original purpose of speech is to talk to Hashem oh once we could use it to talk to Hashem it also comes in handy to talk to each other but don't think I use my power of speech to talk to each other now I have the power of speech to communicate with others I might as well use it also to talk to Hashem we have it backwards the whole original use the original intent the original purpose of the power of speech is to talk to him Ali we're talking to him from when we wake up till we fall asleep at night talking to him all day hasem help this kid get ready and go to carpool easily let him not be frustrating let it not be difficult hasem let it not be traffic let the light turn green let me get there on time Hashem let this business deal go through Hashem let the color rise and come out well hasem let that whatever we all day long we're talking to him the original purpose why we have a voice why who invented a world with communication is to communicate with him ah once we communicate comes in handy to communicate with each other too it's really handy but the original use is to communicate with him and aru takes that power of speech the capacity for communication and he takes it and he says okay you gave me the ability to speak you invited me to raise my voice I'm not only protesting to members of Congress and presidents and prime ministers not only protesting media and Qatar and uh wherever else Starbucks Union but not the main thing but sephoria I told my children we're protesting the home Mall since it's unclear since it's unclear who's for and who's against we're being M to boycott the home our family is taking on and Amazon is selling children shirts that say from The River To The Sea where M all Amazon yeah right now we have to make a statement to the whole Amazon the Amazon is on hold we're not going to the Amazon so they're selling these shirts yeah we got to protest we've got we've got to protest we've got to raise our voice but where does it begin who's really in charge who's really in control where is it most important to raise our voice to speak truth to power you got an audience in the Oval Office you'd Raise Your Voice we are in the ultimate office of hm where wherever you are whenever you open your tum open your sitter whenever you open your mouth whenever you open your mouth he says earlier in here begins appears to wherever he is and where is P the opening of the O the opening of our body is our mouth AR is using he's speaking to hasem hasem appears to him and he uses that appearance of Hashem as an opportunity to talk to him so wherever you are you could be talking to him the P the opening of the the opening of our mouth is the invitation the opportunity to talk to hasem and protests he says here are my feelings enough that was myak this morning Bon 13 I don't understand it and I have difficulty accepting it and I'm broken by it and I'm begging you enough that's it that's it that's it that's it no more no more I'm objecting I'm Pro protesting I'm rallying I'm advocating that's why we're given this gift and this capacity and where do we learn that from if we doed on condition that we were answered what kind of doing would that be if we doed only on condition that we got the answer we want did we in fact even really doav what makes doing meaningful is that what we say is Hashem I surrender to you here's the world the way I see it but if it's a choice between the world the way I see it and the way you see it my finite Vantage Point your infinite view I surrender to you of I'll raise my voice I'll protest but in the end of the day whether it's a yes or a no I won't stop asking I won't stop speaking I won't stop turning to you I won't stop talking to you it all goes together so where do we learn that from where do we learn that we should DAV even if the answer is no that there's a value in connecting in surrendering that we grow in our amuna that we grow in our humility where do we learn that from where do we see that from why bother why does it matter why should we do it why not despair why not give up hope why not have we got to know okay sitter stays closed now where do we learn that from only from the very person that taught us Al together don't stop doing you got to know there were 13 NOS over the last couple days open the sit open the more sincerely more intensely more more because we have no idea where those fos are collected and what happens with them they're not wasted they're not squandered they're not worthless they didn't go nowhere the Reon collects them and he stores them and he banks them and he files them maybe the 13 we're going to be 30 maybe the 13 we're going to be 300 maybe the 13 we're going to be 1300 all those filos they're banked they're stored they mean something they make a different they move move the cosmos they weren't allocated over here we didn't see it manifest or expressed in the way that we wanted but who deploys he's got the ultimate spreadsheet he collects art filos and he uses it they say money's all fun so you have a bank account and we thought the withdrawal was over here but meanwhile ouros are funding something we don't even know about we doed for someone and we didn't get the answer we wanted for them but those fos we don't know if they cured if they healed if they extended the life of someone else we deposits our job is to make deposits how the money in the account is allocated we're not in control we're not in charge we're not signatories we don't put our signature on the check of how the money is allocated all we do is make deposits we make deposits Theon Shalom spends how he spends he has an infinite omnipotent view strategy we don't get access to see we don't get to look at the records we don't get to review exactly how it got deployed all he keeps telling me is look I got a lot of expenses your bank account's running out I'm begging you make deposit learning Hashem says I can't add to the bank account that you do through your through your free will you deposit in the bank account me I make withdrawals I run the world I know exactly the way the world works I know where it needs to be deployed I know it's just and righteous and fair I know what's good not what's painful but I know what good I do the allocate the I do the allocate deposits is you so is looking down at us right now and he's saying my precious children the bank account's running low bank accounts running low quick make deposits open your tillum open your sitter run to do a Express make shom quick make deposits because there's so many bills that need to be paid 500,000 soldiers on a front line there are so many bills that need to be paid so many Shiva homes that need comfort and strength an economy that will be in shambles Jews that are targets of anti-Semitism around the world Hashem says there are so many requests and I want to be able to fulfill them but I can't until you make deposits so don't ever look and say what was the point I put money in the bank and when I went to withdrawal I didn't get to take it out because you never entitled to think you get to take it out we're not in control of taking it out we don't we don't get to do withdrawals our name is not on the check we don't have a debit card we can't control what we withdraw all we're in charge of is what we deposit what we deposit it's wrong to read the and say AB established shakas didn't just establish shakas establish daving making a deposit even when you don't get to be in control of the withdrawal a established daving even when the answer was no you keep ding even when you didn't get to withdraw you make another deposit over and over and over again now you can understand the continues that remains standing in before what does it mean that a remained standing before hem you know what it means that this image this precedent of aam standing and daving even when he wasn't in charge of the withdrawal even when he got a no even when he got 13 NOS that is what carries us until today you'll say that's good for aam a was a ainu aam is a patriarch AR is the is the great a he had such a he was a child and he of course can continue to D we got to know but me I don't have that amuna me struggling with doubt with uncertainty trying to find Hashem I don't have it in me the answer is you do because how did you in Shak this morning what did you make the of concludes we say we invoke andov but the G tells us tell us that hm tells AB while your children and yob get mentioned you that's how we finish the now normally we understand that to mean abam means Hashem you are the shield of ab Iron Dome and uh what's the other one we just used the arrow the first time couple days ago you're the mugging Iron Dome you're the shield of a and his prog his children doesn't just mean you are the protector of you are our protector as well m means you protect the aam in each and every one of us it's an all new kavana when you say this every day the amid three times a dayem I believe that you put his DNA in me so you know what I have that capacity I have that ability I have his DNA I have his DNA it gives me all kinds of gastrointestinal issues because I have ashkanazi DNA if I have to live with all the gastrointestinal disease of the DNA then I also have the faith of the DNA I also have the fortitude of the DNA I also have the tenacity and resolve of the DNA I also have the am and of the DNA Hashem preserves the DNA of aam inside each and every one of us we are his progeny we are his children we are his off spring and we have that ability to never have y there is Noom if you have it's because you're not thinking properly one of the highlights of my life was dancing with soldiers last Wednesday night in as jonan razelle sang for me so joke of a dance but dancing with soldiers serving risking their lives there is no despair there is no hopelessness there is no giving up there is no failing to make more deposits more and more and more and where do we know how can we be so confident that we have that strength we have that faith we have that fortitude we have that ability because preserves the A and it's in our DNA it's in our very DNA whether you're born Jewish or whether you converted to be Jewish you know a convert in their and the way they're called up to the Torah they're benu they are even more identified withu the born Jewish Jew by choice all of us are the children of A and M hasem preserves that capacity of the a in US Hashem preserves it protects it because this latest War war of CLA Isel a fought the War of the Four Kings and the five Kings a rescued L from Sodom aam fought the first Wars of the Jewish people and fast forward we're still fighting Wars all these years later T the war of sim T 2023 we're still fighting Wars andu he woke up and he DAV that morning and he's still standing and daving through each and every one of us main AR it's preserved in us he's still ding through each and every one of us through each and every one of us so that's the T all of our every day we get up and we D and we say just like my Z DAV for you not to do to sto in the end you told him you were in charge you were in control and he still didn't stop daving I'm ready for shakas I'm gonna tell you what I think I'm gonna raise my voice and protest I'm going to Rally but in the end of the day whereever you answer me I'm going to keep daving because that's the precedent that's the very first F was M Shak but not a shakar that got a yes was m a shakar that got a no and he's but he's still daving and we too even if we get a no we get 13 NOS we get 1400 NOS we get 240 captive nose we come back and we dve and we DAV and we DAV and we deposit and we deposit and we deposit and we don't stop making deposits because you're in charge of the withdrawals we don't understand we don't get to see the account we don't get to review your spreadsheet we have to keep coming back to make deposits he continues now the truth is we think that got a know and it wasn't accepted but every f is accepted just not necessarily in the way that we intended in the way that we think it's not wasted it's not squandered it doesn't go nowhere he said would you save the whole world if there are sikim and there are sikim in every generation 36 righteous people who hold up the whole world the ding is heard it's answered Hashem said yes to AB it's a deal if you could find the minimum number of sadim I won't destroy that was heard because until this very day if there are minimum number of Hashem doesn't Destro the world so it wasn't heard in the way aam expressed it for sto but it was heard because until this very day the righteous people of every generation are what holds up the entire world are what holds up the entire world and then he continues he said says it says she threw the child under one of the he stopped thinking only about the child like a when we D part of our Dominic should be not just the soldiers the people our view of the world how it affects us we're broken but Hashem what about you what about you your brand has taken an enormous hit we're your chosen people we're your children and the more that Terror and evil can re the more that anti-semites could raise their voice voice the more that we suffer losses in the world every time they every time they take a life there's an enormous there's an absess there's a void created of your name soem don't just that's part of oura don't just do it for us from our Vantage Point our heart we don't want to be devastated or broken or people that we love or families that we know but we're also doing for you Hashem you your name your honor your brand your mission to be revealed in this world that's the most effective in fact that's the feel of mosenu when mosha doens to Hashem after the agle after the maragam every time hashem's like I've had it people are I'm done with them they're not worthy they're not carrying out their mission they're not fulfilling their purpose I'm done and each time mosha says I hear you I hear you I don't blame you but here's the thing Hashem and this is moshe's trump card with Hashem of course hm knows it who do you think taught it to Moshe but Moshe comes to hasem and he says they don't deserve it they're horrible they're encourageable I also have no patience left for them but here's the thing if you wipe them out what are people G to say how's that going to impact your name your being revealed in this world your purpose and Mission to repair and redeem this world and Hashem says fine you're right I guess I have to let him continue that's the F that we follow we have to invoke that in theum we're going to say right now momentarily the that we offer from the sitter or from our heart in our own words as we're daving for people we know I keep on my stender picture of my nephews in uniform right now one on the northern border one on the southern border one who's finishing their basic training doing shmir also at risk we don't just doing for them we look at their faces we think of their names every one of us know holy precious but we saym what about you how is all this impacting your name your brand your vision your your purpose for this world do it for you no more losses for you a sweeping triumphant victory for you you know when hashem's brand took an enormous not hit but was elevated I wasn't Al lie for it but I'm told after The Six Day War my mother describes you walk down the street of Manhattan every Jew was 10 feet tall non-jews looked at Jews like every one of them was the strongest 10 foot tall Giant that after the sixth day world war the whole world was like wow those people God's on their side he loves them it's incredible everyone wanted a peace of of God of the Jews Aliah spiked conversion spiked people wanted to study about judism spiked people's fear of Jews spiked think about it now it's the opposite hashem's name is taking a hit the Jewish people take a hit and we're fair game say Hashem for you forget for us we're unworthy don't do it for us but for you for you for your brand for your name so that we could fulfill our mission and purpose and bringing Redemption to this world do it for you we also learn this idea from this para so it hurts it hurts it hurts so badly it hurts stings sets us back he feels like H he feels so far away but don't despair the soldiers are our hot spot when you feel disconnected and ready to give up connect through a soldier turn on one of those videos watch it over and over see them sing and dance see them scream Hashem use them as your Hotpot for a highspeed connection because in my life clel never needed as many deposits as we need now we need to make deposits over and over and over again K will make the withdrawals and even when it feels like the money didn't get allocated where we wanted it we D for someone specific we D for something specific and we got to know you know who else got to know and he didn't stop daving only the person who established all daving he didn't slow down he didn't stop he's ODU hasem he all these years later is still standing where where do you see him in every one of you and every one of us each time we open that s that t each time we open our heart we talk to hem a the aam is preserved he's still inside us he's still talking to Hashem so please stay for a few more minutes we'll finish all T and take literally just a couple minutes we'll make a deposit of all of saer and don't stop until they can stop we can't stop 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