Living With Emunah (Part 265) - Be a Person Who is Always Calm

good morning Booker tell welcome back to living with Emma please help yourself to some coffee enjoy any comments there putting out comments as well I'm going to share generously sponsored by our good friends avian Bella Morgan in memory of everybody Dr Brian galbot and the memory of Bella's mother Dr Ellen trans this morning she is also sponsored by Carol Wald is practically a series sponsor at this point in memory of a friend Maggie Cooper Miriam boss Elio Levy and by Ron gallon memory of his dear grandmother thank you to all of our generous sponsors greatly greatly appreciated I want to open up as we have been doing recently by sharing some emails I've received not all of them many people share their stories their experiences their insights and that is something that really is inspiring to us all to not only learn about emuna in theory but to actually put emuna into uh into practice so one common theme of several of the emails I received I guess it's what we've been talking about lately you just text Jeffrey to raise the temperature is um is that a moon is not linear a moon is not simple and moon is not straightforward prison doesn't make a choice to flip on a Muna and when you flip on a moon everything works out not every story has the ending that you know the Knight and shining armor came I didn't have a moon now then the emuna happened and then everything worked out exactly the way I wanted that's not a Muna and Muna in our terms and Muna with our desired outcome amuna the way we write it up and draw it up and want it to be that's not imuna because the money is to surrender to him and to have faith that whatever he chooses and however he proceeds and however it ends up is all his master plan if mayamuna is conditioned on things working out the way I want then I don't have faith in him and whom do I have faith and myself I think I'm charged I think I'm in control I think I'm the one responsible and it's really all about me but at the corner of the root of emuna is I will take my initiative I'll make my effort I'll do everything as best I can and in the end of the day after I've done everything I can this is the way it's meant to be this is just the way it's meant to be that is actually what the month of Nissan is all about before I even read the emails to you oh before I even read the emails to you the gamara tells us the Michelin Rosh Hashanah tells us there are four rosh hashanahs and one of the rosh hashanahs is and what is the burst of Nisan which just happens to be tonight and tomorrow the first of Nisan is tonight and tomorrow is a Rosh Hashanah you don't just have to make pesach you also have to make Rosh Hashanah in Nissan Rosh Hashanah for we have a Rosh Hashanah for the trees one is the Rashana for the trees we have a Rosh Hashanah for the year when is the Roshana for the year first of tishray we have several we have four rosh hashanahs the first of Nissan is a Rosh Hashanah and what is a Rosh Hashanah four it is a Rosh Hashanah four malachem and regalem malachem are Kings it means when we want to sign documents in Antiquity in ancient times they would sign documents not 2023 they would say it is the third year of the reign of King Biden it is the third year of the reign of of King Bibi it is the third year of the rain not be because the Jewish Kings not Jewish Kings has a whole discussion over there but Russia if you're going to date documents and you're going to identify years based on what number year of Reign is it when does that year change are your year one year two year three when is there a transition in the years the first of Nissan that's one thing and regalem it's the first it's the Rosh Hashanah for regalan for holidays what does that mean it means pesach is not the third holiday in the cycle or the second it is the it's the first pesachus those are the two things and this says the following it is the Rosh Hashanah for Kings to be able to date what year of their monarchy Jewish Kings the Gomorrah learns this from and really this is come tonight and tomorrow we enter this magical month of Miracles and this is the time to accept and receive hashem's love his Providence the Divine supervision accountability over us we accept the Yoke of heaven when everything when is the day dedicated and devoted on the calendar that this is the act of the day this is what we do that day that day is pregnant with possibility for this the day is inviting us to take advantage it is preordained that is auspicious it is designated for this activity means not just to date the calendar for Jewish Kings means to re-accept upon ourselves the Yoke of the king of kings of Hashem of Hashem that's tonight and tomorrow don't get lost on the pesach preparations we had a prepaid stock workshop on Sunday morning and we spoke about this at length there's the Goof and the nishama there's the physical preparation we do you gotta clean you got to organize you gotta shop you gotta cook this is the you gotta pack some of you we don't want to hear about it we feel no sympathy for you I actually feel nebuch on you you're going away it's so much better to stay home I do feel sympathy for you but I don't really want to hear about how many outfits and how many changes and where you're going and you're traveling and how many meals and you're not ready to eat so much and so hard for you in the concerts and how you keep up I really feel no sympathy for you I could care less and I don't want to hear so don't just focus on the Goof the physical external getting ready for pesach where's the nashama of getting ready for pesach what about on hashama what about our soul what are the themes of freedom and liberty what is and we have to obliterate it in Search and Destroy it get rid of ego stop edging God out ego how do we get rid of hamets our ego our inflated ego the ego that is risen inside us the way to get rid of it is when you say Hashem you're in charge you're in control there's no room for my ego there's no room for me to take pride there's no room for me to swell with arrogance there's no room for me to try to micromanage people around me in the whole world there's no reason for me to get angry or filled with rage when things don't work out my way because it's all you I surrender to you I submit to you I take my initiative I do my best part but in the end of the day you're in control you're in charge you win you can see it negatively as you win you could see it positively you're in charge you're in control I Surrender I submit take me for the ride you're the driver I'm in the passenger seat let's go let's go so what is the day that we do that says it doesn't just mean when we date contracts based on what year of the king it means it is the day of cabal so tonight and tomorrow and for the next two weeks until pesach we are he's the king he's The Sovereign He reigns Supreme he's inference he's in control he knows and he does everything for our best interest and what is Lira Gollum so the word Regal means the three festivals but the word Regal comes from what does it mean leg or foot why or how this is called feet so the world rests on these three feet they are the the three stools the three legs that the the world rests on this explains differently Regal comes from hair gel which means habit Road all year long we're on autopilot we're mindlessly living Our Lives creatures of habit momentum is carrying us forward and you know what the Charlotte do they come to disrupt and interrupt the hair gel don't live life on autopilot don't mindlessly let momentum carry you the regalem come and they're great disruptors they interrupt they say stop pause consider think reflect pivot change just don't live life mindlessly you know you wake up and you say it's March how is it March it just became 2023 how did it become 2023 it was just 2020 the new decade had it become 2020 it was just 22 year 2000 the New Millennium and all the days and the weeks and the months they blend together and you gotta know I got here it was just Rosh Hashanah it was just ello and tishray were just getting ready for the new year how does it all blend together we lose sense of time because we're on mindlessly momentum autopilot wrote trying to make it to the end of each day and make it to the end of each week but that's no way to live a life that is no life we should live lives where every day is memorable every week is distinct in our mind every month January February I know exactly where I was and what happened and what stands out and what was special you know thank God for technology which is trying to break the hair go I don't know if on your phone or on certain apps it'll make things pop up and say oh on this date last year on this date last month are we put together a little album for you hey you mindlessly living life I put together a little album to remind you that you've had a great life look at these pictures vacations pre-corona during Corona after Corona it's like technology is giving you muster it says just stop living right now and living in the next moment stop just being in motion always in motion motion motion motion stop and look look tries my kids nuts because if I'm somewhere and distracted by that then I start just sending all those pictures I'm like ah but what's going on why are you sending all these pictures from so long ago or recently or the same Purim of last year what's going on because something my phone made an album for me and said stop interrupt your life look and realize take a deep breath have some context and appreciate appreciate your life appreciate each day and each week and each month and each year is special so the Golem are to interrupt and disrupt the hair girl don't mindlessly be in motion don't mindlessly be carried by momentum disrupt and interrupt your life and what is the Rosh Hashanah for regalem for breaking the hair go tonight and tomorrow Nissan however for the next two weeks stop autopilot what's my pesach autopilot I'm the most well organized peso person ever I got my notes from the last four thousand years I got my Google Docs and spreadsheets I know exactly what my menus I know what was left over I know which date I need to go retrieve the Calum and put them inside the cabinets I know who I invited I know who I'm not inviting this year I got it all spreadsheets I got it all arranged just momentum motion movement stop stop for the next two weeks stop and take a deep breath and don't just live the Goof of pesach lived in a shama of pesach and use this time for kabbalah's means to really submit and surrender to really accept and receive Hashem means not that I accept Hashem on my terms Hashem as long as you make things work out the way I want the way I drew it up we're good we're good we're good as long as everyone's healthy everyone's happy as long as the paranasa flows as long as the babies are being conceived as long as the people are treating me the way I want to be treated we're all good and the moment one of those breaks down not sure I Believe In You natural I'm invested in you not sure I accept you not sure I surrender to you it's understandable I'm in no judgment we all understand people have gone through horrific horrific pain and suffering and we sit in no judgment of the ones who struggle in that relationship but in the end of the day the Assumption of the relationship needs to be we need to go into it knowing it's not on our terms and we cannot predict let alone control the outcome we take our initiative we go through our effort we do the best we can and in the end it will turn out the waste let me share with you two emails briefly they're not written briefly but briefly so I'm going to read them quickly and then we'll get back to our text probably going I want to send an email because I've been listening to your living with him in a series and I've heard share many emails and stories I found it helpful and I want to share something of my own as it turns out today which has not been an easy day for me I heard you read someone's email which was very much if I could do the same for others I want to share my experience the last month has been absolutely for my family we lost a young child in our family and I've been dealing with some personal painful circumstances a couple weeks ago I was listening to your share when you gave up the story of the man who gave up the voting job in Tel Aviv the environment wasn't good for him you ended the story which was that he was walking down the street instead of finding a 2000 shekel he found himself I may repeat this on pesach it's a great emuna example something that resonated with me so deeply and as you speak about it's not about when everything works out it's not believing that the end result will be everything we wanted and imagined is it it is about recognizing everything's from Hashem and then he's not only with us every step of the way but orchestrating every single detail of our lives and constantly evolved with us working on our moon we're strengthening our awareness of everywhere we turn because he is there having a moon has literally saved my family without that how could one possibly attempt to get through life's most difficult experiences losing my nephews of some most painful things that I my family any person would ever experience my personal experience difficulties that follow have only been more tests and knocks from Hashem and I'm not here to say that because we had a moment with the passing enough the pain went away everything else in our lives worked out perfectly it almost feels like just the opposite I believe this is a story like the one that you mentioned after the man in the story made the decision not to take the extra job he didn't find the money lying in the street he found himself my family and I having a Muna right now isn't what elicits a good outcome it allows us to experience this in the only feasible way possible understanding Hashem is in control and nothing happens in random and moon is recognizing that everything's from my ultimate good that this must be good and somehow and that though it may be horribly painful he's holding me with every step of the way this allows me to get through this with him by my side so right now my family and I are finding ourselves within hashem's Embrace while our circumstances may be extremely painful among the most difficult challenges the loss we are finding it within us that awareness that Hashem is always with us it is not mean that life is perfect in sunshine and rainbows it means my life is being lived to its fullest purpose because I'm living it with Hashem thank you for this year similarly somebody else writes after hearing the beautiful emails listeners have sent you I felt the proper to write and express my sincere Cara satov yada about a year ago I went through a devastating miscarriage after becoming pregnant through IVF my husband and I have been dealing with infertility for many years through hashem's Miracles we've been blessed with two beautiful children we hope to continue to grow our family however having been through the emotional physical and spiritual pain of infertility for so long including several failed IVF Cycles I came to the decision I was done trying I've endless appreciation for my children but could no longer bear the pain of trying to have more throughout the last cycle I've been working on my Muna in a way which I thought was proper and righteous I kept telling Hashem that I trusted that he knows what's best for me I would accept whatever the outcome was and I truly did accept the miscarriages hashem's plan when I decided to move on shortly after that loss I was listening to a podcast that featured a year to had been through a very challenging time he spoke about as a moon throughout and how he begged Hashem to change the situation at the same time believing that Hashem would do what was best for him regardless of what he believed was best for himself he stressed several times that this dichotomous thought process was not a contradiction but I could not understand how that could be so in other words how could you ask Hashem for an outcome while simultaneously surrendering and saying but whatever outcome you bring is what I accept how could you desire and push for and ask for the outcome you want but at the same time say but do whichever outcome is best around the same time I discovered you I'm in a podcast and as that quote happens you were in the middle of discussing the idea of protesting hashem's difficult decrease week after week you spoke about how you should protest when we are in a difficult situation and this is not at all a lack of a Muna you even went so far to say that being angry in Hashem is not Allah but can be a sign of faith I had never heard these ideas explained this way before I'm a child I'm a grandchild of Holocaust Survivors who had incredible immunops and to them being angry at Hashem or protesting was never a question in their minds and that's how I was raised well I still don't fully understand how it works I realize there is a different way to work on my emuna after hearing your explanation of the ideas I felt I owed it to myself and my family to try for another child because maybe what I'd been so sure I was doing correctly was not actually the kind of relationship Hashem wanted from me a year later after many ups and downs not a single step of this has been easy and the major change in our medical history Hashem we had an incredibly successful IVF cycle beyond what I ever thought could be possible for us IVF is a multi-step process and pregnancy is still in the future but I now have hope that with hashem's help we can continue to grow our family something that I had totally given up on I'm not suggesting that working out of my moon is the direct cause of the success of the cycle many people who are far greater than I am have incredible amuna have not been blessed with children so I certainly don't think it's a direct result of my efforts however I do feel strongly that learning these new ideas in a Muna had a huge effect in giving me the push and strength to try again after having given up Additionally the many emuna skills I have learned from listening to this year and fortified me when I got when the going got tough and helped strengthen my relationship with Hashem throughout this process there were times when things got difficult and I did feel upset that Hashem put me in the situation but for once I did not feel guilty about it and instead I used those feelings to try to come closer to him through dominant and communication I'm so thankful to Hashem that he made sure I heard just what I needed to at just the right time when I was receptive to learning and at the right space spiritually to make some much needed changes there's a ton of wonderful content to listen to but he chose these for me to hear just when I needed despite the many challenges we have faced throughout the journey I try to always remember the words of one of my role models one of the incredible said they came of our time who says IVF is a bracha being a member of the exclusive infertility Club is something I wish no I wish I know one yet with today's Technologies couples who are unable to have kids naturally can have beautiful families and that is a blessing although these words are insufficient thank you I have no doubt just as they changed my life they will change others and so on very dusty in here I'm sorry I have Dusty um so I share these emails not for the positive feedback about it's the uh about the sheer but hashan people are very kind but because another theme of the emails that have been coming in is someone says I don't know how I tripped on your sheer but I opened up the right episode exactly what I need to hear it I think we say the same thing every week but we give different examples every week so people have been having the good fortune or feeling that it's directly from Hashem there are no coincidences or chance that they're opening this year with the examples they're speaking to the message that they need to hear exactly when they need to hear it from that I feel incredibly blessed and grateful to Hashem as well so as tonight tomorrow it is Rosh Hashanah from malachim it is the Rosh Hashanah for kabbalah's surrender Hashem sometimes I'm really angry at you sometimes I'm happy with you sometimes I fully understand why you did what you did sometimes I say I will never understand and I'll never let it go and I'll never forgive but I love you and I'm in this relationship more than ever and we'll deal with it when I get upstairs you'll explain it to me you'll show it to me I'll come I'll have closure with it but until then I'm not using it as an excuse or a cop-out to walk away but I'm going to use it as a motivation to lean in to lean in even further to lean in even further this is break the hair girl no more being in motion mindlessly let's stop and let's think and let's be invested what blows me away about these emails I give this year every week but I struggle to put it into practice when the rubber meets the road when the going gets tough when you run into friction in your life in some way to remember oh yeah there's you oh yeah I'm learning oh yeah I talk about oh yeah I'm studying to remember you know what I'm going to change course because I'm thinking I'm working these emails describe people you know they live among us they come from us or they could be your next door neighbor the regular ordinary people but these heartwarming emails are ordinary people putting in extraordinary effort to live with their Muna it's amazing blows me away inspires me to no end and I hope it does you too and I hope it moves us all to live with more and more and more and Muna to elevate us all we're on page at least that's what I have us we ended last week by talking about anger can't get angry in the house on Arab Shabbos through Shabbos can't get angry and why can't you get angry why is anger so pernicious and egregious and destructive and sabotaging why is anger the worst quality the rambam and the ramban they both agree every Meda every attribute and character trait belongs in some measure in our repertoire of behavior anger doesn't belong at all anger is the worst I told you at the end of last week but the podcast I was listening to with this coach this incredibly successful wealthy well organized coach of the Fortune 500 companies who in his own life his marriage fell apart because he couldn't control his anger and his wife simply drew the line she had had enough how is it how is it that anger is so destructive this man who coaches other people and how to be disciplined how to be organized how to have strategy how to follow through he couldn't control his own anger flying off the handle where does anger come from 78. nishiko is a person who gets angry and flies off the handle over insignificant unimportant inconsequential things somebody's at a red light it turned green and the person in the front didn't go immediately and all of a sudden the person has a meltdown how could it be why me they're yelling they're screaming their face turns red they're banging and smashing the steering wheel they're honking because it took an extra millisecond I'm not going to say where that person likely is from I'm not gonna say that because many of us are from that place too before we were rehabilitated it in the Free State of Florida I'm not going to say but okay it took a millisecond for the car in front of you to notice it was Green okay it happened they didn't buy your favorite brand the socks made it next to the hamper not in the hamper the person didn't hear you calling they didn't get back to your text right away the Varma insignificant inconsequential things that people rage they rage over they rage over things not going exactly the way they want insignificant things what do you mean you made that for dinner I told you I ate that okay figure it out what is that a symbol of what does it reflect in the tivheimuna we're learning what does he says the root of anger ultimately anger is ego ego is edging God out is a lack of amuna that's that's the formula right there you don't have to be Einstein there's no equals mc squared on this one you don't have to be rocket scientist here's the formula you ready if you edge God out and you have a big ego you're going to get angry if you get angry you're going to destroy the relationships in your life you're going to destroy business opportunities you're going to destroy peace of mind you're going to destroy your own health and you're going to destroy the relationships and you could destroy the people you came to Claire about care about that's the formula if you edge got out you have a big ego you'll find yourself getting angry and then you're going to damage and hurt yourself and people around you that's it so now let's retrieve this and go backwards you don't want to hurt people around you or yourself or your health or your or your judgment then you need to not get angry if you want to not get angry you need to work on your ego if you want to work on your ego you need to not Edge God out you need to Edge God in you need to put God more in your life you need to learn to more submit and surrender is that a I just gave you all of life in one formula in one minute it's not me this is the letter that ramban wrote to his son avron freed wrote a beautiful song about freed I'm afraid wrote a beautiful song again about sorry MBD I don't think he's listening or watching sorry MBD Mordechai Ben David right I'm neither freed or MBD so I will not sing it for you I'm not going to sing it for you but post the song on the group remind me later grammar who's addictive person here what form of the verb is it it's not PL not it is some of you just had an allergic reaction I said the word dick took and some of you look like we need epinephrine what is what is hitpal reflexive what's reflexive something you do to yourself that means to say whether you get angry or not whether you speak gently to everyone else or not is not a function of the people around you who does that to you you make the decision decide to always speak gently don't yell don't scream don't raise your decibel level don't speak condescendently or with judgment don't talk down decide make the decision make the decision the considered effort create the Habit reflexive transform yourself to a person who always speaks gently foreign to every person and at all times and in that way you will be spirit and you will be saved from ever getting angry the ramban brilliantly is telling us don't decide I'm not getting angry now I need to speak gently decide I always speak gently and then when you always speak gently you can't get angry when you're speaking gently it really bothered me when you know I can't believe when you're speaking gently you can't get angry you're not going to be filled with rage you could have disappointment you could have resentment you could be frustrated you could have all these other emotions which are legitimate and which are okay and which can be channeled productively but you'll be spared from getting angry from getting angry to the great Tony Robbins according to several years ago when they shot a Shiva drasha it's been a jogger I think is what I said then somebody got very excited about it Tony Robbins said the following you say I want a jog I want a jog I want to run I want to be a runner I want a jog I want to be a jogger I go out and I spend ridiculous amounts of money on the right shoes and the right sneakers and the right socks I get the right shorts and I get the right shirt and I buy the right thing to wear about my arm to hold my phone and I get the right headphones and they all sit there and they all gather dust because every day I say tomorrow is the day and I never run and I never Jog and I never do it because I say I want to run and I want to jog so Tommy Robbins came along and he said that's the wrong strategy the strategy is that you have to say and tell everybody you know I'm a runner I've been a jogger I'm a jogger I'm a runner and now it's past this for a jogger and a runner to never jog or run foreign ER when's the last time you ran I'm going to so you're not a runner or a jogger so we need to transform our identity what changes us what creates change and behavior is change in identity so if I go from being a lazy good for nothing lethargic couch potato potato chip eating stagnant complacent person that's my identity I'm a jogger I'm a runner so now if I think of myself as I'm a runner it's passionate for a runner to not run so it says they're Unbound long before Tony Robbins I'm a calm person you tell everyone in the world I never raised my voice I'm a calm person I speak gently to everyone everywhere at all times so now it's passing this for a calm person to be screaming it's poshness for a calm gentle person to rage and I have to handle so the way to change this strategy this formula this insight that ramban said it long before anybody else long before some productivity Guru long before some self-help motivational speaker nothing wrong with being inspired also in the language of today through a Tony Robbins but know that whatever is said today that's right was said Long Ago by Torah ramban said it long ago and the rambam agrees deos the ramam says the same thing that's how you'll be spared from anger anger is pernicious it's terrible it is never any redeeming value to it it destroys creates casualties in its wake in its way its path anger is bad it's bad categorically bad there's nothing redeeming about it so it reflects a lack of amuna why is this is an adventure life can't wait to see what Hashem is next I wonder why hashan made it work out that way I wonder why she made it work out that the person in front of me didn't go when the light turned green and then it turned red and I missed the light that was the way it was meant to be for me I'm frustrated I'm annoyed next time I'll try not to drive behind that person but that's the way it's supposed to be for me this is the reality and you know what I never give up hope and never become hopeless and helpless I never despair because Hashem is in charge and he's in control and I Surrender and I put my faith in him so why would I ever get angry why would I get angry I'm putting my iPad dropped shattered into a million pieces paid to have the screen fixed only to find out that it still doesn't work I have to buy a new iPad I'll tell you I'm proud of myself I didn't Flinch and get angry I felt the urge you could feel that swell up inside you it was dropped it dropped it had a fatal meeting with the ground whoever was the shotgun is not important but so inside you when that happens something you value or something that's expensive or something that's hard to replace or something that's Irreplaceable sometimes breaks you the first feeling is it's like oh I'm so angry I'm about to yell I'm about to get tense I'm about to it's the middle of the happiest day I look for one of the happiest days I look forward to all year you react the wrong way you're gonna destroy Purim forget for you for your family for the people for this moment why pick it up no problem we'll figure it out after put him no problem it's no problem it is what it is is getting angry gonna make the iPad work did he get me angry put Humpty Dumpty or the iPad back together again what does it do it just hurts people you care about who didn't do it on purpose it didn't drop It or Break It gravity was someone to blame it's it's it happens it happens so if you say this iPad was meant to break Could Happen through this person could happen through a large gust of wind could have happened through it was meant to break Hashem I don't know why you wanted me to replace this iPad or live without one it was meant to break so now why would I get angry anger won't improve or repair anger won't be productive so why would I get angry if I got angry and flew up Daniel it's because you did what to my iPad what happened and now I have to go do what or spend what or replace what it's because I edged got out I knocked him out of the equation but if a person can't stop and can be mindful if a person is capable of focusing and thinking oh I don't know why I wish it weren't but Hashem determined that my iPad would break on Purim no problem that should be the worst thing that broke on Purim should be the worst thing that broke on Perham iPad so okay so then why would I get angry my identity is I'm somebody who never gets angry because I don't Edge God out I Edge him in whatever happens that I might get angry I stop and I think who's responsible why did this happen how am I meant to receive this and experiences and then why would I get angry why would I get angry I'm not hopeless and helpless I don't despair there's a reason there's a purpose there's a message this is an adventure can't wait to find out the next chapter and how it's going to turn out I don't get angry I don't get angry so on this Rosh Hashanah of malachim tonight and tomorrow a good Friday a good decisions don't worry I'm just using every greeting I can think of let's spend tonight and tomorrow in particular but the next two weeks in general working on surrendering to him like these two emails I shared today not in amuna because things work out the way we want and a moon of that not so happy and I'm protesting and I don't understand it didn't turn out with a happy ending in the and the uh they all have happily ever ending I want and nevertheless I lean in and I Surrender and I trust you and I believe there's some master plan and I accept whatever it is because I have no choice and this is the way it will be and I will live life to its fullest with you by my side and I will find myself in your Embrace because I have no other choice I will change my identity I'm a person with amuna I go with the moon I can't get angry I go to the amunisher I can't panic I go to the amunisher I cannot have trust and faith it's my identity I go to the amunisher I'm a calm person I don't get angry I'm a jogger I'm a runner I run and Jog I'm a person who doesn't eat potato chips I don't even know okay maybe we're not there yet we're not there yet we're close we're not there yet tonight we're going behind the meme with alibiara by nachmann Seltzer just for the new book article just published a book called 90 seconds the Epic story of Ellie Beer and the United Salah It's a Wonderful book to read and get as a gift and they tell a great story that's tonight at 9pm until next time stay happy stay healthy and stay holy