Living With Emunah (Part 248) - A Life Beyond Your Wildest Dreams

good morning bokartov welcome back to living with emuna ah good morning welcome wonderful to always see everyone's faces online Offline that are offline if you could be here in person than online that are online than not at all but it's great to be together and to work collectively on our living with amuna to strengthen one another to remind ourselves of what should be the most obvious the most straightforward and the most simple just to know that Hashem is here I've shared with you before we've learned before the inside of in the Wonders how could it be that a child turns Bar Mitzvah or Bass Mitzvah boy turns 12 or 13 they're obligated in all of Mitzvahs and among them to believe in Hashem how could it be how could it behanan actually writes he says Aristotle the great philosopher debated he deliberated he doubted he wondered adults struggle a whole lifetime of trying to figure it out and this little pixel or this little picture this little kid turns 12 or 13. you're obligated amits us including knowing that there's Asha how could it be says because you understand it all wrong you think I'm going to get to the sponsor what this just struck me so I had to unload it he says you think that a moon arbit is something you have to learn that you have to gain they have to add that were born the default is we don't know we don't believe we're a blank slate and now we have to take that leap of faith and how could a child 12 or 13 take the leap when adults struggle how could it be a legitimate question he says because you got the Assumption all wrong you're mistaken it's not that we're born the default is we don't know jury's out were born from the moment we're born it's obvious that there's a creator we're born and a little child knows I have a mommy and I have a daddy I have a mommy and an ABBA and IMA and an ABBA and just like I have parents and they have parents and they have parents so it goes all the way back and there's a father in Heaven the child looks around this world and says all these things I have that work and that function who I am so clearly clearly there's a Creator so what happens is what happens where did that go that's the default and that's what's obvious that's what's simple that's how we are pre-programmed then what happened and the answer is life gets in the way and layers of doubt and cynicism get in the way and the older we get the more hardened we get the more cynical we get the more doubtful we feel because people disappoint us the world disappoints us and life disappoints us and people who are supposed to be role models and embody a life of emuna are hypocritical and duplicitous and disappoint us and so it undoes and unravels and dissolves the sense of amuna that we innately and intuitively have to start sort of concludes and he says he says you know what the job appearances says the jobs of parents is don't mess it up your kid is going to be born with amuna whether you talk about it or not your kid's going to feel there's a Hashem no kid is ever when you say Hashem is everywhere where yamaka where it sits us you're up sharing a little girl a little boy whatever young age you start to talk about and engage and think and I'm putting them to bed you say Shema they've never said well how do you know he's there and I don't really believe he's there and I have some questions and concerns and doubts they never say that they say yeah of course he's there yeah of course thank you Hashem Hashem please make my mom here by myself my bubbles any better they never question they never doubt so where does that doubt come from our Shabbos tables where does that doubt come from it comes from our dinner table it comes from our reaction to things it comes from they're seeing us it says don't mess it up so when they come 12 or 13 they don't have to learn or take a leap you simply have to buy 12 or 13. you have to have not messed it up by 12 or 13 don't erase it don't introduce that anyway why'd I say all that even before we begin because I said we get together to remind ourselves what is so obvious every Wednesday morning most Wednesday mornings we try on Wednesday mornings to live with that Muna why do we need it I I just I've said this also countless I say the same thing every week I don't know how you're here why you're here I know why I'm here because I still need to hear it and that's the free coffee that's why I'm here too that's why I'm here too the coffee but I I know why I'm here which is often not sometimes often the more obvious something is the more important it is the more easily we forget it we need to be reminded of it and so we need to at least once a week once a day once an hour once a minute remember there's a Hashem and he created this world and he loves us and he's good to us and he's kind to us sometimes we feel that and sometimes we feel far from him but everything happens for a purpose for a reason there is order and meaning to the universe and when we lean on him and rely on him and talk to him and feel his presence then our life is so much sweeter and so much better and so much calmer and so much more Serene and we're so much more capable with confidence in confronting whatever may come our way and when we erase them and when our ego gets in the way the program ego stands for edging God out when we Edge God out with our ego and then we're filled with arrogance and hubris and honor we're filled with with envy and jealousy and we give in to anger today's dafyami talks about how we sabotage our own lives we indulge anger a person flies off the handle with rage given to anger you ruin your life you destroy business opportunities and relationships we destroy family relationships we live we destroy our own physical health anger is absolutely one of the most pernicious horrible evil Wicked sabotaging destructive forces in the world but when you live in Hashem you have nothing to get angry about because it's just the way it's meant to be that's what was supposed to happen that's how it's supposed to turn out that's what's right for us so we always feel better when we live in the Muna and yet we forget to live with their Muna anyway all that was just to say good morning good morning I want to say as a journalist is sponsored by doctors Avondale Morgan remember everybody Dr Brian galbot and in memory of Bella's mother Dr Ellen shanza we remain very grateful to the Morgans for their generosity she was also sponsored this morning by our dear friend hensha gansberg and she's doing phenomenally well living in New shalim Era kodash she's so kind she continues to listen I don't know if she's watching live or listening later but we love you we miss yahensha and she sponsored this morning in memory of her husband srihershberg is the 23rd of hashvan and we are so so grateful for that I want to remind everyone to join the immuno WhatsApp group if you're not yet part of it to get the sheer schedule no one would on or off to be able to find the link how to listen live or later for bonus material extra ideas about amuna join the amuna WhatsApp group you can join it at Rabbi FM goldberg.org WhatsApp Rabbi from goldberg.org slash WhatsApp to join that and all the WhatsApp groups so hensha sent me an email I'm going back and forth about something but she writes in the email and I say this not only because she sponsored the sheer it is worth repeating in its own Merit so you don't have to pay for me to quote you quote you quote you for free if what you have to say is worth repeating so she says in the email she says um I'd run back to hope you're well Hashem I'm thriving I love Faith over here I'm so grateful for suggesting it to me with the technology today I'm able to listen to classes I want to share an Insight I had you speak about talking to Hashem which I do every day many people have trouble doing this because they don't see Hashem he's invisible he doesn't react responds he can't see him here I'm feeling touch him smell him so many people struggle talking is anyone listening talking is it going anywhere I'm talking nobody's answering but these same people says hansha use their cell phones and say Siri how many how many of your phones just went off and Siri responds they use Alexa and Alexa responds and they say Hashem and Hashem also responds he's there all the time just like Siri just like Alexa when you visit Israel contact me on my cell oh five eight I'm sure although I'm sure she'd love to see all of you and all of us Sanchez is 100 right we live in a generation we live at a time more than any other that we can appreciate and we can understand talking to someone and something you can't see and it hears and it's listening and it reacts and it responds and sometimes it doesn't talk back but yet it answers our requests sometimes the answer is no but sometimes the answer is yes and we benefit from it so we more than any other could learn to talk even when you can't see or feel or touch or smell the other side because we know that with confidence that there is someone who is listening okay back to our lead mode we're still learning from pesach and shavu it's about you make Katniss and Godless we're almost done with this and then we'll move on to something more cheerful move on to another text of the Muna it will continue to grow together maybe one or two more weeks on this but he's been discussing how do we connect with Hashem may God bless it's easy when you feel 165. when you feel connected and on fire when you feel his presence with Clarity and confidence it's so easy can't wait for the next diving chakras is over I can't wait for can't wait for the next comes it's from bringing her own egg can't wait for the next year can't wait for the next question opportunity can't wait to tell someone how much you know and trust and believe and talk about Hashem you can't wait you can't wait on the one hand on the other hand we have you make Katniss ah I don't really feel like it I don't feel like opening the sitter and Diving I don't really feel like talking to him because I don't feel his presence where is he he hasn't answered might feel us or he put me in this difficult place and I feel like he's abandoned me I'm lost from him I don't know where he is I didn't bring it this week maybe next week you'll remind me around Martin judovitz a holocaust Survivor then just live in our community he designed and built our community but at the end of his book at his at his makamas matseiva which we had recently one of his sons read from the end of his book his Memoirs autobiography where he explains six or seven or eight reasons why he still believes in Hashem after losing all of his family and suffering through countless camps and going through the Holocaust and surviving and losing everything and everyone he knew why does he still believe in Hashem and I have to it's like that's the next text that amuna we should study together someone we knew it's someone we watched and we learned from and someone who lived in our generation in our time and when we have those you make Katniss is there is there a greater you make Katniss on the Holocaust the skeletons who stumbled out of the Holocaust malnourished beaten often blinded or injured the skeletons of people who went through trauma we can't ever imagine I sometimes think you know as a Rob I deal with and interact with all kinds of challenges and struggles that people have and they they pain me and all of us greatly with Davin for those who have them one illness the loss of one loved one one child in distress the trauma we have organizations we write books we hold conferences we do research one illness the trauma or the the struggle that God forbid the loss of one child one one one day that you're hungry you ever travel and there's no Kosher food in the airport you couldn't find anything and epic your stomach growled a little bit okay you ate 17 candy bars you did just fine you found a way how many bags of Blue Chips you could eat but you didn't have a proper meal and your stomach growled a little bit and you're traumatized for life because there was one day you couldn't eat over eat the way we normally do and you think about a holocaust Survivor and it's basically all the trauma of the whole generation the whole Community everyone in it one Survivor went through that influes one person in their family who lost their parents their children their siblings their first spouse they lost their Community their Rabbi their Yeshiva their javrusas they went hungry they ate nothing they were skeletons they were malnourished I don't need to belabor this because we all know and have been exposed to and many here very closely and those who lived with that Muna afterwards they experienced that you make calmness they experienced that that period of distance and despair they experienced every hardship and I don't say that to make us feel guilty because we should God forbid God forbid one person goes through one challenge today they're entitled to go through what they're going through we don't compare and we don't compete we don't contrast and we certainly shouldn't feel guilty because our hardships are hard on us everything is relative I didn't share that so that now people not only do I have to feel bad about what I'm going through I have to feel bad about the fact that I feel bad about what I'm going through because at least it's not the Holocaust that's not why I said what I said that's not a healthy reaction or emotion that's not how we're meant to feel we should feel bad about whatever challenges that we have and we have to work through that's not why I share it I share it only because we can ride their coattails we can grab on to them the famous story of the Beluga baraba jumping across the canyon the cliff I held Dante what did you I held on to you you know that story it's a great story I held on to we can hold on to them those who are still here and we don't have that much longer to in person live hold on to them and grab from them and grab onto them everything that we can but they lived what we're learning these you make Katniss was there ever a period in all of history where people were more entitled to feel where are you and why are you doing this and how could you do this and why am I alone and why are you answering my my filos how could it be and yet and many many after wavered very little this past Shabbos fantastic phenomenal my dear is younger than I am I felt terrible about myself every time he comes for Shabbos when I think about what he accomplishes in a damn he gives him this Farm he's written the difference that he makes but we bring him nonetheless because Jews like to feel bad about themselves so he uh he spoke he spoke on Friday night about a child that he had gotten we're going to get into this we're going to learn we're going to get there you know the routine by now so he spoke about a child that he received from a person who had a baby and uh there was a question of whom to name after and either his grandfather's wife's grandfather came up and they were going to name after a mahalaka Survivor who was Shoma Torah um but he saw a video an interview with this grandfather with this Holocaust Survivor most of his wife's grandfather where he expressed some opinions that were questionable in hashkafa I might have violated ikare yamuna principles of Faith because he said he said I don't believe God did the Holocaust I don't think God would or could create gas Chambers and capos and Nazis and SS guards and the kind of torture that they did and I couldn't love God if I believed that he is the one who carried out the Holocaust so to express that doubt it's not everything from Hashem good and bad pleasurable and painful we understand that we can't possibly comprehend but doesn't somehow at all come from him and if he doesn't directly carry it out is it not the result of his withdrawing and hiding his face and allowing the world to work in that way so this young man wanted to know should I still name this baby after such a grandfather who even though he was a survivor and even though he was observant his whole life and even though he arrived at that belief because he wanted to still love Hashem and he couldn't love Hashem if he believed Hashem was the one who did it but maybe that's not compatible with arikori yamuna so maybe I shouldn't name him after an epicarus that was the child he received and that's the share that he gave on Friday night going through that question and I'll just fast forward to the answer so the conclusion was of course you could and should still name after him who says that's a violation of icarimuna there are even in fact opinions we want to give a Shabbos and others there are when we studied it in aramuna shear maybe it's time to revisit it where so many years into there's so many new people here who weren't here to begin with and maybe it's just worth reviewing it because we've forgotten but we saw many opinions about how amuna works is Hashem involved in everything does Hashem for example is the more you believe in him the more involved he is in your life and the less you involve him the less you believe in him the less you invite him the more he withdraws and says okay good you're on your own hope it works out well so there is this notion that it's not necessarily every single little detail that does happen is from him that is one opinion maybe even the most prevalent opinion not necessarily so but it is not the only opinion so certainly a man who came to a different conclusion not as an excuse to abandon Hashem but as his crutch what he needed in order to stay close to Hashem they certainly could and should name and even if it wasn't the imperfect belief should you still live and so on and so forth but you know after you make Katniss to still live a life of mitzvos to want to love Hashem so therefore to arrive at conclusions that will allow and enable you to there were people who walked away and people doubted and we could never ever sit in Judgment of them we can't imagine what they went through but we can learn from those who still believed and kept close because we go through our own you make happiness we go through our own Dark Days difficult days and can we dig deep to find him in our life nonetheless so that's what we've been learning about what we've been studying about how to do it one way is Fila religion Meyer says sort of paradoxically in a very funny way that one of the ways to do it is talk to him ask him say I don't believe in you so I'm asking you for help and believing in you I don't believe in you so I'm asking you for help to believe in you because you know after our actions follow our heart dress for the job that you want not the one that you have you know if live like you believe and you're going to start believing you got to start talking to him he's talking about him and feeling his presence in your life I had a conversation the other day with someone a long conversation a wonderful person who I love who's struggling with this question of ayanhara and maybe I don't give Hashem enough credit for the good things I have in my life so every time someone compliments me do I have to say thank you but it's really not me it's him if I don't say that and I take credit as if I accept the compliment is in the front to Hashem and therefore a lack of faith in Hashem and therefore he's not going to give me the good things that he's giving me there are people who think in this way and have these thoughts and sometimes they're very healthy and sometimes they can be unhealthy but but this is the May cutness so on page 165 the writing column is the Bold paragraphs the goal is sometimes when we feel far away is to yearn and want and long to be close again so in that place of distance you could either have despair or you could have a desperate longing to reunite and we ended last week I mentioned that this which is true in our relationship with Hashem is really true in all of our relationships in life there are friendships that are so broken but yet the friends so miss and long for one another that from that Brokenness they can repair and recover and become closer than ever there are couples where there are challenges and Division and divide and disloyalty but if they recover and repair they can come closer together than ever and we who may have felt further and distant than Hashem can repair and recover and become closer than ever we end the last week told you about the bat and gravity the bat sleeps upside down so the bat lets go because the bat can't get lift and gravity takes the bat down and the momentum created by Falling when the bat Falls it builds momentum that creates the lift so the back can fly and sometimes when we fall we can fall in our own personal life and conduct and choices we make we can and our character we can fall in our relationship with loved ones we could fall in our career we could fall with Hashem and neither the fall can can compound and the fall can go further and you could fall farther or the fall can create the momentum that becomes the lift that lets you fly that lets you soar when I read that article about bats it changed the whole perspective on life don't look to fall I'm not saying like a bat you should sleep upside down and let go don't look to fall so you can have momentum don't create the fall so that you can fly but if you find yourself falling become determined to take flight use it to take flight use it to get lift use it to soar higher and higher than you ever have before from them seems and appears like something that sends us further away from Hashem um so it's something that that puts an obstacle between us but the truth is that a person does the hard work a person is committed to soar to fly nickname and enters works hard on the zamuna feels the sense of great gratitude and faith in Hashem Isaiah Katniss mirror memes also so the feeling of distance that fall that gravity it actually mirror mammoths it lifts him Richard Meyer didn't read the article about bats he doesn't need to to come to the same conclusion only slowly pathetic people like me need the metaphor in order to picture or a Victor Meyer understood all along which is Katniss Miro memes which is the same idea Katniss when you're falling Miro memes it can lift you use the momentum from the fall in order to fly how do you use the momentum from falling to fly because when you fall if you feel bad about yourself and you feel bad about the choices you've made and you felt bad about the results and the consequences you're living with and you say I could do better I will do better I deserve better I'm capable of better I want better I want a better life and a different life and a capable life we had an unbelievable program last night tremendous program the courage of the foreman family his daughter Alana was a addict struggled with the illness of addiction and went to rehab and for the very first time she sat on a panel with her parents and her brother to share her experiences of addiction and recovery and the parents shared their experience with their addiction recovery and her brother shared his experience growing up as a sibling with absentee parents who are focused on their sister with addiction recovery and you could watch it online and it'll be an incredibly valuable hour you will spend to be inspired to learn to be educated to listen to their experience but she spoke about she spoke about her failure in rehab how many times it took before she finally and how she was unable to continue in college it was was kicked out of her program but today is an Ivy League graduate school Masters studying about addiction and how recovering has changed her life for the better she said you know when you start when you start recovery in the 12-step program they talk about what do they talk about you can live a better life than you ever dreamed of I forgot exactly what she described as the a life beyond your wildest dreams she said when she heard that over and over again the Mantra a life beyond your wildest dreams if you live with sobriety cheesy and corny and what does it even mean and she said that when she when she had a car on a roof she's like wow this is the life beyond my wildest dreams my parents are talking to me I have a car and I'm sober and then she now found herself in Ivy and she described all the things she's living with that wow each of these things now is beyond my wildest dreams and her parents said at the end of the panel also something wasn't really prompted by a question they volunteered it they said it's painful as the episode was the period of their life was as painful as it still is to worry about will you ever get a phone call as painful as it was their family is closer than they've ever been they've grown they learned about themselves more than they ever knew and they're so much better for it so again would they welcome it would they invite everyone to experience it no but they use that fall to build momentum to fly she did in her life and they as a family did in their lives and that's what we could do with you make Katniss hakatness Miro memes Katniss sashem you know what if we wake up and sober up to the fact that I'm living a life without you I don't know where you are I'm not giving you credit I'm not turning to you I'm not confiding in you I'm not surrendering to you I'm not relying on you I'm not being supported by you I'm just living my life I'm concerned with myself I'm letting my ego get in the way and I'm edging you out and I don't like that life I want a life beyond my wildest dreams with you with you where I wake up confident in the day because I know you're by my side I want a life beyond my wildest dreams where I don't have to be jealous or envious what anyone else has because whatever I have is what I'm meant to have because it comes from you I want a life beyond my wildest dreams that I know that you created me not randomly but you have a mission and a purpose and I make a difference in this world I want a life beyond my wildest dreams because you're in it and we're close and I feel your presence every day that's what can happen we make Katniss it doesn't happen May Godless when we're just coasting through life when we make it to show and we do our davening and we sing Our songs and we have our Shabbos then we don't feel that longing and that yearning we don't dream about the wife be it life beyond our wildest dreams we don't use the momentum of falling to fly because we're already coasting we don't need to soar we don't go higher and higher but that's what Katniss can create if only we allow it to now there are addicts who spiral down and who never actually turn it around in recovery that kindness they just keep spiraling downward and downward and by the way there are people who soar and they fall again and like the bat every night sleeps the same way and let's go and uses the momentum again over and over again to fly again and again we can and we should we're not perfect and we're willing ups and downs and we'll be a roller coaster ride which is just evidence that we're alive we're not flatlined because we're going up and down our life is going up and down but Katniss doesn't have to be a bad thing we started this because again the conversation was okay live with them that's all fine and well that's all great when you feel them when you're connected with them but how do you live with it when he seems absentee one second image if a person knows that Hashem is there he said you could find him you cry out and you call out and you say enough enough they talked last night the foremans despite the intervention despite the efforts they made to help their daughter she rebuffed and she rejected she didn't want any of them she found herself standing in a subway platform and she decided to herself she said she shared last night even though I'm telling you all this it's still worth watching because it's barely scratching the surface of what she shared it was whether last night will tell you but she said to herself I can't live like this anymore always high and chasing the next high and being addicted so either I'm going to get help or I'm going to jump jump off this platform I can't live like this anymore and she said that while she felt that feeling she texted her parents I'm a drug addict and I need help and their next phone call to them was from the tarmac going to Florida going to rehab because we live in the capital of rehab in the country maybe the world it was amazing that's what she decided that's what she arrived at and that's what Richard Meyer is saying we could all arrive that spiritually I'm so sick and tired of living like this I can't live this way anymore I don't want to live this way anymore I want to live a life beyond my wildest dreams with you Hashem I'm making the phone call send a text to him I don't know what to put in as the phone number but send them a text and say to him I'm done and I'm sick and I'm tired of living like this I want to live beyond my wildest dreams with you I want to feel you and talk to you and love you and confide in you and surrender to you what do I need to do I'm ready I'm ready and hold right back go to the admonisher is we can live that life beyond that we have to take the step we have to take the first step he can do as many interventions by the way he does interventions in our life every day our life is filled with his waving at us hi I'm here hey hi another little coincidence you know the thing that worked out that shouldn't have you know the thing that should have worked out but didn't they're all his waving hi hey trying to get your attention I'm here intervention running an intervention you're spiraling you're slipping you're falling trying to run an intervention I'm trying to get you to turn around but just like with the addict we are addicted to our ego or our lives or we're addicted to our distance from him and the intervention doesn't work until until we're ready until we're open until we're ready to make that decision and take that leap and take that step and enter into a life of in treatment out treatment whatever spiritually we need whatever we need in order to turn around to feel him and we can have that life we can't have a life that is beyond our wildest dreams yes right absolutely The Rock Bottom when you hit the rock bottom you could crush and burn it hit the rock bottom it could be a trampoline that you bounce when you bounce the higher you jump from the the greater the distance of the Fall onto a trampoline the bigger the bounce that you'll experience afterwards if what you land on enables you to bounce if we will land on crushes you then you won't Bounce from it moment so from that rock bottom and from that trampoline you can have a bounce which allows you to experience and Achieve but God bless Beyond Your Wildest Dreams which is built on the principles of Faith which are so deep which are so deep now you almost feel bad if you're me Godless it's not as good as you make Katniss but don't our lives are filled with that Godless encounters feel close and connected and it's wonderful Ty fell away and I'm distant how do I use that to build momentum to then fly and soar again I'm flying and I'm soaring but now I just started to coast and descend how do I find them that's our life that forward and backness that is our life of doing that but it's all a different Paradigm it's a different perspective on it it's how we can use it in order to soar Zoo that's what we acquire that's inside ourselves that's the knowledge we can arrive at in the life we can live with to know that he's there beyond anything else beyond anything else we can achieve an attachment to him what's devak glue you know what Vaca says glue yourself to God glue yourself to him and he glues himself to us he's got our back devek devek is and no point of life should you be separated from him oh God I'm going on vacation I'll see you when I get back oh God I talked to you and sure but now I'm going for the things that I enjoy doing I'll see you again later oh God I guess this is up to me I have to navigate it and overcome it and I have to succeed in it or oh God I guess this is my fault it happened you never separate yourself from God Vegas is devic is gluing yourself to a vacation so why do you have those Vegas why are we glued to God why is he part of every experience in every conversation and every moment of our life why because not because of a feeling if I'm only connected and glued to God when it feels good when I go to the Happy minion on Friday night when I experience this amazing Coincidence of amuna then when I don't feel it I'm no longer going to be glued to him but that's not a real Vegas that's not authentic and genuine that's not real what's the real Vegas it's not Leah Bahar gasha it doesn't depend on a feeling it comes from a very clear understanding I know he's always found I know he's always there I know he's always glued to me he's stuck on me stuck with me we're stuck together I know we're always partnering together and therefore when I feel it it's wonderful but even when I don't it's still there are you married even when you don't feel love and romance it's great when you're madly in love and romantic and energy and incredible and electric and fantastic then the her gushes with the Vegas the marriage is is Amplified by the feeling of love but even when you're in a fight or there's something none of you none of us when one is tension one is conflict one's a fight when there's a struggle there's distance you don't have the hargush you don't have the feeling in that moment but are you still having Vegas are you still married are you still busted absolutely the same is true with Hashem it is a status it's an identity it's part of what defines us our connection with him his presence in our lives that is not dependent on any hargusha that we have that we have we lost last night I'm sorry to tell you at this time we're in this way but Carolyn Jericho passed away last night she's going to be buried in Israel we'll share the funeral information as soon as we have it and I don't tell you that to to bring you down and to communicate that sadness but she was such a person I think she deserves it makes me sad that we won't be able to we'll have a memorial at some point but the family is going to get her territory straw or she'll be buried hermanus next to her wonderful husband Rabbi Josh of blessed memory but but Carolyn was such a person who lived with this Vegas she was such a such a spiritual person she was such a Soulful person she like lived we occupied the same Globe the same Planet but she was living in another world she felt Hashem she saw Hashem she meditated with Hashem she practiced all kinds of uh practices with Hashem she sang with Hashem she was What A Soulful spiritual person when you were talking about Hashem you were talking about him when she was talking about Hashem she was experiencing Hashem she was talking about her best friend she was talking about somebody was standing right in front of her she was really she was very extraordinary in this way and she didn't always live that life I don't know if you know Rabbi Jericho was a Reconstructionist rabbi a practicing Reconstructionist Rabbi who had an epiphany Awakening that nah there's something more and they became balichuva they became Orthodox mitzvos I first met them I was in New York I was living in Boca in the cola but I was in New York in the summer and I was believe it or not before by Brody there was Outreach being done here I was outreached by Nicolo the original Colo here and I I went to go meet at njap Rabbi jarish I was working at njap for Rabbi Buchwald he was a he had given up his career as a Reconstructionist Rabbi with a congregation like an avram avinu who looked in the mirror at an advanced age and said nah this isn't truth there's something more true and I'll give up everything I have to start again the lowest rung on the ladder because something is more true like wow to know people like that wow that's what he did and I met him he was working at engine trying to bring other people to that truth and they retired and they were living down here and they lived no longer professionally but just in practice who they were number and calendar sure that's who she was the last time I used to go to the mix every year of Shabbos the last time I served show before he had a he had a massive stroke that unfortunately left him very compromised was that the Mikvah in their last conversation we had where he could speak clearly was we need to promote Nick for more for men they don't appreciate how spiritual and important this is for men and then that next week he had a stroke and he was severely compromised and she was dedicated the way she took care of him wow but what ravicha Meyer is describing what we're learning and what we're living is is how she lived that's who she was she was a guest at your Shabbos table she shared her diary Torah and her light and her energy very into energy positive energy and spiritual energy and Hashem energy and that that's that's who she was and her losses is great and painful and we wish her beautiful family tremendous strength in this difficult time they should find comfort in our community and again I shared this is in the context to share bad news like that we'll send the email out as soon as we have more information about the levia and the Kura but I share because these profiles in amuna are what are what help us grow that would help us grow profiles in amuna when you feel down when you fill out when you don't feel connected read a profile in a Muna speak to somebody who is a profile in a Muna if you can find them latch on to them talk to them energy is contagious and moon is contagious 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