Living With Emunah (Part 210): Lean in on Hashem

good morning bocato welcome back to living with emunah welcome to our new location we could spread out a little bit more a little bit more comfortably i want to thank our generous sponsors for our moon series for the year dr xavier morgan memory rubbed by dr brian galbert zuccheron of rocha and in memory of bella's mother ellen shanzer huge thank you to our friends the morgans deeply appreciate their sponsorship this morning's share is also sponsored by laser murrah venezuela levy will be green in memory of his mother bayla bashamurla is observed today and as well sponsored for a refuse name of sarna charna who is undergoing a procedure this morning we dive and it goes smooth and that she have a speedy and complete and painless before schleimer and recovery okay we are continuing learning our uh insights from revolba on emunah we're learning this lucey for harrows a collection of insights from revolve i hope nobody got lost and went to the wrong place since we moved at locations this morning and um but it's great to be back together if you're not back together if you're watching online and you live locally and you feel safe and comfortable joining please join for the granola bars the water and the coffee not in that order i can't imagine a better way to start your day so you don't want to miss it okay we are on page pay hey page 85. we are up to o's tests letter number nine and revolver's insights here on emunah and vegas we've been talking about educating our children and educating ourselves living with hashem not only as a theory not abstract not conceptual but in practice that our daily living that when we begin to panic or fear we remind ourselves that there is a plan when we begin to get envious or jealous we remember we have what is meant for us when we begin to get arrogant and inflated ego we remember we are not in fact in charge we are not in control that a muna and bitachon are the answer if we want to remain healthy mentally spiritually physically if we want to not panic and fear if we want to remember there is always a master plan i was texting yesterday with someone who's going through a hard time asking how he's doing a major change in his life and he said ups and downs enormously stressful very anxious and concerned in the end of the day it's all about emunah and trusting hashem as a plan and i said exactly hashem absolutely has a plan and the best is yet to come and we take our initiative we make our decisions we do what we think is best we do all that we can and when we are done we submit and surrender we let go and we let god and all these are great bumper stickers and cliches and would make great mottos and logos for coffee cups they also happen to be the truth they also happen to be the secret and the formula for healthy living for healthy living you can walk around all wound up feeling you're in charge you're in control blaming yourself for taking pride and taking credit you can walk around anxious and panic and fear of what will be one of my favorite quotes i've said it to you a million times mark twain what is it my life has been filled with troubles many which never happened something like that my life has been filled with many worries most of which never happened that's true for so many of us we spend our days and our nights worrying about things that don't happen or that our worry certainly does not contribute positively to avoid so all that we do is forfeit our happiness and forfeit our health and forfeit our serenity and forfeit our peace of mind because we're walking around in that state of fear and in that state of panic so a moon and beethoven are the answer which is why you come back every week even though we say the very same thing it's an amazing thing every wednesday we say the same thing basically i say the same thing to myself every wednesday and it must be the dunkin donuts coffee that brings you back to listen and eavesdrop and hear it again and again so we're up to o's test the world is filled with tremendous pleasure there are great pleasures in the world there are great delicacies and delights there are great experiences and excursions there are great physical pleasures that we are capable of experiencing food and drink and aroma and sense there are physical pleasures and intimacy there's all kinds of pleasures we can experience says revolver for example good food i'm a foodie i love good food i love the texture i love the smell i love to try i love the flavors i love food some people they could care less about food they have to be reminded to eat they wouldn't be reminded to eat they have to set an alarm on their phone to eat some people i don't relate to them whatsoever we live on two different planets but there are people who have to set a reminder on their phone to eat they forget to eat eating is a nuisance eating is annoying eating it takes time and they have to remind themselves to i set an alarm to remind myself to stop eating you're good it's late at night don't eat intermittent fasting so you're either setting the alarm to remember to eat or you're setting the alarm to remember to stop eating there are delicious foods to you who doesn't want to see god's beautiful world god see hashem's incredible landscape see this amazing amazing backdrop that hashem has created the ambiance of the world that hashem has created again you don't notice that if you're walking and going like this you walk right by that snap moshe walked and he said wow there's something phenomenal happening there's a bush it's on fire it's not being consumed there's something extraordinary how come nobody else noticed it only moshe stopped to say wow what is this i've got to look a little bit further a little bit closer because everybody else was texting everybody else was walking by looking down texting watching listening scrolling the election last night ah earthquake happened and politics gotta check it all out in real time everybody else was looking at their device moshe rabbenu who's conscientious and conscious mushroom who's mindful and present he stops and he sees and he says wow what's going on what is this i've got to check it out so there's a beautiful world so there's food and there's drink and this sense and there are aromas and there are perfumes and there's nature and there's backtrack but what is the greatest pleasure that we're capable of this is a true observation this is a axiological truth which is a fancy way of saying that this is not subjective and this is not one person's opinion that this doesn't change depending on when you live or where you live or how you live there's an axiological truth an existential truth about all humanity which is that the greatest high that we can get it's not from alcohol and it's not from drugs and it's not from fleeting temporary temporal pleasures which at the moment feel phenomenal taste phenomenal are phenomenal but are gone as quickly as we consumed or enjoyed them and the craving just returns even stronger hatanuka the greatest pleasure and the highest tide that mankind is capable of he's quoting here for that we referenced this when we began this last week lord get me high get me high get me high in the words of the highest high we can get is getting high on hashem it's getting high on hashem when you've walked out of a ni'ila where your neshama was on fire someone tapped or touched into your soul in a very deep way there were words that transformed you and your your eyes were welled with tears and there were goosebumps on your skin and you know show me your soul was on fire and you had a dream and a vision of who you could be and how you could live life that you tasted the greatest pleasure which is to be in the presence to bask in the light and the glory of the almighty where everything came together and made sense for a moment that is the greatest high that is the greatest high that pleasure perhaps it's that scenery of nature perhaps it's at the birth the miraculous birth of a child perhaps that a major milestone in life perhaps when you felt desperate and all help was lost and all of a sudden a miracle occurred and there was salvation and breakthrough for you whatever the circumstance that high that joy that satisfaction that fulfillment that feeling i'm connected to something bigger and greater than myself there's order and meaning and purpose to the universe i'm not a victim of randomness and chance that is the greatest high leg to get high on god this is not we mentioned this last week began to mention it this is not what too many of us are taught in our education and our background in our experience growing up we're taught that religion is about submission religion is about sacrifice religion is about compromise you have to give up and you have to sacrifice and you're going to be miserable all your friends all the other kids all the other adults all the other people who live in the fancy country clubs could eat the schmorg unlimited whatever they want they could eat at any restaurant they want they could go on saturday wherever they want they could experience and dress and do and be whatever they want you you're you you're born a jew so you have to sacrifice you can't dress how you want you can't eat where you want you can't go where you want you can't do what you want you got to sacrifice that shirt says i need it's not easy it's challenging it's difficult take sacrifice that's what too many were taught that's where too much of the emphasis was but it's inaccurate they're truths to it a hundred percent they're going to be points in our life and in our day where what we want is incompatible with what hashem wants for us our view of the world doesn't align with hashem's view of the world our attitude or our approach or our desire our temptation is not exactly the same as what hashem thinks that we should have and in those moments absolutely sacrifice submission surrender he we work for him he doesn't work for us absolutely but that's not the sum total of yereshkai that is not the energy of the atmosphere the attitude that we should be projecting about yiddishkai the attitude about yiddish is not sure it's not that it's difficult to be a jew not that you have to give up and you have to sacrifice and it's miserable and you walk around for bison and angry and resentful and bitter but what can you do you have to do it you're a jew it's the opposite it's kishmak to be a jew it's great it's fantastic i wouldn't want it any other way the rest of the world is walking around and they're stumbling and they're tripping and they're trying to find happiness and meaning and purpose and every day they're redefining and every day they're realigning and every day they're moving goalposts and every day they're creating new definitions and every day they're less and less happy the more autonomy and the mess more personal choice and the more personal freedom the less happy the world is and the more they're numbing themselves by using all kinds of substances if you're miserable in your own skin then you need to escape your own skin and how you escape your own skin to numb yourself for your misery of daily living drugs alcohol gambling and the list goes on and on overeating and the list goes on and on people who are emotionally escaping the misery of their life by numbing themselves through an escape through some type of compulsive behavior but if you love your life and you're comfortable in your own skin and you find the ability to find happiness and pleasure now that doesn't mean that life is hunky-dory that doesn't mean that you find happiness and pleasure and you're comfortable in your own skin because nothing ever goes wrong your children all behave exactly the way you want and your spouse always does exactly what you want and your boss and your employees do exactly what they want and the red light and the airplane schedule on life always reacts and responds and is exactly the way there's not a person alive who doesn't run into challenges within the first four minutes of waking up you open your eyes you're already the phone your toothpaste cap the child awoke you too early that who doesn't wake up and already they're greeted by the day with you know it's still dark outside i can't adjust i'm exhausted my body feels it's the middle of the night why does my alarm clock say i'm supposed to be waking up we're all desperate to change the clock so we wake up already in a miserable mood because it feels like we're waking up at three in the morning you could be waking up at 7 30 a.m right now and if you look outside it feels like it's three o'clock in the morning pitch black say what's going on i'm miserable i'm angry i'm resentful i'm exhausted i'm tired i feel like i got hit by a truck what a way to greet the day what a way to start the day what a way to start the day so who doesn't have a difficult day but if so if you already wake up that way then you don't have a drink you don't drink a cup of coffee to start your day what do you drink a cup of irish coffee what's irish coffee irish coffee is you slip a little something extra i don't mean hazelnut flavoring that turns your coffee into a milkshake i mean you slip a little uh nyx drink you have an irish coffee to start your day because if you already wake up miserable angry resentful bitter victim then you're gonna have to numb yourself even before you get out of bed and start your day but if you wake up and you say okay it feels like it's three o'clock in the morning my kids are out there nobody's getting dressed nobody's listening we're late the person for carpool's running late everything's wrong everything's miserable i live with them what a day i'm alive i'm alive and my children are alive and this is all part of the master plan and i'm so grateful it's going to be the greatest day and i all i have to put in my coffee is a little dose of hashem i don't have to slip anything irish nothing against the irish i don't put anything irish in there every cheer i give i get an email afterwards of what i said wrong i love the irish the irish are wonderful they're amazing nothing against the irish but i don't have to put anything irish in my coffee a daily dose of hashem i could be on fire with hashem i wake up and a moment of mindfulness by the way what do we do in order to align that so at first i woke up i opened my eyes and i looked out the window and it felt like it's three o'clock in the morning so i looked again at my phone and it said my phone said 7 30 when i wake up but it's at 7 30. so i i'm miserable pitch black out but then i say words on my lips to start my day that are designed to already get my day started with an attitude of gratitude from the very beginning so i was poised i was all prepared i was all positioned to be resentful bitter miserable to get out of bed off abyss and my kids wake up and it feels like it's three in the morning and tell my husband why did you wake me when you woke up two hours ago and if the and i don't get enough sleep and then i say well you gave me back my soul how many people die in their sleep how many people wake up to horrific news that's the wrong punctuation of modani if you've been singing it that way your entire life try to erase it and start from scratch it is the wrong punctuation mode grateful am i we don't begin the day by saying ani even though grammatically it should be moderate we don't begin the day with the word i it's not about me we don't live in selfie world mode grateful i am to you feels like it's three in the morning my kids are all out there misbehaving carpool just texted me they're running late the dog ate the homework the husband is miserable everything's wrong but it's a new day it's a fresh start i have a soul i have health i have a roof i have kids to be angry at i have a life it's a new day it's a fresh beginning it's a new start it's pregnant with possibility and with meaning and with opportunity with hope and with optimism and no matter how it began no matter how it got started with kindness with goodness with graciousness your faith in me is great it's great so our rabbis designed and they said before your feet hit the ground and you can start your first complaint we're going to give you a script and the first words you're going to say before you could say the complaint that you want to say before you could say i'm exhausted what time is it i feel like i was hit by a truck miserable kids get ready before you could say anything else talking about my neighbor right now none of this happens in my house no offense to the neighbors before you could say any of those words because i'll put words in our mouth they put the words in our mouth i'm so grateful before i could say what i'm miserable about i have to say what i'm grateful about so now i've reoriented i've re-outlined i've recalibrated my day again the challenge is that most of us say moda ani under our lips as we stumble out of bed mindlessly saying it not paying attention to one word if you ask me 20 minutes later did you say it i have no clue i have no idea probably i did i've been saying it since i'm a little boy but were we present were we mindful are we paying attention do we remember so pause how long does it take in your bed i want to try to study scientifically medically you're not supposed to open your eyes and jump out of bed it's not healthy i've mastered this i'm very good at taking care of my health and not jumping out of bed i've seven snooze takes me like alarm clocks all over multiple snooze all system to get me out of bed so i am not at risk of jumping out of bed and the dangers that it poses for hashem that's one area that i am safe nothing bad will ever happen but i forgot exactly how many seconds it said you're supposed to take before you get out of bed and it was the exact same amount of time that it takes on average to say our take our sacred torah is timeless it's wisdom its brilliance is just beyond measure so it puts the script in our mouth to say madani it keeps us in bed that extra millisecond until from when we woke up it's safe to get out of bed and we begin with the attitude of gratitude even though we're ready to be miserable and we have all the reasons in the world to complain even though we have all the reasons to complain so yiddish cat is not sure it's designer yet it's not about why it's miserable to be a jew we wake up and we say you misbehave and you're not getting ready you're in bed you're fighting with each other you're splattering cereal on one another but i love you it isn't a good smack to be alive isn't it great to be a jew did you say a bracha on the cereal how great it is to be alive how great it is to have cereal and great it is to make a mess how great it is to have to have carpool how great it is to have to drive you to school how many people would give their left arm to have children to drive them to school to afford the chief of tuition to have kids screaming at each other it's the best noise in the world it's recently had a bris someone who waited seven years to have their first child and the baby was screaming during the breasts and i saw the father cringing the cries of the baby and i said to him that is the best sound in the world not the pain of your child khashogg of course nobody you know the pain of your child is very painful but that your home right now is filled with the scream of a baby shh that's the best sound that you could have because seven years there was silence seven years it was quiet so so when those kids are fighting oh it's i'm so grateful so thankful i'm going to get high on you hashem because i'm going to see you everywhere you're in the serial fight and you're in the late to carpool and you're in the kids not listening and you're in the miserable boss and you're in the traffic and you're in the fact that i can't believe that the laundry wasn't done when i went to the drawer and i thought i was gonna have the dry cleaner you're in all my problems you're in all my good things you're everywhere because you keep me calm and serene and you remind me what matters and you remind me what my priorities are and you remind me that whatever it is this was meant to be i wasn't meant to have clean clothing today i wasn't meant to have my shirts i wasn't meant to have children who cooperate and are calm this is what was meant for me and for that i'm grateful too so there are all kinds of pleasures in this world there's the pleasures of food and drink and the pleasures of the flesh and the pleasures of scenery and atmosphere the pleasures of nature but the greatest pleasure the highest pleasure the highest high we can have is not that which makes us escape not that which makes us numb that not not that which makes us uh live outside ourselves but you can only get high on god when you realize god is everywhere and you realize all that you have is from god including including the challenges and the pain modem and we're so grateful to you that you created us thank you for creating all my problems and all my pleasures thank you for creating my life thank you for creating it all you are everywhere it's what's meant for be and what meant to be and i will grow from it i will be better as a result of it i will come out stronger on the other side i will emerge the person i was meant to be so even though i'm miserable about parts of it i'm i'm grateful for what i have i don't did we mention this last week that last week we marked the death of sorry imeinu a great matriarch and we described she lived 100 years 20 years and seven years a very inefficient way of giving her years and rashes says cool and shawn latova that they were all equal for good hashem right after hashem makes sarah drop dead god blessed avan with everything so commentators asked separately but on both of these places barakat commentators ask them both what are you talking about cool and shove on the top did we say this last week sorry you may know all her years were for good none of you remember a week later i could say the same thing so i'm going to say it anyway all of her 127 she had 127 blissful beautiful magnificent equally pleasurable equally happy years what are you talking about she was barren and infertile she was in pain and suffering she struggled and cool on chavantova hashem you just made sarah avraham's other half better half die but hashem blessed avram with everything what are you talking about you just took his everything and a moment after you take his everything you say hashem blessed you with everything what are you talking about the torah sounds so callous it sounds so cruel in describing in this way elemi what's the answer the answer is the answer is that a person goes through nine months of pregnancy and the pregnancy is characterized we spoke about in the particular yesterday because rivka struggles in her pregnancy and the pregnancy has pain it has nausea and the pain my rib cage and i feel a little bit pressing over here and my back doesn't work and i have blood clots over there and i'm struggling over here and nine months you're in pain and then in labor and labor which i have not experienced but i understand it is not pleasurable but labor unbearable pain unbearable contractions unbearable pushing being torn apart literally and then the baby comes out you hold the baby in your arms and you say those nine months were unbel they were fantastic everything was amazing and this labor was amazing and you say what are you talking about during labor you curse your husband out and you swear you'll never have another child for the rest of your life that's not a joke that's what the torah says a woman has to bring a carbon after she gives birth to a null all the promises and the vows and the cursing out that she did throughout her labor process throughout her labor process the torah already says that that pain is so great it'll make you react and act in a way that you'll regret a moment later so we build in the system how we can fix whatever you broke when you were in all that pain but when you hold the baby in your arms you go to the nursery when you bring that baby home it's almost nine months from it was amazing labor was fantastic why because at the end when you hold that baby it was all worth it and the ups and the downs and the pain and the discomfort it was all worth it because in the end it yielded the baby so cool and shoving the toba they say for sorry imeinu she lived her life backwards and she said quinlan chavanitova the whole life was worth it because in the end of the day she had an avram the end of the day she left the yitzhak in the end of the day whatever she had or didn't have even that what she didn't have it was from hashem it was all part of a master plan and therefore it was all for her best couldn't shove a little it was all for her best house of once came to the market of mesrich the brother of the bear and said i don't understand the gemara says the same way you bless the positive you're supposed to bless for the negative so if you win the lottery and you say thank you god thank god i won the lottery the lottery of life lottery of life or the lottery literally you won the lottery i'm still trying to track down whoever won those two tickets in boca camino real won the lottery wow thank you god i won the lottery to shame the same way with the same fervor with the same enthusiasm with the same genuine passion that you say thank you when everything goes right say thank you when everything goes wrong khalil a person loses a loved one they make a bracha when you win the lottery you say atova motive and when you lose a loved one you say bracha god you're the judge of truth and you're supposed to say the bracha with the same kavanagh in both directions so if you win the lottery you say khatov i made one lottery thank you god and if you lose your life savings if the market crashes if fraud someone stole all your money if you invested in a positive scheme and you find you have nothing thank you ashram dayana ms it's all from you hashem so this hassan came to the rebel adobe magdalen said i don't understand how is that possible how can you see that it's all from hashem not only the good but even the bad how can a person live that life with that level of of mindfulness of of that level of of presence how could it be so they said i want you to go to my talmud the rabbit absolutely probably go to reposition and ask a position this question and he's going to give you the answer so makes his journey all the way out of poland he goes to abzusha and he lives with the rubber of zusha for a day and it doesn't take long it doesn't take an hour for him to see that of zusha lives in poverty that he has nothing that he is sick he's living with illness and everyone in his family and everyone around him is struggling and suffering he's living in poverty and misery he has none of the pleasures of this world all he has is pain and suffering anxiety everything is miserable and he finally at the end of the day of living with the rebel abzusha and of observing and of watching and of witnessing all the challenges and all the misery and everything going on in his life he turns to every position he says can i ask you a question sure with a smile on his face and the joy in his heart sure ask me what everyone asked me so he says i went to the negative message and i wanted to know i was bothered i didn't understand how could it be that the gemara expects of us that we're supposed to make a barakah with the same for the same enthusiasm same joy the same excitement when things go wrong is when they go right how are we supposed to feel happiness even when everything is missing even when everything's wrong the way we and everything is right and resistance said okay so he said i went to the mag and the maggot said i should come to you and to ask you said every opposition looked at him and he said i don't know why he sent you to me everything in my life is right everything in my life is good everything in my life is happy i wish i could help you i don't know how to answer i've never had to make that praga because everything in my life is wonderful so he understood he understood that for the rebel he was living with that level i'm not saying it's for everyone i'm not saying it's easy to attain don't feel guilt don't feel shame if you have a hard day don't feel guilt don't feel shame if you're going through a difficult circumstance and it feels like it's a difficult circumstance don't feel bad i'm not trying to impose on all of us us that we need to rise to the level of the rebel obsession but it's possible it's possible to live a life in that way to see hashem to feel hashem everywhere when you get high on god you can take care you can do anything so how many people go through painful loss how many people go through a difficult time and they get high on substances because the only way to get through the only way to endure the only way they can have the resiliency to come out the other end is to drink is to do drugs is to get high so what is telling us is that there's an alternative high you can get it's a much healthier high it's a much more genuine high those are counterfeit it's a much more lasting high those are temporary and that is to get high in god don't turn to the substances don't turn to the distractions don't turn to the numbing agents turn to god because if you turn to god and if we submit and surrender to hashem and if we allow hashem into our life and if we talk to him to feel his presence until we feel a support to hold us up then we don't need to turn to anything else he he is what we can get high on indians the great spanish commentator of the medieval times chapter he has a whole gate he has all chapter on the service of hashem and he builds the entire life of a service on hashem begins with gratitude gratitude and attitude of gratitude how did the rebel of zusha feel that nothing was wrong in his life because he didn't look at what was missing he looked at what he had he didn't look at what he wanted he looked at what he got how often do we dive in our hearts out for things and then we get them but we never pause or stop to say thank you we just go on to davin for the next thing the next thing we're always thinking about what's the next thing should i make this person better i shall help me with this child hashem break through in this area hashem provide this for me i shall make that work out do you ever stop and realize that my life today was hashem saying yes to what i asked for yesterday do we ever stop and say my life today was hashem saying yes for what i asked for yesterday do we pause to say the gratitude so i'll tell you personally a lot of my domining a lot of my day is not only dominant for the many members of our community and beyond who needs to feel us like you can imagine but like you can't imagine the pain the suffering the challenges that people are going through so we dive in for them they should have a foreshadow they should get good news back on that test the divorce should go smoothly the marriage should be fixed and repaired the child should give them there are so many people living with such hopelessness they feel stuck in situations where they can't imagine that they become better they're in such pain such unbearable pain so we dive into them of course that's the top level of dominating first of all everything else davin for will be put in a different context if you think about the people you need to dominate for the things that really feel that really feel painful so we dive in for that and then just below that we can diamond for ourselves so very often i doven i have a big share of a big article i have to write i have a big public uh help the right words come out help me by my best help it all go smoothly and well help me not have to run out to the bathroom now after this past shabbos i have a new thing to daven for help me not lose my voice i don't know how many of you were here on shabbos morning in the middle of my drasha hashem decided about five minutes into the drasha enough goldberg you talk enough you press mute you know zoom zoom shielum you can mute people hashem said goldberg mute enough you talked enough all of a sudden i had no voice but i'm a little bit competitive so i said hashem nice try i'm going to fight you on this one and not for me there were two bar mitzvah boys twins beautiful boys they deserved their moment in the uh in the spotlight so we fought through so now you have to have another davening hashem i have a big talk to give i have a big platform please help me not lose my voice please help me find the right words so i realized after years of doing that how often each day i'm asking okay what share am i giving today what responsibilities do i have today hashem help me succeed with them did i ever say thank you that last night it went well so yesterday i poured out my heart to hashem and i said i have some big opportunity i'm speaking in some big venue and hashem help me find the right words help it flow smoothly help it come out well help please take nachas have pride in how i do i pour out my heart passionately and and authentically but the next day did i ever say thank you it went well thank you i got great feedback thank you hashem for letting me be your mouthpiece that's true for me but it's true for every one of us in whatever area with hashem hashem please help me i just took lab tests and while it still wouldn't be an open miracle let it come out well hashem please please please i say the whole safer tillam and i make 40 challahs and i tie red ribbons about anything that moves and i do everything in the world hashem please please please please please please and then we get the lab result and it says you're all clear ah all clear amazing we go back were you equally did you spend the time and the energy and equally invested in being grateful and being grateful so says that you know the foundation of all of this is an attitude of gratitude the modi that we spoke about that we begin our day with just stop every day and say what am i grateful for you know you can download like 4 000 apps that are gratitude journals journal journal gratitude not the same things every day i'm happy i'm alive i have a roof of man a car to drive and i have a family thank you hashem now it's got to be different it's got to be real thank you hashem today i swerved i almost killed someone else for myself it's a miracle i'm alive thank you hashem today i almost lost my cool at dinner but i kept my calm and my family had such a different feeling because of it and thank you hashem real a real differentiated moment of the day or things that i'm grateful for today i'm grateful for today i'm grateful the wi-fi didn't break down and i was able to stream this year and it all went smoothly i'm thankful my voice didn't disappear or i'm grateful my voice came back and i was able to finish the joshua other people like hashem why'd you make his voice just sat down everyone's gonna have a different you know what you're grateful for what you complain about depending on which side of the table that you're on but begins the service hashem begins with gratitude if you're not gratitude you're not if you're not grateful you're not humble arrogant people are never grateful gratitude and humility go together you want to get high on god being high on god begins with an attitude of gratitude grateful grateful if you want to submit to the higher power and you want to feel his presence in life and you want to be able to get high on him so you don't need to get high on anything else you know someone i read a lot about recovery and addiction not because i'm an expert by any measure or stretch i don't have any education in it because i've met a lot of people struggling and i care about them and i think it's an area we all need to be more sensitive to so when i do someone said to me recently you know you always talk about alcohol and drugs and gambling and and pornography and all kinds of said but you never speak about overeating and you know there's an overeating anonymous there's also oh hey overeaters anonymous so someone said that to me and told me he lost 100 pounds he was up and down his entire life and he's only healthy now and kept that weight off because of overeaters anonymous overeaters anonymous which is complicated because it's one of the addictions where you can't go cold turkey and you don't stop all together you need to eat to live so just how do you do it in a healthier and a healthier way so you know if please god we don't really relate to numbing ourselves with drugs or alcohol or gambling maybe we don't relate to numbing ourselves or escape with that but how many of us are emotionally numbing ourselves with food when late at night we turn to that food or when we keep eating food or we're using that food as an escape or an emotional crutch so that too we can replace that high that food is giving with getting high on hashem we are overtime nita so if we get high on god and we replace that which we're being numb to with mitzvos and with torah and with those feelings that are authentic and real and lasting they're genuine not counterfeit then we don't need to turn to these very unhealthy things wishing everyone stay happy stay healthy stay holy join us tonight behind the bhima the chief rabbi of israel of david lao and friday we turn friday into arab shabbos tomorrow moskowitz tahilam growth with the hilum they're incredible learning opportunities throughout the shul thank you to those who come in person thank you to those who are watching online if you're watching on youtube feel free to subscribe have a fantastic day everybody