Living with Emunah (Part 155): In God We Trust

trying to turn things around and we will hopefully from sitting on the floor in the morning and grieving to getting up off that floor and to doing what we need to do in order to be able to welcome and to bring mushy i want to thank our sponsors for this morning first of all the series sponsor for this year living with emunah dr zavi and bella morgan thank you so much for your generous sponsorship leela nishmas in memory of our dear friends whose first year outside is rapidly approaching rabbi dr brian galbet who was a role model to so many of us of living with amuna everything that we talk about in this class also this particular class is sponsored generously by leo lucie diabetes in memory of leo's great grandfather of yudha halevi and uh by bayless smith in honor of ariel benbela rachel a continued recitation of tehlan for a good outcome for his forthcoming tests hashem we should hear good news and he should be well it should have a complete and a speedy and a whole refua okay thank you for being with us this morning we continue to learn of itam schwartz we're in the home stretch really finishing it up his beautiful essay is and we've been defining it i want to believe in the point in review all together but what is all about it's trust it's trust and the last thing that we've been developing is the notion that we have all kinds of trust in every area of our life we trust when we're going to cross the street that we're not going to get run over we trust that we don't have a blind spot that we can't see we trust when we take the medicine or we pick up to take out food that it's not poison or contaminated and it's not going to kill us we trust in the bank and we trust in our insurance and we trust in there are all kinds of areas and arenas of trust all around us that define our lives and they really represent a nugget they represent an internal ability to trust the problem is that we misplace that trust we place the trust in people and things we put the trust in ourselves instead of realizing that that engagement that encounter that experience with trust is really there in order to understand that we can trust hashem that he is the source of all that ain't odd milvado there is nothing and there is no one but him that everything that happens to us it's not random and it's not chance and it's not happenstance it's not accidental but it is by design and it does come from him so we've been developing the notion that the one who lives with beethoven is not a decision for the moment is not a muscle that we work out on is a lens through which we engage and encounter the world it's a lasek corrective surgery and so we don't see a world filled with opposition conflict battling we don't see a world that's filled with struggle we see a world that's operating in harmony and unity and peace we see a world that is the will of hashem we understand and we accept that all that happens is from above it's not easy it's not easy to live this level but yet this is our ambition this is our aspiration that the one who can over and over again be engaged in this conversation in this loving relationship can nurture that relationship with hashem by spending time by communicating by all the core ingredients of any healthy relationship then when the time comes when we need him we're not struggling to find him we're not looking for him we're not working out some muscle we're not deciding let me live with faith it's natural it's natural as much as i know my parents are there and they love me and they'll come through for me isn't it is to know that avenue and my father is with me and loves me and will come through for me in that in that moment in that moment i have many stories to share of late in my life as i'm sure all of you and yours as our lives have been turned upside down in this uh in this area in this area but let's keep going and we'll we'll get the stories in one of the one of the classic mistakes that we all make is to think that we need to acquire the attribute or the character trait or the capacity to live a life of a moon and be tacon we're trying to make a kenyan we're trying to acquire it and he says this is a mistake it's not a matter of go to your next conference or convention it's not a matter of go to the next meeting it's not a matter of subscribe to the next newsletter it's not a matter of you need to acquire the character trait of bitarch lichnos bitahon the nephesh to acquire bitahon in our soul why this mistaken notion thinks that i don't have an innate internal inherent sense of trust of faith the ability to let go and let hashem i need to acquire it really i'm born neutral i'm a blank slate i'm a tabla rasa and i need to acquire it i have to subscribe to the whatsapp in the newsletter and listen to the shiram i have to read the books and surround myself with the people and i have to learn i have to learn the attribute i have to learn the character trait i have to acquire i have to acquire the ability but that's a mistake it's a terrible mistake the notion that you have to acquire it is it's incorrect it's inaccurate on its head a life of faith a life of trust a life of confidence and calm that hashem is involved he's in in our lives you have charlie knows beethoven can't acquire it you can't download it you can't go to the store and buy it you can't upgrade to it there's no new version of it is not something that you acquire it's something that's inside all of us from the moment that we were born just like the baby the newborn emerges from the mother's womb and already feels an affinity a connection a trust an expectation of a mother and father reaches for them expects to be sustained and nourished and protected by them knows i have a mother and a father and maybe the younger we are the more um hopeful or wishful we are but not always true that our mother and father are as if perfect and can come through for us and can fix anything and the older we grow the more that we love and admire them but we also come to realize that they too are human but as children of hashem we have an innate sense when we are born we should have the sense i'm not from nowhere i have a mother i have a father hakush baraku is both at the same time he's both at the same time i have a parent who loves me who nurtures me who protects me it's not only a character trait i have to acquire it's not a skill set i have to learn it's not a degree i have to earn it's something inside me it's innate it's part of my life now on this line here in of schwartz i want to say two things number one i saw a beautiful incident i don't remember in his name deposit says the world is filled kenya normally is translated to mean the world is filled with that which you own hashem it's your world you own everything in it you own everything in it the world is kenya it's yours however i saw a beautiful alternative understanding the world has filled kenya with our ability to acquire you a sunset a stream a beautiful day a conversation a hot cup of coffee a wonderful experience the world is filled with invitations and opportunities to see and to feel and to acquire a relationship with you are our eyes open is our antenna extended do we see him all around do we have a hashtag what's app group and have we been leaving messages and recordings about all the times that we see him from the major times he's come through in monumental ways to the seemingly small insignificant seemingly unimportant ways that that too we attribute to him so when schwartz talks about you don't make a kenyan it's not something we acquire it's innate it's inherent it's intrinsic it's natural it's inside each and every one of us you can make a kenyan the world is filled with opportunities it's filled with opportunities to see and to feel and to know him that's number one number two number two i want to share with you we've learned this previously but i think it was a couple years ago great student murdered by the nazis has an essay where he asks the following question he says some of the greatest minds of all of history struggled and grappled to be able to prove that god exists aristotle the great philosopher and i'm not invoking his name ravanan does in the essay says aristotle struggled to conclude is there evidence that's compelling that there is a god that the ribonus of the almighty exists so you take a bar mitzvah and a bat mitzvah child a boy turns 13 a girl turns 12 and you say to them it's time for torah and mitzvos put on philly you have to daven you have to observe shabbos you're going to have to fast on tish above it's time to observe torah in mitzvos oh and among them is you have to have a moon of faith you have to know and to have a relationship with a god this little pitskiller this little bomb batman it's a kid this little teenager this little adolescent doesn't know anything in life they think they do but they're just starting out on the journey of life the great philosophers the most brilliant minds of men and women struggled to conclusively prove that there's a god and this little satsukula this little pitzlo this little kid is supposed to know conclusively observe that mitzvah how how could they possibly be obligated gives a fundamental answer that's so critical to understand what emunah and are all about and that's what i believe if schwartz is alluding to maybe not the inside of him directly but along the exact same lines says don't need to be learned you're right if you had to first sit down and investigate and analyze and research and try to understand is there a god 12 and 13 are unrealistic and unfair ages to expect someone to do it but that's not what a moon and are emunah you have from the womb you emerge knowing there's someone bigger than someone better there's more to life you know there are those who came before and just like i know that i have parents i know that i have a parent in heaven and you know what the whole mission the whole mandate of parents is by the time that child is born by mitzvah don't mess it up by the time they turn 12 or 13 don't turn them cynical and sarcastic don't make them disbelievers by the time they turn 12 or 13 don't introduce them to what so many adults struggle with and have hang-ups about but rather continue continue to nourish and continue to reinforce within them would they have already always known that there is a god that there is a god and this had a huge impact on my own parenting style from my older kids when they were young we didn't talk about hashem to the degree that we do today because we felt it's silly to talk to a little kid about hashem helped us find that parking spot don't forget to make a bracha and thank hashem isn't hashem amazing look how the weather is perfect for us when we're going out today it felt silly and it felt unsophisticated and what did they really understand what do i even understand and then we realized how much how important it is children already know that and now they talk about now they see and i've given you countless examples ad nauseam about our practice what's app group and the children as young as my seven-year-old recording voice notes in it oh hashem i saw him in this way i saw him in that way the more we talk about him the more the more he will be in our lives the more he'll be in our lives we say i have a moon because i speak about god i speak about hashem sort of schwartz here is saying be talking i'm going to trust in hashem and the common the confidence that it brings that everything will be okay these aren't acquired traits you don't go to school for them you don't get a degree you can't take a online course you can't download it but rather it's innate it's internal it's intrinsic it's inside you take the layers off unpeel all the layers of life that have hardened us and disappointed us that have failed us unpeel the layers of life of ingratitude of a lack of appreciation of a failure to recognize where he's been in our life and underneath it all and inside you you'll find that at your core is a pinterest screaming to have a relationship with hashem that inside you in your boy in your belly you want to come home to your father you want to talk to him you want to spend time with him you want to feel his guiding and loving hand you want to know that everything he's doing is for a reason and that it makes sense it's not random it's not outside of us it's inside of us stop looking for the solution elsewhere stop looking for the solution with someone else the solution is inside you listen to that voice inside yourself listen to what you've always known nourish it nurture it and let it come out reveal it and peel back those layers and know it what child at any age i've had to many circumstances counsel adults who lost their parent who had estranged relationships with their parents and it was devastating their parent might have died at 90 95 120 and it was devastating when they lost their parent why why it was tragic because that child was holding out for all those years that maybe my mother or father will finally interact with me the way that i've dreamt the mother of father will maybe we'll reconcile maybe they'll apologize maybe there'll be a conversation that i've craved throughout my entire life and when that parent leaves this world and with them the possibility of the reconciliation they've wanted so badly where does that come from why as children can't we move on why don't we just say they're not the people i wish they were i wish i could have chosen other parents but i can't why is the person in such profound and acute pain when the parent doesn't live up to what they hope the parent would be and the answer is because inside every one of us is a natural yearning to relate and connect with our parent to be protected and loved and complemented by our parent when the parent doesn't function in that way it's devastating to us but even if our biological parents fail us and they're not the people we wish and hoped they would be and even if they've left this world and we were never able to repair we always from the moment we're born until the day we die we always have a parent avenue shabbat sham our father in heaven and you don't have to be taught to want to connect with him you don't have to learn it or download it it's inside every one of us honor it listen to it nurture it uncover it and you will find this incredible sense of relief and love when you finally unburden and love and lo unload by talking to hashem by talking to him telling your disappointments and frustrations protest the decisions that are painful thank him for the incredible blessings that we take for granted each and every day lean on him in tough times but know that he's always there and inside you you know that there's a pinterest inside you it's a pintle yid inside each and every one of us and so the mission for the twelve and thirteen-year-old says of course is not to teach them that there's a god you're right if you had to sit down the bottom bar mitzvah class and say okay boys and girls today we're gonna learn about the evidence for god's existence forget about it you can't get started but that's not what you have to do instead of all you have to do is get out of the way don't ruin it don't mess it up nurture what they already know inside them they have you their mommy and abba and they also have an abba in shaman just teach them that they want to believe that they know that they do believe that don't take away the belief don't mess it up the same child that same child who's willing to believe in a tooth fairy until some older sibling messes it up and ruins it so you know it's mom and dad who put the money under your pillow right that same child lahav de la have the lahavdil that same child knows that there's a hashem even if he's invisible he can't talk to him or hear him don't mess it up don't ruin it don't ruin it to the child that's still inside each and every one of us is remember we spent a lot of time talking about it's only once we make a mistake that now we believe we're in a world of battle when i'm in the good eating zone when i would never touch the food that's bad for me ah there's nothing that's opposing me there's no force that i have to overcome because i would never touch that poison but the minute i put a few of those corn chips those potato chips in my mouth and i didn't blow up like the girl and charlie in the chocolate factory i didn't drop dead at that moment i've introduced hate i've introduced the ability to make a mistake in my life and it didn't have lethal consequences so now next time i see those corn chips as potato chips now now i've got a struggle now i've got a battle it is the introduction of hate it is the introduction of making mistakes of deficiencies and shortcomings that creates a sense of needing to battle and fight through mammalia really it was smooth sailing really we know there was a ribonuclear all along we introduced the pack fact and the possibility of making a mistake and that created it that created the the obstacle in and now what do i have to trust weight watchers what do i have to trust atkins what do i have to trust every diet app once i made a mistake now i misplace my trust in things outside myself thinking that the solution and the answer is there i trust in the bank i trust an insurance i trust in my lawyer i trust in my doctor and worst of all i have a inflated sense of trust in myself i think that i've got it covered i can micromanage it i can do anything and everything that i want i can solve any situation and says of schwartz all of these encounters with a sense of trust they're good they're good you didn't trust your bank there'd be no credit there'd be no economy if you didn't trust your doctor there'd be no healing if you didn't trust you need to trust we need to trust in every area of our life that trust is good but those trust we have to realize pale in comparison they are only small examples of the ultimate trust and the ultimate trust is in hashem not ourselves and just like i trust and i was given this example to the extreme i'm looking for a cup i don't have one but like we trust i can make the cup of coffee and successfully bring it to my lips and successfully drink it and all the things that need to go right for it to work that i don't even think about because i implicitly trust really i can have the same relationship with hashem that all the things that are going right all around me in my life that i don't take them for granted but i recognize they're not my skill and management they are the ribonus you know the most arrogant and the most distorted untruthful sense of misplaced trust me i got it i can control it i can take care of it zoe geneva hagamura you know what this is it's intellectual um stealing intellectual property you're a thief you're stealing you're giving the credit in the wrong place you're putting the trust in yourself so what he's saying is the following you'll say i need to learn trust someone teach me to trust where's the seminar and trust the answer is you have trust inside you you trust the pharmacy you trust the doctor you trust the lawyer you trust the bank you trust the insurance most of all you trust yourself you don't have to learn trust you have to go to a seminar elsewhere for trust you are living with trust in so many other areas of your life now take that sense of trust that you already have and put it where put it in put it in hashem this is our mission so therefore says our schwartz the effort of bitcoin is not to acquire it it's not to learn it but rather it's to reveal it is so there are two stages to the effort that we have to put in to learn more number one number one to be mindful of the sense of trust we already have to pause and to think about it and to feel it and to recognize it and to acknowledge it and to lean into it huh i trust i can drink this coffee i trust the bank i trust in this arena to realize i do trust already and then the second the harder half is to take the sense of trust i already have and to realize if i can trust these people and things in my life then i already have the ability to place my faith in my trust and to turn to hashem hashem is the only that has no hysteresis everything else has his nagdas means tension battle have to overcome there's there's opposite force it's a rule of physics for every force is an equal and opposite force pushing back against us this friction everything in life is friction with the exception of hashem and the more i attach myself and the more i credit to hashem i have no friction no opposition in my life take away the layers of soiled garments the garments that cover what is the pure internal sense of self that have been contaminated and blemished by their encounter and engagement with the worst forces in this world with the negative energies of this world remove those contaminated blemished soiled garments and reveal a soul that's on fire a light that's shining bright reveal the pint of the yid that just wants to go home and reunite with our father that it's never too late it doesn't matter how old you are to find him and naila a couple years ago was it last year a couple of years ago we have an older member of our shul who was adopted and decided she would put in the effort to find her biological mother she's got to be in her 80s this member and lo and behold she found that her biological mother was living in an assisted living facility she was still alive deep in her 90s maybe over a hundred living in an assisted living facility right near us and the newspaper did a whole story they reunited she met her mother and while her mother had advanced dementia her mother did show signs that she remembered and acknowledged this daughter of hers and what the daughter felt just passed away a couple weeks ago the mother but what this daughter felt after all those years after decades of life to be reunited how a child wants to come home be reunited made whole with their parents it doesn't matter where you are what stage of life it's never too late to live with the moon to remove those garments those layers the soiled those soiled coverings and to reveal the soul that's on fire and that is light and that just wants to connect hanito english there is a spark of god inside us that has no opposition and i want to tell you two stories and every time i tell you these two stories i hope you realize and know that i'm not trying to focus on myself or my family i'm just trying to give you examples as a way of hopefully encouragement and honestly i'm trying to confess that this is something we're working on in our lives and to invite you to partner to do it with us so we made the journey last week we quarantined in florida and then we went through a quarantined mobile to quarantine in new york because hashem please god two weeks from yesterday my daughter is getting married and the governor said you have to quarantine for 14 days when you come from outside of new york so 20 20 hour trek all in one big car it's never easy to drive straight with your with your children and things we're moving along relatively slowly relatively uh smoothly rather we have dear dear friends amazing people who lent us a minibus that they have that made it easy to fit our whole family and all the luggage and we're moving along it's driving smoothly everything's great six hours seven hours and then the van starts to rock it's shaking wildly and while my children are in the back amused all recording themselves to their friends you know saying things were like ah because the whole thing is shaking your heaven and i were slightly less than you is worried about what's going on pulled over to gas stations i checked the tires everything seemed fine i had no idea maybe i-95 in georgia and south carolina north carolina needs to be paved i didn't know why the van was rocking the way it was until lo and behold i'm looking on the dashboard there's a monitor that has the psi the air pressure and all four of the tires and the back left tire i'm looking and i see the back left tire whose air pressure is supposed to be on 70 literally right before my eyes 65 60 55 50 45 40. and i said you have a this tire is losing all of its air something's going to happen so she's already anyway on the phone with my future son-in-law and she says don't call it when we get to new york is there a tire place we're going to retire so when we get to new york we're in north carolina so when we get to new york i got to pull over right now this tire is going to blow and as i saw it go down to 25 i pulled over to the shoulder of i-95 shoulder of i-95 in north carolina and i peek outside the car and i look at the tire at this point the tire is entirely flat now this is no ordinary tire this is the tire of a mini bus of a large van it's like a truck tire and here we are on the shoulder of i-95 in north carolina a car full of relatively young children and every car that passes us is zipping by an i-95 the entire car is shaking and rattling when they pass us by so what do you do you stay calm you've been going to the living with the munishear you've been giving the living with the munishir you've got to stay calm ain't no no there's nothing but him so we turn to each other and say okay we'll see what hashem has in store for us how is this going to work out is going to be a plan right the worst part of you the negative voice inside you starts to panic what's going to happen it's thursday we're only in north carolina we're going to have to get towed find a hotel to stay at find a way to get there will we get there before shabbos how will this work out what's going to be so you start to panic that side and view and the other side the good side the voice that of schwartz is telling us the pinta yid that salam alokim the need sotes the spark of godliness that has no opposition friction says ha stay calm this is an adventure this is a ride it's going to be fun let's see how this is going to turn out let's see how it's going to turn out so i call my roadside assistance who leaves me on hold for 35 minutes because due to covid we have fewer people to answer the phone and help you on the side of the road i won't say who it is which roadside assistance it is as i said you know call 9-1-1 because let them at least send out somebody who's got lights on their car to make sure nobody's going to ram into us we're here on the shoulder right next to the highway the cars are zipping by we feel ourselves rattling and maybe they know a tow company maybe they'll help us we're sitting on hold i don't know how this is going to ever end and if it gets dark because it was getting close to dark it'll get only even worse so she calls 9-1-1 and they put it through the highway patrol and they dispatch someone who's going to come behind us in the meantime we're still sitting there i'm still on hold with my roadside assistance the car is still rattling my kids are still making videos and we're still living with amuna saying this is going to be an adventure ain't no nobody let's figure it out and all of a sudden i look up from the dash and there i see a truck in front of me and a man getting out in the side of the truck it says some tire company in the back of the truck there are tires and he comes over to me and he says can i help you and i get out of the car and here is a man who i am convinced is elio navi who has a truck that has an air pressure machine that if i tell you he changed the spare tire that i didn't even know this minibus had it took him maybe eight minutes to change it to the spare tire the spare tire was exactly the same tire as the tire that blew and therefore he got us back on the road in literally no time and in the middle or at the end of his fixing this tire is when the when the policeman finally showed and he looked at the tire that was changed it was shredded it was ripped and he said to me he said do you know how close you were to this tire blowing and your car spinning out of control and how tragic this could have been do you begin to understand what could have happened and how lucky you are so there is a moment and there are moments in our lives where you can panic and maybe this is an easy story to tell because it ends well but all stories you got to take that deep breath the breath of life and the shama nishima restore and return our soul to tell him then the godly spark and lean on him and listen to him and know that he's got a plan it's a journey you're along for the ride says if schwartz you could live life with hysnak this opposition and forces against having to battle and friction you could panic and lose your cool you could start screaming at your spouse and your children you could start worrying what's going to be how we get hotels and how will we get towed and how long will it take till they find this tire and will we get to where we need to get before shabbos and how will we get food you can lose it or you can live with it you can let go and let god you can say hashem there's a plan i don't know what it is but it's what's going to be right and we're going to be fine so we got here and it all worked out well and then on sunday we went to get tested to make sure that we're all good as we begin the quarantine towards the wedding in barack hashem we all tested negative but a member of the family wasn't feeling great and said let's go again yesterday spoke to someone who said double check make sure it wasn't a false negative and get tested with the rapid test again let's make sure so i was driving back to the clinic yesterday and on the car ride we sang anode malvado and we said you know what the best part of the moon and hashem is you don't have to root for one way or the other how the test is going to come out whichever way the test comes out is the best is what's meant to be so it's so great usually you'd worry and you stress is it going to be negative is it going to be positive what is the impact of it being negative how does it affect the timeline of what we need to do what does it affect the rest of us needs to quarantine what's going to be what's going to happen how will it work out normally you panic when you consider the alternatives but when you live a life of a moon and beta then you never need to panic this is the calm remember how this all began remember shimon and levi entered the city they came in with a sense of confidence because they knew that they had they knew that they had um set up the situation to try to persevere to win they knew they knew that they had manipulated everything in their favor and therefore they were able to enter the city of shreem bata they were able to end enter with a sense of confidence and calm because they knew it would turn in their favor and when you go through life and you know and even as you face hard things and we're dominant for ari this morning babe and please god everything is going to be well and you wonder and you wait tests and returns and what's going to happen and what will be and it's not easy it's not easy a flat tire is nothing compared to the waiting some are doing and i've told my family thank god we've been negative i've tested three times i've been negative all three times but i will tell you if nothing else it gave me a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of what people waiting for real tests are waiting what it's like to wait to hear back from that lab or from that report and to want to know something that could change the trajectory of your life the level of empathy it gives me for the people who have to sit and wait a fraction of a fraction and nothing of a nothing of what they go through when we wait particularly a rapid test you're waiting a whole 20 minutes to hear what it is should make all of us more sympathetic and empathetic more loving and more caring more understanding of people who have to wait for real tests real tests with real negative impact with real negative impact but this is the message of schwartz and we're really finishing up in the next couple of sessions we'll get through this piece and turn to our next lemur because we've been learning this for a long many months together already but this is where schwartz is telling us stop looking for the answer elsewhere stop looking for the solution now many people said rabbi if only someone would give me the inspiring speech rabbi if only he gave me the right book if only life you know treated me a certain way then i'd have beetak no the answer is not outside of you the answer is not in someone else the answer is not in some seminar some speech some book the answer is inside you just peel it back reveal it uncover it and find it and express it and nurture it the answer is inside you turn to him trust in him and in those moments take that deep breath and remember anode melvado whether you want to sing it or say it whether you just want to think it ain't mavado there is no one there is nothing the nefesh the schoola that when you're going through a difficult time when you're in a circumstance you're not sure how you'll get out simply declare over and over again ain't novado there is nothing but you so whichever way the test turns out however this flat tire story turns out i i've never lost my calmer cool why would i because you're the one planning the program i'm just along for the ride you the omnipotent infinite being are the ones are the one who has organized how this is meant to be it's an adventure i can't wait to find out are we going to be back on the road are we going to be sleeping in a hotel are we going to be towed or are we going to get to our destination when how why is the test going to be positive and we have to re-figure out a timeline and quantitating and davin of course that no one's health fails or is the test going to be negative and we're back on track to where we were i'm not worried either way because you're in charge you're in control you decide and i'd much rather you decide than i decide because if it's a choice between your timeline or mine if it's a choice between your results or mine and you're omnipotent infinite always knows what's best i defer to you i choose you each and every time each and every time so i share these stories not for your sympathy because hashem everything is turned out amazing and well and wonderful and wonderful and amir to sham it should for all of you and all of us as well and even when it doesn't every time you take two steps forward it's like you take a step back but each time he comes through one way or another things work out and the mirta should continue to work out a good hardest should be a good month of not just of but i'll end with this because it really actually fits exactly into what we're saying and thank you for bearing with me and going a little extra over this week why is it called it's the month of it's the month of why is it called and the answer is because this is the month that we return to our father yes our father withdrew for a time he says you don't get along with the rest of my children i don't want to spend time with you you can't cozy up to me when you can't get along with your siblings if you don't get along with your siblings and you and i are not close we're not good until you figure it out with your siblings that's what akash baruch says and therefore he has to withdraw from a way that feels critical in a way that feels painful and we died and we long to restore and to reconnect and to reconcile with him to be together again but even that is an act that is says the katsuka you know if you see an adult who's represent why the adult is the child's parent because that no no regular adult cares enough about the child to reprimand them the only one who cares enough who's invested enough to represent them as their own parent and so even though this is the month we feel reprimanded by hashem the menachem of what's comforting is to know he's our father even when he's reprimanding us even when he's teaching us a lesson even when he's trying to rehabilitate us he's menachem of that in itself is evidence that he is our father that itself should be a source of so peel back those layers and take off those soiled garments and reveal the pentaleia the spark of caduceus of holiness inside us the sense of being able to live with ain't no vado and with it wishing everyone stay happy stay healthy and stay holy have a wonderful day tonight nine o'clock behind the bhima with the one and only ellie beer the founder of united hatsala who recently recovered from corona and it was a heroic founder of an amazing movement of hatzala join us tonight nine o'clock wishing everyone a wonderful day i