Living With Emunah (Part 149): Fly Above the Turbulence

good morning everyone it's great to see you again for our weekly learning of living with emunah or weekly support group of living with them you know reminding ourselves that Hashem role in our lives that nothing that happens is random or chance but it's by design and from above it is what's best for us even when it doesn't feel that way and the serenity the peace that can provide it doesn't mean that we don't have things that we have to battle and fight it means we have things that we have to get through but while we're doing yet we do so with the confidence and the calmness of knowing it's the way it was meant to be I want to thank profusely we have many sponsors this morning dr. 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lessons that we'll learn and take with us and the Emunah please God that we'll practice should be in the merit and the memory of all those for whom this morning is sponsored we are continuing our study of the beautiful essay a bite of Schwartz or Itamar Schwartz the author of the Belva via das Biswanath Cano yerba Tejon that again we've been developing this team now for several months the idea that there was an internal self an external self the idea that on the outside we battle from we wake up till we fall asleep at night we're battling to wake up were battling what to say what to wear where to go how to be at what to eat we're battling battling battling battling to earn a living battling to stay healthy battling to have relationships that are meaningful and functional and wonderful we're battling from when we wake up until we fall asleep however internally if we're living with him when it'd be tough own it tapping into and touching good selam aleykum the godly spark the best version of ourselves then we know that everything that happens is happening the way it was meant to happen and it brings out the best mmm excuse me the best of us we left off last time with this beautiful analysis of an amazing Gemara the Gemara talks about a great rabbi runs into one of his disciples one of his students and sees that that student is afraid is filled with anxiety worry and fear of what will be of what's not in his control and he turns to that student he says that student I see that you have hate I see that you've made mistakes again not sin but mistakes and we asked what does that mean isn't it natural and normal you're living in a crazy time for people to be worried afraid fearful unsure uncertain to be to ascribe blame such a person's living with hate and we developed the notion or Schwarz developed the notion that what it means is when we make a mistake we've opened the door we've created a mouth of hvala we've created an angel of destruction I'm not going to go through the whole example again I actually got phone calls from people who told me that Trader Joe's corn chips are their kryptonite too I felt very validated and wonderful to hear actually the person called me to tell me that because of my kryptonite they tasted the Trader Joe's corn chips and in fact taka they are delicious so I get a commission now from Trader Joe's not but anyway so what happens so when you have no temptation when you realize that you're not going to put that food poison in your body when you'd never eat something that has no nutritional benefit or value you're in a great place there's no worry you're in the zone then the first time you give in late at night you eat a couple corn chips next thing you know you finish it all bad you have a hate you made a mistake you've created a molecule kavala what happened because the next day the scale didn't explode the scale didn't break it didn't blow up end up saying to yourself clearly it's not so bad clearly it's not such as a disaster it's not so terrible you've created a molecule Kavala that you now have to contend with and that you have to overcome so hate the very mistakes that we make the battles we lose become the new enemy that we face trying to convince us that were unworthy we're incapable were incompetent trying to convince us that there's no point we're not going to win anyway so the person who walks around and says how am I going to win the battle how am I going to overcome and triumph how will I make it on the other side how will I come out okay such a person obviously has made a mistake that they now need to contend with but the person the more that we can remain pure the more that we can remain holy the more we can remain above the mistakes then the less feeling we'll have of confronting enemies and battling from without that was what we talked about what we talked about last side so we pick up hush of London locks our love here it's very important Cesare Schwartz to go back and to clarify to emphasize Chao option is Barnaby hair a new commission aides fee so showing us our felucca zoomies ooh we've been talking about constantly for weeks for months now we've been talking about the fact that there are two perspectives we bring to life think about it's 8:50 a.m. this morning so far what did we battle with the Sun the heat the humidity diving battled was getting out of bed having got to sleep so late at night so exhausted not even a good resting restful sleep battled with eating the wrong things for breakfast that would be unhealthy battled with my computer deciding it had to download all of his updates exactly when I'm supposed to teach him becoming it accessible to be broadcast the the total essence I wanted to share battle battle battle battle battle battle it's 8:45 in the morning I'm already exhausted there's the external existence of the external self the external fights and battles that we go through as a natural literally a natural part of every single day heat saunas Bolinas parque de batata I'm with Lisa's be tough on tania's so there's the external I've made mistakes I've given birth to Malacca hvala to angels of destruction I said the wrong thing looked at the wrong thing ate the wrong thing went the wrong place let my mind wander during doubt I've made mistakes and those mistakes breed those mistakes give birth to the fear of future mistakes that's the external self but we also have to be tough on Ponemah Sokolow bunderslaw sorry sorry turns la marquise Schechter he barakatuh sup enemies ms he's emphasized this a few times and therefore so do we one should not think that what we're saying is that the echo sense of self is not true as fake as counterfeit isn't real these are real battles your computer not cooperating is a battle it's frustrating technology is the greatest gift in the greatest curse when it all works out well there's nothing better and when you have a virus or it shuts down or it locks up or you have a problem with it it's that there's the bane of your existence these battles are very very real they're frustrating they're disappointing they're difficult these external battles are very very real battles they're not checkered they're not counterfeit but I got three supplements Emma's so don't think really I'm supposed to say oh I'm so happy my computer froze and I wasn't able to teach I'm so happy that I gave it an 8 those corn chips I'm so happy that this didn't work out of the other thing didn't work out no that's checkered that's the lie it's true these battles are very very real alien a car lock in my mushroom it's you see mike uyama boyfriend gum urban nefesh zubik its own use resume app anemias they're both real they're both true simultaneously this is actually what I'm gonna write my article about please get out for this week I have to get to today I see the great Barbara Frankel is on Barbara with the permission of your husband I hope you weren't with him I'm gonna share the story of your 50th 50th wedding anniversary which is impossible because the only 30 years old but your 50th wedding anniversary a few years ago and a very powerful story there are people with disappointments all around I'm pleased God speaking at a small wedding next weekend the caller said to me she said respectfully she said rabbi do me a favor said what she said please don't say how perfect Kove it is or how wonderful or how much this is meant to be because it stinks and I said I would never say that I appreciate her concern that I would I would never have said that but she's a hundred percent right externally you can say I'm really disappointed this is not the way I wanted it this is my letter to graduates graduates are graduating and this isn't the graduation that they worked so hard to achieve be it eighth grade or four years of high school college graduate school they didn't work this hard to have this kind of muted graduation this compromise graduation so whether it's the symbol of the graduation and my mother-in-law who right now is sitting Shiva but only in her driveway spaced a few people zoom who thought that she would honor her mother's memory in such a compromised fashion that that it Sonja's those battles of having to accept the battles of having to cooperate with disappointing versions of the way life is being led right now they're very real and if you say to that Carla or you say to that oval or you say to that graduate no you should listen to my omona shear that's the way it's meant to be this is perfect it's fantastic it's excited you should be dancing the Kazakh this is a May thing that look at you like you're crazy and you are crazy these are very real battles it's not checker it's not false or counterfeit to say that it's disappointing it's frustrating and it's difficult it's also not inaccurate it's also not a lie to say that it is all from a Shem it's the way it's meant to be and this isn't the end of the story you'll hear the Frankl story that even when the wedding isn't the way you wanted even if it takes 50 years later you can have an event that is really can't replace but is is like a wedding so it's they're both true simultaneously you can have two truths you can have two truths our country is forgetting that most people are forgetting that there's a notion of nuance and simultaneous truths you can hold two truths simultaneously even when they see they're competing you're able to hold two truths simultaneously they're not mutually exclusive the issues of the day and be it on the issue of emunah so we shouldn't be dismissive or callous or marginalize or make the person who's disappointed frustrated or hurt feel bad for feeling that way it's a very real battle that they're battling that they're facing that they're facing on the other hand it's also true that the P meais of the best version of themselves is able to simultaneously say I'm disappointed but I accept it I'm disappointed but I submit to a Shem I'm disappointed but I also am NOT gonna lose my calm and my cool give up my piece of my serenity because I do accept that it comes from above Elaine sneaked her luck in my mushroom it see you seem Akiyama but open gum or benefice these are two truths simultaneously zoobel Antonius one is external bazooka penis and the other is internal navarre ablution Limu dim and this is not a new insight this is an insight that is part of the very fabric of our tradition listen to this beautiful idea Navarre Bella shall amudhan Li acaba v know how Ashley Sheamus the great Yakima V know our great patriarch Yakov had two names he had two names Yaakov the Israel two names Yaakov ashamed the yadavas his bark evasive Yaakov got the name Yaakov because he shared a room with his twin brother who emerged first and Yaakov was grabbing onto his foot to his heel with relish a mystery similar Kimba in Menasha to cow and he gains the name is so he saw as a name for he battled with God and with men and he triumphs thought to how he walked away as an aside parenthetically it's a peculiar name to give Yaakov you should give him the name that to how we should be behaving how why are we banana throat kisser ISA Teresa means you battled but to hominins you one wouldn't want a name his progeny when you want to name his people in his nation you one why are we named in perpetuity after the fact that he battled which is a lesson into itself by cell of a chick says if you look carefully at that section what do ya Cove in the angel battle about what are they fighting about are they fighting about gun control abortion race relations economy taxation peace plan had to open up Cova tree phasing or reentry what were they fighting about most people fight most nations fight about money people fight about women people fight about power people fight about stature what were they fighting about the Torres ambiguous it never tells us and reversal of a chick says it's by design because what was not important was what they were fighting about what was important is that Yaakov was battling he didn't give up he was trying to overcome he was aspiring he was your stretching he was trying to grow and that's why we're not named about to call that we won were named kisser ISA Israel are people that never give up and never give in we don't forfeit or concede the battle I ate the corn chips one night but Hashem since then I haven't gone back about two how kisser ISA you can you can stay part of the battle and you can win claw Mar says her Schwartz the Shona mia Verma Venus Africa she - mommy I'm from most of the US has hey the shimabukuro Avraham unlike Avram whose name was also changed Avram is introduced to us without the hey he's of wrong and then Hashem changes his name and gives him a hey he throws in a hey for free Avram can I have a hey hi coach Morocco and I chamois says yes gives him the hey he goes from Avram to Avraham and the Gemara Braavos tells us that once his name was changed we are forbidden for referring to him by the previous name his name changed his identity changed and he became a new person so Avram became Avraham forever ever we can Wahab apakah me minutiae Mike Odom of rum he doesn't maintain both names simultaneously he only now has one name it's Avraham it supplants it replaces the name earlier commercial Marquez a coca-cola Avram Avram Avram / ba say you violated prohibition Lumas dosed Bianca Vivino Enid overcame when it comes to our great patriarchy och it's not true Kamla Akashi Alchemist Bartley Tinashe me so lopaka me men who schmohawk Odom even after yakko's name has changed nevertheless it doesn't supplant it doesn't replace now he has two names ooh two names Yaakov any Stroh I don't know which one he wrote when he took the SATs but Yaakov and you throw now he has two names Avram became Avraham it changed altogether he had no hesitation what name to put in his SAT for him but Yaakov had a hesitation because Yaakov now has two names simultaneously he's both Yaakov and Israel what's going on Hassid baja muka laka the very deep profound beautiful reason sure gumption is Katja Madrigal you know Ponemah CEO socially crazy swell because even after Yaakov achieves this higher more elevated exalted level even after Jakov taps into a piece of himself that he realizes his ability to be you know I'm a Hanukkah codon mission is Yaakov la hoof qey Allah who knew shavanasa la bikina skit Sonja sand nefesh what does it mean that he was Yaakov and Easter all simultaneously it means the external self and the internal self the external battling the holding onto the heel the external they would have to still fight and confront an ace of that would still have attempts to exterminate and eliminate that would still have voices of inadequacy and insecurity that's a Yaakov the Asura L is the best version of himself it's himself it's when he's running on all cylinders it's when he realizes I'm it sounded like a mom got out of the piece of God in me there's a harmony to the universe and everything that happens happens the way it's meant to be and I'm never afraid and I'm never worried and I'm never anxious I'm never disappointed I'm never upset I'm able to simply accept and go with the flow and roll with the punches and I'm able to experience in my new class a nephesh calm and there's a yak of a nice roll it reflects the fit Sonia stop enemies the external the internal and we both we both have Yaakov and we both have a sense of a you throw as well we have both in us shame Yaakov zone Maria's our cave Yaakov is the name heal the bottom of your foot but the cleanest amid social Adam - back valve these are the mitzvahs parshas hf Rashi the beginning of patches a curve tells us it's called partial a cave a cave Tish moon was coming to us a illa if you listen to all these mitzvahs it give Russia their says it means the mitzvahs that you stomp on with your feet small insignificant minutia didn't cares who cares what order I tie my shoes who cares if I said the Braco who cares if I was so careful about the the label of the food who cares who cares who cares who cares Hashem cares it makes a difference to him and we should care so the word a cave Yaakov comes from the heel the bottom of the foot what we walk with what first hits the ground what we step on mammalian bathenosh Lancashire fashion got on my fate there's the Peace of Yaakov Shem Agora my fate when Yakko was gonna reunite with Asaph he's very worried he turns to ash M he's very worried and we wonder the great Yakko is worried I don't understand lack of the Isha Aruna lack of the MS lack of the Bakir Havas Yaakov was the perfection of the patriarchs the best of those who come before him Yaakov who's sat on a lap and learns from his family it's hook and his grandfather Avram who learned from his mother if gun his grandmother Sarah this Yaakov is worried when he's about to reunite with Asaph Shem Allegra my fate where's his Emunah the answer is it wasn't his role that was worried it was Yaakov that was worried the Yaakov in us worries and is fearful and says Shemin aggramar fate I made a mistake before and maybe that gave birth to a male hvala maybe I created an angel of destruction maybe my previous mistake an error will enable more and that I have to worry about the Yaakov in him was worried about that reunion however however Loomis Ostrom Israel he was at the same time still Israel all right who knew him this sorrow shall I serve in its foe he fought with the angel of anyone but malhotra our brothers bark Oracle the male Aquarius Baba is not just they trained me she asked them least negate the throttle and him nose kiss Arisa mlo Kim in kiss Arisa yeah about to cow what's the Pasek I really lost the key sorry Samuel okay my man a shimmer took out these throw em knows but to how I can win I can silence that voice of inadequacy of insecurity I can silence that voice of fear of worry of uncertainty I can silence that voice of what will be not to how I've been there before then there done that and that too how I came out the other side and I sham had a plan and it worked out it was the way it was meant to be there was a tomorrow there was a 50th anniversary it was able to happen no it doesn't work that way for everybody persons waiting for a test a diagnosis whether a treatment has worked and it doesn't always work out well it doesn't always work out well sometimes there's a tragic end but that too is by designed in the way it was meant to be then to were able to tap into the East role in us somehow to find the Easter all in us there are extraordinary people in our lifetime experience lost I'm talking about victims of terror whose family were were murdered brutally by terrorists I'm talking about survivors of the Holocaust I'm talking about people who have fire caused the loss of their whole family who also not only had the Jakov in them but they were able to tap into that you saw and they were able to say this was painful and difficult and I so badly wish it it weren't but yet I believe in a sham I believe this wasn't random I believe somehow somehow this is the way it was meant to be so Yaakov his name has changed but he retains the name Yaakov because there are both parts within himself and within ourselves there's the piece of us that's worried a loved one is in the hospital and sick we're worried about our partner how we are living and pay the bills we're worried about whether we made the right decision to dominant doors even with the most extreme caution care and and guidelines were worried worried worried there's the Yaakov in us Shem EE gramma fate I've made mistakes in the past maybe mice mistakes in the present will negatively influence my future but then we have to tap into the Israel we have to take a pause and take a deep breath I always say it's not my insight how do you return we can learn actually because he has a whole a state of Schwartz the Pahlavi has a whole essay about breathing you'd say there's a total of breathing there's a total of the Torah of deep breaths the Torah of breathing it's not just the Yogi's and the people who do yoga and the mindfulness gurus they took it from us is it good from us the same word Mishima and neshama Mishima means breath the same as your soul when you take a deep mishima when you take a deep breath you restore your soul feel free to do it right now with me in through the nose out through the mouth with a deep deep breath you literally restore your soul you come feel every muscle in your body loosen up on tense relax let go of the yaakov and make contact with these throw let go of being so anxious and worried and tense of breathing so shallowly of blood pressure so raised take that deep breath let go and let God relax your muscles and say you know what my loved one is sick I'm worried about my pernessa are we making the right decisions with guidelines what will be with Corona how do we improve race issues in this car the thing is that's plaguing us all legitimate things to worry about and to work on to fix whatever it is take the deep breath restore your soul the way this why isn't the Shema Shemin the same word because how did we get our soul to begin with the way that we received our soul to begin with God took some mud some earth he fashioned man and he breathed life into him crime Felucia the nefesh affined describes cabbalistic ly like a glass blower the glass blower takes a deep breath in and then inflates the glass with its own breath so that glass is really an extension it's really a creation of the artist who blew the glass because barnacle was that glass blower he took a deep breath inside himself kitty aho so to say and he breathed life into us and therefore we became living animated breathing beings we carry that's how he got that element came inside us it's his very breath so we returned to the telemental kimonos we returned to the Israel in us through the way we received it to begin with we returned to the neshamah through Enoshima we take a deep deep breath : - Emma - hello Kahala Luca don't read a call Hannah schemata halakhah don't read it every with every soul but call Hanna Shima with every breath I see you God and I praise you but every time lungs are working with every breath I'm able to take with every extension I'm able to live I feel your presence so when your muscles are tightening and your blood pressures rising and you're worried about what will begin you're anxious when the Jakov in you is screaming the way to silence him is to take a deep breath to become to let go of all your muscles I did yoga for a little bit while for a little while my favorite part of it had meningitis several years ago I was in the hospital for eight days I couldn't get rid of the headaches nothing even the strongest drugs so that I did acupuncture and yoga and I got rid of the headaches and to this day it was because of the acupuncture and yoga maybe maybe they were gonna be gone anyway maybe it was psychosomatic or maybe they weren't I'm very open to the possibility they worked they were wonderful but if you've ever done yoga you know the best part of yoga is I don't remember the formal technical name it's when you lie on the ground afterwards completely still anyone here ever doing yoga yoga and you're supposed to picture that your ice melting into water and they say relax your eyebrows and relax your cheek muscles and relax your shoulders and you relax everything the top of your head to the bottom of your feet and usually two minutes and I was fast asleep to the great frustration of my yoga teacher but your ice melting into water it was the best part of the yo it was worth doing the whole yoga just to be able to get to ice turning into water melting into water relax every muscle in your body at the beginning of yoga you're tense you're worried you're anxious you yaakov by the end you're a puddle of your soil you're just a relaxed sleeping sense uh corpse pose thank you our fact checkers is he living with them when it today the corpse pose your ice melting into water and you become you become you throw you take those deep breaths breathing is all about yoga it's all about relaxing stretching the muscle while you breathe into it while you take deep breaths into it anyway it sounds so new-age today so neo I hope you'll come back next week so there's a yaakov in Israel there's two parts to each and every one of us we both have that within ourselves and the question is which one we're going to express and realize and they're both true is Yaakov a lie no God didn't change his name to Israel and end up purging the name Yaakov it was still on his birth certificate Yaakov drivers like said both Yaakov and neutral Avraham his driver's license had to change he had to re-register his name his marriage certificate his birth certificate it went from Avram to Avraham but Yaakov has on his driver's license both Yaakov any swell because we all have both of those within ourselves we are both Yaakov and you throw we are the piece that is Yaakov that's worried that's uncertain that's concerned and we have the presets he throw that's able to have come with some confidence it's able to believe that - how that we will get through that there is a rhyme and reason that it makes sense NIMS IKEA ah misirlou machinima Drago's but every show are the miyako Buffett song as we scrub apneas Yaakov is the external he throws the internal the other bamboo does so numbered so the shoe of bench la madre go solo other shadows - Roy but physically tell Michelle Jakov how I should call Yama Sydnor shil is of a middle of the Catterick no film is not get a love we could remain in the status of Yaakov and then we are confronting battling and fighting our alter ego our whole lives and here the alter ego is the ego of panic a fear of uncertainty of anxiety the photography bocalee solution will show kasha is a harvested chakra miss kerime bomb acting - my Sheila know so the yak of Dan'l's uma Zoe's Adam Sheila's a llama Drago's Israel whose Acme fate those who can rise up we can elevate ourselves we can realize being a youth row then we are pure from sin from mistakes who knew how many Turkish etc Basilico we are VAT - how we defeat that voice inside ourselves we have learned to live life that doesn't get frustrated at the red light were the delayed flight were the people around us not cooperating or the children have been tuck in their chair left the toys in the middle of the floor that dinner wasn't made the time that we wanted or needed it too thought we needed it to be made or that the dry cleaning wasn't picked up or god forbid that we got bad news about a loved one or god forbid that we realized we were furloughed or laid off that you throwing us knows not to how go ahead go for it bring it on whatever you're gonna throw my way Kisa Risa I battled Vatu hell and I've triumph the Yaakov enough says a battle I'm exhausted I don't know if I have what it takes these Cyril and I says this harmony to the universe there's order this meaning this purpose to this world is every burner shal is it almighty and he loves me and he has my back and he's orchestrating at all and somehow it's all for a reason hi Scott Nakamura - New York vehicle chakashi little talk shows that Maximus is Magda see it's a horrible yourself Alucard via Chicago but vironment a fat Fela income equality shaolin allah cocky rocky sara lee yes there is no battle there's no confrontation I always tell you about our families what's that I've got for practice group and one of my daughters posted in yesterday she had ordered shoes online and they came a while ago but they were sent the wrong size and so she looked at them and they did sitting in a room they were the wrong size she was frustrated disappointed it was annoying she had to return it get the new size anyway but she put the shoe on to try it just before she's in the back and I turned out the wrong size for this particular model fit her perfectly a Chicago practice if they would have sent her the size she requested it wasn't a fit her they sent to the wrong size and it wasn't by accident and so even though her first reaction which she opened the package was to see the size and say can't they get anything right and they sent me the wrong one and so annoying and now I gotta return it I gotta send it back and I got a lot of the right one at first we think kiss Arisa I'm battling this and the scope of things is a very minor battle unless you have to pay the credit card bill but it's a very minor battle in the scope of things in the scheme of things but you begin by feeling and battling and you end by saying wow by to how Hashem had a master plan so again it means the next time that you get the wrong size shoe don't jump to lose your cool it could be it's gonna be the wrong size and it could be you're gonna have to make your way to return it and order the new one it could be it could be it doesn't always work out with the happy ending that it does when it goes on mask off a practice group for the good sometimes they're such graphic artists or the bed would you believe I got the wrong size shoe maybe I'm not meant to have it to where it maybe I wasn't meant to have it now and now I have to go through the pain of whatever it's gonna take that's also that's also about to hell that's also part of Hashem is master and divine well it's also part of his Providence that's also part of his part of his design let's just finish this section variations have really other notes will be issues with Tico boutique on hello Camus is Adam Yashar God made us straight he made us honest with integrity he made everything clear Gulam came inshallah him a big huge bonus Robbie Midori chef EDA three dishes great since Adam introduced to the world of the notion of the mistake of negligence the motion the notion of dismissing Hashem's will Mahina found Allah I give Shiba inus Yaakov so before the faith we talked about going back to the garden a few weeks ago that was the title of our shear of living with emunah or trying to get back in the garden together life in the garden was perfect before other made this fate before he invented this Malek hawala before he fell short life was fairly straightforward you did what you had to do and it was all provided for you and you saw him everywhere but once he made that mistake he introduced the Yaakov the faith of the most shocking you each time show me a new social other Mauritian kakuka baqia covered Costa Chica Nevada admiration the image of Yaakov Alvino which is parallel deformed from the image of a demurrer shown is engraved on the key suhaka bowed and the divine chariot in the sky because that's how we repair we repair for the first mistake other Mauritian made by having to live with the Yaakov in us diet equally all of my drink extremist we are shows from advocacy throw ya shahr el cielo finish a minge I'll show how Yahshua say ownership Carmela hate the name Israel includes the word Yashar we're trying to get back to a place of Yashar in Israel Shariah shower where directions doesn't matter where you're going the answer is yeah sure yeah sure we are meant to be a shower to just be straight don't make convoluted offense cash bonus I'll show me a few this then you then I want it this way in a husband yeah sure keep it straight keep it simple then Cana Oldham butts new a bench name I Drago's McCarver yamagishi mo on the one hand were wrestling we're battling and we get injured like Jakov did in his hip and a sciatic nerve or shot on your left gob and my driggity can brag lying but they rush Adam - Big Love me either but on the other hand sir ISA ashamed I like him but - how do my drink Yannick for in Sutton amassed an image like this the male is ort conchiglie fetish Jamaica dishes thesis of autonomous the FN key is occur Shimano one change throw our main name is Israel B'nai Israel were not been a yak over B'nai Israel because true we all have a Yaakov in us but the best version of ourselves as the Israel so therefore we are in perpetuity not called been a Yaakov but we are B'nai Israel I'll just end with a metaphor that just came to me you ever fly remember when we usually go on an airplane minutes - I'm against here so when you fly you ever remember the plane hit some turbulence so what does the captain do kevin says actually this is your captain speaking up here I'm coming from the cockpit and I wanna let you know we hit some turbulence and I'm gonna take us up to 35,000 feet because I could see on the radar that a 35,000 feet there's no turbulence so we're gonna go up above the cloud and the bad weather because by rising up above it we're going to be able to transcend the turbulence so you can fly you can travel through life you can fly in the area that this turbulence or you could rise above it and you can get above the turbulence where it's clear flying that's Yakko versus Israel a lack of life is a turbulent life the occupied visitor its battling its fighting and struggling Easter life is flying above the clouds above the inclement weather it's being able to rise above it so mr. 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