#619: Amida: Modim (Part 15)

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we said means both to count a mispar and means to tell the story what do counting and telling a story have in common so I missed the chance count and recount you count is to count a number and to recount is to tell a story and when we do we are elaborating we we're dwelling on the Miracles hem has done last night we quoted on the Corb too we have to eat it Corb in a less time than usual which means we have to invite others because a person is really grateful doesn't keep it to themselves a person is truly grateful shares it and spreads it screams it from the rooftop wants the entire world to know I can't wait to scream Wednesday night my gratitude to the entire world for finishing this campaign and getting back to what I love to do and dropping what I never signed up to do and I will scream it with your help it could be sooner but I'll scream it from the rooftops for all to hear another difference between no and is that no refers to our gratitude our relationship specifically with Hashem Hashem privately intimately I genuinely and authentically tell you how grateful I am I focus on what I have not what's missing the BR in my life not what I wish there was more of noem in our own inate conversation in our own intimate way to you to you I Surrender and submit to you I Express gratitude for all the good is I publicize it I spread it I share it to others you see this in it's become a beautiful popular song so that you do for me in my life I have a roof my legs my eyes my ears they work I have food I could digest and eliminate the food maybe there are people in my home with to you I talk about I admit I confess I declare the you do with me and to everyone around me the Wonders you do so again it's this two stage if all we do is tell Hashem but we keep it private how grateful are we the more genuinely grateful one is the more they elaborate the more they spread the more they share it with others rautner in his M we mentioned in introducing mod that has the famous Insight that the same word mod means two things mod means admission and mod means gratitude and we quoted roodner because in every expression of gratitude is an admission what are you admitting I needed you I benefited from you thank you if a person is not humble enough to admit that they need others they'll never say thank you arrogant people arrogant people struggle with gratitude arrogant people struggle to say thank you because they want to feel I'm independent I don't need anyone I got it covered I'm good to go I don't need anyone I don't need anything but a person who humble enough to realize I'm very dependent I'm dependent on people around me and most of all I'm dependent on hem so that person will always be grateful and boundless gratitude an endless gratitude and therefore the two things go together you can make an admission to and be grateful for because implicit in every expression of gratitude is the admission I need you Asner we quoted that at the beginning but then in that M applies it here to what we're up to in modim because modim began and we say first now it's so what changed from Mod so says these are the two types of the two types of We Begin the paragraph This is so important to understand according to the opening mod is not I'm grateful it's I admit I admit hasem the very first thing is to admit you control the world you fear the velt you're the Creator you're the source of all existence I wouldn't be here and I can't have anything I have without you so is is the of admission I admit you're in charge you're in control I work for you you don't work for me this is your world now that I've said the modem of admission no de not I'm grateful to you so both translations both meanings of the word modm admission and thank you are both present in what order the very first thing before you could say thank you is I have to admit you did something for me I have to admit I needed you I have to admit you enhanced you enriched me once I can make that admission I'm humble enough to make that admission I Rely I depend on you you are a source of something for me Hashem is the source of everything once I make that admission now I can be grateful so begin mod I admit that and then we can get to no and therefore I'm grateful for I admit that and then I'm grateful for it's the same word in both places but it has a different meaning