#608: Amida: Modim (Part 4)

S series respons by the Saka family and we are on the 18th of gratitude which the told us follows directly after they are really they're one and the same the aod the mission the Mandate the service of a Jew is our name yeh is to be filled with gratitude to be filled with gratitude so we last left off we went through the sh took us through the historical precedent for this the gates wouldn't open he invoked his father David the gates opened commented this with gratitude that was able to have closure for the mistake that he said he made we shouldn't say he made a mistake he said he made and the closure the Forgiveness that Hashem granted that second change reflected in the opening of the Gate of the theim commented with gratitude this is evident this notion the connection between the previous the 17th and now this modm the 18th bra is also evident in another understanding about what hudah is to begin with we think of H modm the last three bras of the amid are bras of gratitude and none more explicit than modm itself in which we bow we'll talk about bowing surrender deference gratitude thankfulness to hasem for all he does for us but the word mod has a second meaning and ra and writes this explicitly but long before the Mah says similarly on that GAR Mill the gar that gives the order the chronology of all the Bros that GAR Mill that told us that aod that follows aod the comments there the reason is is also what does that mean gratitude is the same language as v as confession so the mar writes the same way that a person says when a sacrifice is offered person does leans on it offers confesses upon it what's that confession a person makes a mistake of sometimes thinking I'm in charge I'm in control I can indulge my instinct my Temptation my desire I run the world not Hashem to it's a little bit of heresy so when a person would bring a corbon the word corbon would want to draw close to God Slaughter the animal slaughtering the animal in us the Nei the animal Instinct the animal soul and promise and pledge to only to only express our Godly Soul so a person would do V they would admit and confess you're in charge not me you run the world not I I work for you you don't work for me that V was part of the aod so right after the aod comes mod not mod of gratitude but mod of the mod of the mod of confession the modem of admission why would we have the same word for both confession and admission and for gratitude there are no synonyms in Biblical Hebrew and the Hebrew language if we have two meanings to one word it means that those meanings are related those meanings overlap so why would gratitude and admission have the same have the same word so here ra elucidates rautner says sometimes a person could be mod sometimes you could be mod Al mod means I'm grateful to you thank you so much for the slushy or today for the hot coffee maybe soup mod I'm grateful to you mod means if you say to me Goldberg you owe me a 100 bucks I say I admit I admit I confess I admit to you that I owe you the $100 I mod about something I admit or I mod I'm grateful how are they related what's the connection said hutner so brilliantly said hutner implicit in every expression of gratitude is the admission I needed you I benefited from you see arrogant people want to act independent I don't need anyone I don't need anything I got it I'm good to go I don't need anyone an arrogant person struggles with expressing gratitude because gratitude includes the implicit acknowledgement the admission the confession I wasn't good without you I don't have it I'm dependent not independent I need you you benefited you enriched my life and thank you I'm grateful to you for it so has that dual meaning because those two meanings are really one and the same namely within every expression of gratitude is the admission thank you you enhanced my life thank you I needed you thank you you did something for me so based on this we can understand why service which includes V in the aod with the carbonos came of v and then gratitude is an extension an expression of viu this is the viu admission and then if you're prepared to make admissions if a person is prepared to admit then they'll admit I needed someone and I'm grateful to be grateful is an extension of the capacity to be able to to be able to admit alludes to this like I say in inell more explicitly the two meanings of this word the ability to be mod now we understand bringing it back to the and the historical precedent when did the when did the when did the Angels offer the blessing author that blessing that it's good to be grateful to you God after they see schlomo invoked David what did David do he made an admission and therefore David set the precedent he was prepared to admit a mistake and where he went wrong in the Merit of the admission of making that admission that confession that V is why The KES opened they commented if you're able to admit then we give thanks because gratitude thankfulness is an extension of that capacity to admit so essentially before we bow and say modm we'll pick up with bowing next time where that comes from and why we bow but when we bow and we say modm we're not just saying thank you it's not just our gratitude Journal our gratitude app called the amida and we think of things I'm grateful for when I say modm but all the amida leading up to modm is getting us ready for modm it's only the humble person and daving is an exercise and humility it's only the person who's so humble that they can admit they need others will be prepared to thank you so if you can't say the daving until modim you'll struggle to say modim it's only when we can admit that we can express that gratitude there's so much to be grateful for