Tisha Bav 5783 (Ep. 194)

unfortunately it is once again tischbook and uh I have noticed that my Tish above recordings tend to get many more views than my other recordings and I don't think that's because the content of what I have to say on tishova was that much better than what I have to say about pesach but it's because we are a door that is bereft we don't understand what it means to mourn a base of mikdash we are so far away from even remembering what it was uh a friend of mine was killed in a terrorist attack and he left behind you know a whole bunch of kids one of whom was a baby and one of whom was a few years old and you can imagine they had no idea what was going on they they didn't know what was happening and the little kid people came and they brought him toys he was very happy everyone's sending shiver talking about their father who had been killed ask Hashem and he's playing with his new truck his new car his new plane and I looked at him and I thought to myself that's just about all of us on tishop we don't understand what we've lost and uh and so there's a certain sense of desperation on our part because we know this is important yeah the famous story when they Western war was liberated so the religious soldiers you know ran over to the wall and they were diving and they were crying and this one secular cubistic was crying and his friend said what are you crying about says I'm crying that I have nothing to cry about and so a lot of us feel that way and tishiva we we know this is a tragedy we understand that intellectually but so when I was a kid in Camp they used to take us all to the gym and they gave us those little paper kinos that had been offset printed 25 times that was blurry and hard to read and we sat on the floor and our legs went numb and we rolled around we fell asleep Ken is unless you're a Tomah is hard to appreciate the Hebrew is hard it's filled with with references and you have to you have to really learn the kidneys to really appreciate it most people don't so when they come in on uh tissue of morning they look at as best they can they try to get through it and uh it does not turn out to be a meaningful experience for many people so uh my friend Robert margolin said to me one year let's go to where we left this yo he gives an explanatory keyness he speaks about each kinner we went out there and it was a different tissue because he was the Seaboard by explaining what the message of the kennel was now you can get a translation of it the article has a translation there are other translations but it's not the translation it's like I say by Tila you know you can translate words but that doesn't make it meaningful to you you just you know as I said you didn't understand it in Hebrew now you don't understand it in English but it's not anymore you haven't made a kinion on it you haven't acquired this to have any meaning to you so uh so it's a struggle so we went out there and it was really something very special I found that later that before you does the same thing and apparently this was tells they both learned and tells it tells used to do this and there were other places where they would speak about each kinna so that you could try to make some kind of a Kenyan in it so that when you're saying the kinna it's not just I'm saying words but hopefully the words have something that has relevance to my life and touches me because this is the bane of Jewish existence is that so often it's not relevant to us eventually we started a program like that in harnof and we had different uh different speakers and um and there were people who opposed it they ran around to get letters from this is not the way we do Guinness they wanted to stop it too many people were getting inspiration you know I'm sure they were filled with the best of intentions from their point of view but uh but when people are coming and searching for meaning and you're and you're stripping them of that opportunity I don't know how a person can interpret this as I'm doing residentship but okay I'm not here to judge anybody I'm sure on their level they thought it was a fine thing but uh um it's all part of that search for meaning that so many people want when I talk to people about what's frustrating about their Jewish Education they always tell me I feel like it's irrelevant doesn't have anything to do with my life yeah which is a problem because relationship Shapiro spoke about this once Lil motomanas whatever you learn has to turn into doing can't just be theoretical there has to be a a therefore to whatever it is that you're learning so um so it's tissue above again we're on the floor fasting uh going through various levels of availis to uh to capture and and try to understand for ourselves what's happening today now what's interesting is that there are people who picked up the form and forgot the purpose meaning the purpose of these events are for us to understand the keyness random drushes about Tish above and the Corbin you can do that in the afternoon but the morning is supposed to be kindness so people were talking in the morning it's just supposed to be focused on the kidness and not anything else and when you drift from that and end up doing drushas in general you've missed the point you missed the point and uh we um we here you know every year unfortunately on Tish above I hope one year we'll have a big podcast on on tissue but we try to take it cannot and to speak about it now there are certain people I know who don't have access uh to uh to all different ways of getting the podcast even though we're in a lot of different forms and places where you can watch it uh but we're starting a uh a what's up group some people have WhatsApp don't have anything else and we can send you the recording of the show um if you're interested you can uh send a message to 972-557-116-220 and say I'd like to be on the WhatsApp group and they will send you a recording of the show but uh all the different forms that we're on is all for the same purpose so that we can hopefully when we're saying our Guinness in the morning it could be meaningful there are people who knows a lot of Israelis who have lost contact with a lot of things but Jim Kippur there's still a concept so a lot of Israelis won't drive on Yom Kippur and I mean a majority won't drive and in Israel very often Yom Kippur the nickname for it in the media is Yoma ofanayam the day of the bicycles because you know people don't don't drive but they may not be keeping them Kippur but they're they're on bicycles so uh Tish above has become the day of the videos and every organization puts out a video um something that has to do with tissue box something that doesn't have anything to do with tissue buff and people watch videos so uh it's definitely better than watching uh something that's not related to Torah but it just underlines the fact that we are so desperate to try to find something that's going to wake us up and and give us meaning on Tish about that we'll watch anything whatever whatever's coming up but here what we try to do is take a kinna and speak about it in a way that will hopefully be meaningful to us so McKenna I'm going to speak about this year and I mean it's Hashem it'll be the last time that we have to do this is in most kinos it's kinayuda alif one yoshio in many ways this is the oldest kinner because himself said every year when we say Kenneth say echina for yoshio your show was a King who was a good King they got killed it seems strange that we have to pick out akina specifically and yimio with all the Corbin taking place and he was a witness is a witness to the Corbin and to the gullus and as a king of him walking around the walls of your shalayim there's Akin of him bringing up uh the others and moshebeno there's different kindness that that seem to feature yemiyahu as the witness to the qurban but uh here the conanium he wants us to say akinah on yoshio ishana at the age of eight he started to seek out Hashem he was attacked by beneham over here it means betrayal love and all of his Good Deeds didn't help us Victor all of the good Kings there was never anybody since moshebenu who did what yoshio did nonetheless their sin got him I shall come O as a delos list or which they put behind the door we'll talk about that so uh the let's try him which came up against us foreign he was sure that we reached the point where we would have the bracha will no sword would pass through our land [Music] but he overestimated the Jewish people and Pyro said listen let's not fight we just want to pass through your land to go and attack not you tell them from Nick ruber let's not fight yeah so they wanted to fight against bubble that killed a lot of the Egyptians did not listen to him it's fine so because of this sin of the doors foreign so uh Egypt came to fight against the below the softer more in this story [Music] um [Music] they shot yoshio with the arrows as we'll see the story odino Autumn ain't up because him Arrow after Arrow Shadows he was shot with 300 arrows kalim hitu who ran to him as he was dying put his ear to his mouth and his last words Hashem is that Sadiq and I rebelled against his word it continues the Kinder but this is the essence of the story yoshio became king at the age of eight and Yehuda had been religiously devastated by the Kings of Yehuda and avodazar had been brought in and sifri Torah had been destroyed and it was just just absolute disaster from beginning to end and yoshiyahu had uh the good heart and a good soul and Yama Yahoo took him under his wing and he accepted yemi Yahoo as his rabbi and yemi Yahoo developed him into a hiroshimai and and uh and he decided he was going to renovate the base of mikdish which had fallen into terrible disrepair over the well and uh and as they were renovating it they found the safetower because during the long reign of Menasha they had destroyed the sofitar they found myself a tour and it was open to the toy the terrible curses that we all know and this was a devastating sign defined in the basement Torah opened to the and so he engaged in a public renewal of attention he sought out all of the avodazora and destroyed it he sought out the over there Zora and you know punish them or got rid of them and he made a reform in class of public chuva as it says the likes of which it had been seen since the time of Moshe the time of a Victor and it was uh an amazing thing kaiso is finally starting to return to itself but it was fragile and the problem is and this is one of the advantages of having a Novi is that enough he knows things that you don't know there are things that you don't see that you don't understand we think we understand things when the decree came down on the Jews that they're all going to be exterminated they didn't know why and was in hiding at the time and they sent him a bird with a message why did the Jews at that time deserve to be destroyed and he answered because they went to the suda of Paro now we all know this that's why the Magilla is written that way it starts with a big meal Feast that Akash made and the Jews went even though and because of that that's why the decree Came Upon them but you see the escalation because it was not clear to them because that took place 11 years earlier they didn't make the association events play out you don't you don't always know where they're coming from or why and you have to you have to have a navi who can give you insight into the events and understand what they mean speaking of tells I remember hearing that entails moti Shabbos the Russia Yeshiva would sit down with the newspapers and learn shot in the news of the week what's happening what's going on what's the significance of this because people don't uh don't always understand what's happening we think we do Navi can go and put things into perspective that you were missing it was a terrible tragedy and uh unusual I am the number two bus blew up and uh was filled with from people and the people were killed they afterwards rode up vignettes about the people who died each one was a big excited than the one before and uh it was such a tragedy and the um there were people who put up posters saying this happened because women wear sheikhlach women wear wigs that's why this happened so pretty good if you're if you're a navi you could make that Association but otherwise how in the world could you possibly know someone told this toy I think it was real or Bach and he says seems to me that the tears of the parents who can't get their kids into school is enough to blow up 10 buses I don't think you have to go to the wigs he's not saying that's the reason he's just saying that for a person to say this is why it happened only a prophet can do that only if you have that kind of an Insight but a regular person can't do it so yoshiyahu was so convinced that his Mass chuva movement in client Israel was so successful that we're finally where we're supposed to be but you don't see everything I was once hired by Yeshiva which uh wanted to attain a particular status as a serious Yeshiva and uh I worked on it for three years at the end of three years I felt like um we finally got there we had we had a a really good Yeshiva you know I used to do a um a voluntary mishnais a half an hour before minha I started this years before when I first started in the Yeshiva to try to get people to come to mind because you know sometimes you have to wait for a minion as people have a break from one to three he started military three so uh this way I know that I always have a core of people who came to him so this year which was the third year half of the Yeshiva came to the optional machines I remember when I was traveling in America recruiting I came back and I would sit in the basement I'd prepare my mission ice and then I would get up exactly 2 30 on the on the dot and I would stop my shift which I'd been going for a couple weeks so I got up to start the mishnayas and there was a spontaneous burst of applause and I thought to myself if people are applauding is during their free time I don't think it gets much better than that so I said to the Russia Shiva you finally have the Yeshiva that you wanted everybody is is with the program he said to me how could you say we have a good Yeshiva when that kid won't get a haircut and that kid comes late to davening now you understand the kid wouldn't get a haircut came to diving and he also came to all the all the storm and all the sheriff and the kid who didn't come to diving also came to all of the shioram and all of the and all of the classes and everything yeah he had trouble getting up in the morning parenthetically 20 years later he's still sitting and learning you know but he looks at me and says how could you say we have a good Yeshiva I have to tell you I didn't see that I saw I saw people coming during their free time to learn mishnais and and being excited I I saw people Dominic you found the one kid who didn't come and you felt like it we don't have a rule that you have to get a haircut he does he wanted him to get a haircut how could you say we have a good Yeshiva so yoshio said to you Yahoo we finally have the Cloudy Israel that you always wanted we are back with the program we are Claudia cell it says you don't see everything there's still a Photoshop there's no other desire we we went to every house we did a door-to-door check we searched we there's still problems you don't see it yeah said you're just being negative you should see class for the way I see Clydesdale now here's a rule when one guy is a prophet the other one isn't and the prophet tells you there's a problem believe him and that's why it speaks about the of the losses what did they do on their doors they put a a votazara that was in two halves when you open the doors you couldn't see they disappeared so they came into check and it wasn't there it's not about his own here when they closed the doors it was there okay there's no way yoshio could have known that he went search door to door I didn't find it but yemio says you're making a mistake says I'm going to attack barbell I'm in Egypt by those over there to your North I want to just pass through your road pass through your land not gonna fight with anybody not gonna cause any trouble I just want to go and fight my enemies I have no issue with you yeshu you and I are okay and he said no because in that Parsha of Brokers and clothes one of the Brokers over there is that if you keep the Torah a sword will not pass through your land even a army that's going not to attack you won't use your land as a shortcut and yoshio was sure we were there you're making a mistake make a mistake the famous Martin getting which discusses the Corbin so yoga manzakai when it comes to Vespasian and tells him that he's going to be the king he says why don't you tell me sooner he says I couldn't get out of the city because of the Barrio Nim who uh want to make war and they've you know won't let anybody leaving so he says if there's a snake around a jar of honey so break the drive honey so the snake goes away meaning you should have made a breach in the wall so that we could have come in and we would have taken care of the bar unit for you I didn't answer him and the mother says part of the punishment is that sometimes lose their wisdom because he should have said we wanted to try to save the job honey and kill the snake we thought we could get rid of the bargaining ourselves we we didn't want to have to destroy yerushalayim in the process that would have been a good answer and then later he says okay I'm leaving and someone else is going to take over the war tell me what you would like and he says give me yavna and it's sages give me the family of Roman Gamaliel and give me uh doctor and once again this was a proof of the punishment that the wise lose their understanding because he should have said spare you or shall I don't destroy the basement but the camera says that's not necessarily true in this case because sometimes you ask for too much you end up with nothing end up with nothing remember on on Perm once someone said to Himachal Shapiro he wanted to get into a particular Shear that was a closed cheer and he really wanted to go and he was pushing him and Moshe said you know I speak he says but it's Purim koi poshit yadav Anyone who puts out his hand you have to give him everybody just says you're forcing it so you end up with nothing I looked at the situation and said let me save something I I I don't believe if I say to him uh Spanish lime in the basement that she's going to do it so I have to be calculating you're doing a great job here there's hope for Claude Israel but if we lose you we're finished that's the end we'll never recover listen to me let him pass through and he said yummy oh you underestimate the greatness of claudiusville now it seems like a strange thing to say but you know that that is the job of the leader of Israel Hashem comes to Moshe and says the Jews have built the golden calf they've sinned let me go and I will destroy them somebody she goes let him go you mean I'm holding God back okay then no I won't let you go until you forgive the Jewish people and yeah Hashem is like okay and then Moshe takes his tent and sets it up outside of the and Hashem says to him go back to the people he says because if I'm going to make an angry face and you're going to make an angry face who's going to pull them close you you have to go back and be Makari of them when Elio and Navi says to Hashem your people have sinned and there's no more hope he says well this much is clear you can't be the leader of Clarissa anymore because I can't have somebody in charge of clients who is telling me bad things about them I don't want to hear that your job as a leader is to tell me good things so yoshio says listen I'm doing what I'm supposed to do I did what Mo Sherman did you know we we deserve the braches and I'm going to stand up for Claire's job but he was wrong the power came in and he says I don't care about the rest of the Jewish people get the king and all the archers trained on his uh on his chariot and 300 arrows pierced him until he was bleeding like a sieve and you know understood that this was not just a personal tragedy this was it now there's nothing that's going to stop the Corbin from taking place Yoshi who could have been that person he could have saved clientele he overestimated and so he runs as he's dying and he's worried what's Yoshi I was Final where it's going to be I can't believe I'm dying for doing the right thing I can't believe I believed in Kylie so this is what I'm getting his last words was Hashem Sadiq he was right and I was wrong because I went against what you told me and obviously you were speaking for Hashem and I was too clever by half I deserve what I got he was Matt stick the din it wasn't bad luck was an unfortunate circumstances have him because I made a mistake and a mistake had tragic consequences and yemio says hi Claudia when you remember the corbyn remember this moment because this was the moment where everything was finished didn't play out till later of they breached the walls of the harabase when you are standing at the hotel today you're floating in midair you see the the holes that they dig around there's as much underground as there is above ground and it was a freestanding structure so you had to have a bridge to get to it or a staircase or some way to get into it but the higher bias was a freestanding structure all the way to the time of the Crusaders it was the Arabs the way they built up the neighborhood around it to lower the wool but this this was a fortress so they finally broke through the hard bias they broke into the city on shavasa batamas but it took them all that time after they broke through the walls of the heartbeats and the kohanim were defending and the Romans were killing and destroying and they finally get to the basement dish and they disgrace the basement for the seventh the 8th and the ninth above at the end of the Tish above they set fire to it and it burned through the night of the tenth and through the day of the 10th the gemara says since most of the basement was burnt on the 10th why don't we fast on the 10th says because the beginning of the tragedy is always the worst we have something called bana arborium which usually is translated as Twilight when does Twilight begin 1201 in the afternoon but the sun is high in the sky it started to set and once it starts to set that's the beginning of the end of the day Yoshi Yahoo was this moment of hope this ray of light the eye of the hurricane where we had a chance to still undo the Corbin to save everything to bring mashiach to do what had to be done I made a mistake and he died and Yama Yahoo says when you say your kidness understand that this is the moment this is where things began to to spiral out of control because this was the last chance it's the last chance to try to be able to reverse everything and so for almost 2 000 years we're sitting on the floor year after year because we don't have a basement we don't have very shell yeah we can visit Eric show but we were able to do that for most of those 2000 years also most of it yeah but we don't have very chill the way it's meant to be with the base of mikdish and and and and and uh and the camera that all of kaiso comes to Earth show and is living here the way it's supposed to be every day you're reading about another terrible attack on Jews stabbing a shooting some kind of a terrible thing that takes place we're constantly being vilified in the world press and attacked and insulted and accused yeah no this is not where we're supposed to be and so once again it's tishov and as we review everything let's remember yoshiyahu who is a good man who lived a good life who died the good death he just didn't realize where there were limitations if there are no problems there's no Solutions we didn't end up in Godless by mistake wasn't an accident there were causes and if we don't address it those who do not learn from history are doomed to repeat it and every year when we have the Corbin that means that there's no base in Big Dish we destroyed the basement dish all over again we haven't learned our lesson there's problems that need to be solved today we're not going to solve any problems all we're going to do today is take out a day to at least feel sorry for the sad state of cloud yourself sit on the floor and feel sorry for ourselves hungry and tired and dirty just sitting in the dirt saying boy we will once call yourself and if we want to we could do it again it wasn't just clever when someone asked the cutska when is Michelle coming and he said whenever we want him whenever we've had enough of this really had enough of it I don't want it anymore [Music]