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Good afternoon. It's it's been like a it's been a beautiful start to this man who coming yesterday and then today first say they're already playing ball together with the it's been like a it's been just a beautiful start. I want to express gratitude to Hashem to sit again to start again a new year and to learn Tyra in the afternoon. It doesn't really the name of the seder like some people in the afternoon we call it a muser sed it's not really what we're trying there's something called muser in the world I can't say per se that it's called the m say in the afternoon we're learning I like learning topics of terra I like sharing things that I've learned from things I've picked up so it's a s in the afternoon it could be called avad but that's not really what we're what We're doing a learning ty together. I want to express that starting this month as a phenomenon for me for 11 years straight to see for 11 years straight I was to have a child sitting here usually at this year for 11 years my first time in 11 years starting from my son Jacob to Man to Mishi to Hudi and there was no he 11 years straight there wasn't this man that I didn't have at least one son sitting here and this year is the first time like I'm talking here and I'm looking around. I'm looking where's my butem he's married and in 11 years anytime I was saying not saying there's not a day I didn't have a kid here but no man straight for 11 years I had a son from when Yakov came to yeshiva very interesting speaking and I liked it I appreciated a lot that when I spoke I had a son here it's very there's something about it that's that's very mai of a certain honesty, a certain presence. You It forces you. If you act like who you're not, your son's like looking at you like Tati, you're like Tat. It's just something that it pulls you to just be who you are. And I there's something I love about it. It forces an honesty lice and my children as the guys in the yeshiva have impacted me tremendously. It's not like the relationship. I love my kids. I love the guys in the yeshiva. appreciate the friendship. It's not I'm sitting here trying to we learn from each other, but I have been impacted by my kids a lot. A lot of a lot of what we want in this yeshiva comes from what I've learned from my children and from the guys in the yeshiva. And I think every parent and every and any yeshiva you have to be open and learn from people and see people and understand people and talk and this dialogue and my kids have taught me worlds. They really taught me worlds and it's interesting now to try to give over and to continue this year to continue and share things. But it's I I very much appreciate the years that I had sons here and each one in their own way and their own style and their own journey impacted me a lot. I feel things I'm saying and going to share that I feel they have a tremendous part in in my own journey, my own story. So I want to express appreciation for my children. I want to thank Yetszrainowitz is here. I want to tell you just this is just the truth. The truth has to be said and guys have to know. Gratitude's a big thing. 11 years ago the yeshiva was done. There's a truth. There's just a fact. And um it's not even he could he could say I didn't do anything. It it's a mitus. 11 years. If you know our history, the yeshiva was thrown out of Waterberry. It had to do with fire stuff and then building codes. And we were we were thrown out of wedbury and and lumisa we it was three weeks left to this man we did not have a yesa it was crazy I could tell you in my life the pressure I'm saying it now not in that space of pressure I was like melting I was I to describe a pressure I look back okay we didn't know what was going to be and I didn't have an answer if you understand my wife was calling building after we were calling we were calling old age homes around Waterberry. We went to see a building in Stamford which the yeshiva couldn't have even worked. The rebar in Waterberry what does that mean? And the building was falling down. It was literally should be I think it must have been condemned. It was not it wasn't shy to go to that building then even how it works with Rabbam traveling an hour and a half every day. not wouldn't do that but then they're not there like there was many many cashes and we were like in a terrible position and said but it came through somebody and Yitzra Benitz who's sitting right here found this incredible campus this place [applause] was I'm telling you some I'm telling you something I'm just I'm looking at him we're here because of him now I know it's but Hashem sends things to us through people Somebody actually very much cares about this yeshiva. He learned here a few he he was one of the pioneers 26 years ago and Mbury started he was one of the starters of the yeshiva shame hashem 26 years ago but yet is one of the starters of yeshiva and he found this campus we're on this campus is like a miracle the way it fits us and we fit it the way it works the way it's just comfortable and such a vibrant and beautiful place that fits us like a glove anybody who knows the story of Mir in Shanghai there are a lot of legends and I can't say what's exact what's exaggerated I wasn't there I wasn't in Shanghai they claim that there was like the exact number of seats for the bahim like in the shul I know what they're saying I really know what they're saying there'll be legends like that about the yeshiva like the exact number of beds it's it works out nuts I like these things when I'm setting the shabas table and I pick up a bunch of forks and it's the exact number. I like that. Now I don't my from based because it's exact, but it really is Hashem and there is really ashk and heashem watches us. Then you take the forks and it's exact. Now if it would be one more, I'd return it back. It wouldn't be a problem. But I like sometimes Hashem just whispers like what you doing? You're setting a shabas table. It's nice to see the yashm. And there's stories in Shanghai that was like exact number of seats. There are a lot of such stories that go around. That's the reporters. There's a shul. This is true. Do the guys know the building that housed the mirror in Europe in Shanghai. Why was there a shul the size to hold the whole mirror? The mirror ran away. For those who know the story, the mirror ran away. A miraculous thing. They survived the Holocaust. The reason there was a shul in Shanghai is because a yid out of a dream and his zade that came to him that you know ravel his zade that came to a yid there told them build a shul that's a fact that's not a rumor a yid za the yid wasn't and z told them build a sh you need to build a shul they had like this huge shul but just nobody to be in it and then the mir came like that's where the mirror was and this sh right you know that yeah sure a yid built built the shul because his grandfather came to him in a dream and said you have to build the shul. He was wealthy as had been sadic. He lost his way and he built the shul >> in Shanghai >> in Shanghai. The man built the shul in Shanghai because he was Japanese. He was a Y. He was lived in Japan. He had was off no shas and is from Z to build. He built it. There was just nobody to sit in there. But he was a wealthy guy and he made it. The mayor came. That's where they stayed. It was like a Jewish community then >> small very small but they built a ma a monster shul that was exact for the mirror that's a true story that's just a fact but the point is that hashem runs the world this campus is like such a crazy story but the one who found it for us we have yet and be imamish a few weeks before to describe the stress you have yeshiva that I think's a wonderful place and we're like done ari we're done there's no answer in the city. We could not find a location. There was no like well just there was nothing and then we found this three weeks before. So crazy and the whole Yeshiva came here and it's been it's a beautiful story the 11 this is our 11th year since so I'm thankful to start this off that Yatsu is here. I want to express that for years somebody who's just has this yeshiva is about covered for people somebody in blurridge who's a bastion who's a fortress who's part of this like revolution of covered for a person beller is here I my own kids benefit from that everybody who lives in blurridge the guys come for many many years guys come simire in large number to bluridge it's like a little controversial in the city it's a lot of people coming it's normal We're and a lot of bakram come on the city for years. Somebody who like sponsored a suda for the guys sra day for years and just had many many guys for sudas. Soon beller so I appreciate that you and yet are here to start this man is really really appreciated. So thank you. YEAH [applause] [snorts] THERE. YEAH, there's so many there's so many things to start to start the year with and and to begin to to start learning on the year. I want to say something quickly and then then we'll sh go to another topic. But I want to say there's a this past week's parish who describes the it's it's based on a medishan the mitzvah burim is this beautiful mitzvah that the cut that the the this person works his fields and he labors hard the entire summer. I just went with a bach I went very nervously. We have like a complicated relation to the neighbor relationship to the neighbor. It's very important people don't walk on his farm and don't disrupt. There's a farmer who lives next door to us who happens to have a few guns and he's been frustrated by the yeshiva. So it's important guys are careful not to go on his property. But I went with the baker to buy some fruit there. I like going. His mother runs the stand and every you can only really buy fruit at the beginning of the year and every once in every once usually at the beginning of the year I try to go just to say hello just to smile and be friendly. It was a very friendly greeting this year. So for that that it's a good similar thing. But I brought some fruits from them that they actually grow on their property. They grow some delicious fruit and I brought some fruits from them. I try every year at the first the beginning of the year to buy something from them just to greet them. So the here are the farmer's first fruits that he labored like crazy over the summer. He killed himself for these fruits and he brings the bikurim to the bdash. He takes his first fruits and he brings them to the bdash. And when he goes, there's a whole procession. People from the city go in big numbers. And there's this crazy procession of yidden going to bring a basket of the fruit to the bamed. And when they come in, it's a whole the Mishna describe in detail. People come out in your shahim to greet. There's this whole entourage coming describes a beautiful entourage coming to your shalim and the people of your shalim come out to greet. It's just a wonderful display of gratitude. Hashem, I know where things come from. We give our first fruits to Hashem. A farmer could be arrogant. I made this. I created. He gives the first fruits to Hashem. I told I said I told over to Zebie this morning. There's a very cooler who by by hands who here is a bar is spelled B is a B is B is two is 20 is the second in the tens and R is 200 2 200 it's in every group it's the second it's B is the second in the tens is the second in the 20s and R is the second in the hundreds. That's so weird is the firstborn. He should be called alf first alf and should be >> it's interesting. Yel said he's number two because the parents are first but it's funny the younger is more the older yah's being salty. [laughter] He said I know a bakar is always butar is number one a bakar is number one is onear often understands the parents the best by the way that's like a bar often your tokar is part of kib of your parents often >> there there's a change in generations akar is like comes from both worlds what were you saying >> treat But isn't that interesting that a bakar has called me? I'm happy is back and thank you. >> Don't be afraid. I'm saying no. They only know the parents the best because they've been around long. >> That makes sense. Make sense. That's fair. They had more time to learn them. That's fair. That's fair. [snorts] >> The youngest knows more. >> Abar typically is closer to that generation. There's always change in generations and a bkar is closer to that generation. It's pushet like that. A bkar often can bridge gaps. That's pashet like that. Parents to children, the bkar is the closest in age. The parents were the youngest. He's earlier. Sometimes you have a 20 year gap. So the bkar for sure there's such a thatar can bridge a gap. There's the ver. Now the akar is called 220. 222 is weird. The Bkar is should be called Alf one. He's the first and yet he's called you. You're not the older. So yet he's called 222. What the ishitzer says is the reason he's called 222. The sense of I'll tell you something funny. I'll tell you an interesting thing. We were a group of in Waterberry, Connecticut. I was here with nine families. We moved to the city when there was no minion daily in the city. And we were the early ones in the city. We were the first in the city. The Yeshiva Tana for years for years the first ones we came to Waterberry to create a certain thing. I remember there was a dinner about 15 years in and somebody spoke making fun. He said enough of this beginners, enough of the starters. And he made a whole thing. We're our big community. Like he he was joking. He was a snickle comedian, but every joke has a little humor in it. Trust me, he was very serious what he was saying. Like enough of the starters were he was like throwing off. Stop saying you're the starters. Now, why was there such a suggest motion? He was rebelling against something. People like enough of this. You started it. We're here. We're doing this. There's like a rebellion. The starters, there's a sense you own it. I started. I was there at the beginning. I made this. And says the ishitzer, there's a sense when somebody started that could be a gifa. I'm the one. I created I was here at the beginning. The ishitzer says that's what beurum is. You say I'm not the starter. You bring your first and give it to Hashem. Is the sense he's the beginner. He he did this. Who gave me the kayak? Who set this in motion? I I I came in middle at the very beginning to you're not a starter. There's an arrogance. I created this is my somebody walks in. I made this. Please, please. You had a lot of the you see the when I think about the the history of the it's like clear. No, nobody thought then that good people who were involved early. There's not a star. The starter is Hashem. And is says that the bikurim is to it's Hashem who did this all not to have the ga you're the starter. You're the controller. When you he says that's why is two amazing that is 220 and 200 akar can have a sense mine me I come I'm I'm a second there's something earlier than me it's the humility that I'm I come in middle Hashem set things in motion I I saw this with with the community like they were like taking away you're the starters what are you fighting over because there's a sense of a starter of a certain boss. You own it. You start and it's not true. It's not true. The rabbis had a plan. The fact that you were early in the plan, there's something before you. That's the is says Bkar is called too. That could be an arrogance to the Bkar. My family, he certainly has a certain akar has a power. Bkar is very powerful and has a say. He's the oldest as a respon. It's natural. Bakar feels responsibility and that's cool but to always know you're two there's something before you there's something you're in the things but to have the humility it's the two that some he says that's what is farmer gives the thing to hashem he works so hard but he knows everything's from you everything's from you you're the cause of it all and I have an opportunity to to to have and to have bounty and to use it and to eat it but everything starts from Hashem. That's what the iss the the Indian. So this the whole community goes out in this incredible display of gratitude. Everybody joins in the gratitude. If you ever noticed in we have a full so you're supposed to listen the whole everybody listens and you say to every except one everybody jumps in by maid and there's a certain that when it comes to thank you we all get involved when it comes to saying thank you gratitude everybody gets in that space of gratitude gratitude ude is an incredible space. I want to express for guys who get things when I was younger. So I used to try once in a while when I said maid I had heard not to waste the bow maid thanking Hashem. So I would try to thank Hashem for something different every day every specific. not limited to that but I would think of something I thank you for this the next and the next the next to say something specific after I met my children I met the guys in yeshiva I don't start saying different things because that's what I want to be thankful for gratitude is not say thankful it's gratitude what am I grateful I try when I remember to pause before maid and to ask myself not I want to Thank what are you grateful for Daniel? What's hitting you? I want to say right now right now I'm in a space I'm extremely grateful that we're part of this yeshiva. I'm grateful to for me I'm grateful that Hashem gave it to my children. My children grew up here. My children learned in this yeshiva grew in this yeshiva got closer to Hashem in this yeshiva. I'm very grateful for this beautiful space, a wonderful group, a wonderful base medish. It's just a a pure, sincere, a sweet and honest, the comfortable space. I'm very very grateful for this. That's a space of gratitude. I'm appreciative of what Hashem gave us. It's been miraculous. It's been miraculous. I'm describing. We got the campus all different rebay about things all different guys there each one with their own story of being here. Gratitude is a real space and the whole city like joins in this gratitude and people come out together with the farmer. It's such a cool we rally around the farmer. He's bringing his first fruits but many come along for the journey. The Mishna describes everybody joins in in the sashhats. We all listen. When he says thank you, we're no longer passive participants. Everybody jumps in a space of gratitude to be grateful to be in that space. So it says that mishenu the medishan saysenu was nervous. That's when we have the bamedashurum's gorgeous. Everybody gets to join the space of gratitude. But he says what's going to be when there's no bamed What's going to be there's no base which we won't have this opportunity to like all walk together to shim and travel in numbers in this space of appreciating the gifts Hashem gives us and the med says that was he made it now it's unclear to me and Josh knows the medishan right here the tan empire says that was me and because he wanted to replicate I have no right to say this Josh I I don't know I'm right I speculate Josh is saying that the says I wonder if he means I wonder it doesn't say that in the I I wonder if it means I didn't see This is talks about what this he doesn't say this. I wonder that it means and was messy. I wonder and it makes a lot of sense to me because the whole ver was it was a communal trip that he was making. I want to say this without agenda. I planned over the summer a few times I davened in a bash in a very beautiful minion factory in five towns and a couple of times I met yol ramani there and I just think like minion people are lucky my kids know that I love on family vacations we happen to have gone to a beautiful shul I went to one of the nicest shs I've ever gone to my life I like kmanyanim in mitzure in I went to A beautiful min a beautiful may I'm sorry beautiful is good y like really special y beautiful there I think min yidd are fortunate the people that are part of a minion for the people that join in the community there are people just plugged in I'm not saying every day a person's present to this it's normal that some days you feel it's such a beautiful space a person who's part of a minion I know people have their thing forest. It's not forest here. I'm I want to ask the and invite the to come join them in we we're going to dab in Shakas 9:15. That's when we'll start with dab in Shak here. There's a normally 3:05 today. This week's going to be a little bit of a different schedule, but after this week it's going to be 3:05. There's a minion for I think again I don't want to I don't want to say what's not says I'm guessing and wondering that it means the saber I don't I have to stud this brings me I'm wondering because it says the means that and that replicates the that the city joins together we're people of Hashem specifically I want to say shakas specifically I think it's called the races is right away to say hashem there's a beginning there's a certain g yeah >> let me say when the first time he was a minion there that's what I'm that's works what I'm saying the nothing to do with the minion was mishenu said let's do a that's what I'm claiming I don't have a and really I'm just asking it's and you could answer other answers I'm wondering that that made just that and like you said it doesn't mention other people was it doesn't say I'm wondering that made it an asich of the maybe maybe he didn't say it replaces bikurim. I want to express bikurim is as a city people express that hey things come from hashem. I think it's a cool thing that as a community that people dab together. I always feel that the comes to dab and we're representing the whole durham. I ask this is my all day but there's an I ask that like through the ever coming the whole day should be like a gather man I say once we're in like hold open the door maybe put your foot by the door we try to do that here but there's an Indian there's there's an Indian that's sra to start the day I I wanted to mention this I'm not want to mention I mentioned to somebody maybe not this year, maybe in five years to mention wherever a person is. I saw a yo by the minion this summer and I was very very moved by that and so I wanted to mention it to my friends to the I want to share something with you Ryas has heard this from me many times. This is where if my kids were here, it would for one of my children. Oh, Tati, you said this. I want to share something that I feel I'm responsible to share. My friends, I don't know, mayor, if you heard this story from me yet. It could be you heard this from Ry Russ has heard it from me now probably close to I don't want to say a dozen times, maybe 10 times. But I want to share it with everybody here. It's a very meaningful story that happened to me this summer. I feel like I owe it to you, Ellie. Like I want I want to share this. I want to share something I feel like responsible to share. Morty, you probably heard it from me once or twice, but I want to share this story with you. Good to have you back, Martha. Really, really nice to be back again. Did I told you the story a couple of times already, Morty? What happened to me and my wife this summer? >> What? So let let me share the following story. >> No, I did. I have it. We have it in my house. >> Yes. I told you in the summer. It's true. >> Thank you. Thank you. It's true. Welcome back, Mi. Good to have you back. Yeah. [applause] >> What happened is as follows. Azie, this you heard the story ready, Azie? This is what happened. Judah, I want you to hear this. My sister Shia, is that Shia? >> Shia, I want you to hear a good story. Welcome home, Shia Canon. Really good to have you back. >> Shia, what happened is as follows. My wife and I this summer made a decision to go to Poland. I wanted to go Davenin at Curum in Poland. And we decided to go to Poland this summer. And and and we wanted a Davin. We went to specific places that we wanted to be misspelled in Poland. When you go back to Poland, you confront a lot of things our people went through. My mother's grandparents were killed in Awitz. Her grandparents were killed in Awitz. Her aunts and uncles were killed in Awitz. And when you go back there, you confront things. You see things. And it's hard. It's a hard thing. a person that does it's a struggle because you confront things our people went through a lot today's generation touched it less we grew up I grew up with my grandmother who lost her family so we grew up my age we grew up with people in our sh we grew up with a lot of survivors we saw survivors we were close to survivors our shs were full of survivors so we touched a lot my wife and I being in in Poland brought a lot of questions and difficult ulty and my wife was struggling with the question of of of things we've gone through. That's a normal thing to confront. Hashem loves us. He's our father and yet we went through yura. We've gone through difficulty as a people and you confront it being in Paul. On the trip, my wife decides, we're married 30 years, and she decides her her father, her family name is Brown, and we know that in in Poland, their name back in the day, and really in Russia was Briansski. It became brown in America. The name really is Brianski. But we know nothing about them. We know they're from Bialist. I shouldn't say nothing. We know they're from Bialistto, which used to be in Russia. Today is in Poland. We know they're from Bialistak. The name is Brianski. My wife for a few minutes gets this urge to meet her grandparents, to meet her family, Brianskis. She looked online, but we had no names. It's like a needle in a hay stack. She wants to meet the Briansky. She wants to find a kev something that she can meet her relatives some greatgrandfather some great greatgrandfather where she comes where do we come where do I come from she wants to meet we didn't have success we couldn't get a first name so forget it okay shucks we came back from Poland Friday morning back to what Friday morning might say shabas out of the blue her father again married 30 years this never happened. Her father sends his three daughters an email and he says I just discovered I had signed up to something years ago. I discovered the kev of my greatgrandfather and he says that we come from a yidavid brianski who wrote a book a safer the minast my wife and I get a hold of the safer that might say shabas 770 as a copy and we get a hold of the safer min that's written by your great-grandfather Abdansski and we start learning his introduction to a safer and he says I was a baker baker. Rabb David Briansky writes, "I was a baker. I learned. Of course, I'm a yid. I learned every day, but I was a simple yid." He said, "I went through yurim difficulty." And he says, "It ended up saving my life. I reached deeper places in myself." And he writes this that I'm writing to you, the reader. He says this. He says, "I want you, the reader, to know that when Hashem sends pains, he loves us. And he just wants us to access deeper places inside of us, to find something deeper." And he says, I'm writing this so you the reader should know he became an Adam in the safer has from the son. One ask was the god lad. His son writes asama on the safer. It has a second as from the same one who gives a to the rabb from writes for the he writes. He writes beautiful things about this min and he says I became because of because of difficulty and he wants the reader to know it was like incredibly comforting. What basically happened is my wife wanted to meet her grandfather. Hashem said sure and Hashem brought her grandfather to us right when we came back. Mame it's there's no like odds to such a thing. Hashem brought oh you want to meet your great-grand here. So we met. We since have gotten a copy. We went there to Israel met met an in an of the brianski. He gave us a much better three copies of the safer with footnotes much better done and we have it in our house. my wife, we learned pieces in the house of the mil. But I wanted to share with the I wanted to share I felt like to come back to my friends to share what he said that difficulties, challenges, Hashem loves us and he wants us to access deeper places that through difficulty people find very very deep spaces inside of ourselves. spaces of faith, spaces of humility, spaces of care, of softness, of just a sense of this this deep place that we're nishamus that we find that we're nishamus with something bigger than this world. We have some journey a deep journey we find our nish somehow someway the min writes he says on himself that through I don't he doesn't explain how he came there but throughim he found his soul he started learning he says the last 20 years I learned and I reached levels like this only through so I wanted to share we should hashem should send us tremendous But we should be z to find through goodness but to find deep spaces in ourselves deep who have tremendous tremendous yearning for hashem a yearning for that which is we should find the deep spaces that exists inside of us. I want to express I want to express that the yeshiva is designed to find your nishama. I find in in the matsive of schools of do and you have to do you don't have the space to breathe and find and discover what am I what do I want a kid who's in the yeshiva now told me that philosophically I don't understand you said I like it here I don't understand you give people space to choose you're crazy isn't it dangerous that people can choose such a dangerous whatever's nuts to give youngsters the decision to choose. You're out of your mind. There's like a weird thing here that we really believe. I believe and the belief of dash for these people really have an issue that we really have an isama. You're like crazy. Who said parents you You're letting my kid could choose. I believe we're choosers. And I believe we have an issue too. I think the nishama and the goof could work beautifully well together. I think the goof is like perfect to work together with the nishama. It's a great sh and the goof can have tremendous pleasure in doing what's right. You have to take care of your gof but certainly take care of ourselves and our nishama finds a tremendous want for the service of hashem for that which is beautiful for that which is special. side. I want to express that that there's a belief in the nishama and through the journey when we have space to breathe to think to figure out we find that wants and we've been saying during and the yeshiva we say some people here have which says it by the yeshiv we say during by shak and and we say that we have a we want. We're describing a deep a deep want. It's interesting. It's a song Schlommo sings a lot. I just heard as a voice. Wow. I just found it's a pel. He was here for a year. Josh, I didn't know this. You knew it. >> He sings it. Did the is like wild. You ever heard his stuff? >> Yeah. Instagram post. >> He has a beautiful voice. He plays guitar. Wild. He The fact that he slipped by us for a year, Ashie, I'm like, it's a Pella. We didn't discover him, but he's discovered and he's back. Bless be the Lord. Don't overwhelm him. He said slowly he'll play. He plays beautifully. I heard him playing Omari this beautiful song and means representing Hashem my heart says I seek me it's in a person in the person when he pays attention representing Hashem my heart says seek me seek Hashem our hearts say that to us just need space to listen I think there's so much pressure on people they can't hear what they're thinking what they're saying. I want a yeshiva that gives space that a guy can hear. Maybe it will take a week, a month, a year or 10. But a guy will hear that is inside says I seek Hashem. And you know what happens when a person hears that space and that he seeks. Did you know like sings gorgeous? Like >> he was he he played me sing his version. It's like he did a cover of the song. You've heard it. >> It's Kadai. Kadai. He did it. I love though that song. I want to place that there's space for people to listen to what they're saying. I want to tell you something interesting. I have guys in yeshiva who the parents are a lot of parents are big sadik. It's not just the guys in yeshiva are amazing. I think in the s in in where there's like pressure guy has no time to breathe. He doesn't see how special his dad is. I have seen there's a bakar in the yeshiva. The mother told me after when he came to yeshiva a few months later he first of all learns with his father and he smooes with his mother for hours. He has like space to breathe. He like sees how precious his parents are. He's like in if there's I don't see anything. I'm just surviving. Give him space to breathe. He's like my mother's amazing. All of a sudden he's talking relating. He's like breathing. There's a voice in us. There's a truth in us. There's an iss like a space for people to breathe and find that space that says I want Hashem. If it takes a guy's exploring and he's running around because he's so like pressed. So God will find it along the way along his journey and he'll hear a space in him a drive that says and when you hear that drive is you seek is it fair if I ask you day one can we do that song it's in let's I want to show the s I want the guys to get the words could you help me give out >> let's give that let's give it out I want people to see the words quickly Everyone everyone everyone gets one. >> Everyone gets a sitter. >> If guys can look up here look up a um on like Spotify. >> No, I want you to look in the center. He's going to play. >> Yeah. >> Where is Where is Why you want? >> I don't know. You have large cubes. I usually wear six >> and then you zero. Yo, we're going to we're going to wear like my hair like >> cuz I've been wearing keepers the last like six days. >> No, it's because it get you need to cut and try. I I understand. >> No, I'm going to cut it, too. >> No, that's just cuz my hair I don't like all the way back. I don't want you real. Okay, >> thank you. What page? If everybody could look page 72, page 72 and ine which the min of the yes is yes to say the middle of page 72. So we say it's a it's a little more than halfway down this theem we say it's a middle of the line doesn't mean to you. Ashi says it means representing you Hashem. Representing you Hashem Omari my heart says whose heart is the heart of Israel. So representing you my heart says seek me representing Hashem. Our heart whispers to us seek Hashem. And you know what happens when we hear it? I seek Hashem. I want space not for somebody else to tell you seek Hashem. Not like to hear. I want a guy like to breathe and to see and I think I want Hashem. It's funny that guys have a lot of space a lot a lot of space to choose. And I want a guy to find maybe I want to hear and he goes to say I like what he's being said. Hey it resonates by me. There's something here representing. Our hearts tell us seek me. It's in us. It's in us. If we just have space to breathe and to hear and to decide and to think and to like hear what's being said and our hearts tell us representing Omari, my heart says seek Hashem. And when I hear that, do I seekashm? So I'm gonna ask did Schlmer run to get his guitar? >> You hear he's a glass version. >> He did very good. >> I know. I was listening. >> I was tuning in. I was going to walk in the second shot. >> You guys sure practice? >> Yeah. No, that's what we've been doing. Don't tell her. Last three weeks we've been rehearsing that. [music] >> [music] [music] [singing] >> I'm my living [music] [singing] be [music and singing] back for [singing] now. [music] Bye [music] [singing] for now. [music] [singing] Oh yes [music] of [singing] [music] the [music] Oh [singing] my [music] >> [singing] >> of [music] my living. [music] my back [singing] for now. [music] Bye to [music and singing] the night. >> [singing] >> to find [music] [singing] [music] the [singing] king as [music] a Yeah. [music] Oh, [singing] seek inside and all you'll find is [music] light that's shining [singing] bright from the one above. >> [music] >> Seek inside and all you'll find is light that's shining [music] bright from the one [singing] above. Seek [music] inside and all you'll find is light that's shining bright [music and singing] from the one above. I'll crave you [music] with all my heart. I'll [music and singing] crave you with all my heart. [music] I'll crave you [music] with all my heart. [screaming] I'll crave [music] you. Crave you [singing] with all my heart. I am [music] a [singing] king. [music] [singing] >> [music] >> I'm leaving [music] [singing] my [music] [applause] this song like in the last many years. I think this like resonated thousands tens of thousands of yidden have like taken to the song there are guys in the dorm who don't listen to the music that they call Jewish whatever that means this song guys like it resonates by guys deep in the dorm guys this is a song it resonates by tens and tens of thousands of yen because it's true because it's true because it's true and he's saying is seek inside and all you'll find is light is that it's in us I promise it's not like it's not funny and there's there's not a big trust in this in the world in a secular school doesn't trust this. We have to like control and cont trust people. Let them breathe. They'll find. We had a guy who learned in yeshiva went through more pain than most people. I know his his story is one of the craziest stories ever. Was here three years. He stayed by me many offshas. His pes he came with me. He always said I feel nothing. I don't feel attached to Yiddish kite. And fine fine. He was here three years. He happens to be he had an 85 mph fastball lefty pitcher who was scouted by by by real scouts by major league scouts. He was he played in the local Waterberry league. He was remarkably good ball player like a crazy at 85 mph fast ball to curve. You know some guys said they can curve it and you try to like watch their pitch and like maybe if you have enough to drink or enough of imagination you could see a curve. This guy had a 9 to5 curve. He like studied pitching. He had a curveball. I caught him in the in Falton Park. His curveball was wild. And he used to tell me, "I don't feel anything." Like, "I don't feel it." And after three years, he was one of the last Shabbusters of the year. For hours, he cried like a baby. Said, he said, "I like found that space inside me. I want Hashem." Remember the Shabas that he just like he like found it. He heard it. He said like it was after three years of claiming it was one of the last Shabbas he's a from guy lives out of town has a beautiful family today he found it's just true our hearts tell us seek me our hearts tell us that it's in us there's an we have a piece of it's not it's true but we have to give it space and don't force and don't beat ourselves up and the guy I don't feel fine. But listen and hear and seek inside and all you'll find is light. We find a tremendous tremendous chuka for goodness, for kindness. We have deep spaces inside of us. We can access this song in waterberry music in the last many years is a song that resonated like crazy. Tens of thousands of y'all sing it. People who don't sing other songs. We've gone around this maybe more than the other this song like and it just resonates because it's true. He picked nailed it nailed it. This song like hits yet when you get a chance ya's cover and he has his own version of it. It's like beautiful. But to hear him sing it like and we've heard many people many guys is there another one of that the man people that have sung it with their own like style and ways people have their own covers places we've gone he we sing it different place people know it and sing along gorgeous gorgeous words we say it during lol and we just find deep space inside of ourselves that are just accurate so I wanted to thank Schlommo for sharing the song now and always with us this amazing amazing song. I want to express that a song that that has really taken off from from last year Pesak when Gabe taught us the song heaven knows my name and I want to say something not whether he sings it now or not that I I'll ask Gabe maybe I'm not even sure I'll do it right now but I want to express I want to express that I feel when When a guy's trying to be something else, trying to be stark or something other than living in his story, we sometimes like we have so much in the way. I'm struggling with all different things and in the way of being something that other people want me to be. And what I hear in the song, heaven knows my name and it resonates a lot by me is Hashem knows my story and situation. I see this in tim and the whole safer tim is this to is like screams this. I see this specifically where he says even spaces that I feel very alone. I want to translate the words to the guys. It says even if my parents forsake me takes me in. Who are we talking about? I read it. I'm a parent. Even if my parents forsake me, you're all going to be parents. Do you plan on forsaking your kids? Are you kidding me? So, you're talking about a tragedy. No parents don't forsake their kids. They don't. No parent. So, talking about augment saying, he's talking about a crazy case. Even if my parents forsake me. Even what are you talking about? Which parent forsakes a kid? What's he talking about? What's he saying? My parents forsake me. All of you are going to have dreams. I want to be very very close to my kids. I love my kids. And yet there's a space that you can't relate. They're them. They're them. You try, you connect, you understand what you can understand. Yet there's a space that you can't understand. There is that space. And and of course we try and a parent loves their child and tries to be present to the feelings of their child. But I can't feel you, Mameish, because you are you and I'm not you. I could try and I listen and I hear and yet there's a space. It's pasha to me when David speaks about when your parents forsake you. He's not talking about a case his talking that when my parents forsake me in that space the most well-meaning loving caring parent who I just I'm sorry I I mamish want to understand you. I want to hug you. I want to be with you real and I just can't. I don't know what you mean. I'm trying. I want to be there, but I can't. I just don't understand. I I And I try as hard and I'm there a stickle with you. I'm there in any way a human being could be, but yet I'm human and the human limitations. I'm me and you're you. Even you're my child and I'll listen and apparent means they look mish there and hugging and yet there's a space that I can't that I just can't. And that's a very what this generation is very panimious. The main thing I'm hearing the main trauma of today bar none is I am lonely. That's the deepest thing in the world. The deepest thing I'm hearing from youngsters today guys describe I go home shabas and I'm lonely. I'm lonely. That's crazy. That's like crazy. That's a very deep space. I'm lonely. It doesn't stand parents don't want we want to be with our kids and the job of parents in any way we can to try to understand and hear and like to be with as much as as much as possible and yet there's a space that the parent can't and says he's with us there. I want to express this to guys at all stage. If you're 40, 20, 60, 80, 15, your story, Hashem's mish with us there. It's not a blockage. He's there and we can call and fetch and speak. Hashem, he's he meets us by he's with us in our story. He's literally there. We cry out. I see this inim that David Melik in all the things that happened to him in all his experiences he cries to Hashem. Hashem wants to hear him who knows what he's going to is just the way that it brings him to Hashem. It brings him to faith. It brings him to humility. It brings him to let go. It it brings some but Hashem's like with us in our story. It's not a blockage to Hashem. He's there in that space. It feels so hard. And does anybody understand? Hashem holds me there. He wants to meet me there. He wants to be me. He wants to converse with me there and and relate to me right there. I feel like the song Heaven knows my name that he like feels our stuff. He's with us. I feels like a very important song. I was with Gabe in many many places and I watched people like hear the song and connect to the song. I feel like it's a song that resonates a lot. I feel like these are like big of our I have a pride that like absorbing from each other composed it and have sang it to the world composed it right. >> Yeah. This song this song that Gabe compos heaven knows my name. Heaven knows my name is is a song that I feel like is just I feel safer till I'm coming alive in this song that Hashem's like with me in my stuff. He's there and wants to hear from me and I can in my stuff through my stuff at that space that I feel so misunderstood and so alone there. Hashem yeni we can we can like connect him there and call out to him and and express and he's with us right there like very strongly with us. We can connect from there. So I this song like resonated a lot. Seems like it resonated by many many thousands of yidd. That's what it feels like. I'm not the only one. It hit. Could we do it for the We're like jumping in too fast day one. Like where do you go for me? Do I? Okay. But just spent the year trying to like unpack. Thank you for doing. Is that fair? It don't matter like is that fair that songs all the like they're sung looks like that one the amount of people singing it in [clears throat] >> That's what I've seen. >> That's what I've seen. [music] That's what I've seen. I [music] believe that. I don't want to like make like facts. I don't know. I don't know as a fact that I all I have said did resonate by me and it resonated [music] by many people that [clears throat] [music] know I've seen it. I've seen it. I've seen that. I've seen it. [music] >> Thank you, Gabe. I heard you're happy when you moved out. You went to college away from town. It's kind of crazy [music] the way it all works out. [music] We didn't grow up in [music] the same house, but we're brothers. [singing] So, I want to tell you about something [music] crazy that I found. [music] It might be useless. [music] I might sound [singing] stupid cuz [music] I can't [singing] prove it. But I need to tell you that [music] there's a God and he knows your name and he knows your heart and he feels your pain. Oh, I [music] wish that it [singing] was something I could explain. I [music] can't. But I need to say there's a God and he knows your name and he knows your heart and he feels your pain. Or you might not believe me. But either way, I promise heaven knows your name. [music] Well, do you ever feel that spark that is burning in your [music] heart? Does it guide you when you're in the dark? [music] Or do you wonder if there's more to life? If there's an answer to the great big why I [music] believe that there is truth to find. [music] It might be useless. I might sound [music] stupid cuz I can't prove it. [music] But I need to tell you that [music] there's a God and he knows your name and he knows your heart and he [music] feels your pain. Oh, I [singing] wish that it was something I could explain. [music and singing] I can't. But I need you to say there's [music] a God and he knows your name and he knows your heart and he feels [music] your pain. Or you might not believe me. But either way, [music] I promise heaven knows your name. I hope that you hear this song and one day [music] you sing along. [singing] [music] And together we'll say [music] there's a God and he knows my name and he knows [music] my heart and he fills my pain and it's not [music] something I need to explain. Oh, I just want to say there's a God and he [music] knows my name and he knows my heart and he feels the pain. Oh, I've waited [music and singing] all my life to say that heaven knows my name. Oh, heaven knows [music] my name. Heaven knows my name. [music] I've waited all my life to say that heaven knows my name. [music] I promise heaven knows your name. I promise [music] heaven knows [singing] your name. I promise heaven knows your name. I know that heaven knows my name. I know that heaven knows [music] my name. [singing] I know that heaven knows my name. [music] I know that heaven knows my name. I know that heaven knows [music] my name. I know that he knows my name. >> [music] >> I know that heaven knows our name. I know that he knows our name. [music] I know that he knows my name. [applause] Thank you. Welcome back home. Thank you. Thank you. >> The words are foolish. Now you're going back. >> I was going to ask you to come back. >> I'm here. >> Thank you for nosing. The last time we were sitting here before before last night the last time we were sitting here two months ago the last night and people are saying their story and and it's a question amongst guys should a guy speak not and for different people there are different points to expressing and some guys share and it has to me it has a lot of value but one of the values that it has a person's stories important. The nuances and what they go through when we give space for another guy's story just counts. Hashem's with us and the details of our life and where he's bringing us and the amuna that comes out and each person's story is like extremely significant. I like a place I love about a yeshiva is there's a place for my story. It's a place for me and my story, you and your story. It's like a place for it to process things to be present to it. Your story counts a lot. Our story counts. I look at the last night of the yeshiva not as an aberration but as a peel back. It's the most like pmastica plays to the yeshiva because as guys are conversing it's not something we're going to see. Guy's walking here and he's talking to that friend. He's walking with Rasniki. He's speaking to his dorm counselor. He's speaking to his friend. the last night things are peeled back. Somebody's like examining their story. There's a tremendous respect for where he got, how he processed, how he went somewhere. There's something gorgeous. So, I'm just dabing that these these two songs we just sang. The heaven knows my name that practically we should like really understand that our story matters. Heaven knows my name. Hem knows me, knows my story and cares about my stories with me. Hem gathers me and he cares about the details and is present to my details. And that inside of us is like wonderful things that say Hashem should give us the to have like to be able to hear what's what's being said inside of us and to recognize the details of our life. The story of Hashem it matters. Hashem cares about all the details. I once I went to a I went to a gathering and there are people of tremendous and there's a tendency somebody who doesn't quite have that difficult story to say whoa he has like a story his story is important there me stubbing my toe is important there's no like story that that's too small I didn't guys like rate how much they went through I didn't go through as much that's a bunch of nonsense you don't it's not a rating system each person in their story in their own unique way matters a lot. Sometimes in a family where there's one sibling who struggled more extreme, the tendency is like his story matters. I don't care somebody's somebody had a normal life. It doesn't there's no ratings of this. It's not true. I happen to believe that everybody has a crazy story. I don't think there's a person 8 billion people. I just think some people are not in touch with their story. It's the nuances. But it's Hashem. Our story was designed by our creator and is spectacular and wonderful and precious and with all its nuances with all the different from here I've learned to lean into my own story. It's the main thing main. It's from the biggest things I got from the yeshivas. Lean into your story, Danielle. Be present to the things that are happening inside. They're important. They're precious. There's what to do with them. Hashem, Hashem holds me in in those spaces where I could feel and Hashem cares about that. And I could talk to him and connect him and relate to him. The whole tim is relating in those places. Heaven knows my name. Shem cares about my story. Thank you, Gabe, for bringing that out to the world. Really appreciate that a lot. Beautiful. I'm happy Gabe is back. I look around early at the collection of guys. Schlma who's here. It's wild what we have this year. I wanted Etan for a while. I Etan for a long time. For a couple of years now. Happy Etan Raiden. Welcome Eton. [applause] Eton is not he's his own person. And if you know his brother-in-law is Akiva Spern, one of the greats we've ever had in Yeshiv. He's his own person. It's like dangerous. He's not Aka will be known as his brother-in-law. He's known as Aka's brother-in-law. But his brother-in-law, Aka Spern, is somebody who grew worlds here. Aka and Sima, two brothers who in yeshiva like a tremendous person is learning sitting and learning to so comfortable and healthy and fun. He's you were with him in Sula Mar. He's just a blast. Such a good person, a beautiful person. So, we met through Akiva. He have to give him credit. But I'm happy you're here. I'm very happy here. And Ellie Whiteitman's back. Who's getting you? Who year you going to be in Ellie? >> I'm going to figure that one out. >> Perfect. Perfect. Yeah, it's appreciated. We had for many, many years. But the appreciation he happens to be brilliant Rafi Jeremas besides me, he's as sweet and he's brilliant. They're brilliant as he's sweet, but you're a very intelligent person. I'm happy you're back, Raff. Thank you for being back, Raff. [applause] >> Are you working also, Raph? >> Yeah, >> we're lucky to have you. We're fortunate. Lucky to have you. I'm really happy you're back, Rafy. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> Amazing. And for Ella, at least we have Yehuda, the vine in the meantime. >> Very cool. >> This We'll see once he had that roommate, you know, the trick. >> Talk about it tomorrow. the the schedule. It's now 6:30. It's going to be supper. Just the schedule. We will be starting night sader, but not yet. Tonight's a light night sater. I want the dorm council learning with guys. I have to speak to the dorm council about it. I think it should be gush. Imagine Joshy learning with like 10 guys. Lozi saying no, I don't want to make too much pressure Ellie, but um imagine Ellie giving a year 15 10 15 guys. Shimmy, I would go to it. But the bottom line is is we're going to start night slow. I don't like the quick beginnings. Slow slow down. Tonight supper will be now. Then at 9:00 there's going to be a practice and try out for the team. It's mayor's first day coaching. So you might want to watch the the any if you know somebody who's good enough for the tryyouts. So they're >> Oh, what time? I don't even know. 9 >> make sure nos so if that can be put out 9:00 9 may will be 8:30 let's do an on time may 8 can support 8:30 mv supper's now may 8:30 9:00 will be triyouts come watch come see tomorrow's a regular first seder shakas 9:15 the shurim at 1:30 we're doing a yeshiva trip I ask everybody goes it's just a good banding we're going to be going to the Connecticut sports center there's ice skating and arcades and bowling. The main thing there is is each other. So, it's just a way of everybody bonding. So, that will be 1:30. We'll leave the bus. There'll be buses here. 132. It's very close. Connecticut sports. It's like a 40 minutes away, right? Shims. >> How far? >> 40 minutes. Now, it's not 40 45 minutes. I asked the guys, how far is it? >> 40 minutes. >> Right. Very close. 40s far >> used to for us it's all Eton said 40s far he's clearly has not lived in what for us two hours is like next door lake it's like three hours that's but it's worth it because that's real burl lives there >> that's another so that's tomorrow will be this trip tomorrow and tomorrow night will be the first basketball tournament which we're asking everybody to join that is just so we could get ratings and make good leagues after Sukus everybody. The rumor is even that Yetsy is going to play this year in leagues. That's the heavy rumors. Is that true? >> Okay, I tried. A false rumor. It's a possibility. Okay, have a great night. Have a great night.