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stop. I want to express that the sadness my left is going to come in because I'm not saying it to flag him. I'm not saying what he's supposed to say. I promise you because we could talk. What's important in general when you feel something don't dismiss it hurts. I don't want to rebellion blown me away here. None of the rebellion like made like they were like sad. So I want to express something guy the boss the hacky game maybe that's a bad side of us we we could we could be fooled it's not a guy cries during a movie there's what to analyze there's what to see there's what to feel this world's real hashem in the real world if for what the lights I want to see I want to I want to say I thank you perfect okay I want to express that I don't want to cheer you But I want to say this to the I'm blown away. This Yeshua this I could talk about it for hours. I could talk about Yeshua for hours. I want to be sad to the guys. I want to explain it that the sadness very holy. My nephew became a venty. He found Hashem. He found himself. He found my nephew Daniel became a venty here. He died tremendously. Look, anybody that knows him, Emis, my nephew, became a Ben and the hockey team was part of his journey. A big part back up last year, started this year. He was a big part of his journey. That's not that's something real. He's I'm feeling with the I don't want to s signal the year this joy every day. My nephew had etern has something that will last for all eternity here and the hockey team his his kashar the friendships he made the journey it's a tremendous there's something that he's grieving letting go of something that's big that stood him well that mattered eternally when people have real things and grow it turns everything into big things the hockey team's a big thing there's a sadness there nobody none No, there's a band that grew together. It's not it's not like it's not I don't mean to make anybody said I love Ellie to be with Ellie. I could find a big space of happiness but there's a there's something that ended guys sitting on the floor upstairs he became a here became something he's going to have for all his life his children his grandchildren so the end of the season the end of something which gave him confidence a sense of belonging it's real things beautiful things so the feelings it's like it hurts things don't fight off that we're part of the ish we're part of guys even sense this that's all part of the that's part of what hits something very like is not like he's not now oh no it's something that I saw your day and say it the 11th grader has next year it's a sense okay the 12th grader there's a what he has whatever gets friendship is eternal people grow together and are together and I want to express the what hits me about the yeshiva the rebellion that are here the friendship they have between each other the warmth and rebellion and I it's not from afar my nephew became a here it's not this is not from I feel very much an insider here I'm close to I still our fathers appreciated each other tremendously and and and we serve as a place my father his father were people that spent my father taught in 11th grade for 46 years in yeshiva and we appreciate the whole of the yeshiva kamki's father was a beautiful beautiful person I observed him in camp my father always was very very m of this beautiful yin and I want to express what you had as a person I could speak all from one you in one after you can go down the line built here. You have something beautiful. I want to say in general in my own life as as you move through you to study this world if I see not for my own personal life I choose to learn a lot of look at the bed what should you learn what gives you I value when I go to a when I go to people are like lively they're alive and I see in RS there's tremendous gifts people are there's there's a lot going on the serious people are excited and happy there's there's tremendous amount to be proud of and to be impressed by I thank the guys for letting me join I'm a DRS guy fully I'm I'm feeling the sire also feeling the terrible loss of and and grieving that I'm also celebrating that they were together this this hockey this hockey team it's all part I my wife asked me going in it's not easy travel. I came my son was so many so that's delight to be with him was always a joy. We had a great time together but and I love sports and it was fun to watch the game and a joy and I don't want to say that just to watch the game it was an exciting and a fun game but I want to express that my nephew's journey here gratitude to this holy yeshiva I have a lot of friends Ellie's I have a lot of friends I want I came tonight to celebrate my nephew's journey here and appreciate the rebellion of yeshiva well the guys in yeshiva the guys are huge you have something beautiful here. You have something very very beautiful here. My bra to everybody here to continue all your life. Friendship are big things. Friendship's very big. I I have like I don't want to say it conscious and I've said it the whole year. Wherever I go, I'm saying it not not as it's boring. You said it already. I don't care. I walk into a room before I come like I'm like the chill bus. before the room people are talking. It's not that stop talking is real. The guy sitting at a hockey game jumping up and down together is very it's beautiful. People like each other. It's the holiest thing in the world. My father was very mad on time. I don't know another person in the world. I don't I'm not saying it doesn't exist who was more who used this time. My father's day was crazy crazy. As an old man, I can't say how many days it would take me to do in a day. His day was crazy. You met him, he was chilling. He didn't look intense or tense. His day was nuts. He was learning sad day. He was giving the he was the rash of he was the rule of water guys. He was the rash of the spher. He was writing the safe. He was raising hundreds of thousands of stuff. His day was crazy. Very little sleep, a lot of activity. My father dropped everything for everything to go everywhere that was but there was no not for a man who used his time. He was he was finishing sh right he he dropped everything but there wasn't a groan. It wasn't. There was no shy. When I was younger, if somebody would leave there to go to his friend's wedding, I was a little bit cynical. I admit I was immature. Say it's a backbone in the evening to your friends last year. Today, if you can make your friend happy, you have a better thing in the world to do. Friendship tonight would isolation holding hands, singing together, being together. Enjoy. You have a holier thing. You know, somebody knows something big. I don't know anything. I don't know something bigger. I hadn't found the holier thing in the world. Somebody finds it. I'd be very interested. Something so you say. So why am I? So don't walk. I promise you this afternoon. Maybe my favorite. I I gave a sh to my wife and my sister for years. Shabus afternoon. I know a few other ladies doing it. 12 lady's 15 on a baby for years we learned together before I go into the room they're so I'm pacing and my wife has she says 10 minutes late I can't make it up then I go past another one so the oldest ver is if I could say things that will cause the from the dependence. We have a right to sing now if the singing cause we hug each other together on the top floor still be together friendship together. So let's let's sing something together. >> Wow. I want something together. They won't. >> Yeah. >> I'll tell you about these days. I want to sing something that speaks about I want to talk I I'll say introduce you know that I'll tell you why I want to do that the goal is not positivity it's not like oh be positive stop stop knocking off like things in this world they're challenges what should I do my he like makes fun of glass full of positivity What do you mean is good things challenging? It's not behind me. The difficult thing he's bringing us somewhere. We're going through right now unprecedented miracles in history of world. There's also in Russia and Ukraine. A million people have been killed from the same bombs thrown in and One just hit a few days ago. I know people, my sister told me that her kid saw the bomb. They went they ran near. There's a little path and a big bomb like landed like between houses. It's crazy. Now we've lost we lost. We lost one is way too many. So we're not like just positive but then on the glass off of the miracles show us is crazy in us crazy it's nuts Ukraine and Russia have the same defense systems we have and a million people have died in it doesn't work bombs don't really work somewhere there we absorb kindness and on the difficulties on the difficulties which exist which are real we have we have a deep faith not pretend we cry we grieve we feel we have a faith hashem's work is bringing us something so let's sing this We are They are Yes. I go the day of death. I go I go I let Oh yes, God. I never go. I go again One Oh yeah. We are we are the I never forget God. I am the guy. I go Thank you. >> One of yours. just I just wrote it so it's not that you know is giving me part of the I so why can't you see me as he me my thoughts. This is hardly without you. I'm hanging by your friend. You said all you do is shutting me out. You just don't care. Just let it be. He has heaven save your But shall stay. That's gorgeous. I want I want to tell you something. to celebrate my nephew's success here as a I want to say something dangerous. It's it's I say it's something dangerous. Every truth can be misused. I think it's dangerous to learn this and more dangerous not to learn what I'm about to say. That's my belief. I hope she is will invite me back once. But but I think it's as equally dangerous to say it. It's more dangerous not to say it. And it's it's the it's attracted me a lot. My Reb was very into people. It's dangerous. What the taught it sounded to people that he was like has to show and born to be loyal to Hashem. I want to express what the ishitz is saying. I want I want to I want to share like this. The first is not from in the we're not called. Did you notice that our people are called brow in the mill? That's not what we're called. The name is Yehud. But my question is why do we lose our name? in the were called that's fine we could change our name typically we're called not in the migill they were called so that's that's one of my one question another question when it describes that we have we know we shouldn't say we have these things. We do these things have them was that what do we learn? Did we keep say that was to us? What does that mean? Did we learn it that to the yen that was chilling? Did we keep it? Did we wear it to the y that was filled with rice? What's the mice? What's written here? So those two questions does not ask. I want to say a question he is that's quite controversial in the world of this is like in this whole system from who was who was the rebbitzer from that whole this was like was everything they stood for and understood and something that energizes me tremendously. My kids taught me this. My rabbi taught me this. The guys in Yesha taught me this. And I'm trying to like share with the world what I learned. Their asked that h one in he got us to do that. He got us teeth from the party. So one he made it and he was trying to hurt us. He was trying to show he was trying to get us to knock us down. He was on Malik and and he wanted to knock the Yid and and and and bring the Yid from his mad and the ishit as come one. He got us to sin. He he did it. The ishitzer said that the cha this is what he said. He has many of what I'm about to say. The ishitzer said that the chva was that h one we we messed up. We had done ours and Hashem still wants us and loves us. A y is a y is a y. And the chum was happening that it's not like, oh, we messed up. We're out. Baloney, baloney, baloney. We're y. It's not a bow because we're good boys. Like when we behave on a y is a y. He said the cha and the defeat of hmon was that Hashem wants a y has an of a is precious. Very dangerous thought. It's a guy can lie in bed all day and be a savic. A y doesn't do good to be a good boy. A yid does good because he's a yid because I'm just being myself. When I look at my nephew Danielle found himself here. The goal is not to become to flip out to be the goal is to be yourself. Be true. Aid is a real thing. It's a big thing. I'm going to say honest in a real world. I don't I I don't I don't have none friends one day I'm not ready but I learn enough to in the real world you know who's bigger who's done more there's not of course it's not lost we says make me he might be bigger probably is no ide but the is a real thing. Mish is a big thing. It's it's the mish is just a real and powerful and then we try to tap in. We try we try to be present. We try to tap into the greatness that is says that was the true and now we're out. He said that there's a there's a whole of the where Hashem's people were the children of Hashem. I suspect that's why they're not called Isro and McGillan because Yesro is victory and Claiso has victories but it's just Yehuda is who we are. I want to express you know you know what says like say thank you gratitude say thank you gratitude is a space you could say thank you and not be in a space gratitude means I feel gratitude to the earth I didn't come here to say thank you I came here because I appreciate I hope some thank yous come out my nephew became a he's learning he's growing he's excited by life he's excited about in advance we're called Yehud not because we thank we're called because aid where he's healthy thanks we very connected to the is full of gratitude to Hashem when the's not appreciative just not so present that happens I met I traveled big distances in the past week to meet two different one was full of gratitude and one wasn't the guy who wasn't grateful is not like give him a schmoo and then he You think when message to self say thank you gratitude is natural you like somebody it like comes out you don't you never find saying remember to say thank you that's that's that's childish be present ask yourself if you didn't appreciate why weren't you in that space what's happening what's going on made ask you know what I'm saying remember to thank the guy oh I'm not looking when you go place I want him to be a real person and you're somewhere people serve you. So thank you. He came here and they con gave him poppers. He appreciates. It's not like note to self be one of the good boys. That's nonsense. We're thanks and that's who we are. If we've not find ourselves there. So we're not we haven't found myself yet. I haven't fully dug in. And sometimes I do it when I don't feel that it's or something. It will arouse and you'll get in touch. We're called because it's it's not about victory. It's about who we are. It's a gift that Hashem gave us and chose. The eradication of is made. We say we were chosen. Was chosen. selected by Hashem. It says it's not saying we learned. It's not what we put on film. Say we're filming is us we're not a forest children means that wrong. There's really anem on this earth. There's a there really a people that me and you are shy to very big things whether we're in touch with it or not. And sometimes we're not in touch with a lot of stuff. Slowly find it. Find what find energize. You'll find the things you'll go on fire when we are we are. It's not because we're being a big good boy. We're being to do with that. That's that's who we are and what we are. If you look at I wonder if you look at it says it speaks about Hashem giving the bad guys in the hands of the good guys. It says it just says it doesn't speak about us. Doesn't say because it's not about the good we were Hashem's people. He's close to us. He loves Amnestro by our very essence. He loves us. So I wanted to express this to the guys. Now somebody could say it's like dangerous stuff. So we're just good if we don't. I think it's dangerous to other women. It's dangerous at a checker. We're not I thought before I met my children and the guys I thought I was a tin can trying to do good like fighting if I fight enough. It's not true. Nisham is very holy. Nisham is each and every one of us. It's just the truth. Then we try to be present to the greatness that's us to the greatness that's the next person to try to to be present to find it to find those spaces what energizes what gets us going because we're starting point of something special that's true do things that you don't feel it will be pay attention to what's to what's being aroused inside is a big thing that's the victory against I know it's but I'm not ready to let go of this of the greatness of the specialness of the I I appreciate I'm full of grat that brought out this when I see we share the same name his father and I have been friends for a long long time longer years than we want to admit over 10 years we're very very close friends and to watch to watch a nephew who I love and appreciate just coming to his office full of full of energy and happy he's itself the success of event the way you can mark it every struggle to to mark success if I see learning all day but it's not comfortable it's not a success another guy to the outside I see I see he's like he's still he's he's himself I then came Danielle came to sh was full of full of full of energy he he's finding himself here at the beautiful yeshiv understand the essential greatness of the Yid. We're a beautiful people. Anybody remember to see what's going on in the world and protect why is the people of Hashem if we could sing together his people protect his people and we'll sing out some shab song also. Oh, forever. I forever. Ever sing I My Oh, she rain. Hooray. Hooray. Hooray. And I sing I sing I sing my glory. Hooray. Hooray. Hooray. Hooray. She always hooray. Hooray. Hooray. I say I I I say my hooray. You were forever. I say I say You're so high. I love to Amazing. Hallelujah. God. Godlaz. God exist. As we know, one chapter That's good. I sing our and I see this together. I will sh my I glory together. I sh I give you Happy showing. I would be inside. Let's sing the niggan saw a beauty in our people. He liked the you would think his name would be rooted in. What was the bitch's name? What was his name? and isn't that an interesting name for you think and of course we're all rooted in but the was it was rooted in the y's nature is amazing and yet it's it's rooted the the godless the saw in people wasn't like a stretch of some an expansive nether it was an honesty he saw He wasn't like distracted. It was just rooted in this. Let's sing our diction. Heat. Heat. I am I am I am Oh yeah. Yeah. I Oh yeah. Oh yeah. I am I am I am I I yeah Yeah. Yeah. Oh yeah. I higher. Shall you understand one more time? How good >> is your captain? >> Oh, I heard during the game. Let's go. Let's go. Let's go. Let's go. Let's go. every day as a Christian and create as Ze, so pure, so precious, so good at our so good at our holy, so pure, so precious, so good. that I so good that I see the never let go of me. Never let every let go of me to realize that I'm lost in my life. So take me around and don't let go of my king. Father I never let go of me. Never let every go. >> I'll tell you I want to tell you a story that happened to my son two weeks ago. I want to bring out a point that like is very this is like but it's relevant to all of us. It's relevant to all of us. You're sitting there. You're an angel. My son, my hoodie, he's coming. He's coming from tomorrow morning. I'm excited for his arrival. So my son along with about 10 friends somehow they decided that they're giving their you know hoodie hoodie and will be very close to me and show I told you this two weeks and 10 friends. Somebody convinced them they should hand their filling into a cipher check. It's complicated checking filling complices and there were problems once they open it to close it. It's not simple but if you left the filling in a compromised position so he was getting his filling checked. Okay, filling are important to me very my my I'm looking forward layers 11 I can't wait at 12 I start buying till where you get them from buying from beautiful places for your children I love buying my kids filling I want to spend a fortune some I promise if somebody hand me free till no chance I want to spend a lot on filling rightes as adults spend a lot of you buy spend a lot of I like buying my kids and to put on fill in ourselves my children and my son whom he's beautiful I like if my kid wakes up late I like put on your toe don't hide anywhere don't hide and puts it on with pride I don't care who's around there no shame you put on your toe Proudly comfortably I wear often by one I wear I want the to know everybody just put on your nobody's being ashamed I put on by all the time I want the guys just get on your nose come just put on your that's it the pride is the tire that put on he has been putting on for seven years that's a mess has a cry of precious. So Hoodie decides that he's handing his film to a cipher with 10 friends. Shard the next day we get a call. I shouldn't laugh but now I laugh. The next day I kind of ask you to get a call. The cipher call that you haven't put on a day of film in your life. He said, "Now you feel my hus. They're so bad. I'm not sending back. You You frauded. They're not filming. I'm not saying I don't want them in circulation. I'm not sending back." My wife was sick. Physically sick. I I'm very visual. If I don't see it, I didn't believe it. I know who I bought them from. I told my wife, "It's not m I wasn't feeling. I couldn't feel. But I felt my wife's rifle sick. sick nauseous she couldn't eat she couldn't sleep she was sick sad for seven years and put on soy was very upset alsocept he was thinking he was doing that day and he again our family were very influenced by and who he said you think wants to tell me what's my said I put on film. God doesn't need film. I put on every day. I put on I didn't miss a day. I put on Hashem's Hashem wants my film. I put on film every day. It's getting big. It's getting like a lot like even like focusing what it is. It's like points forem I made effort. I cared. It was like very much being himself and my my care to put on and that's what Hashem wants and the he wants the doesn't want an he wants your an doesn't want in he wants your he wants your You are precious with your he wants us he got a lot of he's getting a lot of the next day the cipher called back that it was a mistake he mixed up he's apologizes it was somebody else I failed another year to go through this somebody bought from online they bought from I don't know what they did somebody they bought online they didn't they didn't spend a lot they bought it I don't know they ordered online for a very cheap price and tell him wasn't but the experience what we went through that day what was like that like that sense my my sincerity my journey of filling that journey was the everything's exact so the spoke to us and my whole family should like absorb that I put on film for two weeks since in a couple of weeks there something different putting on my film not putting on film but my film I experienced the film in mind I asked my kids not to borrow to try not to borrow your fil your story which you have to borrow if it happens he was telling us that it's lucky that he said you you know I sometimes misplace every time I put on somebody else's I put on so I say at the end of put on your but um but this attitude of mitzvah you are mitzvah your own flavor of the mitzvah your own connection we really have a light when we saw hem we didn't say z but we had the most clarity in our history we didn't say that's our god we said z it's my god we didn't see god we saw my god but we saw we actually saw ourselves we saw who We learned to eat each person their own light, their own meaning, their own story, their own connection. When people would learn, he would say, "What God say to you? What do you say to what's it saying to you?" personal you had your chapter to smart took you serious when a person learns you are chat that come to see what Hashem is saying to you. Harry, Hashem talks, bring your story. Bring your things. Hashem, you can expect your age. I mean, go and I read and he spoke about things always that like freaky. I thought he had like maybe he did, but I thought like how do you know what happened yesterday? He would speak exactly. I've come to understand that when you learn Tur you can expect the is talking to you. You can expect that. You can expect that it's talking to your story. You're present to your story. You can expect that. I ask my wife and children be learn your story. See what hits you. What's hidden and you'll see you'll come with not force. I told that in a comfortable way. You'll see it's your guys what what did they speak about in your this coming shabas? You're rubbing any Jew you're in what are they going to talk about the para that's weird why are they calling the para what are rabbis doing maybe quote a different par they always like fit it in Iran kain maybe it fits better in a different parish study our people hug him are pure and holy we're good people why is the you go to a shepherd box why quoting from the parish a bad show a lot of bad say from a different parish that fits the hustle better like make it based that we're crazy precious people. What we do is like exact. Why are people quoting and I wonder that what our people do is like exact. We're saying something. What we're saying is that you can expect if you have this week, you can expect that Hashem is talking to your situ. That's what you can expect when you learn and Hashem's talking to you now. All if you learn yourself, you can expect you'll learn by Rebi for sure. I promise I have a story and I don't consider I'm not a rebi but a guy who's bigger than me he calls me rebi that's his problem and he goes to learn by somebody he can expect that a guy drove shalom 3 hours he needed to speak to me drove up to the problem is that I didn't know he was coming up he surprised me and after the share the I promise I had to go somewhere I was a half hour late in the sh but I couldn't I walk into the car no I'm like a half hour wait the guy drove three hours so six hours of driving to ask something like I I couldn't I couldn't basically I couldn't I felt sick over it I felt sick I saw the guy during the year and I was like I thought oh no and I knew I was a half hour red ch I couldn't be any later end of the year he ran up to me said thank you so much he called me later not similar I I promise you what He asked was exactly the said not not like we just learned this question. So what's you learn you can expect that it will talk to your situation. You have a right to expect that. That's why we say the very relevant to the that's what that's all we have. We can expect read the parish. You see what Hashem says. That's how we live. Be very read the parachute. Oakless is hard. Don't do twice. Something else. Just read the par. But come with your story. Find your story. Find what's going on in your life. Read the passage. Just check it out. Check it out. See what Hashem's saying to you. Read it. You'll see. Read some stuff and you'll hear what's been going on in your life. Hashem, you can expect when you're learn all of learning something. You can expect the Hashem. So he's talked with us. The one who made us, the one who made all the situations great. You can expect the same. My mama, my mother, my father had a thing that's not normal. I don't know two people in his sleep. He would sometimes talk in America. I never spoke in my life. That's unfortunate. Maybe one day I'll learn a little more. My father spoke and learning asleep, but he was going chemo. I was with him. So there was a kid right next to us and he said, "Isn't my father was saying they're very tired?" He said, "Isn't your father sleeping?" So I said, "Yeah, I was used." I was like, "Yeah, he's saying they're very true. What can I tell you? He's sleeping and he's saying that's what's that's what's happening. What can I tell you?" So he he would talk in his sleep. He had such a so when they were first married the first my father ever taught my mother in the morning she asked my father what is this this mean my father how do you know that she said you taught it to me last night he explained what said he said he hadn't learned it in two years doesn't know why they were teaching him there said that's what he was learning that night the day my father was my father learned that his whole My father taught two two a day for many for many many years and he learned and the day he was there for the first taught my mother that was the day back the day and my mother took him back that he taught her as a mission that she's keeping says if a man passes away and gives everything to his wife she doesn't own it she's just an she's just in charge of the state makes sure it goes to the right people. My mother supported my father's. It's not her type. She's doing it. She took that spoke. It was the first she from my father and it was the gam on the day of this. You can expect when you learn that Hashem's talking to you. You can expect that. Open your eyes. Bring your story. Come with your story. Know your own stuff. Then come and sit down and see what Hashem is saying. You can expect that. That's what we can reasonably expect. So I thank you guys for after a tough day sitting down is a beautiful place. Beautiful place continue to nail should come here and really find themselves just comfortable with you beautiful people. I like during the hacking game I s like each other that's like that's the only is a warm is good to his wife. He's not like warm is good to his wife. If the warm teacher said I like what happened to them enjoying each other heard you can feel it then my nephew is because of this holy place I'm sure gratitude to this place he came here beautiful came I thank you for everything you want There'll be many many victories here. Many many victories. Many many victories. But it's hard when the season ends. When the season ends, you're sensing even the sadness. There was something very eternal. Friendship's eternal. You sense you had something and you have something and it stays. My father left a year and a half for a certain way. I have more now than I ever had in my life. I give it up to have the flesh. What you had to have friendship from think about Our sports is not never win. It's everything. Everything. It's big thing. It's big thing. Friendship's a big thing. It's eternal thing. Guys, they win everything guys. They cry. Even guys, the two guys to sit with us to be the guys with each other. The way the French that I see there is beautiful guy. One time the guy pushed the guy into that was not like that but he was just the guy on the side. I think made the call first and one one said he hid him. lend it to master. >> Obvious song. Oh my god. You are now worship. Sh my forever share my Oh mighty. You are now. You are now. you now. Seek inside and all you find is light shining bright. Seek inside and all you'll find is light shining bright. Seek inside and all you'll find is light that shining bright for the one above. I'll praise you with all my heart. I'll praise you with all my heart. For never shall I forever shall gorgeous. >> Thank you. So I think >> I didn't go to the one the guy and then sing what we say. >> I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I don't want to hear. I don't want to hear the same songs every single So annoying. I like Yeah. Love it. That computer Go. We got it.