Pre Maariv Tisha B’Av 2026 Kumzits

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[chanting] I am [singing] [chanting] [singing] [chanting] [singing] I am [chanting] [singing] I [chanting] I am [singing] I am I am [chanting] I am [singing] [chanting] [singing] Here I am. I am [chanting] I am I am I am [chanting] [singing] My [chanting] [music] [chanting] My God. [singing] [singing] My God. [chanting] [chanting] Hallelujah. One of the that that my wife and I were z to visit. One of the sadik and one of the nishamas that we were had to encounter was the was the tant and and by that kev by the tant it's hard to know what happens where why it happened as a sadic of course is aem loves sadik and tremendous This braha comes comes to comes to this world. Of course, it's hard to express why something happens where as those we're we're going to to have a to the to appreciate the teachings of the Tyra that the sadic transmissioned as a loyal from Hashem. So things happen at the to and cry and and reach places that I that that were important to me and I felt that I was mispa from a deep place from from a from the closeness that I feel to my friends. I was mispoed to the rabbin and for a lot of my friends I was thinking that there's a mishant as a mish where he gives tremendous to a yid who's quiet and ch this sadic taught a yid based feel of the coven the dignity the honor The importance of a place of aid and hem and aid and aid this sad that brought to the world the beauty and importance and precious of honor and dignity is talking to Hashem. Let's talk passion. Let's talk. And this sadic brought such a kayak. People are very much strengthened at his kev. I started thinking to myself by his sometimes people have a they could be simple very simple and sometimes I'm the kind of the simple person sometimes not sometimes I'm jealous of the simple person we're sitting in and there's yidden talking in the yen talking in mish they're talking to each other they're not dinging mish places where it's us or with and I see a simple yid that I'm sometimes jealous of and sometimes frustrated by different times. I see a yid turn to the other and he says sha sha so simple and he just says such a simple person there's beauty there he sees he learned he could show you he's maybe even quote the sim maybe not but this simple guy he says to another sha sha sha what a simple such a simple yid and he looks at another talk in you're not allowed to talk in so he says to another that's all he sees and maybe in his shot maybe he's not so simple problem that's all he sees that's what He wants to say that's what he wants to say. That's what he's experiencing in that's what he's seeing. And he's seeing sha. Are you serious? Are you being serious? Are you a serious person? Do you know the sad? Do you know what we've been through our people? Are you aware of anything? Do you know anything? Are are you born? Are you alive? Are you real? Do you know that s what is going through? We're the people of Hashem. We want to talk to Hashem. We want to connect to Hashem. We have a lot to this person. You know what it brings up? Shul and he's trying to find himself. He's trying to you is what you want to say. You're not crying, screaming to Hashem. Sing for 16 hours. You know what he's been through. You know what his grandmother went through in Awitz? That's who you say shy. You know what's in this person? Do you know the pain, the difficulty, the hes? That's who you say shy. Are you who you are you a fool? Are you I don't know what to do with you. That's what you want to say. That's is that like okay, let's work. I'm sitting by his cover the so should we say should we say sh and I cried and thought about my friends and thought about myself and thought about our want our sovereign loyalty to Hashem my wife always asks why is the guy in shul he just wants to be in shul and more than the guy saying shah he wants hashem what's he do in shul why is the person sitting in shul why is he here. We're here cuz we bond Hashem. We're an incredible people. Our story is complicated. Very, very complicated. What you say is sh you probably mean all this. Davin was sitting on the floor. Sh is what you're saying to another Yid Davin and cry out to Hashem. Hug the Yid, kiss the Y, talk, dance together for for 15 hours. That that's your sha to another. That's what you want to express. That should be my every prayer under the sun. I dab much better when people are talking much better. There's so much to say. It's our whole story. There's a story to a person, a complicated story. I'm reminded of a very shallow person comes to Yeshiva. A very shallow person comes to Durham. They say, "What's going on? It's like a party place. Just drugs here." Mish smell. Give a whiffish. What's here? Have you seen a shirt lately? What's happening? Do you know how much care? How much ava? How much healing? How much courage? How much want? How much hope? How much ka? How much it's it's beautiful. It's gorgeous. The last night of the year is like a peel back of everything. Guys who are in yeshiva are like stunned. It's not what happens the last night. It's what's migala. The conversations are private. It's not always in front of people. Our story is complicated. I'm talking to the goim about our story, but I'm Why do I say it here? The guy see our story. Is there anybody who's been pained like us? Is anybody who's been challenged like us? But is there anybody who has a gorgeous story like us? To the external to the go, to the external eye, it it's a it's a it's a story. I was thinking what the polls see in our story to them. They don't understand anything. Not the first part of the story. We have a beautiful story of gorgeous crazy look around you. Our story is nuts. A story of the people of Hashem. A story of the people that Hashem cares for and sustains. And we stubbornly stick in. Yeah, we talk in schul sometimes. Yes, we have. Yes, we're frustrated. Yes, we want more. Yes, we want we want more and we're capable of more and we'll get to more. Yes, it's a beautiful story. Like you I think I'm thinking as we're traveling what the guy the way they would see our story. Most sh how would they understand this? It's a beautiful story of a beautiful people and a complicated story and a frustrating story and a story that brings out a lot of us. And today we're stopping. We're not greeting each other. We're making room for something. We're making room for our stories. We're making room for the story of our people. And there's room today. We have a complicated story. There parts that make me laugh on. I can I could feel Rabika's laugh because our story is wildly impressive. Much like I could laugh in Durham. It's a wildly impressive story. It's crazy story. Crazy crazy story. I don't just say it by daving. I say Shir and guys talk during Shir. I feel a lot of pride. The guy wants to be here. Guy Mameish wants to be there. He wants to talk here. He wants to talk here because he wants to be here. Because he wants to be here because our people want to be here. We talk in sh because we want to be in sh you want to say shai here I hear there's a lot a lot of things to say a lot of things to say and here today we're like this is all the pish the sh a lot of we just saying song after song that's what we really want to say please don't forget session. We think a lot about Yi and Danny Vaselberg on the brothers big shamas that want that want everything that want everything. They we want Hashem. We want to cash to Hashem. We want we want to live in in in the deepest most special place. And our journey we have a Hashem put us put us in a complicated journey. Sometimes we feel forgotten. Sometimes we're we're not in that space of feeling your care but we want it anybody who has a friends but those two brothers that are together we're buried and a shamus are together and these two brothers know about a story of hope a story of want a story of courage a story of beautiful yidden that want Hashem that are interested in Hashem >> [snorts] >> ask the instead of if we can instead to be for all the sh of the world and I would say not to say you should say I have no idea I don't know. I come here after Shabas my wife be made I have a headache from what the craziest headache everybody say shabas from being with the dies I want to hug you and I want to cry I want there's so many things I have no idea what to say and somebody says please do but I want to ask the if we could sing al one more time asking for all the yidd for all of us for all the parts of us that that want to relate and want to be quiet in wants to get quiet in that want to sing and talk to the want to bring all those places that were ready for they want everything wanted for our people everything that he wanted for our people we want we want beautifully comfortably for everything that he says we want it and we could even ask instead of saying to the we You could also say to Hashem, this person's been through so much. [snorts] So I'm asking if we could say one more time to cry for all the people that want to that want to be present that that all for every in the world and to say to Hashem instead of the Hashem in a begging if we could sing al one more time now. I don't say we won't sing it many more times but one more time now. Maybe more of a kapala for all the shaz. And we let go. [chanting] Amen. in. [chanting] Oh [singing] [music] [singing] go [chanting] a [chanting] [singing] day. [chanting] shall know [chanting] God. [chanting] I am your name. [chanting] [chanting] >> [singing] >> shall [chanting] go. I say [chanting and singing] I am your name. [singing] [chanting] La [singing] [chanting and music] [singing] [chanting] yeah [chanting] [singing] >> [chanting] >> Oh [singing] yeah. I [chanting] God. 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I I just want maybe expressed a little bit of what I was feeling when I'm feeling when when the Reb is speaking about something that's so crazy. It's so crazy when when we talk in the street or when we meet people I mean the the consensus in the world today I think it's just like the normal expectation is that when we talk about tishabove people say that nowadays it's very hard to do it's very hard to do so I have a kasha People traveled for for hours to come here for people want to be together on Shabb. So sometimes I'm I'm I'm I think I'll have the guts to say that sometimes it's the same people that say think that they don't want find that they want. So Bram Bak came over to me today and said what can I tell you? It's my It's my favorite day. Now, if if you say that in the middle of the year, if you say in the middle of the year, probably somebody will look at you funny. If you say it today, the year makes so much sense. What's going What is that? What is that? What is that? And I want to just give a little bit of a pirish from what I'm feeling. Just telling you what I'm feeling. I don't know maybe it's true maybe it's not I feel it's true you know when we when we when we when we look at the kin when we look at a all the things that we say in tishab it always felt to me like a self-pity kind of talk look at me look where I am how did how did this happen I don't know the type of talk that we don't usually talk that way it's We said, you know, and I always felt it meant, look, Hashem, how we are in the amongst the nations. And of course, that's not what we're saying. We're saying, look, Hashem, that we're like this amongst the nations and look how we feel and look where we have every excuse in the book to just turn our back and walk away. And we still didn't forget you, Hashem. Look at us. Look at us. Look what we are. Look what's going on. Maybe I tried to forget and I'm not able to. Says, I would love to forget it. I would love not to have tishov. Who wants to have tishabove? But there's something that I love more than more than loving not to have have it is to experience my thing. To be able to say give it a reality. It's my reality. It's real. It's what I'm going through. And if I ignore it and I run away from it and I run away from my Torah, from my things, I run away from other people's things, then I don't get anything. I don't get anywhere. The Reb was talking about, you know, you know, you know the thing about quiet and shul there's something there's something so precious about that. You know, when the world is quiet say that Hashem is and he's very silent. It's very quiet and you know when you know when things are quiet when there's a voice that's very quiet that we need to hear and when things are quiet when things are quiet we can hear that voice there's something so deep that we can hear when when Hashem is silent you know that in the in in the in Tanakh in the Torah we have three that are that are relating to Hashem how we relate to Hashem We have Shirim, we have and we have Shirim is when we're overwhelmed with Hashem's presence and we talk about Hashem and Hashem's talk and we hear that Hashem's talking about us. we hear there's a conversation, there's a back and forth. There's sometimes pulling back and sometimes coming closer, but it's all within a giloy, a relationship that's going on. And that's we talk about Hashem to him. We talk to Hashem. What's we talk about? We talk about ourselves. We stick in once one or two of like that just comes out of it. That's we just we we we say because we're here. Do you hear us? Do you hear us? But it's our voice. It's our voice. It's what this say that he said the garra says every day there's a basil that's heard in the world from harina saying whoa look at where we are there's a bas and the bashive head. Do I hear it? Do you hear the basal? Do you hear Hashem saying something? I wish I heard it. I wish I heard Hashem. Who hears it? Maybe Sadikim hear it, but Sadikim don't have to hear it. I have to hear it. Why don't I hear it? Says, "Oh, you hear it?" Cuz you're saying it. Pascal means an echo. It means that I heard that vashem we experienced and because we did so I had what to say and sometimes it's pain sometimes it's just lama why so long what purpose is there where does it take me why does that get me closer to you and that's the that I say is the bas that's what I have to say and we hear us we hear it and every yid has what to say. We have a story. We have what to say like the Reb is supposed. And when we say keep quiet and shul, it's not because Hashem is talking. It's because are talking because you didn't have what to say. You need quiet sometimes and then we can hear our voice. Sometimes I have to sit in the corner so I can hear my own voice. so busy people telling me voices telling me sometimes the voices are from myself but it's telling me things could I hear what I have to say you didn't have what to say and we have a day where we just sit on the floor and we experience we live our experience and we say I know that I'm always running away from pain because I hate facing pain nobody likes pain but can I experience it can I accept that Hashem For whatever reason, I could accept that I don't even know why. I don't even understand. I could say it. Could I say it? Could I say that? That what's so hard is that I don't understand. And when that's what's bothering me that I don't understand what it's for and where's this going, that's the voice of Kalisra. That's the voice. That's our voice. Our kasha. And the more I have a kasha, the more I'm going to be one day, one day. But right now, I'm not busy with the ter. Right now, I'm busy with the kasha. I could sit in the thing. I could sit on the floor and say, "Right now, right now, this is my my reality. I'm not I'm not accepting. I'm not ready to say I'm accepting that this is my matzah. I'm not accepting that this is where I'm meant to be." Because when I'm here sitting on the ground and I think to myself, I don't want a tishabove, I find that it's so it's so powerful for me. It gives me so much to be able to know that there's a place. I need to first have that one day a year where I could say what's going on, what's going on. And I have a muna the whole year. I go, I move, I do my avid, we do our things. But if we wouldn't have this time to experience, to feel, just to to again, when I say feel, we don't have to feel. Don't have to feel. We're sitting on the ground. We're sitting on the floor. The there's a there's a there's something very interesting that I always I I noticed many times by aim people are aim. So So And I I've seen by that they need help like okay now you have to sit down now do this now do that it's it's like I'm in a situation where I just need to be told up let go let go sit down right now be in your place you're not going anywhere just experience the thing but what if I don't feel I don't feel it yet I just heard of a sura I don't feel it yet. What in the world does that have to do with what you're doing, with who you are, where you are. It has nothing to do with the way we feel. And I want to remind here, it has nothing to do with how we feel. We don't have to try to feel, but we have to live in that place where I know it's true. when we were init and we ate from the carbon and it says is a mitzvah. THIS IS THE way you need to eat it because we didn't feel like we were still in but we acted like because we knew we're and you know what because we knew we were and we acted like that's why we got out of but we didn't act like because we left we left m because we're able to act like even when we didn't feel it even when we didn't feel it because I'm living in my reality and I need to I don't want to ignore my thing. I'm not ignoring my thing. I'm not I'm stop I'm not running away anymore. I'm not running away from it. I'm going to live it. I'm going to experience it. And from that experience, I'm going to have my gula. From that place, I'm going to have my Yeshua. From turning my back on it and not living it, I'm not going to have Yeshua. That's not what's going to bring me back. There's a place There's a place that's called me. There's a place that's called my experience. And when Hashem steps back, he makes so much more room for me. It's not a good place. It's not an easy place to be in. You want, but it's a place that I could discover things. I could discover that I'm coming back into sh and I'm here and I discover where I want to be and what and how I identify myself. And then I realized that whoa, there's something nice, there's something good about it. And then I forget and I go into the year and I say tishab I don't know who wants tishab and then I come back to another tishab and I realize hey this is so powerful this so meaningful because I don't have to feel because I don't have to I don't have to force myself anything enough forcing enough I I I I could I just could I just be could I just live my reality could I not deny my reality Can I not live a lie? Am I allowed to sit on the ground? Does that mean that I'm in a terrible place if I sit on the ground? Or it means it's in a good it's a good thing sometimes to sit on the floor and and and and to and to say that I know that that things that yen we yan are a sh is so much we could live so so good. It's supposed to be like that. Does the guy the guy understand? Does he know what we're talking about? Do I? The Y in me knows. The Y knows. Does he feel it? Not always. Not always. But he knows. But he knows. And I need to have the place where I stop everything and I and I and I and I just sit down and I say, I don't have to always make believe everything is good. I don't have to fake it. I don't have to say well something wrong with me if I'm not doing everything. I could say that there's a deep golus there's a long golus and you know what the lion of the just saying is always the one who is quiet and people that are quiet when they talk people listen when they talk people listen and the whole the whole it's a place the rama is a place we describe every day in ding the coil of the of what's going on it's a place be good. THERE'S SO MUCH THAT'S HURT OVER there and then everything's silent to hear a person who was silent. Hear a person who went through his thing and he kept it inside. And when he has what to say, the whole Shayan listens. When a person has what to say, I once heard from Rabbi Rosenberg from he said means that she gets other people to cry. not she's because when she talks everybody relates to that and everybody knows I have my story just like she has her story and we when we come to we come to every person's going to have his place there because they heard Rahul cry and that's my my cry because I know that I have my story I have something that I I that I need to cry about I have my thing can I live in that place could I hear that voice in the silence when everything is quiet and when I have what to say my voice is heard because because I don't say much because we don't say much because we don't hear Hashem talking to us and and and and how precious it is when a yid WHERE HASHEM IS NOT TALKING to him he's still talking to Hashem the highest safer of everything is this safer It's the end. It's the end. It's the climax of Tanak. He goes to it's it's it's it's the climax of of of our our what the Torah has to say. And you know what the Torah has to say? The Torah is so full of so many things talking so many things the Torah is telling us. And at the end, at the end, we have one cipher that says, "You know what? Hashem says, I'm pulling back. I'm not saying anything. You don't hear my voice. You don't know if I'm here. You don't even know if I'm here and you have something to say." AND THAT'S THE VOICE I WANT YOU TO HEAR BEFORE YOU GO INTO GULAS. The voice of hidden that have what to say. And my feelings and my experiences is CLAUS STORY. THAT'S MY STORY. IT'S PRECIOUS. IT'S AS HOLY as Shirim. It's even deeper cuz Shirim is about mikt. It's about this thing is deeper. Even without a mush, it's there. The most precious place, the heart of aid, the the the the yearning, the bey the confusion that a ye has cuz he knows that it's supposed to be so good. the kasha that aid has why is it like this and the acceptance and saying I'm gonna live my story I'm gonna be in my story I'm not going to run away from it I'm going to make an asich yidden y didn't like to make an asich about pain and it's a real thing it's a real thing because we get it because we get it we talk about it we talk about it holocaust this that we're always talking I know most of the story that I read about you didn't make an ASAP because they'd love to live their story because I know that my story has a purpose and I have something to say. It'll tell me so much so much about about what I about where I am about what I want. So we sit on the floor and like I said in Yiddish they always say biz and we'll say kinesis. We're not going to dab in kinis. We're not going to yell kennis. We're going to say kinnis. Say kinnis because that's what I do. But I don't feel I know. I don't feel. But that's what I do. That's what I do. I'm not going to run away from my things. I'm going to sit down and sit on the ground and we're going to not go not going anywhere. Let me feel let me go come together with other yidden and I and let me relate to everybody's story. Let me relate to everybody's thing and let's stop let's stop moving and just let let me feel let me experience let me be in my experience. And then what you didn't say and what you didn't do. That's the craziest thing. The craziest thing that we don't think we could do another one. I don't think we could do another another tishab. And probably we can't. I don't I don't know if we could. But but we got to this one. And when we came to this tishab and 10 minutes ago before we sat down, it's like how are we going to do this? And after we sit down, this is so true. This is our thing. This is our thing. And only you didn't know this cuz we have such a deep story. So much. There's so much that we have to say. [cough] That's why I want to remind everybody here. It has nothing to do with what we feel. Nothing to do with if I feel it. If I don't try to tell me a story about something, do me a favor. Don't tell me any stories. I want to feel it's my story. It's my story. It's not a story about 2,000 years ago. But I could read about people. We were talking on Shabas with some that Alar B. We say Alar B. We were sitting by the water by the nar by the rivers of Babylon. Andu is there we and the and the took us out of they said sing us of the songs of and we said to them we CAN'T how do you want me to sing A SONG OF WHEN I'M HERE WHERE WHERE I'M WHERE I'M WHERE I'm in THE IN THE MUD how can I sing sing the songs of and you know what happened that became our song. Crazy. There's a song. It's called Our Mary's bubble. That's our song. Crazy song. Crazy song. You know what the song is that we said we don't have a song. Ah, what a song. It's the deepest song. The song of what a crazy thing that became that became a song. That's our song. You hear what you're saying? Hear what you're saying that you feel like you feel like you're in a strange land. You feel like you're not here. You don't belong here. Wow. What a song. YOU YOU YOU BELONG TO NOT BECAUSE YOU WERE IN I WAS SAYING I CAN'T SING THIS SONG BECAUSE I'M NOT in what a song of I SAW THE SAY MEANS YOU KNOW SAY WHEN HASHEM CREATED THE world there was there was Mayan. It was full of water. Mayan is always that thing that's yearning to have a surah to become something. It doesn't have any. And Hashem split the waters and the water that's above THAT'S NEXT TO HASHEM and the the water below. And says that the waters below are crying. The waters cry. Why do they cry? Because they're separate from Hashem. And why are they crying? having kami mala we want to be close to hashem and we satis and we said we're also crying the same thing when we're crying about our pain when we're crying about everything we're going through we also cry with the water with the nahar and we say we also want to be kamal we also be next to hashem that's what I'm saying when I'm screaming in pain and I'm upset and I'm frustrated what y is saying I want to be close to hashem I want to Understand? I want I want things to be clear. I want to understand where I'm going with all this. What's the point? Where am I going with this? And that cry that becomes our song. And we have a song on and we come and sit down here and we sing songs. We sing songs of tishov. Craziest thing ever. We get together with that understand each other. That understand I have my pain. you have your pain and if we can instead pain one day that's all the it's all it's all one story everybody has his story within that story and we sit and we sing a song and it's a song it's the craziest deepest song deeper than Shir it's deeper than is about and I'm experienc it's also But it's it's all within the cash is when I could when I could talk is when I can't even talk and there's a by when you come to me you don't talk to him wait till he talks he has to open his mouth because we have to hear what he has to say he has what to say doesn't know what to say cuz I'll say he cares nothing to say that's what he has to say and we hear that and we want to hear that. We hear the other and we say it it's it's really something deeper. Whoa. What does that say about my what does that say about where I'm going about my journey about my story about my life? Every place is meaningful. There's something to say and even if I don't understand it and even if I don't know what it's for but the crazy stories that I'm still saying is We're not telling we're telling Hashem look. But you know when we tell Hashem look, we're really telling ourselves look. When we're talking to Hashem, we're talking to oursel cuz Hashem knows. But he understands us. No one understands us like Hashem. So we say it to Hashem. We say to Hashem, "This is crazy. Look at me. I could have had every every excuse in the book if I really wanted to leave you. And I said a thousand times that I want to. And I'm still back here. says, "I said I was I said you don't want to see me anymore. Why should you want to? I'm still looking back to you, Hashem. I'm still coming to you with my frustrations, with my tiredness, with my pain. I'm coming back to you, Hashem. Look at me. Look at me. Re look at me. When we experience our thing from that place, from that place, we're going to have all the gilling, all the all the Hashem from that place, Hashem gives us the to live our life, to live our mission and to be to to to see to see pay to know to know that the pain is not here forever. It's not meant to the the the the the birth pegs that I go through are for a purpose that to take me someplace. That's what it's for. And we don't always see it right away, but we know we know that from that thing, there's a song. There's a song that we're going to be singing even after Mashiach. This is this song. There's a song of the last dus of gullis and that's a precious song that never ever was sung before. It's a d it's a it's a we're a people that are experiencing things the way no one ever did before. We're experience we're hearing ourselves. We're finally finally hearing ourselves and everything is silent. You hear it. You sit with somebody and you talk to him. A friend is going through something and you're silent and you just hear him. Wow. The biggest thing ever that you could do for a year. The biggest thing. And just as big when you sit down and you listen to yourself. I listen to myself. And there's a place that everything's silent. When I have my story, when I have my thing, Y baby start maybe start something from the [chanting] single [chanting] the Jesus. [chanting] [singing] [chanting] [singing] Say I [chanting] [singing] know [singing] [chanting] you are >> [singing] >> I'm going [chanting] [chanting] [singing] [chanting] give Kick [singing] us a [chanting] [singing] voice. I am I [chanting] am [singing] your We are I love I love it. I dare you, Lord.