Yesod Hateshuva #5 - The "Generosity" of the Penitent

this torah class is brought to you by torahanytime.com okay brookhaven welcome everyone we continue in the inside hachuva of ravenoyona and rabbino yona has innovated for the jewish people a way where one who is immersed in sin is sullied is dirtied can cast off his sin and start over again this is not actually doing shiva but this is putting oneself in the proper frame of mind and mindset to be able to do chuva says this is what a person should do on his day of purity when his spirit generously propels him to be a servant as creator now this language when his heart generously propels what do you mean his heart generously propels him is this generosity to do chuva you have to do chuba after all even if there was no mitzvah of juva you would have to do chuva anyway because you would have to stop sinning and you'd have to regret your misdeeds so why why is this called generosity is this also later on rabbi nuyonna writes that in in the prayer of the pentagon he says and now my heart has elevated me and my spirit has generously propelled me what kind of generosity is this he has to do chuba and the kavona is that the truth is even though he has to do chuva nevertheless even though he's obligated to do chuva but in the situation where the person is in where he's cast off the yoke of heaven so even though he's still responsible to observe the time in his mind he already threw it off he doesn't have to it's not obligatory you know it's a in his mind he this is this is not required for him so when he's coming to do chuva it's like he's generously doing something he doesn't have to do again he's obligated to do chuva but in the mindset of the of the sinner it's like the person who gives extra money he's being generous in his mindset he is generously doing something rev goldberg quotes the gemara numa dev paves a person angers his friend he might not be consoled but a kalish baruch who if a person sins beseiser hashem is persuaded and hashem is uh accepts accepting and then in the gemara numa it says not only that but hashem is hashem is grateful that you did shiva question why is hashem grateful that you did shiva hashem's grateful education what you did hashem a favor by doing chuva you're obligated to do so some grateful to the repentant for doing shiva says if goldberg that even though the repentant is kaif to do cuba but according to this in in the situation where he's in that he cast off the yoke of hashem by doing chuva there's a certain element of him being generous and in that sense hashem is grateful to the person now it's interesting rabino yoina says when his heart generously propels him to be an evid to his creator now let's think about it being aved to his creator this person has not rectified his misdeeds yet he didn't do chuva so what did he do exactly he just said i'm starting again so how is he in any way an avid hashem the answer is because right now he's declaring that even though he hasn't rectified his misdeeds from now on he is primed ready to start doing the will of god and this in fact is the icker avoid on rosh hashanah interesting where goldberg says that the main focus on is not saying can is not confessing it's not repenting the past the main avoidance is to accept upon ourselves the the the hashem that we are ready to be hashem that is step one so this person even though he hasn't corrected his misdeeds he has at least readied himself and declared himself inevitable now what does the person say the image says i sinned unintentionally intentionally rebelliously was born until now now this is very interesting this implies that in the vidui you have to include khatam that a person did even before they were a goddamn um and the nigeridah writes in the chuva in your destiny that certainly there is for something a person did before 20 because to say there's no then the world is hefco people teenagers could be murderers and adulterers and do everything okay so you say bosnian shamatha punishes at 13. fine so they'll do it without adam now it means hashem doesn't everything a person did his whole life from the time he was came to das even below bar mitzvah when a person has a certain recognition they are accountable you hear this um the neutral is saying that even something a person did before their bar mitzvah if they had a certain level of das they're accountable for it so part of the vide is so that's a very frightening idea the aton is and now my heart has carried me vinod varuchi oysi and my spirit has generously propelled me lost to return to yuba ms in truth of alaih shalem and in a wholeheartedly the level of all my heart with all my soul and with all my resources now why do we need this expression that my heart has elevated me if goldberg explains that someone who is immersed in sin he needs a certain elevated spirit by igbo hashem to overcome the eight sahara interestingly the ramban in partial shmina of goldberg quotes that when moshe told aaron come crabal hamas bach and aaron was embarrassed to approach don't be so humble be bold in order in other words chuva requires a certain boldness and now the rabbino yoina says when the person's heart carries him and his spirit generously moves him so as we mentioned before in order to do chuba one sort of has to have a feeling like they're generously offering something that they're not required to required to do and now we see something amazing then not only does one who does chuva not only does it require a certain generosity of spirit he's even allowed to say it is i am being generous now that's why you're being generous you have to do chuva no because psychologically a person has sort of thrown in the towel and said it's impossible ever to come close not only is it a generous move on the behalf of the baal shiva as we said the gemara numa says hashem is max hashem is grateful to the person who does juva but the person could even say replenish them look i'm being very generous right now and that's a very amazing siddhas that you're even allowed to say revenge look i know i have to do this but realize that psychologically in my mind i feel like i'm doing something above and beyond and i can even mention that to you okay we'll hold it over here brother seven pick it up tomorrow and continuing in the tafila of the uh thank you everybody for coming see you next time culture you've just experienced another torah class brought to you by torahanytime.com