Shaarei Teshuva: Shaar 1:33 & 34 - Even if You Don't do Teshuvah At Least Want to

this torah class is brought to you by torahanytime.com okay gunner of shabbos we're continuing in the safeway shahree chuva which we already mentioned the importance of the safer character tells us that the gates of shari chuva are the shaarim of excellence that awaken the neshama to your shamayim it says the words of the shadow shuba could break even the hearts of stone ashrimi unfortunately somebody who pays goes to his doors every day by the way once we caught that pastor somebody who who knocks on his doors every day two doors two dollars they lost two dollars that result says that when adam and richard ate from the eights hadas amazing thing two dollars were removed from two different names of hashem so the al of dalit became aleph and the shin dal adjud became shinyur two dollars were removed a dollar from al of dal nunyuk two dollars were removed who removed it he removed the diode from the shotgun he removed the dollar from the olive dollar nunur and when we learned torah every day and we're ashwi misha ishq we put the two dollars back into the two names of hashem okay but that's not what we're speaking about uh this afternoon but it says um somebody who learns from the tuva will imbibe the kedusha and the khasidos and his heart will be open to do chuba okay so now we're talking about the ninth ingredient of chuva the ninth ingredient of chuba is sveeras hatava hagasmus breaking the earthly desires which rabinoyana says the purpose of that is to root out the cause of the sin what caused us to do navera it was our tava it was our desire breaking the desire is what removes the cause now i want to focus on islamic gimmo this is coming from shari chuva the shah russian islamic and i want to read to you certain words here and it really opens up a new level of chuba the timsa besva we also find in breaking taiva taelas a great and awesome benefit because you show bizarre the righteousness of your heart and your good desire to do chuba and by doing that you will find favor with hashem so we know what a lathe bar is we know what a broken heart is a broken heart is humility what's a ruach nishbaar what's a broken spirit says a broken spirit excuse me the opposite a ruach nishwara a broken spirit is humility but what's a lathe in israel what's a broken heart right here you ever hear that when it comes to the mahaden you should have a broken spirit and a broken heart broken spirit is the feeling of humility a broken heart on the other hand is breaking your physical taiva now we're not talking here listen carefully we're not talking here about not doing an average where you desire to do navera and you say you know what i'm not going to give in to my desire we're talking about more than that even something which is mutar to not give in and indulge in something which is mutter why says on the second line kia galla bit sedek liba you're showing the righteousness of your heart and your good desire to do chuba when let's say a person you know they're at a smorgasbord and they say okay i eat but i'm full now why am i going back for a third portion not because i'm hungry because i want it so this is what we're talking about and there's no ester no sir have your third portion but you're breaking your desire and something which is motor and by doing so what am i accomplishing why do i have to do you don't have to do that but listen you're showing the righteousness of your heart the two of us and your good desire to do so remember one of my rash yeshiva when i was younger review would be huda jacobson in uh tavares israel he was madayek from this rabbinion an amazing thing rabbino janu doesn't say don't give in to your desire because by doing by not giving into your desire you're doing chuva no by not taking that third portion you're not doing chuva you're showing that you want to do chuba what do you mean i thought there are two things there's either people who do chuva and people who don't do chuva so now we're learning there's another category they're people who at least want to do shula even if you don't do chuba but if you show hashem you want to do chuva you're ready to step above almost everybody else so there's three steps now there's three levels there are people who don't do chuva they're people who want to do chuba and the people who actually do it we're not even talking about doing shiva we're not even up to doing chile yet now we're on the before you do chuva you have to show hashem i am a person who would like to do chuva how do you show us something you want to do too you guys should look i already had to i already ate a meal i'm full i'm gonna not eat this thing right now which i would like to eat just remember some look at my i want you to see in my heart that i'm trying to refrain from the thing that brought me to sin in the first place what brought me to sin desire so i'm not giving into my desire and i'm establishing myself as a person who wants to do this amazing thing there's a certain madriga of showing hashem that you want to do these other words you're showing hashem you want to do chuba when you yeah they bring out the dessert you take a piece i'm not going to eat the whole thing i'm going to leave over a little bit why but i want it okay but now i'm going to show hashem you guys even though i want it but i want to show you that i want to do chew when you want to do chivas if you want to do cheapest you do it stop sitting i'm not ready to stop sitting yet first i'm up to the level before that and the level for that is wanting to stop the sin and the way you show hashem you want to stop the sin is when you have something that you want even though it's muthur you refrain and says the fact that this pasok is in parikh noon aleph of tehelem in paragnon aleph of tehillim park no now if we know is the parak of chuva where david is doing cuba for the mice of bashamah everybody knows this is another thing you accomplish what do you accomplish let's say a person didn't have error so you do two but how do you do tuba you stop sinning you feel bad about it and you say so fine you won't be punished so let's say a person wore a shatness and he said you know what i'm going to take my giorgio armani suit i'm never going to wear it again i'll give it to a guy i'm never going to wear it again ribonucleic and you feel bad about it so you won't be punished but it doesn't mean hashem likes you the way he likes you before you do the avira but when you refrain from something that you want you get on hashem's good side again it's a way of gaining the read soy of hashem so that's a big thing it's either that bite you know you say why but i really want to eat that okay no problem you're allowed to no yes sir but if you have a situation where you could uh refrain on sandwiches mutter by doing so you're yasra sal hashem are we on that madrigal that's for everyone to decide in fact the ravenian brings in islam dalit that it says in our voice that anyone who has these three midos is a talmud of avarmavino ayantova what does it mean to have a nephesh shafala for example you know maybe in our generation the you know they have sometimes all these things were endless eating there's m okay so not on the madrega to give up a little food that you want but don't participate in the all you could eat you know smorgasbord it's a dangerous thing because what is it it's basically it's just endless giving in to what you want endless giving when you have a meal so you have a portion you eat the portion that's a way of of exhibiting this in fact another illustration of this says is we found by abraham avinu now ravino said to sarah now i know hine fast mario now i know that you're a beautiful woman why he didn't uh he didn't gaze until that day so are we on that madrega that was my drink of amravinu but that was that this is the media of nephesh shafa and another extreme example of indiana brings down is you xiaomi in sanhedrin you show me says that would it says about some of his uh wives that they would dress up every day but david hamilton would not would not live with them would tell these wives every day to adorn themselves with makeup with perfume why david would excite his yet sahara and conquer it it says um as a kaphara for what he did with bashar so this is the ninth ingredient of chuva again even a person doesn't do this you did the basic chuva yo venu yonder says truv is like laundry so a person does stop sinning and says vidoy and hasha the sin is forgiven but now we're talking about added levels of tara san fesh added levels of being loved by hashem which is gained by shviras gasmus and that is the ninth that is the ninth level of chuba ninth ingredient of cuba you've just experienced another torah class brought to you by torahanytime.com