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Parshas Balak: Preserving the Hidden Life Force of Moav

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this Torah class is brought to you by Torah anytime.com welcome everyone thank you everyone for coming You' like to welcome all of our Tor anytime viewers pasak we look at the beginning of the para there are a number of difficulties and we're going to try to answer them in a very unique and outstanding way the beginning of the par tells us that Bak saw everything CL did to the was very afraid was afraid and what we like to ask is that is a very strange choice of wording they were afraid it should say they feared is not the typical word that is used to express fear and then the P continues they were scared of the the nation the people and then it says that may was disgusted by the children of Israel so at first the PK says the nation and then later the P says so what was it were they bothered by the or were they bothered by B these are two different word choices why does it first say and then say and then says to the Elders of May was afraid that clra would come along and clra would kick up lick up their surroundings like an ax kicks up the grass of the field why all of a sudden is May being so poetic and saying not only are we afraid not only are we afraid that baso will kick us up and uproot us we're afraid they're going to uproot us like an ax uproots the grass of a field you know we don't need the analogy we don't need the simile we don't need this uh this the this poetic illustration of how exactly would destroy May why does it why is it necessary for the zik May for the people of May to say we're afraid that will kick us up and now we're going to focus on one very mysterious word in the next he sent Messengers to a man by the name of bam the son of our P what does p mean to the city of P why do we need to know what city bam lived in let's say he lived in bar park or he lived in Williamsburg you think I care where bam lived just say they sent message to Bam in the city of p p does this word p appear anywhere else in tanak you ever find anywhere anybody living in P what what's the name of the city what does this mean and furthermore the p goes on to say that they were afraid of this nation that had left no kidding they left it's necessary for for balock to introduce his request with you know this people clur that left of course they left the whole world knows they left sh and besides the fact that's old news the fact that left M that happened a very long time ago why was it necessary for Bak to mention to Bam you don't think bam knew you were M guess who was in MIM with us billum was there billum was the one who advised Paro to enslave us if there's anybody who knew that we were MIT it's bam so what does bolock say this nation that left MIT it's irrelevant information it's extraneous information coming back to the city of p p is there any mention of P anywhere in tanak and the answer is no it says nowhere the word p but it's most interesting that the word p appears in inas and Par truma on the words V you should make for yourself a table of cedar wood of sheim wood so this was a special table that was in the mishan the tus translates the word Shan as P okay that's a little bit of a clue but what does that do for us so now we know the word p in Aramaic means a table great what are we going to do with that so I just threw out that clue just to tease you a little bit the word p in Aramaic is a referen to the SH now what does the Shan and the mishan represent we know that there was an around the there was a crown the crown on the AR represents T repres represents Torah Torah Glory what is the sh represent Rashi says the crown around the shulan represents malos wonderful what's that going to do for us so the table represents malus and Bam lives in a city named P which means table which represents what's that going to do for us further more we move on in the par and the Mal hasem sends a special Mal to stop B in his tracks so billum is traveling and all of a sudden the angel is blocking him on one side he has one side he could go he's being blocked on one area and he could go right or he could go left next bam is traveling further and he's being bled on both sides he has one area to go and then he continues to travel and he's blocked on all sides so what exactly is happening to B first he's traveling he has two ways to go he can go right and left then bam continues to travel he could only go One Direction and then billum continues to travel and he's completely blacked off says rash was showing bam a sign of our forefathers what does this mean what does this mean so I remember when I was a little boy my father told me over the who explains that first bam is traveling he's being blocked by One Way by Abraham ainu now abrah ainu had one righteous son he but he had two roads of continuity which were bad what were they and the Ben so B is blocked in one area he has two ways to travel that represents then he is blocked on two ways he only has one way to go had an as but yob was rightous but then he's blacked on all three sides representing all of his children were perfect bam is completely overwhelmed by what by the by the avice what do the avice have to do with this why are the avice intervening why are the avice interfering with what bam is doing the they're resting peacefully in the in if you want you could go DAV there you could say to but what are the other doing blocking bam what do they got to do what business do they have with bam and in fact the Aral says that bam had beef with the BAM didn't like the says the Aral this is comes from the one of the Aral courtesy of rabam behind the back door in the right not even with the you open up a special door behind the door there are secrets from I was able to borrow one of them and it made your way to your sheet over here so it says from the these four words go to B and say to him spell out spell out a bam was going to uproot the what does that mean he was traveling to the mar to dig them up what does it mean uproot the what was he going to plan to do the are there they're resting like we mentioned they're resting peacefully in there's nothing B could do to the their legacy has already been completed is is is how exactly is Bam going to uproot the aice you want to say he's going to uproot CL is what does he got to do with the aice and theice coming to block him what do they what business do they have with bam further we continue [Applause] on God opens up the mouth of the donkey and the donkey says to what did I do to you that you hit me these three times and rash is bothered it shouldn't say sh Regal three times regm refers to three feet or three holidays it should say that would be the correct usage the correct word should say why sh says Rashi bam was going to uproot the sh what's that supposed to mean BM was coming to like with a hammer to break all the matah you know all the matah factories billum was coming to tear down the suas billum was coming to uh you know spray chicken soup on all the cheesecake on sh What was what does it mean billum was uprooting the three Regal how exactly is he going to uproot the three regum so you say well he's coming to destroy CLA is so has nothing to do with the three rolm should say he's coming to uin mza Talis Kus Tyra why are we focusing on the fact that bam was coming to uproot the three and moreover what did did he want did he want to uproot the three or did he want to uproot the three we just said from the spells that andash is telling us he's coming to uproot the three so make up your mind B you know what you lost it figure out what you want to do do you want to uproot the three others or do you want to uproot the three the answer is very simple the tells us that the three y are symbolic of the three in fact the tour number eight the tour points out that he heard in the name of his brother that the is right because by Abraham it says was baking the matah for the which and Sh is conned because when God gave us the Torah on sh he blew the where the come from the aisle of and whyu built suos for his sheep says if P represent the three of us so bam had one thing in mind he wanted to uproot the gim Rashi says he wanted to uproot the three regalim it's the same thing okay represent the gim let's ask ourselves the following question why are the three called regal regal mean what legs feet what do they have to do with feet right so was the last time you walked to you walk to people should walk to and now they're calling why is it called because we walk to that's why it's called that's what yam is walking to yam is a lot more than walking to that's only one day of yam the rest of yam you don't have to you could go home so what does it mean what does it mean why is it called feet the three feet I mean if you had to think of a word to describe yam is you know feet the word that you would use to describe you know the beauty of yam when you think of you know the when you Savor the time of yam when you think of how wonderful a Jewish yam is you think of feet why why three legs and in fact this idea that we're saying that the three represent there's a from lber he writes in that when it says the word stands for the three mid of the three stands for theid which is is the mid of Abu which is and giml stands for the mid of which is G so what exactly does bam want he wants to uproot the three of us he wants uproot the three how do you upro the how do you uproot the what exactly does B want and then he wants to curse us but then he sees and he sees Rashi tells us the modesty Theus of the Jewish tent how our doors are not aligned opposite each other that when we go out of out of the house in the morning we don't look into what's doing in the other guy's house and Bam Rashi tells us he was about to curse us but this thed his plan completely this stopped him in his tracks when he saw the modesty of Cl Isel finished he's not going to curse us why well how exactly does the modesty of the Jewish people put uh put a stop to Bam's plans and at the end of the parish rabai bam comes to balak and he says balak here's my plan this is how we're really going to get them tell your women tell the to go out and seduce and have relations with the Jewish men God will really get angry at them now that was the plan of billum that is what billum advises B why did Bam specifically pick this that the should go be with I mean if bam wanted to get Hashem angry at us you know what he should have done he should have said this is what I would have done go into the shes and during Kazar get them to talk get them to talk during or go over to people and tell them to tell you lar or convince them to wear shat I mean why specifically Aras it's very bad it's only a there's no there many many more in the that are much more right if you live with a Jewish woman who's a you live with a not so why exactly why exactly is Bam advising that the we're about to hear a tremendous revelation of the Aral and the Aral addresses perhaps the main question on the para and that is what was Bak thinking Bak sees CL Isel they're coming out of MIT the were decimated they were destroyed every last no longer existed we don't hear from for hundreds of years B was crossing through the they go through the land of the they destroy the what is B thinking B thinks he's going to hire this magic this magician Bam Bam's going to say Abra Kadabra and you know the Jews are going to go down I mean who are you kidding this B is right when Hashem gave them the T the whole world shook God's on their side what B is a fool b a smart guy says the ARA an amazing thing last week's Para two weeks ago K what caused K to go off rash tells us who is going to come out of him so says like this I don't like what is doing I'm going to start up with him and one of us is going down it's either me or him so you know if you're betting man 50/50 is not really that great when your life is on the line so why did kak take the risk because he saw is going to come from him so he figured if is going to come from me if I'm going to start up with M and one of us is going down it's obviously M says b Bak saw through his Kish through his necromancy through his magic through his black magic Bak sees in the distant future a great person is coming forth from him his name was D H so Bak says if is coming from me then I'm not going down I still have many many many generations left in me to last because if is going to be born from my grandson egine who would give birth to Russ who would be the matriarch of the davidic dynasty that means I'm going to last for many many hundreds of years so B says that he is being supported by one of the greatest individuals who ever live so he's thinking to himself where do I turn when it comes to issues of royalty I send my message to P what does p mean what is the the tum of it's the taret of the word is Mal if you have a problem with Mal if you don't know what to do with Mal what do you do you go to P that's what p means so Bak is taking advice from bam regarding how he could take advantage of the fact that b was going to Father eventually okay understood that he was going to last for a very long time why was going to come out of him now let's take this idea a little bit further there's a concept in Jewish thought and this concept is found in many places in the AR in many places of the writings of in the p and here's the thought the thought is that every item in the world every person in the world every inanimate item in the world has a life force what is the life force of everything in the World AIT a spark of Kad which means the same way a human being has a soul when the soul leaves the body the body no longer exists the body is lifeless the body is not an entity even the body collapses everything in this world has a life force and the life force of every person every object every nation is what is called a sh Kad a spark of Holiness that is why writes in many places we find in ch that if you would start up with an the would look at you and then you would cease to exist says the for example number 15 once looked at a guy and the guy crumbled into crumbled into a pile of bones what exactly is that process where the sadic looks at someone and then they fall into a pile of bones so explains every person in the world has a life force of a spark of Kad that is able to look at this person or this item extract the spark of kadus now that person is lifeless is a non- entity he falls into a sack of bones that isot in many garas and that is why the explains in the name of his re the par says never want to see your face again mha says you bet I'm never going to see your face again because really sadic is not allow to look at a Russ sadic is only allowed to look at the Russia to extract whatever kadha the Russia has once mha has already extracted all of par kadha he's no longer allowed to look at par anymore and this we explained once par we had a whole sh explaining this concept so understanding this idea that every person every object this table has a spark of kadha if we had a big sad here who was able to extract that the table would cease to exist not only do tables have Sparks of kadha not only do people have Sparks of kadus there are nations that have Sparks of kadus what was May's spark of kadus what is the life force of May how is May able to exist as a people says the safer igra deala was the igala was written by the and he bases this on the that the life force of was the fact that the soul of was was hidden somewhere in May that is the life force of May and so long as D is in May May will exist and the longer that doid is there the longer they'll exist and the quicker we extract him the sooner May comes to an end so balak is very afraid because balak understands that yes David will come from him and that is how Thea explains bolock is being empowered because he sees this great person come from him but bolock is very afraid because he knows that why is CLA approaching him they're after something they want something they don't want moabit water they don't want moabit pizza they want Moab royalty they want and the same way is spent 210 years 430 years of MIT extracting Every Spark of kadus that ended up in MIT until the AR says it says by they emptied out Egypt like a fish tank that was cleaned out of its fish there's no longer any Kad that's why MIT doesn't has not existed since we've been there MIT is not a country it's a shell it's a shell of its former glory once the Jewish people left Egypt we're never allowed to go back there you know why we have no business there anymore there's nothing to do there there's nothing to accomplish says the purpose of gas why do we go from Spain to Portugal to Italy to England to Poland to Germany to Russia why because there are that have been scattered all over the world says the purpose of Gus is to gather them back how they got there it's a different story for a different time but the job of Galos is to go around yeah go around Gathering these Sparks of kadha says AR why is it you know Jews will be in Spain and they'll reach unold greatness and then the next night they roll out never to return again and then they go to the next country they're successful they reached the highest echelons of society the next day we're gone never to return again and it's like that for every single country we've ever been in how long you America I don't know buter says America is the last stop okay so why is it that you know we we we're success successful and then suddenly suddenly we're gone never to return again says because as soon as we finish our business soon as we gather up all thead we're out of there we have no more business there so Bak is very very scared Bak is afraid we're going to come we're going to find David we're going to collect him and they will cease to exist so what does the PK say means to store away to hide away to put into deep hiding he's protecting his treasure because he knows the lack force of is and in fact when told Go destroy if we're supposed to destroy M and M was just helping May so certainly we have to destroy mayave whereupon God says no no no no no don't destroy mayave yet you know why because there's still business to take care of you still have to collect two two good Dos are destined to come out of May so therefore even though logically you should be destroying May so long as is still in you cannot touch them they're Untouchable says the medish there's a very interesting medish this medish is number 24 it's called Med the says that Nik why the douik says the medik is for Mid Nikas is for may ask the medish why is Hashem asking us to take revenge from May at a later date says the medish because D was still trapped in we still needed to get him out and as soon as becomes the king the first thing he does is he destroys mayave forever that's the first thing he does it's actually the second thing he does but if you look in Sao you have it on your sheets in number 25 David is appointing King by he destroys may you know why because they have no reason to exist they have no life force they have no Vitality it's like you take out someone's heart right you grab the heart out of their body they don't exist anymore they fall into a lifeless sh that is what happened becomes the king we extract May doesn't exist anymore says Thea that is exactly what Bak is afraid of Bak is afraid that is approaching May to remove to extract David and therefore balak isar he hides him he wants to protect him he wants to store him away and B says following to himself explains theem comes to we're getting out of here it's time to leave you know what M does he takes out of MIT the a of what's the a of the a of R is a mixture of people that have in them a little bit of good and a little bit of bad why does m take them so the explains that M was very busy there for for his time in the he was busy collec all the but now but now he has a big problem he has no time to take this guy and to take that guy and to take this good spark and to so you know what he does Hashem says we're leaving tomorrow M says I'm just going to take a bunch of guys and the good the the Sparks of kadha are in there somewhere we'll extract it later we'll take it out later the a of were this big mix mishmash of good and bad who did not have time to weed them out to select out that which was good from that which was bad I remember once went into a sh right before sukus the the rub of the sh he had hadasim piled on his table up to the ceiling I never saw so many Hadas so I said you're selling the hadasim said no they're all mine said they're all yours he said yeah somewhere in this pile I'm going to find two good Hadas right that's what m did he had no time right the RAB the r went to the store he had no time to go through everything he said just give me everything you have he took it back to the shore and then he selected it later that's what m did he took a bunch of guys he said there's something good in here anyway somewhere and then he selected later says was afraid of the AR the AR is the a ra he was afraid that you know what M was going to do he was going to come into take out 30,000 and eventually select the good ones he was disgusted disgusted about this plot of B he was afraid of the he was afraid of the he was afraid M was going to come take out a whole mound of these moabites and then later select the good ones like he did in MIM in fact the says an amazing thing you know I bam advised Bak that the should with because says you know right now all has to do is find one spark of and as soon as they remove him you guys are done this way if all the women are M with who knows how many Sparks now are going to enter it will Takeo to the end of time to retrieve those Sparks says that's what it means I will give you ad how to keep CL is coming after you waiting for you until the end of days that's the that's the advice if the then forget d there'll be thousands of Sparks all over may may will be you know like July 4th there'll be Sparks everywhere okay this is the approach of the arizal and the aala and the ha in understanding exactly what Bak was afraid of let's get back to the avice B bam they want to uproot the three they want to uproot the three regum and we said it's all the same it's all the same the are represented by the three Regal how many y do we have how many regum three Regal is that true what if we're forgetting about one Regal there's there's one which is called which is okay so that means there three reg and then there's who is represented by if represent who represented by says the safe sh sha is one of the great works of mysticism look at number 26 the writes it says but don't forget about says the sh is represented by so you have the three regm on one side and they work with who abob then you have a separate entity called which is represented by is which day of chva beginning from right you believe it or not is not too far away right how what day of Chua is well you have 29 days in L and then the 22nd day of t the 51st day of CH Abraham had a relative by the name of light light wants to go where to S Abraham says I don't want to fight with you let there not be a fight because you're going to go to S is coming out of who light I'm going to lose David it's going to be very hard for me to retrieve David Abraham says to light it'll be very difficult for me to get him back you're going to go to saham is going to be lost in the D is going to be lost in light he's going to end up in until I get him back it's going to be many many many generations Abraham says please let's not there there be a fight I don't want to lose no what's who's I don't want to lose that that is why it's pointed out the says to please go curse who n who's n the 51st day in other words who is balak and Bam looking to preserve forever David the longer they keep David lost in May the longer they will last if David stays in May forever May will be forever if David is retrieved early May will be destroyed immediately so they're looking to preserve the N they're looking to preserve and take away from who are they looking to away from is listen to the following it's biges so we would like to suggest that if we had the privilege to see the God's Throne of Glory we would notice that Throne has how many legs four who are the four legs of God's kak Abraham now you and who DAV now we understand why the three are called they're theover very simple the three regim are the legs are the feet of the so if we would have the privilege we would see Abraham David which leg holds the throne up whose leg David a three-legged chair can stand that is why it says that when Yehuda was born points out God's Throne was able to stand when Yehuda was born because David's leg keeps the standing otherwise it falls down it's NE it's uprooted so bam and B who do they want to hold hostage David they hold David hostage D never becomes part of Cl The Remains three-legged what are they uprooting the three of what are they uprooting the three regum their NE their neckar because three legs don't stand only withes points out you look at the word Yehuda is with which letter the fourth leg of the so by holding they want to uproot they want to uproot by the way writes that you know all theim are called except for is a reg but it's not a the says don't call a why not writes in the name of The Rao right is buried in Italy somewhere right The Rao says that you know why is not called a means a circle all the are around the circle but what's the center point of the circle the source of Kad of all the Regal is so is coming to be he's coming to uproot who he's coming to uproot hold on to your socks is more important than the other that more important the fourth leg of the chair practically speaking holds everything together he's a he's a he's the Mak he's a final regid so it comes out listen to The Following the malim come to the house of abrahamu and one Mal was telling SAR she was going to have a child and one Malak is telling is healing Abraham ainu and one Mal came to destroy sadan what about the Malik who came to rescue light were there four Mal he had one Mal who healed Abraham one Mal who destroyed S one Mal who told s she's going to have a child what about the Malik who rescued light Sashi tells us the Malik that healed Abraham is the same Mal that rescued light what they're not enough Mal to go around couldn't find a fourth Mal to do the job of rescuing L he had to get one Mal heal ab and the same Mal you know he was a short on workers he was short on cash so he figured you do two jobs says listen to the following Mish half a fell ultimately we are not allowed to marry May can't marry them if a man comes from even if he converts and he learns sh 50 times with thei can't marry Jewish women why not because May is off limits what did they do wrong so the says look at number 30 why number one they didn't bring us bread and water right when we were traveling through mayave they should have you know set up Poland Spring water machines so that as we're traveling through we could you know stick our cups in as we pass through right kiso would have lined up with cups right and you know everyone would pass through it they would have given us water they should have set up you know concession stands giving us free hot dogs right that's what the t is saying they should have given us food and they hired bam Ben against us but very surprisingly if I were ask you if you can marry someone from May because they're rot into the core are you allowed to marry the women from mayv yeah you're allowed to marry the one from why so the gar says the following the gamar says because you can only hold the men accountable for not having gone out to bring us food and water but the women they should they should be inside home in their tents inside out of the uh the public Spotlight so we can't say to the women women you're so um you're so unkind you're so cruel you should have brought water and food to CL no the women were exactly where they belonged they were in their house the gamar asked but what do you mean so I understand the women aren't going to bring food to the men but the women should bring food and drink to the women says no even to go outside and bring food and drink to a woman public it's a disgrace for a woman a woman is a princess her honor her glory is in the home she should we cannot have any Tinus we can have no complaints against the women that they didn't go out and bring food to the women so the Malik is coming to who to destroy sadan fine the Mal is coming to tell Sor she's going to have a child one Mal has to rescue light the mouth says to himself rescue light why should I rescue light who's going to come out of light that's any good so Hashem says you have to rescue light is GNA come out of light says how's he going to come out of light well hasem says through says you can't marry in Hashem says you can marry the women he says why could you marry the women the women should have brought us out food Hashem says no women should be in their tents the Mal says where does it say in the Mish that women should be inside Hashem says go to Abraham's tent see where Sarah is wherever Sarah is that is the way a woman should be if you see that s's in her tent then you could go rescue light because you know will come out so the Mal comes the Mal says to AB say she's in the tent oh the M says hasem was right women are supposed to be mest women should not be in the public eye if that's the case then only you can't marry the men from May but you could marry the women from May and now will be born from May and have to go save light says that is why the Mal who rescued had to first go to the house of Abraham to receive the that you got it it's complicated but you got it the Mal had to go to Abraham's tent to learn the of and now he could save light by the wayal says right if we were to ask comes into the room we all stand up we say David what saved you how are you Jewish today he would say it's Sarah when Sarah stayed in her tent and she established the that women are honored in private not in public that's how I'm a Jew today because that's why Jews are allowed to marry the women from in fact says may I lift up my eyes to the heavens where does my help come from says stands for you know where came from the fact that SAR was in her tent one second so we would like to suggest something very novel unbelievable if B knew that was hidden somewhere in I would venture to say that it was bok's greatest dream come true if he could get to say because if a Jewish the Jewish people can't marry into May guess who will be lost forever David how's David ever supposed to get out of May of if the Jews will never be able to marry Russ be born as a Jew and then convert so if Hashem will say that is B's dream come true then then D is trapped forever right when B would go to sleep at night he would count sheep and then he would say over the P he would write it he would have artists painted for him this was the Mantra of and he comes to billum he says bam what could we do to make it that Mayim will not be allowed to marry into CLA isra and this way D will be trapped forever and if David is trapped forever who exists forever May so Bill says I have two pieces of advice for you the first thing you need to do is hire me if God sees you're hiring me he'll say those ing great moabites this is Abraham saves light and now they don't bring they hire B and you know what else bam said bam said don't bring them food and water God will see what evil MOS you have and sayem sure enough billum was right on the ball billum hit the spot they did the two things that would get Hashem angry they hired bam they didn't bring us food and sure enough God said but then it's Bam's greatest nightmare because he sees the of the tents of the women when he sees says oh no it's G to be but will be because women have to be in the tent women have to be private andm is say we don't hold the women accountable so as soon as sees said that's it forget it I'm out of business he says I have one last let's go to the let's tell them all to leave the tents be promiscuous be uh Lous with cl Isel to be Mis with CLA is to go out be mous at to show that women are not mest to show women go out in public to do the lowest of the low and then how's what's hasem going to say I don't hold the women accountable they should have for bringing that they should have brought you food and drink because you know women are supposed to be in the tent no not the moabi women the moabi women they leave their tents they go out they go doing who knows what so Thea of was to convince that should be for the men and for the women because that is why the Mal why did the Mal go to Abraham's house the Mal says I'm not saving light no one's coming out of light because both the men and the women are not until the Mal said that that s is in the tent he said you know what the women will be M so bam is coming to counteract this ideal of so he says to the last eight I have for you you know how we're going to get to be for the you tell them to go out you tell them to be Kad you tell them to go in the public and now you're going to be demonstrating for the whole world that the nature of women have changed that used to be in the olden days that women stayed in the tent but now in the year 2,400 in Moab in modern day Moab women are different women go out women go to the wall to pray women go right it's a different Society now in moov so what bill was trying to do was get it to be but the same way tells has already set the presedent of hasem tells bam I'm sorry you're too late s IMU has already established for all time that it's not her personal practice to be this is says in is the way women were created for all time and no matter what bam advised B and no matter what the did theam has no Tinus on the women of May that they should have come out even to bring food and water to the moabite women so what we're learning is that it's not just it doesn't just happen to be that wanted that b created that b was striving for that he created it through the the a of bam and Bam and bolock were working hard they were you know their brains were working how could we extend the iser to the Nim because if we extend it to the nashim who will never come to existence D doid will never come to existence May will last forever that's that what they were afraid of by yar may may was afraid that they would extract D bam wanted to keep doid he wanted to keep D this way he but ultimately saves the day and acknowledges that by saying establishes for all time that and the of is only for the men and not for the wonderful you've just experienced another Torah class brought to you by tor anytime.com