Who is going to win your battle? Winning the inner battle - Purim Katan | Rabbi Alon Anava

so we're going to have a very very very powerful important class that you want you want to sit down and listen it doesn't matter who you are what's your background observant not observant Jew non Jew this is one of the most important messages one can hear and try to make it short interestingly I uh went online to look for the topic to see if anybody talked about it not to copy material to see nobody talks about it nobody there's no class online on what I'm about to talk about now so first of all and most important each and every one of us has two personalities the personality that is you and the personality that you show to the world very very few people it's the same person most people it's two different personalities how you are really and how you present yourself to the world if you are the one that it's the same personality then turn the video off walk out of the room this class won't even talk to you but you are the two personalities and I admit I'm also there's aone in the house and there's aone in public and that's everybody with a very very small minor amount of people that they're not that what you see is what you get it's the same personality in the house and outside of the house and believe it or not I know a few people like that should you be like that I don't know if I'm going to address this now that's a different question should you be two different personalities or you should you be who you are always that's the product deal with it now why am I saying all this because each and every one of us has struggles that I will never tell anybody about them that they're my own struggles maybe one person in this entire world knows about it that you feel confident to share maybe two maybe three but the majority it's inside of you and nobody knows about it and you don't want nobody to know about it because it's you doesn't matter if you with your best friend your husband wife child you are not and will never ever be the same personality like you are by yourself in a closed room now we're going to dig into that personality when you're there's nobody around you when you don't have to give an account to anyone and you don't care what people say now each and every one of us has a dark side has bad things that you are maybe embarrassed maybe not but you will definitely not tell people that you do and then you have all your junk in your mind we all have junk in our mind don't feel discouraged or feel that you're weird or something and this junk in the mind can be anything and everything but there's one thing that everybody seem to uh be either unable to figure out or they just don't know that the option even exists but the reality is Jew not you observing not observant we're all made from the same material and we all have a pull to the same thing which is God everybody and I'm excluding now you know don't start telling me talking about normal people so really each and every one of us has the the power and the the desire also to be close to the Kosh something pulls us away from him and and we have the power to be drawn back the problem is that most people don't know how to go back or even know that there's the need to go back to the kadosh how this will affect a situation when a person has an inner struggle with their Chua they want to repent because in essence every person is good we just spoke before this class about my my past how I was 30 years ago and you don't you don't know me that well you know this you don't know me how I was personality so my chuva and everybody's chuva is a very very long process in essence everybody has that that they want to do the chuva they want to come close to God maybe it's covered with too much junk that the person doesn't feel that but nevertheless every person inside has a connection to God that pulls him to God that wants to do chuva just that if you're already lucky and you're already in that place because 90% of the world didn't come to this place they don't see any reason to return to God to repent and to return to God very soon God is going to bring the the world to its knees mark my words I'm not claiming to be a prophet or anything but mark my words that God is going to bring Humanity to its knees how it's going to happen sit back and look the ones that are not going to be pushed down to their knees are the ones who are already on their knees in front of Hashem that's it if you willing to accept it no one accept it that's the fact when it's coming I don't know did the process start long time ago the fact will be and that's prophecies it's not me saying God is going to bring everybody down to their knees if you do it willingly with love great the G the the process of the Redemption won't be so hard for you you know that in the process of the Redemption some people will suffer tremendously and some people won't feel nothing exactly how it was in Egypt at the time of the Jews that sat in Goen they weren't Jews they were B is there won't they were 20% of the nation they sat in Goen goshan is a city they learned Torah life was okay the 80% that didn't live in Goen they died in MIT at the end 80% of our nation none of the people in Egypt 80% of this we'll call them now Jews doesn't sound so the sons of Israel B isra children of Israel okay the ones who connected themselves to God we're safe Torah says clearly the plague of blood any Egyptian will go to the tap to the river whatever it was all blood if an Egyptian would give a cup of water to a Jew the a cup of blood it would change to water the Jew would give it to the Egyptian would change to blood so we need to do the exact same thing I need to be now sitting in Goen it's not now the topic of the class I'll address that another time if needed and wait for the Redemption and if I'm attached to hem I won't feel the Troubles of the Redemption you'll just walk through it Shalom like you see a big car accident everybody gets hurt one person walks out you'll be the one who's walking out of the Redemption why because of a b and c you you're attaching yourself to Hashem So eventually what I'm saying now applies to everyone Jew or non-jew doesn't matter religious nonreligious and why cuz the day is coming that Hashem is going to bring Humanity to its knees each one in their own way Hashem wants your attention with that said every person in his Essence wants to come close to God if you feel it then you're in a a very good place if you don't feel it you're in a very bad place and not losing hope Shalom but it's a bad place if you right now in the year 2024 doesn't matter who you are if you don't feel the need to repent for your actions and get close to the Creator situation is bad for you and it doesn't matter right now Jew non-jew it doesn't matter if any human being right now does not feel a strong urge to repent for their actions and come close to the Creator you have a serious problem you'll be the first one on the knees with that said and I'm assuming that the ones who are listening right now already realized that you want to repent you're not sitting here cuz I'm giving you candy after class and the people who are playing the video are not playing the videos cuz they get paid right to which means you want to do Chua to that's what I need if up until now you said yes stay with the class you said no go out or close the video if you don't want to do cha this class is not for you chuva is to repent and you don't have to be a Jew to do chuva non-jews have to do CH exactly like how we need to do chuva chuva means to repent chuva also means return to God so everybody needs to do chuva and you know why because the day is close that the only key to open the door of your rest of your life is chuva and the way God is going to bring Humanity to its knees if it's in Israel there might be a war this is not a war by the way what you seeing now what you're seeing now it's Define a war do you feel the war this is a war cheek andom I'm not Shalom don't dist distort my words people are dying people are suffering it's a bad situation but what I'm saying in regards to the magnitude that's not a war what do you have one division in Aza a war is that we're sitting in the safe room all day long that's a war when Shalom that will happen you'll understand what a war is no food no electricity no internet no nothing either it was bombed or whatever so what we're going through now is not really a war and I'm sure some of you can maybe maybe they have some experi experience what it is to be really in a war Americans don't know what a war is because they're on safe ground in America and the war is in Afghanistan Vietnam Korea Iraq the Americans don't feel War they know what war is the Veterans they know what war is an average Israeli knows what war is that's it you see the Israelis when there's alarms they keep on walking like there nothing happened the foreigners jump on the ground the Israelis like so bringing down Humanity to its knees will come in many forms I just say Israel war there is also a war in many other places financial crisis salvation whatever hasem wants everybody will be affected the point will be that Hashem wants everybody on their knees saying to God you're right I accept if you don't get to that point you won't survive the next couple years if you got to that point let's continue the class and if you got that far already and now I'm addressing the on on the camera then like the video share the video comment on the video do whatever you need to do the channel right now YouTube is like not friendly with me in the last few months so we need to give some to the channel even though I think once the channel is marked it's marked but uh I do believe that sharing liking subscribing all that stuff it does help the channel and we don't want the channel to go down uh and needless to say share the video with every share this message has to be heard by many this coming Thursday and Friday is a very powerful date on the calendar it is called patan now I'll create a very quick survey what do you know about P Katan besides the fact that it's the date on the month of Adar that puim would be celebrated if there wouldn't be a leap year that's about how much we know about puim Katan am I correct do you know anything about puim Katan that you can enlighten me I thought so P Katan as you know is what I just told you it's when we have a leap year the first month of Adar which right now is Adar Al we don't celebrate puim we celebrate puim on ad but on the 14th day of Adar Al it's called batan so what do I only get a costume only the top part of my body half costume what do you mean Katan I get dressed as a dwarf I went online to see if there's anyone who talking about pu Katan nothing out there about puim Katan so I have to tell you what's going on because in three days is one of the most powerful days in the year that happens not even every year we spoke a few weeks ago I taught you about the sh how why the leap year works to match the cycle of the sun I explain everything I'm not I'm not repeating myself now patan is one of the most powerful days on the calendar and we're going to learn now not why we celebrate puim Katan because it's a leap here what's the meaning of puim Katan what's the secret behind it that you have to understand that pu is one of the most dominating events that happened in the world World 25 2600 years ago what is it 2700 years ago that was a worldwide event because there were Jews in 127 countries the Holocaust was supposed to happen in 127 countries you know what event that was needless to say the three days after that they already started building bet mikdash a second temple and 70 years later back to Israel but 3 years later they started building already the bet mikdash I mean the building started in 3 days later not three 3 days later they started building preparing for the bet midash so P has a very very very powerful message now the the simple explanation of P Katan is when where when we have a leap here and we have Adar Al and AD that called is called Le then in sorry in in in Le pu will be celebrated in and Al will be called pu do we read the Miga what do we do what do we do in puim you know that most people inam they don't even know what to do so let me give you two lines just what needs to be done then we'll go into what's more important but you have to understand that even though talking about patan the topic of the class is totally different thing just happens to be that Onan something happens so just pay attention follow you won't be disappointed it is very important to know that as I said before if you know about this class is not for you everybody has to be AA but everybody is a b cha and I'm saying if you didn't reach to that point class won't talk to you won't give you anything maybe we'll wake you up to get your act together but the focus that we need to understand right now is my chuva all that I teach in the last 20 years du cha one day you will die you will go to the other side and what do you think is waiting for you there you think you're that great and if you are good but something's waiting on the other side you're going to have to give an account for everything that you did you're not scared of that I am so our focus in our life is Chua Chua is going to get you out of any situation Chua is going to make you see the Redemption with your own eyes it's all about repenting from your actions that's what it is right now in our generation it's not about investing and making money not in crypto not in shto no Investments at this point unless you have a lot of money already in the system stay in the system somebody came to me literally a few days ago what do you think about investing in crypto I said do you have a million dollars what if you're investing less than a million dollars what are you going go what are you going in with with a ,000 shekels that's how you're going to make a fortune and how long would the crypto last another year it can crash any second but let's say another year if you want to go ahead and do that right now it's time to invest in your chuva because at any second anything can change you live your life like as if the world will continue regular that's the right attitude you still need to wake up and go to work and you still need to make a living and go to school send your kids to school you live a life how it is with a back burner that the sand clock is running out there's no time and it's all about Chua it's all about repenting from whatever you did whenever you did and not for nothing I told you in the beginning of the class and remember it or take notes that I told you that everybody has the two personalities the personality that you show the world and your personality with that said I will sound blunt Now by saying that if you don't hear this class you will never be able to do chuva is that fair scary no like I'm holding the key but I'm telling you that I'm doing Chua for over 20 years this is needed you're not going to go to the next level and I'm already telling you I don't have enough words to express that if you're not holding the ticket of CHA you're not surviving the next coming years take it as it may a person that is not connected to the Kosh will not survive the coming process of the Redemption when goes on the day mashia comes the time of the G the ones the verse that I just said the ones of you who are holding on to God you would live that's it can you hold on to God with sins no so let's continue let me first explain to you be very quickly briefly about the day theat that you know what to do what not to do it's this Thursday night and Friday Day this year the says that the day has Kusa Holiness it's a holy day we're not allowed to fast we don't say ton we don't say eulogies and we uh make the day a little bit more special and again I repeat you order to fast on that day like AES we don't make eulogies like AES we don't see like AES it's a very powerful day you'll soon to see what powerful day the difference between theat and the regular puim is that we do not read me and we do not give that's the two things we don't do whether we celebrate 14 and 15 I I don't think I'm going to H H spend the time in this class to explain it cuz I know the class will be long any other additional information will make it longer but there is a question in Al for for puim we celebrate here inat Purim two days why because satat was a world city so we celebrate puim on the 14th and we celebrate poem on the 15th with reading MEA because it was a world city in yush you do p him the next day not the first day so there are different rules with puim in certain cities this applies to to puim Katan I'm not going to talk about it right now whether you do two days of puim Katan because this year will be Friday and Saturday because it will be the 14th and the 15th of of AD so just know that that's a a a subject needs to be addressed I'm not talking about it right now butan might depending on who you go by the you uh go by you might can do p Katan also on Shabbat but nevertheless and that's what's important the K stays on it's a day with K like AES like any other holiday not the same Kusa but it has Kusa Kusa means holiness now comes a big question do I do a suda do I do a PO meal do I do a PO meal on Thursday have you done po meals in patan in the past okay so there's a few opinions the ran says that you you have to do a suda the Rama says that not you don't have to do a specific suda and call sud but you definitely have to make a nice sud or sud means you wash for bread not like a scrambled eggs so the ran says you have to make a suda I'm already telling you the is if you follow the run if you're making a then you have to do and you have to before the suda have in your mind that this is not your that you won't be in the sud so don't do the sud that fast I'll explain tomorrow what to do but according to the r commentary you have to do a sud the says don't do a fancy meal but add something laun for bread or add like a and add a nice dish and if I do sud then I have to do I said sorry M so if you do sud you have to do the mitvah M remember that and like I told you this is not a black and white this is from our books different commentaries what to do what not to Doan does not much about it now like I told you uh to remember uh both of the days have in that because of what's called Pim and mfim the world cities and the not old cities and like I told you maybe we'll do tomorrow before a class that I we'll talk about the if not I'm sorry you'll have to open a book and read yourself so that's basically what we're facing in a few days from now a holiday okay it's not even a I mean puim is a is a holiday from our sages it's a miracle that happen after the giving the Torah but nevertheless it happened in order for us to understand the class or the message you need to get to the point that you understand that many of your actions are not accepted by the K you can call it a sin you can call it however you want you have to understand that the same way that you are yourself in four door in four walls then in the same level of your own communication that's the level you need to be right now by understanding that you're it's just you and the K because to do real Chua real Cha and I have a few years of experience I know I I I didn't finish my Chua but I think I can myself that I know how to do Chua it's a long process but uh the foundation of doing Chua is to understand that you were wrong if you don't know how to bring yourself to the point that you understand that you are wrong you you won't won't be able to repent ever but you're also going to have horrible relationships with people because it can be that you always right you may be right half the time but you're not always right so you need to know how to be wrong to do cha is to understand that I was wrong now I know I'm hooked on the repenting but you have to understand that without this link you're not going anywhere so pay attention the entire class what I'm about to give over is based on for words from a verse of theim chapter 34 verse 15 and the words the four words are Shan evil and do good T 3415 that's it you master this verse you have a ticket to G the translation says Shan evil I would say just move away from Bad Evil just move yourself away from it and and be busy we set off do good means move away you know Le was sitting here debating with her child the first advice you give a child or anyone move you see problems move away so and needless to say a set what do you have here you have the negative don't and the positive do when I prepared this class half of the material came from the Zohar and I was about to read as I always do from the NOAB and explain translate but then I came to the realization that it will turn into another series and then I'll have 10 20 classes and it's not going to work out so I did the homework for you I'm quoting I'm not going to read and and explain everything that I read I'm just going to quote what I read mainly of it comes from the Z the Z says in very brief ways in a very clear way in many places in the Z that the world was created for me what does that mean that means that can be a million people on the other side of the world working in factories and working in fields and creating something that I should have it millions of people are working that I should have something that's micro what the zor says is the whole world was created for me you were created for me you were created for me you were created for me so I can have a mother a friend a neighbor an enemy a boss a customer everything in the world was created for me all the food in the world is for me all the Fabrics in the world all the industrial everything is for me so I can serve God millions of people are now designing clothes processing Fabrics making designs so I can wear a shirt and needless to say take it to the next level do a Mitzvah with that thing so when I have the attitude that the entire world was created for me everything that I see here is for me if this is the case so what is expected from you imagine how I come to my son I take him to our estate and I show him like the The Lion King all this is yours my son now what is expected from that son you should know by now no no no thank you thank you for sure you what's expected from you or in the analogy I just gave you with a son is one thing move away from Evil and do good that's what I ask what didn't you understand I am giving you the whole world says hem I only ask what did I ask move away from Evil and just do good that's so hard and if Shalom you failed do what's the big deal do repent so I'll ask you a question does it make even sense to tell a person first do good and then move away from Evil does it make sense to you cuz the verse says move away from Evil and then do good I ask it a different way can it be that the heavens will tell a person a then let's think about it together I mean the words came out of David's mouth obviously came with divine inspiration can be an option that the verse should be do good and move away from Evil so I can tell already the entire class is based on what I just told you what I asked you what I presented some people are not in the level of do you know that means that you are in a situation that you're about to do something bad and you move away it's very simp that's it I'm standing now now in a situation I have an opportunity to steal from you I can either steal or not okay move away I'm now in an opportunity you said an insulting word I can punch you in your face I don't need to give you now examples most people are not in the level of is move away from Evil do you feel that you're in that level be true to yourself you don't have to impress me I'm telling you that most people are not in the level of so how you tell me to do good I'm I'm lagging behind be honest with yourself right now you don't have to answer publicly but be honest with yourself do you feel that in every opportunity you do you feel can you testify on yourself that in any test that you have any challenge any situation right away you move away from Evil you're not nodding heads I don't know if you're embarrassed but the answer is no I'm I'm daring anyone to come and say I always I want to meet that person I I'm not always s who are you kidding okay now homework what is the that you can't handle so for one person is Greed for money another person a woman he cannot look at women another person can zip their mouth another person judgmental another person all above so what is your that you can't handle don't have to say it loud but you have to have it in your mind right now one person will be drugs another person alcohol another person gambling and one person all the above but every person including you yeah including you and en me has a few things that the doesn't work did you recognize the one in your life and by the way one person that cannot move from can be extreme drugs alcohol gambling violence the person is not even close to Tor but the class is still for him or her your soul is different than mine one person their failure is with minor things that for you you're like I don't even see it in the Horizon these minor things I'll give you an example you are extremely tired you you can't even keep your eyes open you're already lying in bed you have to wake up in a few hours when you remember you didn't say do you get out of bed wash your hands get dressed and say no you go to sleep so your didn't work but something this big on the other side of town another person the beating his wife and you didn't sayma because it's 5:00 in the morning so your challenges are different than other people's challenges but let's face it all of us has at least one sin that is uncontrollable you cannot do and it's a serious sin you know what we say in Hebrew now GI means I'm right with an exception of a few great people that that they don't have and again the severity depends on you not on not on it's it's it's individual cuz for me the things that I fail in the at least they're not it's not desecrating Shabbat or forbidden relations it's it has to to be under some type of a control most people what they can't handle with is the severe Sins Not the simple sins so what's the what will be right now can you serve God when you're full of sins if this is the case cannot be the option that the Commandment would be do good and then shine evil must be that it's first shine evil then do good and if this is the case I can't do any good because I'm filthy of sins how can you do mitv if you're full of sins we have a problem here we have a problem most people are not in the level of su you might observe shabat eat kosher dress modus and do many things that are amazing and what are you called some will call it a religious person observant uh Torah observant in all the great things that you do happens to be that you like to gossip about your neighbor one of the most severest sins in the book is your Torah worth anything where's your Torah your shabat everything I'll be BL and say goes down the toilet once you say that's it you want to argue with me you can argue you can argue as much as you want you have 95% of Torah you accept Shabbat an hour before Shabbat and you you do you you you leave the Shabbat twice you have magnifying glass for every worm in every leaf that you're about to eat your dress is still your ankles but when it comes to your neighbor no filters are you a God-fearing person can we call you a religious person where what what is your status right now now I'm giving an example with L because that's the most common that observant people who are aware that there's a Creator they believe in the Torah observe shabat everything you're dedicated to the master of the universe does it make sense that you even open your mouth to say doesn't even make sense to say such a thing but you just failed in one of the most severe sins in the book and that's Everybody by the way I'm giving the example with you know that in the religious world I'm not talking in the secular world in the religious world you know in percentage how many people fail in Forbidden relations with the observing Shabbat with the kosher with everything I was once at one of my tours in a community somewhere in North America wealthy seemed very educated in Torah looks like a Mary merville like a nice area everybody's happy when I was sitting there in the branch after Shabbat and it was sud I don't even know how to call it by the way I didn't say sudat Shabbat because it wasn't a sudat Shabbat and when I was sitting there I'm pretty perceptive of what's going on she's with him him with her her with him him with him everybody's and that's a a community that everybody's observing Shabbat it's in the sh it's I didn't say Shabbat meal it's not a shat meal it was a holot I don't even know the word in English for that and no questions she's cheating with her husband with him him with her this is religious people so maybe that's one community and I can't tag it to all communities but I can tell you with my long experience and everything to do with me I can tell you that in the religious SE sect there's a very large percentage of people who fail in many different types of forbidden relations either cheating on their spouse either with the same gender either with many other things these are religious people with beards and yamakas and PE and learning Tor am I putting a finger towards any of them no I'm a man too I know the challenge I know the Temptation I know everything I'm not judging anyone I'm not putting anybody down but I'm already telling you I believe it's in the 60s to 7% of religious men that sin in that department ke not putting anybody down I'm not bad mouthing I'm not humiliating I'm stating facts now what is your situation That You observe Shabbat doesn't matter how now you pray three times a day doesn't matter you observe Shabbat you eat kosher you keep family Purity if you married you dress modest you give you learn T I mean a religious person you're 80% religious cuz 20% you have all sorts of mishmash what does it do to your status when you on one hand You observe Shabbat eat koser and the rest and on the other hand you go for relation or many other things and mind the way the most religious people I mean the things that most people fail the most is when it comes to money genders sex all that stuff there certain things that people fail in but don't you think that in the religious world and I'm talking about the religious world right now it's very important don't worry I'll get to the ones who are not religious soon don't you think that in the religious World there there's no theft theft I see it every day with the beard with everything I'm not talking about right now I'm talking about that at the end of the days we are human and humans tend to sin and we sin and if you're not willing to accept and to admit then why are you living you're living in some L land do you think you know do you don't sin you know I'm going to ask you an embarrassing question do you observe Shabbat You observe Shabbat right from the last that I saw well I have news for you neither one of you really observing Shabbat including me is that discouraging me is that making me feel bad no it's inspiring me to learn more so I know how not to desecrate the Shabbat I'm telling you already the 99 .9% of observant Jews fail in Shabbat not willingly not intentionally but they just don't know all the rules that's it it's as simple as that yeah yeah sometimes you desec great Shabbat because something minor that you didn't know cuz you didn't learn or you weren't taught or you were sloppy so and it's I'm throwing Shabbat you want me to start with you with Kut nobody in our generation is really eating kosher if you want to be really kosher you have to have your own farm and your own animals and you have to do everything yourself if you want to be top Kut and I know I have heard all the excuses with the Kut I count on the Kut I count on that I didn't know and who cares if you knew if you didn't knew you eat a worm whether you knew or you didn't whether it was intentional or not your body is impure your n now is contaminated doesn't matter how many intentions you had so we're not but we're in we're an exile we cannot do the mitv how it's supposed to be done we still do it but the point that I'm trying to say is that everybody has a fair share with their challenges that the title does not apply with me 99% of the time Su applies 1% oh no I said 99.9 so 0.01% my Su doesn't work the alarm system doesn't work no and it's a everybody don't don't pretend everybody so that means that I have sins is that a big deal y what's the big deal how can I explain this verse to me it doesn't make sense and if you switch it a set of okay if a person is spiritually dirty some what he can't do when you go to very high level of of and Purity impurity look at aen aen is the only person who walk into kesim if he's forget about now impure one foreign thought he dies in that would happen to us if we would be on levels of aen on a regular day you would say on the spot that's how it would be do you know how many judgments of death we have against us a lot different levels OFA will allow you to do certain things ER take you know I don't want to give too many examples I'll give you a simple example a woman in her cycle why is she called impure it's embarrassing to tell a woman who doesn't know about family Purity to tell her to your faith you're impure excuse me I heard some a rabbi once told a woman you are impure that doesn't sound nice you're telling me a but you are a woman in her cycle has a certain level of impurity on her that doesn't allow you to do certain things and you shouldn't do certain things with that impurity that's it I need to explain more than I'm telling you certain sins bring very strong impurity on the body that you're not allowed to do certain things while in that state of impurity so do I do it or do I don't the reality is that if you tell a person a and then what's with all the dirt I'm not clean what the do good will clean the the the dirt if you would see how dirty your soul is you you you would be very upset at yourself from All Your Love Li and the times you were jealous and the time you were judgmental and the time you were lazy and the time that you were mean I'm not talking right right now desecrating Shabbat eating pork and killing I'm talking about basic things that happen to us every day dirt is the Nish every ice cream that you lick and you enjoy the taste of it it makes dirt on your Nish because it's mut we spoke about it last class you don't need it so the order of the verse doesn't make sense to me sorry to tell you okay let's continue says in the Z the main part of CHA of repenting is living the sin do you have on your resume a sin that you can say I left that sin never did it again think for a few seconds I mean you have to come on so so tell me if not I'm thinking that you're not each of any person that is in the market for cha there's at least one sin you repented and you never failed again right tap yourself on your back a little bit there's 613 mitv x amount you cannot do we don't have a m we don't have a king we don't have bet mikdash we don't have in so 70% of the MIT what we can do good thank you you have to learn about it I told you what you cannot do physically you have to learn it if you're not doing it in action you have to do it in thought and speech so you have to learn laws of laws of sacrifices and so forth but from the certain amount of mitv that I can do a certain amount I do with no problem and then the certain amount of mitvah that I don't do you know that I failed to find and I'm including myself too most observant people that observe the Torah missing some mitv that they can do and you know when the light went on with me is one of the sh when I was reading the I was reading the my and then I realized then oh my God there's so many mitv that I didn't do I never did have you ever did sh send the bird away from the nest no have you ever did a railing to your roof if you have one you know how many mitvah there are that you never did why don't you do that why don't you make an initiative go through the 613 mitv and start marking the mitv you never did and some of them you can do like that I'm not talking about the sins that when you start reading the old the MIT say all the precepts half of them you're doing cuz you don't know and you can easily remove it from your slate why don't you do that there's a lot of mitv that you're not aware of and you never did it nobody taught you you didn't open the right book so I'm telling you now just open the thir 63 mitv of of R he he he put that's his 630 mitv but nevertheless you'll be pleasantly surprised that you'll see a few mitv that you didn't know exist and you can do it a lot and a lot of sins that you didn't know and you cannot do it with that said rosi says in the Z the main part of the chuva is leave the sin don't do it anymore forget about now theim the damage and the you don't do it anymore if you look now in your record and you cannot find one sin in your process of Chua that you stop doing and you will never do it ever again then your situation is very bad okay when I made Chua oh my resum not enough papers to put that on the resume but one of the things I'll you know what I'll give you a beautiful example two things that I would do a lot when I was not religious lie and steal okay I can tell you and I'll tell you later the the the definition is when you really did Chua is the the only time when God says you did Chua that's the only time you can know that your Chua is complete nobody can tell you your cha is complete and only when the text says the ones that knows all concealed Secrets says that you did Chua then the cha is accepted so in like 20 plus years of Chua I can tell you and again the mishna says don't believe yourself till you die I can do now 50 years of CH and a moment before I die fail in a sin that I didn't do for 50 years but a personal example and I told you about two sins that I used to do a lot stealing and lying in the last 20 years since I did CH I can tell you I have never ever failed in stealing so I did ch technically right now since I left the sin of stealing and I did my chuva technically that department is fixed I'm a full B CH when it comes to ceiling not means that you go back to the sin we're all I sin I do CH three days later I go back to the sin B Chua Bal means an owner you own your Chua so I can tell you with a clear heart I don't know what's going to be from here till I die but 22 years back didn't steal nothing I did foring never have I ever failed since then and every opportunity that I had as rambam says if hem wants to see really where you holding he will bring you to the same situation same thing to see if you fail again and if you didn't then you know for yourself that you one step ahead so I was I had many opportunities and I can gladly say that in the department of Lov I did cha Chu cha I returned stolen objects I took a lot of money and gave it because I didn't know where to give the money of the stolen objects I did everything that the books say and more important I left the sin don't do it anymore I told you two sins that I used to do she stealing and lying did I master lying in the last 20 years and how long it took me to master that sin the stealing instant the second that I did shua was never theft ever again from that moment 22 years I never stole nothing that's the cha for stealing the department of stealing I don't know Hashem is now laughing he might move me down in a challenge with $5 million in cash in front of me and I might want to steal it I don't know what's waiting for me in the next 40 years but up until day I can proudly say for stealing this cha I did CH never ever have I sold since I made the switch exactly what rosi says h lying the first year it went down 90% but it took me a lot of years to reduce and reduce and reduce and reduce and and I still find myself in situations that I'm not saying 100% the truth and these are the situations that you are really squeezed in the corner and doesn't matter what you're going to say it's going to damage you either way and I choose in certain situation I don't lie but I don't say the full truth did I master the cha of lying I don't think that I did yet because it's not 100% am I about juine ly no now let's say stealing lying desecrating Shabbat praying three times a day eating koser make yourself like all these lines you will see if I would have to visualize that to you I would make it like some some timeline that you see for each mitvah the volume how much remember when we were kids the the stereos they had the green and red lights going up and down I loved it I loved it it's called The Equalizer and the lights go up and down perfect example that's how you are Imagine like an equalizer lines and when you go all the way it's red you go a little bit less it's green and goes up and down so I can tell you that if I make an analysis for my own chuva certain things I can tell you I did chuva and never ever ever sin there when and when I look back it's un unbelievable unbelievable to me that there's certain things that I never ever repeated after I decided to become observant and one of them can tell stealing and many others going to share with you everything but why am I saying that that I can be an observant man I pray three times a day I eat kosher I observe Shabbat I give charity I learn Torah you want me to give you a whole list of what I do am I a sadic far from aad do I have sins from here to Young are there sins what I used to sin 20 years ago oh no no no different sins but there sins I don't care how you call it are there sins of K death by the Heavenly Court I hope not so what are your sins I tied my right shoe before the left shoe that's your sin yeah it's a sin you have to tie the left shoe first and then the right you it's not really a sin it's a now that's if you're raising your eyebrows you put put your right shoe first then you put your left shoe on then you tie the left shoe then you tie the right shoe you don't know that now you know this is and I will take time from our precious class to tell you a story 20 plus years ago was a very famous unfortunate accident in the IDF the two helicopters were flying er er to the north collided with each other banged into each other 86 or 84 soldiers and Personnel all died two massive helicopters crashed into each other it's half an hour from here yeah and needless to say all died it's literally half an hour from here it's in there's a story from that Encounter of a soldier that uh secular Soldier went out for relief from the Army hitchhiking home it was Shabbat a religious guy stops and tells him come I'll take you where you need he says I live all the way up in the north so the man tells him I don't want to I don't want you to desecrate Shabbat the man is observant the soldier is secular the man tells the soldier if you sleep by my house I live in B if you sleep Shabbat in my house I will take you home after Shabbat somehow the soldier agreed and stay in his home the the the religious Jew tells the soldier I know you don't observe Shabbat I know you do whatever you want you know don't disturb us but you are free to do whatever you want so the soldier kept it to the minimum out of boredom I guess in Min of Shabbat he went with the person to the synagogue where the rabbi was teaching the of tying the shoes you first put anything when you get dressed you put your right hand first coat shirt dress you always put your right first then left right sock left sock the says that you put your right shoe on then you put your left shoe on then you tie the left shoe on then you tie the right shoe on and when you take it off the opposite first the left then the right there's beautiful explanations from that the most wonderful explanation for that is shoes you put on your legs when when you start your day you want to start your day that first you put the raich first you dress yourself with then you put the left shoe you dress yourself with But first you tie the left shoe so you not down the first then you are free to deal with and then you not tie but you want exactly like fine why do we do this with thein seven times that I I wrap my hand I tie the with seven Loops don't worry about no no just walk regular no don't B so the same thing with the shoe you are in the beginning of the day not to talk about many other things so why am I telling you that the soldier heard this and of course the Shabbat ended the person did what he said and the soldier goes back to to the base the next day they call the soldiers in the morning to build a formation that's normal procedure in the army they all stand in formation it's a shape of a and the soldier suddenly remembers o I didn't do the right left Sho thing so he tells his Commander can I be excused I need to go to the bathroom says of course he goes to the tent he takes his shoes off he puts the right shoe on the left shoe on ties the left ties the right goes back the next saying the exact same thing the soldier forgets again he BS to be excused he goes to the tent switches the order the third time he forgot this the commander was like what's going on with it every morning he runs to the tent so the commander went and followed him and what did the commander see what did the commander see a Barefoot Soldier commanders what are you doing so he told him I'm switching the shoes the commander Court marshaled him to be detained to the base and he did not go on the chopper that collided in Lebanon and this guy now lives in NE and he's fully observant that's so beautiful because something so minor is not so minor wow so 20 years ago my sins were don't look at this woman don't touch this it doesn't belong to you don't in in in in in in this person now my sins are did my filling strap touch the other one shoot it touched it it's not allowed so as you proceed in chuma your sins change but with all due respect you still hold a few of the strong ones so I told you in my process of CHA there are certain big things that I got rid of but some some of them took years to get rid of you know how long how long it took me to get rid of lying when my system was all about lying I told you that the first year of my CH there wasn't aaka there wasn't F there was not lying I had a a little notebook that every time that I lied I wrote down the lie and the hour of the day and at the end of the day I would review the whole notebook I was determined that not one word of Deception comes out of my mouth and why because I understood clearly that if my mouth is dirty from lies or or F language or curses my prayers will never be heard don't pray can you really pray to the kadh a minute after you spoke and destroyed somebody's life you think your prayer is going to be worth anything I'm telling you that it's not going to be worth nothing soosi says in the the main part of the chuv is leave the sin don't do it anymore when you can say that firmly that I have left then the chuva will benefit you I know people that do Chua for 20 years and I sadly tell them to their face you're Chua is worthless I'm sorry to tell you you're running on a treadmill on the spot the zor says that if you leave the sin the chuba will help only if you leave the sin if you did not leave the sin you didn't do any chuba so if your problem is or stealing or whatever and you're still doing it you didn't do CH my friend you're working towards it but you do not do cha because the condition in chuva there's a condition leave the sin leaving the sin is called Sur that's Sur leave the sin so if I didn't leave the sin am I About Cha if I'm Not About Cha and I'm full of dirt can I serve hem how can I serve AEM the question of AAL Chua and B Chua right now I'm putting it under the umbrella of everybody because a person who was born religious can be a b chuba a can convert and become a b Chua a secular Jew born secular can become a b Chu anybody can be a Chua the question that Abal Chua asked himself is I have sinned what is the purpose of continue I have failed why do the Mitzvah that's the approach of a Chua what's the point I cannot hold myself what's the point why do why bother the thing is that if I repent and then I fall which happens most of the time I have failed to meet the person that succeeded and I'm not going to fail sad is destined to sin so if I repent and then I fail again so what's the point of telling me you understand now the question you keep pushing me I keep falling you keep telling me how do you really do CH now is the point that you need to close the door and be with yourself there's nobody in the room right now how do you do chuva for what you did you don't have to tell me anything you know what you need to do chuva for how many women and I'm not judging at all at all there's no judgment here how many women in the world did abortions and some of them are probably you I'm not judging you I got women pregnant too I'm not talking about my wife I'm not there's no judgment here but did you do an abortion that's murder I know you were young you weren't thinking whatever I'm not judging you I'm I'm blessing you to be to be blessed but that's murder you need to BU tra for that now the main part of the CH just don't do it ever again but nevertheless my friend you are you have a big matab bow hanging on your record don't be embarrassed or ashamed from what you did what was pass you need to do cha I'm sure that most of the women who did abortions they are not going publicly and saying I did an abortion they're embarrassed they're scared they don't want people to know whatever but the real there's a reality don't don't don't don't turn to sugarcoat things I'm just giving one example out the many I'm sorry I'm now on the women with with a with a no abortion but the point is that here comes the question I have already failed I messed up what's the point of doing good now can I do good and I even accept it to do good you know how many sins it says in the Torah that you lost your world to come if you do if you embarrass a person publicly you lost your you want to tell me you never embarrass somebody publicly unless you are some quiet nerd you embarrass people publicly if you if you embarrass somebody in public you lose youra so what am I going to say say now my brother let me go to the be Beach get drunk and no Tak I can't do any no CH for me right that should be the attitude that is the question that most people say what's the point the question is how do you really do Chua if you're already listening to me so far an hour and 20 minutes you're already listening so I have a little bit of your attention most people don't know how to do Chua they want to and then comes the question is how do you really do chuva do you want to live your life like you do now for 40 years and then come to the heavens and they'll tell you you were great but you missed half half the point and what would be the your your excuse the rabbi didn't tell me you can't use that excuse in sham cuz they'll tell you why didn't you learn but the sad reality is that the ones who had got their attention want to do Chua they want to repent but the sad reality that most people don't know how each and every one of us has weak points that's that's the reality we all sin in C things that is hard for us for me the weakness can be this and for you the weakness is that but the reality we all see even with the beards and the whole thing when I became observant and my reality shattered because I came to all these new communities everybody looked like Pious people long beards yamakas everything I felt like w I'm such a sinner and you know what happened quickly after I was in some communities that in the beginning I thought everybody's so Pious very quickly I found out he's cheating on his wife he's cheating in business he doesn't really pray when he comes to SCH he's just coming there to do business he's touching girls he's looking at girls he's stealing from his partner wh what's going on here where's all the pious people I'm not joking with you I would sit I remember one scene clear like day like I went to pray very big synagogue and I didn't want to pray this early early ages of my cha I sat there myin was on me sitting upset and I was like I can't pray here and what is in my mind I was like my is telling me go home you're right from what you are seeing is telling me you know what you're seeing they're humans pray I ended up praying there but I remember that day so clear that I said sat in a Sho and as I'm praying two guys are sitting behind me with beards with Fillin on their heads and they're talking about I don't even want to tell what they're talking about and I turn around they look at them like what they were talking about women okay let's that's cut to the Chase and when I looked at them they looked at me like how dare I look at them in such way and disturb them while they're talking and that day it's like as if Hashem poked it into me and every conversation and everything that I saw in that was everything you know to and in my mind was having a party this is where you want to be that's the community everybody's fake here because that day the showed me the the filth of everybody these guys are trashing women behind sitting behind there were feeling I that I cannot get I cannot get this I I I cannot get this and then this guy and and I see it's like as if Hashem opened my eyes and for a few days I was sad and not depressed but very down because I was like I came here to became strong and this is what I see P him Customs so I got very discouraged how can it be how can it be that a person prays its culture you volunteer to do that you observe Shabbat you dress modest whatever and you still fail it it's almost unacceptable but nevertheless like I told you we all have weak points and we all sin with see things that are very difficult for us for you lying is different difficult for you is difficult and for me I don't know what is difficult whatever everybody SS and if this is the case how do you do how do you really do the question if you did not do positive Mitzvah it's called you didn't do a positive Mitzvah a man didn't put F in on you didn't say the grace after meal how do you correct it how do you do CH let's make it now Universal you didn't say it's a positive mitah from the Tor is Grace after meal you didn't say that you didn't do a positive mitvah what's how CH regret confess accepting that the future I won't happen in that moment you're forgiven that's itar the is the embarrassment are using different words but K means to regret embarrassment that's the that's what I'm talking about the word I use is Regret but embarrassment regret the same thing not same but you got it so if this is the case I just need to regret not to do it again and confess how is about when it's a l a precept I mixed wool and linen are you very particular with shades you are yeah no no yes yes no now day I spoke with some sh he looked at me like what I tell me you have the whole thing the Shabbat the kosher the everything Shas do you don't know what it is oh of course they know what shes is but do you check your jackets and your cloth what oh no I don't cuz I heard in our generation they don't mix will and linen you're right they use polyester but there's still many who use wool and linen I just gave you a perfect example no no there's yeah yeah first of all there are ways there are still manufacturers that use wool and linen but there's ways to clean it no problem you go to a professional for shot they they'll fix it but I'm giving you now a perfect example how a person can be fully observant and pay attention to Big details but for such a minor detail that they forgot you know the other day I broke some some young girl's heart cuz she it's not she somebody came and asked me and somebody told her you know that your boots there sh and she's she's like she didn't want to even listen or or or hear cuz the boots were I don't know how many checkos you know the Boots from Australia ugs no you wearing blunston no but that doesn't have a sh hugs they have the shes and not all but nevertheless now this young girl after spending hundreds of shekels on your boots have to throw the boots to the garbage because you can't separate it you toate that or is that also you can give it to I wouldn't even give it to anano and and and and it does affect non-jews too they're not obligated but it affect them I told you already when they found out a few hundred years ago there was a a city H I forgot now the name of the city doesn't matter a few hundred years ago was a plague there and all the people of the city came together and they tried to figure out what's going on and one person there said I don't know about you but I find it weird that we all under the attack of the plague and the Jews are not affected by it either they're doing it to us or they're doing something so they went and spied on the Jews so one guy came back and said you know what I noticed with the Jews they don't mix meat and dairy the entire city stopped eating meat and dairy didn't work another person came oh they slaughtered their meat a certain way the whole city went on Kosher meat nothing happened every time somebody came up with an idea the whole city did it and it didn't help one time a Jew goes to a doctor to a non-jewish doctor and the doctor tells him to lie down on the bed the Jew tells him I can't lie down on the bed because your sheet is wool and this is linen I can't lie on wool and linen together and he's like what he's like well that's a commandment from the Torah we don't lie or dress on wool and linen and he asked him and why is that he says because it brings plagues it brings diseases and the whole city figured out and they stopped and there they were good so it's affecting also non and if you want I'll send you some somebody sent me an article or thank you run and exactly exactly thank you so much camera should be turned on CP right now that's it now how many observant people fell in wool and linen or many others so I don't even know how I got to the wol L but let me continue I said it's how is about you you failed a precept what do you do you didn't you mix wool and Lin I'm giving you the most simple one I'm not telling you now you murdered Shalom cuz that's a precept whenever there's a law is you're not allowed to do that but you mix wool and in how do you fix it okay you have to do everything that I just told you remove and feeling bad and and all that V conventional accepting not to do it and of course you have to wait to y kipur y kipur will come we wash off the sin that's it so you have to wait a whole year or a few months if you're that far that's for simple sins how about the there are certain types of sin in the Torah that if the person die do that the soul gets chopped off it's called desecrating Shabbat eating eating and working on all the Forbidden relations idolatry H Seance er er how do you call them fortune cookies fortune tellers and so forth and and a few other things half of the things has nothing to do with us one of the is eating from the holy sacrifices in bet mikdash a we don't have bet mikdash b how are you going to get to the to the to eat from that but if a person eats from thees from The KES this is a needless to say all the Forbidden relations which we have a fair share but when it comes to and death by the Heavenly cords everything of the above that I just said and also y doesn't really help you have to go through a lot of suffering you need to do all the above plus plus suffering and a lot that's why we all have a lot of suffering more than that first of all it's a very important to know cuz a lot of people don't understand the suffering and and and and a lot of people say what kind of a God is it when he makes you suffer you know all sorts of slogans like that well you know I told you the story with my son when I took him to the dentist in the he wasn't very happy to be sitting in the dentist and at the end of the day he was upset at me and the dentist NE little did he know that I took him to get him out of pain and not to give him pain but the perception of a 5-year-old he doesn't understand he sees a scary doctor and Drilling in the mouth and his father is holding him down he doesn't understand that the five minutes of pain was to relief the pain that he had 3 days ago 10 times more he doesn't understand that both me and the doct did him a favor and it hurt a little bit to save a lot of pain that's theim that God gives you God gives you a little bit of Yim it's just a little bit to save you from a lot more and Yim is suffering and hardship so if you sin a lot you'll have a lot of hardship deal with it if you can't do the time don't do the crime don't whine like a little kid why is the punishing me because you're are a thief and you're are a liar how is about there's the one sin that is worse than all the sins that I just told you and we all can easily fail in that if maybe we did or maybe on a daily base the worst of all I'm talking about above the is one sin that you cannot do CH in this world and that's called desecrating the name of God there's no chv for that you have to die for that that's why all the nation of Israel had to die before giving the Torah because they all had and the only way to remove is you have to die and you have to suffer the pain of death that's how it is first of all there different types of deaths but in regards to don't go there if you think that you're going to be walking on the path of don't even think of going there there's no true you are a Walking Corpse and unfortunately most people do how they behave how they talk everything that I just told you now in regards to the sins this is all Shan for me evil move away from Evil how can you send me to do good when I'm full of stains each and every one of us approaching to do Chua I come with a lot of sin which means I have a lot of spiritual dirt how are you asking me to walk into a synagogue and pray many years ago I met a young excuse me a young man in a in a lecture who came to a class came to a lecture got inspired started coming once a week to a class every Wednesday came like a Swiss clock so one day the guy doesn't show up for pair I call him up what's going on where are you where were you he tells me I'm not coming anymore please don't call me anymore and I'm out what do you mean you out you think it's a baseball game I mean I'm out he tells me no listen I can't do this anymore please don't bother me don't try to convince me I can't do this anymore I'm like what's the problem just tell me what's the problem he tells me I feel like a hypocrite and I can serve AEM like that and after interrogating him a little bit more he tells me you know where I was last night he told him I don't care where you were last night I care where you weren't today he says yesterday I went to a party okay he says you know what I did last night I said I don't care what you did last night I care what you didn't do to this morning when you keep going to last night he says I went to a party and I met a girl and we went home and I I did all the sins in the book I can't I I I I I can't show up in the morning to synagogue and put F andit on me and pray when last night I I I I was like an animal I don't have the the face to do that which one might say make sense my answer to him was I'm sorry to tell you my dear friend I must diagnose that you are suffering from a very rare disease of stupidity what is the connection from one and the other the fact that you were yesterday in a party and sinned and did whatever you did that's one thing the fact that you weren't in true in the morning that's a whole different thing that is not connected to leer night who gave you an exemption not to come to sh did I call you and tell you you not don't have to come today what exempt you from coming so let me tell you how stupid you are because when you didn't come to pray with us today you know how many positive mitv from the Tor you missed let's go through the list if you would come and pray with us you would put F on right two positive mitv from the tor you would put on another positive mitah from the Tor you would say another positive mitah from the T this is not some recommendation this is a positive commandment from the you would to you would probably give charity no you would read a few chapters of after the prayer do you want me to go with the list with you how many mitv you missed now what's going to happen if you now die you're going to go up to the heavens with a bucket full of sins don't you want to go up to the heavens with a few barrels full of mitv to kind of balance your your your nonsense and I told him the reason why I called you stupid is because you were tested yesterday God send you a beautiful woman to tempt you to take you home to fail you only to see if you will wake up in the morning brush off the dirt go to the m and wash yourself and come to pray and if you would come to pray like as if nothing happened yesterday's challenge would be nothing you wouldn't be held the count for it because you were pushed to sin Hashem tricked you he sent you the red dressed lady to make you turn around and what happened to Neil when he turned around he got a bullet to his head don't turn around don't look at the red don't look at the lady so I told him you were tested if you would show up this morning yesterday wouldn't be considered a sin it would be erased because hasem would be like he got up and moved on as we read from fourth section from the psalm we read on I want to see how it says it in English because in Hebrew is shake the dirt off and get from the dirt I want to see how the English translation I'm very curious bear with me for two minutes okay I don't know I'm sure sometime in my life I checked it but now I want to see ER Shake the Dust of yourself arise Dawn your glorious garments my people this is what raet meant Hashem pushes you on the the ground sh pushes you and he wants to see if you get up and if you get up you there's a very good chance that what you fell from is not a sin not a sin so I told this young man I told him if he would show up in the morning and do and say right they made a song of it right now right what was was the main thing start all over if you would show up and pray with us yesterday would be erased Hashem would ignore it but the fact that you didn't wake up now you have both sins the sin of yesterday night and the sin of the this morning that you didn't show up I don't care if you are embarrassed that's your problem nobody gave you a free pass not to show up and pray so that's the example that I gave him but this is what I'm telling you here how are you sending me to do good when I'm full of dirt the approach of this young man is a a a reasonable he told me I sinned severe sins you want me 5 hours later to put F on and talit and pray like la la la now happened I relate with him cuz that's how I was I refused to pray when I was a young young young B Chua cuz I would slander have foul language cheat curse people will call me from me and I say I can't pray I was like a little bit of this you know the B truers that a little bit weird in the beginning that's probably how I was people call me can you no I can't pray you're Jew yeah did you pray already no so why can't you pray I can't because in my mind I was like how am I going to pray how am I going to pray to when this mouth Slanders curses lies how can I pray is this the right approach no but that's what I did and that's how I related with that young guy but the question is I'm full of dirt how are you sending me to do good things a person that is still involved in the sin is considered before Sur so I can only give examples on yourself hopefully I'll reflect on you from from 100% of sins let's say 90% I don't do I did Chua 20 years pass 90% I don't do 10% here and there fail when I fail in a certain sin constantly I'm not talking about once in the Blue Moon something happened and I failed and passed and happens happens my is like a ninja happens to me in my path of CH that 10 years I went without doing nothing and boom suddenly I failed can you imagine this slap to the face but chick Chu I got my act together I'm not letting this like I told you with the paper when you have a little rip and I stopped it and look but every person has at least one sin that is not considered such a simple sin that it's done pretty repetitive the doesn't work there your is not doesn't have enough power to fight it and when this is the case you are considered that you are still in sin living in sin so you doesn't work the zor says something very frightening that the sin uh penetrates and damages to the depth of the Nish can damage the N or damages the garments but all the way to the level of which means I can do sin and my Nish is dirty how would you relate the most with a dirty Nish what what for you is a good visual of a dirty n I'll give you one so you don't have to think about it too much driving a car and driving pouring pouring rain that the wipers go like this and they're not fast enough to move the water you can't see nothing in front of you that's operating with a dirty n you don't see nothing and in any given moment you can run into a tree or it's the same thing with driving in extremely heavy fog you can't even see here same idea the N is dirty bad communication to the world so the zor says when the person sins the first time in a specific sin let's say it's stealing the first time it does an impression on the nees second time an impression on the third time impression on the and that's and what's this impression it's a dent you can have a million doll Mercedes gorgeous one little dent in the door that's it the gorgeous car is dented some people don't care most people when you spend a lot of money you care did you have a dent on your door that's the dirt of the it's like a dent can it be fixed yes yeah can you fix a dent on a car on a caror well if you take it to a real good body shop it will be untraceable that's CH for you if you take it to T the the fix will be traceable that's a not so good jua but nevertheless a person doesn't have any way out of the situation until he does chuva that's it and it's not limited to age gender of Faith it's not just for the Jews you stole you're not a Jew you still need to do cha now comes the million dollar question what do I do I understand you so far you speak clear what do I do I still sin let me just tell you a side note that if you didn't recog recognize yet in the last hour and a half that sin that I'm talking about you're living in denial you know that do you know that did you find in your mind that sin that I'm talking about if you didn't then you live in denial find that sin if you don't want to do it now during the class do it later after the class but there is a sin that you repeatingly do and if you don't please bless me and please Let Me Cater you and I'll carry you home even if if you're that person and I'm not saying that there isn't such people but if you're that person please give me a blessing I need blessing for health I read blessing for panasa I want to marry off my kids can you give me that blessing cuz you must be a sadik or a sadik each and every one of us has that one sin for one person it can be extreme the worst a man going cheating on his wife with a married woman while she's in her period five at the same time at least choose a woman that she's not married sorry that I'm talking like that I have a man who has an issue cheats on his wife a lot I tell the level of our conversation you know I tell him at least cheat with a not married woman that's how low I need to go with him then I have to tell him if you're already cheating choose a notm married woman why do you want to be with a married woman when you married for that I don't know if you can do Chua and if she gets pregnant and there's a child a m so so I know it sounds ridiculous I told him if you need to sin there fly to a different country that it will be a non-jewish woman and not a married woman at least do the minimum of the minimum that sounds to you like good advice of a rabbi a man tells me he's cheating on his wife and I'm telling him fly to a different country can you imagine his wife listening to me listen of course I tell him that he has to stop of course I tell him that but this man is like a drug addict I know how to deal with drugs I don't know how to deal with other addictions I know how to deal with the addictions that I had I never had addictions in gambling and I never had addictions with cheating with women but it's addiction and a person has addiction to heroin and if he has an addiction to women it's the same thing maybe a little bit different on the body this particular man as much as he wants the level that I need to talk to him is minimize the sin he's not even close to the the the advice that I can give him is don't do it that bad but nevertheless this person he lives in sin how do you get out of that and again this is Extreme but nevertheless while you still in the Sin I don't care how observant you are you are in the Sin that's why I told you a few times in the previous classes we're all stuck in the kipa don't think for one second that you're not in the Clipper we're all in the Clipper each one in their level so what's the solution what do you do the rule is like this even if a person is dirty spiritually for from his sins because of that you cannot not do mitv I know it sounded very weird in English in Hebrew it sounds more clear but if a person is dirty from a lot of sins that should not be the reason why he or she should not do mitv that's the rule you're right you're not doing it the right way you're right you're not it's not appropriate in many of the cases but nevertheless start the process clean the dirty garments start doing Chua start cleaning yourself while you're still in the Sin and when you start doing that then hasem steps forward and does with us does kindness with us a person that is dirty what does it mean dirty I now lied I said spiritual impurity on the body if I cheated on my wife with a married woman and Terrible Things the impurity is so strong that the person I don't even know how they live with themselves if I just did something minor so the impurity is a little bit if I damage one organ the impurity is here I damage the whole body the impurity is on the body I do Chua I Repent I learn t i sin but nevertheless when a person that is dirty from sins does a Mitzvah what happens he creates an Angel that's how it works in everything you every Mitzvah you do you create an angel every sin you do you create an angel so here we have a dirty spiritually person that does a Mitzvah and creates an angel can the angel stay with him common sense if you don't know don't but say your common sense common sense says no I now sin I'm a sinner okay I did a Mitzvah I created an angel that angel can stay with me cannot stay with me and does not stay with me who takes this Angel aad one of the sadim in the world gets this Angel till when till you do chuva real chuva real chuva and if the sadik wants he'll give it back to you your angel they don't have to by the way the sadik doesn't have to give you your mitv by the way uh if he wants he can give you the mitv but if you do Chua real Chua then the angel stays with the sadik at least you're not being charged with sins and like I told you if the sadik would want he will give it back to you but technically it's not yours now excuse me wait we still live in this world don't worry about shamay we live in this world because H nothing can be given to you in this world till you completely clean I know there are some mitv that you get the reward in this world good but you get the reward for Mitzvah in the world to come so the angels to say other words the sadik is holding it safe for you that's it because if he won't hold it for you this Angel you will damage it so the sad takes it and he holds it for you now I know a lot of people will argue now with what I just said so I I'll give you a quick explanation open your prayer book unless you know it off by heart and three times a day you pray by saying right you know this prayer what are you praying for what are you praying for in this prayer you pray right you pray the 18th prayers you pray you're a Jew what what is what's that prayer okay I understand you want to bring a sid we read it out it's not my S you need know what you're praying for I mean if you don't know what you're praying for why are you praying you have to think about it real good if you don't understand the Hebrew then start in English and learn the English and one of the most important thing a Jew that prayers from a sid every day needs to do is to take a quick crash course and to learn what's called what am I praying for if you don't know what you're praying for it's not a prayer you're just mumbling so we have many different prayers okay you know what that means I'm praying for forgiveness that's a no-brainer I'm asking for for health you know but let's get to the we have I'm asking for my sustenance but now let's go to let me read it in Hebrew you know you should read do it in English too let's do it in English too he waited so patiently till now may your mercies be aroused Lord Our God upon the righteous upon the pious upon the Elders of your people the house of Israel upon the remnant of their sages upon the righteous PR thank you and AOSS us and Grant ample reward to all who truly trust in your name and plac a lot among them may we never be dis what is it dis disgraced H disgraced for we have put our trust in you blessed you are Lord the support and the security of the righteous okay my English is not that great first of all you already got your first answer for the ones who trust you you're asking to basically telling a I trust you please bless me but that's not really the what the prayer is for when I H do a Mitzvah right now I create an angel if I'm spiritually dirty the angel has to go to one of the sadim in the in the world uh when I pray this prayer I have to have a certain kavana and this is the kavana I'll read it in Hebrew give a good reward or whatever for the ones who really trust you and then you hit the jackpot in English no and place our lot among them you want a few seconds to think for yourself what's the answer or you got it you got it right all my angels go to a I'm praying for the to give me a to hold my for me that Shalom should not be controlled by the I trust you Hashem I'm giving you now my mitv put it in the hands of a sadic you choose the righteous sadic that will hold my mitv for me and give it to me if he wants but at least they're not lost to the sitra most people they go to the sadik for a blessing for a prayer for guidance don't you think they deserve to get some mitv of yours be happy that thead got your Mitzvah but the mitv that you do the angel that comes out of your mitvah thead gets it I'm not talking about now in the Heavenly Court after you die talking now I'm alive now didn't die now now I'm alive I want my mitv and by the way also when you come to the Heavenly C they might tell you you did a lot of MIT but you were sinning as you were doing the MIT we took away with your MIT it's by or by I don't know go and ask for it so you need to find the sadic that is not cheap that will give you back your mitv I'm joking but I'm not joking at all you attach yourself to a sadic that knows I'll hold your MIT till you're ready then I'll give it to you most of theim they don't even want their own portion so don't worry okay but the fact is that's what happens now let's read it out from the source what I told you right now can be found in for you want a me that's it translation when a person sins and doesn't repent all his good deeds and mitv go to the right sadic that's it andal says where what verse do we have to support this go to the book of aob chapter I don't remember it's either 27 I don't remember I think it's chapter 27 verse 17 Book of Job it says translation he will prepare and a righteous will wear them you prepared the Mitzvah the righteous person takes it you did the Mitzvah the right the sadik takes it that's it that's what happens so at least be happy that you Mitzvah didn't go to waste it wasn't used for the and maybe one day you'll get it unfortunately you don't always have the way to know the way to know she's asking I don't know if you heard in the back how do you know if the end up having the Mitzvah or not really you don't know that's why you want to pray now I gave you a new thing to pray for right when you're praying this prayer you pray for the K to save your and to it put it as a picon as a as a deposit with a sad and if I have nothing because I have so many sins put my part to be with them just attach me to the sadik that's it now how do I know they didn't fall to the SE ra you don't if you see your situation deteriorating then you know something's wrong if you see situation getting a little bit better then would know where I'm holding with the sit right now I don't know but nevertheless let's continue we still have a lot to go a person that is very dirty spiritually don't look at it as don't get insulted and tell me I got a I took a shower not too long ago when I was trying to explain a woman the importance of family Purity and what happens in her cycle and and I and I told her you know when you have your cycle you're impure oh she didn't like that you calling me impure how dare you call me impure I said okay let's call I'll call you dirty not impure you calling me dirty said I didn't call you you called me but nevertheless that's the fact a woman has a cycle she's considered impure that's it or in different words dirty it doesn't matter don't be so sensitive but nevertheless if a person is dirty or from impurity cannot do a certain mitv but you cannot prevent that person from doing this Mitzvah that's it you cannot prevent that person you're right you can do the Mitzvah but you cannot prevent the person from doing it the suggestion fulfill the Tor learn the mitv do everything and try to do and in the meantime you'll just have a lot of hardship sorry to tell you that's why B Chua suffer a lot in the beginning it's the same thing with converts I have failed to see a convert that just went into the bin and out of the bin have you seen such a thing I didn't see any usually they torture them I mean not physically torture but usually they go through hell I fail to see quick conversions or simple conversions same thing B Chua convert same idea I never seen a BAL Chua in their first five years that their flying they go through all the in the world you decide to breake One Step close to hem instead of getting a welcome note you get a slap to your face from hasem welcome to the club and the first 5 years to 10 years of your process all you doal is slaps to your face stabs to your back everything that can go wrong can go wrong all the challenges in the world and you hem I I'm trying to do good here now comes a different question what about the mitv that you know the reward for them now you don't know the reward for them but you know the reward you know the reward honoring your parents for long life we know what the reward is we spoken about CH again scaring the bird off the The Nest it's for long life you give 10% of your money for to to to make money so we know some of the it's what are I getting in return but how is about if I do a Mitzvah and people tell me if you do this Mitzvah there's a reward for that or a remedy and I'm Journey from sin would the remedy want work if I was told to if I honor my parents honor your father and mother so your days should be very long long life so if I fully dirty sin all day long and then I do one time K honoring my parents that's it I have a long life of course the answer is not how many times did they tell you this Rabbi that Rabbi if you do this prayer today remedy and you follow what I say if you sin did the remedy work will it work the answer is no people say I've been praying for years well you also been seeing sinning for years oh I did 40 days fast 4 days but you're sinning you think the remedy will help no that's it it says in theal give 10% of what you made so you will become rich I give that am I rich you give that you you rich so what they lie to you no you just sin a lot that's it so the the the the mitvah that you have a reward for them you know same thing with I tell people say the grace after meal it's known to bless you with panasa it's known so many people don't want to do it they rather take the M pizza or the M Roll But if you're already doing it and you don't understand why you're not making money because you know what it's like it's like these people who come to Yum kipur all year long cheat lie slander eat everything they come on their and they go to the making love to the you think your sins that's it one time you come on yum Kip that's it no that's what people think they'll come once a year on y Kip give a $1,000 donation a few kisses to the T it doesn't work like that my friend it's a start but it doesn't work and it won't work so for all the ones who telling me I've been praying for years for my other half and reading this and that stop sinning don't run after all these remedies stop sinning now let's conclude the conclusion is there is no exemption from not doing mitv exactly like I told the young man I don't care that last night you sinned in every sin in the book tomorrow morning you're showing up and you're praying no exemption yes all your mitv go to the sadik yes you are in deep trouble yes you sinned but nobody gave you an exemption from doing a Mitzvah that's the first rule that you have to understand cu the will tell you and chant in your mind why bother I already sinned Why Try who says hem will forgive me oh I already sinned once I'm already going to suffer the consequences let me sin 10 times and enjoy it and then I'll do Chua listen been to all the situations you're not worse than me you don't want to leave any option for your little voice to tell you why it's not worth it you are a sinner Hashem won't look at you but nothing can prevent you from doing a mitvah I don't care what you did you're not allowed to miss a Mitzvah yes you did it wrong you did it in impurity you did it in the worst situation but I did it you created a crippled angel from that Mitzvah but you did it rule number one you do not ever miss any Mitzvah cuz you feel embarrassed cuz you feel shame cuz you don't want to because you I don't know what and you have to understand something very very very important if you sinning and if it's more towards a lot don't don't accept remedies and prayers to work so much okay a lot of people come and tell me when I tell people read this Read that read 40 days a lot of the answers I get from people is that why bother it doesn't work it doesn't work why you telling me to pray per 40 days and I'll get married that's why I didn't say you're going to get married I just told you to read it for 40 days second of all stop sinning you'll get married or your problems will be solved but important to understand that every sin is separate from the other which means that if I did full Chua on theft and I'm still dealing with two separate things for theft I did Chua for lying I did Chua for I don't know eating culture but for slandering jealousy and anger that's why I'm not a I'm half I'm a all my life will be CH I mastered the first 10 years a then I moved to another decade CH is different in 20 years my chuva will be in a different level cuz now I need to deal with a lot of challenges I still have young kids when you're 70 different challenges Health missing loved ones or whatever what I'm saying is that every mitvah is different it's separate CH so in one sin you can be fully B CH and on the other side of the the the the the sins you didn't do CH and I can tell you clearly about myself I know exactly what I did CH I never failed and what I'm still working on with that said everything that I just told you now might sound simple and on the surface okay I I just have to shine from Evil everything that I just told you in the last 2 hours and 15 minutes it's not even the class and it's not simple as it sounds now let me tell you a little bit what you need to put all the dots together we started uh the class by talking about a holiday you forgot already that we're talking about I know you didn't forget let me do my show I know you didn't forget I know you have questions listen I'm a performer I'm performing now in front of the camera so I have to we started with puim Katan we started with a holiday then we went to a concept that is called move away from Evil and do good what's the connection between two I don't know now I'm going to add another thing many individuals in our history got a title and I explained that sometimes a title doesn't match the person but by saying that people got titles I mean like Moshe Renu Moshe is his name rabenu means our teacher that's it there's only one Moshe rabenu who else get a title Aon a Coen he's also a Coen that's Aon a Coen or AB ainu well YH yob is not ainu AB ainu so Shmo had aavi yes Shmo was Anvi but technically it's more correct to call Moshe Hani because Moshe was the greatest na'vi why aren't we calling Moshe Nai why do we sayi why don't we say MOSI he's a greater Prophet we say MOS and like that you'll find it with everybody we have David you there there's titles there's one title that very few people got and that's hadik who gets the title ysf how come didn't get he's wasn't a sadik why do we sayos not sadik every word is precise ysf is called very few are called in in in their title y was called aad because he guarded his breit never failed in the breit breit means that no ever sperm came out of him not for the sake of procreating and was placed in his wife that's it that's one of the many reasons why he was called yadik he was able to guard the Brit one of the most gorgeous woman in the world how do you say Sensational not Sensational how do you say about a woman I don't know no help no not sexy sexy is low I'm talking about there a word not Sensational what doesn't matter the most gorgeous wanted woman in the world was throwing herself at him and he's like no no no no that's y the reality is that the zo says that well while she was on top of him physically he got aroused and and while he got aroused almost drops came out and he what when he ran out of the house he ran out of the house he stuck his fingers in the ground and the sperm came out of the fingers not of out of his organ so he won't H desecrate the breit but the the intensity was so strong that the sperm come out of his fingers that's ysep now let's continue because I I I need to shorten the class ysep A sadik had two boys who was the wife of ysep quick tanak question her her name was oat in Israel it's a common name but they call it osnat or asnat here it's ASAT that's her name the name of yep's wife in here in Israel they call it it's the wrong word but nevertheless he also has two kids the first born is called man why elim what does it mean this is a verse from the book of chapter 41: 51 God has caused me to forget all my toim that's why ysph called his first born men why cuz hem took him out of his land of his family and threw him in the land of nowhere second boy of Y his name is why book of bid chapter 41 verse 52 God has made me fruitful in the land of my Affliction therefore he called his son Ephraim okay you know the story we read it recently yob is about to die he's calling ysep to bring EP and Mas to get a blessing now what happens there you know the story yob switches the hands he puts the right hand on epim who's the younger and the left hand on manhe who's the older ysep doesn't like what he's doing what are you doing Papa daddy ABA what are you doing that's not how it's supposed to be done you bless first the mature the be then you bless the other one Jakob says would be greater than and He blesses them up until today when we do the blessing we say and he says we have 12 months in a year corresponding to 12 tribes the month of Adar what's the tribe that's corresponding to the month of Adar you since we have a 12 tribes count the tribes ysf is not one of the tribes he's not so how is the telling me there are 12 months 12 tribes and the months of is the tribe of YF YF is not even part of the tribes the reason is because Adar is the month that gets pregnant so we have two adim sometimes you only have one Adar and sometimes we have two therefore the month of is the tribe of YF one time it's B one time it's is and is the when we have an if we don't have an ad then we only have a fine and I'm sorry comes a great sadik his name is from Lublin and he says the disagreement the mlet between yob and ysf about where to put the hands that's the concept of the disagreement of this is the whole thing the disagreement between ysep and Jakob let's review man is the older why is he called Mane the word in Hebrew Nani took me out he's the he's the first one that's also the the sh Shak is the one that is done less that's the the Shan evil on the other hand who is the second born H what does it mean a fruitful that's something good no to be fruitful that's the set of to do good so masi on one side on the other side move away from Evil and is be fruitful and multiple and a set of ysph says that's the of it has to go by the by the first born that's the argument of Y why you think only raasi argue you think only May and Ruda arue also ysep and yov have a disagreement ysep says first born then second born yob says I disagree with you I disagree with you first do good and then shine Away From Evil don't wait for a person to be the Min you put a f there you put a f the first one I told you that man is the rewind the video 20 minutes I told you no one here is in the level of we're not in the level of Sur if you're still dealing with sins which means that yep's approach is that's yep's approach yob says the complete opposite comes Ed and says in our generation the is like yob not like y not the other way around now let's try to put everything together now we're in Al which tribe represents Al please just remember the first born what's going to be where is the main part of puin what's the main part of Adar let's call it which is puin but what's the main part everything upside down no no no don't jump you're good good direction but you're jumping two steps ahead what's the the main part of of Pur the Miga the the the it's it's celebrating the day right so what is the main part of Adar what is the most dominating part of Adar when puim is right so that's a darit if the the main part is a bit I'm not talking when we have only one ad we have now a lip here when is the main celebration puim when do we celebrate puim ad that tells me that ad is the main part of the month and AD corresponds to a and I said that a is a not when I have two first I have that is not the that's not the main part of AD what is it telling me that the is not the main part why in the puim Katan we don't read the Milla because it's not the main thing that's it puim what's the main thing of puim reading the Mig is the main part no when is the main part that's why we read the M this is but I want to derive from that that what's the what's the main part what's the important the right so if we're taking what's the main part do good do good that's the main part you're following my math because I'm deriving information from a let's continue about CH in our generation first of all I say first of all fix the FR then you go to man you cannot come now to a BAL Chua or a convert and tell them first move from Evil come back in 20 years to start doing good can you do that can I come to you now and tell you listen until you're 100% please don't come to the show no no no no no no until you are 100% I don't want to see you in my show can you do that of course that you can't that's it so what do we take from that that the main part is a frme if you didn't understand what I said either ask after the class or rewind and the main part is a FME what is the frme a a do good fix the FR now most of the the years if you remember I told you last class we have a cycle of 19 years that you have the leap years in every two years every 3 years it changes but most of the years in a cycle we have a leap year if you looking at from the 19 years there are more leap years saying in other words first you do good you focus on the doing good then you start removing the now that I explained everything let me put everything together let me summarize and put everything together since my Mitzvah goes to aad right I now sin my Mitzvah goes to aad what can I do that my Mitzvah are not going to go to the sadik excuse me no no no no no no no no no no no no no you're over complicating it you don't have to be sorry just what do you want to do if I'm not dirty from and my Mitzvah will go to the what do I want to do what stop sinning that's of course but I want to do a Mitzvah that doesn't go to the tadik what should I do learn Torah Torah does not accept impurity you cannot make the Torah impure learn Torah that's yours your Mitzvah will be taken from you if you impure but your Torah cannot take be taken away from you the Torah doesn't accept T it's like fire fire can't accept tum Torah cannot accept tum learn to that's yours first lesson of this class go home now and start learning Tor a lot the reward of your Torah is yours and the Torah is yours because your sin cannot damage your Torah it can damage your Mitzvah but not your Torah so C excuse me lesson number one in this class learn Torah a lot increase in learning Tor read it's considered learning Tor learn learn mid learn the the T increase as much as you can learning Tor that's first of all next challenges and and and and and hardships will come either way don't think that if you now turn to learn toorah and you leave the sin and all this the challenges will continue coming and hardship it says as follows there's a verse in the book of this is coming from the Z but I'm I'm just quoting the verse in a there's a verse in the first chapter chapter one verse 10 turn or six I don't remember either or or I don't remember the verse goes as follows ER on that day the angels of God came to stand in front of God the Lord and with them came the Satan I think in the translation says came the adversary but the Satan the Devil Comes what does that mean that in that day first of all the zor says it's referring to what do you do in R you do CH you come to repent the zor says and he quotes Y when you come to R to do cha who comes with you the Satan the second you want to be good the Satan comes and joins the second you decide to not do a sin to do a Mitzvah to wake up in the morning to stop doing that the second you have some type of an Awakening Boom the Satan comes right away hi you called I heard you want to do CH I came to convince you that you shouldn't because the zor says on the the Satan the he tricks you to sin then he the one who prosecutes against you then he's the prosecutor then he's the executor he's everything he tricks you and then he's going to be the one who's Prosecuting you so says the says anytime you show a little sign of waking up boom the Satan will right away show up he comes with you that's why the says whenever you step forward to do cha know that the Satan is with you hi right away he's there let me quote you something from the from the zud says on the word in the verse in it's referring to when is the the Satan prosecutes when is he on you when you're trying to do good if you now say the hell with it and you go out outside to the street and you start having fun the will love it he will cater you he will give everything that you want the moment that you say I don't want to or tomorrow I'm waking up to pray or from now I'm stopping to lie or the answerer is like say what I don't remember you can SLE me with this decision no go back to you where you came from we are not going to pray tomorrow the second that you make an an attempt or show a sign of waking up to repent the yet is already there so what does it mean that I will never be able to do chuva that's what you're telling me that every time that I'll put a smile on my face tell I want to do ch right away the is there with sharp knives why does the come to you the second that you showing signs of being good because you were a very good customer for so many years he doesn't want to lose you why would the drug dealer want to get rid of his customer the drug addicts the Satan says you were a good provider for so many years now you're showing signs that you want to become bias no no no no no no that's not good for me so the Satan comes right away what do you need to remember the yet the Satan gets permission to provoke you he gets permission to tease you he gets permission to challenge you only to test you my word of advice and ER I choose to say my word of advice before I'm going to give you the word of advice of a real wise man schl but my word of advice is that after a few attempts the is kind of like an like the Arabs they give up fast you know the Arabs make a lot of noise they're they're like wimps they scream a lot when they come 500 they're together they're brave but they're they're really they're wimps they're not they're not Warriors same thing here the Satan loves you when you sin you think he's going to going to let you go because you want to do cha no my advice put it to the test he gives up pretty fast you have to be strong for five 10 15 times and then he lets go it's not that you have to be strong for times that advice that I just gave you is based on experience but SCH says in the book of Co verse chapter 10 verse translation if the spirit of the ruler ascends you do not leave your place saying in other words somebody comes to threaten you don't back down somebody comes to bully you don't back down you know why cuz if you're not going to back down he will back out back down and that's why I said my version of the advice is you don't you only have to be strong a few times leaves it you you if you show the three to four times that you firm he leaves you alone when doesn't he leave you alone when you don't show that you're strong that's it very simple is the wisest man in in history but I can tell you from experience how it works show the firmness he'll leave you alone and it works trust me it works now if you're able to do what I just told you this is an order that you have to follow I hope you're following you don't have to write anything you have to listen you have to we have the verse from that is telling me that the Satan comes with me every time I want to do Chua that's my roommate then we quoted rabuda who says the same thing whenever I want to do good the yet will come to break the party comes and says don't be so disregarded because of the attempts of the the hold strong a few times and he will seize stop he will stop and on that comes the final word that says in the prophet yesah chapter 6 verse if you do everything that I just told you then yes tells you and he repent and he be healed then your cha is worth it before that you cha you're doing nothing you do nothing so basically what I'm telling you now after 2 hours and 43 minutes that you are not doing your chuva right and if you are not doing your chva right you will never do because you are busy with just cleaning your own mess the cha has to be right now let me quickly summarize and let's see what we're doing now I can sew everything together the entire month of ad is is yourself corresponding to YF and according to ysf when do we have to do celebrate puim in according to Y on the other side I have two ad sorry the sorry I mix the the the the words one is when we have two is is the is for and is like I said it before different the when it comes to is like I'm talking about right now that shouldn't be confusion that that's going to be the FME that's going to be the main part why the simple answer is that a should take on himself as much as mitv possible if I would tell you Shan evil and then do good you'll be busy with all day long pushing evil you don't have have one Mitzvah here the approach is first of all in Hebrew we say load load I guess it sounds also okay in English in Hebrew it's like just load don't don't think too much shoot all directions and of course from that is to learn a lot of Torah because that's really your Mitzvah so first thing that you learned today I mean you learned a lot of things in the last three hours but the first thing that is important for you to take is that your mitv might be taken to aad but your Torah doesn't is not taken to anyone so for that start learning d a lot that's solely yours now what do we want to take from all this if we're looking at puim or let me look about the two months of Adar the main part is pim and that was set for and we concluded that that corresponds to so basically according to what I see here is and is Let's ignore right now the walls that I was doing now backwards and forth now with we learned enough if I look at it in as a whole I see the entire two months of AD as an opportunity for CH correct okay can argue we just went through this for two and a half hours so with no questions here that Adar whether it's Adar Al or supicious time to repent and do Chua one of the signs for that because right after comes Nissan the month of gula you need to do to repent that's kind of giving you a perspective you have to repent before the Redemption if you'll stay way behind but when we looking at that I'm looking at a whole two months of chba I look at it in a very exciting way I'm excited I can do cha it's an supicious time to do cha it's like aul let's call it a aul right but I just learned that the second that I come to do cha who comes Snoopy the comes to bother me he wouldn't come if I go to the beach if I go now to the beach the comes with me I'm already there I'll sin with all the sins that I need to sin there the is happy when I go to the beach but when I don't go and I show the signs of Awakening for repentance then he will show up and start bothering me so if we looking at it in a all of it's a powerful time for Chua I don't need to now stress and tell you how bad the situation in the world is it's only going to become worse don't think it's going to become better I don't know what's going to happen it's not for this class and definitely not after 2 hours and 45 minutes for me to continue talking now we only talk now about the wars we'll have a 5 hour class but the situation is not going in a good direction to the untrained ey when I look at the situation I'm very happy I know we're going straight into the Redemption with a lot of casualties on the way but we're going straight into the Redemption I'm not sad I'm not upset I'm happy I see what I see I'm very happy but the sad reality is that we're the right way to say it is that we're going into the Redemption that's great news but if we're looking at it in more physical eyes we're going into a very difficult time chuba is required if if you don't do Chua if you don't repent God will bring you to your knees in a second better to start doing it right now so I have an supicious two months of chuva now almost two weeks already passed P Katan is in two days but this is where the beautiful secret lies since we made all the calculation and I'm not going to repeat it that the second ad is the main one therefore we celebrate puim on the second Adar and the Miga and and everything then we have in a few days patan same P small por does it have the same effect as a full por then the answer is that the K that you have on puim Katan in regards to that is the day stronger than where you can set your and set your entire in the aspect of of do good and what did I kept telling you for three hours we all have problems with our the asset of we're all doing great you're doing great in the no come on you eat kosher you have guests in your home you give charity you help people you learn to you pray you come on you're doing great you cannot argue with that if you feel that you're not move for three weeks to Tel Aviv and you'll see that you're doing great move toim you might feel that you're not doing that great but if you move now to any secular City you are way above most people so you're doing not too bad I can encourage you to do much better but when it comes to come on we're not Su you Su 50% of the time what do I take from that and I don't take anything I read books and I give it over to you as powerful as puim is how powerful is puim it's so powerful that Yim is called like you ever heard of that kipur is kapar but yur or we say Yim is means like so pu the 14th day of is so powerful if we have a squeezed in year only at 12 months then ad is YF what is yep's approach am I successful in that no I need a different approach I need Al and I need ad Al is the approach that I'm dealing with ad bet is theet of I have no problem with Adar bet I have no problem with set of I'm doing pretty good my problem is where is my weakness where you find the strongest or the biggest weakness that's where the answer is if 14th day of Al is the peak of the then what will be the polarity that that is the day where I can overcome my the entire action of is means and we switch the order from here to here like ysf and yov ysf goes like this yov goes like that so what is waiting for you in a few days one of the most powerful days on the calendar to set your a a priority do you understand the depth of it it took me 3 days to understand what we're facing now what does that mean you have Wednesday and Thursday to prepare yourself that Thursday evening comes in pu Katan Thursday evening tomorrow night you do a meal you can do the meal Thursday night Friday day you do a meal have in mind this is not not the P Meal not to be Yi you do not I'll write I don't want to make the class longer either tomorrow or either through WhatsApp I'll write a description of what to do or what not to do now I'm telling you what's important to do we accept the day now if I accept on myself to do chuva on that day won't be a k remember what I read for you with a and the all the clan that you go to R who comes with you the Satan we concluded that when you show signs that you want to be good repent change your path the will jump in declare publicly I'm going to walk naked in the streets and I'm going to smoke drugs and drink alcohol and steal things and the is going to come to interfere you no he says you took it upon yourself go only when you say I want to be good I want to go in the path of the Torah that's when the will jump in but now because of everything that I just explained to you the holy books explain to you on if you accept to do CH you don't have to do it that moment you accept on yourself and no persecution on your chv do you know what that means it means that you are allowed to do CH with no prosecution no what does it mean I'm now decided to change my path okay I'm sick and tired of how I live my life that's it I'm changing my path right away and the heavens of course they're parting there right away comes the Satan and says what yesterday he stole two days ago he stole again and says he'll never St steal again and a week ago he stole and said I'll never steal again you see a pattern he will never repent leave him alone that's a that's a persecution by the by thean so are you going to be successful in your CH suddenly all the doors Clos suddenly you're not going to be so successful tomorrow night and th and Friday you can accept on yourself you know I'll read you the text it's not in all the this is the type of the CH that you need to do on shabat and if you don't do that it's real real but in my and some of the others let me read it to you okay sorry I'm taking time to find it okay that's it do you do this some Shabbat start doing it this is in my prayer for before what do I do I am taking on myself I'm accepting a positive mitvah of CH you have to do that now you're going to do that tomorrow too loud you're going to scream that to whichever of you're going to go to because you know why cuz you're giving all yourik so you go choose that who you giving the MIT to you do that tomorrow or THS or Friday but let me conclude patan you accept on yourself to do CH there's no no persecution I don't think you understand the depth of it not because I think that you're ignorant or stupid is because it's so deep that I had to read it over and over and over to to understand wait a minute a for 20 years I'm missing a point in my chba first of all second of all what do you think him I'm here for for the fun I'm here to conclude my Chua and to move on and you too by the way you're not here to collect points you're here to fix the wrongdoing that you did in your past and to secure your eternity and if I'm wrong I'm reading you wrong why are you here why are you listening to the class for 3 hours cuz you want to do cha it's not a game this year we have a double power because Katan falls on Shabbat do you know what powerful prayers are to pray on shabat Friday afternoon can you imagine that you do the entire thing when I'm telling you to do Friday afternoon when Friday afternoon is the time to J shua so you have here like triple power from all directions unbelievable so what needs to be done this coming Thursday night and Friday day is patan you do what I said in the beginning you you take the day as a holy day no no eulogies like AES you dress nice it's a special day some people get dressed up you don't have to but you dress nice it's a it's a it's a it's a very powerful day very positive spiritual day you do the meal I'll I'm going to give details another time it's the class is way too long but the anything that you want to do is to you have now 48 hours to get your thoughts together do I want to do chuva what am I here for what am I here for am I here to get popularity from people I'm here to do Chua I already I'm already three steps into it am I doing chuva the right way am I happy with my chuva am I satisfied with my performance so I when I ask myself these questions I'm happy with my cha I'm not satisfied with the performance and I'm not so happy with the with the with the results but I'm happy with my cha that's how I look at myself now when I'm not happy with the performance what happens Step It Up go to the next level so what you need to do is get your thoughts together that you have an opportunity to buy your Chua ticket Chua ticket Friday what I suggest to keep it simple don't think too much from this point on wait for the next video I'll tell you what to do now Friday I'm doing CH there's a term in Hebrew I I don't know how to translate it in English and in Hebrew it says means a firm decision in my heart that I make a decision that's it when I made a firm decision to quit smoking it was a firm decision 22 years later I'm not smoking cuz the firm the the decision how does it sound in Hebrew it's not in the heart you understand that's the term in Hebrew for when you take a strong decision you that's what you need to do in two days you need to make a strong decision such a strong decision and you have to be honest and humble and like I told Leah before take a piece of paper write on the right side all the good things on the left side all the bad things make yourself an introspection see where you're holding write all the good things that you like about yourself I'm doing great I help people I'm courteous I'm polite I'm patient I learn a lot of Torah I'm very productive write all the good things that you think of yourself and then write on the other side all the negative things I'm lazy I wake up late I'm always late I don't answer the calls I'm not responsible I don't pray three times a day I don't prayan the title of this note is called who are you kidding right and you write down everything and you make a strong decision I'm doing CH how what who when don't overload now the the the the next step I'm doing Chua you have now 48 hours to cook excitement that I'm doing ch Friday afternoon I'm going to a to pray my Kish I'm not going to tell you now the prayers I told you I'll give you all the instructions another time Friday afternoon you go to now if you live in I don't knowwhere and you don't have a then you you lost out we have what 2,000 sikim around us good for me you don't have a sing next to you send in your name I'll pray for you but we go here I don't know yet I have to check a few more things and then I'll give you the prayer and the the the portal the reason why I'm not telling you where to go because part of the what you're going to do on Friday when you go to the sadik is you cut a deal with the sadik and you say please hold my MIT real good I want you to hold the mitv for me I'm not joking it's all funny and laughing you're going to go and choose a sadik that you come and you say I know but I I I want you to enjoy my mitv and when you do the mitv you have in the back of your mind that you're doing it for thead not for you then you doing the but on Friday you're going to do CH like you never did before and why because there's no there's no there's no prosecution if you smart you are starting to hyperventilate now if you're not you didn't get what I'm saying and maybe you need to do chuat through 20 years to understand that you need this jumping board so I will leave you right now not with what to do we'll do that tomorrow what to do me where to pray what to pray how to prepare yourself the homework I'm leaving you now is to tell you something as powerful and as simple at the same time the main motion of puim when I asked before and and I I just threw it out there because each one was saying a different answer the main power of bulim is one word any reality that I have I will switch it over transform calling everyone usually we have troubles with right we want to get to the point that we do and then not and I want to get to that point that I switched the order can you imagine what power we have here that we can switch the order of the energy in that day and needless to say I didn't get into it but I told you that according to most the 15th of of of Adar is just as holy so you have Friday and Shabbat can you imagine it's Yip on Shabbat y on shat that's what he's waiting for us in two days many things are going to happen on Friday I'm going to leave you on a cliffhanger right now just know for the ones of you who want to prepare with me without me it doesn't matter I'm Friday afternoon will be going to one of theim here there's a certain prayer that you need to say I'm not going to say it now or explain it and many other things not going to Overlord this class is already hours I'm doing it 3 hours because many people ask to do long classes now you're looking at me I'm doing it for you people say a lot of people send messages and and comments why you doing short classes we want long classes here you got one you have 48 hours to internalize the opportunity that you have that it would only work if you really want to do chuba if you are not really in the chuba market I don't know why you're sitting here for three hours if you are really determined to leave this world with the right CH you have 48 hours prepare yourself the preparation is one sentence I'm doing cha that's it I'm going to do cha I'm going to do Chua what am I doing I don't know I'm doing cha it doesn't matter right what you do right now right now you're doing cha I'm I'm taking this opportunity to to the next to the next level how often opportunities come in your life that you if you're smart you jump you hesitate you lost this is one of these opportunities you hesitate I'll give you hment and and I'll give you some great wine that's it that's what I can give you you go home now and for two for two days you thinking I'm going to do Chua and then you take that piece of paper that he told you and on the right side you write all the good things that you think you're are amazing at all your good qualities your good character traits the amazing mitv that you do how amazing you are even if it takes you three days or three pages and on the left side how bad you are first of all I'll give you a good analysis good versus bad it might be a lot of good and a little bit of bad and you're doing not too good not too bad but when you're looking at the band and the band has to be the most honest like I told you in the beginning of the class when you are by yourself in the room don't think I buy your show you buy my show somehow I don't buy a show I'm not impressed not from beards not from white shirts and and and suits you can see in a person's face if they're sincere in their cha or if it's all one big show it's very simple because when a person seeks truth and wants to do chuva they're willing to do a lot of sacrifices they already did a lot of sacrifices to come to that point if you're really true chuva Seeker this is for you you sit now at home and you think of all the bad things you did what is hard for you to overcome what are the things that you you stop doing but you didn't do a tun for yet like I mentioned before could be a no abortion abortion thank you I just threw one of the many a woman did an abortion never did an abortion ever since technically she did cha she did she left the sin but here has to be a tun so I'm saying a lot of times you left the sin but you didn't do a tun it's there you need to fix it you need to sit with yourself and see the opportunity and to understand that around that magical time Friday afternoon this year it's a you have the andab and if you do it the right way I will post more videos then you have to understand that if you do it the right way you switch the FR in the instead of the man who's the who's going on the path of trouble yob puts the hand on on and says it says on he's going to be big too he's special I want my to be a not that's old news a needless to say that a person lives a life like that doing cha like that don't you think you're going to be part of the Redemption so take opportunity of this watch the video a few more times if you need I know it was a very long class but I was trying to shorten it as much as responsible but just understand that sometimes you don't understand things you don't need to understand you need to follow and I see this as a once in a few years opportunity CU next year there's no leap here the following year there's no leap here so this is my opportunity I my chuva you already spending so much time and so much effort do it right and not only you do it right do it in a way that it will be effective and easy and what a better time to do that in pu you do that in do you want me to tell you how your pu will be if you do your chva right in two days and your pu Katan is taking advantage your por the you'll have the best por you ever had and not because you're going to have good alcohol and get drunk and you will fulfill the is because you're going to come out of that P straight to the G washed off all my sins are washed Clean Slate now it's easy to do good