Rosh Chodesh Kislev - Powerful lecture packed with wisdom to apply today

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There's no time. and we have uh a wonderful wonderful lecture and then a long interesting night and [clears throat] a very special day coming. We're inesh right now. Uh I would say one of the most powerful days, not only one of the most powerful, one of the most powerful days of the year. And I'll explain at the end many important points, but just to emphasize what I'm about to say. Theam explains that he says that is is like Yomipur. And the same way that we have 40 days from to Yamipur, he says that we have 40 days from Naba till andv is like Yonipur on Roshana and during Alul of course and and for sure during Yonipur we take on ourselves. Okay, I'm going to stop doing this. I'm going to stop doing that. I'm going to start doing A, B, and C. We take what is called resolutions. A lot of good good decisions. But how many of them you actually do? 2%. So ones it's like a new beginning. You start a new beginning. That's the power of today and needless to say the energy that it takes with it for the entire month. So first of all we are in an amazing time kesh to start with then kodeshis and then the entire month of kislv I think it's the only month that may maybe nissan do that caters the entire month something that you can grab on [clears throat] and of course has any month that has a holiday especially like kanuka full of miracles nissan pes is full of miracles so we know we know where we're going into And uh when you know good information right from the beginning, then uh that's really the value of the information. And I'll tell you what I mean cuz now I'm getting a lot of phone calls and a lot of WhatsApps. What should I do with my Bitcoin? It's going down and everybody's very unhappy with the situation of the Bitcoin. So, you know, like anything in the trade market, in stocks, crypto, it doesn't matter. If you come in at the end, then of course you're going to go with the dip. You need to come at the bottom, not at the top. And how am I why am I saying that? Because I have a friend who obviously bought some crypto when the Bitcoin was pretty high in August. I think it was like 114,000 and now it's like whatever 80,000 85 I don't know I don't know how down it went it then went down a lot so it happened to be that he came at the top and now can you predict no yeah you can actually see but it doesn't matter the the analogy here is that you want to get into the stock at the bottom not at the top so same thing with the spirituality now you're at the at the bottom it's now you want to hear the information so you can apply it tonight and the rest of the month. And I would say that the bottom line is that the month of Nissan of Kisv is a month of miracles. We have the miracle of Kanuka and from the little people that are the few people that I speak to everybody can use a little miracle in their life in any aspect of their life. And like I said many times, I fail to to see people that their life is all good. Now I'm not talking about about now about the complaining or not. I'm talking about the actual facts. Every person that you look into their life, something has to be wrong there. Either it's a health situation, no money. Have you ever seen somebody that everything is good? Maybe the rashim the real wicked wicked ones everything is good but even the wicked ones I never saw anyone that everything is good. So some people have the their money so they have health issues. They they have good health no money everybody you know the green the grass by the neighbor is always greener you always look somebody else has what you don't have created that we all have lacks but in in a situation like now there were moments before the redemption we all notice that each and every one of us in our own struggle can definitely use a few good miracles. Everybody is now dealing with some type of situation. It's nobody's business. Not something that necessarily you need to run in the streets and declare. But the fact is, and I said it many many times, I get the thousands of emails and calls every day with all the problems. So I I I can make a very easy calculation that most people are dealing with something. So now is a good opportunity. It's a good opportunity to grab a miracle. So in It's the beginning of the beginning of the beginning of the month. So, you're really getting in at the bottom of the stock. You're now getting in at Bitcoin when it was 4 cents. Okay? Cuz some people are smart. They logged in. I mean, I'm sure a lot of people are working as and they can't necessarily go on the line. But look, many many people I see hundreds of people logged in to get the information at at the bottom at the at the beginning. So are you. And then some people are going to see the lecture on YouTube in three days. So they already missed three days. So I can congratulate you that you came right from the beginning. So now pay attention. Kisv the month of Kisv based on the book of the book of formation. It explains that and I'm not going to get into it. that explained it in many other classes that every month has a letter that signifies the month, a sign what is known as the the horoscope and an attribute and a limb in the body. So the seph explains that the letter that is connected to the month of is the letter. The the attribute is sha sleeping and the sign is u how do you say kashad >> sagittarius. Okay. [snorts] Why s why not giml and why sleeping and not something else? Why? Okay. So first question is why and the second question is what is the connection between the three and there is a book it's called priadik it's written by the great the book is called and he says there about the month of that the month itself serves you as o it's like a cover like a security and o is power so the gives you security, power, and mainly protection. That's what says in his book, and I'll explain to you later why it's so important. Now, he calls it and in many other holy books, it's calls the month of Mishit. And it's very very interesting because I've tried to find in many different places the translation in English for mishet and it all says the same thing support and mishet is not support. The act that the mishet does is support but it doesn't mean necessarily support. So mishet can come in many different forms. Like I'll give you one example. The back of the chair is called a mishit. How is it called in English? The back of the chair. Okay. So, how is the bottom called? The bottom of the chair. Very very precise here. But in Hebrew, this is called mishit. Why? Because I lean on it. So the mishet gives me support obviously. But you know how many times you lean on something that you think will give you support and it collapses. So mishet is not necessarily support. Mishid by the way can be on the side not necessarily on the back you can have on the side like an armchair so the arm is called a mish really mean it comes from the word and means that I'm leaning on something that's so the great sages called the month of now it's very important to understand that I'm sure you heard the term not once and not twice inland We read many many times in the prophecies explaining it. You read it text that was written 2500 years ago and it's like you're reading the newspaper. Everything is exactly one equal. And at the end at the end at the end at the end of this it says and we have nobody to lean on but our father in heaven. And that's really the reality. The reality is that I can't lean on anything. Whatever I lean on that is not Hashem is a lie. And that's the base of what I need to you to understand tonight is the fact that what are you leaning on. Now we saw that at the time of the corona a few years ago. We saw very clearly who's leaning on what? Some people were leaning on the government. Other people were le leaning on the science. Other people were leaning on Hashem and many other there were many different groups. But we saw very clearly who you leaning on. Are you leaning on the creator of the world or are you leaning on basaladam on a human and flesh and it's not only in the corona first of all we see it in everyday life. Every day you have a struggle. Every day you have a test. Every day you have some type of a challenge. Now let's see who you leaning on. So in this world you can't lean on anything. Nothing. Now this I'm not going to go dive into this statement. I'm actually going to explain the aspect of it that you understand more the next step. When you're praying the prayer of amida your legs have to be together like an angel. Uh you have to whisper in the volume that you can hear yourself but that nobody around you should hear. And there are many many laws rules how you pray that prayer can't look to the sides can't get distracted even to a point that it says that if you get a scratch or no no you know you know focus on the prayer and of course I'm sure you felt it and experienced it that when you're praying you're focusing on anything but the prayer you're thinking of everything but what you need to actually pray about. Why? Because now the is coming to get you off your focus. One of the restrictions in is that I can't lean on anything. If you are extremely extremely sick, there are some exceptions in not everybody agrees with it that you can maybe pray lying down but not everybody agree with it. The only place that agrees that you can pray not standing is if you are traveling and there's danger to your life and you can pray on the horse or the donkey for the sake of saving your life. But other than that, you have to be standing still. The permits you to move when there's a danger to your life. He actually says that and again there's an argument to that. If you see a scorpio or a snake, what do you do? Nevertheless, it's not the ina right now. What I want you to understand is that the one of the restrictions in is that you're allowed to lean on anything. So, I can have like a a podium in front of me. What they call in the world of the Torah or stand it in whatever accent. I can have one in front of me, but I can't lean on anything. That's it. Why? Because if you lean on something, if they move what you lean on, you don't you're not worth anything. You fall, whatever you lean on, right? Anything you're going to lean on, you're leaning on a cane, you're leaning on a person emotionally, that whatever you're leaning on moves, you fall. So, you're not worth anything. The doesn't permit you to lean on anything during your prayer to make you understand that you can only lean on Hashem. There's nothing else in the world you can lean on. Now, you need to go to a doctor if you're sick and you need to use uh the world rules, so to say, for certain things, but you don't rule, you don't lean on the doctor or wherever you're going to. You lean on Hashem and you give all the cav and all the everything to Hashem. And the same thing with your parasa. You have to go to work. You have to create yourself a livelihood. That means if it's a business, you need to invest or if you're going to work, traveling, etc. But you have to rely on Hashem for the parasa. You know, relying on the weather or if Trump is going to raise or remove the tariff, that's what I'm relying on. I need to rely on Hashem. When I rely on things in this world, it means that I'm leaning on them [clears throat] because that's my savior. And once that thing that I'm relying on is moves, then I fall. End the story. So what do you take from that? You cannot rely or lean on anyone but our father in heaven. And the sad reality is that whatever you lean on and most people lean on things. They rely on things. Don't rely people a lot of people rely on me for many different things. And my first thing is don't rely on me. Whatever I can do, I'll do. But don't don't I'm not your savior. No. And and many people they rely on other people to be that thing that that's my savior. I'm not your savior. Save yourself. Of course, you can go to people to advice. You can go to people to to cry your heart out. But to to bank on something, that's leaning on something. Anyways, let's move on. You got the point. And we're going to go back to that. Why do we want to rely only on Hashem? I know it's a rhetorical question. I'm I'm sure some people will have an interesting answer to that, but why do we want to rely only on Hashem? Because Hashem is the only thing that is stable. Nothing else is stable. And you know what? Now before Mashiah is coming, Hashem is showing us how not stable everything is. And even now take it with a bitcoin. You know how many emails, WhatsApps, and messages they got in the last two weeks about Bitcoin, which makes perfect sense. Take a million followers, make a ratio that at least 1% of them are holding Bitcoin. So I'm going to get a thousand calls. What should I do? They tell me I you think I work in the committee up there who decides what's going to happen with Bitcoin. But nevertheless, that's Hashem showing you even Bitcoin that jumped up to 115,000 can drop. I don't know. Most people didn't even feel it. You didn't feel two days ago the blackout from Cloudflare. I don't know how most people didn't feel it. Banks were down, credit cards were down, no international transactions. I don't know what I told people. No, I didn't notice anything. Well, just that you know that Cloudflare I mean they say some configuration in a file but the fact is that everything was shut down for about 2 three hours. I tried to uh log into my bank account nothing no access. So that's Hashem showing you in so many different ways don't rely on anything. With that said let's continue. Ah, and let me also emphasize that the reason why I rely on Hashem besides everything that is known, Hashem is the only thing that is stable. And I'll tell you what's another thing. Hashem is the only thing that is eternal. If you lean on something that is temporary, then eventually that whatever you lean on will break, right? Unless it's eternal. Do you know anything in this universe that is eternal but Hashem? No. That's it. Hashem showed us that he can move mountains. Hashem can do whatever he wants. So nothing is eternal. [snorts] Saying in other words, which is very very important is what you see in this world like uh how do you call it? They had it in the old movies. The ta how do you say tifa? the backdrops, the backgrounds. In the olden movies, now what they do, they have a green screen and everything is digital. But 60, 70 years ago, they did they did like photo montages and they build like set. Oh, the the movie set. The world here is a movie set. It's all a lie. You look at it from the front, it looks beautiful. Go from the side, there's nothing there. That's it. Everything here is a sheer. Everything here is a movie set. Only Hashem is real. And that's how the sadikim, the great sadikim, the great righteous and and only that the prophets, they only saw Hashem. When you see only Hashem, then you see what's truth and what's not truth and that's it. And up until now, anyone who ever leaned on a lie fell. You lean on something that is a lie, not stable, eventually it will fall. And the second that I understand that there's nothing else but the then I am leaning on the most stable this support that that's it. No more pressure no more anything because I lean now on Hashem. I I roll over everything to Hashem. Imagine how all your problems in your life just disappear. People have problems with their parasa. Suddenly they get some inheritance. That's it. They're all set to go. You are diagnosed with some disease. Pet disappeared. I mean, listen, I don't have to list the problems that people are going through. Everybody was going through problems. Imagine you would just be able to do something and just everything would just disappear. And so tonight I'm giving you the option how to do that because all you need to do is lean on Hashem because once you lean on Hashem you roll over responsibility to the Ganesh. It's big to me. I can't do this. It's too much. You take care of it. [snorts] Sov is the concept of it that I can lean on something and the explained that is that it's covering you and protecting you. So what I take from that that I'm seeking for this protection because when I'm out there in the world in front of the kipot I have no chance. I have no chance. And I'm not talking about the the kipota making me sin bothering me in my just my daytoday just being happy. Ask yourself in the last month, how many days of the 30 days, last 30 days you were happy during the day, good mood, very motivated, very excited, and how many days not? Listen, if you if you're 50/50, that's not too bad. But I know a lot of people say mood, what do you mean good mood? I mean, who has time to be in in a good mood? Most people are not in a good mood every day. Most people are very uptight, business, children, whatever it is. A lot of other people are very, very relaxed, focused, centered. You know, when people ask me for a blessing, they think I'm going to tell them, I wish you to be rich. I wish you to find your beautiful, gorgeous other half. I wish people I wish you to have real true happiness that doesn't matter what wave comes to you. Okay. Always with a smile. That's when you really lean on Hashem. I have problems. The good is from Hashem. The not good is from Hashem. The success is from Hashem. The disasters, the everything is from Hashem. I'm just I just need to go down the stream with a smile on my face and serve aim. That's it. Nobody's asking you to to conquer wars right now. So, the month of Kisv is already telling us we're getting uh some support, a cover and and and a protection. And the essence of the month is to give us this support and the protection and this and the and and the how do you say the in Hebrew you say optimo the optimistic to be how would you say >> optimism >> the optimism yeah that's the month of month of is able to give you all that and I don't believe that there are many people that can tell me I don't know what you're talking about my life is [snorts] and if you are I I wish for you that but let's cut to the chase and I'm not saying it in a negative way I'm saying it practically everybody has some part in their life that they would want to get rid of want to solve most people have three four five things seven eight things at the same time sov provides you this protection that's why the letter of is because Sam is a circle surrounding you, protecting you, cocooning you, giving putting protection under you. That's the the significance of the letter. And more than that, we have to understand that the the peak of is Kanuka. Of course, we are now going to work towards Kanuka. We have 25 days to work towards Kanuka because Kanuka is the end of the journey where you light the candles. Now we going through the darkness. The fact is that we are all going through the darkness. If you're looking at collectively the entire world, [snorts] the darkness of the exile has never been to that extent. Believe it, see it, ignore it, it doesn't matter. The fact is that the spiritual darkness right now in the world has never reached to that to levels like this. If you're looking at it only in your life, there's a constant fight between darkness and light. Whether it's in the entire world or whether it's inside of you, there's a constant fight between the darkness and light in you in many different ways, many different forms, and many different aspects. But there's always constantly these struggles in you. And what is fighting you? The darkness. So we have to understand that the state of the entire world is darkness. Anywhere however you're looking in it, it's darkness. And of course I'm talking about spiritually, not now because it's dark. How do you win darkness, not with words, definitely not with guns. You can only win darkness with light. That's it. So now we're in a state of darkness 2500 years ago, give or take. Don't take me on the year. There was great darkness and a little bit of light. It diminished all the darkness. I mean the story what happened in Kanuka. You're talking here about five. Five. Tell me. It's almost like you'll go now to you're talking here about these old kohanim that serve in the beta mikdash the the and they go out to the fight in an army. It's kind of like if now there's going to be some type of coalition, Russia, China, North Korea, and add a few more coming as an army. That was the size of the Greek army. And here you have five kohanim going out to the war. They understood that now it's time to for the war. Got to got going to go to the war. Now the the essence of the war, the purpose of the war, the the Greeks, they didn't want to kill the Jews. It wasn't like Haman who wanted to kill them. It wasn't like Paro that wanted to kill the Jews. The Greek says, "We're not looking to kill you. We just want you to not believe in the Torah. We don't like your Torah. We just don't like it. We go by common sense. We go by what we see. We can't have you believing in things that are not tangible and things that we don't see." So the war was not to kill us, rather to what's called to >> to how >> helanize. I was about to say to convert us to move us away from Hashem. That's Yavan. And by the way, this war is still on. And I'm not talking about the little country Greece. Talking about the kingdom of Yavan is there. The kingdom of Yavan. One of the exiles. It's called the exile of Yavan. And I have a long lecture online explaining everything about why it's called Yavan. Don't say Greece. Yavan you write with a little yud and then a bigger vav and then a huge noon. Like a small line, middle line, big line. I have a whole class online. Go and watch it where I explain everything why. You have to watch it. It's very very powerful. But the fact is that the yeanim wanted to kill us. sorry to kill our our spirituality and they just didn't like what we we what we believe they didn't like the fact that we observe Shabbat they didn't like that we do circumcision and celebrate all the three of these don't make sense go explain now to any normal person okay even if you explain to the person why the circumcision might be healthy or good but why dka the e day why not the seventh day do it on the 18th day or do it when the child is three on the eighth day that it's Shabbat is higher than Shabbat Dava. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Ninth day. Lot of us. They didn't like it that we believe in something that is that they can't see. So the war was against our connection to God. And up until now, we have this war physically. There are physical people in this world that are fighting to get the Jews away from Hashem. They didn't end this war. There are Jews that are doing that. And there are non-Jews that are doing that that are trying to this. And by the way, don't be shocked. Thousands thousands. It's actually tens of thousands every year convert. Like you can't leave your Jewish roots. But they leave their Jew Jewish connection and become Muslim, Christian, Hindu, Hindu, whatever it is. So we didn't the war is not over. Maybe it was one, but it's not over. Not to talk about the secular governments, what they're trying to do, the education, what they're everything. We're not going to get into that. But nevertheless, the Yebanim were defeated 20 25 2700 years ago, but that they weren't completely destroyed. We still have this war. But let's go back to the fact is that the Makabim won the war. How do you win such a war? Okay, let's say they went and got a few other guys. Let's say they got 300 men. You fight an army with with 300 men. How did they win the war? Pelle, it's a wonder. So, I'll tell you how they won the war. The the Makabim looked at Hashem and didn't even first they even looked at Hashem. They said, "I'm a human being. I'm but Hashem can do whatever he can." when you they stood in front of the army looking at each other they said to each other okay we can't do nothing but Hashem can wh why why disqualify the fact that Hashem can do a miracle let's see what's going to happen so the makabim says anyways it's not our power we go and fight now it's not our power it's power so let him do they did what's called nephesh putting their life on their line. But what they really did is a secret that most people don't know. This secret is called And it says, let me first read the verse and then I'll explain. The verse is very powerful because it says, "But those who put their trust in the Lord shall renew their vigor. They shall raise wings as eagles. They shall run and not weary. They shall walk and not thive or not what I can't see what I wrote. But anyways, you got the point. Now again, like I told you maybe five million times, I don't like the translations. It's not what I'm trying to give over is the ones who give their power to Hashem. Can you give your power to Hashem? You little Mickey Mouse. You Hey, I didn't say anything. Said it. The ones who give their power to Hashem, they will switch the power. Now, how can you give your power to Hashem? So, I'll tell you from says very, very, very simple. He says, "Every person that serves Hashem the right way switches their power." How? You come to Hashem and says, "Listen, you're bringing on me such challenges. I don't have the the to deal with it. You're challenging me with my paranas. You're challenging me with my educating the kid. You're challenging me with my zuki with my wife, my husband. You call challenge. I can't take this. Hashem die. Now I heard that cry thousands of times. Oh, people come die. Die means enough. Die. I can't take it. Die. Die. And I'm sure each and every one of you reached to that point that you die. Die. I can't do this. So all you need to do instead of wine, by the way, is to just say to Hashem, "Listen, you gave me a load that is much heavier than me. I can't I can't move it. I can't I just can't. But you know what, Hashem, what I'm going to do? I'm going to give you all my power and in return you give me yours." And Hashem says, "Okay." So you don't have to give your power to Hashem. It means you have to give your full power. Have you ever give full power in your life? I have. That's why I got out of 40 years sentence in jail. I shared this lecture recently. I was say I was I'm supposed to go to jail for 40 years. I had a federal indictment federal with 49 counts and they demanded 40 years in jail. Even if I would take half the counts off, still nothing would help. All the lawyers said the same. You can't find this. You're too guilty. 127 people got arrested with me. All my everything, the entire thing. I'm not going to start saying the whole the whole story. The only two people who went out of this situation like this was me and I should refrain from saying his name. My good friend. Well, I said his name. the only two people who went to Hashem that really went to Hashem and if you don't know the story go online I the lecture is recorded I said two years in jail but after that fought a verdict and I went out nothing like as if nothing happened miracles that you can't even imagine nobody could believe you have to hear the entire story and that's one of many miracles so together and why because I told Hashem okay I I cannot handle this. I don't have the kale. I don't have this the the the vessels to deal with this. But you know what? I'm going to give you the most I can. Not 98% 100% of what I can. I'm going to give whatever power I have. And I did that for over a year. like little literally like the gas on the the the the the leg on the gas pedal not resting for a second and I'm talking about my transformation in cha of course the second that I realized that I need Hashem on my side and the only thing I mean it's not that I realized that my rabbi told me when I explained to him the situation he told me very simple he told me in a very aggravating way it's an ision an ision means a test. A test is when you can't find your other half of 10 years. That's a test. This is a death penalty. What are you talking about? And he told me, "It's all a test from Hashem. Just do what Hashem wants you to do and and that's it. And it will disappear. You've never seen a Jew do chuva from zero to 100 like what I did in 3 months and how I behaved for over a year." And then and it's not by the way that the year passed and I went back to my from that year I kept that momentum and then just went up. But the second that I gave the keys to Hashem I leaned completely and I I could do anything. I already accepted that I I'm powerless. But the only thing that I can offer is full of me. My full attention my my full focus on what I need to do. Now ask yourself, when was the last time you gave 100%, not 99%, because you're not going to get back anything. You can only get back, you can only do the switch if you give 100%. That's how it works. But if you switch, you are operating with Hashem's power. That's what the Makabim did. The Makabim said we will give everything that we can to the last I don't know how to call it last drop last effort 100% not 99%. And I can testify and tell you what does it mean 100%. Not 99%. You can't take the the gas off. Can't take the little leg off the gas. You have to go full gas. And that's what the Makabim did. They told Hashem, "We can't do it, but we will give you 100% of ours." and they switched their power with Hashem and that was the miracle. How physically did he defeat it? I heard I read and heard many different options. One swing with one sword of one man killed hundreds of soldiers. I mean there were miracles. That's it. Hashem has uh limited miracles. You limit Hashem so he's not going to do any miracles. Give him all the all the credit. He'll do whatever he needs and Hashem can do whatever he wants. You know that. So says, "Do a deal with Hashem." And you just tell him, "Hashem, I'm a weak person. You are asking me to fight this temptation. I can't. You're asking a dog not to eat this raw piece of steak in front of him. I can't. I'm weak. But you know what? I'll do my I'll do my battle. I'll do my part. But but you do your part. That's it. And you know what? Hashem has skin. Hashem says, "Okay, only if you give everything. It's not going to work if you like this." Now, by giving everything, we'll do the definition soon. Because I'm not asking you now to be Superman. I'm just telling you, you're going to have to give everything at least in one thing. And that's why I congratulated all of you that you're hearing it now onesh. you know you coming in at the bottom so you can really give everything but you have to remember that in this deal you have to you have to give everything [clears throat] that you have and I'll elaborate and for that what I'm what I just told you you need you need to be selfless when I did the switch it was nothing about me I didn't care if I'm hungry if I'm tired if I'm cold it it has not was nothing about me. It was to be serving Hashem 100%. That's called is self-sacrifice. I I give every everything that I have I sacrifice. I It's like I don't care without anyways. I have any I don't have anything. So I just give I give whatever I can. That's why people die on this. I without Hashem I don't have my life. So I'll better die is called service or work or effort that is above nature. Above your nature. So if your nature is to wake up at 11:00 in the morning, so you wake up at 9:00, it's above your nature. If your nature is to be judgmental to everything that moves around you by you not being judgmental, then that's how you do it. You do it above your nature. If I'm looking to this direction, speaking those words, whatever it is that I need to control, then anything that I will do different, then above my nature. Now, when you do it once or twice, that's great, but worthless. It has to be consistent. You can't quit smoking for 30 days and then smoke for two days and quit for 30 days and smoke for 3 days. You quit smoking. I was a chain smoker for I don't know what 14 15 years. Smoked like two three packs of Malburett every day. You would never see me without a cigarette in my hand. Then one day I quit smoking and that's it. Wasn't breaks it. That's it. You can't do half chuva. You then you didn't do ja. You didn't stop. You know the you know the the the basics of chuva is just don't do it again. That's it. Just don't do the act again. All the rest is has is nothing. Just don't do the act again. So when I need to make some change in me, if you're trying to change 50 aspects in you, you will fail miserably. If you try to change three aspects in you, you will have success and you will have to timeline. Okay, I'm giving myself 3 months to achieve this whatever I need to do. I will elaborate much more what I'm talking about. It's more important for me for you to understand that you are going to need to give something. It's not going to come free. Shim doesn't give free presents. You're going to have to do a big effort. If you want, you don't want, go deal with your problems. No problem. Shim says you do it. So you have to come to the understanding also that you need Hashem. So the is called service work effort that is way above your nature and that's where you reach to a level that Hashem can do miracles and I'm saying it in the most humble way. I have seen miracles in my own eyes that Hashem performed for me and for others that you there's nothing other to say but this is a miracle. So I saw with my own my eyes miracles. I'm sure each and every one of you even saw unless your eyes are spiritually shut and you're not going to see nothing. But I s just on myself things that I'm like this is this is not normal. This cannot be only Hashem can do this. So you can reach to a level that Hashem will do miracles for you. But it comes with many conditions but one of the main ones is that you have to have beta. You have to have trust in Hashem. No [snorts] trust it's not going to work. So the essence of the month of Gizv is to strengthen your build your trust in Hashem. And I know many people say oh yeah of course I trust in Hashem. You trust in Hashem when it's easy. when things get hard then it's uh the level of trust goes much much much lower and I gave an example many many times with a person who's being tested with $5 $50 then comes the 50,000 when you test it with $5 and $50 then you digest the test with with with a smile something that is way beyond your capabilities 50,000 suddenly whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa Oh, so the fact is and not that I'm saying it in a negative way. I'm saying it that the that people will actually understand the right way of observing the problem. A lot of people have overrust. They think they think they have a lot of trust. But the fact is that I don't wish anyone and we pray for ourselves for Hashem not to test us. He tests us enough anyways. But in order to perform what I just said five minutes ago, it's only with and again I'm going to take you back to my story. You have to understand or at least for the ones who didn't hear it or for the ones who heard it and forgot. I was 28 29. I was in jail for two years, a little bit over two years. when I go out, I know that I'm going to face a trial and the prosecution, there's no place of even uh negotiation, nothing. Any lawyer I went to said, "You're going to jail. There's no rabbi who tells me, "Nope, [snorts] just do what a wants and you'll you'll be fine." Now you have to understand in the timeline of my life at the age of 26 I I I go through my near death experience. Okay, I get my first slap in my face and uh I don't know if there's any words even to define and explain how I was on that time. I have very few pictures. You can tell by the picture I was a psychopath, drug addict, criminal something normal. went down to the bottom of the bottom of the bottom of the what what a human can reach. And then Hashem comes and slaps me over my face, wakes me up to a completely different reality. Now you think that the next day I woke up, I put a yamak on and went to the synagogue. It took me a year to start the engine, which of course right away many things stopped instantly. Criminal activities, drugs, that stopped instantly. But I was the same exact person in regards to serving Hashem. No yarmaka, no nothing. The only thing that I did right away because I knew that I need to do something physical, I used to put fillin on every day. And uh I would not eat meat and dairy. That was my kosher thing. And I I I with it filling said morning prayers. I had like very few things. That's it. That was the cap. And a little bit then a few months later, I'm sure a lot of you know the story. I started with Shabba. Everything was like this. So the first year after the near-death experience, there was nothing external in the change. The change was only internal. Stop lying. Stop cheating. Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop. First thing that bothered me is how I spoke. I told you I went months without speaking. Especially in jail. I hated how I spoke. Every second word that came out of my mouth was a curse or whatever. Why am I saying that? So for a whole year I'm not really doing I'm doing chuva mentally. I'm changing myself internally but nothing external fill in this much. And then of course FBI and the DA closes on me. I get arrested and that's where I do chuva in jail. There's nothing else to do. When when you're like completely like this then you really need Hashem from the depth I have called you. So I started doing chuvine jail. But how much can chuva can you do in jail? No rabbi, no books. I don't know even what to do. But that's where I really did chuva. And my chuva then became physical. Not physical that I did mitzvah. The physical that Hashem broke me physically physically. How many times I got beaten up to a point that one time I was three weeks I was unconscious. I was in Oklahoma in some crazy jail. There was a group. There's all groups, gangs. One gang was neo-Nazis, 30, 40 guys. One time they all jumped on me, almost killed me. They wanted to kill me, obviously. Three weeks I was unconscious. Broken ribs, every So, Hashem made me chab with blood. So, I went through hell in jail, that's where I really did chuva. But when I came out of jail, which was a miracle to start with, but go watch the video with the story. Of course, the lawyers are all telling me, "You have no chance here." I'm I'm like I was attacked from all directions and then I meet my rabbi and very quickly I got friendly with him and within a few weeks I told him my situation and then just imagine everybody tells me you do you you you finished no chance and this guy long beard kind of looks like me in the external look not like that we look the same but long beard just for him he just brushes it. No, no, I can't say. Do you know how much hope he gave me? I believed him. I actually believed him. I believed him that if I will do what Hashem wants me to do, which is obviously serve him, then Hashem will do will get me out of there. I actually was so humbled by Hashem crushed. I actually believed and I had bet. That was the key. The rabbi told me, "Don't worry, do A, B, and C." He told me, "Shabbat, fill in Torah, bre everything." He just told me, "Okay, that's what I need to do. That's what I do." This is the next day I became Rabbi. Well, it took a few years till Rabbi, but the next day I was cuz I didn't have any other option. But the key to the success was one thing. I actually had the the trust that I'm sacrificing. I'm putting my end of the deal. I had the trust in Hashem that he will do his part of the deal. And I know for a fact that most people don't have that trust. They have the trust when it's little things, but when big things come to your life, the majority of people, they don't have the trust in Hashem. They don't believe that he can do something. You know when you believe after the first miracle you experience like jumping off a bridge or out of a plane if you ever did one of the above. Diving out of jumping out of the plane for the first time is scary. You know unless you I don't want to say what I was about to say. Oh my god. Unless No, no. I I'm just thinking how I jumped out of a plane. The first time I did I Okay, I'm going to say I was just very very high on cocaine. So it WAS VERY EASY. A [screaming] BUT uh you jump out of the plane the first time it's very scary but once you did it the first time and it went well the next time like that and same thing with everything daring once you saw it worked I didn't die then you do it again so same thing once you get a miracle and you see the mirror you're like oh my god it worked it worked the next step you will believe but you need to do the first one so let's continue. The essence of is to build your to bring you to a place that you have real ine. And when you reach that real in hem, then you really fly high. Excuse me guys on the live. Do you hear me? I don't see anything. Any thumbs up? Nothing. Hearts. There was so many hearts before I thought I don't even know what's understand what's going on there. Okay. Okay. I don't need the hearts. I just need to make sure that you're hearing me. Mhm. Yeah, you can do the arts. Uh, no, cuz I see in the angle of my eye, I saw movement, then it all froze. So, you all hear me? Well, very good. So, let me backtrack a little bit. Is the time to build your to build your trust in Hashem. And that's why the book of explains to us that the letter connected to the month of isk like I told you is a circle. It protects you. It gives you this cover. But more than that is the letter that starts the verse. You know that verse because you say it three times a day in the prayer that we say in and we say it twice in because you have to say it three times a day that's why we say it and if you I think I actually gave a class on that that you have to say three times a day even you know what I have a I mean I tell people even if you don't pray three times a day then say ash three times a day it has remedies unbelievable especially for parasa for your livelihood. So, so we have to say three times a day. That's why I'm assuming it's familiar to most of you. But if you notice, it's all the letters in the alphabet, right? And then it goes through all the alphabet, but it's missing one letter. It's missing the letteron. And what comes after the and the verse that we say is we skip the noon. You know why? Because the noon is the is when you fall. So it's just hinting on the noon inflame. No starts with the noon says no. No, you don't fall. When you do fall, Hashem will catch you. No such thing. So he didn't even want to put it in the in the tongue. But the translation of what I just read is the Lord supports all those who fall. It's very obvious and clear that when Hashem already architected some type of fall in your life, he's already there to catch you. Doesn't matter whether you go through a financial crisis, marital crisis, any health. Again, no need to mention the long list when Hashem already orchestrated for you. some type of a situation whether it's to punish you, test you, cleanse you, I don't know, he already already prepared what you're going to fall on. He's there. He's there catching. He knows how far you're going to fall. You just don't know and you don't have the trust. So the letter signifies falling. So it doesn't appear in the psalm. And the letteron theim is is hindered in the noim of the next verse. The mishet the the support that I'm talking is there even if you don't feel it. Most people don't feel it. You don't feel the support. Now you are leaning on the chair. You feel the support. If you will sit on a stool, you don't feel support. You kind of have to hold yourself. Hashem is always supporting you. It's just that you don't feel it. That's the fact. You can't say Hashem is not supporting me. So you need to get to a point to that you you feel the support because by the way going down is not a bad thing. Of course you want to prevent going down or back. But in anything healthy has to be a step back. everything. I explained that that the rhythm of life is up, down, up, down. In order to go up, you have to be down. And that's the rhythm of life. Put your heart connected to a monitor. That's what you're going to see. Up, down, up, down. Your life is about up, down, up, down. And when this line is flat, like how you would wish your life to be flat and boring, that's dead. So if your life is flat, then you're spiritually dead. Life has to be up and down. Now it's like going like this on a on a swing. Oh, how I used to love swing was I was a little kid. But I would go like like the you know what I mean? And then of course when it goes to the end like leave and like what's more enjoyable this [snorts] or this? for you it's this I will beg the differ for me was this you know and I was I was in America for a few months and in one of I took my family of course I can't disappear for two months which I don't think I'm ever ever going to do such a thing two months it's like I'm not I don't want to do this anymore it's two months tour it takes two three months to prepare two three months to recover so my year is ruined and you'll miss all the classes. But nevertheless, uh I took my family, we traveled, we had a very lovely time. Every place I wear, I shared it lectures time with the family. So, my kids are young. So, we went to an And of course, I might have some white hair, but in my mind, I'm still 21. So, we went on all the the rides. There was only one ride that I said, "Okay, here is where my age is going to kick in and tell me not to go on this ride because I'm going to come off this ride and probably throw up." But all the rest I did go up and it was a lot of fun. But one ride, first of all, just to understand, maybe some of you know, it was in Colorado and I forgot the name of the place. It's famous. It's an amusement amusement park in Colorado. And what's special about it? It's on the tip of a mountain. So when you go on the roller coaster, it's on the tip of the mountain. breathtaking views. Something out of this world. So they had a swing, but you know the swing that swings like this. I'm talking about I don't know 100 foot high maybe more. Something gigantic and you're just sitting in a chair like this and it swings from side to something out. Now the swing going out you go out you there's nothing underneath you. You're literally in the middle of the air. Very very very special ride. But why am I saying that? Because it swings like this, but it's a big swing. Not like in a regular playground. So why did I ask you what is more enjoyable? Going down or the going backwards? You said going down for me. It's going backwards. Going down. You see the I'm Where can I crash? It's scary. Now there's no ground under me. When I going back, I don't see nothing. whatever. Some people when they drive on a go on a bus or a train, they you know the seats are in front of each other. Some people can't drive when the when they're going backwards and some people vice versa. They prefer prefer that. Why am I saying that? Besides the fact that we're all different is that both swings are good. Depends what you want to get from the swing. What you What are you getting here? what are you getting here? But the fact is when you put it all in your mind anywhere high that I need to go, I have to be somewhere low first. And that's why you have to know that you can only lean on Hashem. Because the reality is that if you standing on something soft, you can't jump high. You need solid ground to to jump high. So you need to know that Hashem is that solid ground. But the fact is that the rhythm of life, like I'm saying, is up and down. You can't fight it. You know, I just said about the crypto. I'm making fun out of it because I got so many calls and so many messages about that. But even in the trading world, the going down is bad. Well, if you bought high, it's going it's bad for you. But even in the trading world, many of the times the going down is just going down a little bit to catch momentum. healthy stock going up. There's always going to be going down. You're not going to see just going up. You're going to see up up down down up up down up up. Right? Everything in life in order to move forward, you need to move backwards a little bit. That's the rule in life. The moving backwards a little bit I take it is when you humble yourself where you rejuvenate where you recalibrate yourself when you go down. Hashem is trying to in other words put you down. So take it as I need to now more humble myself. I need to more center myself so I will have the elevation that I can jump out. But I have never seen any person that can only go up up up. You have to have tikunim corrections. You see it in everything. Doesn't matter if it's in the trading world. If I told you on a monitor, it's the rule in everything. In order to move some a little bit forward, you need to little move a little bit back. When I want to move forward, I'll give you one example out of many. In my relationship with my spouse, how would I move forward with that? How would I develop a better relationship? You know how? By moving back. you move back a little bit, making more room and space for your spouse, answering less, then then you'll grow better. You're making room. You make you're going back. And this is an example with the relationship. It can be in anything that you that you put your mind to. You're saying if I want to go up here, then I have to move back a little bit. So, I'll take it to the Torah world. Many people feel that they're stuck in their spiritual level. I'm Bouva. I'm a convert 20 years now. Now I for the last 10 years I'm not going up. So move back. Give something in. Give in something. Give up something. Make a change. I have to move back. Moving back. I'm making space. You will never fail in anything in your life if you make space for others. That's it. So you have to understand that while you're in the state of falling, Hashem is supporting you. If you don't have beton, you don't know when the fall will stop or you just don't care. When you're riding on a roller coaster or one of the rides of the amusement park, you're not afraid because it looks all steady and secure. I trust Hashem. I trust Hashem when I'm here. And I trust Hashem when I'm here. And I trust Hashem when I'm here. And it's all fun. how I look at it. This can be fun. This can be fun. When I fall back and then when I'm talking about a fall back, it can be spiritually that I'm going back. Oh, I have struggles, challenges, all sorts of things in my life. I don't look at it in a negative way. Oh my god, what am I going to do? And I start putting myself under pressure. Oh. Um, I I I look at it in a completely different way. I look at it that now it's time to walk back and happened to many many times to me in my spiritual growth that I went back many many many times never to a point that I would do something like a big sin but you know many times in my spiritual growth I had pullbacks that's totally normal now when you growing spiritually you don't like that oh who up until now I was very particular now I'm starting to you know and I'll given examples if you don't relate what I'm saying first few years of my prayer I had a set time when I'm when I'm praying first few years of my cha and then at some point I I went to don't remember some vacation or something so I had to pray in a different hour anyways suddenly from that time for about half a year my prayers are like I would pray at 11 p without the min at home and like as if I went a step back in my level of so for me spiritually I was oh my god what's happening I'm falling. I'm going to be afair now. Oh my god. What's happening there? Sai is winning me. That's what happened maybe in the beginning. I didn't understand what I I can actually go back. It can happen. Yeah, of course you're going to go back. Who says you're always going to be like a shooting star? And it's healthy to go back a little bit cuz when you go back, you can review what's going on. Why am I back? Why am I falling? For 10 years I was able to hold my mouth. Suddenly I remember the first time that a not nice word came out of my mouth after I did chuva because I told you I really didn't like how I spoke after I started doing chuva because every word that came out of my mouth was a curse and some derogatory adjective after that and I couldn't I I I had to stop it. So for many many years that was like in the front line just don't stop using foul language and I remember the first time that I failed was like after 12 years I said the the f word you know now I know some people like big deal I say it 1700 times a day but for me it was a big to and came out and I was like my wife looked at me and she was like where did this come from and I was like I guess there was some uh letters left behind I don't Oh, I thought I sweeped the whole the whole thing. I guess a few of them stayed behind. Boop. One came out. But for me was a shock. How did it come out? It passed all the guards. It passed all the filteration systems that a word like this can come out of my mouth. What? I couldn't hold myself. But this is a this is a crack in the security. I didn't like it at all. I was like, what's going on here? That's a crack in my security. That's I was able to put his leg in even for one second. Now, I didn't look at it as, "Oh my god, I'm going to Gome now. Hashem is going to barbecue me." I didn't look at it in the oh my god, the severity of what I did, cuz it wasn't that bad. I looked at what's going on here. What penetrated my system that was able to move me from my stable situation? So, why am I saying that? And I don't want to give too many examples, so we're not going to go that long, but you get what I'm saying. Struggles can come in many different ways. And if you know how to recognize what Hashem is trying to do there, you don't feel you don't sorry. You don't fear the going back. You don't fear it. And I'm sorry I'm saying that. I'm sure some of the people online are also with this crypto. I just spoke with today with a friend and he's like, "Listen, I I lost a lot of money. Do you think it's going to bounce back? Because if it's going to bounce back, then I'll just keep it and wait for it to bounce back. Like as if I'm like, I don't know, Leo, like as if I'm going to know it's going to bounce back. But why am I saying that? Because sometimes the traders will understand what I'm talking about. Sometimes there's pullbacks. So you go back. Yeah. Yeah. Suddenly you're at big loss. Wait, wait calmly. It will turn. Now I'm not giving you trading advice. Don't come and say Rabbi never said wait it will turn. I'm not telling you anything about trading. I'm just telling you. I'm giving examples. Sometimes it goes down down down down down down. If you're smart, then you refuel when it's down. If you want to take it back to the trading world, it's down. Now buy cuz eventually it will go up if we're looking at that analogy. But that's everything in life. Now you're down. Okay? So you went through something in life. Okay? Happens to everybody. Don't don't lose your hope. Don't lose your focus. Don't lose your your stability. Don't think Hashem is not holding you. Don't fear. When you have that fear, this that you don't believe, you're ruining everything. You're letting all the darkness just come in and then doubts come into your mind and disbelief and everything and then you're you're a complete mess. The advantage is like I told you that when you fall from there at some point it's the end and then you can only go back up. Now let's continue. So we explained why the letter is assigned by the book of surrounding me the month of can build a wall around me of security and faith and it's a very powerful month and not only that I should understand even in the darkest darkest places Hashem is there I I I was shared all sorts of videos with the hostages that came back a few weeks ago and you hear that all of them say the same thing. I felt Hashem there. Hashem was with me. All secular people all saying the same thing. One guy I heard I did and we did like there were were a few all every interview that I heard and not a lot. It's not that I sit all along and look at these videos but everyone that I heard I heard the person saying I felt Hashem with me. Of course, Hashem is with you everywhere. In the darkest places you ever reach, Hashem is there. I felt Hashem in the worst places that I were. I felt Hashem and I was felt protected. So, we explained the letter. Now, about what's about the Sagittarius why we why we have a boring arrow. We have another months uh a bull or a bucket or why kashhat I don't know what sagittarius means in English in Hebrew it's called kashhat why because the kashhat operates the kashet the bow that's it so the boer the kashhat is like a boer if I would have to invent a word because the keshet is the bow and the one who operates the bow is the kashhat. So that's what the name of the sign is. But why? What's the significance of kashhat of this the person who shoots the arrow? The trick here is the more you pull the arrow, the further it will go when you release. If you pull it just a little bit, it will go like that. You want it to go fast and very precise and far. Then you need to pull it as much as you can, as much as it will allow. But the arrow will go the furthest and the furthest away. And what technically now happens with the arrow that the arrow becomes your messenger. Right? I wanted to kill that person. I couldn't run all the way there. So I sent the arrow to do the job. That's that's the job of an arrow. [snorts] [clears throat] The concept of this kashhat of charging the the bow and releasing the arrow is compared in many times in teachings of Kabala to prayer. When you pray the right way, the more you pray better, the more you pull the arrow back and you then you release it will go further. So your prayer reaches further. Now not that Hashem has an issue to hear your prayers. But I explained many times your prayers have to go through the firmaments and then the prayer goes through the four worlds of it has to go through the worlds and your prayer then hits the sins that you did and the sins prevent it from going higher. So of course Hashem is everywhere but there are there's an order how your prayers go up. So the prayer the concept of shooting an arrow is compared to a prayer because your prayer is shooting an arrow. I want the message to go far. So you need to pull back. You can't come and pull it like this. No effort. You need to put some effort here. You need to put some work. You want to send the prayer, it has to go far. So it's important to understand that concept. Let's move on. I want to not to take it too long and explain a few more things. Another concept that is taught in the book of about the month of is that there's different emotions that you can apply in the month of on the month of and the one for the month of is silence. Don't say anything. I can now sidetrack about that for another four hours. How precious is your silence? How powerful is you not saying something and just being quiet? I I love quoting who says, "I've lived amongst the giants all my life and I've not learned anything that is good for the body but silence." But he know how to be quiet. If you know how to guard your lips and your tongue, you'll never have any problems. All the problems is problems that come to you is your mouth and your mouth and your tongue and your lips. Wow. Wow. Wow. Wow. I can't even start explaining to you the power of being silent. And I told you because I wanted to ref refine my speech, I would go on tano dbo for weeks. Weeks I wouldn't talk the most cleansing, elevating, refreshing. I don't even know how just not to talk. Now of course in all situations it work. I tried a few times with a wife and kids to do that. Doesn't work. But nevertheless, so you need to apply it in your life. this a to know when to shut up in front of other people, when not to gossip, when not to lie, when not to say something that will be hurtful. And more than that, I just told you that the when you go back, you give space. That's the being quiet. I give space. Very easy for me to start an argument. I can start an argument with you in a second and a half. And very easy to start an argument with your spouse, with your kids, with your boss. The smarter person knows how to shut up. When people ask me, "What is your secret to a successful marriage?" is shut up. Just know when to shut up. That's my advice. It doesn't You don't need to be right. Nobody cares if you're right. That's it. It doesn't matter right now who's right in the argument. Nobody cares if you're right, if she's right, if he's right. Just be smart. And I'm smart when it comes to argument. I just don't get into arguments. You're right. Yeah. Yeah, you're right. That's it. So I don't get into arguments because I'm never right. I don't need to be right. I rather be smart than right. So silence I will elaborate a little bit more soon. If you know how to put a brakes on your mouth and then to manifest it to your action because many times you have to ignore situations that's silence too. You know many times I have parents who come to me and tell me my kid is not religious took off the pot no yamaka my girl walks with a miniskirt what do I do? You don't do nothing. You accept the child as it is and the door stays open and nothing changes. And if you do anything different than you, you're never going to see that child again. And you're going to make it worse. So you don't change anything. It's none of your business. I know you want to, but you're going to have to figure out many creative ways and colorful ways to make sure that that child goes in the path of Hashem. And it's it's really the child of Hashem. But you don't have much, you know, and many of the times you need to be quiet. Yeah. I also don't like certain things. I have to be quiet. Why I'm looking I always weigh the what I'm going to gain and what I'm going to lose. Risk gain management. So in most of the times I find out that I'll gain much more if I back off. And that's the let's continue. I mentioned that we had a war with Yavan. Yavan is Greece but like I told you the ancient Greek empire. And I mentioned that we're still fighting that uh idea and yavan is basically to make you not believe in hashem. That's what we're fighting now. I don't have to elaborate on that. I have 500 videos online expressing my personal opinions. But you see that right now is ruling us. I mean not to the actual kingdom and empire the kipa that is just pulling us to the world of sheh everything is she and every day becomes worse and worse and now everything is based on sheke means a lie a deceit so we see that the mo movement here is the movement of Ian not to believe in the existence of god to believe in the government and the science and everything that we see in front of my my eyes believe in what you see etc You understand what I'm saying? That's the war that we're dealing with right now. And that's the war against Hashem. And interestingly, everything in in the Torah has the right explanations and hints. That's why it's not right to learn Torah in English because if you taking the word yavan in Hebrew, you write it vun. If you switch the order, you will get a word that is called noi. Noi is something beautiful. It's beautiful things. When you buy things that are just to make the house look beautiful, that's called noi. And no, when you're making things look beautiful. So yavan is basically they don't they the yavan doesn't show you the right order that you read and you understand it's yavan. It comes the other way around. So you see it as knowing. Oh the world provides a lot of beautiful things. All the beautiful things that I can get here. Beautiful food, beautiful clothes, all sorts of excitements here and there. Beautiful hotels, beautiful beaches, beautiful cars, everything beautiful here. But that's the she that's the line. That's your van. Come to me. In my trip that I was now, I told you I was in Colorado on a on a roller coaster. I was also in Las Vegas. Oo, that's the sheer in all the glitter that comes with it. You see the shekel what the noi what the world offers come all she one big balloon of air. So the concept of yavan is the beauty in the world. The sheh will cater you all the beautiful things and then it falls apart after a second because it was built in China. When we were kids toys were strong and sturdy. I still have my kid my my toys. You know that I have toys from when I was 5 years old to give it to my kids. Now the kids buy my toys. 3 weeks it's all broken. It's either China or Taiwan. That's it. It's not worth anything. And that's one aspect out of many. how the cater how the yavan of the world caters to you the beauty and then you all day long manifested in infactuated with that and you're not focusing on hashem that's it that's why yavan is putting you in front of a screen all day long you're in front of a screen feeding you all this she that's why I keep telling you this is you getting hypnotized it's pulling you away from the kadosh and I know a lot of people comment me, but I watch your videos online. So, just watch my videos, not cats dancing and people crushing on skateboards or whatever you watch. Or if you need to be educated for five minutes how to uh uh I understand. But when you go like this for 5 hours and it's the same junk, then you are right now uh a perfect example how the world of sheh just sucked you in and you live a life of sheer. So the sheer the the lie shows you that if you want to be beautiful, you have to have huge lips. So now you have 500 million women injecting toxins into their lips just so they can look a little bit better and then they look like Donald Duck. And what you don't think that I noticed that your lips look all all blown up. You think that is attractive? You look like a duck. But the sheer tells millions, you're going to look better. You're going to be more attractive. You're going to be more desired. Everybody wants to be desired and attractive. So that's she and I'm just giving one example of many. And if any of them would you do it, don't take it me as as offensive. Just understand what I'm trying to say. Not trying to to to hurt anyone. I'm just saying that that's an a nice example of and I can give you 500 other examples of using all your credit cards all day long. buying things that you don't even have the ability of buying. Nice cars, leasing cars. I mean it's I mean the list and just make your own math where where you are fed by the shekel and you are fed by the shekel by the lie. Everything is wrapped nice. You go on websites like tamu. Wow. And then you get junk. You never seen anything like this in your life in the pictures. Wow. One day I saw a beautiful ad on the internet. Beautiful sweater. I ordered it. Came four months. By the time I got the sweater, the winter was over and the sweater reached me to here. I looked like Pinocchio in the sweater. And the pictures on the website, wow. I was like, this is going to be like the nicest sweater I ever wore in my life. And then to communicate with these liars, another 3 months. But when you go on the website, everything is nice. And again, I'm going over and over onto I'm already crushing water. You got the point. That's Yavan. Now you need to ask yourself the question, who did the beauty of the world? China. Who did beauty in the world? Chanel or whatever junk that you think is beautiful. Hashem made the beauty in the world. Which beauty are you going after? Are you going after the beauty of what the world caters to you? That's why you buy processed products in the supermarket because the package is full of colors. And it looks nice and beautiful and inviting. The organic natural one is brown and it's like on the side there. It's hard to chew. So you fall for the shekel and you eat the junk what the supermarket sells you. Which beauty are you going after? Are you going after the fake beauty or you going after the real beauty? The real beauty in the world only Hashem created. The fake beauty is not Hashem. Even though Hashem is behind everything, but that's the that's the Now, why is that important to know? Because you need to ask yourself all the time, which beauty are you going after? It's nothing wrong with going after the basic things. I'm not said, don't understand me wrong. I also love beautiful things. It's fine to be dressed nice. It's fine to drive a nice car, to have beautiful paintings on the walls. I'm not telling you to live in poverty in in a shed and wear hmatis. I also like beautiful things. I wear beautiful clothes. I like to go to I know I'm not different, but I'm it's not the focus. It's not if I don't have it, then the world is going to collapse. It's to make your life more comfortable. And some people need it, some people don't. The point is not to be infactuated with it. And most people don't even notice because they're so busy in themselves, they don't notice how they look. So try to look at yourself. But why is that so important what I'm saying? Besides that, you need to ask yourself this question 50 times a day. Which beauty do I want to look at? But I explained in one of my videos that there are four Galuyot, four exiles that are going to be controlled by four empires. and all these four. I know you're thinking of the fifth Ishmael, but that's not in the one that I'm talking about, but and I explained that by the way in one of the first Corona videos about the Galot. But nevertheless, uh I have mentioned many times the Bah and a few other great Kabala books explain that the verse the second verse in the Torah it's first Hashem created the heavens and the earth and the second verse is okay famous verse second verse in the Torah in that verse it's already explained about the four exiles I explained that very very deep and all the the the explanations in one of my videos. I think it's the video where I think that video was removed from YouTube a long time ago. I think it's the video that I said I don't remember how it's called. Doesn't matter. I'll think about it. It's what I'm saying is that the each one each one is attached to one of the empires and which means darkness is the exile of Yavan. Now just that you understand the trans I want to read the entire verse that I just said. It will resonate more. It says the earth was astonishingly empty. darkness was was on the face of the deep. So the darkness that it's talking about that we are in that's what it's talking that's galutan the darkness that I think that I'm doing great. I think that everything is fine. I don't feel the absence of Hashem and life is great till the disaster comes and everybody hits with disasters and then you figure out that you really couldn't lean on anything and hopefully you wake up from that to find and seek to seek and find Hashem and every person gets their slap in different ways. Some people depended on the on their money and then came a financial crash. You know many people I know that personally lost all their wealth with maid off if you remember that and before that the crash of the real estate 2011 2008 there were so many the crash with the all the mortgages in America I know people in 911 so disaster can come and hit any person and I'm talking about now financially people lose loved ones shalom tragedies now if you have hem in your life you understand what's going on. You don't have Hashem in your life. You your your life just shattered beneath your legs. So we have to understand that this home this the the face of the deep that's talking about this galut. We're now in this home this darkness that you can even get to a point that's how thick the darkness that you can go to YouTube and learn from rabbis and you think that you're getting Torah. I don't go much on the internet, but I can tell you with with my eyes closed that probably half the Torah on the internet don't even think of listening to it. It's not Torah. And the person who's presenting it has a long nice beard like me. That's for a fact. And if I want to be more precise, it's probably 50 to 80% that what you'll find on the internet is not Torah. That's why I keep saying all the time, learn to Torah from a book. Don't learn Torah from some guy you never met. You don't know who he is and he's teaching Torah. Now the problem is when you're not educated, you don't know what that guy is saying. For all you know what I'm saying now, I can invent things. But you have the trust in me that I don't invent things. But just that you know online there are many many many some of them are very small, some of them are huge. You know there's a whole organization this slightman it's kind of like the cabala center tens of thousands of followers tens the guys with the beard rabbi and people and and you know what 99% Torah sorry 99.9% Torah deepra 0.01 venom. The guy sits in front of a camera and says, "Jewish men don't have to put the fill in. You can do it in your covenant, in your spiritual cabalistic intentions." And tens of thousands of people follow the organization and they tell me, "I learned Kabala. I learned Torah." Hey, I know what you're learning. You you you you are being poisoned. And that's one example out of many. You know, many big organizations like that are like that that they give you 99.9% truth and then one little drop of venom. I don't want to start naming names. Maybe I should save a few more cells. But don't uh don't believe anything that you hear. Not everything that shines is gold. Not every person with a beard is a rabbi. And even if he is, who says he's talking the truth? That's why I recommend learn with the book. The book is not here to lie for you. And I know many people say, "But I listen to your videos." Okay, listen to my videos. Find yourself a good rabbi that you believe in, that you trust, that is trustworthy, that is learned, and stick to him. You don't need to listen to 1700 rabbis. You need one rabbi. It doesn't say, it says, "Make yourself a rabbi. One that you trust, that you know, and that's it." So the sheer is not only in handbags and in botox and in whatever sheer you are it's your department. She is in the world of the Torah already. That's how dark the the galut is that in the world of the Torah you meet the corruption and rape and molestation and theft and robbery all you know in the in the costume like this. So you're telling me you want you want to argue that there's no there's no darkness. [snorts] Do me a favor. The darkness has never been as bad that you can't even in the world of the Torah, you don't even know who to who's who, who to trust, who to believe, who's the real thing, who's going to feed you the next slide. And that's all in the world of the Torah. You can't trust anything. anyone and like David says blessed is the person who trusts inem and he continues he says dam is the person who trust in another person so that's the for you now now we have we can conclude because I explained to you the s remember I started with the sam and then we talked about the kashad the sagittarius and then I said that there's another thing remember sleeping the shina Let's see what it says. First of all, yavan equals darkness. Darkness equals sleeping. When it's darkness, you numb. When does the enemy come to you? When you're sleeping, you're numb. When you go to sleep physically, all your senses are not working. You're breathing, you're alive, but neither one of your senses are working. You're numb. That's yavan. Yavan is coming to tell you you are in a state of darkness. And for us to understand what this darkness means is a state of sleeping. You're numb. You're not active. You're not doing nothing. Now I explained that the attribute I I I taught that many times. We are we we we we attach to every month a certain attribute and the attribute of the month of is sha sleeping. And what does it mean sleeping? I will give some type of a definition. It's stopping your physical movements of this world and you going inwards. So when you when you are awake, you walk, you eat, you talk, you you you do all sorts of physical actions. When you go to sleep, you cease to do any physical action. You don't walk, you don't talk, you don't eat, you don't listen, you don't you don't learn, nothing. And so the motion of it is going inwards. Nothing outside is now affecting. When you are asleep, do you know what's [clears throat] going on around you? You know that one time I was so tired, I slept through a fire. My first daughter was a baby. She was teething. We were up all night. We went to sleep like 4:00 or 5 in the morning. We were so tired. The next day, woke up in the morning. I opened the window. the the the house of the neighbor is not there. All burned down and we slept through the fire. Fire trucks. What? When you're sleeping, you don't know what's going around around you. So, the definition of what I'm trying to give to you is that sleeping is when you stop any physical action and you turn inwards. You kind of like uh cocoon yourself. And now there are two types of sleeping. There's a positive sleep and a negative sleep. Negative sleep, I'll define it very very short and not need to elaborate on that. It's running away from the reality. Sometimes you're like, I can't deal. I just I need to go to sleep. So many of the sleeps of people and I'm not talking about a nap is running away from the reality. Sleeping is how I don't deal with the reality. So people sleep 17 hours, 14 hours through the day. That's a negative sleep. A a positive sleep is that your soul goes out of your body and it goes up to the heavens and many things happen. It gets rejuvenated. It gets spiritually charged. It can get washed off from all sorts of spiritual dirt. But the most important what happens to it throughout the night is that it will receive things in the world above that it cannot receive while it's in the body. Now imagine now I'm undercover Mossad agent and they put me somewhere in I don't know where Iran, Syria and I have to what take pictures whatever they want me to do and I have to live a certain life and I can't do whatever I want and I'm very restricted and I'm giving I don't even know why this example came out to my mind but nevertheless when you go home finally you are yourself you can you you you can behave different you see things different bad example actually I don't how I got to that example the fact what I'm trying to say is that the nama with the soul goes up to shamim it can receive spiritual enlightenments and blessings and energy and many different things when it cannot receive it while it's in the body you know I have a better I have a better explanation take now uh soldiers that go into a submarine. While they're under the water, they can't receive messages from the outer world. They're completely isolated and they're very limited with water, very limited with food, very limited with supplies, very limited with space and have to make ends with it. And finally, when they go up to the surface, then they can get food again, but much better food, much more comfortable quarters. They see the light. They You're trying to get what I'm the the analogy what I'm trying to say. The soul in your body, you don't feel your soul. But it doesn't mean your soul doesn't feel itself while it's in the body. Now, it's something hard for us to relate with. What? So there's two of me, one is me, one is more me like but the reality your soul right now that is parked in your body and I'm talking about the not talking about your you that eventually goes out of your body like a turtle going out of the the the how do you call it the shirion the shell or the slug going out of the the ber however it's called you know what I'm talking about your soul goes out of your body one day the neph and the will go wherever it needs to go and the nama is eternal. Don't you think the nama has the capacity to understand what's going on while it's in your body? You don't relate with it cuz you're covered with so many spiritual layers. You operate right now on the level of nephesh. The nephish is dressed inside the z and inside the nama. But your nama, your soul in your body has their awareness of what's going on. So it's restricted in the body. when it goes out of the body [sighs] gets some spiritual air. So the soul goes up to the heavens and it can receive spiritual light that it cannot receive while it's in the body. And needless to say when you do that you wake up in the morning happy, healthy, motivated, full of joy, focused on what you need to do and many other things. So like I said, positive sleep, negative sleep. Most people sleep negative. And that's why for the last 20 years, I've been saying to people, just say katchma on the bed before you go to sleep. Your sleep will be 60 to 80% much better. Uh but most people are tired at the end of the day and that's where the gets them and no and you don't really benefit from your sleep. And it's not that you have nightmares all day long, but you don't benefit really from your sleep. And the the the proof to that is you wake up in the in the morning not so you don't jump out of your bed. If you jump out of your bed and you're fully energized, doesn't matter if you slept for 2 hours or 10 hours and you're right away happy, focused, positive, etc. Then you slept well. Meaning that your soul went to the right place. Any of the what I just said, you don't wake up like that, you didn't go to the right place. So when you wake up physically tired, phys spiritually and emotionally tired, no h drive to go out of bed, no motivation, not your soul was flying in the universe at night looking for some refuge to hide and that's it. And you woke up in the morning tired, beaten up, sad, no hope, no desire to do anything. So you can change that but just that with a little bit of a little prayer before you go to sleep. So going back to inv sleep that's the attribute of the month. So the power of sleep inv can go positive or negative. I need to be very careful in the month of Kisv not to fall asleep. How many times did I tell my young kids it's whatever we staying up all night and then they fell asleep on the book on the table. I'm sure you know we spoke about it many times. That's the night you want to be up. You want to learn Torah. That night you can change everything in your life on Hosana. Whatever is written for you, all your blessings, everything that Hashem wants to give you, everything can change if you up on light learning Torah on and praying. And that's when the comes to you. On a regular day, you can watch movies on Netflix till 5 in the morning. No problem. Or go like this till 5:00 in the morning. how many millions it happens to that they're like this on their phone. Oh my god, it's 4 in the morning. But to stay up and learn Torah and focus yourself under the light of Hashem, then the comes and you fall asleep in a second and a half. If it's a good show on Netflix, you are up. If it's a interesting Torah class, everybody's like, uh, my rabbi used to always joke that, uh, when he was a little kid, his father was a rabbi and he would go to his father's. So his father was the rabbi giving over the Torah. He would sit next to his father and he said, "Every time I would fall asleep. I never heard the sh I never heard the lecture. I always fell asleep. So he said that in a in a different context. But then he added by saying, I guess why now I have the powers of putting everybody to sleep while I teach Torah. Cuz in his classes, everybody would be like, you know, he would teach so deep and so clear. Everybody would be like, you know, you you sleep for 10 hours and you fall asleep on the table. Because when it's time to receive the blessing, the godly light, the enlightenment, that's when the yetan tells you you're sleepy and take something like you sleep, you're falling asleep. So now the is doing it to you in the whole month of he's going to put everybody to sleep. And that's why physically the month of Kisv are the longest night nights, longest days, no longest nights. Shabbat comes in the earliest afterv. It starts climbing back. The month of Gizlav is the longest longest nights. Longest darkness yet to numb everybody. Now it's winter. You're starting to put your coats on. Suddenly it's cold. You need to snuggle and cuddle and schmegle and buggle. And see, you can't walk out. Yeah. Now every now is like this. You got to be very careful not to fall asleep. That's what the is going to do to you. It's going to make you fall asleep during the month of like he does it to you in the month of Exactly. In the month of Aul in the month of Tamuz, you're like a tiger looking at the prayer. I'm going to rip this alul to pieces. Then comes [snorts] you're like this till you wake up at the last day of it's the last day of. So the is going to do the exact same thing to you now invas. So be very very very aware. You have to be very careful not to fall asleep because there's a very strong energy in the month of that will that will numb you. You have to be very very careful. Now what you need to do is that's the power of almost any successful attack and the attack can be physically the attack can be strategically the attack can be military the attack can be business-wise. You are the most successful when you come in the right momentum. It's all about the right momentum. You buy a piece of property, if you bought it in a very low price because the other person went bankrupt or you got it in foreclosure or whatever. That's when that's the meat. That's where you make the money on the that's the margin. Going back [snorts] to the trade world, buy the trade when it's already on the top. You didn't make any money. You came in like this where you want to come in at the bottom that your margin is big. And like this is with everything. Even if you want to take it to to the military to the army, the army is waiting. The right strate strategic way is when do you attack? When the enemy is either unaware, not ready, caught him with his pants down. You don't attack when they're ready. What was the success of the six day war? They caught them all with their pants down. So the the how you maneuver your your your uh how you conduct things, it's all about the time and the momentum and the right way. And again, I can take it to the business world. I can take it to anything. I'll give you another example. I was in the army a sniper. You don't get many chances to shoot. You have about a split second to decide if you're shooting or not. And if not, not okay. I know some situations are a little bit different but first of all you have to come to the decisions very very quickly but mainly what they teach you is the right opportunity because if it's not the right opportunity one millimeter one little ounce of wind you missed the guy knows there's a sniper that's it you lost your opportunity it's the right time like in everything in life what is the right time to go in. So you have to be very very very very particular is that when now the darkness is heavy and even the other side is offguard when the darkness is heavy when you know when the inmates in prison are very active. The guards are all there, you know, but when all the inmates are calm and relaxed and they're contained and the guards, you see them sitting in the leg over leg smoking because oh, we calm them down. Same thing with the when he thinks that he calmed you down like a little kid that thinks that the parent thinks that they fell asleep. When I was a little kid, I had a bedtime and then I would pretend that I go to sleep and after like 20 minutes, I would sneak out of the room like this and sneak into the kitchen, take cookies or whatever, go to my sister's room. Why? Cuz I knew my parents, it's already the end of the day. They put us to sleep. They're not looking if I'm up or not. Coast is clear. The guards are tired themselves, too. That's when you make the move. So inklav you can use the sleep to your benefit. The same way that the guards are now at much less looking at at you. Same with you. He already put you down. He already crashed you. He already not in a good place. So you have to use that to your benefit. You have to take the the opportunity that when do you want the awakening to come when the time is the time of sleeping that's when you want to wake up that's why at the end at the end of how do we finish our process by lighting candles you have now 25 days to do a certain process and then in Kanuka we go to the next level and the significance of lighting the candles that's when you light already the darkness but You are going to have to go through 25 days now that are a little bit dangerous. The energy here is very numbing. You have to be very focused and target and understand that when do you come to attack? When it's dark. You know, there's a stupid joke that will shed light of what I'm saying that many years ago, it's a joke because something like this can never happen, of course, but many years ago, they collected all the best brains of all the world trying to figure out how can we land and conquer the moon. Then they of course came up with all the inventions and you know the story. So then they said okay how can we do that to the sun? Can we land on the sun? I mean we landed on the moon. Uh but can we land on the sun? So they brought the Russian scientists and said we're going to build a spaceship very protected. this gonna be the f they they said we're gonna build something so sophisticated it's going to be heat resistance we're gonna okay they turned to the Americans the Americans no we're going to build special things they're going to we're going to tolerate the the heat and and they all came with all these gadgets and special things how they going to be able to conquer and land on the sun then they came to the Israelis they said well the Israelis are pretty good at all sorts of things let's ask the Israelis what are we going to do? So they came to the Israelis and told them if you would need to conquer the sun, how would you do that? Would you build spaceships? Would you build rockets? They said no, we would just come at night. [snorts] You attack when it's dark. You don't attack when the the the light is burning in front of you. No, it's of course it's a stupid joke, but common sense. You need to come to the sun and come at night when there's no sun. You need to to to to tackle something. Come like that. Now it's a state of darkness then wake up when you when it's dark. [snorts] You have to take advantage of the month of to take in Hebrew it's called is to receive powers. Remember what I told you? You're going to have to now give in. You're going to have to give full power of yourself for Hashem to give you his power. There's going to be some trade here. And the more you're going to trade, the more you're going to do, the better you're going to make. I will recommend to you one thing, but if you want to do 20 things, the more the better. But you're going to have to completely give in to Hashem something. 100% all your power. Other than that, you're sitting here for two hours wasting your time. Because I started the class by telling you you're looking you need a miracle, right? I need a miracle. I need a few miracles. I mean, all my life is a miracle. It's one big miracle. And I'm not talking about Yeah. I woke up in the morning. It's a miracle. Well, I'm very happy that you're grateful to Hashem. That's the of course it's a miracle. I'm talking about that our life is operating on miracles. My life is completely operating on miracles. Nothing here is under the rules of of the world. Why do I need that? I want the closeness to Hashem. I want to see miracles in my life. But I need to do some action. To do the action, like I told you, you have to do something 100%. But in the time of that's when you can receive powers to do whatever you need to do to battle the darkness in your life. And Hashem wants you to go down to the darkness. That's the concept of the month of ill. And that's why you are dealing with challenges in your life cuz that's the darkness in your life. And he wants you to light up the candle in the dark. Hashem takes you to a place of darkness. A place of darkness. I will explain it. You can take one person to a financial situation. Can't make money. God lost his job, lost a business. That's his darkness right now. Another person lost a loved one, horrible divorce. I mean, the sickness, we're all dealing with darkness all day long. Darkness is the negative things in my life. And it can come from within, it can come from without. But the only way to deal with darkness is with light. There's no other way. You can't deal with darkness in any other way. So that means that Hashem wants you to be the one who lights up the darkness. How are you going to light up the darkness if you're in a state of light? So, you have to go into the darkness and you going to light up the darkness. So, puts you in different places because he wants you to light up the situation. That's why, by the way, we're talking now. So, you can hear it now. And you have 25 days to prepare for Kanuka because Kanuka is a very powerful holiday. It's not a stomach holiday that we eat, the donuts and the the dread rolls. It's way beyond that. It's a easiest holiday to observe but one of the most powerful holidays that you can receive so much spiritually to your nama to yourself. So is about finding the light in the darkness. So you're going to prepare yourself now for 25 days that in any situation of darkness, you're going to know how to find the light. Hostages sat in in tunnels in darkness and were able to find the light. And many situations people were in darkness, but they were able to find the light in the darkness and light up the darkness with a little bit of light. You don't need much. You don't need a lot of light. A little bit of light. You want the darkness. So, Hashem puts you in a place in your world right now in your life. Let's now target and focus on something negative in your life. And again, for the ones who are not on my the same page with me, problems with your livelihood that are driving you crazy, bank is driving you crazy, credit cards, debts all day long, you you're about to explode. Option number one. Option number two, some type of disease or sickness and you're battling hospitals, doctors, pain. Option number two, losing a loved one. Option number three, I have 500 options. Everybody's dealing with something right now. One person is dealing with the kids. Can't educate the kids. Kids are rebellious. Kids are sick. Hush shalom. Car accidents, diseases. I mean, people are dealing all day long with things. And even if they don't share it with you, they share it with me. They they might not share it with you. Your your neighbor might not share with you right now what they're going in internally. You're going through a disaster. You come and tell it to every person around you. No, you tell it to some close people. Sometimes you talk to a person, they look fine, they smile, you don't even know what hole they have in their heart when they're talking to you or what's going on in their mind. What disaster, you know, you don't know what that person is going through. So Hashem puts you in a place of darkness, not for you to whine, not for you to complain, not for you to lose your hope or lose your faith or turn away from Hashem. He wants you to rise. He wants you to rise from the darkness. So he puts you in the darkness. You just need to show a little bit of light. That's when you tell Hashem, "The darkness is way too dark, but I will do whatever I can, the best that I can, and the rest is you, Hashem." So, is a very, very time in one way. Yeah. It's a it's a trap. You can fall into that darkness like to anything that you are addicted in this world. Whether it's food, your phone, gambling, porn, I don't know what. Everybody's addicted to something. Very few people have no addictions. And the addictions can be from heroin, cocaine, gambling to something small. Chocolate, cigarettes, going like this on your phone. Most people are addicted to the phone. Then if you don't think you're addicted, give me the phone for 3 days. Let's see how you're going to manage with that. Most people are addicted to their phone and and then the addictions can be little things. And again, a lot of people don't like the word addictions, but whatever. If you can't go without something. Some people are addicted to coffee. If you can't go with that specific thing more than a day or two days or a week or then you're addicted to it. I told you when I became observant, I was addicted to anything that existed in the universe. And I I understood that if I want to serve Hashem, I cannot be addicted to anything because I have to be addicted to Hashem. I cannot observe Shabbat and think of a cigarette because I'm not thinking of Hashem. So I can't have anything that I'm depending on. Besides, how am I going to serve Hashem if I'm depending on something physical? I can't. So you have to understand where we going to and what you are required, what you can do and what would be the result. And I told you you are here to fight the darkness. That's your job. So every challenge you have in your life, every difficulty, you're fighting darkness. You might not understand what you're fighting. You might fail, sin, do things that you didn't want to do and you don't understand. You're fighting darkness cuz whatever caused you to do it is darkness. Now you want to take that opportunity and take the powers of that you can fight the darkness all year round and be successful and then you rise up. That's what you can re reach on the month of so I told you two things that are very very important. First of all I told you that according to theamis is like yonipur just without the fasting. So now you're in yip. I'm h I I I know that I'm happy when yip comes. I'm like relieved. Oh finally I can get rid of some of my sins for free. So you have a yonipuno means you can do chuva sayem whatever I promised and never did I'm erasing I'm going to do new promises now that I'm going to do and you do chuva and doing chuva is you look into your past what did you do wrong and saying okay I need to correct this this this and this and if it's too big for you to do 20 things at the same time then you do one at a time or do it successfully but you have to initiate you have to make a change and that's the power of So according to theam today is your yogi pool. So you have now a whole month to start fresh. Imagine now you're getting a fresh start. No everything's clean. Just start. But this time do it right. This time you take one aspect in your life and you're saying Hashem like I told you is don't do it with your entire life because that's very difficult to change your life completely. Choose one, three, 10 things in your life that you want to get rid of because they're not good. Either a sin that you're doing or as a bad habit or either a mitzvah that you're not doing and you really want to do. Choose something and start with one. Don't don't don't jump over your your height unless you feel confident in yourself. But choose one thing that you know that you're not doing well. And I'm talking about in the world of the Torah, not your cooking. Something in the world of the Torah, you don't pray enough. You don't pray at all. You don't give charity. You don't learn Torah. You I don't know what. Whatever you don't do, you choose. And it's something that you know that Hashem wants you to do. And how do you know that Hashem wants you to do it? Because you have the most resistance in that specific thing. Whatever comes easy to you when it comes to serving Hashem, it means that you were able to do the tikun, the rectification of it in a previous gilgul in a previous incarnation. So now it's not hard for you. Some men wake up 4:00 in the morning, they love putting fill in. It's the first thing they do. Means that they already did the tikun for fillain in a different incarnation. On the other hand, there are men who put fillain on 5 minutes before sunset and it's the biggest challenge for them to go and pray. They mean that's what they need to focus on. So whatever comes easy to you obviously you already did the tikun continue doing it. Some people for them to give charity it's the the easiest thing possible. Some people they can be rich from here till yin-yang they can't even give you a dollar. And it's like this with everything. So you you just need to to to to apply you just need to make that change. You need to take that one thing that you know that you're failing at that it's hard for you. And then I'm talking only in the world of the Torah. I'm not talking about you getting in shape and working out right now. That that that resolutions keep for another time. I'm talking about your connection to Hashem, your service to Hashem, your your connection to the Torah. You're not you're missing a whole list of things. So if you're very very non-observant, very good. So you have where to start. If you're fully observant for the last 20, 30, 40 years or your entire life, are you really on the top of the scale? No. There's one thing that you for sure know that Hashem wants you to do. And you know how you recognize that? Because it's the thing you the most don't want to do. The thing that you're the most not comfortable with. Some people can host people in their house. And I'm the one to testify for that. I was now two months in America. I slept in people's houses. Some poor people they can have a mansion with 16 rooms. You put one guest in the room, the whole house is is disoriented or the person is jumping out of their skin. I lived in people's houses with seven kids and [screaming] meals all day to come and eat. I'm sorry for the mess. Ah, forget about it. It's called that I open my house to a guest. Some people have a whole family in their living room. They don't care. They love it. They love the guests. I stayed in by by my my friend's place in Florida. I never seen such. You never seen such a thing. But on the other hand, some people stay there for more than 3 hours. So you can recognize very easy what's what what Hashem wants from you. It's the thing that you hate the most. The thing that you the most don't want to do. That's it. Take one. That's why I said take one. The hard one. Not not 10 easy, but choose something that you promise to Hashem. You know, I know I know you want me to do that. I'm going to give the top of the top of the most that I can for it. That's my deal with you. Whether it's to I can't give charity, I'll start giving charity every day. Or I can't put bring myself to pray, I'll pray every day. Oh, I gossip all day long, so I'm going to stop gossiping. Doesn't matter what it is. Whatever you think, whatever your goal, whatever you think, that's where you're stuck. You know how many people I heard they're telling me I'm observing 20 years, 30 years, I reached to a certain level and now I'm stuck. I can't I I can't go past that level. I feel that I'm in the same place. Then give in, do something, make an effort. So a great rabbi called says, I said that many times. I I I taught that. He says that if you take on yourself and you do it that you don't complain from till last candle of Kanuka the beginning of Tibet. If you don't complain at all about anything in your life and on the contrary just thank Hashem and praise Hashem for everything the good and the bad and the evil. Was it Clint Eastwood? Who was it? Good guy evil. Did I get it right? If you don't complain the entire month and only thank Hashem and praise Hashem and see the greatness that Hashem does with you guarantees to you that you're going to see a miracle in your life. Something that you need. Now, I can testify that I I I it works and I know many people that did that and it worked too. Now a lot of you saying I never complain. You do. And if you don't, you maybe that one out of 500 million. Everybody complains. The question is who do you complain and what do you complain about? But you complain all day long. My wife, my boss, my this, the government, Donald Trump, beat the Israelis, the Palestinian. All day long everybody's complaining. Now, forget about all that junk in your own life. You complain all the time. The kid is not listening to me. My husband is not listening to me. My wife is throwing things on the floor. You all they don't complain. You don't thank Hashem. Now, listen. When I'm telling you that, you're like, I don't complain much. Focus on yourself. Put this in the front vision in front of your eyes that I can't complain. And every time that you're about to complain, oh, stop yourself. Be like, I'm sorry, Hashem. I really didn't mean to complain about the fact that I'm in debt of $150,000, but thank you so much. I love my debt. That's the way to do it. And I was exaggerating, of course. But you are about to complain about a certain situation. Don't don't complain. Don't say Hashem why right away. Thank you. Thank Hashem all day long. All day long you eat. Thank you for the Wow. Is I can't believe we're so lucky we have food. Other people don't have food. Thank Hashem. Praise Hashem. Acknowledge what Hashem does for you. And don't complain about anything. Not about your husband, not about your financial situation, not about the fact that you don't have a husband, not about your neighbor, not about the ex, and not about the dog, and not about anything. Don't complain about nothing. Anything bad, annoying that doesn't work out in your life that normally you would have feelings of. Stop, take a deep breath and look for the good in it and thank Hashem for that. And if I could tell you how many times in my life a situation occurred that the natural reaction should be anger, frustration, disappointment. I stopped, took my own advice, took a few deep breaths, looked for what the positive thing that I can come take from that because for me that was the momentum means I can grab something. You know that the Talmud says that if a person is about to burst in anger and he's holding himself from losing his temper in that moment 70 years of sins were removed from his resume what a person to do. If you see a person that was humiliated and and doesn't say anything go and take a blessing from that person. So that's what I'm telling you. Sometimes it's you stop yourself. Think just today was a situation and I told my wife in that situation 30 years ago the reaction in that specific situation would be attempted murder. Not that I need the feedback, but I told myself I came a long way 30 years ago in the in the confrontation that I had today would be ended in extreme violence. It's about knowing how to stop yourself before you do the mistake. But more than that to see very quickly and if you can't do it quickly, take your time is where is Hashem in here? When a disaster happens in my life, I don't see Hashem in there. So now look for Hashem in there. Why did Hashem brought me to the hospital? Why did Hashem brought me to the police? Why did Hashem brought me to the court? Why did Hashem brineer? Look at the message. See what Hashem wants you to do. Don't whine, complain, give up, lose hope, curse. Stop and say, "What what?" do it every day of your life. But now you can say, "Well, no, no, no. I'm not going to fall asleep now when I'm under attack. Hashem brought me to a situation. Let me psycho analyze what's going on here and what Hashem wants from me." And maybe Hashem just wants for me to to do something good or to add something. You know how many situations in my life I came to a place that was seemingly very negative, waited two, three days, two, three weeks or whatever amount of times I needed to wait and clearly saw why Hashem took me there and how something good came out of the worst place ever. Numerous if not dozens or hundreds of times I saw with my own my own eyes, my own experience how sometimes the silence, the moving back, be quiet. Not everything is what you think. Wait. Don't be judge judgmental. Don't be angry at Hashem. Wait. Wait it out. The bad might do good. And when you're doing it with full trust in Hashem, you turn the bad into good. Something good will come out of that. [snorts] How many times I was dragged to something negative and that's where I met the person that could help me or solve my problem. You know how many times I was in a bind and I went here negative went here door slammed in my face went here no I can't help you and then somebody was nagging calling I need to speak to the rabbi and I'm like I'm busy I'm busy I'm busy and finally when I picked up the call to that person that was the person that had the solution if I I can't even tell you how many times that the solution was here but I was moving it away no I'll deal with it You want to get to a point that you're winning the darkness in your life with just a little bit of light. No, Hashem knows you can't do too much little. So to conclude today, you are the lucky ones who are hearing it now. So are you. You have time on Rosh Kroesh is a yamipur. Yumipu is to reset. Tomorrow you won't be able to do it. I'm sorry. You can't do it. You can't do reset. Not the great reset, but the you can't reset after the time. So you you missed Yonipu, you missed it, my friend. So today now till Shabbat, it's like Yonipo. You can do chuva. And what I'm saying reset is you're clearing everything. You're saying, "Hashem, remove everything. Delete the trash. Empty the trash. I'm resetting everything to zero. Now I'm starting back again. Now you're smarter. Take one aspect in your life." My recommendation, I would take three. One spiritually that you're saying, "I'm going to do the best that I can in that aspect, whether it's prayer, charity, learning Torah, refraining from gossiping, cheating, whatever." one thing. Choose and give it your give it your best that this is [snorts] that you're not allowed to do it. Put yourself to death one first thing. Then do the second thing in your health. One thing. Now, if you're like a health freak or you're already healthy and you're already like on top of your game, this is not for you. But if you don't think that you're there, one thing a day that you do you think that's the dose that I cannot miss a day. Whether it's a 5 minute workout, whether it's 10 minutes yoga, whether it's a certain dish that you stop eating, white flour, white sugar, whatever junk, one thing that you change in your health-wise, in your diet, in how you look at things. And the third is in your life, in your what I like calling the yomidot. Whether it's jealousy, anger, depression, whatever one one mida work on. So you have three aspects that you're going to put your best in. One of them is a physical mitzvah or I mean mitzvah can be spiritual but one of them is a mitzvah or a sin. Other one is in your phys physical health and another one is in your surrounding your mid. one thing if you need examples I told you when it comes to a mitzvah one thing that you don't do or one thing that you're doing a sin and you want to stop that's what you focus on in your health I told you one aspect in your diet one thing move out or something that you put back here I would do it both ways one thing that I stop and one thing that I start years ago I okay I made a switch no more white flour no more white sugar okay was hard in the beginning but that's it one thing then you move to another thing [snorts] and then in your midot if you are in Beijian I'll give you one example I can only give you examples on myself I I'm Mr. angry at least was. So, it's very very hard not to get angry at your kids. And parents get angry at their kids. But my kids are the ones who actually taught me to control my anger because you can't punch your kid. So, so you have to learn how to control yourself. So in early days of my fatherhood, I sometimes couldn't hold my anger and I would scream like probably like 99.9% of the fathers and mothers I would scream. The problem with me when I scream it's not like a little scream. When I scream, my daughter tells me that up until today she's traumatized. She's like, I hear you scream it's like it's like penetrating into the soul. It's like a scream of like I'm going to destroy the world. So I first of all I'm not an idiot. I know I know my faults. And I had a habit. We still have it. Every Shabbat mo Shabbat we would sit with all my kids. We would do a me malka. And you know that you meal you want something special like not like pizza what everybody does. You want me mala to be the best dish you they like the most. The the best dish you like. That's the meala. And uh and what we would do every week in Meala, we would ask the kids to each one say in their order, all the things that bother them in the house that I do, that he does, that she does, that the teacher does, everybody opens up and says what bothers them. And no argument and no cursing or no nothing. But it would be that one child will say, "I don't like it when he plays with my toys." And then the other child will say I don't like it when you do this and very open conversation but I would listen what bothers every each and every one of them. And when it got to a point a lot of the kids in many different times says it bothers them when I raise my voice when I scream loud. And I was very affected and touched. I was like my little kid is now not in a good place because I I can't control my emotions or anger. Oh no this has to stop. A child doesn't need to hear me screaming because I had a bad day or I'm neurotic about some stupid thing and I lose my temper, the child doesn't need to suffer from that. So when I'm talking about working on your midot, not the health and not the mitzvot, it's more like that. That was one of the things that I was like, okay, I'm never screaming at my kids ever. In the beginning, it was hard not to raise your your voice as your kid, but you can get the the point across without screaming, by the way. Now, it's not that I'm the world champion of not screaming, but it went down from a thousand to two. They my kids still know that there are going to be certain buttons that I'm going to scream, but the control went down. And that's what I'm talking about in regards to tikun. Something that you know that is wrong, that you need to refine, that it's one of your worst habits, and you know that it's putting other people in an uncomfortable place. So you have three things that you want to give it the most then you can do a deal with Hashem. Now let me give you a little tip. You don't do the deal tonight. You first give it your most and then you come to Hashem with results. And I'm talking only from experience. I needed the ocean to open for me many times in my life. Not only the miracle to get out of jail. I needed some serious miracles in my life. You all remember five years ago I I was this close to this close to die. So I needed in my life many miracles and I can testify that when you do your part you have you have what to claim with then you come to Hashem and says I gave it the best and you can't fool Hashem knows exactly what you're thinking what you he knows everything. So you can't fool, you can't lie. My kid got got in trouble now in school. I told him some a certain thing that I want him to do and achieve. And there was a the deal here. If you achieve it, then I'll give you whatever that thing specific thing that you wanted. So he tried to negotiate to get it before he said no first you change and prove yourself then you get the reward then you get my support. So don't do a deal with Hashem tonight cuz you might fail. You don't know your abilities. But you can definitely say to Hashem, "Tonight I'm doing chuva and I want to start a new page and these specific things are the ones that are my target and I'm going to do my best and let's talk in a month and I can give you already the tip. What will make you successful is exactly what says don't complain about anything. I know it looks to you minor. I know it looks to you like you don't complain. Put it in the front of your mind. Write it on a piece of paper. Put it on your phone as a screen saver, a reminder every half an hour. Don't complain. Don't complain. Don't complain. And then you know what you're going to see? Every 20 minutes something else is going to come to bother you. And you're going to be about to complaining. You're like, "Ah, now I know what he meant." And you'll stop and then you'll catch yourself over and over. And if you failed once or twice or 10 times, don't stop. Don't think, "Oh, I failed it. The whole thing is ruined." Just don't complain till the last day of Khan. And after that hopefully you would learn from that to never praising and thanking Hashem and you will see a miracle in your life and you will rise to the level that Hashem wants you to go to. And Hashem when he rises you to levels you don't even know that you can reach these levels. That's how high Hashem can rise you. You think you can re reach here. Hashem says it can take you there. And it comes in anything. It comes in your business. It comes in your spiritual growth in learning Torah. When I started learning Torah, I'm telling you, maybe three years, could be even more that I would sit in the Torah classes and don't understand one thing. You know the frustration now I hold myself as an intell intelligent individual. How can I don't understand that? You know, it took me maybe three years to understand the Talmud. I never I didn't understand one word. I understood the words, the language, not nothing of the debates, nothing. And I would see other people learning. Wow. Whoa. Whoa. And I'm like, I don't understand here. I don't understand the arguments. And more than that, I would sit in classes, come home, not remember one thing. You know how embarrassing? I would come home, my wife would work so I could learn Torah. I would come home for dinner. She would tell me, tell teach me something. I didn't know what to do. I don't know. And I would come with excuses. No, it's too deep. It's too long. I'll tell you on Shabbat. And I didn't understand. How can I don't understand the Torah? Everything else I understand. I can't understand the dua. I I read something, I don't remember it. I would try to prepare for Shabbat. Nothing. Couldn't understand. I understand when the rabbi explains it by myself. Nothing. >> [clears throat] >> First of all, that's very normal because the Torah is divine. If you're not connected to the divine, you will never understand the Torah. But the thing is that I thought, okay, I maybe one day I never give up. It's not that I was in a place I'll give up. I heard too many stories about and many others. So I wasn't in a place of like I'll give up. I was in a place of like I don't understand [clears throat] why I don't understand. It's at some point already got me to a place of frustration. Everybody gets it. I don't. You know those pictures that you look and you see like a spaceship and then you look and you don't see [clears throat] nothing. I'm the one who never sees anything. And everybody's like, "Oh, yeah. Yeah. Oh, I see it." And never in those pictures have I've seen anything. So I'm sitting in a Everybody understands what the rabbi is talking about. And I'm like, I I I I I Can you say again? Because the Torah is divine. I needed to break so many clipots for three years even more that the Torah can start penetrating. Now you have to understand 3 years into my cha I was already with a beard going to yeshiva every day praying the whole nine yards and like a dumb potato. I can't understand what the rabbi is saying. The comfort that I had is at least the advice that I got from my rabbi at the time says don't worry it's totally natural. 29 years you poisoned your mind with whatever this world can cater to you and poison your body with your food and poison your body with sins. What do you think you're just going to come to the Torah and crack the code? But why am I saying that? Eventually after about 3 years I started to get it. the gates of knowledge and wisdom open and the Torah started making sense and I started remembering everything and then I started I just was consuming and the first time that I realized how much Torah I was consuming for about seven years is that I went to a lecture about my near-death experience and then after the lecture was questions and answers and people were shooting at me questions and I was shooting answers like that and I came home I was like wow I can't believe it was like a wax off, wax on situation that I've been doing wax on and wax off for five, seven years and then you know what wax on, wax off is all the little kids are like, "Is that an app?" No, it's karate kid, Daniel Duso or Laruso, whatever his name is and Mr. Miyagi teaching him to wax on and wax off. So he was waxing on 500 times and then he came to punch him. So he waxed off and he moved the hand. Same idea. So suddenly the Torah was shooting information. But why am I saying all this? Because I thought, okay, good. Now I understand the Torah. I understand. I understand. I remember. I can teach. Everything is good. And I thought that's where I'm going to be. And after a certain sit period of time and after a certain few situations that I had to go through, it's like Hashem gave me a bonus took me in an elevation a thousand degrees higher to a point that I can't believe sometimes what I learn, I understand, I read, I that's only Hashem. It's not that I'm smart. Hashem decides how much Torah he will give to you. But you know why he decides to give you a lot of Torah? Because you break yourself. And you go through the whatever process I had to go through to come to the point that then the Torah you are elevated your you get much more of it. They look at any great scholar or any leader in our our faith and see to what extent they reach to how much troubles they had to go to whether it's Mosher Rabenu Ysef David there's not one of our greatest of all even 13 years had to hide in a cave was wanted and where did he get all his spiritual presence in the cave Mosher I gave you a class last Z about Rabenu. I gave you the entire history. He was in jail for 10 years. And you know who jailed him? Jailed him. 10 years he was in jail. It says that there was so deep in the dungeon that there was like a window, a little window. He had a little bit of light that they would throw food to him. Marshall was in prison for 10 years. Not to talk about that he was also a king. He was this, he was that. All of our great leaders always went through disasters and did they lose their faith? No. That's when they became stronger. Now when you become to that place and you humble yourself in front of Hashem and you move back and you shut up and you do your part, Hashem elevates you to levels. You don't you won't understand to what levels he takes you. The first book, the first Torah that I had with me when I was became observant was the Ramban. I said that 500 times. The letter of it's the only Torah I knew in the first year and I used to read it every day in jail. I didn't have anything. I used to chant the year. That's the only thing I knew. So I I I I besides that I adore the I I am like that's the follow the you'll be successful. That's what I do. Very hard by the way. But there's a one sentence that is stuck in my brain from the day that I became observant and started reading it. Humble yourself. You put yourself down and Hashem is going to elevate you. That's it. You want to be good. You want to be successful. You want to reach to your goals. It takes one action. Humble yourself. Hashem is going to make you successful much more than what you think. And I can testify that in my spiritual growth, in business, in finance, in relation, everything. Every time that I practice what I just told you, I see great success in what I'm trying to achieve. Whether it's my spiritual knowledge, spiritual closeness to Hashem. So really, that's what it takes. I think there's even a song like that. No, take one step here, then a take step that. How's that song go? So all I'm telling you, you take you need to take one step back. do the hoke poke, you know, one step here and one step here. No. So, I'm not telling you to do the hokeyp pokei. I'm just telling you take one step back in order for you to do five steps forward. And that step back is not you taking a physical step back. It starts with the with the silence that I told you. And that comes together with what says, "Stop complaining. Stop complaining. Sh. Second thing, move back. I told you, you move back. You're making space. Whether you move back to your wife, to your kids, to Hashem, to yourself, to your ego, move back. And then you you go full force with what Hashem wants you to do. And you do your part without complaining. And it's hard and it hurts and it's long, but you have to do your part. Now, normally you have to do everything what I told you. I'm telling you to do one, but start with one. And tomorrow it will be two. And in a year it will be five. But that's how you get close to Hashem. That's how you win the darkness in your life. Why do you think Hashem puts darkness in your life? To bother you, to annoy you. You think a thing Hashem wants to revenge. Cuz you didn't do something, now he's revenging. The only reason why Hashem puts darkness in your life is for you to overcome the darkness and to win the darkness with your light. That's it. So if you're a fool and you fall asleep in the darkness and the one about darkness one over and now you're going to be in more darkness and more complaining. But Hashem says, "No, just light up a little bit of light. That's it. A little bit of light, you'll win the darkness. And that little light is all that you can give in whatever you choose to do it. You give it your best. But really give it your best. Don't don't pretend. And if you don't then don't complain later. So you have a whole month. A whole month that this energy is accessible to you. A you can achieve a lot in this month. B it will give you the power to do that for the rest of the year. So really I'm not telling you to do much by the way. Just telling you for the next month don't complain and hopefully from there take it on. Instead of complaining every time you want to complain, praise Hashem. And this can also be if you need more examples, sometimes you bump your leg into the corner of the bed and you or you say some bad word. Don't say that bad word. That's the complaining part. Just say there's a reason why you got but now bang now. No complaining. It's not so hard. And then taking what I told you to increase. That's it. That's it. Do your do your part. You'll see changes in your life. Now once you see success then all the rest will be easy to do. Like I told you jumping out of an airplane for the first time. Once you see everything went cool and okay then the next time will be easy. It took it one person to jump into the water. Then everybody jumped. Jump once. But you need to do this jump. take advantage of uh there's a s order of tim that we read on kodesh u I mentioned in the previous videos that on the website will be the page with the prayers we're going to post it very soon the prayers should be recited preferably onat the end at the end at the end of uh you do whatever you can I do the prayers as close as possible to Shabbat. Uh I go after we're done. Now I'm going to go to Meon later and pray there and learn Torah there. And right before Shabbat, I go to the grave of and do the prayer over there. It's it's good for me because it's very close 10 minutes back home. But you want to do the prayers as close as possible to Shabbat. And the reason why you want to apply that, I'll tell you that very briefly. I said that in the in the video in the morning is the name of the month. When you write it, it's but when you pronounce it, it's kiss. Kiss is a not a kiss. Kiss is a pocket. You put your money in your pocket. And Lev is a heart. your emotions, your feelings, your love, which is to our level my relationships with my wife, with my kids, with my parents. If I don't have relationships, so say that your prayers on the month of especially onesh you can both dig into the kiss and the live. So prayers that we recite ones are directly for your parasa for your livelihood. I know everybody needs a few more bucks in their pocket and also for your lev for your heart. So it's a very aspicious time. I'm going to share later not now a very special remedy about finding your other half. But for ones who need to find their other half veryious time to do that to pray for that or if you already are in a relationship is to better your relationship and have a normal one and not disaster of schlomite and the relationship can be with your kids your friends your parents and so forth. So, it's two things that you need to focus on. And that's the power of that's why I've been saying that in the last couple days. Don't don't just brush that day off. Take the time. You want to do a suda a meal that you wash for bread tomorrow because tomorrow it's too close to Shabbat. Unless you do it in the morning, but the morning is not really considered a festive meal. Best to do that festive meal in the night. But way if you didn't then do in the morning but you want to do a festive meal h not pizza something a little bit better than pizza something a little bit more upgraded that you wash your hands you say so you can add the yav you want to do all all that kesh can cater if you would understand the power you wouldn't sleep for one second we add additions in our prayers hal musaf just do the roshesh you don't know then ask your local rabbi you do know then do it maybe that's the thing you need to start doing is to celebrate the right way so go and and and do a festive meal do the prayers give charity very important to everything that I just said that you give charity and a lot of thing a lot of people think that when they give charity they do you a favor people give me to my organization charity they think they do me a favor like as if I'm taking out the money and you're not doing me a favor you're doing yourself a favor When you give out charity, whoever you gave it to, you're doing you, he's doing you a favor. The receiver is doing a favor and helping the giver. Why? Because you have to give from yourself. The form of charity, the idea of charity that you give from yourself from your hardearned money that you can buy yourself nice clothes, good food, a vacation, and you give your hard-earned money to somebody else that in your mind doesn't deserve it. Or maybe you kind and they do deserve it. But the giving out the motion, that's what cleans the vessel. That's what cleans all the dirt. That's why I always say you go to pray before prayers you give some money. It's called dam is blood. In the talmud money is blood because if you take somebody's money it's like you murder them shedding blood. But on the other hand, when you give out money, you know, in the olden days, they used to do like the cupping that they put the cups on the back. But I saw that in our generation, they do it a little bit different. In the olden days, they and they still do it. Some people know how to do it. Before you poke the cup, you cut [clears throat] a very small part and in a specific place and all the dirty blood comes out. The cups are full of dirty blood. There's one Arab that I know that does that. I go once a year. He's a professional. They're like they're proud. It's their tribe going generations in their tribe. They know how to do it. It's specific [clears throat] places in specific veins and how to do it. You sit there for 45 minutes. The cups are full of blood at the end. But disgusting blood you never seen. All the toxins come out. All the little jifa comes out. same thing. I'm sorry I'm giving some weird examples today. [laughter] But again, take advantage of Roshesh. It's a such a a a powerful night, the month of Gizv. There are very special things coming down the line and great great things [snorts] today. Just focus on Kodesh. Focus on everything that I told you. I know this one is live. It's recorded. This is recorded too. Share it. It's recorded. It's going to go also on YouTube. Listen to it a few times even if throughout the month of. But the point is that you have to apply. If you don't apply, then you're wasting your time. And if you apply no such a thing that you're going to put effort into something and nothing's going to come out of that. And you owe it to Hashem and you owe it to yourself. And really when you come in to thinking about it, everybody wants to better their life. I don't know anyone. Nobody ever came to me and told me, "Rabbi, life is so good. Please can you curse me? I don't want a blessing. Life is too good. Curse me, please." That I never got. And I never got anyone who came and told me, "Thank you. I have I have everything. I don't need a blessing." Everybody wants a blessing. You might not relate with that, but when I come to cities to place, everybody jumps on me like as if I'm like the I don't know what the tooth fairy. All right, but give me a blessing. So, everybody wants a blessing. If everybody wants a blessing, it means they need it. When I advertise that I'm going to pray, you can submit names. Wow. Wow. Wow. Sometimes I sit at the I sit there for seven hours. How many names I get and she needs to get married. He needs this is on this disease and there's what there's what to ask for [snorts] unfortunately. Therefore, you have to give some of yourself. You want you want some solution, you're going to have to give some of yourself. That's this this mean what I told you with the cupping. Yeah. It's like when somebody see once I took my son, he's like, "Aba, your whole block back is blood. It looks traumatic." I have pictures if you want to see. But it takes out all the toxins, all the bad blood. You get rid of everything and now you're good to go. Same thing here. Same idea. Just get rid of all the junk. So again, um, let me summarize real quick what you want to focus on tonight. All the rest we'll do some more videos. You want to focus onesh festive meal. Pray with you if you can. If you're next to a minan with a minan, hear the Torah. Go say hal all the things you do want to do. Do chuva. Repent on this time. Take on yourself the decisions. Okay, I want to do this. I want to be better at that. Exactly like what I said. and but follow through. Understand that like as if it's your last chance and and again you might be the one that I'm not talking to. But like I told you when I advertise that I'm going to pray list I get from people please pray for this and this and that. So I'm fine with praying for everybody but it means that there's issues. So some people might say my life is fine. I congratulate you. But if you feel that everything that I said something relates to you, then you need to do an action that changes the situation. Cuz if you're not going to do any action, nobody's going to do it for you. You are in debt, you need to do an action. Nobody's going to come with a miracle check and get you out of debt and stop playing the lottery. That's what's not going to get you out of debt. If you can't find your other half, everything that you're doing is probably the wrong thing. You have to do an action. You have to do actions, certain actions in the spiritual world that will bring that blessing to you. Not the websites, not the name, the actions. Anything in your life, you're lacking something, Hashem wants you to light up the darkness. Which means that if you're not going to do anything, nobody will do it for you. You need to find your other half. Nobody will come and run after the the entire world to look to to your your soulmate. You want success in something, you want to pass your exams, you think some fair is going to come to you with the knowledge on the day of the exam, you need to sit and learn the material. Anything that you want, I know you're looking up to Hashem and praying for that. But you have to do something. Hashem doesn't give free presents. So here's your opportunity to do a change. to do a complete change to say okay up until now I wasn't happy with the results ask yourself the question are you happy with the results if you're happy with the results good night if you're not happy with the results then you need a change and I'm not saying that your life is chaotic and a disaster it can be one aspect of your life that everything is well you everything is under control one thing you can't control I don't believe that there's a lot of people in this world that everything is under control. I don't have things under control. And not that I'm some who, but I'm saying everybody, if you had everything under control, you can die and you finish your tikun, your battles until the last breath of your life. [snorts] So you can drag another month, another year, another two years, be in the same place. Or you can say, okay, something needs to be done. No change. I tried, I this, I did, nothing changed. I need to do something. So here's your chance. Here's your opportunity. mystically, spiritually, emotionally. I just told you to do and it's something that I said to do a lot. Now take what I said now and rinse and repeat as they say or carbon copy. Then the situation will be much better. Like I told you, I had to become overnight a fully observant Jew. When my rabbi told me, oh, you want to get out of your out of your indictment, then you have to serve Hashem overnight. You have to But I had a sword here. It's a different situation. But first of all, I can tell you anything can be done if you put your mind to it. That's why I told you focus on one and not on 500 things. But you have to understand that the whole idea and the concept of the month of what you can derive out of it is Hashem wants you to win the darkness. And how do you in the darkness? With a little bit of light. If you come with a lot of light, then of course you're a great winner. A little bit of light is enough. and you go a whole month with a little bit of light, next month you'll have the power to to increase the light. But Hashem wants to you to win the darkness. So he's giving you the opportunity. Therefore, the wisdom of don't complain. I'm giving you a check and you're complaining. I JUST BOUGHT YOU A BRAND NEW HOUSE AND YOU'RE COMPLAINING. Don't be ungrateful. So the same way that you are grateful for the good, take all the bad, everything that will cause you to complain and don't dare to complain. Understand that it's good. You might not understand, but it's good. Thank you, Hashem. I know that this disaster is the best thing for me right now. I don't know yet how. I will be patient and humble to wait to see why is this disaster the best thing. But I'm not going to complain and I'm going to thank you and I'm going to praise you and da now because I'm dealing with a disaster. I'm going to do two more mitzvot and read four chapters of dealing to the and I'm just going to increase light. That's it. The darkness will evaporate by default. Test it. The next big disaster you have, even if it's a minor disaster, don't complain. Shed light. Do what you what I just told you. You'll see in a few days, a few weeks, it dissolves. The solutions come up to the surface. And for me, it's like a day dayto-day thing. I I already it's already I I don't get so excited from that. Just last week, I heard a certain situation turning with my life. It turned not in the direction that I was expecting or hoping and it caused a chain reaction of a few negative things. Perfect example. Instead of being disappointed and instead of being angry and instead of getting upset something a big project that we're working towards a lot of resources are involved here. I had all the rights in the world so to say to get angry and I was like no no no okay it's another another push that Hashem wants. I consulted the right individuals. I got my answer mystically what Hashem wants. I understood this is not a punch to the face. It's it's where Hashem wants me to crack it. And you know what? Because I didn't feed into it. Because I didn't anything today, in the most weirdest random way, the solution came to me with no effort. And I was like, [groaning and screaming] patience is worth a lot. Not being judgmental, not saying that word that you wanted to say, not doing that motion, that act is worth a lot. I'm telling you all I understood. I increased the light. The darkness was was removed. It took a few days. Solution came to me. Which means Hashem created a big problem. I didn't get overwhelmed by the big problem. I acted by the rules by what I'm telling you. Voila. Four days pass and the solution to the problem that I didn't create or wanted to even deal with the solution came. Can you imagine how I would feel if I would complain all these four days? Cuz there would be a lot to complain. Hashem, Hashem, Hashem. So that's what I'm telling you. Hashem is throwing that in your face. Relax. Wait. Don't complain. Reverse the whole situation. You'll see how in most of the cases the darkness disappears. Now don't take my word and now come to me and tell me I have a relative with a stage four cancer and you got to be kind of normal here. You can't come with such a situation said I didn't complain he died. No use your common sense. But but even in big things big things will require you to do 180. I had people come to me with they have two hours to live or whatever and I said listen what saved me is 180 you do the same I I'll guarantee to you you'll be saved but I'm telling you that's not not not so easy to become fully observant like totally like that you opportunity for if you named you can do on the website.org/kislv /kis I'm going to be in later on and tomorrow the and just apply what I just said. I know it's been long. I wanted to do a short two and a half hours for you here locally. Shabbat shalom. We'll see you all tomorrow advantage of of uh review the how to get ready for kanuka what how when and I have a lot of videos already online it's not that you are in the dark but just do it just that's the only thing I can do nobody will do it for you nobody will come and help you and the test and the expectation from Hashem is that you need to do it you do it You remove the darkness. You remove the dirt and then you get then you get your present. Then Hashem will give you the little things that you need your success your other half everything. But you need to do that and it has to be done with saying there's nothing else but that. So everybody I know you're tired. You want to go to sleep. The viewers for them it's afternoon and um even though the writing is very small I'm going to read some of the comments. If you have any questions or something you want to tell me, shalom from Texas, shalom from Have a good night. Rabbi, my pleasure. Shalom. Hi, Los Angeles. I'm coming to Los Angeles in a few months, so be ready. And also Florida and New York. uh will probably be in January or maybe uh uh February and Shabbat shalom. Shabbat shalom all of you. Thank you all for joining us and please share the video and I met a lot a lot of my students and followers in the last trip and it's very special for me. So now I see names and thumbnails. But thank you all. I appreciate the support and I love all of you. And Toronto, no I can't I'm banned from Canada. I can come to Toronto. Uh uh yeah, I'm probably going to come to Los Angeles. Yeah, I'm coming to Los Angeles. I don't have a date yet. It's probably going to be uh the next visit to the United States is planned for about January or February. It's going to be probably my New York, Miami, Los Angeles. These are the main three cities that I'm going to be in. Nothing is set yet. I don't have dates. Uh but that's the plan. Toronto, I'm banned from Canada. I can't come into Canada. And if you want me to come to any other places, then you need to be in touch with my team and just invite me. That's where I come. Come to Mexico. We actually actually want to come to Mexico and oh sha Hawaii. I would want to come to Hawaii too. [laughter] But to Mexico, by the way, I met this wonderful man and we try to who's Mexican and we try to to see if we can arrange a visit in Mexico. I would come in a second. So if you anybody here online is from Mexico and you want to help create that tour, that would be amazing. But for the United States where I come often, uh if you want to invite me to any city you are, it's not of a big deal. you can contact my team and uh and if it works out, it works out. And uh and I would love love to come to certain places. One thing that I find out that I love uh is to meet you guys because now I don't I I see a screen. So that is the that is the schedule for the visit. I don't know. There's no dates yet. You will know. Follow every everything we post online. You'll know when I'm coming. Uh what else? Shalom. I see all the shaloms, Costa Rica, everywhere. Mexico, Toronto. Very good. I am very happy to see that you all tuned in. By the way, Australia needs my visit. By the way, I was in Australia a few years ago. Uh I don't know. It's a very long flight. Uh but you invite me, I'll come. I'm an Aussie. I'm an Australian citizen. By the way, my mom's an Aussie. So, I've been to Australia many, many, many times. South Africa. Listen, all these beautiful places, I'll go wherever you invite me. All you need to do is invite me, create the event, and I'll come. But, uh, or you come to Israel and you visit me. Uh, the what I wanted to say something now. I got distracted. I I'm trying to read all the the the comments, but they're going way too fast. Orlando. Okay. We were I was in Tampa and Miami in a few months. But anyways, I now I see all the cities. We we covered all the cities in the world. Come to London. I will say it again. I will come wherever I'm invited. And uh [clears throat] and and in truth, if you want to ever initiate uh lecture or an event, then you just need to contact my uh team. But other than that, uh, thank you. Thank you. The thing is that during the class, I can't read the the messages. Now, it's going fast, so it's a little bit hard to see, but uh, but I I I'm thinking of I have to see how it will sit with the schedule. I hope you all liked the live broadcast and you benefit from that and you appreciate it because I'm thinking of doing more of the live calls, the live classes. I teach here in Israel in the in the morning and if you want to join us at 4:00 in the morning, that's I teach here at 11. So I want to to benefit the ones who can come here or want to see it live. and we're working on uh uh catering that right now the live is from a phone but we're going to we're looking into purchasing the right equipment and the software that we can uh broadcast it from a high quality camera and then you get to see all the classes live and uh the point will be to increase in that. So, if you do like the live broadcasts and uh you want me to do more, if you can put it in the comments or even send it to to my team and um and uh I'm going to try to do it's harder for me because it's more late at night for me now. It's 12:30 a.m. Anyways, I I'm up. I'm going to go to Meon now and pray. So, but on a regular day, it's a little bit hard to go to sleep so late. But I saw in the last tour that I did to America that the live broadcasts are very successful and a lot of people tune in and they benefit from that. And I know a lot of people right now driving or working uh eating I hope not bathing but uh but I know that it's nice to just put it on the dashboard or on the table and listen to and uh today it's hard because I'm with a phone and I'm looking the letters are so small and it's running fast but when we get our system ready I'm going to sit with a computer next to me and that I can see the comments and we and communicate uh with the listeners and the and the people on the call. So, we're working on a lot of things. Somebody asked what's going on about the app. There's a lot a lot of big things that I'm working on right now. big, amazing, beautiful projects. And the truth is that I was hoping when I came now to the United States in in the summer to to have all these big projects ready, but uh as I gave the whole class now for two hours that we're running on Hashem's schedule, a lot of it didn't come to fruition. And now that's what I'm focusing on. And that includes a few new books. And it's books that I already wrote. and I just never just put it together and published it. So, there's a few new books, uh, a new platform for atmood.com with a smartphone app for iPhone and Android and a new platform for atmood.org and everything that you are in that you are involved with atmood all in a completely new platform and then many different programs and many other stuff that I'm working on. I don't like saying things before they come to the world but uh but yeah working on a lot of projects that's including also the app that some people I saw uh uh mention and that will include also upgrading our system uh in recording broadcasting taking everything to the next level of course with good quality and and and all that stuff that you can enjoy the classes even just today I heard a request from one of our followers who asked to uh not to hear the lectures but rather to have just the audio. So I do have that you have to go to my uh Soundcloud account or to my iTunes account or uh I think you can also do it with what's the name of the app? Uh I forgot the name. Uh, I'll find out in a second. But, uh, Spotify, so Spotify, SoundCloud, and iTunes, you can download all my lectures, just the audio, but in the new app that is going to come out, you're going to have the option to play the lecture by audio or by uh video and download the text, the transcript. So, we're working on a lot a lot of wonderful things. And so, I'm sharing that that you know, and get excited and that the whole broadcast. Uh yes, Spotify, that's the one I'm talking about. And uh I we we are going to work on a good system for the for the live classes so a lot of people can join even if you want to wake up early in the morning for the morning classes or you live east of us. Uh yes, buying a membership in Atmood can be paid from and uh when you buy a subscription to Atmood, you basically supporting their all the work that the organization does. So it's a your subscription goes to Saddaka and it goes to run run the organization. That's the fuel to the or organization. Everything that I do you see doesn't cost money. Lectures are free. uh of course we have products that I sell and that's also to to uh uh not only fuel the organization it's that's the money of the organization and that's how everything is done everything costs money you know you see videos it has to be edited there's an editor and equipment and I fly to tours and there's a lot I'm not talking about money that you donate to our food bank or to our Shabbat fund for Shabbat food fund I have many funds that whether we manage the two big ones is the food bank and the Shabbat fund. The difference between the two, if you are already donating to those funds, the Shabbat fund is we actually buy the food and we give the food to people, readymade food and and that will also be in many cases to we cover events such as like today was a bilah and so that fund goes to feed to to actually buy the food. In many of the cases, we prepare it and we just give it over [snorts] whether it's Shabbat or holidays peskot and events like we had today and so forth. The food bank is actually we don't give food, we just give vouchers to the local stores. So the people who we give vouchers, they'll get vouchers to the to the supermarket or the whatever store that they buy their food. We work with a few places and that's the food bank. That's when you donate money to the food bank or the Shabbat fund or other stuff. That's where the money goes. Like now when I go to and to and I and I prompt people to to give charity. Not only that it acts like I just told you that it creates the vessel and and cleans it and so forth, but rather uh I'm going to answer how do you reach the rabbi's team in a second. If I forget then write it again again. But uh the the I was talking about the charity. Now I see I lost my train of thought. That's why I don't like the comments because I'm like thinking of something and reading a comment. I was talking about the charity. The charity first of all it does what I told you cleaning the vessel creating the vessel and so forth. But uh see now I lost the point the thought that I was focusing on with the giving of the charity. Ah so when I say when I go to pray and I pro people to give charity first of all it's to to to your own benefit to create a vessel to clean the vessels and so forth but uh that that's the charity that goes to the poor people that's distributed to the Shabbat fund the food