Rabbi Alon Anava is live!

Everybody, good evening. >> First time in Tampa. Well, I've been here many times, but first time that I'm speaking here. We're going to have a very special night. And I believe also tomorrow night we have another lecture. It will be more the part two of this lecture. So tonight you're going to get a treat, a special treat for we just celebrated two days ago where we all need to uh pull our pants up and to to get busy in 30 days is sh. Most people don't wake up on time. They wake up a day before shah. That's bad. That's the that's the problem with most people. They wake up one minute too late. Opportunities come all the time and very few people know how to stop and grab the opportunity. So now we have an opportunity. We have in 30 days we have shah we have now a whole month of alul to do. So I think uh tonight I don't think I know tonight is going to be very appropriate for alul and for every person hopefully will leave this room with some inspiration to start the month of alul the right way and needless to say come to shah all organized and ready andal before regardless to shul the message of the lecture applies for every day so for the ones of you who don't know me my name is Alona Nava I give you a short introduction ction before we start. I was born in Israel and I grew up thank you the most furthest away from the Torah. The most secular that's how I grew up. If you have had the pleasure to meet some Israelis like that, that's how I grew up. I grew up very very secular, but not only secular that I'm not performing the mitzvot of following the Torah. secular in a way that I was against the Torah and against the master of the universe. And believe it or not, unfortunately, there's a lot of negative brainwashing in secular schools in Israel. And I grew up not only not on the side of the Torah, but hating it and resenting it, similar to what you see now with the doing all the propaganda with the Orthodox and the army and nothing changed, nothing new under the sun. So I grew up very further far away from Torah and Mitzvot, no connection. And when I was 20 years old, I left Israel after the army. And I came to the United States with a big dream. One big dream is to make a lot of money. And uh now I'm going to skip six years. The six years that I'm skipping that you'll hear tomorrow. But on a very special night which was Shabbat and the morning of Pesak, the 14th day of the month of Nissan, Hashem decided to change my path of my life and I suffered a near-death experience. I suffered cardiac arrest from overuse of drugs and as a result I was flatlined for seven minutes where my soul left my body went to a little visit in the world above saw everything that it needed to see and came back here to tell you what not to do and that's what you're going to hear tonight now since the story is very long I go straight to the story h with a few requests first request is if you don't mind please don't ask any questions because a lot of the questions might be answered as I speak and uh there's a lot of people here. Not everybody wants to hear your question. If they have anything private you want to ask me, you can ask me after the lecture but during the lecture try not to ask too many questions because a lot of the information will be answered as I speak and uh if not at the end I'll give some time to answer questions. The most important thing that I really ask you to to do before we going on this quick journey is that I remember every part from this experience like as if it happened today. It's so engraved in my memory that I don't need to review to refresh my mind or somebody asked me a few weeks ago. I'm now on tour in the United States. I'm going from city to city. Somebody asked me, "Do you need to like review the information, refresh the I said, no, no, this is tattooed on my on my soul. There's no need to do any refreshing." But what I'm trying to say is that I remember every detail literally like it happened this morning. The only problem is that whatever exists in the world above doesn't exist in the world below. So the only way to explain what I remember is to use my words. and my words from physical from the physical world. So I use my words. What's important is that you pay attention to the story. The details are less important and you'll understand at the end why. But just to you understand that not everything that I say is exactly how it is. It's how I find the right words to express the the memory. And if something is not clear then let me know. Stop me and let me know. And before we start let's ask just the people online if you hear me well. If you can give me a okay or a thumbs up cuz we want I wanted to broadcast the lecture today now only because it's in the beginning of alul and I believe that many can benefit from that. Okay, you can hear me good. Last night was an echo. Yes. Yes. Thank you. Thank you so much. So without further ado because there's no point of giving more introduction and more information. Without further ado, the story starts on a beautiful, wonderful day, the 14th day of Nissan, which is the morning of Pesak. Now, why is it so special? Besides that, that year was on Shabbat. So, it was Shabbat and Pesak. When I grew up and they taught me about the story of Egypt, they told me h, you know, many, many years ago, there was a nation and there were slaves to par and then came Moshe. Mosh with a long beard and he did some hoo-ha walk with pocus and got the nation out of there and everything were worked well for the Jews and but don't really believe in it because it's not really true. It's a fairy tale and the proof that it's a fairy tale is look the name of the book that we read is called Agada and Hagada in Hebrew means to say to give over. Agada with an alif means a fairy tale. So I grew up thinking that Pesak is a fairy tale. But the fact is that on the on that specific day, a very special godly light came down to the world and permeated the power that any individual at any given time for all generations that ever needs to go out of their state of limitation, their mit, they will have the power to do that. And up until then there wasn't wasn't an option. And since then at any given moment not only on PES that any individual will look up to the heavens and beg to go out of his Egypt out of his mit his state of limitations which can be your your addictions can be disasters can be many different things. A conscious a state of consciousness that you in a place of limitation. That night is what brought the power for all generations. And that's the night that Hashem decided to change my path. Come tomorrow and stand on what path I was going on. You know 20 years I wasn't even so much clear about the information that I gave. Now many years have passed uh legally what's called statute of limitation. So something's passed. So, I decided to share some more missing pieces of the puzzle. Tonight, tonight you're going to get 100% the near-death experience. Tomorrow I'm going to talk about the next part which what you need to know for tonight is that for six years when I came to the United States like I told you with a big dream to make a lot a lot of money there's a phrase in the Talmud that says if somebody wants to become pure or in our terminology wants to repent to do chuva and he steps forward then he gets help from above the heaven heavenly heavenly court will assist him what's called get assistance which is great news but in the same it saysimoto if a person wants to become impure then they'll make him impure no problem so I came with no holy thoughts with the intention of just making money so Hashem says no problem you want to be impure I'll make you impure so for six years I led a life a very extreme lifestyle. First of all, I I abused drugs to an extreme way and with the food comes the appetite. Then for six years, I was running a very sophisticated drug cartel here in the United States, trafficking drugs, dealing with drugs, but in a very large scale. Come tomorrow, you'll hear it tomorrow. It's very, very intense. and needless to say using my own drugs that brought me to that place. And uh you'll hear about it tomorrow. I'm not going to stop on that right now. But what I used to do at the time, unfortunately, I'm sure you remember the pictures and the information in the terror attack last year in Israel that there was a major part that was hit was in a party. That was the type of parties that I used to do when I came here. I used to produce these big parties, these big big raves. Thousands of people come two three day festival a lot a lot of music and a lot a lot of drugs and in one of my own parties that's where the whole thing happened and like I told you it was Friday night of Shabbat it was Shabbat Pes and it all happened in New York I was about and towards the end of the party I the party got shut down by the police there was some some whatever hazard there, they shut it down. Very typical to these type of parties. And uh towards the morning where the music quietened down and everybody was sitting back. So somebody was passing around this device that you smoke drugs with and I didn't even know or care what's in it. And once consuming then I started feeling extremely extremely bad. But not bad that I have to throw up or that I have a headache or dizzy. I felt like I'm going to die. I knew I'm about to die. And a lot of people ask me, how do you know such a thing? How do you know you're about to die? So my answer is very simple. When you're happy, you know you're happy. Nobody needs to come and tell you you are happy right now. Or if you're hungry or tired, nobody can come and tell you, yeah, you don't look tired, you don't look hungry, but I feel the hunger. I know I'm hungry. So the same way that you know certain situations in your life in that respect 100 times more stronger I knew I'm about to die and I went out of the building. It was in Manhattan. There was a friend with me. We left the building. All I wanted to do is to go home. We're going into a taxi and I sit in the backseat of the car and I'm starting to choke. I can't breathe. So I open the window and I look outside the window and the second that I look outside of the window the whole world froze like a like a screen like you watch a movie and you click pause to go out to get your refreshments the whole world froze and the only thing that was running in my mind is that I'm about to leave this world and I'm about to meet this famous god that everybody everybody was talking about and I'm coming with nothing. I have nothing to come, nothing to show. And I know it sounds like a cliche, but it was I started seeing scenes of my life, but specific scenes, specific scenes of all the sorts of situations that I did that were negative and feeling this unbelievable regret for doing it. And a big part of repenting is is the regret that you regret what you did. I can tell you already, not only because I'm busy trying to do chuva for the last 20 years, also because I'm human, it's very hard to get to a high level of regret. If you buy lottery tickets for $1. I bought a lottery tickets yesterday when actually was $5, not four, not $1, but the the price is 800 million. I went in to put in some gas and I see 800 million. I was like, "Oh, I can use some change. How much is the the investment?" $5. I'll take one if God wants me to be rich. All I need is one lottery ticket, right? So, uh, imagine now you I bought this lottery ticket for $5 and somebody comes and offers me now $1,000 cash. Give me that ticket. Overnight, I I made from $5 $1,000. Then in three days, that lottery ticket won the 815 million. Imagine the regret of that act. That's starting to become regret. So I failed to feel it myself and to see it on others on real regret. But on that point I was sitting in the max seat on the car and regretting every bad act that I did but in levels that I don't know how to explain that regret. I can tell you that there's not no not only that there's no way to explain it. That's very hard to experience this type of regret. And I don't know from where I covered my eyes and I said but not Hashem with Hashem's name. And of course many people ask if you are so secular how do you know how to say schma? So my answer is very simple. The schma is coming from the depth of the soul. It's not coming from being educated in the Torah. It's coming from a very deep part of the soul. When the soul re it basically it says very clearly you're the boss the soul humiliates itself humbles itself and says you're the one there's nothing but you say saying in other words you're the boss and the second that I cover my eyes and I say I feel that I fall down on the person that's sitting next to me and it was in a taxi In in New York, there was these partitions between the front and the back. And I remember diving from my eyes out of my eyes like you dive into a pool head first, diving out of my eyes and leaving my body. And the first thing that I remember that when I kind of woke up is that first of I didn't know where I am. I didn't recognize it. I didn't know what was going on. All I noticed that there's no sound. It was complete silence and unbelievable silence. There's no such silence in this world that I can say, "Oh, it feels like that." Unbelievable silence. Mute, completely dead. And it was the most peaceful feeling you can imagine. And as this whole thing is going on, I feel also that I don't have a body. And that's another thing that is very hard to us to understand. But really, we are turtles. We're carrying like uh our soul is carrying a very heavy body and everywhere that I want to go I have to carry this body and suddenly I feel that I have no body. I'm like air. I'm a I'm a cloud. I'm here. I'm there. I'm over there. And the next thing that I started feeling is that there wasn't any time. I didn't have to go anywhere. Didn't have a watch on my hand. No appointments. I don't have to be anywhere. Don't have to do anything. Best vacation you can imagine. No sound, no body, not have to do anything, no time, not in a rush to do go anywhere. Not late once in my life. But all this is going, which I don't know if it's a second or a year because there's no time. But I still had my thoughts with me. same thoughts that every person has stayed with me. You know the thoughts, the midrash says that the thoughts are like a river. They constantly flow in your mind. The same way that a river never stops, then your thoughts never stop. So when you're busy working, studying, doing whatever your daily tasks, then you're not really thinking of your thoughts. You're busy with things. But when you're by yourself, can be in the shower, in bed, you're driving in traffic, you have thoughts running in your mind and you know, you talk to yourself, you have conversations with yourself, sometimes you argue with yourself, make yourself laugh. So the same thing that you have thoughts, I was having my thoughts. very interesting is that I noticed that if you're American and you think in English and if you're Israeli you think in Hebrew and if you whatever other whatever you were born that's the thoughts the language of your thoughts so I was having thoughts and I was asking myself where am I what is this place how did I get here so a voice answered me and told me you you died this is your this is your death. And I'm like, "What do you mean this is my death?" And this voice is kind of like pointing down. And of course, there's no hand. I understand to look down and I see myself, my body on this girl in the cab. I see everything like in the height of maybe a ceiling 12, 13 ft. And I'm looking down like this. And I see the whole scene from above. And this voice is telling me, "You died. It was the weirdest thought that that's how I die. It wasn't any pain. Wasn't any fear. It was just weird that that's how I die. In a backseat of a car. Well, that's how they're going to remember me. My friends are going to meet. I remember alone. Yeah, of course. Don't you already dropped dead in a backseat of a car? I mean, you know who thinks of their death? Nobody really sits at home and says, "I wonder how I'm going to die. I don't know anyone who sits hashem please car accident. Nobody thinks of their death and nobody plans their death and only wishes a certain death. But you when you already think of it I mean I thought throughout my life I mean one day I will die the way how I live lived my life. I thought I thought every day I'm going to die. So and I thought I'm going to die something excited like driving a motorbike at 300 miles an hour and crashing into a wall something with with action. It was the weirdest thought that that's how I die. That's the story of alone. That's I came to the world 27 years to die like a sack of potatoes in the backseat of a car. Was very very weird thoughts. But I didn't feel any pain or any sorrow or anything negative. And I felt that this voice, this entity that is guiding me, that it's like kind of like grabbing me from the back and starting to pull me higher and higher and higher. And the higher it pulled me, the more I saw from the scene underneath. And at some point, something very weird happened that I kind of like sat like this looking down and I felt like I'm falling down on into this girl that my body's on. And I kind of like fell in her body and in a split second I saw her entire life. And it's like was it's not like that I was like sitting like this and watching like screens. I was in her body thinking her thoughts, feeling her feelings, experiencing all her emotions and seeing all her life and understanding what's going on. Not like seeing it like a movie. And it didn't come like a moving uh movie one a year one year two year three. It was like messed scenes from all sorts of parts of her life. And in every scene, not only that I'm in her body, I'm all around. I see everything. I hear everything. I pick up every detail. And I feel still that I'm going higher and higher and higher. At some point, the car was driving in the streets of Manhattan. It was on the way driving to a hospital and I was flying over the car. Wherever the car is going, I'm going I'm like a magnet going over the car. And at some point I was in the height of maybe two floors. And the car went under this bridge, this overpass, which very interestingly a few weeks ago I was in New York. I went there. I was with my boys and we were in the area. I told him, "You want to see that bridge I'm always talking about? Let's go and see the bridge. So, there's an old subway bridge there. It's not even in it doesn't even work, but they left it there. So, the taxi went under the bridge and I was so high up I went into the bridge and then I saw I like calling it the graphic design of the world. I'll tell you what I mean. If you're looking now at a website or a smartphone or tablet, it doesn't matter. and you're looking and you see this beautiful design, colors, pictures, videos. You press a button, it opens a p a page, you press another thing, starts playing a video. What you see is the design of the website. Behind the design is the brain of the website, the brain of the software, the program itself that needs a programmer to sit and write a code. And on that program comes a different type of programmer, a designer that writes a different code that goes on the program and creates the design that you see in the screen. But you see the end result. You just see the perfect looking screen. If you would go behind the scenes and look at the code, it's just a bunch of letters, letters and symbols and numbers. Now, if you're a programmer, then you read the code and you know what what's what does it mean? you know that this code will make this line look blue and this code will make this button green and this line will make this action and this code will do such and such. But if you're not a programmer, you don't understand nothing. On the other hand, if you are a program, just read the code. You know what's going to what's thection how is it going to look the exact same way that creates the world. It says in 10 speeches, Hashem created the world. Hashem speaks and he creates the world. We say that every day when we pray blessed he said and he created the world. And we find in the Torah in many situations, Hashem spoke. Hashem creates the world with speaking. How does he do it? With 22 sophisticated tools that are the letters of the Hebrew language. And he takes these tools and puts them together and he writes a code and that's it. And he creates the world. That's it. That's how Hashem does it like a programmer. Of course, in a much more uh deep and profound way, but that's the idea. The second that I got drove into this bridge, it's like as if something was removed from my eyes. And it's not that I saw like what we see sky and buildings, colors, depth. I saw only letters. Everything. Everywhere that I looked was just letters. Huge, huge, huge area. Millions and millions of letters. And I read the letters and I understand what I see. And it's not because I'm Israeli and no Hebrew. Because there's only one language in the heavens. There's no English and Spanish in the heavens. kesh the language that Hashem speaks and I was able to read and understand every letter. What was interesting that every letter when I looked at it I saw the shape of the letter but when I kind of like focused on the letter it was like as if I went through the letter and every letter became built from thousands and thousands and thousands of other letters which what we know from the teachings of Kabala that if a letter has a numerical value for example alf is worth one but if you write the letter al then it changes its numerical value now and there are many ways how to calculate the this numerical values you can switch letters switch letters do all sorts of things just on this part I don't I don't stop to explain but just on this part 20 30 minutes just of explanation if we if I stop and give but there's no words and as all this is happening the car is driving in the streets of I'm like flying over the car like a magnet at some point I was so high up felt like I'm like maybe 20 floors flying above the the city and we were driving through buildings and I was so high up that I started going through the buildings. No walls, no physical blockages, just everything is one. And the same way that I saw this girl's life when I fell into her body, the car is going through buildings in Manhattan floors, just windows. You don't see what's behind the windows. I was flying next to the building and I was able to see in every window what's going on. And again, not in the form that you're like sitting like this like I'm sure you're imagining a drone going from one window to the other. similar. It literally felt like as if I'm sitting here right now. And I know all of you, everything about you, like as if I'm going one after the other, scanning you from top to bottom. And I know everything about you. What you ate for breakfast, what's your favorite color, what you had last night, every little thing. I know like like as if I'm scanning one person after the other. Here I always stop to say a funny story that when I went on my first date with my wife then I was like 42% observant she was like 13 and a half% observant she grew up secular here in America and when she came to college there was a rabbi on the college who started inviting her to a Shabbat meal and then to a purim party and slowly slowly started her getting her closer. And when she finally sat in front of me in a date, that was 10 years later, but she wasn't really observant. And she told me in the beginning of the date, I heard you I hear you have some crazy story how you became observant. Says, you want to hear it? No problem. Tonight you're getting the short version of the story. She got the mini long version of the story. It was like a 9-hour date and a lot of coffee. And later on she told me that looking back she told me from the entire lecture the entire it was for her it wasn't a lecture we sat on a date but for the entire experience she told me that part with the windows that's what did everything and she told me listen I was secular for all my life and then I got introduced to Judaism and I it's not that I didn't believe in God I I was convinced I believed that he exists And I believed that he created the world. And I believed that the Torah is real. And I believed everything. But there was one little detail that stopped me from becoming observant to going to that next uh next level. And she said, I had a very qu simple question and nobody can answer it. How can you explain to me that there are seven, eight billion people in the world, millions and billions and trillions of creatures and animals, and you want to tell me that God knows me? How can he know me? How can he know so many people? And you know what? Ignore all the world. Let's just concentrate on the Jews, on the observant Jews. Soon about two million people are in a synagogue at the same time praying and you want to tell me that God hears 2 million people's prayers how can it be it can it can be so if this is the case that means he doesn't know me and if he doesn't know me then why should I bother why should I be dressed modest when he's looking at me why should I say a blessing when I put something in my mouth does he really care that when I drink a cup of water, I say shak and this is the case. So why should I bother? I'll be a good Jew like many people like saying, I'm I'm good. I have a good heart. Well, very nice of you that you have a heart. You also have to do the mitvot. But she says, I'll be a good Jew and leave me alone. Later on she told me when I heard the entire story from all the details that's the one who caught person what's going on in these buildings the individualiz first time look it's like embarrassing look how I look and two weeks it's like embarrassing look how I look and two weeks later when I asked her to marry me she agreed somehow until today I think she's like what did I do this guy's taking me all across America for 2 months. But anyways, up until this point, everything was great. Everything was good. Really, what I told you now is not even 1% of the story. But I want to move to to the next part. as good as it was before and really I saw unbelievable revelations in one second without any preparation it felt like something grabbed me from behind and like wrapped me in darkness and in a split second I woke up in this pitch black place but this time it wasn't pleasant it wasn't pleasant at all it was dark it was scary it was painful the worst part was not that I didn't know where I am The worst part is that I didn't know if I ever going to go out of there. And just that you understand the mind game. If a person gets sentenced to go to jail for 40 years, pretty big sentence, but at least that person knows what's going to happen with him for the next 40 years. I'm going to be in a cell. I'm going to have some people to interact with. There's going to they're going to give me food. Today in jail, you go out with a degree. There's a definition. And at least maybe it's going to take a long time, but in 40 years I'm out. Now imagine what's going on in a person's mind. A year and a half ago, innocent people were kidnapped by terrorists into Aza and they're sitting there in tunnels. Can you imagine what's going on in their minds? They don't know if they're ever going to see their family again. They don't know if they're going to be alive tomorrow or not. They don't know if they have another day, another hour. Every second down in those tunnels are hell. Every second is like 500 years. They're being held by the worst entity. Just imagine what's going on in their mind. That's how it felt. A thousand times more. I don't know where I am. I don't know how I got here. How am I getting out of here? This is spiritual. This is much more than that. It's a good opportunity to to to to think about that. You know, the other day I was somewhere and it was so hot that I couldn't even breathe. That's how hot it was. And I was there with my family and we were all sitting there like, "What's going on? Why is it why is it so hot? No, no air conditioning, no fans." And we were so hot and barely were able to breathe. And at some point I told them, you know, free and you have your freedom. Just imagine try for once a day for five minutes suffer and think okay there are hostages sitting in a in a tunnel right now in heat in humidity can't breathe didn't eat for 3 months so it's a wakeup call not to be spoiled every time I sweat I'm like this is nothing now I come to Florida you sweat a lot here I mean where I live there's not a lot of humidity coming here I lost already 15 pounds look this is the suit is like so every time I sweat here for 2 minutes. I'm like, "Okay, the poor hostages." But let's go back. I find myself in a place that is pitch black. Very, very scary because I don't know where I am and I don't know how I got there or what's holding me. But now I kind I kind of fast forward one long section and I choose not to say so many details. Once when I started going out on lectures, my wife used to go with me and uh I would come and give a 7-hour lecture and give all the details good, bad, scary, not scary. Some point my wife was like, "Cut it out. and people. It's scary. I don't mind scaring people because that's the truth. But the fact is it wasn't pleasant. It wasn't pleasant. And it felt like it felt like I'm being choked. It felt like I'm being suffocated for endless amount of years. And at some point I I understood what's going on. I understood who I am, where I am, how I got there, what I do, what I did. Because the soul is very intelligent. The soul doesn't need too much information. It's already programmed with all the information. So once the soul is out of the body and there's no restrictions of the body, the soul is very very intelligent. I knew what's going on, where I am, how I what's going on. And I knew that the only thing that can stop this spiritual suffocation is Hashem and there's nothing else but Hashem. And the way how I understood it is very simple. In this world, there are two types of realities. One reality of course is the reality of the truth that tr the reality but there's another reality that is called a lie and that reality comes to distort the truth but it only can exist in this world. In the spiritual world there's no such thing. There's no two sides to the coins in the spiritual world. There's only one side. Hard for us to understand that. But in the spiritual world, there is no lies. It's called the world of truth. A lie doesn't exist in that world. Which means that if a person lies in this world and they know only how to get out of situations with lying, they're going to have a serious problem in the spiritual world because they're not going to know how to deal with things. when I need to summarize my entire experience into one sentence because you're getting now an hour whatever we're going to be able to squeeze in it. If I talk and don't stop will take me to Can you tell me your story? Good. It's only four hours. Sit down. So sometimes I need to say it in a minute. So if I need to summarize the whole thing is one word emit. That's it. Truth. It's all about truth. And therefore, the world in the in the world above is called the world of truth. And this world by our sages is called the world of deception. Alma, the world of lying. Everything here is a lie. Everything that you see here is not real. You think that what you see is really how it is. No. And not only that, everything here is deception. I can look at you, smile at you all day long. Hey, how are you? And in my mind, I wish you dropped dead. So, and this is one pattern out of many. So, in this world, you can hide behind lies. Everybody can hide behind a lie. I can put on a face now. I don't tell you what's in my mind. You don't know nothing. But this concept only works in this world. In the spiritual world there is no side that is called deception. There's only side of truth. So when you are exposed to the spiritual world you understand everything because there's no side that can contradict. So it's very obvious that the spiritual suffocation that I'm experiencing as a soul is that I'm not connected to the master of the universe. Like a fish that you pull the fish out of the water. Give it a a minute two. First it moves a little bit, then it stops moving at some point. It's too long out of the out of the water, then it it dies. That's it. So, I just want to remove some individual that is writing over and over some nonsense. But nevertheless, there's only one way to understand is that in the spiritual world you understand everything. You know everything. And I understood that the spiritual suffocation that I'm experiencing is that I don't have a connection to Hashem. And I'll explain to you how how it works. Dissolve.