Rabbi Alon Anava is live!

Eisenberg and it's very nice for me to say uh Steve Rabbi I'm not a rabbi like maybe some of you on my Hebrew school drop out and a little bio so I'm from Manhattan and there'll be a lot more of us coming very soon I think after bit of this this abomination become mayor anyway so in New York um myself and a young couple from South Africa we started a group called the JICNY Jewish international connection for young Jews in their 20s and 30s from all over the world and uh was very successful by our time. Moved was here about 5 years ago, 6 years ago and Jod and Gavin subsequently made Ali and lived in Shalan and they're doing events in Tel Aviv and Jerusalem and when I came down here we started the class in my apartment and everyone said Steve is never going to be successful. No one's interested in Torah classes. Anyway, it grew and grew and grew for Hashem and then my Ukrainian Nazi model neighbor. She put her camera her her cell phone in my apartment and went to the board and they said, "We love you. We're Jews, but no more." So, Rabbi Masri said, "Steve, no problem. We give you the tent and here I am." So, we thank Rabbi Masri and Smart Extension for welcoming us. Wow. Okay. So, we're really really privileged. So, uh, next guys, there's plenty of seats. Please come forward. So, next week we're going to have a class in Russia. Uh, be it's called tequila gdola. Tequila gadola, tequila tasting, and then we give a class. So, we're here every Monday night. After next week, I go to Israel for kim and then we resume. Anyway, so we all know that we just started guys. There's plenty of seats. I'm on Z. You can play whatever language you speak. So we know that we just entered into We just entered guys. We just entered into the month of Aul. So I assume that most of you, unless you're LG, if you're in real estate, you don't pay taxes, right? Deals. But most of us have to pay taxes. If you have a decent tax return, we discussed this last week. If you have a decent tax return, there's no there's no way that you could begin a night before. You can't begin two nights before. You can't even begin three weeks. You have to start months before, if not a month before. So too, this thing called life. If we really understand what Rashana is about, we are beginning to do our spiritual tax returns. is a month before a month before rash shana is we begin to get our spiritual accounting in order and people just show up to the show rash shana but they really don't understand in the in the in the Torah world is a very serious month this is the time we begin to see what is my vision for myself this coming year what kind of person we know that Hashem put us in this world to fulfill a unique tough kid or unique purpose and if last year you didn't get what you needed all All right. It's because Hashem was holding it back because you weren't getting it. It was holding something back. We want a different year. 5786. Not only us individually, but the Jewish people, we need a very, very, very different year than we had last year and the year before. All right? We need a very different year. And we have to do something different. All right? So, in order to have something different happen this coming year, we have to do something different. All of us. I just want it very clear. That's in all the Torah places I've been to is Hashem knows that we're not perfect. I'm not perfect. I'm sure not. But Hashem wants us to see what is or my vision for myself this coming year and align ourselves with Hashem's vision. Hashem knows that we're not perfect. It's very difficult, very challenging to change ourselves overnight. But I believe that's the Torah class that we can go to Russ Hashem. I'm going to work on this. We all know we need to work on Shabbat whatever it might be. You could go into Russ the next four four weeks, five weeks and show I want to change. And we know the word rash sh the word sha is connected to the word chino which means change. Rosh sh it's a head of change. All right. But again if we go into sh again and we do the same exact thing. Nothing's going to change. This is a very very special. Identify what is my vision for myself. And by the way, I don't know how Sham runs the world, but if you never came to Torah class all year, come to Torah class tonight is a kapar to cleanse for the entire year. So baby steps, baby steps. And that's what LOL is. So Russia Shana is very, very poorly to rest. Everyone says it's a day of judgment. It's not true. It's not a day of judgment, the day of assessment. Hashem gave us the year last year, okay? It gave us everything that we needed in order for us to accomplish our top kit, our purpose, the money that we had, friends and connections, everything else. And if things didn't go the way we wanted because we weren't use and all the tikun we went through last year, the car that got banged up in the parking lot, the person that said something to you, nesting and chol, the girlfriend breakup, this, all of that is going to be decided in the next 30 40 days, all of it. Okay? You know, we say Hashem should give us another year of life. But what kind of year are we going to have? You could have a year of life, but you could have sickness and losing a job and losing a car and all of this is being decided. And we have an opportunity now of changing our destiny of 5786. All right. So with that, I want to dedicate all the learning tonight for all of our soldiers who are not having such a beautiful night in Gaza, in the Galileo, in Syria. The heroic men and women are risking a lives so the Jewish people should have our country. We want to dedicate what we learn tonight for the I personally have two friends who are still there and still alive and I also want to dedicate the class for the complete complete of all the Jewish people but for Natan Ben Daniela and our friend's brother in the class Rafael Aram Ben Leia. to the st of all the learning tonight next week we're here is that we should have not a good year but an amazing amazing amazing the year of chef I'm not yet smarting I'm keeping okay but it should be a year no one give broccles like Rob Mosart did give broccles like okay all right but we should have not a good year but a great year amazing with that so I got a random call from a friend from Toronto I believe said you want to have Rabbi Anava come to class I said you're kidding like in side. We are we have such a split such a merit to have Rabbi Nava Labor Day learning Torah in al with that Rabbi thank you so much. >> Do I need to stay in the frame of your uh camera? >> Sorry. >> Do I need to stay in your frame? Is it recording? >> Uh where's Alex? I have to check. >> Yeah, it's recording. >> Yes, better to move it back a little bit because I move a lot. >> Okay, >> maybe have him come and adjust it. Perfect. Yes, So, I think we're almost ready to start. >> So, good evening everybody. >> Find your seats cuz it's going to be a very long lecture. >> No, I see you're all standing there like uh in 2 and 1/2 hours you'll look for a seat. >> Tell me how many hours. >> No, I said 2 and 1/2 hours, but uh you know once I start I don't know how far it goes. So it all depends on the crowd really. The crowd is ready for two and a half hours. Then >> three hours. >> Three hours. >> Five hours. >> Five hours. Do I hear six? >> Three is fine. >> Three is fine. I think we'll settle for two. Listen, don't push me. I'll do six hours on standing on one leg for the some of you who know me. But nevertheless, uh first of all, thank you so much, Steve. It's a pleasure of being here. And uh we're going to have tonight a very special lecture. It's not even a lecture actually. I'm just going to tell you a little piece of my life which I find uh not inspiring. It fi I find it beyond inspiring. And you going to have the pleasure to hear a very interesting story that is a real big piece of my journey becoming observant. I became observant 22 years ago. Uh very quick background. I grew up in Israel and I grew up the most secular you can imagine. That's how I grew up. I grew up hating the Torah, hating religion, hating anything that has to do with the Torah. And when I came to the United States, I was about 20 years old. And uh fast forward now 7 years. Uh I shared many times over the last 22 years that what caused me to become observant is the 22 years ago I had a heart attack. I had a cardiac arrest caused from uh too much drugs and I had a near-death experience and I was flatlined for 7 minutes. My soul left my body, went to a spin in the world above, came back down to the world to tell you what not to do. And uh but for 22 years I've been saying this story what caused me to become observant and uh for many different reasons. one piece a very important piece of the story was left out. So tonight you're going to hear uh that one piece and really the story is very long. I go straight to it and once I'm done the story then you'll see what's the opportunity because when I come and share my personal life is not to impress rather uh to offer each and every one of you an opportunity and the month of alul is the best month of opportunities because each and every one of you deep down in your heart you have wishes you have goals you have dreams you have prayers you want to find your other half you want to do good in business you want to settle down. Everybody has a lot of hopes, prayers, goals and of course when you get them then life is good but when you don't then you blame the entire world of all your misery and really push comes to shave. It doesn't matter who you are and what's your background. Jew, non-Jew, affiliated, observant, it doesn't matter. On Rosh Shah, the entire world gets assessed, gets judged. Hashem opens all the books. He looks at everything and he blesses each and every one of you. It doesn't matter how observant you are. It's not that if you have a long beard, you get a better blessing. Hashem doesn't look at your external part. Hashem looks in your heart. But nevertheless, it's it's for everyone. every individual, Jew, non-Jew, observant, not observant, that's the day that the master of the universe decides what's going to happen for the next year. And that's the day that you want to have on your record a very clean record, which means coming to that day with a clean record, not arriving that day and saying, "Okay, now I want to repent my bad actions." So the month of is the month where you work. Therefore, there's a a very famous teachings, a saying that it's called the king is in the field. What does it mean? The king is in the field. Some you have a meeting with the master of the universe. Field is a place of work. Is where you go to work. And a field is a place where you work hard. But if you plow the right way and you saw the right way, then eventually will grow good fruit, good vegetables. So it's a place that take it to more to a to to a mystical place not the actual field. It's a place that if you work hard and you plant good seeds then the growth will be the blessing of God. And that's why the king is when you do it when the king is in the field when he's looking when he see if you come to work on time if you put effort how much effort you put he's not looking for success he's not looking for results he's looking for effort. So, the opportunity that you have tonight that you're sitting here to hear a very unusual story that hopefully will make a switch in your life to understand something bigger than what you know so far. But before we start, >> we have more seats, please. >> I have a a request. Maybe some water. >> We have tequila. >> Tequila. >> Okay. Tequila. Okay. We'll start with tequila. I don't know how the night will end. >> Miami. We don't do water here. >> Listen, I have a whole case of my own alcohol, but then you need to give me a seat. You can't give me tequila and tell me stand up. Listen, I don't know how the lecture is going to end if you're feeding me alcohol, but it's all good. It's going to be a nice funny uh lecture. At some point, I might need to sit, but uh I don't know if you have enough there, but my story is very very long. I'm going to get straight to the point. I gave you a very quick h intro that I grew up very secular. For the ones of you who don't know my story, go tomorrow to YouTube, write Rabon near-death experience at a three-hour lecture there with my entire experience that really you have to hear it. It's what changed my life. My wife for 22 years is telling me you're telling the wrong miracle. The miracle is not how you came from the heavens to this world. The miracle is how you came from Chicago to New York. And that's the story you're going to hear tonight. So pay attention. And I recommend for the ones in the back to sit down. When I came to the United States, I was about 20, 21, and I came to the United States with one goal, to make a lot of money. And I didn't care what's in my way. I didn't care who's in my way or what I need to do to get to that goal. And when I came to America, I was kind of had to like run away from Israel because uh when I got out of the army, I was again looking to make what is that? Ara, we have tequila and arak. Okay. >> Mando night. I think I'm going to be lying down. >> I have a lot of here. >> We have the Iraq in the background. I think let me talk for like 2 hours then give me all the alcohol. So uh I came when I was about 21 with one mission that I want to make a lot of money. Now before I left Israel it's not that I left willingly. I got in trouble both with the law and both with the mafia there that it was very highly recommended that I just disappear. So, I came to the United States and again with one uh with one uh goal. If you don't mind questions till the end because we'll never finish unless you can't hear me then uh to turn the volume on. But >> we're good. >> I'll tell you why. Probably half your questions will be answers as I speak. But I came to the United States locked on my target. And when I came to the United States, I was already willing and dealing. I'm Israeli and a Jew and all that together put me in. So what I used to do at that time I used to produce parties the type of parties that unfortunately what we saw in the terror attack in October 7 that's the type of parties that I used to organize and needless to say be one of their participants. But uh I was going and doing very well. We did these big raves. We didn't call them parties. We call them trans parties. Everybody's on drugs, listening to trance and having a lot of fun. And I did that for the fun and mainly and also for the money. And very quickly I I understood that the money is not the party. If I want to make money out of this thing, then it's the drugs. It's selling the drugs. There's a phrase in the that says if you step forward and you want to do you want to repent then they'll assist you from the world above. This is called that's that you know what you're writing when you're writing that should give me help. The same phrase in the Talmud says, "If you want to become impure, then they'll open all the doors of impurity for you." So in Israel, we say it a little bit different. We say with the food comes the appetite. So we got our first connection and the first party and it was we were able to bring drugs for the first party. Everything went well and it was a matter of months before I started rolling doing parties and supplying the drugs to the own parties. And very quickly we found a lot of difficulties moving the drugs because this is not like a little baggie. This is sometimes was big baggies with a lot of stuff at the time. Like I said before, if you want to become impure that they'll they'll make you very impure. So I was attached here in Miami with a group of people that they had the the connections and the ability for a very small amount of money, whatever you want, they would be able to get you from any agency in this country. You want a social security, a green card, a driver's license, a passport, whatever, whatever you need. It's just a little envelope full of money and a few days to a few weeks and you have the original from the actual agency. Why is that so important? Because I needed to find a very creative way. How am I going to start moving the drugs from one place to another? And by the way, just for the the for if your interest, if I'm not talking about marijuana, talking about ecstasy, then it went to cocaine, then it went to heroin. It's it wasn't like a little baggies of weed. And Hashem made it work very easy, very well, very good. everything started going into action and I needed to find a way how I'm going to haul my uh little boxes from place to place and I found a very interesting loophole in the in the in the law that if I come to somebody's house as a mover and I sign you I sign your bill of ladying and an invoice and yeah you can sit here we have tequila So if I come to you as a mover and I sign you, make you sign a bill of lighting and an invoice and all the documents, whatever you put in the boxes that I put on my truck, I don't have any control over it. I don't have any responsibility. So with all these fake documents that we were doing, I had like 20 fake IDs. I had names from here to I was George, I was Alex, I was everybody. and uh with that created fake moving companies and that was another way of making a lot a lot of money through fraud and extortions and bad other bad things and on those uh fake which weren't real fake moving company I had about 140 tractor trailers running on the highways of the United States and in one of those trailers there's one box that nobody knows which truck it is all the trucks look the same and I only the one that knows where the boxes are moving moving from where to where and very very soon within a matter of two years this became a very smooth operating multi-million dollar operation and needless to say that the whole time I'm high on my own drugs parties all day long by the age of 24 I lived here in South Beach when South Beach was wasn't like today I'm talking about in the late '9s and I lived here and lived here like uh I don't even want to say like how I lived here. Had a something like that. Had a beautiful blue yellow Lamborghini. I had parties here. I was like all over the place. Money coming from all directions, parties. And as I said, with the food comes the appetite. I started becoming a name in the industry. I started moving to other people stuff. It became very very well organized. Nobody knew what's going on. I had the people who are around me and everything was working perfectly. And of course, when you're living this type of lifestyle, it's not that you're just sitting all day long happy. You're dealing with a very rough type of people and you're not dealing with nice people. So, it's all day long you have to be rough and tough and and at some point every good thing becomes sour. At some point, it became bad. It became I got involved with a lot of bad individuals that my entire lifestyle was all the time looking around all the time being armed. It became very bad became bad to a point that we're going to skip this for now. And uh at some point I was already living on the top of my uh top of my life. I'm 26 years old. Tons of money. I'm willing and dealing business everywhere. And one day out of the blue, I'm about 26 years old in one of my own parties, I take way too much drugs. I get a heart attack and I die. Which in that h event, you have to understand. By the way, I know you're now looking at me and you see this. Take your phone, write very quickly, Rabbi Lon, write the name before, and you'll see some pictures how I looked because that's I didn't look like this. Hair was long, piercings and earrings all over my face, tattoos all over my body. I I I allow you to check on your phone now, right, Rabbi Lonava? Before you'll see some pretty interesting pictures, and these are nice pictures. So my mom of course always like, "Why are you putting such horrible pictures?" Oh, I need to show people how horrible I looked. But the fact is now I might look a little bit of a nicer guy, more refined and uh you know, more observant. But reality 25 years ago I'm not necessarily sure you would want to meet me or would be very fond of the way I carried myself spoke behaved or act. So with that said about 26 years old I suffer a near-death experience from my own one of my own parties where my soul leaves my body goes to the world above. I see everything that's going on. and I see the entire truth come back here and I decide to change my life completely. So for about a year so that I became observant I you know for Torah wise I started eating kosher but not really kosher. I only didn't eat meat and dairy that was my kosher thing and I would put fill in every day in the morning and kush on Shabbat and very very little things. And the first year after this event really my chuva was to to start getting rid of my bad habits because I had a lot a lot of bad habits and not only physical addictions also so to just get rid of everything stop cheating stop lying stop behaving a certain way stop talking a certain way you know to wake up one day of your life from a certain lifestyle and say that's it I'm done I didn't really live a type of lifestyle that I could go to my associate and tell them, listen, I have decided to uh retire. Please find somebody else to haul your drugs. It's not the type of business that you untie ties when people, you know, who you doing it for. It's not the type of world that you just leave. So the first year after that event was not only to start adjust adjusting to the thought that I'm going to have to become now a much much much better person. It was starting to get rid of a lot of bad habits. And I'm not talking right now to getting rid of smoking drugs. I was six years abusing drugs. I had to get rid of everything. So first year was a very very difficult year just to start cleaning the external parts. But very soon before that year was over, one time my mom comes to visit me from Israel. And uh she finally sees her son looks normal. Every time she would come to visit me, I look like a drug addict, like a horrible how I looked. Finally, she sees like a normal individual. I cut all my hair, took all the piercings out, dressed normal, had a nice house. She didn't know what's going on. She just sees a nice life. And one night in uh during that visit about 5:00 in the morning, I hear banging on the door, but strong strong banging, which being how I lived for 6 years, banging on the door doesn't sound good. That's not good news. Not a neighbor telling you you left the lights on in your car. I go to the door 5:00 in the morning. I look at the hall. I see about 20 men standing outside, all with FBI vests. The guys in the back are already armed. I run to the back of the house. Now, again, being how I lived my life, all the windows are always shut, always drapes, never sunlight in my in my house. I run to the back. I lift up a few of the drapes to see what's going on in the back. The whole house is surrounded. FBI, DEA, marshals, helicopters in the air. You can't even imagine how they came to take me. It was two months after 911. So, they weren't playing. They came to take me like a bin Laden. So, I'm looking in the hole. I'm looking. I'm going to that side of the house, looking through the window, looking through that window. I see the entire house is surrounded, but not with three cops. Half an army is there. No way to leave this apartment. And I have about five minutes to think what am I doing because they're already they're already banging the door. So being who I was, I run to my bedroom to my uh closet and I push all the clothes aside and the first two machine guns that are on the wall I take down and I go and stand in front of the door like you said like a Tony Montana. I'm like, I'm not they're not taking me down. Like a psychopath with machine guns. They're knocking on the door. And in my mind, I'm like, I'm not going out of this. Then I remember that my mom is in the next room sleeping. And all this is in seconds. The door there this they're banging on the door the seconds before they're in the house. And I'm thinking and I'm looking at my mom and I'm like, I can't do this to her. I can't have her wake up to see her son with 50 bullets on the floor. And this is all in 3 4 seconds. I have to think what I'm doing. And of course, I put the guns down and they break the door. And within seconds, I'm on the floor. 20 30 agents are in my house ripping the whole house apart. So they arrest me. And of course in my arrogant mind, I'm like, "Okay, they don't know nothing. I'll get out of here in an hour and a half." They take me downtown. I'm sitting in front of a judge. Comes to me this greasy Italian lawyer. He tells me, "You know what you're in for?" I'm like, "No." He throws on the table something that looks like a yellow pages. I know you all are too young to know what's yellow pages. It was once a book that kind of like Chad GPT, but it had you work. Instead of having somebody work for you, you had to work. That was their ad. Make your fingers work. So, it was a book, it was a Google and a book. So, uh, since usually it would be like this thick and it would be to hold the door from the wind. So this lawyer throws like a little page yellow pages on the table and I'm like just going through the pages and I'm like just give me the summary. This is going to take me a whole month to read. So then the prosecutor starts talking and they start reading the counts. 49 counts in a federal case and I'm listening to one count after the other and they're talking about everything and everything. not what I'm waiting for them to say. And right after that, the prosecutor saying, "We're continuing to investigate the connection to drug trafficking and drug manufacturer and selling." And and then he dropped the bomb and saying, "And we're still investigating the connection to terrorism cuz I would bring Israeli workers from Israel. We would get them legal very quickly and then they would work." So for them, it looked like we're bringing terrorists into the country. very quickly I understood that this is not going to be like an overnight thing. So I go through the process of being arrested and all that and they bring me to my uh floor which I walk in with my little uh bag of junk. I sit down big room 3 400 inmates and I starting to digest okay this is going to be the next period of my life. These are going to be my new friends. And I keep looking at the clock and about 30 seconds after I sat down, I'm looking at the hands of the clock. And the second that I focused, the hand turns at 7:12 exactly Shabbat comes in. I knew exactly when Shabbat comes in. And I understand that Hashem is telling me, in other words, you thought I'm playing with you, right? And that's when it started resonated that okay my life has just changed and uh I end up sitting close to two years in jail which that really is where I did chuva. I didn't do chuva in a yeshiva with air conditioning and a rabbi and a and a cup of coffee and tequila. Okay. My chuva was on the floor bleeding to death because I had a lot of fun for two years. I was in a maximum security lockup cuz they thought I'm a terrorist. And uh looking back, I have a lot of inspiring stories. As it was going, that wasn't fun. At some point, I was locked up in Oklahoma. Oklahoma is the main shipping and receiving prison of the federal prisoners. And uh it's such a prison. Google it now. You'll see it's a prison. It has a runway. The plane lands in the prison. And they move the convicts on a plane like Conair Air. That's where they got the there the the moving from. That's how they move the convicts. And uh the problem I had in Oklahoma is that that in prison you need a gang. If you don't have a gang, you have a problem. So the blacks are with the blacks, the Hispanics are with the Hispanics. And and I didn't have a gang. So for about a year, I didn't even talk to anyone. There was nobody to talk to. And there was one gang in that specific prison. there were white supremacists, you know, swastikas on their face. They didn't like me. Uh especially that I was starting to do chuvine jail. So I demanded to give me kosher food. So bed wasn't such a good idea cuz I would get my food like on a al flight all with wrapped in islands and everybody would be like what what's that? I'm like so of course I had to play the part. I mean listen I I I came prepared. I had to play the part. So, luckily for me, I knew to play the part, but it wasn't really fun there because there was this group of white supremacists that they were doing giving me hell. Three times they tried to kill me. One time they choked me and I was unconscious for 3 weeks. It was like every day uh a thousand years of suffering. It's that's where I did my cha. That's where Hashem crushed me into becoming this big because I was arrogant and I was disgusting and vulgar and impatient and judgmental. Everything bad that you can think. That's how I was. That nothing in this world will make me change. But Hashem took me on a very short journey and he made me this big. And I'm telling you now, it's not the time to share. But I have stories from jail. Much better than sitting in yeshiva. If you want somebody to do chuva, put him in jail. They'll sing whatever they want or just give them a lot of acid. That's what my friend used to say. At some point after about a year, I was transported to New York cuz that's where my case was. And in New York was a little bit of a change because when I came to New York in the process of uh receiving the inmates, so I sat in a little room and there's I don't know like 20 inmates in the room and lay next to me sits a guy and one of the officers comes in and she's like, "Anybody here speaks Russian?" Of course, nobody nobody answers. So she speaks Russian to the she speaks English to this guy. He answers her in Russian. No communication. Then she gets frustrated and leave the room. And then he bumps my hand. He's like, he tells me with a heavy Russian accent. You see how I'm making a joke out of her? I was like, what? You talk? It was like the the the donkey of of Bilam. Suddenly somebody opens his mouth. Oh, here. I didn't communicate with anyone. I would talk to the woman to Hashem. Suddenly we start talking. And this was like a real funny character. This was a Russian guy, about 85, 86 years old. Grew up somewhere in Siberia. I don't know. He was fighting bears when he was a little boy, eating nails for breakfast. I don't know what how they made that guy. He was this big, rough, like like I never seen anything like that. And you know why he was in jail? Because his friend got arrested for dealing ecstasy bills. The feds came to him and told him, "We know that you know information about your friend." and he's like don't tell me nothing. So they gave me two years. So suddenly I have a friend. You know what it is after 13 months I have a friend. And then I come into my uh floor and I go into my room and I noticed that my room was a little bit different than the rest of the rooms. And then I got a little bit of looks too many looks at me and very quickly I found who's going to be my roommate for the next year. My roommate in New York was the number two guy in the Gambino family in the mafia family in New York. The second hand on John Gardi sat with me. So we became the three musketeers. The Jew, the mobster, the Catholic mobster and the Russian and the grizzly bear. Suddenly, you know what it is? After a year and I sat down, suddenly I had apples. coffee. You know, jail coffee, it's like black water. You if you want to get sick to get some sick days, you drink the coffee. Suddenly I had coffee. Newspaper. You know what it is? Newspaper. So suddenly everything changed. Everything was good. A good to what extent? And suddenly one day one already sitting in New York. First of all, at some point the fun was over. They moved me to a different floor and then again became very rough. But at some point I got called to the to the court and uh had a new lawyer and the new lawyer tells me, "Listen, they approved bail. Can you get money?" And I'm like, "Yeah, what are we talking about?" So it was a very difficult bail. They wanted three people to come and sign, give deeds to the house and $1.7 million in cash. Three days, 33 point three times a day had to go to the sheriff and sign up. I had an ankle based bracelet. I couldn't move out of the borrows. a very very difficult bail. But they let me out. Okay, 3 minutes out of jail, my mind already, okay, what am I doing? I'm out. So I had a bold idea. I'm just going to sell everything that I have for whatever I can liquid liquidate. And the same crew that I used to bring people in this country, I will use them to get myself out of the country and then I will disappear off the face of the earth, live in some island, I don't know, in the in the end of the world. And that's it. And that's going to be my life. So for two weeks I tried to sell everything that I owned. I had trucks, warehouses, whatever. Nothing. Couldn't sell one thread. Nobody wanted to talk to me, especially anyone in the industry. I just heard my name. No. Two weeks later, my lawyer calls me and tells me, "You got to come in. The feds are asking a lot of questions. They they something's going on." I go downtown. I go into a room, big room, sits there. DA agents, FBI agents, district attorney, prosecy. They're all there. And they start throwing pictures on the table. Who's this? Who's this? What's your connection to this guy? I don't know. Never saw him. At some point, after like 40 minutes of them like trying to fish, one of them gets up and tells me, "Listen, we know that you know all of them. We know all your connections to all of them, and we need you to kind of clear out what's going on here." And on from this point about eight months of almost every day I was interrogated. They drove me nuts. But it's not like a questionnaire that you're sitting with a cup of coffee and uh answering questions. You're being very harshly interrogated. So I go out of jail and then I meet a whole new thing to deal with. But two weeks after I go out of jail, many of people are familiar with my other story. So about two weeks after I go out of jail, I meet a friend who sees a lot of stress on my face and tells me why don't you come tonight? You know, there's a evening in I lived in in New York. It was in Manhattan. She was like, "Why don't you come tonight?" And you know, a lot of young people, you know, relaxed. And in my mind, I'm like as you know, what do you want from me now? And then she told me the magic phrase, "Maybe you'll meet someone." I was like, "Okay, where are we going?" And you know what stupid I am? I'm facing 40 years in jail. Okay, let's go look for women. That night there was a big room in as was expected, but I really didn't feel comfortable there because I had a lot on my mind. And uh I didn't feel comfortable just leaving the room. It was kind of like a setup like this. For me to go to the door means I have to excuse me, excuse me. Everybody sees that I'm leaving. So I moved myself very classy, very slow with my tequila till I got to the door and I ran out. But I didn't run out into the out of the building. I ran into theet into the shul. And the rabbi is standing in the table, 30 people around the table. And the rabbi tells me, "Come, come, come. We didn't start. And in my mind, I'm like, how am I getting out of that? I'm like, no, it's Listen, it's very late. I I am I have a very early bedtime. He was very persistent. He's like, "Okay, I'm cheving. Relax." Chevv means to sit. But nevertheless, that was the first time in my life that I ever heard Torah. Prior to that, I didn't have any Torah background. And the only Torah that I had, they gave me in jail a Tanakh, what they give soldiers in Israel. It's like about this big. And you need like a microscope to maybe figure out what is written there. So for 2 years, I had one Tanak. I read the entire Tanakh 500 times, backwards, forwards, up and down. So I never heard Tua. That was the first Torah class that was ever in my life. And I was mesmerized. I was glued to this rabbi. I couldn't even stop listening. comes the end of the class and I tell him, you know, you wow, how do you know so much stuff? Anyways, he invited me to the next uh class and very quickly I became friendly with this rabbi and very quickly I figured out that he's a little bit out there. So, I was uh comfortable. I was able to tell him my personal story that I had 3 years prior that nobody knew. And he was the first one who pushed me to go to yeshiva and then I started learning very quickly and it's all matters of weeks what I'm telling you. And then >> at that point I was already 28 going on 29 already. Uh so very quickly the burden of the whole jail thing you have to understand that the night where I met the rabbi the next day I had to be in a court appearance and I couldn't leave the room. I was so mesmerized by the Torah class. I couldn't leave the room that the next day I was late to my own court hearing. They got so pissed off. And that day they legally took everything that I owned, trucks, warehouses, real estate that year when I was trying to become a little bit better. So I started laundering a lot of money. So I had tons of real estate and all they took everything that I owned. They left me with nothing. And when I asked, "Why are you taking money?" They answer they your investigation cost $11 million. I asked to be investigated. Don't investigate. Investigate somebody else. I need to pay the bill. Why don't you just come? I will tell you everything. We would save this $1 million. But nevertheless, that day, that really what really was what broke me. And I'm just You get the idea. We're looking here at an amount close to 50 $50 million. Everything was taken in one shot. What's interesting was they left me the house where I was arrested. Uh my mom was there when I got arrested. So she packed the entire house. So I had a whole household in storage, but a beautiful, beautiful house. One car they didn't touch, a brand new Cadillac Escalade that was left in Chicago and a few private things that I told my mom to bring to me to uh New York. And when I came out of jail, that's what I had. And it was funny cuz every time I would put a a suit on or a pants on, put my my pants in hands in my pocket. There's money here, my money everywhere, but I really didn't have anything. The joke was that I used later on the card to sell it to pay for my wedding cuz I didn't have any money. And the whole whole household I had like an entire house. In the beginning when I came out of jail, I would drive this beautiful Cadillac, beautiful, gorgeous clothes, all Versace Hugo boss, beautiful clothes, beautiful watches. I look like a million dollars. I didn't even had a dollar to my name. I used to do an Uber then. But nevertheless, uh, so that day the core takes everything from me. I'm going through eight months of hell. So very quickly I told this rabbi that I became very close. So I told him, listen, there's another problem that I have and this is the situation and this is who I was and I'm in big trouble now and I'm looking at 40 years in jail and probably I can't do anything about it and if they crack everything and they find out everything else, it's going to be 400 years in jail and I really don't know what to do. I already accepted in my mind I accepted that I'm going to be in yeshiva for 40 years. That was my Hashem wants me to be in yeshiva. You know what it is to sit in jail and learn Torah. No distractions. You don't have to worry about your money. You don't have to worry about a wife, taking care of a wife. No distractions. No, nothing. Four cement walls. Just you and the book. I mean, I was like, I'm going to go out of the jail 40 years later knowing the inside out. That's it. I need something better than that. So in my mind I was afraid but I told my rabbit listen the situation is a pretty bad situation and you know I'm I nobody knows and I don't know what to do. I expected like a deep educated uh like warming strengthening answer. He told me it's a test. A test. I'm looking at 40 years in jail. What test are you talking about here? The most annoying answer you want to get. It's a test. Really? I haven't noticed. Didn't notice that it was a test. I thought it was something completely different. But he was so adamant. He was like, "What? What? What? What don't you see here?" He told me, "Shabbat torah. You'll be fine." Told him that's it. He's like, "Yeah, just observe Shabbat. Put fill in. Learn Torah. guard your breath. That's it. You'll be fine. It's a test from Hashem. And I was so naive in a positive way that I not only believed him, I was like bouncing two worlds. In one way, I'm becoming completely observant and bouncing two worlds. In one way, I'm becoming completely observant and like diving into the world of the Torah. Like I'm telling you, I immerse myself. I knew there's no other option. There's no places for mistakes. But at the same time, I'm dealing with the feds that are here like trying to crack whatever they're trying to do to figure out how they can even get me more in trouble. And that wasn't fun at all. At some point after about 8 months, suddenly my wife, which was then not the my wife, appears into my life, which that blal was the like a rose in a desert. And uh we have a very interesting story because we we were the night that I came to that esha da we were introduced but she she didn't find me so interesting then I came out of jail I didn't look so uh you know refined and uh and then she saw me again half like 8 months later after I came out of yeshiva so it was like the before and after but nevertheless so the you know we somehow got matched you saying from Manhattan it was all in Anyways, uh, so we go on our first date and she tells me, I hear you have like some crazy story how you became observant. So I told her, you want to hear? No problem. Normally when I go on a on a lecture, it's like a 2-hour lecture. That was like a 9-hour date. I gave her like the full the full version and then somehow she agreed to another date. And I listen, I go I go with the flow. And uh we're sitting for a cup of coffee and I sat like her like with my legs crossed and suddenly she's like, "Uh, what's that on your leg?" I'm like, "Oh, it's nothing. You can totally ignore it." I had an ankle bracelet that beeped every time that I would move the wrong way. So, I had to tell her, "Wait, wait a minute." I tell her, "Oh, no. I'm starting a new trend. You'll see. Everybody going to be walking with those bracelets once I figure out how I get cut it off." But, nevertheless, she sees it. So, I told her, "Listen, uh, I'm in a little bit of a situation. Uh, I'm on bail. I'm out on bail. And, uh, you know, how you tell a lady you're standing in front of, listen, uh, I was once But nevertheless, second date, I told her the whole story. And again, somehow she agreed for a third date. She probably wanted to know how it ends, like how season 2 ends. What happened at the end? They got you. But nevertheless, a few dates into that, you know, I told her literally I opened all the books like in front of Hashem. She knew everything. She knew what she's getting into. And believe it or not, she also said it's an issue. >> But nevertheless, a few weeks later, she agreed to marry me. And uh yeah, up until today, she's she's she doesn't know what how she to reverse the mistake. But uh what was I thinking? But nevertheless, no, I think she's happy. How can she not be happy? All day long I go out every night to lectures. She barely sees me. But anyways, at some point met I I I asked her to marry me. She agreed. And I had one side my rabbi telling me, "Don't worry, it's an ision." And my wife was like, "No, no, it's a test. I see how it's a test." And then came the day of my trial, which was a month after my wedding. And I walked into that room like I'm coming out for a honey dinner at 7, right? The level of amuna that I had and the level of that I had, I was I wasn't even questioning if I'm coming home tonight or not. There's a place in the Torah that says kings and presidents are in the hands of Hashem. You see a big king or a big president, a ruler talks, that's Hashem's puppet. Hashem can make anyone talk and do whatever he wants. I come and appear in front of my judge. And the judge starts talking to me like I'm his friend. I see you chose yourself a completely different path. I'm very inspired and happy and proud to see you chose to change your life. He starts giving me a, you know, a whole sermon of how happy he is. I see I think you already served your your time. You're a different person. I see. And he sentenced me to a year probation and a $1,000 fine. Shock in the courtroom. Nobody understands what's going on. A year probation. And I was so I was like, "Listen, your honor, I don't have money. I'm broke completely. Can I pay the $1,000 in installments? He didn't like that so much. But and I'm like, of course, you have to understand, everybody in the room is shocked. And I sit down, you know, and I look back and and my Lord tells me, don't get that excited because you're going to go out of the room and the immigration is probably waiting outside because you don't have any status. Immigration never came. First year of my marriage, every knock on the door. Honey, get the suitcases. Immigration never came. Seven years never came. And like this, by the way, this is I'm just now beginning the miracles. You know that that right after I got married, my wife is American. We try to uh get a green card. So imagine that I go to the immigration and by that time I already have a American wife and an American kid. And I come, we're all happy and smiling and everybody's, "How are you? We're doing great." And and we start the interview. All first questions go amazing. Do you work? Yeah. Yeah. Everything is great. And then we get to question number 20. Have you ever been arrested? So I said, "Uh, yeah. Do you have any supporting evidence of the event?" So I brought my yellow pages from home and I placed it gently on the table like And the top the top of the sentencing, the first page of the 47 pages, it says as follows. Knowingly and intentionally conspired to possess fraudulent green cards, count number one. So she's like, uh, are you serious? So, I got the don't call us, I'll call you Luke. And needless to say, that that didn't go well. And every application we filed, we got the same denied. At some point, we went to some guy that my wife's best friend's father's best friend is some big shot in the FBI. So, we went to him. I show him all my paperwork. He's looking at everything and he's like, "You have some." And this is coming from a gentile. And he's like, "Listen, if you were, I don't know, if you were a killer, I would be able to help you. But that you you have some hutbah." So no hope, no nothing. But one day, 7 years later, one day I come to the mailbox and I see an invitation from the immigration to come and do fingerprints. Somehow I get called for an interview. By that time I'm coming already with a wife and three kids. We walking into a room and I see a deja vu sits there another official and he starts giving me he gave me like a 20 minute mish. He opened up his mouth and how dare you come to this country and rape this country. And in my mind, I'm like, "Where should we live?" He's screaming. I don't even know what he's screaming. And in my mind, I'm like, "Okay, where should we live?" I'm like, "I'm going out of this room like that." And suddenly he flips and he gives me the same thing. I see you're a change man. And I'm like, here we go again with this change man. And then he starts complimenting me. I see you changed your path. Blah blah blah. And then he tells me, I have great respect to the Jews. I was a Shabbat go in Bora Park for 30 years. And uh and uh and you know what's interesting that he he told me he went like this and he's like he was looking out for you. Imagine that. This man points out to this guy and he tells me he was looking out for you because for seven years you weren't in the system. Your name disappeared from the system. It doesn't make sense that you weren't picked up, that you weren't arrested and thrown out of this country for good. And somehow your name popped up in the system and somehow you were called to an interview. He told me, "Get me this and this and this document. I'll get you your green card." But anyways, why am I telling all of you this? Because by the way, I can continue now. Another miracle and another miracle. I need to stop for a second to start making a little bit of order in what I'm telling you here. And by the way, every step of my life was like that the second that I gave God the opportunity. The point why I share this part of my story and by the way for 20 years I didn't share this part of the story. First of all and most important a little bit embarrassing to come and stand in front of a a group of people and tell them I will remind you some of my sins today. So that in itself is not so easy especially how I led my lifestyle which I'm happy that I have these feelings which means that the remorse and the regret is kicking in. If you are not so happy to say about something that you did, if you say it proudly, you didn't do chuva. When you're saying it like, "Yeah, but yeah, it wasn't that bad." Then I can tell you that the regret is kicking in. So, it's not so easy to stand in front of a group of people and tell them how I used to behave. Especially that a lot of these group of people are students and followers that are following me for 10, 15 years and suddenly I'm telling them, "By the way, this rabbit you think is so nice that wasn't that nice. But what do you expect? How do you expect a man when he's 27 years old to get a heart attack from drugs? What do you think? I was a doctor, an engineer. So, first of all, for many years, I didn't think it's right or appropriate and embarrassing, and I had the whole legal part that I couldn't say too many things. But for 20 years, my wife is telling me, you're sharing the wrong miracle. The miracle is not how you came from the world above to this world. The miracle is how you came from Chicago to New York because for 15 years almost 20 years actually I would come to a lectures share my near-death experience story with all the the information one needs to know and I would always get to this part and say somehow I came back to New York and my wife is telling me that's the wrong miracle because the near-death experience happened to me should I become observant because without that I will never become observant. And Hashem has his ways of making each and every one of you come closer to the Torah. Just be careful not to play too much with fire. If you resist Hashem's will too much, it's not doesn't end good. Best to always subdue yourself and and uh humble yourself to Hashem, he will make you successful. But for many years, I didn't say this part because all the information I told you. That's really that is really the big miracle. And when Hashem does a miracle to you, you have to say it to other people. You have to go to other people and say, "Hashem did a miracle to me." As embarrassing as it might be and as it might sound not so good or doesn't make you look so good, but Hashem does a miracle to you have to advertise it. The reality is that each and every one of you has challenges in your life. You have uh difficulties, you have tests. The reality is that each and every one of you right now here and probably the thousands that are on the call and any person in the world on the outside you smile, business as usual, everything's great, but inside there's a storm of emotions and one person is dealing with financial issues, which is usually most people. And then a lot of people are dealing with how to find their match their other half and then the health department and many other places in their life. Everybody has challenges in their life. Some people have very good attitude and on the outside they're smiling, good mood, making things work but they still deal with the challenges. The bottom line is that we all facing challenges. The reality is everybody has challenges that for them it's the biggest thing ever. That could be that right now in your life your challenges are under control. But most people at some point in their life and I see that most people it's right now they have big things that they're juggling in their life and everywhere that I go and I've been now two months on tour. I'm traveling all around the United States. Every night I meet a another group of people different cities different communities different faces. Everybody on the outside looks one way, but don't forget that you are all looking to this direction and for the last hour I'm looking to this direction and I see what per what happens to a person inside. It's very simple because the face of a person projects exactly what's inside. That's why in Hebrew the words make a lot of sense. The word for face in Hebrew is panim and panim comes from panim whatever is going inside. That's what reflects on your face. You're happy. You're sad. You're worried. Besides the fact that I don't know, I said that many times. I probably look like a wall. Everybody always comes to me at the corner, puts their head on me, starts crying like as if I'm the Kot Marav, the willing wall in Israel, putting notes in my pockets. 700 names to pray for. Always notes. Never checks. Just notes. Here's my entire uh tribe, 2,783 names. I need you to pray. It's in my group. But why am I saying that? Because everybody has serious issues in their life then everybody's looking for advice. What should I do? The point is that Hashem puts you in a situation because he wants you to make space for him to come and fix all your problems and to be the hero of the day. So, Hashem loves presenting you with a situation. You are now lost. You don't have any advice what to do. You're lo you're in a dead end. And Hashem says, "All you need to do is surrender. Move to the side. Make some room. I'll come in and save the day. The reason why most people don't experience a miracle in their life because they don't know how to make room for Hashem to be there. Anyone can get a miracle. And I've seen, I'm telling you, in the last 20 years, miracles, tumors disappear, death sentences change everything. I'm a living miracle. Everything in my path, I walk I walk on a path of miracles. Nothing that that I say makes sense even half what I say I know a lot of people in the crowds are like few weeks ago I sat in a different location in a different city lecture exactly same lecture and I'm telling all everything and we're talking comes to me a man at the end of the lecture and he tells me rabbi I have to ask for your apology and I'm go ahead I like apologies nobody ever comes to apologize so maybe you were the first. But nevertheless, he tells me, "I'm sitting in your class and for the first half an hour, all that I could think of looking at you is that look at that phony, that liar, who's this charlatan, this this what where does he come up with that?" And he tells me that for half an hour he's sitting and probably half of you in the crowd also thinking that. And he's like, "Where does he come up with that nonsense?" And he's like, uh, you know, and then he says that he calls his friend who happens to be an FBI agent and he tells him, "Can you run a name for me?" as the lectures going. And the friend gets back to him a few minutes later and tells him, "There's so much s ends with a T about this guy. I can't I don't even know how to send you all this. I'll just send you his indictment. And the guy told me, "Haven't you seen me going from the end skipping chairs?" I was like, he's like, I couldn't believe it. In the beginning, he didn't come and tell me the story like that. He came and asked me a question and I told him by how you asking it's how would you know such a thing? And I told him only if you have somebody from the inside, you know what you just said. He's like, "Yeah, yeah, my friend is a fed." So I and I recorded him. I was like, "Can I record you?" Because I know that I sit in lectures and people are like, "This guy's like a little wacko." Really, I don't care. In case you haven't noticed, I don't really care what you think. I care what God thinks. I speak truth. I only walk on the path of truth. Whether you believe me or not, that's your problem. It's not my problem. I don't exaggerate, lie, add, to remove. I come in the name of Hashem. But I know that many people sit in the crowd and doubt because the story is extreme. But the reason why I'm willing to come and stand here and tell that because each and every one of you needs at some point or will need a miracle in your life. And it's very easy to activate a miracle. You just need to know to make room for Hashem to come in and do the miracle. And it's all about how you look up to Hashem. And a lot of people get it confused. They think, "Oh, if I'm very observant, then Hashem really likes me." But the truth is that Hashem likes each and every one of us in a personal way. He doesn't care at this point how observant you are. I have seven kids. They're all here. I brought my wife and all my kids. Two months I'm here in America. We were all over the place. Miami, best for last. my my uh my home place. Now I take my boys. You see that corner over there? You see this car? But I slept my wife, my kids, they all come with me. And why am I saying that? I love my kids equally. Each one looks completely different, behaves different, goes on a completely different path. I don't interfere, but they're all different. And many people say, "Which one you like the most? The one that like is the most like you that comes with you to the shoe?" And uh I love them all equally. Doesn't matter their color. So, so much more. So, Hashem, it doesn't matter how observant you are to grade how much Hashem loves you. Hashem loves you whether you're observant or not. You're not observant, he's not happy. But he still loves you. He doesn't dislike you because you don't agree with certain things or you don't go on a certain path. I also have kids. I learned from my kids. King David is one of my role models. And he says, "I have learned from all of my teachers. Any person that comes in front of me is my teacher. If I'm humble enough, you will teach me something. If I'm arrogant, you won't teach me nothing. and I'll stay stupid as I started. Therefore, a smart individual knows how to lower themselves cuz you would learn something from any person. Most parents are very narrow-minded. They think they need to educate the kids. It's usually the kids that educate the parents. Smart parents look at the kids and they take from that what they need to do. So, I look at my kids and I learn my respon my my relationship with God. So I can clearly tell you that each and every one of you, God loves you in a very personal way. He loves all your jokes, all your nonsense. He likes who you are and be in four closed doors cuz really you're not the same person. There's you that in is in front of everybody is and the you that is in four closed doors that nobody sees, right? Let's cut to the chase. Put music now next to people. Everybody's like, uh, put the same song in a room and nobody's there. You are busting moves. Come on. I'm also in a room sometimes with four closed doors. I will not dance next to you how I dance in a closed room. So, what I'm saying is that Hashem knows all your nonsense. He knows all your little lies and all your little stickicks. The point what you need to take from what I told you tonight besides the rest of the messages is how do you make room to Hashem to come into your life? Cuz Hashem is not looking at you right now and he says, "Oh, did you put felin on in the morning?" No, you didn't put feline. No money for you. It's not the suknazi that is like uh of course Hashem wants you to be observant and come close to you and do mitzvot. It's for your benefit. You're not doing anybody a favor. By the way, when you observing the Torah, you're not doing anybody a favor and definitely not Hashem. You're doing it for yourself. But besides that, every individual is met at some point in their life and could very much be that only of you are in that point in your life that you're in a dead end. There's a good chance that you all here at some point in your life that you need that breakthrough. Whether it's in finance, finding your other half, building a family, getting pregnant, whatever it is, getting rid of some lawsuit that is driving you nuts, or a million and one other things in your life that you can't deal with. And really, it's Hashem that's bringing you to this point that you're stuck. And he's bringing you to a point that there's no advice, there's no solutions. Whatever you try, it's not going to work. because he wants you to come to the point by saying I surrender and I'm going to let you do that and the second that you move aside and you're saying Hashem your problem then you'll see how Hashem kicks in and changes everything in your life I'm telling you I saw things in my life that doesn't make sense only the hand of Hashem can do such a thing and that's not only the two stories I told you it's every part of my life the second that I surrender myself and I make room for Hashem. Hashem kicks in and he never fails. And I'm telling you, I was the most arrogant person in the world. I was arrogant, full of gaga. >> How do you know how to make room form every time? >> He's asking, "How do you know how to make room for Hashem?" Or >> Yeah. >> How? Yeah. >> Or how do you know when to make? >> When to make is always >> you always make room for a ship. And again, I'm repeating myself because it's very important because a lot of people look at me and they think this is the model that if I need to activate that, then I need to be this. Every individual has to be who they are. Yes, we're all following the same Torah. Whatever I'm commanded, you commanded. I'm not arguing. You decide what you want to do. It's your problem, not my problem. I already had my uh sentences in the world above. I know not to come there empty-handed anymore. That's why I make a recommendation. But it's important because a lot of people think, oh, like I said before, the more I'm observant, the more I'm close to Hashem, or if I'm not observant, nothing will happen in my life. No, not true. Of course, Hashem wants you closer to him. That means that when do you make room for Hashem? always >> how it's very very very simple when I became observant I didn't have a rabbi I didn't have a guide I didn't have anything I had a friend that he would tell me little things to do and when I became observant he bought me a little piece of leather book that has in it a very special letter it's called the letter of and two years in jail that's what I that was the Torah in my mind because That's what I would learn the first year when I was observing. It's two two pages and I read it so many times that that was the only thing that was stuck in my mind when I was in jail. Tomorrow here in the shul and then uh Wednesday and Thursday uh North Miami and in uh Fort Lauderdale, one lecture after the other. They're all going to be live. I'm going to give all the the components of how you make room for Hashem. But the Ramban says there when I reread it the first time and then read it over and over, every sentence there made a home run. It's like genius advice. And one sentence there is so powerful because he says humble yourself and Hashem will start raising you. Simple advice almost impossible to do because Hashem says, "I want you to lower yourself and then you'll see how I will raise you." And that's the key. That's how you make room for Hashem. You humble yourself. How you humble yourself? >> Good luck. >> I was about to say something like that. Good luck. >> Uh, how do you humble yourself is you put Hashem number one. >> You you how what did your what do you say >> Mosher Rabenu? I mean listen Mosha Rabenu got the title. He was the most humble person in history. Now really Mosha Rabeno technically should have gotten a different title because all the great leaders got titles. >> So excuse me >> you just keep right like so it reminds you that hem is above you. If a keepa reminds you that Hashem is above you, >> the keepa is not there to remind you that Hashem is above you is showing respect to the that is above you that you cover your head. >> Then told me otherwise >> there's many many explanations for everything but that's off the topic. >> That's >> listen of course. So how so how would the women remind? They don't need to be reminded or should they be reform and putas so or maybe Yankees hats but nevertheless that's not the point. The point is that you have to remember you have to put Hashem in front of you constantly. Every path that you walk you have to see how Hashem is there. And again the name of the game here is not to think cuz I was also once very very secular. The name of the game is not to think, oh, the more observant I get, the more scores I point with Hashem and then more Hashem will hear my prayers, then it's not the right analysis. Of course, like I said, one needs to be aligned with Hashem. If you're not, it's not going to work. But when you are tested, observant or not, Hashem is constantly tested. You're testing your reaction. And the first reaction that he's testing is how much you believe that what's going on in your life came from Hashem. And that is really what required from you because you know when a a husband and wife are together and they're conceiving a child, the Talmud says that the second that the child has been conceived, a special angel comes down to this world, takes the drop, goes up to God, shows God this drop, and says this drop, what's going to be the result of this drop? Would it be a man or a woman? It's going to be tall or short, blonde, brunette, black eyes, blue eyes, strong, brave, coward, funny. What's going to be this uh this individual? And the heavenly voice says everything is going to be designed by God. Every characteristic, every detail, everything is going to be by the hands of God besides. And I'm sure you heard the term and translated it to being afraid of God, which is that's the translation, fear of God. But if you write the word in Hebrew, it's al if you change the punctuation just a little bit, you don't even change the order of the letters, you just change the the dots, then you read it. So you can read it. What does that mean? That I see shama means God. That I see God in everything. That in every situation that happens to me in my life, I see that it's the hand of God. It wasn't a coincidence. It wasn't because I didn't prepare right. It wasn't because I didn't try enough. It because that was the will of Hashem. Now, when you reach to the level that you see Hashem in everything, you're not afraid at this point. You just see that every little delay that when you miss, you can't find your keys and you're going crazy and you're turning the whole house upside down. Instead of cursing, losing your patience, screaming at your wife, going wild, relax. Sit down. >> Hold on. This is not a discussion. Sit down. Relax. Say a little prayer. Hashem is now holding you from being somewhere. Understand? Hashem is holding you. And like this is with everything in your life. A certain business deal didn't work out. Don't start becoming angry at the entire world and looking who to blame. And I'm what I'm saying now is not the conclusions. It's more answering him. How do you make space for Hashem? Because I started on the left side the most arrogant. I thought I had control over everything that it's my word, my decision, my power, my effort. Then Hashem took me on a ride and made me this big. Don't Don't let Hashem crush you because when Hashem takes you through the machine, he he do it yourself. That's my humble advice. If Hashem puts you through the grinder machine, but Hashem made me this big. When I internalize that, humble yourself, Hashem is going to start raising you. And you just need to see in every situation in your life how Hashem is the one who designed it for you. and humble yourself by accepting that that's the will of Hashem. And the more you practice that, the more room you make for Hashem. And the more room you make for Hashem, that's where Hashem starts blessing you. What you need at the right time. Not everything you need to to get exactly when you want it. Most of the stuff that you want, you either not going to get or it's destined to come in a different time. And you don't want to push it. You want to bring yourself to a point where you know how to invite yourself Hashem into your life. Besides how, what, and who, and when, in a few minutes I'm going to finish. You can ask me all your questions. Then we'll start the discussion. Then I'll have a few more tequilas. Then you can uh pick my brain. But before you pick my brain, I told you in the beginning that you're going to have an opportunity tonight. The opportunity starts when you go out of that door. And that at that point, I can't help you anymore. I will can bring you to the door and now you have to go out of this door and how you going to go out of this door tonight that's how you're going to grab your opportunity because the reality is that each and every one of you was invited by Hashem tonight personally to come and sit here not by Steve sorry Hashem invited you each and every one of you because many wanted to Some couldn't find a babysitter or those that don't need a babysitter or had maybe had a date but many wanted to come couldn't come and some was standing there I don't know who's more tired me or them while I swing but each and every one of you were was selected by Hashem to come here tonight hear what I have to say believe or not that's your choice and to choose how you're taking the message out of the door if you are just uh Okay, whatever. Funny story. Yeah, whatever. And leave. Okay, so you wasted your time. You could have sat home. You could had a good meal, watch some junk on Instagram or Netflix or whatever you're addicted to and and that's it. Call the night. Or that you are saying, okay, maybe what he's saying is right. What am I doing when I go out of this door? Are you going to come out of the door the same way you walked in or are you going a different person? If you're going out the same way, then you really wasted your time. Unless, I don't know, maybe you made some good connection, the refreshments were very good. But you have to consider yourself extremely lucky because Hashem invited you to come here. That's how much he loves you. In the month of Aul where he gives free opportunities where he wants you to start thinking and making the simple math 1 plus 1 always will be two. So you have an opportunity because you could have been tonight anywhere else. Now what do you do with this opportunity? That's entirely up to you. So when you want to apply how do I make room for Hashem in my life? That's the first thing you need to do when you're going out of the room tonight is asking yourself, "How can I make room for Hashem in my life?" When I became observant, I came to my friend. I woke up. I was in a coma. I was out of it. I told my friend, I need to become observant. Now, I didn't know who what to say. You have to understand that my if you don't know my story, listen to it. It's very extreme. So, I was very afraid to go to the doctors and tell them what was my experience because I was like, uh, they're going to for sure institute me, you know what I mean? With no question. See, he's completely lunatic. And then I was like, I don't know what I'm going to what I'm going to go up to the religious people. I didn't know what religious people think. For me, it was a group of crazy people all dressed the same, swinging chickens over their heads, and I'm going to go to them. So, for me, religious people were completely crazy. So I went to a friend and I told him, "Okay, how do I become Jewish? What do I need to do?" So he started telling me, you know, you have to eat kosher, you have to pray, you have to this, you have to that. I told him, just give me like a few little things and for a whole year, I would just put fillin in the morning, not eat meat and dairy and dookie donat only because there was wine involved. Other than that, but why am I saying that? Because for many many years, you know, I'll tell you the story quickly, then we can conclude. When I lived in Chicago, I knew at some point that I have to observe Shabbat. And my friend comes and tells me, "You have to do kush." And in my mind like, "What? What's kush?" So he tells me, you know, you have to drink wine. I'm like, "Oh, I like that mitzvah. Do we do that every day?" So I uh when I decided to do a mitzvah, I was like I'm doing the mitzvah the whole way. I used to drive 60 miles from where I live to the kosher supermarket to buy kosher wine. And I bought a beautiful suit and a beautiful tablecloth and a beautiful cup and every Shabbat mukam I would make a beautiful meal and stand all proud with my kush cup. And one time a friend comes to visit me and I'm telling him it's Shabbat. We got to do kadoo. And he's like what? I'm like just shut up, sit and say amen. So, I bring out the suit, the tablecloth, the wine, the cup, the whole thing. We do the kdouch and then we go out to a club and uh and then 4:00 in the morning, we come back from the club. So, my friend tells me, you know, you're kind of making a joke out of the whole thing. I told him why. He's like, listen, either you do kouch and you stay home, but you can't do kush and then go out to a club. It doesn't even make sense. You're making a joke out of the whole thing. I said, "I don't even know what you're talking about." He's like, "Uh, well, you have to explain to me because I don't even know what you're doing here." I told him, "Let me tell you, give you an example. If you go now to a playground and you see a 10-year-old boy jumping up and down the ladders and the slides and everything, you don't get excited. All the 10-year-old boys do it. But if you see a baby, a a one-year-old baby taking two steps and then falling, 5,000 pictures of that baby." Why? because it was the first step. So I said to my friend, I'm this baby. I can't do the whole thing that will come in 3 4 years. Now I can do one step and I fall. But if I do that step, I do it with all my heart with the best of my money, best of I put everything in it. And that's how I lived the whole first year. So the point of what I'm saying now is that you need to make a small switch in your mind. Tonight, you're not going to go out of this door and change your life. But if you do one little change in how you look at things and how you perceive things, then down the line that change is going to take you very very very far. Once that change depends on you. You know what's deep inside of you? That little point that you want to get rid of that is bothering you in your own growth. Then you feel that I need a miracle to get rid of that. So miracles come very easy if you know how to make room for Hashem. And how you make room for Hashem is like this. You let him say the last word. You understand that he's the one who's running the show. So you don't whine and complain and you accept and you understand that he controls it. It doesn't matter how observant you are. Hashem doesn't look at you different if you're observant or not. He looks at you exactly the same and when things don't work out your ways because you're not aligned with him. So tonight you have an opportunity because it's alul and many other aspects but you choose how you leave this door tonight. You can leave the same way you went in. You you could have merit a lot and you wasted your time and nothing good will come out of it. But if you come out of this womb, you walk out of this room tonight with a little change and you have to choose the change. I can't tell you what you change. I can tell you that the main change you want to do in your life is that Hashem has to be always number one. And there's nothing else but him. When you put Hashem number one and his desires number one, the Mishna says that when you put your will to make fit his will, he's going to make your will work exactly how you want. That's it. You want Hashem to run your life. Hashem is not here to make your life hard. Hashem is not here to punish you or to go against you or to say, "Oh, you didn't do this and that." Hashem wants your attention. He wants to refine you. He wants you to grow to a high level by yourself. So you can say, "I was able to step closer." So tonight, the opportunity you have is how you leave this room. I had many opportunities in my life. And I I know to recognize an opportunity and grab it because if not, it goes. And the opportunity is that Hashem brought you here to listen to what I have to say to the extreme. And like I told you before, believe it or not, it's I I don't care. I don't need to prove anything. I have all the proof I need. I don't need to prove because I didn't come here to prove to you what it was 25 years ago. I came to tell you what is the key to change your life. with the second when you make room for Hashem your life falls exactly how it should and your part is just to humble yourself to accept it and when you accept it then Hashem starts giving you all the blessings in your life that you need just remember humble yourself for Hashem to raise you and humbling yourself is just making room for Hashem in your life thanking him when things good thanking ing him when things are not so good. Seeing how Hashem has your back when when things don't work. Thank you, Hashem. I see how you saved my back. Acknowledging that he's constantly taking care of you and making room for him and saying, "Hashem, I can't deal with this. You deal with that. That's how I solve all my problems. I don't deal with them. What I do is I deal with other people's problems. That's how I do it. That's it. I have issues in my life. And by the way, I have a life full of issues and challenges from here till yin-yang. Just having seven kids, that's enough. Raising seven kids, they're all under the age of 20. I have a pretty full hand and on top of that, a wife and then have eight kids and and then thousands of students and a huge organization. My life is busy with full of challenges. But I I see how Hashem designs every path of my life. how Hashem is just putting everything in the right way and I just need to go on my path with a big smile on my face and with a lot of gratitude for Hashem. And when you do that, you're inviting this beautiful light into your life that everything starts working out how it should, not how you want. That's the key of hum bringing yourself to a place of humility. and on the Wednesday lecture if I remember correct no on Thursday lecture no tomorrow >> tomorrow >> tomorrow's lecture right sorry we have a good student here tomorrow's lecture right here in the shul it's going to be the the that key so do yourself a favor I didn't come here for anything else but to to tell you that's that's the way you want to change things in your life you have to give in something it has to come with a some type of uh Uh, how do you call it here in America? >> Sacrifice. >> H >> sacrifice. >> Sacrifice. Thank you. >> You want something to work in your life? Has to be a sacrifice. The entire Torah is talking about sacrifices. We're not talking about animals on an altar right now. We're talking about that you need to sacrifice something in your life. So, you choose what you need to sacrifice. I will tell you if you walk out of this door and you're willing to sacrifice something in your life and to invite Hashem into your life, you'll see that Hashem is going to make wonders in your life. And I'm going to take the opportunity to wish you and bless you all that Hashem should guide you and inspire you that when you walk out of this door tonight, you walk so targeted and what you need to do to change in your life that Hashem should open for you all the whatever you need. If it's parasa zeid, building a beautiful home, finding your other half, achieving all your goals, working on yourself, refining yourself to be the best version of you that when you meet your other half, there's something to to offer. And I wish you should you should able to overcome all your challenges this coming year. And Hashem should give you very little challenges. But it all depends on you. You can take all this blessing and do nothing with it or you can take all these blessings do one little shift in your mind and a huge change in your life will start when you're inviting Hashem into your life. So I thank you for your patience. I thank you Steve for inviting me. I think we're going to stay for some questions, right? Okay. So, >> so we had a choice between Rabbi Gvan and Rabbi Anna. I'm so glad we joined. Thank you. Okay. So, whoever is here for the first time, we're here. I mean, Monday night, if you're not on our email list or our chat list, please contact me. Next Monday nightm, we're having a class rash sha gdola. We have and then a class for um a week from this Friday night. We have a dinner in this room. We have room for 10 more people. Our good friend Mariana is moving out of Miami to New England >> to Rochester. New York. >> Rochester. >> To a blue state, but okay, fine. >> Okay, we're going to change things. Okay. Um anyway, so we have a dinner a week from this Friday night. What else do we have going on? Um we're planning a trip to Argentina with Hashem. uh with Thanksgiving week. Uh what else? What else? I do not say oh Russash. So in this very room, no not in this room. Sorry. So uh Rabbi Masri will be in the conference center at Bal Harbor. We're having a beginner rash and kit for service free user friendly. Please tell your friends. Rabbi Aifree is leading it and we're going to have a big kdish in here with the shul at Bal Harbor. We thank Rabbi Masri, Rabbi Anava and my friend Julie who really put this together. Tomorrow nightm rabbi is giving chapter two. Not the same speech, right? Different. >> No, no, totally different topic. >> Totally different topic. >> Drug dealing too. No. >> How to avoid >> how to avoid. Also, we want to thank Curtis and Rael who's catering the Mexican food tonight. They have a company. [Applause] Okay. Sorry. >> What time is tomorrow? >> I think same time. >> Okay. So, next week 7:15 8:00 is happy hour. 8:00 splash. Then food. We take some questions, Rabbi. >> Yeah. Yeah. I think there's a few questions here that are eager to be asked. I see some hands are like I think we'll take you last. >> Thank you so much. >> You're welcome. >> Thank you, Dove. I don't know how much time we can take questions and answers. >> We'll take a I just want to acknowledge Rabbi Dir Mosha House of Bickl. >> Three hours to get here, but thank you. >> All right, we'll take a few questions. >> Good to see you. >> Okay, a few questions. Rabbi, >> I think Hashem wants you to work on uh patience. We'll take some other Yes. >> Now you got to talk louder. [Music] That's a whole lecture. >> I I'll put this on pause. If we have time, I'll talk about it a little bit. If not, just go to my YouTube, write Alona Nava near-death experience as a three-hour lecture. Now, what I'm saying, I'm not brushing you off. What you're asking here, it's a it's a two-hour lecture. Basically, you know what? I saw the truth. I saw how it looks from the angle above, >> but I'll see if I have time to elaborate. We'll continue. Yes. >> MIT just came out with brain scans. What happened? >> Wait, I can't hear you. >> Just to add to that, MIT just came out with >> MIT just came out with brain scans. What happened to people after they died? >> Okay. That's not a question. Yeah. >> Okay. No state guys, no statements, only questions. Okay. >> Listen, statements are good as long as they're real. >> Very quickly, I just want to know, can you make the distinction in terms of how important it might be making space for him? The difference between, I don't know, doing it psychologically, mentally, spiritually versus tangibly like grabbing or playing on the difference. I'm going to repeat the question for the ones who didn't hear uh >> say in French, Spanish and then you know >> very international crowd here. >> If the if there's a significant change I'm saying it how I understand the question and then you can actually uh refine the question if I didn't get it right. If there's a significant change in making space to Hashem emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and then physically like putting fillin on versus making just space for Hashem, >> you have to make space for Hashem on all levels. In the physical level when you perform the mitzvot, in the emotional level, in all your thoughts and behavior, in the spiritual level, in your meditation and so forth, you have to know Hashem in all levels of your life. Now, when a person wants to reach like a real high level, uh, and I'm talking about levels that we're not really familiar with. I'm talking about bento levels. Isal and many others. It's not that they were born like that. They had the capacity, but I'll give you an example. There's a great student of the of the Arizal Arizal is Rabbi Gloria was one of the main pillars of the teachings of Kabala. And his student the Vital in one of his books that is called the gates of holiness. He explains there that and by the way this book is this thick and the entire book I would summarize it as dummies you want to have follow what it says in this book and the reality is that he says now follow what I tell you here you'll reaches I mean it depends on the level but you can have prophecy you can teleport yourself you can see things be way beyond the regular individual. But let's see if you can follow what it says in the book. So the reality that one can climb and climb and climb and and and refine themselves to a level like you see great rabbis. Why do people go to great rabbis for advice? You know what I mean? Why? Because you think that in rabbitical school they give us like some secret book with all the answers. No, you're going to a great rabbi for advice because that rabbi elevated himself to such a high spiritual level. How he talks, how he looks, at what he looks, how much Tawa he learns, his diet, everything. He's in such a high level. Then he sees things in a completely different way. His divine h way of looking at things is completely different. He sees situation why he doesn't lie. He never lies. He never cheats. He never eats anything uncosher. His entire life is so refined that when it comes to challenges, questions, and even learning the Torah, it's in a completely different level. So it all depends on you. You start, most people start with the physical parts. It's okay, I'll put fill in on. But that's 5 minutes a day or 20 minutes or 40 minutes if you pray the entire shar. And and most people don't do even do it the right way. It's not that they're putting fill in and they're in a state of meditation and they're nobody does that. One's one in a blue moon. They know how to do it. So you need to uh invite Hashem to your life in all aspects of your life. When it's time to do something physical, you do something physical. You put fill in, you light a candle, you put a talon, you shake the lulaf. When you are depressed, when you are overhappy, excited, when you are in a state of confusion, whatever, then it's emotional, then you have to make room for emotionally to make room for Hashem. When you are in a completely different level, a more intelligent level, intellectual level, and you're pondering about the the mysteries of life and who's the creator, when you're in a high, then you have to make room for Hashem in that level. So my recommendation is that you have to make room for Hashem 24/7. Everything is Hashem. I know it sounds a little bit OCD. But once it becomes your system, then you understand that everything around you is Hashem. And then you can reach to the level that when you see how you can start removing things and removing things is because half the things that you see don't really exist. That's the famous example in the Matrix when Neo sees the bald kid with the spoon and he tries to bend the spoon and the kid tells him instead of trying to bend the spoon just understand there is no spoon. So you can refine yourself and get to a level that you understand that situations certain situations don't really don't even exist. >> Everything is energy. >> Yeah. So uh why would you invite Hashem in all levels? because you want to reach to a much higher level. All depends on the individual. Some people can't handle that. Some people can handle Hashem 5 minutes a day. That's it. They reach their capacity. Some people every breath it's it's all Hashem. Everything is a sign from Hashem. It's so the trick here every every growth needs some type of a resistance. So there is going to be resistance in that type of growth. A person needs to have a path. Okay, how do how do I want to grow? Where do I want to grow? And when I make myself steps on the way then I slowly slowly build this growth muscle that I know how to invite Hashem into my life. And it took me years because when I became observant I was 27 years old. Now you know and and living a certain lifestyle suddenly to switch that that doesn't come so so fast. I had to take it very very very very very slow that slowly slowly I started inviting Hashem into my life in many different ways but my recommendation you make Hashem your friend in all levels and that's really everything in in your life is predestined who you going to marry when how what how much money you going to make where you going to live everything is decided besides besides your mind so you can translate it in Oh, how many times I'm afraid of God and I do the right in the eyes of God. No, the your is how many times a zero out of a 100 of your entire life you saw that every situation in your life is Hashem. And if you understand and realize that everything is Hashem, then everything is good because it's all from Hashem. And if I didn't make money in this deal, it was good. And if I didn't marry that girl, it was good. Everything is good and then you then your vision of life is completely different and then you can uh then you can start experiencing miracles in everything that you do. >> Yes. What's the role of in gradually um developing a relationship with and how what's the best practices which means isolation. First of all, it's important to know that >> talking. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I I know I did that a few times. Uh I want to first explain to the unfamiliar people what we're talking about. uh Judaism offers many types of meditations and the reality is meditations don't originate in the far east. Meditation originate in Judaism and Abrau was the guru of meditation and when he sent his kids to the east he sent them with presents that's what the Torah says and many of the presents is forms of meditations and ancient knowledge and so forth of Ramavu was the big Mikubal he wrote the book of of seph the book of of creation and uh Uh so Judaism is talking about all these forms of meditations used to do meditations. The ones that are familiar to us is praying. Praying is a form of meditation. But another form is called now people translate is that I'm talking to Hashem. Now it's true you want to talk to Hashem but it's not all talking. The idea behind that it comes from the word in Hebrew bedud. Bedude means that you're isolated all day long. You have distractions all around you. You have your phone and a million apps on the phone are buzzing and ringing Instagram, WhatsApp, whatever. And then constantly you have around you all these distractions. Most people are very very not efficient and very not productive. I have a lot of people who I either employ I mean their employer or I see how people run their life. Most people have zero knowledge in how to manage their time and they're extremely unproductive. And the truth to the the fact to that if you thinking you're not one of them is how many hours a day you on your phone? That's it. If you go like this more than 5 minutes, you're sick. That's it. And I'm not saying it to insult you. I also have phones. I use it for everything else but this. If you find yourself go like this more than 3 minutes, then you're in big trouble. And doesn't matter which app. Now, if you're looking for a hotel on booking, I understand you go like this. But if you're on Tik Tok, Instagram, or one of this junk pits, then just know that you have a problem in your life. But uh what were we talking about? See, now the tequila now the tequila is now I want to see if you're paying attention. Everybody's on their phone. So when it comes to you need to isolate yourself from the world. That's the the root of and why do you want to isolate yourself that there's no distractions. So you want to bring yourself to a point where you have no distractions. And once you are at a point of no distractions, and it could be done in a in a forest, it can be done in a beautiful beach. And it can be done in a in your car, you want to get to a point that you make space for Hashem to start talking to Hashem. And in your hid, by the way, there's many forms of But the talking to Hashem, you want to bring yourself to a point that you talk to Hashem like he's your best friend and you pour your hearts and you tell him all that bothers you and everything that's on your mind. When you use this growth muscle and you do it right, then at some point Hashem starts talking back to you and gives you all your advice that you need, all the guidance that you need, enlightens you in the dark places, but it's doesn't come out in one session. It's not that you go now to the beach, sit like this. I tried that. It doesn't work. You need to know how to do it. Buddh and most people don't even know how to do that but that's a different question but the form of it is isolating everything in your life that you can have your attention 100% to Hashem and then of course you have to initiate that and then I'm like I told you you do it right Hashem talks to you he will give you his guidance he will give you his blessing so a huge part of making space for Hashem in your life yeah is it bud there are many other forms of meditation. That's why the Torah offers you to pray. Most people think you're reading a book and you just have to read it fast. But that you didn't pray. You just read text fast. But I can tell you already, I've been to many yeshivots. Many places that offer Torah to people who are interested, but not one yeshiva that I found in anywhere in the world that teaches you how to pray. No yeshiva teaches that. The no yeshiva that I have found teach you how to do chuva and how to pray. They teach you Torah which is great but there's no guidance how to do chuva how to repent where do I start and how to do prayer. There's no real guidance. You need to find the right rabbi because it's just a sitting in some isolated forest and start telling hashem you know and then she said this and then she said that and that's just whining to hashem and you know you have to approach in a completely different way. But to answer your question, no question is a major part, not major. Yeah, a major part in creating a connection to Hashem. Prayer, following the Torah, the mitzvot, and many, many other important things. Hold on. She's waiting very patiently there. Yeah. >> First of all, I just want to say thank you for reminding us that we are chosen here to be here. All the times I come to classes and you're right. Like it's very special. like I could have been anywhere else but with me here. My question is I'm just very curious the whole time that you were here and the investigation and everything. >> Were you not legally here? Like you were not legal. So why did it not just approach you? >> As his attorney, you have to answer that question. >> I will repeat the question, your honor. No. Uh, she's asking if I was the whole time during the investigation not not legal, how I was not deported. That's why I told you that when the sentencing finished, my lawyer told me, "Don't get so excited. You're going to go out of the building. The immigration must be waiting for you." >> That was another one of the many miracles of Hashem that my name like that immigration officer >> pointed up to the sky and said he was looking out for you. He told me your name disappeared from the system. >> So >> don't worry then outside waiting for >> one of the many many miracles >> that Hashem that that's the that's the the beauty of it question and then >> wait a question that goes I've been waiting forever and then all >> Yeah. Yeah. We'll take all your questions. I'll do short answers. Go ahead. >> What triggered your FBI investigation? >> What triggered it? Thank you. >> Let's do a more important question again. >> And what triggered being a felon? >> By the way, this young lady is an immigration attorney. So if you're worried of being deported tonight, you can help. >> If you came to the class 20% off, it's a difficult question. send them. >> No, I wanted to know why. You were saying everything is for the legacy and everything happens for let me see what happens in October. >> Okay, you asked you asked a big question. Before I answer you, what was another question here? >> Yes. >> No, no, I'm not brushing you off. I just want to see what what are we dealing with tonight. Yeah, >> I'm going to answer you. It's just heavy question, heavy answer. >> Instead of going into a traditional profession with any, you know, respective question for that matter, did you ever think about like what the alternative would be or what the ramification if you went into? And more importantly, how does your wife and your children go about their past? How does that change? >> Okay, >> as an attorney, you have to answer that question. What about spirituality? >> For many many years, >> he's a he's a >> for many years. I wondered why I went that path because I come from the most normal family in Israel. My father is like a army hero, general in the army, led wars in Israel, per successful businessman. My wife is uh my mom is a quiet spoken polite Australian. I grew up in Rahana. I I I have no reason why I should go that path. So for many years I didn't understand why Hashem took me that path. But the reason why Hashem took me that path says the wise person is the one who has a lot of experience and Hashem took me on a certain path that down the line I will be able to relate with many different types of extreme situations not be judgmental and to be able to assist and to guide that person. So very few people can go to a crowd of drug addicts or felons or criminals and relate with them in a very non-judgmental way to bring them to a place of growth and inspiration. So one person can inspire in that department. Hashem Hashem chose me to go on that path that I won't be judgmental towards other people that come to me. When people come and tell me I I am a drug dealer, I'm a killer, I was a hooker, whatever it is. I mean, all the extreme things come to me. >> Not in this class. >> Not in this class. Uh, wait, wait. I didn't finish his question. So, Hashem chooses your path. You just need to make the best out of it. I didn't choose my path. Hashem placed me on a path. I chose to take everything from my experience and to use it. How can I inspire another person that is now struggling? Whether it's drugs or some battle or or what because Hashem took me to the bottom of the universe. The bottom of the universe. I've reached places that I woke up sometimes not understanding how did I even reach there. A to bring me the understanding that Hashem pulls you up from wherever you are in the world if you make space and if you call. But I don't think I would be able to reach out to many people if I wouldn't be in such a low place in my life. Hashem had to completely bend my arrogance and my me being judgmental towards other people. And not that I'm comparing myself in any way to Moshe Rabeno, but Moshe Rabeno, like I said before, he should have gotten a different title. He should have gotten Moshanavi because the Torah says there was never a prophet and will never be a prophet like Moshe. So he should have gotten the title Mosheavi like Elawa Navi or the rest. Then he could have gotten the title Moshe like David because Moshe was the king. Moshe had all the titles that he should have gotten but he got the title Rabenu. Rabenu means our teacher and in order for him to bring down the Torah. Look at the level of humility. When he wrote down the Torah and Hashem told him write down don't commit a murder. Mosha Rabenu had to relate with all the types of murders. A murder with an axe, a murder with a gun, a murder with throwing somebody out of the window. Why? So when if the question will ever come and he needs to give a sack a ruling, he's not going to judge that person say, "Oh my god, he murdered somebody." So Moshenu had to bring himself down to a level that he relates with everything, adultery, all the sins. So Moshan was everything. He was a murderer, he was a king, he was everything. So, Hashem takes you down a certain path. If you're smart, you're taking a lot of souvenirs from the path and then you transform them to experience and then you're able to reach out to the people who are in need of that experience and you're able to guide them. So, I don't didn't choose my path. Hashem put me on the path. I just choose to smile throughout the the way. What was the second qu? Oh, my wife and kids. Uh my kids have been traveling with me all over the world since they were kids. Since they were like little kids. So I'm uh at this point I can open branches. I can send my older ones to other locations in the world. They can tell the story for me. Uh how do they feel? I think maybe we should interview them and ask them. But uh I hope they feel good and uh >> grateful >> grateful. I mean they they come with me. The thing is like this. I can tell you that I'm happy and grateful to Hashem all my kids look up to me and they want to follow my path and mimic me. Some of the kids they didn't realize that from age 15 to age 27 don't mimic your father. Mimic him from age 28. So my kids are very interesting. I love them dearly and I think they're happy and proud of their father. I don't know. I I didn't do a questionnaire, but I'm hoping they're doing good. >> Yes. >> How many questions can I have? Can I have Can I ask him one? >> I still want to answer her. Shoot one question. We'll start with that. >> Questions for you. >> Start with the interesting one. >> He's going to stay after questions. By the way, >> you're going to stay for a few minutes after. >> Yeah. Yeah. I'm I'm not running away. If you want >> when you go to jail, did you decide to um surrender of the about the situation or did you decide to or you wanted or you pray to ask Hashem to get you out from there? >> Beautiful. See, that's good questions. Ah, there's an extension. >> Yes. >> Okay. >> There's always an extension. >> Part B2. >> When regarding when we talk about God, when we talk about ocean, there's always an extension. Um, as well and if you used to pray, I want to know if you had a key, but this is a different question from your a key word when you used to >> pray to Hashem to get to >> by heart. >> Like please, like a please. >> Not a please. >> Pretty please. >> I want I want to know if you have a a key word. I'll tell you the keyword but first of all for your question uh I love the question while I was in jail. First of all the question was if I accepted the situation or uh pray to Hashem. >> So first of all I accepted the situation like I told you I practice what I preach. I accepted that it's all from Hashem >> and I understood that I have no say here. I didn't even have a lawyer. I told my parents no we don't need lawyers. >> Hashem was your lawyer. >> Exactly. H my parents went to every lawyer possible and all the lawyers told them besides a $800,000 uh bill and above. They all told them the same thing. We can't help it. It's the case is way too complicated. So I didn't have I had a lawyer from whatever the what the government gives you some you know he was a lawyer for two weeks. >> Defender. >> Yeah. Like a two week old lawyer. But nevertheless uh I accepted it's from a ship. I didn't try to to fight the reality. I said Hashem put me in and the same way that Hashem put me in, he can also get me out. So I wasn't in a hurry to get out. So first of all, very quickly, probably within I don't know a month or two, I already kind of formed myself that this is my life and I accepted it and I was at peace and I was fine. And deep down inside it was hard. But I accepted it's from Hashem and I'm going to be in in jail for 40 years. But at the same time after accepting that that's the will of Hashem, then I started praying for Hashem. Can you change that will? What do I need to do to change your mind? I understand that right now it's your mind, Hashem. It's your decision, Hashem, that I will be behind four cement walls for the next 40 years. Can I do anything to change your mind? So the answer came very quick is to completely analify myself to Hashem. The magic word that you're looking for there is no words. >> The magic word is not to say the word. >> Word. I just want to know if it's >> The magic is not to say the word. >> It's not right. Okay? >> Because and the question for the ones who didn't hear is what's the magic word when you pray to get something? If you want to get something from Hashem, I know I'm going to contradict many and maybe a lot will come and say my rabbi say different cuz on general I will tell you don't stop praying. You have to pray for everything as much as you can. But there's a very big difference between praying and whining. So if you know how to pray, pray. If you don't know how to pray and you just whine, don't whine. Hashem doesn't like when you whine. Hashem knows that you don't have money. You don't have to remind him that 50 times a day. He has access to your deflated Chase account and he knows you don't have money. And Hashem has access to social security. He knows you're not married. All the prayers of all the great leaders were short. That's it. So I find more action takes much more weight than talk. Talk is cheap and that's it. So I minimize my prayers. I I Hashem I Hashem knows what I need and I don't pray for what I want. I pray for Hashem to give me the tools to fulfill what I need. Hashem knows I like ice cream. So he's going to give me ice cream when I want to have ice cream. When it's time to lick the ice cream, I will have it. I'm not It's not in my vision. Oh, I need this and I need that. give me the tools that I need to fulfill my purpose if it's going to be with a lot of money or without money. That's his will anyways. So, a of course I prayed you. Hashem puts you in a situation cuz he wants you to put all his all your trust in him and know that Hashem I'm in your hands. But I never nagged Hashem. I didn't pray to him. Please take me out. And if you take me out, you know, you know what I did? I talked the talk. I did my change in jail. I understood that Hashem wants to break me. So I let him break me. I accepted the situation and at the same time prayed. Hashem, I'm not happy with the situation. Move the pressure. It's too much. Of course, I prayed every day. I prayed. But not nagging Hashem. I would pray first. You know there's different levels in praying. First level is praising that you praise Hashem. A lot of people will straight go to I need. Wow. Before you need, excuse my language, but a little bit of you know uh a little bit of kissing. You're so great. Does nobody like you? 70% of our prayers is you're you're great. But I'm saying it in a funny way. But first, praise Hashem. Only at the end you come to the bakasha. And our sages already wrote down exactly what to ask. You don't need to ask much. Say you're done. Seal your deal. So to move to the next question. I accept. I always accept every situation. I get the blow. I say, "Thank you, Hashem." And I know it's 100% from Hashem. And I'm just letting Hashem birth to me the information why it happened in that way and what's the benefits. But on the other hand, I pray as much as I can to change the situation as long as it's fitting well with Hashem's will. And the last that you asked, what was the last thing you asked? The key word nowhere I found silence says all my life I have grown amongst the sages the giants and I haven't found anything good to the body but silence you know that my first three years in jail I three or three years of jubai I barely talked the more you silent the better you achieve the more results you achieve most people talk so much junk if they listen to how they talk So the key word is just not to say the word. Hashem knows what's in your heart. He knows what's in your mind. I pray Hashem just do it in the way that I will that I my score will be the best. I don't want to shame you in any other way. I want to learn from my experience. So but definitely accept pray and make room for Hashem in everything. >> Thank you. who which rabbi >> I'll give you one guess he's not an ash rabbi but a dominating figure in the west >> well I hope so was the rabbi >> and a year ago I spoke by the board I'm sure >> they didn't even know that I used to go there in the beginning every shabbat go to the mik and after mik the tree >> and after the I'm giving the same lecture >> remember walks in and tells everybody I'm the rabbi and he's not exaggerating it was worse than what he said so yeah my first year is a Change our life. message. [Music] Hello foreign. I just wanted to say thank you very few years ago. We have a picture together. your father beautiful peace in your heart. Success in everything that you do. Thank you so much. >> How are you? >> Oh, wait. I didn't answer you. >> I came for that. >> I should have answered in front of everybody. >> In my near-death experience, >> can I tell you something? It's very very funny how I came here. I was not supposed to be here tonight. I was not. I went I was at at a business meeting at the four season which is five block. It ended quickly. Didn't go well. I went to the sho. I said I'm in the neighborhood. I went inside. I prayed. I prayed for who died recently. And I opened my phone and I saw Steve Edenberg said, "Oh, a class is great class." And I said, you know, one block I'm just going to walk one block. And he said that everything happens for a reason and and I'm like, it's crazy. I have not been in this class for 3 years and I just walk him. You see? >> So before I answer you, when I had my near-death experience, there's one part that I I there's no other words of saying it. I saw everything. Okay. I saw the beginning >> I saw the I didn't mention it tonight but I saw the beginning of the world till the end of the world and to explain it in other words I saw how everything is the perfect master plan of a no mistakes no everything is perfect how to explain it there's no words and there'll never be words to explain it because our physical mind will never ever understand a godly mind a few years ago I took my son he I took him to a dentist. He had horrible teeth pain for 2 three days. He's crying and crying and crying. Finally, I take him to the dentist. He was so afraid of the dentist that I sat down on the chair and I had him like this. And then the dentist come over and drills in his mouth. Then horrible experience. We go out of the dentist and he tells me, "You're the worst father in the world. I don't want to talk to you ever again. I hate you." and he goes off. It wasn't that bad. After an hour or later, I gave him some ice cream and he was my best friend again. But what I understood from that was very powerful. He was like maybe 5 years old. In his mind, he doesn't understand that the dentist was the one who got him out of the pain. He understood that the dentist is the one who caused the pain. Then he didn't understand that I'm doing him a favor and taking him to a dentist to stop his suffering and everything was for his benefit. So we see big things like >> you think maybe the sacrifice of all those kids for the good of Israel. >> First of all we have to understand that it could have and should have and was supposed to be 10 times worse. So that would have been a disaster. And Hashem says, "I'll put a mercy in." >> But we will never understand why Hashem does things. Our mind is so limited that we can't see the good that Hashem is doing. like the child that didn't understand that me and the dentist were taking pain away all these holy souls obviously that was in their mazal and by the way the the constellation when a person dies like that they go up to shine like a ballistic missile they're under Hashem's chair they have no trial in shamine very special souls the truth is that You know if you understand what it means I would want to die like that means you're a martyr dying would kushem you you go after sham so we don't understand that but for them they won the lottery why does something like that it's not even a real point to try to understand because you will never understand the the test here is to say hashem knows what he's [Applause] Hashem knows what he's doing. And I can come to you with all the different knows what he's doing. And if he did it, it means it's good. I can point out thousands of good things that came out of it. How many people made chuga? Thousands. Thousands of people because of whatever experience did. >> That was the first weekend I started to keep Shabbat. Unfortunately, our nation is very stupid and instead of doing it themselves, we need an October 7 to wake us up. But I can tell you with all the sorrow on this side, there's millions and millions of and good things on this side and it tilted us as a nation in a level that it was required. And they are holy and they are martyrs and that had to be the sacrifice and Not that I'm minimizing anything, but that's 1,700 people. 80 years ago was 6 million. And 500 years ago was another 2 three million in the Spanish Inquisition. And we constantly has stuff like that. Hashem sometimes wants to bring us to a point that he says you will never understand. Don't try to understand, but I want you to accept it like as if you understand 100%. and have you know be content and one day you will understand and it's a big test. Now that's understanding that is something that you can't understand. Take that model and put it in your life with new things and that should bring you to a place that you you start seeing not everything in my life will beat in the rhythm that I want. And basically, we're all spoiled kids. When I don't get what I want in the way that I want it, I start complaining to Hashem. Oh, why aren't you answering my prayers? You gave him, you gave her, and then of course you blame the entire world. The trick is to see that most of the times, Hashem is not going to give you what you want. >> What is good for you? >> Exactly. Where are you in? >> I'll come and visit. I'm in the old city. >> Thank you. She asked me that when I was here salad, a friend of mine So that's when they were trying to get in the image and My wife only >> uh I what what I would do what I would do is uh buy start moving stuff property move start moving money over there start slowly slowly moving things that in itself will take time make your aliyah papers then when it's time you you have Israeli passport when I'm saying now I mean start getting getting ready. [Music] >> I would move my business there as soon as you mean after. No, no. They have to now. >> Oh, no. No. I wouldn't even go to that direction. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And Hashem already gave us our country and our land. Things start becoming bad, you have to go. Yeah. Yeah. But I would I would slowly slowly move stuff there in my property. Be ready that I can go like that. >> I hope Hashem is going to do miracles. So far, seeing how everything is going, >> Hashem can do anything he wants. Uh seeing how everything is right now, it doesn't look like it's going to come next. If I would see that we're doing good, I would tell you, listen, there's a good chance it's going to come nice. As of now, it looks like it's not going to come nice. >> But never to no. >> Yeah. I mean, listen to a certain extent. >> Don't provoke. But I don't know. >> No, you don't choose. You don't choose. The best is to be in a place that you don't need to do it. >> But if you are in a place that you need to do it, then you need to learn and be educated what you allowed to be to die for and what you're not allowed to die for. And most of the situations you're allowed to die for that. You have to save your life. So you have to keep the right. So in that place when the the the when somebody is requiring you to bow down to another god for that you die. And if somebody is forcing you to do to do do anything that is forbidden in relations marital relations and you can say kill me I'm not going to do that. So you have to know your borders what you allowed to be killed from and what not. the way that they are. >> I don't know. >> Maybe maybe at the time maybe at the time the rabbis were like listen better to hide your religion than to die. [Music] >> No, they were 500 years before them. >> Different era. >> But no, but I would >> What happened there? There were no Torah there. I mean I need to know you need to know everything that is going to happen. >> There was a lot of Torah. That's the problem. >> No, don't hide. But also you have to keep yourself safe and one of the precautions is get yourself. [Music] >> Yeah. Yeah. Find a place. First of all, you you have the number that you saw me before. You can contact me or your husband because I have an entire infrastructure that helps people from abroad to find their place in. Yeah. Even send it now that I can tell my system to write it out. And we have these private webinars where we show people different properties, why, how, how could you bring the money? So text number next week I'm back in Israel and ask my assistant to book. >> I don't know before how much time we'll have but Have a safe travel. >> Sure. >> Maybe I'll move this. Let's see how we going to move this without making any damages. >> I need to do like in Disney World or the backdrop. >> They had a a flyer out there they made with AI. The AI made a little Maybe I can work. >> That's the advantage you have with technology. I think one more picture. Bye-bye. Thank you so much for coming. [Music] Your journey is how I see you. Um I'm going to ask you a very fun question. I lived for for a month and it's my heart. Um so so um in a letter to the uncle they talk about the end of times and like how will come and say so I'm curious if you understand what that means and meditating to see and everything which part of it I'm curious what areas in Uh >> you need to learn the concept to know what it means. But our auha >> our Buddha is to bring the light of Hashem to the world. The concept itself you need to learn and to be educated but bring them together. >> Yeah. But every person needs to understand that they have a place in bringing the redemption. And a lot of people, you know, they look at others and judging them what they're doing or not doing. But every person in their personal life has to do their refinement in order to make room for Hashem to bring the redemption. And if a person reach to that level early, then they can reach a level of of gula before Msiah comes. But uh to simplify everything that I said tonight, that's what we need to do. We need to bring Hashem to become number one. So, Hashem is bringing all of us to such challenges to bring me down to my knees. When everything goes well in my life, then I don't make room for Hashem. If I have money and I I I I'm successful and no challenge, everything is good in my life, I don't look at Hashem. So, Hashem now is taking everybody's little toys. So, everybody will start feeling uh some lack in their life. And when you feel something lacks in your life, you might think it's money or a man or something else. No, sometimes it's the it's the absence of God in your life. So Hashem takes all sorts of things from your life that you should start waking up by saying something's missing in my life and eventually hopefully you found Hashem. You find Hashem. So right now Hashem is doing it to everybody in an extreme way that now everybody's challenges a big everybody has financial challenges. Everybody has health challenges one way or another. is all day long which juggling challenges because Hashem wants you to come to the understanding that he's doing it and why so you will find him and make room in his for him in in in your life and that's really the what is required from everybody to do and that's the idea of because if I understand that there's something else but him then I'm not doing it right if I bring myself to understand that endor there's nothing else but hashem so there's nothing even that that is second in life there's no second there's only one then my entire service to him doesn't matter how I do it is that he's the number one and hashem is going to bring the entire face of this world to their knees because when you have arrogance you won't find god so hashem is going to crush people to their knees because when you're on your knees then you don't have any other options. That's when you start looking up. And if that doesn't work, then Hashem crushes you more. Then you understand that he's the one who brought the problem. He's the one who's going to remove the problem. And that's is what was requested for all of us is to understand that there's nothing else but a dance to his tune. And the faster I do it, the better it will be. And uh but you need to learn more about the the hints that the is talking about. But the simple thing is is making room for for Hashem. And the trick that's I'm going to be talking about it tomorrow. I don't want to spill the beans. If you want to learn how to make room for Hashem, then start making room for people. If you know how to make room for people, then you slowly slowly know how to make room for Hashem. Come tomorrow. Yeah, come tomorrow. >> Making room for people is that a lot of people in your life rather than be different. Making room for them is that you're accepting them how they are like not only let them be who they are is accepting it and learning to be around it. And not everybody is going to be to your liking. And if I want to make room for Hashem, first learn how to make room for other people. That's why Hashem puts you with so many people that everybody annoys you. >> But why are we like that? Why are we not accepting tomorrow? >> I want to know why we're like that. I feel like if I know why I'm like this, it would help me be better. >> We're like that because Hashem wants you to be with him like that. in the in the level that Hashem is number one and you cannot perform that with Hashem unless you know how to do it with people. If I want to move back and make room for Hashem now imagine the most annoying person in your life that you need to back up and make room for them. That means being quiet, accepting their nonsense, not being angry, judgmental, not quick to anger that children [Applause] as a person to accept them as anybody. >> Yeah. And it's something they're accepting is making room for them. I don't agree with you, but I sure listen to your opinion. I'm not going to cut you off. I'm going to put you down. I'm not going to completely wipe you out because I don't agree with you before we even started. So, I'm going to talk about it a lot tomorrow. But when you know how to make room for other people, eventually you know how to make room for my my observation. Most people don't know how to make room for Hashem. So, Hashem is not in their life. So, most people don't know how to make room for Hashem is not in their life because they don't know how to make room for him. and making room for him. I all day long dance to his glory. >> Tomorrow I explain it more in depth. >> Everybody's ready for it. >> Oh, where's that lady? I answered her the exact same woman right before you. like Miami. >> Short version. Now's the time. Hashem is going to make it very difficult anywhere in the world to make ends. But he wants to put all the things together. Very good. So now it's still considerably easy. It's going to become worse and worse and worse. >> And the benefit is that benefit that's where we belong >> and that's where we actually sink and is going to make us then we're not going to be so safe everywhere and even if you don't do it immediately then you want to start slowly slowly migrating making the papers if you have money by property. and the writing is on the wall once it's over. So the Jews in Europe didn't get it in the right time and suffer. Now Hashem is going to be I think more knocking on the door. Get out. Get out. So he's doing all these little things. Look at the potential mayor of New York. I was now in New York for 3 weeks. Everybody's like if he's going if he's mayor I'm out. Hashem is telling us very slowly the way you weren't wanted in Germany and in Europe 89 years ago, the great United States of America is also destined to turn around against you and I think many will won't accept it and stay here and [Music] I wanted to say thank you. >> Uh listen, kings and presidents are in the hands of God. And I like seeing how Hashem puts everything in the right place, the right actors, the right people. Let Hashem do his thing. The best advice is sit back and serve Hashem and let him orchestrate what needs to happen. because we have zero control and we have nothing much to to do just to to do the best that we can but for your question I strongly tell everybody head to that's a little bit to save you a bigger headache later and to do it of course smart smart the right way not hectic and not to listen to all everybody stop everybody else like despise. Same thing. Hard >> dangerous. >> The only thing you're not going to get in Israel is nice cars. If you live in Miami and you like all the cars that you won't find in it. That's the only thing that I can say. And if that's not important to you, then you're good to go. Yeah, thank you so much for coming by. My family is very close to me as far. Yeah, my brother's up. They have 12 children. Uh, nine boys and three girls. I don't know if you know them or very nice trying to find their house and hopefully see now I'm in America 2 months. people got to look for me. I'm not there. Right. >> Right. Most people knock on the door and maybe don't find me. Yeah. I was just saying cuz I've been following you for a number of years and it's nice to see your breaking into the main, you know, considering friends or conspiratorial true all that. But uh it's nice to see people waking up awakening. It's part of that part of that. Thank you. appreciate. Yeah, of course. [Applause] >> Do you want to be in the picture? >> Yes, you got to get it right. Thank you very much. SP. Yeah. Open the next time you come down on there. Yeah. I like your series on the highway. [Music] Continue the series. Life is still Yeah. Yeah. Oh, okay. That's very good. Thank you. >> Waiting so patient. And hold on. Go ahead. >> Thank you so much for being here. You g some things for me to think about. >> Wait, you got to talk louder. I can't hear. >> I'm sorry. >> You're going to have to talk louder. I can't hear. >> Thank you so much for giving me some things to think about. And my question is I keep going in a circle and I want this one thing more in my life than anything. You know, sometimes it's not the right timing. Sometimes I don't get what you want and like I keep saying what I'm doing. I feel like I'm doing my part and maybe I can choose some things here and there, but then like other people get it, get what I want and I'm like, "Okay, I got to try hard. I got to try different." At what point do you just say maybe it's just all and this is every time I hear about this I have a great life but it's like that one slice is missing and it's that one slice I want if I couldn't have any other slice I'd be happy not to have this slice but it's still hard >> the day that you stop stop running after something that's when you get it. I uh I have my uh ten commandments of my house. >> It's the called the ten commandments of abba and my kids know I rule number two rule number five. >> So one of the rules is the more you ask the less you get. >> And uh that's how I educated my kids. I know what you want. You don't have to say more than once. And when you start asking for too much, it starts to get annoying. So I'm not saying not to pray for something. You need to pray for something, but Hashem knows what you want. >> You don't know what you're doing in the meantime. >> So no, she has something else. She asked when to let go. >> My my approach is that I'm going to do whatever she wants me to do and whatever he wants to give me, he's going to give it to me. Now when I really really want something then my approach is not to run after it because if I really want something for me it's the indication that there's some type of godly spark in that thing that I want that I need to extract from where it's captured but the satan doesn't want me to extract that godly spark from there could be that I was created just for that spark because at the time when Adam and Fab sinned and they you know shattered all the vessels all this godly light spread all around the universe millions and millions and millions of godly sparks got stuck in all over the world that's why in a ironic way the Jews are all over the world cuz we constantly going everywhere to to to extract sparks so could be that you are born and and you live 80 years for one uh spark that you need to pull out from somewhere and it will require from you 20 years of work and refinement. >> So hold on now when you are about to extract a special godly spark and to elevate it back to its source the other side of ducha is not happy with that. So it's going to come to confuse you and it will make you not successful. So then what how I see it. You really want something. You understand in your mind I really want it. >> But you really want it. >> Which means that you have some type of a pull to that spark. So the is going to come and try the is going to come and try to prevent you from getting it. How is he going to do it? To tease you with that. And then you want something so much. So the more you run after it, the more you're not going to get it. The way to say is that let me test if it's even mine. I'm going to stop running after it for a month or half a year or a year and see if I get it. Then Hashem wanted me to get it and the the work that I needed to do is just not to run after it. If it wasn't mine, then I just not going to get it and it's time to leave to to get to to let go. But then you have to add the element of saying instead of praying to Hashem I want that do you move your prayers Hashem let me know if it's mine or not if it's mine I'll work hard if it's not mine >> then I know to let go so really Hashem wants you to work on yourself refine yourself >> to get a divine message it's only in refinement >> ask for awareness >> yeah but you don't ask you have to do something when I need a a divine answer. I need an answer to a situation. I don't go to Hashem, Hashem, give me the answer. I refine myself. And I'll give you one example. If I'm very judgmental and I know I need to work on that, then for the next month, every situation that I'm going to be required to be judgmental, I move back and I work on myself. And once I reach to a level of refinement, the answer will come. So, Hashem says, "Ah, you want some divine inspiration then work on yourself." And each person does it in a different way. I just gave you one example. If a person is very quick to anger, then Hashem is constantly going to throw all these triggers that will anger you. Then you need to very quickly understand it's a I'm going to get angry and you work on yourself. Most people need to refine themselves how they think, how they talk. But once you reach your level of refinement, then a divine message will come to you what you need. So Hashem says you're not going to get it by saying, "Hashem, I want this thing." Hashem says, "Pray it's even yours." And if you put yourself under the light and Hashem will tell you, it's not yours. Let it go. or Hashem is going to brilliantly tell you it's yours but you need to do this this and that. No, I like your perspective, >> but I don't give up till I see that it's 100% not from Hashem. And the way my indication is is I just try to analyze if I get that thing like you're saying that you have that thing that you want. Ask yourself if I'm going to get that, is it going to make me a higher level individual? Am I going to go up in my spiritual level or is it going to bring me down? If you are saying very uh confident if I have this thing it's going to raise my level in spirituality then that's your first indication that it's from Hashem because Hashem doesn't want you to get something that will make you worse >> that you have to be true to yourself cuz a lot of people say and I'll give an example oh if I had a lot of money if Hashem gives me a lot of money I will give a lot of charity so okay yeah in theory it will work well. Are you really going to give all that charity when you have the money? And Hashem knows who's going to give the charity or not? Cuz half the people come and tell me, "Rabbi, give me a blessing that if my business will make a lot of money, I will give you a lot of donations. Why are you threatening me with donations? Why don't you first give donations? Then we'll see how much money Hashem is going to give you." So you can't come to Hashem with conditions. You have to do what is required and then see if it's it's it's belongs to you or not very quickly and the indication is where is it taking me is it taking me to a place of holiness and I will grow or is it taking me to a place of unholiness and I will go low and in order to get the right answer you need to have ana we're going to talk about it tomorrow that you're not how do you say you're not voting for yourself because you are the judge here and you have to be okay. Who am I kidding? I'll give you an example. I want now a beautiful car. Hashem, I want a beautiful car. Now I have to stop cuz I don't get a beautiful car. Okay, three years no beautiful car. Now I have to psycho analyze why Hashem is not giving me a beautiful car. So I ask myself a question. Is the beautiful car going to take me faster to the to the shul to the synagogue and am I going to be a better Jew when I drive a nice car or is the beautiful car going to take my mind off what I need to do and now I want to be here and I want to show off to the women and I want to start. So I come to the conclusion the beautiful car is not going to take me to a place of holiness. It's going to take me to a place of the opposite So I know okay so my desire is not aligned with the >> you know what I mean that's how I make my calculations when I want something I want something now there's something in my life now that I really want I'm giving you a real example I really really want give me now the opportunity I will take it but I know that if I will now try to get that thing that I really really want >> no good will come out of it I know that that thing that I really want, I have to wait for that. And it's, you know, being human, it's the hardest thing to wait for something that is right in front of you. And like you said, everybody has it. >> But I know that now it's not my turn. >> Sometimes it feels like other people. >> So I don't now turn to Hashem and tell him, "Please, I'm such a good boy. Give me what I want. It's there." I turn to Hashem and I say, "What do I need to do? to fill the time in till I get that thing that I want. And if you choose not to give it to me, I'm at peace. So I don't pray for what I want. I pray to be successful on the path that I'm going on. A to figure out if it's mine or not. And B, what do I need to do to reach to that point? And why do I want to reach to that point? Not because I want it. because I'm doing item shim because there's something that needs to be done there for Hashem. And if I do everything the right way, then my reward is that I got what I want. >> But I don't run after what I want because that's the first red light that I'm saying wait don't jump. Don't be impulsive. So what if everybody has it? Or so would you really want it? The first thing that comes up to my mind is how does that gonna work well with Hashem? If I have it, is it a long side with Hashem? As my desire I'm not on you, I'm talking >> if you come to all the answers that it's up with Hashem's path >> and that's your indication that it's if it's good for you, then it's Hashem's desire. Your next step is saying, "Hashem, if you want me to have it, inspire me. What do I need to do so you will get whatever you want from that? If you want to reward me, great." >> You know what I mean? That's the trick is not to ask for anything. >> No, this is how to be more at peace. >> No, I understood. I understood what you're saying. I'm answering you cuz there's other people. I know what to say and what not to say. >> But you got the point. >> I got the point. And sometimes you see something, you understand it's yours, you believe it's yours, you know it's yours, and Hashem is telling you in other words, you have to wait for your birthday. You can't open the present. When I was 6 years old, I wanted a Lego. >> I love Lego. And I want I told my mom I want that thing, this one. And 40 50 years ago, it's not like today you go to Toys R Us. >> Probably was a long time till they got it. So, I had this present wrapped on a shelf like a month before my my birthday. >> And every day I would sneak into my mom's room and and look up on the shelf. It was far away. I was short. I was only 6 years old. And I saw like the Lego on the top. And I learned at a very early stage, I need to learn to be patient. And I have to wait for my birthday to get the present. And sometimes Hashem puts the present in front of you. And now he tells you now wait and don't be a noo and don't start bugging bugging me about it. You'll get it when you when you need and what I what I'm after bring me to the place of maturity that I reach to the place that I can receive what I what I deserve. And if I can't have it now means I'm I'm not mature spiritually, emotionally. I'm not in the right place. That's what happens to I understand half the people here are single. Sometimes you don't meet your other half for 10 years because you have to go on a certain path. >> Yeah. >> Till you and the other half is ready. >> Thank you. >> I have a quick question. >> Tomorrow you mentioned you're on a sketching tour in South as a therapist in Tuesday night. Are you doing the same lecture another night at the same >> tomorrow? Tomorrow. No, but it will be recorded. It will be record. Okay. I'm going to see what I can do to move it. If I can't move it, then I'll get the record. But thank you so much for being here and pleasure. >> My pleasure. You have questions or pictures cuz I got to wrap it up. Pictures. >> I think you need a different >> I think it's a time for an iPhone. >> No, wait. I want to know who the question is. I think I >> I need to I need to tour around with the photographer and send my drums many times. What's your name? Oh, look at there. >> I live in Israel. I usually ask the question, but I'm going to ask it today. Maybe tomorrow because >> Okay. So, maybe tomorrow. >> Maybe tomorrow. >> Thank you so much. >> Thank you very much. I have Thank you. Good to see you again. I saw you three or four. I have a question in terms of taking actions. So, okay, at least for me, there's some things I do, some things I don't. People say do certain things, some of it less than 1%. >> Can I can I fix the but very small? Thank you. Meaning all the actions that I should take less than 1% for me I understand or that makes sense. There's some things like, okay, get it makes sense. Cool. Uh, so there's I mean that's a very small part. There's another part where some people say things I'm like should I really do that? Is that what the Kodas says or are you just saying that? Then I get very confused. Okay, you want to be more observant than this. I'm like what should I do? What shouldn't I do? What action should I take? Obviously I don't know everything. Can't know everything. So it just I get confused. What action should you take with all the mumbo jumbo you hear? You know what I mean? No, it makes a lot of sense. There's a great rabbi who taught a very unique way of meditation and that meditation is called hashkata and the translation of it means to silence and he says that if we had some device to read people's minds then you would see that most people are completely crazy. If no, no, that's what he says that if you that if you had some device to tap into people's minds, you would say that person is a lunatic. If you would hear people thoughts, what they're thinking of other people, uh what they would want to do to other people or really if you listen to your own thoughts, you can come to the conclusion that you are psycho. So he says that most of the thoughts that are running in your mind are not your thoughts are foreign thoughts as you probably heard the term like a foreign thought like the person was asking me before that he pray and all these thoughts come in his mind. So the poets says that most of your thoughts in your mind are not your thoughts are coming from different places. You need to bring yourself to a point that you know how to make the difference. What are your thoughts and what are the thoughts that are of foreign gods? And the way to get to that is to do this form of meditation that you silence your thoughts. And he explains how to do it. But the point is that you silence any thought that's coming in your mind that is not yours. And then eventually what happens is your thoughts starts talking to you. >> Is that why meditation is meditation? >> Yeah. Yeah. >> He's known as the rebets. Okay. Uh one of his famous books is called Yeah. And basically what I'm saying to keep a to make a uh I would maybe write it in Hebrew, see what comes up or maybe without the H. >> You want to try it? China now in Google that I can recognize right away. But the point is that you want to get to the level that you don't let foreign thoughts control your mind and then you'll see that 50 to 80% of all these junk thoughts in your mind they they disappear. They just dissolve. >> That was the meditation. >> Yeah. Maybe from pens. Yeah. So if I look his name, I'm also a new >> uh you won't find any of his books in English. I think one book is translated to English. It's called Eshkesh [Applause] Sacred Fire. >> Yes. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Uh his teachings are amazing. All his books he wrote in death camp in the Holocaust. >> Wow. >> And extremely inspiring. very very deep not in English for what I know >> so he has meditation sessions >> no no in one of his books he's talking about this type of meditation he explains how to do it and it answers his question that many of the times you have like these >> you don't know what to believe all the time like I don't know it's not that I need to believe and like is it true is it not true like sometimes I feel like yeah >> exactly so my my recommendation is when you're in such a clutter of thoughts is first of all your kosher diet has to go through an upgrade because the kosher d the kosher diet has to go through an upgrade because the more your k your diet is refined the brain is functioning sharper >> why is that a thing why why doesn't >> why do you have to what do I haveation We think and we don't know which stuff. >> Everybody has it. >> No, everybody has it. >> Everybody has that that they're Thank you. Everybody has that that this jungle in their mind. Everybody has that. You're not the only one. >> When I said before that I'm looking at the crowd, I see the vibrations on people's face to understand that they have 17 thoughts at the same time. Why does one person >> that's already the the merit that Hashem gives you that he opens your eyes. >> But I want that also for a person that is my >> I want a lot of things but when you see something that you want for another person is to inspire you to become that and then you are the role model of that person that you really wanted them to achieve what you achieved. So when I want my child to go on a certain path, I walk on that path to give you an example how to do it. And until then, >> you know how many times I want to Yeah. >> Doesn't like the care that is not accept >> because that's the will of Hashem. And if my child decides to go that direction, I have no control over it. For 18 years, I gave that child everything that I could. And that's what I do with my kids. I give them everything that I can and when they reach 18, 19, 20, they want to spread their wings and leave, they're a total different individual. And if I did my job right, they will spread their wings, make a few turns, and come back to my nest because they know that's the safest place. So, I don't hold anybody like that. I let my kids go and experience. I'll guide you. I'll I'll let you walk on your path and I'll cheer you and I'll pray for you and I'll throw advice like the ones who are standing with water like this in the marathon. I'll stand. That's it. But I can't control my kid and uh hope that he will be what I want. It's the worst thing a parent can do is want their child to be something. I want my child to be who they are and I will do whatever I can to help them. more likely coming from I need to >> that's already coming from your internal visual >> that you need to find out why do I want to control somebody else's life now the thing is like this I have a family member exactly >> okay >> like why is my brother >> so the concern the so the concern that you have you are in Ireland so they It breaks my heart. >> So the so the concern that you have >> also so that's what you need to see here. The concern the concern that you have needs to bring you to a point where you find the creative way how to affect who you are concerned about but also to bring you to a place that you have to understand that you are not in control and Hashem is in control. And if Hashem right right now wants for that person to go through something, you can scream as loud as you want, it's not going to help. And your test is to be quiet and to be patient and to understand that Hashem is now taking your child on a journey that he needs to you know many people told me I wish I can give you my child for 30 days that you Yeah, you know how to handle how we got to work. >> Yeah, but you have to be happy that you have even the quality to be so concerned to somebody else's needs. Very few people have it. >> Yeah, but it's making it crazy. >> Then that's already your problem. Then you need to then you need to balance it. >> Like I'ming in a way that like you don't like me. So you have to find your creative ways. [Music] You have to find the creative ways. The creative ways how to reach out. Hashem is showing this to you not to drive you crazy. He wants you to bring yourself to a place where you find the creative ways how to reach out and the you have 90% success already because you have the concern. Most people don't even have that concern to other people. >> Yeah. 90% of your success is that you have concern. >> No. No. Cuz I'm telling you, unfortunately, most people don't have concern to other people's needs. They they have concern for their own needs. If you have concern to other people's spiritual needs, then you are already in a much higher level. And Hashem is blocking that because he wants you a to understand that if he decides something, that's what's going to happen. He needs to open the the valve. In order for your brother to start eating kosher and having that perception, Hashem needs to turn the switch on. So you can pray for your brother. You can do many acts for your brother, but Hashem also wants you to show resistance and patience and come to your brother not like this to come to your brother in a nice manner. And one of the ways is not coming down his throat and living by example. And not living by example by saying, "Oh, this kosher sandwich is yummy." You know, that's like a third grade stupidity. So when Hashem shows you something that bothers you because somebody else has a spiritual deficiency, oh that's a very high level. Most people they look at other people, they're judgmental. She's more pretty. Oh, look how this he has more money. Who does he think he is? Very few people look at other people and saying, "Wow, I feel pain cuz that person is lacking something spiritual. What can I do?" So I can congratulate you in a very high level. Hold on. Okay, >> one of the sons >> guys. I love you. >> I'm going to see you tomorrow and Wednesday and Thursday. And if you want to come to, you can see me every day. >> Wednesday is by North Miami Beach by Ashira. And Tuesday is here. No, no. Every day different topic. >> So Wednesday is only a woman thing. >> I maybe Thursday >> and Thursday is Fort Lauderdale. I forgot the name of the place. Uh but all different topics. >> And how do we find the recording like >> all on YouTube? But how do I like know what to search? Because >> uh usually in the description it will say the date and of the location. So you can find I mean you can look at the lecture of tonight match the title or look by the date and tomorrow uh Wednesday and Thursday are going to be live but also recorded wouldn't kind of uh is it like what you were saying when you go off there's more what you resist when you really want better like wants like >> I I recommend not to go so much after what you desperately want >> because that's what's not going to give it to you. >> The way you get it is by letting go. >> The way you get it, not letting go necessarily, but doing what is required from you to do. And if required from you to do A, B, and C, go after, put all your energy in what's required from you to do. And the first thing that is required for you to do look up to Hashem. What does he want me to do? He wants me to be honest. He wants me not to be judgmental. He wants me to be courteous, charitable, helpful. Then I start initiating things that I know that Hashem wants me to do. I'm not saying now trying to pretend. I'm putting my uh my energy not in something that that the energy doesn't need to go there. I put my energy in good in good things that bring me to the to the point where Hashem wants me to be because when I want something real bad like I told her, it's because Hashem brought this desire in me that I want it. Now Hashem wants me to say, "Okay, I can either cry like a baby all day long and dream of this and not do nothing >> or to say, okay, what do you want me to do? I'll I'll do something productive." Proactive. Hashem wants you to be proactive. And I I I just don't focus on this on what I want because I know the second that what I want first I it goes through my first filter is it Hashem's will too or not and if I come to the conclusion that it's Hashem's will too then I will continue pursuing I find more difficulties then I understand that Hashem wants me to do a lot of effort. >> Sometimes when you hit a lot of obstacles does that mean that like maybe fear. How do you know that? >> Depends on the obstacle. >> Some obstacles are for you to stare away and say it's not for me and some obstacles are for you to understand how much you need to work hard to get it. But you have to see what's the obstacle. And the thing is like this since you don't have like a a 1-800 number there or a chat GPT where you can submit your what do I do now? My recommendation is when I reach a dead end and I don't know what to do. Like exactly what you say, there's something that I like, I put a lot of effort, a lot of difficulties, I can't seem to make it happen. I'm at a T-section. Do I continue pursuing or do