Find your purpose in life and reach TRUE happiness and success - Rabbi Alon Anava

[Music] Today, since we had such a long break, we're just going to do a very quick reminder and overview of the two books that next class we can go back to where we took off. Because in both of them we've been learning already for quite a while. In Shaar in the Gate of Incarnation, I think we have about 100 classes already. So, we're already in chapter seven. And in Gate in Tomer Devorah, in chapter six. We're starting chapter six. Uh First of all, hi. It's good to see you. Wasn't here for a while after such a long break. Hopefully from now, the only trips predicted so far is in in the winter. So, hopefully we'll have a few good months of learning. Bezrat Hashem. So, without further ado, when I became observant 20 plus years ago, then obviously I understood that I need to wear a yarmulke and to put a tzitzit on and that there's going to be a lot of rules. I didn't like the rules. Especially coming from a secular place, the rules didn't didn't welcome me. And the the biggest uh I would say block or obstacle in coming closer to Hashem was knowing that I'm going to be under a set of rules. Which I'm talking about the mitzvot, of course. And I didn't like it. It was very hard for me to Okay, now I have to follow all these rules. The reason why I didn't like it because I thought being an observant individual or call it religious, chareidi, Orthodox, can call it however you want. All fake names. You either believe in Hashem and you're observant or you're not. That's it. Coming with all sorts of titles. I'm chareidi, I'm chassidic. You're an idiot. That's what you are. You have to be a God-fearing individual and fear Hashem and serve serving how the Torah tells you. With no titles. But nevertheless, what caused for me a block in my in my brain, in my my mind, is I don't want to be under this regime of rules. I don't care who gave the rules. And that was my attitude, of course. And it's usually for everybody. Nobody likes rules. Everybody likes their own rules, but not to listen to other people's rules. My rules are fine. Your rules I don't like. So, it caused some type of anti because I was like So what? This is serving God? Just being a robot? Do this, do this, do this, don't do that, do this, do this. I was like, okay, so what? That's the game? I'm going to have to be a robot for the rest of my life? Thank God that very quickly after I understood that being observant, man or woman, it's irrelevant, it's not about you following the rules. The rules are the guidelines where you want to how far you can go left and right, what we call in Hebrew a zigzag. You know, how much can you How much leeway do you have on the sides? You know what I mean? You know that I I was about to say hypothetically, practically, take now paint, it doesn't matter what. Paint a long line from here to there on the floor. With paint, with duct tape, it doesn't matter what. And then start walking on the line. You would walk with no problem on the line, right? Leg after leg after leg after leg, right? Not not not to walk walking on the line. But leg after leg after You would walk through the line, right? You won't want to walk through the line unless you're very drunk. Can you walk on the 40th floor of a building on an edge the same width of the line you just walked here? You'll fall 3 seconds. But why? It's the same same line I'm walking. Same width of what I'm standing on. My leg here stands on it. Over there it stands, too. So what if the ledge is 5 in? But when you're up there, there's no ground. There's nothing underneath you. You have to be so focused on walking on the line in and and by how? Ignoring that there's no ground under you. The second that you walk and you see no ground, you lose your balance. I'm not doing. So how can you walk on a long piece of line here on the floor stable, focused, and not fall? Because you know something is supporting you. Psychologically. You know, I'm I'm not going to fall. What I'm going to fall from here to here? But realistically, when you're up high on the 40th floor, 50th floor, whatever, what's the difference? Maybe a little bit of wind up there that maybe shake you. But other than that, whatever you're able to do on solid ground, you can do on a less thick ledge on a 40th floor building like the crazy people do. You see these videos on Instagram and and all the social media with some wacko climbing an antenna 500 m from the ground and there But the reality, when you understand that something is holding you from beneath, then you will never fall. It's very simple. It's all how you perceive it. There's a famous chassid uh I don't know why the name ran away from my mind right now, but it's irrelevant. The story is that he lived in Russia and Ukraine and he would go every morning to the mikveh 3 hours. 1 and 1/2 hour to the mikveh, 1 and 1/2 hour back, and it wasn't a mikveh like nice here with showers and heated water. It was walking in the snow for an hour and a half, going up a mountain, and then going down a mountain to go into a hole in the ground. It wasn't like a a nice beautiful mikveh. The wonder was, besides the fact that how does an old man walk 3 hours every day in the snow, but how does he mainly go up on the mountain? But how when he goes down on the mountain, he doesn't fall? Old man, ice, snow, how do you don't fall? When he was asked, how how come you Forget about why. Forget about How? HOW YOU DON'T FALL? So he answered, when you are attached up there, then you won't never fall down here. If you're not attached up there, you will fall down here. It's very simple. So first of all, to put one thing aside, how you operate, not only with serving God, in general, is how you perceive things in your mind. Most people, like I told you, walking on a ledge on a high building will fall because they don't see the ground. Here you see the ground. So I'm balanced. Do you see Hashem? But you believe he's holding you, right? You don't see him. So when you don't see him, then you probably you're going to probably going to fall. Like walking up there on that small ledge. But when you clearly see that Hashem is underneath you, then you'll never fall. You'll walk on that line with no problem. And try that. Well, don't try walking on the building. But go down to the to the bottom of what I'm trying to say. Make a imaginary Put a line here on the floor. Each and every one of you. One step after the other, you will walk with closed eyes like that. Like a drug like a alcohol test. But you know, don't even go to a 40-floor building. Go to 3 ft ledge some fence. Let's see you're running on it. You'll fall very quickly. Because your perception is that I'm running on something narrow. The right way is to look forward and to say I'm running on solid ground. And then you run fast on a ledge this big. And everything is done. Not you don't have to be a superman. You just have to know where your mind is. Take that analogy. That's what I understood when I became observant. That being observant to God is not about following rules. I mean, of course, don't get me wrong. Don't Don't flip it over and say RABBI SAYS, NO RULES. NO, NO, NO. YOU HAVE to do do the rules. But it's not about the rules. And the rules I'm talking about the mitzvot, the halacha, all the things that we have to do. Or chash v'shalom don't. I know many people who become observant, they fall into fear. Which I was a little bit like that. Which I had a good excuse to be afraid. But I also had some fear. Oh, if I do this, what's going to happen? But, you need some fear. No fear, you're not going to do anything. When a person doesn't have fear, he doesn't operate in the right way. Doesn't matter what. Even today, there was a certain incident uh with one of my boys, and my wife told me, you have to punish him. And I don't like punishing my kids. But, she's like, you got to punish him. Because if he's not going to be a punishment, he's going to know that next time he he can if he will do it, there won't be a punishment. And I don't like punishing. I don't like being uh causing somebody else fear or pain. But, unfortunately, that's not my decision. My job here is not to be uh merciful. My job is to educate. And if the educating has to become with a strong hand, then it will come with a strong hand. My strong opinion and short experience in life that you only learn with a strong hand. I never seen a lot of people or at all that in automatically operate with no pressure, with no nothing. So, and if you can, go ahead. Kol hakavod. Most people, including me, operate the right way when there's pressure. That's it. And [Music] nothing wrong with having a little bit of fear. The problem when you don't have fear is if you don't fear the top, you're not going to fear nothing underneath. That's how it works. Because I never feared anything in my life, not physically, not anything. And I wasn't afraid of anything when I was a a young man. I'm not saying that I'm afraid of anything now. But, I'm saying as a young man, reckless and irresponsible, I wasn't afraid of anything. I jumped out of planes, jumped off bridges, swam with sharks, did crazy things that you can't even imagine. Normal driving would be not less than 150 km an hour. I mean, I didn't I didn't have any fear. Because I didn't have any fear from the main boss, from Hashem, then nothing underneath feared me. Not the not the authorities, police, judges, and so forth, not anything. When you don't have fear, you're reckless. You're not you your judgment is wrong. Fear is not something bad. We're going to start learning in Tomer Devorah, we actually starting not today, cuz today we're going to do an overview, but the the chapter we're starting is how to serve Hashem in the middle of Gevurah. Nothing wrong with Gevurah, nothing good wrong with a little bit of fear, some restrictions, rules. So, the mitzvah that Hashem gave us, I'm not going to even elaborate on that. The mitzvah, I know you are aware that the translation is a commandment. I will enlighten you and tell you mitzvah comes from the word in Hebrew tzavta. Tzavta means a strong connection. When you put two things together, that's what the real meaning of mitzvah. Uh in English, of course, a commandment or a mitzvah. But, the word mitzvah is yes, it's a commandment. I commanded you. The inner meaning of the word mitzvah comes from the root. Every word in Hebrew has a root. You have to go to the root to understand the meaning of the word. Then, the root of the word mitzvah is tzavta, together, unity. So, when I do a mitzvah, I put fillin on, I wear tzitzit, I whatever is birkat hamazon. Then, what do I do really? I connect myself with Hashem. Really, what I do, and I don't want to sidetrack for that, when I say the blessing, baruch atah Hashem, I pull down Hashem's presence into the world. Cuz baruch means to pull down. Baruch, I know in Hebrew is baruch, blessed. But, when you're saying baruch atah, baruch, the biblical Hebrew, baruch, habrachah means to bend something down. They pull something down from below to to oops, from above to below. So, when I say baruch atah, who's atah? You. But, who's atah? Hashem. So, and who is Hashem? Baruch atah Elokeinu. Our God. Which God? King of the world, melech ha'olam. So, I'm defining who I want to invite into this world. And when I do the mitzvah by saying the brachah, I pull this godly light into the world. Performing the mitzvah, I connect to this light. That's it. If you want to imagine it like a video game for the ones who are a little bit need more colorful examples, then it's a like it's it's a video game. You walk on the path, and there's all sorts of shining gold coins, and you need to boop boop boop and eat them, right? Once you eat them, do you see the gold coin on the image on the video game? No, the coin just goes in. Same thing here. Boop. You eat the mitzvah, you you swallow the light. The light becomes now part of you. Becomes part of you. Comes you. You become uh stronger, better, higher, more connected to Hashem, and so forth. And many other things. This is not a class about mitzvot. What I want to paint about the mitzvot is the mitzvot are keeping you on the path. Imagine now you drive on a six-lane highway, and there's no lanes. They did constructions, they didn't paint the lanes yet. Six-lane highway. Do you know where to drive? So, you decide to drive here. One car will be like, no no, you're in my lane. Move over here. Yeah, but there's enough room for everybody. Yeah, but I'm going this lane, you're going that lane. I'm faster, you're slow. Going to become a mess. If you ever wondered why they paint lanes on the floor, because if they wouldn't be painted lanes, everybody would drive wherever they want. And what would happen when you drive wherever you want? Accidents all day long. So, the mitzvot are the ones who are putting you in lanes. You want to pass a lane? No problem. Put your blinking light and pass a lane. But, stay in the lane. You You can't go do whatever you want. It doesn't work like that. If you take the analogy of the of the cars, you'll do car accidents all day long. If you zigzags on lanes, every time you get into a car, it's an accident. Now, take that analogy back to what I just told you. The mitzvot is our lanes. It's keeping me in lane. You go out of the lane, you'll be up you're going to have a problem. It's not a punishment. It's a reaction of your action. When you understand the mitzvot really are keeping you on the lane, or in my understanding and perspective, they put the ground under your feet. So, you can walk blindly wherever you walk, and you will never fall. Because you're walking on solid ground. And you know, just for the test of it, do what I told you. Make a line on the floor, and you'll see that you walk straight on it. Now, choose a little fence or a ledge or something that's a little bit high, and you'll see you're already like that. Unless you you know, more tending towards being [Music] But, you got the point. So, if I don't have anything under my ground, I will fall, and I will fall, and I will fall. And eventually, when you fall a lot, you get hurt. And when you get hurt, eventually, you give up. That's most people in their service to Hashem. They're in a state of I gave up. I believe that a small amount of observant Jews, they're observing Hashem with joy and happiness, and they want to, and they like it, and they they have their challenges, of course, and they have their ups and downs, but overall, it's a very positive experience. And a very large amount of people, it's a burden. You might not relate with it, cuz most of you here in the room are all right, they're baal teshuvahs or converts. So, we're share the same ground, the excitement that I choose to come to Hashem. If I would be born chareidi Orthodox, 99.9% I would go the other way, become secular. With my personality. So, a baal teshuvah who chooses to come to Hashem, and baal teshuvah converts the same thing in how I see it. You choose to go to Hashem. So, of course, you do it with all the excitement, love, and but that's don't don't think that everybody's like that. And most of and I see it cuz I travel over the world. I go to all the communities. I go to everywhere. To be able to see and to to give my two cents on the matter that the most they do it cuz either they're afraid or okay, I I'm going to do this cuz I need to get that, and it's not that you're that a lot of people are like jumping up and down from that. With a lot of it, it's just fear. Or shame, or whatever, which is, you know, what? Better than nothing. Let me talk sh'lo lishmah yavo lishmah. Talmud says, better to do something How do I You know what? I'll translate I'll translate it different. Mi'tokh sh'lo lishmah yavo lishmah is fake it till you make it. That That's really the translation. Okay? Uh the real translation is when you're doing something not for its sake, better to do it not for its sake, later on it will cause you to do it for the right sake. But, it's really fake it till you make it. With that said, when I started my journey to become observant, in the beginning, the hard part was understanding I'm going to live a very restricted life right now. Because when I met my friend who I didn't have a rabbi in the beginning and I told him, how do how do I what do I need to do? How do I become a Jewish, however you call it? So he's opened his mouth and then closed it. You got to put the lean, you got to put the teeth, you got to eat kosher, you can't do this, you can't do that. Whoa, it's sick, relax. I bring him out the whole list. Give me three. No, no three. You got to do this, you got to do this, you got to do this. It was too much. Now, in the beginning thinking that that's what that's about serving a sham, then it took out all the excitement. In my mind I was like, I'm already in jail. Another jail? I'm just trying to paint the path. We are learning not today. One of the classes that we're learning is a book called Shaarei Kedushah, the gate of holiness. Written by Rabbi Chaim Vital. Who was the main student of the Ariza, Rabbi Isaac Luria, here in Safed about 500 years ago. Plus plus minus. And I'm sure you heard the name Rabbi Chaim Vital wrote many books. Most of the teachings of Kabbalah, who was taught by the Ariza to the Rabbi Chaim Vital, are written by by Rabbi Chaim Vital. The gate of incarnations what we're learning is written by Rabbi Chaim Vital. It's the Ariza. Ariza, it's the Ariza's teaching. No question here. But the book was not even written by his student, was written by the son of the students of Rabbi Chaim of the of the Ariza. The Ariza is the teacher. Rabbi Rabbi Chaim Vital is the student and the son of Rabbi Chaim Vital wrote the book. Actually took all the scripts and wrote it in the put it in the book. That's Shaarei Kedushah. Sorry, Shaar HaGilgulim, gate of incarnation. But many many books of Kabbalah, you can come and sit here. Put him. You can come and sit here. Many books of Kabbalah, teachings of Kabbalah, is all based on the teachings of Rabbi Chaim Vital. And we learn a lot of books from him. And one of my favorite books that we're learning here is Shaarei Kedushah, the gates of holiness. This thick book, small book with all the gems and that you need to know breaking it down to A to Z. Really that book is Ruach HaKodesh what that means. That's what Shaarei Kedushah is, if you ever wondered. Ruach HaKodesh anybody can get. It's not prophecy. Prophecy, you have to be a prophet. You can't say I'm a prophet, I want to have a prophecy. No. If you're a prophet, you're a prophet. If not, out. Ruach HaKodesh which to be honest with you, I never ever ever ever heard, found, or read anywhere the right translation to the term Ruach HaKodesh. Because the translation Ruach is spirit, Kodesh is holy. So some people translate it as the Holy Spirit. No, no, no, no, no, my friend. Ruach HaKodesh is not the Holy Spirit. Or a holy spirit. And many will translate Ruach HaKodesh as divine knowledge, divine inspiration. It's not. So Ruach HaKodesh in two words what Ruach HaKodesh is Ruach is spirit. Ruach is also wind. Ruach can also be read as re'ach that you smell something. Kodesh of course is holiness. When when you tell most people, oh that person is holy person. Most people, if you're Jewish, then you imagine somebody with a long beard and long pe'ot and a lot of wrinkles and you know, you imagine like a rabbi, right? Tell that person very holy. Tell it now to any other faith, they'll imagine how their holy person look, right? Kadosh can be translated as holy which it is, but Kadosh is really separated. When Hashem separates something, it makes it holy. So we have it in many different situations. The first one that comes up to my mind is with ma'aser, when we give the 10% from our my field. Once I separate the 10%, you don't have to touch it. May Hashem you all have fields very soon and you have your own trees to grow your own fruit and food, especially after the collapses today. I hope you are starting to plan how you're going to survive. And if you are looking at me like, what collapses today? You didn't notice yesterday with the cloud flare? All the banks were down, all the internet was down. Did you notice for about 3 hours no access to bank accounts, credit cards not working? Did you notice it? Most people didn't even notice that the ground is being pulled under your ground under your feet. Sorry, your ground is being pulled under your feet as you're standing. Most people didn't even notice that. You didn't notice? You you read. I noticed I went to make a transaction in the bank account. No bank. No credit card, no nothing. Internet is not working well, things don't Now of course, yeah, yeah, it was a configuration in one of the files. Oh. Yeah, half the world collapsed, a configuration in a file. These are the little heartbeats that you need to listen to because one day that fail is going to be long. I don't know if to say permanently, long. And I want to see how the world reacts. One week, no banks, no credit cards, no nothing. No stores. So I know, I know. We're not this is today is not that class. We're going to have a lot of classes about that with all the fun that's happening in the world. So first of all, you know, off the subject, we're going to we're going to have to continue. I was about to say finish. We're going to have to continue the Arab series because there's another we did 20 classes I think, there's another 400 classes ready. And then many other series that I promised you. May Hashem we'll get to that. But we're going to have to talk again what's going on in the world. Every half a year we need to do a review what's going on. What's the what's what was the last move on the board that I can reverse engineer what Hashem is doing here. So each one is in their bubble. Don't forget a year ago we were under missiles all day long. That was the war war. That's it, no more war. Trump came, no more war. Thank you. God bless America and Donald Trump. So every moment the world is shifting. Some things are big, some things are small. Now you have a a new clown running New York. That's going to be very interesting to see. That's going to be very interesting for me to see. Which I already said way before he got elected. Not that I'm trying to claim anything that he's going to the be the mayor of New York and New York is going to be the next London. And that kind of needs to raise a lot of red red lights. But nevertheless, this is not the the class that we're talking about and I didn't even know how we got sidetracked to that. How did we get sidetracked to that? I don't remember. Ah. Yeah, yesterday. The the collapse of the cloud. So I know most people don't really care or don't even put any emphasis on what take it serious because one day you're going to wake up in the morning and you're not going to have access to your bank, not to your PayPal, not to your bit, not to your credit cards, not to your trading account, not to nothing. Where's my money? Where's my money? You're laughing. Don't laugh. That's what's going to happen. And Ben David Ad De She Poruta Min HaKees, the son of David, Mashiach Ben David cannot come until there's not going to be Okay, let me let me reverse the translation Ad De She Poruta Min HaKees, when there's not going to be even a nickel or a dime in your pocket. Equals digital currencies. So they're working towards no cash society. That's when you know the something's going to hit the fan. So you see where it's going. Right now all our money is digital. You have money that is not digital? You might have a little few pay pieces of paper that is called cash. But what if you can't use that cash? On one One my trips back from America, I got stuck in Europe. Wouldn't expect anything else. But I got stuck. I came to buy something. I bought a American dollars, all dollars. But it's But it's money, no? But I'm hungry, no? Saying in other words, that piece of dollar is now a piece of paper. It's a toilet paper. That's what it's worth. In America, it's worth $100. Here you can wipe your tookus with it. So, who says you will somebody's going to take your cash? If you have any. All your money is digital. All your money is numbers and papers. Even when you own a property, it's it's papers. It's papers. So, not to sidetrack too much, uh yesterday's crash needs to raise a lot of red flags. When the real crash is going to come, I don't know, but just know that one day that's what's going to happen. Whether it's in half a year or 4 years, prepare for that. One day, what happened yesterday, and maybe not everybody experienced it. 3 hours, I tried to do bank transaction. Neither bank that I tried to log in, not Chase, not Israeli bank, nothing worked. All blocked. No credit card, all everything Nothing is on. Not nothing is functioning. And a lot of people said, "Oh, there's some issue with the internet." It's not the internet, my friend. It's another issue. But nevertheless, what am I saying? Yesterday, the cloud went down, and voila. Uh now, let's go back to where I started. I said one day you will have a garden, and you'll grow your own fruit and vegetables. That's where your mind has to be. Because when things are going to turn not so great, you need to be self-sufficient. You can't depend on any system. You can only depend on a sham and yourself. Which means that you need to cushion yourself right now with uh permanent solution to the time when there's going to be issues. Doesn't matter what We're not going to talk about this right now. I spoke about it many times, and I'll elaborate on that uh much more because time is coming closer to the to the deadline. But going back to what I was trying to say, if you have a garden, or you are farmer, you have to give 10% of your crops and your fruit and vegetables. The way to do it is that you while it's on the tree, you already separated, and you put a ribbon, and you're saying this is This is going to be the ma'aser. Why? Cuz you need to get the best of the best of the best. Once you separated something, that's called kadosh. And of course, I'm talking about separating it to for the sake of the Torah, not separating nonsense. Once you take an object, and you separate it from the majority, and you're saying this is going to be for Hashem, you made that thing holy at that point. It's called kadosh. Means you can't touch it. All this Thank you so much. All this I'm saying because I'm trying to give a very short definition what's ruach hakodesh. You know what? Just because we're not we're limited with time, uh maybe I'll see if it's shayach to initiate a class to teach all about ruach hakodesh. In two words, ruach hakodesh is that you do have do have divine power. How much is your power? What is the power? Depends on you. So, ruach hakodesh is really being a superhero if you have ruach hakodesh. So, some type of ruach hakodesh will be prophecy. And And again, the definition is that I have a holy I I have a I don't like saying the Holy Spirit because it's not. But I have a spirit of holiness in me. It's saying in other words, I have access to encrypted information. That's it. What is the information? Well, one ruach hakodesh will be prophecy. Another type of ruach hakodesh that I look at a person and I see their incarnations. That's it. That's my ruach hakodesh. That's my my gift, my superpower. Like my 6-year-old, every 3 days he asked me, "If you could have any superpower, who would you be? Superman, Spider-Man, the other guy I don't remember the name." I told him they're all wearing tights. I don't want to be neither one of them. Baruch atah Adonai Eloheinu Melech ha'olam shehakol nihiye bidvaro. Amen. And like they post on Facebook, you don't need to wear a cape to be a superhero. So, ruach hakodesh can come in many different ways. Ruach hakodesh can come in a way that I read minds. Ruach hakodesh can come that I see through a wall. Ruach hakodesh can come that I can see something that is happening on the other side of the world. Can be prophecy. Can be many things. And it can be all together, by the way. It all depends on your level of ruach hakodesh. So, one of the highest highest highest levels of ruach hakodesh that ever anybody reached was the Ari Zal, Rabbi Yitzchak Luria. And his ruach hakodesh came about in prophecy, came about in fact that he would look at you and he would see all your incarnations. Very few people were able to do that. Maybe the Baal Shem Tov, I think, was able to do that and a few others. The Ari Zal knew all the languages of all animals. He was able to talk with animals. That's what That's what level of ruach hakodesh. That's not Doctor Doolittle. That's the Ari Zal talking to animals. He would be able to talk to spirits, to souls, go up and down in the in the from the world below to the world above. I'm mean talking here a superpower, not some Spider-Man that jumps from building to building. That's the real ruach hakodesh. His student there, Rabbi Chaim Vital, that we're talking about, also had very high level of ruach hakodesh. His ruach hakodesh, he would be able to teleport himself from place to place. So, the ruach hakodesh can come in many different aspects, many different ways. It can be somebody in the level of Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai, the Ari Zal, the Baal Shem Tov, the the the lower level of ruach hakodesh is uh phew teleporting yourself, many many different things. Uh as prophecies, reading See, but it depends. But some people can have this much ruach hakodesh. Shaarei Kedushah, the book that we're learning here, is the uh ruach hakodesh for dummies. You want ruach hakodesh, follow this book. If you follow this book, he tells you, "Follow what I tell you exactly, and you'll have ruach hakodesh." And you have to understand that with ruach hakodesh, you can do things you you like an Ari Zal, you like a Baal Shem Tov. You talk to angels. You walk freely from this world to the world above. You do You You You are tzaddik. You're not a Sorry, let me take it back. You can have ruach hakodesh without being Well, you you have to have level of tzaddikus to have ruach hakodesh cuz you can't have any sins. One sin, no ruach hakodesh. 50 years be observant, one blink wrong way, no ruach hakodesh. Yitzchak Avinu, uh Yaakov Avinu, one of the greatest greatest prophets in history, one of the greatest leaders. He's one of the forefathers. That means he's the one of the four corners of the chariot. This is levels that it's very hard for us to relate. When I'm saying to relate, if you would see Yitzchak, Avraham, Yaakov, you would might see a human being, but it's not a regular human being, level of David Hamelech. But nevertheless, Yaakov Avinu had ruach hakodesh in a very high level. When Yosef was abducted, he lost his ruach hakodesh. The whole time Yosef was away, he didn't have ruach hakodesh. And why? Cuz he was in a state of un being unhappy, atzvut. He knew his son is not dead. Didn't see anybody. So, he was in a state of atzvut, and therefore he lost his ruach hakodesh. So, he didn't Cuz a lot of people say, "Yaakov is such a giant pro He couldn't know that his son is in in a tunnel in Gaza?" Ask yourself this question. Yaakov is not some uh some regular individual. Yaakov was the grandson of Avraham Avinu. I don't want to compare it in names in our generation, but that's Yaakov was a billionaire. It's almost like you'll say, I don't know. I don't want to say names cuz here in our generation, they're all clowns, the billionaires. But for the sake of the example, it's I would say Elon Musk, uh Shmil Gates, or whatever that idiot name is. Yaakov Avinu was a gazillionaire in money. You know what power he had? You want to tell me that Yaakov Avinu couldn't go and do a search team looking for his son? Does it say anywhere in the Torah that Yaakov went looking for his son? And you want to tell me that he he didn't have enough the power to send the word out, "Look for my son"? He knew his son was taken by the Hamas to the tunnels in Gaza. Now, it's Gaza the name of Mitzrayim, no difference. So, Yosef was sitting in tunnels. Yaakov couldn't find him. Couldn't look for him. He didn't have ruach hakodesh. He didn't even know where to start. He lost it. He lost ruach hakodesh. And when Why? I gave a whole class about that a few years ago, cuz Yaakov in the Kabbalah is considered the Zeir Anpin, and he needed Yosef, who's the yesod. And when Joseph was removed, he didn't have his connection. But nevertheless, let's let's I'm really sidetracking and we don't have much time. Uh So, ruach hakodesh is a very high level of uh divine power. And there's many different levels of ruach hakodesh. Shaarei Kedushah is the book that brings you to ruach hakodesh. If you follow one word after the other, you'll have ruach hakodesh. And ruach hakodesh can be, like I told you, uh to levels of prophecy and teleportation and many other things. And ruach hakodesh can be basic basic things. Basic things that you're just a little bit higher than the average individual. So, you'll see things a little bit clearer, stronger intuition, but I wouldn't call that even ruach hakodesh. But nevertheless, Shaarei Kedushah, if you follow it, you'll reach ruach hakodesh. Now, why did we get to ruach hakodesh, how we sidetracked? I don't remember. But let me go back to where I was saying that the mitzvot are my lanes. It's where they keep me on my lane. So, I'm not going to start floating on the on the highway and start doing accidents all over the place. And the mitzvah is what's connected me to Hashem. It's my spiritual fuel. Because I connect myself to the godly light. The mitzvot for now, and I'm not uh chas v'shalom narrowing down the definition for what I'm trying to teach you, the mitzvot is the lanes that you stay by because it's it keeps you. You got to do this, you got to do that, you got to do this. It keeps you safe. Forget about now that it's connecting you to Hashem. And forget about now the fact that you are fulfilling the will of Hashem. It's giving you a benefit. And most important, keeping you on track. Because when you fly high and you fly fast, you make one mistake, you fall. So, when I became observant, I understood very quickly that observing Hashem is not about the rules. The rules are important. You cannot break the rules. You break the rules, you'll never get to your destination. We're going to talk in the next class about Shaarei Shaarei Gilgulim. Because and like I told you, this class is more like to get you into the Okay, we're going back to learn Tomer Devorah. We're going back to learn Shaarei Shaarei Gilgulim because a lot of you weren't with us from the beginning and you might want to go to the website and catch up on the last classes that you missed. Although, if you come in in the middle, you're not going to and not understand anything. You can come at any point, but needless to say, it's important information. I would go back and see the videos. They're from the beginning. The reason why I said I was talking about Shaarei ruach hakodesh is because I mentioned that Rabbi Chaim Vital in the book Shaarei Kedushah, Gate of Holiness, he says in the beginning in the introduction that performing performing the mitzvot is extremely important, learning Torah, doing the Torah. All this is important and a must. But the real thing that one needs to focus on in his life, why you came to this world, is called tikkun hamiddot, the rectification the the refinement of character. That's what Rabbi Chaim Vital says. That's the highlight of your life. You did not come here for an academic degree or for money or to become a very good athlete. That's not what you came here for. You came into this world for one purpose, to refine yourself. And if you did not do that after 60, 70, 80 years, you go in and out like a revolving door, back to where you came from, and you didn't do nothing. And that's why we learn Shaarei Gilgulim, Gate of Incarnations, cuz when you go through the revolving door, you'll come back again. Same place, different time, another life. We're all here for at least three, four, five, 10, 50 times. Neither one of us here is one time. I'm I'm brand new here. Seeing everybody around us, making a quick calculation, we're here for many times with how we behave. So, just remember that when you don't fix something here, you go out, but it's a revolving door and you come right back in. And that's called an incarnation. And we're all incarnations. And that's why we learn Shaarei Gilgulim, the Gate of Incarnations, so we know what to do. Gate of Incarnations, I call it the guide for my purpose. And Tomer Devorah, I would call it the guide of my refinement and growth. And there's many other books, by the way. I'm just since we're learning these two, I'm giving you how I look at it. Tomer Devorah will give me the tools how can I refine myself? Because when I go through this revolving door, A, I'm not coming back to the same place. I'm going to the other side. But you have to come into the world dirty. When you come to the world dirty, if not, you won't come. And you want to come out of the world clean. The mitzvot is what's going to keep you on the track. You know, confess a little thing. I I confessed it many times that I have a weak point to very fast cars. Everybody has a yetzer hara, right? My wife is happy with my yetzer hara. She says, "Men look at women, you look at cars." So, we were in Florida uh in the summer, in Miami. So, my wife is happy. She's like, "Everybody's looking at the half-naked girls, you're looking at the cars." So, I have a weakness. So, if you're smart, you know how to feed the weakness in small doses. It's called mayim acharonim. You give the You give the animal a little bit to eat. Cuz if he gets too hungry, he will eat you. Right? So, if you ever raised some type of a beast, you you understand that he will be hungry, he will eat you. So, same with your yetzer hara, everything. So, you got to give him a little doses to keep him quiet. So, I know my weaknesses and I know how to handle them in most of the cases. So, why am I saying that? Just to give you an analogy. All this confession is for one for analogy. So, in my tour in the summer, we were in America for 2 months, had I don't know, I think like 50 lectures, very successful tour, beautiful tour, met a lot of people, met all my students and followers that I never see, I don't know who they are. Was very special. One of the stops was Las Vegas. So, in Vegas, uh to make a long story short cuz we're short on time, they have a track there that you go to the track and you pay a few hundred dollars and you select any of about 60 fast cars, Lamborghinis, Ferraris, whatever you want. And you go on the on the track. Why wouldn't I do such a fun thing? Now, only problem is that they limit you, you can only go 240 km an hour. They don't let you go more than that. And then they have the track police, a track hawk that comes to you. 700 horsepower. But nevertheless, it's fun. You rent a Lamborghini or Porsche, whatever you want. And you on the on the track. Okay. Why am I saying all this? Because you do drive fast. And 240 km an hour is fast enough. I would want to do 300 there because it's a track. But 200 is enough. When I went there, I saw the people. Anyone can do that. Now, if you are a professional driver, I don't mind driving with you on the track. With any one of you on the track, I wouldn't drive on the track. No offense. I know what you're going to do. Do you know how to drive at 250 km an hour? I don't think so. You make a mistake, I run into you. No, no, no, no, no. No, no, no, no, no. I'm now at the mercy of another person doesn't know how to drive. Now, if you're going into such a place, you need to know how to drive. No, I'm specially giving this analogy, by the way. I'm not I'm trying to sell you a product. When you're flying on a When you're going on a track, means you're flying fast. Flying, driving, same idea. One little mistake and you're out. And you know what causes that mistake? So, I'm not talking about now a malfunction in the car. Is if you get out of the lane. That's it. That's the rule of fast driving. Stay in your lane. The second you go out of your lane, you're going to hit another car. Because you don't always know who's next to you. Right? You dead areas. And I'm not talking about driving here in Kiryas Joel. Talking driving in a track when you're flying. Every millimeter is detrimental. The rule here, don't switch You switch lanes, you'll get into an accident and lose control. The lanes are engineered in a certain way. You have to break the rules to go through lanes and then of course your capabilities will determine if you can do that. But on a regular track, on a regular race, you don't do that. You move out of the lane, you'll do an accident. That's it. So, serving Hashem, that's a fast lane. Secular, unobservant, idiotic, agnostic, but come then you whatever. You're not in any lane. If you love Hashem but you're not observant, you you you you want to serve Hashem the right way, you have to fly on the lane. You can't change lanes. That's where the mitzvot come in. When you have your lane set and you have everything is set, you won't fail. You won't fall. You have a solid ground under you. You have a destination. You have a goal. You have a mark. You have a In Hebrew, it's called nikudot mifgash. Points on my timeline where I stop to recalibrate and I move on. Checkpoints. Thank you. So, I need the ground. No ground, you fail. And all this, 45 minutes, well, 54 minutes, to explain to you that this journey in this world, the next class we're going to talk about Shaar HaGilgulim, to understand my purpose. Here I need to understand how to go out of this world in the way I'm supposed to. Each and every one of you is a diamond. Did you ever see a diamond unpolished? How it comes out of the mine? Go to Google and and search it. How a diamond looks? It looks like a black rock. It doesn't look like anything. You wouldn't even spit to that direction, you would kick it. Then you have to polish it. And it's not nice like how you see in uh Tiffany. It's And then you need to polish it and refine it and then you have a nice diamond. And what will determine its value and its uh carat, its level of uh value? How polished it is. The more it's polished, the more the cut is precise and you're talking here about millimeters. I'm sure you saw these guys, you know, like that. The more it's polished, the more it's cut perfectly, the carat is higher, it's more it's more expensive. That's it. You are a diamond. You came to the world, came through a dirty mine and you're full of dirt. And now you need to polish the diamond. Because at the end of the route, you're going to need to give the diamond back to Hashem polished. And that's your neshama. And when you polish your neshama, I'm not here for the reward. You give it back to Hashem clean. That's your purpose. And to polish your neshama can only be done if you refine yourself. And that can only be done through a system that is called tikkun hamiddot, the refinement of character. And it's a long process. Tomer Devorah is one of the many books that we learn to bring me to that level. But if you have no goals, if you have no aspirations, if you have no desires, if you have no dreams, if you have no place you want to be, then sorry I'm telling you that in that way you are a loser. You're wasting your time here. Sorry that I'm saying it like that, but I told you already, sometimes you need a slap to your face to wake up. Cuz the minimum of the minimum of the goal you have to have is to accomplish what you're supposed to do in this world spiritually. I'm telling you that you need to be a doctor, an engineer, or to be a marathon runner or whatever. Your goals and aspirations is where my How am I leaving this world? How did you come to this world? I know. How you leaving this world? You know at some point we're all leaving the world? We're all going to meet our creator. That's a big enough goal. My goals, yeah, I have goals that have to do with physical things, but I have goals in the how high I want to reach in my spiritual observance, how far I want to reach in my spiritual observance, and everything is with a plan, by the way. When I became observant, there was timelines. In the next half a year I have to do this. In the next 3 years I have to do that. In the next 5 years I have to do this and this. Nobody does that. I've seen tons of baal teshuvahs. I don't see any Nobody has uh order. It's like one big mess. I came into the system with a plan. If you don't work with a plan, you're not going to do nothing. You can go now to the gym. If you don't have a plan for the workout, yeah, yeah, you'll work out, but you're not going to do You're not going to get 10% of what you would actually get if you work with a plan. Cuz you'll go and you'll do one exercise for the leg and then another exercise for the hand and No, no, no, no, no. You need a set. Set plan. It's just Have you ever seen somebody going to get to the to the kitchen and pulling whatever they find in the in the fridge and they're starting to cut things? No, no, no, no, no. I need for the salad I need vegetables. For the soup I need that. You need a plan. I go to buy Well, it doesn't happen so often, but when I do go and buy in a store, I go with a list. Everything is with a plan. Now again, you can be not like that, then you'll be just less successful. Everything needs a plan. Whether it's something small as cooking a meal, you need a plan. What are the ingredients? What am I buying? What do I need? I need three pots? Do I need five pots? And you can take it to a bigger level. I'm starting a company. I need a plan. I need to buy products and how am I selling it? The the the administrative part Everything needs a plan. You do something without a plan, you'll fail miserably. And then of course, take it to big scale. Can you imagine an army going into a war no plan? Okay, GUYS, JUST SHOOT ANYTHING YOU SEE. But what do you mean shoot anything we see? What's What's our objective? What are we doing? Do we conquer? Do we kill? Do we take captive? What? Everything has to work with a plan. So so much more so the Torah. So much more so the Torah. And by the way, since I see that we're we're both running out of time and the first class is long, as as I'm speaking, I'm merging both classes. We'll have one long class. Both on Tomer Devorah and Shaar HaGilgulim. The point of this class is to The ones who are following the course, to refresh in your mind. After all, we've been learning dozens and dozens and dozens of class. I'm not expecting anybody to remember the material. In Shaar Shaar HaGilgulim, Gate of Incarnation, we're in chapter seven. We did about 100 classes. That's 150, 200 hours of Torah. I'm not expecting anyone to remember what we learned. I mean, the general part. And if you can, go back and see the beginning. Tomer Devorah is much, much shorter. Tomer Devorah we did five chapters, but either way, even if you didn't ever learn with us, not, join where you are and catch up. But to summarize the the concept, when I became observant, as I started the class, I I I I wasn't so happy with the arrangement. Because I was 27 years old and I was a secular man and my friend told me you can't do this, you can't do this, you can't do this. He didn't tell me what I have to do. He just told me what I can't do. I said, "You just took everything away. You didn't leave nothing. Can't go to the beach, can't go to the movie, can't go to the owl, can't be with girls, can't go to parties. So what do you leave me?" So I didn't like the arrangement in the beginning, but of course, my hand was bent. I I was afraid of Hashem, so I okay, got to make it work. But very, very quickly, I understood that that I have a purpose in this world. I was not born into this world to be another number. And I was not created into this world just to be passively living this world and just leaving. And prior to my near-death experience, I was a atheist. I didn't care about anything, didn't believe in anything. I lived my life uh you know, eat today cuz you're going to die tomorrow. But when I became observant, it's because I was exposed to the spiritual world. So I then understood I have value. I'm not some a creature. I'm not another bird or another cat or another ant or another zebra. You go into the to the to the herd of the zebras, they all look the same. They don't have their individuality. All the flies look the same. All the birds look the same. Okay, maybe one strike is like this and one strike is like that. But take every specie, they all look the same. Right? Or maybe a little difference of color or a pattern. All the zebras look the same. You can't say, "Oh, oh, here's a zebra one here zebra two." They all look the same to me. And I'm not talking about the way you know, horses one is black, one is white. The specie, they all look the same. We don't. We're not like animals. We might have the same structure, ears, forehead, eyes. There's not one person in the world that is identical to another person, even twins. No such a thing. Because each and every one of us is an individual soul and the soul cannot be cloned or copied. When you understand that you are a part of a system and you have not only a job to do, you have a purpose, then things start looking a little bit different. If you right now in where you are in your life don't believe or know or think or see that you have a purpose that you need to do in this world, your situation is very bad. I don't know if it's even fixable. It is. But ask yourself this question right now. Well, not right now. Ask it later. And ask yourself that question. If not, you just stand here for nothing. Ask yourself unless it's unless you don't need to ask yourself and you you know, like in how do you call that game, Jeopardy? Right? That's the game? That you have to do the buzzer quick and then you say the answer? Help me out. It's Jeopardy? Okay, so you got to help me out here. I'm just by myself here. But the game that they ask a question and you have to hit the buzzer quick and and you have to say the question, right? The answer. Same thing here. Quick. That's how fast you need to answer if you know what your purpose in this world. If you don't know, well, let me take it one step worse. If you don't think even, and I'm not addressing anyone in this room cuz I know you all do. But I'm saying it. If a person doesn't have a purpose, what are you doing here? And the purpose I'm not talking about physical achievements. That's nice to have physical achievements. I'm talking about the purpose why Hashem created me. Because if Hashem doesn't need me, I will not be existing. So if I exist, Hashem needs me to do something. I'm hired to a job. Yes, if you do the job right, there's bonuses, there's benefits, olam haba, world to come, all that good stuff. But right now you are hired to do a job. Do you know what's your job? You don't know what your job is. Most people don't know what their job is. They're running in circles, running after their tail. When I'm saying your job is, what's your purpose in this world? And a lot of people they don't even have it in their front mind that I have a purpose that I need to fulfill. Now, it works both ways. A, nobody's asking you about the purpose. Hashem says you have to do it. B, you're the only one who benefits. Because when you're walking on the path of your purpose, then doors open. Your actions are successful. You reap rewards. When you're not walking in the path of your purpose, opportunities don't work out. Opportunities stop coming. Doors slam in your face. Things don't work out. A lot of friction with a lot of people. Things just don't work out. That's it. I don't have any other way of saying it. You're not walking on your path, things won't work out for you. Not in your livelihood, in your parnassah, not in your in in relations, you're not going to have good relations with your spouse or you're not going to have a spouse at all. You're walking on the same path. Just just the how do you call it? The view is disgusting. You can go on a train from point A to point B, sit in the front how do you call it? card in a beautiful VIP with a bed and everything and on the same train you can be all the way in the back in the box car. And you can sit in the same analogy. On this train you sit on it looking to this side, you see this view. Beautiful river, mountains. You sitting on this side looking to this direction, highways, railroad tracks. How come I got the good view, you got the bad view? Well, I chose where to sit. We can all walk on the same path. You can walk on the path that you need to go, but everything is messed up. Why? Cuz you're not doing your purpose. Somebody asked me an amazing amazing question. I'm going to do a class on that next week. And the question is, how do I know to say the difference between what are challenges and tests from Hashem as tests that I have to accept it as a test? And how do I make the differentiation that the other challenges and tests are actually my sins and my wrongdoing? I have now a challenge. Is it a sin that I did? Is it something wrong that I'm doing and Hashem is enlightening me with this challenge that I will do teshuvah and look for what's going on? Or is it option number two that it's a challenge that was predestined before I was even born as part of the challenges of my path? How do I know? Because if it's a challenge that was predestined, and to give you an example of a challenge of being predestined, from the year 23 to 32, you're not going to do well financially. That's already in your spiritual DNA. That's it. Or you will only get married when you're 34. So from the age of 20 to 14 to 34, 14 years of single, you're going nuts. But that's already written. That's a challenge you can't change. It's already predestined. That's one of the challenges of your life. Has nothing to do with anything. You're going to have to pull through the challenge. But how do I know that what I'm going through is the that challenge, predestined? Or maybe the challenge that I'm dealing with right now is my actions of sins or some action that is causing this reaction and that it's challenging me. How do I know? If it's my predestined challenge, then I will deal with it the right way. Meaning accepting the challenge and going forward with it. But if it's option number two, I need to reverse engineer and do teshuvah. Maybe the challenge that I'm going in right now. Let's say right now a man, a woman, doesn't matter. A whole year no parnassah. You start a business. Parnassah means your livelihood, your money. Doesn't matter what happens, you can't make ends meet. You try to do this business deal, you lose. You buy Bitcoin, it goes down to $80. Anything you want to do, boom, you eat it. Now, maybe it's just a challenge. Maybe it's just a test in emunah, in belief, in bitachon, in trust. Maybe it's just Hashem's challenges like we all get challenged. And then I need to ignore it and and just to follow through. But what if I'm having problems with my parnassah, with my livelihood and I'm losing all my Bitcoin because I stole something and I and I didn't do teshuvah for that. Maybe I did gezel. Gezel is worth than stealing. The translation of gezel is robbery, but I don't agree with that translation. Robbery is put it put your hands up. That's robbery. Gezel, I can do gezel to you without even know that I did that. Gezel is a very severe level of stealing. Because when I g'neva, stealing is I sneak through the window, I break your window and I come in, I take your TV and I go out of the window with your TV. You know your TV was was taken and the window was broken. Gezel, you can have a business and I can come into your business and take things from your business and you don't even know that I took it from you. A fool to be coming. G'neva, let me say it in English. When some when g'neva, you know that something was stole from you. Gezel, something can be taken from you and you don't even know it. Which means the taker can steal from you not knowing that you don't even know he's stealing from you. Or it can be not an agreement with money. It can be a million things. I know I I gave you a promise that I'll do a long class about gezel. But for now, just to move on, gezel is is stealing. It's taking something without permission of somebody else. That will cause you not to have money, not to have parnasa, not to have all sorts of So, how do I know that the challenge right now is something natural or something that I did? And then I need to reverse engineer to find out what it did I do. So, I can fix it. If something doesn't work out in my life over and over and over, I stop and I start analyzing. Why is this thing not working? And maybe 20 years ago I gave a promise. It's called a nedel, a vow. And I did not do paying my vow. Yeah, it will hunt you. Careful what you say, what you promise. So, things can happen from my behavior. So, how do I make the difference? That is going to be a different class. I'm going to do this week and I'm going to explain the big difference between both of them and how you recognize the difference between bechlal. But right now, forget about that. I'm talking about my journey in this world. If it's not in the front part of your brain, if it doesn't occupy your mind daily, something's wrong in your system. You need to You don't I'm not expecting you to know what your purpose is. That's very hard. That's why we learn Shaarei Gilgulim. Shaarei Gilgulim will help you reverse engineer to your purpose. And your purpose, by the way, is is what you need to do in this world. And the purpose changes. You can be 10 years this purpose, 10 years here, 10 years here, 5 years here. It It's dynamic. Some people do the same thing their whole life. Some people changes all the time. Most people don't know their purpose in this world. And I'm not talking about now your career and I'm not talking about your studies. I'm not talking about stuff. That's good things to do. Secular, observant, not It doesn't matter. It's always good to have goals, always to grow, always to develop, always to broaden your horizons. But that's not my purpose. Could be that right now my purpose is to be a father to a few kids and and support them and educate them. And maybe that's my purpose. I can be a simple man just working my job and my purpose is to educate my kids to be good individuals, God-fearing people. Not everybody is a president. But it doesn't matter who you are. You have a purpose in this world. And the first of all, if I want to approach my purpose, okay? Let's finish the class. Shaarei Gilgulim. I call Shaarei Gilgulim my guide to how to find my purpose. I don't know my purposes. I'm walking here in the dark. I don't know nothing here. I don't know where I came from. I don't know what I did. Nobody gave me some pamphlet when I came here in the hospital when I was born. Nobody came and told me what what to do here. They just shoved a pacifier in my mouth and told me, "Welcome to the world." So, I need books to tell me where what's going on here. Because 99.9% of the people in this world, they don't know what's going on here. They don't know where to go. They don't know who to follow. Everybody's going in circles following the ass of the one in front of them. That's what's going on. Sorry for that I'm saying that. Very few people, a fraction of people in this world are individuals, think separately and follow what they need to do. Most people go in circles. The trend, they follow the trend. What the world does. Then you need to take a few key points when you finish this class. First is that you need to ask yourself every day, even 10 times a day, till you get it. What is my purpose in this world? What am I doing to achieve this purpose? What am I doing to refine myself as requested that when I come back to the world above, I can easily say I'm not talking about now serving God, mitzvot, doing good things, helping people. I'm talking right now. I need to narrow down my path in this world because the path is very short. Your life goes like that. Before you know it, you out. Not that I'm trying to make you feel like old and But that's the reality. Let's cut to the chase. Some point in my life there's nothing bad about that. You move to a better place. But let's be a little bit harsh and realistic. My time is is is very limited here. Either I will grow out and die or Mashiach will come, one of the others. And 40 years, that's not a long time, by the way. If you thinking, "Oh, I have another 40 years to live." 40 years is nothing. And who says you're going to live another 40 years? And it's not about living or not living. Mashiach can come tomorrow. Once Mashiach comes, that's it. Story's over. So, we we we we are a little bit pressured with time. I don't do anything under pressure, but we are pressured with time. The pressure should cause the the focus. Not to Most people, like I told you, I I promised many that I'm going to do a class about time management. Most people 24 hours a day, they're they're efficient 2 hours. That's it. 22 hours I don't know what they're doing. You want to be successful, you need good time management. I sleep 2 hours, 22 hours I I'm very efficient. Nothing is wasted here. I don't go like this on phones. Waste of my time. Doesn't give me anything, no benefit, didn't get educated, didn't make money, nothing. To go like this. So, I do it. And most people waste most of their time on nonsense. The other day somebody I spoke to, tick tick, and then I said, "I got to run." He said he says, "You're You're not nice." He said it in a different word. He said, "You're not polite. You're not nice." Why? Cuz you're you're not talking. I said, "Where does it say here I need to talk to you? Uh what am I going to benefit if I'm standing in the street and schmooze with you? I asked how you are. You told me you're feeling good. I asked how your family is. You told me they're doing well. You asked me how my family is doing. I told you everything is good. That's where the conversation ends. I need to hear about your nonsense right now. You need to hear about I have things to do. I don't sit in a coffee shop and schmooze and 3 hours. Some people have the time for that. I don't want to say the word that I was about to say about that those people. Cuz if you have time to sit 3 hours in a coffee shop and go like this, maybe you should learn Torah. Maybe do some good deeds. Maybe go and help people. Maybe go to work and make some money. So, don't get me angry now. You need to understand that if you don't I'm not I'm not telling you to know your purpose right now. You need to understand that there is a purpose that you need to figure out. And then there's going to be a path that you're going to walk on. Whether you like it or not. There's no You have no choice here. With that said, before you plan any bold plans, you need the basic. Because when I was in the beginning of my path, I didn't know what I'm going to be when I was older, I mean. So, then I wanted to be a fireman. You know, you ask a 6-year-old, "What do you want to be when you're older?" "I want to be a fireman." The other day The other day somebody I have a 6-year-old boy. Somebody asked something one of the kids, "What do you want to be when you're older?" So, one of the boys said, "I want to be a fireman cuz it sounds like cool, yeah?" So, the other boy answered, "There's not good money in that." I was like, "That's a very very mature boy." 6-year-olds, they get excited. "I want to be on the truck. I'm going to No, no, no, no, no. No, it's only 50 grand a month. It's not a good job." That's what the other boy said. So, you can be sweeping the floor all your life. It doesn't mean you're not fulfilling your purpose. Maybe your purpose is to be humble. And to not to desire too many things. And not to run after fame, money, and respect. I don't know. Do you know your purpose? Most people ask them if I know what their purpose is. They don't have don't have the slightest clue what's their purpose. And everything they're pursuing is what they like or what they want. That's not their purpose. It's something they like. My purpose is this. I like FAST CARS. TWO DIFFERENT THINGS. MY PURPOSE IS not driving fast cars. I love it. Why do I love it? I don't know. Why do you love apples and you love oranges? Can you say why you love things? You love this type of music. You love that type of music. You love bitter. You love sweet. You can't say why or how. I don't know why that is my desire. I don't know why this is my weakness. I'm not even trying to figure out. I don't care. Your weakness is chocolate. Your weakness is whatever, gambling. Your weakness Everybody has a different weakness. When you were born, they gave you an option. Which weakness do you want? No. They just gave you your weaknesses. And at the same time, they gave you your strength. Now, you need to walk on your path [Music] understanding that there's a path to walk on and there's a way to walk on that path. If you don't fulfill your purpose in this world, you wasted 60, 70, 80 years of your life, and you're going to go through the revolving door and we'll see you in the next chapter. I don't want to come back here again. I love you all. I'm not coming back here. This is the last time. I'm getting this time right. I hope at least Hashem will give me the option. I don't want to come back here anymore. I'm done. My passport of reincarnations is full. But regardless, if Hashem wants me to come back, I'll be back. My goal right now, and that's how I operate, is how is going to be the end result when I'm leaving. That's that's my goal. If you don't have a goal, if you don't have a plan, if you don't have a path, you you your life is going to be a mess. Nothing will work out in your life. Not business, not relationships, not health, not anything. You won't achieve anything. You'll just have failures. Life has to be organized. With a place that you start, with my destination, what are my goals, what are the time frame for those goals. And again, I I know a lot of it sounds mechanic. And I'm not giving you now a class of how mechanically to do it. Now I want you to understand, unless you already know that, that a big part of your existence, I'm not saying necessarily the main right now. I'm saying a very large part of your existence boils down to if you are you fulfilling your purpose. And are are you refining your neshama and your body and your mind? Are you doing tikkun hamidot? If we basing it on Rabbi Chaim Vital. And by the way, nobody disagrees with Rabbi Chaim Vital. The statement that he says in Shaarei Kedushah is that the mitzvot are important, everything is important, but your main thing in the world that you need to focus on is tikkun hamidot. And you were born with a lot of anger. You need to refine it. You were born very quick to judge. You got to refine it. You were born impatient. You were born like this and you were born like that. That's it. Everybody has bad midot. You know how many bad midot, how many bad characteristics there are? Hate and jealousy and animosity and the list We started going through through the list in Shaarei Kedushah. That's the book we're learning. Oh, the midot. You have dozens of midot and each one will birth another one. And of course, only you have it on on the same on the positive side. And just I'm saying that as a side note, tikkun hamidot and fulfilling your person can be done in one day or in 70 years. All depends on yourself and depends what Hashem wants. So don't think that oh, I'm 60, I'm I'm I'm uh I'm never going to do it. Uh Adam koneh olamo berega. A person can do teshuvah in one one second. One second, you do teshuvah. So, to conclude the class, the classes that we we we're going to continue we're going to continue where we stopped. In Shaar Shaar HaGilgulim, we're in chapter seven. What I'm going to do when we start to go back, I'm going to start chapter seven again because I doubt anybody remembers what we spoke in chapter seven, and it's about six, seven classes. Uh we will learn chapter seven all over from the beginning. I'll just do it not as detailed till the place that we stopped. And for the ones who will want to go more, then they can see the class, the classes of chapter seven. But chapter seven, we're in the middle, so we're going to and we didn't learn for quite a few months. So we're going to start we'll go back a little bit. So you won't miss anything if you just joining. If you want to see all the rest of the classes, they're on smooth.com. I recommend, of course. But in in the learning, we're going back to Shaar HaGilgulim, chapter seven. And in Tomer Devorah, we're starting chapter six, which is uh teaching us about gevurah. Uh the other classes will continue regardless. Today, what you need to to take from the class, because the point is to take something from the class. If you sit in a class and you don't apply something right after, then why did you come? I stopped giving food. Once I gave food to bring the people. Now I stopped people come to the food, they don't learn. So I stopped giving food. Now come and learn. So if you learn, you have to do something. Doesn't matter right now on which level you are because I'm I don't know who I'm talking to. I I'm talking to thousands of people that I don't know who they are. I don't know the the variety of the people who are listening. So I'm talking always general, just that you understand and know. You need to and if you are already, then ignore what I'm saying, but you need to come to the realization that you have a very important purpose in this world and every day that passes and you're not doing it, it's a problem. How do you find your purpose? That's not an answer that can be given in a second and a half. I have a few classes online, but I can tell you that I find the teachings of the Shaar HaGilgulim, the gate of incarnations to narrow down your purpose because it teaches you you're not going to know where you came from. Don't think that at the end of the class I'm going to tell you 300 years ago you were a fisherman in Italy. Like some people will say here in Tzfat. I hear it all the time. Some guy came to me, you know so-and-so, and I said I never never heard of her. Some woman, I don't know, what she tells people their incarnations, whatever nonsense people fall and believe. From the little that I know, nobody in our generation can look at you and tell you what your incarnation is. The only one who was able to do that that we know is the Arizal. So don't believe when people come and tell you all this is nonsense. You know, one time I met this lady, she looked deep into my eyes and she was like, "You have such an old soul." And I was like, "Really? Does my old soul get social security? Am I getting any type of benefits this old soul?" What kind of old soul you're giving me? Old soul. What, it says 1962 on my back? And people fall for that nons nonsense. Old soul. Tzfat, we got to go to Mincha. You want to take from this class that you do have a purpose and your purpose is important and Hashem wants you to find this purpose and you need to find this purpose and you need to know and it could be that you're fulfilling your purpose without even knowing because you're lucky and Hashem loves you and he just took you down on that path. But that has to be a very solid, strong pillar that is standing in front of you as a goal and not in as a goal, as a reminder. You wake up in the morning, sometimes you wake up in the morning depressed, sad, unhappy, no not motivated. Life is hard, things fall down and don't work out. You don't have the greatest motivation to do things. You wake up in the morning, you what needs to give you motivation is that I'm servant of Hashem and I have a goal and I need and I have a job to do and I'm going to do it. And part of the job is to suffer and to fail and to to meet all these challenges. So one thing that you need to put on your list is I need to understand, know, and pursue that I'm fulfilling my goal, my purpose. I need to walk on the path that I that Hashem designated for me. How do you know that you're not walking on your path? You have a very annoying, miserable feeling deep down inside of you. I'm not going to elaborate on that. We'll do that in another class. But you can recognize that little feeling that is bugging you, that's when you're not walking on your fulfilling your purpose. Your neshama is poking you. How to recognize that? I I told you, we're going to have to do a long class explaining that. But when you do fulfill your purpose, you have a feeling of a strong feeling of of content and happiness cuz you're doing what you're supposed to do. So you're more relaxed. You're more focused on what you what what you are doing. You have a natural happiness. Uh you are naturally happy. Bad things happen, it doesn't change your mood. There's many indicators that will tell you where you're holding, if you are on your purpose or not. That's number one. Shaar HaGilgulim will help you get to to find out their purpose. It's not that you're going to learn it tomorrow and the next day you know everything. And just to make it make it a little bit more clear, we are in chapter seven and we went through 100 classes. There's 40 chapters. So it's not that you learn it in two months and you're like, "I know my purpose." No, this will take you five years. But you'll slowly slowly narrow down and eliminate the things you don't need to that that are not have that has nothing to do with you. That's Shaar HaGilgulim. Tomer Devorah will give you one of the best methods and system how to refine yourself. I believe that if you follow the rules of Tomer Devorah, the teachings of Tomer Devorah, and apply it, you have the best chance of becoming an extremely refined, unbelievable individual if you follow it. And by the way, this will take you many years. I think I read Tomer Devorah maybe 40 times. See, it's a small book. It's not a not that I'm that great. But you you need to apply, you need to learn. It's not a short process. But you want to do that. If everything in your life is great, then and I don't believe a very a lot of people can raise their hand. Most people can raise their hand for that question. Most people will say Unless your life is all rainbows and colors and balloons and flowers and you can say everything is great, then I will tell you, "Wow, wow, you're an amazing individual, very good chance you're fulfilling your purpose and you really refined yourself and you're an amazing individual." Most people put on a piece of paper the good and the bad, the bad will overpower the good and most people will summarize their life as That's all of us. That means there's a lot of work to do. And the work is I need to A, my obligation to Hashem, I need to refine myself. And it all works hand in hand. If I don't refine myself, my observation of the mitzvot won't be won't be good. If I only focus on the mitzvot, then I will never refine myself. It has to go hand in hand. The mitzvot, in my analogy right now, don't don't take it as a reference. The mitzvot that I'm talking right now is the lanes. That you don't go out of the lane, my friend. Cuz you're flying high. You fast. You go out of the lane, you're going to crash. So you don't go out of the lanes. That's the mitzvot you need to follow. And again, that's one approach out of many. The mitzvot, the commandments, the word of God, don't don't distort what I'm saying. Take the the example that I'm giving you. The mitzvot, the lanes that you are staying. Don't break the lanes. Don't go out of the lanes. Don't cross the lanes. Then you have your purpose. Which is the end result. And in the middle you have your refinement. Without the mitzvot and the refinement, they go together hand in hand. You can't do mitzvot not refined. I I know a lot of people like that. That they do mitzvot and they're not refined. And the refinement can be, I'm just giving you one example out of many. All right, I know you might have a lot of questions. I see many people who pray Mincha. They're the first one in the synagogue. But while they're praying, they're looking at the other men who are praying and with thoughts of judgmental, "Why is he moving like this? Oh, he's making so much noise. I wish he would Are you praying or are you judging the entire minyan?" And there are people like that. They don't come to pray. They come to pray cuz they're embarrassed for the community to say what where were you. Or there, let's give him the benefit of the doubt, they do come to pray. But their weakness, their middah, that is not refined, is judgmental. And instead of focusing on the praying, he's being judgmental towards, "Why is he sitting in my space? That's my seat. Doesn't he know that it's my seat? I come here 30 years." Shut up. Pray. Why are you judging? So you can be very observant in the mitzvot and no refinement in your middot. And I gave you one example out of many. How about by being judgmental? How about with being cheap and jealous? Religious people not jealous? So one has nothing to do with the other. It has to go hand in hand. No refinement, the mitzvot will be sour. No mitzvot, you will never do any refinement. In order for me to walk on my path and to fulfill my purpose, I have to do the mitzvot and I have to refine myself. You won't work walk on your path if you don't have these two elements. Because if you're not doing following the mitzvot, then you're not connected to Hashem. And if you don't refine yourself, you won't take nothing from this world. Nothing will make sense to you if you're not refined. And refined, I'm not talking about taking a napkin when you're eating and doing the refinement that I'm talking about. That you put your knife and fork on the side of the plate. This is not manner class. That's not what I'm talking about. Your refinement your refinement of character. You take all your middot, all the bad ones. Your anger, you're quick to jealousy, you're quick to judge, all these impatient. Out in the street, everybody's a nice person. Next to people, I'm the nicest person. Go to a person's in their house, see how they behave. Outside, "How are you?" I'm the nicest person outside. Go and see me in my house. And it's everybody, by the way. I failed to meet the people who are equal how they behave in the house and out of the house. No such a thing. Out of the house, you carry yourself nice, you speak nice, you don't answer back, you don't you lose you use foul language, you're not judgmental, you don't say lashon hara. You get home, that mother that Listen. I see everything. Can't fool me. And you know why you can't fool me? Cuz I'm also not the same person in the house and outside of the house. When I'm in my house, I'm more comfortable. I will do things that I will never dare do next to you. Cuz it's not appropriate. And I'm Rabbi Nachman. I can't say things. I can't do things. But in my house, I'm different. My guard is off. Is it the right way? Is it good? No. Be outside like you're in the inside. Then the don't don't choose roles. In the out in the job, I'm nice. In the house, I'm not nice. You have to be the same everywhere. If you gossip in the house with your wife, let me say it the other way. If you don't gossip inside with your with in your family, then don't do it outside. You don't do it outside. So the refinement is not only you know, base it's much more than that. The tikkun hamiddot is not something that takes you two seconds and you're done and that's your whole life. Your whole life you do tikkun hamiddot. The Gaon from Vilna says that he the Gaon from Vilna doesn't call tikkun hamiddot, he calls it a different way. But he says the whole thing is your whole life. You don't stop. So when you're walking on the path in this world, you can you can recognize more or less where you're holding. Right? If you can recognize where you're holding, the situation is very bad. I can recognize where where I'm holding. Doesn't mean that I'm perfect, but I can recognize my indicators are working well. I can tell you now that atzvut misery sadness depression can already indicate that you're not on the right path. And when you have excitement, happiness, joy, positivity, you're much much much closer on to your path. Which means that if you feel life is not going that well, most likely you're not on the path. When you feel life is going well, I'm not saying that you don't have challenges. But you don't you're not no energy. No, you not you're you deal with your challenges. But life is but you don't have sadness or depression or something like that or then you're doing good. And that's one of the many indications. We're not going to talk about it right now. I just want to summarize the fact that they all the elements come together. And that's why I started the class by telling you that I became observant. I was very unhappy with the situation. I was like, "That rules rules rules rules. That's it. I'm going to have to be like this black and white haredi." So I didn't like it. I will I didn't say I'm not going to do it. I just said I don't like it. But once I understood that the occupation of an observant individual is not the focus on the mitzvot, is walking on my path, fulfilling my my role, and refining myself, that is my job, then it changes the picture completely. Now the picture looks completely different. Imagine now, I will take you now to the biggest dump you ever saw in your life. 30 years they didn't clean this house. Mold everywhere. Filthy. Disgusting. And I tell you, "Clean this house now." "Excuse me?" There's not enough money in the world for me to start cleaning this dump. And you leave the job. And then you figured out that the person told you, "Clean this house cuz I'm giving it to you." "For free?" And you just lost the opportunity cuz you were too arrogant to clean some dirt. That's the summary of this class. You think you're coming to clean somebody else's dirt. It's your dirt. And you think you're being bothered to do something. It's all for your benefit. You clean that house, you'll get it at the end. There's a story like that. I don't want to tell the story I I got There's a story like that. Same thing with a king and he had a a set of right hand and and he served him for years and years and at some point the king told the the the the man told the king, "I served you loyally for 30 40 years, whatever, doesn't matter, it's a story. I want to leave. I want to retire." The king says, "No problem, no problem. I have one last one last request from you." And he's like, "Okay, yeah, yeah, Your Your Majesty, sure." He's like, "I want you to build me a gorgeous, beautiful home. I want it like this and I want it like that and I want it like this and then uh And the guy's like, "I wanted to retire. You're giving me now a project to build you now a 3-year project to build your house?" And he's like, "Okay. It's the king, it's my king. He was always good to me, always provided to me, always gave to me. Best boss ever. I want to leave on a good note. Fine." And he says, "It's the last project I have. I'm going to do it the best way possible." So, he built that house for the king. Everything was perfect, beautiful. He finished this beautiful mansion house, came to the king, says the house is ready. "Now, can I retire?" The king says, "Yes, thank you for your loyal service for so long. And here's your retirement present. Take the house that you just built, it's yours." So, that's what Hashem does. You think that you're working for something some somebody else. You're working for yourself. And you're doing a favor to anyone, nobody's doing a favor to you. All the hard work that you do in this world is going to be your home. Whatever you clean in this world, you are going to be dwelling in that place in eternity. You're not doing any favors. Nobody's forcing you to do something that is bad for you. But for that, you need to refine yourself. You need to understand that you are spiritually dirty and in many cases and emotionally and mentally, too. And you need to refine that. You need to take responsibility for your actions. It's called teshuvah. And you need to change the wrongdoing that you did. And Hashem says, "I will forgive any bad thing you did if you clean yourself. You clean yourself, I delete the debt. And on top of that, you still have a purpose to do in this world. You have a job, you have things to do. If you're not focused on that, life will just pass from one Shabbat to another Shabbat to another Shabbat. Did you notice it's Thursday tomorrow? It's unbelievable. Shabbat is in 2 days. I can't believe IT. WE JUST FINISHED SHABBAT a second ago. I can't believe it's Wednesday. Where did the days go? WE'RE IN HANUKKAH SOON. Times goes like that. Faster than you can realize. No time to be in la-la land. And I owe it to Hashem. So, how do I do that when I was standing in the front the the front line 20 years ago? How do I do that? Then Baruch Hashem, we have many books. So, Tomer Devorah, I highly hold by that that is one of the best systems to refine yourself. There's other books, of course. I'm not saying Many amazing books. We're learning Shaarei Kedushah. There's many amazing books, Chovot Halevavot. A lot of books. Tomer Devorah is a special one. If you need to focus on one, that will definitely help you refine yourself and bring you to our level very, very high level of refinement. And needless to say, a high level of refinement, then you're closer to Hashem, the mitzvot are on a different level, everything is a different level. That's Tomer Devorah. Shaarei Gilgulim will help you put dots together on which path do I need to walk on. Most people, I look at them, they're on the wrong path. They're 50 years old, they're married to the wrong wife, doing the wrong business, everything is wrong in their life. And then they don't understand why they're unhappy, unhealthy, unsuccessful, and really what it all boils down to, very unhappy at the end of the day. And some people deal with it with physical things, some people turn to bad things, but the reality is most people in the world are unhappy. That's the reality. My happy-sad detector when I go in the street is 99% on the unhappy side. Most people are unhappy. So, they spoil themselves with cars, phones, handbags, and all sorts of drugs, whatever it is. And if you're not into drugs, fun, and you don't have money for fast cars and nice clothes, then you go like this, dreaming, dreaming all day long. Oh, I want this, I want this, I want this, I want that. I wish I could have this, I wish I could have that. Wrong again. So, I didn't want it to be a long class, but it's really two classes connected, back to back. Two things here we want to take from this class. A, we're starting to learn for everyone to join us. If you're online, you can find it on atzmut.com. These classes don't go on YouTube, they go on atzmut.com. And practically saying, is that you need to come to the understanding today, right now, when you're leaving, where you're holding, what you want to do. You have a purpose, you know your purpose, you think you know your purpose, you want to know your purpose? Do you want to fulfill them? What are you doing? Do you think that you are at the peak of your life or you think you required a lot of refinement? Just to give you perspective, I'm observant 22 years. I don't think that I'm even reaching 10% of my refinement what can be done. So, don't think you're going to do it in a year. 20 years of hard work, I think I reached maybe 10% from 100%. I'm hoping Hashem will help me do it the rest till I die. But it's not something you do overnight. You have a bad middah, that will take you 20 years to get rid of. So, what I wish for you is the common sense to put yourself at least to the task. Most people are not even in that level. Most people don't even realize that they need to refine themselves and they don't that they have a purpose in this world. They're just running around their tails trying to figure out their problem how to to to fix their problems. So, and it all boils down to if you want to do it in a selfish way selfish way, it all boils down to how happy you are. If you are extremely, extremely happy, and it's not because you have money or don't have money. I know people they don't have anything and their their level of simcha is genuine. And and and financial loss doesn't bother them or some argument or some lashon doesn't bother them. And when you're weak spiritually, somebody will just look at you the wrong way. Your your whole system is shaken. And you're unhappy. And I know a lot of people are in denial. No, no, I'm fine. Okay, how fast do you fall asleep? How fast do you fall asleep? That's my one of my gauges to how good your neshama is doing. Fast? Then you're doing good. I fall asleep in a second, maybe three. Nothing bothers me. No conscience, no guilt. I didn't do anything wrong. I didn't do anything wrong. What do I be afraid of? I didn't do anything wrong. So, what? So, I measure a lot of things how you know, people who are their mind is occupied don't fall asleep. And when they fall asleep, now try to wake them up. So, there's a lot of ways to figure out where you are. Today, you need to try to put things in perspective and understand that you need to follow the Torah, that's your guidelines. You need to refine yourself. That's your That's a big part of your existence. And on top of that, you have a purpose. And how do you find that? Not on YouTube. You have to learn. And our great sages gave us amazing books to learn from that opens up all the opportunities, explains everything, sheds lights on the matter, and eventually helps you put the dots together. We're learning it not only for the for the purpose of learning Torah. We're learning it so I can take something from it and apply it. And I can tell you on myself that from Tomer Devorah, other books, too, but from Tomer Devorah, whatever I learned and applied, I saw unbelievable changes and growth from that. And it didn't mean doesn't mean that I mastered it, but I had, like you and many others, I also came to the game with a lot of baggage. A lot of baggage. My me with me everything is extreme. Anger, extreme, this, extreme, everything was extreme. So, I know I look like a nice calm person, but you're just seeing the external part. You don't see the internal part. You don't see the internal struggles and the waves and the movements. And the 20-25 years of working on the fact I'm telling you just I said that many times. My friends used to call me boom piton. Cuz boom is a punch and piton is suddenly. And I would talk to a person and that person would say something I don't like there wouldn't be even a warning. It would be a matter of a second and a half that the table would be on his head. I'm not joking. I was extremely violent. And when I was more and more and more it was already with with weapons. Somebody say something wrong it the reaction would be very fast. Like that. No no no no thinking. Anger that my RPM went high, move away. Now now start now contain that. And that's one me that out of many. So, you can look at a person and see okay, I don't see what's going on here. You don't see on the external part any work internal work that is done. You just see an end result. And in the streets I'm nice and smiling and in the house is where everything comes out. So, don't judge the book by its cover. Oh, he's so nice. No, he's not. He's nice to you. So, I'm telling you that it all works because I can look at myself 20 years back how I was rude disgusting, vulgar, a violent every not a nice you wouldn't be you wouldn't have a nice time sitting with me. I wasn't a nice guy. You now like me. I'm nice. I teach you funny a little bit and 25 years ago you wouldn't like me and I wouldn't like you probably. Cuz I didn't like anyone. But I'm living proof to myself that it can be done because when I came to the world of the Torah I was like Hashem knew what he's doing. He put me in jail for 2 years to relax. I came out of jail very relaxed. If not I would go into any minion somebody would talk in the middle of the minion he would get a slap to his face. And I had incidents when I was in the beginning of my path. You know you don't always you can control yourself and my forget about the the anger and violence. You know how sharp my mouth was? The poor person who would fall into my mouth. So, why am I saying that? Not to degrade myself or show off that I'm that great, rather to tell you when you follow the teachings of the holy books with the key that is called humility, no humility, no success then you become successful. And after 10, 20, 30 times you're doing it, it works. It works. I don't get angry so much. I don't get frustrated. I don't get impatient. I don't lose my calmness. It works. That's all I have to say. It works. So, do yourself a favor, do yourself a favor, do your soul favor, get your life in order. Set goals. Close goals, far away goals. What do I want to do? What do I need to do? Hashem, tell me what I need to do. Tell me. I'll do it. Don't keep me in the dark. That's what I would scream to Hashem in the first 10 years of my observant life. Hashem, just tell me what to do I'll do it. Nothing. I didn't hear nothing. Till I understood that if I want to hear the instructions of Hashem I need to refine myself. Because if the window now is full of mud, you won't see the lights of the day coming into the house. You're going to need to clean it and you can clean mud with one strike. You're going to put the first strike. So, now it's muddy, but then you take another strike. Less muddy, you still don't see. Same thing. You don't feel Hashem, you don't hear Hashem, you don't listen to Hashem because you're not refined. That's it. And all due fear if you eat with a fork and knife and you go like this, that doesn't mean you're refined. That means you have manners. Refine is that you're refine your attributes. You refine yourself, suddenly you start hearing Hashem. You refine yourself more, you start seeing Hashem. You refine yourself more and old man of the door. Then you go then you're going to do what Hashem tells you. Cuz you hear. Now it's time to do. Our sages say my my I our sages say the the the what's the most important thing is is the action. To know then to say yes yes is good. Now has to be action. So, we're starting with or without you. We're continuing on to learn. You want to join the classes are available. Hopefully we'll refine you. You don't then that's also good. We're going to continue liking you too. So, till the next week. Next week we're going to do again and for the ones online it goes on let's move.com. It doesn't go on YouTube. So, if you want to follow you have to register to the website and follow the classes on the website. Other than that tomorrow night we have a class for Rosh Chodesh 9:00 p.m. Israel time here. And Friday is Rosh Chodesh very special day. Many good things to take from that. That's why I recommend to you can do the live class watch the recording right after. But Rosh Chodesh is the How do you call the shooting that the race starts? How do you say p'tiha? The I forgot. And there's a race everybody on your marks get set the opening shot. That's how it's called. You know what it's called? The opening shot. So, and some people start running and some people they're still on the track. Like So, we did the opening shot. You just need to come and continue the classes and result of Hashem I guarantee to you that you'll see great success and benefits in your life when you follow the this path. Result of Hashem. [Music]