Change yourself - You'll change the world - Rabbi Anava's personal story | 9th of Av and more!!!

[Music] my name is Alona NAA and today we're going to talk about everything because we have about I don't know half an hour to an hour to squeeze everything that I wanted to talk about so we're going to have a very interesting sitting and after that we'll have time to to do some questions and answers and whatever we'll see how much how much we can squeeze into what little time we have so first I'm going to introduce myself and a little bit about my personal story which is not so easy to do because the regular uh average lecture about my personal story how I became observant that in itself is five hours so we're going to have to do today the promo of everything and I also want to talk about a very important other issue topic and H more um with our times is that the fact that tomorrow is tab tomorrow night and Tuesday is the day of the fast which the shab is a very dominating day on the Jewish calendar which of course represents many things and when we have a very specific event on uh on the Jewish calendar it's good to know not only what happened but what needs to be done because the way how the system works in this world is the kadh create everything in a way way that everything goes in circles and everything that we do always will return to the same to to the first step bring us back to the to the beginning so we'll have a lot more to talk about but without further Ado for the ones I'm sure some of you do know me but a little bit of a background that I came I was born and raised in is and I was raised the most unreligious you can imagine the right way to say it I was born secular and I was raised the most secular you can imagine in Israel the Israelis that you know that are secular that's how I was I was against the Torah against hem hating the religious people and that's how I grew up and uh since I was already 12 13 14 I already started showing signs of a very rebellious individual and I went on a path of a a lot a lot of H problem let's put it this way I wasn't a regular kid I was a big Troublemaker I got thrown out of every school possible I was in boarding schools I was always in trouble with the with the law talking about as a teenager and uh my poor parents my poor parents that I always say my mom she has a place in ganeden for sure she doesn't have to do much what what what I put her through and my father rides on the ticket every time I tell him you know maybe you do a Mitzvah or do something to thank AEM he says no no no I I'm not worried I'm going to go up to Sham and I'm going to tell them you're my son so father so he uh he rides on the fact that I'm his son which he's right but the son ER whatever the children do does cover for the parents spiritually but nevertheless every person has to do their part too it's not that you can just count on somebody doing your H work but uh after uh being a a troublemaker teenager I was in the Army also in the Army I was caused a lot of problems and after the Army I got in a lot in trouble in in Israel and I found that the best way would be to leave is and to come and live in the United States and I came with a dream that I'm going to come back to Israel in a few years with a lot lot of money and I went to pursue that dream and for a few good years all my 20s from 2122 till uh about 27 that I had my clinical death then I was a Loose Cannon and unfortunately I went down a very very difficult a horrible path where I abused drugs for many many years and I was constantly active in illegal activities from anything you can just imagine to stuff that if I if I tell you you wouldn't even believe but I end up finding myself a uh fullblown drug dealer criminal here in the United States by the age of 26 I had about $50 million and I lived like a rockar needless to say I lived a life of a full-blown gangster uh now there's not time to elaborate on that maybe another time but eventually H having the FBI and the da on my back they were trying to figure out what I'm doing for about three years eventually they closed down in the process when I was almost 27 and I used to produce parties now that you saw in the October 7 Massacre I'm sure you saw that a big part of the attack was on a part that's exactly the parties I used to do I used to produce these type of parties in Israel we call them trans parties because of the music that is played there and here in America they call them Raves and in one of my own parties i h consumed way too much drugs that caused my heart to stop and I flatlined I died basically and I was clinically dead for minutes uh which in these 7 minutes I'm going to uh skip now we'll go back to that cuz I'm sure some of you are interested to hear but that changed my life completely I was up until that point uh maybe we will show you on one of the phones or you just go to you to Google right Al before pictures and you'll see how I looked I had long hair my body is covered with tattoos earrings everywhere my nose my lips my ears I didn't look like this I looked like a complete uh psychopath and uh and this experience totally changed my life because I'll share with you in a few moments some more details but what happened was my soul left my body and then I saw in one word I saw everything I saw the truth and that in itself you go to YouTube you'll find a three-hour lecture just saying 2% of the experience itself and from that point of course I started changing my path of going in the path of tah which wasn't so simple and wasn't easy I was 27 years old and I had a lot a lot of baggage with me uh K had his own plans a little bit over a year after the near death experience the FBI and the da caught up with me and they arrested me which that in itself is a story that for the last 20 years nobody knew uh many details cuz I couldn't say now after 20 years now I can start opening my mouth a little bit statue of limitation years pass so I can start talking about certain things that brought me that that that's what interested me so many years 20 years I lecture all over the world about how I became religious because of my near-death experience I was asked any question you can just imagine what drugs did you take what happened here why this why that one question nobody nobody stopped to either care or know or ask nobody ever asked me what preceded the the the near-death experience I mean how does a 27 year old man suddenly drops dead I mean this is not in a scenario of a engineer or a lawyer some Norm normal individual a person to reach to such a point in itself is how did you get go come to such a place so for like I said for 20 years I couldn't say anything a it's h been not embarrassing but not h a great credit to my resum on the other hand many might say it is the credit of the resum because to be born into a righteous family and to learn Torah and to become observant that's not a big deal but to become observant from being a completely on the other side that's a big deal so don't take it personal but I don't care what people think about about me if you haven't noticed I if I would operate by caring what people think about me I wouldn't be anywhere because I have a large amount of people who think positive about me and my life and my changes and L of people don't the other day we had a guest we have a a a Learning Center big learning Torah Learning Center in spat and we have rooms there where we host people who come to learn Torah beautiful gorgeous rooms it was festar Hotel it's wasn't it's not like some cheap building and somebody stayed there the other day for Shabbat and we were talking and he told me that he started following me many years ago I changed his life etc etc and then I said something and he says oh yeah I did this and this exactly how you teach so I said oh I'm happy to meet one of my students he says oh you have millions of them I said no I don't he says no no you have millions of students I said I have millions of followers students I don't have a lot followers anyone can follow me half the people who follow me don't even like me they listen to what I say waiting for me to stumble or to say something that is inappropriate so he can come and say yeah see he's fake he's false so followers that's not that's that's Millions students are the ones who listen and they apply and like that there's not a lot there's not a lot of people who actually listen and apply so with no question the master of the universe the kadosh already designed how my life will be and what path I'm going to go on cuz nothing really makes sense in my life nothing really makes sense in my life even the entire episode with the law I mean I was really very very in very very bad place in regards to my activities to give you a two minute synopsis that you understand to what extent I came to the United States and would produce these big parties and I would make a lot of money also in Israel I always had a good sense how to make money I came in chick and I would start producing the parties and make money but then I I re realized that the money-making part of the party is not the party is the drugs so if I could be the only one who sells the drugs in my own parties that said I capital on both directions so that's how it started and then of course you know it says in the gar if a person wants to do CH change their way to purify themselves clean their thoughts then they get help from above because without help from above you can do nothing but the same says if you coming stepping forward because you want to be impure then they open all the gates of Gom for you here come walk in so already knew to what path I'm interested so he opened all the gates of Gom and says here and made me successful how I got out of jail that's a story in itself that's a miracle in itself for 20 years I tell people how I came back from the world above to this and do Chua for 20 years my wife was saying all the time you're saying the wrong Miracle the miracle is how you got out of jail because that is where God intervened and showed his powers because Against All Odds I I gone out of this case like this with nothing $1,000 fine in a year probation and so many other Miracles that you can't even imagine and everything everybody else that was arrested in the cases half are still in jail that's when you give Hashem the opportunity to do a miracle in the world he can do things that you can't even imagine what Hashem can do just give him the opportunity and he will do things in this world that you can't even imagine can be done problem is that most people don't reach to the level of belief that they're letting God operate in the world and I'm talking about serious things not talking about that I was fighting a fine I was facing 40 years in jail in a federal prison how do you get out of that when you when it's obvious that you're guilty that's only Hashem taking the puppet of a judge and making him say whatever he wants cuz if Hashem wants somebody to be alive he'll be alive if Hashem wants somebody to be free he'll he'll make him free and nothing in my life makes sense everything in my life is not not normal and mean just to say that after that the change H was very very fast it wasn't so short talking about a year a threeyear period here of a lot a lot of challenges and a lot a lot of hardship and a lot of tests and my tests were stretched out in levels that you you can't imagine that's when hasem wants to test somebody they Hashem can take a person from one side of the world to the other side of the world but I can tell you already that if you hold on to Hashem hasem can do whatever he wants anything that he wants the first miracle is just transforming how I was to how I'm now that in itself takes only a miracle of God to be able to pull this individual and to make him change two months ago before I came here a father one of the boys Unfortunately they were murdered in the in the party invited me to speak they wanted to make an evening forat very sad story it's three men that are best friends their sons are also best friends they went to the party Five Guys three are murdered two came back so and we did a lecture and to talk and to to to strengthen them and I was telling them the full verse version of my story and you know it's it's a it's interesting and inspiring to hear but there was a person in the crowd that was standing and smiling the whole time and then towards then when it became more personal and we were sitting and talking then the person who was smiling behind the whole time says for you this is all a story I know him I know him since he was a soldier I I saw the man in Act what he's telling you it's not an inventure I saw this with my own eyes so I was like oh good thank you I need to walk around with some people like that when I go to lectures because he was like you don't understand you're looking now at a nice refined uh individual that's not the person that you would talk to 30 years ago he was like I I knew him nobody wanted to deal with him everybody was afraid of him he was like so it's very hard for a person to look at this and then to picture 30 years ago the change but that's only the power of hasem when Hashem touches something if he wants a dead person will be alive a poor person will be rich anything that you can just imagine the problem is that we don't have AA now I want to tell you with three minutes to five minutes the the very Express version of how I change my perspective completely because I like I told you I grew up as secular as it comes I didn't believe in anything the the most not connected to Judaism never went to AET never did K never did anything secular like it's not even it's not even what you have in America reformed it's nothing it's like and the story itself is almost impossible to say in short in short segments or short story but the shortest shortest version was I was almost 27 and we made a party for PES it was a p party just just how just imagine the the the the stupidity and we wanted to do a party for p and most of our crowd was Israelis and at that year PES fell on Shabbat sorry P was Shabbat and the party was Friday and uh it was my party I produced it somewhere in the middle uh unfortunately well maybe not unfortunately but I took way too much drugs which caused my heart to stop and then and then I knew I'm about to die when everything started I was blacked out then I kind of came back to to some coherence and I knew I'm about to die and there's no other word to there's no way to describe it it's almost like when you if you are happy you know you're happy if you're hungry you know you're hungry you don't need somebody to come and tell you by the way you're hungry right now so I knew I'm about to die I think one of the most powerful parts of the entire encounter is that when I went out of the building cuz I started feeling very sick very weak all I wanted to do is go home so I went into a taxi and I'm sitting in the back seat of the taxi and in my mind I know that I'm about to die I look outside the window and it's like as if the whole world froze like I'm looking and the world is a picture and everything stopped completely and in my mind all that I can think of that that's it I'm about to leave this world and I have nothing in my hands I don't even have half a Mitzvah to take with me and at this point I when I say I understood and knew everything I understood and knew everything I knew that there's a Creator to the world I knew I'm about to meet him it's like in in one second the Veil is removed and you have 3 4 seconds before you leave this world and everything is revealed hasm is giving you the last opportunity to do Chua that's how I felt and I cannot even express how the feeling of disappointment feel that I lived my life for 27 years and now I'm leaving the world and I have nothing to show in the world above not even one good deed now how do you go up to the heavens when you know that Hashem is waiting for you to to come with some mitv now every person has whatever hasem wants them to do in this world but some people do some some people do a little some people don't do nothing I don't even know where it came from I covered my eyes and I said which of course then where would I even know how to say is and that's when the it knows that it's about to leave then that was literally the last mitzvah that I could grab on the way out because for a man to say is it's a mitvah from the Tor so I was able to grab one mitvah on the way out but as I said is I feel that my body is falling on the girl that was next to me it was all in a in a taxi in New York I remember seeing the partition of the between the front and the back and the next thing I remember is that I'm diving out of my eyes and I wake up in this weird place I don't hear anything I don't see anything I don't feel anything all I'm noticing that there's no time there's no sound and there's no space there's nothing to there's there's nothing and very quickly as I'm trying to figure out what's going on the same way that we all have like this voice that's in our mind that's talking to you all day long I have I had this voice and I was like what's going on where am I what is this place and this voice was answering and telling me you died this is your death it was kind of like point down and I'm looking down like this and it looked like in the height like of the ceiling and I see my body I see the whole scene from above the car is driving in Manhattan I'm like going higher and higher and higher and I see everything I hear I I mean that there's no sound there's no time there's no space but I understand everything and then started happening like a chain of events I started like I dived into this girl's body that I was on I saw her entire life every little encounter in her life it's like I was sitting in her body and seeing all her life and then I was going higher and higher and higher and I got and I saw everything that was around me as one entity not as a a you know many many people and I was able to like hear everybody's thoughts cuz I was going in the city in Manhattan the car was driving I was like above the car like a like a magnet flying over the car and I'm going higher and higher and at some point that was the height of like 10 floors 15 floors and I'm going through the building it's like I scan and I see everything in the building I mean just this can take hours and hours to explain every little detail how it looked how I saw everything and at this point everything was amazing but very quickly that kind of flipped it felt like I was hold held by this black scary entity that was like squashing me that eventually like kind of pulled me through this long long long long long tunnel and like I'm sure you heard from many where there's a light at the end of the tunnel I saw the light in the beginning like a DOT of light then it became bigger and bigger which I knew behind this light is AEM and at some point like as if from the light like something reached out touched me pulled me into the light and within split seconds like as if everything opened and all the wisdom of the universe was like downloaded into me it's like I knew everything and everything I was like a genius knowing all the SEC of the world but very quickly it was understood that I have nothing to do there it actually felt like I'm stuck in a bubble and I see everything and I'm trying to like grab it and I can't they telling me you have nothing to do here I mean you you you have not even half a mitvah then I was thrown out of that Dimension into like this massive huge huge room where I'm standing in the middle like completely naked naked but not naked from clothes it wasn't a body there it was just a soul but completely completely naked naked from and all around me were like like a ring of millions and millions of eyes all the souls of all generations are all looking at me and they're like looking through me and I'm naked so they see through me and they see everything that I ever did everything that I ever say and the only feeling there is only shame shame that you can't even imagine all the the sins that I did are all in the air and everybody reads everything that I did and you don't know what to do with yourself from the shame and needless to say that this shame was between me and the souls it literally felt that I'm standing like this and it felt that if I lift up my head I see AEM that's how it felt I couldn't lift up my head from the shame it literally felt like God was telling me what are you doing I sent you down to the world with a list this long of things to do and a list this long of things not to do everything I told you to do you didn't do everything I told you not to do you did you didn't even get one thing right and I knew that if they're taking me to the next room then story is over and I was begging like leave me here with all this shame leave me here for eternity just don't take me to the next room and sure enough I've been pulled into the other room which very quickly I understood that it's a courtroom and they they started uh my in my personal court case where they oh of course offered nicely if I have anything to say but then they showed me the movie of my life but it wasn't like on a big screen it's like as if they put me back into my body but this time life is like very slow motion and I'm standing on the side the whole time and I see every everything every encounter that I had in my life I'm back there this time I'm like Google Earth I'm I'm like 40 cameras I'm I see everything from all directions and not only that let's say we have a scene like this as so I see myself and then I see myself from the eyes of each and every one of you and what you thinking but they only shown me everything that I did here you stole here you lied here you cheated here you cursed here you did that and you can't like argue or anything it's like as if I'm not exaggerating like as if there's like 150 cameras and you see all directions and everybody in the room any person that I ever did to is standing next to me like subpoenad to testify what I did all the souls even the people who are alive I mean what do you think you do when you go to sleep when you go to sleep your soul goes up to the Heavens to do a few stops and one of the things is to go and testify in other Souls courts he stole from me he cheated for me on the complete opposite he helped me every person that I ever did anything to was standing next to me and everything is pointed out here you stole here you cheated here you did this here you did this like as if they're telling me you have you have nothing yeah what do you have here Mitzvah and a half which really I didn't have nothing but for whatever reason they decide to give me another chance and they gave me three options option number one first of all I come back into this world is that I I have to become and live my life like an observant Jew and they're showing me like a movie all the way forward of my entire life from that day and I see myself with a beard and I see how I look I see my wife I see all my kids I see my entire life for telling me that's how you have to live your life you can't like you can't go and distort the way that's the path you need to go on this is what you need to do and you accept you accept no no option number two not option number two condition number two is that I had to pay back my debts they told me from 0 to 13 we uh forgive you for everything okay from 13 to 27 then you you're responsible for everything yourself whatever you stole you have to give back you whatever you took money you have to do chva doing cha is not putting a yamaka on the head and saying okay from this day on I change is fixed back 15 years not so simple that's the real Cha a lot of people become they do three four things they don't understand they have to fix back and the third condition that they said is that I have to say the story they said they can't like not tell it to anyone which I can tell you already first few years was very embarrassing to sit in front of a crowd of people and to tell them yeah this is how I was this is what they didn't let me tell you the story that sounds completely crazy but like I told you in the beginning I have thick skin I I don't care what people think I'm here for hasem not to convince somebody to make somebody happy I come to talk to say what Hashem wants you take from it whatever you want you want to like me hate me follow me you can do whatever you want I'm here to give the message and I leave needless to say that I accepted the terms shake the deal the second that I accepted the deal it felt like God punched me felt like a train hit me and I woke up in in this world of course took a long time took about a year till I started even getting observant you know 27 years old you wake up the next day and and you're that's it I started with just putting teil in and not eating meat and dairy it was a very interesting year how I slowly slowly changed my way the missing past piece the missing puzzle piece that many people didn't have for so many years is that after that year then I was in jail and the jail was really the chuva that's why I did chuva because it wasn't fun there it wasn't fun there at all at all and uh that's really when I started screaming to Hashem as DAV says I have called you from the depth When You Reach rock bottom and you know that's it that you can't go more down what else can be after this that's when you if you smile heart you start looking up and start calling for Hashem so really months over months my Chua was done in a four walls cement not in a Yeshiva with nice air conditioning and a good pizza and a good Rabbi that tells you what to do my Chua came very very difficult very very difficult and needless to say when Hashem wants some somebody to be successful if you're just holding on to Hashem Hashem can turn the world upside down and that's what most people don't understand they come to a certain test in their life everybody's tested at one point in their life with severe things and then hasem is testing you how much do you believe in me do you believe I can do whatever I want now most people will tell you in theory I believe in God and I believe he can do whatever he wants right right now you all agree with me that there's a Creator to the world and if he wants he can do whatever he wants that's in theory now face a challenge and I want to see you going through the fire and saying there is no fire because Hashem is in control of everything and that's really what Hashem is pushing everybody because you all believe that there's a Creator but when you're facing a very severe challenge you don't believe that Hashem can change it and that's where hasem is testing you all the time and he will bring you all the way to the edge and if you are a Believer then hasem like he did to B is and open the sea for them Hashem can do whatever he wants for you I saw with my own eyes tumors disappear law Cas like cases in in in courts that nothing happened I mean things that you can't even imagine if you havea inem I mean I don't need to see it in other places I experience it on myself maybe 300 times in situ that no way can be this way and it went that way that's where hasem says I run the world no president no doctor no judge nothing I run the world somebody just told me the other day because I I mentioned this story so somebody on their way told me you know also ysf sadik was in jail I said I'm familiar with the story I read the Torah a few times I I I remember vaguely but I remember that Mo ysep was in jail I told them it wasn't only ysf most of our leaders were in jail most people don't know mosenu was in jail for 10 years and you know who jailed him his father-in-law so if you want to hear a little bit more about mosenu I gave a class on zad a few months ago about his life somebody asked can you do a a life a lecture about the life of mosenu the our leader nobody knows nothing about him he ran away from the house of par when he was 18 disappeared for 60 62 years and he appears again at the time of the burning bush where was he 62 years so 10 years out of the 62 he was in jail also ysep but what that person pointed out the story of ysf says that he was in jail for 10 years and then the minister of the baker like the minister of baking and the minister of the of the the main Chef or whatever you want to call it they got released they were in jail and you know the story ysep solved the dream and and they were released and YF told the Sim please if you can say a good word for par about me Shem didn't like that and he now he left him in jail another year he you hasem told yoseph you need to ask one of the ministers to throw a good in word for you I'm running the show here I will decide when you go out of jail and for what and how but that's that's the reality that if you're looking at all of our great leaders mosu DAV so many of the leaders a were always jailed some something has to be in jail but nevertheless we see in all the encounters that Hashem puts his foot forward and says I run the show I run the show that's really the ultimate message when I need to give over a message to people is to to start understanding that runs the show the Torah calls it in three words and there is nothing but AEM now whenever you put AEM first priority and hasem is number one then you see that your life runs on Miracles 99% of the people they don't put AEM number one they put AEM number two number three number four whatever however it works if you want to be smart i h believe that's how I operate that in any encounter that I have I need to take something out of it to learn from that if not then why did hasem made me bump into people see people learn from people most people their ego is so high they don't see how another person can teach them anything I did I know you will tell me but David says very clearly I have learned from all of my teachers even from who was against David and gave him advice that was completely wrong nevertheless David says I have even learned from my enemies I learned something as the sages say everything that you look you have you can learn something from smart people usually don't have egos I mean there are very wise people and that has nothing to do with their ego smart people don't have an ego because a smart person says I can learn from every person I can learn Lear from you and you and you how I look at people is not that I'm better than them cuz I achieved a b and c I can pull out now my list of achievements it's not bad I can probably say I'm doing better than many others but that's not an attitude that's not how you look at the world I look at the world completely different that every person that sits in front of me yes I'm better than them in three four things but they're better than me in a few things right that's how it is each and every one of you is better than me in many things that I'm not good at one is a better cook one is a better father one is a better teacher one is a better Banker one is a better businessman I don't know I know what I'm good at but when I look at another person I'm looking for what what are there better in me than me and that means I can learn something from them and that can only be done if you know how to humble yourself and say okay I I don't know who you are besides if you here most of you never met me now how do I how do I see that in Practical imagine now you guys never met me half of you never met me but you heard from the host you can't imagine what an amazing Rabbi is coming she didn't tell you he was once a drug dealer a drug addict she just says he was an amazing rabby you heard that can you imagine she would tell you I want you to meet an ex drug dealer ex drug addict H he might have a few good words to tell you like not too sure that's who I want to meet he that's what's going to teach me and that's what leads me to the next part that is connected to the day that we're going to be commemorating yeserday tomorrow tomorrow we're going to be commemorating many bad things that happened to us as a Jewish Nation first of all even before tab we had I'm sorry on TSH before the destruction of the temple bad things happen the the the many many bad things happen in TSH not only the destructions of the temple twice I mean what are the odds two temples get destroyed on the same day so I'm sure you heard it not once and not twice that the first temple was destroyed because of idolatry because of Bloodshed and because of for forbidden relations the three major sins that we all have issues with and that's the major sins that we all struggle from the beginning the creation of the world I idry incest forbidden relations and bloodshed and bloodshed is not necessarily sticking a knife into somebody's back you slander somebody publicly then you spil their blood you are a murderer according to the Torah so the first temple was destroyed because of these three things since the sin that I just mentioned is a revealed sin which means if you do idolatry it's it's revealed everybody sees it unless you're in a little room but the idolatry the Bloodshed and the Forbidden relations it's obvious sins since the sin was revealed then the length of the Exile was revealed they the the B is the nation of Israel is living yam and the prophet is telling them 70 years you're back you're making a U-turn in 70 years and sure enough 70 years later the story with Pim you're all familiar well 68 years later was the story with with you know the story close to home and then two years later everybody made a u-turn came back to is now the second temple was destroyed for something completely different for what is called baseless hate since the sin is not revealed you don't know if I hate you or not I can now look at you and smile at you yes sir no sir you're amazing kiss your from morning to night and inside I hate you guys and I can't stand you and I trash you whenever I can but I you're my boss you whatever you're my in-laws or something I don't know something that I need to like but I can't stand you and that's like the one example out of many the baseless hate is that I hate a person with no reason and that's what destroyed the second temple our sages explain since the sin is not revealed you don't know what's in my heart then the length of the Exile is not revealed which means that Last Exile we were 70 years this Exile we're already 1957 58 years we're not 2,000 years in Exile don't say we're 2,000 years in Exile that's another 50 years we're 1957 or 58 don't catch me on the on the ear but we are suffering from that and will continue to suffer that till we do any change until until we change nothing nothing will get better and on the will get worse now the concept of baseless hate is that I hate you for no reason because you're spardy you ashkanazi you were black I wear white you live in this neighborhood I live in that neighborhood I follow this Rabbi you follow that Rabbi I follow this politician you follow that politician some people hate each other because one person is a Republican and the other one is uh is a Democrat and they will hate each other but why so I believe I think this politician is good you think that politician is good we can disagree but I why hate each other so the baseless hate go to to to extension that it's not that I just hate you because if I will approach now any person and tell them where is your no no I'm good with everybody no I don't hate anybody yeah you don't hate anybody till they annoy you or until they say something about about you until they do something against what you believe and the is very very refined a lot of people will say I don't know what you're talking about I don't care asaz but I can tell you that from my point of view the sinam is not promising anything at all the sinam is so horrible that it's if it's in H between two people who are not connected to the Torah in any type of way I can maybe say okay but a person who believes this much in AEM not talking now babaali us you believe this much in Hashem and the the the the the way the way to look at it is not if how much observant you are I know people who eat Oak culture three times a day pray observe Shabbat the whole nine yards and you would say oh that's very religious person but all day long they gossip L spew hate and many other things that what what is their Torah worth what do you think in sham hasem is looking at a person that learns Torah all day long eats kosher keeps Shabbat everything super Orthodox but trashes another individual I can tell you nothing is worth the entire Tor of this person is worthless Shem cannot stand you're learning Torah all day long melee you were born in I don't know what in Alaska I never even read one word of Tor I can understand you don't understand what's gossip but listen grab now any from the street and pull them and start talking to them they know it's gossiping they know it's slandering it has and and they also know it's not okay even if they didn't read in the Torah so it has nothing to do with if you Torah obser it or not the sad reality is that most people who are dressed like this and that's what I found when I became observant I want to be nice and conservative and say 50% but uh that's not my honest opinion my honest opinion is much more than 50% but the sad reality is that most people that I found that look on the external part like that they're just dressed theart inside there's no emit there's no true true love to Hashem and true love to the Torah and true love to other people and listen it's very easy to robotic and to behave a certain way that's I can tell you one of my main things that for 20 years of me becoming observant I came from the side of rejecting the Torah and hating the people they represent the Torah now I had to go in and start living with the people that for 30 years I couldn't stand and you know what was hard that for 30 years I wasn't wrong that what was hard that I had to I used to go from one Community after after the other and find out everything's fake I'll never forget I came to one Community out of many in the beginning everybody looked so hyper religious running in the morning with their fly and everybody covered top to bottom I was like wow this is like the the number one community of religious Jews in the world everybody looked so righteous 3 months into living there would be in the synagogue this guy doesn't come to pray he's coming to doing business guy talks with thein on the head this guy cheats on his wife this guy cheats in business this guy does everybody it was everything and everybody I was like and it's like stom everybody's dressed apart but nothing ah here and there one flower and again I'm not blaming anybody we're all human not so simple to be 100% but I don't like the fakeness and I don't like the the being pretentious and unfortunately and it is in every community in every city is different but nobody can argue and nobody can say different the level of rejection and hate towards other people is not promising at all I can tell you on my experience that for me it's I unheard of for me it's weird that I'm coming to a city I'm leaving my town I'm leaving my house I'm leaving my comfort so I can go to the United States I'm doing now a two month tour two months I'm doing a tour as all major cities and in every city to come to give sh T to meet students followers some of the Cities you know it's it's it's almost it doesn't even resonate with I still don't know how to digest it that I'm coming and we calling shes that I want to come and speak and give a tour class there and shs reject I mean I don't know how to I don't know how to digest it yet and they don't reject because oh no we're busy no him well we don't want him but he's coming to give Torah for free we don't like how he talks he's too extreme he's this like this and like that I never even heard of something like that in another city not here in another city there's a woman who's helping me she came back crying after she called me I call seven major synagogues in our city nobody wants you to talk there and then people wonder why we're going to have disasters before mashiah comes now why am I telling you all this because you're not necessarily in that place place but everyone in US everyone has in them some type of like I don't know how to call it even but you you tend to judge another person and say h I'm better than them why would that person that person doesn't benefit me anything in my life I don't need to even look to their direction we all have unfortunately this evil streak in us that we do think that we're better than other people we do think that we're more a a uh how do you say I need to get more and we tend to look at other people from above to below and I can tell you that I'm probably one of the best examples to uh uh to feel it and to tell you how it feels because some people look up at me wow RAB RAB you know how many shoes that we I come to speak or in different establishments that I went to they don't refer to me as RAB they refer to me oh he was a drug addict he's a from him I'm going to learn T so I don't get offended because of that I I I you don't want to learn with me fine I'll go and teach you but to hear it coming from other places again doesn't affect me I don't care I know what I'm worth but to hear that coming from another person that's part of the you can't look at at a person and say there's a good chance that that person is better than me most people look at other people and say so tomorrow is TSH when I became observant people used to tell me a very annoying uh statement have a meaningful fast how can a fast be meaningful I'm going to be starving I'm going to have a headache I'm going to I'm going to be weak what's meaningful about it I'm just doing it because AEM told me to fast and I'm fasting what took me many years to understand when it says a meaningful fast is that why did hasem inate that we have a fast why the said okay we have to fast because really hasem only said on that we have to fast our sages added these fasts is not to torture Us by being hungry is by us to take a break and to say why are we fasting ah we're fasting because the temple was destroyed why was the temple destroyed because of sin so for almost 2,000 years nothing changed cuz the temple wasn't built which means they're still we're still sinning in the same thing as an individual and Collective so when it says to have a meaningful fast it means that you need to sit for 24 hours and think how can I change myself that I won't be to be to blame or at fault at what is what is pointed at us that when Hashem is going to come down at least I can say listen I can't say anything for the entire nation but I tried I in my little world respected other people I didn't step on other people I looked at another person I didn't look at how he's dressed and how he behaves here in this materialistic world if you're not dressed nice and you don't don't look respectful you probably like I don't know who you are you look if you look homeless so for 24 hours if you want your fast to be meaningful is to think okay let's think what caused the destruction of the temple a b and c type of behavior I don't want to be involved in that type of behavior to change the world I won't be able to trust me I'm 20 years speaking around the world I'm affecting a minority in the world you can change the world as much as you want doesn't matter how much money you have and how much money doesn't matter how smart you are you won't change the world the only way how you can change the world is if you change yourself if you change yourself you can know that you are 100% good with hem by saying I changed the world that's what you are responsible for so when I started the lecture by you don't get offended but I don't care what people think about me is because my goal my target is I need to go out of the revolving door of this world not how I came in I came into this world a certain way and I don't blame anybody not my parents not nobody I came into the world a certain way now I'm going through the revolving door my life is a complete chaos and now I want to go out which of course will be leaving this world how do you go out of the revolving door of life so when I'm looking at myself I have a Target I need to change myself my behavior affect the world do what I need to do I can tell you from experience the more you look up the more you see nothing the more you humble yourself that's where you see everything that you need to do before I became observant literally days after my near-death experience after I came came back to some coherence then I I knew that I have to start putting filin on and my friend who helped me I told him can you help me bite filin so he bought me a good pair and he also bought me the letters of beautifully like in a leather case and for a whole year that was the only Tor that I learned I would read this the letter of is every day that was my T Torah I recommend to you to buy a copy you can find it in Engish English and read it every day it will make you a completely different person cuz for two years that I needed to think of what Tor I needed to have some to in jail I didn't have any to they didn't give me books not allowed to have books there only later on if if and when I would be sentenced I would be request to move to like a a a less harsh jail and maybe I could learn to there but I was I was design designated to be in a Maximum Security Prison there's no no books there's no nothing the only Tor I had was the in my mind and and and one of the things that is stuck there is that the the letter asking why would a person be proud proud of anything in this world what are you proud of that you have money Hashem gives you money you proud that you have intelligence hasem gives you the brain he's basically telling you in other words the more humble you are the greater hasem will make you he says as follows humble yourself Hashem is going to raise you to the level that you need to go up to and much more than what you can even understand and needless to say how it's affecting us on I'm talking on a personal level not now as a whole nation as a nation we're not doing great as a nation I'm talking about Jewish Nation it's shocking to me how hasem isn't have even have a patience to us after 2,000 years of and all that what's going on I even know how Hashem has the patience to us it's actually a miracle that he still has but nevertheless the is waiting for us to make a change now I'm a strong believer that's how I teach all my classes that's how I do do all my lectures I'm a strong believer that nothing happens by chance everything is organized from the K and nothing in this world or in your life is by mistake or by chance you're not sitting here by mistake some people wanted to come they couldn't come you even even you when would you invited before Shabbat today in the morning so nothing happens be without the supervision of God which means that hasem wanted you to sit in this sitting right now and listen to every word that I had to say and he invited each and every one of you many wanted to come couldn't come couldn't find a babysitter didn't find the place or whatever Arrangement and some people came early some people came late the fact that you have to take is that the master of the universe himself invited you tonight for you to listen and to say what can I do to better my life and to change my life if you're looking at me and again I saw all the types of individuals how they look at me after a lecture some people look at me wow unbelievable how did you do it this is one out of 5 million is able to do such a thing and some people would even look look down what does he think for himself or many other types of whatever which again I was learned I was taught a long time ago smart people are quiet I was taught by my father many many years ago smart people are quiet you open your mouth you show the world how stupid you are keep your mouth shut at least people will think you're smart but more than that you open your mouth you are becoming vulnerable because you start saying nonsense and a smart person in front of you will right away catch your nonsense so I I was taught to do to action smart people do actions don't philosophize so hopefully you're smart people and you take something and you trans you transaction you translate it into action it says in the when is the learning become great is when you know how to make action out of it if you sitting it doesn't matter what type of class lecture and you're listening and you're taking taking taking doesn't matter you know it can be a business convention you going into a business convention you need to listen or you just came to mingle but it doesn't matter in any situation if you talk too much you don't hear anything and then you don't take what you are scheduled to take somebody once invited me to a class he told me okay come at 7 we'll serve food and then you can start talking I said no no no first Ser serve the food when everybody's done eating then I'll start talking he's like no no no I want you to talk as much as possible I said but when I talk when people eat and their mouth moves the ears don't listen so I'm losing the half an hour of the chewing so smart people listen and then they process I was the complete opposite I had to learn the hard way I was very impulsive everything that came to my direction had maybe a fraction of a second to process and right away was a reaction and the reactions were always bad took me many many years to absorb and wait what's the reaction wait another day or two there'll be a reaction now the reaction is not going to be good let me sleep on it I'll relax then we'll get a you'll get a reaction so really what I want to give you to leave this room is strong words I don't need to prove myself to AEM or to myself I'm already 22 years doing Chua I'm pass already the point that I need to prove myself if I'm if I'm doing okay or not at this point I just look at my life see the experience that I took and now I have the obligation of giving it over now as I mentioned before you can take whatever you want from tonight you can either take the good food or you take some message and every person tonight heard one thing that applies to them I went through like maybe 15 lectures tonight with all the topics you don't even you don't pay attention but I know I G all the topics I gave you is 15 different lectures The Near Death the arrest the trouva the jail the this the that so we squeezed in tonight 20 topics every topic probably hits a home run or should hit a home run in each and every one of you and probably also the ones who are going to see tonight on the video the question is what do you do with the information you get it's very simple most people receive information okay let me say that different most people receive information don't process nothing everything stays outside few people process the information and then a minority they they they justest it the right way and they know what to do with it so I can tell you already that from every every topic that I went through I'm sure each and every one of you can take something the question is how you leave the room if you leave the room like I told you leaving what you could could have take behind or you leave the room and you're saying okay I relate with this I agree with that I can tell you already that the point in life if somebody would ask me what's the point in life what's my my uh not what's my uh my uh how do you here in America there's a term to that and now I forgot a lot of people ask me my per purpose purpose do you know what's your purpose in life anyone here no yes a legacy each person is total different purpose most people don't know their purpose in life because they're not willing to bow down to Hashem to hear the purpose so they're going in a maze that keep running into dead ends but most people don't know their purpose in life I can tell you now on a general answer that your purpose in life is to refine yourself and Hashem is going to put you in many different situations that the ultimate goal will be if you refine yourself or not that's it most of our great sages and teachers of the Torah will tell you that the main point of our life is to refine myself and the mitv and the Tor that I acquire on the way and learn and do MIT that's air and food for the soul but if I'm walking through a revolving door into this world and out is how much I refine myself how what does it mean it means that AEM will H bring you to the world with a few attributes that are very good you'll be honest you'll be diligent you'll be faithful you'll be whatever and then you also get a bunch that are negative you quick to anger which we all have a good share in that we're very judgmental we are quick to judge jealousy sadness depression I mean the bad midot are from here till tomorrow and every person has a few bad attributes that you need to refine so if you need to refine the ATT rute of anger so hasem is you'll see by yourself that you're quick to anger so hasem is going to put all the annoying people in your life your husband will be annoying your kids will be annoying your BOS boss everybody will be annoying just to see how fast you go from zero to 100 with with getting upset there's nothing wrong with your wife or your husband if you have an issue with anger you are the problem and hasm is just going to put in front of you the right people who will cause you to be angry all day long and if you need to work on your your patients and hasm is going to give you a lot of annoying kids and a lot of annoying employees employers employee or hasm is going to put you in the surrounding that all your buttons are being PR pressed if hasem wants you to work on your jealousy he's going to put you in the middle of Beverly Hills and you don't have money that's it and you have to drive some stinky Honda Accord and everybody's with Mercedes is and you work on your jealousy don't be jealous and you know what that individual works on their jealousy and refines themsel they'll get the Mercedes and all the money they want it's all game how hasem is so Hashem puts you where you need to refine yourself if you need to refine yourself by not gossiping because you have a tendency to gossip then hasem is going to put you in the circle of people that don't stop talking that you should be a at some point I can't listen to this anymore that's what I said smart people they process what's going on most people like I told you their their their ego is not letting them humble themselves so you know when you write when you look too high you don't see what's going on the way to see what's going on and which I'm talking about the signs that hasem is giving you is only if you humble yourself and when you humble yourself then hasem starts showing you what he wants from you so so all the signs and all the tests and all the challenges at least you understand what's going on most people are being challenged all day long and they don't even know what's the challenge and most of the challenges are with parasa with your livelihood with finding your your other half marrying your kids dealing with your spouse schom dealing with your kids health that's a big department there constantly challenges all day long hasm just wants to see a reaction this is all under the how you ref find yourself because Hashem is going to throw a challenge in your face and he wants to see if you lose your temper or if you judging the other person how many times there was a situation you lost your temper you lost your patience and you judg the situation completely wrong and then Hashem showed it straight into your face how wrong you are and now is another test are you going to apologize are you going to take back your words are you going to do chuva and say you know what I'm going to I'm going to judge judge situations anymore all this that I'm saying and was saying in the last 45 minutes it's all applicable for tomorrow for TSH because we're right now in Exile some people feel the Exile some people don't feel the Exile we spoke about it in the table before we started and I said that whenever hasem is ready to move to the next level he's going to make it annoying for everybody so now he's making it annoying for everybody and everybody's suffering everybody not in this room in this entire world is now suffering from something and many people it's three things and for the majority it's money for the minority it's it's pressure Financial pressure and to add on that the health health department and to add on that a few other things everybody's dealing with uh pressure I told you that already I might I must look like a stone everybody comes to me and cries on my on me like I'm the like the whing wall in in everybody comes nobody comes and tells me Rabbi life is great I love your classes you're doing amazing everybody that comes to me quietly listen I have this problem I have this problem everybody comes to me like the cotel in the cotel everybody cries to the wall and they put notes there I don't get any notes no notes to go to my pockets but everybody tells me this is this is a problem and this and everybody's having problems you're doing fine here then you're suffering here nobody right now has it good everybody has some type of a challenge and most people with stand challenges that's it Hashem wants our attention Hashem is moving now to the next level he's waking everybody up he's going to make it very uncomfortable in the United States cuz he wants the Jews to start here in the United States they were very comfortable for the last 50 60 7 years that the story is over hasem closed already the valve a long time ago and why he does that before he wants you to migrate he did that what 40 years ago in Iran we just spoke about it before before the rising ofi everybody lived their good then Hashem decided to SW to close the switch now everybody had to start running away and the same thing in Europe 80 years ago and the same thing in Russia 100 years ago and the same thing everywhere whether it's Spain 500 years ago whenever hasem decides to kick us away from where we are he starts making it very uncomfortable and now collectively the entire world before mashiah is coming you know a lot of people are under the impression because that's what they were taught that mashia you know is some person is going to come and change the world and people don't understand that mashia is not working for you and he's not the person who's going to come and change the world and believing too much in the in hashem's evid is also a problem it says in the Tor they believed in God oh by the way also in Moshe his servant a lot of people in our generation the focus is on the man mashiah they're not focusing that it's that hem has is to come three times a day we praying with we're praying for to return not a human being and unfortunately in our faith some people put the Messiah number one that's that's like gim that's like Christianity believing in a person and that he saves the Saves the Day hasem Saves the Day happens to be that he sends a man to to guide and to eventually be the king the physical King but we need to pray for hem to come soem is now putting everybody in their spot and telling everybody in other words the Redemption is coming and you have to prepare yourself accordingly and and preparing yourself accordingly is first of all being okay with hem Hashem says if you are good with me a thousand will fall from one side 10,000 from the other side nothing will come to you if I'm holding on to Hashem then I'm I'm going to be fine the question you need to ask yourself are you holding on to Hashem one way or another so tomorrow when one wants to have a meaningful fast that's what you need to think of it's not about a destruction that happened 2,000 years ago it's the destruction that is happening now and I don't want to be involved in that in any type of a way I cannot convince you all to do Chua 20 years I'm speaking all over the world I never in my life choked somebody you have to do CH I tell them this is the truth you can look at me as an example you do whatever you want when I'm going to come to your house in the middle of the night knock on the door and tell you say I can't tell you to do chuva I can only tell you this is the truth this is the Torah this is the truth this is my life story the door is there do whatever you want can knock on your door in the middle of the night to tell you what to do but that's the significance of Tomorrow is to understand that even in my own life when I'm dealing with some type of Destruction unfortunately most people at some point in their life was we're dealing if not right now with some type of a challenge that is almost impossible to deal with and what what people are going through not to talk about in Israel now the challenges that we have there and I know a lot of people like oh Israel Israel don't don't don't do Israel Israel Israel is the most safest holiest place in the world don't feel bad to Israel look what's going on in Israel and understand that it's coming to a theater near you that's how it works because hashem's land is the most safest land in the world not nothing will happen in the in the land of isra I mean you see things happening but in regards to at the end of the day Israel is the safest place Israel is where the storm starts and then it starts taking off and it starts Rippling and Israel becomes the eye of the storm so everywhere in the world is going to start being crazy you see what's going on in Europe and it's not just in what they show on on on social media and TV it's crazy in Europe Europe is is kaput completely so hasem is already showing the entire world what's going to happen and then he says okay now you decide what you need to do so the first things are if you are uh good with AEM that's why I told you before hasem doesn't get impressed from Suits and beards and yamakas I'm telling you I know some people with beards and yamakas Wicked with the beards and the yak and the entire Torah that they know I just gave election hour in enino the other day I was nice I somebody said something I said well take the consideration that 50% of the what you see is so the rabbi was quietly telling me 90% I said well you said 90 I was about to say 99% I was just being easy on the crowd but that's what I feel see and I know the majority is fake rotten so the point here is you don't be that if I'm connected to a crowd that I see something is not okay uh sorry I can't be with you when I do my own chuva is me and AEM I don't do Chua to impress you I don't change because I want to look better in the eyes of my followers I'm I'm my issue is 100% with Hashem so that's the message I'm offering you to leave this door tonight that you have to understand that every person Hashem looks at them he does it doesn't matter if you're religious or Not You observe Shabbat or not hm doesn't look at you in that level not that hasm puts a bunch of people in front of them he says sh Shabbat I love you not sh shat go here and the proof to that and I get it all the 20 years I get it that if you would look at me or any great Rabbi would look at me 25 years ago wouldn't give me a time of day it would throw me out of the Sho you know how many yes I was thrown out of cuz I came and and they just looked a little bit at my past no no we don't want you here way before I was the famous Raba most of the that I came with you know they had some questionnaire the second they found out a little bit what's going on with me we don't want you here not to talk about how many put with you never there was one woman she I I I'm I'm saying it just for the example there was one one time a girl that I saw and I asked to be matched with her and then when it came to her sh or whoever she was she looked at me looked at me up she was like you never years later she somehow saw me and she didn't even know how to digest that you never and I wanted to tell her you didn't think 10 years ago this is what's going to be ah now I would be your number one H prize so that's the arrogance and the stupidity and the disgusting of most people being so judgmental so judgmental to the individual how they dress how they look how they behave you know where that person is going to be in 10 years that you looking at the individual and like that's the the the sublime message that I'm telling you I told you that already I look at people I give them the utmost respect I don't even know who they are yet I don't know what they did in their life even if they look horrible I learned a long time ago not to judge the book by its cover a long time ago and most people are so judgmental and that's why life fails them because they're judging other people they look down at other people they think they're God gifts to the world they're not even willing to Humble themselves a little bit down to listen to what another person has to say you when you're quiet that's why I told you before sign of wisdom be quiet because when you're quiet you listen to other people 90% is junk most of what comes out of people's mouth is junk stupid ideas but here and there you hear the gems every person has some smart thing to say because hasem showed them something in life you can learn from every individual from a three-year-old you can learn from our enemies you can learn from everybody so I want to before I bless you I want to summarize what we did now for the last hour plus life is measured by your achievements when they're done quietly not when you scream at your achievements I can put on the on the on the board a lot of my achievements and I have a lot but that's not how you measured in life you're measured in life in your achievements in refining yourself in affecting other people in making room for other people in this world and not to be arrogant not to be snobby not to be a much better it's very easy to point fingers and say me you want life to be smoother then you humble yourself your life you want life to go uh more smooth and according to your plans and not too much challenges then don't be an obstacle in other people's faces don't be judgmental don't be the ones who are ruining to other people I know sometimes people did bad things to you you want to have Revenge the more you humble yourself the more successful you will be it doesn't matter if you're sucess is measured with money Fame intelligence H where my Heritage lineage everybody their me success is measured somewhere else for me for many many years success was measured how much money you have and then I understood that it doesn't matter because you can be a crook and you can get money like this there's no success here success is how much you are true to yourself and how much you achieve what you're supposed to do in in this world and like I told you go and read after this class the the letter of it will change your life if you read it every day if you internalize it and if you apply it so really what we went through in the last hour is not my life story is what you can take from my life story I took already what I I'm I'm taking the maximum of my own life story I'm trying trust me I'm squeezing every little bit of my own experiences I'm cashing in on every little thing half of my videos online there are thousands of videos on YouTube half of them is my day-to-day stories that I I let Hashem operate in my life and I see the Miracles and then I just say say say what hasem did because that you're obligated so like I told you that's my strong belief nobody's here by chance you all were spiritually invited here by the master of the universe not because somebody sent you a message or what Whata or a textt or and now what is left is what are you taking home for with you which souvenir you're taking out of the door if you're smart you're taking the spiritual souvenir by saying I need to change something in my life and drastic I touched today 10 different things that each person can either do all 10 or one you decide you decide how you're going to become a better person tonight when you leave leave the room if you do then you won the lottery Hashem has given you an opportunity if you apply on it you'll see that one aspect in your life will change for the best but that depends on you put it to the test and you can call me later and tell me but if you didn't put any effort you walked in through the door and you're going to walk out of the door exactly the same maybe a little bit more inspired but if you don't do something then nothing will change in your life and then you'll see all the signs down the road ah if I would have done 3 months ago I'm telling you that Hashem wants to see you constantly changing for the good not changing bad so if you walk out of this door tonight and you're saying what can I take from this guy determination okay I'll take determination what am I going to take from him H not to judge other people okay I'm going to stop judging other people but if you don't take something the mishna calls it that you you you know on the way out you get like a bag after birthday party they give you a baggie a what how goodie bag okay so hasem is giving you goodie bags you decide which goodie bag you take out of this party that's it if you don't take listen you can take some of the food this is very good goodie bar but bag but you besides calories you don't get nothing you already made an effort you're already sitting here I have done my part you leave the door how you want to leave tonight if you're smart you take one thing and you apply it I changed my entire life one step at a time not 50 at the same time one thing I took it on myself I applied it I put it into the system that it became so part of the system and then I took another thing but we all looking for some some relief in our life some mental emotional relief in our life Hashem is putting so much pressure right now on everybody I I told it to somebody the other day he told me why do you think Hashem is putting so much pressure everybody's going through some pressure so I said he want so uh the person says Hashem wants everybody to do chuva right I said yeah that's part of the reasons so he says why do you think Hashem is putting so much pressure I said because he wants people to observe Shabbat cuz on Shabbat you don't use the phone the bank doesn't call the business is calling you on Shabbat I mean on Shabbat you can really have an excuse to turn the switch off nothing bothers you in this world really that's what I do Shabbat I disconnect from this world completely I hate M Shabbat because then I have to open the phone start dealing with everything with the bank credit cards mortgage loans people headaches all headaches you open the phone Mo about ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding all the whatsapps right and you don't want to open half of them so hasem is now putting this pressure so we will be you know focused on the Shabbat but it doesn't have to be like this a person who is that is doing his chuva his hers and he's good with hem then with all the challenges around you life is going to be much less hectic so I'm going to uh first recommend that you take something and you apply it I guarantee to you you'll see a change in one aspects of your life whatever you choose you'll see how it's affecting you and I would leave you with a blessing that whenever whatever you decide to take that hasem should bless you it will be easy and you'll be able to go through with it and you'll make a good decision a strong but that you're able to do that you know for many many years all I've heard from many different places you have to take a decision and apply you need to to take a decision is easy to know how to apply hard to do it repetitively almost impossible how much how many times in your past you do a good decision and it lasts in 3 days or maybe a week or two weeks and then somehow it fades so tonight you have a strong opportunity an supicious time to take a decision and to say I I don't want to be that when the whole world is under judgment that I will be the good kid of the class and say I didn't do anything that's how I look at it because I can't change the entire world but I have to change myself that when AEM is going to come I say listen I I didn't say I I I never lied I didn't cheat I'm like I Tred to affect the world but on myself I don't want to be caught under one of these channels of of judgment Shalom so I'm going to bless you all to be successful in any path that you decide to take assuming that it's positive that you should all have true happiness in your heart find true peace in your heart have strong Health long life that you should marry off your kids marry off grandkids if you need to get married standard should be easy health should be strong you should have true true love to hasem and that hasm should always guide you wherever you need to to go and provide to you whatever you need to to to in order to reach to that place and provide to you the true love and peace in your heart that you should be successful and and everything that you should do should cause to the yes [Music]