AMAZING!!! Winning your inner battle - Rabbi Alon Anava (Free your mind)

I have a question for you do you have uh inner battle a inner struggle that you can seem to get rid of more than that more than you can get rid of there's another issue with this battle that this specific one nobody knows you don't share this battle with your friends family whoever this specific battle that I'm talking about you don't share it's yours it's yours and you deal with it the problem is that you can't deal with it it's a struggle a battle that you just can't get rid of so my question to you is do you have this type of [Music] battle so my question to you is do you do you have this type of battle the answer of course is yes don't don't nod your heads any other direction the answer is yes everyone has this battle now I will exclude there must be one or two or three people who might say no I let everything out okay good for you so you are one out of 3 million so you let it out but you still have that battle that you cannot seem to get rid of now I'm not talking about a that bothers you and I'm not talking about your desires and your lusts I'm talking about an inner battle spiritual physical emotional it does not matter but this inner battle that bothers you on a daily base that you cannot get rid of that's question number one that you all answered yes question number do is the battle that you're not sharing that's also yes by most people so if you answered yes to everything that I just asked you and you can easily quickly with no hesitation raise your hand and say I I I have this battle then stay this class is not a class to be missed the reality is that everyone has some type of battle big or small phys physical spiritual or emotional and in many of the battles you win I'm not saying now that it's a battle that you're stuck with it for the rest of your life can be a battle for 10 years and then you overcome it and then the next one will come so we're talking about right now the present don't start saying oh 40 years ago I had battle with alcohol okay so you f finish that battle well not really once an alcoholic once a drugie you're always an alcoholic you're always a drugie that's that doesn't change you might not be using it you clean for 40 years but in the system it can be triggered in a second I'm not talking about things that happened to you 40 years ago I'm talking right now today this week the last month last year the battle that right now is stuck with me and it could be the last 20 years don't try to pinpoint right now the battle right now let me present the topic let me tell you what we're going to talk about and then when we're going to dive into it I will start explaining every little detail that you need to know to realize that this inner battle that you are stuck with this is something new that you are not familiar with nobody taught you that there's this inner battle that it's not your yet your evil inclination not your desires not your habits it's it's not all that it's a certain battle that you cannot seem to overcome big or small so what I'm going to talk about today is the most personal problem you have don't worry you don't have to tell me what's that problem right right now or at all but I'm going to address now your most private problem right now so you have to be ready that this class is not going to necessarily A enrich your Torah learning or background but this is 100% to and what I'm going to talk right now if you are curious this is a if you're following our series of gate of incarnation and and Sh all these series that we're learning this is like a freestyle class from learning these books cuz when I teach you these books we learn the book Neto only the book here you're getting a cocktail what he thinks what he thinks this is as this is coming from the the the the books cooked together in the same pot so we're going to be addressing today your most private your most personal issue but then we're going to try to solve that problem so this is not a class you want to miss and this is not a class you want to stop in the middle wait till the end I do not know how long this class will be before we start I have a personal request to the online viewers please subscribe to the channel right now like the video share the video comment on the video only because not because if you want to do it do it because you want to do it but I'm asking you to do it because lately my channel was my channel is under uh too many investigations of YouTube I mean you my my videos being removed and so forth I have a lot of penalties but lately because a lot of people as I'm asking sharing liking are participating in the channel the channel is kind of being back to more life they removed one of my penalties so now now my links are clickable and many more other things so I know it helps so out there click the like click the share you're doing a Mitzvah anyways because if you're sharing it and a person learns and you're doing uh an amazing Mitzvah but I'm telling you already it really helps the channel and we all benefit from that you don't want the channel down with that said let's dive in so our topic today we will call it my inner battle and before I even start I'm already telling you what we're going to talk about is personal things private things my uh disclaimer is don't be offended by what I say I know some people get offended because I hit the nerve and they turn the video off it's not worth it for you don't get offended by how I talk okay I'm not here to offend you or I'm not here to to feel Superior to you I'm here to educate and share what I have to say so please don't be insulted if I say something and as an example and happens to be that your personal battle is my example and I know you'll be offended so don't be offended then if you are I apologize we will talk about two topics today the major topic of course is the inner battle but the two subtopics that we're going to concentrate is a the battle itself and B which is not less important is why specifically this battle you hide and not the other ones that's a very big thing why are you able to open your heart about your marriage or to open your heart about ER your disappointment in your kids or whatever to this person but when it comes to that private battle that you no me so we going to have to address that now when I look at this type of battles we have to look at it in some type of graph of intensity so to make it simple let's make a graph from 1 to 10 in the intensity of that battle 10 is the most intense and I will now give the extreme example of this type of battle that's already drugs a severe drugs that this battle already and don't jump and say yeah but the body's addicted we're not going to analyze right now what is causing the addiction I'm talking about that the battle is in full force that it's life-threatening that any given moment when you fail you die I'm not talking about the LIF style right now which is the worst of the worst so for me in the the worst battle I would say drug abuse but heavy drug abuse not something minor not that I'm minoring anything but I'm not talking somebody has a habit and they smoke marijuana that's that's part of the battle but it's not in number 10 I will put that number seven maybe I'm talking about right now hard drugs cocaine heroin crack Crystal I'm talking about the person that it's it's any moment the person can die let's go to the extreme opposite number one in the graph I would say something as small as that you have a sweet tooth and you cannot stop munching on cies and chocolates all day long it's not lifethreatening it's not that bad you're not harming anyone you're not harming yourself to an extent I mean it's unhealthy but it's like a a very minor thing one might say but you can't get rid of it so you you might find all the excuses my metabolism my this low sugar count it doesn't matter the fact that you need something in your mouth sweet every 5 minutes and you don't have control over it that's a battle that's it nothing to be ashamed of anything that you do by the way this class is not to shame you it's to understand the battle don't be ashamed of your battles that's the biggest problem in this whole problem so the two things we're going to address the war itself and the fact that you're hiding it we explained that I how I see it that we have some graph of intensity 10 is the worst and I'm talking about something that is life-threatening and I will give more examples because I know people will say oh I think that having a addiction to AB and C is just as bad well first of all find me the ones that are life-threatening that every time you fail the the the the battle you can die you're not going to die from a chocolate and you're not going to die fromom cheating on your husband or wife but you can die from overdose that's why that's number 10 number one it's basic things and I just said um uh chocolate okay give you one out of the blue that many might relate is some people they they do Lottery all day long all day long the numbers I'll win when I win when I win when I win when I to do I win all day long they can't stop they go through the booth next to the lottery okay okay I'll just do one I just do one it's not gambling right now in casinos now this is something that one might say what's the big deal it's not a lot of money and but it's a battle that's in your brain all day long the numbers are driving you crazy and you're living in some dream that when I'm going to win when I'm going to win oh I'm going to buy this when I'm going to win so you got the point now between 1 to 10 there's all the rest you don't know where your battle is right now on my graph can be nine can be six can be four you're going to have to eventually have to see the intensity to an you know according to the damage that's how much the work has to be done and don't take to consider and take to consideration that I'm talking right now about one battle you can have three at the same time that one the intensity is eight one is five and one is one is two and you have a few battles now is not the time to figure out the intensity it's at this point not so important first we have to figure out that there's a problem if we don't know that there's a problem then how are you going to fix it if you feel that your battle is your yet your evil inclination so you constantly in fighting mode to win the battle you have to be in winning mode it's total different battle so let's focus a little bit on the on the actual battle itself I will H now divide two channels where the problems start from one of them is the the evil inclination that is hired by the master of the universe to keep you on your toes and the yet will come and bother you all day long each person has a different that is department number one if you haven't in your long life yet got to the point where you can recognize when it's the then then you ain't got to start working towards it cuz it's never too late but B you're missing the whole point here if you don't know when to to to recognize this is a now now will come a question so if it's not the yet what is it if the it's not the evil inclination the yet that's bothering me from morning to night what is it I thought that all my challenges and all my trouble and all my battles is the so that's right to a certain extent why is it right to a certain extent because the has his job and he does his job I'll give you one example that you understand what I'm talking about the is not always there to make you sin if you're going to sin anyways the doesn't need to do anything he knows you're going to sin one of the major things that the is focusing on is to bring you to points that you lose your cool that's what he wants either to lose your temper either to lose your patience either to lose your your cool your state of mind and then of course to make you lose your happiness your emotional stability that's what he wants wants he wants you to be sad the if you want to cut to the chase as it says the wants you to be sad and depressed that's it and he will find how to get you depressed so it's not always the yet going to come and make you sin many many times he says go and sin or don't sin I don't care I want you to be depressed I want you to be sad now of course in many of the cases you will blame your sadness on many different things but the but I'm telling you straight out that the's job is to make you sad and depressed of course and to make you sin and much more why did they say that in the inner battle the has something in it because when the sees a weakness then he goes and you know pokes it so the is just helping but the battle the weakness has nothing to do with the the is a we'll call it now an evil entity that after he's doing his job what God told him to do then he wants to work overtime and he sees you you you you're you're down on the ground then he'll kick you on the ground now you think that your battle is the it's not the just came in give you gave you a kick in the guts and went out and you're still stuck with a battle so when we're looking at the Battle we have Factor number one your dear friend your which I call the at many times my personal trainer yet sounds a little bit negative I call him my my personal trainer because if I don't have a personal trainer while I'm working out you need to be a very very very unique individual to train by yourself and I've been in a a sports and many things most of my life to tell you you cannot train without a trainer we it doesn't matter if it's a it's a group a team a basketball baseball whatever or if it's a a one one individual whether it's a gymnast a boxer no such thing that you can grow in that that department without a trainer and by the way almost in anything you cannot grow without a trainer it's just not going to call the trainer it might will call you it might call I don't know what uh what they call it today uh I forgot the name they have a name for that but it can be your Rabbi that's also a trainer or your financial advisor it it's somebody you turn to that has more experience a mentor a mentor exactly when why would you turn to to the mentor because he has 50 years of experience not right now please hold it the comments to the end so why would you go to this Mentor because I'm I don't have the right Kim I don't have the the tools more than that I might have the tools but how can I look at myself when I'm in myself I need somebody out there looking at me and telling me where I'm doing wrong so specifically when it comes to something like sports of course you need a trainer and when it comes to anything that requires a lot of discipline you need somebody supervising you very rare people have a very high level of discipline that they know don't need somebody down their throat I'm not saying that there are not there are the majority of people they need somebody down their throat to supervise to entertain to Mentor it doesn't matter so in many of the cases I don't call the yet I call my personal trainer he wakes me up he keeps me alert if not I'll start falling asleep so he's doing me really a favor cuz he's pushing me to my limits if not I'll be very lazy that's the human nature if I get comfortable I become lazy so the in many of the cases is my friend I'm just saying that as the side note now we s that the first factor in my battles is my now comes another factor and that's called my my desire My lusts where from these desires where from these desires are coming from we're not talking today this is not so easy things that you can pull out of your sleeve where you get your your lust from because you can blame it on million in one things but it has a root and again this is a big question we'll address not today down the line but I'm already telling you that the desires that I have my are not equal to yours and at this point I'm telling you there's a there's an origin to that it's not that you desire X and you desire Y and it's by chance or where you grew up or the background you came from or that can be blamed too listen in the Spectrum there's a lot of factors here like I told you in my inner battles yeah the is a partner he's not a main partner he's an active partner but a little one then will come my desires but my again my inner battle that my desires are part of the inner battle because I can have desires that are completely under my control after 20 30 years of of self-refinement and in my inner battle my desires and lust has no say that there it's two different things in many of the cases like any living living organism strong H the strong attaches to the weak and overpowers the weak that's usually the case if if your inner battle is weak then the yet will be drawn to that to put pressure there the desires will be connected to there but I'm already telling you that this topic of inner battle it's not always your desires or your I will tell you you you should know that by learning with me many of your desires they come from a previous Incarnation many of them is a tun it's a rectification yeah it's under the umbrella the title desire lust but one can be coming with me from a previous life one can be coming with coming with me as a tun as a part of the rectification and refinement process of the soul and some can be from where I live that the Tav is developed where I live and where what's the proof to that that if you take a human being and put them on a deserted island when this deserted island has no immorality or or or anything that has to do with that then who will never develop the thoughts he will to a certain extent he will develop thoughts of desire to his wife because that that's natural that's what God wants you to desire your wife but he wouldn't have all the craziness that Society fed him for 30 40 years through movies and commercials and Men no novels love novels and all that junk take now a person or a group of people and raise them on a deserted island where there's no drugs in alcohol you think they'll have desire to drugs and alcohol never because it's not even natural so where do you see or where can you make the test where it's coming from desires just put the situation what would be the result if so let me give you one example out of many and I will use all the examples that I can on me because I think I'm a very good candidate for this topic because throughout my short life I battled the most extreme battles in my in my graph and a lot of them many and for a very long time so I feel that I not only matured but I graduated the school of identifying your battles it's not that I'm winning my battles some yes some no but at least I'm in the level of identifying is this my is this my lust is my desire that's coming from my neish already is this a t coming from a previous life what is this or is this something that I'm stuck on because of my life and where I grew up this world so if I was battling drugs in my early 20s that's only coming from my surrounding not from myish not from a of course the yet will jump in for the weakness and jump on the party but it's not necessarily and in this specific case it's not a tun of course in general everything is a t it's a result of where the person was raised how he was a grown and so forth now one might look specifically in my past and say I nothing with you make sense cuz you grew up to a normal family not only normal I mean my father exceeded anything that he and he's a general in the Army businessman wealthy my mom is educated I mean I grew up in the most normal family you can think of in the most calm peaceful upscale neighborhood in Israel Rana no crime no my prototype should be a class A+ Citizen and either a doctor engineer CPA uh account lawyer if I look at my class class of 74 in Rana they're all academic high-tech because it's like a it's not like some ghetto that I grew up in and all I saw is druggies and gunot shots and murder and I grew up in a completely different place so doesn't even make sense that I will be drawn to certain type of Lifestyles when did everything change I mean of course I was always a little bit of a like a troublemaker but not in the level how I was in my 20s once I left Israel that's it then new Temptations came into the picture drugs part these things that I didn't have in Israel to that extent so you see the area where you are it's of course will kick you in you and the desires that you have will draw you to that specific thing because the way it works with and I told you we'll address it but not now cuz really everything is a I can have a for cookie I know when I say the word lust you think of sex or horrible other things can be to anything you can have for money you can have for for beautiful clothes in Hebrew last they don't they're not 100% parallel the words but many many many of my like I told you it's not coming necessarily from something deep within sometimes it's very external so when I'm looking at this inner battle that I'm now introduced to that I never heard of cuz I thought I just have a and I have a lot of desires and lusts that are out of control and that I have a lot of baggage from my past well let me uh add another one to your list now we're talking about a whole different thing since you're occupied with trying to figure out the yet and your L and everything else you don't realize that there's another another Factor here this inner battle like a tick tick tick tick in your brain that drives you not and everything that above that I told you they they're just supporting now we have a brand new power of inner struggle that I need to be acquainted with it's a whole different battle because it's a whole different power right now I know some of you might have the question is where is it coming from is it another one of God's things so of course the answer in general of course it's one of God's paths but eventually we'll have to figure out why this specific inner battle is different ultimately it's all go God's decisions and God's challenges and tests and and and it's nothing behind Hashem but I'm just throwing all these big questions mainly so you can have sorry sorry I'm throwing all these big topics and questions so you'll start a question because you never ask these questions right because they didn't know you have to ask these questions now let me explain a little bit about this battle and why it's so different from your or from your desire this little battle that you have and and and I will have to mainly give you examples on myself but but first take a moment and if you're watching the video maybe pause take a moment to recognize or choose your selected Battle of the day okay you don't have to say that out loud but you have to relate with what I'm talking to so you have to take now a moment and say okay let what is my little battle or maybe big that nobody knows start with that question nobody knows run through your memory right now is there battle in your in your life that nobody knows you're saying no nobody knows or yes is the answer yes no I don't have okay good so you're the you're the number one so when you finally F find this battle that nobody knows and it can be minor or big okay now you recognize what we're talking about on purpose I'm not telling you choose randomly a battle choose the one that nobody knows and for the ones who everybody knows sit quietly for another 5 minutes then we'll continue to I have one but everyone knows so once you recognize that problem this battle okay now let's move on uh if you can't recognize it because you're confused whether it's so let me give you one big example that is a many will relate to that and that's the the desire in normal cases to the other gender H let let me me be more blunt the desire to sex okay there's no other words to say that now one might say yeah I have the desire but I don't think it's bad I desire my wife I don't look at other women but I have this desire good so this is a good desire this is not the bad we're talking here right now when H when do we need to start addressing it when the desire goes to the wrong direction cuz I can desire to learn Tor is that bad it's a but it's but I'm learning Tor so me Desiring my wife that's nothing wrong with that if I don't desire my wife what am I going to do with her start looking at other women so you don't desire your wife I don't want to say desire your husband then people start thinking I'm Desiring my husband that I don't have so I'm talking in personal to me don't look at me like I don't have a wife okay you have a husband same thing so going back to the desire of lost for marital relations if it's directed to my wife it's a Mitzvah good so Hashem planted in me a desire that when it's just pushed to the right way it's a mitvah is this a the answer of course is no so don't tell me when I'm looking at other women oh it's my no my friend it's the desire that God gave you to use it to your wife the fact that you don't use it to your wife then the yet is going to come and go like this that's it don't blame the blame yourself that you're not pushing your desire to something positive and the story so when I'm talking about this battle yet I'm not even going to talk about today because either you know your you recognize the and you know how to deal with it or not there's no middle you either know your or not and we're not going to talk about the but is part of the struggle just imagine the yet is this little dwarf very annoying that you know comes and kicks you in the ankle that's the just comes to bothers you that's what we say Factor number one in the battle but let's focus again on my lusts if my lust Des desire and I'm going to now start using only the word if my can be used for something positive that's not my inner battle and it's not my it's the the BL that God gave me that my test here is to know how to maneuver and where to take it like a cils boat wherever you're going to push the cils that's where the boat is going to go same thing here so if I have a desire to a woman that is not my wife my definition here that's not my here that's not my inner battle it's a battle it's an inner battle it's my all of the above are just additions it's my desire that God gave me in order to do good with end the story I'm failing because it's part of my challenge where am I pushing the energy that's it push the energy something somewhere positive you did a Mitzvah and that's what God gave you the desire Shalom if I wouldn't have a desire how would I procreate you know that at the time of the BET mikdash our Sage had had very strong Powers they decided one time to eliminate the for marital relations and voila the next day nobody has the for to have marital relations forbidden permitted after a few days they noticed that the chickens are not giving any eggs and they they at first did not understand why is the chicken not giving eggs because the in order for the chicken to give eggs the rooster has to fertilize her and how would he do that if he doesn't have a desire for her and then they figured out very quickly oh what a mistake we made if nobody will have desire now to be with their spouse that's the last generation God created the desire for the other gender for me to procreate so take this example and that's your a a a explanation how how do you recognize that your little battle it's not your now if your desire cannot be used for something positive a now we have a problem if it can be used for something positive I will categorize it in right now as part of your baggage from a previous life and what God wants you to fix not yet in the battles to different department recognize them very fast in your life and work on them that's why we're learning sh that's why we learning recognize what God wants from you to refine and do it fast don't think it's your or all sorts of inventions so I gave you one clear example how you can take a desire that can be used for the worst things but it wasn't created for that it was was created for me to desire my wife and to procreate end the story here's your example where you know that the is not what's the the the the the sign that you can use it for something positive Now find for find in your system a that you cannot use for something positive can you think of something in your system that you desire and you canot use it for anything positive so that will be homework number one one I know you're thirsty for an example but I'll tease you a little bit and let let it cook in your mind a little bit because I'll tell you why it's hard to find because most of the can be used for something good the reason why I'm not let giving you an example because most of your desires can be used for something positive and a Mitzvah now figure it out figure it out and the reason why the uh Journey so to say or the switch better word the switch when it from it's taken from positive to negative it's like a fine line that's your perfect example it can be used for something very positive while can be used for something negative and the line between the positive and negative is a very fine line because a man can have great desire to his wife but still desire the women now that's already a tun being dressed with a lot of on it and an inner battle that the yet is always going to tag team the yet always going to jump when he sees weakness and your inner battles that we're talking about that can start getting mixed now with everything else and I'm already telling you on the topic of inner battles it's always going to be mixed with everything it's not that it's like one invented battle that you never thought of and it's always going to be mixed with with with everything but today we're trying to make some type of an organization if that's how you would even say it in Hebrew you say s how you say organization doesn't sound what I'm trying to say we're trying to make a little bit of a sense of what's going on here we are now Define yet is one entity told different things and the battles that I'm going in that's another thing that we're talking about and extremely important to highlight in case I'm saying that in case for the ones who are a little bit confused everything that I just spoke about in the last 40 minutes that's not the challenges God puts you through we have a whole different thing here I'm not talking about challenges and another thing that I need to add this is not the we'll call it now uh what would be the most appropriate word cuz I was about to say punishments we'll call now it's not the reactions of your foolish actions many of the things that you go through in your life it's a reaction of something that you did it's not a test not a challenge not a from previous life you did a certain sin in this life God somehow decide to have the reaction instant which you rather have it because you right away oh my God I did something wrong so many of the challenges in your life are not all the above I'll give you one example out of many financial problems everybody has a time in their life that they're dealing with financial problems you have your UPS you have your Downs some people all their life is financial problems ah so that's already maybe a t maybe coming from a previous life maybe the financial problems are only 2 three years not necessarily A tun you might perceive it as a tun something a baggage from previous life that might be because six years prior to that in some business deal that you did you not really stole but you didn't tell something that you saved x amount of money which really is gazel 5 six years later down the line you going into a few years of financial struggles that's 100% the reaction of Your Action it's not a tun it's not a challenge it's not an inner struggle it's another headache for you to deal with why am I saying that cuz you might get confused with the example that I just gave you and saying Oh I thought up until now it's it's my inner Struggle No my friend it's your sin you're praying for your sin it happens to be that it's a challenge and it's a struggle but it's not what I'm talking about and if we have to separate it or partition it yet partition number one partition number two my desires and my lusts that will be subpartitions to by my environment or my previous life or my my rectification and job in this world partition number three will be the reactions of my actions sins that I do then you're going to get the slap to the face on the spot many of the sins you're going to have to deal with in the afterlife which you don't want to many of the sins you're going to get a reaction to your face in this world right away so partition number three it's your own your own doing and partition number four is the inner battle that I'm talking about that is nothing to do with with not your not your desires not your tests not your challenges nothing it's a certain inner battle that is dressed with everything that I just told you the the core of it is the inner battle that's why I told you right now it doesn't matter what it is it's the fact that you have the ping pong in your head on top of that the comes and puts his sign and then will come your desires and you let everything will start becoming mixed together including the sins that you're praying in this world so now you confused you know you don't know where it's coming from that's the major problem with most people when they trying to deal with their challenges they don't know where it's coming from if you would know this is my okay so I know how to deal with my this is coming from the sin that I did shut up and deal with it you did it now not always you're going to know that that's what you did but in many of the cases you're a little bit sensitive you understand you know you did something wrong you knew you're doing that it's wrong while you were doing it you knew there's going to be a consequence and sure enough the consequence came and you're like that's it listen we're all the same what are you going through I'm going through do I've been through everything so when we're looking at this battle I told you let's now partition it again yet one desires to my challenges that God wants me to go through hasem wants me to go through any challenge he can put me through any challenge the horrible divorce H Financial issues loss of a loved one government issues the government is coming after me IRS whatever that can be a selected challenge by the master of the universe cuz you look bored that's another petition your reactions your the reactions to your actions another partition you need to know how to separate them and the one above all as you're in a battle that is the core of the problem now we understood the war let's now go to the next question why specifically this battle I hide why I'm not hiding the fact that I have financial problems marital problems but the challenge that I have with my kid nobody knows why why why this you hiding why aren't you not hiding other things and I just gave an example that many might relate with that everything they will share they will tell their friends and it's not that you're sharing it on on Facebook or with a megaphone I'm saying you you have your friend that you're saying you know my husband he's driving me you talk you question if it's or not but you need to that's the biggest L question that I get if I pour my heart out to my best friend about the situation with my spouse is that it depends what you say if you want an answer about if it's depends what you say but many of your challenges or problems concerns you share it these this bundle you share only with your parents this bundle you share with your spouse or with your best friend but why one or two or three or seven but why one specific battle you don't share what's the problem with that one and by the way that's you know in Hebrew we have a saying maybe they have it in English in Hebrew we have a saying on this specifically topic is this is where the dog is buried no I I don't think in in English it sounds good it's yish it's yish even matter how do you say it in yish the okay so very very SHP so I think I the thing is that I think it's more coming from a Biblical error and Yiddish just probably use it I I don't know where it's originated but but it doesn't matter this is the where the problem is uh if you are a plumber and you going to look you know we we had an issue here with the leak you bring a plumber we brought seven plumbers nobody figured it out that's a different issue but one normal plumber comes okay let me first figure out where's the blockage figure out where the blockage release it same thing with your own body why you think you have most of your aches and pains there's a blockage in in blood flow find the blockage release it and the blood flow will go back to normal circulation and that's it so this is the same thing so I'm wondering why this specific thing and it might be the most minor thing you share with your loved ones big things this one you don't share so that's what I'm saying when you need to figure out everything that I'm just telling you why don't you share it first question is why don't you share it the the the to refine the question is why this one I don't share now wouldn't you think that if I have a problem and you seek for help with everything else why don't you seek for help with this one I mean human uh nature and everybody can agree you have an issue you seek for Pro for guidance for help if it's a financial issue the guidance you seek or the help you seek can only be for a few individuals that have the ability to help you if you have financial problems you don't go to the beggar on the street and tell him can you help me so you can only turn to certain people for help with financial issues if you have marital H problems you're not going to turn to your younger sibling that is 17 they have no experience they know what to tell you about a a spouse you need to turn to somebody with more experience so when you have an issue normal behavior is to seek for help and and and I know many of the things it's very embarrassing to say but I can tell you and don't worry if you are one of them I'm don't worry cuz I'm a vault all day long people tell me their secrets you nothing to worry about I'm for knock you can't get nothing out of me ask the FBI they weren't able to take anything out of me so you won't you won't be able to take anything out of me somebody tells me something nobody knows all day long people tell me their secrets obviously they feel some type of closeness or major what they feel is that I'm not judgmental but people tell me their private things all day long so obviously you have certain problems that you can tell your friends and loved ones or whatever and then there's a certain problem that you might take it to the next level and go to a secret Rabbi or somebody other side of the world and I don't have to see you I don't have to see you every day sometimes it's hard to go to your Rabbi when he sees you every day yeah you have a rabbi across seas that doesn't even know who you are because you teach online it's easy to ask him a question but why am I telling you that because most of the times when a person has a situation they seek for help they will find the person that I can only talk with you if I would have a dollar for every time I heard you are the only Rabbi I can talk to I will do my Torah classes on my private yacht parked in front of my private island not that I actually Private Island might be a good solution I'll be my own government want to come for a private island so uh how did we get to the island ah if I I a dollar for every time a person tell me you're the only one that I I can talk to I I understand I actually understand because I publicly expose my problems and my issues and my what I dealt with so people say oh he will relate when I'm going to come and tell him that I'm addicted to drugs or addicted to that or I did this or I rob banks or you're not going to be able to F me anything that you come to me I did worse so it's not that you're going to impress me with something new but obviously the fact here is that when somebody is drowning in a certain issue they they want help the major jority will seek help but when it comes to this inner battle why don't you seek help with that why that one you don't want to say and seek for help what are you hiding but you friend that you're going to be somebody going to be disappointed why are you hiding that are you afraid that by you not hiding that specific thing your loved ones or the people around you will be disappointed in you and you cannot fathom the thought to disappoint them that's why you're not saying that I'm not attacking you I'm giving you a material to think of don't look at me like as if I'm attacking you I'm planting questions in your mind and if you're not afraid of disappointment what you you're afraid that if they'll find out what you're doing you'll get fired that's why you're not saying you're afraid that ifom you're going to say something the business deal is not going to come through I don't need to give you a a examples you know how many people smoke weed for them that's their battle and if their job will know about it they'll be fired so they don't tell it to anyone but that's not why you're not telling it to anyone if you're not telling it to anyone in your job and you don't want anybody to know there yeah you hiding it from there but if you're not telling the smoking weed Habit to anyone then there's a problem here and I'm just throwing examples because they just told you what are you afraid to be fired what if I'm doing I'll give you one example out of many you know how many men I know that have a serious problem with gambling and their wife doesn't know about it why don't you tell your wife are you afraid that she's going to divorce you are are you going to afraid that she's going to uh what so are you not telling her your battle cuz you're afraid of the consequences or that's an inner battle that you cannot share it with your wife and we'll have to address that why why aren't you sharing ask yourself and I can give you many more examples why aren't you sharing embarrassed afraid of not embarrassment you're afraid of disappointment you don't want to let somebody down you you think that if you share you will be judged that's one of the major problems I will be judged because I have this weakness how is about this is a popular one you know how many parents I get my child is out of control we're in a certain Community the child is uh we're embarrassed why don't you tell that you're afraid that the other children won't be able to find um a shid that's why you keeping the problem privately so the examples are many I will tell you what's the biggest problem why you don't share is the shame you don't share this specific problem because of Shame not anything else not because you're afraid you're going to be fired that's a cover story not that you're afraid that you're going to be disappointing somebody or that you're going to be judged the wrong way Mo by the way most of your actions are are are are rooted of what will people think a minority their actions are not controlled but what will people think and I'm telling you most most people probably including most of you that your actions are are motivated but what will people think how you dress how you talk what am I going to wear today cuz you constantly thinking the I'm the center of the world everybody is going to look at me what will everybody think personalities that don't care what people think I bless them no that's my personal personality I I don't I don't care I care what God thinks end the story I don't dress to impress I I don't I I don't care about these things I mean don't get it the wrong way you are not a factor in in my existence see that's a healthy way because the other way is I'm the center and everybody's looking at me the complete opposite of that is that I'm not the center so why would I care what you think of me I'm just another person right if I'm just another person in the crowd why would it matter what you think of me so I can tell you that the majority of these this little inner battle that you have that you don't share is shame that's it you are ashamed to step up and say I'm addicted to drugs I'm addicted to gambling I'm addicted to porn I cheat on my wife who who can stand and say that how many people stand and say that unless you're an AA or SA or PA or whatever a and then somehow you get guts and don't discredit that don't discredit the people who stand up and say my name is Moshe I'm an alcoholic to stand up and say that they're much better than you you don't even say that you don't even say I have a problem with this and that and I'm not blaming you not blaming you not attacking you I'm not cornering you you want to be ashamed be ashamed but I'll tell you what the problem is with this being asham you're not ashame of ashem you're not embarrassed of God you're embarrassed of another person to tell them your darkest issue and from God you're not embarrassed H and one day when you die and stand in front of everybody naked don't you think everybody will know anyways don't you think that everybody including all the people you don't want will know what you did what you thought what you spoke what was your intention you're not going to get away from it that's part of the process of the Soul going into gedm I don't care how much mitv you do and how long your beard is and and how much to you learn eventually your thoughts your intentions everything will be exposed out on the table to everybody that you're not embarrassed now if you don't want all these records shown in public in the spiritual world then do chuva he don't do the sin if you cannot take the shame don't do it think real good if you can handle shame most people cannot handle shame when do you know that you reached a very high level of CHA you don't get ashamed you know why you don't get ashamed cuz you already confessed it cuz you already confessed it you did V you screamed to hem a second after the sin you confessed already to the master of the universe you don't have to run in the street and start confessing your sins not at this point but I'm clarifying it that shame is the is the wall here and you have to climb over this wall because I'm telling you that at some point in your existence guarantee no question about it you will be faced with a situation that all your sin including your thoughts intentions emotions everything that you ever did thought or participated in everybody and when I'm saying everybody all living Souls will know that that's how it works you're not going to avoid it one day you will be standing in some chamber in the spiritual world as a naked Soul all your credits all your credentials all everything that you ever did is written there and all the souls will read it and look at you and trust me that's the real shame you're not going to know where to bury yourself from most from from the shame so the answer to that is just don't do these things and if you already did or still failing do Chua chuva erases it that's it and just be aware sorry that I'm speaking so blunt and direct basic Chua will erase the surface but it will still be there like when you engrave on on any material you can kind of rub it off but it's still engraved you'll find it same thing with a pen you can rub it that's what's called chat lowlevel Chua in order for it to be completely erased high level Chua till you do that the remaining What's called the impression of the sin is there so you might not be judged but you will still feel the shame cuz it will still be there like a tattoo when I did my tattoo it was dark and black I looked recently at some picture now it's faded faded faded after the attempts of removing it so this is an example the sin is still there yeah yeah you did Chua you did Chua you're not going to get punished but the stain is still there on the neish which will be embarrassing to my soul when I come up to the heavens because the tattoo is on the neish it will be faded cuz they did CH but it's still there and there still will be the shame so when we're looking at why you're not telling I'm concluding it that all the above yeah you don't want to be fired you don't want people to think badly about you and you know what to some of the excuses I will agree with you I will agree with you that if you have a bad habit and and that's you're in a battle and if Shalom they'll find out about it in your place of work and you're going to lose your livelihood I will say I agree with you when you're not telling them if it's not putting anybody in danger if you are not cheating the system because you're not functioning like you're supposed to as long as you're giving what you're supposed to don't say and that's not my advice that's the advice of the Torah the Torah says clearly in certain situations you're not allowed to lie at any situation but in certain situations you're allowed not to tell the whole truth that's it so I'm not just I'm not I'm just not telling the whole truth about my private life it's not any business so in certain situations I will tell you okay the excuse I'll take I understand many times I deal with certain topic somehow I don't know why it's majority men I told you with the gambling and when the men tell me I I can't tell my wife it seems like in their mind like I'll be able to overcome my addiction and better that you didn't know and if after I overcome it I'll tell her by the way I had it and I overcame it but that's not that's an excuse my friend that's an excuse that's not because you are so be true to yourself when it comes to these things now let's summarize what we have here we are now acquainted with a new problem in my life which I'm not happy about why are you telling me that I have more problems now I have enough problems you telling me now I have to deal with another problem that I don't even know how to deal with I don't like your class I'll give you a thumbs down so before you give that thumbs down first of all and most important that we need to understand is we have a a time a time frame we are now under a lot of pressure we're not in the 80s or the '90s or we're we're and I know many will say you've been saying that a long time mashiach is coming mashiach is coming but now more than ever I never said when he's coming I just said is coming very very soon very soon you know in regards to 3,000 years four years is very soon besides the fact that we gave already all the information how late mashia is so no need to elaborate we don't have much time to to do what I need to do I'm I'm dealing now with a lot of situations and and I'm pressured with time that's one of the most important factors you need to take from that but really when we want to summarize what we talked about today one might look at it as now you giving me another problem to deal with then of course the answer is no now I'm giving you solution to all the problems that you had plus the problem you didn't know that you have but what one needs to understand is that ER I would say the mechanism of this life is that I constantly had to have to be triggered to be challenged for my decision that's it that's if I need to summarize what the Torah says the the verse in the Torah says clearly Hashem is is testing you to see your reaction how are you going to react that's the game by the way if you haven't figured out the game then welcome to the game that's the game the game of Hashem is going to put two things in front of you and he wants to see what you're going to choose sometimes they're identical sometimes the the the the change between them is completely obvious and constantly hasem is going to challenge you he wants to see your reaction hypothetically if you have no past Incarnation problems you don't sin and you don't have any of the problems of any human being you will still live a life full of challenges and from one challenge to the other and sometimes three challenges at the same time now if you don't sin and let's say hypothetically you're a brand new Soul you don't have baggage then you can only know these are challenges from God to see how I react because I don't sin so it's not a reaction of my sin I don't have a past life so it's not a tun it's not things that I did in a past life so it's just challenges that hasm wants me to deal with you first of all need to get to that point that your challenges are the just the challenges that has wants you to deal with that's it and then you just put it on autopilot and your life goes normal you deal with your challenges and you live your life normal devoted to God you are inspired you're happy you're relaxed you're content you're healthy you're successful in what you want to do some success or more some times you fail you haveen kind of normal life which is that what most people want and when the challenge comes through your direction you greet it with a smile because that's what hasem tells you you know accept the challenge with with the with a good attitude and let's see what what's the challenge of the day today will be challenged with patience tomorrow will be challenged with anger and the next day will be challenged with maybe with with what decision of what I'm going to say right now but the Cor of your life is making the right choice when you are faced with a challenge and that happens to you 400 times a day maybe 300 don't catch me on the number that's my existence when I look at the mirror and say alone what are you doing here I'm here right now to face the challenges that God puts in front of me and that what causes God great happiness and by that I also transform the darkness of the world into light that's it everything around it is to support this so now I need to H separate the challenges what is coming from a previous life so we learning deal with it finish with it don't don't don't drag it you put one aside your he's there don't feed him the reactions to your act ctions the don't sin minimize your sins you know why this what's the system behind High police tickets when you speed or when you do dangerous things if I'm not going to get through through Common Sense I'll get through you through the wallet why why do you think most people don't drive fast they don't want to pay the fine I don't have money so in the beginning if you remember it was only fine then they introduced another problem you get points cuz if they don't get points the hell with the fine I have a lot of money let me drive how I want so now they're coming from a different place we'll give you points too many points you get your license revoked you have a lot of points your insurance is going to be expensive they're making a point they want to discipline you through your pocket so Hashem is going to does the same thing you sin Hashem is going to discipline you throw a slap to your face here is a problem that most people don't know when it's their action if you know it's your action fix it and the problem will be solved and that's I'm not going to even go into giving you examples I can tell you my entire life is like that problem backtrack psychoanalyze re-engineer what's going on here that's the cause you put the the the the the Cure here problem solved the problem is especially in our generation that Society has educated us to deal with symptoms and not with the problems right so you know how to deal with symptoms you don't know how to deal with the problem we have to deal with the actual problem sometimes you will have a rash here on the hand what would be the solution the the skin doctor he will give you cream to put on the rash and voila two days passed no rash did he cure the problem no the toxins now are not coming out from here cuz you blocked the pores with your cream now the toxins will come out from here or from here so it's not going to come out in a rash going to come in the diarrhea or headache or whatever deal with a problem why you dealing with a sympton that's the same thing with my life most people are running after their tail dealing with the problems that they create and the rest just falls into the willpo and then your life is chaotic so we want to stop the chaos and at least reduce the speed of the carousel so you're not going to be that dizzy now yeah I know I know you're not liking to hear that we're going to have to deal now with a new problem why are you introducing now a new new problem because I'll tell you why for however long we're learning shul gate of incarnation and Sh Gates of Holiness and and a few other books than the purpose of that because I know I feel that that's the most important tool that people need to get is how to refine themselves there are enough Torah out there to teach you about the Paras and to teach you about many other things but unfortunately the the Torah of refining yourself is not out there so we're learning all these books happened to be that last week's Tom class we finished chapter number five so in my mind I was like okay for tomorrow's class what should I do should I do a recap of the entire chapter or should we go to chapter number six so the conclusion of course you have to do a recap of chapter number five it was a very difficult chapter if you followed very difficult so we have to recap it and with that thought I was like you know what at some point I'm going to have to take these three specific books that we've been learning for so long diligently from the book but to make a stand on class explaining these books freestyle so you got this class you would get it anyway any anyways in another way at some point but what we going to what we learned now by the way that was the introduction we we didn't start I mean we're finishing the class now don't worry but what we went through now that's the introduction of what we're going to learn now I'm just trying to get your attention I probably lost 3 four 5% of the listeners by saying this way is Way Beyond what I can handle right now or I don't want to listen to more nonsense but the majority I got their attention so this was the introduction I welcome you to the introduction of the long series that we're going to have to start learning I still don't know if they will put the series on YouTube or onm because if I put it on YouTube I will will be restricted in how I talk I want uh the series not to be restricted with how I talk not talking about conspiracies talking about even the words that I use it's going to have to be rated are these classes so it might be only on a this will go on YouTube for you to understand learn and and and understand that we're starting to learn something I'm not giving you too many answers today I just now threw the grenade to your direction now your decision if you're throwing it back to me or so first of all most important to understand you're not going out of this class now with a three step solution and you solved your problems I I just now gave you an x-ray you came and told me I have a a pain I have an ache okay let's do an X-ray let's see what's in inside so I gave you now the X-ray you have a problem and the problem is you're not dealing with the that's what number one we cover that you are not dealing with your desires we're not talking about the comes from the either what you need to fix from a previous life or what is the nature of the n and where it's originated that causes you to behave in a certain way and I'll give you one example in a many and I don't want to go too far with it because it's it's very heavy and it's much more deeper than it sounds but we learned in the Z two years ago that every is rooted in one of the if a is rooted in the sphere of has the motion of giving and the desire to give and the desire to fulfill needs of others and to help and to pleasure another person a person with a with mid of gets pleasure when they cater you sit down eat please you guest they have pleasure from that now you would say I want to have that I want to have I want to be rooted in I want to have pleasure in helping people and giving and this is all great take this to a negative side you know what would be the side effect of such a Mida in a person that specific individual as a man will desire every woman he sees why cuz he has the inner core is to fulfill other people's needs is to satisfy other people him it went through so many descending chains through IM impurity that where does he want to give the comes out in wanting to give where is it coming from from it's trans related to Desiring every woman that he sees with no filter doesn't care married not married hurting she's married don't care so you see an amazing Mida that's what it's going to cause by the way don't don't look at me like I'm inventing things I'm reading out of books smarter people than us taught it I'm not talking about KES right now a person that is rooted in mid will be much more a H pulled and triggered to have no control over his desire when it comes to sex because he's a man and he's a giver he needs to give in his limited brain he doesn't understand that the mid of is pushing so strong that he thinks he doesn't even think it just comes out the cure to such a person is to do so much charity that the desire to jump on another woman will be reduced cuz he's do his act activating to where it's supposed to go and suddenly the desire goes down to women so he thought he won the you didn't win the the wasn't even here you know when the walked into the show he is the woman with the red dress he knows you are going to look because of your because of your nature because of your you rooted in so the answer says let me put a blonde wig and a nice tight dress and he would look at me that's when the walks into the picture but before that you were battling two things and your nature God already placed that in you cuz you are rooted in you want to give unfortunately you're not clean enough spiritually to understand that you don't give like that you give like this now when you direct the the like I told you 40 minutes ago to something positive that's not your battle that's your stupidity so direct the the the to something positive a you're going to do a Mitzvah B the desire for the negative will reduce because you are applying the mid now I can give you that in any example in any but that will keep for our long series so I'm giving you one example with the same thing will be with the same thing will be with and everything a quick example I don't want to say anything not nice now because of the elections today the first I had a thought I'm going to refrain from saying that thought about H what I had to say about the election day today but let me give you the same example in a different cover a person rooted in mid positive effect the person will constantly be thriving to be good thriving to be best very motivated so many good things in regards to take it to the wrong direction that person will be the most rude person to other people because the nature of the Mida is to go above and to be above everybody which is an amazing Mida it's unbelievable motivation when it's done the right way it's not a competition when it's done the wrong way I take that nature of the Mida and I put myself above people in the wrong way I humiliate them I become a a bossy how what's the word in English possessive and many other things now again what one might say that's my weakness no my friend it is not your weakness to be possessive over your wife or your girlfriend or something you are rooted in m and that's your nature but you need to do it in a positive way to overpower your your your your your the the force that's causing your M motivation such a force that you can become a good scholar from that because you have the motivation that I don't know enough I don't know enough I need to learn no I need to learn another book and another but don't ride on other people so you can analyze that with any so again I'm dealing with the situation first of all we said yet department number one this is not our class I'm not going to teach you about the he exists he comes to you in a very tricky way that's it maybe we'll give some more information as it comes next partition like I told you it's your deal with it in the right way because I I and you and we all have toot I'm talking all the time right now about marital relations what about food what about food we didn't even start talking about food as a and many people don't even understand it's AA I need to eat okay and many times the food is not the food is that inner struggle and we will analyze cuz you said before is it physical is it spiritual is it emotional that's what we need to figure out a person can have a weakness this this this inner battle with the treats don't tell anyone either embarrassed I'm going to gain weight I'm I'm going to look fat whatever they don't they hide the sweets they don't eat it in front of everybody in the pocket there's always something to to eat my husband shouldn't see me they give me a now the excuse is I don't want my husband to see me he'll tell me I'm too fat I don't want to eat like this they'll that's the excuses right it's not why you're really not telling it and that's are you killing anybody I'm eating a Twinkie you're not killing anybody where is this on the graph 10 no that's a three but it can be a seven if it's ruining your life we're going to go through the graph don't think the drugs is number 10 and gambling bank robbery no it can be a 10 when it's something is small as chocolate why because it's controlling your life and once it's controlling your life even if it's a a pastry that you are addicted to and by the way it can be a fortnite game it can be a Netflix series it can be we have a lot what to talk about because if you're going to tell a person your inner problem is that you're addicted to Netflix series what's the big deal I watch seven Netflix series a day well if it's already taking over your life that's it's a problem if you watch a chapter a week and you enjoy the series over time because once a week or once twice a week you need to to to clear your mind okay I'll give you that depending who you are but for now I'll give you that but the problem like any addiction and I'm not calling this class in any type of way addictions but it's all addictions just that in Judaism we don't use so much the word Addiction but nevertheless like any addiction usually the person who's addicted does not know or is aware of the addiction they think it's totally normal then next steps of of course being the the defensive what are you talking about so it has that H type of uh twist the inner battle that you don't want to say but I'm telling you now to conclude it's all excuses it's any excuse that you find for why you're not telling it I'm sorry to tell you you found an excuse and you're going to need to expose it and deal with it so we not going to talk about the we're not going to talk about my we're going to actually talk a lot about because they mix very well with this with this inner battle so we'll talk about t not much talking about the natural challenges that God throws into your life because he he decides whatever he wants and that will kind of answer your question from the beginning of the class TP what what if it's a battle that I struggled 10 20 years ago finish with it and Suddenly It's haunting me after 30 years and that can be explained in many different ways can be even the showing you slides from a memory book and suddenly he awakens H the problem but that's why I told you before it all depends on your chuva if you did perfect chuva on a certain Department it will never surface you fixed it completely now to to that question many of our H designated challenges will be throughout our life with breaks so you can catch your breath but if a person I know a person H I know many people with that problem but a specific person that that has financial problems we already came to the conclusion that nothing that it's going to he's going to do is going to solve it that that's the challenge the natur the natural challenge that God's want God wants him to deal with he has unbelievable from his kids I don't want to say I'm jealous but he has unbelievable n from his kids all pure amazing good St amazing kids unbelievable relationship with his wife I mean in general you would look you would say everything is good can't make a dollar he already knows that's my challenge I will be challenged with money for the rest of my life it's not my sins it's not a it's not something from a previous life I mean of course we can never be 100% sure but we understood that he's also a learned guy God-fearing person he understood that's part of my tun why I don't know so for him is financial issues another person can be marital issues doesn't matter what they're going to have seven wives never getting along or whatever it is issue with kids issue with health in order to ER summarize because there's a lot what to say a I threw out the the topic the the the concept the Smart Ones of you will internalize it and take it dearly to consideration the other ones will consider it will pass to the to the next uh lecture and uh we'll still H battle all their struggles all day long so since there's so much more to say I will just conclude at least for today that the trick in this H battle right now is to understand that it's all in your head it's all in the head I don't accept it's my body it's the people around me it's all in my head and in one way I feel grateful for God helping me in all my challenges but also feel obligated to God puts you through something is to share it not to keep it to yourself so I can gladly say that almost any challenge you can think of that a person can be challenged with I mastered and not that I'm some I'm trying to sound like a pot or something God decided to give me the worst challenges all together and when I'm talking about challenges I'm talking about all these inner struggles right now I'm not talking about and the inner strangles are as extreme of of extreme drug abuse extreme drug abuse that's not quitting cigarettes to quit cocaine it's not the same type of quitting and the addiction to cocaine or to many other of the drugs I abuse that's not a regular habit addiction or something you just let go so I struggled in many different departments in a very severe way I'm just throwing now the drugs cuz I I I uh marked it on my graph 10 but throughout my life many of my life course and a lot of it you don't even know you might think you're following me for 10 years and you probably don't even know what 2% about my life which lately I'm starting to share a little bit more and more information and don't worry soon we'll come the bomb and you'll hear everything but what I'm saying is that I've been around the game of dealing with my issues because when I started becoming observant and I'm going to give you a quick overview and then we we're done when I started becoming aware that I need to be observant I didn't even start was of course the second that I woke up in the hospital after my near death experience I understood Life Is Life now just changed it took me three months to to to land and another year to just get my act together but I understood right now part's over the party was supposed to be over with your switch going down somehow you got a chance but the party is still over that's it now give me all the excuses you want but my body is addicted up until today not myself or anyone understands how did you stop the next day it's not even the next day from that day my eyes opened up never have I touched any drugs how do you explain that physically I'm not talking about the year that I was half dead the just the rehabilitation of the body how physically do you stop that in one shot that's goes to show you besides that it's divine it's all your head so I don't take I don't accept excuses uh my body this the situation the environment now I'm giving you one challenge out of many I mean I had many many many many situations that God took me literally to the edge at the edge and miraculously sometime somehow in most events it was changed L for the good but in through this course and I will start sharing with you some of the challenges I'm saying that not to sh I'm saying that to tell tell you trust me I know what it is to deal with situations and I'm not telling you that now free and clean I just I'm a very oiled machine is how to recognize where it's coming from and how to deal with the problem so I I allow myself with the experience of my own life and the experience of learning to share the two cents that I have on the matter you want to accept good you don't accept you don't have to but I'm telling you now that this U an hour and a half class I'm not talking about the the entire series that's based on at least 15 books that I have read many times happens to be that some of them we're learning from the text which it's important but it's not the same level of learning when I can guarantee to you that in the last 10 classes of shulim I lost most of the students is that correct you don't have to be embarrassed it's hard so to go through the books a few times and then to Dish it up as a as a as a as a pudding as a soup whatever you want call it a Chun whatever you want to call it that's what we're going to do so I can tell you already that the main core of success here is God that's the element of success there's no other element here that will give you the success I'll give you one quick example out of many you heard that story many times but how I quit smoking I was a very heavy smoker to smoke two three packs a day red malro red like a chimney month or two after my near Earth experience I moved to Chicago and I'm not even an observant I know that I have to I I don't practice anything besides putting thin on and saying the morning prayers and a few minor things that's it so the very long story goes as I'll tell you the story story in a short version I moved into a new apartment what does a Jew do you go and buy M I go to Chicago I lived in Chicago I go to the city where you can fine and I walk into the store and I tell them I need 13 M and I need the most expensive the most nicest ones okay why the most expensive if I'm already doing a mitvah and I have a lot of money the best is going on my wall I'm not buying some cheap imitation you're giving me the most expensive the most refined the best you have okay out of respect for the store going into a Jewish judica store I put a yam on my head out of respect okay I go out of the store I buy my I drive down towards uh my new home I call the management office and I tell them I don't want to move on Friday is that okay if I move on Sunday of course something in my mind told me don't move into your new home on Shabbat wait till Sunday okay I had to stop somewhere on the way to buy money orders to pay for the first month rent and the security and I stopped in some neighborhood in Chicago that I guarantee to you I was the first Jew that ever probably the first white person Andrew that was in that neighborhood but I I don't care I don't see colors I don't I'm definitely not afraid of a NE to going into a neighborhood that was on the way I walk in I'm standing in line in a Western Union Friday afternoon where everybody gets their paycheck and they come to C check I'm standing in line with 300 people standing standing standing standing and this guy in the back is screaming his head off talking loud and they turn around like like with an attitud what's your problem why are you talking like that the guy looks at me from the other side of the room shalom shalom and the guy comes to me he hugs me he's like I don't know like 6'8 picks me up he hugs me I'm Jewish I did a Mitzvah and he starts screaming and I'm like man you're G to you got to keep it down here we're both going to get ourselves killed and in my mind I'm like how does he know I'm Jewish I mean I know the nose is pretty big but I can easily be mistaken for anything else I forgot the yak on my head so we engage in a conversation and he said and he tells me and he tells me H do you smoke I said yeah you want a cigarette he's like no no no you want to quit smoking and I'm not going to make the story long with explaining every little details but the answer was yes I I I want to I want to quit smoking happens to be that a few a few months before this encounter I thought I'm getting a heart attack I I in while I'm driving I pulled over so yeah I want to I want to quit smoking he says come to this hotel oh he he tells me I tell him what is it about he tells me have you heard of quitting H smoking through hypnotism and I said I I did so he says come tonight to this and this hotel and you'll quit smoking now bear in mind I I I may be wearing a yamaka I don't know nothing about Judaism and I don't practice anything but I had a feeling that it shouldn't I shouldn't do a financial or money transaction on Shabbat so I said does it cost money he says yeah give me $40 I give him then $40 that night I decided to walk to that hotel not to drive I walk in nice room 30 40 people we're getting like a 3-hour lecture about about everything that happens to the body while you smoke with slides with everything they gross us out and then comes up on the stage the the hypnotist and he starts with his session and then he wakes us up he says don't look at your clock don't look at your watch how long do you think you were out everybody in the crowd said 5 six minutes me myself too we were out for an hour and 15 minutes I go out of that room and since then 20 2 years I never touched a cigarette I walked out of this room went to the hotel where I stayed cuz I didn't have a house I'm sitting in the smoking Zone I mean 20 plus years ago in America there were smoking in restaurants but the cette is in my hand I don't want to smoke it I would wake up in the morning and right away pushing my mouth three cigarettes nothing you know I didn't tell it to anyone cuz I said nobody will believe and I I quit smoking just like that now what what caused me to quit smoking my will my strong desire to quit my inner struggles in my brain don't touch the cigarette what caused me to stop so I know you're all going to say the hypnotism which you are right hypnotism is not some invented concept look look in all the books of cabala and you'll find the concept of of the subconscious and the concept of hypnotism and that's what it is yeah the hypnotism is what caused the switch but I told you before that there's one element that you cannot do without God you know why the hypnotism worked because I went into this with with the energy of being surrounded with a mitvah I'm going to BU the most fanciest M I don't want to move into my house on Shabbat I don't want to walk to the hotel I don't want to pay you now on Shabbat the the awareness and you have to understand I'm 27 years old Jew that I'm a in jewishness I'm a baby I don't know nothing not conservative or or reform I'm not nothing you can say on some reformed Jew they they go to school they know something my knowledge is zero in the Torah but the little that I know mza not to pay on Shabbat that what was occupying my actions that invite invited the intervention of God that's it the the I'll tell you the cabalistic term the my Awakening shaken the heavens I brought on myself the The Awakening from above that Hashem says I will intervene in the process you getting it as a present but it's my intervention without me putting my hand there me God not me it wouldn't work saying in other words when you're going into this process you have to understand two things here a it's everything in your head all the excuses you you make is your head making these excuses it doesn't matter right now if the made the excuse or or whoever did the excuse you making the excuses the excuses are also your way of not dealing with the situation I don't want to deal with the situation this denial so I make excuses it's not that bad nobody needs to know if nobody knows it doesn't hurt anyone and you know what I'm not really hurting anybody and you know it's it's really good for me I feel more focus and I feel more happy and does that sound familiar because that's the excuses you're giving to yourself I'm giving to myself the same excuses why do you think that I'm coming from a different planet I went through everything that you went through on steroids and I know you're going to come and tell me oh you didn't go through this you didn't go through that I'm not asking for your your problems I'm I'm bar barely dealing with mine you think I need yours I know you're dealing with problems that are not in my level but when it comes to major events trust me I've been to difficult situations in my life I exposed severe drug abuse I've been in jail for a year and a half then most of the time was in is isolation not talking about five times I attempted murder I was almost murdered now that's not necessarily an inner struggle but it causes many inner struggles at the time and don't forget much later don't forget that many of these inner struggles you're not saying it cuz you admit I'm ashamed you might be the one who says I admit I don't share it cuz I'm ashamed but you have to understand that that's you you're three steps ahead but you're still missing the elements that where is it coming from and in many times it's coming from emotional issues abuse whatever it is emotional issues in this world emotional issues you came from a previous life so it can come from emotional part it can come from a spiritual part it can come from many different places we're not talking about this right now now uh throwing the net into the ocean later on we'll start pulling it back and and see what fish we're we we catched we caught but now you have to understand that you introduced to a new a new type of battle I think we made a little bit of an order that the that's the challenges that God wants you to go through that's challenges that's your desires a lot of the things you go through it's your own actions if you don't know how to kind of organize what I just told you then start learning how to do it and we'll we'll go through this in this series because I know to recognize when is when it's the clearly and I know and I and I recognize my T and I gave you the the the the the the easiest way to to pinpoint on your this is there no value for this advice if your desire can be used for something positive it's only a end the story don't blame it on the don't blame it on you being abused 40 years ago and now it's coming out it's strictly your to havea your your lust deal with it how do you deal with it direct it to its right direction the negative part will be sh reduced right away that's it but you have to recognize it's a I'm human and you know what's a big difference because when you understand that you're sinning because of a you understand okay it's a if you understand that you're sinning because of a certain weakness then you put yourself in a very low level what I can't deal with it psychologically you can deal okay it's my I have to deal with it another issue you can put yourself down and reach to places of Despair by saying what I can't deal with this little thing that was the Mantra in my mind this I can't deal with I dealt with this I dealt with that this I can't deal with I got rid of heroin I got rid of cigarettes I got rid of everything this I can't get rid of so psychologic and that's by the way the playing with my with my mind but you're able to quit this this you can't startop this you can't control that's the pushing pressure on on your brain that you're like he's right how can I not control it it's a piece of chocolate or it's a it's a game or it's a a show this cannot be controlled now again most people who are addicted to Netflix Facebook Tik Tok and all these things it's not even right now in a definition of an addiction you tell them you're addicted what am I talking about I'm just getting educated but clearly it's an addiction how many minutes a day do you hold your phone if it's more than 30 minutes a day you're addicted to your phone deal with it go to to to to to PA phone's Anonymous I also have a SmartPhone I actually have five smartphones I run a business I run an organization I have a lot of smartphones and you'll find me on the phone probably about half an hour a day so why are you 4 hours a day what are you running the world are you a president what do you need to be on the phone so long you're running a business I understand you need to answer WhatsApp and emails and stuff like that which you can do on the computer and I'm not saying if you're 5 hours on your phone and you work from the phone you're not in this conversation you work from your phone I'm talking about when you are on Tik Tok for 5 hours hours or Facebook or Instagram or YouTube or all of them together and then you top it off let me finish seeing three chapters of my favorite 12 season series and okay 7 in the evening let's start the day you're a parent did you feed your kids did you're taking care of your kids you're doing homework with them go watch your series at 11 o' at night and you're telling me you're not addicted to your phone every every location you are in the city when you're a tour guide I need to know every place where you go I mean that's an addiction now the human mind will tell you it's it's nonsense it's that's not an addiction if you sleep with your phone you're addicted to it if you wake up with your phone you're addicted to it I have an alarm clock do you have an alarm clock I do most people wake up with their phone right now when you wake up with your phone if it's just an alarm clock thank you but you squeeze in a quick look into your WhatsApp or quick look into your feed on Facebook or who liked your post you didn't even say m so you're addicted to your phone admit it and that's one of the the basic keys to everything that we're going to learn right now is you have to admit your weakness to yourself and if you do not admit your weakness to yourself walk out of the room close the video go watch something go watch your Netflix series I'm not entertaining enough so we're going to go into a very interesting journey I guarantee to you it will be successful I guarantee to you it will be valuable and uh I have a lot more to say but I think I'm going to H cut it short here again I will ask the at least the ones online to share uh like all that stuff subscribe all these good things share it because people need to be educated to know so the most important thing right now is to internalize what we have discussed uh and to make a decision am I barded or am I going to stay where I was and deal with my situation I don't need another chapter to be opened in my life I can tell you it's a very supicious time now in the month of Adar to take on yourself very deep levels of Chua we had this experience of pu Katan now you take advantage of the next month and a half of puim of Adar that has a very a significant power to assist with doing the right Chua and that's why right after ad comes Nissan that if you did it the right way you're going into a month of Freedom Redemption freedom from your problems fre freedom from your addictions and freedom from your from the things that bother you so now is the perfect time to do it you have a month and a half of AD where chuva is easier to make organization in your head how am I doing that I guarantee to you it sounds like you are now going to load yourself with more I guarantee to you apply this you're going to unload a lot of issues you'll have much more time and free space in your brain to deal with with the rest of the stuff when you kind of you know in Hebrew we call it to turn off fires half of the chaos in your life is it just requires one little action and it doesn't bother you anymore it doesn't throw how do you say throb throb throb in your head that's the problem with this in with this inner battle I'm talking you it's like a pulse in your brain driving you crazy all day long you need you're waiting for the next time it doesn't matter what it is right now you need the next fix you can be relaxed and the hiding you can't take it anymore you have to tell it to someone yesterday I'm going to tell you something funny and we're done I told you before I'm Fort Knox you tell me something it goes through the ear never comes out I'm a bunker sometimes it's not fun cuz you have good news you're excited you want to share it with somebody who am I going to share it nobody knows so yesterday something happened kind of good news only one person in this world knows so I called her in the middle of the night I have to tell someone I have to share the good news with someone you're the only World person in the world that knows so when exciting things happen in your life you run to share it just think why this one you're not running to share that that should leave you a big matab ball hanging there why am I not sharing it take all this information this is priceless information it's not only Priceless information for our holy books it's Priceless inform pricel information from my last 25 years of experience and the the the wise person is the experienced person you can be the best engineer in the world if you never nailed something in the wall you're nothing same thing with Doctor same thing with anything in [Music] theory it's not the same you walk through this process for 20 30 years you have enough experience to share with the world especially when you were successful if you fail we have what are you going to share with the world you failure if you were able to overcome one step and another step and build all these systems to able to to deal with it then now it's time to be brought to the world so B we're going to be educated in great knowledge of refining ourselves this is applying to anyone young old Jew non-jew it doesn't matter it's a human being right now and it doesn't matter if you're 20 and you're saying I I didn't live my life or if you ha it one has nothing to do with the other it's every human that needs to deal with it and I'm telling you guarantee I don't need to be tested or questioned every person in this world is dealing with struggles some are in My Graph number 10 and some are number one and you if not the two to number 10 you're at least the number one with at least with one thing no such thing that one person has no struggle I will exclude now that you don't tell it to anyone that's the sign to pinpoint on the struggle itself but the fact that you don't have a struggle don't bring me any person in the world unless you're bringing mea that will tell me everything is great Oru then it's not the people I want to talk to I'm talking to you we all have struggles we all have issues we all have problems but I can tell you one thing that you might not be aware of we all have Solutions the solutions to [Music] everything