R' Yossi Zakutinsky on "Inspiration For The 3 Weeks – Turning Darkness Into Light"

so first of all just again I want to thank cuz I for putting this together it's really beautiful thing to get us to come together to learn during the summer specially there's a lot of distractions around the drive is very nice so it is during the three is it is the three weeks it is the three weeks sure it is during the three weeks and the focus of the Jewish people during the three weeks as it should be is on the fact that we don't have it based on make gosh it's on the destruction of the temple destruction of artsy strong so just to begin to talk about the focus a little bit of what we should be thinking about during this time i want to quote to you what it says in this ayah our cottage as i write in the beginning of desired of dollar right in beginning of his are the Tsar tells us the story of the death of virgin barclay the Tsar tells us that after the shimmer clay passed away one of his greatest students are Clea fasted for 80 days consecutively in order to be able to merit to see rubbish in very high in heaven cesare tells us that after 80 days of fasting Ripley was given permission to see a little bit into the world of russian break-away after his death and as our tells us that during that whole experience of her Clea in heaven visiting rebbi shimon bizarre tells us that he heard a great powerful voice emanating from heaven that said the following thing the heavenly voice said I'll join him tamir into Tumen definitely voice screamed at and said all that sadiq him who are hidden and mysterious a 900 Shelton's for coal oil I'm and all the angels above whose eyes are gazing upon the world so this heavenly voice is calling to over to decommit to all the milwaukee and saying the following message abie to root octane and myeshia min s two min Bach archive the met the voice said over tadika meant to all the mala all the angels above looked down on earth at all the people that are sleeping and are hiding in their little caves as his heir says his soil room that you have to wake these people up and what should you tell them you should tell them Mimi k.michelle Hoffa clay shock larvae Tom myeloma psych that who amongst you the heavenly voice came out and said who amongst the Jewish people on earth have been met have merited to turn darkness into light and bitter into that which is sweet actually bulacan while you're still on earth Missouri continues monde de Lima happy Namir Allah miska a very strong statement whoever does not in their lifetime turn bitter into sweet Leslie Hulka by Alma has no portion in the next world esah-zhurah says very strong statement so this idea of turning bitter into that which is sweet turning darkness into light the truth is we found this in the zyre the measures does the same exact thing the medicine para que si esta says that Hashem taught moshav a new had a dog and I Shem is lesson to Moshe of a know about darvany was the following thing Shalom gershberg ho Achilles balafon of the major says that a sham told Moshe this is how you supposed to daven and mark say the following thing in all of your prayers I say SMR my silk that a person should Avant Hashem instead of taking away that which is better turn that which is better into that which is sweet that's what the measure says the while Tanya said in one of his farm he writes the following think he's that Cola Adam that in truth that is this is the essential purpose of human beings life on Earth and like never elvish holds that the only reason why we're created is to accomplish this to turn out which is bitter into that which is sweet to turn darkness into light as a desire set so this idea is obviously fazer says it if I sham said at the motion of annual means a lot of things and very very deep levels but the truth is in a very very simple level we all do this all the time you know I'll tell you very very quickly there's a story the Baal Shem Tov the custom the Baal Shem Tov was to engage regular people in conversation he would ask people all the time you would ask them about you know how's the business how's family and all these things that's what he would do so his students once asked and why are you wasting your time talking to people about even frivolous things whatever you should focus on unlawful your things so while should have told them let me explain to you why I do this with the following story biographical story about Santa said that I was orphaned as a child from both my parents when I was five years old I was five years old both my parents passed away and there was no to take care of me it was a whole long story about what happened eventually he found his way a into a secret society to deacon and this secret society said he came raised the Baal Shem Tov they raised them physically and spiritually when he was 16 years old about shonta said about himself after being raised amongst these edecan he was on a level where he knew all of Torah in all the writings of their ezel and it happened to be amiss in on his 16th birthday of all shonta said he spent his birthday in meditation out in the fields and he said what he was meditating on he was saying certain chapters of the hilan with certain you know in meditations of divine names and unifications of the writings the result very very wealthy things he's all by himself secluded from all humanity in the forest while shonta said that on that day when I was having those deep meditations elio Nov appeared to me and in the washroom that said that was a strange thing because that he said i sorely unhappy before but never by myself it was always with other 2d commence on by myself this is the first time that all of you appeared to me alone and he said that uh no V when he appeared he had this huge smile on his face so the wall shonta said you know show Malaysian what's what are you smiling at that so you know he said the following thing he said you know in heaven while you're here by yourself making all these great unifications and thinking about god's name it causes a great stir in heaven sounds very happy but you know there's something else happening at this moment that I shouldn't even more happy about he said in the town that you live in there's a merchant very very simple joy I think his name was Aaron shleimah think that was his name and his wife's name was lotta rifka very very simple people they didn't know anything and this couple whenever people ask them you know how's your day going their response was as Jewish people say borrow clash I'm fresh I'm thank God everything's okay even when it wasn't such a good day it was such a good thing the business was not so good he would say listen bahasham thank God I was taking care of me bahasham yum yum that's what he would say so boss Shem Tov said the name of Elyon avi that all you'll be told him on a 16th birthday that as happy as a sham is with my meditations and divine in unifications and so on a sham is much more excited when a simple jus just says bahasham on a day that wasn't so good when it is not so good and a day that's bitter and a day thats dark and a Jew says in response to that event bahasham you know I shams taking care of it I understand why I know somehow it'll be good at that moment that Jew is turning that which is dark and that which is light he's turning speed bitter into sweet and said Elly on Nov to the bottom the fashion takes much more delight in that then the great unifications that you're doing by yourself and the Baal Shem to say that from that day on I decided within myself that my path in life is not going to be seclusion it's not going to be by isolating myself from the rest of the world it's going to do the opposite it's going to be getting involved in regular people's lives and getting them to say bahasham and getting them to respond that you know what life is pretty good and there are difficulties in life but you know it's okay generally Hashem takes care of me and that's turning darkness int this week darkness into light so in other words to this inion of turn darkness until I this something we do all the time you say brakesh I'm on the day that's not so good that's turning darkness into light that's earning better at the sweep so just like this is the tackle is if this is the purpose of creation for us to look into darkness and to look into difficulties and to somehow find the kernel of goodness the kernel of light that's contained in that darkness in that misery if that's the purpose of creation that all the more so that has to be the focus on the most dark and difficult time of the year of the three weeks so I want to talk about how do we find light and how do we find sweetness into in the worst sin that we that we still are suffering from which is seen as cleanup senseless hate know the goomar tells us that we had to we had to temples you had to but they make touch like mark tells us and get an Ummah that the first temple was destroyed because of the big three of eros idolatry murder and and you know relationships that are their unholy night about the circular I she was done like mary says that's why the first temple was destroyed so fine those are big of eros was a big sense the Martell's is why was the second temple destroyed so we know the chimeric tells us it was recorded seen as cleaner the kumara says and the guar tells us in yuma that base hi mick dodge her SHANY show you a scimitar with mrs. admits kassadin during the times of the Second Temple Jews were learning Jews were diving choose warming mitzvahs Jews were religious and that neymar curves why was it destroyed so says the new mario game because the scene as Keenum senseless hate a lambda-class esmer we see from here sheesh gulasy nasty knock you naked sha sha versa worse at Cena's cleaner and senseless ate my cloak is fighting infighting between 1 jun another between one Jewish community and another is as bad as Gemma sighs as the big three of heirs I sigmar says so new we know this from the time that were children and the truth is as we all know from hazael every generation that based on make that the temple is in rebuilt as if it was destroyed in that generation in other words the sin that caused the destruction of the temple which was macht locust in fighting hatred between 1 jun another that's a sinner we still suffer from to this day and that's what's holding back the third base of makers from being rebuilt so we have to find so I started from is this idea we have to turn that which is better to that which is sweet we have to understand where is the source of cns cleaner where is it coming from where's it coming from on a deep on a deep level you know the storm tell us at any sickness any spiritual element that the Jewish person individually or the Jewish people collectively are experiencing it's not it's clearly something that's not natural because Jewish people naturally are wholly natural are connected a sham and naturally are drawn towards keeping Torah mitsis and if the Jewish people are plagued by some spiritual problem then that's an unnatural thing and one has to figure out where it's coming from so let's think about a little bit just even on a surf on a superficial level let's think about how strange Cena cinemas but how this dent and how foreign McLucas infighting is to the Jewish people you know I'm not going to tell you something and this shouldn't be it's unfortunately not shocking but seeing a screen of senseless aid is mostly found amongst religious Jews right if you have Jews that are not religious they generally get along with each other they generally get along with each other it's religious shoes it's a crazy thing its religious Jews who are connected services there's like you know we're a very very small population in number but we have like a million subdivisions and subgroups you know I mean so like some some some groups of some divisions are supposed to be like that Ashkenazim strident fine but all the million and trillion different groups of you know I've myshel natural all the different divisions it's something that's not normal more than that we're on earth is there the most mock locust is are the most fighting amongst juice know the answer it's israel right that's it so that's where it is you know again so you can give all the explanations all the superficial explanations is the politics and the pressure from the outside world and and it's too hot over there I don't know you've all sorts of explanations but at the end of the day it doesn't make sense at the only doesn't make sense that in fighting should exist so much so in specifically religious Jews and specifically energy strong on a deeper level when we look into Cena screen them into fighting into senseless hate and by the way senseless say it doesn't necessarily mean that you hate a person just because you don't like his nose you could have you could have a sophisticated reason not to like another Jill but any reason you can come up with its senseless I listen to it tomorrow right tomorrow right and that's a few throw the following thing in describing the nature the true nature of the Jewish people morale says cash Emmys Berkshire offered by llama we know I shall miss one writes mayest relational can I shall not caught this one guy de gemas one a clue yellow bölüm uma Shia Islam so since morale it's not possible that a sham shouldn't have a nation on earth that resembles him a Shem amongst the nations of the world there has to be one nation on earth that's God like that's godlike senza morale the issue lacy ops 2 sale that has some parallel that has some relationship with our xiang shi gan qian mei shi de baile mazda that just like a Shem is one hashem is one so to there has to be a nation on earth which naturally instinctively are also one nation one people that are very very much connected with one another says meralco make sure he's broken just like a Shem is one the hey nistro and that's the jewish people you know there's a jewish people naturally and our healthy natural state are the opposite of senseless hate the jewish people naturally are inclined to love one another that's the state that's the natural healthy state of the Jewish people sesmar all commission emma has the puss success me come to you sarah louise like the jewish people go yet led by RS a nation that's one on earth just like there's one God in heaven there's one nation on earth as a Jewish people so now although more so Cena's cleaner stencils it becomes very very strange not only is it strange in on a very simple level that why would we hate each other if the whole world is out to get us we might as well band together to support each other now we'll use a strange in sociological terms but it's strange in the essence of the Jewish people's neshama the essence of the Jewish soul is United one Jew with the other and the after that nature of all nations has the most divisions right tomorrow which ale ourselves this question of how could there be seen Athena how could there be hatred and anger and animosity and small mindedness from one due to the other this question he Shayla could do minimus are you sure this is a question that whether the non-jewish world verbally asks it or not they're thinking about it this is a question says some role that is that the net that the nations of the world addressed the Jewish people luba MS and in truth says marled over this question who can I gummer blow minds this is a very terrible disgrace of the Jewish people in the eyes of the nations of the world the nations of the world intuitively deep in theirs in the rest and the reservoirs of their soul recognized that the Jewish people should be one should be one if we're God's people and therefore their plate as we are with this question if we are one people then how is it possible there's so much hatred and so much anger and so much small-mindedness from one Jew to the other phone community to the other Shane me the Zeiss names of a name says morale the level of senseless hatred that the Jewish people have within them within their ranks is not found amongst the nations of the world that smell says very strong terms there's more anger and there's more hatred and more animosity and subdivisions amongst the Jewish people than we find in the nations of the world so it's a great it's a great power it's a great power and it will the more we dig beneath the surface of cns Clennam the more the question is begged how weird is this unnatural unhealthy sickness come from because again it's completely unnatural to the Jewish person if Jewish people go around and thinking of themselves listen okay you know we just where people don't like each other that's a big mistake because that what we have to understand is that this problem of seeing as clean them it's very much skin deep it's very much candy that's not who we are so the question is we have to now figure out where does it come from where does it come from so let's dig a little deeper let's get into the psychology of the person who is plagued by Cena Cena again every single one of us everyone even if you have a guy a person a man or woman who's naturally a friendly loving person and he gets along with everyone it's normal and natural for a person to have a bad day so we're not talking about someone who just has a bad day or there's just one individual person somehow rubs in the wrong way or whatever that can be explained away what we're going to try to figure out is though if the Jewish people from the time of the Second Temple it's a collectively nationally are suffering from this sickness called senseless eight it means it's not a random thing we're not talking about random not generally nice people who happen not to get along every once in a while with some we're talking about that there's an undercurrent there's a there's an under look there's a demon lying in every Jewish person's heart on a collective level that creates this anger this animosity so let's think about let's get into this into the mind of someone who's really truly plagued by Cena screaming this person who hates another Jew who finds Fault in another Jew this is a person who is angry its anger its cos that's where truly the meters seen as clean of at hatred customs from anger he's angry at other people he's small minded he's a person who judges others in a very narrow way and he's full of just it is a miserable judgmental angry person that's what Cena's clean was comes from and in such a person who has within his heart such anger and such unpleasantness so it's going to come out that he's gonna find reasons and find excuses to hate this guy and to hate that woman and so on and he's going to blame this community for someone it they all that anger and all that's all that that sourness is going to gonna come out in cns lena now we know as well that a major sin that someone who hates another Jew is going to fall into unfortunately is large in horror well Jinora speaking negative about other Jews that's what Cena's game is about so to understand the light that's contained in seen at screen which what we're going to try to find and to try to turn that which is bitter seen as clean up into that which is sweet so we have to look in himesh where it describes the person who says loshon Hara because again loshon hora evil speech saying negative things about another Jew that's a symptom that's a symptom that's that's that's the person seen as clean that's the person's anger coming out in a way of Lashon Hara when the plastic tells us in purchased has Rhea when it opens up when it begins to tell us about the person who speaks Russian are it says the following term it describes this person is exhalation are with the term Adam key of our bizarre it describes the Speaker of loshon hora in other words it describes a person who's who's plagued with senseless hate as with the term other now what's strange about that term audemars man what's strange about that term is that the zur tells us over there but of all the terminology that can be used to describe a human being we have many words and he were to describe human being this autumn there's a shisha this gather you know some of these other terminology to describe a human being man or woman says Azara cottage to term autumn is the greatest description of human being autumn is the is the term that you use to describe its Arctic at sudeikis autumn is the term that used to describe someone that's holy so the question is then therefore how could the term be autumn be used to describe someone who who speaks Russian or but other Jews how could you use that term to describe someone who hates other Jews so listen to what the injured sir says what we're going to be focusing on tonight is a teaching from the insurance or the mushy law it's an unbelievable thing unbelievable insights the following thing Oh Marcia memorable parishes in the tire shame autumn the reason why Whitter uses the term autumn to describe someone who speaks ill about other Jews who hates other Jews is he says like this Keats arroz Morales ermakoss because this person is plagued by anger he's an angry judgmental person says issued services Hamida nem says be Oh sir this quality is more predominantly found who's the most angry people says these roots are the people that are the most angry is banaunga dolim it's with people with very very big souls with great potential says it says the injured sir that may shana mcgill mmm nice to meet a fellow maza people with big nough Shamas people with big soles people with big potential don't find happiness in the trivialities in the smallness of this world every delight everything that they that they that they find themselves involved in it never brings them satisfaction because deep down within them they have in a genre they have a soul which is yearning for something greater so whenever they involved in things of this world not only does it not bring them satisfaction it makes them angry it makes them frustrated says issued sir but tight i move inland boiling lava and what is going to satisfy them the only thing that's going to truly satisfy a Jew with a great soul are great spiritual things but the problem is great spiritual things are experienced only after person passes away so he says the goodness of the next world who be Hester's Batman by Omaha is hidden from them in this world so this person so it's a crazy thing this person has an unbelievably big deep miss deep soul that's yearning for great things so he finds his life full of emptiness he doesn't find satisfaction in anything he'll put himself in work he'll put himself in his family nothing makes him satisfied because truly what's going to satisfy him is something that's beyond his understanding right now it's beyond his touch so the more he throws himself into things of this world which he wants to be satisfied from he becomes more and more frustrated even an example all right let's say very well go from a few examples the simplest example let's save a kid in school very very young child right so if there's any teachers they'll know they'll known parents as well that sometimes the most difficult kids in school in the class are the brightest most gifted ones right and the kids that are that are most gifted and most bright and the teacher says you know the lesson in 10 minutes and the kid gets it but the rest of the class needs a full day to understand it and now this kid because he has so much potential right because he has so much insight and so much you know whether it be intellectual or emotional capabilities he's now whether he's able to express it or not because might be not might not be able to express this because he's a small child but there's a frustration that this child feels sitting in class when he's being given things that are supposed to be satisfying but or not so what happens to this child so he starts making trouble that's what the kid does so okay it's a little kids little trouble so he talks about raising his hand or he throws erasers at his friends would have small little things now this same experience happens two older children let's say you have a person who's artistic have a person who has within himself a painter but for whatever reason in life and his being and he's being raised by his parents or school whatever the case may be he's never allowed to to you know to bring out that artistic quality so we know that that person might very well become a very destructive person we're instead of using his talents for good to create beautiful paintings to inspire people and so on he's now going to become an angry frustrated and miserable human being that's what happens that's what happens the greatest we're showing the greatest wicked people in our history have been the most gifted that's the way it is simple people don't create you know big revolutions you know revolutions are created by very very deep people that have a lot within them and just when they're when those energies are not being tapped into a part properly and healthfully then what that turns into is an angry frustrated bitter person and that bitter angry frustrated person begins to look at everything in life in a bitter angry frustrated way so this person who is angry so what the engine starts telling us is a very very deep thing we have to turn that which is better that which is sweet we look at this guy who is angry bitter miserable judgmental just the misery to be around so the first the initial reaction when you remit when you meet such a person is that guy is just a miserable human being but in truth it's a donkey a barber sorrow this person who's angry he's in autumn he's an other which means he has the potential within him to be an unbelievable big sadak whether it be intellectual capabilities whether it be emotional capabilities whatever the case maybe there is something within him it's not being tapped into and that untapped energy is being is frustrating image and making him angry and that anger is then is then affecting his vision and everything else in life I mean take another example you know the Edgewood sir had a son de bais yaakov react of Aviv it's so the basic of on that partial partial sorry explains his father's teaching in the following way he said very often we find in life unfortunately there are people whether they be you know teenagers or even older that are angry at God they're angry at God and they go around telling people that they don't believe in God they don't believe in God they were bill against session so since the big shock of when you meet a person when you meet a person who claims to hate God to be angry at a sham so your initial reaction is to such a person while this person doesn't have a Munna this person doesn't believe this person is a non-believer because if you really believe they wouldn't be angry he'd be like me right but when you meet this person and he claims to be angry and miserable and and he hates religion and he hates Judaism so your initial reaction is this person must not believe in God says the vc acha that's a big mistake not only does he believe in God he believes in God a lot how is that so says the bay sack of the following thing meet submission near elijah island will be make if a person truly did not believe in God if you for a moment let's imagine what it would be like not to believe in God which means that everything that happens in your individual life and the history of the world is complete coincidence it's complete coincidence it has no meaning that has no deep significant meaning if a person truly believed like that and so says the bais yaakov maliek Weiss then what reason is there to be angry um I'll me he applies who are you supposed to be angry at how kolbee mccrea everything is coincidence so you could you could you could be upset that your car broke down but you're not gonna be angry you know you're not gonna use that as as energy to rebel against judaism lab you know it's the whole thing is ridiculous you don't believe in God you don't believe in Judaism it's one big baloney people are just just you know convincing themselves that there is a God the whole thing is belonging so you're not gonna get angry whatever you just go in your life you go on your life who gets angry at julia's done who gets angry at a chef says they see a curve meets an issue boobafina saw them however if a person truly is a mom if a person truly does believe in a shell but what Umaga Shane haga son of a Micra and he recognizes that which happens in his life and I which happens in the Jewish people's life is not a coincidence it's happening because for it has happening from my scheme' it's happen for a reason and he was told to believe that everything I Shem does is for the good and then he looks around in his life and he sees everything's falling apart and he looks around at his people's lives and everything around him is falling apart that's a person who gets angry that's a person who starts who had who has a demon inside adana convinces and tara belle against Judaism because truly he does believe and it is it's his belief that's not keep not letting him be happy that's what is it says believe that's not letting him come to terms which that which he sees with his eyes that's telling you not to believe everything in his life is telling him that there is no god but truly he does believe in God and that that conflict between that which he truly believes in his heart and that which his eyes are telling him it creates an inner turmoil and in her anger and it's a frustration the anger his rebellious against Hashem is rebellious against Judaism is not that he doesn't believe or that he wants to rebel it's coming from a frustration it's coming from a feeling of helplessness we know the site psychologically as well when a person feels helpless very often the response of helplessness is to try to try to sort of build up one's own self esteem by by hating other people by hating other other things to build up his own sense of self but it's coming from a feeling of helplessness out of bandon meant but if a person truly didn't believe in god there's only be bad no one abandoned you there's no one there but if there is someone there if a sham is running your life but he's not running it the way that it seems fit to you now you feel abandoned and you feel frustrating you feel angry and bitter that's where it's coming from you know there's a story for the cut skirt so famous my so that husted i lost once game to the cuts grab and said that revvy III can't sleep at night i'm very very destroyed I don't think I believe in God I'm having questions of faith Maya moon of my faith is shaken I I'm not sure if I believe in God I still akatsuki said of course you believe in God so cause they don't tell ya I don't think I do I don't think I do so does it if you truly didn't believe in God you'll be able to sleep very well be able to see very very well the fact that you're not sleeping at night because you worried about not believing God means you do believe in God it's just for some reason the God that you believe in you're not able to see him in your life you're not able to experience him in your life so it's making you frustrated and it's making you angry it's making you feel helpless and that's what's keeping up at night but you do believe if you truly didn't believe you'd sleep like a baby this is what it means so let now let's think about in a deeper level let's go a little bit deeper into what was taking place during the times of the second base on because we started off by explaining that during the second base I make does the spiritual sickness that the Jewish people were suffering from and we still suffer to this day it's senseless hate its synonym its mark locus it's in-fighting its its anger where does this anger come from so we just learn from the agent sir that in truth anger is a quality that's for into a Jewish person it's not natural for a Jew to be angry and bitter and small Mike that's not a natural thing where does it come from it comes from the fact that you're in autumn it comes from the fact that what you really truly feel and need is very very big lofty spiritual spiritual experiences and when you're not getting that you're like that little kid in school who's not being challenged right who's not being given things to bring out his true potential and he gets angry and frustrated what's the difference between what happened in the Second Temple to make the Jewish people so angry so we know this what's the difference between the first temple and second temple the difference was as follows the essential difference the first temple was a time period of prophecy under privacy privacy means profit we have a misunderstanding what prophecy means a lot of us think that probably means that every once in a while the Navi well while he was sleeping we'd have a dream and God would tell me what's gonna happen tomorrow that's not what prophecy was prophecy was and a an unbelievable emotional experience of the Divine Presence prophecy was that the Jewish people not just individual prophets prophesy was an experience that the Jewish people collectively felt and it became most pronounced in individual Jews but the spirit of prophecy would permeated Jewish life during the times of the first temple where every June naturally felt very very connected emotionally and spiritually to his creative and the Jewish person would go around his life in the most mundane things in life and feel an awareness and feel an attachment to the Creator that's the spirit that's what it was when the first temple was destroyed the lights went off that's what happens when the first number was destroyed prophecy was taken away the true divine inspiration the deepest levels of attachment of experiencing the divine the divine was shut from the Jewish people and during the Second Temple the Jewish II were thrown into what into the darkness of this world so now you have two options when the Jewish people in the light of spirituality when that artistic side of the Jewish people when the imaginative side of the Jewish people when the emotional side of the Jewish people was shut off right when they when they were not allowed to express them their true selves spiritually through prophecy because property was taken away at the destruction of the first temple so one of two things can happen either the Jewish people turn around and say okay listen it was nice while it lasted but let's just move on or that's not what happened what happened was the Jewish people realized that in truth that that aspect that spiritual awareness that emotion that imagination that experience of prophecy we need that we need that that's part of who we are that part of our genetic our spiritual genetics inside of us and when that artistic side of Judaism when that experiential as with the Judaism was shut off then we became like those children in school that weren't being challenged anymore we became like that person who's artistic who's not allowed to express his artistic side and what happened we became angry we became bitter we became frustrated but not not because we're angry bitter people that some in essence that's not who we are in truth we are artists we are unbelievable we are people that have they have the capacity naturally to become prophets and what happens to a prophet what happens to a prophet who isn't allowed to experience prophecy such a person becomes a miserable human being such a person becomes bitter and angry and sees everything in that bitter angry way me read you what it's worth cook road was cooked only the way he can write of cook road and one of his s is equals it he wrote an essay called seen Mamluk elk I the thirst to the Living God of cook over there's talking about how the natural how in a natural state naturally for a jewel the only place that he can find true comfort is in the hands of Hashem is in the experience is in the emotional attachment between the Jew and a sham through prophesying divine inspiration and so on this is were of cook rights you know it's an amazing thing he describes a Jew who's not able to experience that like that kid who's an artist was not allowed to experience his art he describes that experience of a Jew is like it's like he's in a ship in the middle of the ocean who's being thrown from wave to wave who in himself he finds this inner turmoil this inner this inner opposite of peace is chaos within his heart and it's not letting him rest and then if Cook says every once in a while the ship that he's sailing on in his mind in this chaotic ocean of life that he's being thrown from one thing to the other and he's never able to truly be happy because he's never really tapped into that which he has within himself so if Cook says every once in a while that ship finds itself resting on some heap of garbage that accumulates in the ocean which in other words means that sometimes that Jew finds rest by just shutting off that part of himself by just pretending he's not an artist every once in a while he just throws himself into all sorts of ugliness of this world just to escape the pain right a lot of people suffer god forbid from from alcohol problems or a drug problem so on where is that coming from it's trying to escape that's what is there's something brought there's something deep within him that's that's making him angry and frustrated and and and you know he looks at life as a miserable place and wants to escape life so says we've cooked that's the experience of a Jew of the Jewish people when the first temple was destroyed and prophecy was taken away and we were never and we weren't allowed to express that inner artist within ourselves so now life is miserable life is angry we become angry life is a light life is chaotic so every once in a while we just try to escape what you try to escape so we throw ourselves in business we throw ourselves in pleasures of this world we throw those of all sorts of problems just to escape the true reality but says we've cooked everyone but when the boat rests on that heap of garbage and it feels like it's safe right it feels like okay this is our destination the waves are not I'm not breaking against the boat anymore but but soon the boat is then Heep off the heap of garbage and film back into the chaos of life says we've cooked the following thing Malcolm a new casino the true that the real place of where the book can truly rest and Assessor of Cook is Iraq Pelican it's in the hands of a sham it's in that experience of a divine it's with privacy it's with an emotional personal attachment Tasha but emotional attachment asha abbeville camilla modalities but the problem is once this first temple was taken away in prophecy was shut so now the problem is if the truth the place of our the place of the link is truly feel at home and a piece in life is by God God is above he's beyond their grasp that's the problem that's the problem says real cook lomonaco macias hashem is beyond all physical matter I shukla conspirator be no meme noaa's arregle ryan who and therefore it feels impossible for us to really come in contact with that says Ezra cook ki shan shan bhai email or how you avoid such beautiful words when the neshamah yearns for that higher buta explosion of light animus at pec esposa or her name's Sam he had said that gum ice me also told him when that neshama which naturally is yearning to that unbelievably brilliant light of a divine presence of the first temple then even when it experiences good things of the second temple it learns it darvin's it does mitzvahs it does all good things it never feels satisfied it never feels satisfied he says lobo so hard on him some EMS a field with my Subaru room even in the light of Torah even in the light of mitzvahs that a person does still there's something unsatisfying he still feels he's being thrown from we waved away he says I feel because jana cos i'ma farm even those beautiful things in life you can go to the Grand Canyon you could be you know a year and during the summer people go on vacation right if a person has a very stressful year so a lot of times people think on vacation I'll get away from the stress but most of us carry the stress with us so you can be standing by the Grand Canyon looking at into the beautiful you know chasm the greatest experiences of the physical sight of this world of Grand Canyon and you're still thinking about you know all the stresses of New York City because it because nothing is ultimately going to satisfy that heart that's truly yearning and craving for something that's beyond the Grand Canyon so nothing is satisfying so know what happens so now this person who's miserable who stressed out from a full year of living in New York City ghost their grand cannon and he thinks he's going to escape and what happens when he looks at the Grand Canyon and now the only thing he could think about are the stuff that's been making him crazy all the year he gets even more stressed out because now he says himself now I was not there's nowhere for me to go there's not for me to go I now realize that that thing that the the ship was resting on was just the heap of garbage and never really satisfied me they didn't get to my place of a new successor of cook so he says oz what happens then miss novel ha el hombre now since we're cooking that's what the Jewish people are suffering from to this day when the Jewish person the Jewish people feel this then their reaction is that the world becomes disgraceful the role becomes ugly you become angry you become frustrated you become angry at yourself you become angry at the guy that put you in this place and you begin to hate life you begin to hate the people around you says her cook he called off mr. Harkavy speaker but because the soul is so expansive within this person I cholim cool I in coal gosh muse of real clean yourself to the point his sell his soul is so big that that he looks at everything in this role physically and spiritually that he's able to attach himself to in this physical world in koh GUI hua hua Qian with all the experiences of physical and spiritual life need malala Bieksa it's like a prison it's like a prison Vavi or national mechanic and oxygen becomes a poison oxygen becomes something that that chokes him this is what the Jewish people that's what Cena skin comes from so we started off by saying we're to seeing a screen a conference unnaturals unholy the job of a Jew in this world is turned is to find that which is dark and to turn that into that which is light to turn bitter into sweet so the most bitter thing that the Jewish people are suffering from is seen as clean them and we said Cena's kingdom is a sickness that plagues specifically the religious world were all the more so than the non religious world and specifically in Israel so how do we turn that into light but the answer is what the storm are telling us understand where it's coming from the anger the bitterness the resentful pneus the small-mindedness that the Jewish people feel it's coming because truly were prophets that's where it's coming from the Jewish people are naturally in our natural state armed Amish prophets and when that prophetic light is hidden from that person with prophetic potential he becomes the angriest person on earth and those frustrated person on earth you know dovin amela when he first became king on in a few minutes with double now first became king so we know that he was running away from saul from king Saul so whole yeah it's a it's a very difficult they need to figure out that relationship with claw but everyone was running away so the posting tells us and say for schmucks of a supposed to tells us that the W Bella had within him first to see them the first students the first cover of Davao damela so who is his first to see them who who are his first followers this is an unbelievable thing the pasta girls isn't schmahl that the people at first flocked Devon amela were the angry bitter miserable people more a nephesh the people that were a bitter stirred bitter spirit so it's a strange thing why would mm Ella when he's beginning his mouth closed the milk is the beginning of meshia write them off at the beginning of the redemption why would have enough begin his mouth closed with angry bitter people for the answer is because this is that what we're talking about because wmf had the eyes to see that contained within these angry bitter people is that they're looking for something that they can't find they're looking for something beyond that which was given to them in school they're looking for something beyond that which was given to them in their house that's what makes them angry and bitter milk saw in these people the beginning of mushiya he saw within them people that are yearning for something more than the religious world that was around them and that was me that's what was making him angry and bitter those were is first to see them because those are the deepest people on earth are the angry people so no so where does that leave us it's where as I leave us you know the horror tells us that on the day of tissue book because I'll say them they have fish above the sheriff is born she is born so we know the morality explains that it doesn't anything physical there's a person every generation that's worthy of being Michelle once we're worthy of having him revealed but says when the morale it means that the essence of what machine is about the power of mushiya becomes renewed every tissue vote so why is that the answer is like this because tissue love is the one day of the year and the three weeks are the one time pair of the year where the Jewish people finally come to terms and finally figure out where is our anger coming from that's what tisha verb is about this is our void of toshiba visual is not just about sitting on the floor and crying about what what we lost and trying to find people to blame that North Asia was about vision was about finding this to coming to terms to try to figure out why it happened and not to just be satisfied with the answer okay well since we know why why tissue rub is the time of introspection where a person finds within himself the answer why is it that we're so angry why is it that were unsatisfied why is it that I'm bitter why is it that I hate this the Jew you know the answer is fish above the base emma goos was taken away prophecy was taken away that's why when the Jewish people recognize that and find the source of their inner bitterness that's the beginning of Michelle that stuff no milk collecting within making a sever of bitter people those bitter people that were around wml fish in the beginning of his mouth closed that was the people fish above as it amines so tissue of is Wilma she was born because tissue is a time where people finally begin to understand where it's coming from so new so what's the answer so how do we get out of this bitterness right so I painted a pretty ugly picture right like once a is not here with no prophecy we're doomed to be angry people sober crush em that's not true mushiya will come and the truth is as we get closer to the chef people are getting angry and angrier because the light of meshia we flee sense it behind the door and and the longer it takes for it to penetrate for dope for that door to open the more angry we become and more bitter we become so what's the answer how do we find happiness until my chef comes until Michelle comes so if cook ends to this piece with the following thing cercle ha rose is a derrick ethnic no smell at Rockland Arab char we have to teach ourselves how to enter into the world of mushiya performer chef comes we have to teach each other how to enter the world of being happy how do we take away the bitterness before my shift comes to take away for us says Roth cook a shower who so what is the gate how do what's the answer what's the antidote to Cena Cena says ur of coke the answer is Holocaust hammers gallup poll on that means finding Hashem's presents finding Hashem's communications with you even when he's not openly talking to you let me explain you know prophecy was again like I said prophecy was with a Jewish person demolished experience he felt he knew in his bones that Hashem was with him as I was talking to him and I should was guiding him in life so he said the base which was taken away prophecy was closed we're not able to unleash that part of ourselves anymore and it's making us angry and frustrated but in truth says roof cook and all the storm old city can say this in truth Hashem never stopped talking I shouldn't truly never stopped communicating that artistic side of us is still able to express itself all be in not you reveal and clear way says her cook we have to find a shamba olin in the physical world book called Yaffe Ovid ro in all of its physical beauty and splendor the coal ruin the shaman every breath that a Jew takes and every soul that issue comes in contact with the call hiva remnants and every animal in every insect but called San local park with every blade of grass with every flower but called Gamla every nation every Kingdom beyond the gull of in the ocean all of its ways the sphere in shock behaviour and virus in the light of the Sun and so on we have to find as I'm talking to us in everything the more person begins to try to listen the hems communication in a subtle way the happy you'll become my just a quick story just to explain this concept just to bring it down a little bit the mice that goes very very quickly the mice ago is that the position from a Nepali speaks adik Rizzuto was once walking down the road he's very it was an older man at the point at that time already was walking down the road and a person was driving a wagon you know coming up the street and the wagon driver you know with horses and so on who's carrying way hey in his in his wagon was hanging the wagon so the mice was that this wagon driver as the horse was pulling up the street towards Azusa the horse got spooked or something whatever the worst you know jumped up and the wagon full they fell over so this wagon drivers will frustrate he's angry you know it's his paranoia she gets out trying to schlep the hey back up on the wagon and he calls terms usha he doesn't know who it is he close to resolution from across street hey come and help me help me pick up the hague help me pick up the hay solutions raid the old man he says you know I'm sorry I can't help you it's it's too it's too heavy I can't and I'm gonna hurt myself so the person in his frustration set to resume she said it's not that you can't you don't want to let's he said servicer she began to cry she began to cry he said why he said because when this Jew is telling me pick up the hey pick up the hey that was a sham talking to me a sham talks to us in every conversation we experience and everything we see I she was talking to us and Shan was telling me through this person who shall pick up the hey hey in Hashem his name the letter hey symbolizes that shimmers presence on earth in other words making kiddush Hashem bring up bring up the glory of the Jewish people and I chemin the internations of the world make a kiddush Hashem and when I told him I can't and he said to me nothing you can't do the one two thousand talk that's just one example they the answer the antidote that Cena selena is to recognize and to remember that ever since the base image was taken away we are still able to express that inner artist within ourselves hashem is still talking to us we just have to open our ears there's every conversation we have every experience we have we have to close our eyes whether physically or metaphorically and try to believe and try to pick up and what does I shall tell me right now and to trust that action is talking to us the more we the more we open our ears to hear that would josh m is communicating and to remember that prophecy was not taken away then the happier we'll be and the more will find maneuver even in this chaos of this world so if cook ends off and he says the dimion is called mushaira this is what jewish poetry should be about this is what jewish artistry should be about it should be about finding has shown his presence and all the most mundane things that's what makes it you happy no that's a void of tissue buddy buddy the tissue love is not to be miserable to be angry or to be sad that's not the initiative it's to be sad but it's to try to find the answer of why I'm sad why am i angry why'd this happen to turn that which is bitter into that which is sweet that's a visor on the end up with a quick mice and will stop my cigars I just saw this recently after world war two so you know I have to go through the world war two was difficult time there's a lot of bitterness a lot of a lot of people came out of World War two angry a lot of people came out of World War two rebellious against God right there was a lot of autumn's a lot of big people that had a lot of big questions from World War two after World War two of the school and Areva the school on arrival found himself in the city he was a survivor he went through all sorts of problems aghanim's in the Holocaust he found himself in the city of cherin if it's it's in the Ukraine and in this city in the Ukraine there's obviously not a lot of supplies to just even function as a community over there whoever was left so to make matters worse it was a few weeks before pizza so not only do you have to get life together just to function now you have to make pay stuff as well so this Glenn aruba had certain context whatever he spent a lot of energy to try to gather together some wheat to make matzo because he couldn't just go the store and buy and buy weed you can have schmutz like that for the Seder so he mates had a special thing that he put a lot of effort into fine wheat the north to make more watts of her pace up for the Seder night and it was a big thing that you know in that community those survivors if you wanted not so it was a rationing you know the scorner would give you just the amount the mats that you were able that you needed on pay stuff just to get through pay stuff and now more because it wasn't a lot to go around so the vision sorella was also you need a matzo so here the school he heard that the school in taraba had his supply so the vision to represent his God by I think was his son he sent his son to the school and rabbit to go get matzah for himself so the squander Abba gave the vision sera vcenter there's over three months it's right because when you in the Seder three monsters so the GABA I said the Sun the visitor was said the rebbe said my father sent send me message that he needs it he needs six monsters he needs to six months is not just three so scholar so good fine i guess you must there must be someone else that needs as well so funny he gave him six monsters right before pizza the vision syrup has sent his son back to the school on arava and he said my father sent me those three extra monsters that you gave that you sent that you sent me before I'm giving him back to you so it's not oh so like what's going on so he said my father told me that you know you made X amount of monsters rationing it out to people and he said for sure you're not going to leave any monsters for yourself for sure you're going to give everything away to other people you're gonna have nothing for yourself so the vengers revis said so I'm going to ask for six monsters through myself and three for you and after paid after you know after you finish giving off everything that anyone and everyone else these are your matches that you should have it's a nice look at this these are people that both if it was anyone if there's anyone that could be angry and there was anyone that could have small mindedness and to think only about themselves are these people the ones who the Holocaust that lost everything if there's anyone that can have that bitterness that anger that Cena Cena to think only that themselves with these people but look at it's a deacon vision of the Jewish people look at how holy the Jewish people are that as angry as we could be and as miserable as small as we can be but the Great's ID can define Hashem even in the worst places in life that still hear the voice of ash I'm calling to them even in the hell of the other Holocaust those people come out of Holocaust thinking about all the juice thinking about how to help another gym instead of being full of anger they're full of happiness no that's that's my that's art fila for this time of year that we shouldn't what comes to shove already we should be in your show line we should be talking about goalless as a history lesson already but if that doesn't happen and we're end up on the floor until of then we have to be focusing on the source of weird that we're the darkness is coming from and the the the more you dig beneath the surface of the dark the more you'll find light no that's our bracket all of us are thula we should be cycle to all the darkness and all of our lives to be turned into light all the bitterness of all the Jewish people's lives to return to that which is sweet Vivian shakes the candle we have a main one man