Purim 5720 #4: How to Speak So That Your Animal Soul Listens

Yeah, I'm also not I was just told what to do. >> Okay, beautiful. Good morning everybody. >> [clears throat] >> Okay, everybody understood the sh last yesterday. Okay, so let's continue. Yesterday was our which our third shar. So today we have the fourth shear. Huh? You want you want to? Okay. So today we'll continue and we are up to in middle of in the copies it's page 412 on the bottom of page 412 1 2 3 4 5 lines from the bottom the series is dedicated by an anonymous donor graciously in honor of the fulfillment of the words of Mashiach to the BMPsu my main. So the summation of yesterday's she was the heart, the inner heart, the core of the heart, the core of the soul that is always awake, that's never asleep. Even when a person is asleep on so many levels, that part has the clarity and it's open and the consciousness is tuned in to the ultimate truth of reality. It experiences the dy, the pounding on the door, the the outcry. And it's two words, peace. That's the beginning of everything. Open up. open up for me because I want you. I want to be with you. We don't belong to be separate by doors and by walls and by structures and by iron curtains. That's not that's not the real reality. That's not the destiny. That's not the purpose. Piskili. And what does pisky mean? Open pisky doesn't mean an expansive thing. You're going to start building a whole door and a whole entrance and a tower and an archis. You would think it should be a respectable opening. Yeah, melik says melik has to go somewhere. He can breach through a gad. If you walk to the Kaisel by Shar Yafo, you know those arches were created. Beautiful, beautiful arches. Yeah. Created for kings who wanted to arrive and you have to have a respectable entrance. [laughter] Malik, a king comes. The Gmorra says the king says, and the mountain is uprooted. for the for the king of all kings. A nice arch, a beautiful gate, a fine entrance, an exquisite. So he says, "No, not only is it not extravagant and exquisite and large and expansive, the point of a of a needle and the dare is as we said therm the hole in the needle, the eye of the needle. This is is smaller. The eye of the needle has it has some space. It's small but it has a gate that's an opening. There is something is there. You can identify this is a an open space is you don't even have an opening there. He says it gets smaller and smaller. The next step after that is is already nothingness. And that's the pisk. So what are you opening? He says on one hand you're not opening a big thing but in that you have everything. You have the whole and your holistas and that's the transformation from the state of sleep from the state of sleep of lack of consciousness of lack of of awareness of alertness of connection to reality that's the pisili he says that's the of of of it's not it's not extravagant it's not it's not dramatic but it's like a it's a shift in the core yeah where where everything gets disintegrated every everything gets surrendered than in its >> core change in here. A big big big big shhat would would would ruin the nakuda. This is like a it's like a it's like a secret shift in a very very deep place. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. >> Yeah. It's >> like the the the complete disintegration, the breakdown of everything. >> Yeah. >> We're very scared of vulnerability. Yeah. And the reason we go to sleep is because it's a protect it's it's a it's fun to go to sleep. I don't know. Fun, but it's it's a protective place. It seems safe. Yeah. Yeah, being asleep is, you know, there there's something nice about it. Like, don't wake me up, you know, I'm asleep. Like, wake me up when the, you know, when the dream ends, [laughter] >> it's 1937 in Mos, >> right? [snorts] So, in Moscow, Yeah. My grandfather masc Muffa 1938 a knock on the door Friday night. So in the Soviet Union in the 1930s you knew that you couldn't sleep in America 2026. You sometimes think you could sleep. I know a lot of Russian Jews that day when they moved to immigr and it's that response that I want to be with you. I want the truth only the truth. I want that MS. I want the the the real real truth of my reality of the core of reality. And in that pisi he says you have everything because it's not really a new reality where you're developing something as you're saying you're making a big hole but it's the it's the neck of it creates the hole in the it's already not a anymore. The wall is already not there. There's already a hole in it. Now is going to start now starts growth. Now starts integration. That's already the next step. Integration. But before integration, you first need disintegration. That's very important. Yeah. Before integration of truth, you need disintegration of all the lies. As long as I'm still holding on to uh, you know, to some some latch, some I'm holding on to something. I'm holding on even to a hinge, to a hook, something, I can't integrate anything really new because because I'm still there. the disintegration of everything else. That's the that's the that's the what he says in your whole what was will not be anymore. So what is going to be we'll work on it in that of many ways you have it's deeper than everything else even though it's what is it not even a neck of here but that that is what burst the bubble that is what what what ultimately undermines the sheer the lie yeah I can't sleep anymore >> shows you yeah Yeah, that which for years and years and years and maybe decades, centuries sometimes in families, this dynasties of centuries that was impenetrable. You don't mess with this. This makita is here. It's right. What do [clears throat] they say? There's two things you don't mess with. Death and IRS. Yeah, two things. >> Huh? >> Yeah. You're saying death already. They're makingis but the IRS is it's certain things the fabric of reality this is part of the fabric of reality you know whoever messed with it ended up in let's put it that way this is this is it so it's very it's it's we have to understand how much resistance there is to this is it's like the iron curtain the iron curtain was impenetrable like nobody even thought that it's penetrable like [laughter] My mother my mother when she was a kid they grew up in the Soviet Union. So my grandmother shalom they would go to sleep at night. So you know you sing with the kids say so my grandmother would say every night with the kids this is should help that we should see the my mother said as a kid it was like it was a much was much more practical and feasible to say that tomorrow we should find a house on the moon you know a comfortable house in the moon and Stalin will send us a spaceship to be able to go to the moon that was actually much more practical than physically leaving the Soviet Union and getting somewhere else. It was uh was a we don't understand what that means. Well, you get on a plane and you go, right? You grew up in the Soviet Union. You know what this means? She said, "But her grandmother, her mother would say it every night." And they they made it out. They they so did they came in 1948. They went in they made a shakyu and he said, "When I see such a family coming out of Russia, that was his response. I'll call upon him." So, huh. No. Okay. That's what I heard from her many times. So, uh he was wearing a but it was like it was like their mother used to say it every night or almost every night and uh and it happened. It literally happened after the second world war. So sometimes in you know in life there's certain things like you don't mess like this. This is reality. This is the barel. It's an iron curtain and it's not even conscious. It's unconscious. You know, in this society, everybody walks around sleeping. That's how it is. And you decide, you decide that you found an alarm clock. It's going to wake you up. No problem. We'll give you a certificate that you're officially insane. >> Yeah. So, this is really it's a nef. And if it looks like a which is nothing but it has everything in it. The is already not the same. This and the is not the same. Once the core is a core. Yeah. You were you were pricricked. You you pricricked the core and it's the lie disintegrated. Now you could already start integrating because before this point whatever I integrate is going to be an additional layer. You understand it? It's going to stick to the wall. Right? That's that's what often happens when people take on beautiful things on themselves but the the core dysfunction has not been dealt with. So this is a this is a deep experience. This piski is is >> right. Exactly. Right. You paint the house but there's mold and you never dealt with the mold. Yeah. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. The paint will the paint will just be a cover up for a very short time because the mold grows. Yeah. Very good. Very good. Marshall from your field of work. Yeah. There's nothing like people bringing metaphors from their own fields of life and work because then it's like very visceral. You know, you want to bring a mushel from a kitchen maybe [laughter] that's why he gives mash from black holes and big bangs and then [cough] >> ah the UN. Yeah. Yeah. Huh? >> Yeah. And you know that expression, huh? The same camouflaged with another wedding gown. So that's Huh. Huh? You never heard that? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's very deep. Yeah. Yeah. You know his joke? Yeah. He said a guy was married, he got divorced and he remarried the same woman. They said, "What happened?" So he said forgot. Yeah. That was your vert. No. Yeah. So all the auditions that I do, everything I add and add and add without without the disintegration of the old, it does not it's not real. I go back into sleep. It's just a more sophisticated sleep. In different words, in the words of psychology, our protectors when they are attacked, they learn how to take on a different shape. They they they they're very smart. They put on a new poor mask and they just show up differently in a more sophisticated way that will avoid the new detection. You know, there's the radars that the police pick up and then you find a new one that avoids the detection. So, you just become a little smarter in how to avoid being detected by truth. And we it's very this is very very deep forces in a person's life because the vigilance to be able to stay asleep is very powerful if I feel that this sleep is essential to my survival and that's what I do that's why I'm sleeping and it's much more unconscious even than conscious so it's the that doesn't even have a hole doesn't have a but that's means the surrender of everything I'm ready for all to be disintegrated to be able to say that I'm not going to stay in a lie anymore. I want the truth. I want my truth. I want the truth of our I want truth. I want the real thing. I want to wake up. I want to wake up. I want to be in reality. I want to be reality because that is reality. And that's the pisk. Now, Hashem says if there's now there could be you could start sensing what it means to be. So, it's not just four adjectives, four descriptions of who I need to open the door. Okay, you're my sister. Oh, you're not my sister, you're my wife. Okay, you're not my wife, you're my dove. You're not my dove, you're my twin. Okay, thank you. You don't know who I am. So, figure out who I am and come back. Yeah, come back. Talking about the Soviet Union, they say a story that the KGB came, you know, and they they pounded on the door and the guy opened up and they say, "Does Goldstein live here?" Goldstein lives here. He says, "No. So he says, "What's your name?" Goldstein. So he says, "Well, how do you lie?" He says, "This is called living." [laughter] He asked if Goldstein lives there. This is not called living. Nobody's alive here tight yet. [laughter] [snorts] So I don't know what the KGB did for that. But that moment, this is called living. It's not called living. What is called living? I don't know yet. But I know this is not called living. There's an expression says of lash there's getting there but here I'm not staying anymore was once a in the early years they spoke about ding so it says always based on that based on the there's four steps in dvening the four worlds and bri and then so basically it starts so from the beginning of davening all the way till Omar is and then you go from after and then and then you go downward that's the end of all the way till so those are all stages in the latter of four steps in the latter it says and each one is a different world a different state of consciousness that's the purpose before all of that he said means I'm not yet on the journey, but it's an internal nothing happened. It's an internal shift. >> Preparation. >> Yeah. But a preparation and he Yeah. He said it's something expressed in what is it? I'm here. I I want I want to show up. >> Yeah. Before Before the Before you're starting the hike and the journey and this it's an inner it's an inner shift. And how what does that look like? It looks like it's not not an hour or two hours or four hours. Yeah. It's an it's not a second and it's not an hour. It's an it's like from here you come he says to and he started off with that the concept of is my sister because the relationship of siblings is one that's innate. It's embedded. It's it's genetic like says in a mimer that the love of a man of husband and a wife is different than a brother and a sister. A husband and a wife is often a very intense relationship and it could go both ways. There's a lot of drama and there's a lot of intensity and there's a lot of electricity and it's supposed to be that way and it can also go both ways between a brother and a sister. It's more placid says in the versus there's love like fire love like water a mar a marriage is fire hopefully it's a good fire is the gar says in a yud and ish right so if you have the yud and the hey so the fires enhance each other ish and isha right if you take out the yud and the hey it's fire and fire is but the definition is there's a lot of intensity and the reason it's intense is because it's a new thing that's dramatic. He was born without it. She was born without it. Now later point in life they discovered each other is you're born with it and therefore you could take it for granted. It's family family. You know you don't know what what's the definition of going home. You don't know of where to go. You go home like family is family. [snorts] But in that and but but but it's something that's reliable. Hopefully it's a reliable thing. In other words, you can go back on it. My brother is always my brother. My sister's always my sister. >> Yeah. Even in times of crisis, in times of adversity, she's my sister. He's my brother. So that's the definition of representing that there's a relationship with Hashem. It's there. It's embedded. It's always there. Maybe it was concealed. Maybe it's not revealed. But it's an you have the same father. You have the same mother. That's there's an is there's a deep inherent relationship. This brings us to another from the word. It says it says when it says my sister he nodded he fused he fused the whole world with and here the explains what's the not and here came the two explanations. Yeah. One explanation was that revealed that it's not that this god of the world but God the world that the real truth of reality of the world is alus and for this the explained the whole explanation because the world is hashem and therefore the chemistry of everything is being recreated by the hashem so the true mitis of the world needs to be created every single moment because its real reality is a divine energy that is creating it something from On a deeper level he said yet you remember the second part this is a very very deep idea that it's rats and in desire in real desire all the other kas are outside of the soul they create something outside of the soul ratson is the soul wants and therefore what it wants doesn't have a real significant existence outside of the desire as long as the desire is there it's reality when the desire is there it's not this idea of that the world is rotten means that it's it's it's the desire that's what it is and that's a deeper deeper layer of consciousness. Those are the two he explained in that was the main and this is the beginning of avoid when we look around when we walk around in the world you know it's it's intuitively we don't relate to this intuitively even if you feel that there is a creator or you're convinced there's a creator you believe it or you have proof there is a creator that's what there is and there's creation which is which is a big step that wasn't the of that's a very intelligent person who's not blinded by bias and not blinded by um the need to be to be uh to be independent of any creator of any laws. So any real intelligent person knows the was the fusion that it's not a separate everything is elus everything is elus and that changes everything because imagine you embody that imagine you can actually feel that in your nervous system what does that feel like what does that feel like it's it's a it it's it's the end of ego it's the end of all ego in a beautiful way the end of ego ego. It's not that you don't have an identity. It's your identity is a divine manifestation. What does that feel like? You know, all of our fights and our angers and our frustrations and our competitiveness and our anxiety and our nervousness and our control and our getting upset at this one. It's all because I'm I'm I'm in this bubble, you know, trying to survive. And when you you can experience yourself literally as as the flow of a loose, your manifestation. It's not two things. And that means me, it means you. It means everything every single reality from the food that we touch from the earth that we walk on from the experiences in our own in our own psyche and in our heart and our nervous system it's all Everything is essentially one. When it says when comes says explain the glory of God will be revealed and all the flesh will see that Hashem's mouth what he spoke is fulfilled no everybody's going to see that everything is there's nothing else. That's what they're going [clears throat] to see. It's a whole different t usually learn they're going to see that God what he said is going to be fulfilled. His promises will finally materialize. That's says they're going to see everything. You're Oh, so we're all we're all one [laughter] and therefore it's going to be. Yeah. Very good. You're going to look at the world and see it's pam. Today you look you could just see the gashmas. If you look deeper with with you know you use microscopes you can already see that there's a whole deeper universe. If you have more sophisticated and refined technology, you can go deeper and deeper till you reach a space where you see that matter and energy are interchangeable. And then you go a little deeper and you come to your strength theory and you see it's all var and this says and when you go even deeper you see it's not only it's the it's desire it's love and that's the ultimate string theory the strings the chords of love. I am a harp for your melodies. It's all a harp for your desire for your melodies. So this is the huh? Go sing your song. Go sing your song. So we don't share the cup of loneliness. We share the cup of of oneness. what this also means I just it popped into me yesterday middle of the day so share it with you is wait really what this means used to say gut is also two expressions is because like we learned in the other gut is also that's had the two expressions. But when you say that, it really means it means that in our deepest place, when we talk about Hashem, it we're really talking about ourselves, right? When you're talking about Hashem, you're talking about Hashem who is beyond nature, but you're also talking about yourself because we we we're all part of it. So, in other words, when you say God, Hashem wants this. Another way of saying it is if all my layers were removed and I can have an X-ray into the core of my energy, I want this. That's really what it's saying. So, it's just important to understand like the revolution here in terms of the experience of the relationship. It's not like God wants you to do this and I want something else. That may be how it's playing out in in the external reality. I may been up but in the real reality what we're saying is if if that's why the word god is not a good word because god means mitus is is reality so it's like almost reality wants us right actually a better word than god is reality wants us who is re well are you reality well if you're part of reality you want this maybe maybe you don't think you're part of reality okay so then then we then you need help [laughter] but that's what it Reality wants this and you are we're all part of reality. There's no such thing. There's God and there's me. No. No. What is God? God is reality. Are you part of reality? Is Jacobson part of reality? Well, I should hope at least somewhere something I'm part of reality. I mean, we're all part of reality. That's what it means. Everyone is part of Hashem. Hashem includes reality. It's also beyond that reality. That's going to be the next step. We're going to see that. Not to confuse with Spinosa, but uh but uh in other words, God is not reduced to reality. It's not there's it's not that there's no God outside of my reality, but there's no reality. Hashem, but there's no reality outside of Hashem. That's a big difference. So, uh because yesterday we're talking about the spinosa reality and then reality, >> right? Right. And reality itself is a right beyond reality. >> And then there's beyond reality. Exactly. >> Which is an absolute reality. Right. >> If you want to put into words, >> if you want words, you're using absolute reality. You don't want to use words, so you're saying beyond reality. >> I'm still using words. Just a little more sophisticated. [laughter] >> Communicating to each other. >> He calls it absolute reality. Call it beyond reality. Whatever. I I say I don't know. >> Beyond [laughter] reality. >> Oh, so words. >> Beyond reality is a dangerous word in my world because [snorts] I don't want >> I hear absolute reality. Huh? >> So the ramifications of this are very important. You know the Torah says Hashem wants you to live this way. God. So that's his problem. It's not my problem. That question, it's his problem, not my problem, is based on a complete misunderstanding both of God and of me. Both. There's a competition here. He's the big guy, I'm the small guy. Either we like each other, either we hate each other. But that whole competitiveness which is deep inside there I think there was a philosopher who once said I don't know if it was Nichi somebody else he said if God does exist I would like to be him I don't think he exists but if he does exist why is he God and I'm a I'm a simple human being that's not fair I want to be Napoleon I want to be the dictator I want to be the boss right that whole that whole paradigm of reality is based on an ego version of existence which is all based on concealment so This inner knowing, this this inner clarity, it is an we are all an we are all part of an. And when you see yourself, imagine you see yourself that way. You're like a frequency of it. Each one of us is still individuated, but it's an individuated manifestation of all inclusive infinite reality. Everything is transformed internally. And that was the that's what Abrau started to teach the world. He didn't teach that there was a god. He taught Kale kale and is one. So now the continues page 412 345. I love this. Everything that was explained is really describing the nature of the world. We're not talking here metaphysics. We're not talking here about things that are beyond. We're talking about reality. But you can explain it to your animal consciousness also. This all can be discussed with the animal. This can all be explained to the in other words you're not here talking about things that are not in the world of the animal. So you're describing what an animal is. You're describing what the world is. You're describing nature. This means even though it's an animal soul in the person. It says inelis that the spirit of Adam soarses upward. The spirit of the behemoth descends downward which represents the fact that a behemoth is a behemoth. It's an animal. It's interested in one thing. Survival earthy survival. That's it. Right? Look look at a hen, look at a cat, look at a dog. I have one agenda. The agenda is give me food, give me comfort, give me shelter, let me propagate, let me survive. There's an expression an animal has never seen heaven the way God created an animal. never see in heaven and it's not interest like don't bother me you know go to your chickens or go to your cat or go to your deer and start talking about heaven leave me alone you're with your mash you know where's lunch we're waiting for lunch and that's the behema inside of us that's the inside of us so he says that's all true but when you explain to the you hear the what the is looking from mata. It's looking for earth. He's looking for survival. So you explain to him that's the mata. The mata is vaya. Of course he's interested in mata. He's not interested in mata. He's interested in survival. He's interested in earth. But that is what survival is. What what does it mean to live? This is something you can explain to the animal soul also. And if the hashem, if the divine energy would depart from the universe, from the planet and from any specific item, it would remain just like we understand even practically that every single all matter is has building blocks. They call it atoms. Atoms are the building blocks of matter. What happens if those building blocks were gone or those building blocks would not function in the way they usually function? Because every atom has a precise way in which it functions which holds it together and then it's held by molecules and that is basically matter. Everybody understands it's not like what would happen to it? There would be nothing there if there's no atoms. It's not like oh so what happen that is the oner level you know every atom is 99.9% empty space. So really it's hashem so the moment that is not there that is matter that is what matters. So the neph says I LOVE MYSELF. I ALSO love you and I'm telling you who you are. [panting] [snorts] If somebody says I love myself, I hate my genes. REALLY? AND WHO ARE YOU? You're you're outside of your genes. I love myself and I hate my cells. I hate my DNA. I hate my jin. That is you. So the behemoth loves itself. It wants to protect itself. I'm I understand I'm talking about self. That's the v. You want mata. This is the mata. It's not mila. This is the mata. So this is all a v for the neahus. It's a vit in survival. In order for the neahus to be happy really it's really seeking for its truth. It want it wants connection with itself. A fine that's what an animal is. A healthy animal wants connection to itself to its life force. Even a mosquito. Look at a mosquito. Look at a bug. Look at a bee. They will do anything for survival. I want connection to myself to my life force. What is your life force? Your life force is oneness. So this is a conversation you can have with your animal soul. >> Yeah. No, but this is already this is in other words that's the this is not this is a this the animal soul also wants. It may not know this. You need a to you need you need in other words it puts on a protective gear and it says no I'm aim and this is it. That's the of the this is why you need to have a relationship. You need to get married, so to speak, and have an ongoing dialogue with your nephas, right? That's the basis of Tanya. There's a constant conversation between the divine soul and the animal soul. They're in conversation with each other. And the animal soul will go back into protective mode. It'll go into coping mechanisms, into survival techniques because it needs the reassurance of the adult in the room, you know, Tati and mommy to say, "You're good. You're safe." And what you're really looking for is oneness, attachment, connection. That's the truth of what you're looking for. And the moment the nephahamus has the ability to crack open its protective mechanism like ah oh okay I could breathe. I could breathe. One needs another one. >> Maybe perhaps the nephew operates a lot with needs. Okay, I need I need and what do I really need? But even the need like what's deep deep deep down under the need >> deep deep deep down it may it may it may like any animal it may have become monstrous you know the little cute cub turned into a monstrous lioness that I will not start up with and that's true with our own nephamas you know our little cute nephahamas grows up it learns how to survive in the world and it could become monstrous it could become immoral it could become a real fat ugly sahara but what is essentially looking for. It's essentially looking for I want to be I want to survive. My survival mechanism became I lie and I cheat and I deceive and I manipulate and I exploit and I'm a full-fledged addict and I'm completely dysfunctional and I live in lies and I manipulate the whole world and that's my nephew. But it that's stuck in a fake orbit of complete dysfunction. That's not what it really what it really is looking for even though that's what it becomes and we have to acknowledge that this conversation is one that ultimately can be I have to of course address its fears because its fears are that you're taking me away from mata you want to turn me into a zombie and that's why he's saying this is about actually describing the nature of reality your your most bl you tell the animal the most blissful experience you will ever have is when you Let go of your insecurities and your ego and you don't have to be a behemoth anymore. You can let God into your life. That will be your most blissful experience. The moment Bahamas gets it. Ah, wow. Wow. That feels good. Wow. I never realized that Bahamas is like this is in Tanya. It says that a ben every morning awakes hashem and then goes goes to sleeps peacefully it's he says later it's going to wake up don't worry [laughter] it's going to wake up it may not sleep all day and you don't get disappointed because that's the nature of the you have to work again but the point is when [clears throat] the nephahamus feels this and I'm not threatening you I'm your friend I'm not threatening you it can finally [snorts] surrender the ego and the need for the facade and the need for the stubbornness [snorts] and literally melt away into ecstasy and because there's no substitute for this in any fake pleasure in the world then Bahamas is like wow if this is if this is what you have for me then I'm in it's a very deep energetic experience but it can't be forced I can't be forced that's why he says you have to explain it to the nephas what does it mean to explain it explain it's not through a shir the neah doesn't come to shim it's DHD [laughter] the Bahamas you have to explain it through energetic experience you understand what I'm saying when he says it doesn't mean you sit down you remember in class I'm going to talk to you for three hours is already is already gone you remember in class they would do sit down for three hours you get a lecture already the first second you're out it's completely ineffective checked out I taught once in a I taught in Yeshiva for many years. So I I gave the or gamaro. So and there there was a boy he would sit in the front and you know I can give a long sh unfortunately or fortunately whatever it is he would sit and he would look at me a whole time and I saw he's not listening a word like he was not following. So once I complimented him I said I have to tell you that I'm impressed with something. You have such adul kite. You sit I see that you're not listening at all. Yeah. Which I understand it may be boring whatever and you send it's a long sheet. It's like an hour and a half, whatever it is. And you and you push it. You look at me like there's so much respect there. Like I'm just I wanted to compliment him. And he said, "Yeah, I don't listen a word." So I said, "How do you do it? How do you do it? Like I would go crazy." He said, "I have years of practice with my father. Years of practice." [laughter] You understand? It was very sad. He learned what it means. Somebody lectures you have to look because you don't have a choice but you're not listening to be masidah it doesn't come through a lecture never happened never will happen your masid it's an energetic explanation is nervous system the nervous system is the bridge between the mind and the body is the body it's the life of the body explaining it to the body is a different language it's somatic language today they call it somatic it's really somatic language is not an looking for intellect ual another another discovery. It [snorts] wants ma it's just it's looking for life. So communicating to it is a very very subtle energetic communication of who it really is and then it can crack open then it can listen. If it's feeling threatened by you and you're going to lecture me and you're going to prove me wrong and you're going to tell me that I'm an animal. You're such a sick disgusting animal. Okay. Next. >> Huh? Yeah. Yeah, that's very good. When the amygdala, when the amygdala can allow the preffrontal cortex to communicate, the prefrontal cortex can open itself up to the neikis explaining things. Very good. That's very good. When I'm in the amygdala state, amygdala is the part of us that alerts us to danger and I'm very hyped up and I'm very, very anxious. I can't listen to anything now. I'm just trying to survive. And we have to acknowledge those moments. >> Uh yeah, you you scream at the kid. You could see it, right? It's like a fire alarm goes off. You know, there there's this shooting. There's you're scared. It's it's a response. It's a what's called fight orflight response because you're just trying to survive. And then your prefrontal goes it goes offline. But when when the person is in a more uh regulated regulated space, the prefrontal can open up. Yeah. The vagus nerve can then communicate uh a sense of relaxation and regulation. Yeah. Then the nepheus can communicate with the nephas that it's fertile. It's open. It's very very open and then it will get it. It'll get it. Ah okay. I'm in. I'm in. And that's how we do inner work. That is how inner work is done. >> So how do you >> and then huh? >> How do you communicate? not through a frask. What's the internal dialogue? >> The internal dialogue is as follows. It's very very deep and you have to catch it while it's happening. The nephas doesn't speak in mathematics. The nebama speaks in survival code. But it doesn't use the word survival. It uses the word reality. Okay? So maybe my wife will tell me something. Okay? I may experience it as a deep deep mus speech. All my defensives, all my defensives may now go on. And naturally, the never tells me doesn't use those get angry. It doesn't tell me get angry. I just get angry. [laughter] It doesn't say. And that's reality. And the never just heard something. It may have heard that you're nothing. It may have heard my wife or my kid or my husband or anybody saying something. And just says, "Oh, here's somebody else who thinks you're a loser. You're an idiot. You're a moron." Right? Right? So, what do you do when somebody thinks you're a you're an idiot, you don't deserve to exist, you're a shaita, [snorts] you're the worst thing that ever happened to humanity, you're the biggest loser in the world. What are you supposed to do? [laughter] Huh? Okay. So, part of you says, "Get divorced." Part of you says, "At least get angry, at least disassociate." Right? These are all this is neph classic responses. Now you come to by the way anoid mulvad. You take your anoid mv and shove it into the Hudson River because right now somebody wants to kill you, right? Somebody standing with a gun. Anoid mad, thank you. Either shoot back or run or call 911. Don't start with me, anoid mouad. And then you're going to start telling it this whole like are you crazy? What you been? And that's really what happens with so many people. They learn good things. They're inspired. But then at home or in the office or in reality, it's all forgotten because the problem is not philosophy. The problem is not even psychology. The problem is biology. That's not my line. That's my wife's line. It's not biology. It's not philosophy. It's not psychology. It's biology. They think it's philosophy. They'll go to another shar. They'll listen to another podcast. They'll listen to another thing. They'll get inspired again. But then when the trigger happens, you're back in the abyss. You're back in gehenn because nobody ever spoke to the neph is a little scared child. It has one language. It's called protection. One way of getting protected is angry. If I'm angry at you, I'm already in a position of safety in my own mind. I disassociate, I'm safe. I run away, I'm safe. I'm aggressive, I'm safe. That's all it's trying to do. You're going to start telling it now. So the whole mitz is of your wife is so she's REALLY SAYING GOD. OH, SO NOW SHE THINKS SHE'S GOD. WHOA. BOOM. You understand? He took the whole mima as a topsy turvy gandic. Now even more crazy. Now he's even more crazy. So now he's fighting God saying all these and and we have to understand this is how the Nephamus works doesn't work with intellectual explanations. It's a nervous system that developed over years and years already in the womb of my mother. It's in the womb of my mother. I started to develop what's safe and what's not safe for what some people they become defensive. Some people we become very aggressive. Some people we just become people's please. Everybody their own is but it goes into it. It it wraps it pretzel. it like becomes like a pretzel and it be goes into its own little orbit and that's where it lives from and it also needs to tell itself that it's righteous because that's part of being alive. I'm a good person too. So I figure out why you're the worst person in the world. I'm the best person in the world and now I'm I'm anxious and angry. So the process must require a conversation with these parts of the nefas. We have to identify what is going on. Just to ignore it and slap it in the face, it usually does not work. How do you talk to it? >> Huh? >> How do you talk to it? >> Don't send this to your Reba. This is everybody's work. This doesn't have to do with also have to talk to their Shabbans. >> I usually do I write a letter and one I address and say this is my natural reaction. >> Okay. this guy is an idiot and he's this and this is this and he's about to kill him blah blah then I say that's probably the ultimately this is my response should be but the truth of the matter I'm clinging to the first response >> yeah we all we cling to the first response because it's natural it's it's its focus is survival and and that's really what it's trying to do it's all it's always trying to keep you safe it's trying to keep me safe it's not doing anything else it may wreak havoc but deep down. It's keeping me safe. Even those that starts hollering and screaming and raging, right? It's its own PTSD that it's dealing with. It's trying to keep itself safe in a crazy world. >> Not only that, it tries to live in because it it tries to pierce the sheer because she is it's so anti-hatic to it, right? That it's react badly to all the sheers all the but something out of you and you know >> there's deep down there's a lot of innocence there. But we have to acknowledge that and it sometimes listen I don't know how do we say this simply you [snorts] know we all look at each other you have here men sitting adults many of you are powerful people whether physically emotionally spiritually psychologically but deep deep down each of us the worst fear is the fear of abandonment the fear of betrayal the fear of being alone alone, the fear of feeling that we don't matter, that we're unloved. These are very, very deep things. And the Nepha Bahamas is in charge to be able to either help us avoid these emotions or help provide us with these emotions in some form or fashion. And it works very hard throughout life to do this. And nobody can escape this, you know. And those who escape this and say, "No, it's not me. I'm just a macho confident guy. I still haven't met that that guy." Not because you're not macho and masculine and confident, but because real the the the greatest people know about these yearnings and these needs and and and just acknowledging that in a very gentle, compassionate way like what just happened to be curious. I think it starts with curiosity. It's almost like watching a raging river flowing in front of you and looking at that river inside and like just watching it with with with with with awe, with respect, with curiosity without becoming part of that river. What happens is that river sweeps us in, you know, like a tsunami or like you go into the ocean and there's an undercurrent and could sweep you away. That's what happens. And I am now jealous. I am now overwhelmed. What happens if I can like take the eye and watch that river and see it without judging it but also without becoming part of it? I don't have to sanctify it and I don't have to make a verdict on it but I could really watch it. I can really really watch it. And then you start seeing what what that river is screaming about. It's screaming. It's screaming right now. really it's screaming hashem but that's a process to get there right now the river is raging and screaming but I'll tell you this is a very humble process but this is what avoid hashem is this is what a hashem is this is what is this is what it is like these places are where real growth happens not in other places these are the places they're very silent nobody knows about them they're very intimate they happen in your bedroom and in your kitchen and your dining room and in your office and in your living room and on your phone whatever it is it's text messages and WhatsApps and exchanges and birthday parties and failed vacations and pes plans and purim plans and shakman's plans and so does purim stress and and those where this all plays itself out and it's all a very and the more we learn how to do it we start energetically communicating with our animal soul. It's it has to realize that there's an adult in the room who sees it, who watches it, who's not hating it, who's actually it's a I'm a friend. The never wants to I'm a friend. I'm your friend. I'm not here. I'm not a hunter. I'm not here. You know, the elephants get used to people who who who want to kill them and they're they're very traumatized and Bahamas is traumatized by connection. If every connection I experienced as a child was defined by deep betrayal or by people who did not know how to attune to me and therefore I felt deep deep down abandonment. Yeah, relationships are very very dangerous. I'm not going to be vulnerable. I will not it's much easier for me to be angry, judgmental and every relationship that God puts into our life becomes a contrast to show us who we are. It's a it's an opportunity. If I see myself judging people, ah, these guys are low lives. They're liars. They whatever. What just happened? Wh why? If I see myself putting somebody on a pedestal, right, I have to put them on what what something is going on. If I find myself to be extremely extremely critical, if I find myself to have a crush, like I become desperate, all these things are tremendous gifts of the nephew Bahamas being triggered. That's why the bash said everybody and everything is a mirror. It's a mirror. It's literally what did the BMPv mean? You're my mirror. You don't have your own identity. Of course, you have an identity, but what I see in you is always going to be based on who I am inside. And that's why we have so many different relationships with people, right? This person threatens me. This person charms me. This person I want to get close to. This person I stay away from. This is all the nephew Bahamas templates that we create. And the more I could be curious and inquisitive and open with gentleness and compassion, the more I could look at the Nepha Bahamas and start nurturing it back to its innate health. Those are good words. Nurturing it back to its innate health and and comforting it. What's this message here? This message here is you are never abandoned. In fact, you are a piece of God. Wow. The animal soul says, "Really?" No, that's [snorts] not what I was told when I was three years old. Which yeshiva did they teach you this? And the answer is they don't teach this yet in yeshiva. This is something we have to experience in life. One day it's going to be taught in yeshiva. That's going to be part of Msiah. [laughter] But till that moment this is this is life. This is life, >> right? It's very very it's very very powerful. Was once a boy used to speak the nights of sukus. was a shiner rabbit. So he's speaking a lot about what gula means. We got very emotional and he said that uh that uh that the nephah is very pained by the gulos is very pained by the gullus. He says like how long is the gull going to be deep down she doesn't want to be a behemoth. Why you calling me a behemoth? I I don't really want to. He started to cry. It was he gave a she I don't want to really be a behemoth. I was put into this position. You know everybody calls you a behem behem behemoth. So that becomes your your your badge of honor. You know those kids in class, they get a name and that makes them popular and now they already go with it even though it's torturous. Anybody relates to this? [panting] It's it's a very fascinating thing. It's not who the child is, but this is somehow how he gets his popularity and everybody needs to be popular. >> Huh? >> Becomes an identity. And now this is a sign in his for it. And now he's 25 years old. He's still the behemoth because at least it looks like there's love over there. Oh, when I come into the room, the behemoth is here. So that's a survivor. I want to be loved. People want connection. Everybody wants connection. God God wants connection. So it's not an embarrassing thing. The whole reason the world was created is because he wanted connection. So we don't have to be embarrassed from that. In the DNA of the universe is connection. I mean that's basically every mimer, especially the whole basilani, right? Everything is connection. Connection. The child went far away and I want to connect. So I want connection. And if my connection with my class is going to be I'm the behemoth. Fine. It's torturous. It's torturous. But that's it. >> Save that one. That's the best definition I've ever heard of. >> Really? >> Okay. >> Well, what what do you mean? >> In other words, it doesn't even want to be, >> right? It doesn't even want to be enough for whatever >> that's it. That's it. >> At all cost, >> huh? Survival at all cost. And now it forgot that it's a internalized already called Shabbas. Oh, this is my name. This is okay. Fine. I'mma >> called him the clown. >> He became the clown. So at least at least I have an identity. At least they notice me. At least they make what do they say? Write an article. You want to make fun of me? Make fun of me. But just spell my name right. >> Yeah, spell my name right. That's it. So people should know who you're talking about better than being unnoticed. >> It looks like, forgive me my my paradigm, but it looks like we have a two two processors in a way that's easier way to to explain. One is that processor he has a program. He needs to do XYZ in life protects you whatever it is. But then there is another one and looks like they operate in the same uh processing unit. It's an alternative alternative space where e either we here or we there and we cannot be parallel in two. So the question is how do we >> it's a great question you're right >> our mind go into that state and not >> we have two processing systems it's true >> two operating like a computer that has two paradoxical operating systems and that's what it says in It's literally mission two. It's like a spaceship going in two opposite directions. One wants to defy gravity, right? And leave leave our atmosphere literally and go to a place where there's no gravity. It's not being pulled down. And there's the other side of the spaceship. It's like, no, no, no, no, no. I'm right here. I like I like this place. I'm not leaving my I like the earth literally. And without a hashem, we are living in conflict. And all the great philosophers and lit literary giants who were sensitive had this torture. They were tortured and disproportionate amount of them Jews. You know, France Kafka and all these people who suffer terribly because they literally felt a tug of two opposite souls killing each other every day. They didn't identify as two souls. They just identified themselves as crazy. Wouldn't it be better to wake up as a cockroach? What was Kafka's story? What do you wake up as? >> Metamorphosis. Yeah. At least a cockroach has an identity that's clear. It doesn't be therapy all day. Doesn't have to go on journeys for healing and figure out who I am and who I'm not. Like the cockroach like could you be jealous of a I don't know if anybody of you look at a cockroach and you get jealous. But some people got jealous. >> Yeah. And you're right. withoute withoute and it is torturous. It is cuz either I'm in this world or in that world. Yeah. Some people even they took their lives because of the pain. Hemingway like these types of people deep people they're deep souls right >> primolvi but but saying it's tor it's it's a torture because because they're sensitive not because they're not sensitive because they're sensitive. And you see it today also. You see it in our communities. The most sensitive deep souls. There's a deep deep pain there and an anxiety there. And you can't numb it with popcorn or with offering him a good shak. That's not going to deal with it. Right? You can't numb it with that. Some of you know from yourselves or your own loved ones. It's very very deep stuff. And the only thing the only thing that can begin to heal this is the truth. The ultimate truth. The nervous system knows the truth. truth and the Nepham. So that's why we have to understand how the Nephamus works. And when we say the Nefamas doesn't want to be a Bah. It's not something that Nefamas is walking around screaming I don't want to be a Bah. It has become convinced that it wants to be a behemoth. >> It doesn't need to become and and because really being a Bah is not bad, right? Really what it it has a is to make us alive to be a temple to be a mdish in this can't live in a body without enough shabbamas >> it has a tremendous has a divine purpose >> exactly is through in fact means not only with in it says but this is all a very deep kind compassionate gentle energetic process >> not only that says in that the amount of years that are given to every each person is based on the work they have to do with their nephas that's what he says clearly in other words it's not like you have a shabam you know so to speak annoying you this is it the is fine it's perfect he says in doesn't even need the whole reason it came down is to deal with when you look at you're not looking at some despot at some tyrant sick disgusting animal. You're looking at the of the world. Your in the world came to work with this. So, first of all, it tells you who the neph is that he could slept down to work with him for 120 years. Really you have [laughter] you slept down who's doing very very well just to work with me? That's interesting, >> huh? [laughter] It's good connections. Exactly. such a shik. Yeah. It's like I'm I'm a a little behemoth. I'm like a you have the special children, right? So like your your whole came to work with this special child. Yeah. >> And that's all for the neph. So it tells you how deep the calling here is, how deep the energy is. Why why who even cares about the little behemoth? Let the chicken drop dead. Let the frog drop dead. Let the mosquito die. Somebody cares about mice and mosquitoes. guy kills the deer in the forest. You walk, you go on the highway, you suddenly see a dead deer. So you bomb is who cares. But we don't say that the whole think about that. >> Huh? Yes. That's my point. My point is that is obviously it says in comes from a higher sometimes he says is higher from the higher than I mean all these things. So the kiss needs the nephah as much as the neph needs the neph. So when you understand that it's a whole different approach. So when I'm dealing with the defensive components of my nephahamus, it's not just I'm doing it a favor. It's also doing me a favor. Every one of those things I work through is going to elevate my soul, my divine soul to a different place. It's going to teach me something about reality that I would never know. So it's not a mistake that you're dealing with all these things. It could be your abandon, my abandonment wounds. It could be my my betrayal wounds. It could be my connection wounds. What's called attachment wounds. They call it the woundology. Everybody has their woundology. You know what's your woundology and nobody is freed from it. You know, even the the happiest people, if there are happiest people, I don't know, there's maybe two and a half of them living in New Zealand. I never met them yet. But even these two and a half people are also dealing with woundology because that's what life is. And the whole purpose is not only for that but to elevate the kiss much higher. Okay. So this is all the of what it means to explain to the neah explaining is not a lecture. It's an energetic ongoing communication by understanding the nature of the animal soul and what it's looking for. But all of this this whole explanation of he says this is fodder for the animal soul. It's not just fodder for the divine soul. It's fodder it's food for the animal soul. because you're describing to it what reality is. You're describing it what it's really looking for. It doesn't need to be this resisting behemoth. It's not looking for that. It's really looking for oneness, for connection. That's what it's really looking for. And that knowledge of what it to hold to hold to hold a mirror to its greatness while also recognizing where it is at the moment. That's the greatest form of mentorship. When you can hold a mirror to somebody's greatness, show it to them while recognizing where they are right now without denying that right now I may be in a very difficult stuck spot and yet I'm going to still hold a mirror to your greatness and see both. That's what he's saying. I'm not saying he's not he's with all of its trappings and insecurities and yet I'm going to hold a mirror to what its truth is because one day it's going to seep in and Shabbas will say, "Ah, I got it." And once he gets it, he's good. at least for a few hours. [laughter] At least for a few hours [snorts] until he gets triggered again because it's time for lunch and there's no food in the refrigerator. [laughter] And the one who was supposed to make food again abandoned me and therefore there's no food. Bo, okay. Okay, my dearest, let's go get lunch. That's [snorts] why there's Instacart. So you can have lunch. >> Huh? or you come to and get a soup. So that's what he says. So you tell the animal soul. So even when it's here because the building blocks of all matter including of Shabbah is the divine energy and without that there's no existence. So that is your true existence. So even when you're here, you're not a mitz outside of that. That is your mitsus. Like we explained in the previous sh that that is that is the nature of mits. The nature of mits is hashem. That's what it is. Everything else is not a mitz. It's it's it's a cover up. It's a clip. Satum is a deeper deeper you can explain to your animal soul that since the truth of creation is not only from the words of God but from the desire of Hashem. So it's like the desire of a person which never leaves the soul. Desire is not outside of the soul. Like we explained desire is I want. It's not like I understand or conceive an idea. I conceive an idea. I'm creating something concrete outside of me. That is the theat is never outside of the soul. It's I want. It's the soul taking on a shape. It's I want. And that's why desire represents the eye. If there's no eye, there's no desire. And if they take away the eye from desire, there's nothing left. And when I desire it, what makes that significance is my desire of it. And that's why it could be a small thing. It could be a big thing. It's not about what I want. it's that I want and sometimes by betraying somebody's desire even if it's small it can be an eternal wound because you delegitimize them it means you don't matter it's not about what you want it's about the connection the attachment so what does that mean here in a this means that if the whole world is essentially ratson ratson is not outside of the nephesh so essentially you are hashem's desire that's what it is this is all conversation for the animal soul when it's in its prefrontal if it's very very anxious it's like leave me alone at the moment I don't want to hear anything then it's a then we have to accept where it is and work with that so this now energetically affects the animal so that it wants she wants What does she want? She wants one thing. She wants that the world should be fused with its reality with beautiful, beautiful definition here. The wants, wants connection. That's what it wants. Real attachment. It wants to be itself. I want to be me. That's what I want. You're saying I'm a be I want to be me. And you're telling is who are you? This is who you are. You're not a despot. You're not a monster. You're not a piece of garbage. You're not evil. You're not just a piece of darkness. You know, we use these words, but that's not who you really are. I know it's who you became. It's who you were forced to become, who you decided you are. It's like that clown in the class. you know that that that kid who walks around, you know, and I'm I'm the I'm the I'm the fat I'm the fat slob. So, you know, they have it this guy becomes the slob. This guy becomes the fat person. At least he's fat. He gets his attention. But it's not it's not who I am. So, what does it want? It wants real connection. It wants the of the world with and not just of itself, of the whole world. It wants the truth and not only meaning what it really wants there should be only but he says because it's you can't expect it to be the kiss it's see that word it wants only but it's the way is [laughter] you hear the word it wants the way what mean the way is l the way is embodied as the energy of life. >> Yeah. Not >> exactly. It wants bliss. It wants bliss. It wants connection. It wants real connection. What is real connection? Real connection means that I really exist and I'm really connected to you in your real way in you your truth to my truth. What is that truth? >> That is that truth. That's what I want. >> I don't want to be anything else. >> Yeah. any other identity. Now this is avoid this is not I don't snap my finger is not trained didn't get this memo right and in a few minutes after this I may be triggered and I'll tell the animal so there I just gave a beautiful about you he says I wasn't there that's your problem [laughter] not my problem you can give your sham as much as you want I have my I I'm in charge in this place okay I'm the one who keeps you alive nobody else so stop with your hacking a china so we we have to acknowledge all That true, >> huh? Very good. You say it's true. Shabbah also says it's true. And you know is powerful because it never has to argue. It it speaks through experience. It speaks through emotion. It speaks through energy. It speaks through your nervous system. It speaks through anger, through jealousy, through tension, through anxiety. It's more powerful than every class in the world. Classes use words and intellect. She doesn't use classes and words. She uses life and energy. Like I I am truth. I don't speak truth. I don't have to speak. I am truth. That's where by the way we get we get lost with the shabam is because we don't know that it's also a language. When people get angry, this is very important. When people are angry, they don't realize it's a language. It's a shear. You're not getting angry. It's a shear about anger. Anger is an energy. It's a conversation that's happening. It just feels like an emotion. Every emotion, like it says in Tanya, is a child from a father and a mother. Every emotion is born from awareness. There's an awareness behind anger, behind jealousy, behind anxiety. I'm stressed out. Purim is coming. Shabas is coming. There's a conversation happening before your stress. You know, Shabbis also speaks with with language. It's just a different language, but it's a language. It's awareness. It's coming from somewhere. It's saying something. There's a belief system that's under it that you have to be able to examine. There's a belief system. There's there's an energy that has become embedded in you. So, this is really deep down what the Nephamus is. This is a conversation with Nephamus. It wants but in other words the way is the world the it's the world that's what it is even if I'm eating something I'm looking for the there I'm looking for the energy there but it's the way the energy is in the food because I'm looking for the food I'm looking for my energy >> that's >> yeah yeah >> survival >> I'm searching for my existence yeah >> yeah so survival was a substitute for life and but really I want to live. I made the best out of what I have. So I went into survival. So and that's what I did. And you know what? I kept you alive. I get credit. Now says I kept nobody else kept you alive. >> Yeah. Maybe you've been dysfunctional. Maybe you've been angry much of your life. Maybe you've depressed, disassociated. But at least there's somebody to tell the story. At least you can go help yourself today. It's all because of me. And the truth is creditors do what creditors do. the animal does get credit for that. It wreaked havoc in the system, but you're here today. [laughter] And you know, some other people are not here. You're here because I did a good job. I did a good job. I made you crazy. I made you sick in many, many ways. You're completely completely damaged in many ways. But you know what? At least you're a damaged animal. Yeah. Like it says in Kalis, right? Better a living dog than a dead king. you wanted to be a king, you would be dead. At least now you're a dog that's alive. Okay, you're a dog. Fine, but you're alive. So the point here is that the does one. It does a job on us. And this is the this is the this is the >> Yeah. of this is already the next frequency in life which is this is all the way it's and then there's of because I want to finish the before put so we'll have a shir on Sunday so we'll have a shar on Sunday we'll have a shir on Monday so Sunday Bashem will finish the >> huh 8 am on Sunday morning and then also Monday morning which is will finish the everybody have a beautiful shabas and your [snorts] We were talking yesterday talking about yesterday about >> So we'll be here Sunday at 8 a.m. Okay. Everybody's invited. Huh? >> With the right. >> Yeah. So like the ultimate, right? The car.