Purim 5720 #2: Your Longing for Love Is an Echo of the Big Bang

Good morning everybody. Thank you for gracing us with your beautiful delicious presence this morning. Bad tin vodder 25786. So we began yesterday the purim 1960 and we are up to gimmel. Yeah. Chapter 3 in the in the copies it's page 410. It's taken from a cafer. So it's page 410 gimmel on the top of the page. The series is dedicated by a dear friend from Toronto in honor of fulfilling the promise, the words of Mashiach. Thank you very very much. [cough] Okay, so we're holding right. So now let's recall the main thrust after the whole introduction of the says that's when the raises his voice because that's when the core of the miracle happens the whole thing is a miracle but that's when the the core story really takes off and theb asked a question from the from the that was that was a It was a beautiful piece of the puzzle. But that is not >> Yeah, it was it was it was part of part part of the story and it was very helpful. But that's not in other that itself he couldn't sleep and Morai was taken around Shushan on the royal horse and being honored would not really shift anything. Right? 12 months later the Jewish people would be annihilated. It would have just been a nice graceful thing that a Jew is getting a nice reward for a day. Yeah. What's really tric is when Esther put down the case and told her husband that me and my nation are about to be slaughtered and she accused Hmon and he had Hmon be executed. That was the pivotal moment that changed everything. And then after even that not then Esther comes because that's Hmon is dead. It's nice but uh you know a man is dead. It's a good thing but the gay is still there. Then came the second thing that Esther actually asked him to change the and he said he can't. He's just going to send out a second letter that Jews could defend themselves. That's not only that let's say the whole story of that would have not happened. It wouldn't have changed the story. In other words, it added a very icing on the cake. But let's say he would not sleep. He would be awake. He would be able to sleep that night and they wouldn't read and they wouldn't reward makai. Esther already arranged one party, two party. Esther didn't imagine that is not going to sleep that night and her and he's going to decide to reward makai. It wasn't part it was a very beautiful thing was a gishmaka maybe you know it showed her they know that Hashem is on her side so to speak but that's not really the whole story would have happened without it. And yet the says this is this is this is it. This is the this is the core miracle. So this the explains based on the is not just referring to the physical king but it's referring to the king of kings that that nightm could not sleep. Oh that's that's he could not sleep. This only brings another question. What does that mean? He can't sleep. Every night he does sleep. The night he doesn't sleep. This the mind went into the whole idea of the hashem. Hashem is your shadow. Just like the shadow responds to the human beings movements and gestures and behaviors and positions and postures. The divine energy is always responding to us. The face you show to the water, the water shows back to you. The heart that you display to a person is mirrored back to you. It's reflected back to you by the other person. The same is true between the and representing and representing the person here like the says that the lower world mirrors the higher world. I'm sorry. The higher world mirrors the lower world and reflects it back. So the energy that we initiate, we create comes back. The divine energy is always responding. Hashem silk. So the person is not just a passive recipient like I'm here and I'm just a nothing and I'm just waiting, you know, for some good masle, but rather we are co-artners in the story of creation. In in many ways we can be the author of our own biography if you know what I mean. I don't mean writing your biography. I mean creating your biography. Then you can also write your biography if you get a good deal. If a publisher is really interested, the has an expression in a person is auterfore the prophet is a different prophet. So this is the idea the desire says when a person Yeah. goes into works of themselves to go into a place of deeper optimism and joy and presence that's the face that they experience. So they're sobb says based on this we can understand the whole here over the sleeping that it's like it says wake up why you going to sleep even though he says and yet that's in but he says it's like a few chapters in between this is 44 this is 121 but it's the same form thehat is it depends on the posture and the position and the state of the person down here. From this he went on to explain what is the whole union of sleep. Yeah, that was the main point that we spoke about that in sleeping the whole body is intact. Not only that our faculties are functioning but you can't compare it to the way they function during the day because when a person is functioning during the day the kas are functioning full force there's an organ there there's organ there there's they're organized there's structure it doesn't tolerate lack of truths there can be paradoxes that coexist our mind simply won't be able to tolerate it mashain in asleep in shena the the kus even if they're functioning but they're not functioning fully things are mixed up there's no control there's no order there's no structure and the main thing is a person could live completely in delusions opposites work lies converge the the truth truthfulness doesn't have to be there >> yeah as you see it in the dreams of a person even though you have wisdom there and will and desire and hate and love and everything is in the dreams the whole personal ity comes out in the dreams but it's not mud. It could be two opposites together. It's not it's not committed to the truth to the MS. The first thing you see when a person falls asleep is that they close their eyes. That means that that's the symbol of sleep because what does that mean? The ability to be able to see things is the ability of a human being to be able to perceive reality to perceive truth. Whether your physical eyes or even deeper it means being guided by a vision, by eyes. Perspective. It's called perspective. When a person can't see, they can easily trip unless they have somebody supporting them. You know, you have a walking dog or a stick, whatever. Because the eyes are what a person needs in order to be able to follow a path. not to get stuck, not to fall, not to stumble, not to trip, not to go the wrong way, not to go in opposite direction, etc. Not to go into dangerous places. The same is true spiritually. It's the vision of what what is reality, who I am, where I want to go, where I need to go. When a person lacks that, the eyes are closed. It represents that they don't have that awareness. They don't have the awareness, they don't have the discipline, they don't have the discernment. And that's the concept of seeing and hearing. seeing and then hearing discernment. lift up your eyes to heaven and see who created and then here and in sleep both either don't exist or a much more a lower a much lower sense of consciousness and that's why he says that collectively the state of gulos it's called yeah the collective consciousness of gulos that's called a state of shina the world is asleep just like you have individually I fell asleep and when I'm asleep things are very different than I'm awake because I'm in a different state of consciousness. I'm not even there. Things are happening to me, but I'm not in control. I'm not present. I can't see it. The same is true collectively. There's a state of the world is asleep. A community is asleep. A family is asleep. A home is asleep. Right? A city is asleep. A country is asleep. A whole world is asleep. That's what gullis looks like. Cuz what is gullis? Gullis means exile. So there's physical exile and then there's emotional exile. I'm exiled from myself. I'm in exile from my own self. In other words, I'm not present with myself. There's a deep deep alienation over there. And he says that's the difference of the bamed and gullik was a time of gile. What does it mean gileus? Gileus means that it was easier or at least available for a person to be able to experience the reality of hashem in the world in an embodied way awake. And gullis is a state of sleep. We could all be here. Everything is here. But I say the ISIS are there, the miracles are there, the reality is there, but I simply don't have contact. I don't see it because I'm asleep. And that's the idea that the sha mata the sleep l creates the shina as he explains and as a result of that you have a world which is completely receiving its divine flow from hashem and yet could end up in paradoxical places. Not only that instead of instead of that reality should be seen. The opposite is seen because I can sleep. It's realities but the realities you look at it and it doesn't it's not true. That's that that's what that's what could happen. How does waking up happen? So that's what he said. There's always an that's never asleep. Like it says in I am asleep but my heart is awake. So the zya says so what does it mean my heart is awake that even when the the sense of I is sleeping there's al there's the never never fell asleep it always had an inner knowing an inner hearing an inner clarity an inner discernment it can't be manipulated exploited deceived it can be obliterated it can't be crushed it can't even be repressed it could be hidden that the person does not aware of it but the libby is always it was always awake it's like that part that never went into slumber, never went into sleep, never had calm, never put things that are not true together. In sleep, I could put things that are not true together and that's how I survive. And it could even be exciting for a few minutes or scary and it could work that way. And what this represents in life is that sometimes a person, what do they call it in English? You could sleepwalk your whole life. You're walking here sleeping doesn't he's not talking here so much the physical sleep. He's talking the concept of sleep. I could be walking, I can be talking, I can be working, I can be making money, but essentially I'm sleepwalking. My consciousness is in a state of sleep. So I'm not necessarily aligned with my truth. Things that [clears throat] are inconsistent work together. I don't know how to discern. I fall into potholes. I don't have a vision of who I am, what's happening around me, what's happening inside of me. That an of is missing. My eyes are closed. Even if my eyes are open, but essentially my eyes are closed. I'm blinded. I'm blinded by things. I'm blinded by toxicity. I'm blinded by addictions. I'm blinded by blinded by by by bias. I'm blinded by whatever it is. Anxiety, fear, guilt, shame, all types of cravings, distortions. I'm blinded and therefore oblivious. Yeah. So ani could be buti there's something in the heart that's a that's always awake as he calls it that by every single person there's the which is always in its full potency and its full perfection and that's the from where neph comes what's neph is the where you're completely one and aligned with hashem and nothing can take that away even if there's so many blockages when when you Find that nuda. That's when you wake up. That's Ura cuz that place was never asleep. So you don't even have to wake up over there. That thing you have complete clarity. There's no distortions. There's no blindness. There's no there's no there's there's no hak anymore. Everything is very clear. You could see reality as is. You see who you are in your deepest place. You see what the world is in its deepest place. And therefore, you know what you want in its deepest place. How often do you have that moment? You know who you are in your deepest core. Yeah. You know what the world is in its deepest core. And therefore, you know what you want in your deepest core. That's the nuda. But it's there. It's there. But there could be so many clippers in which in which I'm asleep. So I don't I don't I don't know about that. That that's that that was the main the main. I was listening. >> I tried not to sleep. Yeah. It's not so easy not to fall asleep in life. You know, it's it's sometimes tempting to fall asleep because, you know, it's you go into a dream world. Yeah. You go into a dream world. >> Huh? Yeah. Even the person who says the sh Yeah. Sometimes he could sleep more than everybody else. >> Huh? >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, you know, and everybody relates to it in their own way, but we all know, we all understand, you know, a person could sometimes live our whole life and they c they certain don't see reality. There's a certain reality or sometimes very deep reality that's just it's covered over. It's literally the blind spots. My brother once told me that somebody came to him to consult him about something or maybe I heard him say it in the class, whatever. So the guy says to him, so he says to my brother says to him, "Is it possible that you have blind spots? Like maybe you're not seeing something, you know." So he says, "It's true. It's true, but I don't." So he says, "Well, everybody understand that people have blind spots." He says, "Yeah, I have blind spots, but I know what they are." [laughter] Right? But then we have blind spots and we don't know what they are. That's why they're called blind blind spots. Right? So, so today's cars, even when there's a blind spot, right, it starts shining a light to tell you that there's a car even though you have a blind spot. When it comes to the psyche, you don't always have that light that goes on. Blind spot, blind spot, blind spot. The real blind spots don't tell you that they're blind spots. They tell you this is vision. This is reality. And we could deceive ourselves. And it's not they a person's fault, but sometime I could walk around my whole life and really not see myself. Yeah. Somebody told me yesterday that it's possible of they they they felt it possible that a person could look walk around their entire life not see themselves because nobody ever mirrored back to them their greatness. Right? Sometimes people's impression of themselves is completely different than who they really are. The way other people perceive them. Other people sometimes perceive tremendous light in them but they never they never saw it. They just see themselves as a burden, as a undesirable burden consciously or unconsciously. They may not even acknowledge it because nobody ever mirrored back to them. Nobody ever mirrored back to them their awesomeness, their greatness, their light. So important to do this for children. Sometimes parents don't know how to do it for children because nobody did it to them. It's not it's not fake compliments, but uh it's it's really mirroring to somebody their real real greatness in a very deep way in a way that they can absorb it. But sometimes people can't even absorb it if you say it a certain age. It's like why you sign you relate to this huh? Yeah. A lot of us relate to this. >> Yeah. Yeah. What? >> Just to tell them that they have >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's it's more than words are important, but it's really like believing it like seeing it. Like I'm seeing something and I'm showing it to you. Here, look. Look at this in a very very deep way. And not because I'm trying to flatter or feel good about myself or because I heard in a class that I should do this even though I don't mean it. it because that because the nervous system knows right away like right there's a part of us that always knows the truth. That's the point. There's a part in you that knows everything. It's just how it is. It's it's channeling truth. That's the prophet inside every one of us. The says that when Mashia is going to come every little boy and every little girl is going to be a prophet. So it's a miracle. Everybody's going to become another you're a you're everybody's going to walk around saying nava right? We are we going to hide >> deflation of >> deflation of nua right thehat is thehat is when the antennas are cleared up from static the antennas are there when they're cleared up suddenly this starts channeling you start channeling so there's a very deep seeing a very deep knowing a very deep experiencing but yet I could walk around my entire life and I'm sleepwalking I don't see I simply don't see I don't see my reality and therefore I can't see other people's reality And not only that, I substitute it with other realities in order to make it work. And I could completely be living in that space and maybe nobody even challenges it. So I continue sleepwalking and that's how I live. And if I'm feeling a little tension and anxiety, I have my distractions to get me back on track walking towards the abyss. Yeah. They say uh they say that there was a politician in a certain country who said I have great news for the country. Yesterday we were standing at the edge of the abyss and today we took a giant step forward. Yeah. So take taking giant steps forward is beautiful if you're going in the right direction. If not maybe it's time to go backwards. I'll call upon him. This is of when the person wakes up and as he says because so therefore Hashem is Hashem is the heart of the Jewish people. It says you're the rack of my heart forever. That's Hashem. So when it creates that same trigger, that same response that there's that flow, that connection, that that intimacy. Now, can I just trouble you for one of the blue? So Tiliv Gimmel he was basically explaining the deeper meaning of balah that night the king the king of the world as it says in alki couldn't sleep and explained what that dynamic means what does it mean that he is asleep is asleep some nights he sleeps some nights he doesn't sleep and how it's reflected as a result of the person's avoid that was the main and that's why the last piece he got into the I am asleep and my heart is awake because this represents the path from being asleep to waking up. Now here the mime takes a turn a big big turn and goes into the story of so I want to remind you howim works is the story of two people ani a young man and a young young woman it takes time it's it takes place in it takes place in the spring season when uh this this the trees come out of hibernation, the botanic world wakes up, animal life wakes up. The the sound of the dove is heard all over the land. So there's a time of freshness, you know, a is is spring. It's like nature wakes up from a long long slumber from a long like after this winter after this winter it's like wow we could walk outside you that's the feeling so there's a freshness everywhere the deer are celebrating the beers are celebrating even the squirrels are celebrating the chickens are celebrating the doves are celebrating and of course the trees are all singing and of course the young man and woman also get very excited and that's where they meet and there's a very very deep chemistry as we say in English that's created and the rest of is basically how they connect and they separate and they connect and they separate and they connect and they separate five times and each time it's a whole other drama what happens exactly and it's very very emotional very very emotional there's a very very deep love but there's tremendous blockages you could see it constantly if you ever learn shashidim shashidim is really something that is uh you You know it's it's the says there's a kesh it's notes is it called does it belong in the because the only book doesn't have hashem's name and there's no word about morality nothing about mitzvah nothing even migillas s doesn't have hashem's name but it's a story of it's a story of divine providence you can't help but see that all the other of this this his instructions come this is how you should live this is good this is not say for mish whatever it's just it's a love story it's just a love story and doesn't even say that it's a mush so they said doesn't belong was excited he wrote a book say the other books of are holy is the holy of holies. The world was not a worthy place until the day that was given to the Jewish people. Very interesting. Rashi brings this right in the opening of Rashi says the world was not a worthy place like the day that was given like the day was given changed the world. Very interesting right? Why? So not only did not agree that this shouldn't be in the he said this is the essence of everything. THIS IS KADESH. ALL THE OTHERS ARE kadeshim [laughter] and of course all the so you're talking about right you talking about >> uh you say they didn't execute. You say well the Romans did but not for this. Yeah. >> Yeah. And of course what is saying is that the whole story of it's a story of kadesh. Not only that. Yeah. You can ask a question. Why did other not feel that way? And the answer is because you don't see it in. So is really saying that it's a mush. Is a metaphor. But could have written the nimshell, not the mushel. What's the big deal? And even if he wanted to write also the mushel to make it more interesting, we learned in basilani about parables and stories. So write at least afterwards the niml mayor gave his but he would explain the mush or at least people wanted on that. We hear there's no n it ends with no nim. The maf go into the nim. >> Huh. So thehat is thehat is that the mushel itself has an what was revealing is that like what we learned in basilani that in the mushel you have the more than if you would say the niml and if I tell you the nimshell I'm already limiting it the mushel here's a story do with it go take it take the ball and run it has in it the essence of the story more than what you can articulate if you would articular ate the essence of the story because then it's limited to that certain form of how much you can explain. >> Yeah. Right. >> Yeah. >> Or maybe it was done in a special way that we can interpret it ourselves. >> Yeah. It's you interpret it for yourself and it's an endless interpretation based on where you are in life and it's not limited and it has in it from the essence of the relationship and that's that's one point. Another point here is what is saying is that what is really teaching you is this is the key. The relationship between the man and the woman down here in the world is kadesh kadash. In other words, the deepest relationships here in the world are the relationships that reflect the kesh kadash relationship between Hashem and the person. It's not two worlds. I'm not giving a mush and I'm really referring TO HASHEM. THAT'S NOT HIS POINT. I could have spoken about Hashem. He's not afraid to speak about Hashem. He wants to say something much deeper. Earthy love. Earthly love which some people see as impure and not nice and not holy and this all that. That's why why of course there could be dysfunctional things and painful things and sometimes things that are not clean because in its essence the only real love the mo most deepest enduring love down here between the male and the female is an embodiment of divine love. That's what it really is. >> Yeah. That's what it really is. It's an embodiment and that's when it's going to be real and powerful. When it's an embodiment of divine love, then it's going to be real love down here also. So, it's not two worlds, it's not two realities. That is the essence of love down here. If it's detached from that, you're not just detaching it from divinity, from religion. That's not the point. You're detaching it from itself. >> So, you might not experience love unless you experience >> Yeah. or both ways. >> Why is both ways? >> The the the real relationship the real relationship with Hashem used to say that a hashem and a are really one. >> Yeah. It works this way and it works that way. If you love God, you love Jews. And if you love Jews, you love God. Not everybody likes to hear that. I love God. I hate Jews. [laughter] I scream. But in the office, business is business. You got to backstab. You got to backstab. So it's like somebody telling me, "Rabbi, why I love you and I hate your children. You keep your love to yourself. I love you. I hate your kids. I love you with all my heart, with all my soul. Your kids, I hate their guts. I'm not looking at them. So how much do you love me? you I like my nose. What do you like, but I hate your kids? They once asked, "What's deeper? What's a bigger?" And I think it doesn't say, but I think it was a trick question. They wanted to like they think he would say which means you understand like >> huh like a trap question. What's what's a bigger mitzvah? Because he was so into but he like Hashem comes first, right? started said classic he said is aasha what's bigger gammor or rashi rashi there's a competition there rashi is explaining the gammor is bigger than gamar is bigger than rashi rashi is explaining the gamarra they're not in a fight exactly not exactly in a fight who's who's more important you or your wife [laughter] your son or your daughter who's more important said it's a push of a hear what he answered. It seems simple but it's a that's I'm going to tell you something. I'm going to explain it to you. Avis is what I'm telling. I'm going to explain it to you. What is a hashem? That's [snorts] and then he said you love what your beloved one loves. In other words, in a real relationship, I cherish what you cherish. It matters to me even if that itself [snorts] is not something I even know about. But the love means that I cherish that. I cherish it. So if you know that God is crazy about this, so you're also crazy about it. >> The only way you can love is >> of course otherwise >> otherwise. >> You're right. And that's the it's really the you see that's why it's a what are you really loving? You're loving God. I told you when somebody asked me I mentioned self- loveve in a so he said this is a new religion no nowhere does it say in the whole to love yourself doesn't say anywhere >> huh [laughter] >> very good that's good very good but I told him you say it three times a day he says I don't say three times a day which religion do you do you don't think you're part of What? That's your problem. [laughter] Says not you. That's not you. You're not part of him. Says not you besides you. What do you think self- loveve means? Self love means what? I love my ego. I love my watch. Well, I love I'm in love with my tie. What I'm That's what self- loveve means. I love a pimple that I have. I love my hairo. Fine. You have a nice I love my What? What do you think self- loveve means? What's self? What's the self that I'm loving? What's the self? My shirt. My is my bank account. What am I? My car. The tires on my car cuz I put it in a in a in in we went through a car wash place. So, they're sparkling. Self- loveve means the real self. The real self is the divine energy. You are divine energy. So, so, so here we come to this what is saying. And so that's why to experience real love with Hashem it's through the person and especially in a relationship of of love of the man and the woman and the opposite that in the real love between the man and the woman brings you to you can it allows you to experience a hashem even in a deeper way. >> Yeah. The bos even says somewhere talk about michal it's very classic the bashv the bashv says what's this whole phenomenon of love in the world this like vintage what's this phenomena remember in the bash's times that's when romanticism started to uh blossom the world started to wake up from the slumber of oppression I mean relatively speaking we're still waiting for redemption but you know enlightenment and all that and there's a whole literature of romance and love it's a It's later it became even more intense. So what's this whole phenomenon of love in the world and very often you know love can be very messy. I don't have to tell you uh could be very very messy and a lot of murder in the name of love and a lot of violence in the name of love and a lot of brokenness in the name of love and a lot of jealousy and hatred and intoxication and dysfunction. I mean love is an intense reality. You fall in love and you fall out and you fall. I say don't fall in love. Climb in love. Don't fall into anything. Climb in love. Don't fall in love. You fall in, you fall out. You fall in, you fall out. Shut. It's also intoxicating, you know, especially if you're wounded and you're in a delicate situation, place in your life. It's it can get very promising and it shles you into something and then you know you're sleeping, you're blindfolded. So bash said like this. Bash said that uh there was a king was always a mashalam of the king and he was a very special person. He was really a lover. He loved and he wanted to connect to somebody and it was somebody that he push was crazy about. But he knew that if he walks into this guy's a pasha to mench he lives in a little little faka hut somewhere in a forest. If the king walks in it's going to be sakum. The guy's going to have a heart attack and die. He's going to be overwhelmed. He's going to go crazy. So what did he do? He wants a relationship with them >> as a friend or as a >> as a friend. As a friend, he loved this person. So he sent a he sent a messenger dressed up a very simple person with a letter and saying here [laughter] this is a letter from the king to prepare him to be able to open him up to this relationship. So the bos says and now you have to figure out the nimil and that's the whole phenomenon of love in the world between men and women and everybody else. That's what he says. You understand what he's saying? He's saying that God is crazy about you. But the problem is if infinity lands into my heart, I'm like, "Oh, I'm done." So God sends messengers. What's the messengers? Every time you experience love in the world, it's Hashem saying, >> "I love you. I want you to feel love. I want you to feel my love." >> Emoji. >> It's his emoji. Yeah. It's his emoji. So you're walking in the street. Suddenly you had a of a Right. What's the biggest tragedy? The biggest tragedy is the guy falls in love with the messenger. [laughter] Falls in love with the messenger. You understand? They tear up the letter. They tear up the letter and that's it. So, he was about to have the gift of of royal infinite love and he settled on what? Yeah. On a halfbaked potato that's going to be rotten in a day. That's the tragedy. He doesn't realize this was a hakana. So the only way you can really suck the marrow out of love on earth is if you know that it's a manifestation of the divine love. That's the of and that's why it's called says in kesh is mdal right kesh is kadesh means aloof sublime exalted kadesh kadesh what's kadesh kadashim kaidesh kadash means it's exalted from being exalted it's above being above so it could be down here too kadesh is above holy kesh kadasha means it's even holier than being holy. So it doesn't have to be aloof. It could be down here. So the real kadesh kadashim is not platonic, heavenly, sublime. It's in the earthly love between two people on earth. So if we extrapolate so maybe our classic misinterpretation of is also wrong because men is maybe men and women are both messengers. Good. Beautiful. >> So it is not it's not it's very is completely different interpretation. >> It's true the is taking it a step deeper. It's not just is the man is hashem and the woman is and they're they're looking to connect and there's a lot of challenges but then there's ultimate connection but even the man in is also a messenger >> and they're both and and that's the point the point is that that relationship is a manifestation of the divine reaching out to the person. Why is this so powerful? Because imagine, okay, in marriage, right, a husband and a wife searching for each other, >> searching for each other, right? Connecting to each other. If they could be in tune with this truth that the Basham is saying, my search for you is my search for the divine. Your search for me is the search for the divine. That is where love remains as pure as it gets. It remains pure. There's it's not transactional. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Not for a third party for the divine. >> Right. For the divine in you. Yeah. >> Yeah. I'm searching for the divine in you and that's what I really I'm looking for and that's what you're looking for. Right. Right? So that's what the bos is revealing and that's what is saying the of kadosh and that's what says the world was not a worthy place until the day that was given to the Jewish people. Why so dramatic? The world wasn't a worthy place comes later in history. He made the world a worthy placeh it's all before you have great people. You have no you have you have great great people the world is nothing the world is off THE PLACE REALLY CHOPPED LIVER you see chopped liver not nothing to him garnished it's worthless the is not a place I told you bad bad mistake right avoid Bad mistake. God, let's move on. Let's do some other things. This was really This was like a real investment. I I don't know what you were thinking that day. You must have been sleeping. [laughter] Pun intended, right? >> You were daydreaming and you created a world in your daydream. And we're still busy trying to figure out if it's a dream or not, which is going to be the he of this mimer. [laughter] The whole world is mug trying to figure out if it exists, if it doesn't exist. >> Yeah, it's a simulation, a matrix or not. I'll cop him. So, but this now we understand the why there's really two realities. There's the divine reality and there's the world. Helm the world comes from the word concealment because the definition of the world is concealment. It's interesting in Kesh words are very precise. The word captures the energy. You have no better way to describe reality than concealment. It's such an insult. World is a beautiful word. The world, the universe, the cosmos is even a nicer word if you want to sound sophisticated. Ontology, pesmology, whatever it is, the world cosmos. No, we call it ilm. What's ilm amum? Concealment, right? But that nails it. That nails it. You want to know the reality of the world? Concealment. That's what it is. That's the reality. Now you'll understand the universe. If you don't know helm, you don't know the amm. You're living in a fake world. You're sleeping. You're sleepwalking. The definition of ism. The moment you know that, now you can start appreciating the world. So say that is the best name for it because that is describing reality. You're confronting concealment. What you see is not what you get. You have to go deeper. You have to go deeper. You must go deeper. So this if it's so concealment, who wants to live in darkness? Who wants to live in concealment? When when gave to the world, he redeemed the world because what did he say? He said that earth is a mushel for heaven. The helm of is a metaphor. It's a parable for the divine connection. Even that most basic feature that seems so secular, seems so unholy, right? The the experience of romance and love is not something that belongs to religion or atheists. It it lives in the animal world. It lives in the tree world. It's the quest it's the quest for attachment. It's the quest for intimacy. It's the quest for romance. It's the quest for fun, for enjoyment. Right? That quest, it's not a religious thing. Secular people would claim we have much more fun. Whatever, however you want to describe that, we don't have any inhibitions. comes and says is the day when the became kadai. The helm of the world is not a helm anymore. The concealment was busted. You know, the code was busted. The bloom was popped because in all the love you see it's a it's really a mushel. It's just a mushel. The body is a mushel for the soul. Earth is a mushel for heaven. Physicality is a metaphor for spirituality. So just look a little deeper and you'll see the metaphor. >> I understood why only time somebody could say >> say why >> because after was the influence of Greeks >> very good >> Greeks are what did they say have their own life you know here is our you know folk about it right and the Jews not any different there's God out there you hear it's the same thing just the difference is >> we have many you have one >> so But Arabic says no no it's not one that is aloof. >> Yes. >> Exactly. Embodiment. >> Yeah. >> So yeah only after Greek somebody could >> we spoke Kanek my Kaneka that one of the the you know we don't realize we say Kaneka was our victory on the Greeks but it's not so simple. In many ways the Greeks were victorious over us. That's what people have to understand. What does that mean? Not I don't mean politically. I mean there was a there was a besamed Judaism still survived. But there was something that the Greeks were victorious and that is they redefined Judaism even for the Jews. Yeah. There's a contamination in Judaism. It became logic a logical system of gymnastics at least for many people. Instead of Hashem being an embodied energy like the word God doesn't exist in Tanakh. There's no such a word. It can't exist in Tanakh. [laughter] The verb there's no such a word. God they turned even if you believe in God it's God you believe in. You understand? There's an object called a tissue box a cup of coffee and God. Okay. God is big. He's infinite. He's strong. He but don't start up with him. I got it. >> He exists and I exist. That's going to be the of the here and that contaminated the of Yiddish even if I'm religious I learn but my learning also it's an intellectual idea and I can philosophize and explain more philosophy philosophy kills elus not because it's wrong you can have great philosophy you could be right still kills it of wisdom >> it's wisdom it's wisdom it's not embodied it's not reality. >> Hashem was an experience. You understand the difference? Today we people don't even know what Hashem is an experience. He's not experience. He's something that I don't know about and I have to serve him. Even the word serve him. >> Him. Her. And then the feminists get crazy. Not him. Her. Brilliant. Wow. You're really progressive. You turned God into a woman. Everybody's now happy. So now the men are completely allergic, [laughter] right? And they used to say that to tell ways that you shouldn't they shouldn't have women telling the guys what to do in the car cuz men are allergic to listening to instructions from their wives. So when the ways is a female voice he does the opposite. >> Especially directions. >> Directions. Exactly. The worst thing give directions. >> It's not just learning. >> It's experience living. Yeah. >> When you see speak about Hashem, right, it's hard for us. Hashem is angry. What's really happening? What is So we say he's not really angry. doesn't get angry. Doesn't have emotions. We don't even KNOW WHAT IT'S JUST HE WANTED. But really, what's the he wants to say God is embodied. It's it's it's it's an embodied experience. So, it it can be embodied in you. So that's why is coming back and saying is that paradigm shift that it's the it's an experience of earthy love that you're actually embodying divine love. That's what it is that made the we always have to make a disclaimer. This doesn't mean there's no I could take earthy love and completely sever it from the source and it could become a source of tremendous contamination and uh and dirt and filth and agony and violence and very immoral and impure and dysfunction. We all understand that too because every great power can be distorted in the world. You know atomic energy can destroy a world and can also light up a world. That's everything like that. Nuclear energy can go both ways and love is nucle is nuclear energy. Why is it nuclear energy? Because it's the in you that's nuclear. That's what it is. The power of love. What does the I want you to understand the what the BMP is saying. It looks like a cute verse from the BMT. The BM is saying is the power of love in this world is a divine power. That's what it is. It's coming from one place. It's coming because God loves you. That's where every all love is coming from. There's no other love in the world. Blind cells didn't evolve after 25 billion years into a consciousness of love. They don't do that. You could leave this tissue here for another 25 billion years plus another 100,000 years just for a little change. Where's the consciousness of love going to emerge from? Where? From where? So we say we DON'T KNOW. WE WE HAVE to know this. This is important because if not we don't appreciate what love is. We don't appreciate consciousness. And the answer is every of love in the world is gleaning its entire from That's what it all is. Now the question is, can I see it? Can I align with it? Can I allow this love to bring me there and connect from the bottom up and bottom and the top bottom? That's what the Ramban says that the bedroom the bedroom is. Where did get that shul is not is not the dining room where you eat chabas meals and you say is not is not keshakadashim the bedroom is kadesh that's what writes the answer is he looked at the mishk what was in the kadeshakadashim two kurim [laughter] and hashem told ma I'm going to speak to you from between the two kurim you can't find a better place [laughter] from between the two kuv Where's the communication between Hashem and Mosha? There's a little boy here made of gold. A little girl made looking at each other and hugging each other, which is on a good day. >> There's the wings. They cover [laughter] the eyes. Don't worry. >> At least there's [clears throat] a mita so nobody sees a creation. Huh? >> This is where Yeah. Yeah. And this is where the world started. Yeah. The the world started from there and that's where every child is created. That's the the evac. So why did Hashem do it that way? You know in the Christian theology and unfortunately it's seeped in also to Orthodox Judaism by many people is like that world is a is an unholy world. Now, it has to be treated with tremendous sensitivity, but not because it's unholy, because it's kadashim. That's why it has to be treated with sensitivity. You don't treat it with sensitivity because it's dirty. And we don't speak about animalistic stuff only in secrecy. No, you treat it with sensitivity like you treated with sensitivity. Nobody went in there not because it was dirty. [laughter] You didn't open the not because it was filthy, not because we're embarrassed with kadeshim, because it's sacred. It's a secret because it's a secret. If you take it out of its secrecy, you're desecrating it. So says, I'm speaking to you from where in the space between him and her theim that's where is the gillus. That's essentially the whole of course it's of course it's kaidesh that's because it's all the it's all in the it's all like we spoke in basilani what is it's all the relational field that's what it is so any experience of love in this world is one that's hashem sending you a and saying >> I love you you're the best thing that ever happened to me in my life. I know that if I just show it in a safe, you're going to have a heart attack and die [laughter] and I would love to have a relationship with you alive. So, I sent you a woman. That's it. I sent you a letter >> or I sent you a man >> or a child or whatever it is. The mistake I make is right, I take the lollipop and I forget the one who sent the lollipop. That's what we all do. So we eat the lollipop. We eat the lollipop. Tastes good for how long? 6 minutes. The problem is we don't even know who sent it. Instead of looking at the lollipop, there was an address there. There was a telephone number. There was an email. Shait, [laughter] don't invest in the egg. Invest in the chicken. You invest in the egg. It's nice. You decorate. Yeah. You have a chicken. The chicken lays you an egg every day. What are you investing in an egg for? The egg is going to be the player. Egg is nice. I'm not knocking an egg. We all we all love eggs. Good omelettes are good. Very good protein. But there's a chicken. You want to invest in a chicken the same that's the mush that's the whole ver of the mag with pifar. You remember I told you the Chernobyl writes that he had heard from the I think in paras I think it's also in a few places that was the of the mag of mis it's mish like this whole it says that when's wife was very very seductive and one day she him and she said he ran away so the garra says in rashi brings it that according to one actually surrendered does not mean he came home to do work. It means he came home to do work with her. He fell pregnant and then he saw the vis of his father in the window. He ran away. What did he see exactly? What is it? So everybody learns shot he was about to sin with a married woman in Egypt and then he saw the image of Yakov and he woke up so to speak from his sleep like I'm not doing this that's yeah but here you see the of just like the says that all love is really a metaphor so the mag says it's much deeper he changes the story completely And here you see it's like it's it's like a shift of consciousness in the whole Judaism. And this is the secret of all healing today. It's not he wanted to be with Pifer's wife, BUT HE SAW YAKOV IN THE WINDOW and he's like, I'm out of here. NO. IN PIFER'S WIFE, HE SAW THE IMAGE OF Yakov the Hu. He asked himself, what am I looking for? What is this woman giving me? What what is she giving me? She's a married woman. I'm not I can't get I can't get married to her. So I'm going to be 5 minutes, 10 minutes, 20 minutes, 30 minutes, whatever it is, 3 MINUTES. WHAT WHAT IS she giving me? There's something I want. What is it that I want? >> Message from that still. >> And the answer is she's giving me something I'm looking for. There's a void. And what what is he really looking for? He was looking for he realized he was looking for beauty. He was looking for he was looking for harmony. He was looking for connection. Who was Midas Satifer in the world? Who was the embodiment of Midasiferas? Yakov. So as he's looking in Pifar, he didn't get carried away by the lollipop. He went in. He went in deeper. What do I really? What do I what do I see in her? And suddenly he saw he's looking for Yakavino. In simple English, what I'm looking for is I'm looking for a father. I'm looking for a father. Right? How often I was talking to somebody about uh homosexual they were struggling with homosexual things. Yeah. What's the biggest tragedy? The biggest tragedy here is you know the whole liberal political world hijacked this. So there's no real science about this. But in so many cases the person is not looking for that man. He's looking for the man in himself that he never discovered. He's looking for masculinity. Nobody showed him what masculinity is. So now he sees this powerful, strong, handsome figure and he wants that connection to fill the void inside of himself because of terrible self-shame, self-loathing, self-hate. It's not true in all cases, but it's true in very very many cases. You're not allowed to say this shalom, but this is the truth. Nothing is going to take away from this truth. [snorts] >> Huh? >> Yeah. You understand? And the same is true in every relationship. Yeah. I want you, but what do you really want? And it's true in every addiction. I want this. What do I really want? Yeah, that piece of cake. Do I need a piece of cake for my health? No. What do there's something in the cake that's telling me something? And the answer is there's something in you. There's something you want to fill. And Yseph's beauty and blessing was he nailed it. So I'm really looking for Teresa. >> [laughter] >> She's a married woman in in in the search for her. He saw he saw it as a marshall. She was a messenger. He says when you go outside it's uninhibited. He got uninhibited love in there would be confined love for five minutes with her. He escaped the trap and he went into an expanse of consciousness because he got mid he was looking for. And that's Jakeno. He got the message. >> He got the message. And once you get the message, it's much deeper. There's a pain there because the mush likes to hijack. So that's now I got carried away here a little bit with uh but this is now the setup. >> Huh? Yeah. For everybody who needs to get married or everybody who's married and wants to become a again and wants to go on a honeymoon and remarry, you know, there's inivition also. It's a very good idea to have zivuki in it's very good. >> Very good. I'll call upon it. So this whole setup of shiridim is this very intense relationship that connects and disconnects connects and disconnects and it goes through different processes in chapter five of yeah and that's the the whole he of the mimer is now going to go in to the fifth chapter of hashidim we are it becomes extremely intense and he's this incredible is going to go through all theim and show what they mean in in life in aid So chapter five begins with the famous words. I came to my garden to be with my sister and my kala. And then the next is but I'm sleeping. Now you have to know in who says what. It's not always clear because it's all like metaphoric. So who said is the groom Hashem I'm asleep but my heart is awake. Right. My heart is awake. And that's the PK B of chapter. I'm asleep. My heart is awake. And because my heart is awake, I can hear a sound. And what's the sound? The sound of doi of my lover, my beloved. is from the word yidus you did like a friend the best friend you did nephesh of nephesh the the best friend of my soul right the one who wrote you did nephesh he his way how he describes tom is you did nephesh my soul's best friend now that I like a little better than god no >> my soul's best friend right you did nephesh But by us did is another niggan. You know what I mean? You did pastoring. There's no more. They ate it up at the new heading is for next week triple. I'll pay for it. I'll pay for it. [laughter] Right? By that time you did is over. Okay. Huh. [snorts] Or he put something in the coffee. Does >> Oh, you made the coffee. So co I can hear the coil of means pounding knocking knocking open up for me my sister my spouse or my shepherdi my my dove and tamasi my my twin my completion like to umi it says my twin my completion my second Why? I'm outside and my head is filled with dewy. My here uh is my here u locksa are saturated with the droplets of night. You know outside is a mist of the spring and I'm outside here and my head is wet and please open up the door. I'm sleeping but my heart is awake. So I can hear in my heart not with my ears in my heart I can hear and he has four terms and he says there's a reason I need to come in my head is filled with dew and my hair is filled with the droplets of night. Open up the door. Please open up for me. >> And she in the sleep. >> She's saying I'm asleep, but my heart is awake to detect that there's a coiled. That's B. What'sant? Sorry, I took off my shirt already. I can't put it back on. I washed my feet. I can't get them dirty. What does this mean? I'm in bed. I already did took a bath. I'm already in bed. It's a thick down blanket and I'm very comfortable. I have two pillows. I took off my shirt. I can't put it on again. I washed my feet. You want me to get off my bed, get dirty? I'm not doing that >> because not getting my feet dirty and not taking off my shirt and not putting back on my shirt is more important than love. And what happens next? So is trapped. I'm not opening the door. I told him I can't. I'm in bed. Sorry. I'm sleeping. >> It's bedtime. So my takes his hand and there's a little you know a little hole. He sticks his hand in and what happens? And then suddenly I realized that all my kishkas are stirred from excitement. In other words, I didn't realize I didn't allow myself to feel. I didn't allow myself to feel. I had excuses. It's a but once I saw his hand in the whole mayi my intestines hum they got stirred up from from excitement >> butterflies in my stomach >> the butterflies in the stomach it's like wow I always dreamt for this but I couldn't tell that to myself because the pain >> so he breaks it in >> he doesn't break in he sticks his hand and when she sees that her may her her kishkas her intestines go crazy from excitement and what happens and >> one. >> Huh? >> Yeah. So, she jumped up to open the door. >> Ah, >> yes. And when I opened it up and was not there, see you. I'm searching and I can't find him. And that's when she goes looking for him. And the guards all tell her, "You're a crazy cuckoo woman. you need to be in a psych wart and they hit her and they wound her and they take off her shawl from her and then she says and that's chapter chapter five what is happening here so you could see this is intense you could see it's intense says this is the of the so this does this whole this whole per all the so that's the after of a libier in the beginning of per hey what happens this libby is detecting something so let's learn another few minutes I want to go through this this paragraph we'll go a little faster says I listened to the tape last night of the mime the beginnings of it so I can't tell you the t the way the rebel with such emotion. The word is the ethmology of the word is love connection. And so what's represents the the word is a means excessive infinite love which comes from the de la it's not coming from a level a frequency in other words something addition to reality what's our real real concern what I want is I want to know that the love is coming from your essence it's not like tomorrow you're going to mature Sure. And it throw me off the cliff. That's what he's saying. Where does the love come from? It doesn't come from a world, a frequency which is more temporary or more external. It's coming from the etsm doesn't change. The core is etsum. It's atmos doesn't change. Not it doesn't change because it's boring. It doesn't change because it's the core authenticity. That's why it doesn't not. It doesn't change because it's stiff. It's not stiff. It's it's it's renewable. It's it's it's infinite. It doesn't change because it's touching a truth that's beyond change. It's it's a truth that's beyond change. It there the whole Yiddish guide is based and this is it. This is it. This is the key that there's there's a truth. There's a tr there's a truth that everything begins from. And that's real. That's very real. You could you can hold on to that. You know, you could take it all the way to the end of time and to the end of love and it's going to be there. You're falling back on something. That's Knowing feeling that the love comes from there changes the entire equation. If the love comes, you know, I'm having a bad day. Say I fell in love. How many people fall in love because they're desperate, right? They're in somewhere, they need company. This person happened to be there. Boom. You're 19year-old, you're 19, whatever it is, people, you know, you understand all these things. Was your etim present when you fell in love? How much of your etsum was there? Were your eyes open? Were your ears open? Was your soul open? Did you know yourself? This aa means an ava from the place of not from some level or some energy which is also true but nonetheless it's not and therefore it could be dependent on different things but this comes from the and what is it directed to to the part in you that's never going to change. So it's both ways that's why you could trust it. If I knew that my my your love to me is coming from a mood, uh you have money, you don't have money, you're desperate, you need me, yeah, you like me CUZ YOUR WHATEVER IT IS, I can't really trust it. >> And in fact, I'll tell you if you want to know the real secret, okay, 90, it's just coming out. I don't know if it's true, you have a marriage therapist. Maybe they'll argue with me, but 90% of coup's therapy is one and the other really asking one question. Is the ava connected to the etsim or not? That's really what it is. >> Is it true? Yeah. Is there a caring? In other words, if if your etsum came out and my etsum came out, are we connected? The moment the answer is yeah, you're done with therapy. I mean, maybe you need a few technical things. therapist. >> Yeah. Support the therapist. Whatever. >> But this is really it. Now I I know if you do this in the first session, they're going to run away like this guy is voodoo. I don't know what you're talking about. So how do you feel? How do you feel? What do you say? What do you say? What do you feel? What do you feel? You feel But hopefully after a few months, this is what you want to do. You take out this mime and say, "Come, we're going to learn four lines here." That's what it is. If it's anything but myim yours, it's it's it's flaky. Even if it's deep, I'm not saying it's not always deep, but it's not that. You can't you can't what do they say? I can't go to the bank with it. You can't go all the way to with it. So the says what's that comes from? Which means it's the beyond everything and therefore the source of everything and therefore not changeable because it's the core of all reality. So it's as authentic as it gets. If there is a truth in the world, this is the truth. That's what whenever it says, what does it mean? It means if there is a truth in the world, this is it. That's what it means. Doesn't add the word if. I'm just saying that for uh for the cynics and skeptic skeptics among us. Doesn't add the word if, right? Huh? is hashem is but that's what it is. If there's a truth in the world this is it. So in this deepest deepest truth there's love and it's because it's him it's and what is it directed to? It's not directed to my moods to my behavior today which will change tomorrow. It's directed to my so it's your deepest truth >> unshakable. So it's not like today I'm sleeping, I'm not in the mood, you're not really filling my needs anymore. In the past the relationship, but it's a place that goes beyond a need, this need or that need. It's my to your and therefore here you have black and white everything I'm teaching you for eight years not looking at the fact that this person sinned and blemished and violated the path today's English means he went off the derek OTD there's a Derek and he bypassed the der he has his own off the beaten track of God and it's not just he sinned he blemished he's missing all the madregas he's missing all the in other words he's absent he's he's bl it's a blank he's missing all the levels not only he's not in a state of not only is he not in a state He's not even in a state of he's not even my sister as will be explained. I just see I'm getting a call from my house. I just want to see. Hello. I'm in sh and I'm going to come in a few minutes. Why? What do you need? >> [clears throat] >> I'm giving a shear. What? >> You ready? Oh. Oh, no. I'm going to come and do it. Yeah. I'm going to come home and do it. Yeah. Yeah. You don't have to worry. You could go. Huh? What? Yeah. Mommy. Yeah. Okay. Bye. Sorry. So, he's not Tamasi. He's not Yosi. He's not. He's not even the continuation of the is going to explain what it means. What'si? It's it's it's stages. This person is not. He's not even which is lower. He's not even he's not even he's not even. So there's no relationship blemished. You did sin. You did left. You did. You're missing for sure you're missing. So for all practical purposes, our relationship is dead. So So the Reb said in Yiddish despite all of this because it's coming from the and it's to your So he said in Yiddish, in other words, pounding means a he's screaming. There's an outcry. [snorts] Open the door for me. This comes from an Hashem says, "I love you." And this is an so it's unconditional. The person will say, "But I don't I don't have any connection. There's no conscious connection. I don't care about you. You don't care about me. And then what's not that I'm naive, I'm stupid, I'm blind, I don't know who you are. Is a brother of what does that mean? If I look at you and you're TWIN BROTHERS, YOU'RE LIKE MISH LIKE ASOV. That's what we're talking about. Yakov looks like as the says of the he says they tell Hashem says I have to ask. So they TELL GOD IT'S NOT true because Jacob is a brother of Asov. So why are you so obsessed? You don't love me. In other words, we don't believe in the love. We don't believe it. That's the key. You could be loved infinitely. But if you look at yourself as damaged goods essentially, I don't believe it. In fact, I think either you're lying to me or YOU'RE CRAZY. AND BOTH I'm not going to trust. If you're crazy, for sure I'm not going to trust you. And if you're lying TO ME, FOR SURE I'm not going to trust you. So you can have the most infinite experience of someone loving you. In this case, it's atmos. It can get deeper better. But I'm like, God, you got the wrong guy. Unless you're mashuga and if you're mash any don't want a relationship with you but to love me let's face it or you must be so wounded if you want a crackp pot like me. This is what's happening constantly subconsciously the self-hate the self-lame the self-loathing that lives in the templates of our animal soul denies this. IT'S not Hashem saying the Jew is saying I'm like Asov. I'm Asov. YOU DON'T KNOW ME. WHY don't you get to know me better and then you'll run away. In fact, a lot of people undermine their love. They they undermine it because it's too good to be true. I can't trust it. >> Yeah. If at least I put a wall, I go to sleep. At least I will. There's no betrayal. If I open up my heart all the way, I could be betrayed all the way. I'm going to open up my heart and there's nobody there. Or even worse, there's a knife waiting for me. A2 brute. Then Caesar falls. That's it. you don't trust you're good. So deep down they're identical and he says two things either this moment or in this position. In other words, this moment I could say me and as are identical in this state of life me and as are identical continues of nonetheless I love Yakov not because he's not a brother of Asov. He is a brother of Asaf. What does a brother mean? A brother means that they're actually identical. They're like brothers. They're they're the same. They're twins. Still, IN OTHER WORDS, MY LOVE IS NOT coming because I'm naive. Cuz you're going to do tomorrow because I see that n it's not really this. No, it's true. There's no and I see it. And you're telling me it can't be. And I'm telling you, Yeah. How can that come from? That's called for this you need to know your and is a different >> Mats. the part of you that sees >> he is special because he's there. So you would think that >> you know what the villagon says on this. Yeah. You don't know very what's S. So I don't hate as I hate the S of the Gmorra says whenever it says the word S. Huh? S is for example what's put your flesh is that which is subservient to your flesh what is that the hear that's how we know you have to put the here in the mikvah why should I put my here in the mikvah my here is not my body the answer is because it says espec >> that which attached itself to as >> I the clip all the clippers that attached like says always that as in its source is and it's even higher than that's why but the way the problem is fell in as himself doesn't know who he is so wanted to bring as back to his core but he wasn't ready for that and that's why the bra had to go to Jacob and one day yakov will be able to give it to as so the s asov the tuffle of asov son that which became of Asov which is even alien to himself. >> Right. So in a way there is a job here. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. >> Yeah. But the word we see in very negative terms because in our world the world hatred is like evil, >> right? But the truth is those who are really in love with goodness must hate evil. And if you don't know how to hate evil, you don't know how to love goodness. The reason our world doesn't hate evil is not because they're lovers. It's because they don't know what love is. They don't love. They just want to be comfortable and they want to be moral relativists and they don't want anybody to mix into their life. So they don't want to say that there's good and wrong. There's good and evil. There's no good, there's no evil, there's no truth, there's no falsehood. It's all perspective. That's why they don't hate because they don't know what love is. >> Yeah. The greatest lovers have the most sin. Not sin. They're not haters. They're lovers because they're lovers. They hate. Yeah. When they see a child being tortured, they hate they hate it. They hate that evil. They hate the evil. They really hate it. And to be a person, you want to be a person, hate evil. Don't be afraid of the word hate. We're so afraid of any emotion because we're not allowed to have emotions to anything because the world has to be a dead place. So it could be godless. So everybody could be mis with every mistress in the world and feel good about themselves. And then of the universe what love is. Those who love God hate real. They hate they hate evil. But they're not haters. They're lovers. But their love is not wishy-washy. Their love is real. Because the love is real. The hate is also very real. But it's not a hate because I'm a hater because they're jealous, narcissistic, because of their selflessness. Those who have real love have much deeper s. But it's not there's no >> because it's antithetic to love. >> It's antithetical to the love. It's destroying all the goodness in the world. It's the love. It's real hate. Real hate. Authentic hate. I'm talking about real hate meaning divine hate, so to speak. I don't know if I could use that word. Is really love. It's all love. It's all love. If you see a beautiful child and you love this child and somebody comes Yeah. with with with a knife to slice the throat of this child, what what's what's the most loving thing to do? >> Destroy him. And if you stop and say he has a perspective and his mother didn't nurture him and I'm going to send him to California for anger management >> and then maybe to Peru for a couple of journeys >> and he's human and he didn't have what to eat last night and he has grievances and nobody ever paid for his therapy. Beautiful, beautiful emotions. If he's not slicing a throat of a child this is where people become they become sick they become crazy so a so now so this what's this the is this aa that is beyond you can't say but I sinned see the words of the I want you all to understand this he's missing all the madas and he's tak missing it's not that he's not missing We're not naive. He's mish like Asov. So you deserve to be hated. So what's the So he says, but this is the from which is to your and that's what that's what the heart hears. That's that's that's the that's tugging on the heart in the in the plym. That's the guys. You guys feel this? You feel this? This is the key for everything. All self-respect, all self-love, all living as a channel with real love, with real humility is based on this and [snorts] and and and we have to realize how deeply this is damaged in so many of us. Not consciously. If it's conscious, you could work with it much easier. It's much more unconscious. Of course, everybody says yes. God loves you. Thank you, Hashem. Thank you, Hashem. But I'm talking in the experiential deep deep belief system in our mind and nervous system in our body. It's much easier to say You ask me say of course I'm worthy and love me and I want of course we all want to be loved but remember I want to tell you this to young people don't know it's scary to be loved okay [laughter] to really be loved is scary you know why because to really be loved in your essence means that you really matter and it creates the deepest forms of responsibility in life because it means that your energy is significant what happens if you experience even for one second that is crazy about you what do you think happens to you what do you think you could never you could never ever see yourself as again the word I don't matter what I does what I do doesn't matter that's that's gone from your vocabulary that's pretty hard isn't there a comfort in saying nothing matters I sleep in. I don't sleep in. I show up. I don't show up. Big deal. I'm just a little guy for three weeks. I want to be depressed. I want to eat potato chips on my couch with Coca-Cola, right? For three weeks. Watching clips. Watching clips. I don't mean Rabbi Y clips. That would be good. But other clips with a couch with potato chips. And you know that feeling you say officially you have the flu for three weeks. You have the flu. What does it mean atmos loves you? Atsmos loves you MEANS YOU'RE AT THE CENTER OF THE WORLD. [laughter] [gasps] It means the whole system is is is invested in you. That's heavy. It's it's not so simple to say love me. >> It's very heavy. >> It's heavy. And if you're not feeling the bliss now, really it's not heavy. Really, it's infinity. It's it's not heavy. It's bliss. But but I want you to understand the resistance. The resistance is heavy. >> The resistance is heavy >> based on where we're coming from. >> It's like Marishia when he was created it wasn't like OKAY AND IF I DON'T GO IF I DON'T SHOW UP FOR DAVIN YANKER WILL SHOW UP FOR DAVIN. THERE'S A BIG MINION IN Muny without me. Lakewood will survive without me including Mayor Shar and Benre and Kira Safer and Kiry Belza. Everybody will be fine. I could stay home. It's fine. I could watch TV today. We're done. We're good. When Donald Trump wakes up in the morning, yeah, he doesn't say to himself whenever, I don't know when he wakes up, two, he starts tweeting 2 in the morning, 3:00 in the morning from the basis, whatever it is, when he starts sending off his boscals after, right? President of United States of America, you know, from the gatkas to the whole world and the whole world because and everybody has to hear about it, right? You'll forgive me. Early put him this year. Yeah. The one thing one thing Trump does not think is right. I could just lock myself in a room and read a novel by Toltoy or Dstfki and the whole world will just he knows. >> Huh? >> He matters. And all the newspapers in the morning are waiting for his mood to see what his mood is 6:00 in the morning. What's happening in Iran and what's happening in China and what's happening in Israel and what's happening here? What's happening here? >> Yeah. Trump from Trump you could learn what's and every person has to say sometimes maybe too much. >> [snorts] >> But that's really the what's but come on we we say you're a little little guy go to therapy and put your ego in place cuz by us is narcissism. This is a different nikuda. If you can experience the love of atsmos in you, there's no bliss like that. But it's a level of responsibility. It's not responsibility because of pressure because you're a sick person cuz I hate you cuz I want to put you in gehenna. IT'S RESPONSIBILITY LIKE GOD IS responsible because it's your love. It's your godless. Suddenly you realize who you are. Love expands you. It doesn't limit you. Love tells you you matter in the deepest core of existence. And that's what everybody needs and everybody wants, but we run away from it because it's too good to be true. And it's intense. Intense it is. >> Yeah. >> Self-conident, but only to support our ego. >> Yeah. We want self-confidence as long as self-confidence can support our smallalness. TELL ME I'M IMPORTANT, BUT ALSO add but not that important. You're important, but you can go on vacation for 60 years. It's fine. YOU'RE IMPORTANT. GOD loves you, but you're an idiot. You're important only as big as your ego allows you to be important. Confidence to support my ego, not confidence to support my insight. That's that's too much. Leave me alone. So that's the that's at the core of everything. And this is not I sinned, I didn't sin, I blemished, I'm I messed up. Those are all important things that he's going to address. Once you register this, it's going to be fixed. We're not worried about that. But this of not because you're not a brother to you are a brother to and you're identical to Asov. It's not naive. It's not naive. It's not because I don't know certain secrets about you. If you would know these secrets, what happened when I was 24 years old Tuesday night when I went to Hawaii, you wouldn't look at me ever again. So God says, "I know and I was there and I look at you and I see you and it's tak but there's the that comes from to your and the moment I see that the love is is infinite. It's a love from atmos and that's I'm asleep but my heart subconsciously detects coi this is all the of the word doi that's what he was explaining doi and because it's doi it's a it's not a little tiny knock like h you know you know when you knock and you're afraid of the person answers no no this is dikite where did he get the word doesn't That's what means. Means, you know, the pounding on the door, >> huh? >> Search war. >> Yeah. >> It's not It's not hesitant. You knock a little bit. If there's no answer that you go away, you run away. So, you're not caught, you know. >> Yeah. Doik is I'm here because I'm here. >> Open the door. That's what the is saying. It's not even two separate words. The ava says, how does love, if you could put words to ava, what are the words? It's not two separate things. Now, he comes and SAYS THE DOIC is if you put words to the bang, if you put if you put words to the knocking, what are the words? If you put words to the what's the is allow me to love you. Allow me in. Allow me into that place. Allow me to come in. >> No, you're wrong. The big banglazi is the doi. Why is it called a big bang? Because the whole creation IS DOIC. THAT'S WHY IT'S BIG BANG. WE JUST NAILED IT. THEY think they called IT THE BIG BANG. BANG. BANG. BANG. REALLY? They were maven. It's the do. IT'S THE BIGGEST BANG in the world. There's never going to be a bigger bang. And it's continuing till today. The big bang. Everybody knows that. But you have to hear it. It's not easy to hear the big bang. The heart still hears the bang. >> The original. >> The original bang. The whole creation is what do you think creation is? The whole creation is one big. >> Huh? Now he had because I cuz I mentioned the big bank. [laughter] >> Huh? >> Yeah. >> This is it. This is it. If you can internalize this, remember I once told you I once with one mimer you can become you could be created big bang you just need one big bang he says to understand one mime you have to learn a THOUSAND BUT IT'S IN ONE MIME FIVE LINES is you know what I mean four five lines. But the challenge is not to not to believe it in my brain. It's nice. That's still nice. It's a hexa mitzvah. The challenge the embodiment of it, experience of it, because without the experience of it, it's still detached. It's just fine. It's a beautiful idea and I like it and I'll repeat it and it's even inspiring and give me a few kas. But the embodiment of it is a whole different >> of course you have to understand it. Of course, but the main thing is midas, not saying this from a perspective. [laughter] The main thing is yeah you need you need a foundation the belief system the understanding the discernment but people who think is about intellectualism have made and are making a horrible horrible mistake. It's nothing to do with that. Of course, I told you. Okay, we're going to take a break here, my dear friends. Have an amazing day. I'm going to be away. I'm going to Chicago. So, we're going to learn next week Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, 8:00 a.m. Does Shabas not? No, I'm in Chicago. I'm coming back Monday. So, Monday we want to have a class. Tuesday have a woman's class. So, we'll resume this mimer Wednesday and then Thursday and Friday and uh finish either Friday or Tinus Esther. We're going to finish before put [laughter] >> you see that I don't make up everything I said. You see, I got it from somewhere. Don't blame me. You can blame the deb. Yeah. Very nice. Good. him. Wow. [laughter] >> Very nice. very Asov wants Jacob to go with him >> and he says I can't because if I have so many children and they're young with if I push them they're going to die if if they rush. So Rashi says like you're banging on the door like I'm banging the kids it's not going to work. So he's if he can't go with as so it's galdi because this is what saves from as the co is why he brings >> no he was telling as that he can't push them to go with him because they have to go it was his way of separating from asam it's just interesting