Purim 5720 #1: “The Night that Hashem Could Not Sleep” — Say What?!

We're starting today a new mimer two weeks before exactly. So it's very exciting and special to be able to begin today a new mimer. We finished the mime another incredible mimer. Today we begin a new purim. This mimer is going to take us to Purim probably. And uh just to announce tomorrow there'll also be a class. So today tomorrow um I'm away Monday but next week we're going to learn Wednesday and Thursday and Friday. So this is a mime as you could see purim the said this mime purim 1960 at the fabangan and this is an incredible I mean every mime is incredible but this mimemer is even within my marm stands out in a very very powerful way. um both in terms of the theme of the mimer the way that said the mimer presentation of the mimer at this faban this is 66 years ago and uh I want to thank does I have a friend a bach who listens to the shimi in person and he was Pearson Beny Pearson and he was moing me a few days ago last week if I could teach this mimer so uh I decided yeah it's the right thing to do so thank you for the his and I want to thank the sponsor of this series who is anonymous and is dedicating it in honor of the fulfillment of the words of Msiah to the BMP writes in a letter to his brother-in-law of Zion 1746 he went up to Mashia and he asked Mashiah when are you going to come and he said when your wellsp springsings will be disseminated everywhere and saturate us all. So this person is dedicating it to those words and fulfillment of Msiah's words. May we see it all in our own lives and in our with our own eyes and in our inner world and in our entire world. I want to thank Kaplan for the copies. Also, three people in our class get a mazle of today. First of all, it's Ari Gluxman's birthday. Second of all, it's Kaplan's birthday. Third of all, it's Shali Gans's daughter's Bitzvah Sprint Basitzvah. Yes, guns maz. And if that's not enough's daughter got engaged this week, masletov mastovad. So a big mazle to everybody with all the blessings. Okay. Yeah. Okay. So let's begin. Theb began this on the in the beginning of the sixth chapter of the migilla. On that night, the sleep of the king was very wobbly meaning he was suffering from >> insomnia. He couldn't sleep. The word means it was like moving like when you sleep you want it to be steady you know you sleep >> settled exactly means he could not fall asleep he was anxious he was waking up and then we know what happens he calls his assistants to be able to read from him from the chronicle of everything that's happening in the palace and that's when they remind him about the story of Morai who saved the king from the assassination attempt of Bixen Vaseres and the whole continuation of the story. What happens then is he asks his adviserss what to do for Mardai, what to do for somebody who saved the king. They're not interested in helping Mardukai. They say nothing. And then Hmon is coming to the palace and he wants to tell Mardukai to what? He wants to tell the king to hang to execute Mardukai. And that's when says what should we do with the personal with the person that the king wants to give honor says to himself for sure it's me. So he gives this whole exquisite plan of how they're to be honored and then says this is what you should be going to do with take him on the royal horse and put on the royal garment and lead him through the streets of and then from there the story continues goes home goes home he's pretty depressed he's angry and then he's slept to the second party to the second feast that Esther has made for because already a day before The day before he couldn't sleep. There was the first party and when Esther was asked what do you want? She said I want to make another party tomorrow. At the second party during the drinking says what do you want? Whatever you want I'll do till half the kingdom. And that's when she says me and my nation were sold to be obliterated destroyed annihilated. And wants to know who is this man who has done it and it's this man and ultimately Hmon is executed and from there everything the ball rolls and the miracles of purim continue. So this is the beginning of chapter six. My father-in-law that's brings in his if you see it's number two. It's actually the reb's father-in-law. He came to America. He escaped Nazi occupied wars and he came here in March 1940. Tess Sheni. So this was the first mime that the previous rebb said in America in the United States in New York and the Reb is basing this mime on that mime which was 20 years earlier. This is 1960 and this was 1940. So um in that mime he brings from minhagel min is one of the minhagim of the is one of the and a lot of the minhag ashkanaz are based on the mahar who was one of the greatest authorities inkazic jury so the minurim and this is brought it's brought in it's brought in the when the is reading the migill from the words He ought to raise his voice why because here begins the intensity the power of the miracle of put so that's why but even though the whole story of the migill is the evolution of how the Jews were saved but where's the real the power the intensity of the miracle that happens here when he can't when he can't sleep anymore that's what the mariel says that's brings in his mind and he asks a question. If you really want to focus in on the details, when does a miracle really really happen? Yeah, it's not that couldn't fall asleep. It was all a piece in the puzzle. There's no question. But let's say would would be able to sleep and the saferness would not be read and hone would not slept. around the streets, it wouldn't have really changed the essence of the story. The essence of the story is that there was a party said, "I want to do whatever you want." She said, "I want another party." At the second party, he said, "What do you want?" And that's when she found a preappropriate moment and she said to him, "I and my nation have been sold to be killed." And Akash wanted to know who did this, who wants to kill his own queen, his own wife. And goes out to the garden because he's very upset. And Hmon falls on the bed to beg Esther and he comes back and he says, "Oh, now you're going to conquer the queen." And ultimately he's executed. So what was really the moment? The moment was when when Esther is pleading at the second party and is transformed from that does a very nice icing on the cake that he couldn't sleep and Hmon got insulted publicly and and already it shifted things already suddenly became prominent and Hmon was the but that's not really even if that wouldn't have happened the story would have developed is what the Esther the pleading of everything she did with her parties and her her plots which was very very strategically why she had one party and then a second party she had a whole plan it's not so pett I mean it's not ne here to this but basically Esther's plan was to create suspicion in a that hmon and the gmorra says the suspicion about hmon with her she's inviting hmon to one party you know imagine you're inviting your husband to a private party and there's one more man over there. So that itself is strange. And then a second time what was a lot we once did a whole she on this Esther understood the psychology. She uh played Hmon's arrogance against paranoia and with that she killed she she she she nailed it. You understand? That was her brilliance. She knew his arrogance and his paranoia and she made a between them and that was it. So that's the possession like this of the is that no that the what's the what's the is like the core of the miracle is what that he couldn't sleep again it's a night it's a it's a it's a beautiful part of the story but it's not the essential story even with that or without that wouldn't have made a big difference in the nest itself or Bazar. So the ayat springs about this the he says this will be understood based on is one of the big including so the says on this is not just referring to the kingd it's referring to the king of the universe. It's the king of the universe who couldn't sleep that night. who talked for now we can understand why it's tal this moment when the king of the world wasn't sleeping he couldn't sleep that night oh that's what made now we can understand what the mar is saying literally but the says when it says it's also intimating hashem so is talking about the posture of that he wasn't sleeping that Right now we understand that's the way it played itself out there were all of the dynamics that happened between Esther and in the palace but what was the this is how the answers this question on the however says but really not only does this not give us a satisfactory answer now we have a new question. It's a very funny thing. That night, God couldn't sleep. And every other night, it's it's a it's a very interesting answer. But now it bring this what do they say? This opens up a whole new uh pandura box, right? This opens up a whole new thing. Every other night and nothing bothers him. Sleep, right? And this night, what does this mean? We have the saw. The guardian of Israel, the guardian of Israel does not slumber or does not sleep. This will be understood by prefacing. The Pik says in Mish, the very famous says Mishapter 27, Proverbs 27, says just like the face that you show the water, the water reflects back to you like a mirror. The same is true the heart of one person to another person. The heart that I display to you is going to be mirrored back to me through your heart. Which means if I love you naturally, you won't even have a big choice. It works naturally. That's what says that it's not even a choice. It's it's the system that God put in. You know, sometimes you can't help. There's a certain person you say, I don't know. I love this person. I don't even know why. He didn't do me any big favors. And the reason is your heart is reflecting back his heart. It's like a mirror. The mirror doesn't have if I'm looking at the mirror, the mirror is going to show me what I'm looking at. If there's something on my nose, a scratch on my nose, the mirror is going to show it back to me. If there's something beautiful on me, the mirror is going to show it back to me. The mirror is not deciding it. You're standing in front of a mirror. That's what Malik is saying. You're looking at water. The water shows you back. It's like a mirror. The water reflects back your face. That is an inherent part of the chemistry of the way God built this world. What do they say? Kill them with kindness. Right? Kill them with kindness. Now you want to say does it always work? So the only thing I would add is a little dis. Sometimes the mirror could be broken. Sometimes there's a broken mirror and we have to understand that. In other words, sometimes that happens. The mirror is completely broken and shattered to pieces. You can be showing it all the love in the world. It would love to show it back, but it has to be fixed a little bit. So that's just a little disclaimer in parenthesis, which means you can't always blame yourself. There's a commentary of the on the we say in that same yeah so over there we say and what does he say in the next what does mean sale means your u your shadow in Yiddish is your shadow. Literally, it means that people they look for shade for for for a shadow maybe to protect themselves to like if it's very hot, they go into what you would call a shady a shady area. So that's like it's like protecting you from scorching heat. The bash says the is for protection. There's a lot of other words in Hebrew. The duk is he's your shadow. What does it mean? He's a shadow says something incredible and this is known to speak to the and give them words of encouragement with this. And what would he say? You know what's unique about a shadow? It waits for you to make the first move. The shadow follows you. You pick up your arm. You ever have a walking, right? You pick up your hand and suddenly the shadow uplifted the hand. You took a you take a you take a step and the shadow took a step. You turn around and the shadow turned around. Why can the shadow be original? The answer is because that's what a shadow is. A shadow is a response to you. It's your shadow. So says what's in the word people have tremendous power that based on the behavior of a person down here. It creates a response up there. Hashem, Hashem is your shadow. So was saying that a person has tremendous agency, right? You say that the the attitude, the behavior, the disposition, the choices that a person makes. Of course, there's a lot of things in life we don't have control. But the point is things that a person does your shadow responding to you speaks about this and says come and see the lower world our world stands. That's from the word connected parallel. Our world stands parallel to the higher worlds. And the higher world does not pass on the energy only based on the fashion on which the lower world stands. It's the posture. It's the position of the lower world that creates the flow from the higher world. So if the person in the lower world is standing and existing with a bright face means face is luminescent we say it in the ding also inavon right if that's the if that's the position that's the light that flows down from above it's literally it's a mirror it's reflecting backon upon him that disposition position. What is saying? When a person down here is in a state of a state of positivity, of joy, of positive energy with joyousness and gaity and jolliness and ecstasy. It's like the shadow. Hashem is the shadow. It creates this flow from above. on the same god forbid also the opposite. An interesting thing writes in a letter that incredible letter he writes like this that uh alter ran away from Napoleon Napoleon's war began yud tamos tken bay june 1812 Napoleon was the emperor of France and he came through Lithuania vna kavna and bleerus and he attacked and he was certain he came with 600,000 troops was probably the biggest war in history most 600,000 they're talking the early 1800s it's not the war today so and he thought you know Russia is going to fold immediately and now he'll mamish have the whole world Napoleon wanted the whole world to he made the Hitler made the same mistake of Napoleon they didn't understand the Russians he didn't understand the Russians also didn't understand yeah the Russians also don't understand the Russians it's It's almost impossible to defeat Russia because Russia never ends. It's not like America. Russia, you retreat, you retreat, you retreat, there's still more. Yeah. I think there's 11 time zones in in in Russia. It's crazy. It's not normal. Just Siberia is is is is the size. So, you retreat. You retreat. Alterba didn't want to be under Napoleon even for a moment. So, he he escaped. He escaped with an entourage. That's when he went to Russia and Ukraine and he ended up in South Ukraine. And it was such a crazy winter he he fell ill and he passed away in Ukraine in in a place called Pienna a few months later while he was on the run. So the last few days he stayed in a little town called Pienna. They rented a house from a non-Jew and there was a Jewish cemetery in Hades not so far. So that's why they took him to Hades. I'll call upon him. So the says that it was Shabas was Shabasdal. Shabas was andal was Sunday and he said he writes he was there was there and he said my grandfather heavl um and he was already not feeling well he was sick and he said he saw me dive a little later he was and I guess the felt you know I guess he felt what's coming or he felt he saw how weak he was so he said I was ding m with a niggan of that's what he says with a niggan of he was sad says my grandfather didn't interrupt me but when I finished davening he turned to me and he said over this whole z he said over this whole zy this whole zy that is and when it creates a whole different type of energy in your life and he spoke to me about this and then a few minutes later he he passed away this was the last heard this from and he writes this to somebody else who was in this. So this is the is saying that that it's not a person is always a recipient. Of course we're recipients. We're the the the we we we are the interlacing link between heaven and earth. the the the the person is rooted with the highest frequencies of reality with so it's not just I'm a passive recipient of life like you know what do they say there's three types of people those who make things happen those who watch things happen and those who want to know what happened right so he says not only you don't have to know what happen it's not only you watch things happen it's actually you have the power often to make things happen that creates it creates a momentum that even himself says I'm your shadow. I'm responding to you. That's what the used to say on the based this is this is that he explains in the mime based on the because there was a slumber asleep by the Jewish people. So this created an effect, a mirror effect that instead of a posture of they had to they were in a position where they had to find ways and advice to be able to create what it says in wake up why you sleeping here also you can ask a question. He said, "How is contradicting itself? I'm not sleeping." You just you said a few chapters later that I don't sleep. What do you think I went to sleep? So you have the same contradiction with the who says that night and other nights he was sleeping. This is what he's explaining based on the hashem that because of the person's deep deep connection to the highest levels of reality to hashem himself. So therefore when I when the person is in a position of sleep that creates the the need for and that's why you have the it was the that they woke up and also the woke up. This is the explains in the what does this mean? What is the posture of sleep? We're not talking physically. It's metaphorically. What does this mean? He explains in this in the fourth chapter when you talk about sleep as a cosmic phenomenon means it's a cosmic phenomenon. It's sleep in the general collective consciousness of the world. That's what it's the collective consciousness of the world is in a state of sleep. That's the definition of gullis. It's a very interesting definition. What is gullis? Gullis is a collective consciousness of slumber. collectively and then you have it individually also what does it mean a person is in gulus they are in a consciousness of sleep or the lack of consciousness what is what does that mean when a person is asleep they're alive of course they're alive as he's going to explain but it's a different state of being we all know when we're asleep than when we're awake of the says in the beginning of chapter five of This is going to become the big basis of this mimer. I am asleep but my heart is awake. Says the the woman the the female the bride says I'm sleeping my heart is awake. So on this the says in paral that's the words of the actually adds the wordal I'm asleep is referring to exile the exile talking about the is my heart is awake to be able to protect the nation even while they're asleep because when you're asleep you're very vulnerable you're not alert you're not conscious you know what's going on you don't you can't survey the dangers. So to protect the people in Egypt that's what the zoya says there what do we see from here that the zya is touching on is a state of gullus what's the connection because gullis represents a state of collective slumber when the world is in a state of colle that's what exile means it could be individually or collectively in the microcosm or in the macro meaning me myself or in the or in the whole world the state of gulos is like a state of sha it's a state of slumber when a person is asleep the goof the organism the body of a person is there exactly when they're awake it's not only >> not only that yeah a lot of benefits gets to hibernate so it's their bishamos >> right exactly So sleep is necessary and it's for the next day, right? We all know that if you can't go a few days without sleep. So that's that's so the is the difference is that the of the person the faculties of a person especially the the inner faculties of the person are not active or at least not active with the same intensity as during the day when the person is awake. It's means with more weakness. In other words, what is he saying? The body is still functioning. All the fun biological function functionality of the organism functions when we're sleep because that's what keeps us alive. And you even have the functioning the different faculties of a person, right? For example, in your dream there's imagination, there's ideas. Sometimes people speak in their sleep. Yeah, right. In your dreams, you can experience pleasure, you can experience fear, you can experience desire, you can experience anticipation. All these things are happening. But as we will see, it's not active in the same way with the same clarity, with the same intensity, with the same control as it is when you're awake. So the could be working even theim the internal like desire and pleasure and understanding and wisdom but it's not with the same clarity the same determination the same order as when a person is awake specifically sleep begins with closing your eyes that's the first thing that's not stam it's not stam okay you close your eyes when you're sleeping that's the seda that's the one thing where that's the clown you say person is sleeping the eyes are closed condition >> I know but it's very unique there's a medical condition the medical condition >> that's true I once saw a letter from the labb to z he was a a big a big so he says a lot of people come to the fabangans and uh to do me a favor they're not interested in being here and he writes to him and he says and therefore they sleep he says is a few of them sleep with closed eyes. Most of them sleep with open eyes. Few of them don't a few of them don't mind to sleep. I'm going to sleep. He says so medical condition. But one of the first symptoms and that's where you see that's what he says that is good starts off you close your eyes. a lot of things that's going to happen in the next few hours, the next seven, eight hours, whatever you're sleeping, but that's how it starts off. Now, here's a big I'm not going to get into. Do you close your eyes and then you fall asleep or do you fall asleep and then you close your eyes? Huh? So, it's almost like the chicken and the egg, right? >> Huh? >> The Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. A guy once asked, he was a let he went up to somebody in Shul. He had a long beard and he said, "Have a sham." When you go to sleep, does the beard go under the blanket or does the beard go on top of the blanket? A whole night he couldn't sleep. This poor guy, he didn't know the beard. This doesn't work, this doesn't work, this doesn't work, that doesn't work. The polet was asking him a question, right? Then this guy couldn't fall asleep. Yeah. But it's interesting. That's what he said that Shina starts off with. It's not okay. You close your eyes. It's better. You don't see things. You'll have less distractions. in all the other limbs. Visibly you don't see a change. The arms are the same arms, the legs are the same legs, the ears are the same ears, the mouth is the same mouth. In the eyes, you right away see a person sleeps that what? That the that the eyes are closed. What does this mean? vision is the most important thing in a person's life. What do we mean by not just physical vision that I could see of course that too right a person doesn't see we know what the gar says in but he says here this physical vision eyesight but that the eyes of flesh see but then there's means a vision of life that what's called the mind seeing inner seeing inner knowing inner seeing the says A wise person, his eyes are in his head and walks in darkness. A fool is a what's aila has eyes. But he's not talking here about the physical eyes. He's talking about the way you live life. Aim lives life with eyes in his head. And his eyes are open. His eyes are wide open. There's a compass. There's a vision. There's direction. There's a trajectory. I know who I am and I know where I'm going. And therefore there's a destination, there's a compass and there's so the fact that sleeping means we close the eyes physically is representative of something. When a person is in a situation they don't see and they don't know what is happening around them. That's what sleep is. So he's describing here an existential situation. Whenever a person is in a dull state of consciousness, it means I do not know what's happening inside of me. I do not know what's happening around me. I'm reacting and I'm surviving. I'm living. But to be able to say I'm aware of what is happening, I'm not. And that's what it means. A dimmed state of consciousness. There is some form of consciousness because without that the person is not alive. But in consciousness itself there's expansive consciousness, open consciousness, openeyed consciousness. It was Helen Keller once said, you know, Helen Keller couldn't see and couldn't and she once said the only thing that's worse than not having eyesight is lacking vision. That's the only thing that's worse than not having eyesight. That's what he's saying. Lacking vision. Yeah. And she had a lot of vision. She couldn't see physically, but she had a lot of vision. Yeah. And emotionally it's a very painful state because I'm basically reacting. There's no clarity in me who I am, what is happening inside of me, what is happening around me so that I can initiate, I can create the program for my life. It's basically I'm like I'm unaware. I'm unaware. So it's a form of emotional lifelessness. Like when a person is asleep, they don't have that awareness. >> Huh? >> Yeah. Yeah. One of the most painful things in life is when a person has, and I think some of us will relate to this, a lack of awareness. They're traum. They just have no awareness. Right. All the beginning of all growth is awareness. people who have deep, deep wounds, but they're simply unaware. And sometimes, not only they're not aware, their entire life is dedicated to avoid awareness. Did you understand what I just said? Their entire life is brilliantly designed to create a functional situation where I avoid awareness because the awareness is going to force me to confront things that I never wanted to confront. And it's not easy. So therefore our survival templates concoct and devise brilliant brilliant mechanisms. You think engineers are beautiful are brilliant. The brilliance of this psychological engineering to make sure that all awareness is avoided so I can stay asleep. Wake me up afterwards. It was the mashovich. So he used to he used to I guess make fun of the so he once said you know you guys stay up a whole Yeah. And then you early in the morning. Yeah. So I was talking to I said by them l they wake up because lol yeah so just keep me asleep keep me asleep and don't bother me. So it represents something. It's simply a lack of awareness. The world can be turning over. You know you have the bakham in the dormitories and they sleep through anything. The house is going everybody's going crazy. See the ceilings are falling in ash loft. So in a person's life, yeah, this is falling apart. This is falling apart. This person is I'm sleeping. Even in myself, I don't know what's happening. I person do not know what's happening with me. So ignorance is bliss, but ignorance is also dangerous. So that's the state of sha. My eyes are closed. And sometimes I don't even know they're closed. I think my eyes are wide open. I see everything. But the truth is I'm cut off from reality. I'm really not in touch with what's happening in reality. It's a very painful situation because you could sometimes be a person could live decades and decades and decades like this and it it works out with their brilliant minds. They compensate for this and they figure out they create a GPS. I go here, I go there, I go there, but there's no real intimate awareness of what's happening. That's the that's the situation. This is communicated also when it comes to means listening which is lower than the main idea of listening is discernment. Discernment means yeah discernment to discern between day night light darkness truth falsehood authenticity msra that's what real shm is not just I can hear but real ish to know what to hear how to hear to be able to hear to be sensitive you You know it's it's a it's a head to to be able to detect. It's called detecting. That's what is to detect. So just like there's that allows you to see the reality is another way of stimula that comes in that allows me to detect reality through seeing and this hearing. Those are the two major ways through which outer information comes into us and can be and we could respond to it just like it's physically but seeing and hearing that right that's how we navigate the world. The says the ear discerns words. And the word here is from the word to discern. When a person is in a situation of posture that they do not have the the ability to discern between between something that they hear that is positive, something that they hear that is negative. If they can't discern, that's again a state of sleep. You could talk to me when I'm sleeping and whatever goes in goes in, whatever goes out. The person is not in a pos in a position where they could be. In other words, there's things that you hear and you respond one way. There's things that you hear, you respond another way. There's things you hear, you got to just let it go. There's things that you hear you want to take in very deeply. There's things that you hear that I want to change me. There's things that I hear I don't want to change me. This is all a person who can see and can hear. I can see what's happening in myself at least relatively and I can hear. But in this state of sh I can't see and I can't hear. What does it mean? I can't hear spiritually speaking. I can't be This is an example and we started off with seeing because that's what happens first when you go to see but it's true with all the faculties in the soul that there's a lot of functionality but the person does not have the ability to discern you say to furthermore during sleep all the can be functioning But there's no order. There's no organization. There's no structure. Like we see it in dreams. Dreams have vision. You see things has an expression. You see a dream in aspam in Spain. In other words, you see yourself traveling somewhere. You see yourself in this particular place. So it's using the power of vision. You can hear conversations. You can have emotions. There's a whole fullfledged life experience in a dream. Everybody knows that. There's desire and there's bliss and there's anger and there's frustration and there's jealousy, right? And you're running and you're coming and you're doing. Everybody knows there is love in dreams and there's dread in dreams and there's death in dreams and there's life in dreams. All the internal dynamics are alive in the dream. But because the person is asleep, paradoxes can converge. meaning opposite things that usually can't live together suddenly could be I could be here and I could be in Australia and it's how could that be the answer is in a state of sleep it doesn't have this discernment so a lot of the dimensions that during I'm not here in Australia it's not going to my my conscious brain will not allow that but in all these paradoxes can coexist it's not a it can be a pure He doesn't want to say she could be completely antithetical to truth but in the dream somehow the is made the is made the two things coexist even though in truth they can't but it's not a sta because the sleep allows me my diminished consciousness two things that them being together is a lie suddenly can become a truth it's fine it works >> so what is it like really space and time or hallucination. >> So that's a good chil. So says both are true in a conscious way. It's hallucination on a deeper level. This was really tuning into a place that's beyond time and space where paradoxes could converge. Says that are rooted in not inim circle higher lower it's all one. It's beyond time, beyond space, beyond definition, beyond description. That's whereas are really tuning into. But the way it's manifested consciously, it's a dim state of consciousness. And therefore, right, I'm not committed to the truth. Things that are lies can coexist. And that's what we were talking here about from an existential point of view. What does it mean to have a clear consciousness? It means that you don't tolerate lies. It means that a soul is authentic. and inauthenticity. A soul is allergic to inauthenticity. And every child is allergic to inauthenticity. And if the child experiences inauthenticity of any form and fashion and not necessarily by people who are trying to be inauthentic, but maybe people who never learned what it means to really be authentic because they had to shut down their authenticity. So what that does to the system is people stop they stop trusting themselves and they don't know who they really are. They don't know who they're not. And now what happens is I don't even have the detective ability to be able to say this belongs to me. This doesn't belong to me. Like for example, one of the things we see by people is if you learn to copy others and not to be able to trust your instincts, trust your energy, know what is authentic, what what is inauthentic, because basically I need you to tell me what's right, what's wrong. And my entire life I could be like this. My consciousness is not alive. It's not clear. There's no inner trust, inner knowing. It was never cultivated. That's just one one manifestation of it. So a state of sleep is that things can exist and it doesn't have to be true and it's here. It's fine and I could move on. When when consciousness is open, no, this is inauthentic. It does not belong here. Does not belong here. It's it's it's a real sensitivity. Now it's not so easy to live like that. Sometimes we like to be asleep. You know, when you're asleep, you could tolerate things. You could tolerate you could sell me the Brooklyn Bridge. Sell me the Golden Gate Bridge and put in the Zap Tap Z and the George Washington all on the same star. >> Huh? Yeah. Yeah. So that's the from this we understand that really here is a metaphor. It's a metaphor of what's the metaphor. says, the P says in lift up your eyes to heaven. Lift up your eyes upward and look who created all of this. Look, that's one P. For this, you need to open your eyes. Look, I want you to look. Then you have another P. You all know this PM. Now, open your ears. One is saying, lift up your eyes. That's now I want I want you just to listen. In other words, what is saying is open your eyes. Open your ears. I'm not trying to teach you anything new. Look and listen. This represents both vision and hearing in a person's awareness. It's no one else has connected to is always seeing something. It's like when you see something wow it's like the epiphany you got it you see it in one is a process that's the difference of is that's like it's like if you come and you see a beautiful landscape in one second you saw everything now you can sit and analyze it but how long does it take to see it a split second that's what is boom aha an epiphany yeah a vision is different if somebody's telling me a story it's detail by detail by detail at the end I concoct the full picture, right? If I see a story, I saw it in a second. If I hear a story, I can't just hear it in a second. You have to tell it to me like reading a book. You tell at the end I bring it all together isal is starts with and then you can go into wow what a beautiful place canyon. Okay, now let me look at this. Let me look at this. Let me look at this. In in it's the opposite. You start off with details. That's it of bina is the full vision in one but it's still nebulous it's still beyond details and bina is the opposite bina is the analysis the scrutiny the building of bina from the word right like you're building a structure it's not the vision it's building it so that's why he says that's and what what do you want to say >> sometimes you understand more than he can say. >> I hear you. >> Huh? >> You see him? >> Oh. Oh, I see him. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. See, see. Yeah. Yeah. And this doesn't only remain in the mind. It translates into the seeing and the hearing of physical eyes and physical ears. In other words, your physical eyes see me. You look at the creation. You look at every insect. You look at every reptile, every fish, every every bird, every organism, right? Every every of the bria. What were you saying the other day this year by the door? Were you telling me about you remember when we were walking out here? Huh? >> About electromagnetics or something? >> Oh, everything is energy fields, >> right? In other words, everything is when when you start looking at the world. Yeah. And you peel away layer after layer after layer. It's even you see that everything is energy. Everything is and ultimately it's all divine energy. Everything. And the only reason it's the only reason I think it's not because I'm not looking. I'm not really looking. I'm closing my eyes. Maybe not physically I'm closing my eyes, but I'm closing my eyes to really look at the depth of what reality is. When this is missing, when a person starts closing down their eyes and closing down their ears and instead of they're missing this, so now they go into a la land. Now you go into a world of survival. Now I'm asleep. I'm basically reacting. This feels good. I'm going to run into this. This is a good distraction. I'm going to go into this. They don't have a vision of what is really reality. What are you seeing? What are you hearing? And based on this, they build their life. So here the person could fall a mata mata lower and lower because now they're just constantly in responsive mode. They're reacting. They're not initiating. They're responding. They're not creating. They're not coming from a place of inner knowing and inner awareness. So it's basically what works right now. It's rather survival rather than existence. This is the why is the consciousness of gull called sleep. The answer is when you speak about basikt versus gullis it's not if there was a building or there was no building of the bas it's not only about geography or political or military sovereignty. Obviously you have those manifestations as well but it's really a state of consciousness. Golos is a state of consciousness where consciousness is asleep. Gula is a state of consciousness where you're awake. What does it mean you're awake? It means there's truth. You feel the truth. You experience the truth. You see the truth. You hear the truth. And your are sensitive to truth. They will not put falsehood and truth together. So that's what he says in the beginning. When it says three times a year, you come to see and you come to be seen. Gammorra says in the beginning, what does this mean? You're not only being seen by Hashem, you're coming also to see. I want to see you, you want to see me. So there is an experience of shared vision, shared seeing in a relationship. I see you, you could see me. So with Hashemos, the mission says there were the 10 miracles that were done. Even with eyes of flesh, people could see them. In other words, they could see a deeper frequency of reality. It elevated them. Godliness was an embodied reality. It was a real reality. As the mid gets destroyed, what it means is that the person's consciousness goes into exile. We do not see our ISIS, our signs, our miracles. He doesn't say there's no ISIS. It's the same Isis. It's not that the reality changed. It's not like is not here. It's not that not I can't detect it. It's hard for me to live with it. So therefore I live in a place of anxiety or I live in a place of of of despondency or I live in a place of alienation. I'm not open to experiencing the flow the vibrancy of reality. The pain of the mikash creates a disassociation from reality. So I need to create a substitute reality. And what happens is my eyes are shut, my ears are shut. So therefore I'm not living in consistent with reality. And whenever you don't live in consistence with reality, the system is not functioning well because you if whenever I'm not in synchronization with reality, so what happens is there's something in my system that is not that knows it's not real. So there's a pain over there. There's an anxiety over there. There's an anxiousness over there. >> Yeah. An uncertainty and a very deep deep pain. So say there are that's what he says means I don't detect it. I don't see it. I'm shut down to it. It's all around me. It's all inside of me, but I don't know it. So, I build a whole life around not that that not knowing. And I could live my whole life like that. That's internal gulos. I'm exiled from myself. I'm exiled from myself. I'm disassociated for myself. I don't know my own energy. I don't feel my own energy. I don't know my divine energy. I don't know that. I don't know that. I don't have I don't have the So, I live in like a substitute reality and I make it work. But I'm making it work in an exile situation. This is called gene. >> What's midedic? What >> I mean we can in our generation we can relate to a different way. >> Zug >> everything is everything is creation. It's like a program. >> Yeah. >> Today in the age of AI you know you don't need any longer to write the program you have to speak. >> Yeah. >> You speak to AI it will write. >> Yes. >> So everything is everything. Yeah. Today we know that is everything >> beautiful >> beautiful it's true it does say comes from the word is also because the whole world is really everything is it's we always talk about right so it's allis >> huh >> the good word yeah everything is but we don't see the ISIS And therefore we don't see the as in the miracles says what's he says. The whole life is one big miracle but I'm not m in it. So therefore I need to be in control and I think I'm in control. And if something is not working out the way I need it. I go into a frenzy and I become chaotic. Why? Because I need a control. Why do I need a control? Cuz I say cuz my eyes are shut. My ears are shut. I plug in my ears. is, you know, you go on the airplane, you plug your ears, you don't want anybody to bother you, you shut your eyes, you blindfold yourself, and you live your life. The problem is I forgot to take off the blindfold. You know, when you shut when you forget to shut the alarm, the fire alarm, and it's still sounding. I have to I have to open my ears and open my eyes. Yeah. Now since said is your shadowon and just like the water the face we show to the water it shows back to us that's the higher reflects back to the lower the heart that the lower shows him. So the state of sleep down here creates hashem. He is your shadow. It emulates this posture, this position of sleep. In lie of the fact as it says in him, the eyes of God are directed towards the righteous and his ears are directed towards their cry. That's the state of are directed to as the says the eyes of they scrutinize they survey the entire earth or all the other terms that the uses to describe divine providence whether it's seeing whether it's hearing like he says hashem because of the lack of the down here, the lack of the of the synchronization, the lack of of response of connection. So it generates a response in the expression of the means goes up, ascends higher and higher. Now the truth is just like in a dream we said before it's not that the kas are not here. They actually go to a place of eigulum. They go to a place that's higher than time and space and structure. But in the consciousness of the person I'm just asleep. I don't even know what's happening. So in the consciousness of the person he ascended up there. This is what the says wake up while you asleep. What's sleep? So he says just like when we sleep paradoxes converge. So suddenly you look at the world and you see the hashgaka is producing paradoxes. Opposite things are happening. And in our conscious brain we can't make sense of it. Just like you can't make sense of a dream. The worst thing you can do is try to make put try to force your dream into logic. Good luck. A dream is a dream. It it follows its own rules. It follows its own dynamics. Conversations when we're awake follow one pattern. Dreams, if you try to force the circle into the square, it's not going to happen. The definition of the dream is that it operates in a different way. It's completely. It's like a difference of the conscious and the subconscious. You know, in consciousness, there's order. This doesn't make sense. In the subconscious, tell your subconscious this doesn't make sense. People try to do this whole life. Good luck. Subconscious couldn't care less if it makes sense. It doesn't make sense. I'm not addicted to your forms of logic. It's a different it's a different dynamic. Huff him come out. So in the source it's very very rich. But the way it comes out consciously is oh my god this is this is it's called insanity. It's called crazy. Dreams are insanity. In fact they reflect the insanity of people, right? They're like a vista into that like things that are much deeper inside of us. They come out in dreams. They can't come out in the middle of the day because they're going to be expelled and you're going to be deemed certified mishuga. But in the dream, right, it's fine. But the way it comes out in a conscious way is that it's it doesn't make sense. There's no logic here. It's like you can't wrap your brain around it. And that's exactly what gullis looks like. On one hand, there's a tremendous flow, tremendous flow of good, but who feeds off it? instead of it being feeding goodness that hashbah everything is from but that hashbah somehow ends up in a place that's not good antithetical to good so that's where him is everything comes from and yet who's owning the energy or who who's manipulating who's getting the energy it's ending up in a place that's not good not only that you look at a world and you see it's full of lies there's nothing truth about it and it's God's world how can that We call it what do you mean? This is what he means. That's a state of That's a state of he doesn't want to say it's told from the in other words in MS. What's the you've chosen us elevate us to be ambassadors of light to bring the goodness to the world to represent the holiness in the world that's the like it was not because of arrogance because of the because of the humility because you're to be a channel for hashem you have to be completely you have to have a death of ego but instead what happens is you look at a world and it's he says in the strangers who came in, they invade, they take over and they're up and you're completely down in the dumps, right? It's also in a person's life. The part of you that is divine, that's in the dumps. And the toxic parts of me, they are running the show. Where? How does that happen? How does that happen? Where are they even getting energy? It's all energy from Hashem. And yet, it's a situation where you look at a world, you don't have to see Emis. You could see you could seek prevail. That's a state of collective sleep. Collective somnia. That's what it is. And sometimes you have it in communities. Everybody is asleep. Hello. Mishloft. Mishlo. Ml. So they could be using holy energy, but it's completely feeding corruption or dysfunctionality individually in people's lives and and and and and communally. And here is collectively the whole world. And I it's a she. It's fine. It works. It works. Let's go on. You smile, you take your coffee, you go to Davin, and you move on. Right. He's describing here something very, very, very real. >> Pragmatism. >> Huh? >> Pragmatism. >> Yeah. Pragmatism. >> Whatever works. >> Whatever works. Whatever works. Yeah. And those who protest, they're deemed mishuga cuz you're shaking the boat. You're creating a ruckus and everything is working. Everything is functional because it's functional because the superficiality prevails. And on a superficial level, it's fine. and lies celebrate and the truth is merit the truth goes under cover that's a state of collective somnia sometimes an entire community is asleep and the few people who are not asleep >> are in trouble yeah are in trouble sometimes happens in families a whole family is asleep there's one guy he's not asleep and they usually call him the mishuga in the family >> the black sheep >> huh grandfather >> my grandfather >> no Right. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Sometimes you look at that kid who's not ready to conform and you say that is the inala the only normal one the only one who's actually allergic. His eyes are open and he's like this emperor has no clothes. You know the story of the emperor has no clothes. Uh it's a brilliant story. There were advisers who came to the emperor. There was a whatever some tor who comes to the emperor. I don't know if he was Jewish or not. I don't want to sound like an anti-semite. And he says he has such an expensive type of fabric that nobody sees it. It's so aid. It's such a fine silk that nobody sees it. And he works on it and he gets millions and millions of rubble for it. And finally comes the day that he presents it to the emperor. And the emperor puts on this amazing cloak that is so fine. It's so adidal. It's so fine. There's no density. There's no crus. There's no grabkite. And the whole nation that was being hyped up to be able to appreciate this royal government comes out to see the emperor in the first voyage in this beautiful, beautiful cloak. And there's one kid who goes to watch and he screams, "THE EMPEROR HAS NO CLOTHES." Until today, he's in. My brother told me a joke. There was a If you have to for this, you have to understand Soviet propaganda. So uh there was a Jew who went to the Red Square in Moscow and he screamed that is okay within 3 seconds the KGB arrested him and then he was sentenced to death twice two bullets to his head so that he dies twice. So the Jew says why twice? So he says two crimes first you insulted the head of state. Second, you revealed the state secret. Okay, so those are the two bullets to the head, right? So revealing a state secret is one of the biggest crimes. So that's what this looks like. Hey MS, that's where it lives. And when you reveal it, in other words, you want people to wake up. It's not something that is you're a person. Anyway, what's going on there? I'm sleeping. >> Well, when there is a collective when there is a form of sleep, there's sleep and >> yeah, we it's very it's sometimes we could be we don't see, we don't hear. Yeah. It's not it's it's it's about a person understanding the situation that they're in or that at least other that what they're experiencing. Maybe other people are in it. There may may be less in it and that's why they're bothered by it. How does a person shift from one posture to another posture? How do you wake up? In other words, when you say waking up Hashem, what is he really saying? If everything is divine energy, so when the divine energy is stunted or concealed or repressed, that's a state of sleep, right? Like just like me, my eyes are asleep, my eyes are closed, my ears are not discerning, my kas are not functioning. So if everything is divine energy, when the divine energy is stunted or or covered over or not experienced, that's a state of Hashem being asleep. That's what he's basically describing. So how do you create? This is what the real of meaning since the faculties of the soul all the way from sight all the way to the lowest faculty are in a state of sleep. So therefore a person has to know that he's not in a position where he could lead them that they should function properly. Not only that they can be deceptive. They can play games with you. Explains quoting the we have sides within us that are in Aramaic means bad like embarrassing and means sides. The says that you see people's dreams are so strange. It's basically a lot of the demons in us and the skeletons in us are throwing a party during the dreams during the when we're we're awake they stay you know they stay asleep what do they skeletons come out the middle of the night you know they come out of the closet so he says sometimes the dreams are so filled with torture and pain they're laughing from you they're basically describing to you the dysfunctionality that's living inside of you >> yeah that's what the zire says Freud was a very big uh Freud is officially the one who discovered this but it says this in zire In other words, they're telling me things that about what's happening inside that I'm not ready to face. And here they they laugh at me, they cause me pain, but it's really representative representatives of forces that I have no control over. So he's saying that a person has to understand is that sometimes I'm asleep and there's a lot of stuff going on in a person's life that because he's in a state of sleep, he doesn't know how to have the agency to be able to deal with it. That's a state of even when I'm awake. So So what what does this doesn't create hopelessness? So now it challenges you to go to a much deeper place. So now the person has to go into a place that's deeper than the place that can't fall asleep. There's always an where there's no sh the inner knowing of the soul is a place that you never shut down your eyes. You never shut down your ears. You know everything. The inner eye saw everything. There's a lot of parts that can go into sleep. Shut down. Shut down. Don't see. Don't hear. And we become crippled by it emotionally. We become inauthentic. We tolerate it. We become inauthentic with ourselves. By the way, the first condition of all of this starts always internally, not with other people. Whenever I'm inauthentic with myself and I live a life that's inauthentic, this is a state of my consciousness is not awake. I don't know what's happening. And that's why I and I delude myself. And sometimes people do this at a very very young age. Right? You maybe there's certain people you don't want to blame. I'm just giving you one example. There's certain people you don't want to blame in your life because you don't want to lose your relationship with them. Yeah. I know somebody who went through a lot of in whatever very painful stuff. But because it was too painful for them to believe that these people were not really healthy to put it mildly. So the person decided that he's a mishugna as a kid. You understand? Because if I'm a mishuger, it's much better. You're you're good. You're good. You're amazing people. I'm weird. I'm just a weirdo. I'm needy. I'm crazy. I have all these problems. I'm the problem. And that's how they protected all these people, right? Forget about what it does to self-esteem. But think about the inauthenticity. But your soul knows that's not true. Your soul knows that you're not a mush. >> Right. Completely not. And blamed himself. Blamed himself. Ah, >> gives authenticity. >> Yeah. Yeah. We give up authenticity for connection or at least fake connection because real connection you don't have you have to give up authenticity. If it's real connection it's authentic. Authenticity and connection are the same thing. But in my own mind I'm g give up authenticity for perceived >> as a child. Yeah I don't have discernment right. So what happens is I continue as an adult but I'm still asleep. I'm not conscious. I'm not aware and I can't be conscious because it's too painful. So I live with with with with with ideas that are very inauthentic about myself and I could continue to live there. So the says what's the is you have to go to the place that was never ever disrupted. It was never ever manipulated. It was never exploited. That's what he says are the faculties that are revealed. They're conscious and they could be played with. You could play with my mind. You could play with my heart. You could play with my trust. You could do that. If I didn't have a foundation, preverbal, especially developmental states, you could play with all these things. But there's an you can't play with God. You can't play with the core of the soul. You can't. The problem is I don't have access to that. That was like buried buried deep down. But it's always there. When that comes out, you see, oh wow. Oh my god. It's like literally the blindfolds are removed from your eyes. It's even hard. You can't even describe it in words. I don't know if any of you relate to this but that oh my god wow 50 years of sheer 50 years sleeping 50 years sleeping 50 years under Iraq literally 50 years under Iraq no sleep under I rock or in my other marshall 50 years in the in in the egg of in the egg of the chick 50 years the chick is trapped in the egg 50 years 40 years 30 years 53 years 60 years whatever it is name your number >> 52 mle It's a yamas today. So, it's a new year. We'll come out of the egg. Huh? You too. Huh? >> You can't breathe. But you didn't know you can't breathe. Imagine somebody's choking me. But they deluded me in thinking that this is actually the most beautiful way of living. Imag lit. Imagine the tragedy. And this is this is literally true in a person's life. And it's not only true in people in dramatic. Sometimes it's true. You'll forgive me for saying this. the people who are the most normal and functional. Sometimes this is the worst because everything is worked out so perfectly to avoid any confrontation with this. I've seen this. Everything is worked out. It's like it's right away neutralized. The enemy is neutralized so fast we don't even get close to these places. So how do you even know you have it? Deep deep down you have to see how much real do you have? How many distractions do you look for? How many do you get triggered? Are you defensive? Are you busy eating? Are you busy binging? Are you busy escaping here, there, there, there? There's a reason for everything. The soul is authentic. Now, the authenticity of the soul, nobody will ever be able to rob. That's what nephesh means. Nevish means going to a place that's deeper than all the surrendering all of that because there's a place that was never asleep. It can't go to sleep. Consciously, there could be sleep. No question. And once you're there, oh my god. Of course you see everything. You hear everything. You know everything. >> Nervous system is incapable. >> Yes. Yeah. Yeah. The nervous system, you can't lie. It could be manipulated and it goes into a place of anxiety. But deep, deep down, it knows all the truth. >> Right? That's what he says. And this is what real midus ne means. I surrender the ego. I surrender the conscious existence of self that was living in slumber in emotional slumber. I surrender that to to the real real truth. And that's what over there there's real over there there's real huh what happens here is he says it's even deeper. It's not just inside of you. This creates a shift in the consciousness of the universe. That's why when people sometimes feel guilty of doing this inner work, don't feel guilty because what you're doing is it literally creates a tectonic shift in the reality of the world. It's not just you're not doing work inside of yourself. You're doing work inside the whole world because Hashem is your shadow. Divine energy responds the consciousness of the universe responds to your consciousness. The consciousness of the creator responds to your consciousness because your consciousness is rooted in the creator. It's not a separate thing. So it creates like a domino effect that instead hashem ascending higher and higher which is called sleep. As it says in Hashem is asleep. What does it mean? Hashem is asleep. It means that the divine consciousness is stunted, is repressed, is is concealed. It's not present. It's latent. It's dormant. That's the word. It's dormant. The king of the world can't sleep anymore. The sleep is shaken. It's like, "Oh, it's waking up." >> So, it's a beautiful paradigm. So, when real soul is awake, >> Yeah. >> body sleep. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. Yeah. When the real soul is awake, the body can go to sleep and refresh itself. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You mean for? Yeah. This is the king of the world sleep gets gets gets shaken. Why? Because the person was that part of them that's not asleep anymore. Now there's a new order in the universe. What's the new order? The guardian of Israel does not sleep, does not slumber. It's an entirely, it's a new world order. I am asleep, but my heart is awake. What does that mean? If I'm asleep, my heart is asleep. The heart doesn't go to sleep. Everything goes to sleep. The heart functions because it needs sleep. The brain needs sleep. The heart needs sleep. The digest, all the systems need sleep. What's the is this is even though in the state of I am asleep meaning the consciousness of the eye is asleep. My heart is awake. There's a lii is the there's a core heart that every single person has audi is a nud of truth the authenticity the divine authenticity which is called the nikud of yishkite which is always potent and it's always complete true ani my entire eye my experience of I is asleep dulled consciousness, dimmed consciousness, completely unaware, inauthentic, crippled, manipulated, exploited, addicted, whatever it is with all my stuff. But there's a core in the heart that did not go to sleep for a second. It watched everything happen. It watched it with pain, >> but it was awake. It was literally, it saw it all happen. It saw the evolution. It saw every experience. It saw the responses. And it could just look and say, "Wow, wow, wow, wow, wow." And the le was just there. It was like an witness, like an eternal witness that observes the entire reality without becoming part of it. Because it's very hard when you observe something, you become part of it. It observes. It's there. It's not only there, it's your essence, but it doesn't become part of it. But it knows everything. It doesn't deny anything. That's in there's a that nobody could break, nobody could lie to. And that le is aware of everything. That's he calls it. >> So that's always awake. >> Always awake. It doesn't know how to go to sleep. That's the that's the frequency of that's your it's like a guard. It protected. It protected and it watched things go. It can't mix in. It can't mix in because it doesn't want to obliterate the person and the mission of the person because everything we go through is part of our mission. But it will not come down and stoop down to any level. It will remain in that spake of when we find that it creates a shift everywhere. And in the whole new world because you the king inside of you stops sleeping. >> So it's basically always on guard. It's like to >> it's it's fully present. It's fully present. A it's always awake. In other words, you can't fool it. You can't tell it to stop knowing. You can't tell it to stop feeling. It's a part that protests the inauthenticity in very subtle ways. The anxiety that many of us feel throughout our life is the leave sending a message. Something is off. Something is off. Something is off. Remember, you cannot fool the le. The fact that inside something is off, that's the libe air. If we would only be a machine, the machine gets manipulated. Gets manipulated. You take a piece of plastic, you reshape it, you reshape it. Why do we turn into emotional pretzels and there's anxiety? Who's who's anxious? Why didn't they manage to destroy that too? The answer is valier. And the le sends out a message. Something is off. Something is off. Something is it may take 50 years till you get the message. May take 60 years. >> Yeah. But it's there. It won't doesn't stop. It may create twitches. It may create twitches in you. May create back pain. May create stomach pain. May create sciatica. Yeah. Social anxiety, internal anxiety, defensiveness, anger, a lot of grief, a lot of pain. All this. What is it? >> Yeah. Disease. Every all these things. It's delay saying something is off. Something is off in the system. You could medicate yourself. Go eat another Danish. Go eat another pie of pizza. Go drink. Go eat cheesecake. Go take another cookie. Yeah. Disassociate a little more. Feel a little less. But the le says, "I'm still here." And it's the greatest blessing. We think it's the greatest curse, but really it's the greatest blessing because it's holding up the mirror of truth. It's holding up the mirror of authenticity. It's not asleep. It's not going to shut its eyes to reality. What a gift to be able to have that creature in your life. You think he's your biggest enemy. He's your best friend. He turns out as the only guy who ever cared for you. The only guy who ever cared for you was this this little guy who was miserable. Who who who made you miserable. >> Only one who ever abandoned you. >> He never abandoned you. And he holds up a mirror or she holds up a mirror of truth. And sometimes we're even blessed to have this in relationships to have one person in our life who did not make peace with our dysfunctionality and mediocrity and held up a mirror to that and there's points will you hate it like can't you also join the team? No, I will be the one screaming the emperor is naked. This emperor has no clothes. This is not a garment. This is fake news. I don't care if the whole country is screaming this is the most beautiful garment. But it's not a beautiful garment. You look pretty lousy. Go get dressed and come back. In this case, it's usually go take off your so we could see who you really are. I mean, that's usually how it is. But that's you hear that's the is really what is what the neph is that at the core of a person there is complete intimacy with Hashem. It's anoid mad and you know exactly who you are. You're authentic. You're divine. And therefore, you want to surrender all the fakeness. You want to surrender to the truth which is you want an ego death. This is all fake ego. And because by the so it's also the king of the world which is the heart of the Jewish people. It says, "Hashem is the rock of my heart and God is my portion forever." So just like so Hashem by him is also when you say that that's only in the but in the Liby of Hashem and he's so your heart and his heart are are mirror each other. So since your heart is always awake at some point in the core his heart is also awake that remains connected and that's the answers the whole question how is he asleep so this is what he explained the whole idea of how it works with and when the person goes into that space so the whole reality also is goes into a different dynamic of being awake Okay, we're going to stop here. Will continue tomorrow morning at 8 a.m. Thursday morning. See you then. Happy birthday to the birthday boys. >> Happy birthday. Yeah, with this you're always a boy. >> Very good. of us. Liier, >> huh? >> My daughter. >> Oh, your daughter's birthday. Okay. Wow. So, we have five mastos. Amazing. Yeah. So, this is this is this is the par this is see these are the two sides of the mimer. On one hand, he describes exactly what inauthenticity looks like. A pe a person or a community or a nation literally asleep. >> Ah, very good. Which is God's nightmare. Very good. Yeah. And on the other hand, you have to know that the la is always air. And both are true. And because of that, there's always hope. It's not like it's never a pessimistic, you know, diagnosis where we're just going to sleep forever. It doesn't work that way because there's a there's there's there's there's a part in Yiddish the word satip when they pull the trigger. Usually you wake up. Yeah. >> Huh. When you're about to fall over the building or they're about to kill you, you wake up, right? >> I hear you. I hear you. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. There was once somebody who told me an interesting thing. He said, "You see in people's nightmares, you're running away from the perpetrator, right? And you thought you got away from him and then suddenly he was there in the closet and that's when you wake up." He says, "And you'll never see in a nightmare that you actually get away from the perpetrator. You think you get away and then he's there." And he says, "You know why? Cuz the perpetrator is you. You'll see in a dream you never get away from him. You're never like you got away from him. Everything is settled. I'm live happily ever after." And now you wake up. No, no, no. It's like, "Oh, wow. You thought you got away. He's there." And then you wake up at that moment cuz that that he is you. That's the >> same reason why you can't Many times you can't run in a dream. >> Yeah, exactly. Slow motion. >> You you you try to run. You run away in a dream and then you find your legs stuck and paralyzed. You know why? Because who are you running away from? >> Yourself. The enemy you're running away from is in your legs. So, so it's slowing you down because it is in your legs. It is in you. And that's the whole var that the is projecting right the internal stuff inside of me that I'm I'm avoiding I'm running away from yeah so there comes a time where it's time to wake up and uh we like to press snooze nobody likes their alarm clock I once saw Somebody wrote that anti-semitism comes from the fact that Jews have been chosen to be the alarm clock of the world. And nobody likes their alarm clock. And if you're really angry, you break it or at least you press snooze or you turn it off. Nobody likes their alarm clock. >> Huh? >> You kill the messenger. But there comes a point where sleeping is much more painful than waking up. And if you're in that point, you're a lucky man. virus. >> You can't snooze it unless you pay money. >> Very good. That's smart. >> That's a good Jewish fundraiser. Very good. Gishmak, >> what is it? >> Huh? He says an app. In order to press snooze, you have to pay money. was in the