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lives because it's powerful it's tennis practice and that's life they don't even realize they're missing something Tucson Seattle and Edmonton and you name it Vegas foreign we're changing the whole all right and we don't have it together that would be a strategy thousand views a year one of the German Guardsmen brutally there's no God out there and so there will be no cheers our good friends the Arabs don't take care of the Jews in Palestine American Jews will take care of themselves they will disappear s thank you is the other person I wasn't about to work so I'm gonna grow up with that grew up in the regular circles like everybody else ever lived out of town that I don't have their Forks I'm special tools to know how to talk to somebody but I just try to be nice try to be myself try to be pleasant and try and make that one step to initiate something lies the living in a very isolated community and they don't realize so interesting when they doing everything universities side besides um foreign thank you and I got here about five minutes before dinner started you know the actions foreign this is use alignment s thank you years ago conservative movement and reform movement was strong and Orthodoxy was weak and struggling at these schools are the first starting and it was after the war people were first trying to get their feedback on the ground but from Ivan was just interested in let's maintain what we have let's be insulin let's understand that this is Yiddish kite and everything out there besides us is strong and clear separation this is the hid this is a gun this is kosher this is Trey and it served a very valuable purpose and we're only around today as from Newton because of those steps today from kite is much more accepted it's much stronger all one has to do is go to the to the Madison Square Garden today is out there are no longer the antagonists and the bundest and the judiciousness out there is just plain eating that hardly knows how many times have I sit on an airplane looking at somebody next to me says oh you're looking for the OU look over there behind this there this is there's the OU over there what they're really trying to not look at the bag of peanuts they said oh you they're really trying to tell me look over here in my seat I'm here I'm a heed too I might not always look for the OU like you but really I'm in the same ballpark As You Are and I can react to ways then I can say oh thank you very much and eat the peanuts go back to sleep on the plane or I can say oh I see you know about the OU where you're from did you go to Hebrew school oh yeah yeah stop telling me my grandfather was this and my mother was this and I didn't really go to yeshiven I don't really know and I'm not sure you know I was bar mitzvahed you know and that starts the conversation and really many times one out of five or one out of six positions whatever that's a signal and the signal usually is hey I'm Jewish the value that I place to grow up in the house that I grew up in and to go to yeshivas that I was able to learn America is all about see that no it's not normal to have a stable home for people to have a stable relationship what's the meaning working successful vacations it's a bunch of things and how things go from generation to generation and the way he speaks with such a power and he turned to the audience and he said you know we always have to learn from our Bubbies and I'll say this how exactly the hadraha that we have to have that we have but whoever said that your body and I knew exactly because we are there attitude they're coming in the early 20s mid-20s they're revising 40 56 year old adults successful professionals are going on to four of us and the rabbis tell me if you don't teach your kids use value somebody else and so true that is that's the values that we have the more badcounters there'll be good quality people and work harder those values are very westernized the thirsty you say uh good job is to somebody he says oh yeah good job they're just a full destruction internet fell in my school very successful mid-30s making money as fast as he can imagine brilliant guy and everywhere he turns he sees a deal and he's making big money pulls into my driveway one day with his brand new Porsche Boxster you know my son goes out in the driveway looks at the Boxster looks in the Box who loves his Boxster the guy comes into my house and he comes into him I said come on circus Tell Them White Circus come into the sucker so I bring up my little of an s-rig and you know he puts on his yamaka and I called my son the one who's admiring the Boxster column over I said show so and so um had eventually wouldn't answer so my son chosen that's right he turns it upside down hold it like this right hand left hand the guy says wow how old are you my son says he's eight he said you're eight you know that whole bracha by heart and you know how to do all this he said you're amazing so I said to my son he's got the Boxster he's got all the money he's got everything you know he was amazed at you know how to make a brother foreign is a family in relationship with those whoever these kind of things or not so again I'm a Wall Street guy directionally that was a very bad Trend and I just made a decision that I was not going to be linking that chain that was just gonna be the dilution of my family's Jewish conditions you're afraid to be a friend but a stranger which I don't know is ready they're waiting they're not looking for Science and for losses feeling of Shoppers the same way and an interest in a same way the case but you know something's touching and they feel something it's something and in the non-religious world you know we're losing our children we're losing them the kids don't know what to do they're going to drugs or to relationships they shouldn't get involved in this one thing observance and the lifestyle has brought us you know a clear path and a way to raise our family and our kids a young couple drove up to a house and the fellow said rabbi I'm wearing Miami Titus so I say great Andre that's tremendous and then he goes on and tells me Rabbi I'm wearing it because of you I said I never told them to do that then he says rabbit I see that's what you do and I know it's important to you so I want to do it too and I'm doing it not because you told me but because I see that you have a happy you have a SIM card from the things that you do so I want to adapt as much as I can in my life as you in your life people are are emulating us so to speak who am I you know who I am I'm someone who learned in Yeshiva I learned in YouTube for 25 years we have the guidance of the good Island throughout the world answer our calls and if not through repeal of David I would have left Dallas a long time ago last year we took a trip of 60 Bali tuva we took him to the same the same ashhouse was on a Tuesday so instead of coming on Tuesday morning we came heir of Shabbos and we spent the Shabbos in heimberlin we spent the Shabbos in the Yeshiva we ate in the Yeshiva we stayed we stayed by the younger light in the Yeshiva and it was an absolutely it was a marvelous opportunity for everybody so much so that this past year in in Hanukkah time there was a young couple that was that had off and they said Rabbi we want to go spend Shabbos and we want to go spend time in Yeshiva so I set him up with one of my harusas so think David lifted from Dallas Texas was learning with Pinnacles for two mornings the middle of December this past year and both of them gained tremendously from it and and the khabershop that was created is forged forever raised in a you know a home that considered it important to be Jewish but really didn't give me any specific direction as to why I really should be Jewish I was dating women who were not Jewish who were Jewish but not religious or anything and I happen to have very coincidentally met who the person who's now my wife we became friends she introduced me to Jonathan I'm not uh I'm just a regular guy I'm a ball of bus I didn't have any care of training and they didn't prep me beforehand and we didn't have uh you know Mentor classes but we would meet anywhere from one to two times a week and we would go over generally a portion of Hamish these are very much lessons of life Jonathan made them very much alive for me and seeing him and seeing him with his fiance at the time you know was a tremendous influence on me as to how I proceeded now here he is he's shower Chavez and his family and you know it's a very fabric of his life you know that's who he is today he's a from Jew I gave him a gift before my wedding you know as I did with all members of my wedding party people think that I wrote an inscription and I I told him about it I absolutely would not be where I am today getting married and religious if it were not for him Dear John I give you this hagada with my most sincere thanks for being my Usher USA advisor and friend a little less than a year ago I Met You in Lincoln Square and he yelled at me for not wearing Yamaha then I told you I don't wear it to fill in and I'm sure you thought I was hopeless well today I'm getting married I have taken Avail to observe Torah not just for us not just for me but for my children and my children's children so on behalf of them and myself I offer you my deepest sex and I only hope that you Myra and all of your children attend my children's wedding Debbie and I love you both and Myra and we hope you're a part of our futures my son just wants us to try that's all he wants us to do we both tried in our Hashem you know successful growing up in Mobile Alabama what you had in front of you was the extent of the Jewish World we had reform and we had conservative and that's all I knew when I was 16 I went on a summer pilgrimage seven weeks Terrace Israel with I think 250 other teenagers and the first week we were there we were told on the first Shabbos we were allowed to go to any synagogue we wanted not knowing the environment we just decided we'd walk and see if we could find a synagogue we found a little bitty Portuguese synagogue this was my first experience with an orthodox minion after we were there for about 20 minutes a man came up to all of us and I think there were five or six of us who went together and he went up to each one and he said Cohen going and he came to me and I knew I was a Cohen I didn't know exactly what it meant and I said yes I'm a Cohen see indicates to me come with me so I followed him and he takes me into a back room he says to me take off your shoes put out your hands and he starts watching my hands at that moment I was convinced I was going to be sacrificed when I realized that nothing painful had happened yet he led me into the front of the congregation where he stood me amongst another group of men who were lined up he put a Talus over my head and I stood there while other people were saying in retrospect was Berkus calling him to me it was humiliating to be standing there and not knowing what was happening I felt like something was missing there was a piece of me that wasn't connected that needed to be connected there is no doubt that my religious growth has impacted my medical practice it became extremely acute when I decided that I'm going to wear a yamaka to work to me this was extremely uncomfortable but there is no doubt that it made me a better doctor because I realize now that every encounter I have every patient that I see must be a kid Edition I remember I was calling for our first Aaliyah first time it's embarrassing you're an environment you're not comfortable in you've never been in this environment my first Aaliyah was addressed the toy so I'm up there I'm sweating you think everybody in the congregation is watching you all eyes are on you and for somehow I was up there instead of granting the tour dress I grabbed the bema cutter and I'm trying to figure out how's this going the toilet and I'm sweating and it just was pouring down me and I just couldn't figure it out and someone handed me the address of the toilet I'll just started laughing you know is this you know so many moments like that I'm reading the Jewish times I always read the letters to the editor and the letter from a very very nice letter letter basically was saying that you know people look at women as career defines them and really that shouldn't be the defining elements of women women have value you know being in their home and raising their children is really the most amazing thing that a woman can do and this letter is signed by you know somebody who I never heard I've never knew before you know Renee Turner um so so I looked up the name picked up the phone and called I said I saw your you know I saw that the letter you wrote to the editor and uh it sounds like some you know so I'd like to meet you and talk to you about this so we met and it ended up with an invitation to a Shabbos table my wife accepts an invitation and she said we have accepted lunch with this Rabbi Rabbi Deutsch sheesh left her husband to our chavezebo which we thought was beautiful so we're gonna go to him for lunch lunch okay fine we'll go have lunch it's about an hour an hour and a half well I've got tennis is it two no problem right yeah well David chern David chernan had the most miserable experience at our Shabbos table but he'll tell you about that well this was excruciatingly difficult for me here I am in this house just filled with children nobody that I know drove there parked in front of the house and people are peering out the window and I walk in now I'm so completely intimidated and then the rabbi starts asking partial questions and all of these little kids are jumping to answer these partial questions and I'm petrified if he's gonna look to me for an answer and I'm going to be shown up by this four-year-old and this lunch would never end it just kept going on and on two o'clock of course comes and goes he drove back I didn't know this part of the story to many many years later we get in the car to go home first of all we're walking to the car my two little girls um in like second and third grade and one of Rabbi Deutsch's young children who is about to graduate from Tamina this year walks with us to the car and she goes is that your car yes are you gonna get in it yes she looks and she goes why so I get in we're driving home I I'm banging on the steering wheel yelling at my wife don't you ever accept an invitation this neighborhood again they just shot look what you've done I think it was two weeks later we were at the halperns for lunch gripping the steering wheel said don't you ever do that to me again right he was the president of the day school just a few years later he's learning kumara with me he's learning stuff yummy and he's learning more of my shoe every day no one would ever believe my life when I would become observe it I mean it was just so far out of the womb of our personalities it just it just made no sense my brother brought me back a pair to film and I pulled him out and said these are to fill in it was the first time my life ever saw to film he said you're supposed to wear these every day and I remember literally saying no thank you I don't think so and I felt bad he was crushed and my father died in November of 93. and when he died that's when it really I started asking questions and I really needed I think my religion I felt like it wasn't there I just felt like you know I was bar mitzvahed I grew up you know in Temple and doing everything we're supposed to do as a matter of fact in Fort Worth they would read the tour on Friday nights because they didn't have Saturday services and so when I struggling the services I never understood why they didn't read the tour Friday night I just didn't know and so when I really started sorry needed the foundation to lean on to kind of get me through a difficult time that wasn't there and so I started asking questions and wanted to learn and and that's when I met with Noel and I started attending classes actually went through a Discovery program that was the first introduction my wife and I had go through successful professionals our Saturdays were typically ice skating lessons or soccer games but one of us would be at the office they wouldn't or we both would be or just all over the place but we saw as we started you know going to these Shoma Shabbos homes we saw something special especially from the band the homes we went to and with the relationship they had with their children and their spouse then she became Shoma Shabbos and kosher and it was just a great journey very very special Journey you know I have a white wife I love very much I'm so proud of a successful attorney she's a partner she's in 21 years at the largest law firm in Dallas for her to become shomer Shabbos and kosher in her career what a special thing that is the commitment she's done I had four children as a partner and a major Law Firm special it's my life that really got the ball rolling I remember one Friday night it was it was before the Friday night but Renee said to me I want to make this Friday night shots I want it to be shotless fine it was ending well I don't want us to watch television I don't want to turn on any lights or you know just so I had no idea what I was getting myself into and Renee made this just absolutely beautiful meal started off with this chicken soup that I Still I Long for to this day and and I made the mistake or the unmistake of saying to Renee if you make this chicken soup every Friday night we can make every Friday night Shabbos for a year and a half the seducus I have as a wife made this chicken soup curve can be done if someone wants to do it anyway it can be done on your block it could be done in your office it could be done and sure it could be done at the restaurant it could be done on the subway it could be done at the bus stop if you know that someone is Jewish you've got yourself a potential client I can tell you how many people in in Dallas are from today because every single service we would walk by the house and they were outside in the front lawn playing baseball and we say Chavez and after a couple of months they would respond start responding Good Shabbos they didn't know what they were talking about but they said and as time went on they go oh you want to come come over for a kiddish oh come we're having shabba's party now bring the kids over okay the kids came for Shoppers body well what do you have Shoppers party today why do you give the kids so many treats well today's a very special day let me let me tell you all about it and three hours later when they're sitting there for half dollar wow this is this is this is tremendous this is amazing you know you know we do this every single week no way I'm running my Shabbos table the way I was if nobody would show up they are seeing the authentic Jewish me show them the product the product is your shabba's table the product is just six children sitting around the table singing as mirrors and if you're proud of that and that's all you have to show them and the rest will be internalized I know one fellow who on the bottom of his email he has a signature you know whatever his name his title his company and on the bottom it says check out Shabbos at ace.com forward slash whatever it is I don't remember exactly what it is and that's part of his signature so when he sends out an email to whoever if they're interested they'll check it out books there are books out there that people are willing to read there is permission to believe permission to receive there's on Judaism by Rabbi Feldman there's the menu every givea tax books I bet Becca just wrote a book there's living up to the truth by Rabbi godlib the existence of Art School the whole feldheim library is a queue of endeavor it's it's reaching out to people and trying to explain to them why to make it easier to provide the tools I'm one of those guys who's uncomfortable meeting new people because what am I going to say what am I going to do Etc I but if if all you do is when you meet a new person is find out a little bit about them that and someone's interested they see someone's interested in just engaging them and goodness gracious and Orthodox Jew is interested in engaging me or a rabbi is interested in engaging you know having a dialogue with me that's it you've broken the ice how many of us go through parenting training courses before we have children none but yet there's nothing more intricate and complicated and complex in raising a healthy stabilized child why is that it's it's just be who you are it's meeting people for coffee on a regular basis going out to dinner with them working out with them taking walks having them over to the house it's much more about one on one it doesn't say that a person has to only love someone if he has a beard if he has peace if he has a yamaka there's obviously sort of lovely fellow Jews sincerely and if you can be sincere about it then you have to have no training at all and Torah sells itself I work as a systems analyst in my spare time that's Monday through Friday nine to five on a good week and there are many Jews in my company most of them have nothing to do with anything of Tyra and Mitzvahs whatsoever but they actually do have a real deep respect and almost a little bit of an awe of somebody that looks like me they have a little bit of trepidation person looks so different than them they're afraid to approach but really there's a respect and they even like to have a connection and they'd even like to have a recognition that they're also Jewish many many people have sat around my table and told me said Rabbi I can't believe I'm sitting in the house of a religious Jew enjoying myself uh enjoying myself on a Shabbos on a Friday night instead of playing cards with a bunch of guys in a bar I'm sitting at a Shabbos table with a rabbi with a front person who loves you this guy and his kids are here answering the questions on the Parsha I can't believe it and then we usually make another when we go on one of the classes I'm giving is a gamara class that I give on a Sunday morning and I've been giving that class for the last 13 years so there are people that are going to that class who 13 years ago never saw the inside of a camera I never knew what a gamara was and and now are are are good Learners people who have we've finished many Miss actors we finished uh we finished getting we finished Marcus and we finished babakama I mean these are receptors that are are difficulties that people some Yeshiva students might be proud to have finished this many musakas regular Bell about them I was going to be finishing up my years on Kyle and my plan was to go into real estate Insurance hopefully get to the point where I could learn half a day and and uh and work half a day and be hopefully some type of asking uh that was that was some plans I had things set up in in New York ready to go back and I was on the bus uh coming home from the mayor and cover of mine had a Jewish Observer special issue on kirovan I've been very interested and intrigued by it so I I grabbed the uh the issue took it home and read it cover to cover that night and the one article that jumped out of me was the article by Renault we're basically was saying is that if if ninety percent of Claudia strollers opting out how can we expect that we're going to be we're going to be protected by cochebrejo which seemed to make a lot of sense to me you know there's a horror been going on and we've got to do something to love each and every one of our fellow Jews if you really love somebody um that you could talk week and it won't make a difference if they know you love them and you care about them because their fellow yeah foreign or they could be wearing ripped jeans and a t-shirt and have pink hair foreign what you want to do when you meet with people for an hour for lunch is talk for about five percent of the time okay and get them talking to 95 of the time they will leave floating on a cloud but when they get home their wives will ask them so Andrew you met shimshan silken or Rabbi Silgan how did it go oh it was wonderful it was just tremendous it was a sweet guy so what does he do gosh I don't really know does he have kids boy you know I didn't really ask it and they suddenly realized you know they know nothing about you that's your sign that you've succeeded you have to get them talking and eventually you say let's meet for coffee how about we study some Jewish history and then it's Jewish philosophy and then yeah nobody has all the answers I mean speak to the biggest robotic in the world and they you know I'll get back to you they also have to look Inspire them and they have to speak to their robotic or you know and uh there's nothing wrong with that if you don't know something say you don't know if anything it gives them confidence that here's somebody who's trying to relate to them on an honest level I had somebody approach me and say to me rabbi silkin I don't know why we're doing all this um I don't believe in God I don't believe in God that's it came over what would you say to that here's what I said to him I said to him neither do I and he was checking his surroundings that you Rabbi silken right and this is Dayton is what you do and I presume you pray and I said to him something that I learned from one of my teachers I said to him what is God who have you studied what do you know if you studied maimonides he says to me who did Sato contemporary philosophers some of the more well-known worldly philosophers Aristotle Plato Socrates I said you don't not believe in God it's just you have no idea what you mean when you say the word God I said to God that you don't believe in I don't believe in either come into my life let me show you how I perceive what God means to the world they don't like it when you say how can you not believe in a gun you start coming out with all the proofs the archaeological historical they're not ready for that it's not ready for that they want to hear that you understand them people say to me 26 hours of Shabbos I can't do that I say to them don't because they're not going to anyway I say try 26 minutes that give me 26 hours now people say to me I can't do kosher too expensive it's too difficult food never tastes good enough I said don't I'm not ready for that right like of desert says you can't fight ibrahira you can't fight that war that's way out in Berlin when you're still in Paris try it once a month on a Tuesday night or here's a good one you're doing Friday night show about dinner now because of all our discussions make the Friday night show but I didn't make that kosher make that kosher these people have kosher homes now some of them of course it's always back there take a little bite understand it's not all or nothing and they say really that's the most that's the most catching magnetizing aspect of care of it's not the whole picture everybody's somewhere on the ladder my focus has to be next round up I was working in the public schools and I had a kid come up to me after pay suck and they were so proud of themselves and they said you know what I went to McDonald's over Passover and I didn't eat the bread and I had to hold back at the time from laughing but afterwards I started crying because this kid did something so huge we have to realize that for everybody you know each step could be the one that sets them on the Thousand Mile Journey from the balchuva's questions you sharpen your own understanding of yiddishkite number two when you get somebody to be from and you see their enthusiasm you say to yourself look how they pour themselves into Kabbalah Shabbos how much should my Kabula Shabbos be so it's actually a case where you actually a car of somebody gives you it gives you actually A New Perspective deeper in yiddishkite and when you see one of the balchuvra's enthusiasm for you this guy do you say to yourself oh this is what it's about all of a sudden there's a sparkle in their life you know recently one of our people they're not doing Shabbos but they're doing Mikvah and then he says to me how about some of those in my house you know that the crust is beginning to melt away you feel it as crumbling it's disintegrating it's it's it's it's otherworldly there's no other way to describe it it's beautiful it's uplifting it's very rewarding it's a lot of fun and it's not felt as an obligation itself is an urgency it's like you want to take care of your own child yes are you obligated to take care of your child are you obligated to pay for their tuition of course you do do you look at it as an obligation no you look at it as love as care as concerned as who you are inside of that person that's all it is we just have to start looking at everybody who belongs to our people as our children as our brothers certain mixers are outside our control so if a year after 120 years comes up to shemaim and they say why didn't you make opinion happened he's going to say what do you mean my firstborn was a girl okay why didn't you do Mitzvah ah neighborhood didn't make me forget anything in my field but when they're going to ask him why didn't you do a little care of what's he going to say so they might let him into the shemaim email anyway because he learned that for you me and he was out looking for him and and gave stock and his mama Muslim but in that area he missed and that was something he could have controlled that was something that could have been done and it can be done on any kind of basis it can be done like filling every day it could be done like Shabbos once a week it could be done like yantev once a year it can be done like joeyville once and a half a century at least one time every person should go to sleep at night and say what have I done for cloudy strong today and they should get up in the morning and say I have this and this and this and this to do and I have this learning that I want to cover and this job that I need to do but what am I going to do for my people today you can never thank him for what they've done for you okay it's impossible they change their lives and your children's lives and your grandkids lives and it's impossible what it means to to me now is everything it's that they're there is such a a a much more Grand life out there once you understand the gifts that God has given you through learning people will open up people will start to understand that this is a profound religion it is a profound responsibility and people will change their lives when given that opportunity you know God forbid you know it will be my time to go I would say I I I've had I've had a life that I do not regret having even if it will be today you not only change their lives you change their family and their children and their children after them and so I believe that after we're gone from this world those are gifts that will keep on giving my little star just graduated from the Missouri High School for Girls as a seminary in Israel for this year the other daughter is on the same track and they own their Yiddish cup they grow they come home they teach us and we all heard the prophecy mashiach could come when the children teach the parents that's not the miracle Miracle is for the first time that I've seen the parents are letting her kids teach them they're learning their kids show them how to say a broker or how to grow or teach them a Parsha this is these are opportunities to affect not only people but for generations and generations and generations to come what a privilege what an opportunity that's what you get from learning with somebody who knows less than you do foreign they speak in one unanimous voice there is nothing more important in today's generation than people who have Twitter who have the gift of Torah who were raised with Torah to take that education to take that upbringing to take that experience and give as much of it away as you can to those people who are less fortunate now on the campus to deal with there was supposed to be 400 000 Jews now they say there's two hundred thousand Jews we're shrinking it's Do or Die the Jewish people is is disappearing it's not a matter of whether this is an opportune time this is the only time if it's not now it's not going to have another chance this whole group of unaffiliated Jews aren't going to stay unability for the Next Generation for the Next Generation they're not going to be Jews a voicemail was in Hungary and he sent down messages to the whole world he made a deal with Eichmann to save Jews yeah and they didn't send them the money and he went back to him and he bluffed him and he got out one train and he went back and he was dealing with life and death yeah he failed the end he never got discouraged you're not going to be discouraged about man we have no choice we gotta fight I gotta bring back our our children if I were standing on a trained platform and people were walking into the train and these were cattle cars and the cattle cars were on their way to Auschwitz and I have the ability to pull people off of that train I can pull them off would I be worried about my honor would I be worried about being ashamed I'll think I'm crazy no I would go over and I'd pull them one two three four that's how I look at it and every person who I can pull off of that train is another person who will have life and of his children and their children and their children and if I am silent I'm just letting them walk on that train that's not what Hashem wants we can't fail the almighty is with us if he helps us we can't fail and he wants to we have a Torah which is beautiful beyond compare we just have to present it the right way we have a people who are thirsty for meaning who are thirsty for truth who are idealists in every way one of the most charitable the most active for the poor they want truth they want meaning we have to do our job we can't fail if we just make that effort When you pray to God what do you say to God Isaiah Almighty I know that you care about this much more than me I know that you want me to succeed I know and if you help me we can change the whole world I know you want to help me I know I just have to want it enough please help me to one to feel this pain the way you feel it said you can help me do it foreign hello everybody please foreign beautiful everything all right foreign