Practical Chasidus w R' Chaim dalfin - V'Im Ruach HaMoishel 1924 #10 - Chaos before Order

to expand on and I'm not really sure I have okay so well it's talking on page three forty nine in the memoriam of cotton vol 3 of the of the my mahram that they collected of the previous rabbit and we're about to go into the details of the nefesh obamas what it wants so before that he says and that's what we're discussing now that the nefesh eye balm is is a is - who - it's the rationalization and and Coach K needless to say the eight Sahara the eight Sahara is an inclination Amida annum either is already an emotion it's some form there is you know palpable enlarged immersion write a fairy meadows were you feeling your heart love fear guilt you feel it and as an actual and as an actual body temperature difference when you become anxious I mean you know anxiety you start shaking you start sweating you start breathing harder all kinds of feelings are literally created when there is a Yates ER there's an inclination there's an emotional that is that's that's already a a further step and in this case a further step of you know stuff i-i'll of this dose I cry for this dose I dance I'm happy for this does it sir I'm Aiman Ayman a messed in in the emotion there's a step before that that we call that nefesh huh Bonnie's you don't yet have the love you don't have yet to fear you're not sweating you're not you know you don't have any heart palpitation so you're not jumping up and down and you're not crying the night laughing you're thinking you're thinking how can I justify it how can i how can I explain to myself the the desire that I have to drink lots of alcohol giving you an example if I drink lots of alcohol I'll feel terrible I'll feel initially good but then I'll have a hangover on this school I'll miss work I'll miss davenic I'll out you know I'll be a mess I'll smell from the booze people will know that I drank right all of those issues through your mind so you have to find now a rationale and the justification to do that that's nefesh obamas that's that that's that intellectual drive that seeks to justify the ugly and unhealthy emotion so if someone asks can the nefesh obamas do the emphasis is under nefesh obamas then officially kiss the tanya is not a book of mirrors it's a big mistake Tanya's not Musa Musa is a book of moral ethics and behavior miss Alicia Sharon and such swaram are all about leaders and very important for them they should be learned and used and all that but it's already a later stage casitas Chabad as the Alta never you know encapsulated in the Tanya and the first 53 chapters is primarily dealing with the drive the nefesh the the rationale and justification and that is why it's a very different type of alerting a very different type of a book and why it has made and can can make and makes a change in a person even if a person's a the courts by the eighth Sahara's you might say if I'm already caught by the eighth Sahara and I'm already a mess but in the web of the eighth Sahara how could I change what's the answer yoni your hands down please what what what's what's how can that be the answer is because emotions are emotions now I'm gonna tell you for a second I want you to think about what you're doing and I want your justify and you challenge yourself or you challenge someone else's a good friend and they won't be able to justify they think they will but if you show them that their argument is so excuse the expression cockeyed it's so warped it's so ridiculous so then they say wait a minute you know I'm behaving in such a emotional way when I don't have to behave that way so this is why fasteners spends more time on Habad on the brain on the rationale then the actual emotion because once you're already in the emotional stage you're already a mess it's so much harder to dear OBE yourself from the emotion then to invest yourself in healthy positive thinking and it may be in modern psychology we recall this you know cognitive thinking which I personally am a big fan of and my book your better self goes on that sheet that follows that approach and I was in touch with a prominent cognitive therapist who wrote the new mood therapy book years ago I think his name was Aaron Beck I don't know if he'll that name rings a bell to you I actually sent my manuscript to Aaron Beck he was out in Pennsylvania Philadelphia I think and I asked the ask them for his opinion and he told me wrote he wrote back to me that he is unaware of you know considers and Cibola but he knows that it it deals with a lot of the same issues that psychology deals with and he was very glad to see in here that that the Tonya that I'm writing about in my book your better self takes that approach so this is the in here in one line and just in a very few words to free the caliber by adding in the parentheses should who harm open birth when you see that you don't read further you say the hello stop what and why does the rabbit add these words and then if you really wanted to go further why are they in parentheses why they're not what why parentheses that's that's called real learning you just don't read words and mimic words that's the first step but to really understand get to stop and not rush and start dialoguing a poking each of you questioning the other talking out loud and you listen gives his input and that's how you you can get a better understanding when you learn vassilis that's a parenthetical remark for all learning of Castilla's now let's go further because yesterday we spoke about our Melinda woods siffredi LaRocca and I was in touch with people from his community his president and others and I'm gonna post some things and if you guys get anything for me or posted and by the way you know where you're sitting in September of 2017 rabbit Melanie woods was the first guess I don't know if he'll of you there no I don't think so I think was anyone here there if smooth was there I don't think any of you was there baroque were you there not sure and it was Thursday September 17th mm I think September 7th what a 2017 it was it was hi it was a test Zion the 16th of hello and I invited him because I was I would invite every so often every few weeks a guest lecture he was our first and he agreed right away and I told him rebel religions we don't have a big crowd he says what crowd and he came and the lecture was was was on was made a video by Akiva Kent and I really acknowledge him for those that remember he was thinking of moving terraces row there might be chairman she's never moved not yet anyway but he you know he's a photographer or videographer and he was kind enough to video it and it's on a website you know the kollel has a website called colo beth shemesh so if you go there you'll see different videos that and and and we captured his lecture and who would know that that you know two years later two years later so eighty nine two years later hashem took him back and we have but hashem the the the video and at the end i was i was standing next to him and he was about to finish and I said herb illiterate so I got up I said give the Kohler the brush up and he gave us a brother so it's all along there you know I think it's was his his his the Sherman would be nice and and election was a great lecture he spoke about you high yellow and you know he he has a sense of humor so you know that after every birthday the Baal Shem Tov's and and and then he brought the Halawa would pray for his honor again ok the bottom in the middle of the look there has to be what's going on what's going on here you have to go back we want to okay well where wasn't that you must be basically you were talking about whether the monoliths came here and he gave us a brothel yes I know I just finished and I encouraged you to all watch that that the video that's online at Colo Beth Shemesh at on YouTube Co will bet Shemesh and it's public yes she'll Malaysia welcome back make sure I want to see the Sun I want to see the Sun on the time that's Bakken and give his up in the back in the cheeks anyway laser thank you very much for inspiring us thank you for inspiring us from the beam over there I saw that video it was great I just wish the people with sitting listen to you okay anyway so we're learning here about where I'm page 349 let's continue so he says he brings the Gomorrah that when the eights of her a grab grabs on to a person must stay on the face I meant to schlep in mind slap him into the study hall have him do it like let him try doing his dissing in the study or let's see if he's such a happy man if he's such a macho guy he ate Sahara say okay come into the krail oh and I'll do it here in the clay lo oh wait a minute here in the clay little I have all these wonderful tummy then learning wait a minute I can't I'm a little uncomfortable let me go into the hallway that's lying to you Siva where did we do all of our our bug me things in the bathroom or the hallways or the back of the building you know I remember in Lubavitch East even Ocean Parkway between H and I and in the winter when I was 17 I was in base Madras it was very cold so I would stay actually all week and he she was even though I live 10 minutes away in Borough Park so I'm go up that Street forget what it's cool part Phil whatever that Street goes straight up on the nothing it wasn't parked was another Street today they have that casa whole what poster no not foster walk to the left between our enforcer what way doesn't fit me no not in this down down towards every why there's one Street where they have what mmm with so and ll Elmwood Albert Street is when we had the flights with the Italians the Italians and us that we do sometimes they took out knives there was a tray there was trade the train tracks over there before they built the big hall and the Lakewood and and they say they're the hater bit the building too big hey there you know his over there so it's cover over today the tracks but in my time in the 70s it was tracks so so yes I remember stuff but during the week I wouldn't go home was very cold or snowing and I wasn't you see with the whole time I loved it then they fed us and so I went through the dormitory the fourth floor of these she was a dorm so I remember coming in 11 and 11 at night to going to sleep and I saw some guys who I knew were on the phone now what do you think they were doing on the phone everyone's asleep they were talking to girls everyone's doing it but I remember like you're here I am I'm this you know front boy and I'm going to sleep and thank God I have a bed to sleep in and and I have to hear a guy who's you know goofing off over the other phone but what's my point my point is that the eights are harder and you know he tries to hide this way that way so let's see what there ever says in the minor so he says here the he neared the hanger that Asia stovic sort of Muhammad as I maneuver labate some ethics look at his language very very powerful the first thing you have to do is you have to slip Laham chip you Jeff the drool and some maneuver he calls it disgusting Novell is disgust disgusting like Novell does show cetera she says get this disgusting ugly beast into the base Metris that's the first thing you got to do but I'm shuffling he'd be brought in and had you do that you say it with words like my lad I cannot see through the guys may you tell him you tell it and and you tell look it's better for you to be in the shul in the basement that you know why you got free coffee free t3 jokes free combatted e it's don't worry don't worry so much that it's a Schuler base mattress you pick up a table in the back you pretend you're learning and then you'll gossip and then you put on your internet and then you'll play poker and then you check out the NFL scores from yesterday you know but no one's gonna know you'll hide it under your hat with the receiver comp you make believe but you get into the basement so initially he comes to the basement dish with shillelagh small it's not for the sake of learning because I'll say potentially with small Polish month that's from not from from coming for an external superficial reason because it's warm and it's like an I can I can really get a waste time over there and I get said you know bow is smart you come to the schmuck and he says that would mean again potato this is I giving it a toe so that one might keep yeah tell Sal Ahmad he says he ain't you do sure look remember were discussing here lays the three levels of tater yogya Jerusha and my tunnel so he refers now to the first level of Title II that it's not a you do sir why should probably tell you for your gear you do comes without it expert and an exertion but oculi to you much so see time in this level of theta is if you will toyou you will find and you can be believed if you work hard you succeed you sit on your loins you get nothing you think you get something but you get bupkis nothing you work hard you succeed or shame is the second level of pain is you do such a potato this is the level of inheritance with hesitate behind will deceive it says made our sake he lost Youkilis Plato is tends to the communities of the congregation of Jacob the Hokie he lost Jakov and altar congregations of Yaakov yes for him Dean betrayed Azusa potato they have add-in and they are the laws of inheritance from the tourist perspective applies to them very important point if it's a a a a Yakko sanctioned tehila it has the the Euro sir laws and guess what every year is a Yaakov sanction tehila because he's a Jew or she's a Jew that's why the trader belongs to everybody last night at the kiddo such looks on David Friedman your ambassador right was speaking he was the guest of honor speaker and he said in middle of everything he said it is speaking to 5600 sluicin he's saying that our boys my dear friends if you want to really make a difference in a balla bus learn turner with them that's what rabid wall away coos did about rabbi and the five pounds the Cedars he was started to learn cannot not see this with Nakamura tonight and he said I learned about Yeshua and saved him and them I love him and everything else and he says it helped me an understanding leadership that's what he said yesterday so my point is that traitor belongs to every single year and never minimize the fact that every year is Shia is something able and and very much in the realm of learning cater let's go further and he says the image the tendency of a lot of my show that Shiva lotion is fabulous even though it says the traitor see fellow new moisture that moisture commanded us what is this word Seva so in addition to literally meaning a commandment it also means of binding he bore his ha Bruce there's a there's a word soft SAFTA with he board shafts of the he bore so the mid the word mitzvah meant Sahdev of hey it's at is also survey which means Tivoli connection through a mitzvah right admit sir that we do because the commander-in-chief commands us to do it we connect ourselves faculties vertical via know the moistures repeaters - moshe rabbeinu it says is the level of das what is that who I'm a cashier - rummages through doctora just for a moment rabinal in oh it's Oliver Sullivan in his memory I'll claim something they shared with me no one knows this I asked him because he told me that he was a student at IPL Khan was my rep because it is - and that's one of the reasons he let me in - sure and he was you know very happy that to have me speak because I was up yours Talmud so I asked them did you ever really have any personal conversation with him besides learning tanya in rabba in the Muncie Julius Eve over there he said one time he wrote him a letter and he asked him what is the source for a rebel what is the source you have a road you have a rabbi you have a leader but what's this idea of a rebel so the bureau set the admitster chapter two and Tanya without that bespeaks about of nuh see a leader that's all he said why do I say this because moisture nabe no mention of a no is Micajah in the show mercy throwback later he connects and binds all the summons to Plato without a mention I've been oh you know and this is a very long discussion but just very briefly that needs a host here for itself both out of moshe rabbeinu my should i bei know is not just an a good a big cuddle my pain is not just a big grab my cherub a no is my celebrating what does that mean he is the individual that connects every single soul in that generation - akagi's burn a hole through what through tater and this is the understanding of what a wrapper is of mention obey no mention of Boehner says - to Boas Boas listen I need you you should really be living now in Japan what should I do Japan you go and find yourself a job Lynn Taylor teach Taylor but why Japan I don't know why but the psychic dimension of Baelor sees that you're in the summer for this time gets a completion by being there so Rabbi Tokyo who was a chaplain the United States Army he comes to the private sir Edmond in the 60s he's a newly married this is online you couldn't hear him say it himself you know and he says the Rebbe assess him they I heard they told me that he need a chaplain in Okinawa he says rather I can't I don't know how do you pronounce that then that word Oh cannot cannot cannot cannot canal was open with what the rebel sense takes a map it shows them right here I have to try it in Raqqa trying to go Kanawa right here it's right here it's right here oh she's near Japan bah bah bah bah he says what I I just got married that missus listen you could do what you want yeah a free will every person that's free will and I can't tell you what to do but I'm telling you that there's a good opportunity for you for a job and to do what you want to do as a rabbi somehow and he was another babitch ER and he wasn't a faucet he decided to listen 2530 years later he retires and he tells over how he saw the rep is suggestion helped him so much in his life Alicia a banal a mission a beggar doesn't have to tell you every two moments do this because and you just as an expression about filing from Spain you know that means you have to get it yourself you know you have to pick up on it yourself yeah we want we want to be spoon-fed my friends we're all adults we're midlife we have children and grandchildren you don't I mean it's enough already enough the pampering you know and that's why I say to my colleagues you know after that ever passed away 1990 25 years ago and that ever said in in 1991 he said do whatever you can to bring Messiah I've done everything and it hasn't happened and everyone that gets very very antsy about that you sing something very simple grow up I've carried you for 42 years but this I've carried you grow up it's time to stand on your own you know you can't live in perpetual a you know diapers excuse the expression perpetual diapers you remain a baby good look take your diapers or take a pacifier out and go out there and the end but Hashem last night with 5600 people you see I the DEP is not alive and it hurts of us it okay cry left dance Bango hate jump on the moon jump on this table do whatever you have to do to get yourself balanced but one thing's for sure that that you have to understand that the moisture at bay no in every generation and by the way I'm not telling you who you might Sara banal is but that there needs to be a my celibate on every generation who is the gas Hillel he says the word bath you know what that says maturity charisma and and and focus you have creativity come up with a genius idea you have beena you develop that idea but if you don't focus and concentrate on the create creative idea that you created and developed Rubina nothing comes from it and that's why what does the gutters say to Gomorrah the kimono says ain't kiss you yellow dots there is no erection she's the expression but there is no erection unless you have does you can you can you can understand and a person you can develop the person you can you could love the person but if you can't focus on them which comes out in the physical body and according to the murder in the erection process if you can't do that your physical your physical limb doesn't have what it takes to impregnate your your wife and you have no and you have no offspring from that that's a good murder ain't kiss you yellow dots casitas takes this come mother considers doesn't run away like others you know the Habad considers they cover their eyes on the good mother of a well he can't talk about the good mother the hasidic says take the skin murder and understand that in addition to its physical meaning which is a world which is necessary when you get married right okay in addition to that there's a spiritual counterpart and that is that unless you have das unless you have focus and conscience there is no pecially there is no everlasting result from your thoughts it's it's it's unbelievable he's an Einstein his Spinoza he's whatever a great mind not that we hold of Spinoza circles who's not the greatest but I'm saying you know and and nevertheless in Hungarian they say yep you get that you get no it's not that in Spanish nothing FS God least goodness nothing so many people is so bright and the sixteen uses and you look at their lives and it's it's I don't want to say what it's it's messed up right it's goofed up it's it's nothing it's garnished why because they didn't they're missing the dice who gives a ye Gus mr. Abady no mention of a no because he was chosen on high for Michaelis particle to be the rebbe reb a new the river of Claudius Royal he instills and opens up for a person the ability of das and that's what they go back to the moment that's whatever says you for hanging of the motion should be this - who are mccoshen - armistice roba torah he who is thus he binds a connects the jewish souls to torah he brings together the soul and the torah the in United Association Masada tuxes and the idea that we are inheritance of this is that we inherit the sparks the Sheva next page 350 McCoy in the Seven Kings to tell you of the world of boy said no foolish reader that were that fell in the in the street and the shattering the vessels let's learn a little more than talk the explanation assertion hey MA mama love him these parts their source are the Kings a Shamu will be added said to him that rain in the land of ether a dream with named Ella with neigh malloy Mela when they slow before they were Kings for the Jews okay do that seven me there is the seven emotional traits of love fear compassionate section sure some machetes sailesh to shame sag their source is from the seven lower aspects of Hashem's name known as 63 briefly the name you'd cave of take which is called the tetragrammaton have Sam you cave of game can be spelled let's say you're right you're a Berber i reviewed to be spelled with two units or you can be spelled you observe valid now depending on how you spell out the four letters you cave of k you get four different numerical equivalence forty five fifty to sixty three or 72 it's called my bang sock so here he's talking about sock 63 then there's a certain way of spelling you cave of k will do the miracle agamotto of that of that you can vote clearly 63 should tell you the cloths are cut them out thick this is the world avoid the world of chaos that precedes the world of thicket why was there a marvel Berle why was there a marble before we had a from Aveeno cuz the world had to experience bubble chaos why does someone have to go to the drape that the Grateful Dead before he becomes a grateful year because first he has to go through chaos and so when he goes through the Grateful Dead he's be totally with sugar and death and all the sudden he wakes up and he says that's for dead people imma eat say it becomes a grateful eat so another ones you have to first go through dead chaos Touhou favo who write and our life is also that way before you make it bacon business you go through it down you lose money you have headaches okay you know here the sky from we we we we works whatever his name you know an Israeli out al Alex allowed for Newman right make billions his company went public went bust he lost his pants they threw him out they found that what marijuana on the plane you know that's like that's the worst sin of the world that he has a little marijuana not that I'm a proponent of marijuana I'm just saying that you know anyway he was a whack job they fired him he took one point seven billion dollars with him off the table and Softbank is keeping them on as a consultant it's really great you know okay they fired him but he just walked away 1.7 billion not bad right what's the point but he went through a chaos if you and and other people they go through chaos and so and and you know it's it you have to have relapse luffa and see after the schemata especially in business especially in business not to go not to lose your pants because it says some picky others that Bob and the hustle might but I get one line and pinky others to me is a testament of a reality that the more real estate you have the more worries now does that mean should have real estate yes you suit if you're able to but create a situation in which you're not invest in it you have to be your as a famous vert that laser from the previous Olympics hasn't impeded in in tehilim mm love says I think it's cook base I forget which exact a bit we says and you gear capital Quito hell I strap of the table off from the effort of your hands you shall reap and eat fortunate to tight lockers good to you sense defeated could ever your dear cup here so it doesn't say your Guillermo mahesha it doesn't say that your efforts should be with your brains and cup cup offer but then motion the cup that's leaking and tighter that who that's linking the guard has to be immersed in God and in Torah only your hands have to do the physical and and the investing and the slipping and but the cop has to always be free unobstructed from the Garcias now doesn't mean to say cuz laughter you doing investor than after you buy real estate and how can you invest in the market and how can you have a job if you don't put your mind into it we of course you have to put your mind but not have your mind become a slave to the fussing to the real estate to the investment when if it becomes a slave that's a picture of assets Marvin the house in Malibu Tiger what does it say the answer to that beauty of us is the word Marvin why our new hussam a vigor if you're doing it with Marvin that's what this might be the first of my better what's my BIM multiplicity meaning you totally go you like totally involved where your entire brain is occupied by than the fussing if your entire brain is occupied you're gonna have Tiger you can have worries and anxiety if you can sort of pick up so we learned wrong the fact we think pickup is saying don't do business that's not what it's saying it's saying do business but remember that your cup your brain your head should be always introducing power let's continue another few lines it says so he says L should know who'll be srida what happened with this energy it fell and it broke value days s I mean it's a slap show before them before them got from you and the sparks we're talking here about the holy sparks they fell into the physical world sit says it said nagashi me since you have with physical wool drilling the cloud gosh be trilling with physical parchment fire bone meaning shipping Gulliver Sukhavati man the four kinds of the lulav the silk and similar in haze that myeloma vitamins and it's enough lives when you take the trillion and the sucker and it's ended cities you elevate the sparks that fell into the universe what's called clippers naked new track neutrality the translucent clipper over Friday they have a disability and we using those things to refine it's called the Vedas are below him but are bergoglio's during our time in the for exiles right the exile the Agulhas from Siam and godless paradise all the for exhaust be Sebold mouth ears when we were enslaved from the nations to see can be our belugas remind parents theists I have Shem says I have scattered you all over the four sides before roukoz the government has also got cockles but who will be socialism enemies Hassan said something seemingly contrary say you know what it says there cause I'll say that a sham disseminated us amongst the you know why so that we should elevate the situation so why is it that for a few years of your life Jana saying you were in New York and a few years you were Muncie and a few years here in South Africa and a few years yerushalayim because you had a mission in each place chuckles Bunco is busines sets disseminates us all over seemingly that's positive I have a positive nevertheless how do you who goes Oh piss off ten beautiful line that's what when you move around a lot you're moving around there's a purpose to your moving around but the fact is he moving around so you know what it causes yonni it causes peas or scattered this my son you know we lived after my wife and I married we lived in Marin County for eight years then for four years in Los Angeles and then we came back to New York and we're here ready 26 years but my son felt and he tells me this because he says I told him a few times you know in New York that's better he knows maybe maybe job and maybe to move back from Florida to stop no I'm staying put because he felt even moving around three times for his childhood was no good for his penis in his development in other words when you when you're when you're forced to move from row to Iran from Iraq to Chicago from Chicago to South Africa from South Africa to Wyoming and back there in Cicero it's pisser it's Beezer you're scattered and that brings goes I don't know what psychology says about this Hillel but you know we see this in in in in there is a concept by the way called have a graver land claim Taylor a ye should exile himself excessive beauty of is the Torah but it doesn't say you should move around ten times they exile yourself and stay put yes okay we'll continue tomorrow everyone zag isn't I hope you enjoyed and we'll talk tomorrow zag isn't