My personal journey and finding comfort with anxiety

I remember being a b in Yeshiva I was in Israel we did the craziest stupidest dumbest thing you know went for 3 days without sleep or went to the you know the most dangerous places and we didn't I didn't feel any anxiety cuz I was in ignorance and ignorance is bliss and then I had these certain periods of times in my life where anxiety yes started showing up it was you know it got overwhelming and then I lived in a high state of anxiety and then I went back again to a little bit of ignorance then I got back to anxiety and now I feel like I'm in a place where literally what you describe it anxiety became a message and it's not easy but I'm not in an ignorant place and I'm not in a in a place where I'm not ignorant about anxiety and I'm not heightened with anxiety