Pesach - Don't miss the train - Rabbi Alon Anava

[Music] with the very few days before Pizza we want to be ready for the moment where I can go out of my slavery now press up even though it's called the the holiday of freedom the holiday of Max's the holiday of there are so many names really the biblical name is Hogg Amato don't hug Pesach even though it says in the Torah the word pizza but really it's called Haga Matata the holiday of matzah which in short matzah represents me being humbled and the fact that I don't have any leaven and comets it represents me and nullifying my ego my existence my arrogance my Yi shoot myself nests this is the general idea between our one and the other is that I need to know how to lower my ego constantly we mentioned before that Pesach is the time where I go out of my slavery slavery is not me carrying bricks rather than I'm slaved so anything in the physical world and we mentioned so many times don't return no need to really repeat it over and over but some people are slaves to severe things in our generation they won't call it slavery because then they're gonna get all sorts of human rights organization so go again against what you saying so in this generation they call it addiction and we all have some type of an addiction some people the addiction is severe can be addiction to drugs or alcohol and and gambling and many other severe things which the majority of the world's are addicted to drugs they just don't acknowledge that what you do there whatever consuming is drugs but a very large amount of people in the world are consuming chemicals for whatever reason and get addicted to that doesn't matter right now if it's helping them or not helping them it doesn't really matter it's irrelevant if if he does the fact is that they have a dependency on it that's called an addiction and an addiction in the more correct ways is a slavery I'm slave to something now this is a severe addiction and there's also our little addictions we mentioned that the food can be addiction and on my phone and Facebook and so many things and people they have all these dependencies and they're really to know when I'm not dependent on something is take it away let's see how you how you react we've thought of here having a box in the entrance of the building please deposit your phone you can't have your phone for the next three hours when you hear I don't know how many people will be able to figure to handle that you know probably it will be like something something I have to do something with my hands so but nevertheless it's very hard for us to control desires and needs and dependencies on things so you can take it to many different levels what these addictions can be but when I'm not able to control myself then I'm considered a slave and the real freedom is when I'm not a slave mosha lavinia when he came down from the mountain then there's a big question what is motion up into bring from the mountain and you ask any any individual they'll tell you he brought down the Torah okay that's correct but he brought something more profound he brought freedom he brought the power of being free and and when you question that you're saying oh yeah how well follow the Torah you'll be free yeah but the Torah looks like the most not free thing so many rules so many prohibitions so many things to do or not to do what's where's the freedom here so the main part that motions are going to brought down from the from the mountain is the power for me to be free I need to make a very quick analogy in my life what i'ma do to do and the only way of doing it is if I'm humble if I have any type of ego or any type of self-worth thoughts then I will not see my faults now Shem is very kind so he puts around me a lot of people that will point out my faults just that I get upset at them because the person who tells it I'm lazy I will get upset by calling me lazy and the person will tell me that I have an issue with my anger I'll get upset on them while I tell me a visual anger I'm fine you make me upset I don't have an issue with anger so we just read yesterday the Parishad that starts the month of Nisan parashat vodka and usually foreshadow a car will be in the beginning of the month of Nisan and the first word of the parasha is holding in it the entire so to say energy of the book so we have here the first Porsche is usually the first name the first Perisher is the name of the entire book so now we're reading the entire book of a club so the first part of the book America is reka and same thing with the previous one the book is called smart and the first Perisher Ashmont we need to know that also the name of the parish on the book contains in it the so to say the energy or the secret of the entire book so in this book is called the book of a cloud that he has called out or you can translate it as he read oh and we'll read but nevertheless if you look at the word very car The Aleph is a very small Aleph you can look at it either there in the actual Torah or look in the homage you'll see the Aleph is very very small white should as many questions why the Aleph is small the Aleph is small for many reasons but one of the reasons is because to signify that Moshe Ravenna was very humble because when if you read in the toys is very crush ml mache Hashem had called Moshe I don't know lately I I didn't hear him calling me lately I actually I never heard him ever I don't know anyone that can come and say Oh chef calls me he has what's up to some people they're not they're well-connected to their to their source and they think that Hashem is calling them all the time but nevertheless Shen doesn't cause you have to be in a very high level that a shipment will call you and Marsha Levine was in that level and Hashem actually called him and he says we clash mm oh sure now there's a story got a story it's the reality but we read it and the Midrash that says that Shem had called Moshe Rabbeinu and Marsha Levine know when he was writing the sifl Torah he didn't like the idea that it says by crash ml machine services do you call me what am i young your buddy you calling me remove the olives but I want you to write it with an olive and a shame since I can't remove the olive because every time in the Torah when Hashem is calling a wicked person that it says vehicle without the aleph when a Shem called very Balaam when Hashem called power in many other places you see that which when a Shem is referring to a wicked person it's as vague cow Shem tells Moshe I can write on you a cow you're not a wicked person I want to write wake up Moshe banners never had a hard time with accepting it exactly I'm not your buddy um you I'm your servant you are my god and it's not appropriate that you call me like like hey my washer Oh so the negotiation went on and on and at the end Moshe won and he said okay so make the olive small that way it's not going to be so noticeable so one can learn from that Moshe winner was very humble needless to say because he was so humble he was able to reach to such a heavy high level of prophecy and he ended up becoming the individual that received it Noah only because he was humble there's another place in a book called divarella I mean when it's talking about a demolition and when it's talking when it has the name Adam the Aleph is a bigger life and this is referring to that demolish on had a little bit of a ego why because it says in the vellum in that book it says the greatness of what Emily Shawn he's it silica polish em created him with his own hands and he was the first one and you know he gave him a little bit of a ego there I'm the first one and that was his downfall that's where he failed so the small olive emotional obey no being humble the big a leaf of a demolishor is being a little bit ego and arrogant I'm not transmitted on signal shown are about Adam but it was acted with representing me and that was what caused Adam alone to film that he had a little bit of like whoa I did it you didn't do anything Shem did it you just happened to be there so in order for me to really understand my faults I can't have any type of an arrogant and saying no no I'm totally fine most people they don't see their own faults and when they look in the mirror they think they see the symbol of perfection so a Shem is very kind and he sends a lot of people around us to tell you where your faults are but that doesn't always work because there is ego there I need to know how to humble myself to be able to recognize in me my weaknesses and this is the avada that i need to do now for the next week and a half I need to take myself aside out of any distractions and to sit with myself like that with a piece of paper and a pen and say okay let me write down now on one side of the paper all the good character traits that I have and the good positive things that I have and on the left side write all their negative ones I want to consider on the negative ones but in order for me not to fall into depression and sadness and their low self-esteem I need to also see that I also have a lot of good things there's no such a thing that a person only has bad things everybody has a good balance you have a lot of good character traits can be very loving very caring very generous very thoughtful and much more but you're always gonna have a few bad things and then everybody has it doesn't mean you bad doesn't mean you mean doesn't mean that your parents failed it doesn't mean anything it just means that that's where you need to resign everybody gets a job we have a custom in our house that our house is usually very messy you know you have a lot of kids then that's equals a messy house and not only that a lot of kids our house is like a train station so there's always a mess so and we every every now and then it sometimes once a day sometimes ten times a day we form the kids and the way okay your attic fix up the house and I start giving jobs you do this you do that you do this you do that and always will be one of the kids that doesn't do anything and I'm like why aren't you doing anything right you didn't tell me what to do you know it doesn't matter don't just do something no you have to tell me what to do so and some of the kids will come and says what's my job okay your job is the living room your job is the kitchen same thing here Shem gave us jobs and he gave your job you deal with anger your job you deal with jealousy your job you deal with their with their depression every person has to deal with something doesn't mean you are bad or that you are a bad product cos fish alone but don't look to to blame it my parents my childhood my background Hashem gave each and every one of us a job and he says I want you to refine the meda of anger and you to refine the meat of the attributes of patience but I was told by my mom when I was a little kid you're so smart you so good you're so handsome you saw this and even one of my mind my mom is not even a Polish mom just yeah you know usually moms are telling their their kids how perfect they are so most people grow up with the Horsham God's gift to the world so I have to be a little bit practical here and I have to take a piece of paper I like working with papers and pens and I write down and I write down all my good character traits and I need to know where is my strong point and I need to know that and I need to acknowledge that and I need to nourish that and I ha special um cannot take credit for that I can't say well so courteous and I'm so charitable and I'm so generous and no shame is allowing you to do that because if I she wants he turns the streets switch off and you lose all your qualities but more this is just to make sure that I have some type of confidence to he'll with a long list of the bad character traits that I have and I urge you do it with a list you can do it in your mind because it doesn't work well I just gave you before the example that I when I went on the on the journey of supplying it was with a list I had to look at the paper and to read and to have it in front of my face you know know if you notice there's a custom by hassidim when they go to visit the grave of a Siddiq is that they write a note and then they go into the grave and they read the note and they rip it and throw it into the grave area so I once went to a grave of a Siddiq and I see everybody writing notes and they told me ok write a note right now why don't you write a note well you're right down your request your prayers whatever you want and you know then you read it what I'm just gonna say it out loud well nevertheless there is the concept that when I write something down I bring the concept into the existence of the world that's one of the reasons why you write a note when you go into a grave about Siddiq because you don't want to leave it in your thoughts you don't leave it in your heart you want to bring it into the world first of all most important you're taking it out of your possession that's why a lot of people they have the custom and the graver but Siddiq to rip the paper because the ripping the papers that got rid of the problem it's not my problem anymore now it's a shims problem same thing here when you're doing things in your mind doesn't have the same effect when you have it in front of you like a list you're able to read it you're able to read it again and read it again and you actually turn it in existence when you're saying in my mind okay let me just think okay I'm lazy and I may have a problem with anger okay let me work on it so I'm gonna work you have to put it down in paper that you can see it and read it 10 20 30 times and understand that is my weakness this is where I'm stuck in me time this is where I'm battling and it can be big things and it can be small things and you have to write everything even being on Facebook for three hours that's Egypt that's me time it's not normal being on Facebook for three hours there's nothing to do there for three hours I don't even know what people hang out there so long go post your status put your picture read some meshes is watch a few ridiculous videos that don't make sense and move on but people are like it's like they're hypnotized with it with the you know I call it the this syndrome because the finger goes like this yeah and and and you know Facebook is like it's like a gnome it doesn't end it's like a pit he goes down and down down and down and you know there's no end to it and you know at some point it's the same junk I mean in the beginning the first two minutes okay so you see the new nonsense fine I'll give you five minutes ten minutes but after a while its repeating it's the same video on the same comment the same junk like come on so and people say no I mean you know I'm there how do you think that's working no you're not I'm learning Torah no you're not you don't know talking on Facebook I'm sorry to tell you I also put videos on Facebook I don't really can we learn Torah if the videos will be put on Facebook is to get your attention that you can go now to a real place of Torah and at least that if you're in that place then instead of your mind being filled with junk at least a little bit of Torah so the point is that in my list I have to put all the things that put me under some type of a limitation and the test if somebody puts me out of limitations put yourself now on a vacation for a whole week let's see if you can go a whole week without your emails just yesterday I spoke with somebody and he's having some marital problems I said why don't you take a three-week vacation come here to Israel we have a a Shiva learn with us every day pray with us and you know go to the holy graves go to some holy sites clear your mind so he says they okay but my wife is not gonna let me do such a thing and I was like why it's like well you know she might learn me but I have to email her every day so what's the point the point is don't email her every day so you can have a little break so mostly you can think a little bit if you want to how you want to address your relationship but most people when it comes to their to their will code now an addiction the the test here is let's see how long you can go without it let's see how you can go if you can go a week without your phone then you can comfortably say the phone I'm not addicted to it you can go a week without Facebook a week without cookies a week without anything let's see how long you can go out with anything that puts you under Santa our limitations then you see if you are dependent on it or not if you don't need it for a whole week then you don't dependent on it it means you know you can control it but most people they they they're not willing to admit oh I'm dependent on this this and that you can be dependent also on little things like a coffee I have to have my cup of coffee no you don't you don't have to you're actually gonna be probably doing much better if you don't have that cup of coffee and if you enjoy the actual coffee okay so let's see you have one cup and not seven cups no but I enjoy somewhat if you enjoy it doesn't mean that you have to so I want to put things in perspective because Pesa is the you know always pacer Falls around the time of tax season because taxes I mean at least in America also Israel it's around their maple April and March time when you do taxes is when you sit down and okay let me see what's going on with the business how much money I made how much money I didn't make how much money I would want to make what was my expenses so you do the same thing in the in the spiritual level you do a tax seasons let me write down what did I do the whole year what am I not doing what is limiting me because at the end of the day the bottom line here is we all want to have one thing and it's called happiness at the end of the day we all wish for ourselves just to be happy I mean we now will go after many other things that we think that will cause us to be happy so I pray to have a lot of money so I can buy a nice car a beautiful clothes on vacation why because I want to be happy and whatever it is I constantly we are a creature that is looking for happiness so the happy this is not coming from a car or vacation or anything else the happiness is coming because I am free I'm not bound to anything I'm not limited to anything I'm not stressed under any type of pressure so I'm happy so the ultimate happiness is freedom how do I get freedom is there I go out of my limitation how do I go on a limitation I have to first acknowledge what is my limitation to be able to say okay I'm limited to this this this and that this is the first step that we need to do next time next class we'll talk how I'm going out of my limitation first I have to recognize what is my limitation and if I'm so sunk deep into this clip out that I'm in denial then I will never know what's my limitation I need to be mature I need to be humble and I need to be responsible to say Who am I kidding I can't live without my cup of coffee I can't live without this daily show or whatever it is that memory you use your imagination everybody has their own addiction and their own weaknesses some people go next to the bakery they're like hypnotized walking into the into the bakery okay so I also like cookies they didn't show a lot so I have to have 17 cookies every day and again I'm using the same examples but you use your own imagination what what is my what is my addiction since people don't like the harsh word of addiction will call it slavery called heroin but I don't want to be slave to anything when I became observant then the first thing that I applied is I didn't want to be dependent on anything I used to smoke cigarettes three packs a day I was so to say dependent on so many things and the first thing that I applied and put a hammock on my head I didn't go to a show to be three years to become really observant what I applied in the beginning is to do the minimum I only didn't eat meat and dairy I used to put fillet no I used to do very little meat sauce because I couldn't be able to handle it what I did work on is starting to get rid of all that junk and the first thing was this is me yeah but I I said in order for me to become observant I can't come to the observant world with dependencies and first I need to get rid of the junk now I'll have a clear mind to start applying it to serving a Shem so the first thing that I started doing is get rid of all these dependencies and I said I can't be addicted to cigarettes I can't be addicted to coffee I cannot be addicted to this into that and I started putting myself on a spiritual emotional physical diets no you can't you can't and it took me a long time to bring it to a point that I know how to control myself that I don't have to jump on something that I see right away and that can take many years to know how to control this I want so pencil is the time that you get the power to jump over the obstacle because eventually I want to be a master of my own domain I want to control the eye ones what are you three years old now no I don't want to be subject to i1 okay so what have you one big deal so put yourself on the controller so person has the time that I get the power for that so needless to say that I need to prepare the right way preparing the right way is I need to first acknowledge what's the problem once I acknowledge the problem then we start fixing it so there's other shape today we're talking about that you have to acknowledge what is the problem and masala sham next class we'll start dealing with how how do I actually approach it but for now take a piece of paper make yourself a favor sit down with yourself quietly start writing down all the good things that you've seen yourself and you have to be truthful and honest here not know so don't exaggerate too much I'm so great um so but you want to write the negative part so you can start negating okay this is hard to deal with this is easy to deal with let me focus on this so you can start building your faith into the two to the a growth that comes best after its a boost you go out of your slavery this is not a holiday just to eat matches and crackers this is not that this is not the holiday is the point of the year where I can realize where I'm stuck and I can jump out of it and that's where I get the power on Pesa that's why right after peasant we start counting the whole mail why so I can start growing now from here I'm evil now even let me start growing and growing a growing and growing let's all to share now you have some homework to do the rest we're going to do and the rest we have another two almost two weeks less than two weeks to pass up with on our basada sham learn a lot so we can apply how to spiritually grow and as other sham we should marry to come to pass a whole prepared so we can experience a real freedom and real freedom will manifest into our life to be free and happy with other sham never kosher and happy pizza you [Music]