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OV good morning everyone I want to thank
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have a lot
of
okay we are continuing last week we uh
started we read a section from the P
ofus
Shapiro as I introduced last week is the
petb spiritual diary it's not his diary
of uh what he did that day how he feels
about his classmates or the you know
that he didn't make the sports team or
whatever it's a diary sair is a
spiritual diary it follows his
relationship with Hashem in it he shares
his heartfelt depth the depth of his
relationship with Hashem um I mentioned
last week a new book that came out but I
didn't tell you the title it's Dr Henry
Abramson who used to live here in South
Florida now he's in New York he's one of
the Deans of turo and it's called Torah
from the years of Wrath the historical
context of the ish KES I mentioned last
week that the is K are the sermons from
the war ghetto that the delivered and
they were hid in the shabas archives
were recovered in the 1950s and
published they were republished and what
he did is took each sermon and gave the
historical context of exactly what was
going on in the ghetto and in the area
around the time that that sermon was
given very very powerful It's a
Wonderful book a great contribution and
I highly recommend it so last week we
read an entry in
Sav um
and I want to read a second entry it's
not a continuation of what we began last
week it's an altogether separate entry
but it's a model of what we've been
talking about and preaching about and
the and the Reb in his diary is
essentially modeling for us a
possibility that we can all have in our
lives and it's a possibility of another
form of daving to hasem when we think of
daving to hasem we think of the sitter
we think of the M of the format the
template of daving begins
with and
that's the formula it's like a curve you
build up the amid is the Pinnacle and
then you come down the buildup IS before
you can have a conversation with Hashem
you have to know Hashem so when we wake
up in the morning overnight we've
forgotten who we are who he is and the
comparison the contrast between us so we
spend time we spend time the
says that the Pious people would spend a
whole hour meditating and reflecting and
introspecting in order to gain a sense
of perspective so that they could have a
meaningful conversation with Hashem and
that's what our is modeled after we
don't spend an hour we don't spend half
an hour we don't spend some spend half a
minute but theuk the zra is modeled
after the notion of you can't just get
up you can't wake up you're totally
disoriented you're totally haven't
started your day you're totally figuring
out who you are and clearing the crust
from your eyes you're not going to stand
up and all of a sudden have a
conversation with the almighty the King
of Kings the Creator the omnipotent
omniscient one you need to build up to
it how do you build up to
itra zra are zra is z is to prune
they're verses that prune we cut away
the exterior in order to be able to
Blossom in order to be able to grow fact
I just said tell connected to
yesterday's D We Begin
the is the so to say every Mitzvah has a
that you say before you do the Mitzvah
there a before you take the little an
before the chauffer a before you light
candles a before the so the that we say
before is an unusual it's not a like a
classic God you commanded us to now
recite instead how does the
begin where does that come from why
don't we say a classic why don't we say
so it comes from yesterday's
da I'm not going to ask how many people
here Andy learns yesterday's da so
yesterday's da in
in the gar there says that when a person
brings a carbang when a person would
offer a sacrifice there are six separate
but parallel cavanos six intentions that
a person has to maintain while they
offer the sacrifice it's hard for us to
think about one thing at a time let
alone six but here are the six things
you have to think about and among them
two are you have to think Lem that what
you're doing is a carbon forem you're
not just barbecuing meat because you're
hungry for a barbecue you're not
offering a sacrifice because you like
the aroma you're doing it because it's a
Mitzvah you're doing it to draw you
close to Hashem as ra writes the word
Corban isov the result the consequence
the goal of a Corban is to draw close to
feel connected to Hashem then another
one is the says that the corbon the
sacrifice is re means you want to
produce a pleasant
Aroma what does the word mean means
satisfying satisfaction what does it
mean that you're concentrating that the
corbon be satisfying so here
the
say you have to have kavana that what
you're doing is
giving it's an amazing I loved
yesterday's gar it's an amazing idea not
just that you're doing what you're doing
because it's right not just what you're
doing what you're doing because Hashem
wants you to but you're doing it with
the intent that you want to give
Hashem I met with a B mitah girl last
night we have a lot of I meet with all
these students which is like going on a
lot of really bad dates where you ask a
lot of questions and they sit barely
give you an answer and don't ask any
questions back but anyway they're
adorable young kids
and you know this is hashem's punishment
to me cuz y was basically the only girl
I dated so now I have to go on all these
bad dates so she'll be a kapara so
anyway so I was telling I was telling
this young wonderful girl yesterday this
concept of giving and I said to her I
said you know I'm 43 years old and among
the greatest Pleasures in my life today
is a delicious steak with a glass of
wine is a beautiful daving but among the
greatest Pleasures in my life today is
giving my parents Nas 43 you could be 70
80 90 years old and if your parents are
still alive and you've done something
that they tell you they got Nas they're
proud of you there's a Gish there's a
feeling it's an amazing feeling
it doesn't just happen when you're eight
or 9 years old and you bring home a
yellow Dove or a smiley face on your
test doesn't just happen in your 20s in
college when you when you make the honor
rooll it happens whatever stage of life
you're at if you know you're giving your
parent Nas that's a great feeling so if
that's true for a biological human
parent B all the more so it's true we
were pre-programmed the human psyche
that when we give Nas to hem when we
give him pleasure when we feel that
we've given him it's the greatest
feeling that there is it's the greatest
feeling there is to give and that says
the is part of the condition of theban
meaning you have not fulfilled the
carbon even if you did it for a Mitzvah
not a barbecue even if you did it for
AEM not to compete with your neighbor
but if you didn't do it with the intent
that you know what I want to give to to
my father I want him to getas from me
you haven't fulfill the Mitzvah it's the
then says
so should produce a pleasant
arom what do we learn from L that you
have to think about who do I want to
give theas
to I want to give to and who is hasem
the one who spoke and through his word
created the world and by the way for
many generations and many years like
close to 6,000 or billions depending on
your perspective people didn't
understand this with 10 hasem created
the world with 10 sayings God created
the World We Begin every
day blessed is HEM who spoke and created
the world the world came into being how
does something come about through spoken
word but our generation understands it
because you say Alexa turn on the light
tell your car your car call home turn on
the
radio turn on the blinker we live in a
generation of voice recognition that can
speak and we create things soon the
construction workers will sit on the
side and they'll
say Alexa build the building driverless
car car take me to my destination
robotic surge robot remove the
gallbladder so bless you long before
Alexa and US Theon had that capacity he
spoke and the world came into being
so
who's the one who spoke and the world
came into being so I saw commentary on
the D yesterday who says that's why we
begin because we don't have carbos we
don't have sacrifices today what takes
the place of sacrifices
today daving takes the
place what is the aod the service the
sacrifice of the
heart today we don't offer sacrifices we
do daving what's the cavana to have when
I begin my daving it should be it should
be I want to give to from this
conversation I want Hashem to enjoy his
time with me I want to say thank you and
please and admire him and ask for things
from him a parent also gets pleasure
from being ass shy don't touch it
buddy don't touch it
buddy don't touch it buddy a parent also
gets pleasure I thought you weren't
touching
it a parent also gets pleasure from
being asked from their child knowing
their child relies and Depends and wants
them they also get pleasure from that so
we should have at the beginning of
daving we're
giving but what's
the who are we directing all of this to
so that's why it's not a classic Mitzvah
it's not a regular you doing a Mitzvah
because this is about honing in our
kavana it's about paralleling the six
cavanas when you bring a sacrifice the
equivalent of the sacrifice today the
aod of today is our daving so we begin
it so we make the mistake of thinking
ding is from the sitter when do I DAV I
grab a sitter when I grab AUM that's
daving but that's not daving that's a
consession that's our rabbis realizing
that you know what if we don't create a
template and a text and an obligation
you're not going to do it really the
mandate to D every day which is RA and
ra and are you biblically obligated to D
every single day must you D in every day
it's a debate do you have to dve every
day
one says yes you have to DAV in every
day the other says no you only have to
DAV the biblical obligation to DAV is
when you're going through hardship when
you hit a road a bump in the road when
you're going through a crisis that's
when you have Sal said they're not
really arguing they both agree one says
you have to D in every day and the other
says when you have AAR they agree it's
just they both agree you have to DAV
when you have AAR just the other one is
formulating it you can't be alive and
get through one day without having a
s you know every single moment of every
single day you run into a some major
some insignificant negligible but
there's a so you have to DAV every day
so really how do you fulfill daving by
talking to Hashem from your heart having
a conversation with the almighty filling
him in asking for things praising him
thanking him that everything worked out
it's having a conversation with Hashem
that's real ding but the rabbis
understood that you know people get
caught up in their lives they're
distracted it's hard to have the focus
to disconnect in order to connect to
Hashem so you know we're going to
Institute daving three times a day we'll
give a sitter we'll give a text we'll
give obligation and that way the person
will will do it but that's really the
concession that's really not the ideal
that's just to make sure we do it the
other beautiful benefit of it is that we
are connecting with Jews all around the
world we are we are transcending time
and transcending space when I take my
sitter and I D in my amida I'm saying
the same words my great great great
great great great great great great
great grandfather said and I'm also
saying the same words that my great
great great great grandchildren are
going to say and that binds me with past
present and future I'm saying the same
words in bokeh as I said when I was in
Yim as those in South Africa and South
America and Australia and across Europe
and anywhere in the world are saying so
the siter has this incredible capacity
to bind us together and allow us enable
us to transcend time and space but it's
a concession it's not the besta the
ideala is what we say from our heart
it's our conversation it's one of the
words of daving
has 13 synonyms for prayer one of them
is what's conversation is a conversation
a is a conversation the highest form of
doing is a conversation with Hashem now
what stops us from having that
conversation the doubt that someone's
actually
listening right if you knew someone was
listening you ever talking on the phone
and you're rambling and rambling and
telling the story and then this happened
thaten I can't believe it what that and
then like an hour We're and you go are
you still there you realize like is is
anyone
listening sometimes that I'm on the
listening end of that so I'll just throw
in every now and then oh yeah just make
some noise so that they don't have to
say are you still there right so when we
when we talk to Hashem from our heart
sometimes we're wondering like hello are
you still there is anyone listening is
anyone listening why am I bothering is
anyone listening it speaks to the level
of Doubt or uncertainty we have is there
Hashem does he care is he really
listening that's not just our doubt that
begins in this week's para this week's
para it
says the people were complainers Mison
them I mentioned yesterday in the parish
class they weren't just legitimate
reasonable tempered people who had a
complaint Mison is hit reflexive they
transformed themselves into a bunch of
fa miserable complainers that the Torah
and I have no tolerance for to be a
reasonal person who has constructive
criticism welcome it bring it there's
Merit to it we'll learn from it we'll
change we'll grow everyone no one's
perfect and we all need feedback
institutionally personally we all need
it that's a reasonable person who's
genuinely happy offering a legitimate
and balanced complaint but Mison means
they had transformed themselves into a
group of complainers spoke about in the
par class yesterday the people who are
not happy unless they're un happy early
on in my rabet I drove myself crazy
that's why I lost my hair and turned
gray trying to make the miserable people
happy until I realized stop trying to
make them happy by solving their
complaint you're making them unhappy
they have to find a new complaint
they're only happy when they have a
complaint listen smile and complain with
them yeah it's terrible the egg Sal the
toilet paper the pace of the doing the
Sho me Li it's terrible you're right
it's terrible when a person is a
miserable faisa complainer that means
they're not happy unless they're
complaining so stop trying to solve
their complaint you're making them
miserable you want to make them happy
let them complain but that's what mosha
had no kind no no tolerance for when
someone's reasonable and as reasonable
complaint solve the complaint because
they generally want to be happy with you
what was their complaint what were they
miserable about what
happened they were complaining all of a
sudden here we're going to describe in
hashem's
earsm doesn't really have ears it's an
anthropomorphism but why are we using
that anthropomorphism here all of a
sudden we wake up and describe Hashem is
having
ears the MOs s says you know what the
problem
was you know what their problem
was they didn't believe Hashem was
listening they believed there was a God
and they believe God saw and heard and
knew everything going on in their lives
they even believe believed Inus Divine
Providence that God was involved in
their lives but they didn't believe that
they could influence
God the complaint was hm nobody's
listening so what does the Torah say how
does God
react hasem God says I'm listening I'm
listening I hear I don't just influence
you I'm influenced by you I don't just
call the shots I want to I welcome I
invite I want you to talk to me because
in the end of the day it's about a
relationship that's the goal that's the
purpose that's why he created us and
that's how he created us that the
greatest pleasure we can get is a
relationship with him so we too are like
the mm not a bunch of fais complainers
hopefully
but we sometimes think you know what am
I going to look like a I'm driving
the car and talking out loud to God is
he listening this is insane what am I
what am I crazy talking to myself
talking out loud but you're crazy if you
don't talk to him you have an invitation
from the King of Kings he says tell ask
me anything you want talk to me tell me
what's going on in your life confide in
me lean on me I'm here and he's not just
the best friend you could have he's not
just the best spouse you could have he's
not just the best doctor the best law
lawyer you could have he's the best
anything you could have and he says I'm
giving you time you ever have access to
somebody who's very powerful very
influential very busy very famous and
they say I have I have five minutes for
you you have 20 minutes the doctor comes
in the clock's already ticking you're on
the clock Hashem says I have all the
time you
want I invite talk to me tell me there's
no rush no nobody nobody's telling you
you got two minutes left or I've got to
go I've got another meeting I've got
someone else who wants to talk to me
Theon sh says I'm here and I have all
the time in the world talk to me so
you're not crazy if you talk to Hashem
you're crazy if you don't talk to Hashem
you're crazy if you don't develop that
relationship the and all
the it's all there the the actual part
we talked to it's a platform to insert
our own conversation either during
daving we've spoken about that every BR
you add your own or outside when you're
when you're grateful but it takes
mindfulness you have to remember to do
it I was in New York on Sunday at a
levia and a wedding and a dinner and
then I flew back I knew I had to fly
back on on Monday morning we had a bris
and a bar mitzvah a lot of life cycle in
24 hours almost bat for the cycle did we
bris Bar Mitzvah wedding Leva dinner
dinner is part of the Jewish life cycle
I don't know it's like it's like going
to another L but
anyway so so so the only way I was going
to make it back was I had to take the
6:00 flight so there actually I found a
website when I was trying to book this
all and see if I could manage it and
stay over and make it back for the
bristen bar mitzvah I I Google there's a
website where you can track the history
of a particular flight if you want to
know does that always take off early on
time does it normally land late on time
because if you want to make get a sense
of does it make sense am I going to make
it so the flight showed probably 80% of
the time it landed on timer early First
Flight of the day they're always
motivated to get out get it starts the
whole day for them it's the easiest one
for them to get out on time there's no
delay for it so it almost always took
off on time and it often or almost
always landed early but 20% of the time
it landed late probably weather related
mechanical related looked like it was
going to land on I wake up 4:00 in the
morning to make this flight I look and
it says even though it's taking off on
time because of the weather it's going
to land late like oh boy I really want
it's Zion one of our our staff members I
want I want to make it back for the bris
so again the plane and the pilot announc
because of the weather we're going to
land late and I let a little ding to
said hasem like you know a little like a
little gust of wind make it happen right
and I'm tracking on I'm tracking on the
fight the whole time not only did we
land early we landed earlier than they
normally earlier land and I got in the
car and I was early to the bris and the
B I had to wait around for the bris to
start so it took me a while I will admit
till I was driving later in the day when
I realized I forgot to thank Hashem it's
rude there I was saying please please
please
I really feel like Hashem made the whole
plane go faster for me because I wanted
that big old unlocks
andem hasem manipulated nature to allow
the plane to go early it was
unbelievable and I forgot to say thank
you it's rude so I didn't say thank you
and D I was driving later I had a whole
conversation with him than everything
worked out that was truly amazing how it
happened thank you so much we're
mindless either we're we don't really
believe he's listening cuz someone did
you a huge favor you wouldn't forget to
say thank you unless you don't really
believe he did you the favor or he's
there or he knows who you are or he
cares about you so we too suffer from
that has we struggle we hesitate to take
that leap and believe there is a Hashem
and and he's answering us he doesn't
sometimes the answer is no and even then
you have to have a conversation it may
not be thank you maybe other words but
even then you're showing him you believe
in him by having a conversation so all
this is by way of introduction to say
that Hashem wants us to have a
conversation with him so that way get to
the
of and let's because I'm already late
and took up most of the time let's do it
in the English you have on one side the
Hebrew we're reading towards the end of
O every entry has a number again you can
get it online I think it's out of print
so as Hench have found you can only buy
like used copies for like
$75 but it's it's fantastic so it's in
the back of it's in the back
of here's the Hebrew or you can buy to
heal the soul the spiritual journey ofb
the pbus Comm Shapiro so let's read it
in the English and what the Reb is doing
here is he's endorsed this notion of his
bodus his bonus and his bodus which
means being contemplative and and
finding time alone right in the in the
extreme
form and I'm looking forward to doing
this in in Montana the summer but in the
extreme form it's going into the forest
by yourself finding someplace in nature
where you connect deep breathe deeply I
hope Rabbi Al Mal Goldberg every went
went to his breath break seminar and
learned how to breathe deeply and Center
themselves and quiet the noise and quiet
their own stress and their own body
breathe deep turn your phone off find a
place in nature we have the
ocean that's all we have we don't have
any Hill other than the dump off the
turnpike or don't go there that's not a
good place or but find a place that
that's nature you're connected to Nature
you're connected to hm and have a
conversation by the way that place could
be your kitchen it could be while
driving the car back from carpool it's
and talk to Hashem talk to hasem how do
you do it writes the rebba seclude
yourself in a quiet place get as far as
you can from distraction relax any
tension in your body quiet all the noise
in your mind right long before
mindfulness and meditation which are the
code and catch words of the 21st century
long before Time Magazine put on the
cover mindfulness the pet in the early
20th century is writing relax the
tension in your body if you ever done
yoga ice melting into water relax the
muscles you never even knew you had and
your cheekbones and uh and relax the
tension in your body and quiet all the
noise in your mind then Envision
yourself standing before Hashem there
you are mortal creature beseeching the
infinite one pour out your heart speak
out your soul tell them what's on your
mind without inhibitions in whatever
language say whatever comes to your mind
have a conversation with your closest
friend if you've never before practiced
such intimate expression before Hashem
I'll give you an example the goal is to
empty out your soul in meditative prayer
and return to its Father's love this
must come from your own heart so my
words are only a guideline right says
the Reb the whole idea of this is that
it's personal it's individual you're not
reading someone else's script that's
what we do with
daving with the said here are 13
Universal needs knowledge health wealth
Justice Redemption go through through
the amida these are 13 the middle
section of requests these are 13
Universal needs everyone has so they
gave us a template they said work with
the template but now you got to fill in
the template from your heart you got to
fill it in otherwise it's not going to
get you somewhere we're dealing with
yesterday the orb there's somebody who
gave us they have an app for how to how
to um manage your clients within kras so
they gave us like a 40 page proposal so
one of our hesitations was we looked at
him we said it's a template proposal
they basically wrote find and replace
the other cases with the orb the next
time and it's like unimpressive they
didn't taper a proposal for us they just
gave us a template proposal all they did
is on the cover page they used white out
for whatever the OU and wrote orb so
right away you're like this doesn't get
me excited because they didn't care
enough to make this personal to
understand who we are and our needs and
personalized this to us they just took a
template and delivered a template that
they used white out on the cover so if
all you do is from the am the sitter you
just delivered hasem a template all you
did is give him a template maybe you was
white out and you said Hashem it's me on
the cover here's my
template here it is says that that
doesn't really do much for our
relationship that doesn't really make me
feel very personal I get a gazillion
emails a day often from organizations
rabbis people needing things the first
thing I look at is was I written to me
or was I BCC did it start out Dear Rabbi
Goldberg did it start out dear friends
if it didn't say Rabbi Goldberg delete
if I'm bccd almost always delete maybe
I'm missing out on Good Things by that I
hope nobody's listening who's going to
learn the right way to do it just keep
BCC me but delete because if it's not
written to me this is a generic email
you got to have the some list of the
rabbis all over the planet you send some
generic email delete if you care enough
to write me an email I'll look at it so
when you send K an email that's just you
know BCC template email you got to make
it personal it's got to be from your
heart cuz he knows everything about you
believe me you can't get away with
hiding anything you can't get away with
a template he knows that he just made
the plane go faster so you'd land early
so everything worked out for you and
you're not going to say thank you you're
not going to reflect on that or how
everything has worked out and just say
thank you for everything working out
that was extraordinary it really all
worked that well Hashem thank you for
everything so my words thank you thank
you so my words are only a guideline so
he says the following Hashem from the
depths of my soul I call out to you
creator of my my very existence my body
my spirit my soul they are yours I have
no intrinsic existence my yearning is
great can't you see to be pure of spirit
and heart oh that you will oh that your
will would I sense your wisdom would I
Ponder and your voice would I hear in my
heart but alas this is not my heart
Mourns inside my soul so muddled and
confused I sense only the sensual and
desire the impure and my inner voice no
longer transmits your will instead their
inside is the voice of my own will to
those whose demands I am at beck and
call and even when I try to rise and
protest to expel All The Unwanted will I
only can clean out my conscious thoughts
the unconscious remain in my soul right
not everyone here is a poet like the P
re this is magnificent when he goes into
the forest and takes deep breaths and
relaxes his cheek muscles and connects
to Hashem he he speaks to Hashem in
poetry and Pros it's magnificent so not
all of us can in that way but if you
dissect it down he's being very human
he's saying Hashem I have very human
desires and I wish that my Desir were
your desires and oh if I could replace
my will with your will but alas even
when my conscious will I can condition
to be your will my subconscious will
still has a Temptation for things that
are inconsistent and don't conform to
what you want and oh Hashem I wish it
were different and I need your help
right that's the Poetry version Let me
give you like the human version Hashem I
really want to look at that stuff on the
internet I know you don't want me to I
really want to share the gossip I know
you don't want me to it's hard for me
and even when I control it I know I
conscious I still want it and help me
overcome that Yara because every day is
a struggle that's the more less poetic
version of it but that's what he's
getting at and that's what we can get at
you think Hashem doesn't know that you
struggle with lanara or with being
honest or with looking at that thing on
the internet or with how you dress or
how you speak or where you go what you
do or daving he knows it all when you
confess to him or confide in him like
you're not blowing your cover he knows
it all so all you're doing is being more
real to him and having greater Merit
Hashem pure one source of Purity how I
just fall apart by the thought if one
wishes to clean his house in his garden
he will remove all unwanted things but
when I clean out myself so that my soul
shines before you I just place my waist
out of my sight deep inside my soul and
where my conscious mind cannot see it
it's magnificent right when you clean
out your house you take your garbage to
the curb and you get rid of it altoe
when we clean out our garbage we really
still want it so we don't actually clean
it out we just set it to the side or if
you speak the language of let's say
Apple Computers you you delete things
but how often do you empty that trash
why don't you empty the trash cuz you're
really nervous what if something in it
you're going to need so you delete
emails but how often do you empty the
deleted folder because what if there's
something in the deleted folder that
someday you're going to want to retrieve
so we in our own lives empti we we put
things in the trash we press delete on
that experience on that memory on that
image on that desire but we don't really
empty the trash because we really don't
want to entirely Purge ourselves or
disconnect from it says the PBA I feel
so filthy because of this sewage that
purifies in the depths of my soul my
soul bursts at the seams because of this
load that floods forth at most
inopportune times even now God as I
speak to you thoughts of specify are
knocking at my mind it's only with your
help that I can restrain the urge to act
out these inner voices but how bitter I
feel that my soul is so soiled by these
drives that Express themselves in
various ways of life please Hashem have
mercy and purify my soul root out those
weeds from my soul remove all those
urges that make me straight from you so
that they do not come to haunt me in old
age especially when I feel intimate with
you when learning your Torah when
talking to you let my soul rise right up
before you purified by having fulfilled
your will let my soul sore fueled by my
yearning to surrender completely to you
now again this is an incredibly high
level I'm not suggesting that our own
his boned us that our conversation our
conversation is help the flight land on
time help me earn my parasa help so and
so who I love who's suffering have
health and wellbeing help my marriage
help my children who's
struggling help my shy who's homesick
but is graduating tonight be well enough
to graduate very real right pet is
incredibly lofty my soul and it's
blemished and the residual and remove it
so I'm pure and that's amazing I'm not
saying it's so easy and it is the it's
it's attainable or accessible or
realistic relatable for us but what I
wanted to share with you today is this
notion that the real doing the most
authentic doing is not the one from the
sitter do the one from the sitter we're
obligated in the one from the sitter
that's not the most authentic version
the most authentic version
is not the BCC or the CC it's the one
directed directly to Hashem confide in
Hashem talk to Hashem lean on Hashem
rely on Hashem thank Hashem be angry
protest Hashem I say this all the time I
mentioned it last week the woman who I
gave a license to be angry at Hashem he
took someone from you so precious you're
so hurt You're such pain You're such
anguish I went to the Lev on Sunday of
rash Weiss's wife she was a young woman
she had cancer for 10 years and uh and
rash is one of the G Ador he got up and
he said it's the first time in his life
that he ever Rose to speak and he can't
find the words to say he's a know K is
an
incredible and an amazing oror and he
rose up to talk about his wife and both
the one he gave in New York and then the
L and Israel which I didn't hear but I
understand he wasn't the gor when he
gave that hped he was a husband he
talked about his wife in very human
terms but I's he's a very strong and
very stoic person when I spent a moment
with him before the Leva and you saw the
tears in his eyes and we just as the
demands sat silently because there is
nothing to
say because the the most painful
experience of losses from a spouse
so um so you saw that he was he was in
incredible pain he was incredible
incredible anguish on its own it was
very human it was very real where was I
going why was I saying that nobody here
knows including me where I was going
with that oh I know where I was going
with that so I'm not suggesting that he
was protesting to Hashem I'm thinking
about the other person who experienced
that loss when a person loses someone so
precious there's nothing wrong with
turning to Hashem respectfully not
heretically respectfully and saying
Hashem how could you do this to me I
know you're a good God I know you're a
loving God I know you're a kind God and
I know that everything is for the best I
don't understand how this is for the
best now that's after the fact it's not
going to bring your loved one back but
while someone sits
while someone's suffering Hashem wants
us to protest he's inviting us to object
and say how could you make this person I
love I care about who's so good and so
kind what's going on are you doing it to
get my attention or you got my attention
our attention the community's attention
because one of the bab when someone from
the benab is suffering the whole kabur
is suffering when someone from the
community is suffering the whole
Community is suffering and the whole
Community says to hasm we protest we
protest give it another look we think
this is the wrong conclusion check again
our protest should be a merit for that
person we are changed in their Merit
you've drawn our attention in their
Merit so give them a new decree
protesting so the form of very personal
doing is not you know Hashem wants you
to say you're the greatest and I love
you and you're perfect and everything's
amazing Hashem doesn't have an ego he
doesn't need our praise he wants a
relationship and a relationship is one
where there's real conversation and
dialogue and real conversation dialogue
is not everything's always amazing and
Hy dor unless you're Rabbi casorla then
everything is amazing unless you're
Rabbi casorla things are not always
amazing so and he really thinks they are
he's unbelievable he's unbelievable Ali
we should we should get to that level so
he wants us to protest because it shows
how very real and authentic we are talk
to Hashem this is a template put this in
your car in your pocketbook in your
wallet whether you want to use his words
or find your own but even by the way
just begin with that paragraph seclude
yourself in a Place get as far as you
can from distraction relax the tension
in your body quiet the noise in your
mind take a deep breath and talk to hem
that's what's happing don't be don't be
like the Mis of our para who deny that
hem is listening not only is he
listening he's inviting he's eager and
we're not crazy if we talk to God we're
crazy if we don't have a great day