Part 76: A Casual Conversation with Hashem

OV good morning everyone I want to thank our sponsors this morning the renberg family in honor of Alana and Naomi's graduation Maz on the graduation should have a lot of okay we are continuing last week we uh started we read a section from the P ofus Shapiro as I introduced last week is the petb spiritual diary it's not his diary of uh what he did that day how he feels about his classmates or the you know that he didn't make the sports team or whatever it's a diary sair is a spiritual diary it follows his relationship with Hashem in it he shares his heartfelt depth the depth of his relationship with Hashem um I mentioned last week a new book that came out but I didn't tell you the title it's Dr Henry Abramson who used to live here in South Florida now he's in New York he's one of the Deans of turo and it's called Torah from the years of Wrath the historical context of the ish KES I mentioned last week that the is K are the sermons from the war ghetto that the delivered and they were hid in the shabas archives were recovered in the 1950s and published they were republished and what he did is took each sermon and gave the historical context of exactly what was going on in the ghetto and in the area around the time that that sermon was given very very powerful It's a Wonderful book a great contribution and I highly recommend it so last week we read an entry in Sav um and I want to read a second entry it's not a continuation of what we began last week it's an altogether separate entry but it's a model of what we've been talking about and preaching about and the and the Reb in his diary is essentially modeling for us a possibility that we can all have in our lives and it's a possibility of another form of daving to hasem when we think of daving to hasem we think of the sitter we think of the M of the format the template of daving begins with and that's the formula it's like a curve you build up the amid is the Pinnacle and then you come down the buildup IS before you can have a conversation with Hashem you have to know Hashem so when we wake up in the morning overnight we've forgotten who we are who he is and the comparison the contrast between us so we spend time we spend time the says that the Pious people would spend a whole hour meditating and reflecting and introspecting in order to gain a sense of perspective so that they could have a meaningful conversation with Hashem and that's what our is modeled after we don't spend an hour we don't spend half an hour we don't spend some spend half a minute but theuk the zra is modeled after the notion of you can't just get up you can't wake up you're totally disoriented you're totally haven't started your day you're totally figuring out who you are and clearing the crust from your eyes you're not going to stand up and all of a sudden have a conversation with the almighty the King of Kings the Creator the omnipotent omniscient one you need to build up to it how do you build up to itra zra are zra is z is to prune they're verses that prune we cut away the exterior in order to be able to Blossom in order to be able to grow fact I just said tell connected to yesterday's D We Begin the is the so to say every Mitzvah has a that you say before you do the Mitzvah there a before you take the little an before the chauffer a before you light candles a before the so the that we say before is an unusual it's not a like a classic God you commanded us to now recite instead how does the begin where does that come from why don't we say a classic why don't we say so it comes from yesterday's da I'm not going to ask how many people here Andy learns yesterday's da so yesterday's da in in the gar there says that when a person brings a carbang when a person would offer a sacrifice there are six separate but parallel cavanos six intentions that a person has to maintain while they offer the sacrifice it's hard for us to think about one thing at a time let alone six but here are the six things you have to think about and among them two are you have to think Lem that what you're doing is a carbon forem you're not just barbecuing meat because you're hungry for a barbecue you're not offering a sacrifice because you like the aroma you're doing it because it's a Mitzvah you're doing it to draw you close to Hashem as ra writes the word Corban isov the result the consequence the goal of a Corban is to draw close to feel connected to Hashem then another one is the says that the corbon the sacrifice is re means you want to produce a pleasant Aroma what does the word mean means satisfying satisfaction what does it mean that you're concentrating that the corbon be satisfying so here the say you have to have kavana that what you're doing is giving it's an amazing I loved yesterday's gar it's an amazing idea not just that you're doing what you're doing because it's right not just what you're doing what you're doing because Hashem wants you to but you're doing it with the intent that you want to give Hashem I met with a B mitah girl last night we have a lot of I meet with all these students which is like going on a lot of really bad dates where you ask a lot of questions and they sit barely give you an answer and don't ask any questions back but anyway they're adorable young kids and you know this is hashem's punishment to me cuz y was basically the only girl I dated so now I have to go on all these bad dates so she'll be a kapara so anyway so I was telling I was telling this young wonderful girl yesterday this concept of giving and I said to her I said you know I'm 43 years old and among the greatest Pleasures in my life today is a delicious steak with a glass of wine is a beautiful daving but among the greatest Pleasures in my life today is giving my parents Nas 43 you could be 70 80 90 years old and if your parents are still alive and you've done something that they tell you they got Nas they're proud of you there's a Gish there's a feeling it's an amazing feeling it doesn't just happen when you're eight or 9 years old and you bring home a yellow Dove or a smiley face on your test doesn't just happen in your 20s in college when you when you make the honor rooll it happens whatever stage of life you're at if you know you're giving your parent Nas that's a great feeling so if that's true for a biological human parent B all the more so it's true we were pre-programmed the human psyche that when we give Nas to hem when we give him pleasure when we feel that we've given him it's the greatest feeling that there is it's the greatest feeling there is to give and that says the is part of the condition of theban meaning you have not fulfilled the carbon even if you did it for a Mitzvah not a barbecue even if you did it for AEM not to compete with your neighbor but if you didn't do it with the intent that you know what I want to give to to my father I want him to getas from me you haven't fulfill the Mitzvah it's the then says so should produce a pleasant arom what do we learn from L that you have to think about who do I want to give theas to I want to give to and who is hasem the one who spoke and through his word created the world and by the way for many generations and many years like close to 6,000 or billions depending on your perspective people didn't understand this with 10 hasem created the world with 10 sayings God created the World We Begin every day blessed is HEM who spoke and created the world the world came into being how does something come about through spoken word but our generation understands it because you say Alexa turn on the light tell your car your car call home turn on the radio turn on the blinker we live in a generation of voice recognition that can speak and we create things soon the construction workers will sit on the side and they'll say Alexa build the building driverless car car take me to my destination robotic surge robot remove the gallbladder so bless you long before Alexa and US Theon had that capacity he spoke and the world came into being so who's the one who spoke and the world came into being so I saw commentary on the D yesterday who says that's why we begin because we don't have carbos we don't have sacrifices today what takes the place of sacrifices today daving takes the place what is the aod the service the sacrifice of the heart today we don't offer sacrifices we do daving what's the cavana to have when I begin my daving it should be it should be I want to give to from this conversation I want Hashem to enjoy his time with me I want to say thank you and please and admire him and ask for things from him a parent also gets pleasure from being ass shy don't touch it buddy don't touch it buddy don't touch it buddy a parent also gets pleasure I thought you weren't touching it a parent also gets pleasure from being asked from their child knowing their child relies and Depends and wants them they also get pleasure from that so we should have at the beginning of daving we're giving but what's the who are we directing all of this to so that's why it's not a classic Mitzvah it's not a regular you doing a Mitzvah because this is about honing in our kavana it's about paralleling the six cavanas when you bring a sacrifice the equivalent of the sacrifice today the aod of today is our daving so we begin it so we make the mistake of thinking ding is from the sitter when do I DAV I grab a sitter when I grab AUM that's daving but that's not daving that's a consession that's our rabbis realizing that you know what if we don't create a template and a text and an obligation you're not going to do it really the mandate to D every day which is RA and ra and are you biblically obligated to D every single day must you D in every day it's a debate do you have to dve every day one says yes you have to DAV in every day the other says no you only have to DAV the biblical obligation to DAV is when you're going through hardship when you hit a road a bump in the road when you're going through a crisis that's when you have Sal said they're not really arguing they both agree one says you have to D in every day and the other says when you have AAR they agree it's just they both agree you have to DAV when you have AAR just the other one is formulating it you can't be alive and get through one day without having a s you know every single moment of every single day you run into a some major some insignificant negligible but there's a so you have to DAV every day so really how do you fulfill daving by talking to Hashem from your heart having a conversation with the almighty filling him in asking for things praising him thanking him that everything worked out it's having a conversation with Hashem that's real ding but the rabbis understood that you know people get caught up in their lives they're distracted it's hard to have the focus to disconnect in order to connect to Hashem so you know we're going to Institute daving three times a day we'll give a sitter we'll give a text we'll give obligation and that way the person will will do it but that's really the concession that's really not the ideal that's just to make sure we do it the other beautiful benefit of it is that we are connecting with Jews all around the world we are we are transcending time and transcending space when I take my sitter and I D in my amida I'm saying the same words my great great great great great great great great great great grandfather said and I'm also saying the same words that my great great great great grandchildren are going to say and that binds me with past present and future I'm saying the same words in bokeh as I said when I was in Yim as those in South Africa and South America and Australia and across Europe and anywhere in the world are saying so the siter has this incredible capacity to bind us together and allow us enable us to transcend time and space but it's a concession it's not the besta the ideala is what we say from our heart it's our conversation it's one of the words of daving has 13 synonyms for prayer one of them is what's conversation is a conversation a is a conversation the highest form of doing is a conversation with Hashem now what stops us from having that conversation the doubt that someone's actually listening right if you knew someone was listening you ever talking on the phone and you're rambling and rambling and telling the story and then this happened thaten I can't believe it what that and then like an hour We're and you go are you still there you realize like is is anyone listening sometimes that I'm on the listening end of that so I'll just throw in every now and then oh yeah just make some noise so that they don't have to say are you still there right so when we when we talk to Hashem from our heart sometimes we're wondering like hello are you still there is anyone listening is anyone listening why am I bothering is anyone listening it speaks to the level of Doubt or uncertainty we have is there Hashem does he care is he really listening that's not just our doubt that begins in this week's para this week's para it says the people were complainers Mison them I mentioned yesterday in the parish class they weren't just legitimate reasonable tempered people who had a complaint Mison is hit reflexive they transformed themselves into a bunch of fa miserable complainers that the Torah and I have no tolerance for to be a reasonal person who has constructive criticism welcome it bring it there's Merit to it we'll learn from it we'll change we'll grow everyone no one's perfect and we all need feedback institutionally personally we all need it that's a reasonable person who's genuinely happy offering a legitimate and balanced complaint but Mison means they had transformed themselves into a group of complainers spoke about in the par class yesterday the people who are not happy unless they're un happy early on in my rabet I drove myself crazy that's why I lost my hair and turned gray trying to make the miserable people happy until I realized stop trying to make them happy by solving their complaint you're making them unhappy they have to find a new complaint they're only happy when they have a complaint listen smile and complain with them yeah it's terrible the egg Sal the toilet paper the pace of the doing the Sho me Li it's terrible you're right it's terrible when a person is a miserable faisa complainer that means they're not happy unless they're complaining so stop trying to solve their complaint you're making them miserable you want to make them happy let them complain but that's what mosha had no kind no no tolerance for when someone's reasonable and as reasonable complaint solve the complaint because they generally want to be happy with you what was their complaint what were they miserable about what happened they were complaining all of a sudden here we're going to describe in hashem's earsm doesn't really have ears it's an anthropomorphism but why are we using that anthropomorphism here all of a sudden we wake up and describe Hashem is having ears the MOs s says you know what the problem was you know what their problem was they didn't believe Hashem was listening they believed there was a God and they believe God saw and heard and knew everything going on in their lives they even believe believed Inus Divine Providence that God was involved in their lives but they didn't believe that they could influence God the complaint was hm nobody's listening so what does the Torah say how does God react hasem God says I'm listening I'm listening I hear I don't just influence you I'm influenced by you I don't just call the shots I want to I welcome I invite I want you to talk to me because in the end of the day it's about a relationship that's the goal that's the purpose that's why he created us and that's how he created us that the greatest pleasure we can get is a relationship with him so we too are like the mm not a bunch of fais complainers hopefully but we sometimes think you know what am I going to look like a I'm driving the car and talking out loud to God is he listening this is insane what am I what am I crazy talking to myself talking out loud but you're crazy if you don't talk to him you have an invitation from the King of Kings he says tell ask me anything you want talk to me tell me what's going on in your life confide in me lean on me I'm here and he's not just the best friend you could have he's not just the best spouse you could have he's not just the best doctor the best law lawyer you could have he's the best anything you could have and he says I'm giving you time you ever have access to somebody who's very powerful very influential very busy very famous and they say I have I have five minutes for you you have 20 minutes the doctor comes in the clock's already ticking you're on the clock Hashem says I have all the time you want I invite talk to me tell me there's no rush no nobody nobody's telling you you got two minutes left or I've got to go I've got another meeting I've got someone else who wants to talk to me Theon sh says I'm here and I have all the time in the world talk to me so you're not crazy if you talk to Hashem you're crazy if you don't talk to Hashem you're crazy if you don't develop that relationship the and all the it's all there the the actual part we talked to it's a platform to insert our own conversation either during daving we've spoken about that every BR you add your own or outside when you're when you're grateful but it takes mindfulness you have to remember to do it I was in New York on Sunday at a levia and a wedding and a dinner and then I flew back I knew I had to fly back on on Monday morning we had a bris and a bar mitzvah a lot of life cycle in 24 hours almost bat for the cycle did we bris Bar Mitzvah wedding Leva dinner dinner is part of the Jewish life cycle I don't know it's like it's like going to another L but anyway so so so the only way I was going to make it back was I had to take the 6:00 flight so there actually I found a website when I was trying to book this all and see if I could manage it and stay over and make it back for the bristen bar mitzvah I I Google there's a website where you can track the history of a particular flight if you want to know does that always take off early on time does it normally land late on time because if you want to make get a sense of does it make sense am I going to make it so the flight showed probably 80% of the time it landed on timer early First Flight of the day they're always motivated to get out get it starts the whole day for them it's the easiest one for them to get out on time there's no delay for it so it almost always took off on time and it often or almost always landed early but 20% of the time it landed late probably weather related mechanical related looked like it was going to land on I wake up 4:00 in the morning to make this flight I look and it says even though it's taking off on time because of the weather it's going to land late like oh boy I really want it's Zion one of our our staff members I want I want to make it back for the bris so again the plane and the pilot announc because of the weather we're going to land late and I let a little ding to said hasem like you know a little like a little gust of wind make it happen right and I'm tracking on I'm tracking on the fight the whole time not only did we land early we landed earlier than they normally earlier land and I got in the car and I was early to the bris and the B I had to wait around for the bris to start so it took me a while I will admit till I was driving later in the day when I realized I forgot to thank Hashem it's rude there I was saying please please please I really feel like Hashem made the whole plane go faster for me because I wanted that big old unlocks andem hasem manipulated nature to allow the plane to go early it was unbelievable and I forgot to say thank you it's rude so I didn't say thank you and D I was driving later I had a whole conversation with him than everything worked out that was truly amazing how it happened thank you so much we're mindless either we're we don't really believe he's listening cuz someone did you a huge favor you wouldn't forget to say thank you unless you don't really believe he did you the favor or he's there or he knows who you are or he cares about you so we too suffer from that has we struggle we hesitate to take that leap and believe there is a Hashem and and he's answering us he doesn't sometimes the answer is no and even then you have to have a conversation it may not be thank you maybe other words but even then you're showing him you believe in him by having a conversation so all this is by way of introduction to say that Hashem wants us to have a conversation with him so that way get to the of and let's because I'm already late and took up most of the time let's do it in the English you have on one side the Hebrew we're reading towards the end of O every entry has a number again you can get it online I think it's out of print so as Hench have found you can only buy like used copies for like $75 but it's it's fantastic so it's in the back of it's in the back of here's the Hebrew or you can buy to heal the soul the spiritual journey ofb the pbus Comm Shapiro so let's read it in the English and what the Reb is doing here is he's endorsed this notion of his bodus his bonus and his bodus which means being contemplative and and finding time alone right in the in the extreme form and I'm looking forward to doing this in in Montana the summer but in the extreme form it's going into the forest by yourself finding someplace in nature where you connect deep breathe deeply I hope Rabbi Al Mal Goldberg every went went to his breath break seminar and learned how to breathe deeply and Center themselves and quiet the noise and quiet their own stress and their own body breathe deep turn your phone off find a place in nature we have the ocean that's all we have we don't have any Hill other than the dump off the turnpike or don't go there that's not a good place or but find a place that that's nature you're connected to Nature you're connected to hm and have a conversation by the way that place could be your kitchen it could be while driving the car back from carpool it's and talk to Hashem talk to hasem how do you do it writes the rebba seclude yourself in a quiet place get as far as you can from distraction relax any tension in your body quiet all the noise in your mind right long before mindfulness and meditation which are the code and catch words of the 21st century long before Time Magazine put on the cover mindfulness the pet in the early 20th century is writing relax the tension in your body if you ever done yoga ice melting into water relax the muscles you never even knew you had and your cheekbones and uh and relax the tension in your body and quiet all the noise in your mind then Envision yourself standing before Hashem there you are mortal creature beseeching the infinite one pour out your heart speak out your soul tell them what's on your mind without inhibitions in whatever language say whatever comes to your mind have a conversation with your closest friend if you've never before practiced such intimate expression before Hashem I'll give you an example the goal is to empty out your soul in meditative prayer and return to its Father's love this must come from your own heart so my words are only a guideline right says the Reb the whole idea of this is that it's personal it's individual you're not reading someone else's script that's what we do with daving with the said here are 13 Universal needs knowledge health wealth Justice Redemption go through through the amida these are 13 the middle section of requests these are 13 Universal needs everyone has so they gave us a template they said work with the template but now you got to fill in the template from your heart you got to fill it in otherwise it's not going to get you somewhere we're dealing with yesterday the orb there's somebody who gave us they have an app for how to how to um manage your clients within kras so they gave us like a 40 page proposal so one of our hesitations was we looked at him we said it's a template proposal they basically wrote find and replace the other cases with the orb the next time and it's like unimpressive they didn't taper a proposal for us they just gave us a template proposal all they did is on the cover page they used white out for whatever the OU and wrote orb so right away you're like this doesn't get me excited because they didn't care enough to make this personal to understand who we are and our needs and personalized this to us they just took a template and delivered a template that they used white out on the cover so if all you do is from the am the sitter you just delivered hasem a template all you did is give him a template maybe you was white out and you said Hashem it's me on the cover here's my template here it is says that that doesn't really do much for our relationship that doesn't really make me feel very personal I get a gazillion emails a day often from organizations rabbis people needing things the first thing I look at is was I written to me or was I BCC did it start out Dear Rabbi Goldberg did it start out dear friends if it didn't say Rabbi Goldberg delete if I'm bccd almost always delete maybe I'm missing out on Good Things by that I hope nobody's listening who's going to learn the right way to do it just keep BCC me but delete because if it's not written to me this is a generic email you got to have the some list of the rabbis all over the planet you send some generic email delete if you care enough to write me an email I'll look at it so when you send K an email that's just you know BCC template email you got to make it personal it's got to be from your heart cuz he knows everything about you believe me you can't get away with hiding anything you can't get away with a template he knows that he just made the plane go faster so you'd land early so everything worked out for you and you're not going to say thank you you're not going to reflect on that or how everything has worked out and just say thank you for everything working out that was extraordinary it really all worked that well Hashem thank you for everything so my words thank you thank you so my words are only a guideline so he says the following Hashem from the depths of my soul I call out to you creator of my my very existence my body my spirit my soul they are yours I have no intrinsic existence my yearning is great can't you see to be pure of spirit and heart oh that you will oh that your will would I sense your wisdom would I Ponder and your voice would I hear in my heart but alas this is not my heart Mourns inside my soul so muddled and confused I sense only the sensual and desire the impure and my inner voice no longer transmits your will instead their inside is the voice of my own will to those whose demands I am at beck and call and even when I try to rise and protest to expel All The Unwanted will I only can clean out my conscious thoughts the unconscious remain in my soul right not everyone here is a poet like the P re this is magnificent when he goes into the forest and takes deep breaths and relaxes his cheek muscles and connects to Hashem he he speaks to Hashem in poetry and Pros it's magnificent so not all of us can in that way but if you dissect it down he's being very human he's saying Hashem I have very human desires and I wish that my Desir were your desires and oh if I could replace my will with your will but alas even when my conscious will I can condition to be your will my subconscious will still has a Temptation for things that are inconsistent and don't conform to what you want and oh Hashem I wish it were different and I need your help right that's the Poetry version Let me give you like the human version Hashem I really want to look at that stuff on the internet I know you don't want me to I really want to share the gossip I know you don't want me to it's hard for me and even when I control it I know I conscious I still want it and help me overcome that Yara because every day is a struggle that's the more less poetic version of it but that's what he's getting at and that's what we can get at you think Hashem doesn't know that you struggle with lanara or with being honest or with looking at that thing on the internet or with how you dress or how you speak or where you go what you do or daving he knows it all when you confess to him or confide in him like you're not blowing your cover he knows it all so all you're doing is being more real to him and having greater Merit Hashem pure one source of Purity how I just fall apart by the thought if one wishes to clean his house in his garden he will remove all unwanted things but when I clean out myself so that my soul shines before you I just place my waist out of my sight deep inside my soul and where my conscious mind cannot see it it's magnificent right when you clean out your house you take your garbage to the curb and you get rid of it altoe when we clean out our garbage we really still want it so we don't actually clean it out we just set it to the side or if you speak the language of let's say Apple Computers you you delete things but how often do you empty that trash why don't you empty the trash cuz you're really nervous what if something in it you're going to need so you delete emails but how often do you empty the deleted folder because what if there's something in the deleted folder that someday you're going to want to retrieve so we in our own lives empti we we put things in the trash we press delete on that experience on that memory on that image on that desire but we don't really empty the trash because we really don't want to entirely Purge ourselves or disconnect from it says the PBA I feel so filthy because of this sewage that purifies in the depths of my soul my soul bursts at the seams because of this load that floods forth at most inopportune times even now God as I speak to you thoughts of specify are knocking at my mind it's only with your help that I can restrain the urge to act out these inner voices but how bitter I feel that my soul is so soiled by these drives that Express themselves in various ways of life please Hashem have mercy and purify my soul root out those weeds from my soul remove all those urges that make me straight from you so that they do not come to haunt me in old age especially when I feel intimate with you when learning your Torah when talking to you let my soul rise right up before you purified by having fulfilled your will let my soul sore fueled by my yearning to surrender completely to you now again this is an incredibly high level I'm not suggesting that our own his boned us that our conversation our conversation is help the flight land on time help me earn my parasa help so and so who I love who's suffering have health and wellbeing help my marriage help my children who's struggling help my shy who's homesick but is graduating tonight be well enough to graduate very real right pet is incredibly lofty my soul and it's blemished and the residual and remove it so I'm pure and that's amazing I'm not saying it's so easy and it is the it's it's attainable or accessible or realistic relatable for us but what I wanted to share with you today is this notion that the real doing the most authentic doing is not the one from the sitter do the one from the sitter we're obligated in the one from the sitter that's not the most authentic version the most authentic version is not the BCC or the CC it's the one directed directly to Hashem confide in Hashem talk to Hashem lean on Hashem rely on Hashem thank Hashem be angry protest Hashem I say this all the time I mentioned it last week the woman who I gave a license to be angry at Hashem he took someone from you so precious you're so hurt You're such pain You're such anguish I went to the Lev on Sunday of rash Weiss's wife she was a young woman she had cancer for 10 years and uh and rash is one of the G Ador he got up and he said it's the first time in his life that he ever Rose to speak and he can't find the words to say he's a know K is an incredible and an amazing oror and he rose up to talk about his wife and both the one he gave in New York and then the L and Israel which I didn't hear but I understand he wasn't the gor when he gave that hped he was a husband he talked about his wife in very human terms but I's he's a very strong and very stoic person when I spent a moment with him before the Leva and you saw the tears in his eyes and we just as the demands sat silently because there is nothing to say because the the most painful experience of losses from a spouse so um so you saw that he was he was in incredible pain he was incredible incredible anguish on its own it was very human it was very real where was I going why was I saying that nobody here knows including me where I was going with that oh I know where I was going with that so I'm not suggesting that he was protesting to Hashem I'm thinking about the other person who experienced that loss when a person loses someone so precious there's nothing wrong with turning to Hashem respectfully not heretically respectfully and saying Hashem how could you do this to me I know you're a good God I know you're a loving God I know you're a kind God and I know that everything is for the best I don't understand how this is for the best now that's after the fact it's not going to bring your loved one back but while someone sits while someone's suffering Hashem wants us to protest he's inviting us to object and say how could you make this person I love I care about who's so good and so kind what's going on are you doing it to get my attention or you got my attention our attention the community's attention because one of the bab when someone from the benab is suffering the whole kabur is suffering when someone from the community is suffering the whole Community is suffering and the whole Community says to hasm we protest we protest give it another look we think this is the wrong conclusion check again our protest should be a merit for that person we are changed in their Merit you've drawn our attention in their Merit so give them a new decree protesting so the form of very personal doing is not you know Hashem wants you to say you're the greatest and I love you and you're perfect and everything's amazing Hashem doesn't have an ego he doesn't need our praise he wants a relationship and a relationship is one where there's real conversation and dialogue and real conversation dialogue is not everything's always amazing and Hy dor unless you're Rabbi casorla then everything is amazing unless you're Rabbi casorla things are not always amazing so and he really thinks they are he's unbelievable he's unbelievable Ali we should we should get to that level so he wants us to protest because it shows how very real and authentic we are talk to Hashem this is a template put this in your car in your pocketbook in your wallet whether you want to use his words or find your own but even by the way just begin with that paragraph seclude yourself in a Place get as far as you can from distraction relax the tension in your body quiet the noise in your mind take a deep breath and talk to hem that's what's happing don't be don't be like the Mis of our para who deny that hem is listening not only is he listening he's inviting he's eager and we're not crazy if we talk to God we're crazy if we don't have a great day