Part 137: How is Your Neshama?

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this beautiful piece by um RAR Schwarz the author of Bel Mish EV he's been talking about what really means following the usage in the Torah of the word bet Shimon Ley enter the city bet they come into the city when they're going to take down the people of last week I had a issue where uh my little son wasn't defending his sister at school when the other boys in the carpool home were picking on her and I made a little bit of mistake cuz I know he loves paraa and he loves the Kish so I said to him Shai what did what did Shimon and Ley do when when was picking on Dina so he said they killed them ABA I should kill them I said no no no no don't kill anybody don't kill anybody but my point is if you got to choose a side you always have to defend your sibling always siblings come family comes before friends don't kill anybody anyway but I knew that would speak to him hopefully yeah anyway probably shouldn't post this online plausible deniability so because they had stacked the deck in their favor they had confidence and calmness and they knew when they entered that City that they were going to be triumphant against against the people of Shem and so to develop the B we can live with means that we go into life in any situation in any situation in life with the confidence and the calmness to know that the deck is stacked in our favor Hashem has our back everything is for a reason and that even if it won't be pleasant painful things happen to bad to good people bad things don't happen to good people and even if it will be highly unpleasant it is not random or chance everything is orchestrated for a reason he further developed the idea that there are two ways of looking at life we live with an external reality or an internal reality the external reality is we see all the chaos we see all the hustle and bustle we see all that can go wrong we see all the challenges we have to overcome and the internal voice in life doesn't see these fragmented divided variables and features of life it sees it all coordinated and organized and orchestrated as coming from the Oneness of Hashem and therefore when we are able to develop that our own inner voice that tells us that everything is from Hashem nothing's random or chance then we can quiet the external Outlook and we could turn the volume up on the internal perspective and we could live with a sense of of come so let's continue we are in the middle of uh what is the second page in this handout in other words you could live your life in which you're constantly facing in which you're constantly facing and confronting obstacles you can live your life as if you have to overcome everything's in your way the Line's in your way the red light's in your way your boss is in your way the Corona virus is in your way the everything's in your way you wake up in the morning everything's in your way the fatigue is in your before you woke up in the morning you're already fighting battles you're fighting about eating the wrong thing at breakfast you're fighting about getting out of bed you're fighting about going to work you're fighting about making that phone call you're fighting about that interaction you're fighting about there's confrontation and conflict all around us that's hisn hisn is neged opposite conflict things around you that you have to overcome battles that you have have to fight so he said if you're living the external life all you see is opposition conflict and battle if you're living that internal life if you're in touch with your internal soul that place of calm that place of trust that place of knowing Hashem has your back then all you have is come he says the problem is that most people have never heard their inner voice most people are entirely unaware of and not in touch with their own Nish their own Nish you know everyone asks one another how you doing how are you every now and then I'll ask people how's your Nish and you get all kinds of reactions when you say to someone how's your Nish it usually catches people off guard when you say how are you tired I'm energized I'm worried I'm happy I'm all kinds of answers you can get when you say to someone how's your Nish how's your shama doing that's not like you're passing them in the hallway question right I'm talking about you meet your friend for coffee and in the conversation you say how's your Nish what are the answers you can give to how's your Nish you could feel in fire inspired trusting you could feel distant and and and lethargic and and a dark place but you know many people will say I don't know I never really thought about that do I have a Nish where is the Nish how do I measure the Nish how do I measure the Nish but Peter drier the great management Guru used to say what gets measured gets managed what gets measured gets managed so if you're not measuring your Nish if you're not measuring your life right I I wrote an article a couple years ago about the Fitbit which I guess I was into for about a week but I wrote an article someone gave me a Fitbit that lasted like a week so people count their steps what's the value of counting your steps because what gets measured gets managed so if you have this if you just came back from APAC you hit your 15,000 every day I promise you it's 10,000 whatever that number was so if you count your steps then you're gonna have an awareness and a mindfulness and you're going to want to achieve your maximum effort if you have no if you're not measuring what you're doing so we do that in the area of count our calories and we measure our weight we measure our steps and we measure our size and we measure our blood pressure and we measure our cholesterol what are we measuring about our Nish what are the barometers what's the thermometer to measure the wellness of our Nish when you say to someone how's your Nish I'll tell you what it is for me the thermometer of the Nish to me is davening when you're daving you feel connected when you're ding you walk away feeling transformed when you're ding lifts you when you're ding you feel like you had a conversation and a REV with the almighty when you're daving helps you feel unburdened then your Nish is doing pretty well and when you're daving you're like do I have to D and I don't want to DAV and I made my way through davening and I put a check next to daving but I don't remember saying one word of daving and I don't really feel connected or opposite anyone then the Nish needs a little work so now is not the time although we should dedicate another time to talking about well I know what the answer is if you have high blood pressure know what you got to do if you got high cholesterol we know what you got to do if you measure your waistline and it's bigger than it was we know what you got to do if the scale tells you then you don't know what you got to do what do you do when the your doing thermometer tells you your Nish is not doing too well what happens your anxiety level is high that's another indication your Nish is not doing too well not again clinically diagnosed anxiety which needs legitimate intervention and treatment I'm talking about just general Jewish Neurosis anxiety so what do you do I know that in the health platform what you need to do exercise and eating habits and coach and accountability and all and so on what do you do in the realm of the Nish what do you do in the realm of the Nish so he's diagnosing a core problem if you want to live with calmness and happiness in your life then you need to listen to your inner voice you need to not hear the external voice that panics but you need to turn up the dial on your inner voice that has come how do you access that inner voice you can't wait till the crisis if you wait till the crisis it's too late you need to be in touch with that Nish that inner voice regularly you need to learn to have conversations with yourself not in the like put you in a mental institute kind but conversations with yourself means when you feel yourself getting nervous and anxious reminding yourself why you should stay calm when you feel yourself panicking or worrying when you feel yourself not trusting when you feel yourself being a victim of randomness of chance when you feel yourself becoming helpless and hopeless or when you want to take a moment to celebrate or to lean in and to have the joy to experience that greatness and to regail and celebrate to hear that voice that inside you in other words and and you know if I had a dollar for every time I use this expression we our campus would be our new campus would be finished but you're not a body that has a soul we are a soul that has a body so isn't it terrible and tragic that we often forfeit and neglect and we're not in touch with the core part of who we are and we Define ourselves and invest in pampering what is the secondary part of who we are you know it'd be like a person lets themselves go their body physically right their blood pressure their cholesterol they're clinically obese they've let themselves go in Every Which Way but their closet their wardrobe oo they take care of amazingly their clothing is impeccable and they have the most expensive and the highest uh quality clothing and their closet is highly organized so their body they let go entirely right it's failing them it's compromised the body they neglect and they let go but o look at my closet it's amazing well the body compared to the soul is like the Wardrobe in the closet we wear it it enables us to interact with the world but after 120 we're going to take it off and it's going to go back into a closet our wardrobe will be replaced when the fashion changes our clothing will wear out to be overly invested in our wardrobe at the expense of and while neglecting our health and body anyone can see would be incredibly foolish and yet that's what we do we neglect our soul which is the core part of who we are it's what always existed and it's what will always exist and the Wardrobe what we call our body is what we pamper and indulge in it's what we take care of we should take care of it should have a nice wardrobe and take care of our clothing and have it be the best quality but it's secondary of course to taking care of our body and our health and we should take care of our body as the Wardrobe of the soul but it's secondary to asking ourselves how's your Nish the wellness the health the well-being the future of our soul is that much more important so Cesar of Schwarz the problem is the reason that we live with this panic and fear we lack that calmness and trust is because we're listening to that external fragmented voice that just sees conflict and confrontation and what we have to battle every day and it is louder the knob the volume of it is turned up so much louder than the inner Nish voice that sees the unity of existence that sees hash's hand in all that's happening that knows that nothing is random or chance and everything is for a reason so many will listen to this insight and they'll raise their hand and they'll sayz that's lovely it's a nice idea great auna class but how am I supposed to live my life that way how where there's no opposition how do I live my life where there's no conflict again I gave you examples 20 minutes after you woke up in the morning you've already made a million decisions and you've faced a thousand conflicts the coffee maker didn't work your children didn't get dressed the way you asked them to get dressed the thing didn't happen you got stuck in the red light there was unexpected traffic the thing there's a million things we Face forces against us from the moment we open our eyes we're fortunate and lucky and should count our blessings if they're as simple as the red light and the traffic and the kids didn't listen many people when they open their eyes in the morning are facing chronic pain they're facing mental pain they're facing illness and treatment many people are facing not knowing how they'll pay for dinner that night there are much much much more significant so from the insignificant and inconsequential to the enormously consequential who has the luxury of waking up in the morning and saying I'm greeting the day with no fear and no worry because I don't face any opposition or conflict it's all good who is that luxury this is the way the world was constructed this is the way of the world who has that luxury this Corona virus of which there's a million lessons to derive I wrote about one of them last week which is the fact that the whole Global world is interconnected no matter how much we might want to deny that so one man in a village in China got this Corona virus couple weeks later 44 people in China and now 100,000 people around the world so we're all interconnected and if we cooperate and coordinate we can eliminate it or if we maintain our differences then it's going to take us all down and it's an enormous lesson about the notion it's also true in the opposite direction I wrote what the butterfly theory that showed that a butterfly can flap its wings in bokeh and create a tsunami or a hurricane in in halfway around the world that's true physically it's proven in physics and and Rabbi Chief Rabbi saaks talked about the chaos theory of virtue that the same is true if you flutter your wings of virtue if you do a a tiny little can grow and set things in motion that can literally change the world so that's one lesson of this Corona virus but there's another lesson of this Corona virus first of all it's amazing to me I was thinking last night as I'm watching all the Panic some of it reasonable and and caution and and builds cautiousness some of it totally irrational unreasonable and out of control but as you watch all that I was thinking about the gamar that tells us you know we have figures throughout our history who got a name a title yesterday was the urite of Moshe he's not mosha what do we call him always Moshe Renu aamu Y and so on and so forth so the when they they refer to the Roman general Titus Titus he's called Titus harha he's the epitome of wickedness what he did I won't repeat in front of an AR KES although the gamar tells us the story that he came into the he walked into the KES what he did he unravel the safer Torah in the holiest place and did the unholiest Act and stabed the Paras and tried to literally kill the Alm to kill and what did God do so many lessons in this and get in the story Hashem did not publicly take him down because we say the every day the says read not sometimes you show your might and your strength and your greatness not by how loud you can lash out but by how quiet you can remain and the gamar concludes that a person should always be you should always be somebody who can take the punch be yelled at be be uh screamed at and not respond and never respond you are greater when you don't respond when you respond and we learn that from Hashem sometimes you display your greatness not by lashing out or calling a name or bullying but rather you display your Greatness by your ability to walk away your ability to remain quiet so what does do he remains quiet except for one thing he sends a tiny little insect while Titus while tetus is sleeping one night this tiny little insect crawls into titus's ear titus's ear and from that day forward Titus has this horrific ringing sensation in his ear and there was an article in the journal uh the New England Journal of Medicine where an author actually argued that the name tenius comes from Titus that illness tonight is the incessant ringing in the ear the incessant ring in the ear comes from what Titus suffered and the gamar tells us why did Hashem do that because he was telling this great Roman general who thought that he was the most powerful man on Earth who led an Empire all I need is aush a little insect a little insect a little mosquito cled into your ear and now you have no peace he couldn't sleep at night he couldn't act he couldn't he it literally drove him crazy and he went around the world and with his might and with his power and with his resources he couldn't solve it there was nothing he can do it rang in his ears incessantly and the gar tells us that when he died they did an autopsy on his brain and what began as a tiny mosquito that was feeding off of his brain had grown to this enormous uh tumor in his brain this enormous bug and I was thinking about this with this Corona virus as powerful as the world thinks it is and as much as we've moved away from faith in Hashem we think we control the Universe we think we control everything and there is an invisible virus which is taking over and it's an amazing thing to watch you read the news and you listen to The Experts and they're all telling us about sterilizing and washing and not going and masks and wear and okay there's a little bit media hype over it perhaps in an unhealthy way to the extreme um but it's an amazing this invisible little virus that you can't see in this very powerful World in which we have the technology that we can zoom out to outer space and the satellite can tell me how fast I'm going and where I'm going and to help me find my phone and where you are and I can video chat people around the world and and do 17 people simultaneously all the technology that we have which is outstanding we have this invisible tiny virus that Hashem has sent down to earth and said okay World deal with this let's see how you deal with it cooperate and you can get rid of it continue to be divided and something a tiny little invisible thing with all your technology and medical breakthrough and progress and power and sending man to the Moon it could take all of you it could take all of you down so you wake up in the morning and you're reading you're listening you're hearing about Corona virus and you could say I can't let my children go to school I can't leave my house I need to leave wear a mask everywhere I go by the time I woke up this morning I had an email Rabbi you should be discouraging M this year nobody should be out on P nobody should be delivering to one another what are we doing about this that and the other now again I want to be very clear very clear we have to take it seriously we sent out an email yester today with all the precautions we're taking I'd be very happy if I never had to shake anyone's hand ever again we we should be very cautious and precautious but the experts like Rabbi Dr eron Glatt for example in Young Israel Woodmere who's been a really sane voice on this one of the few has pointed out that the flu is more contagious and more lethal hundred tens of thousands have died from the flu this flu season and you don't see this Panic or this or this reaction what's my point why are we talking about this in the Amun here this is not Goldberg's take on current events and medical challenges of our day why are we talking about this because this is exactly what Schwarz is saying I can live my life with my outer voice and my outer voice looks at a world and says Panic don't go anywhere cancel purum stay inside put a mask on your kids call off school and let the world come to a standstill that's the outer voice that panics that listens to all the the chaos and that Taps into all this conflict and wakes up battling whatever is the challenge of the day or I could turn down the volume on that and turn down up the volume on my inner voice of my Nisha that says okay you know what use purel don't go to China do things that are smart and then just realize that it's hashem's running the world do what's reasonable do what's appropriate do what makes sense do what's responsible and then just be calm because it's up to Hashem and you know what the same chances that you going to get the flu and die from it God forbid God forbid God forbid which we never take the flu seriously enough but it is a could be a lethal disease are the chances of coron virus so if you made it through the last 40 50 60 winters of your life without panicking over the flu you can make it through this winter without panicking over Corona virus again be cautious be reasonable take the measures you should take be responsible but beyond that listen to that inner voice that says be calm plan in the world you're doing what's reasonable and so on now the people will say it's true there's nothing in the world that doesn't have conflict that you don't have to battle it's a very compelling argument it's very persuasive to say how could you live with calm the world is filled with challenges and here is an example a person leaves their home in order to go to the shear that's a little bit far away on the one hand the goal is so simple all you wanted to do is leave your house and go to the place to hear the shear that's it very simple goal get from point A to point B nothing too complicated but we all know how complicated that simple task could be so let's say you're going from B of Miami to hear some outstanding speaker more like the people of Miami are coming to boka to hear some outstanding speaker it's a very simple goal get from point A to point B and the point A to point B is not to the moon or to Mars it's to get from Miami to boka so as simple as that goal is we all know how complicated it can become well there's no public transportation so there's no bus there's no train that's going to get you there so let's say it's in Israel where he's writing this is more complicated you got to transfer buses you got to take a train and a bus you got to Trump you got to figure out how you're going to get there you're going to have certain dilemas that you're going to have to face moral dilemas ethical dilemas do you get up and give the pregnant woman your seat should you look in that direction there's an image that a Tor shouldn't be looking at should you how do you behave here what do you do there what's the common you're going to have dilemas this is in addition to the general complications that come up every single time that we travel you're going to have construction you're going to have traffic and you're G to have the problems that come to not only public transportation but pivate transportation what if the air conditioning breaks what if you run out of gas what if way misdirects you what if anybody can add more and more examples of these complications parthe he says by the way parenthetically how much conflict and opposition and challenges did we face just publishing this book the editor and the publisher and did it come timely and you need a sponsor and did it come out and how was the ink and how was the font and how was there's nothing I would challenge you to come up with one thing in life that you can give as an example where you don't face opposition conflict struggle that you don't have to overcome everything every aspect of life life sleep eating speech relationships work travel everything in life has conflict so how can you wake up and live life calm how could you have that calmness that Serenity that Tranquility that trust how can you have that certainty and that confidence when the truth is that every area of life has this complication says of Schwarz I want to be very clear he says I'm not suggesting that you live in an alternative Universe I'm not suggesting that you deny the reality that is around you and that instead okay everyone relax it's just a sneeze it's a common cold just relax I will purel so he says I'm not suggesting that anybody live in the alternative universe or deny reality or pretend that things are not the way that they are it's not that my internal voice isn't brings me to an entirely different world it's not that there's an external world and an internal world and I can choose which ZIP code or which address to live in it's not that there are two competing or conflicting worlds there's only one world there's the world of reality it's not that there are two worlds there's one world called the world of reality it's all a question of my perspective how I look and how I live in that world when you live life with this perspective externally superficially what you see around you is a world of this outer layer feels opposition from all of life's challenges it sees everything as disparate separate apart not making sense not coordinated coming at you from so many different directions H the world is filled with competing interests competing efforts competing energies competing people my whole world is just so fragmented you ever feel that way you're like overwhelmed my kids my work my parents my family the weather the cold my lack of sleep the eat the exit I can't there's a million things going on a million voices a million influences a million competing things and you feel like you're going to crumble you feel like you're getting crushed you feel like you're going to collapse it's coming at you from every different direction so to get from here and to travel for a Sim to New York I've got to make the ticket and I've got will I have traffic when I get to the airport do I get there in time do I get through the TSA and who am I going to be sitting next to will the plane get off on time and when I land and where will I stay and what will the weather be and what's going to when my luggage arrive what's there's there's a million if you'd actually stop and list out and think about all the things that have to go right and all the moments you're going to have to face you'd simply collapse you could never ever do it you could never ever do it everything is stopping everything is blocking everything is coming at you in a coordinated way gur but if you quiet that superficial external outer voice and instead you come with the internal voice then you'll face this world entirely entirely differently the inner layer of the Soul there's a whole different world you're living in not a place of a million variables and a million opponents and opposition but rather a place that we don't feel in danger whatsoever to see things the way that they're supposed to be to see things as being coordinated and organized and orchestrated and choreographed from above by one by AEM by the almighty by the almighty the whole world is the will of Hashem everything that's happening is for a reason it's all coordinated and orchestrated and it's all happening to our benefit if you open the hood of the car and you look which most Jews don't know how to do but if you open the hood of the car and you look you'll say what in the world is going on here there's like I I'm so unimpressive I can't even name there's the engine and the carburetor and the radiator and the and the starter and the alter alternator alternator and where you put the windshield washer fluid and where you put the G I don't know I'm not going to even try to impress you you open the hood of the car and there's a million little gadgets and belts and and things going on and you look at that and you say come on right so if somebody from 200 years ago came back to life and looked inside the hood of a car they'd say this is never going to work out together all these parts are going to talk to each other all these parts are going to create one reality and one result can't be there's a million things that can go wrong this belt is going in that direction and that belt's going in that direction and this thing is healing it and that thing is cooling it off and this thing is running this way and this thing needs the burning through the gas and this thing is how could it all happen how could it all happen but we know that whoever designed the car did so with a Brilliance and an intelligence a genius and forethought and design and because there's a design and because there's an originator to it it's all coordinated in order to bring about one result and we look at this world that looks at so many moving Parts this belt in this direction that belts in that direction this thing happen heating this is cooling this is but it's all it's all coordinated to bring about a one reality a one result a world the way wants even the things that look like they are um going opposite hashem's goal or Vision are also part of his wisdom now the part that Schwarz is simplifying here which we're not going to get into today is how do we reconcile Free Will and the fact that human beings make choices with the reality that Hashem brings about and designs and orchestrates and choreographs the world the way he wants that is a very very very difficult question and it's not one that I'm afraid of or shying away from but it's not what we're going to deal with today we are simplifying it admittedly so to say that we live our lives and we look and we say Hashem I have a cal and I have a confidence I enter the city bet the way shim did because I know you have my back and true on the outside it looks like everything is failing and falling and I don't know how it's going to work out but I know I know I met with somebody this week who had a challenge because something happened at work which absolutely wasn't his fault he did nothing wrong but because he was in charge and nevertheless had a had a negative consequence for him and as he went through it he didn't sleep for two weeks and he felt humiliated and it was a major Challenge and and created a tremendous problem at work where he lost his title and it was a huge problem a huge problem and why was he meeting with me because as a result it set him on the path of looking for a new position and he has these two incredible options options one better than the other and was curious for my feedback about which one he should do so we went right to the where he told me oh this happened so I've been looking and these two things and what do you think and I said can we just pause for a moment to say that while you went through that you probably thought your world was coming to an end right the sky was falling was crashing in on your head it was the worst moment it made no sense it was the end of the world as you knew it you you ashamed and embarrassed you were afraid you were anxious you were worried and it's the greatest thing Hashem ever did for you because otherwise you would have stayed in that position less fulfilling less opportunity and look now you have these two choices one better than the other about who you can become and writing the next chapter in your life and that is an example but we all have examples like this in our lives maybe you could argue daily where the things that seemed that they were going entirely wrong were hashem's way of organizing a detour to get us to the right destination so the question is do you panic do you live with that external voice and you say this and that and the other thing and look at all these variables and forces that are coming up against me and I'll never make it that's the The Superficial external voice superficial mentality the external layer of the Soul that's living in a world that's fragmented and divided and chaotic or do you live with the internal voice the internal Soul where everything is coordinated it's collaborating there's a Synergy it's all coming from a who's got a plan who's got a plan even the things that look like they're over AO even the things that look like they are opposite hashem's will why are you having this conflict at work why are you going through this Health crisis which in the end got you to start taking care of yourself which made was the best day of your life and so on and so forth we have to look at our whole life all of the things that we do and all the things that are done to us all of our circumstance and everything that's going on and we have to choose know that you can choose you can choose how to live your life I'll give you a little spoiler to my one minute motivation video this week I sat in a cockpit on a plane I did the video and said you could either be the pilot or the passenger of your life if you're the passenger in your life you're just being driven or flown to wherever the pilot takes you and you are passive and fatalistic and you have forfeit in conceding your control and you're just a passenger in the back or you can be the pilot and grab the controls and you can determine the trajectory and you can determine the path and you can determine the destination the choice is ours so the same is true with how we live our leave our lives lead Our Lives I Can Be the passenger and just say well wo is me and I'm what could I do I'm afraid what can I do I'm anxious what can I do I'm overwhelmed what can I do I have to face all these things that's being a passenger a passive passenger if you're going to be the pilot of your life you say you know what I need to quiet that voice turn down that volume and raise the volume of my inner voice of my soul of the Tranquil voice the voice of calm the voice of confidence the voice that knows I have to do what I have to do today I'm not suggesting that if you tap into your inner voice you'll never have to go through challenges to be alive to be breathing is to have to go through challenges we just pray that they're inconsequential and insignificant but to be alive and to be breathing is to be going through challenges but it's up to us to Pilot our lives and to choose with which perspective we're going to see am I wearing the sunglasses or the clear glasses am I watching in high definition in black and white or in color we choose perspective and life we choose perspective I can live with the external perspective there's a million moving Parts they're uncoordinated they're divided and they're all coming at me and I don't have what it takes to face them all or I can live with the inner voice that says that everything is from Hashem and therefore it's all it's all coming from A's Oneness and it's all here to serve that purpose it's a question of how I live and how I view my world and nothing will help you better choose to see the world more correctly than a hasus WhatsApp group a journal hash prus journal to write down I tell you our family one that I quote from every single week not to boast but to try to motivate and Inspire we've now started to not only have my our kids post their hash moments we get guest appearances from their friends who will all of a sudden you'll press play and you'll have one of their friends say Goldbergs listen to this cuz in other words their friends know that oh their friends family has this group where you see things and so one of our daughters was at APAC with her classmates and there were two voice notes this week ofh moments one of her friends lost her phone yesterday and a man had found the phone and was willing to meet her and get it back to her and why was he willing to do it cuz he had lost his phone once so he knew what it meant when he found the phone to try to find its owner and it was that it was that man who found her phone because otherwise she never would have had her phone these girls ramble they're very long voice notes mind you on the hash WhatsApp group but guest appearances from others and maybe we should make a collective one and we all leave our messages of the little things that don't have to be so private with one another because the more that you the more that you speak and the more you tell the story of seeing Hashem in your life the more you're going to see Hashem in your life V first you have to see him and thenu so when you see him everywhere and in everything when you see that it's all coordinated and it's by Design when you listen to that inner voice and you have that sense of common confidence the V when you see him everywhere then you're Vu then you're able to live with that sense of amuna that sense of trust I because I speak about him I could be fragmented I could be anxious I could be worried I can become paralyzed debilitated I can live with calm the more righteous and the Holier and the bigger people that we knew lived with a calm they didn't just live with a calm when everything went right they lived with that calm when everything was going wrong because when everything is going wrong you know that there's a higher reason then you're able to live with that when it all comes from somewhere special people who had that amuna even at the end of their life and it wasn't so someone could write a book about them or post a blog about them or tell a story about them at their at their hpod it was because they were so righteous that they were able to tap into that inner voice and when the people around them were falling apart not that they were if people around them were falling apart by saying look at these bad news and look at this bad Challenge and look at this bad moment they said no what are you talking about there's a reason there's a purpose I'm calm and I'm confident because I'm listening to my internal soul I know that this world is a mirage it's an illusion that everything is really from above and it's all coming from him what looks like opposition what looks like it is blocking us obstacles boundaries there is no there's no fight there's no battle here this is all part of how God wrote it up this is all part of how he designed it see the them as as friends not adversaries these factors these features are all in our favor they're not opposite us and we'll continue next time what he starts out with we'll start with next time start next time I'm going to make an arrow is this notion that Hashem created his world and he turned to the world and he said said die I'm going to give you a PES vort next time foru Hashem looked at the world and he said die and we have to look at our world of fear and anxiousness and say die it's enough it's enough we're sick and tired of being the passenger we're going to be the pilots of our own lives we're sick and tired of blaming others or living in fear we're going to put on the glasses that enable us to look at the life the world with a sense of calm have a great day everybody