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Parshat Matot Maasei | Rabbi Baruch Taub | July 24th 2025
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Good morning everybody.
Parat I should say parot right masai.
I hope you have a good balore. A little
bit longer than usual. That's good. More
Torah more sukim to hear. So um morning
good morning. Please come in. Come in.
Have a seat.
Okay.
>> So, last week I used uh two sources that
I'm going to repeat again this week.
Okay. Not not what I said, but I'm I I'm
using the same sources. Um happens
sometimes. s you get involved in in
someone's Torah and you just don't let
go. So the first piece was from uh Rafim
Shvitz, the great late great Rashiva of
the Mir Yeshiva. And uh as I mentioned
last week for those who were not here, I
just repeat it that somebody came out
with a new uh safer last year which I
just picked up when I was in New York a
couple weeks ago and he took the schmus
of and he divided them up para by para
by para with
and he
see divided them up para by para little
pieces from each para.
So the first piece that we're going to
do is from from there and let's see what
he but there's going to be a theme here
and it's in a certain sense it's a it's
a theme of of the parha which we'll see
from a number we start the para starts
out with nadarim with vows
um goes on to a number of other things
the war with midyan but there's going to
be a bit of a theme here
so let's see what says we have the ar
mikl in the parha right there There are
six cities of refuge. If someone kills
somebody, the shog right inadvertently.
So if he he can escape to the six cities
of refuge and be spare his own life
because the person who's chasing him to
kill him, the relative who wants to kill
him won't won't reach him. Right? Um
incidentally when Mosha Rabenu was
commanded that to start the Yari Miklat
there were going to be three initro and
three in uh across in the other side
right um Moshe immediately went to build
them right he was commanded to build
them I have to in the Torah he has to do
the mitzvah and Rashi points out there
um I'm just paraphrasing Rashy's comment
but you have start to do the mitzvah
right away So the question over there is
what mitzvah the the the den of arim
miklat did not come into play until we
were init
right. So what does it mean that Moshe
fulfilled the mitzvah of building the ar
miklat even before when b is were not
ready to go into the midbar and all the
years that the 14 years of preparation
for ar mikl to be ready. So the answer
is that there are two purposes for the
mitzvah mikla. One is the obvious
a refuge for the murderer by shog. But
secondly, it's to highlight
to highlight
to highlight the importance of life and
and and how we should value our lives
and of course to plug into Torah and
with our lives. So that already was part
of the mitzvah, right? Because when you
see that as a mikla, we know that you
know life is important. Someone else's
life is as important as my life and I
have to be careful. Okay. So let's see
what says first apost he quotes mlatim
you should have these cities of refuge
uh ven venam wrote wroteak the roak the
murderer will will uh run there and be
and be safe.
the person we're talking about
who killed somebody inadvertently.
Galut lishkaga.
The obligation for the murderer bish to
go into golosapor
aside from the fact that number one it
serves as an atonement for him he's
there for all his life until the death
of the current cohen god vahhat
salahadam.
So number one it's a capora for him an
atonement. Number two, it's saving him
from the redeemer, the fellow who wants
to kill him, the relative
gam. But thirdly, it's a punishment.
Obviously a punishment. I mean, he's out
of society. You know, he's in a you want
to say a minimum security uh prison. If
you ever bid visited someone in minim
minimum security prison I mean you know
somebody pointed out to me that uh you
know there's a lot of complaints amongst
the Palestinians that they the way the
jail treatments right but in in in the
Palestinian society there's a tremendous
effort purposefully to do crimes to get
into Israeli prisons because once you
get into Israeli prisons you know you've
got three decent meals you can go to
school and right this is
Okay. So, we can't get off our what
we're dealing with today, right?
Boru should continue make things better
for all of us. So, but but here this,
you know, it's an onish. It's a
punishment. Whatever you want to say,
he's not in society, right?
So, that's kind of the the end of the
line for him.
We have to ask a simple question. metro.
Why is he punished?
He killed somebody inadvertently.
So why does the Torah say that he's
punished? What why is there a punishment
for this? Right? Answer.
And this is this is really in a certain
sense a theme that's going to we're
going to see through the para. It's a
subconscious idea. There's uh there's
something deep in our nishama that we we
have to that we have to spend our lives
creating a sense of purpose and
direction not only in what we do but in
why we do it and it should become second
nature for us in our in our
someone who is confronted with the
moment and of the of the act of killing
someone inadvertently.
You have to say he says that somewhere
deep in his recesses he is capable of
doing such a thing. Right? For some
reason, he hasn't he hasn't worked on
understanding the crime, the if you
will, uh the inappropriateness, the no
of murder to the extent that even is a
terrible thing, right? It is a terrible
thing. someone you're taking someone's
life
says if if he obviously still has not
removed that in the inner recesses of
his heart that understanding and it's
it's there right it's activated
if through heaven right
it is decreed that he's going to kill
somebody haru
It's because somehow there is that it's
not been removed yet from his the
ability to do this right
uh even
therefore he goes to gol he goes into
the miklit
It is actually a punishment for the
remaining the remaining unelt
with problem of killing bishog that he
did his nishama did not reject. This is
a very um a very as I say dakut kind of
an idea but this is what raim says and
we're going to take it we're going to
remove it into the into the general para
for the next piece. This is again these
are this is form that we have not used
regularly and I I want to share with you
again safer called notena not dea is um
from uh yon David who is the rashivitk
inim
the son-in-law of rav hutner whose Torah
we have we have studied all over the
years um a tremendous raison his wife
rabbitson brilliant David Zron was the
dean of BJJ which Baka which was the
Harvard of Karedi seminaries in Yushlim.
She herself had a doctorate from Hunter
College in from Colombia Rahutnner's
only child. So, Rabion is a a a massive
wonderful uh
and here he goes into this idea that
actually there's okay so let's see
moving moving to another item on the
para that the Jews were commanded was
commanded to go to war against Midyan.
Midan did a horrendous
uh thing to Ami Israel, involved Ami
Israel in promiscuous activity with
Nishamean. The Nishamean uh came and
enticed them and uh and Pinas uh of
course was the was the hero of all of
this. We spoke last week about Ko and
defining Kanu which Pinhus did. Um he
killed he killed the nussi of the shvit
uh who was publicly desecrated
boru by by having relations with the
princes of uh of midan. And so we were
commanded to go to war to destroy all
the midyanid who were involved in this.
Right? So but now Moshe gets angry and
who is he angry at? Uh he's angry
He's angry at the generals, the leaders,
the the
etc.
He says,
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at Moshe. This is a this is a that Moshe
commanded you. It'll become clear in a
minute. So,
Moshe. So, what what was going on here?
What was the P? What did he What did he
what did he yell at? He lost his school
with the leadership. Why? Because they
allowed certain people to stay alive.
They were they were the the den was that
they had to deal with was killing all
those who were complacent complicit in
the in the sin the terrible horrendous
kill and they didn't they saved certain
people they saved certain children they
the children maybe they could have saved
but they saved certain animals whatever
whatever they were supposed to do they
didn't do a complete job and so Moshe
was was angry at that right so now Rashi
says that Elazar you know who was
working together with Moshe on this
spoke to the those who
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at Moshe Rashi again. Now let's see what
Rash says. Vomazar
Shab Moshe. Why did why did why was
Alazar the one to give it over? Moshe
got angry and he forgot what the den is
for these people. There's a certain den.
There's a certain judgment of the people
who went against and did not complete
what they were supposed to complete. So
Moshe forgot Moshe forgot what the den
was for them for these people. Right?
Elazar had to give it over. Right? His
student Elazar, right?
But why is that? Moshe
Moshe got angry
because he got angry. He he aired he
made a mistake. And
now here's the strange
the strange connectedness to the parha.
He didn't forget the what the punishment
has to be for these people. He forgot
the very next thing that's in the para.
Immediately after this, immediately
after this moment in the parha, the the
soldiers fail to do what they were
supposed to do. Moshe gets angry at
them. You should have killed everybody.
And then the the Torah goes on to
discuss the laws of koshering caim goes
on to talk about how we kasher kaim if
our vessels you have gold silver metal
whatever you have how to kasher them
whether it's this is the origin of it
right after the because they had
possessions from midyan they had all the
the vessels the the utensils the pots
the pans from midan so so here we have
the first the introduction
of
boiling, right? Burning out and also
kaleim also the mitzvah of putting kaim
in the mikvah to purify them right. So
here he says
and he and Moshe forgot the den of how
we cleanse and purify the caim from
midy. So Elazar had to take over and he
gave it over.
He forgot Moshe forgot the laws of
Kashers.
I mean imagine you call your rabbi with
a shil and kash and he if if he's honest
and tells you I forget the law that's a
that's not a that's not a bad thing.
That's a very impressive thing. If he
says I have to get back to you, right?
That's an honest rabbi, right? And it
happens. You know you're asking a very
good question. I'll get back to you. I
have to look it up. I have to check it
out. Right? But we're talking about
Mosher Rabenu here, right? And Mosher
Rabenu, it was a a kind of a punishment,
right? We have to say, right, on a
certain level, right? And he forgot the
and there's two other episodes like this
which we're familiar with, right?
On the going back to Vayikra on the
eighth day of the dedication of the
Mishkan, Moshe forgot the halaka here
you had the two brothers of Aaron who
were surviving uh after of Aaron's
children who were surviving they died
right and they had to they had to do the
avoda they had to do the work in the
Mishkan and they were but they were onim
they were an onin is someone who is
between uh between death and burial of a
relative. So, but here there was a
dispensation. Cole can do the can
continue the avoda even if he's an
owning but the regular kohanim can't.
But here there was a special
dispensation that all these kohanim
these two kohanim could continue to do
the work. However,
and there were three carbonaut that were
given, two specially for the occasion of
the dedication, but the other was a
regular um regular corban which is very
timely for us. It's going to be rush
kesh on Shabbat. It was the the the
corbin of rash kesh. So Mosha said all
the carbon, you're allowed to do
everything, all the sacrifices, even the
regular ones, right? Aaron took an
ombrage and Aaron and had an argument so
to speak with Moshe. He explained to
Moshe and Moshe got angry because he
came in and he saw that they did not
burn the Corban of Roshkesh. They did
not eat rather the Corbin of Roshkesh.
They burnt it completely. Right.
So he took omrage at this and and Aaron
without going into the details too many
details already. But Aaron explained to
him no that the the dispensation
of the kohanim to give
sacrifices while there are in the state
of Onain is only for the special corban
of the day. But the regular corban
rashes corban which is a year is a
monthly corban that that was okay. And
Moshe Moshe acquiesed he agreed right?
But he did get angry.
He was angry with them. Why did you do
this?
And therefore he forgot the was not the
den. The den was the way they did it.
theeshban
had to go as you know
in a third case which we're all familiar
with
when he when he hit the rock he saidim
listen now you rebellious people
speaking to bene Israel
at hellah and he hit he struck the rock
to again through anger anger he made a
terrible mistake and he forgot it was he
forgot to did so you have all three
cases of anger and anger is related to
forgetfulness of Torah right I just want
to interject here there's a safer called
sharon an excellent safer written by
from Ben on on all the he deals with a
lot of rashonim
and he brings in there 26 what was the
of Moshe by hitting the rock, right?
So, we're so familiar with some of them,
right? We've talked about it. But he
brings like I think 26
26 explanations of different refor
you know it's like the rabbi is the the
board of shne
renewing the rabbis contract. So there's
like everybody's got a different thing
to say, right? So Mosher Rab goes back
to Mosher Rabenu, right? 26 things. I
want to share with you one of them,
right? is a kind an interjection here
and it's it was a comment of the um of
theam sofur which was not published
until later in the 1980s they found a
manuscript of theam sulfur and he said
in there this is an an amazing I I just
don't want to pass this by it came to my
mind now what was his sin so what did
Mosha sayim
how do you translate that listen now
what's now na please
Well, please no please, please. No
hamoreim. What's hamoreim? You
rebellious people. So says theam for you
know what his sin was? He gave over
mixed signals.
Make up your mind. If you're punishing a
child, if it's a no, it's a no. Hamari.
If you're praising the child, it's nah.
Right? Mixed signals, right? Mixed
signals. not a healthy thing. Right?
Mother takes one position, father takes
another position. Right? So this
according to Sofur was his misstep.
Okay? I I just wanted to share that with
you. It's a beautiful idea. Okay. But
now let's get back to the back to the
ranch. You've got three missteps of
Mosher Rabenu where he actually forgot a
and it was because of his anger. Right?
So in next paragraph he asked
what's the relationship what's the nexus
between his that anger and forgetting
right why is why is that what's going on
here
um now he says
this is not happen stance not by
back to our para that he forgot the of
purifying the kaim that come from
non-Jews right
that's what he forgot those are the why
what's the relationship between his
anger and forgetting the laws of of
cleansing purifying
uh vessels Right? So you hear it coming,
right? Hey, the garra says shal first of
all at they asked this
uh asked
they asked the rabbi
what do you attribute your longevity to
right
he said to them right didn't say you
know I never smoked right I never had
red meat right
I never got angry. I never lost my cool
in my house. Now that's very strange
statement but
doesn't mean only in his house he didn't
get angry
that doesn't mean for that you don't get
along you know he doesn't get angry in
his house but he goes in the street and
he starts yelling and cursing at people
right Ella uh you know we had a a Jew
came into shul this morning into the
6:30 minion and uh he wanted to collect
which you Listen, I have a policy.
Anybody who's sticks his hand out, you
give him he obviously needs it. He came
in and he asked me, "Can I speak now?"
You know, this is my So I said, "No, we
don't."
You know,
I said, "We don't do it." Okay. Looked
at me. Then he started to go around to
every single person sitting there
dvening and it was it was going on and
on and on. He started speaking before
Torah. They stopped him. It was it was a
disaster. And he would have done very
nicely because the people are very
generous. They constantly in fact there
there are two ladies that sit outside
the shul every morning and they've even
brought them chairs the balabat and
every morning nobody asked questions you
know right and one of the ladies had an
operation this week she never forma she
was telling us last week she's not going
to be here for a week right she's not
going to be here for a week it wasn't
she wasn't looking for a mission bar she
was want looking for a you know uh
exactly so in any case what do you mean
talk bey didn't lose his cool right That
can't be. It's not what it means. Butto
means something else. Says, says Rabos.
Um,
he says
there's another concept here. You've got
to look at
in a in a more poetic way that the Torah
can speak that speak, right?
One's home, my home, my heart, right?
Home and earth, right? He's talking
about in his himself in his persona that
he never lost his cool.
His he developed himself that anger was
simply not part of his persona
is so understanding here.
There are times
there are times that a person has to act
act with anger and better act out
angrily, right?
Ravo,
right? A father to his son, right? A rav
to his to his student, right? I mean
this is from old older Talmidium of Raf
Salvich will tell you that in his sheer
if somebody said something that made
asked a question that was that made no
sense he he made it clear that it made
no sense to him right so in his later
years he got a little but there's a
purpose for it there's there's a whole
cha from the kavasar there are many many
places in shas where you see this and
there's a chuva from one of one of the
great a in the the kavasar you bakra
who incidentally
uh I think that if you're if I'm aging
myself but there's a musician right
there was a musician named Bakra right
Bert Bakra so I understand he was a Ben
he was a direct descendant of the uh of
this particular rabbi right okay a
couple of we're talking about 300 years
back right in any case right that's okay
right to get angry at a child you have
to discipline a child but it's acting
out it's Not can't be real anger, right?
The rabbis teach us
it should only be external. The
shouldn't be anger in your heart. You
should be able to switch it off. Right?
Okay. That's he's giving the example of
not he the anger that he had to sons and
now he okay so now over the page
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zoo
zul I can't read here um just as we you
know god is we have to be careful with
this we have to work on these midot
Right. Um, in other words, the where
does this come from? The Rambam, the
Rambam in tells us there's a mitzvah
called
we have to walk in the ways of Hashem.
Walking in the ways of Hashem,
God is merciful. You have to be
merciful. He's loving. You have to be
loving. Right? And then he says that the
proper way for in mid is
the middle road. The middle road. And uh
the middle road normally is understood
as the golden mean, right? To go to be
in the middle. Not to this but not to
that, right? Can't be. That's not what
the Rama means because we have to we're
imitating God. Sometimes God gets angry.
Sometimes God's very angry. Sometimes
God is extremely merciful and extremely
loving. So it doesn't mean I'm I'm
making a long story short. What it means
is that you have to have the entire
rainbow. To be in the middle means that
I'm in the middle. I can I have the
entire panorama. I've developed in
myself. I've worked on myself and I have
the entire panorama of midot from anger
to gentility and that if I have to call
on my anger, I'll call on my anger. But
it's it's not exter. It's only external.
It's not that's what the means.
The Ram keeps using both of those
terminologies. That's what that's the
it's not moderation, right? God was not
a is not is not a moderate, right? He
can be very angry. He can very very
loving. So we have to draw on what's on
what's necessary, right? So and you see
he's and he uses K as an example, right?
He says that if a person is is an angry
man, an angry person, he should go into
he should do midot therapy on his anger
and work on himself and go go to the
other extreme completely
and then go back to the middle to read
the words of the Rama very carefully and
he said
that's the middle of the road right that
you have to bring it all back to the
center so so here and he wants to say
here same thing in Shmaya kuresh who
works with us the same
We have this from
there are times that deals with us with
anger.
We have to know
to know that loves us, right? Father
doesn't punish his child because he
hates him. He punishes him because he
loves him. Right? the same with
but the essence of
we just said it this morning right
everything is right so uh here we go
that that's what was wrong even he's
going to say on his level Mosher Rabenu
So the reason why Moshe was punished is
because his anger was not only external
even even
there was still inside of him some
right.
So why what's the nexus? So why did he
forget after the after the so we're
being after this questions questions
afterwards because we're being videoed.
Okay. So uh
why why the nexus that because he was
angry he forgot the laws of kashing
caim. It's very simple. We can figure it
out ourselves. Right?
What's the basis, the underpinning basis
of these?
You've got a trafe dish, right? What's
tra about it? Use palm of liquid. You
put it in your in your dishwasher,
right? With two cycles, right? A cold
cycle and a hot cycle. It's and it's
shining. the dish is shining because the
trafe used the we'll just use the
colloquial word the tarfus the tuma or
whatever is inside is inside the dish
you don't see it what's the problem it's
clean what do I have to do what do I
have to take it to the mikvah for right
we have to right he says it's not it's
internal the whole problem the whole
issue of kashering kaim is not external
it's internal it's an internal thing on
the vessel right So here the the the
misstep of Mosher Rabenu if we can say
such a thing we we we have to go very
delicately right on however we
understand it to whatever extent but it
was an internal thing right and because
he lost it internally right he forgot
the laws of kash which is an internal
purging ourselves purging from ourselves
of internal impurity
they're forbidden these vessels
As we said it was it was didn't remain
as outside anger external only it was
everything and he puts parenthetically
we have to understand
whatever it was with Mosher Rabenu is a
minuscule minuscule minuscule right Shak
Mosher Rabenu
Abdullah Mosher Raenu on his level
al was caught on it right whatever
whatever that is but that's the way we
understand it that's the nexus that's
the connection now he goes on to another
area in the para we'll see this this
theme right so
let's go to the beginning of the parha
the the mitzvah of ner
we are forbidden to make nadarim to make
vows making a vow Now is a very
dangerous thing because first of all
you're saying the 613 mitzvah are not
enough. I'm going to make another right
to do something else. You in a sense
hakically you have added a 614th mitzvah
and you are responsible for that if you
go against it. It's a very serious
significant crime. Right? So let's talk
about that.
And there's there's the really what's
what the what the mitzvah here is is
cancelling vows. Right? There are two
ways of vows to be cancelled for um we
either we go to a and that's called and
we know that that's what we do and we
have that let's say a father uh can can
nullify can get rid of uh may fear a vow
from a daughter or uh if she's if she's
not if she's not uh if she's engaged or
married her husband can do the same
thing. So it can make make the vows it's
it's gone, right? The vow is gone,
right? So you don't have to worry about
it. And um in fact, we take that very
seriously. We're very careful about not
making the dorm. And if you think that
you're really not, you are because we
don't talk about you. I don't we never
heard people walking around. I'm going
to make a vanetta now. But I do hear
many people saying biner biner right you
know we might not understand what but
it's in our it's in our it's in our we
don't want to make a vow right because
there's a danger make a vow right
fantastic example he's bringing from
rashi on on how we nullify a vow Okay,
I'm going to go quickly go a little
late, but I'll I'll explain everything.
She's forgiven.
This is a case Rashi explains.
What are we talking about? We're talking
about a girl, a young lady who made a
vow to become a Nazer. Now, that's
pretty serious stuff. That means she
can't drink wine. She has to let her
hair grow. Maybe for a little lady
that's okay, right? To be a ner. She
wants long hair, but she can't come in
contact with with Misa with dead a dead
body, right? And she did it. She wants
to do it. I'm going to do this. I want
to become, let's say, more holy. I want
to try to be closer to Hashem, right?
There is a law of Nazir. So, I'm going
to I'm plugging into Nazir. And her
father hears about it and he cancels it.
She doesn't have to be there. He hears
about it. I can't do this. I know she's
going to get into trouble for this.
Right? Two hours later, what happens?
She accidentally picks up a cup of wine.
She's at a kdish, an engagement party,
whatever it is, and somebody gives her a
little wine, makes a she drinks the
wine. O, what do I do? Right? I'm
finished now. Right?
That's what it's talking about, right?
So, I'm just going to skip through to
give it to you inside.
Now, shouldn't shouldn't do anything
wrong, right? the father
cancelled, right? But she has to the
Torah says she has to
even though the vow is canled
and the Gomorrah concludes when it talks
about this says you know imagine a
person who does a sin uh inadvertently
he doesn't really do the sin right and
he has to he has to get to chuva all the
more so the rest of us who do sins not
in inadvertently right so but what's the
here. What is she asking for forgiveness
for? She has to do forgiveness. Right?
That's the that's the it's the and
that's it's a puzzle in the Torah,
right? Here what you can answer the
question right
he
is a very the the is like very very
limited
soft there was no ma there was really no
ma I'm skipping because we're getting
late here. So um
Right? In other words, a person a person
has the ability, as we said before, to
add add something to to the Torah, so to
speak. Right? But but but here I I
wanted to become something special,
right? But
if in the in the essence of the bottom
of that page,
a person has the power that they can add
something to their nishama, but if the
nishama is not ready for it, right? You
have to be ready for it. And if you're
not ready for it, it's not going to
happen. And this is what happened here.
She wasn't ready for it. She did not she
made a an externally a vow that she's
not going to she's going to be another
but internally she she on her level of
spirituality which was obviously a great
level that she wanted to do this but on
her level of spirituality she was not
ready to do this and since she wasn't
ready to do it happened she she did
something to to counter her nerut right
it was internal again we're dealing with
a kind of subconscious internal
the persona the entire entire persona
has to change and if the tire persona
has not been totally corrected you'll do
something but shog that's the point he's
making um okay and that's why we can
that's what no
so he says here in the second paragraph
on the third on the last page the on the
left
so there's a reality I'm not going to go
through the whole paragraph I'm going to
go to the last the last the v we're
going to Z will do but there's a reality
of the of the there's a reality that I
have to deal with that's and the beyond
the reality is Torah is to of the the
power of the oral Torah that can remove
even even something like Nazerus. Okay.
But I just want I want to so you get the
idea here. We get the idea from uh
Rabayen when he when he spoke uh about
the Mosha Rabenu's kas. We have Mosha
Rabenu's kas which is anger and it led
to his forgetting the caim. It was
internal and that's the conscious of of
of kaim and nidorim here this ma that we
gave with with nidorim is also uh
internal and ar mikl right it's a sin
because he killed somebody but
internally there was something right now
last last piece and this is the icing on
the cake right
I want to add here a PS with sweetness
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who
right age-old question. Why do we start
you know
the day this is it the holiest day of
the year but we start with we nullify
our vows what what's that all about
right
what is chuva actually you know before
we answer the question what is chuva
how is it possible a person can sin and
he goes to says I'm sorry and he can be
forgiven. Now there's a caveat
you know you have to ask the person as
well and it's just not done but I go to
and I say I did something wrong please
forgive me right that's chuva right
that's chuva it's kind of it's it's
abstract it's not in the world of
reality chuva is a mitzvah that is
beyond reality right
because when you do something there's
There's a reality in this world what we
do. You rob a bank. So you've robbed the
bank. You have the money. That's the
chuva. Real chuva.
In order to do chuva, you don't just
have to revisit the bank robbery, the
reality of what you did. You have to
revisit yourself, your heart, your
nishama, the source of this. Why did I
do this? What's in me that I did such a
thing? I've got to purge myself. I've
got to kasher my kalin, my nishama in my
heart. I have that's what I have to do.
There's something wrong with me. I I I
am I I covet something that doesn't
belong to me. I'm not I I don't have
self-respect that I should work earn a
living myself. Right? That's that's
chuva. That's chuva, right? That I I
confront myself not just the misa the
external reality of what I did, but the
what what was behind it, the person, my
persona, and I correct that persona.
That's chuva
through this internal thing
that is related to the actual thing that
he did.
That's what when you go to the rabbi,
when you go to the bin to enull vows,
they say to you, you know, when you made
the how do you enull a vow? You know,
they don't just say abracadabra, right?
No more vow, right? That's not was there
something.
Would you have done this thing if your
mother knew about it? No, I would never
do it. Okay, that's a that's a pak. You
don't we can we then you would would not
have done it. It's not a vow, right? So
that's you're already thinking about it,
right? internalizing it to be a better
person. So that's
that is why Kipper starts with to
confront ourselves to cancel our vows,
right? What what do we what do we what
did we all of our missteps during the
year to look in we have spending 25
hours now to look inside of ourselves
and see where we went wrong and try to
correct that and and I know that it's me
Rabon right I'm not I don't make excuses
please forgive me that's why nidre is at
the beginning of yum kipper okay thank
you all very much.