Parshas Vayigash (2) - Klal Yisroel goes to Mitzrayim

This week's para is paras and we have holding at the second shar of parasash perk meal. So y just revealed himself to his brothers. He uttered two words that changed the course of history. In fact, those words were so intense in the ears of his brothers that the Pik says they had no reaction. Rashi says they were embarrassed, they were scared, they were completely overwhelmed and taken aback. Now just to put ourselves in the shoes of theatim for a second, they were embarrassed because they had been negotiating with who they thought was some maj. They were scared because this might be payback time, right? They weren't that kind to their brother. They hated him. They were jealous of him. Ultimately, they sold him, almost killed him. Yoisf now is in this position of power. And you would think that this is going to be his moment to take a little bit of retribution. Stating that what's going to happen in the next several can only be described in one word and that is sheer godless. Says these turns to his brothers and again his brothers are just standing there with their jaws dropped. They have nothing to even say. Says, "Come a little bit closer to me." And they came a little bit closer. And said again, maybe you didn't understand 100%. I am your brother. Yeah, that I'm that you sold to. However, now don't be sad. Don't be depressed. And don't even feel bad about what happened because hindsight's 2020. It turns out that the reason that I was sold into Mitam was literally to save our lives. It's because, as you know, there's been a hunger in the land for the last two years. What you might not know is that this hunger is going to persist for another 5 years. who sent me before you to this land to be able to carve out a little bit of property so that you and the family can come live here with me and like this you're going to be spared you're going to be saved and now you have to realize you are not the reason that I ended up here this was all orchestrated by in act made me an so literally an of means a father says I became some sort of equal to parro I am the butler I'm in charge of everything that goes on in his palace and not just that I am the ruler of the entire land now I want you to move quickly go up to my father you should tell him this is what your son has to say. So who placed me as an as a ruler over the entire land of Egypt. I want you to come down to me and do not wait a minute. Meaning I think you need to come and you need to come quickly. So we're going to hit the pause button for one second. So Ysef reveals himself to his brothers and they didn't say one word. Clearly they were embarrassed. Clearly they were afraid. But immediately appeased them. He told them don't feel bad because me coming here and you selling me ultimately is what's going to save us. As a matter of fact, it's not even you. It's not even you. You were a pawn in the hands of this all was orchestrated by and you're not sure. Look at what happened to me since I got here. Does this sound to you like it's happening? Obviously, it's not. So this is all being orchestrated by for me to be in a position of power to be able to bring you my family here in so that you'll have a you'll have a like this you're going to be able to you're going to be able to survive. Now the last thing that we just read that told the brothers was go quickly and bring my father. Why all of a sudden do they have to go quickly? It's posh because really why was Yseph not Megala himself to his father right from the onset the minute he had any position of power the minute he was able to get on a horse get on a and travel the six day track to tell his father that he's alive and put him out of his misery literally he should have done so that we spoke at so many times said it was all done with what with the dreams what was governing was the Nva that he believed he was being told via his that was calling all the shots and he understood that before he met his father his 11 brothers were supposed to come to him and they were supposed to bow down to him. So he needed that dream to play itself out first. Then because of his whole strategy with the Kavia, he had to make sure it was safe to be able to send the brothers back home together with Binyammen so that now YaKob would be able to come. He was able to ascertain that. That's what happened at the very beginning of the para. But now that all that took place and now that he revealed himself to his brothers, okay, now YaKob's supposed to come. Well, why are we wasting time? The Tata is in so much pain, right? It's a fascinating thing. He's been in pain for 22 years, but there was nothing to do about it. Now that all of a sudden we can act, we have to act this second. So Ysef goes from not saying one word to his father to but it's if you don't understand the it makes no sense. But [laughter] if it's withh and that's what he says, I want you to go quickly and you should tell him that it's the following message. Now we stop the middle of the message. Let's pick up the message again. This is what the telegram is going to say. quote by the way the says that in parasik when yak told the brothers redu right go down to soal say the word redu is bigatri 210 and this is a remance to the 210 years that the y would be here it says red is big matria 209 and the reason is because one yearish had already passed since the beginning of this episode. So at this point when Yakob is going to come, Yakob is not going to be redu anymore. It's going to be redu minus one. It's going to be and that's this but this is all part of the telegram of talking you should live in the land of and you're going to be living close to me. Not too close, but close. Everything and I'm going to give you food there. I'm going to be in my furnace there because there's going to be another five years of hunger and if you don't do this that you may become poor, you're going to lose everything. This is the message that Ysef tells the brothers they should deliver to Jacob. It starts in test. It goes through. Then continued talking to the brothers. He says, "Your eyes see as do the eyes of my brother that my mouth is the mouth that is speaking to you." Now, if you look at Rashi and the Raan and all the struggle, what does this even mean? that looks a little out of place like what is the point of this Pik but the way Rashi learns is that Yseph was giving his brothers like additional proof that he's really and the additional proof was I'm speaking you see we speak the same language I'm a lensman I'm really your brother now why does feel that he has to interrupt the program to again be mazic and say that because they haven't said one word yet. You realize they're standing there speechless. Their jaws are just dropping lower and lower and lower. That's what's going on over here. They're just like in total shock. Either way, continues. He says, "I want you to relate over to my father all the I had everything that you saw. Do this quickly. Bring my father over here." And the says fell on the necks. I'll say how many necks did have but he fell on the necks of heav and cried on the necks of and then went and he kissed his other brothers. So notice favoritism first and then his other brothers. He cried on them as well. And how many later? 12 later the brothers were able to talk. They were quiet for 12. So they didn't say one word. Nope. Nothing. Not a word. Nothing saying not one word. Negotiating a deal. No. Not one word. Nobody was able to say a word. Not one word until here. Finally. Finally. Now what was the what was the final says when he saw cry that's that's when he came around. It's interesting all the talk even that didn't move the brothers enough to get to the point where they were comfortable. But when he cried, tears come from the depths of a person's soul. When they saw Yseph crying, the way he cried, they realized Ysef was serious. They realized has no tightness. Ysef is not going to come after them. When Ysef said, he meant it. That's what they came to realize when it was this was very, very sincere. And if that's the case, we have nothing to be afraid of. We have nothing to be embarrassed of. And it was then that they began to talk to them. The plea continues. Word got out in the house of par that the brothers of arrived. And when par heard that and when parad heard that they were very very pleased. Ramban says something very nice. Ramban says number one. Sounds like bare knew about a yosph. Ramban says they did. Yseph had told parro he told his close people that he came from the land of the right you remember he said he says I was stolen I was kidnapped and he said he had a whole family of brothers so they knew about the brothers they never met them right when are we going to meet the you know the all the cousins he had never met them but they knew about them so those brothers that we had heard about those brothers arrived and when parro and his ministers met the Y they were very pleased and here the Raman says something very nice also and the reason is because let's be honest at the end of the day this whole idea that Ysef who's an i who's a despised I can't break bread with him that's how despised he is running this country they were very disappointed who knows who this kid is he might come from a family of slaves we don't know right how do I know what his is how many is he to I have No idea. And as a result, the fact that he's running this country, right, ages, who we even dealing with? They were not so happy over the fact that this person who has an unknown yeas brief on his birth certificate, he's the person that's running the country. All of a sudden, when they saw his family, all his brothers walk in. Each person comes in looking better than the next. They're sharp. They're smart. They're intelligent. They're dressed to the nines. They were so happy. You see, I knew my judgment's good. Py said, I knew I picked a good one. And it's not just, wow, I'm so happy for Ysef. No, they were actually happy for themselves. It was good for the whole land of Egypt that this is the person. This is the either way. Now chimes in and turns to and he says, "Tell your brothers, this is what I want them to do. I want them to load up their donkeys, right? Fill up the trunk of the car and I want them to now go towards, right? They should bring your father and they should bring all his possessions and you know, bring it back to me and I'm going to give them the best of the land of and they're literally going to eat off the fat of the land. So Ysef had just told his brothers, "Go bring Yakov." Ysef has a lot of authority in the land, but as much authority as he has, he still answers to one person. He still answers to P. So now Pra comes in and Par is going to sign off on. But he's not only signing off on it, he's actually doubling down a little bit. In fact, let's look at the next and the way the explained this tells I'm commanding you to go ahead and say the follows I want you to take from the land of wagons. What do you need wagons for? because you're going to be bringing the whole family for the children for your wives and you should use it to carry your father and the families all the right this is you don't have to take all these different because whatever you need you're going to get furnished apartments everything that you will ever need you're going to have over here as in the sons of Israel. The sons of Jacob, they followed through a parro and Ysef gave them a per instructions of parro. And in addition to that, he also gave them some, right? You need you need a little bit of food for the road. Not just that, he gave all of his brothers a change of clothing. favoritism. He gets 300 shekels just for some petty cash. And he doesn't just get a change of clothing, he gets five changes of clothing. Maybe it's a six-day trip, so he gets to change clothing every day. I don't know. And this is what he sent to his father. He sent them 10 and it was carrying on. It was laden with the best that Egypt had to offer. The noise and then 10. What's the difference between a and an is the male is the female bread for the father. So they should have it now on the road. Then he sent his brothers out and they went and he told them the infamous words. So what does mean? It's enough for now. But Rashi means a whole bunch of different in the name of what means. But then Rashi says, you want to know what the is worried that the brothers would start killing each other on the way home. It's your fault. It was your fault. How did you not? How did you not real? I mean, can you imagine what the conversation is going to be the minute they're on the road and Ysef is not overhearing what's going on over there? So, he says, "This is the only condition I have. Don't be mis don't start speaking don't get involved in all this everything is fine everything is okay I'm telling you it's not necessary godless of so the says that ysef revealed himself he told the brothers go quickly call my father what needs to happen in order for the family to survive is they have to relocate temporarily But after relocate here in Mit because the only place there's going to be food. I even parcled out an area. It's called Gish. We'll see more about Gish towards the end of the parish. But I parcelled out an area and that's the place that you should be living. In the interim here sayan come here. It's 300 bucks change of clothing. Par comes and par says come on. This is what you send your father. You have to send him off much more aul. And he starts sending him everything. He sends him with a fullus board everything. He says, "Come on. This is uh this is your father." It's interesting the Ramban says that why did Pari have to be like so stark with Ysef, right? When Py told to do this, what did he tell him? Okay, that's like a little bit. The next one says because P knew Ysef and he knew that Ysef was so with the treasury. He was a nickel and dimer. He was so precise. He was never going to take a he was never going to take these things out of the treasury and send them to his father. But Pari wanted him to do it. And Paris said this is important. Also, if you could appreciate this a little bit more, we're in the middle of a hunger, right? So no one's going to be super brave right now. We're rationing food, right? Think about it. This is one big soup kitchen right now, the entire land of Egypt. But he told him, I want you to do this with a come on. You're going to see your father now for the first time in 22 years. You have to be him properly. This is the way you have to go about it. Either way, so the Pik says Ysef sends them off. They ascended from Valu because they're traveling north. also because so they're going up from it back to the land of they came to the land of their father they told Yakov you know what they told him so what was Yakov's reaction we know what the brother's reaction was the brother's reaction was nothing But now Jacob just heard the same words. So the says that was his reaction because he didn't believe him. Means says means means the same thing. Jacob did not believe them. Says come on it's not true. I don't believe you. I don't believe you. The Ramban says no doesn't mean like literally he didn't believe them. Okay. So then what does Vayaf mean? So the Ramban says that means he had a heart attack of some sorts. I'll read his lion and the doctors could decide what exactly this means. Fore! Foreign! Foreign! So again, you have to know how to read this medical report. But the bottom line is it's something along the lines of he passed out. His heart skipped a beat. He went into cardiac arrest. Something along these lines. He for sure passed out. He was for sure had something to do with his heart, right? But he passed out. He couldn't even believe what he was listening to. was called. But then they told him everything that Yseph said. And then he saw the he saw the wagons that Yseph had sent to bring him. And when he saw the all of a sudden all of a sudden he got his life back. All of a sudden we feel a pulse. He's going to make it to patient. All of a sudden everything was okay. Everyone knows the What were the all about? So Kazal say that when Yakabinu had escorted Yadic all the way back in Parish when did he escort him? He escorted him to it was the last time he saw him right told that you know the brothers right can I send you out there and he sent them out towards and the says on that did what every person's supposed to do when you send somebody you blight him you walk with him a little bit so Yakob told his son Ysef back in the beginning of parish vesv let me walk with you a little bit and they're walking together and he's sending him towards and what do you think Jacob and Ysef were doing when they were walking together they were talking and learning and you know what they were learning they were learning the last time Yakov saw was when he sent them to the last conversation Yakov had with learning which sug It was the of when he comes and he reveals himself to his father 22 years later and he tells the brothers I want you know the Tata to realize all the cover that I got everything I'm fine I'm okay this was all from was all orchestrated we could all breathe now everything is fine but he also wanted him to know that he was spiritually okay and you know his way of sending the message that he was spiritually okay I still am holding in the last sa that we were learning together. I remember the it was it was 22 years of separation but at the same time I remember the we were learning we were learning the and that was all symbolized in the of course said send a understand when saw the aalo and he realized wow he's still holding in the 22 years later that means he was able to overcome all that would bring with it the when he saw that that's what brought him back to life that's what gave him back in fact says it wasn't just that his heart started beating again but his came back his came back he became a again this all returned to him when he saw the And then said ravashi says what the word rav means. But if you take a look at the and if you take a look at they both say something beautiful they say the brothers come to and they tell he says you know and now they have to deliver the message right what's what's the message the message is that is a he's an right it's a whole elaborate message that they have to read off the teleprompter they have this whole telegram that they're supposed to communicate when Jakob heard all this he said ah That's I don't you think I care about that? Think I care that he's king? It would make no difference to me if he's king or if he's an slave somewhere. What I care about is that my son is alive. And you know what I want? I just want to go and see him. I don't care about seeing all his cover. I don't even care about being poor or rich. That's not what I care about right now. I just want to go. I'm already old. I don't know how much time I have left on this world. We got to go this second. So the says immediately that and he went he started traveling him and everything that he had and he went to and when it came to he brought as in right that we're learning right now to the god of his father and it's amazing how again the story of the makes stop. We're in the city of Beva. Something we spoke about when we show, but again, it stops off in Beva. It's fascinating. Behava is one of the focal points of the story of the Beva was a place that Yakovu had learned in the yeshiva for 14 years according to the Marshall we spoke about in the beginning of Parva was a place that had lived for a good part of his life. Wherever had lived for a good part of his life, presumably that's what Yakov had grown up. That was a place that they had built mus in the past place that they had brought carbonas and in route from Cananan back down to Mitzim Jaku stops off inva and he brings carbonas and the pik says that night he stayed over in he had a dream middle of the night turns to he tells him the following and I think if you think about this plastic You meditated on it for a minute. It's it's a fascinating fascinating talked away. I am the God I'm the God of your father. Do not be afraid to desend because you are going to become a great nation. This PK is forboding for what's going to happen the very very very end of parish and really we know it much more from the beginning of of you know up until now the others had been promised so many different times that they would become they would get tremendous but all those were contingent upon the land of cananan every single time Hashem promises the something it's always inherits can it inherits cananan it inherits cananan righte Where is Sham? Sham is the land of that's where all the are supposed to happen. That's the perspect you're going to get over there in Mitzim. And that's what happened. We know that's what happened. That's the story. We become a nation where we don't become a nation in Kanan. When we become a nation, we go to Kanan. We become a nation in Mitan. So this is very very prophetic and this is really where starts connecting to where it's which is very much going to be the segue for what's going to happen in the beginning of but either way was afraid to go to right he knows all his everything is associated with the land of the he says I know you don't want to leave it can why because everything you've ever been promised you your father has been associated with this country You have nothing to fear. That's really where you're going to become a told him. He says, "I'm going to descend down with you to I'm going to come up. I'm going to ascend at some point back from with you." Meaning, this is not a place that you are going to be forever. And in the interim, Yseph is going to take care of you. picked himself up and the whole family they went on the par had sent to take them from Cananan to and they took their cattle and all their possessions. came to Mitzimova Yakov and his family Bonov his sons and his grandsons of his daughters Bonov and his son's daughters and all the offspring he brought together with him and now the Pik is going to go and the Pik is going to delineate these next several right so when you're in shul this is when the bak is supposed to you know put a little gas and we're going to go through now the names of all the descendants the entire family of that actually descended to. So these are the names the not to be confused with the we're going to learn very very soon in the beginning of but the sons the of the sons of Benakanis. So Shim has a son whose name is Benhaknanes. So it's a big says Shaw Benhakanes is Shaw the son of Dina Shim had married Dina Shim had a child together with Dina. Why would Dina be referred to as aanes? Shivaani because she was Nivea to aani. If you take a look at the Evanzra Deanzra says no Aad it's not Dina but rather this canananis is some sort of canananis. So why does the kananis get a shout out? He says because the had a from the family that you're only supposed to marry from the or at the very least do not marry any this was a that had right that Yakov had so we know this is an olded everybody kept to it with the exception of Shim married aanis had one child from aanis and that's this child ley the sons of ley gerine kahosi the sh of aerit vizar that we know already from that died because oft mentions next generation that the sons of parrots were incidentally says over here that why are we mentioning that died like why is this important right really what's the objective here we're not going through the whole of the sons of Jacob we're talking about all the descendants of Jacob that actually came to so why do you have to mention Then Ezra Alp says that being that we said Shaw was Ben Hakanes, you should know there was another one of the brothers that really did marry Kanan. And who was that? That was Yehuda Bashu Hakani. But you should know that uh there was a punishment because of that. That's why ended up dying. Now why is this aeshra? Because you remember says that the kanani over there meant a merchant. It didn't actually mean aani. But this is Devon Ezra who's learning that there were really not one brother that married but it was well what about what we just mentioned now are the sons of right all of these children the sons anyways were born in the in addition to that there was also right we're counting the girls And if you do all the math, what does it add up to? 33. Don't count because if you count, you're actually only going to get 32. We'll get to that in a second. What about the offsprings of God? God had a nice family. Uh, the sons of So again, Usher has sons, four sons, and he has a daughter. Sarak Sarak is there. There innisha's sister Usher's daughter. This is the famous Asher Bria. Usher also gets grandchildren. The affforementioned that had given as a initially right to Leia his daughter. And if you do the math the family tree, how many descendants come from Zula? The number is 16 right had two sons and why is only referred to as because she's theor of Jacob's wives through who's the daughter of we spoke already about par gave birth to two sons who are the two sons manasha was the oldest What about we know 10 sons? If you do the math and you tally up all the sons of it's going to be 14. Moving along to why is it right? But one son, these are the children of that NS gave that not gave that gave to his daughter and she gave birth to children to call. How many was it in total? It was seven says the if you do the math of all the offspring of the of that came to the number you're going to have is 66 meaning 66 are coming from descending down to live and then's family is living in already right so you have himself and's two sons. And if you do the math and you add everything together, the number that you're going to end up with is the number you're going to end up with is 70 either way. So goes down to the quickly interrupts and tells us how many offspring, how many descendants of Yakov actually went. And if you do the math, the math is it's 70. And the Tory breaks down how you come to the number 70, right? Where does the number 70 come? You had 33 Ben Lea. You had 16 ben zilpa. You had 14 benet. And then there was seven benah. So if you take 33 + 16 + 14. So 16 and 14 is 30 plus 33 is 63 + 7 you're going to end up with 70 and that's the [clears throat] like we say in everybody knows this that how many Jews did we start off with we started off with 70 and of course when we left it was right but the bottom line is this is the humble beginnings of the Jews they begin with 70 so just a few observations as it relates some of these uh that we just went through. So again the ty went through and delineated first the ben lea afterwards the b zila then the b ra and then the ber so just a few things highle observations first of all why do we do it in that order why is the order lea zila and billah so we've mentioned this already in the past that every time the and theatim are mentioned you have to been like why this order there's always a method, right? So why would this be the order? So Pasha, it would seem that the order is from highest to lowest. I mean, that's just what it sounds like. If you do the math, the way the numbers play themselves out are 33, 16, 14, and 7. Right? Otherwise, you would think for sure the and then the you would think even should be first. But the bottom line is it would seem that that's the order. The order is just going from highest to lowest. And it's for that reason it goes Leia, Zila, Raul, and Bella. Another observation, who had the most sons from Mulvat, and Binyam, right? Beyammen had 10 sons. Who had the least? That's really easy. Dun, right? So, Dun had the least. [snorts] Not only did Binyammen have the most, there's no one that even had close, right? There was one brother that had seven, but for the most part, four or five children. Byam has 10. is because the Gmorra says that really Ysef was supposed to have the but it ended up because of what happened that ends up getting the children that that was supposed to have. So there was a of really being but he lost that and that's why Biam ended up getting his children. That's probably you know related somehow to how that works out. Another interesting observation is there's only two girls mentioned and baser the rashbam and the rashb is not here. The rash is actually in param speaks out that from the fact that the mentioned that I'm going to include the girls and there's only two girls that are mentioned must be there were only two girls in the whole family and this was a very maledominated mushba but at the end of the day there's only two girls in the equation and that is Dina the daughter of Yakov and Sarak who's Jacob's granddaughter who's the daughter of Usher one of the kashas that Rashi and Ramban both struggle with a little bit. What do you do with the kazal that say that all the had to they all had twins that were born together with them. So where did all these twins go? So this is not the first time this kasha jumped off the page, right? What happened to the twins? We have this they had twins but there's so many that are completely making from these twins even existing. So there's really two and one is Rashi says that the twins all died. They must have all died and if they died they never made it down to Raman says I don't know why you would say that I would say that if the probably married the if you look at the PK the PK says very clearly that the number of 70 that went down is milad that's besides for the wives of the sons of Yakov that means we know already that we're excluding the wives So being that we know we're not counting the wives. So it's for that reason it's posit that would be the Here's another interesting question. What about Yakov's wives? Were any of Jacob's wives alive? Well, we know for sure is not alive. Leia, I think we mentioned somewhere along the way could be that Leia passed away. Bill Zulpa, were the nakov alive? So the truth is it seems to be in the beginning of par and this is really going to segue into the next part of the story and that is Ysef had two dreams. In his second dream what did Ysef see? He saw the sun, he saw the moon and he saw 11 bowing down to him which meant that his brothers were going to bow down to him but he knew that already from the first stream. but also his father and his mother. Frank Rashi, his mother, his mother's not alive anymore. Raul died. Cave Raal. So what do you mean his mother is going to bow down to him? So Rashi says that Ysef didn't realize that who was the mother that was going to bow down? It was going to be Bill. And being that Billah helped raise him. So it's for that reason it's but the bottom line is it's referring to Billah the Ramban on that Rashi in the beginning of par says I disagree with this Rashi because Rashi seems to be saying that bill was alive when they had this great encounter now Mitim to bow down to and that's not true and the Rabban says you now I know it's not true because and it doesn't say And at that point from all four of his wives and it's for that reason it doesn't say it only says but the bottom line is the Ramban says Bill was not alive. So it seems to be a whether at the very least billow was alive that seems to be rashi in the beginning of parish and with rashi in the beginning of parish. One last observation and this is the most obvious one and that is so the pussik says that there are 70 right you do the math and what you're going to see is you're going to see 70 offspring of yakavinu that are entering mit you know what the problem is the problem is if you actually count and you actually do the math the number is not 70 the number is really 69 and where there's one off is by the blea the blea we 33 it's really not 33 the number is really 32 asks Rashi quotes it right here in Rashi says that the answer to that missing person is she was born literally so if you want to count her you could sort of count her if you don't want to count her you could also get away without counting her and she's this in between person and it's referring to it's referring Take a look at Deanzra has a very very long onzra says that if was we know's mother it would make extremely old when she gave birth to Rabenu and says we know the makes such a big deal about S who was already older when she had a child doesn't say one word about a miracle taking place giving birth to Mosha And it's because of that Dean Ezra challenges this Kazalan tells Dean Ezra you have a kashal so you're challenging it this is a famous uh viku between andzra in the world of mikra that plays itself out right here in parash it's way beyond the scope of what we're doing today for another day for sure but not for today but the bottom line is that Ezra says that because of this I'm trying to find a more positive shot in terms of understanding this discrepancy between the number 69 and the the seven days he says I'm going to tell you a shot that I saw. Now he doesn't put a name to the face but this is the rush. The rush says this in Arab and this is something that we've spoken about many times over the years in the raid and that is you want to know how many yeden there were there was 69 yen was 69. So why does it say 70? Because sometimes the Tyra rounds off numbers and the says I'll prove to you that the rounds off numbers because when you count how many days do you count? 49. What does it say in the Tyra? When you give malus, how many malchus do you give? 39. What does it say in the terror says the Tyra rounds off numbers? Says Dean Ezra. The site of the Tyra rounding off numbers. I can live with you think Neanzra could live with that. I think Nezar could have written that. Deanzra has no problem saying such a site. If you know, you know, right? Evanz says I have no problem with it. He says, but I'm going to tell you my problem. And he asks such a good kasha. It's almost a kasha. He says when the Tyra talks about the numbers, the Tyra didn't just give us the gross number 70. Oh, it's really 69. The Tyra broke it up and when the Tyra mentioned the bena, the Tyra said, you know how many blaya there were? 33 blea. It's not 33, it's 32. So says Dean, you want to round off 69 to 70? That's an even number. I can live with that. But how do you round off 32 to 33? What's the difference between those two numbers? That makes no sense. So the Ezra says I can live with rounding off numbers but I can't live with it in this. It's not going to answer the kasha because you can answer off how you round it off 69 to 70 but 32 to I mean 33 is you know log yeah 33 is a fire number but you don't round off 32 to 33 right you get that wrong on your test if you try that so how do you go from 32 to 33 that's where I see something so what's the so says dezzra and if you look at the in his world he went with the identical mahalik as well and that is that the of 70. The of 70 includes Yakov. If you count the 69, it's 69 offspring of Yakov. [snorts] It's 69 mil Yakov. The 70 already includes Yakov. That's how we get to the number 70. Either way, this is a fascinating little uh equation that really we can have a little bit more fun with. But I think it's I think it's to read three more. I know we're up to shishi already holding by the but at the same time I think it's to read three more. So Jacob is traveling with the whole family. It's going to take a little bit of time right remember when Jakob was leaving. Now the kids were much younger then but now there's so it takes time to travel with such a caravan. So Jacob sends Yehuda ahead. He sends him as part of the advanced team. So he sends him to what he wanted was is that should tell you who the where Gish is. It's like this everything is going to be in order and they arrived in everyone knows says that what does it mean? It's a little bit of a funny word. The word is a lion of that. He didn't just want him to go tell him where's Gish. I could punch it into my uh ways. No, he wants to prepare the land of Gish spiritually. So when we show up, we already have what we're going to already have to learn. But yes, either way. So Yehuda comes in the dance and he tells it's happening. It's coming right now. Your father is on his way. So Ysef immediately goes and he takes fires up his chariot and he started going towards his father to the city of Gish and that's where he's going to meet him appeared in front of his father. He fell on his neck and he cried and oid means he cried again. He didn't say one word. He didn't say one word. you're appearing in front of him. Now doesn't say that cried, but turns to and he tells him now now I'm going to be able to die a peaceful death now that I've seen your face and I'm looking at you and I see that you're still alive and we're going to stop here. So y at the very very very end of today's share and Israel they finally see each other. So how did this embrace go? I mean, it's been 20 years in the making. 22 years in the making falls on Jacob's neck, which suggests he didn't just cry, but he cried and he cried. Didn't say one word for his part, right? Doesn't say anything about crying. He talks. He says because I got my life back now already I'm going to be able to die. So just to end with one thought with one everybody knows brings the kazal say that the pik says that when finally had this embrace so cried but doesn't say anything about crying. So the question is why was Jacob not crying? Why did he fall on him? Doesn't even say he kissed him. Rashi says how come he didn't do that? The reason is because Jacob was saying and being that Yakavina was saying you can't be mikrishma so he couldn't cry. He couldn't kiss him. He couldn't even fall on him. He just stood there as yay fell on him and y cried on him. after he finished he said and everybody in the world from the beginning of time has asked the same question now you're saying if it was then should have also been saying and if it wasn't manisheshma you should have said you should have said it earlier what's going on over here why is it that at this moment when they're about to have this incredible embrace all of a sudden Yakavinu is sayingishma and oh by the way Ysef is not to the point that the moment is almost a little bit antilimatic. You don't have that from the standpoint of towards that AU was so overwhelmed with emotion at this point. He was so overwhelmed that he felt that in that moment he wanted to take the feeling the passion that he had and he wanted to give it to. So he said instead of me internalizing and living in that moment right now, this is a a moment that I want to be to I want to give this up to Hashem. And he said it was his way of channeling this incredible moment, the greatest moment of his life to but I want to share with you a new that I saw in the from the Wolson. It's right in the beginning of parash again it's this and I think it's and just to be we've spoken so many times over the years about the says that the Romans had decreed that it was forbidden to teach despite the fact that he knew what he was doing was a suicide mission he went and he taught to the point that he was caught. They put him on death row. Says when it came time to kill it was the time to readish and the Romans were were torturing him to death. That was the punishment that he was supposed to get. But because it was this manish. So was saying and he was being said. So he told him he said my whole life I was on this. We says that you have to love even if takes away your I used to say when am I ever going to have the opportunity to be now that I have an opportunity to be not being by the word until his left holy by the word of Abas came out and How praised are you that you that you and left your when you utter the word and the turn and they said the great this is the way he's going to end his life. How is it even possible came out and said it's true in this world it didn't work out so well you have no idea what's waiting for you in the next world soak is on death row he's being tortured by the Romans but it was and he started saying and when they said he told him I was waiting for the opportunity to do it. Now that I have the opportunity, should I not do it? And all the struggle. What did the mean when they said, "What does that mean?" It's a funny lion and response. my whole life I've been when am I going to have the opportunity to be kind this so he once mentioned from the great had a brother that yes lord was even greater than the great and he was known very fondly in the yeshiv as one of the of the and he was once asked this question he said what did mean when they And what was response? So said that he's on death row. He's being tortured and he was saying and he was doing it so serenely. He was doing it so peacefully. He was doing it the way you're supposed to say the first. And they looked at him and they said, "Adan, I mean, Rebby, we know you're not regular, but Adan, how are you in this moment able to be so calm, so locked in that you're able to say in such a way?" So he told them, you want to know why? He said because from saying this is your and from all the says and says what he's supposed to do is he's supposed to close his eyes and he's supposed to picture that whatever mysterious is asked and called upon from me I'm willing to give it up for Hashem if I ever found myself in a situation like Jews have found themselves throughout the generations where it's give me your religion or give me your life I'll give up my life and I won't give up my religion and it's whether it's your money whatever it might be a who says properly every single time he says twice a day he's supposed to close his eyes and he's supposed TO SEE HIMSELF BEING THROWN INTO A FIRE he's supposed to see himself with Romans being that's the way you're supposed to Sayishma. So said Rabi Raba says, "You want to know why I'm able to do this? Because this is not the first time I've been here. I've been here every single day twice a day. My entire life when I read the I was I lived through this already. I saw myself in the fire. I saw myself with Romans being Mr. THERE'S NO OVER HERE. I GOT PRACTICE. THAT'S WHY I'M ABLE TO DO IT. I've been waiting for this. I've been practicing for this. The visualization for me was so real throughout my life that I've been here before. And that's why this is something I'm able to do and I'm able to do it as easily as you seen me be able to do it. The Tom couldn't understand how in one second he was able to reach such a major you're making a choice. This didn't happen in a second. This is a life of a I've been here so many times before. Every single time I said when I came to I pictured this scene, this is easy for me. I've been practicing for this my entire life. That's why I'm able to do what you see me doing. So Wolson said that when he said every single day and when he came to the words, what was he thinking? said like that certainly said like that and his was the he was that I'm willing to give up my entire life but listen to this he said the last 22 years of my life says what was what was my life worth wasn't worth anything was depressed Yakabina was living a life that he said was going to go in. It was he was mourning. He didn't feel like his life had that much meaning. So yeah, I've been giving up all life toes. What kind of life have I been giving him? A life that to me doesn't even have so much meaning. IT'S A LIFE THAT'S not even worth living. It's a life that's almost meaningless. So he didn't feel like his was aishma. But now the heard it was. And then when Yakov came and when Yakov saw, WHAT WAS HIS REACTION? AMUSAL. NOW I'M GOING TO DIE BECAUSE I GOT MY LIFE BACK. AND IF I GOT MY LIFE BACK, NOW I can die. When Yakavinu got his life back, you know what YAKAVINU SAID? NOW I WANT TO SAY Keshma again. Because now for the first time in 22 years, I could say Keshma. I could come to and I could feel like I'm actually giving something of value to that life that I gave the last 22 years. He said, "But now he felt that he has a life to give to the now that he's now that it's said now I'm going to say and the emphasis was that too that was the punchline of the that's what he was driving at that had a whole another meaning right now And he said, "I'm going to take this nephesh this and if you called upon me this second to give you this life, this life that I just got back with a long-term lease. If I was called upon giving this life to you, that's what I would do." That was the sac. He didn't say one word. He had cover his father. I'm not even going to talk in the presence of my father. immediate reaction was and then afterwards he said what's going to happen now. So again, we're stopping again with a little bit of a cliffhanger, but that will as be the topic of the next