Parshas Vayigash (1) - Ani Yosef

This week's para is paras vigash and we have the sashem holding at the 11th para of soracious paras vigash. So we ended the previous para paras mikates with a cliffhanger and I think we have to do a little bit of a recap just to bring ourselves up to speed so we can jump in to the next chapter of this incredible story. So Yoshadic at the young age of 17 was sold by his brothers initially to a caravan of Egyptians but eventually he made his way down to Mitzim became the butler in the house of one of the prominent government officials in the land of Mitim Pifar Sarah Tab because of the liel that was imposed by Pifer's wife the infamous as by defa ended up in prison for 12 years. How did y emerge? The pik says that parro had a dream and then he had another dream and the dreams were very real to parro. So much so that they bothered him to the point that he called all the and he told him you have to figure out a way to be this but nobody was able to. Turns out that one of Paris's ministers, the Sarah Mashkin, told Pyro that when I was in prison, I was together with some young at the time I had a dream similar to yours and that it was really really bugging me. [snorts] My compadre, the suim also had a dream like that. We both presented our dreams to this young kid and he was able to be poiserate with pinpoint accuracy. I think it would behoove you, your honor, your majesty, to meet this person, present him with what it is you're struggling with. I think he might be able to help you. The Pik says that Pari immediately acted on the word of Ysef. Y all of a sudden has an audience in front of the most powerful person in the world. He gives parro a pitin that par likes. And not only does parro accept his pistro but he now incorporates Ysef into his cabinet into his government. In fact he made him the he made him the second most powerful person in the world. Now what was the piston of YF stream? It was that for the next seven years the economy was going to boom and the produce that was going to grow in Egypt was going to be very much. However, it was going to be followed by seven years of hunger. And what Ysef told Pyro, the dream was telling him was that what you should do during those seven fat years is hoard as much product as you can so that when the hunger years come, you're going to have food to sustain the country. Not just that, the hunger is going to affect not just Egypt, but it's going to affect the surrounding countries as well. They will have not had this booming economy. they will have not been privy to this inside information. And as a result, they're going to have to come on to you for money. And as prominent as you have a place right now amongst the nations, it's going to be that much greater. You have no idea how much riches this is going to bring to Egypt. Either way, hires to be his mission and really to oversee this project. Fast forward seven years later, there's a hunger. It gets worse. It gets even worse than that. It gets even worse than that. And it got to the point that it even affected Kenan. And the Pik says that Yakov back home with his kids, they got to the point where suddenly they too were starting to struggle a little bit. And they had to figure out what they're going to do for food. So they decided that they have no choice. They're going to have to go to Mitzim and they're going to have to buy food. Now, not all of Yakov's sons went. It was the 10 of them which didn't go. Ysef, obviously, cuz he wasn't there. and Beyammen because Yakov was very afraid to send his son Banyammen. Why was he afraid? Because of the fate that had occurred to a his brother Ysef and B his mother Raul. So he was afraid to send By the 10 boys go and they make they were into Mitim and they're going to go buy food from this maj by the way. He's in charge of the economy. He's in charge of all the distribution. Who's going to get what? Now, it turns out it's their brother Ysef. Ysef knows that they are his brothers, but obviously they don't know that Ysef is their brother. And the Pik says that as soon as Ysef saw them, he accused them of being spies. He said, "I have no idea what you're talking about." Says, "Really? Tell me a little bit more about you. You have any siblings?" "Um, yeah, we have one who's gone. We have another one who's back home. How about a father, mother?" starts asking them a whole bunch of family questions. And at the end, Ysef tells the brothers, "The only way I will accept your argument that you're not spies and you're simply here like everybody else is to buy food is in the event that you could bring that little brother with you. If you can bring him along, then I'm going to trust you. If not, I'm not going to be able to trust you." And they immediately started kicking and screaming. They said, "There's no way we're going to be able to bring this brother. It's not possible. It's not possible. You don't understand. He's so meaningful to my father. It's a dangerous road. There's no way it's going to happen. He says that's okay. But I'm telling you now, if you don't bring him, you're not getting any food. Not just that, he takes Shim as collateral. Shim staying with me. This is uh the ultimatum. So they had no choice. They went back home. They told their father what happened. And the father said, "Shim can stay. I'm not sending y nothing doing." Anyways, a little bit of time passed. The hunger got a little bit more intense. It became a little bit more severe. It got to the point where they absolutely had no choice. And at that point, at that point, Yakov said, "You know what? If I have no choice, I have no choice." Now, Yehuda had turned to Yakov and he told Yakov, "Listen, I understand this is not something you're comfortable doing, but at the same time, I'm going to take I'm willing to cosign. I'm promising you that I'm going to return to you. As much as this is scary, but I'm telling you, I'm taking and with Yehuda's Aas and Yakov really not having much of a choice, he went and he sent Binyam initially when Ysef saw Beinyam and the brothers. So, the brothers technically had lived up to their end of the deal, which was delivery. They release the Shim and not just that, they all get together, they have this nice meal, they even got drunk, the Pik says. And then Ysef did something very, very suspicious. On their way out, they're heading back home with their food and everything seems to be great, right? Even Chin's coming home. Ysef goes and he plants his Govia, his special baker in the bag of Binyang. And then he immediately has one of his officials go out and puts out this kyra. We're missing the baker of the king. We have to find it. And they start doing this big search and they're searching everybody. And lo and behold, they find it in the bag of Binyammen. And Binyammen is brought back in front of the king. And the king says, "What's going on over here? I don't understand. I've been so good to you. Think about everything that I've done. I mean, you came back. I treated you in an incredible way. You ate the meal with me. Nobody gets eaten meal together with the king. And this is the way that you you pay me back. The punishment that this young child is going to have to endure is that he is going to be my slave. The rest of you, you can go back home. But he has no choice. He has to stay with me. Now the brothers were all looking at each other and this whole story made made absolutely no sense. And the truth is let's take a step back now. It really didn't make any sense. Like what was Ysef thinking? So throughout Paras Mikates we spoke out to Ramban who said that Ysef was never looking to chapter with the brothers. That was never the objective of Paras Mikates. It certainly sounds like it. I mean you wouldn't be wrong for thinking that this is YF's way of poking at them and getting back. Told you so. Told you so. Right. Get ready for what's going to happen. But you gosh then I'm really going to tell you so. But that's never what was going on in mind. was motivated based on this that he believed he had received through his and he knew from his dreams [snorts] that he was supposed to get to a point where he was going to be a melik of some sorts and that his brothers and ultimately his father also were going to bow down to him. But it was going to happen in two stages. First his brothers were going to bow down to him and then afterwards his father was also going to bow down to him. The reason Ysef wanted Binyammen to come appear in front of him before his father even came was because he wanted that first dream to be able to play itself out. The reason the reason that Ysef went and he planted the gave inside the bag of Binyamin is because before he sent Beignyam back home together with his brothers so that the Yakov can come and now they can fulfill the second half of the dreams he had to make sure that it was safe to send Binyama back with his brothers. Why wouldn't it be safe? Well, the brothers didn't like Ysef because he was the son of Raul. So, how does he know that they don't have the same sentiments towards Binyammen? And for that reason, he had to make sure that the brothers were going to be there for Beyammen. And his way of ascertaining that was by putting Binyamin in some state of jeopardy and seeing how the brothers are going to react. If they're going to react in a way, well, okay, it is what it is. will go back whatever. Well, then obviously he knows he can't trust By together with the brothers and he has to start working on a plan B. If however they're going to fight for him well then he realizes that they very much are okay with him it's safe to send Vinyama back and now the second that really the final chapter of the story of Ysef is able to go into motion. So what was the reaction? So the initial reaction we saw in the end of par mik the second part of the reaction is going to happen in the beginning of parash in the end of parasikud walks into and he says he says I don't even have what to say I mean he's looking at him rolling his eyes come on I mean we didn't steal this I don't know what you want from us there's nothing in the world that I can even say the only thing is you're taking as a slave We should all be slaves. I think you should take everybody's last words. I'm an person. I would never do something like that. I am keeping I want him to be my slave. And that's where we are right now, says the Yehud. So now Yehuda goes a little bit closer to Ysef. This is his second step. He said, "My master, allow your slave, meaning me, to say something in your ears, and I don't want you to get angry at me because I view you the same way I view par." So Yehuda now tries 2.0. No. And again, what are his words? His opening remarks. It's interesting. What Yehuda was trying to do. Not the t of the words, but the tone of the words. What was his pun intended? What exactly was his approach? Rashi says that when Yehuda, it came after Ysef. right now. He came after him tough. Rashi says it again and again and again. Every single Rashi, what's the first thing that he says? I'm going to talk to you and I want the words to go right into your ears as opposed to my nose. Meaning, you better listen to what I'm about to say. Right? Next words. Don't get angry. Made you learn. He was talking tough. Right? So if you go over to someone, you tell them something, I don't want you to get upset, but I have to tell you something. Obviously, you're about to say something that might upset the person. So from the fact that said that he must have been talking to him very very tough and then finally he told him so first brings a but then brings three shot from the I'm going to read all three. The first thing he said was, "You're just like parro." You know, parro, one of the previous parro shepherd with my grandmother Sara. And you know what happened to her or what happened to him? He ended up being punished. He ended up with Saras. It ended up being very difficult. You're going to end up suffering the same fate that that parro suffered. Another parro was aer. You're also aer because you said that you were going to look after my brother. And this is not called taking good care of my brother. And then finally, you don't scare me and par doesn't scare me. As a matter of fact, if you don't start playing nice with me, I'm going to kill you and par allin one. So according to Rashi of Yehuda, Yuda completely changed his tone. He goes over to Yith. He practically grabs him by the lapel and he tells him, "Listen to me. You know, I thought we were going to do this the right way. But, you know, I'm from Brooklyn and if I have to do this in another way, I'm going to do this in another way. We'll break a few kneecaps along the way if this is what has to happen. And this is the Yehuda. This is the way Yehuda is approaching. But if you look at the Ramban has a whole different here says that's not what's going on over here, right? To the contrary, Ramban says that when you Huda approached Pyro, he approached him with an incredible amount of humility, with an incredible amount of of hna. He wasn't coming tough. He was coming. The reason he said is because anything I say might upset you because you just gave me a verdict, right? The verdict was in the end of Paris gates. of it is going to be my slave. So how dear I come now and and suggest anything to the contrary. So please don't get upset at me. I have tremendous respect for you. Just like I have tremendous respect for par, I want you to know I have tremendous respect for you as well. But says that really Yehuda's approach wasn't approach tough. To the contrary, it was very pio. He was coming in a very kind. He was coming in a very sensitive way. I saw the says what does it mean? Says the says that he whispered into can I please say something in the ear of the king? Mean I don't want everyone to hear it. I just want to whisper this into your ear. that Barbaranel says the same exact thing that the Kasuni says and he adds a little bit of a beer. He says because really what Yehuda was doing was disrespectful. If the king says it's over, it's over. So you can't publicly go and appeal and question what it is the king said. But if you want to do it quietly, privately, that's a whole different story being that Yehuda is asking for something that maybe he really shouldn't be asking for and he's dka asking for it in the most sensitive way. So he says can I please whisper something into here. I don't even want anyone to hear it. This is being approached with utmost sensitivity. But either way is in terms of the whole of according to is coming tough and according to the Ramban is just the opposite. Now the Ramban says one other punchline. He says that if you look carefully at the language of Yehuda he said I want to tell you one thing the truth is Yehuda his narrative starts in it's going to go through so this is going to go 17 right now but it's says the Raman and Ramban says that really from all 17 that we're about to learn there's one nuda. There's one punchline that Yehuda is driving at. Everything else is the appetizer. Everything else is draio. It's building up to what it is he wants. Meaning sometimes if you have an audience with a politician, with an important person, what's your ask, right? Yehuda has one ask. We're going to see what that is. Everything else is just building up. It's leading up to that ask. But at the end of the day, Yehuda is very focused in terms of what it is that he wants. It's going to sound a little bit like some emotional appeal, but it's not. It's actually extremely extremely focused. There's one thing that he wants what that is. So that's going to play itself out in the next several. So Yehuda gets to work and he says, he says, you know, I want to go down memory lane a little bit. He says, "My master, you had asked your slaves," meaning us. This is the way you speak to a king. Do you have a brother? Do you have a father? Now it's interesting. We'll speak at one last rash. Rashi says that what was the point of this? So Rashi says this was all part of Yehuda being tough with and he tells him why were you asking me these questions? Listen to Rash's action. Oh, we were looking to do a shiddenish. You were trying to marry one of our sisters, right? But we told you everything. I mean, don't try this at home, right? This is how he's talking to the king. You're asking me questions about my family. What? You going to be with me? Come on. I'm an you wouldn't even eat bread with me, right? So, that's obviously not what's what's going on. But this is all that according to that's not over here. To the contrary, he's speaking to him very softly. Says, I just want to, you know, go through a little bit how this all played itself out. So again, you had asked your slaves, do you have a father? Do you have a brother? And we said, yes, we have an older father school in we have a younger brother. His brother had died. And this little brother that we have is the only one of the children left to his mother, right? And his father loves him very much. So you told your slaves, you told us, I want you to bring him down to me and I'm going to keep an eye on him and we told our master it's it's it's not an option. Why? Because if he's going to leave his father, he's going to die. So who's going to die? Rashi says, "We're afraid that Binyam is going to die." Evan Ezra says, "The father's going to die." But either way, he can't leave because it's not going to end well. So you told us that if you're not going to bring your little brother with you, you're not allowed to see me anymore. Okay. So we had no choice. So we went back to your slave, our father. And we told him everything that you had said. Our father told us it's time to go buy food. We said we can't if we have our younger brother with us then we can go because we are not able to have an audience again in front of this man the man who's in charge of the food unless we're going to have that little brother. So your slave, our father told us you know [snorts] that my main wife gave me two sons. One of them one day left me and I was told that he was trampled. He was eaten up. Haven't seen him up until this point. Now, if you're going to go ahead now, you're going to take this son as well and something bad is going to happen to him. You're going to just put me away. So now Yehuda goes back to Ysef and he tells him now if I'm going to go to your slave my father and this child is not going to be with us his soul is so attached to his soul you can't imagine what's going to be in fact I'll tell you when he's going to see that the child is not there he's going to die here for sure vase means is going to die and we will have caused our father to have to go to his grave in a state of mourning in a state of depression. Now the way Rashi explains Yehuda now insert and he says you're probably wondering why me from all the brothers why am I the person that's making such a big deal about this right I'm the one who put up a fight and then the parik I'm the one that's putting up the fight now in the beginning of of parash so why is it me the reason is because I'm the one who took I told my father if not if I'm not going to return my little brother to you then I will have sin which means I forfeited my that's how much I have on the line right now so here's my request I'm asking you now can I please be your slave instead of instead of and let the child let the child let him go back to his father cuz how can I go if the child is not with me. Just the thought of seeing my father's reaction and the terrible fate that's going to befall him in the event that I return without my brother. And this concludes pretty quickly the 17 of Yehuda 2.0 talking to and trying to save his brother Binyan. So, What just happened? The Ramban said that Yehuda prefaced his remarks. I'm going to tell you I have one ask. What was Yehuda's one ask? Says the Ramban his one ask was it was the second to last that we read. My ask is that deserves to be a slave. I want to be enslaved instead of yammen. Instead of taking him, take me. By the way, Rashi adds that really you're better off taking me anyways than you are taking. Why? Because Rashi says, "I'm better than anything that you could possibly expect from Binyam. I make better coffee. I'm a better fighter." Right? I can do your book. Whatever you need him to do, I will be able to do better. So, and as a result, it actually would behoove you. It make good business sense for you to take me rather than to take. But the bottom line is what was the what was the one ask that Yehuda had was ever. So, what was everything else? Why do we have all these leading up to it? He gives him a whole history course. and we told you this and you told us that and then I went back home and I told my father this and he told me that and it says the word a 100 times like what is all this going on? I mean we know there was there wasn't one I don't think in these that we just read. So based on that so why do you have to have the whole so the Ramban says that the reason there was an was is because Yehuda actually thought that was a good guy and the Ramban explains why he thought that. He says there were a few clues. He says number one if you remember Ysef told the brothers in parates he told them right at one point he tells them that I fear I fear God. Now what was the context in which he said first he was going to take nine brothers and keep them as collateral and send one home to get and then he says you know what let me just keep I'm going to send nine of you back and he said you want to know why I'm doing this. So Yehuda trusted he says if you really fear Hashem so okay so you're a god-fearing person a god-fearing person right it's more than that in the end of when Yehuda goes to the first time and he tells him I think we should all be slaves what's reaction I would never do that. He's talking to an ala person. This is a person that's not just some mad narcissistic dictator. There's a person to talk to. It's a person with a soul. So if he's already coming with the approach of that means there's there's somebody to talk to. It's even more than that. Yehuda felt that Ysef was in a way trying to be kind to them, right? When they broke and he invited them into this big meal, he keeps on filling up their sacks with food. He keeps on finding his money. Now, he can't make sense of this person. It's very, very strange to him. This is an incredible, incredible enigma wrapped in a mystery, right? But at the same time, at the same time, he feels like there's somebody to talk to. There's definitely somebody to talk to. And it's for that reason he felt that maybe he can somehow pull on his uh emotional drawstrings and maybe get him to come around a little bit and at the very least swap out Binyam for Yehuda. And that's really what he's going towards. Okay. So, how does he do that? So, how does he do that? He does that by telling him, he says, "You don't understand this kid means so much to my father. If my father loses him, his life is going to be over." So if you're a Yuriel, if you live in the world of Khalil, if you're really trying to be kind to us on some level, let's be honest, would you want to kill our father's son, his father? It's not something you want to do. And and that's really what he's playing at. He's playing on the compassion of YF because he sees that there's a a pesak to be able to do that. And he's trying to convince him that to take me it's going to be fine. Shim was here for a long time. It it wasn't such a big deal. If you take Binyam, the world's going to come to an end. And I'm just begging you not to take Byam. Now, just to prove his point, to prove his point, meaning maybe this is just a spiel, to prove his point, he says, I didn't even want to tell you about Beyammen. every single you realize what it took for me to get in there. I never told you I had a brother. The only reason I told you was is because right and then even when I we finally told you about him and you said I'm reading through the and then we went back home and we told our father we have NO CHOICE. HE STILL DIDN'T WANT and then finally I had no choice. I had I had to be. So, you see, we didn't want to bring Byam here all the time. It's not like I'm making up some story now. I'm telling you all along. I I never told you about this kid. I told you we can't send him. My father didn't want to send him. This kid will put my father away. If you're aim, if you live in the world of if you're trying to be kind and compassionate to us on some level, here's my ask. But at the end of the day says Raman everything was just different and it was leading up to that one punchline. The punch line is don't take me instead. I just want to speak out one other point. It's so posh but didn't hit me until preparing for this year and that is everybody knows that first Ruben told Yakov said I'll take on bringing back and Jakob didn't want to hear from it and then when Yehuda said when he was a then finally came is different already talks about it why was willing to accept Yehuda's but he wasn't willing to accept Ruven's aras but one thing is clear theas of Yehuda was an aras of aros he said in fact not that long ago when was holding the end of we learned the sug of so we saw that the garra learns in hil from it It was a kabalas. That's what it was. So it hit me like a ton of bricks. It's so posh. It's so posh. I think it's so posh. What is Yehuda telling? He's telling don't take me. It's a funny ask the is because I'm what does a cosigner do? A cosigner pays the loan. He pays the when the is not paying the meaning what he's telling him is that I'm about over here on this because I was on this. So if I wasab on this so you have a right now and you're saying I'm not just going to take it from all of you. No, I'm going to take it from the person that owes it to me. Who owes it to you? By owes it TO YOU. BUT GUESS WHAT? I'M A COSIGNER of anything that Byamin owes you. So in you should go ahead and you should take it from me. That's his whole that of Yehuda PLAYED ITSELF OUT. WHEN YEHUDA TOLD YAKOV, he wasn't just using some flowery lotion. He meant it. This was a real as inab like the Gar learns from the Yehud. Where did the play itself out? THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT HE'S SAYING. And the means come to me. Now the truth is when do you go to the you go to the when the doesn't have if the has so you don't go to the but that's all part of what he's saying he has. What are you crazy? You're going to go to you're going to get zurus. You're going to come to me. You're going to get idiots. Right. But me you're getting busy. You're going to get idiots. You're going to do much better with me. But the reason Yehuda is putting himself out there is and the reason he's putting himself out there in this specific way, this specific way of is because he's the reason Yehuda put himself out there. Everybody knows because he was but what did it mean that he put himself out there? The Ramb says this whole spill was one line. It's one ask. I don't ask for nine things. Even said That's the ask. That ask is not just related to the fact that he wasab it's related to the fact that he was mabos he's an and that is what the does what the does is instead of the bang I'm the one that's going to pay I think it's posit and I actually think it's somewhat illuminating but either way either way this concludes perk mandala and really really at this point y had heard everything that he needed to hear again y wasn't looking to chaper with beyammen He wasn't looking to chaper with Yehuda. Wasn't looking to chaper with Shim when he had incarcerated him. Certainly wasn't looking to chaper with his father. This was never the objective of Ysef. What Ysef at this point was looking to do was he was trying to make sure that there was a Hava and Aka and Shalom and Reyos between Binyam and the brothers. He knew there wasn't between him and his brothers, but that was many, many years ago. And he wanted to make sure that they were capable of getting along. He can trust his brothers to take back home to tell Yakov that Ysef is alive to bring Yakov over to Mitzim so that the second dream would play itself out and as they say the rest will be history. when Yehuda put himself out there in the way he did and he put himself out there per the last 17 I mean he tried it 1.0 and then the parishes mikates and then 2.0 know in the beginning of Parash. So Ysef saw that Yehuda is not playing games and Yehuda is going to make sure that Byan gets back to his father and that everything is okay. Well, if that's the case, if that's the case now, now Ysef is able to do what really he wanted to do the minute he saw his brothers and he's able to take this now to the next level and says the it's a big sham how to learn in this. It's amazing. You open 10 shin you're gonna say see 10 different it feels like the most posit when sawyam for the very first time. So the says he started to cry and then he had to wash his face he strengthened himself and he walked back in meaning he caught his composure but over here he couldn't catch his composure anymore. Rashi says a little bit differently. Rashi says that was about to reveal himself to his brothers but he didn't want to do it in the presence of all the mitzvah because he want to embarrass his brothers. how embarrassing this was about to be and because of that so immediately he said I want everybody out and there was nobody standing in the room when revealed himself to his brothers and started crying very very loudly and all of a sudden everybody stirred what's going onish the whole the whole palace the whole castle of par everybody hears crying crying crying. Ysef is crying now. No one knew you why yet. Even the brothers didn't know why yet. Says the So Ysef turns to his brothers and he tells him, "I want you to know I am tell is is is the still alive." And when the brothers heard say which came with a question, they couldn't answer him because they were so scared, they were so overwhelmed, they were so bewildered by what they just heard, they couldn't say a word. And we are going to stop here. So the very very last that we just read Why why couldn't they say a word? Cuz their their whole world just came crashing in. I mean, they've been negotiating with this person for quite some time now. I mean, they have on their conscience, where's their brother? They have no idea. They haven't heard from him in over 20 years. Turns out he's Y. Are you kidding me? And by the way, this also means that the and everything that they were everything came full circle and they were just so blown away by what happened. They were so blown away that so we're going to get back to this in one second. But two to end the first year. The first is so we mention and this is really the theme of the beginning of parish that when Yehuda approaches Ysef 2.0 No. And he comes with a 17 plea to try to spear and what the approach was. Rashi says and with that theme he threads the entire paramb says just the opposite. It was and it was the truth is both and are recorded in a it's a right here in parash says when it says what does it mean he waged the You find the word in the context of saidio. What does it mean? He came to appease him. And what does it mean over there? So you find the word in the context of peanhat. They said the word means like the says that was what did he do? He went ahead and he ded. So the magic springs three shot him and said now that's that and shot them in the medish and respectively says That's he spoke to him. So the shot right here, if you want to look it up inside, it's but there's a third shot in the it wasn't and it wasn't. You know what Yehuda was doing? Yehuda was ding. Like you find you find the concept of in the context of throughout his and in many many many of his he asks the obvious question. How could the Raon say it's not he's talking to it couldn't be more obvious. No, it's he's talking where is the you can learn like you can learn like but where exactly do you find that and says now it's interesting we talk about this a lot in the sh that a lot of the of the areas that repeat themselves over and over and over again and very often when the says that repeats itself writes in his that I'm repeating an idea that I've spoken about so many times almost every time the brings this in he says so this is an idea where the himself is telling you you don't have to be malik at it where himself is telling you that he was and this is an idea that he's spoken about many times and it's based it's based on a from the raami pano and it's a dolamish the raami pano said that in safer the pik says that so he was a highranking official by the Persian king and the says one day the king comes to me and he says you look very sad today it's not like you're not well must be you're like depressed said I was very frightened when the king told this to me but I told the May the king live forever. Why should I not be depressed? The city where my ancestors are buried is destroyed and its gates were consumed by fire. The king told me. So what is it then that you request? So, I told the king, you know what my ask is? My ask is, could you please send me to Yehuda? Send me to the city. I want to play a role in rebuilding the city of Jerusalem, which of course is the story, the beginning of Sheni. So, the Raami Pano asked, he said, says the king asked me what do you want? So what was the immediate response of but doesn't say what the was the next turn to the king and I responded to the kingdom I'd like you to send me to but what was the besides what in the middle of a conversation with the king so the king says what can I do for you and he's so scared he says one second I'll get back to you in a minute, right? Just take about 20 minutes. You can't do that. And then immediately he talks to the king. So the panel said the panel because the der of the and the is that they don't stop talking to listen to this. He says even when they speak to people, they're really not even talking to the person. They're talking to the and the real sadikim. They knew how to talk in a way where it looked like it looked like they were talking to the person. Yeah. They were talking to the person they were talking to. But they were never being from and they knew how to manipulate their words and calculate them in a way where at the surface it would look like they're speaking to the person that they're speaking to because they were. really deep down cold was they were talking to the king tells me what do you want says I responded to the king but I want you to know that response to the king wasn't only a response to the king it was also I said I SAID IT TO THE KING the Persian king but I was also talking to the mel I said, "YEAH, IT'S A REQUEST. IT'S A REQUEST OF THE KING, BUT IT'S ALSO A to the pan said that with this it's going to open up so many different chapters." And I'll just mention one other migill. So Esther makes the second mish Ether panel talking. So Esther [snorts] turns to the king. Which king? But really she had in mind as well and said this is the ultimate that when they were talking to the making snapshot I'm also going to in the is the one that taught us this lesson that when you speak TO A KINGP AND REALLY WE SPEAK TO ANYBODY ANY PERSON WITH POWER for sure and with influence for sure it comes from an understanding that really everything comes from it's said when Yehuda was talking to he was talking to course he was talking to he was talking to but at the same time it was a where was the was this that pano was megalas just like when he spoke to the Persian king he was dabbing to the and when Esther said which she was saying it she was saying but she was also dabbing it to the Yehuda was doing the same thing understood that he had to get home he had no choice of yeah like there was also a he turned when he says now what's the words that says the as if he was talking to his he said I want to speak to He says, "I'm asking you now to bestow some ru of compassion upon this king." He doesn't know it's Ysef who's like parro who's some vile person as far as I'm concerned. And it's unbitting for you to rest your and even get involved in the heart and the mind of such a person. But I have no choice. So don't be upset at me that I'm asking you that. But please I need you to help me was in the either or but in the it was because this is they don't stop talking to and was a but at the same time really his real his real was to talk to that's the that's the first the second and the last is this sheer end that used to say it was he [snorts] said that you know we go through life with questions. Everybody has questions. Things happen to us as a nation. Things happen to us as individuals that very often don't make a lot of sense. They don't make a lot of sense. And we have questions and we have questions and we have questions. So the used to say that the brothers had questions. You think they had questions? They show up to they're trying to buy food like everybody else is trying to buy food and all of a sudden miracle at them. We're spies. What are you talking about? And all of a sudden, this person who they've never met before starts interrogating them. Tell me, you have brothers, you have sisters, you have a father, you have a mother. I need to see your brother. If I don't see your brother, you're not getting any food. Why would you have to see my brother to to get any food? It doesn't make any sense. And then they come home and they find their money and they come to their Shiman gets incarcerated. They bring Beinyammen back finally and this king is so nice to beam. Then all of a sudden he plants a I mean their world was spinning a thousand TIMES OVER. THEY COULDN'T FIGURE IT OUT. I mean it was to the point they made. Obviously we're guilty cuz we heard our brother crying and scream. I mean they started pulling out every card they could possibly pull out cuz nothing made sense. It was so bizarre. It was so crazy. But said, "What happened?" opened up his mouth and he said two words. He said, "And everything made sense." And all of a sudden, all the cards came crumbling down. It all fell into place. You're safe. Oh, now I understand. And in a minute, in a minute, every part of their life OF THE LAST 20 SOMETHING, IT ALL came it fit like a glove, like a perfect puzzle. Everything made so much sense. Said that the end of days is going to reveal himself to the world. He's going to say two words. And when the says everything is going to make sense and every single person that walked this planet is going to understand in a nuanced way and in a macro way why whatever happened to him in life happened to him and where he fit into this puzzle and where he fit into this cosmic plan that had set into motion 5,785 years ago. Right now we're not expected to understand everything. We're living now in the story of but one day said is going to reveal himself is going to come to a point where it's going to be this and finally the is going to roll open the curtain and we're going to see the and we're going to hear two words uttered. We're going to hear the words and when we're going to hear the words on it's going to be maybe It might be scary but at the same time at the same time everything is going to make sense. All we need to do is hold on tight. live that everything is everything is for our good and then and wait and wait to hear to hear that cry to hear that cry of Anasa.