Parashat Vayeira - why is G-d testing us? - Rabbi Alon Anava

[Music] we're in a pod viola and we're reading about the story but of Rama V Nome and of course we know that a llama vino was tested constantly by the kadosh below and there's a story in the Talmud The Da Vida Miller had a conversation with the with the Kailash go home and he told Hashem listen that's not fair I looked in the CEO and it says in the sea do when I press more nicely hello cave WOM a locates hug well okay I cope how come I want to be there too that's not fair that it's only them I really think it should be look everyone it's like me a cobra located a bit more water mayor how many less than them he had a good because we know that the forefathers were what's called a merkava a chariot a charity cannot run on three wheels so that we the millet is the fourth cherries so that we remember told the college ball I think I should be there too what do you say maybe we'll change the the Nasik of the prayer so Shem told him listen don't compare yourself to a vomit up in Yaakov I said what is again you don't don't compare yourself to them because you know what's the difference between you and them that the forefathers I have tested and you I didn't test the Darwin analysis no problem bring it on give me a test saw shapes is the same thing or Y or Y you want to test I'll give you a test just know that I'm warning you now it's like in Yaakov I didn't warn them you're getting a warning you want to test your someone a test no problem the next day that word goes up on the roof of a thermic - with a cup of tea drinks is cup of tea and what it looks on the other side of the building is this a beautiful young lady taking a shower on the top of the house and the restroom and the rest is history of course he ran after batch IVA and he didn't stop running after her till he till he made us in because those people says oh you wanted the test no problem I'll give you a test so needless to say that our sages teachers Laura no avoid Amla decorate lady never carried any say on a person should not put himself in a place of any say on every morning when we say bilko - aha what do we say well to be immediately Denny say oh please don't bring me to a test so our sages say this can be found in the ending Mara V Hooda said in the name of have let a person know l'm olivia dumb Alex Moni sayin don't ask for any say oh don't be such a hero don't come to our gym and says yeah you can test me because if a Shamu want to test you who make a nothing out of you now comes a very big question now this is what we want to address in this class what are the Shimon from a llama we know the guys like number the number on Jun is three why are you testing him all day long what do you want from him do you need him to prove that he likes you he went against the entire world to prove that you exist why you test leave the girl on a guys 75 years old he is in : he has already a business going on he has a whole organization for outreach he's doing amazing is the rabbi of Quran why are you telling him gone oh come on now why is it testing him what is a sham one from iguana we know now the question here that develops into another question okay so we we will find out what if she wants the Mohammed we know but who is the test for is the test for Hashem to see how a Brahma winner will react or is the test for what we know who's getting the test here what a shame doesn't know if I'm a winner situation Hashem doesn't know what we're going to be there outcome Shammi sees everything Hashem sees into the future he doesn't know it's going to happen so who is the test really for for varma vino off for Hashem who's who's on who's under the test here when a sham puts me under test he wants to see what's what am I going to know why sham knows what I'm going to do so in essence one can say the test is for me not for shame right she's me ship doesn't test himself Ashim tests us so Sherman's to see obviously the test is for me not for ship one can argue and say a Shem is testing me to see how I will react if I'll choose to do guru choose not to do good but really the test is for myself and if this is the case then why is the Shem testing of our movie no don't you know that he's already loyal to you don't you know that he's willing to do anything for you he jumped into the fire for you why are you testing him this is a question that we want to address and of course we want to to learn from that why are we getting tested yeah why well one of the Shimon from us why is the what's the concept of the test so first we have to understand a little bit of the history of what's going on so we know parashat Veera is a continuation of the Power Shot lately huh it's some seat is one big power shot the same concept from the beginning of the journey of a brand till the end of their journey over one our sages me lately hard lately huh because the last photoshops starts with a word lately huh and this parasha parashat Veera will end with the words lately ha whenever olivine was tested to slaughter his son Hashem tells Obama we know the same commandment left with ha so it starts with the power sharklet let her with the words let lacan ends in parashat vera also with the words left' aha and the entire to powershot are starting and covering all the history of Obama we know now it starts that of Rama V no lives in Quran which is not such a great place but of ahaa already established his entire movement over there he has a big community he's the rabbi of Quran he's converting people he's teaching people he already made a stamp there that's already way after an emote fought with him and threw him into the fire there was different arguments in the Midrash if it's 40 years after that 30 years after that but either way he already passed the test with Nevada and one even considered that the whole thing with him on wasn't even a test I will get to that in a second but the point is that a bomb starts in kaha suddenly she tells him go pack your bags and leave Mohammed II know being a good Jew taxes bag takes his wife packs the property takes the thousands of the students and Elma we're going and they leave and they start going on a journey the second they start going on the journey starts the problems every poor place that they go starts problems the first problem of the heat they come into nun and a famine there's nothing to eat the people of Quran tells them you're bad news you of Rama V no we don't want you here yeah we never had a famine here you just came to our territory and starts a famine God are you we don't want you he packs his bag again I don't know if you ever had that headache to relocate every two months relocating moving that's a beginning packing all your stuff and unpacking and the movers in the storage in this and just imagine the poor guy he settled already bought some property no we don't want you everybody told him get her and we get lost you you are a bad luck kick him out there knee close to me time now what happens in me time he just enters in the middle I'm his wife it's taken not only that his wife's take it's taken now he has to prove how he's not connected to her so then I'm gonna kill him so he has to lie he has to make up a story and not only that he's without his wife he's worried the amazing thing is that the people in me time their values were a little bit wrong they were very strict with not taking a woman that belongs to a man dad they were very strict with but to kill somebody that's no problem so what they will do if there was a woman that she's married they would kill the husband now she's not married anymore and we could take her so that's that was their common sense very very religious when it came to being with a woman that belongs to a man but to chop his head off that's okay so Rama V no say listen I I I have to I have to make up a story here now Rama vino was counting on the merits of Salome No right you know every Shabbat when we sing a song we sing a show Kyle what are we seeing who bata believed by Allah and Muhammad is going on Obama we know that he trusted the power of seven he knew Salva is powerful but Toshiba and he trusted in her live bala the heart of a Gromov we know he trusted Saleh therefore he said okay I'm gonna have to lie I'm gonna have to make up a story and I'm gonna be saved and sure enough that's what happened later on of course it was found and a got kicked out of me time - but how did he get kicked out of me time with a lot of money mashaallah lawyer saw is what we sing in a sheikh I shall add means with all the goods for exam or mother me time the McNichol bed he came with thousands and thousands of animals donkeys sheep cows male heir servants who it came out of me time of Bill Gates and then comes out of me time again another smack to the face our war starts he's sitting and he bought himself a little territory starts a war a big war the Russians the Americans the Koreans and Iranians they all start fighting with each other for big kings and war starts here for begins they start with fighting I mean their five kids but the war was between four kings so it started with four kids you're right there was five kings but the war started from four directions the war now Mohammed winner is sitting in between how can you be in a war zone so again relocate again now comes another headache lot is been captured no it's again another problem Navy is being captured and of course they knew that lot is a Rama V knows nephew so they took him with him now Rama V no has to call off his men he took 318 guys and they go into war much militiamen are yeah yeah Rama V no had some secret weapons yeah okay the horn is one opinion sis was only a result that fight was a movie no had special sand that he threw the sand and the sand became into Spears so unless Spears probably know a special sand that he took the sand and he threw the sand and and became Spears so yeah there's one opinion says it the 318 mins is Eleazar one guy so long story short going into war again this is not good for business not good for business not good for family relations so we see that of Rama V know full of problems then he gets a lot back now he has to move again another relocation he has to move to blood well you've already four times he has to move within this period and then again what happens again summer gets taken another problem so you see that one after the other problem after problem after problem we think we have problems now comes even a bigger problem Avraham Avinu celebrates his 86th birthday sour celebrates 277 birthday now kids while we know says what is all this good I've land have sheep have cattle have money have everything but I don't have a son Who am I gonna give it to what is it worth for me even a big problem comes the Chairman says don't worry I'm gonna give you kids who really make several I'm very happy it's not questioning a gem it's just very happy oh good how Sava says listen I can bring babies bring in another woman another woman I don't want another woman Salva says listen I'm not gonna have babies we gotta bring another lady here hello Venus's I don't want another lady okay but you that's what you want bring in another woman sure enough he has a kid with her and he loves the kid very much even though the kid grows up to be a wicked kid but Obama veenu loves him deeply very deeply loves him it's his son and of course later on comes the miracle and Sava has another baby I mean has a baby and what now I have two kids one kid comes from the servant and another kid comes from Sabah now I have two boys Boko sure my mom is very happy he doesn't see much of a difference levena was torn Cresson he saw mail with all of his problems and he loved him dearly and of course now comes the big Nisei on Nyasha mama window gets the order from a shame gone kill your son now this is not so obvious in the parasha but the commandment was to kill both sons not only one both sons the first one of course was the truck to put him on the altar and the other son he kicks him out of the house chantels him get rid of him doesn't matter that's another nice ailment coming from the Kadosh go kill both of your sons one of them is it's hard to put him on the altar and Ishmael get rid of him what is the harm sending with a bottle of water and runs out after two minutes that's a nice ayo doesn't matter right now that it came in an indirect way from Salva but he's facing a big mr. Yan I have to kill both my sons then I love that he loves dearly the same he doesn't see right now the fault of Ishmael it was Salva that saw and of course comes another nice a on here that Sava sees one day that Ishmael is doing idol worship and she says he's out throw him out and he has to obey and he knows I'm going to kill my other son I'm going to send him into the desert what does he send him with a little picture of water so we see here that our Amma winner didn't have an easy then we have the hoods but to whine and to complain that we don't have it easy Mohammed we know was the can radium made necessary as the one number one who money was definitely ranked one of the high ones and he has to go through all these problems so much more so me now of course comes different of opinions and we do have a mission that we learned that of Rama V nose tested ten times Suhani still not listen sama be know why was he tested ten times the Mishna says to show how great he was and of course comes a big questions what are these tests so there is a one opinion that that's the opinion we go by and that's the pin over embalmer and he names he older all the tests so the first test is of course necklace the first test was to go out of their land the next test was the famine in Israel and going down to Egypt the third test was taken that saga was taken first test was the for war war the big war with all the kings number five that he had to take a girl for a woman that was a big test number six that he had to circumcise himself number seven is taking Sara to the house of Abimelech number eight was the kicking hagatha of the house number nine was kicking Ishmael out of the house and of course number ten is the sacrifice of attack these are the ten tests the Vivino went by that he had to go through course comes a big big question what about the test that he had to be thrown into the fire isn't that a test that seems like a pretty big test my mom says we're not considering it considering it as a test because it's not in the Torah it's in a Midrash we're going where what's written in the Torah and if you go by the Midrash the novel maybe no had 50 tests so since Augustine the throwing of Obama we know into the fire is not written in the Torah we're not consider it one of the 10 tests this is a the the Walker's name is enemy to us it doesn't say in the Torah that Obama vina was thrown into the fire this is a Midrash he just says I just took you from okay yeah but the Midrash is the one that comes and says that he was thrown into the fire Rambam says I'm sorry it's not written in the Torah I'm not taking it there's a test therefore doesn't count it as a test and of course is another type another interpretation why Augustine is not considered as a test because ashame wanted to see how much of are my windows willing to lose everything meaning that including is belief so we continue and we're saying when a person becomes closer to Hashem right away will be a test and this is a big question of any individual that becomes closer to Hashem whether it's about Java or convert that you have a good run and then you hit the first test not too long ago we had a very special lady and their family they were all converting and they were all very excited and they're all hyped up in and my wife told her listen not that I want to blow the sails out of your wind but when you come out of the Mikve the etc comes out of the Mikve with you now you're all excited you don't know yet Sarah I'm just just want to lay down the foundation just that you know that when you come out of the you're still soaking wet the Etzel are coming out of the mikveh with you and right away he's gonna already slam you so don't get too excited so of course not saying in a negative way but either it's a bow Shuba or culverts they'll have a very good run and then starts the tests and about ruber will say wait a minute I'm feeling a loss here and it brings the person into a big confusion and I will become closer to Shem and I would expect ooh things should get much better now no suddenly I see I get fired from my job because I'm observing Shabbat and we don't want you here oh now I'm now I'm unemployed my childre is not making my life better and family my family is not accepting me and suddenly this is not working out and that is not working out and I'm like what's going on I'm coming closer to Hashem and I'm just getting slammed into my face isn't meat burning closer to him supposed to give me a better life now I'm suffering what's going on here I'm basically suffering a loss here that's a big question and you know it's not only that you know about you I know many Bell chores they lost a career I have a very good friend it was a top top-notch photographer in the modeling industry he couldn't take pictures anymore the girls are not so it's nice he lost his career is that we're taking pictures of bar mitzvahs I mean from taking pictures for L'Oreal and Liv lawn and all these big companies suddenly he's taking pictures over a 13 year old guy like who smile and go you know he was he lost his career so I mean that's a big test and he kept telling me what I can isn't there a loophole can't I take pictures of of the ladies I told him listen you come with a beer did not keep and that's it son you gonna take pictures of it half the models I mean this is a Luna Shamu reading he literally lost his career and how many times it's more than that how many times a person became observant that became a divorce from that one person is observant and the other one says listen I don't want to be with you anymore so we see many many situations that about Shuba gets very excited it's very closer to a Shem and I'm saying about you were equal to convert same idea how many times converts beside decided to convert the whole family doesn't talk to them anymore well said the whole reality changed so when I'm using the term by Lula it's over any person that changes their path whether it's a convert person that was born religious that became non-observance became back observant either way when I have the motion of getting closer to the calash bajo I'm expecting life to become a little bit better hey I'm doing my act here I need more power on this I need you just send me a wife kids whatever it is and the reality is that I bump into a wall I suddenly see the reality is that not only that life is not getting better it's becoming worse it throws me off where does it really throw me off in my omona in my belief not necessarily in my behavior rather it will throw me off in my belief wait a minute I'm observant here and now life is becoming worse so it throws off the balance of my belief and that's a big problem there is a sane by an unbelievable sadiq is known as mail from Parmesan he was a student of the Baal Shem Tov and he says in Hebrew are dumped a foot bed small a person is very involved in himself and he gives a parable at one time there was a person who who got fired from his job staying all day long at home not working and everything affected him so he started to develop all sorts of bad habits and then he started drinking and every day he goes to the bar he drinks and a dream and drinks comes all violent hits the wife the wife hits him the whole house is a mess at some point their wife tells them isn't her baby I'm not I'm not willing to take this if you're not gonna get your act together if you're not gonna clean yourself BIOS whole dish you're out of the house okay comes off whole dish wakes up in the morning he goes to the bar as he's approaching the bar a little bit of his conscious like saying listen man I want to lose my wife I don't want to lose my kids and doesn't know what to do should I go should I not go and he starts smelling the alcohol let me go in Wow and he's about to go in and he's yet sellitto is selling listen you're gonna lose everything that you have I suggest you don't do that and his saliva is already tasting the the alcohol is he wants to go in and is yetzer hatov is saying listen you're gonna do a mistake here and oh gosh in the Etzel told one and he makes a u-turn and he goes home he walks into the home opens the door II see a mirror he looks in the mirror says in our after all I have willpower I'm strong Oh a great guy I was able to overpower the hit so that why don't you bring me a cup of whiskey so he was able to overpower his own etc but when he was tapping himself on the shoulder why don't we drink the time for that so I've been mayor of about michl and says you know a person is very hooked in in his own selfless and I'm the foot bed small and he can't get away from his own ego for one second this is this is a Thane here that comes to teach us that sometimes I'm stuck in my own my own ego can't get away from my own ego soshim comes now and we see then a shrimp comes to test a Brahma vino not for the sake of a ship she wants to see if a Brahma vino is willing to let go of himself not to be thrown into a fire you know one opinion says it wasn't such a big deal to be thrown into the fire because Obama vino had an agenda and he believed that if me being thrown to the fire whoa whoa now the cause to grow it's worth it you know now with all the terrorists that they kill himself and I started for one one guy in Yemen that burned himself with fire and then everybody jumped into there because he had a cause Mohammed we know said listen if I will be pushed into the fire and I'll dime died on kiddush Hashem one day somebody will come and say wait a minute maybe this guy is something validated maybe they'll start interrogating and finding out and if this will serve the cause both I'll go into the fire so this is not really a test this is serving my agenda the test is if you're willing to let go of yourself that's what a shame wanted to see what Obama you know are you willing to let go of your own existence that's why we're quoting them email that saying the person is too hooked on himself he's willing to do many things but not about losing himself when it's coming about my own self I'm willing to do many things but when it comes to my own private agenda to my own reality oh that's no way I don't want to be tested so much and this is the real test Shems said said I want a test of RAM of course later all it's referring to us he wanted to see if everyone is willing to let go of his entire existence is to make himself a nothing that's where the test came to a movie no and I sure wanted to see from Obama we know is willing to give up himself not by jumping into the to the fire that's not giving up yourself rather give up your money your wife your kids Rama we know it says there's an opinion in the middle that says that if a Brahmin we knew would have it's luck he wouldn't be able to live with himself how did I kill my own son so Hashem the test here the test now is going on a Brahma we know later on we'll see how it's affecting us she wants to see if a Brahma win was willing to let go of himself now very interestingly in the book of Tonya the Balaton is talking about a sermon to the god a certain level / Jew and he calls it a Ben Oni there is a level that is called that Siddiq there's two levels of sediq sediqqi move addiction no gamoo a complete Tzadik and uncomplete sonic and then a shag a moto wicked person and even in that level is the raja game / Shashi Naga move different levels and then in between there's a Ben Oni now we're holding the debate only is a person that has 50% mitzvahs 50% sins like all of us the level of the Ben Oni in the book of Tanya this is a level that we can just dream of this is a person that doesn't know even one sin but the definition that he puts on the Ben Oni is a person that is willing to forgive somebody that did something bad deliberately to them and on top of that to do good to that person that's abandoning not only that I'm willing to forgive you after you did something deliberately against me I will support you there is a story that was once there were two individuals and one guy had to be he wanted to get out of a certain problem with the government so he ratted out another individual and that individual has to go to jail for many years later on tables have turned and the person who ratted out on the individual sat in jail everything turned around the person that was Angelle came out and the person that ran and out went into jail now you would think that person a would say now he's getting his revenge a person a that was rather than the beginning went to the wife of the person who ratted on him and said how long is your husband gonna be in jail for Chico and so-and-so times it says okay I know you need X amount of money per month the señor seven he supported her so you see that not only their figure forgave the person who went against him and threw him into jail he went and he assisted his wife he supported the wife and the kids so the definition I mean it's a very broad definition but part of the definitions of the level of the bane only based on the ballot Anya is there a person that is willing to forgive somebody that deliberately hurt him deliberately and not only that later on it says me-tv tobago we go Melo to vote he does good to him and he's giving him anymore totally forgive you like it is never existed so we learned from that that a Shem is testing a Brahma vino but also us how much you're willing to lose this is the test how much you willing to lose and want from yourself so of course comes again the question so what's a cup what's the point you what is the shimmery ones so you want to test me how much you're willing to use why does it have to come in that well that form what is a shame really what's the bottom line what is it good for that's the bottom line let's now forget about the we know us Hashem is testing me on a daily base constantly big test small tests one can look up to share in session what you want for me what do you want what is a good fun what is it good for making my life miserable someone making me a better Joe play some of the surface it doesn't seem like it I'm now putting through a test then I don't see the benefit in it I just see the negative part in it what does the same one why I'm trying to come closer to your Shem why putting stumbling blocks why make it harder me why are you making the fact that I'm get fired now from a job oh I don't have palace' I can't find my other half or I can have kids or I found my other half both of em are only longer fighting why it's not about being a wicked person and I can understand a weaker person punish them I'm trying to be close to you why putting these pit bumps all the time what is it good for now there's a two explanations for this concept one is a very simple explanation and we know that about 2,300 years ago the the ruling of the land was the ruling of the the Greek shield Tonio van the greece empire they ruled here and there was a certain individual a certain woman her name was hana even though for some opinions that wasn't her name but there was a certain individual hana and she had seven boys one day the soldiers they come they arrest her with all seven boys and they take her to auntie ojos to the king and he tells the first boy bow to this idol first boy says no i will not bow to any idol he says I'm gonna kill him no you're gonna kill me I'm bowing to and I go sure enough they kill the boy they take the next boy bow to the idol you know down to the idol I'm gonna kill you you can kill me kills the second boy and then the third and the fourth and the fifth take you all the boys and it comes to number seven six boys already killed in front of the rice comes to the little boy he's four years old if little four-year-old is frightened holding his mother's dress hiding behind the dress and he calls him over now he knows the little boys of different scenarios listen little boy I'm not gonna ask you to bow for an idol but please pick up my ring that fell on the floor the boy was smart and he says I'm not gonna do anything that shows any type of emotion of subduing myself to you he says but I'm not asking you to buy a bell says I'm not bowing but you commanded me to pick up the ring wait I don't wanna do any action that shows that I'm humbling myself in front of you you're nothing this is to live I'm gonna kill you do since you can kill him sure enough he kills the boy the mother falls on the body of the little boy a four year old boy and she tells him go Rama vino in shaman and tell him that he already sacrificed one boy and I sacrifice illinois's and up until today what is echoing in this story the what we learn from this story that the echo of the sacrifice of Rama vino the test was not for varma vino it was for the crowd it was the ones who are looking there's a very big difference the whole show of gamma we know is that when we look at it it will serve to us as an example and we will do the same thing so really the Nissan Navara marina was only self of love is for us the crowd to look and to say I'm gonna do the same like a drama queen so this story comes to say yeah why did they kill themselves because they said Obama we know was willing to kill himself we also so really you can look at in a completely different way and this is the opinion by the way this is not something that I'm making up this is the opinion both of Robin and Russia that they say this tests were not for Rama we know the tests were the ones for to see what would be the result Avraham Avinu didn't need the test the test is for us avril lavigne was tested that for me to see how to react how to behave this is the the opinion both of Rambam and Russia they both agree that this is the test this is the reason but again we're getting to this is one explanation I told you this too we still stuck with the question what is why is this sham putting me through a challenge so there's a story that I heard not too long ago which are very very interesting story now about a certain young individual his name was Nachman it's not Nakamura from well if it's enough man that his last name was sooo duck and he lived about a hundred years ago maybe I'm into it no maybe I less than a hundred years ago under the regime of Stalin probably in the early nineteen hundred and since the the communism was so severe they couldn't I participate anything so a lot of people what they do is they used to relocate far away and so maybe the KGB will not find us here so families would relocate to different places his family was a little boy his family relocated to samarkand uzbekistan faraway place okay the KGB will not look for us here here we can live quietly okay now he was an eight year old boy the parents registered him to Ojeda now going to the header he has to carry with him the book like this and he was very afraid he was very afraid that a policeman will stop him so what would he do he would wake up early in the morning and go to the header while it was dark that way it's dark nobody really sees what's going on and he would come back after the Sun went down so it will come very home late he made it out of fear now he had a problem came Shabbat he had to come early at one time on edge of Shabbat on Friday he walks home and he's holding his book and a policeman stops him hey kid what are you doing here I'm walking home what is it in your hand oh no some stories and my grandmother wrote policeman opens the book sees Hebrew doesn't understand close the book he tells him what's your number of his school all the schools had numbers so little Nachman figured that he'll throw some number and the policeman will not really know where it belongs to it sure enough that's what he did and he threw the number and the policeman let him go he starts walking away but he feels the policeman is behind him looks at behind the policeman is following him so he goes up and down and around and in and out inside and he keeps looking and the policeman is behind him and he's all shaking what's gonna happen now he's going in and hopping up and down and into a group and Ali and this and he knows the policeman is behind him if he's gonna follow him home he's gonna find his home is gonna get his parents he's gonna interrogate him he was very afraid mikachu at some points he came home and he got rid of the policeman later on he became a very big rabbi at some point he became the chief rabbi of England his name is Nachman student he actually passed away a few years ago he became true one of the big top rappers in England and once they asked him what was the thing the source that gave you the energy to sustain the the fear what caused it like how did you were able to - where did you bring that missile nefesh gone because they really had to live under self-sacrifice every day was a missile would never I mean you would get killed for going into a mixer not talking about something even more learn Toa right away you get killed so he told them the few moments of holding the book that's what gave me there the power the fear that fear that I was holding the book that's brought brought it out the couple hours that I was afraid it got me connected to the book create a connection between me and the book he was holding a hoe mushrooms I hate you olive oil on there all they learn is just the Torah and he said just holding the book and being afraid and running around and moving around that's what brought out of me this missile would nefesh this is power of self-sacrifice and the test has the ability to bring the best out of me when I'm taking a very big step you know how many we were kids we would go up steps and we would take like a very big step see who can take as more more steps as possible one takes two steps at a time a person has along the leg takes three steps at a time remember that game we did remember kids everybody does that when you take a very big step you kind of like you're shaking you're about to fall but when you get up to the new step you jumped many many different steps so the nice iron is has the ability to bring the best out of me and that's literally the the essence of the Nisei on in the moment of the nice iron of the test I'm very confused it's a moment of confusion why why I'm doing it why is it not working out and while you in the turmoil and the of the tests you you it's a moment of confusion and not only that you not a hundred percent sure in yourself if you have the power to overcome this nice a on your stuck in the nice a on and you're saying a shame I can't I can't get out of this I can't fight this this wave it's above my liability how many times we reach into an essay on whatever it is and I find myself in a state of confusion like in a will pull turning around and around and I feel that I'm going down and down and I get to some point and I don't know how to get out of it well what's the solution here but that's happening during the Nisei on but there since is a forked Oh smoke already gave me this any on the rules that he me it means that I can I can handle it every addition put me through an essay on it means that I can handle it means that I have that not only the abilities that I have the option of handling it and the point is that right now maybe I'm in a much lower place but then it's a on brings me to a much much higher place like taking a big leap with my a big step brings me to a much much higher place the problem is that during the Nisei on that I'm confused I don't know if I have the power or if I ain't gonna be able to go out of it but the rule is that if the colosseo whole food and he said put me in an essay on means that I have the power to do it he will not put me through any say on knowing that I can't handle this and each person gets an essay on a gory according to their level now in order for me to rise to a higher level it has to be effort if I now want to climb up stairs I mean I I feel bad for the ladies we go to the mikveh of their leader health of their result we have the school you know what I would hold it is to go to the McCrae but with the McCrae comes four hundred steps four hundred steps to go from the Moose cemetery to the street four hundred steps my wife tells me going we work out I don't need to work out I go to the microvilli right it's like Rocky Balboa writing up all these stairs there after after after that it's like this is the workout of my three days going up the stairs everybody every time and I take men with me after like you know the first 550 steps he go this is there a joke 400 steps it seems like you know going down you go real real fast then when you look up you're like oh my gosh I have to go all this up now so every time I go up to the top I literally feel like I'm rocking I just don't want to go like this people think I'm nuts but but the reality going up all these 400 stairs this is I tell my wife I don't need to do any workouts I go to the micro deli but what do we learn from that that you wanna you wanna go up in your levels you better work hard you want to go up in your spiritual level Asham wants to elevate you to a higher madruga it's gonna have to come now with a lot of hard work it's called resistance I'm gonna go now to the gym I'm gonna go to the best gym in town the best equipment I'm gonna pay top dollar if I'm gonna sit down on the gym chair and sit like this nothing's going to happen I need to move now if I'm gonna take a little stick and there's no weights on it and I'm just gonna do like this nothing's gonna happen have to put plates of weights so I can have resistance and I have to push and have to work hard it's called Lita let's to work push so if I want to go one level to another level to another level has to be my mats have to be an effort and it's not easy everything that I want to do in life is hard you want to be a doctor what you think you're just gonna walk in and out and get a diploma you have to sit for 10 years and learn and learn a lot of material and be tested now comes a bigger question okay I understand that the test is for me to grow to a higher level but a chef I want to grow to a higher level regardless why doesn't have to be with the test Hashem I'm now declaring I want to become a better jewel why do I have to why does it have to come in a negative way seemingly of course one my answers it's ask listen share well I don't understand why you're touching me it's something I'm going away from the Torah I'm going towards the Torah I want to become a much better jewel a much better person why I'm making it harder on me Hashem says I want more of you that's the answer that a Shem will give us I want more of you and the more you give in the more you give away from yourself that's what she wants share wants you to get rid of your selfless of your existence your ego that's the test jim says the more you give over from yourself that's what I want that's what a shame one is for Magua McGee no bottom line that's what a shame one from Mohammed we know he didn't want anything else he knew Obama we know is aiming to the top Shem says okay I will test you were you giving from yourself whether it's the moving constantly giving your money giving your wife giving your child giving me other child that was the test that's what a chef Jim said I want more of you that's what Hashem tells us I want more of you I want you to give over a little bit more that you humble yourself of course when a person humbles himself then they reduce to the Nisei on now here comes another explanation when Hashem puts us in an essay on he holds us as a Siddiq because when I passed and he say on him like a Sadiq now Buddha's of Shem test Hashem doesn't test weaker people he tests only that said the king you're not going to find anywhere in that enough that Hashem tested a Cola or he tested her man or he tested them direction doesn't test it a shame the wicked people shamone will test it Sadiq so if I'm already fighting a test what does it mean Hashem is holding me in a very high Medina and Shem is holding me in a very high level that he thinks I think highly of you I put a test in you it's because I really think very highly of you more than that if a sham already put a test on me it means that a Shem has the complete trust and he knows I'm able to overpower this test so maybe I'm not thinking that but a Shem knows that machine says if I put a test in you is because I know you can do it and the test is there only to bring me closer not to who gave me further away from a shame now of course what I need to take from that that this if there's already a test it means that I can do I can pass it sure would not put a test in me if I can't pass there's no such a thing even though now in the his stuck in this whirlpool and I feel I'm going down and down and down jim says no this is just an illusion if i gave you a test means you have all the abilities and all the tools to pass it just just have faith in yourself so the same way that i'm willing to sacrifice many things in my life people are willing to sacrifice all their fortune to invest into another business where do you get the nerve where do you get the courage sally you investing all your money in your new adventure yeah because i feel very confident here why is that gonna miss anyone am i not willing to invest all your might and energy into going into a higher level so when it comes to physical things we're willing to invest a lot some men are willing to run after a woman for a year or two year til he gets her am i willing to invest so much so when it comes to mundane things we're willing to give a lot of ourselves when it comes to holiness that's where i'm not willing to give over for myself shame says i want you to give over i want you to give completely everything you have I want you to have zero of yourself that's the test so when a sham puts me through a chest a I have to remember one thing that a shaman sees me in a very high level that he's willing to give me a test he's not testing wicked people more than that I have all the abilities to go through the test and the test is for me to get closer to are able to get further away from a sham and more than that that the test is for me to climb to a much much higher level and ultimately what a sham once is a chinois just wants me to give in to have no existence of myself rather to the existence of the kadosh go home rosado's dream what we want to take from that is that the next time that we face a test and unfortunately we have about 15 of them every day that to take it in the right proportion and saying no Hashem just wants the good for me wants me to be close to the Machine wants to elevate me Shem doesn't it's sort of punishment it's an exercise now shame is putting me in a gym - want me to exercise here I mean if I'm already during this test must be like you know just now find all the their ways how to do it and their way to find how to do it justice trust in a shame if I now in a financial problem and I go to this bank and that bank into the ankle into the with this into the credit cards am I putting my trust in a shame yes of course I have to do an action what's called the Dare Kotova with nature but it's my faith in the bank or my face faith is in Hashem I would run first to the synagogue and pray and learn Torah then I will go to the bank because my faith has to be in a shame not in the bank of course I have to do some type of a physical action to go to try but the initiative has to be first transition and this is one example of the many when it comes to money any test that I have the test is how much I'm willing to transition how much I'm willing to give the problem to the kadosh Baku and session I will do what I'm supposed to do I will believe in you I will trust you I will do whatever I need to do to not get disconnected from you you do the rest and I'll do according to nature what I'm supposed to do and that's the core of the test how much I'm willing to tak trust a sham and that means in other words how much I'm willing to give up myself am i trusting myself that I will go in and create to say that the solution I have I'm trusting a sham many people unfortunately they can find their other half so they're all there on all the dating day as services and they go to all the the singles events and everything which is good do a little bit but if you think that if you're gonna now do some action and you're gonna make it that you're gonna find your other half by putting a little bit more makeup or a nice a dress or go to all the singles events no this isn't going to change - go to 2/3 of the single events put your profile on one a website deal with one chakra Hashem is the one then you put all your trust in a sham not in all the shock honey so frustration I'm not putting anybody know judging everybody of course when you're in a test you're under stress and you reach shoulder direction but the bottom line is that the test is a sham says give give it over stop to do yourself give the problem to me show me that you trust me show me that you believe in me I will make the test disappear that's what that's the recipe how to get over the test we don't a bolide the test because we don't have trust that Hashem is the one who's going to do that and I'm trying to figure out a solution like as if I have a solution I don't have a solution I just have to trust the ship I have to initiate something based on nature can just sit like this and wait for it to be over I have to do what's called each to note some effort merits to go cuckoo I have to do a minimum we should note and the rest I have to leave to shame and that's the Nisei on the test is how much I'm willing to trust the calash know how much I'm willing to give everything over to the colosseo home now mama we knew woke up in the morning saddle the donkey took it on Venus questions up until the moment that it's like War II was the auras already on the altar he raises the knife then the nacelle disappeared why because the test is still the last moment and how much trust even Arianne trust and because he had 100% trust that's when an angel says what stop right there we were joking candid camera stop what are you doing so what I want to take from that is to summarize it a the test is good for me sham is seeing me in a very high level more than that or sham will give me all the powers over to overcome the test but and mainly the test is for me to grow because of she wants me to grow then he would put me under this test mainly to see how much I'm willing to give over for myself and the second I'm willing to give over that when the test will disappear and this is proven hundred-percent and then with the second you're willing to give the responsibility to the colossal and say I've zero will here whatever is your will that's what's going I don't have any will any desire any opinion so you whatever you want to happen that's what's going to happen and the second that you subduing yourself 100% the bubble will pop and whatever is going to happen is exactly what Hashem wants it to happen and needless to say that we will be elevated to a much higher place that's why we can understand where we're still in exile it's a test too we've been told that my chef is coming for 2,000 years even more than that but and every day passes and we're losing our emunah the test is to see if you hold in your muna so now the majority of people says I don't have any belief anymore you've been talking about machine for so many years he's never came I believe anymore that's the test now when we believe that Hashem is going to still fulfill it and it's all in the hands of the garage before and I'm not giving over my emunah now am i minimally my meaning that's when Hashem is gonna bring the Gullah we're under a test here so the ultimate test here is to just give over to the garage bow and psychological we believe in you we believe you're gonna send they go out that's not a Shem the only thing that I've read to tell you is that I wish you that your challenges should be very easy and clear we can't get rid of our challenges and we can get rid of our tests but my wish to you is that the challenge should be easy and that you should overcome it in the best and most easiest and most smooth ball to a possible resolution we have to remember that every challenge that we overpower then we grow to a much higher level and that's that's in essence what we want to do as other ship should have a beautiful restful week [Music]