Parashat Shemot - Light or Darkness? - Rabbi Alon Anava

[Music] yesterday we spoke how important it is I want to fix the results and especially the middle of an eval and also to have to develop the fear of a sin and that's where we have we connected it to the idea of going down to the time that sometimes we go down we go down so to say in our level but that's in order for me to start developing the fear of sin and to develop also the media the attributes or my character trait of being humble so if I don't know how to humble myself the regime will help me and I'm in Hashem will help me by a coaching me by humbling me that I will understand that there's something about me at the end of the day I'm just wants me to work on my character traits that I will should be humble not a special American tour or that my ego water control so this is in general what we talked about yesterday and we're in the second mama of the novel develop in the touch mode the depending on the version you have we're about halfway probably even more than halfway through into the mama we're starting with the amen starting with the line where it says issue with Tobel now in the book that we were in very in the pawnshop it says relish mud beneath rail these are the names of the sons of Israel Hebei mitzraim a-- that come to Egypt and they start saying over and shim or levee hood you know names the names and then it says in the verse issue veto bow a man and his house they came which of course it's referring to that each one of the schwa team came with his household with his wife and kids and not only with the wife and kids also with the actual household they did they relocated he hired a moving company that came and banged older stuff and then probably jacked up the price and probably probably was a Israeli mover and Camus at all now the estimate was very bad they give you a bad estimate here it's triple and there's a packing materials and I have to do insurance and and then it's gonna have to go through customs and sign here here here and here and so they they something like that so nevertheless it says issue with about a man and each issues referring to each one of the ship a team and his house they came to me time but we like looking at it in a more of deeper deeper way issue by Toba a man and his house came huge meaning at Sadiq as a Boomer to auction or occasion become heads this individual that the normally minute calls him at Sadiq he's confident and sure that he won't fail in any sin Bavaria vagyok had the issue Ito and he will come together man and his house it's a very important that we develop confidence that we're not going to sin this is where the Yetzirah he recognizes when you insecure so that's where he attacks you if you have confidence to say no I'm not gonna say nothing the temptation will come I will be I will be strong so what does it mean specifically issue veto the man and his house the ich Nick Radovic ich it means about a person that is glued to Hashem I mean the youth the word is in Hebrew makes much more sense the book the book is to literally to to to bind or to be I mean there the word comes from the word in Hebrew devic blue and the book is something that is glued and I mean there's many different words in English to buy - so clean to be attached but really the right translation is to be glued when you want something to be unseparable you glue it if you want something to bind it or to connected it any other way you may be tired together you may be tired make to make a wire around it but when you want something to be completely attached and not to be able to be removed you blew it and here yeah so appart when it's talking about the word ish it's talking about somebody who's glued to a Shem oh wait oh and his house means hi nope nummy you talk his essence his the penny mute is in a infinite inner being what does that mean what is this really his essence the high no I in a Verna washable his fear his fear of sin and the attribute of an event of being a humble she named you Huggy a vocational both of them should come in peace both his fear of sin and his anova should come in peace Vicky look for bow like as if they already came I guess if I already achieved the levels of you are in the level of another this is what it means when it says but they react of each time your sheer volume this is what it means about Yaakov being a each time as a per a perfect individual your chavala means that is it's and dwells in attempt and learn stuff as she explains mission orderly remote a person that is dumb innocent or perfect individual is a person that doesn't know how to cheat that person is called Tom Emily the valet know this is a hinge in what we're saying here above she had said he could be ravanamma that the person is with the fear and an attribute of innova wish tom the person there is a innocent very a simple but it says Bishnu Haarlem in two tenths what is these two tens means the high no the high no means what does it mean that as be aldomet bakuto LaMotta when he goes down from his level of being a adhere in it with a ship he goes down even though apfel p10 he still this stays in that level of tongue that level that he doesn't know how to treat Shannon Excel become head it doesn't fail in any type of sin their study occasionally function of another go to a holy fashion with the ocarina sometimes a person that falls down from his level we mentioned yesterday is not so bad to go down from your level and going down from your level we mentioned that it's the going down in order to to ascend to catch momentum to go to a lower level to actually do to be able to deal with something that is located in a lower level doesn't mean when I'm going down in my level that I'm losing something if you remember when yesterday we mentioned that when you single it's easier to pray with no distractions there's no kid pulling on your pants Abba Abba need to go to the bathroom you have time to learn because nobody's bothering you don't have to change diapers you don't have to go to the bathroom and and they dress kids and feed them and clean and run and kids you distracted so it seems to our parents that after he was he/she was single for a while and was able to to really focus on their service of God sunny comes kids I can be really sir a serve Garda shame it seems like you go down in your level once I used to pray two hours now I have to pray quickly cuz I have to go home help my wife or I have to attend the kids doesn't mean necessarily that I go down in my level now that means that I'm changing I'm shifting the type of service to God now yes I will pray less time I might not be so focused on my prayer but I have to start working on my middle kids require a lot of patience and create kids require a lot of understanding and and you know we all have some type of a spark of anger in us kids they really work on the on your ability to control your anger they're not to say to scream not to lose your temper so you're just changing you're shifting the type of how you serving a shim now okay so you don't pray for two hours but you're really working on your videos so not always when you go down from your level it seems seemingly it seems like that you're going down from your level doesn't mean you're going down from your level but it says that some people when a person that when they go down in their level right away there's the ability to fail into sin/cos Reshiram for example I'll give you an example when I was in the Shiva then you know in the Shiva there's no temptations there's no air well at least when I was in the Shiva there wasn't such a thing as smartphones so you don't have internet all day long so there was an internet in the Shiva once a week if somebody needs internet there was like a a cafe now internet cafe that you go you pay for out one now you get the Internet so once a week you check your emails no question we didn't have that problem with the with smartphones when I was in issue of I see how it's distracting but even without that I wasn't a phone there and there wasn't a TV here you secluded you note in the outside world it's very easy to hold a very high level then I had to go out to the real world and we had to I got engaged we had to pay for the wedding I didn't have assistance in the wedding and there happened to me that my wife had to we had to physically split before the wedding not to be next to each other so she came here to try to learn and I was in I stayed in New York so I had to also find somehow money to pay for the wedding so my wife at the time was working in the real estate and she told me why don't you take my customers and you continue showing the the apartments she was to rent apartments in Manhattan so I was like what now go now into the real world after been months in the Shiva where there's only fluorescent lights and there and they've been you know pale food so and food without them was just a lot of pepper and salt in it to give it some taste so suddenly I go out to the world and all the distractions and I had notes just any type of world into Manhattan not at people and then there a lot of temptations and it suddenly seems that you go down in your level he is because I didn't pray as long I didn't learn as much I wasn't in a holy environment comes the opportunity to very easily sin very easily when you're in a Shiva there's no temptations all you see is walls and books there's not a lot of temptations and none of the places to sin there's a kitchen you eat in the kitchen it's not like Manhattan then suddenly you're like ah smell this food now when you are new bout you ah that's a temptation sometimes they're okay you know it's there it's not meat come the etc comes with all these fare and advice why you can eat that food nevertheless when a person goes down in their level for whatever reason there's a greater chance to fail and sin a valid Sadiq Iowa creditor Kenneth Vito when the person goes down in the level in order to correct rectify and elevate his house what did we say his house is not the four walls where he lives he 0 and he's another how can I correct my irritation or my irritate my fear of sin fearing a shame is nothing I'm afraid of shame will beat me up as I have respect Oh a certain awe in front of the kailash Mahal this is this is coming to to practice when you see a person how they get dressed some people get dressed they walk around in the room and another person will be under a cover or in a bathroom and quietly and some people get dressed you know they get completely naked another person will take the top off and put a top on take the pants off put the pants on so this is an or in front of a shame because Hashem is everywhere why would I walk around in the house half naked or you know in public you're very adequate you sit a certain way you behave a certain way because people are looking at you in the home you usually don't behave how you in public one should behave in public how they behave and at home how they're behaving in public you know when there's closed doors and closed room you are a total different person you know the best example is putting out music so you'll see people like you know the yoga maybe put the same song in a closed room and you're there by yourself suddenly you're John Travolta you're Stanley be making all these moves you know move that you will never never ever do it public also you start breakdancing and you're so but next to people you know you're so that's the that's the proof are you different next to people and in the hall but next time you know people you're very polite this is your no I'm just saying that sometimes the house is my irritation and my my ANOVA sometimes I have to correct it so I wouldn't say to demolish the house to fix the foundation I would rather say remodel the house you want to paint now the walls you have to take things out you move out of the house for two three days the painters come they repaint the house and they have a Breton nice nice new walls sometimes it's just required to paint the wall sometimes it's just there to remodel the house I wouldn't necessarily say demolish the house and to fix the foundation just to add so I go down so to say fix my house why that's a dick you read because they litter cannot be taught to fix the house be ravanamma because I want to reach the level that I'm refining my unit a shame you not read my fear of sin and I'm refining also the my level of a lava ice I started saying before that you have fear from a shame this is not fear that I'm going to be beaten up rather with certain level of respect to rush em that's why I give the example with you getting dressed because when you feel that a Shem is around you you don't just behave however you want the same way that in public you're not going to do a certain act because it's going to be embarrassing to you no I don't have to go into details with what type of X's and you know some people pick their nose pick their ears and you know all sorts of noises coming out from different places so so you know in public sometimes you will behave a certain way some people don't but they know what's the difference in public or next to a shame nevertheless this is you know of a shame but you also have to develop fear of sin to be afraid of the sin itself not ashamed to be afraid that I don't want to deal with the sin right now and I want to get myself dirty with the sin so nevertheless sometimes I have to go down in my level to reach down I mean it's almost like going to the basement that you weren't there from half a year to start looking for something let's store deep down inside so you go down and you're and you refine the level of your ANOVA why so I should not come to any and failure of sin this is the meaning in the Mishnah their promotion Mishnah a Zulu Tom very zoom wad as a mission as it says who's the person that is called the tongue and who's the person that is called muadh what does that mean yes La Mancha Tommy Thomas the devil I know the Tana a sage is a hinting to what we're talking here about this in this parsha as the rota was a person who's a Tom would set a person there said you said that can to a cheat there is innocent innocent and honest what's in Omaha Tom and macabre Jim Tom you shiver him a person that is tom is the person who sits dwells in a tent this is considering individual that is learning Torah that's the term your Chevrolet sitting in a tent is somebody who's learning Torah verum WOD mu'adh is what is designated to as we already wrote more do Emma's Lola motor learning it's a hint for the world's above Lashon wad the diverse the tongue the way the expression WOD is with Abba column with a column means a dot over the the letter and he learned the punctuation the dots then column is when you have a dot over the letter and then and here it says it's written Maud with a column Rama is Ahmad he says in the meaning what is the meaning for that is what Sadiq sure to meet Micajah with a book about motor learning the the punctuation the dot of column is above the letter there's different dots I'm sure you're familiar you have dots that are under the letter one dot two dots today three dots it's a gold each one it sounds a yo specifically the column that's the name of the dot it's above the letter what is that hinting to when the sage says about Izumo odd that says it am a mo odd that the Haram is above the letter this is hinting we said about the world's above that the person is constantly connected and pointed up like we said glued or how did you say adhere and here to the world's above and constantly is is the motion his energies pointed up directed to the world above coal she do Bushnell Sherman the Mishna says the person that has the tables testified for three days and it's giving an example what I mean testified for three days they eat about McGraw obama's Nahuatl modem over-limit an average for neshama it's a it's a found in the Micra in the in the text of the torah in the mission and also on in the talmud also ah-hem more women official furnish amma least three places this testified that sis testified these three places is is a arousing three levels in the soul nefesh walker neshama and this is the hint when it says she hey eatable that they testified on him meaning that there was some type of an awakening in the nefesh walker neshama la la troll about leo Tomita bachmann is to be elevated to the world's above so the person can always be in all three levels of an official Hashima attached to the world's above victim Tom we mentioned before already we share Lobos no shame him that he returns for three days behind what does that mean gumshoe mmm delegate Oh even though the person goes down in his level was ever at the Muto when he comes back he goes back to the same level of that the the weights called his tongue but so to say the adjective of it will be Tom Muto Shan initial kalila that he doesn't fail but Santa motorbeam Kemal made it and the part of him that he is a strong and firm not to fail is very strong and he can say and and it says standing firm where it is basically saying in other words no Katahdin Island Hollinger Cornell or basically saying in other words that I need these periods these times that I so to say going down there they are required because that's what arouses my nefesh Walker neshama to be constantly pointed and directed to their world above because like I said yesterday the motion of the world the motion of life let's call it is the motion of going up and down and up and down and up and down like a person's that is connected to a monitor in the hospital you see the monitor going up and down and up and down this is the easiest way to root to relate to it and if Kozma Shalom the line is straight then the person is dead there's no hope there's no life there no hi ute so everything that manifests into the world is a reflection of what's going on above so if the motion of my life is placed now on a monitor and they see it is going up and down obviously the motion of my spiritual life is the same idea going up and down and if has official omits in a straight line there's no coyote there's no life there so we look at these at these periods when I go down as a disaster oh my gosh I'm not so religious like how I was two months ago two months ago I was here and now I'm here and that was causing me to fall more more down that's when the Yetzirah he's gonna come and kick me in my guts because the when I'm weak that's when they ate so I is gonna come and tell you see you are a loser you're no good for nothing a month ago look where you were and I could look where you're at now once you used to wake up at 5:00 in the morning and went to the mikveh now you wake up at 8:00 and you turn around to the next side and you wake up at 9:00 so there's our eyes a master in confusing you that's why the beautiful teachings of our be not more from bliss of them for most famous teaching as any ocean baalam there's no despair in the world because the yet Sarah is gonna wait for you to come down he knows you must come down because again that's the motion you're going constantly up and down he's not gonna attack you when you hide he's gonna attack you when you lo he's just waiting for you to do two below and when you lo he's gonna start you know sprouting and that's not the right word like a and the not planting seeds but spirit sprinkling these ideas in your mind oh my gosh I'm a I lost my level why only to bring you to sadness when you sad and you don't function the right way when you have a good mood then you're operating in a completely different level when you are sad and heavy that's when you you don't see the love the light at the end of the tunnel you don't see any reason to continue that's when the Edsel comes and becomes your best friend now what does he come to presents you at the idea that you should fall into despair because you are you failing that's why the idea of any ocean ball out of this is no despair in the world is not to try to cheer you up like a friend Nakano don't worry that everything will be okay no that's not the idea that is it when Hashem created the world he created many things in the world he created love he created happiness he curated also pain he created Hey he created all other things as him but you know what he didn't create he didn't create despair it doesn't it's a lie it's a lie of the eternal that comes and tells you there is despair in the world and how does he manipulate you like then like this snake like the serpent in Canadian the serpent in Canadian came to hahvah and told her each from the tree she says we can't he says okay so touch the tree it doesn't say Shem didn't tell you're not allowed to touch and he pushed her on the tree and he told her you see nothing happened you're good to go so the hush comes and tells you oh you know the same way that a Shem created hate and pain and sadness and many other negative things he also created a despair you should now recognize that there is despair in the world but really when that sad he comes and says there is no despair there's no such a thing it's like in the matrix there is no spoon why are you trying to bend the spoon there is no spoon remember that part good so the idea when I'm saying when I you you're quoting me when I said somebody human the answer Allah is not human he's in your head the horn you know the it said I can also convince you you have a headache but but the reality is if you really climbing to such a level you can also can convince yourself that you don't have a headache that's how powerful your mind is but nevertheless this is not our topic I'm talking about when they gets analyzed coming and telling you you went down in your level and he's trying to pull you more down instead of you saying okay nothing happened I just went down a little bit in my level oh no big deal it's for me to come down to do a quick analogy refine now my me data ANOVA so I can be a little bit more humble I can only work on my humility on my humble vessel when I'm down I will not work on my humbleness when I'm in a very high place that's where I'm developing my arrogance and my ego and my self-awareness so she says whoa whoa relax cowboy I see you can handle the the the high level I will put you down so either I do it myself and I'd rather do it myself because then it's not so harsh oh I told you yesterday with the Rabanne sense then a man says hush fell at Mecca make yourself humble Hashem will rise you're ready arena circa Macomb but if you don't do that then a shame before my schpeel game of shame will make you a humble so the point that we're trying to get from it is that I will experience in my life many times that I go down and the going down is not only mean not waking up at 5:00 rather waking up at 7:00 going down can be a financial loss can be a real end of a relationship can be so many different things that will cause me to feel that I'm going down the point to take from that that they're going down with why we're talking about that because now we see that yakov and yourself and the Shiva team go went down to me time this passion starts by saying okay these are the sons of Israel they went down to meet I'm very interestingly look what it says also in the text it says about volitional schmatta Bernal Ariel Demetria these are these names of the sons of Israel there won't be time and after that it says that where you'll safe I have a me time Yousef was also in me trying a minute later you just told me you're safe died and now the text is saying in your self is in me time just look at the text Saul explains that yourself was still both his body and his neshama stayed in me trying to stay around with them to make sure that they have some type of a pillar that they can have some hassan trabajo Jakob said no no no take me talk none bury me with my father's and my wife Joseph says leave me here and he you know he needed to have a key flights of the Kim because they couldn't go out to oil to swell so Yosef said okay I'll stay here I'll be the Kevin Sadiq of you that you have where to go when they had a weak moment they went to the river to pray to the Sadiq that's why we see also an are a generation and many other generations there are certain said Hakeem that decided to bear be buried in the country where they were and not to be moved to Israel some asked to be moved to Israel and some said he came said no I'm gonna have to stay here so it will be some type of a location for a poor a person to come and pray to the camera of the Siddiq so sending with yourself but why is the Torah relating to the fact that they went down to me time is a positive thing yeah in general if you're looking it from one angle they went to slavery and they suffered a lot but that was the momentum of going down they're going down to catch the momentum to go out of mitzraim to receive the Torah other than that they wouldn't be able to receive the Torah so the point to take to that practically is if my life is constantly going to be experiencing ups and downs there's the smart person here is when I'm up not to develop an Ingo not to develop too much of an arrogance so too much of a you know big-headed recording in Hebrew shed my head is pumped with too much air too much nonsense and on the other hand when I go down is not to let me my not to fall into that to the trap of the etc that I'm actually now I lost it oh I had it before now I'm down in my level when you know how to relate with the going up and they're going down the right way then it's it's going in a very normal and healthy motion and this you will experience in the down you just need to know that the down going down this is not too old to start dealing with the itself about my depression rather to understand okay now I'm down start refining your me not ANOVA obviously a ship made me this big right now whatever it is that whatever it is that I'm going through that's where I said they going down is not necessarily that you are but that the Shem went down it can be that you went down within your financial state in your financial level I had a very good job now man nah me bro I had a I could be in a relationship it can be in a place where I live it can mean many different places that I feel that I went down that is to polish the the media the attribute of an evolved being humble and also a arata hid my fear of sin and if I live like this if this is the attitude that I hold by then every level that I go to it's also serving of a Shem sometimes I serve a chef being here sometimes I serve a sham being here the point that I want to take is that I constantly when I refine my fear of sin and my attribute of humbleness is only for the next level that I'm only gonna not fall into sin that's the whole the whole point here is to bring me to a level when I have fear of sin and meet at Inova I Eve I will most likely either seen much less or not sin at all and that's ultimately what I want to bring to myself therefore we have to take from that that we're also right now in a type of a me time where an inner in in an exile and very very few people they feel it okay this is for us to be elevated most people when it comes to the state right now of eggs out there in already in a state of your despair you tell person my chef is coming I heard that already for three thousand years not that I just Friday there was a lady here that she that she was asking me and there you know I kept saying she was asking most of the question I kept telling her but my chef is coming soon she was again but you know what I've been telling my kids for thirty years but my chef is coming and now my kids are saying mom you've been saying that for 30 years he didn't come yet so we don't believe anymore so they're like letting go so that's the problem is that that we are specifically now mirrored to the time of the time they were also already like it couldn't take it anymore there we read in this parish army cuts they walk like a solid I just couldn't take it anymore guy had it up to here they didn't believe that even they can be a messiah a redeemer so we have to take from that also okay so it will take another day or two or maybe a month or two ha special oh maybe more than that but we have to understand my chef is around the corner you have to keep your head up this is going is only for us it's only for us to be so refined and so cleansed that specifically when my chef comes I will be a vessel to receive this godly revelation when my chef Commons we're having a rerun of Matan Toa when we're not going to go on a mountain and get the Torah physically but this says mushy oh ha ha - ah meaty it's a and new Torah is going to be given and we're going to be elevated to a much higher level as has to be a going down now if blaze rail went to meet time for 210 years and they graph as a result at Doha just imagine what we're getting after 2000 years of Exile I mean if you're taking the relations 210 years Torah 2,000 years a master legend what's waiting for us [Music]