Parashat Meiketz - Learn to forgive - Rabbi Alon Anava

okay because learning the weekly parasha is very nice but if I don't bring it down to action or I don't derive anything that out of it some type of a teaching that can affect me then I kind of miss the point so our sages teach us the main part of the learning is the actual act which means if I learn and I don't do anything then I kind of wasted my time I didn't I didn't get anything out of my learning if I now learn all the laws that have to do with kanuka and then in the evening I don't likee the minora and I don't follow all the laws that I learned then my learning was was a waste of time basically so same thing with learning the Paras if I just learn it to to see a beautiful story and to to get a impressed or maybe see some mystical thing behind it but I don't apply it to my world then then I'm missing the point the point is to take the teachings of the Torah and to apply it to my life cuz I want to get better in my service of God I want to get closer to to hasem I want to work on myself I want to refine myself now there's not it's not by chance that the weekly portion is divided technically one might one could say oh you know let me give you one long parasha and you'll learn it every day but we see that the par are are broken into weeks and the same way that the world was created in seven days and there's constantly this cycle that every week I start a new week so therefore also the parot the weekly portion is also every week it's starting some type of a a cycle which what I want to learn from that is that in the weekly Paras there's something that I can derive out of it some type of teachings that I can apply for my weekly task And if every week I work on something then slowly slowly I can refine myself and slowly slowly I can work on myself and and with Divine Providence every week something in the par I can actually apply to my life so this is the point of our Sunday class that we all wake up with the with the energy of Shabbat but also with here in Israel Sunday is not a vacation Sunday is a regular day so I right away right away from The KES of shabas at least in the outside of Israel they give you one more day to to unwind to relax in Israel Thea the Holiness is so powerful and then right away You're thrown into to the week day so we need some uh positive energy to start a week so what's more better than just starting with inspiration about the weekly parasa so this is our s on Sundays and because it's kanuka today then we're going to learn a little bit about kanuka Tuesday we'll go back to to to business to regular schedule but Tuesday and Thursday we're also going to learn a lot about kanuka because there's a lot what to learn it's such a beautiful beautiful holiday so this week's parasa is called mik and different than other par in the Torah the last last few parot are kind of continuation it's kind of like a story that ends and I'm waiting now to see what's going to be next week so a lot of other of the parot there has a topic you go through the topic and then the next week is a completely different thing the last couple weeks we see that it's like a like a soap opera actions a lot of things going on and last week's parasha we learned how ysep was sold by his brothers how he was betrayed by his brothers we know the whole story and then he finds himself in jail and in jail he meets two individuals that are the Ministers of the bakery and the minister of beverages Sim and S mhim they have dreams he solved their dreams they go out of jail he ask them to remind far about his situation we spoke about it last week that he got punished and stayed another two years in jail and finally in this week's paraa it's starting to change they say that the world is a is is a bow the world is round sometimes you're up sometimes you're down so for now for many years ysep slack he was down now the wheel starts turning and his Lu changes and he starts going up so we're going to go briefly through the par that we know that par has a dream has two dreams he doesn't know what it is he calls all the sorcerers all the dream solvers nobody can solve his dream then finally s mhim says oh you know what two years ago when I was in jail there was this young boy he knows how to solve dreams they get ysep out of jail they clean him up ysep solves the problem he becomes the hero of the day and whoops from being a an inmate and a slave he becomes the second to the king not only that he solves the problems he gets to be controlling MIT and he sees he prophesies that there's going to be famine and he decides that they're going to lock up the food and they're going to have a whole system how they're going to control the food and Gathering all the food for seven years then giving it out slowly slowly has a whole plan now he already has a plan he you have to understand what's going on in yosef's mind he's a 17-year-old boy before that he's born he's the last in line all the brothers they all don't like him because he's born so to say to the for favorite mother and they already don't like him they're all much older than him and happens to be that his father likes him the best so he's all his life is getting this this attitude from his brothers then they sell him then they throw him into a pit excuse me it's the other way around first they throw him into to a pit then they sell him then he goes to MIT he he's going through some rough time now on his back on on his feet and he's ready to be king he's already planning the day that he's going to finally meet his brothers that's payback time so we start with the story there was a t sage in the time of thear his name RAB ABA he's a very famous T he's even mentioned in the zor a couple times and he is walking down the street and he sees a man lying underneath a tree and suddenly sees a snake coming out of a bush and coming towards him this sleeping man he runs to to wake up the man and to save the the person and as he's running towards the man a piece of branch falls from the tree and crushes the snake and he's like wow look at this miracle that Hashem just did to this man he can't even fathom what's going on he's not even saying Jack Robinson and suddenly he sees the man starting to roll over and starting almost to fall into a to a a drain not a drain how do you ditch and suddenly he sees another miracle and the tree that fell on the snake Falls over and stops him and save him from falling into the to the ditch down the drain or how how do you say midon uh okay we'll call the ditch for Mid is like a steep heel it goes down okay R ABA is like completely shocked two miracles in one shot the person was in life dangering situation and saved him twice he wakes up the man and he says you know that you are about to die twice now and God made such a miracle and saved you twice and the man is like really what happened so first there was you see the snake he was about to bite you and this piece of Branch fell and killed it and then you were about to roll over and fall into the ditch and the tree fell and stopped you so he tells him you must be a very special individual maybe you're a sadic man says no a simp you I'm nothing he tells him if hasem saves you like that you must have something special you must do some special Mitzvah or you have some special thing that you do that the really loves you just a very simple Jew I don't do anything special I do my MIT so tells him you must do something special so he says you know what yeah actually have something that I do make sure he's like I always forgive people I I always make sure that I don't hold Grudge and every night before I go to sleep I go through my day and I'm thinking whoever hurt me I make sure that I forgive him and I don't hold Grudge and I'm not angry and I'm not looking for Revenge now we know it's a very severe sin in the Torah to revenge and we learn allow to to do two actions that are kind of similar one of them is LOM that's to revenge and the other one is Lor Lor is to hold Grudge and to wait for the day that I can pay back so this is a little bit different from revenging L it means that I'm holding some type of anger towards somebody and I'm just waiting for the day that I'm going to be able to repay you for that Lin is that when I actually plan I'm PL sitting and planning how I'm going to now get get back at you so we know that's a very very severe sin we're not allowed to do that so comes a very big question by one of the greatest commentaries in our history he's called abarbanel and his first name isak abarbanel he's a very famous commentary on the Torah and he asks how does ysep sadik do this action that is called lto he's now holding Grudge for years and now we see see that finally when the brothers are coming down to MIT he has a plan and now he's going to pay back and we see that he you know the brothers they come to him and he right away starts blaming them you are spies you came to attack the land you're spying here you came to to plant something here and the whole story goes that he he really it says he really talks strong at them and he you know he charges them with the Espionage with betrayal whatever he tells them you try you came to to spy against the land and of course they're like no no we didn't do anything we we were just basic Shepherds we only came to buy some food and he goes and he's you know the whole story says that he's really attacking them and they tell him no we're simple people and we only came to buy food and we have a father a sick and old father back in Canan and we have a younger brother and he says oh I have a brother let's see him and they're like okay we'll go and get them so the whole story says how he takes Shimon he puts him in jail he says you go back and get your brothers and we know the whole story then they come back finally with bamin he pretends everything's good he G does them a big Feast then he sends them out and they he plants the the the cup the gobble that's you say gobble goblet he plants it in bamin that's the special goblet that he sees the future and then they arrest bamin now he's a thief so he's making a whole show there and that's payback time now really if you if you're not looking for Revenge then why why do you need all this show just say hi I'm ysf exactly how he says that's we're going to read in the next par what's the show I see from the show I saying me I not me I mean looks like the whole T is presenting the show cuz ysep wants to Revenge why are you being so mean to them just tell them hi I'm ysep like you say next week and get it over with and tell them okay I'm upset I'm not upset but why you have to do the whole show so that's a very big question by the commentary is ysep is supposed to be a sadik why is he revenging and even if he wants to Revenge why this whole show so we heard a few different opinions but first we have to understand exactly what ysph did ysph was sitting as the second to the king he was controlling all the food the story says that he prophesized that there's going to be seven years of an abundance so they gathered all the food and then there's going to be seven years of a famine and then what he did is everyone who wanted to want to come to have food he had to come to ysf and he gave them the food now ysph knew that at some point the brothers are going to come down he just knew it he Hades he has the power of Prophecy but also he was a very smart man and he says okay at some point they're going to be hungry up there in Canan they're gonna come here so he already planned the day that they're going to come so he made three decrees to make sure that he knows when they're coming because MIT was like a you know it wasn't like a little land with a few sheep M was like the equivalent of America in our days a big Empire with a big army with with millions and millions of dollars wealth and and and economy You Know M was like the center of the world so he made three decrees the first decree is that anyone who wants to buy food has to come to ysf it can't go anywhere else that way he sees them the second decree is that you're not allowed to buy in bulk you can't buy like big amounts of food and then go to your town and sell it you're not allowed to you can only buy small portions that was the second rule and the third rule was that he had immigration immigration roles around the city the the country of MIT they had borders and whoever comes in from out of MIT has to show an ID a passport he has to declare his name his father's name and his great grandfather's name three generations why because he says okay might be a Ruben that's coming into the borders so Ruben may be a lot of Ruin but Ruben Ben yob Ben no there only going to be one so he made a decree that anyone who wants to come into the country has to identify by three generations with their father's names now you have to understand that again Egypt was like in America and all around there was countries and they also suffered from the famine it wasn't that it was just in Egypt so all the countries used to come down to MIT to get food so that was the three decrees that way he knows 100% who's coming into the country nobody can buy bulk and actually sell it out so they have to buy through him and everybody has to come to him so he can see them that was the rule and he appointed his son Mas to be the minister of immigration that way all the notes that come in at the end of the day comes to mashe to his son and he can actually read the names so nobody can go around the rules of the immigration now you have to understand that when theim came down to MIT that's 22 years later a long time so when they come to MIT yob was very into like was also very into a people think a the evil eye is an invention but even that time we see that who's the first one who was afraid of of evil ey was Abino CU abin when he came back from the AKA from the sacrifice of he didn't bring him home he right away told him go to go to here toat go to sh and go and learn I don't need you coming back to town and everybody seeing oo that's the boy that was saved o let me see this uh this man I mean he wasn't a boy he was a man so says go go go go I don't want you to I don't want anybody seeing you want the evil eye controlling you same thing with yob when yob was sending all the tribes he told them make sure you're going each one from a different gate why so the evil eye will not control you because they're all big guys and handsome guys and and they they they were very impressive and he says if all of you will come in together you will draw a lot of attention so you go each one from a different gate so when they came to ysep ysep right away was telling them oh you're coming to spy the land and they're like no no no no we're just came to buy food he's like no so why did you come from different Gates if you're just simple man coming to buy food why don't you go together since you're coming from different Gates and say I see from that you're coming to spy the land you want to see how it is to conquer us now the gate it's not the gate to the city they had Gates of immigration so One landed in New York One landed in Miami One landed in Los Ang that's what yob told them I mean trying to paint it in our in our generation they came from different places Gates where the immigrations stood not like little Gates into the city this is all told in the Torah so ysep already had his plan he was waiting for the days the brothers are going to come and he's going to now give them what they deserve so in short the story was that they came to him right away he told them he blamed them for being Spies of course they denied and he was screaming at them and rebuking them and just imagine the scene he's calling all the guards and they're surrounding them and I'm going to lock you and and of course they're getting all upset now then somehow by mistake they say that they have a brother he says okay go me the brother I want to see this brother now if you're lying you all going to be jailed if you're not I'm going to let you go so he says in order for me to guarantee that you're coming back he takes Shimon and he throws him into the pit into the jail now they go home to it to yov and of course now a rerun again they coming home and they're living one son behind and of course Jakob goes berserk second time another boy Jakob loses it and they're telling him listen this guy wants to see the 11 son he's like no you're not taking bamin I already lost yoseph now I lost Shimon and you want to take bamin now no you're not going he's staying here okay they don't know what to do they don't know how to convince yob so months pass when we read it it's a couple paragraphs months pass and then there's no food so of course they convince yob and they tell him we're going to guarant we're going to guarantors we bringing him back don't worry somehow they convince Jakob and they bring baming down ysep sees bamin and of course he say okay I see you're talking truth and they make a whole feast and and he gives them presents we see something interesting that he gives bamin a little bit extra presence later on we see that he was trying to test the brothers to see if he's going to be able to arouse jealousy from the brothers by giving him a little bit more if if you are in the first room on the right there's a bathroom so he later on we see that ysep was trying to arouse the jealousy of the brothers by giving bamin more presence to see if they're going to be jealous like they were jealous in him and what they're going to do Joseph is smart he was testing them okay so the story goes that they have a big party they he lets them go he gives them a lot of presents they go out as they're coming closer to the Border suddenly Mas runs after them with a whole Army and they say the special cup was stolen we want to search your uh your bags no we didn't take anything why would we do that of course the story says they search and they find it by binyamin's bag they arrest him and they take him back to MIT [Music] now another another episode he brings him down and of course the story goes that we're going to see next week that Yuda comes and says no you're going to let this boy go because I guarantee this boy and we're not leaving here we we're going to there's going to be Bloodshed here you either give us back the boy or there's going to be War here that we're going to talk about next week but we see that finally the brothers came to the rescue and then comes the whole story they go up to Canan they bring yakob of course ysf tells them finally I'm ysf he reveals himself and then they bring down yob and the whole story ends nice like a Hollywood Story of course comes a big question what's with the show why why the show why does ysep make this whole thing he planning the whole thing plants the cup and brings them back and so the ramban gives a very very special interpretation why this whole thing when they came back the Torah says that ysep remembered his dreams that's what it says it doesn't say ysep remembered the fact that they threw him into a pit it doesn't say ysep remembered that they sold him it doesn't mention ysph just remembered being in jail for 12 years that's what he would we would expect him to remember it says and ysep remembered his dreams so the ramban explains that when Joseph saw the 10 Brothers he was like wait a minute my dream showed 11 Brothers bowing to me which means that's not the time he knew they going to have to bow to him he knew he was holding on on his dream he knew this dream is a prophecy the whole time he was a slave and when and when he was in jail what was holding him is the fact that he knew the dreams are real and one day they're going to bow to him he was waiting for the day to see when they're going to Bow so when he sees 10 Brothers he was like wait a minute that's not the time cuz in the dream 11 brothers are bowing to me meaning they can't bow right now even if I make them bow that's not the prophecy that's why he sent them back to bring bamin so bamin can also bow now now how would he tell bamin to to Bow hello bow no so he had to make a whole scene to make bamin a slave and the slaves had to bow to the king that what that's how he had in his plan that he's going to have now all the 11 Brothers all together now they're all bowing together that see the Dream came true seems pretty pretty good explanation why ysep comes up with this whole show my our commentaries don't like this explanation and they right away disqualify it by saying who are you to decide what's going to be prophesized or not so what if you had a dream what if I have a dream now that you owe me money then you owe me money who who say so what if you had a dream who made you the the dream solver who made you the the bringing the dreams into reality maybe the dream is not prophecy maybe the dream was off I mean I can come now to you and tell you hey I dreamed you owe me $50,000 give me $50,000 who said your dream is a is a reality it's a dream so all the commentaries go against the ran and they say no no that's not a that's not an explanation so what if you had a dream no this is we we throw that out of the out of the order not we can't accept that as an explanation okay now we have to understand that the Tora says that that he really like is like kind of a revenge and he really spoke bad to them so we need to find a very good explanation why he did that and explain the ram says we don't we don't accept that so what if he had a dream even though he knows that later on also yakob is going to come but that is not not acceptable so we're going to stop to tell a little story and about a thousand years ago there was a certain individual who was known as the Evan Ezra he was at the time of my my Mones about a thousand years ago probably less probably like 950 years ago about the time when Bram was alive and he was known to be a poem and he was a very special individual but unfortunately he was known to be a unfortunately a NE no luck and anything that he tried to do failed he tried business failed he tried this failed everything he tried to do was no he was known to be a Bish like a nothing works out okay one time he gets extremely extremely sick and his whole eye gets all swollen and he can't see and he goes from one doctor to the other nobody can solve the problem and he's in pain and he's suffering and all his life is going through like aob like job not as severe but his life was very very bad finally they tell him listen there's a doctor a very special doctor and he's Jewish and he lives in Egypt and he's the doctor of the sultan why don't you visit him he will he will help you not only that he's Jewish he'll probably not going to take money from you cuz Evan Ezra was extremely extremely poor okay he GES his with the little money that he had he packs a bag and he starts going towards Egypt he finally comes to Egypt and he's like okay how am I going to approach this doctor he starts asking around where's this doctor they tell him okay he at noon he comes out of the out of the palace he's in the morning he's by the sultan by the ruler and you catch him when he comes out he runs out he sees rambam he sees my mon he runs to him and he tells him R Moshe I'm Jewish I came from far away look I'm sick and I'm I need your help and I don't have money he's expecting Ram to accept him with open hands and on RAM starts screaming to the guards take this guy away from me lock him up what does he want from me kicking wait and he tells him throw him in the deer of theim in the where the goats are hanging out throw him there the guy gets thrown into the what far yeah he tell he throws him he gets thrown into where the the goats are with all their their dirt and His Last Hope just was was was diminished of course he starts crying and crying and crying he's crying so much that the the eye bursts all the P comes out and the eye well gets healed and he's like wow the eye I can see all the all you know he didn't the p came out so he goes up then rambam comes to him gives him a big hug and he says oh now come let me help you and he cures him and he takes him into his home and he and he hugs him he kisses him he here have a cup of tea and he gives him food and he says okay now now I can take care of you he's like why did you throw me to the to where the goats are why did you had to humiliate me like this in front of everybody and had to go through all this and and be thrown there so ra told him because I wanted you to cry so strong that the tears are going to make the eye watery and that I knew will open the the womb the wound and all the P will come out so I wanted you to go through this that's it that's what I wanted you to do so we learn from this that ysep kind of did the same thing ysep wanted to make sure that his brothers did Chua he wanted to make sure that before he forgives them and accepts them they have to do chuva because the sin that the brothers did they were H they had a decree of death there's a a Mitzvah in the Torah that if a person sells another person the Torah says M you're not allowed to sell a person this is a a Prohibition in in Tor and the the result of the prohibition is death and when the Torah says mum we see it in couple times the the term mum our our commentary says M yam death in this world you in the world to come double death so they did one of the most sever sins that they saw a human being so they all had the sin hovering over their head that they had to die now we know that many years later about 1500 years later 10 individuals had to come back to the world and die what's called K these are the 10 the 10 Martyrs that died in a very different and weird and severe way and these were reincarnations of the brothers they all had to come back here and they had to die and we see we know how each and every one of them died I mean r AKA was one of them they killed him combing his flesh with with steel and each one of the had to suffer a severe death and each and every one of them we know were a Reincarnation of the brothers they had to come back here so ysph did not want them to go through this he want them to do Chua because if they would not do Chua they would not even come back here in a reincarnation to die on K they would Shalom lose their So based on what ysph saw he said okay let me make them do Chua at least they'll be able to come back here and down kashem and completely transform the sin into light and they died in one of the most honorable and the best ways you can one can die and that's dying on K what are they that they are no we they have different other sources there's different books of cabala that's one thing that we didn't mention before when when I said we're going to learn the gates of reincarnations we we did two classes about the preparation about that and we went through different books that they mention there's one book of a of reincarnations that he actually says it's the book is written by the Rama the Rama from Pano and he was one of the the students of theal and he has a book seph and in this book he mentions many many many of people who they are this person is that reincarnation that person of this reincarnation we had a Class A few weeks ago that we mentioned the all sorts of the individuals who they got reincarnated in yob got reincarnated in madik and ASA got reincarnated in in ham and vashi got she was somebody she somebody that we mentioned in in this in the class God reincarnated in her we went through different classes when we when when we're going to go through the course of reincarnations I think what we'll have a habit that every class will start with a story based from either the talmud or other books that we're going to mention people who who they got reincarnated in but we know that these the 10 are Martyrs that died on Kem they they came as a reincarnation they're all the 10im that sold y so Ys wanted them to do Chua now ramb has a rule in Chua that how do I really know that I really did chuva is that hasem puts me back in the same situation and I have to to see I my my way to see if I actually did Chua if if I'm not repeating the same thing hasem will put me back in the same place now I want Hashem wants to see if I will repeat it if I don't repeat it that's for me is a as a sign that I did my cha so the the the way ra is saying it he says same place same time same woman that a person comes back to the same place to the same time and he has the opportunity to do the exact same sin and if he holds himself one can know okay I I did Chua this is my level of and we see our life that hasem puts us in situations then I have the opportunity to do the exact same thing I did 10 years ago a year ago 20 years ago and if I don't do it and I actually recognize that I had the opportunity and didn't do it I can say you know my chuva I did a cycle so ysep wanted to make sure that the brothers do Chua so if you see ysph did an entire rerun to exactly what happened that when the brothers came to ysep and he started telling them you are spies you know one of the brother brothers should have said wow I'm having a deu I have been here already we told him we told our brother that he's a spy and then he said they sold him to the Convoy of the isim then he s to say sends them back and then he takes Shimon why did he choose to take Shimon and throw him in the pit Shimon was the one who threw him in the pit you would expect one of them of saying hey wait a minute this is this is too familiar what's going on here Shimon threw our brother into the pit now Shimon gets thrown into the pit then you see that the entire thing that he did is a rerun of what happened to him he sold to say blames y bamin for something he didn't do he was blamed for something he didn't do bamin goes to jail he went to jail he's basically doing a whole rerun and at some point he brings the shim to to understand that that they're having a payback time and it actually says in the Torah that they recognize look what's happening to us what we did to our brothers haunting us after 22 years it's coming back to us he brought them to do Chua he wanted them to complete by themselves their Chua and once they're done with their Chua then he can actually reveal himself that was the point of ysf a sadik now how did he really know that they did Chua how did he know exactly he found out he saw that they did the right when he wanted to finally jail bamin and they stood and they're like no we're fighting for him he's not going into jail we're going to die but he's not staying here he saw that this time they were protecting the brother he did whatever he could to to try to arouse jealousy he sat bamin next to him in the meal then he gave him more more presents he did whatever he could to see he was really testing them so basically the reason reason why ysep was doing all that is he wanted them to do Chua he did not want to come and tell them hey guys I'm ysep I forgive you then they wouldn't do Chua then Shalom they would not have the opportunity to repent and Shalom they might use their lose their so the entire show was to do one thing and there's a very smart teaching by King Solomon that he says is when it means a a father that doesn't want to hit his child hates him when sometimes if you go in the street or you come to a scenario and you see a father hitting the child the first impression is that wow look at this mean father he's hitting the child but says no means that he does that he doesn't do shto is a is a stick and so no he hates his son why because if I'm not going to hit my child when he's young to teach him something he will grow to Shalom go the wrong way and the right father he he educates his son sometimes he has to hit him hard for the son to learn on his flesh that you not allowed to do that so we see that ysep did not want them Shalom to lose their more than that he knew he he knew how it has to go he had a whole plan going out first he's going to bring theim then he's going to bring bamin then yob has to come he knew that yakob had to come how is he going to bring yob down how is yob going to come down to MIT he had to do this whole show because he knew his dreams are the real prophecy he knew they had to come true so he had to have a plan how to bring them down not only that he knew that they all have to come down to MIT to be enslaved so they can all later on be he knew everything he just play the game so our answer to our question why he was so mean to them and why he was revenging and all this whole show because he had an agenda exactly like later on schl says he knew that he has to he had to punish them so to say in order to bring them to do chuva by themselves but I want to know how is that's to do with me okay I see the wisdom behind it I understand but what is that going to do with me what what can I take from that first of all the most important thing to take from that is that we see that really he wasn't really upset at them he didn't really was angry with them he was really like the story that I said in the beginning witha he he he already forgave them when it happened he didn't hold Grudge he just had to see that it's all going to fall through he was actually he he had an unbelievable tremendous love to them that he wanted them to do Chua he did not want them to lose theira he did not want them to be punished so he pretended and put on this whole entire act for them to do Chua but really he was really forgiving them he forgave them already while at the time that happened and that's the first thing why you have to learn is the power of forgiving an individual that did something bad to me and unfortunately in our life we meet many people that they do bad things to me deliberately or intentionally or or by mistake I have to learn from that that I always have to forgive any person that did something bad to me and that's that has to do with me not with that person we spoke about it in one of our previous classes that there are certain attributes that I have to work on and one of the attributes that I have to work on which is one of the most hardest attributes and we see that hasem has this attribute and this attribute is called in English is for bearness when we concentrate for bearness for bearness means that somebody did something bad to me deliberately on purpose and I still forgive that person and we got to learn that we take that from hasem every day we mention hashem's 13 attributes of Mercy we say we mentioned in yesterday's class that every day in the days of kanuka we you have to meditate every day on one name one attribute of mercy of the kadosh today is the name k why because we're still even though we started that last night but we still that's the the the name the attribute of the we have to meditate on tomorrow or tonight and tomorrow will be then so one attribute that the has it's called we every day make make hasm Angry we know that we're not allowed to lie and we still lie and we know we're not allowed to say and I still say and I know I'm not allowed to cheat and steal I still do it so I come and I do something on purpose and I so to say annoy hasem I make AEM angry and Hashem still finds it in his heart to forgive us this is this is not a regular forgiveness this is for baress that he ignores the fact that I went against him this is an attribute that we really have to work on this and we see that y was was totally working on this attribute he forgave them way before they came this whole show was just to bring them to do cha just from his unbelievable love to them so first of all what I want to take from this is this practice of forgiving somebody way before I the person comes to to ask for forgiveness you see in our that we say the first thing that we say I'm now here forgiving every person that that upset me and I continue to say Ben whether he hurt me on my body on my money and we had also Ben whether it was this rear life a different life a reincarnation it's extremely extremely not healthy for me to hold anger and Grudge and and and and not to forgive a person because basically everybody who does something to me it's because hasem sent them to me it's I have to go through something that person is just a a messenger it's a puppet of the K if somebody did something bad to me I should not have a a little anger towards that person because that's I I deserve that the next thing I want to learn from this is that this world there's a concept that is called mid what what I do that's how I get paid so to say and that's what the the the tribes they understood that right away in this world is mid mid measurement against measurement ifom I do something negative that's what's going to come back at me people translate it as AEM punishes so we know that hashm doesn't punish anyone hem is not a third grade teacher that if you talk they he puts you in timeout Shem just stands on the side Shem created the world with rules and whatever I put out to the world that what comes bounces back at me if I put out in the world something positive then the energy that will bounce back at me is positive and if I put something negative out there then it will come back at me so this is called mid mid if I do something very special to a human being a big Act of Charity then somebody will do this Act of Charity to me and if I give money to charity somebody will help me from this way and if I forgive this individual for doing something bad to me when I do something bad to him he will forgive me right away it's like a circle so the next thing I want to take from that that when things happen to me especially bad and negative I cannot blame anybody I cannot come to complaints to anybody and say why is this happening to me and I can for sure not look up up to sh and saym why are you doing this to me because if something went wrong to me means that it's some type of a circle I probably threw out something like that to the world and now it's coming back at me it doesn't mean it happened last week could be that it's 20 years ago like with the brothers with the with the tribes 22 years pass and then they're like now now it's haunting us it says in the Torah in the text read in the text that at some point they were talking and they're saying now look the fact that we saw our brother we it's boomeranging on us right now so sometimes things things happen in my life and it's because I threw something out to the universe 30 years ago and I didn't do Chua for it and hasem is so merciful k a god such a merciful god that he put situations in my life that 20 years later I will have the ability to do Chua for something I did 20 or 30 years ago that I totally forgot about it and hasm puts me in a situation not to Shalom judge that individual that's doing something bad to me or to be upset at that person who's doing something bad to me or to complain why is this particular thing is not working is for me to come to the understanding and saying hey wait a minute I must have done that in my past if that person is now being being mean to me or he's doing something to me maybe I did that to somebody in the past if this situation is now happening to me maybe I did that it's to bring me to do cha so when things happen to me in my life is not to get upset is rather to analyze the situation and saying wait a minute hasem is being kind to me I have to do Chua for something and the point is that when something bad happens to me then right away my ego gets gets into to action hey that person is wrong I'm right this shouldn't happen Hashem is being mean to me why is this going on the point is that I have to bring myself to the to the understanding that no if something is going on means that it's for me to look inside and see maybe I did something wrong maybe I have to to do Chua I have to humble myself I have to to to diminish my ego and if I diminish my ego and and I humble myself I'm able to actually see if I did something wrong and I can do Chua for it if I pumping up my ego I'll never do Chua for anything because I'm right but I have to bring myself to a point to understand wait a minute maybe I'm not right could be that one's in a blue moon I'm not right and I'm actually wrong here so what I want to take from that is that I'm not always right right and I'm not always perfect and sometimes I have to humble myself and see where I was wrong and in situations in my life hasem is not punishing me hasem is not being mean to me hasem wants to guide me and hasem wants to put me in a situation that I can be mature enough and say okay let me see if this is not working out why why is it not working out maybe I did something in the past maybe I I hurt somebody maybe I owe somebody money maybe I did something I need to do my own Chua so what I want to learn from that that Hashem is always kind with us Hashem is always bringing us to the situation that he wants us to to to sh not to lose our world to to do and to see that things that happens in my life it's just up for me to do to to go through a certain action the exact same story with with with with the rambam that I mentioned that he he had to he made him cry ra made the Ezra cry on purpose so he will cry and cry and cry and eye will open so sometimes hasem puts me in a situation and I'm crying so to say and at the time when it's happening I'm suffering but it's aem's way of saying no that's what's going to heal you this is what's going to make the eye soft and the p is going to come out and then I'll come and hug you so I have so many beautiful things that I can take from this parasa and apply it into my life that first of all like I said said first of all not to be upset at anyone not not to carry this anger towards any person and unfortunately we always carry anger to people it can be instant and it can be like a long thing some people they carry anger for 40 years and it's the worst thing all the sicknesses come from that the person that is sick first of all before going to the doctor must make chuva and forgive every person that they that they're angry at that's guarantee when people call me and they tell me that they having a certain sickness I have this sickness this is to give me a remedy for this give me a remedy for that then I tell them I'm not a doctor but I can tell you one thing forgive in your heart whoever you're really upset at because if you're really upset at somebody if you get can get rid of a certain sickness I'm not talking about a sour throat talking about a sickness that doesn't leave then it means you're not forgiving somebody you're holding Grudge and the same way you're holding this negativity somewhere it's attached to one of your organs it's not going to leave and people get sick they kill them themselves from being upset at somebody so that's the first thing I want to take from that is that just to constantly have this motion of forgiving everybody and more than that I want to understand that Hashem is everything that hasm does to me it does for the good everything that Hashem brings down to the world is for the good it's for me to go through a certain process it's for me to cry a little bit so I can do Chine mainly the most important thing I want to take from that is is this is a very supicious time for we mentioned yesterday in the class about kanuka that the completion of the CH from ends on the last night of kanuka not on like many people think I have another two months to complete my Chua and kanuka is a very spicious time to do CH so this comes at the right time that that I can complete my cycle of CHA I can take this time this week to meditate and to see how I can do cha and who do I need to forgive and what do I need to repay and what do I need to fix and I I can finalize my cha that's what y he wanted his his brothers to do Chua real Chua it wouldn't be the real Cha if he would tell them listen I'm ysf listen I forgave you already okay forgave us great he wanted them to to quetch all the way to the end to do the real chuma that way they can come and be ready and then he can tell them okay now I forgive you now you can come and live next to me now I'll give you everything in my abundance so should take advantage of this powerful week that the light of kanuka is shining for eight days so we can do chuva we can take this powerful and beautiful light and forgive wherever we need to forgive and let go and basically bring us to a point that we can Elevate ourselves to a level that we can derive this unbelievable Power and Light from Kan to carry us through through the rest of the year with our own and with own we will Merit to see the beautiful lights of the manora lighting in bet mikdash it should happen very soon we should have a beautiful restful and and and lit up full of Lights week amen