Parashat Ki Tisa - What good is a golden calf? - Rabbi Alon Anava

[Music] we are in the shot ki Tisa where we face one of the most severe sins of our history of our nation that up until today we're paying for it needless to say this is the sin of the golden calf and which raises a lot of questions first of all how can they do such a thing they just saw God coming down on the mountain they saw miracles coming out of its time and they are still able to do such a thing there's many different questions but we wanna more find out what is the spiritual significance behind the same and how is that affecting me and what do I need to learn from that and before we even go to understand that we we have to understand the background behind it now there is a question I don't know if you have been to a Hooper lately but when the groom puts the ring on the bride's finger he tells her lay at me additionally you are hereby sanctified to me but abad zoo with this ring and then it says a very interesting part Keith Mosher be slain as the religion of Moshe in Israel by calling it the religion of Moshe it's the religion of God I mean why you've been saying the word religion why aren't you saying it's the rule of God why is Moshe mention here katma share like what is that the marshes invention then the meaning behind it is that we know I mean reread the Toa a few times we know that Moshe Rabbeinu had a journey and a half with the nation they drove him nuts from the moment he came there he didn't he didn't even want the job when Hashem asked him on the mountains Moshe Alban who did whatever he could to get away with his I don't want this job find somebody else and then it was forced to be in the job and for 40 years they drove him completely nuts to a point that anybody else would be like I had it up to here I quit so looking at this at this relationship Moshe Divino fought with the nation of Israel for 40 years but nevertheless they stayed together Moshe Rabbeinu never left the nation and the nation never left him and this comes to teachers with the bride and groom in other words yeah you're gonna be fighting a lot but you have to stick together as long as you make it and you stick together then that's the purpose of the marriage and you will have a lot of fights just get ready and and we see in this week's pareshan is a bigger a bigger problem it's a very big sin it's literally a very sensitive time and this happens to to cause motion of a note to get very upset with the nation he got so upset that he really didn't know what to do with them this was not just a regular scene or a regular complaint I mean they complained to him all the time we want meat we want food we want this we want that this was already way beyond that to a point that he got so upset that he took the tablets that were in his hand and he smashed him on the on the ground now some people think that Moshe had a problem with anger that he needed some anger management's but he wasn't it actually happened to be that because of the seen the letters that were in the tablets were contaminated from by the sin so the letter letters there were holy letters they left the tablet they couldn't sustain in the physical tablet and the tablet became so strong that motion lovino they dropped because the trab trab trab tablets are huge it's not like what you see now we're in pictures that say some guy with the beard Charlton Heston his holding like used to small tablets not an iPad tablets were massive they were huge and once the Holy letters left the tablets they fell down on the ground what the Moser was a hothead individual that smashed it but nevertheless the literal explanation here is that motion comes down from the mountain and he gets so upset I don't know if he got upset or disappointed but nevertheless the result was the breaking of the tablets now this is a very harsh time in our history this is a severe sin I mean we had a few severe sins in our history but this is one of the big ones the golden calf and it seems like the nation betrayed in a Shem it seems like they went against the Shem and they made a new God and comes a big question if this is the case if really the nations of Israel betrayed a Shem why would they choose a calf a cow choose something else do something like a little bit more lofty why are you choosing an animal so this is ready raising the question maybe they didn't really betray the Shem maybe there was something else there because if they'd already be trading and you're leaving a sham why would you do it to a calf to a little cow doesn't make sense make something else and not only that that if you're already choosing and let's say why choose an animal but if you're already choosing to make a new God then choose I Moonbeam yryr animal and if you already if this is the case then it should be a human being so why don't you make it I won I won was the one who was left there moshe rabbeinu left i won't remain so a point i want to be the your new god why are you choosing an a calf from all things that you choose to make a god why and a little calf now comes even a more interesting question if you're already choosing an animal why a cow why not a duck wait hold on but why not a duck why not uh FK is saying this so vision so in the vision they saw an eagle and a nine why not align you're right they did see a vision but been in the vision they saw the chariots and they saw all four phases that were on the chariots you are 100% right but why specifically the cow and not the other phases they saw in the cherries such as the lander the eagle of the line but nevertheless comes all these questions why a calf why not a different animal why not a human being where they did they really go and betray a shame what was really going on there so first of all we have to understand that this whole entire scene is to signify something that happens to us on a daily base and this is called falling down from my spiritual level this is called in in hebrew called Nephilim or innate then I'm holding in a certain level spiritually and I fall down and this is what it comes to signifies and now I want to find out what's behind it because basically in short words in other words this whole scene the rereading amount is coming to teach me four generations and I will also have a times can be every day can be once a month gonna be once a year then I will fall down from my spiritual level now now I have to understand a little bit the story behind it before we start analyzing it now on the sixth day of the month of seven we datura we're all standing in Mount Sinai we're seeing this whole miraculous show and we're receiving the Torah on the seventh day of Sivan Moshe Rabbeinu says okay guys I am packing my bags and I'm going for 40 days I need to learn this Torah we just received now the quick overview in the ten commandments now I have to learn it I have to understand what it means it says in the Torah that I have to put fill in on it doesn't even say the word filling it just is unsign on my hand okay I need to know what means a sign it says remember the Shabbat it says in the key Ten Commandments the hole at the Amish about locojoe okay I need to go through a course what does it mean to remember the Shabbat it says that I have to write a mezuzah on my wall where how who when how big when do I do it how do I do it emotional men who says I'm very sorry guys I am leaving for 40 days and I will be back with all the information that I need to teach you so a day after Matan Toa sign stephen moshe rabbeinu packs his bags of course that's my Edition he doesn't doesn't pack any bags but he tells the nations I'm going to be gone for 40 days and he goes up goes up to the mountain there look he ascends into the mountain and disappears now forty days later when does it mean that he has to come back on the 16th day of Tammuz very quick calculation to design demos now they saw moshe rabbeinu living on the sixth hour of the day meaning in the middle of the day probably around noon in the afternoon maybe you know it changes with the time of dawn but we know based on our teachings of our sages moshe rabbeinu took off the flight was scheduled for six hours after dawn he took a little al flight and they got first class and that's where the airline got its name by the way they ll cuz he went ll means - al means above so he went above that's where the airline got it I'm sure the the somebody they thought of what should we name the Israeli airline and some some wise guy said hey Moshe went up to this room I'm he went ll let's call their company ll nevertheless no al l will be above the god L is a god but L means to Allah means above no no no L like a god L means you say irony or less l ha Knut I'm going to the store so it's like - so L I'll got the name for Moshe Albania went up he probably has a copyright on the name they bought the rights nevertheless 40 days Moshe Rabbeinu is up on the mountain now they're all waiting Hey no she's gone 40 days ago they're biting nails when is he coming down what are we getting here so in the meantime there are two rulers that stay behind one of them is our own a coin he's the left behind to take care of business and another individual called who'll he is the son of Miriam the Prophet these are the two people that got the keys to the to the to the chamber to the office they're now in charge now everybody's waiting for Moshe they know now they're counting the days 39 38 37 now what happens they're coming for the day comes the day to design but the Mo's comes noon Robbie comes up waiting another another hour another hour where's washer why is he not coming where is he now starting to panic wait a minute the guy said he's coming it's known already it's already a couple hours after starting to panic now everybody starting to give all sorts of assumptions they're all Jews of course don't remember don't forget the old Jews he did this he did that okay one opinion comes and says we're fools we were taken for a ride how can a human being being shammai for 40 days and come back what are we idiots we fell for this trick he left no that's the matter we're not upset at him maybe he was too good up there and he didn't want to come back but how can we were taken for fools here thinking that a human being will go out to the mountains with no food with no drinks he didn't even take his pillow you know sometimes you travel abroad you see people travel with the pillow so they ever to put their head on there on the on the side how can even be alive doesn't make even sense and right away this opinion was the one who took president and everybody was like oh my gosh Moshe is not coming back we wasted 40 days now came a group of people there called the era of love and they came and took opportunity they saw Masha Allah banners not coming right away they said no he left he died he's not coming back we know the citta also showed the vision that they showed moshus deaths that the angels are escorting motions is if he died and now this air above they came and they said okay listen Moshe is not coming let's make ourselves a new god and they said we're very good at that you know who the head of love were there were there top sorcerers of me-time because they saw Moshe Rabbeinu coming with all this hocus-pocus they said oh that's that's much more much more than what we have and these were like the how to mean I don't have to call them really sorcerers rather they're called her to him the ones that were doing the sorcery and the witchcraft and stargazers these are the other love they came out there was like oh this is some a power here specifically they there was two of them one of them was named Eunice and the other one is a yo-yo well you and we are not pronouncing there your Yaya's that was the to her to mean that came out of me time there's a part of the Ella grab your nose and they weigh on your V&V was nevertheless they said listen let's say make our new God we're good with that we know how to make God's so we'll make a new god right away they go to who who was the son of Miriam and they tell him let's do that who says no no no no I'm not gonna allow such a thing so they kill him on the spot no questions right away mafia shoot him in the head so they go to Alan now I want saw what they did to who I won was a little bit more wiser and he says listen if you can't fight them join them that's where the term came along says listen what's good gonna do if I'm gonna fight them I'm gonna kill me so they're gonna do anyways what they want let me try to manipulate the situation or stall something till mascha happen who comes so they come to our corner that one says yes you know what I agree with you but you know today we're tired because we're all waiting for motion income let's go and rest and let's start from tomorrow so it was able to so one more day then they come back ok now how we're gonna do it so Alan says I have an idea if we're making a god then it has to be from the best of the best go back go to your tents and collect from your wives jewelry I mean way before making a card it has to be from the best material go collect jewelry from your wives now him in his mind saying ok the wife's will never give up the jewelry and then that way I will be able to stole the middle more and I'll gain another few hours before Moshe Levin was coming this plan didn't work well they went to their wives and their wives gladly gave all the jewelry now they're coming with all the jewelry in US and and and the plan didn't work so I won says okay not what I'm going to do okay I won't say it says okay I'll take my chance he takes all the jewelry he throws it into the fire and what do you know a golden calf comes out of the fire now the whole story started because of a young man called Mika now the story says that unfortunately in Egypt the the there were so mean and so ruthless these Egyptians that they would give certain individuals a quota of how many bricks they have to make per day and if they would miss a certain quota of bricks they would put instead of a brick baby that's what they used to do they they would put babies instead of bricks one time Moshe a window goes and he sees a baby stuck in the wall in between the bricks and he sees the baby dying Moshe Rabbeinu tells the Kadosh Baruch turns to the tour sham and says let me get the baby out why is it I can't stand I've seen such a sight so Marsha Levine who gets a very very harsh answer from a sham sham tells him no these babies that are stuck in the walls are going to be future to sin against me so ready now there get being stopped from doing even the sin and one way you can look at it is a very harsh answer by saying no they're going to sin I'm stopping it now if you're looking it you can look at it in a positive way the regime says I don't want them to sin let me let me stop it right now so they're not going to even fall to us in nevertheless Moshe lovino didn't like this answer and took pulls the baby out of the wall and this baby grew up and his name is Misha anyways this baby Micah grew up to be one of the edge of love and Moshe Rabbeinu himself saved him now the story says that when Moshe Rabbeinu went to bring Yosef coffin and he didn't know where it is they were looking everywhere way where's Joseph's coffin came Sarah and she said that the coffin is right over there that's where they dropped it into the water now go now digger they didn't have submarines and and equipment they have now how they're gonna bring now the coffin from the depth of the ocean so motion takes a little piece of gold this piece of gold is called tusks Zahav tas is like a little piece and he writes on it moshe engraves on this piece of gold as towards there are a combination a very mystical Kabbalistic combination of words and this word says ali shah rise up ox because Yosef was called an ox when ryuko was giving all the blessings if you remember he compared all of them to animals you that was compared to a lion and one to a wolf and one - Yosef was compared to an ox Moshe or Ueno wrote on the piece of gold rise up then he in English it's two words rise up in Hebrew it's aller and the word ox show Ali show me through this piece of gold into the ocean or you know the coffin of yourself comes up now what happens Moshe Obon was so busy with the coffin he didn't even notice that that piece of a gold was on the coffin but he was busy with the dealing with what he has to do getting ready to leave with time this young man mija came and took that piece of gold he saw it and he came and took the piece of gold and later on this is the time when Misha actually took this piece of gold and he threw it into the to the fire when I one took all the jewelry and he threw it into the fire it's not that the jewelry came out it was that piece of gold that he threw Mesa threw it into the fire and what does it say on the gold Ali Shah come out an ox and a calf comes out the son of the of the show comes out of the fire now I was trying with whatever power he has to push it a little bit more he's whatever he can I was not participating in he was trying to trick them he was trying to manipulate the situation that he will gain another day and really Moshe came one day later that was the mistake there was a calculation here with the hours because Moshe Rabbeinu didn't tell them I'm coming didn't tell them the date I'm coming he just says I'm coming in 40 days and obviously was a miscalculation here and what happens instead of coming onto sine beta Mo's Marsha Levine who comes back on you exam beta Mo's and that's the day I mean a Patil today we fast on your design but the most the 17th of the most that's when the tablets broke that's when Moshe Rabbeinu comes of course mashallah been already here's the news in Jemima Jim tells symbol left red alarm kechi Fatima go down to your nation they they they sin now hearing news it's not like seeing news in the beginning Moshe Hurley is like no no no no chance they did it he comes down from the mountain he sees with his own eyes and breaks the tablets now hmm like we said he didn't physically broke them they just do show the holiness parted and the tablets fell down now the air of love which really there's no way right translation - Eric love Arab is mixed a mixture and Rob can be translated as somebody who fights leave somebody Arab can be also love rabbi have somebody who's in control but nevertheless up until today we have a mixture of this era of love people who look like me with beards and pelts and suits and hats and pray three times a day and managing is she vote and then a big organization and their entire agenda is nothing but money and power and to make people fail they just celebrate pull them every day every day they have a costume on but they're not really have any agenda to door shams work nevertheless they had a very hard argument how can it be that a human being will survive 40 days in the mountain it can't be but nevertheless we know Rambam for example said no actually mo she lived physically in the heavens it wasn't that he left the body behind and the neshamah went Moshe physically lived in the inch I mean he took his body after shaman and Mohammed even says no he was in such a high spiritual level that his body didn't need food and his body didn't need sleep and his body didn't drink he was in a very very high spiritual level there is a Midrash that says specifically on the Midrash on Pisciotta Zeno that it says that's what he's talking about it's talking about that moshe says on himself forty days i didn't drink anything i didn't add anything motioning himself saying i worked hard to get this tohe for you i fasted for 40 days you know it is too fast for 40 days now in two days we're gonna fast for 12 hours people are already starting to get dizzy from thinking of one fast already thinking how can I get my way out of it Mohan says I had to work really hard to get the Torah meaning that I yes you're right I survived up there I fasted for you comes a big question now how did they expect a calf to replace Moshe I understand you're appointing a human being but a calf an animal what's the logic behind it even more than that if if it was Moshe Rabbeinu who died so what if he died why you betraying God why are you changing a god say okay our leader died let's get a new leader why are you changing the guard here why you believing now in a new God I understand okay let's believe for a second let's listen to the argument of the erev rav that mashallah be no human there's no chance he survived on the mountain forty days okay I'll accept that one why are you changing the god why going against God wait for God to appoint a new leader I'll say okay no leader let's just direct our faith into God why you're now creating a new God now our the commentary explains gives an answer to that and say they weren't looking for a new God they were looking for a new leader that was their thing they said okay we accepted that our leader died we need a new leader so the commentary comes and says no well let's move one question out of the way they weren't looking to replace God they were looking to replace a leader now they understood that they need what's called a mimosa a connector between them and God they knew that we up until today we need them that's why we were that's why I'm a chef is a human being there's a huge question why does a Shem need Messiah can he come himself and do what everyone's why do we need a human being because that's how it works has to be a connector a mediator between us and God and that's a moshe rabbeinu and that's why machine is also going to be a human being but they knew that they had to have a connector so they didn't want to replace God they just said okay we want a new leader when that said okay so you want to leave it a new leader but why choosing an animal you said you wanted no leader go to our and tell him I won't please be early our new leader I'll go to somebody there why choosing an air calf there Vanessa explains a commentary exactly what you said everybody in Matan Toa saw the chariot would you has killed the prophet saw I mean we know this is a middle Ashley says what a maidservant Shifa mushy fava Italian what a maidservant saw in the ocean the Prophet if his kalpen bazillion see what they saw the the miraculous sight yes they saw Hashem coming down on the roundel hovering on the chair of glory and what's holding the chair glory four faces the face of a human a face of a lion a face of an eagle and a face of an ox they saw the area so there Vanessa says yeah well they saw the four options so they said okay what's the most appropriate to be the mediator one of the representatives of the chariot either the Ox either their ego either the line or either the man say this is the case they just wanted to switch a leader they said okay we're not looking to to betray God which is looking for a new leader that's why after that after Moshe Rabbeinu came down there was a plague 3,000 people from the other half died and that's it so this is the case comes another question why account so choose an eagle or an ox or or the lion or there's a face of a man there so choose a man why from all four faces of the chariot specifically the calf just chose our eye one was pretty high up there is the brother of Moshe Rabbeinu he proved the ready that he also has prophecy in war hakodesh choose him I think he's a good leader there's a story that maybe will kind of shed some light on it there was a certain rabbi he's known as the mission hokhmah OB male simcha coin he was the the rabbi of Dvinsk lived about I think about 150 years ago very very very unique individual big Sadiq and he's known as the measure hokhmah that is when the previous Rebbe of Dvinsk died he was convinced they're gonna come to him because he was the most appropriate individual to take the leadership they didn't they went everywhere but to him in the beginning he got a little bit offended but he says okay whatever I don't care he just didn't understand why they're not coming to him he says I'm the most appropriate one and when this happened he says I understand now the golden calf sin that's what he said this is a big headache and he says I understand why they did the Golden Calf because when you're looking for something new you're looking for something different when you're looking to replace something you said the old one was fine but let's start look for something new now so he says the previous Rebbe of drains died they're not looking for something that is similar looking for anything but the similarity and he says now I understand what they did the golden calf because I said okay we had already emotional been oh look let's look for something new something that we didn't have yet so we don't want a human being rather we want an animal and there and from from that tienda says that that they chose their calf so and they understood that the way to receive the face of the screener will be specifically from the face of the Ox that's what they understood from that now this is the you know simple explanation where the golden calf came from they figured out Moshe Rabbeinu died they didn't want to betray em they just needed a new leader they said okay let's appoint the leader okay we had already a human being before that calf I think it sounds pretty good everybody in favor all in favor let's do a calf yella let's go there's a very simple explanation what was really happening here but we want to look at something a little bit more deeper than the surface what really happened there there's a story with the Megiddo mizuage he's known as the student of the Baal Shem Tov and the Baal Shem Tov had many students but one specific student that continued this path and he's known as the Megiddo message later on he was the Rebbe the teacher of all the great pillars in the Hasidic world that came to study in his yeshiva he was located in a city called message physically it was a sick man he couldn't travel like the Baal Shem Tov and everybody went to learn from him and all these big names that we hear in the world of Xhosa dirt all studied in the same yeshiva the normal MLA eliminate from the John's could be Lucia for money Polly the the levitra from Baldy job and aside from Oh Jean Marie she knows almond from Lee Adi the ballot Anja everybody went to that yeshiva to study for from and then each one of them went back to their place and started spreading their teachings and they came from all over the place I mean from Poland from Russia from many different places the monkey from ostrich had a son and one day he sees his son crying doesn't why he crying son tells him because you know I was playing now with the all the kids hear a game and this game is called hide-and-seek and one kid has to look for all their other ones that are hiding from him and he says I played the game and it was my turn to hide and I was hiding and after a while that they couldn't find me they gave up and they left and I'm now nobody found me and I'm crying so they market from us they just started crying with him and says now I understand now you should understand how God feels God hides himself and he wants us to look for him and we give up very easily and we stop looking from him now you understand how God feels God conceals himself from us how does he conceal himself we don't see God around here we don't feel him we maybe believe in him but we don't see anything and more than that to even make the challenge even greater then God starts throwing challenges into our life basically in other words hiding himself even more because everything would be good you know when God is the best God when you have a good job when you're healthy when you find your other half and everything is going swell God is the best god first challenge that hits that's it I don't like God anymore that's how it works so when life goes very smooth then you love God and God is the best and you talk great about him and he did this and he did that and till the first slap in your face then you're like ok I don't like this God anymore so Hashem hides himself through these challenges that we have and he says now look for me and when we don't look we give up very fast we're very quick to say ok I'm out of this game you turn around and you stop looking and what happens is if I think that God is not there then I believe that he doesn't exist and it turn around and daily and you leave so basically saying in other words that a shrimp says I hide from you but don't give up don't fall into despair because you don't see me look for me work hard oh yeah what's the point if you just see me the point is that I want you to work hard I want you to go through a challenge and I want you to understand and that you have to work hard to find me now there is a story in the Talmud that it says that the sin of the calf was a plot was a conspiracy it's called Noah allele Alberni Adam it was a plotted or or planned by the calash pehoe and it says there that the sin had to happen it had to happen one way or another and the calash book was said ok I have to put them through something through a certain situation and I I plan for it to happen this is what the Talmud says that the scene had to happen the calash but what a conspiracy against the humans for only one reason God wanted them to be a ballet Chava he says that now there said Hakeem they went through going out of me time they counted the seven weeks they elevate themselves they refined ourselves then came a tanto ha they were elevated to a very high level of tsadikim then there all died because we know that every time the regime spoke their soul went out of their body and which the reason for that was because some sins you can't get your copper ah your tournaments in this world you can bring a sacrifice you can't do anything and one of them is Hillel a shame when a person desecrates the name of Hashem you can do Chuba in this world it's not gonna help the person has to die the death its world will atone for that sin so Shem said no problem I'll kill you all I'll just reveal myself a little bit more all the souls jumped out of their bodies and then he put them back into the body so had a near-death experience and then he was able to atone for their sins so they all became sad Hakeem shrim says now oh it's not enough I want him to be Valley Tuwa I want him to do chuhwa what's the way to it for them to do chuhwa they have to sin now if I want the trouble to come from a very deep race and that it should reach a very high price and then the Chuba has to be coming from a very severe sin so the Talmud says you cannot go who wanted them to be baladeva he made them seem very simple and specifically Kadosh bahu made it that they fall in a severe sin not something small basically teaching us in other words the more that a shame pushes you away from him the more he wants you if the challenge is small then means that the the separation the distance is small but when the challenge is big the more sham pushes you away the more she wants it to be closer to him that's why our sages say when you have challenges accepted with with a lot of love and a lot of attention she says it's a shame his way of hugging you it's a shame his way of kissing you and saying to you I love you I want you to be close to me now if I already have failed in a sin which happens to us 17 times a day but if I already failed in a sin that just means that a shame really wants you close to him so that's why he allows it to happen and that's why he put such a big yet it survived and that's why he puts so many challenges because he wants you to rise above your level and do Chuba and not to fall and say okay you know I'm such a bad person I did so many bad things no she says no I want you to do Chuba I want you to rise to the occasion I want you to get up brush the dirt off and says okay nothing happened I'm gonna go above my level and this is a cold about you uh you know it says we're in Hebrew it says be mcComish abolish around him so the kingdom of women I'm a holy muhammad this says it says in the Talmud that a place were about you of a stands a complete sadly cannot stand because it's Adi doesn't have the temptation and Sadiq doesn't have the challenge and they are there the battle so that bow Java has that you know the example for that you can find in the Parishad that is called Liliha Leclerc heisman Avraham Avinu goes out of her now one can look at this that this was Avram of binos going up that's where he got elevated that's when he became a Avraham first he was Rock only Avram but yeah he became the OVA ham he became a much higher level one can say no partly clockwise promotion that's when he became a much greater leader but then again we see here a falling a vom Aveeno had an excellent we call it a failed how that when he was going out of me time he they went I saw it when he went out to Han they went to me time Salva was taken hostage by the Egyptians and he then he says Italia da takea fat Marat now I've noticed that you are gorgeous oh yeah where were you for 70 years that you didn't notice that your wife is gorgeous what you were busy somewhere else no he was up so holy that he never even either never looked at his wife Oh either he was such a holy level that he didn't see her physical beauty now that the Egyptians took her this is not really how beautiful you are in the level of Rama V know if went down in his level before he was in such a high level that he didn't look at the physical beauty he just saw the inner soul the inner beauty here now he sees his family he sees her body he sees her face he says now I know that you pretty mama vena went down so what was the cause for the elevation is the fact that he went down he had to go down that's why physically he went to meet time he had to go down south down in the level in order to ascend it's called a yearly Dalit Somalia and it seems that he's going down but really the hope of Asha is talking about a vomit window going up and and it had to be with going down with an ax with an ascending so we see that the Kailash Baba will put me in a situation that I will fail that I will go down in my level why so I can rise up and when I rise up I rise up to a much higher level it says in the Talmud specifically in the tractor Tabo does have a page 40 that Buchanan said in the name of Abby Shimon bar Yohai and he said the sin of Da Vida millet wasn't a sin he's not really we see it as a sin now in America sin and his level wasn't really a sin and not only that mob Johan and says in the name of rabbi shimon even when the nation of Israel sinned with the golden calf it's not a sin it wasn't a sin why because the there was a conspiracy so to say they made it that they will sin and you know it and you can't call the person accountable when you when you trick himself to say same thing here you know many times we do sins and we're forced to do the sin and there's not gonna be a judgment for that and there's not going to be a punishment for that because Hashem wanted to put me in a situation to test my reaction to see if I will get upset to feel to see if I would lose my temper to see that if I will lose my my you know how do you say optimism that I will become sad and depressed to see if I will let all my anger or everybody around me Shem is constantly testing my reactions so sham will so to say manipulate the situation that I will fall into a sin and now he says ok now let's see how he reacts if I rise to the occasion says nothing happened here I brush on my dirt I'm sorry I apologize Aldo Chava oh if I go ballistic and I start cursing and yelling and kicking and and screaming and fighting and soil tests so the specific place in the Talmud says no this was a test from the cannot but the colors but wanted to see our reaction how we're going to react how we're gonna do what are we gonna do and what an Anna she wanted us to be about Shuba specifically to teach me a very deep and strong foundation in my in my avoided a shame a shame wanted to teach us 3,400 years ago that you will sin but you know what you can always do chuva sham wanted to teach us that there's always the possibility to do chuhwa always doesn't matter what I'm going to do there's always the hope and the ability to rise up because if there wouldn't be such a sin we would not learn there is an option of doing chuhwa here we learned from the Torah that such a severe sin of a golden calf and a shame forgave them Hashem it still brought them into realities well they still got the second tablets meaning in other words there's hope for everybody doesn't matter what you do just to chew up do genuine chuva basically coming to teachers there were a place of about revoir complete sadly cannot stand and a shame wonders to be ballet Chava there's a big difference between a bow Chava and a hotel which over these are two terms that we use a lot of their means return it means that today I do chuhwa tomorrow do the scene again and then he'll do Chuba and for one week I will be able not to do it and then I'll sin again so this is returning that means to return so when I do trauma I will go back to the scene I back back to the chumma back to the scene back to the tuber back to the same this is Jose ritual but Bal Chava ball is the owner when I own something then you can take it away from me and of course in the physical world you can own a property and it will be taken away from you but the idea of Bausch wise that I own it that I mastered it and I don't never go back to that place this is about Shiva and amid the level of about revise a higher level than a Sadiq and as the present is all that is talking about the different levels in Canadian where each so is going to be and it's a very long mammalian as well but it says the first level of Canada in the second level the third the fourth level of Granada and he says there that all the people who died on kedusha shame on sanctifying the name of Hashem there in the fourth level of GaN Eden the whole game include the martyrs that died they were murdered because they were Jews the babies they were murdered to no culture but Robin I just imagine like water what a high level is there and he says in his old and on the fifth level about that is the Ballad you are much higher than that to a point that our sages say very clearly they were the position the level with about Java stands Siddiq why cuz the Sadek doesn't have the challenge that sadek doesn't have the the fight the daily fight that's how great it is to be about java there's a story to emphasize the idea that there was once a king and the king was looking for somebody to take over to be the second to the king or maybe to inherit his position he Carlos advises and he says listen I need to find the second to the king go and look throughout the land okay they posted ads everywhere we're recruiting anyone who wants to apply to the position please come forward 10,000 men stepped forward they started giving them all sorts of tests from 10,000 they narrowed it down to 1,000 continue giving them all sorts of tests checking them out they narrowed it down to a hundred from a hundred the narrowed it down to ten finally after months of tests they narrowed it down to three guys three men they come up to the king and until the king okay we narrowed it down to three guys these are the most highest potential to be appropriate for this job okay what do you want us to do now the King says okay let's give them their final test each and every one of them is gonna be looked locked in a room a whole night and each one of them is gonna get a special bottle of wine that is my specific go a king's wine and the one who's not gonna drink from the wine is going to be the second to the king now we don't understand what it means to sit next to a bottle of wine but in 802 to put it in our a perspective it's almost like putting drugs in front of a drug addict that he will go through a wall to get his a little drug that's how much the desire was to for this wine okay knocking all of them in the rooms clicking the watch okay now let's see Oh waiting there all night what's going to happen everybody's placing bets number one is gonna take number three I'm telling you he's better than number one everybody's the whole nation is anxiously waiting to see what's in there comes the moment to open the doors all the cameras CNN Fox all of them are standing there waiting all the reporters now let's gonna see drumroll are opening the first lock the second lock they're opening the door see the guys sitting like this the bottle of wine is next to him sealed they didn't touch it the whole night Wow everybody's look at that that might must be the next king okay they're going to the next door cameras are ready all the reporters are standing there drum roll there open the door you're looking to see the guy on the floor drunk the bottle was open completely finished it's okay this guy he's definitely not getting anything here he got the wine as a present now they're coming to the third door drum rolls cameras are there everybody waiting opening the door see the guy sitting on his bed they're looking at the bottle of the wine bottle of wine is opens you know but this much is missing from the bottle of the wine the King says that's gonna be the man what you just told us that the one who doesn't drink from the wine will be the second to the king he drank from it the king says you are right he did he opened it and he drank from it but you know what he sat there the whole night looking at the bottle after he tasted the wine and he didn't finish the bottle he had the power after he tasted the wine he know the taste not to touch it the whole night and that's the type of man that I want to be the second to the king and this is about Chava to keep the ball low and close big deal you never tasted what it means to sin but to taste the sin and they're not to touch it anymore that's a very high level this is about Chava that's what a shame wants he says I want strong people that I gave them a challenge they failed they tasted what it means to to sin and all their life there's going to be a battle there's gonna be a challenge to go back to it or not to go back to and they fail and they go back and they fail and they go back till the point that they rise above and says that's it that is it and to give up something that is under your skin it's almost impossible I have the highest respect to the people who are ex-drug addicts ex alcoholics ex whatever it is because they had something so strong and they were able to break break free from that break loose completely people look at these people as you know a second-class citizen is an ex-drug addict I want to see a normal human beings not touching their drugs for 40 years I really have the highest respect for them I talk in a lot of groups aana all these groups I have such high respect for them I know what it is to be addicted to something so strong and to break free from that and to live 3040 years clean that's very very high respect and Ashim says I want bio of us I don't want Siddiq him I want strong ballet Chava that they know what it means the sin and they rise up to the challenge and that's why shame so to say Orchestra he manipulated the situation there will be such a scene like the Golden Calf are severe sin Y so for 3400 years we're going to live with the sin in the back of our mind we sinned once we almost got completely destroyed Hashem told the motional venom I'm gonna destroy them I'm gonna give you a definition motion witnesses no no let's give them another chance let's give them another chance the whole point of this story is that our shame is telling us I want to show you that I'm willing to give you another chance doesn't matter what you did even assumptions so severe like idol worship betraying me I will still forgive you I'll give you another chance let's see now what you're gonna do don't blow it up this time and the message behind the story in the parasha is so clear and obvious and deep at the same time that Hashem says it's never too late doesn't matter how old you are you can do to bomb when you're 90 years old 90 years old you'll still do chuhwa and I will accept everything retro actively switch everything around and this is the message where I have to carry with us that Hashem says I want you in a high level I want you to be about rubra because you know what we're about you uh stands a complete Tzadik doesn't stand so Masada shame we should take this message and internalize it that I can always make a change because I as a human being as an observant individual as a person wants to connect myself - M is facing every day with challenges and the challenges can be something simple and one of the times the challenges are questioning my entire foundation of my belief am i doing the right thing look at me I mean am I really doing Meyer in the right place that's what happens to many people they become about you after 20 years they look in the mirror what are we doing they go to some family affair and everybody's like are you okay are you fine you sure you have all your you know wires connected up there you you know will accept you back I'm observant for 17 years I still go to sometimes to family and they're telling me you know you can make a u-turn you can cut the beard you're handsome man you can get a nice lady you can go back to your way or and you know yeah and many people that they become about Java or convert they reach a certain point in their life with some identity crisis what am i doing is this a am i okay I totally changed my life and I'm so devoted to this whole Torah maybe I lost my mind maybe this whole thing is is is is a hoax maybe somebody's fooling me and everybody's telling me are you out of your mind look at you so we're all facing with these questions and these doubts not talking about a challenge right now that I can't pay my rent that's another type of a challenge that Hashem is hiding himself when he wants to see muna and say no Hashem can pay my rent if he pays millions of people's rents he'll pay my rent - there's many levels of these challenges our shame is testing my belief my level how much I'm gonna stick to the collage before but there's even have even a greater test here wait a minute people can come to torrents in their life and they doubt their own Emunah well maybe maybe I lost it maybe was one drink too much and maybe I'm not doing the right thing maybe I am cuckoo Pasha comes to teach me no you're totally normal you're totally fine you are exactly where he's supposed to be and the reward for that is huge to be able to serve a sham without seeing him you know moshe Rubino was able to see all the generations forward motion bunnies saw everything he you know took her Hashem took the movie of this world and fast forwarded like we had in the VCRs 20 years ago that you goes fast now they just skipped channels in the DVD when I was a kid there was a VCR and we would fast-forward we would see the whole movie fast Mojo bento saw the whole movie fast and he was most impressed with our generation and Ashim cells and that's what you impressed of I just showed you an era of prophets I just sold you showed you an era of the name of sages huge giants I just showed you mokuba Lehmann Rishon a Manticore him that's what you're impressed from mojo - is yes because to be good individual when you have better mikdash and you see the shri now with your eyes it's not a big deal to be able to be an observant Jew and you have a prophet in front of you that's not a big deal but when you don't see anything no better me - no godly revelation no prophets no nothing and you still serve Hashem with all your heart that deserves creator Morgana says that's the generation that I have the highest respect to because they don't see any type of garlic regulation and they wake up at 4 o'clock in the morning to go to the freezing cold meat when they pressure Holly they learn Torah and say bill cotton was enough to eating and observe Shabbat and doing all these things without seeing any Gandhi regulation that's the generation that will receive Messiah because they're doing it with all their heart the real Emunah so the parasha comes to give me a very solid message that yes a Shem is going to be hidden from us kill Messiah who's going to come and there's gonna be a lot of challenges and there's gonna be a lot of doubts in my belief and a lot of doubts in what I do and everybody's gonna come and laugh at me and put me in in a in a corner like saying you out of your mind and as constantly is gonna be this battle am i doing the right thing is it normal to go cuckoo five minutes before Shabbat like a chicken without a head and when 99% people in the world are cooking their meal quietly you know who cares if it's five o'clock now or six o'clock so the meal will be ready at 6:05 big deal and Here I am like a chicken without a head oh my god if you would make some some summer show on what happens in Jewish kitchens half an hour before Shabbat this will be the top rating in the world people will be like these people are our lunatics are insane and we're still counting to the minute do I have to attack Afghan know it's past a minute okay I can take a shower any more people would look at us from the ounces these nations are nuts we're nuts we're crazy we're crazy but we're crazy about a shim we're crazy about a sham and re crazy about the Torah and that's what the talk um to teach me in this parish ah you're not crazy you are totally normal and yes there will be a lot of tests and a lot of challenges and what you're doing is gonna look completely ridiculous to you but you know what that's part of the game and the shim is waiting he's looking he's hiding himself a purpose let's see if you find me there's an excitement here for shame I want you two to find me I want you to work hard you think you're gonna get something from working for free No work hard you know when I when I grew up my father was was very do did very well and a lot of money and he always made me work all my friends I lived in a upscale neighborhood everybody got their cars and their motorbikes my father said you work won't give me anything which at the time I thought he's the worst father but now I look back and I was like he's the best father because I'm looking at all these people who grow up with me they're all or they don't know how to function in the world they're depending on a check coming every month from a father and I'm one of the only ones from the crowd that know my father told me I was 11 you want something on work I worked York is to paint fences take things a garbage out I would clean cars yeah this world is about working it's not about receiving checks once a month go and deal with the world work hard shame says I want you to work I want you to become about Juve I want you to conviction - the juice is gonna come out of you and you know what when you have a challenge this is not a failure this is what society will tell you if you failed you are a failure if you failed means that you just fell down so you can rise higher we call the you need a little earlier going down in order to rise up the the easiest word - to put it is to catch momentum you want to jump over a fence you have to go back can't jump over the fence you go 100 meters back so you can run run run run and jump over the fence so Shem says I'll help you I'll push you on the floor now you get up very simple just get up Dada Sharon should internalize this message that Hashem has something installed for us since Jim is has a plan for us not to get discouraged so fast not to get so but to give up so fast when there's a challenge and to understand that this this separation from a shame this unclarity is how a shame is expressing I want you to be close to me work hard and you rise to a higher level another level in another level and don't think that you're stopping you reach to one level come over come the next challenge and we'll push you again till the day that you leave this world or the day that Messiah comes people think that maybe when you retire when you're 65 60 to 68 whatever it is depending on the country that you that that's the same thing when you're serving a sham no you never retire with the Shem you're 90 years old you're still growing and believe it or not people in their eighties they have challenges and Robson but we should take from that the lesson that this challenges and this ups and downs is only for our benefit it's only to become closer to Hashem and needless to say that when we apply that that's how we survived as a nation because we're holding on to the kadosh before and saying nothing's gonna move it from a Shem nazar the Sham we should learn from that also to look at other people and their failure and not to judge other people it's very easy to look another person and say oh look where he's a failure no he's not he's going through his challenges and when I judge another person then I'm bringing on myself triple of his challenges I have to look at any other parent says okay I also have challenges I also fail here and there and sometimes I feel a lot point to take from that is that it's never too late there's always place to do chuhwa and now we're standing in a very auspicious month to do True Vine the month of a Dow where Shem accepts that you are very very easily and a few days from now we're celebrating Poland this is a very auspicious time to do chew up to a point that I can transform everything when I follow everything can be transformed from bad to good the point to take from that is that we have to do one last quick here and then the thing that we most don't believe in that machine is coming will actually become a reality I spoke about it yesterday I'm sure but most people don't believe my chef is coming they say they do but they don't believe very few people believe really believe he's coming and they're prepared so we have to do the last pitch the last effort so we can see the ultimate concealment come as a revelation and then needless to say what a reward are we gonna whatever we're going to receive what a high level of spiritual revelation we're gonna encounter very soon with the coming of Messiah and basado Shem should marry to see it very soon with her own eyes should they have a beautiful rest of the week happy for him and may our life will be full of laughs happiness [Music]