Parashat Ki Tisa - The source of my blessing - Rabbi Alon Anava

[Music] first we're going to dedicate the class to M aser B who needsa needs a and a immediate speedy recovery should bless him with a complete and should have a miracle immediate so we're going to learn from the first first in and it says we have mentioned many times that when theik wants to bring shefa into the world an abundance into the world he needs to connect and to bring Unity between the worlds above and the worlds below and we mentioned many times that when the is talking about a sadik is also referring about us so when I want to bring an abundance on me a shefa a blessing I need to do an action for that and that action is to first of all connect Between Two Worlds that can be done through a Mitzvah that I take a physical object that has a spiritual meaning and by participating and acting the Mitzvah I'm making a connection between the world below and the world above the second thing that I need to do is called the unity is the same thing the same idea when I do a Mitzvah I unite something physical and something spiritual and what is the effect from that that I'm connecting the physical world to a very high spiritual level that is called en the infinite light of blessed he the the the master of the universe and with this rectification with this action of this of this Unity that this person is doing that person even though he's not in a high level you don't have to be be shim even if he's not in a high level but the fact that he does that still has the ability to bring down this abundant this into this world it says in the Torah I will give whatever I will give this is maybe one way of translating it Rashi explains even if the person is not worthy the kadh still gives him so very very special mid certain attribute that we can learn from the Kad because the K says in in other words even though you don't deserve it I still give you and since we want to resemble our creator then we have to do the same thing sometimes it's very easy for us to say you know that person is mean he's rude he's selfish he's not grateful I don't want to give him I don't want to help that person then Hashem can say the same thing about many people but hasem still says no every even though I will still give isn't a nice word saying I will give you even though you not really deserve it that you see Wicked people theh still gives them life they're still breathing as they're doing their wicked act and some even more than that that is mindboggling that a person will go against Hashem and Hashem still will give him the ability to breathe eat live think and sustains him in this universe this is a mid this is an attribute that we have to learn that when you you do something for somebody it's not because that somebody's deserve it or not you're doing it because hasem wants you to do it because that's the right thing to do it's very easy to come and say that person doesn't deserve my my time or my money or my patience or whatever it is and seemingly it seems that one can look at it the completely the other way around if a person is not worthy to receive it why why would somebody why would AEM give it to him or even a a person it seems to me to my humble opinion that what rash meant the fact that I'm doing this action I'm just causing happiness he's using the word is that really is hard to really translate the word but is just causing a AEM happiness when I see somebody does something good and they go out of the way causes me some type of a happiness and a joy to see such a thing so when the Kosh sees that I am connecting worlds together and then I'm going out of my way to do an act even though the person that I'm doing it for doesn't really deserve it or or or Beyond even doesn't really deserve it is ungrateful or selfish or whatever it is but I'm doing it for the sake of the kadh I'm not doing it to get gratitude here when when I do such a thing and when when sees that I'm connecting worlds together it's causing AEM great great happiness great satisfaction by the fact that I do such an act that I go out of my way to do something to someone that doesn't even deserve it Hashem says in the Merit of that person I will give also to somebody that doesn't deserve it I will be merciful a can also be translated as I will have mercy on somebody that doesn't really deserve it so we're basically bringing into the world this energy this shefer this abundance into the World by my action that's what it means that gives Grace and and honor meaning that our says I want you to be like me but when you behave in such of a way it gives me the desire to continue to behaving also that way and trust me we need a lot of Mercy from the the again I reiterate it and repeat it all the time because many people when they hear the word sadik they they think the teaching is referring to the sadik toim or any other of the great sikim normally calls usim and he says and when the person when the person doesn't matter if he's not in a high level this is a term that is used a lot in the teachings he's not in a level because I sometimes can look at myself and say who am I kidding so what if I have a beard and I wear TI I'm not in a level of uh what I'm supposed to be I still cheat and I still lie and I still say and I still judge people and I still don't want to show up to all the Min name and I still here and there miss a Mitzvah and I I'm not in a level but nevertheless he says here you don't have to be in a in a level as long as you constantly do chuva and the Chua comes a a big part of the chuva and that's what I keep repeating so many times that this is I think a part that people miss the chv a big part of the cha is the confessing just confess to the so that's why we say three times a dayem says I just need you to confess just just be a man and come and say I I was wrong that's the problem with many people they're not willing to to admit confess admit kind of the same way as long as the person constantly does chuva and he admits very few people will will come after a fight and tell the person they fought with I'm sorry you are right I was wrong I shouldn't have said that I shouldn't have act like that I'm sorry this is called to confess to admit and this is the biggest part in the chuva is that you're willing to take responsibility most people don't take responsibility you know not to talk but anybody but when the Kad came to ad he told her why did you why did you sin he told him the woman the woman you gave me she caused me to sin he went TOA why did you sin the Nash the snake he came and seduced me just be a man and just say I couldn't stand the Temptation I'm sorry so that's what hasem says just admit don't come and give me excuses right now I'm not looking for excuses come and admit this is a big part of the Chua this this called V and when a person holds himself in a level of chuva I'm not perfect but at least do cha and admit the admits to who to the K of course and you go above that level by the fact that I come and I just admit that's when the K brings this good this good blessing into the world a person that is going in in a true righteous honest way the will never prevent good says listen I'm not looking for you to be a sadik a real sadik I know you're going to sin a lot and and you know why there's a reason for that now we're in the in the parasa of the story of the golden C which comes a big question how could such a big thing happen so we're going to have later on in the women's uh ER order today a class going in depth why is the sin what's what's the root of the sin why Hashem allowed such a thing to happen because really they were not looking to betray Hashem they were looking to replace their leader because they thought they don't have a leader they weren't looking to replace hem it was only a very small group that came and took the opportunity to apply that into idol worship and that group died they were called there were about 3,000 people and they died but the nation in a very innocent way said listen we don't have a leader that cannot make sense that a human being can be in the heavens for 40 days and 40 nights and survive that obviously mosu died we need a new leader why spe specifically a golden calf because at the time of Matan T they were in a very high spiritual level they saw God coming down on the mountain and God ascended on a chariot and The Chariot was carried by a human by an ox by a eagle and by a lion these are the faces that they saw in the Chariot they all saw the Chariot it says very clearly made servant saw in the ocean the prophet didn't see so obviously they saw the Chariot and they said okay if on The Chariot is's a face of a human a face of an eagle a face of a lion and a face of a bull then you know there a much more deeper explanation now we don't have time for that this will be addressed in a different class but that's where they came the the face of the bull there another very deep explanation that when Moshe Renu went to pull up the coffin of ysf a sadik he didn't know where the coffin is and then ter Sak came and told him where it is what what MOS did he took a piece of gold and he wrote on it in a in a combination of letters Al rise up Ox because ysep was called an ox so he rode on a piece of gold Al and he threw it in into the water now there was a certain child this is the the midash explains that unfortunately in the time of Egypt there was a lot of there was a Holocaust there so many times the they would take the the evil Egyptians they would take a baby and would put it in the wall instead of a brick when they didn't have enough bricks they said no problem you didn't do your daily quot and they took a baby and one time MOS ru went and he saw a baby stuck in between the bricks and the baby was H dying mosu couldn't take it and he told Hashem let me take this baby out I can't see a baby in this wall so Hashem answered to him a very harsh answer and he told him these babies are people who are going to grow up to be Sinners so they better be they're going to be put to to to to death now mosu could not hold such a he could couldn't fathom such a thing and he took the baby out this baby his name is mik this baby grew up to be an adult and he saw Moshe Renu riding the the holy names ales show and the piece of gold who then threw it into the water and then the coffin of ysf came up Moshe was so occupied with the coffin that with the coffin came back this this gold gold piece this kid mik took it and he later on was the one who threw it into the fire and with some power of the Holy names since it said ales come up rise up an ox then that's where the calf came out of the fire that's how it happened I mean they gathered all the jewelry threw it in the fire Aon did it and the calf came out but nevertheless this is just the short version of the deep answer but nevertheless nevertheless we see that in this week's parasa is the source of one of the hardest most deepest sins in in our nation that up until today we have to work and carry Rectify for that and why is that there's many different reasons but the kadosh said I want you to to rise to the the occasion I want you to go above your level and the the the sin of the golden calf was so to say a plot by the this called made the sin why so we can do chuva to teach us for Generations that anybody can do chuva even from a severe sin so the K says all I need you to do is to live in Chua live in Chua admit to to the sin that you did and you'll be able to do cha not only that the person that accepts the fact that he's that he made a sin but he still is willing to admit and he's going in an innocent Way by saying yes you know I did a sin hasem says I'm not going to prevent any good from a person that goes in a in a path of righteousness of being honest being true the fact that a person goes in a very righteous and innocent way in an honest way because that's the path of the Kosh then the K is does good to him and he doesn't prevent anything good from him Hashem says if you go in my path I'm honest I'm truthful I'm righteous I want you to be the same way I know you're going to make mistakes but that's irrelevant as long as you know how to admit for the mistakes and Hashem says I'm not going to prevent prevent anything good from you doesn't matter what's your level as long as you are doing it with an honest and pure heart tamim is a hole tamim is somebody that hold whole Shem says I know you're going to sin I'm I'm orchestrating these sins for you a large portion of the sins that we do it's not our fault and you you know what you don't even get judged for that the Kad so to say will will plan the sin and he will make sure that you fail why to see how you react to see if you're going to get up right away and say okay nothing happened I'm going to do Chua to see if you're going to lose your temper and scream at everybody around you to see if you're going to blame other people to see if you're going to get upset to see if you're going to continue sinning or if you're going to say no one is enough K is constantly testing our reactions when a person is honest honest and innocent the says I will go in the exact same way with you this is what it means in the you should carry the head of the nation what does that mean basically saying in other words the says I want you to carry you head because the worlds the spiritual worlds are called Ro to count them the meaning is is to count them is that I should add and increase abundance that I can give this abundance to everybody by the fact that you are carrying the worlds above you doesn't matter the person what level they are doesn't matter if the person is a high level a lower level as as long as they do an action it's called give an ayment to your nees what does that mean very simple just always do CH yes you will fail you will be placed in situations that you're going to be tested but just do Chua that's one of the main reasons why the K allowed this whole golden calf thing to happen because up until the golden calf they were in the level of sikim they did chuva before mat before the giving of the Torah then they had a near-death experience that kadh killed them all with his kindness he just revealed himself to him to them and their soul jumped out of their body so they were able to get atonment to all the bad things that they that only death does you know when a person does desecrating the name of hem you can do CH for that I mean you can do cha but you're not going to get a kapar an atonment for that only death does that so they got that then they were placed back in their bodies and they were reaching to a very high level and they became allim says I don't want sikim I want s in a place stands a person that does CH then repents a complete s cannot stand hasem says I wanted to I want I don't want sikim so he says so how am I going to do that let me make them sin let me make them sin and first of all let's see the reaction and after that they'll get hit so hard from the sin and that will cause them to do a real deep and serious cha this is the real Essence behind the idea of the golden calf is that who pushes me cuz he says now let's see if you're going to rise up above the sin and do cha this is called that I give an atonment for my nees this is basically that a person lives constantly in ch part of this of the order of doing CH is to ask AEM please forgive me this is M and give me Kap give me ayment for what whatever I did forgive me for what I did and this is the ones these are the ones who open the gates of abundance in sham to bring down this shef this unbelievable abundance of blessing into the world it's in the Merit of the ones who know to admit and they're not going to have any Affliction or any disease when you count them and these this is this is referring to counting the ones who are on the army of the Tells moso count the ones that are the real people and from seven billion people in the world I don't know how many you can count that are real the real deal as they say so even with mosu mosu had to count to see okay who who's on my side and the ones that are on my side nothing's going to hit them sh no persecution is going to be able to touch them when they're all counted and when they're all in the camp of the Nation meaning referring to to the nation of Israel that they were under the shefa the good abundance of the kadosh they not can be cannot be touched under any prosecution in other words saying K says I want you doesn't matter which level you are I know that sometimes you look at yourself in the mirror and you're saying who am I kidding who am I kidding I I'm I'm not any close to even what Hashem really wants me to be and I did this and I did that and the thing is that when it comes to the to to the world then it's very hard for me to admit and I would pretend to the world that I'm I'm perfectly fine but when it's just me and myself I do have these moments and I'm saying who am I kidding when I just lie to that person who am I kidding I couldn't hold the in this situation why I'm I'm I'm kidding myself and the yet rides on that and he tells you yeah you are you are you are a loser you are you're fake you're pretending so the point is theh says no no no no don't feel that that way even if you're in a very low level that you think you're in a very low level as long as you live in chuva and you admit to your faults then you're actually in a very high level cuz you're about Chua and you know what you'll do chuva today tomorrow is going to be a new sin waiting for you only to see how you get up every Friday we read a very very deep song a deep meaning the meaning of the song is very very deep which is written by ret that it's such an supicious time we learned last week that specifically when we say the verse boy it's when we're receiving the first of our nees the extra nees that we receive on Shabbat this is when when it happens Bo and in this specific song There's a verse that says get up from the dirt shake off all the dirts and move on literally saying move on so you fail nothing happened brush the dirt how many times you fall and you you know the shoe gets dirty the pants get dirty your jacket gets dirty just go like this that's it move on you don't throw the jacket to the garbage because it got dirty maybe some people do it but most people don't you get your pants dirty or you don't throw the pants to the garbage cuz it got dirty you clean it and you move on same thing here what you give up because you made a little mistake no so what so you made a little mistake brush it off the brushing it off that's the cha brush it off move on says when you actually do that that's when you really gain the level that what I'm looking for I'm not looking for you to be R shimai this is something that we have to get out of our head hasm is not expecting me to be R from or the or the not has doesn't have these expectations if he would then he would create me in that level but has says I I didn't create you to be the next sadic of the generation I created you to be a b cha and don't think this is a low level this is high level that our sages say yeah accept the the the level from the Kosh because the level of a cha is in one way greater than a sadik because the sadik doesn't have the Temptation there a famous story that I heard a long time ago with the with the Lich rebi that there was a certain individual who used to attend a and uh at some point the rabbi there was feeling that the member of the congregation is not showing up so much he not behaving himself he dressed he said what's going on so I told him listen I love your show I love your teachings I love everything just that I have a little problem and I feel that you're not going to approve so the rabbi tells him what's the problem he says well I'm dating a non-jewish woman and I'm about to marry her and I know you're not going to be happy with that so the rabbi tells him you're right I am not happy with that so long story short he told him I have an I don't have an answer for you and but I do want you to think it over and he says listen there's nothing to think over here I'm going to marry her and that's it the rabbi told him listen I'm flying to New York very soon and I'm going to see my Rabbi and I think you should come with me and ask his opinion and he says you think I'm going to go with you to ask your rabbi's opinion and telling him that married a non-jewish woman says listen what are you going to lose anyways long story short he told him I have a deal for you if you come with me to meet my Rabbi then I will come to your wedding oo he says all you need to do is come and talk to my Rabbi and he took this individual to the Lich rabi in Brooklyn and the Lich REI used to stand every Sunday in his Sho and they used to have a ceremony giving out the dollars and people would just pass in the line and would get a blessing would ask a question so this individual comes and he tells him I just wanted to tell you sir Rabbi that I'm about to marry a non-jewish woman so the he tells him I I I'm jealous of you I envy you what he was expecting how to get a hammer in his head he say you envy me he says yes because you were just given by God a ladder to jump up to a much higher level and I'm jealous of you cuz I don't have this type of a ladder you are in place now with a nission with a test that if you pass it you're going to jump to a level that me even in my level I can't do that it's your choice if you climb up on this ladder and you elevate yourself or not and I'm jealous of you CU I don't have such a ladder that's it that's what he told him straight out simple as that and an hour later he comes back and says you know what I thought about it I'm I'm canceling the wedding so the point is that Hashem constantly gives us ladders to climb up we are the ones who think that we're in a low level and why should I bother why should I try why should I come to the minan anyways my prayers are worthless why should I do this I did that why should I behave like I'm a observant individual and yesterday did such a sin K says no I just gave you a ladder to jump up up and if you're able to rise above the situation above your level you're able to brush off the dirt and you're willing to admit it's all about admitting by saying yes I made a mistake once you admit you jump to that level that is much higher than what you can would expect and that is what allows you to rise to the level that no persecution can actually touch you nothing evil can do anything to you because you came and you admit and I said yes I made a mistake and I'm doing Chua and next time I'm going to try harder not to fall I'm going to try harder not to fail and it's the Merit of these people the calls them that hasem says Ah when I see you behaving in that way makes me want to behave more in that way that's why we're able to bring such mercy and kindness of the kadh which trust we we trust me we need a lot of it so we need to take from that that we are being counted who who's in the minion who's in the minion that the K says that is willing to be carrying their head up carry your head up because the head is carrying the worlds above me and the ones who are able to do that are participating in the in the fact that the kadh says in that Merit I Will Bless The not only the your nation the entire world we should take from that a very simple explanation a very deep teaching how my actions are so huge and every every action that I do is is affecting the entire universe and the most important thing to remember from that is that everything that I do I mean positive or negative there's always the the option of doing chuva of repenting and correcting what I the bad thing that I did can be between me and hasem can be between me and my friend that I said the wrong word and I made him upset come and say I'm sorry I'm sorry I hurt your feelings I said something wrong to my wife come and admit I shouldn't have said that you're I was wrong I apologize and there's no even if you weren't wrong you still say say that with your wife yeah if you're smart then even when you're not wrong you can tell your wife um I'm sorry but the greater person knows how to admit and when we know how to bring ourselves to that level then we bring on ourselves an abundance of blessings that's where hasem says I will I will do the exact same to you and to everybody else which takes us to the beginning of what we say when I do things to people is not to get that people's gratification or gratitude or their approval when I'm helping another person it's not because I'm expecting something back or that that person would be grateful most cases you help somebody they don't care they don't say thank you they complain you didn't do enough but you're doing it for the sake of the actual action of the help not the person itself if you would have to do it for the person you wouldn't have any motivation to do it to the person you're doing it for the mitzvah for the actual action whether the person person acknowledges your act or is grateful for the ACT that's his issue he's not grateful that's his problem not your problem you did the act so it has to teach us that it's all about being truthful and being true to the to the cause and carrying yourself in an honest way it's not about what the world says about you it's about doing the right thing and trust me the kadh sees every act every thought and he's looking for the heart for the intention how pure it is and how real it is and there's no agenda there we should be one of these people in the in the group that are counted to be the real the real people not the real the real people the anit the people of truth that they do the the will of the Kosh for the sake of doing what is what needs to be done and not for any any gratification or reward or anything of that matter we should have a peaceful week and a week of High Spirits week of Chua puim is a very supicious time to do chuva is very accepting our Chua and the result if is the chuva is in a very high level the result is turns around everything that was bad turns into good everything that was evil will turn to good everything that was turn was in Failure turns to a success M we should marry to see only good things in our life [Music]