Oorah Tisha B’av 2020 – A Time to Reflect

[Applause] [Music] the saddest day in the jewish calendar is the day of tishev perhaps it is the only day that we are told to be sad we cry we sit on the floor we mourn why why are we supposed to be sad why are we supposed to cry what is the purpose of all of this what is the point of all of this we're always told that hashem wants us to be happy happiness not sadness not depression the atish above that's what we do for 24 hours what's the lesson what's the point what's the purpose my grandmother is a survivor of auschwitz she was a 16 year old girl when the nazis invaded her town of vats and they took her onto the cattle carts the famous kamakarts where they would load hundreds of people onto these boxes were maybe able to hold 50 60 people and they would stand next to each other crammed together and they would stand for hours and my grandmother would repeat and tell us what it was like standing in those cattle carts and she would tell us how cold it was how freezing they were when she would tell us the story you would see how her body began to shake because she would still feel that coldness and eventually they would reach their destination of auschwitz of the death camp and most didn't survive on one of those cattle carts there was a group of about a hundred people crammed inside and there was one lady that was wearing her coat and her coat had these big buttons big deep round buttons she pulled the button over her coat and inside of her package she took with her some bread and some butter and she shaved off a little piece of butt and put it inside of the button she took the thread from her button and she spun the thread and she stuck the thread in inside of the butter that was inside of the button that was now acting as a cup and she asked someone for a lighter for a match she lit a match onto that thread and she made the blessing on the friday night shabbos candles inside of that cattle cart inside of a cart that they knew they were heading to their deaths and after she lit the candle her husband next to her began to sing and the next person began to sing and the next person began to sing and within a few moments the entire cattle cart was filled with dozens of people singing and grieving and welcoming the shabbos they were in middle of heading towards their death they were going to the worst place on the universe and they knew it and yet they managed to build up the courage the strength to say now it's shabbos now we're going to light candles we're going to sing shalom aleichem even in this dark frigid place today on tish above we sat on the floor for a long time saying so many kenneth so many different prayers the last kind of that we say is a lazy isha lament the residence of siong and yerushalayim in jerusalem they have experienced such pain ki isha vitsyra like a mother during childbirth and the kinney gives a whole list of tragedies and things that we lost because of the destruction of the bash we lost the sanhedrin we can no longer bring carbonace we can no longer bring sacrifices the kingdom of david was destroyed the honor the beauty the splendor of jerusalem eradicated and we say ish of its that pain is the pain of a mother during childbirth and everyone always asks why is that the example given is mother during childbirth there's so many different examples that we could use for pain why that one nothing is coincidental everything has a rhyme and a reason when the mother is sitting in middle of her childbirth excruciating pain unbearable but after it all she has a child we lost the baseline mikdash we lost the sanhedrin we lost the karbanos we lost the kingdom of david we lost the beauty and the splendor of yerushalayim of jerusalem is so painful it is so hard but we're going to end up with having a child we're going to come out of all this all the morning all your hardships all the suffering there's hope this still remains hope that at some point it's going to end at some point we're going to pull ourselves out of it rabbi min says over an incredible thing rabbi minster the he said that the torah tells us that when the jews conquered israel and they came inside there was such a thing called leprosy and leprosy was on the body and also on the clothing also on houses and if a person bought a house and they went inside they saw the walls had spots they had to break down the house and the commentators explained them that the reason why god orchestrated that they would have leprosy on houses and have to break down the walls is because hidden inside of the walls were treasures that the previous people hid there and when the jews came to israel he wanted the jews to have those treasures so he made them knock down the walls to find the treasures so my mince asked if god wants us to find the treasures just tell us behind these walls our treasures and knock it down why did he have to create this whole process of having saras leprosy then breaking it down and then finding you just tell us there are the treasures go get it leprosy in hebrews called saras saras also comes from same terminology as sorrow a pain sorrow suffering cesar by means the lessons incredible that this harassed on the world is pain the suffering but if you break away the pain underneath it all as a treasure right now we're experiencing saras it's tish above it's sad we're mourning we're crying but under the taras is a treasure keisha with syrah she's suffering so much but at the end there's a beautiful child i'll tell you a personal story about two and a half years ago my father he summoned shabsi bit of shalom passed away he was a young man 62 years old he was healthy he was vibrant he was active he had an aneurism and six weeks later he passed away the day of his funeral we were traveling to the cemetery and as we were driving to the cemetery myself and my brother the skies opened up and it was pouring pouring we get to the cemetery and for some reason in cemeteries the rain is kind of gonna gets even hotter and it's windy and the floor is muddled and as we get to the sectional my father has his grave that was dug for him we get to that section and we're about to go out of the car and someone noticed that the plot that they dug was in the wrong spot they dug the wrong place it was about three o'clock 3 30 in the afternoon if anyone knows how cemeteries work you it's very hard to get workers to come in later afternoon to re-dig a new hole so my brother and i are standing there with our friends and family and relatives and we're beside ourselves we cannot bury him in the wrong spot but how are we going to get someone to come bury him in the right spot and you can imagine it was very chaotic and there was a lot of emotions our father a young man he just passed away we just finished his funeral and here we are in the cemetery this pouring rain and it's dark and it's windy and it's somebody who's horrible and he's in the wrong plot so the family members told us just go back to the car we're going to try to arrange something somehow hashem worked it out a worker came and re-dug a new hole we buried our father and as we were walking out we passed by the original hole that was dug the original plot and we looked inside that grave was filled with water and you know according to jewish custom one cannot be buried inside of water you have to be buried inside dry ground and we thought to ourselves what would have happened if they would have dug the right hole the right time we would have gone to the cemetery and his grave would have been filled with water and the pile of dirt was saturated with water because it's saturday the whole day would be impossible for us to have gone ahead and bury our father ourselves which is the custom we would have had to have some track to come and brush over the the dirt into the ground but because it was the wrong plot that dug originally the grave my father was buried in was a perfect dry clean grave at that moment it was so dark it was so hard and it was frustrating it was upsetting he was angry we were mad we were depressed we were sad we were confused but really that was the best thing that could have happened to us because the rain happened tisha both we sit on the floor we talk about and we think about all the things that are going on around our world we think about the tsarists the hardships the sadness we think not only about the baseline mikdash that was destroyed we think not only about all the different massacres that happen throughout the generations but we think about ourselves we think about our hardships the things that are hard for us that are sad in our lives we think about our spouses our parents our children our siblings our family our friends and we can sit on the floor for hours feeling their pain feeling our pain and the point is of itself it's childbirth pains it's childbirth pains it's pains that are going to bring about a beautiful baby it's pains that are going to make us grow from them that's the purpose of tish above that's why we're doing this not just to sit and be sad for no purpose but to sit and be sad and say to ourselves there's hope even in the darkest time even in a cattle cart heading towards auschwitz towards the death camps we're gonna light a flame we're gonna sing to greet shabbos there's hope we may not see it yet we may not realize it yet but we know it's there that's the thought we have to tell ourselves in tish above all of these hard things that we're experiencing it's temporary it's temporary we have to continue to push on to prevail to push back and say hashem hashem give me the strength to have that hope give me the ability to have that hope give me that hope and end all of our tsarists and all of our hardships and all of our pains by the coming of the final redemption with the rebuilding of the base time initially the beast speedily in our days thank you for listening of the saddest day on the jewish calendar the day where we commemorate the destruction of both of our bhatti mikdos our holy temples and it's interesting to know that even though it's the saddest day and a sadist month but the month is called dead father it gives us a warm and fuzzy feeling so it's so it seems contradictory on one hand it's very sad and on the other hand it's warm and close and it really tells us the way you look at life everything in this world there are always two ways to look at everything we read on tisha b'av we read the megillah and the beginning it says look how jerusalem is sitting alone she's a a widow she's all by herself and the question is that this was written by euryoa novi prophecy we know the prophecy never took place unless the prophet was happy how could he be happy when he's writing and if he's not happy then he didn't have prophecy how was he able to write this megillah what's the unbelievable question asked this question now one answer given is to read the first passage in the future tense not the way we read it always how could you shall i am sit as a widow but haya saw she was a widow yashv she sat alone which hints to us that we're going to read this miguel again one day in the future and happier times we're going to read it what tisha bubba is a happy day and we're going to remember how you shalom was by herself lame was sitting alone as a widow so it's amazing that you see even in the name of you see the contrast between a very horrible and sad a down month and a month that's named with the name of af with our father it's amazing and it teaches us an amazing lesson that there's two ways to look at every single thing in our lifetime so the question is that how do we bring back your shelling how do we rebuild yerushalayim how do we because we know that any generation that jerusalem is not rebuilt in it's as if i destroyed it it's as if i today destroyed the bhaktami gash so how do we rebuild it so there's two things that we need one thing we need is to look forward to the rebuilding is to want it and the other thing is to see how do we rebuild it to want it a lot of people are not so excited about moshiach then i imagine you won a lottery and you're going to collect and the office is going to collect five million dollars tomorrow and then you hear the mashiro can you wait a little bit till i get my 5 million dollars but not so people are making big moves in their lives and they want to finish that big move before because we don't really know what mashiach means so they want to let the ship wait a little bit i'm not ready yet so the first thing is we have to look forward to it we have to want it because we have to realize as good as our life is because we're pretty comfortable as fine as it's running we have to know that our brothers and sisters don't have such a good life there are people who are suffering maybe my life is good maybe i trained myself to look as in a positive way but there are people who are not able to be so positive and there are people who are suffering and there are people who are lost our brothers and sisters many of them don't know about tisha they don't know about our holidays about a shabbat so even though things may be very fine for me and maybe i'm not waiting and looking forward eagerly till my shaykh should come maybe i should look for it because there are other people who need it but how do i bring back your islam we know that one of the reasons that jewish line was destroyed was because people were not together with each other they weren't together we know that the torah god took 2500 years to give us the turn the world was created to live at our life the torah the guideline how to live and yet for 25 it's a long time 2500 years and we didn't get the target why why did he wait so long to give us a target one answer is because we weren't together because we weren't unified and the torah was only given to us when we were together when they came to mount sinai they camped harassing he came there the jewish people were called he camped there but they were together great things happened when we're together so the first thing of course is to look forward to you shall i'm being rebuilt but the next thing is to be together to be more caring to be more fine to be more worried about my neighbor about my friend to take care to make sure they have everything that they need there's an unbelievable story about rabbit hustle klein he was the older gentleman he lived through the holocaust and he lived to a ripe old age and people asked him when he was in his high 90s what did you do to merit such a whole life he lifted the holocaust he was broken after alaqus and yet he rebuilt himself and he lived a very long age and he said i don't really know exactly anything special outstanding that i did but one thing i do remember i was once sitting just wiped out sitting after a hard day's work in a concentration camp and i saw a fellow going through the garbage and he looked emaciated he looked like he was starving he looked he had deep hollow eyes and i felt so sad for him and i told him what are you looking for which i knew of course he's looking for food and he said something to eat he said and he said i'm sorry but there's nothing there because i've seen so many people go through that garbage already and he came to me with pleading eyes please something please you could tell he was almost on his last list last troy he was not able to live another moment he needed something pleased that i felt so good i wanted to give him something and i said i don't have i don't have any food i have nothing and not a crumb but then i stood up and i realized i do have something to give him and i came close to him and i hugged him in a very strong and warm hug and i told him in his ear you're gonna make it you're gonna be okay i love you i care about you i gave him warmth i gave him acceptance i gave him excitement i gave him something to feel good about himself and his eyes lit up he got the spark back in his eyes and he said thank you and he walked away and both of us lived through the holocaust it doesn't have to be that you give giving food it doesn't have to mean that you're giving something physical but you give them feelings that's really something we need to do in order to bring back the lime we have to go out of a way to give people a feeling of living there was a baker who lived in brooklyn for many years he passed away recently he went through the holocaust and he said he used to say all the time i know why i'm alive many people don't know why they're alive why they're here what merits do they say he said i know exactly why i'm alive he said when i was 12 years old i was deported from my hometown in europe and i was a train and it's difficult to describe the train the train will open on top and it was lots of wood where air came in it was a freezing winter and my whole town was deported altogether i was probably the youngest on the train and i saw people shaking and shivering and the wind was just blowing through our bones through light like nothing and i saw up ahead as it was getting darker and darker i saw a neighbor an older gentleman and he was shivering he was shaking and i slithered through the people until i finally got close to him and i started massaging his arms and his neck giving him warmth to warm up his body a little bit and i tried to do this even though it was very tiring and it was very hard to keep my arms moving but i kept on giving him warmth and it got darker and darker until it was pitch black so throughout the dark night without even seeing i kept on giving him encouragement and warmth as the tsar that the sun started to rise above the horizon i started to see everybody in the car and i noticed that there were only two people alive everybody else froze to death there were two people alive one was this gentleman that i was giving warmth to and the other one was myself because i was the one giving the warmth giving to others keeps us alive giving to others keeps us going and to bring back yerushalayim it takes to give to others hashem should help us that we should constantly be considerate of others be caring be warm give to others not has to be doesn't have to be monetary it has to be warmth encouraging and if we keep on giving i'm sure that we'll all walk together to greet the mashiach and the new building speedily in our times thank you so much for listening in partial the jews are in the desert and they ask moshe you're taking us through the desert took us out of the land of egypt keep talking about the land of israel it's this wonderful place the land of milk and honey you don't know what it's going to be we're afraid you're taking us into the unknown so they send off spies when the spies come back it's not exactly the glowing report that people were expecting they start to describe the land it's a difficult place things don't grow look at the fruits and vegetables that do grow they're disproportionately large to match the size of the inhabitants these fearsome giants that you have to defeat to get this land and the jews begin to cry they say to moshe what are you doing to us it's real nice you took us out of the lands of egypt but we're going to die out here in the desert and the gemara in tinus says as follows god's response is you cried for nothing cried for nothing this day will forever be a bachelodoros a crying for generations when we think of god we don't think of a you know villain twirling mustache up in the sky going you cried for nothing watch me give you something to cry about it's hard to understand exactly what god was saying so let's understand the nature of crying tears are an interesting sort of a thing you could divide tears into two categories there's the crying that reflects an extreme emotion not so much thinking not so much logic but so much sadness or so much joy so you just cry and then there's the basic crying it's a biological function there's an impurity there's dirt in your eye it's affecting your vision if we leave it in god forbid it could damage your vision so you tear lots and lots of tears to remove that impurity what god was telling the jewish people in that moment your vision is clouded here i sent you the most beautiful land that could ever be the one lands my most favorite place on earth to my most favorite people learning my most favorite thing the torah you're not looking at this clearly hashem is not telling us oh you cried for nothing i'll give you something to cry about you cried the cry of emotion no logic no thinking there's something in your eye we're gonna have to send those tears those tears that bring clarity those tears that make it easy to see rene israel heard the jewish people heard what we call lashon hara derogatory speech about the beautiful land of israel they accepted it that lack of clarity that lack of ability to look at the way things were supposed to be that starts the chain and it moves throughout we'll see throughout history any time one of these terrible tragedies come upon us it's by the hand of a nation that sees us the way we're supposed to see things let me give you an example you walk into a room it's a crowded room full of a bunch of people you look around the room there are people you feel comfortable with people not so much there's people who are your type some people who are not my type certain people who i admire some people who i feel like if they looked at me they should be admiring me but essentially i see all these differences between all the different people in the room let's just pretend for one moment that hitler himself came back to life and walked into that room would he see all those differences or would he just see a bunch of jews if osama bin laden walked into that room would he see well she's one way she's another way she's the type who does this what'd he just see those people he despises a bunch of jews sometimes it has our greatest enemies giving us so many reasons to cry about who actually let us know how we're supposed to look when we walk into a room full of fellow jews that's what we're supposed to see jews all the same all equally important or equally respectable people we're supposed to love just because in fact we're told that our base habitat the holy temple where in this exile right now it was destroyed and we're told a very simple reason it was destroyed because of what senseless hatred ever think about how that makes no sense at all have you ever walked into a room or walked somewhere and met a person and just randomly decided i will hate thee it doesn't happen we don't hate people for no reason we hate them perhaps for bad reasons we hate them maybe for not such good reasons but we get upset at them because i asked her every single time to come on time doesn't she realize i'm waiting for her and every single time this is my nerve this is her she won't get off it this person is insensitive i don't like the way she acts we have reasons she hurt me she insult me it's not that we hate them for no reason we have a reason the problem is it makes no sense to be upset and hateful towards them anyway here's the reason if let's say one day you see a hot iron have you ever done this and you touch it for a second to see if it's hot makes no sense by the way there's something cold water there's actually a bunch of ways to check up an iron hot the not so smart way is to test it on your own finger but you do it anyway and it turns out to be hot and you burn your finger do you ever look at your finger and say well you know that was brilliant you went and burned yourself for nothing i'll give you a burn to cry we would never do that you don't turn around and look at your hand and say you know what i hate you you hurt me i'm cutting you off i don't have anything to do with you again i'm going to tie you up and put you behind my back and never use you again no because it's your hand it's a part of you the human beings that we meet along the way are the exact same thing they're our brothers and our sisters they're a part of us they may disappoint us at times we may disappoint them but seeing things clearly is loving them anyway senatorim doesn't mean hating them for no reason it means it doesn't make sense it's senseless we get hurt the most in fact the story that represents senseless hatred that we say is the reason the holy temple was destroyed is the story of kamsa and bharakansa and in fact the gemara tells us the whole base of magdish was destroyed because of who kamsa and barakamsa and if you listen to the story it's a little hard some big very wealthy man an important person invited everyone in the city all the a-listers the holy rabbis the respected people in the community and his best friend kamta and he has this party and i guess even in those days a good secretary was hard to find and the wrong invitation was sent not to compta but to his sworn enemy barkanza and this host is walking around the room greeting all his guests as a good host must and there he sees barkanza he's filled with rage you're here the man i absolutely despise get out and we know what happens brock khamsa says please don't please don't kick me out you're embarrassing me from everyone i'll pay for my portion of food the rich man says absolutely not the enemy of this man has to leave he reversed himself from third person and mark compton says please don't throw me out i will pay the expenses for half your party forget just my plate you just basically threw the biggest baddest party ever seen in jerusalem at half the price and he's filled with rage goes you can't be here get out ever come to please and says don't embarrass me in front of everyone i'll pay for the whole shendon the host does not allow him to stay and he leaves so there's a lot of questions how could you say captain is the reason the vasa matrix was destroyed we started off by saying in the words of the gemara it's kamsa and barkanza but kamsa wasn't there he was the friends who didn't get an invitation in fact chances are he was laying at his pillow crying at being so rejected and ostracized by what we thought was his best friend why is it his fault don't you think the host be or some responsibility because as we know when barcamps left he was so filled with humiliation and pain he went straight to the roman emperor and said there's a rebellion being fomented the jews are your enemy they're not loyal to you and emperor didn't believe him he said no no the jews are loyal arkansas said let's do a little test you send a beautiful young animal to the set it's holy temple to be sacrificed if they refuse to use the animal you know they don't respect you and if they use it well then i'm wrong and of course we know along the way barkhanza made a tiny little cut on the inside of the animal's lip a cut that no one else would notice except for a kohen high priest who would examine that examine that animal head to though to see if it was kosher if it was okay for a sacrifice and of course it wasn't and the rabbis were called in what do we do it's from the emperor we can't use it and the emperor was so enraged when his animal was rejected in fact he did to clear war on jerusalem and they marched to put down the rebellion and how many millions died and here we are still today thousands of years later still in exile so far from home still having enemies who really just want us gone all because one person so the question we ask is these are who are responsible what about the host what about every rabbi in the room who didn't stand up and say i don't think you should be doing this this is not okay so the reality is my friends is when someone talks about themselves with such disconnect like that man the enemy of this man he doesn't have his own best interests that are he's willing to hate barkhanzo so much i don't mind if i lose all that chance for money i don't mind if it's in my best interest to let him stay i don't want him here makes no sense i don't care i don't want him here such a person we don't give muster we don't give rebuke to our rabbis no you don't give someone a rebuke when they're not open to listening such a man he calls himself the enemy of this man he's so disconnected from his own best interest and therefore he doesn't mind he cuts his nose off to spite his face my friends barkham says the same thing he went off to the emperor and he tells them the jewish people are fermenting rebellion my friends he didn't seek to save himself or his family berkanta and his own family perish too let me tell you something if i'm gonna go report my boss to some authority get him into trouble you could be certain i'm gonna make sure i'm out of the way when it all goes down but not for hamsa his desire for revenge was so great his own sense of self preservation goes out the window my friends that's what destroys the basement the inability for us to realize that we are each other's family that we are each other's brothers sisters it's our right hand and our left end and we allow ourselves to project hatred negative feelings we look down on ourselves because who's not ourself if not our brother our sister an extension of who we are we're all god's chosen people and when we forget and we focus on all the little irritations in between well then we end up with a need to cry let's clear that vision let's see clarity let's see things through do you know if you look straight ahead at something you're using both eyes to see that same item if you cover your right eye and then just cover your left eye the item moves each eye only seems one dimension but if you use both eyes straight on well then you get clarity and then you get perfect vision because it takes two perspectives looking at things from your side and from the other person's side that gives you that perfect vision in fact we know there was a famous dispute at halachic to speed through the ages base shamai base hilla and shamai held one way and base hillel held another way but in this world although we know that base jammer in fact is the ultimate truth and when mashiach comes when we're all redeemed it will be his version of the law that we follow now in exile in this world it is hillel do you want to know why because in the academy of hillel they learned both perspectives based xiaomi ambassador in the academy of shamai they learned both perspectives as well based shamai and bashillo one difference in base hillel they first taught the perspective of base chamai and then their own ensuring a fair shake if you will that fair emphasis would be put on both perspectives we'll learn the other side first could you imagine if any time in a human conflict instead of trying so hard to get my own points my own feelings and my own thoughts across if i would focus on what do you trying to tell me what are you feeling and seeing as opposed to don't you get it you don't use this word all the time you don't understand and we say our point again you don't understand we say it again oh they understand they just disagree but we're so convinced if we only said it over in just the right way if they would just stop and listen they would get it and they would understand us but they feel the same way could you imagine if rather than wasting any moment on senseless hatred not because there's no reason but because it hurts us more than we could ever imagine it's putting our own hands back on that iron to punish it for burning it is us it is a part of who we are every one of our brothers and sisters they are a part of who we are when we take the example that started it all of erethia sram of the land of israel god was giving them his most precious land and rather than appreciating the gift that it was they found all the reasons to focus on the negative that lack of clarity could you imagine if instead we looked at all the people in our lives and found reasons to appreciate their presence found reasons to see things from their perspective the clarity that vision my gosh there are so many reasons to cry i have a student she doesn't have a family to go home to i have a friend she's been married for 27 years she still hasn't had a child i myself worked with survivors of abuse for the last 15 years sometimes i don't want to call them on the phone to ask them how their day went because i don't want to know it's too hard to listen and i'm a human i'm limited in my ability to feel compassion for others god his love is endless can you imagine how he's hurting for his children i once told my husband after my daughter was born that he should know chances are he was going to become a single parent because i was going to end up in jail and i he asked me uh what what what uh what are you trying to tell me what what crime are you planning to commit i said no it's not that it's that i was at the park and this cute little boy who's 18 months old and my daughter was 12 months old and he came and yelled in her face and she cried and i think it should be legal to smack him because he touched my child and my husband's like you need to get a grip or we're gonna have to hide somewhere where there's no human right because as a mother i want nothing more than to protect my child from anything and anyone and everyone well god looks at all of us as his children this capacity to love and want to protect us is endless could you imagine if someone came over to me and said you know i saw your son he was lost he's in a dangerous neighborhood i helped him i gave him a ride and i brought him home safely someone calls you up and says you know i saw your daughter she was so polite she did such a nice thing we want to do anything and everything for that person who sees the good in our child who extends a hand to help our child every single person you meet along the way they're god's children could you imagine how beautiful it is to god when you're able to say i looked out for one of your kids i helped one of your kids through a tough time i saw the best in them do you know hashem are you listening when we look at each other with the love and the kindness and acceptance that we have to be showing each other because that's clarity that's real vision seeing things from the other person's perspective appreciating the gifts that they bring to our lives that's clarity could you imagine if we could only make sure that our vision is clear look at each other without impurities without anything in the way you know what we get at the end we're told we're promised hashem will erase the tears from everyone's face it doesn't say the people we agree with doesn't say only the people who do everything right and it certainly doesn't say only on the faces of the people who do it the way we think on everyone's faces if we could just make sure to clear our visions and look at each other as we want others to look at us with love and with caring with appreciation and sensitivity and kindness and then we ourselves and everyone around us will no longer have a reason to cry only those tears of unmitigated joy i'm blessing all of us that we should merit to this clear vision to the least beautiful way of seeing each other and that we merit to see the rebuilding of the basal magdesh of the holy temple this year right away thank you so much for listening so here we are again sitting on the floor tish above upon us last year we said after this about him wishing each other but we weren't zaika and what actually are we mourning about the bottom line and what is that that's what basically this is all about because being with kali israel choking living with us i said maybe this was a house lived in and eden were his children coming to that house living together and now that doesn't exist that's what we're mourning over just like shalom a parent dies children said shiva not the same household but not together anymore same way you're sitting shiva because and he left us we left him that's how he started we left him so he left us so we're mourning but if we're really interested in having hashem being in our midst and feeling his presence we don't have to wait for the minibase that many ways that we can feel hashem with us hashem really is with us more of the ways than one it's not to the extent of allah wants to see if you really feel bad about our separation let's see what you're doing when you have capabilities of being close to me every time you say i broke hashem this book was right in front of us they say may have broken supposed to make a hundred brokers every day do you think about brooke you work in this broker you're in front of me that means we're close to him realize that he's there he wasn't in the basement a long time ago and he left us and we're by ourselves not by ourselves we have to realize they're but we have to feel it we have to think about it we get so used to things that we say over and over again that we do over and over again and not getting the main purpose of the mitzvah that we're doing the main mitzvah is broke who's there we're doing his rutsen he knows what we're doing and it's me it's very similar to the mesa he knows what we're doing we're emulating him he's getting he's close to us at all times we go walk outside we see dabria think about this broku me bro ayla who by walking outside and seeing the breeder college broken crate really he created such a fantastic breed that were able to would enjoy to look at our bodies and see uh person that you created me you gave me all the conscious person has in his body basement who's there but many of us are guilty that we you learn even by smarty rabbit we're going the whole day best mother and that thing but think about this broker of even once tested ourselves first to learn that morning saturday afternoon saturday night city how many times did i think about gettysburg that was broken a lot of times i was broke he's teaching his tire he's there and we're learning torah and uh we said say the broke in the morning that we have that we have to tell you this bro who's teaching us do we really feel it yeah of course exactly ask a person of course but we're talking about now feeling we're sitting in the morning for the quarterbacks not with us he is with us and the uh the happiness that is with us supersedes all the sadness that we're written with that word that we're feeling of the horde base that make those we feel sad that we sit on the ground and we we're mourning but if we really think about it the the the sem even was with us in all ways 24 7 he's there she was from the negative summit the more we take them into our minds the more it's closer to us we think about them like i said before by davening by learning torah this is something we have to think about the tish above mourning about god's broken not being close to us like chris wants to see do you really feel you want me to be close you feel like something means something to you you want me to bring the basic leaders back and let me see let him say how much you feel how much you want how much you feel mature you're working on it you have to have the right seminars to be closed no the greatest closeness closest comes to the basement but that's not the only way we have we have many ways to be have made culture because we're close to us this is where our [Applause] and now but that's not not enough we feel so good to be close we want to be even closer we want to be together again i can progress we want even more than that because worker will see that we're working we're making catbolas [Applause] [Music] foreign you