Ohr HaTorah Maamer "Chayav Inish" #4

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such a tree for what's this concept yeah mechanics and hangman turns out as the gemara says on the set of magilla we learned that they hung haman and they hung later the ten sons of hama but when haman is making it just for mordechai what's this kamisha mama based on everything we learned in the mimer till now it becomes clear why haman wanted this tree so let's see in the next paragraph if you didn't open your source streets please open your source sheets he says it's uh the middle of dalit the second paragraph on this page reish sadik them we can understand why the maharial says we go back to the question that we're getting over the mind whether the primary miracle was that the king could not sleep and he asked in the beginning of the mind but that was not the primary miracle the primary miracle was that esther spoke to about the fate of her people and he agreed to kill haman and annul the decree or at least give the nada he didn't another decree but he gave jews the right for self-defense that's the miracle it's nice that he couldn't sleep and he rewarded martha martha was taken around shushan it's it's a very nice you know addition to the story no question but that was not uh yeah nonetheless we say that the my real rights the mismanhagem that when you come to malayalam chapter 6 the balcara the one who reads the magilla raises his voice why she says because that's the ikiranase the primary miracle so that tamathak says now we understand that it's all about waking up and that's what the yalcott says not only woke up it's that the king of the world woke up it's all about waking up it's all about being conscious being alert is allegorical of a cosmic change from a state of sleep into a state of consciousness you know we can all be awake but we're still asleep asleep means that i'm not in touch with who i am asleep means i'm not alert i'm operating on a very external level i once saw an answer there was uh there was a jew his name was absalom gerardi he was a chabad khasir of a wealthy affluent jew he passed away a number of years ago zalman guradi rezaman gurhari so i saw an answer the laboratory wrote to him about various people who come to his fabregas that ever went for bring on sharp is very often then they were long they were many quite a few hours you know it's not what a lot of people are used to shop this afternoon you challenge you take a nap but with fabrega sometimes all day there was no no naps i grew up there's no such a concept of a nap on choppers it was unheard of the barbecue didn't sleep himself nor did he let anybody else sleep a person's influence is so profound sometimes till today it doesn't let people sleep he says a lot of people come to fabregas they think they're doing me a favor they're not interested in being there he said he said some people actually sleep he says most of them some of them some of them sleep with closed eyes most of them sleep with open eyes in other words you could be somewhere you can have open eyes but i'm asleep i'm asleep because i'm not operating with my full self with my full consciousness i'm not fully present i say in yiddish loves to right what are you sleeping it comes from jonah jonah went to sleep when the waters were tumultuous and they said near them the pandavas was a great man that he was a survivor he built benebrach many of the institutions so somebody once told them the columns you're dreaming he had grand dreams he says ms but i'm awake i'm not dreaming in my sleep i'm dreaming when i'm awake you have to have dreams when you're awake not only when you're asleep so you have to be also awake when you're awake you have to be awake when you're awake what happens when a person is asleep as the mimer explained at length their full energy is not being expressed it's not being manifested it's a time of rejuvenation it's a time when we retreat we go into hibernation that's what hibernation is in order to be able to have kayak to have strength to be able to renew ourselves but when sleep becomes substituted for being awake in other words that becomes the status quo of a person then that's sad because your your full energy is not being manifested nor can one see the difference of the hierarchy of faculties the leadership of the brain nor can one recognize paradox and be able to say this is true this is not true and all of this is a metaphor for what happens in gallus this all happens in gullus and exile and therefore when the king is not sleeping so he says in his words the earth comes into the calam the light of the divine is manifested in the vessels and then automatically it's obvious that israel are lee rosh israel means my head like that we explained in the beginning of the mimer that the jewish people are meant to be the brain of the cosmos what do we mean the brain of the cosmos not just to win many nobel prizes even though that's very nice the brain of the cosmos means to be able to serve as a source of clarity and inspiration and love and and and awareness awareness to the entire planet and to the entire mean when you say that when world person is awake but asleep they can't be he said not they can't deal with paradox is that because um because their consciousness is restricted they have to box reality in a certain way what i meant you ask what i mean by the paradox i mean that in dreams we can entertain things that are opposite in a very comfortable way i could be in new york and i could be in australia i could be in manchester and i could be in moscow at the same time that's what dreams that's how dreams work suddenly you wake up i'm not in australia and then and the reason is because our brain is more discerning it's it's it's active and it says one second i'm not in australia but in a dream it's more nebulous i'm really for a relationship with hashem you need to be able to be able to have that individual identity and also connect to the infinity yeah yeah thank you yeah yeah comes out comes the maya man says rizzo shiraz so that's why haman wants a tree with the height of 50 yamas that there are 50 portals of understanding and the 50th portal even maisha did not grasp it says all the 49 were given to maisha besides the 50th vol and this there's a possibility in job 28 there's a path that even ayat either a certain very efficient knowledgeable bird also is unaware of the sieve the civ is the path that even the ayat the bird also doesn't know we have the safety syria speaks about the fact that the islamic base and the siva is there's 50 portals to beena and there's pathways to but there's that pathway that is that is beyond awareness that's the interesting thing that by the car by the spherus armor we count only 49 days we don't count 50. the terrorist says count 50 days tis peru but the sages say it says somewhere else seven weeks so how do we reconcile that we count 49 days and then there's the 50th day which is so why does the toyota say to count 50 days and then the sages have to come and say no it doesn't mean to count 50. it means to count up to 50. but the terrorist says it says we count 49. each day we work on ourselves we open ourselves up more to the light of infinity in us the 50th must be revealed as a gift because it's that which is beyond the human being's ability to trigger and arouse it's beyond isa russell the arousal we explained earlier we did this in the previous year that the nurture for klippo which is unholiness to be able to receive the nurture they want to rise like an eagle the positive they want to receive their light from a place that is above the structures that facilitate the divine energy which is called mammalia they want to go to slave of macheth because over there they can get a lot of nurture like he gave an example of a barrel overflowing and the wine pours in all directions doesn't discriminate when you put in a faucet you channel the water you harness it you direct it it's filtered you know the concept of laser technology what does laser technology do everything emits light everything exudes light but the light goes everywhere so its energy gets mitigated what is laser technology do you familiar with laser what it does is it it contracts it limits the light to be able to go in one direction and therefore it's with precision the light is shooting out with precision and therefore its impact its momentum its intensity is more powerful because by limiting it to go in one direction you can harness all the momentum all the power that's embedded in it and utilize it to the point that today they perform surgeries through laser technology right they can literally go in into the body and it's it's beautiful because there's no uh there's no cutting there's no uh there's no physical cutting you can cut you can cut diamonds so laser technology is very powerful why because you're limiting the light and therefore it's not being squandered they want to get the light they can have access to the light that is above structure so then clipper could get a lot of fear so muhammad says i don't only want to make they don't only want to make a tree of 50 almost physically hormone wants to rise up to that level of 50 amis 50 shari bin over there he can rule over murder at the end what happens the king is not asleep because the king wakes up shattaloway salah ate that this very tree becomes the source of his defeat because once the king wakes up everything changes the world is not in hibernation anymore one is there is the gili hamachen once we're awake and there's the revelation and the manifestation of awareness in a very profound way like the person who's awake the consciousness is not reduced but it's revealed so the divine energy is revealed in the universe and it becomes clear what's on top what's on bottom what's important what's not important what's real what's not real so then that very tree becomes the source for the defeat of evil. and then even the 50th tree is revealed to you sir which means it's revealed to those forces those realities in the world that want to uphold the story of unity and love is jerusalem we count seven weeks which every single week is every week and every day of spirits as the eight skyyim says is a time of introducing more consciousness more awareness into our emotions so then the 50th portal the 50th gate which is revealed on schwiz comes out in the right way lee israel like we say the opening of the ten commandments which we also read is i am hashem so that the energy is directed directed to those who are upholding the story of oneness and love not those who want to use their power to destroy and hate like a mullet etc what happens when the king wakes up when the king is suffering from insomnia what's the next scene the king instructs this is the opening of chapter six of the book of esther the king says bring the safer as a kindness the reason why people drink wine i think yeah very good very good to bring the safer as the koreans the book of memories let's go down memory lane divrei hayamim the book that records the chronology the history of everything that happened in the palace and what happens and they find that it's written by imitsu kosovo they found that it's written that two people bixen and saresh who were part of the security team of the khashweirish plotted his assassination and mardukai reported to esther and esther reported to the king and the king's life was saved that's what happens when the king wakes up he asks them to bring safer azerinus the journal the diary that has all the memories divre hayaman the words of the days which means the stories of all the days so now that zamasu explains what this means he gives an incredible interpretation when the melach the alcochimani says who's the malach the king of the world wakes up what happens when the king wakes up is that the infinite light is channeled and lowered and humbles itself and channels itself through vessels and that's the source of creation of time that's why it's called the stories of the days the ain't safe itself infinity transcends matter transcends space but also transcends time time is also a creation before the world existed there was no before the world existed because it was before there was a concept of before because time itself's man itself is a neighbor today we know einstein helped us understand this at least somewhat that time is actually a dimension of matter and that's why time is relative and in ultimate reality you completely transcend time so based on what he explained before that generally there is the concept of the answer of the way it's channeled in caleb and that's where there's a structure that's called the yoshi but there's also something called egulim or saif of kalam which is the infinite light that transcends structure during sleep the light goes back to the source just like when a person is asleep the faculties are not manifested through the limbs of the body i'm just sleeping the faculties go back they ascend back to their pristine transcendent and therefore they're not manifested in the world we'll get there and because and because there is no sumim there's no filters so therefore sitra wants to receive the energy from there because it's a place that is beyond histausolus beyond structure when it comes to structure then it's precise it's directed it's purpose driven that there should be a you read that as we explained earlier says that when the king wakes up he introduces divre hayaman meaning the earth comes into caleb and over there this man hashem himself is beyond time ki adobe first is dear old age by god the whole concept of time doesn't apply to him and because it doesn't apply to him so there's no such thing as getting old here we have that the king says no bring in this we say in the morning in davaning hamishna so in the beginning of america right the first blessing before krishma so we speak about hamela imam lovato islam literally it means he's exalted above the days of the world like divre hayama she explains piracilla what does it mean he's exalted above the days of the world what are the days of the world come on says in the morning six days hashem created heaven and earth on the seventh day he rested asks desire our bestest loyalists the grammar seems to be off it should have said it's not think about it in english in six days god made heaven and earth not six days god made heaven and earth in six days bishops yum and over six days he created the world that's not what the posix says passage says six days he created the world it's missing a base says desire that was the creation the first thing god had to emanate or identify is that there were six days six meeters has and they are the building blocks from which the world is created they are the source because sunday was a reflection of hassan and monday guru and tuesday to ferris and wednesday netzan thursday friday and then thursday hide and then friday as you saw it and then it's jabba so it's not god created the world during six days sheisha's the creation is all about the fact that he made six days that that god identified within his infinity six meters sheisha and these are the building blocks of the entire cosmos of the entire universe and all of the universes spiritual and physical um and these six middles are the source of the creation of time six thousand years that's why our sages say the gemara says a day of hashem is a thousand years the posix says in tehillim thousands of years for you is like yesterday like a day god's day is a thousand years what does this mean because there are six days of creation each day embodies one media and that's the source of the sixth millennia the gemara says in rosh hashanah alma the world continues for six thousand years and then the khadgar of the seventh millennium is a completely different type of reality transcendence oneness the seventh millennium that's shabbos but during the six days every thousand years is an expression of one day of creation in fact the ramban and other hisham and works of kabbalah they discuss how every creation of every single day parallels what would happen in history during that millennium so sunday represents the first thousand years if you study well what happened on friday that's the sixth millennium we are now in the sixth millennium five seven eight one is the sixth millennium we're getting closer to the seventh millennium in the year six thousand it's friday afternoon now it's friday afternoon every day is a thousand years the ramban says other issue items say that every thousand years is divided into 500 years is the night and the second 500 years is the day so 5 000 the year 5000 hey i love him that began thursday night of creation 5500 tough cough is friday morning 57 50 is friday midday you with me friday midday because if 500 years is 12 hours 24 hours is a thousand years so 1200 12 hours represents five hundred years so six hours represents 250 years so when did we hit friday afternoon tough non five seven fifty that's when we hit friday afternoon what happens in the house friday afternoon rabbi litzman is laughing a lot of chaos right the men are trying to taste the kugel and the women are trying to prepare for shabbos friday afternoon is lebanese five seven fifty tough shin nun friday afternoon what's it somehow saying all of this is a result of the six middles the six middles are six thousand years in other words the focus is his day is a thousand years it's a day because this represents the middle east hashem himself exalted above the days of the world the days of the world are referring her to the six days which embody and they are the progenitors of the sixth millennia and because they're project the progenitors of the sixth millennia so when we say hamish islam is hashem himself transcends time time only exists as a result of infinity articulating itself within structures that will allow for space and for time and ultimately for matter so if you watch what we say in davonin he gazes and can look at all of the generations with one scan biskira how can you do that it's like you take a picture of something you scan scary as a scan and it scans everything all the details for us six thousand years is a long time hashem because he transcends time so biscuit in one scan he could see it all so that's what the navi says he says for one moment i have left you and with great compassion i will bring you back i will gather you the angel what's the sequence in this passage for one moment i left you but with great compassion i'm going to gather you he said it's not two separate things it's one message allah when the great compassion will be revealed and then we'll see that all the days of galas was just one fleeting moment when you're inside of it it's extremely long and it seems never-ending when you experience the rachmanim then the whole thing is redefined it's reframed and that which looked like a thousand years from one level is really only one day we know today that time is relative even in our own perceptions right if somebody is traveling with the speed of light 186 000 miles per second the time passes in completely different fashion in other words depends where you are that's how fast or slow time is going there could be two children two infants who are born one lives here on planet earth and the other one is taken by a spaceship far far up and 50 years later one man is 50 years old and the other one is just having his bris and it's this is reality what happened what happened 50 years was a day and this is pure science this is pure physics this is einsteinian physics time is relative you go into a deeper space of reality everything changes so a thousand years becomes one day so he says when you'll have the gili of gdaylim we'll be able to see that it was all a regular cotton from a higher perspective um even when we say that god perceives all of reality through one scan that's also a definition of time it's just it won't take 6 000 years it takes a day it takes a moment the truth is hashem himself transcends any definition of time even the slowest or the fastest time so therefore how does this all relate to our what we're talking about in gallows says that ascends higher and higher it transcends time but when the king is not sleeping anymore when the king is awake he says oh bring the safer as div now the oil is channeled into caleb it's not a state of shina in a state of shin and asleep the air is solid so transcends caleb so transcends him islam so transcends man and because of that down here below there could be chaos there could be confusion there's a lack of awareness and there's a lack of clarity and that's gullus when the king is not asleep anymore he says now what this teaches us is that there's also the opposite idea the gemara says that when the gentiles came into the hekhal to destroy the bay samitas they saw that the cherubs were intertwined with each other kumari and human on dalit kruven mourinho of them were were interconnected and they were showing them as their asks and others it doesn't make sense because usually we say that when the kruven were looking at each other it meant that the relationship between god and israel was peaceful and when the crew of him turned away from each other it meant that there was conflict during the time of the destruction it seems like it was the greatest conflict and that's why then the crew of them should have been drifting away from each other but we say no more they were actually experiencing a very deep connection on a relationship what does that mean so the market of mizritch famously said about this something very powerful that the gemara says in your vampires before a person goes on a journey the night before he has to be together with his wife because he's leaving so the market says when the specimen was being destroyed the husband was going on a long journey before that you have to be together that's why the cherubs were intertwined with each other quotes this from the market of ms rich it's a famous teaching of the market of ms rich the rebel once added in a purimimer balila who another daughter of 84 which is based on this mimer and based on a mine balayla who tough shin 1940 of his father-in-law the first miami he said when he came to america that this explains also what happens because when the couple is together he impregnates her with a seed so when hashem was together with knesset syrah during the time of the herb and he impregnated us with the seed of gula the seed of meshiach and that sea develops over the nine months it develops over the time of galas and mashiach is the birth of that seed which explains why hazal tells us mashiach was born on tish above because on tish above the cherubs were intertwined with each other and claudia israel conceived the seed of the divine the seed of gula now what does this mean in this context we can understand this because when you're asleep in many ways the light is in a much higher space and because the light is in a much higher space therefore below your consciousness is is reduced and there is confusion but it's because the light really went up to a much deeper space to a much higher place but the way it's manifested in the world it's manifested in the world as a time of darkness so there's two things happening at the same time in a deeper higher space there's deep intimacy there's deep unity but the way it's manifested down here is there's a reduced sense of consciousness what's google what's what happens when the king wakes up now the infinite energy is channeled within the finite structures of the person so therefore there is a concept there's a concept of google so in many ways golos has this very powerful thing because you go higher than zman and when you go higher than zman and higher than structure you're touching infinity the problem is infinity is not manifested in vessels and structures so down here there could be a circus there could be absolute chaos that's what golo says angu and that's why haman says oh it's time to celebrate let's build a tree kamehameha this is the ikiranas this is the great miracle what does this mean in a person's life in a person's life very very briefly it means whenever we have an experience that's overwhelming what happens our vessels can't contain it in other words we're being introduced to a higher light what we call gullus what we call now this is sensitive stuff and we have to say this with a lot of compassion what we call gullus what we sometimes call trauma what we call pain is really introducing us to a higher light that we cannot deal with we can't contain and therefore we shut down we go to sleep because i can't deal with it what is healing healing is allowing that light to be integrated into your vessels not being afraid of the light and when you're not afraid of it you integrate it into your life and that's what waking up really means so throughout our lives we experience things that are overwhelming they transcend us and we go to sleep because this i cannot deal with this it's there's too much resistance it's too big it's too powerful and when when it's too powerful it can often spell out and be perceived as destruction because my vessels are being shut down because the light is too deep it's higher than time that's why gullus is the time that the crew of them are together the unity is very very deep it's the light of goula but it's above the vessels and on a in a tangible way there's chaos there's destruction and that's why there is grief and there's pain what is google a google is not being afraid of anything that's going on in me and realizing that i have the power to integrate it into myself and then when i can do that that very source of trauma becomes my greatest source of healing if this is the case now this is a very serious process it comes with a lot of compassion and it comes with a lot of tears and it comes with a lot of a lot of inner it could come with a lot of it needs a lot of inner work but that's the truth of what waking up means it's integrating the insiph into time into space so now that sada continues there's a parentheses here for a few lines but let's go let's skip the parentheses and go to the word after the parentheses the line starts okay now we come back to the question the beginning of the miami the question was what's this idea of inebriating yourself until you don't know the difference in cursed as haman and blessed is murder and he quoted the passage from that your mouth is like delicious good wine it wakes up the lips of those who are asleep and he said what does that mean wine usually puts people to sleep and that's how he got into the whole idea of balila comes now we can understand what it means that a person has to inebriate himself until he doesn't know pirish the passage says in iaeaf which means even if you're righteous what do you think you're going to be giving god what are you going to give god when you go above ishtalus there may not be a difference that's recognizable between cursed as haman and blessed as marduka it's a fascinating matrix the madrid says it says god created the light and the darkness light represents the work of sadiq the actions of the righteous darkness represents the actions of the wicked the madras rabbit says and i don't know which one god wants and then it says god saw that the light is good and he separated the light from the darkness now i say he wants the actions of sadiq what type of thought is this we don't know what god wants this is a madrid but parish is beratious in the beginning if he wants my son sadiq come on how can you say this says because there is that level of divinity of infinity where it would seem it doesn't matter nothing matters you can't move him you can't impress him he doesn't need you so who cares how a person behaves what's the difference come on martha it's all the same thing imagine no borders no religion no structures no countries no right and wrong what the matter says any of the obeisan prophets why are you defining god based on your limitations that's a very very serious idea this means that there could be a space in reality where everything goes where i don't know what he cares about does he care about this does he care about that because after all if he transcends every definition so does he transcend morality too so nothing makes a difference and do you think that what you do or what you don't do is going to have an impact that's the thought process that can exist so what has to happen but surah bisume for this a person needs to be inebriated what does it mean you're inebriated with so the person in his own avodah needs to go to that space you see haman believes that if you get to a certain level that doesn't make a difference between no difference all the differences happen from a much more limited perspective but in the real core of reality there's no distinctions light darkness light is not better than darkness so therefore darkness can prevail all the structures that we're familiar with are very limited ways of describing reality but an ultimate reality there's no advantage of light over darkness of sadhikam over ishayah that was purim that's what he wanted to do with his tree of 50 amis that's what happens when the king is asleep so what's that of purim i have to be able to go to that space where there's no difference what does it mean i go to that space what does it mean i go to that space how do i go to that space so he says i have to become a nebra what does it mean i become inebriated he says there's two ways of serving god one is almanasla cabo pras i want to be rewarded i want to have fulfillment i want to do things for my own sake and then there's i don't want anything besides you yourself the posix says until the middle but who do i have in heaven and with you i desire nothing on earth so the altar ever used to say not eleanor there's nothing else i desire beside you not even the prize the press process of prize that i'm going to get as a result of serving you this is ada yada that the person goes from a place in which i'm defined by my own structure to complete intimacy with the source alephi the miracle happened on that level because haman threw a lot why do we call purim purim pura means lots gorillas why is that important to the story so he threw a lot who cares what's a lot what's a girl a girl seems random when you make a girl and somebody wins there's no purpose why did you win it's a ridiculous question it's called luck that's what gorilla is you won the lottery why do you win the lottery it's logical you deserved it it's called blind luck that's what gairal is why is human throwing a girl because haman wants to go into that space where nothing matters which sheer luck there's no distinctions you win i win it's all a girl haman wants to go to that place in reality where structure doesn't make any more sense than chaos and life doesn't make any more sense than death and morality doesn't make any more sense than barbarism and kindness doesn't make any more sense than cruelty and all the boundaries of right and wrong and good and bad and light and darkness would become irrelevant that's the place that haman feels he can rule he can dominate and he says if god is really infinite and god is really perfect you think he needs you you think you can accomplish something you think what you do or doesn't don't do matters who do you think you are you're so arrogant that's where the drama of purim was happening the drama of portugal was happening on the level of sleep where the light ascends from the vessels retreats back to infinity and then this world can become a chaotic place because the king is sleeping and when the king is sleeping you can do whatever you want the avoid of purim is kind of in it just like the king woke up and brought it into div as i become inebriated reaches that place where i go out of my own vessels i go out of my own structures what does it mean i go out of my own structures i have to open myself up to the infinite light beyond the caleb because that's where haman wants to reach that's where mordechai has to reach human wants to destroy structure you also have to destroy structure but in a positive sense what does it mean to destroy structure get out of your head get out of your own structures ask not what god can do for you ask what you can do for god ask not what your wife can do for you ask what you can do for your wife ask not what the jewish people can do for you what the world can do for you ask what you can do for the world ask not what i need allow myself to open myself up to transcendence to infinity that's adlayada purim is throwing lots haman wants to throw lots he wants randomness he celebrates randomness he rises like an eagle um and from there he was brought down how is the light of the light of transcendence was channeled into caleb into vessels into the molecule and over there he wants the mice him over there that makes a very big difference what a person does but in order to be able to channel it back into the calaman i have to go to that space of adalaya binary that's how we go back to the beginning that good wine wakes up the lips it triggers it arouses the lips of those who are asleep it was at night when he couldn't sleep who hainu the expression is that night balila is dark it's night hahu is also concealment because in hebrew who you always say about third person when somebody is not here who lush and mister who means he's concealed he or she when you're right in front of me i don't say who i say atta you second person is atta who is always third person who is hello when rachel gets the mandrakes from leia rahul says you give me the mandrakes and therefore yaakov will sleep with you what's who cause leia alma descas rahul was giving up yaakov to leia that night and leia is the world of concealment rakul is the world of revelation if you remember the maimaru we learned about rachel and leia leia is the hidden world lay is the world of adelaide nobody knows leia rachael is the ahmed is gay of the revealed world whose layers shidduch asav ace of his human's grandfather leia is somehow connected to asev rocco is supposed to marry yakov rocco now gives yakov back to leia and she says alma on that day by mahu on that day it will be said he nailed the ke nuzet in other words what is gullah you take the who and you bring it into you don't want to let go of the who the who is actually the secret of infinity the who is that which transcends you but when it stays up there in who down here there could be chaos and that's exactly what trauma is i was accessed all pain is that i have access to a very deep light and i can't make peace with it and therefore it breaks down the system you need the who to come into this that night it came out in a revealed way leo is bizarre nicomela to be able to shine within the structures of the media is known as the rampant which is also called malach wine is that what you bring out from the depth of the grapes and you reveal it the wine isn't better than the grape you squeeze the grape the wine comes out people drink wine the gemara says in my second niche when you drink wine secrets come out in fact the iron and soy have the same numerical value 70. so when you bring in the wine the secrets come out wine causes revelation and that's why they used to do wine libations when the levine would sing in the basement every morning levy who it says in paris the levy will serve in the basement the word who is completely apparently superfluous and unnecessary what does it mean the levy will serve him so he says the levy refers to alma disgusting the concealed world the kayanes guru the lady ascends that's why the lady sings song is ascent as we learned in the mind of bashar khan levy who the levy has access to who and takes the who and brings it out to revelation that's the idea that the light the wine allows the lips of those who are asleep to begin talking to begin communicating that's the high of energy pouring that the wine of purim helps us wake up from our sleep what the my real says but they have to raise your voice so you have been seen and asked what does raising your voice have to do with anything but that's the idea of david sifan and when you're asleep you usually don't communicate you're awake you can raise your voice so the wine is devs on it arouses and it triggers the lips of those who are asleep that should be so expressed that now we raise our voices and that's why purim there's a mitzvah to drink wine in order to reveal the state of la bisumma the yaduwa the simchas i think we learned it explains that the joy of the soul and godliness the joy of the soul and allah the wine that is brings out simcha it brings out the inner secrets so it allows the ada to come out in a revealed way and when it comes out in a revealed way then human is defeated evil is defeated and goodness goodness prevails that's why the maori says that from balaylo another you raise your voice that's the iker hanes the quran is the waking up when i wake up everything changes when a person is asleep we all know i'm not alert i'm not fully aware of what's happening i'm living in a compromised space when i'm awake you're completely in touch you're completely in touch with yourself and with your truth is part of the blessings of yaakov to yehudah where he speaks about the fact that he's going to tie his donkey to the vine because there's going to be so many grapes that one donkey will be filled with clusters of grapes because there'll be so many clusters so in that mime and pastures the balatini explains at length about the ion there's another few lines here it's it's a lot of kabbalistic references so if you want you could learn it yourself but this basically concludes the main theme the main thrust of this mime of the tamar of balila of khai of inislam summa purya adulla yada bin what did you want to take out of it yeah you said it's incredible so i'm asking you yeah the the the application that you gave about how a person can reach a reframe waking up is this idea of reframing one's consciousness to be [Music] disclosure often i found my thoughts going to a place of um even getting missing through my moral for the last few weeks and months uh going to a place that this situation can't change i'm not accepting the situation that i'm in and it can't change and it's all dark and humid i'm still functioning i'm still getting up in the morning for my smooth and everything else but it's it it's as you say you can be asleep while you're awake and i suppose you have to hazard over these ideas and right what it means yeah so in all of our lives to explain what you're saying in all of our lives we can walk around like zombies we walk around sleep what does it mean i walk around sleeping i'm awake i'm doing everything but i'm like a zombie i'm a robot i'm asleep there's no passion there's no life i resign robert jacobson i work in chaplaincy in manchester at the university there and i was giving out some uh stuff to students and there's a student that a girl she keeps on telling she a few three four times she's mentioned to me that she suffers from chronic fatigue that up the courage i didn't say anything i just empathized and i talked to the courage to state her that i don't understand every time i meet you you're so full of highest you seem to be so alive she's she's a sheriff shamira shah but she's a full girl i didn't understand what she was saying she suffers from chronic fatigue i couldn't see any signals at all she used one word one word which is very related to purim she said masking is masking it's all masking so what goes on in our inner world is wow that's very powerful so she told you she suffers from chronic fatigue and all the life that she displays is a mask yeah now my only question to you is why don't we see her at the shear this is where she belongs of course this is where she belongs because what happens we go to sleep not because we're lazy we'll go to sleep not because we just are not interested in anything we go to sleep because there's resistance you understand we want to save our energy it's like the trees in the winter they hibernate because they don't have energy to produce leaves to do photosynthesis the little energy they have they have to keep to themselves so they go into hibernation why do the beers go into hibernation they're not eating every day during the winter it's a very very takes a lot of energy to live and you don't have it [Music] there's chaos happening in my mind if i live a structured life all i'll experience is the pain of the chaos there's no way of integrating it you go to sleep in many ways sleep is the release of higher states of consciousness that i can't deal with and what happens in my revealed life in my revealed life i may be awake but i'm asleep i'm resigned it's just too much energy to integrate so you know i live more on a superficial level i do what i have to do but my inner world is in turmoil there's a lot of anxiety was the miracle of purim he woke up the king wakes up but it's not that he woke up because he wasn't sleeping anymore really waking up is integrating everything you experience during your sleep into your conscious self that's what it is it's it's it's bringing together those two states of consciousness bringing that in yeah and when you can integrate when you can integrate then that changes everything because what that means is that the person can actually instead of being afraid of their inner light they actually make peace with their inner light i don't have to run away from my reality i can actually integrate it is there a connection between the mimer of the tsa mahzadek where he says first is simpson and there is light to the other mime of the tsam sadaq that we learned about the sheep and the goats explaining the teaching of the magid about the king and the queen it seems there that these two are vaders that are equal there's two possible paths and avail this hashem there's the goat and there's the sheep asav and jaakov there's dealing with light and dealing with darkness but here we see not this first darkness and then there's light and you want to defeat the darkness well you're asking the deep questions here just to summarize it very briefly and that is yeah the goats represent the void of asov and when there is darkness that simpson that's where haman wants to shine but from the darkness you have to create light and then take the darkness and transform it into life light and that's what adilayada is and then ultimately you learn that whichever avoid that you're in ar barak mardakai you can make peace between both of them because the darkness is really here only to be transformed so you reach a place where adalaya binary you absolutely don't know the difference anymore because you transform aruhaman into barack you spoke about 50 is that why 50 is the number of jubilee you evil yeah yeah haman builds gallows of 50 amas did he really have in mind the 50th level or that's the well it could be it was in his own subconscious his own 50th level yeah is why i study whenever i quote the saying especially on purim i end up saying that which would have been more you would have thought would have said it like that because that's the ultimate confusion but maybe it says it the way it does because ultimately we need to bring this as we said to be mayor the soviet back down into into where we can't stay there we've got to make sure we come back to the conclusion that hashem prophets i think of course next question from our perception there is good and there is the opposite of good but if god is all and god is only good so then maybe the truth is that there is revealed good and unrevealed good we say there's good and there's the opposite but if god is all and god is only good so everything is good the difference is how revealed it is the unrevealed good is good hidden by a husk of seemingly negative things we know things seem bad but sometimes they turn out to be good does adlaya mean that you can't tell the difference between the good of murder and the bad of haman you reach a level with the apparent good and the hidden good are both the same that's a very very beautiful interpretation it's brought in siddhis that interpretation and it's really connected to what we're saying in other words you're reaching that space where haman seems to be as powerful as mardukai and that's why there's no difference and that's where haman wants to receive his nurture from and that's where the light is touching the place of infinity and infinity can create chaos in other words it can create a world of harmon psychologically infinity can create a tremendous amount of inner confusion and on purim i touch that space because i know that i can integrate it i don't have to be afraid you see we are afraid of our chaos listen to brazil we're afraid of our chaos we don't want to deal with it so we go to sleep you understand what is healing healing is you don't have to run away you could stay there you could integrate your infinity we don't want to go there because that's a place where we feel that haman takes over and why does human take over there because i'm not in control it's very scary it's overwhelming what this mimer teaches you is that balailah nada dashnasa you don't have to go to sleep you can integrate it so we each have very very deep energies and they're often come out in life and deep challenges and deep things that we're dealing with how do you deal with that so either you become like a robot or a zombie or you become angry or upset or you go into a depression or you just go to sleep and you cut yourself off from that level of reality you don't want to deal with it so you just go to work every day you know you pay the bills and you eat some kogul and you eat tom and dash and all is good the real the gift is not to be afraid of any part in you and to know that ultimately everything can be channeled into your life and you can hold on to it you could contain it and the reason you could contain it is because it belongs to you this is this is this is part of your essence this is part of your mission you could wake up and you when you wake up you walk around not like a zombie you're fully involved in life you're passionate about life you suck the marrow out of life you live life to the fullest you dance till the end of love you don't have to go to sleep you don't have to be afraid of haman we're all afraid of humans stop being afraid of hama don't be afraid i'm talking about your own hammer stop being afraid of your own human we're frightened of it we're frightened because haman spells absolute chaos so what do we do either we go there or we numb our pain right which is also a form of sleep or we end up in that chaos that's what happens to other people you know we look at people who are doing stupid things and we right away judge them they don't know how to deal with themselves they have absolutely no idea how to deal with themselves tell me what to do with me tell me tell me what to do with me i don't know what to do with me i mean i don't know what to do with me it's very very hard i do stupid things to numb the pain to escape this or i go to sleep as you say teenagers love going to sleep i also like sometimes going to sleep especially when i'm tired so uh you know um most people you know life gets tough and we look forward to go to sleep like we look forward to sleep we look forward to vacations we look forward because these are places where we can just you know hopefully run away what would life be like if there was no sleep what would life be like if there was no vacation it was just you had to fully live this is it there's always that sleep where we we go until we go into a different space but god made it that way that where we go to sleep and sleep in a way releases different energies it releases higher states of consciousness and that's what dreams are sometimes very very contradictory goggles is compared to a dream and toyota approaches the whole mind which is and in dreams nothing makes sense in many ways it's horrible in many ways that's where truth is that's where truth is nothing makes sense can i integrate that can i wake up with that that's the key that's um some things make sense like obviously the torah makes sense i'm continuously amazed when i'm learning how the torah makes sense it's just mind-blowing i try to try to figure out a contradiction and something that i can never find that it makes such sense also a carpenter