Noticing The Good - Wednesday Night Women’s Shiur

Okay. I think there's a certain chizuk and clarity that comes out of parsha shlach that we don't notice on the surface. So, I want to try to dig in to to find it. Um and I'm going to start with a kasha that I actually started another shear this week with this kasha. It's the type of thing that you could could you could slip by when you're reading the pasukim, but if you're aware and you're you're listening to the pasukim with uh you know, with a with a with clarity, you realize how much this needs of shat. Okay? So, here's what happened. Miraglim was sent to Eretz Yisrael, as we know. And >> We just posted that the video is off. Is your video on? >> Okay, now it's on. Thank you. So, So, they sent miraglim to Eretz Yisrael. And the miraglim saw what they saw. They misunderstood what they saw. But for whatever reason, which maybe we'll get to, they they didn't have the proper hashkafa to see properly what they were seeing. And they came back and they gave a bad report about Eretz Yisrael. And Klal Yisrael reacted terribly. Vayivku ha'am balayla hahu, Klal Yisrael cried the whole night. Here Hakadosh Baruch Hu was setting them up for the most wonderful thing, a yerusha in Eretz Yisrael, and they cried about it the whole night. And they said terrible things. Why is Hashem bringing us into Yeru Israel? It would have been better for us to stay in Mitzrayim. You understand how terrible what a terrible thing that is to say all the Krias Yam Suf and all the 10 Makos. We'd rather not have experienced that. It would have been better to just stay in Mitzrayim. And Hakadosh Baruchu tells Moshe that um maybe Klal Yisrael went too far. Ad ana yina atzune ha'am hazeh? How far will this nation anger me? V'ad ana lo ya'aminu vi? And how far will they not have emunah in me? B'chol ha'osois asher asisi b'kirbi with all of the miracles that I've done. And then Hakadosh Baruchu makes a suggestion to Moshe Rabbeinu. Maybe we should get rid of Klal Yisrael. Achanu ba'dever. I'll wipe them out with a plague. Um and I will make you into a great nation. V'e'eseh oscha l'goy gadol. I'll make you into a great nation v'atzum mimenu and stronger than Klal Yisrael. Why do you think he added that? What did he mean by that? >> Stronger in emunah? >> Maybe. Maybe that's what he even knows. They A nation that won't make this mistake, perhaps. Also, it could be that he was trying to This was a nisayon for Moshe Rabbeinu to say that but Moshe Rabbeinu could have told himself "Wow, it would be a bigger Kiddush Hashem to wipe out Klal Yisrael and then we'll have an stronger Klal Yisrael in the end." So Moshe could have fooled himself into going along with this. V'atzum mimenu. I did it for for for the night. But my show of course loves cloudy Israel too much and he responds to our borrow who that no it would be a terrible Hashem if Hashem wiped out cloudy Israel. Why would it be a Hashem? So my show explains to my show says a timer to our borrow who that the guy him will make a mistake and they will say if I could just borrow who wipes out cloudy Israel the guy him will say me built the Hashem as a loris that I could just borrow who did not have the strength did not have the ability to bring cloudy Israel into Israel. So because the nations will say you know why he killed them in the mid grade he couldn't bring them into Israel. So that's why you should bring them into Israel and show that you do have the strength to bring them into Israel. Okay, and that is unusual enough of a timer you think after I could just borrow who did 10 markers in the and create anybody doubt that he could bring them into Israel is that so much harder? You know you know what great I mean there were that happened and so on there were that happened in in the in the in the conquering of Israel but nothing that comes close to the that happened when they came out of right? So we think I should have bring them into Israel what does it mean when he says that they'll say that I should have couldn't bring them into Israel what's the logic there? Why would they say it has to make some sense to say it right? Even when the newspaper says a ridiculous made up story but it still tries to give some logic for the made up story right the conspiracy theory has to have a theory to it. Right? So my show saying they'll say you couldn't bring them into Israel why not? But that's not even what I want to ask you. You know what a tangent my show goes on when he's saying this? We joke about this sometimes. You know, you know the tangent people? You know, you know what we joke about this, you know, like um Yeah, it's such a busy day because on my way home from work, I had to stop off in Kosher World and and you know that Kosher World is has a sale on this and this and that and then I passed by the cream cheese and I really only like the whipped cream cheese, but they have the other kind of cream cheese because my kids, you know, they fight over the cream cheese. Do your kids fight? You know, like what Can we get back to you? I've got to I'm late for work. You know, like you know that kind of tangent that people are sometimes like you're not even sure like which conversation are we in now? You don't know what happened. Right? Yes? You've heard that kind of tangent? If you have a house like hello, welcome to life. But you agree with me that Moshe Rabbeinu should not be talking to Hashem like that, right? You agree? Okay, you ready for this? Listen to this, okay? Says Moshe Rabbeinu. Moshe says to Hashem, Mitrayim will hear that you took out this nation. I'm sorry, Mitrayim whom you took this nation out from will hear and they will say to the to the people of Eretz Yisrael, "They heard that you're Hashem who rests with Klal Yisrael, who has seen you eye and by eye and who have seen you face to face and that there's an there's a cloud on the Klal Yisrael and that there's an Ananei Hakavod that leads them and there's a fire at night and then you're going to kill all of them and then they'll say Hashem couldn't bring you into Eretz Yisrael." Is there anything else you want to throw in there? That's a tangent, right? Just say they will say you couldn't bring them into Eretz Yisrael. They'll say you know that you're with you know What What is this whole story? I'm going to read it to you in Lashon Hara Pasuk just so you can see I'm not making it up, okay? "Va'amru al yoshvei ha'aretz hazeh, shamu ki ata Hashem bekerev ha'am hazeh asher ayin ba'ayin nir'ah >> tangent We agree on the question? Based on the Masorah that my Rosh Yeshiva taught us about what the Meraglim's averah was I understand this possuk very well. It's not a question at all. Because what's going on is as follows. The Meraglim went into Eretz Yisrael and they saw things that were done for their benefit. You know that, right? You know that there were people that died. Um They saw that they were all being osek in levayas and they came in and they were like, "Look at this place. Everyone dies." And really all Hakadosh Baruchu did was try to create a situation that they won't be noticed. That people will be wrapped up in their own situations and they won't be noticed. But instead of seeing the chesed that Hashem was doing for them instead of that, they they saw that Hashem doesn't like them. That Hashem is angry at them. That Hashem is trying to hurt them. That's what they saw. Hashem, look at this country that Hashem wants to bring us to. But what was underneath that? What was What was bothering them? What was underneath that? So the Meforshim say that Klal Yisrael especially the Meraglim who were the leaders of Klal Yisrael they had a reason they did not want to go into Eretz Yisrael. They actually did not want to go into Eretz Yisrael. Do you know why? Because we look at going to Eretz Yisrael as like what could be better? A step up, going into a world of kedusha. We we crave going into Eretz Yisrael. But for them was it a step up or a step down? They think about it. They lived in a midbar. There was zero gashmius at all. They never went shopping for clothes. They never made clothing. Their clothing grew on them. Okay? So there was no involvement in parnassa. They didn't Their food fell in front of their front door. They spent their entire existence serving Hashem, learning Torah, learning his mitzvahs. That is what they did day and night and they loved it. They had the best rebbe in the entire history of the world. They had Moshe Rabbeinu. And they had a system of chinuch that was unparalleled. And they had a direct line to Hakadosh Baruchu. They had a hashgacha shomayim. They had a mishkan. Every time they wanted to eat meat they would go bring an animal to the mishkan. To bring a carbon. Everything was part of their avodas Hashem. And they didn't really need to eat meat because they had man. And the man was such a closeness to Hashem that if like someone would do something not 100% right one day, the man would fall a little further from their house. So they would know I need to do chuva. And then when they do chuva the man would fall closer to their house. They were like, "Oh, baruch Hashem. I could you know, like there's that relationship with Hashem." Okay? And there's like Hakadosh Baruchu speaking to them. Like when Hakadosh Baruchu as we talked about last week, remember we talked about last week? When it was time for them to travel, it wasn't like, "Should we go? Shouldn't we go?" No. The anan would stand up. Like, "Okay, we should go." And they would reconfigure the machaneh and travel. The every hill and mountain was flattened out by the ananei hakavod. Everything was just flattened out and taken care of for them. At night, there was no fear. There was not no Usually in the desert at night with with strange you know with countries all around it could be a very dangerous place. But no, it was no there was no fear. They were surrounded by Ananei Hakavod and it was lit up in front of them. They could see everything. Okay, when the Mitzrim tried to shoot arrows at them, the arrows bounced off the clouds whatever that means. Okay, this was a world of ruchnius that's unimaginable in this world. Basically, they lived as close to a human being could live in Shamayim on this world. Right? They were not Would you call that living in this world? That's Shamayim, no? It's living in Shamayim. That they lived in Shamayim. And then Hakadosh Baruch Hu says, "Okay, it's time to go into Eretz Yisrael where you're going to be planting fields and and making treaties with other countries and setting up a melech. There's going to be a king and it's going to be um um you know, uh you're plowing and planting and houses and vineyards and why would we want that? That's not the closeness to Hashem. The Beit Hamikdash, you know, when we when we have a Beit Hamikdash, the Beit Hamikdash will be in Yerushalayim. The whole Eretz Yisrael will be so too far from the Beit Hamikdash that the Hakadosh Baruch Hu is going to have to be mater us to eat meat without bringing korbanot, right? Which is what happened. So, you know, there's just going to be that that that level of Asheras Hashem is not going to be. We're not going to be face-to-face with Hakadosh Baruch Hu anymore. We're not going to be living with Asheras Hashem. We're going to be living in the natural world. So, why is this a good thing that you're bringing us into Eretz Yisrael? We're in Shamayim now. We live with Hashem. Is that a good taina? You're starting to think like I actually I hear it. No? Why would you want to go to Eretz Yisrael? And the truth is it's a little bit like what a baby would say right before it's born. Isn't it? Like I'm sitting here, there's a spiritual menorah lit on top of my head, and there's a malach teaching me Torah, and I can see from one end of the world to the other, and everything is 100% clear to me. I'm totally happy. I'm being taken care of physically and spiritually. Why are you sending me out into the world where it's cold and it's dark and there are challenges and there's the yetzer hara la pesach chata's rovetz, right? The yetzer hara waits by the doorway when a person is born, when he comes out the door, that's where the yetzer hara is waiting. La pesach chata's rovetz. But that means that before a person is born, there's no yetzer hara, right? I know Esau was banging by the yetzer hara, we'll talk about that, not now. You know, it doesn't indicate some yetzer hara. The may eemoy, but that's a good kasha. But the fact is that there's no yetzer hara there. And it's just learning Torah yomam valayla enveloped in the light of Hakadosh Baruch Hu with full clarity and full joy. Would you want to be born? No wonder you were crying when you were born. Who wants to be born? So what would you say if a baby said, "I don't want to be born?" Would you say "taka"? Would you say that? What would you say? If you had to encourage We should have had Mrs. Feld here. If you had to encourage a baby to be born, what would you what would you say? I think >> There's a journey song about it. >> There's a journey song about it, yeah. But I think that you would say that it's true that here you have everything that you could want. You're close to Hashem and you have everything. But you haven't earned anything. You haven't worked to be close to Hashem. You haven't made it yours. There's nothing that you own here. And the way Hakadosh Baruchu created us is that our purpose of existence is for us to move towards Hashem. It's for us to overcome the challenges of distance from Hashem and for us to work our way closer. That Now, isn't that what you would tell that baby? That the Of course the the the journey, no pun intended, the journey of life is necessary and maybe in the maybe it seems like it's such a it's such a uh uh um it's such a challenge. But when you finally accomplish that and you go back to Shamayim after accomplishing that journey properly, you're coming so wealthy. You're coming so close to Hashem to an eternal nitzchiyus'diga closeness to Hashem that's yours, that you own. Isn't that the answer? Do you agree with me that that's the answer? You're not sure? >> I'm not I'm I'm like >> You're only partially here. >> I'm like questioning like like >> What's the difference between the neshama before it's born and after? >> That that >> What? It's found in your closeness to Hashem. >> You mean before it's born and after it dies? >> And after it dies. >> All right, that that is the difference. The difference is that everything that something that a neshama is before it's born is really on loan from Hakadosh Baruchu. It didn't make anything of itself. >> Okay. >> It doesn't really have its own identity. But everything that it has after it comes back to Hashem is what it what the neshama what he or she what she made of herself. And that is is a kinyan that's that's hers. And the way Hakadosh Baruchu created the world, I don't want to get too philosophical right now, is that the there is no comparison between the joy and the pleasure and the the simcha of receiving from Hashem because Hashem is giving us for free or receiving from Hashem because we were kind of something. That transformation of us having achieved something, that's the purpose of the entire creation of the world. And I'm not exaggerating. Hashem created the entire world to give people the opportunity to step towards him. Or else we wouldn't have the here. That's the purpose. And that's a massive change. It should be many, many years in the future, but when you come back to Hakadosh Baruchu, you're coming back with every nisaion that you passed and every tfila that you said and every hope and wish for Hakadosh Baruchu that you and every whispered word to Hakadosh Baruchu that you whispered and everything you Those things are yours. You're bringing them back. These are mine. And that's a different existence. You're not just living on welfare. You have created your own connection to Hashem. Okay? So, isn't that So, that's Okay, we're good now. That's what we would That's what we would say. So, when these Yidden are saying to themselves, these nesiim are saying to themselves, I don't want to go to Eretz Yisrael. The correct answer is that yes, you're much, much, much closer to Hashem here, but this is not the challenge that you came into this world for. That's not what you're doing here. You're here to live in a physical world and to bring kedusha into that physical world. You're here to build houses and to raise families and to make a parnassa and to do all of that with an aura and a sense and a mission of kedusha. That's what, you know, that's that's that's what you're here for. So, it may seem, you know, I mean, think about it, you know, like maybe a maybe a more dramatic, simpler mashal would be What would you say if a girl would tell you she finished seminary? Okay, ready for this? She finished seminary. She tells you I don't want to come home." Not I want to stay and be a madricha for one more year. I don't mean that. Okay? I don't want to come home. I'm going to stay here. Why should I go home and go through the whole thing and shidduchim and get married and build a family and this and that and a whole lifetime? I'm here. I get up in the morning. I daven by the Koisel. I do chesed. I'm good. So, you're like, "Yeah, but that's not the purpose of life." Right? The purpose of life is to I'm not talking about whether chutz la'aretz or Eretz Yisrael. I just mean engaging in life. The purpose of life is to be involved in life, not to stand by sit by the Koisel. You could feel very, very holy that you're by the Koisel and I would say you're not serving Hashem by sitting by the Koisel. You could sit there a little. But, you're not serving Hashem if you spend your life there. Cuz Hashem wants you to go get married and build a family and create kedusha in other places. Does that make sense? So, for Klal Yisrael, the equivalent of just staying by the Koisel is staying in the midbar. But, Hashem wants them to spread that kedusha around the world. Hashem wants them to be one of the nations in the world. So, mulah aretz deyah es Hashem so the entire world will recognize Hashem. When they're hiding in the midbar and the ananei hakavod, the world is not recognizing Hashem. Hashem wants them to use their energy and their koach to bring kedusha to a physical world. That was the whole idea of having a physical world. Okay? That was the goal here. So, So, here's what Moshe Rabbeinu was saying. Moshe Rabbeinu was telling Hakadosh Baruch Hu, "You know what the nations of the world are going to say? The nations of the world are going to say as follows. They're going to say like this. They're going to say, Look, Mitzrayim is a very, very, very physical place. It's full of avodah zarah and every other aveirah, right? And when Klal Yisrael were in Mitzrayim, were they a holy people? No, right? We know that they were in a very low madreiga when they were in Mitzrayim, right? Okay. So, what did you do? How did you make them into a holy people? You took them out of the physical world, you brought them into the desert, you surrounded them with Ananiah covered, you kept your presence right with them, and while you're looking at them, they're able to be a holy nation. Try sending them to Eretz Yisrael. Can you do that? Hashem doesn't have the ability to have his holy nation, his mamlechus Kohanim v'goy kadosh, exist in the physical place. So he just killed them in the midbar because he knew this is not an experiment that's going to work in Eretz Yisrael. That's the p'shat. Now think about the tangent. Isn't that an amazing tangent? Moshe Rabbeinu says, "Hashem, the nations of the world are going to say, they know that you're living with Klal Yisrael, they know that you're seeing that Klal Yisrael face to face, they know there's Ananiah covered, they know that you the Ananiah covered is leading them, and they'll say, yeah, you could have a Klal Yisrael in that situation. But to go into Eretz Yisrael where there's not going to be Ananiah covered and there's not going to be this level and sense of closeness to Hashem that there is in the midbar, that you can't do." That was what Moshe Rabbeinu was telling Hashem, and that was the winning argument. And Hakadosh Baruch Hu said, "Okay, I'm not going to I'm not going to wipe them out. We're going to bring them into Eretz Yisrael. It's going to take 40 years, but we're going to bring them into Eretz Yisrael." And they did go to Eretz Yisrael, and they did create a land of kedusha, which Baruch Hashem we have until today, although we'd rather Mashiach come and really restore its kedusha. But this was the the chiddush. This is a good p'shat in the pasuk, right? This is really, really good p'shat in the pasuk. But there's something important here for us to think about because it a little bit ties into what we were talking about last week. Last week we were talking about the fact that sometimes Hakadosh Baruchu causes things to happen in our lives that we can daven to him about and those things will change, but sometimes there are things that Hakadosh Baruchu put into our lives that Hakadosh Baruchu wants us to deal with that cuz that's what we came into this world to deal with. And those are the times Hakadosh Baruchu says, "No, I thank you for your tfillin. It's very powerful and I'll put it to use in other ways, but this is what I want you to deal with." But there's another nekudah here, just another way of getting chizuk in this area that I think is important. And that is that sometimes in our lives we feel like Hakadosh Baruchu I know this isn't a nisayon, but I really think you're making a mistake. You should have given me a different nisayon, not this nisayon. Like sometimes when we're facing a nisayon, we face it a little skeptical that this is the nisayon that we need. And we push back a little against it. We We We push back against that nisayon. And there's something very very important here that like Klal Yisrael were in the midbar. You understand that there were like two sides to this coin. When Klal Yisrael were in the midbar, so they um there were nisayonot in the midbar, right? For example, one of the nisayonot in the midbar is that Klal Yisrael rejected the manna at a certain point, last week's parsha. Klal Yisrael said, "We can't handle the manna anymore." Right? Nafshenu katzerah ba lechem ha kelokel. I can't handle this manna anymore. What were they saying? The manna was delicious. What was their issue with the manna? So the parshanim say their issue was it was too much holiness for them. Exactly the opposite of what I just spent a half hour telling you. It was too intense. You know, sometimes things could be too intense? It was too intense. We just want to live like normal people that eat normal food. And the point that you see from going through Hamish Ba Midbar is that it wasn't so much what each Nisayon was, it was accepting each Nisayon at the time that Hashem sent it. This is what Hashem sent me now. And if this is what Hashem sent me now, then this is what I need now. And I think that we can if we can approach life that way, like you know, like like the Miraglim going to Eretz Yisrael and they Remember last week I gave you a mashal about a husband and wife going to a hotel. You remember that? So, let me give you a similar mashal, but just fine-tuned for this Nekuda that I'm trying to say. Imagine that a husband and wife are going to stay at their cousin's house in California. Okay? Vacation. Okay? And the husband thinks that the cousin is very, very gracious and welcoming. But the wife thinks that the cousin is just humoring them and doesn't really like them. Okay, can you imagine such a such a poll between a husband and wife? He's like, "No, they're great. We love them." And she's like, "No, they make me uncomfortable." Okay, can you imagine such a thing? Okay, let's say such a thing. Okay, so then think about what happens. They come in to the um to the house and there's nobody home. They get a text beforehand. The combination is this and this and that. Please come in. We have a guest house in the back. We have a guest house in the back. You please go in and make yourself at home. The husband's like, "Isn't that nice? They sent us a text. Guest house. They're giving us a guest house, not a guest room. They're giving us a guest house. Wow." And the wife is like, "Really? That's welcoming. They're not even home when we get here." Right? And then they go into the guest house and there's um there's two bottles of water, you know, like this right? You do the water thing when you have company? There's two bottles of water and cups and whatever and some candy and the husband's like, "Look at this. It's like a hotel. There's bottles of water, whatever." And the wife is like "They didn't realize that like it's lunchtime now? Like what are we supposed to do? Do we just sit here and wait for them?" "Like what are we supposed to do? I'm starving." Okay? The It could have been the husband this way, the wife this way, the husband whatever. It doesn't matter. Okay? But what's going on? What's going on here? What's going on? And this plays out every day, by the way. Every day. What's going on is that when I think that you like me and that you have my best interests in mind I translate everything that you do and everything that you say like, "Wow, look how much they like me." And if I think that you don't like me or that you don't want me here or that you're annoyed from me, I will translate everything you do and everything you say to be um I'm I'm not uh you're not interested, you know? Um I used to have this thing I still make a joke about it sometimes. I used to have this thing in sheer that I'd be like I'll say SOMETHING "AND THAT'S WHY WHATEVER." YOU KNOW? AND THEN SOMEONE WILL GET UP and leave. And it took me a long time to realize like yeah, the guy was probably not even paying attention. He just happens to be leaving now. It has nothing He's not It's not like It's not you know, like get over your insecurity. It's not about what you're saying, you know? How maybe how the value would be about what you're saying, you know? But a lot of times the way we go into it helps us define what's happening. I have gone to speeches where two people went to the speech, and I could have been one of those speeches. I could have been one of those people listening to the speeches. I'm not talking about giving a speech, I'm talking about attending a speech. Two people by a speech. One of them loves the speaker. And one of them less loves the speaker. And they both come out having heard two totally different speeches. Completely, from beginning to end. Two totally different speeches. One of them comes out saying the guy can't stop talking about himself. The other one comes out saying it's so cute how he makes himself vulnerable. It's just amazing. The The What What No matter what happens, one person is like everything like, "Huh? Huh? Huh? Wow, that's That's good. Did you hear that That's amazing. You know, he said that he he he couldn't remember the Gemara." He's so humble. He just gets up in public. He doesn't mind saying, "I couldn't remember the Gemara." The other one is like, "I don't understand Did he prepare this shiur or not?" "He couldn't remember the Gemara? Is that respectful to the island? Look up the Gemara. Whatever it is." I can give you a thousand examples. If I like the person and I want to be impressed, I will define everything positively. If I don't like the person and I That's why with shalom bayis things a lot of times it it it Until you stop the cycle, it continues to deteriorate cuz once your mind is turned in a negative way, nobody can do anything right. It's impossible. But, the same thing this You could be doing the same things. You'll be like, "Yeah, he's my hero." You saw how he walked by me? He didn't even make eye contact with me. That's how hard he's focusing on the other person. The other one is like, "The guy continues to ignore me." You know, like you can just go on forever like that. And that's what the meraglim did when they went into Eretz Yisrael. They were not trusting that Hakadosh Baruch Hu knows what comes next for them. That Hakadosh Baruch Hu loves them and wants them and knows what comes next for them. They weren't trusting that. So, when they walked in and they saw terrible things going on, they translated it for themselves. And the translation that they made for themselves was this is terrible land. I could have probably not taking care of us because their minds, they didn't want to be there. Because they were looking at it negatively. But if they had gone to Eretz Yisrael, it's not just that they didn't know, nobody told them the secret. If they had gone to Eretz Yisrael being like, this is our future. This is where we belong. This is where Hashem wants me. They would show up there and they would see all the good. They would see they would see every, you know, in Eretz Yisrael they say in Yerushalayim um that you know, they they like I've heard it I heard I've heard this from Yerushalmis. You know, so when you go to Yerushalayim nowadays, you could see the good, you could see the not so good. You know, you could notice every beautiful person that's serving Hashem, you could notice every Hashem. They say the possuk says "Re'eh b'tov Yerushalayim." Go in and see the good. Go in and notice the good. So, I think that this is a just a maybe you know, another angle, another chizuk in terms of what we talked about last week, but all of us face our challenges. I know that for a fact even without knowing any details because I know that that's why we're alive. I know that's why we're here. We're here because we face challenges. That's why we're here. And if we could have an attitude that this this challenge was made for me. And this is the right time and the right place for this challenge and I can grow and I will grow from this challenge. And sometimes it might feel like a step down. Sometimes it might feel like I could have used my time better doing other things. Sometimes it could feel like I would have been more effective if I didn't have to deal with things in this way. But that's not our call. Like we see from the Miraglim, Hashem sometimes says, "No, it's time to take that step down." And I think it's something that we could focus on to in the littleness I said and the bigness to be able to embrace any sayan not with oh no, what am I going to do? But with a sense that Hashem is sending me this present now because this was catered and created and made for me. And this is the right time for it. Do you know how I know it's the right time for it? Because it's happening right now. And that's why Hashem is sending it right now. The message of the Miraglim is of course that our job is to integrate Kedusha with the physical world. That's the whole Sugya of the Miraglim. But the deeper message is regardless of what the is to know that it's not not to push away sayaness. Not to reject. Not to be upset with Hashem. Not to be frustrated like Hashem like Don't you know don't you know that this is the worst possible time for this? Do you ever feel that way? Don't you realize the worst possible time for this? No, no. Hashem gets it. This is the time. When they were in the Midbar, it was the time to eat the man. Don't tell me now embrace the fact that now is the man time. And then when it's time to go into Israel, now now this is a time for something new. Now there's a shift and now it's time to take on a new challenge. And I think if we could do that moving forward, try it with little things. Then when something happens to be like a new sayan. Shabbat, you know? And not every is bad. You know, you could have a sayan of of having a child or or um or you know, you know, deciding how to spend money or or or or figuring out how to handle relationships when there are when when when there are friends and family and you trying to figure both out. You know, whatever it is there could be a lot of saying is not every when I say and I don't just mean sorrows. You know, I mean difficulties, I mean challenges and I also just mean the challenge of life. But let's do that. Let's go home tonight and let's see the first challenge that hits us and let's take it like huh. Like I don't know what's going to happen when I get home, but huh. That's the next design. Instead of oh, you know, like coming in instead of seeing the cousin as negative, let's see the cousin as positive. Oh, Sham gave me this design. Wow, it's such a good time. It's getting close getting the summer. This is actually the right time for it. You know, let's try to approach it with a positive. Think about if we could do that. Think about how we we would touch things up. There are people who do this naturally that they define everything like oh, this is the best thing that could have happened to me. This is this is perfect. Right? You know, and I think some for some of us those people are annoying. You know, but think about if we can do it with a sense of emunah when a Nissan comes like this is perfect. This is the time. You know, I was driving to Yeshiva the other day two days ago um 6:00 6:00 6:30 in the morning and there was a truck in front of me and a rock shot out from under the truck hit my windshield and cracked my windshield. And um I have to get it replaced. And before I thought about what? >> Did you get the license number? >> No. >> Well, cuz they're insured for that. They'll cover you for that. >> Oh, well. Okay, thanks. Oh, that's my Nissan. Now, okay. Um so so but anyway um so before I was preparing this, I was thinking to myself wow. I went the whole year driving back and forth. My second to last day, boom, the windshield breaks. Like two days later I'm not driving anymore. That's it, I'm done. That's the negative way to deal with any sign. The positive way to deal with it is, well, I got to spark it up. It was so good to me. Usually, I have to drive back and forth. I never would have time to do it. Hashem waited until the end. Now, I'm going to be in Waterbury for a few days. I have the time to do it. It's perfect. >> [laughter] >> But, it's real. We could do that. It is You can't argue with that. It's true. Okay, I don't know why the whole thing was necessary, but why what whatever reason it was necessary, I'm kind of happy it didn't happen on Hanukkah when we didn't have water and I was stranded in Queens. Like, that would have been worse, you know? This is a good time. I'm home. Insurance, windshield, we'll take care of it. Right? So, let's try to take it on base Hashem. Yeshua, thank you. >> Thank you.