The Final Light

it's uh it's a great privilege to have him we thank him so much for being here and everyone enjoy thank you guys so much thank you very much it's a lot to live up to there Rabbi really isem they say it's so packed in here all the time they said only a few guys showed up this uh this afternoon so you know make sure you'll send the rest of the guys an email afterwards and tell them you know they they missed out on something great it's a big spit to be here with all of you you should know this is his niece in black is is OJ you know maybe you guys are just Next Level we've been talking about orange juice for many years already over here you know big OJ but you now you're outside of Jerusalem I would I would say we made the change some make some changes to the name you know but it's okay so the Oram is shining all the way over here to bit me you know that's the all is already over here extension a big supposed to be with all of you to all the name everybody I don't know what you guys call him over have a different handle he call me the man the man the man got it got it Fu sh so to be to be very honest I'm a I'm a free flowing individual more than anything else what I'm always looking for is the opportunity to be a hasem and whatever I feel that hasem is pushing Us in whatever direction is where we'll go so I don't think we'll be all over the place is usually a k and especially right now and when we're living in our times there are certain inan that we have to deal with and grapple with that they didn't have to deal with in earlier Generations the nabii says in Amos he says that a time is going to come when there's going to be a famine in the land there's going to be hunger but he said it's not going to be a hunger for food or a thirst for drink but rather it's going to be a hunger for D Hashem that in other words there's going to be such a time that there's Aon of hashem's word being heard in the world unlike any other times but the real question is is that how can the na'vi say that this is going to be a future event we are already told in the safe of Shmo that before shm Nai received his call to n that the to hear the word of Hashem to hear the blood hem in that time was a very scarce matter meaning that it wasn't heard very often in other words sh sitting there inside of the the the the uh the mishan shil and he's at some distance away from a who was the Coen at the time and he hears Shmo Shmo Shmo he wakes up this happens three times and he's running over to Ellie thinking that Ellie's calling him and Ellie on the third time says to him he says you know what I think you're hearing from Hashem he says go back and say h say here I am and then after that immediately then at that point the Sha Navi becomes not only the na'vi in this world but he was also the of his time it was the lastau between before we had before we had the M of so if we already know that this has happened and even if you look in the sa sa also there many times where this absence so to speak this Hester P of hasem would appear in many different times before the appointing of a new judge and so before that would happen there was always this time of hasem waxing and waning so to speak no Nai we heard hashm so what is what is hasm talking about so the real the real answer shows up Ina because OA tells us that it is going to be a very long period of time that clus will dwell without a king we would dwell without a without a corbon there would be no corbon and there would be a time of distance between us and theem before the ultimate Redemption happens and when it takes place the problem we have now is that there's a a light that is shining into the world especially as we're just now finishing up the we talked about ra ra talked about the show being explained it as a Time Z of Oria the time of G because we're very very close to the coming of Messiah and all the writing is on the wall if any person pays attention to what's going on inside the gar and second Sedin and also s we look in what the N are saying we see very very clearly that there's so many different things happening that all the puzzle pieces are happening there but the question is if there's such an ore during this time as we're coming closer closer to Messiah obviously when hasem is raing this great light how come it's harder to fill it it almost seems that that you know contrary to to what we're expecting this this ghou this this goul that we're expecting this time of redemption when Messiah will come is a bit major problem there's such a and a feeling that hasem is actually here with us in a in a in a major way person has to be has to train them to some degree to be very very spiritually sensitive to be able to recognize things that are happening on the day to day to see yahm on the day to day it's a very very hard thing for a person to do unless they're tapped in and connected but even with that when a person's tapped in and connected I'm not hearing stories like I heard during the time of the BTO I'm not hearing stories like I heard in the you know in the time of all the former tadim of the people the GR I'm not hearing the same stories what's happening how could it be that hashem's light is shining now how Are we more cuz we're closer to the we're closer to mhia coming than the last generations and there's says that's coming down now where's the or show me the light it is shining very nice outside but it's still cold the okay it's shining but it's cold very interesting thing so I the thought that there's something interesting that says he says that the greatest cover to hasem happens and takes place the more distant the the is away from him when that person has a hisus when that person wakes up and is inspired to make chuva he says here H chuva all that person has at that point are thoughts of chuva they didn't make any actions that or anything like that the biggest couple to Hashem at that point is when this person person has he Chua when there's a thought or a wimp of chuva amongst that person then this gives AEM the biggest covered and even more so when the person actually returns to hisim so what happens at the time where a person has a hero a person that finds himself in the lowest darkest depths of the place something interesting happens I want to sidebar that real quick I'll come back to itar Schwarz the bill bavi he says that in this time much easier for us to access higher levels of and to enter into higher Madre higher levels in this generation than the former generations and it's much easier than it was in the previous generations which also doesn't make sense because I just said I'm not hearing the same stories as I heard heard before so I was trying to pair and put a couple things together but I thought about what he said and I'm thinking about says and I'm thinking about this Bo so it's a very interesting thing if I want to reach somebody that's this distance I could speak this you know in a lower voice if I want to reach somebody that's a little bit further I have to speak in a louder voice if a person's even further further away then I have to scream I have to yell and at some point there's a distance where no matter how much noise that I make the person won't hear me so Hashem in his infinite light and His Infinite Mercy shines a light we've seen mosu we're going to see it pretty soon in next few part of that when he comes down and we see that his face is glowing is Illuminating so much so that ail his face because the light that he just just had on his face was so great that it's it's it's lasting it didn't go away so easily so what happens is Hashem in order for him to reach a generation like this is so far away coupled to what just said the amount of light the wattage of light that hasem has to send in this generation as much higher than he would in previous generations because of the distance we're not talking about a distance of time we're talking about a distance of proximity of a person's he n the way he behaves and the way that he are the bombardment of what we all have in his generation we're being bombarded I said to a friend of mine said do you know what type of of uh schlam maso guy would have to be to waste time 200 years ago like what were you doing today he didn't have Facebook he didn't have Instagram he didn't have Twitter he nothing didn't have a a smartphone or how could you waste time two three years a 200 300 years ago what were you doing what have you been doing with your time so how could a person see but the bombardment of everything that we have today how many things are in the way of us actually serving Hashem in this generation it's unlike any other generation but yet the ore were promised the light that were promised is to be much higher and because of that a person could reach even higher so what happens is as this light starts to make its way to the depths to the farthest generation the furthest gener ation and the deeper deeper person goes the wattage has to be so high so that the moment that the person has a heror Chua this compared to previous generations it's like the guy went up 40 40 you know 40 levels in one second of one second it's also brought I seen by I think it was in the introduction to one of the Y ysep that he brought that a person could receive a higher MAA in his preparations for PES in pesak if he studied all theas everything that he needed to before pesak he'll reach even a higher than what he deserves during the time of P because of that this is one introdu to the it's not talking here so there's access to Hashem in this generation unlike there were other Generations the only question is is on all of us is whether or not we're making a Kenyon if Hashem is saying that I'm making myself available in this generation regardless and because you have to understand the way has works is met connected Meer was brought out has works with this met connect me so the way we are with theem is the way that he is with us so if it if it is and in fact a a reality for us that Hashem is shining more in this world and Hashem is making himself accessible and Hashem is bombarding us at the same time allowing for us to be bombarded by all of the nonsense and all the and every distraction that there is in order for us to attain and to reach that light and reach that CER that we should have with theem if all these things are happening at the same time then wouldn't we believe that aim the same way as there some type of uh uh cheat sheet there's some Easy Button there's some some something that we should be able to do to be able to capture that that relationship that loving that CER that real light to be able to capture have access to this ore there should be something that we should we could be able to do to be able to to capture cuz in other words it wouldn't be fair right it wouldn't be fair if Hashem will put us in this generation and we have to fight unlike anybody else's fight but but we have less resources so it's got to be that there's more resources and I'm not talking about safaria and all the other stuff we also have those resources also but there's got to be some type of resources all right you can look in today's generation and we can see that there's more Torah learning than any other generation more you know there's so many different things in this generation where person could go and learn he can go and sit and learn and whatever and that's really but we're not producing GM at the same speed we were many generations ago so we have a big question where is Hashem Hashem what are you doing what are you doing to me what are you doing to us so if we were to learn from mosu the one thing that mosh raenu did was that mosenu if you sing all throughout the Torah and you're not only going to see the by you're going to see this by you're going to see this by is that each and every one of them made it their business to make Hashem theirs there was a certain relationship that they had with hasem that it was only them and only Hashem in that moment it says I saw by AB I think it was AB Kaz he wrote wrote that because each one of them had their own unique relationship with theem it was almost as if he belonged to each one of them individually so we say and we don't say so we separated he's the god of Abraham the god of the god of yob because each and every one of them had their own relationship with theem each and every one of them mosh reenu was on a whole different level completely not just because he was great from who didn't think of himself to be any he didn't think of himself to be anything but his strength was in the fact that he made Hashem his saw one time ra brings a lot of time that you know for the 60 years of mosh was in the desert he was just making his vo this for the for 60 years he with the sh talking to the sh for 60 years all this built up you know fire and relationship by time he comes out and he's ready he's got enough juice and enough everything to pull out a whole entire nation out of MIT it all came from making Hashem his what Hashem gives us access to do is to make Hashem ours to make him ours and each person has to understand this I tell a lot of people over the years I've been wow your story is crazy look at all what you went through whatever and I tell people you know the truth is for a person who who who was from from birth but you you have it much harder th% much harder I'm sorry to give you guys the real it is the truth you have it much harder for person who came from where I came from if you're in the darkness it's much easier for you to see light when you're surrounded by light to know the nuances of EMS and sheer in the midst of of of of light and you're being flooded with it all day long it's very very hard for a person to be able to find himself in that place he just it's it's almost as if you you you're being you're being flooded with with so much good and so much light that it's hard for you to make a heav but for a person that's in darkness in the moment that they see light the light cracks in they start walking towards it it's not a big story of course I would also I would also leave where you came from if I was you right but for a person who was from from birth I tell people all the time it's much harder to come by you know ichim Morin it's much harder to come by these guys in youra the whole time and when you're in youra the whole time from the time you're kid and never you know I heard by uh I think it was maybe shinberger or something said you know the toughest part is nothing ever was what it is you know nothing ever is what it is you see things and I'm dealing with my kids I'm raising kids that are F from birth and I always say on you guys you know he didn't he didn't get to go through all the nonsense and all the Ste I went through to find Hashem you I had to really make a big kyion on hasem so say it's harder for you guys you guys are going to have it tough you know I had it easy you guys are going to have it tough because it's so hard for all of us to really realize the the access that we have to Hashem we're not using our membership card not using our membership card Hashem is wait waiting and ready to make himself available and the Nuance is is that as time continues to go on it's going to only be harder and harder to decipher what's the truth thear tells us quoting speaking about the before mashia says that it's going to be so hard to tell what the EM is it's going to be so hard to be able to distinguish between what's real and what's not real and we're seeing this today with the AI and everything else that they're they're bringing to the to the front deep fake deep this this fake out you know it's crazy it's awesome the stuff that they could do you can see it but it's only telling on itself that you know guys we've been giving you sheka for a long time been telling you stories that are not true for a very long time and as the world Contin AG go more and more things are being brought to the surface maybe this isn't true maybe the way we understood nutrition was also not true maybe the way this is was also not true but the EMS is is that in order to find the truth it's going to be very very hard to find that truth before mhia comes and that's one of the things that we know so in order for that how can a in order for a person to understand during that time what the truth is and what's not the truth the question is what do I do what action do I take how am I going to be able to know right if hasem loves me and Hashem desires me and Hashem wants that I should have a cash with him hasem wants that obviously I'll be privy to the truth what's going to be how can I know so there's a very very ancient Jewish practice and I get in trouble sometimes when I talk to some of the Yeshiva guys about this but I I was told I'd be protected here sorry I just put the phone on the silent I don't know the amount of times I can't tell you but it happens a lot if a person looks all throughout bres and really if you look out all throughout T starting from Braes how many times it says that Abraham stopped and he invoked the name of Hashem stopped and invoked the name of hasem was spoke to hem in the middle of the fields there was so many different times with each one sto and they took that chance and took that time to make AEM theirs made a kenion on the relationship with theem Hashem says we're all allow at a certain amount of shares right I know was the business Buck him in here right you have to take up and you have to say that I want it hash yes I want it Hashem I want it and by speaking and talking engaging and secret to hasem with hasm this is the ultimate Way of CER and connection with theem and we all understand this because any person you have a relationship with is only because you communicate with the person right doesn't mean that you don't have a relationship with people that you're not communicating with there definitely would not be as strongest people that you are actually actually communicating with I have a friend who I grew up with I was very very close to I haven't talked to him in I don't know how long and when we talk we could pick back up like we did many many years ago not 100% but we can pick back up many many years ago but obviously I would imagine in his world and I I know for sure of my world you know all things considered I don't consider him as much now think about him a lot because not there so I'm not communicating with him but the foundation of every successful relationship is one by which there's communication when the communication is strong and when the communication is often there much more of a caser I was once in uman and uh it was was during time Ra was given a a speech inside the clo and he has a way of making everything very very simple he simplifies very very big problems one of the things he said though I remember this this year he says you know the amount of work if you take the the the most simple physical work that there is right person wants a job or whatever it is he said janitor a person who sweeps a person who cleans up or whatever you know what what makes that job hard is laziness right if a person has to overcome the laziness the only thing that makes that job hard the truth is if you're looking at it sweep a floor pick up whatever the case is whatever you know Yesa you guys look like you could use a janitor here [Music] also but the truth is it it takes no time right pick up a broom sweep whatever nobody has no there's no lumus in the job there's nothing you really have to do in order to be able to do that he said but even with that physical work right the spiritual work that a person has to do is even more simple than that but it's even more higher can bring a person to a higher level than most of all the spiritual voters the person could do as by engaging in talking to Hashem from your own words are from your own heart daily so by speaking to Hashem it's even less effort than sweeping and picking up after something but the what it does for a person it gives a person so to speak the speak the highest spiritual salary that a person could get just from talking to most simple thing if a person opens up I guaranteed You by reading this this probably he touched all of T in fact chin I think it was nakin brought out I think at this I think it was a whole safer he brought out just showing that the touched all of to call it to so said on himself he said even on all my highas everything that I've reached everything I was able to accomplish he says None of my lumus brought me close to hasem he said it was only to crying out to hasem the requesting and crying to Hashem he says these are the things that brought me close to Hashem so sometimes we have to simplify the aod because it feels sometimes when we look at our yish we're stacked we got a lot of things to do there's a lot of obligations there's a lot of things we we you know we have to we have to talk take on we have to account for but the truth is is that if a person really they used to tell me this when I was a kid I don't know if you guys ever been trained in this I don't know what your upbringing was like but for us we used to know how to you know learn how to fight a gang of guys that was your part of your parental training you know you were raised by your kids you had to fight a bunch of guys when to pick up a stick when to pick up of this you know we used to have a our minog was that if I got into a one-on-one fight and I lost the fight I also get a beating when I get home so that you know different different Mahal so so one of the things is very very clear I think this is pretty Universal if a person finds thems ganged up by a bunch of guys what do you do you take out the biggest strongest one first you knock him out first once you knock him out you you half of the job is gone two of the other guys may already run right so you knock out the biggest thing first I'm not endorsing any fighting don't say Nim came here you know we started a a boxing team you know say don't you know just using this you know in a l that we can all understand you knock out the biggest thing first so the biggest thing first is really at the roots at the show of everything that all of the problems that a person endures in his life every single Sor that a person goes through in their life all of the the distance that a person feels between them and AEM has coming about because it's a communication issue something's not being communicated right the the the Wi-Fi is off the Bluetooth is not working there a connection issue and a person has to fix the connection issue and where the issue was actually at and most of it is is that most people I was sitting with a guy told me today he's an atheist he told me he's an atheist I happen to hold that any person who calls himself a atheist he's a Jewish he's a aimon he doesn't really exist Hashem is very very clear that all the you know as the world has been trying to prove Hashem or disprove Hashem by science and biology and many things for many years nobody ever thought think about this nobody ever thought to ask Hashem how it is that he said that he actually exists the person reads all through you can see it all throughout the N the Jewish people as hash's business card to the rest of the world that he exists the whole entire world is going to know that AEM is AEM he says it over and over again all throughout the they talk about the is when they see the Jewish people when you see the Jewish people in the future when you see them return home when you see all these things come to pass the Jew has is saying over again then I'll be Sanctified eyes of the Nations they all know that I am Hashem over and over again so a guy who says he's a Jewish atheist aim because as long as you're here you know hashem's here also you're only proven Hashem by your very existence you're proving Hashem other than that we know what the history is you know we don't we don't stand the odds of of even existence even so this guy said he was a Jewish atheist sweetheart of a Year sweetheart sweetheart sweetheart we had a conversation and I listened to all the different things and why he felt it was very very appropriate for him to quot unquote leave yite leave hasem and whatever and at the end of the day I said you know that hasem has no no qualms on you like you didn't like leave AEM like nothing ever it never occurred he said to me you don't think so like I didn't and leave it I said no you didn't never left him I said I don't think you ever had him don't think you ever had such a relationship cuz when I'm listening to everything you had yes you had a relationship with Judaism you had a relationship with Jewish things there was there was some C with the Jewish stuff you did things right I said yes you kept M with everything yes you were traditional [Laughter] kept up with tradition you the tradition right you a traditional that was Orthodox traditional you practiced the traditions of your father you did the Traditions but having a relationship with hasem that's something completely different and it's something that alters a person's life inside out it changes everything about the individual it changes the way that a person communicates with others it changes the way that a person looks at life the way that a person goes about it changes everything from the moment that a person has a real relationship with the and the way to fix it is through communication the more more that a person speaks with Hashem it becomes a reality to you that hasem is actually there and it begins with EMS so many people ask me what do you say I start with that what do I say whatever it is anything you say over to someone else is easy something you can say to all the that a person has you have doubts talk to about it the is is that if the desired goal is to bring yourself closer to hasem like we say in the ash Hashem is close to all call upon him being met in truth most people say's close to call upon finish the says meaning that I'm speaking my words of truth to hasem Hashem I'm mamish in the trenches Hashem I don't I I I don't love you the way I should I don't believe in the way I should has have Fus on you the way you know this is this is why I'm holding by person engaging and talking to hasem the most simple OFA a person will start to make cracks in the in the concealment to start to make cracks in the K the coverings that's blocking the ore that Hashem is sending in into the world at this time the way that the person cracks it is through talking to hasem Breaking yourself to talk to Hashem that's it don't a person don't do nothing you know how many people I know that come to me who on the verge of making trva they're not show said if you already show it's not it's not not your main a person each person struggle is different one person struggle he's got to tell his boss man I want to start taking Saturdays off oh you think I should do I should throw out all my Go music I should first thing is a person builds a relationship with theem I I will tell you as many times as I've been asked I can't think of a single thing that I I took on especially at the beginning of my chva that was hard when I when I took on shabas when I started taking on the yam was I didn't feel a single there was no Struggle No No bit of struggle for me but cloud with any of them why because I already had a relationship with Hashem who told me who told us to do the things if you're told to do something and you're required to do something by a stranger how many of us would do it we want to do it we don't know over here we don't know the the government over here or whatever you don't want to do what they say you don't know these people nor do we trust them but the truth is and any government I'm saying it's a distant figure but if your mother tells you to do something if your mother asked you a request of you to do something take out the garbage you make a fetch I conf fetched but I'm not going to have any doubts you understand on whether or not not the person who's communicating me to do such and such whether or not they love me because the relationship is already there building the relationship between you and hasem is going to always come back to how much you are communicating with him if you let Hashem in Hashem will be there with you if we don't let Hashem in he's not there most people have these Sorrows Hashem hates me hasem hates me hasem doesn't help me I'm happy your mom you believe in Hashem that's number one but number two it's not Shalom because if any person knows a little bit about hasem they know that Hashem is head over the heels in love with the individual he used to say I went to in my lifetime I've been to a lot of Goa funerals he used to say it doesn't matter how big the guy was a rasher could have been the worst guy in the world every guy stood up who was giv the hbit said to know him was to love him he could have ripped off everybody in the room they always say not to know him was to love him I start to think like this I said you know you know what the Emma is they're saying something profound wrong guy but something profound right if a person knows AEM they be head over the hills in love with him not my words from n of BR says that if a person even knew how much it was at hashm if he knew just a tiny bit a tiny Moro of how much Hashem loved him that person would drop the whole world and run after Hashem with everything that they have if we were just privy to a little bit of how much Hashem loves us so the way in is to build communication so I brought a piece here from Ro I want to open up for for questions if anybody has any questions also after because I think it's very very important for us to start making this a part of our lives and I tell everybody this is Judaism 101 is talking to AEM Judaism 101 is talking to aen I I came to this long before I became later on became a breast lover so now I say bi but the truth is as I opened up T and I seen how everybody was getting close to hasem I seen how everybody was communicating with Hashem and I I started doing it praying to for for hours at a time sometime to get there but I was praying to for hours at a time I was not Jewish but I want to know the truth I didn't know if is was Mah if he wasn't there whatever so what I do start fasting start crying out to shim why because it's in the book that was it start find see what was inside the book very simple we complicate a lot of things guys and I want to tell you it's it's just not that complicated it is just not that complicated a person starts to live with theem none of this feels restrictive none of it feels if a person starts to live with theem you don't feel in this there was a there was a there was a u i just told the story recently n namon was a uh was a general in in the Army in the in the North of I think it was Aram I think at the time which is modern day Lebanon and Lebanon somewhere over to the maybe Syria area and he he was Hashem struck him with Leprosy he had a Jewish maid in his in his home we're not going to talk about how that happened anyway she told him and said you should go and see there's a na'vi that you should go and see maybe amongst the Jews that maybe he can heal you so the story gets out which is the king of the north at that time that there was a letter who came from the king of who came to him I don't know if it was or whoever the King was in the north at the time he said over to him he says that I want you know one of those good Jewish doctors you know basically was asking for in the letter and and the King of the North at the time he had no idea like who am I going to sin you like to to heal him so Alisha na'vi finds out from his from his n that there's a there's a letter that came to him so he sends to the King of the North and he says send unto me they need to know there's a na'vi in Israel so Naman comes and he's got Le but he comes with gifts and and he loads himself up and finally when he gets to the house of Alisha Alisha doesn't go out he sends out his Gabi and the Gabi goes and gives Nan these instructions he says go in total seven times inside the yarden that man's upset he's like you know I came all the way here for that he says I have better Waters in Damascus why will I come and and come get in your dirty yarden River over here I have you know the the states back here so he starts to leave because he's very offended and so one of his servants come over to him he says do you mind if I ask you a question he says if this na'vi would have told you to do something that was more difficult would you not have done it he said yes so why not just go get in the water why not just go do it so it's recorded over there he goes he gets in the water he TOS he comes out his skin is like a like a baby skin and new skin and the reason why I highlight this guys is because everybody's always looking that everything's so difficult I need a difficult of older and even when happens when a person wants to find AEM he thinks that only after he put in all this extra crazy effort or whatever everybody wants to feel their growth and everything can be accomplished through the most simple aod of talking to hasem of talking to hasem and says that all the seim and rolling in the snow all the fasting I was doing I was eating food without swallowing it trying to get no pleasure everything that he did he says if I would have only known what level I could have got to from just talking to hasem he says I wouldn't have did any of those other practices I would have did any of it if I would have known the level of secluding myself and talking with the so he says over here say at every single time a person needs to make it a regular thing says have this is everything for person wants TOA and the and the children person needs to ref any type of Yeshua person needs to make it a regular thing of talking to hasem on every single thing that's going on in his life person needs to know [Music] that the main for everything in life the main the is requesting everything from has I saw one time by Bri was a was a big big he said that even when it comes to panasa and you guys are going to see this in your world I had to experience this in my own life everybody will give you opinions on what to do with your life that come from the book of second opinions meaning it's not written anywhere else right it comes from the guy's own own sheath is the way he thinks the way he sees the world and anything like that he'll turn it into a thing he'll even use hashem's name and talk about yeah no Hashem wants you to do this hash wants you to do this everybody becomes a na'vi when it's time for you to make B if you start to ask people when they start to give you can you show me it in the can you tell me who says this who brings it up who who brings it you'll find that not a lot of people have so right there says that a person even with doesn't make a single move until they've cried out to Hashem and only when they were inspired from Hashem they start to make a move not to run to tactics not to run to look anywhere else first but a person first starts with crying out to Hashem and only waiting till the person's inspired to go in a certain direction so he says after that I'll just his last spe a person needs to know that hasem is good for everything for everything anything a person's lacking in his life he can request these things of Hashem and if a person's consistent and talking to Hashem you'll see not only will it become easier to pray but the potency of your prayers are going to take another level and a person will be be even able at that point I seen I seen also it said it say something was brought down by the Ari I see actually mentioned one time in the year I was at actually he brought that there was such an inion there was a TI sort of on the as that that uh that the um from the AR that Hashem even for a person who makes it accustomed to cry out and to talk to Hashem regularly he says that also that person Hashem will start to do for the person even before he cries out before a person starts to talk to hasem he'll start to see your TRS because hasem is already known the person is name on he's Dependable this person depends on me so a person is going to already receive from hasem before they ever cry out to but I want you guys to remember that is told he's good for everything anything the person is struggling with I'll take questions now thank you guys you have a question over there question Rabbi um how often do you speak to I try to speak to hasem every single day um multiple times a day throughout the day try talk to at least at least I try to spend at least an hour every day Le bu this hour two hours an hour is a long time like what's that look like like is an hour just used be get in a room yeah in a room or out in the field one of the reasons I moved to be is because there's many places to talk to Hashem over here many many places to talk to Hashem over here oh over there I'm sorry everywhere I'm at I always say here uh but also in B mayor you have a place where you there's many places over here go and talk to hasem so I think that I think what you're asking is like for more of a technical thing of how do you spend so much time with Hashem the first thing is this you have to build it up every person has to know that AA as a muscle it has to be built right same thing with a person you know one person trusts AEM this much a person another person trust hasem this much why because a person that has made it their business to start depending on shim for small things they start to throw on pack on how many things that they could depend on Hashem for the same thing with speaking if a person starts talking to Hashem and you're spending 5 minutes 6 minutes 7 Minutes whatever and you start adding on time the more more person will start to realize I know by the time I had a really close friend who was like a family friend and I and I told him this made him what was going to happen I said you start talking to Hashem you're going to start to see there's not enough time in the day for you to talk to has it's something that just happens when a person accustoms himself so I had a friend who worked himself up to an hour every day he was going going talking to Hashem for an hour and he came to me he says you're right he says hour is not enough it's not enough time for me to say all the things I need to say to this sh all right it's it's it's a it's something you build up speaking you know I I do podcasting also apart from this all right so the question was I can come and talk to you guys until tomorrow I'm not going to do that I know you guys have things to do I can come and talk to you guys till tomorrow moment you got to talk in front of a camera and you put a camera it's like what I say like you know it's a different type of pressure it's a different type of thing but repetition you get used to it and you get more used to it more used to it I don't mean to bring the conversation with theim down to something like this but in a way to simplify for everybody the more more you talk to AEM the more more it's going to get easier and easier and you will realize I guaranteed you without a doubt that there's not enough hours in a day for you to really cry out to Hashem on all the things that you want because even if at a time where you're not speaking just the the Ming the yearning for whatever it is that you're requesting from Hashem will be lingering and pulling and tugging at your heart with the words to talk about anything else you don't have you just want to be in this place of at least one thing that hasem is going to either bring about Yeshua or the wanting is for Hashem himself the cuk of when the nas has a has a certain CER with theem is overcome its Trials of what whatever it is or most in whatever Place uh person was to be able to accomplish relationship with theem you can have this year and all day long it will last all day long so for me personally I try to spend at least an hour every day with this sh I think one of the biggest struggles I think for for most us it's kind of hard to like cone that that's not physically there so so that's that like I said everything becomes a conversation person can have to that sh and the more you do it the more honest you'll become but really starting like I said with words of truth of the words that like you just said is in words hem it's very very hard for me to understand how it is that I'm supposed to talk to you okay even two minutes Hashem even three minutes with you hasem like Hashem is hard Hashem you know I I I've said a few words to you before you don't seem to say anything back you know like Life Is Life is trouble troubling for me and I'm going through a lot of things right you can start very very simple before you get into crazy words and using big words or anything like that it's very very simple words to Hashem Hashem right now I'm struggling I need you m don't see a way out of my situation my back's against the wall and Hashem it could be that I made a bunch of mistakes that put me in the situation Hashem but you said I could depend on you so I'm coming to you now so I'm talking to you now about this situation help me out I'm depending on you what is it that I can do to fix it I don't know you I want to have a relationship with you please hasem help me out simple words I'm not saying anything spectacular right but but this simple simp the Simplicity that a person approaches the relationship with Hashem is what eventually opens you up to the next next phase of wherever person will will be and then you could start talking like me I say some wild things to Hashem guys I ain't going to lie I a doing it a long time say some crazy stuff to Hashem I didn't realize it until I was saying it over to someone else some of the things I told Hashem but one of the things I tell Hashem all the time is this this in of Kenyan and say shim listen right now you're mind I'm not sharing you with anybody else I'm not interested in sharing you with anybody else and I tell shim all the time I want to be your favorite guy I tell you all the time I'm not taking away from everybody else Hashem I just want to make sure that I'm your favorite guy I told Hashem I remember telling a one time I said you know what the truth is this I am where I am the I know where I want to be and the fact that I haven't reached that potential yet AEM I said it's really I said ABA it's hurting you more than it's hurting me so let's do us both a favor you know hasem help me out of here you know bring me closer help me to to to break all these Bim and everything that I'm going through right nowm because listen it's got to be hurting you way more than it's hurting me you know and it hurts me so can I imagine AEM if you love me this much you know you have fun with with the with your than never but you can talk to very simply guys it's not a it's not something that's uh that's that's Out Of Reach For Us there's a there's a there's a I was just at ret a couple weeks ago and a boy asked me this this question on Tor he said he said listen he says if I start talking about he's Veda and all this other stuff like that I'm going to tell me it's b t you know like so how I Rectify this that I see that I'm actually coming closer to hasem but the you know it is it's like time is B Tor I said there's a couple things you should know first off was very very nice he said that his desire was that his tum his students would spend an hour every day just one hour he says really you need a whole day he said but we can limitate down to an hour right and in an hour you should be able to accomplish everything he says this is at the least the minimal this is what I want from my tomed I said so you should tell your rebi cuz I'm sure he probably learned he probably reads some Mish and everything he should look inside the Mish and see that the was much worse than he says a person should take a whole day out of a week and he should go seclude himself with theem and beg him to bring a Clos says leave the Bas M and to go and to cry out to said he's requiring a whole day of your time what's easier the hour a day or to take off a whole entire day and s in seclusion at the sh I said so first off you should tell him this I said number two I says there's two there's two type of theas that NS and the WR talks about when he's speaking about this relationship of us talking to Hash in our own words he says there's one type of theil that's lower than Li Torah meaning that if I'm praying to on my physical needs very important make it a part of your life your physical needs things that you need financial needs things things of that nature he says those things are lower than Torah so in other words I got five minutes in there I can I can over gamar I could do whatever the case is and then I'll save some other time to set aside that to dive into on my my needs as long as something's not pressing I'm not in a state of emergency however he says there is a teil that's higher than Li Torah the T that's higher than Li Torah is the T that a person engages into hem to be the so if a person's talking to to be help me to have I realize that listen here I'm I'm rubbing guys the wrong way here in in Yeshiva and the you know after while so and so doesn't like my jokes Hashem I'm I'm full of lush and Hara sorry is funny to me you know I should I need to I need to work on myself whatever the case is a person's working on this me different things like that person wants to be stronger in shabas person's diving to be the Torah to have mid to be is right person dominating on that he says this is all higher than the Torah so it's not B Torah these are things that higher person if without this you have no fertile ground for the Torah to even be in hide the person it's nothing it's only going to it's going to produce weeds so in order for you to actually build some person has to dive in up here on these things that's not B Torah and I said you don't prove it I said what do you do when you walk to a guy if I said if you're talking with a friend of you and you're going back and forth you're talking with this guy right think about it and you're talking in Torah what you say you're wasting your time said no said so you're talking in Torah with the sh it's higher than Torah higher than Tor learning itself also to the Rashi says the to stands the height of the world is disrespected the most it's much easier guy to guys to be a mme and to be a and to be the person why because there's so much cavote still wrapped in all of this it's so much easier to feel great about yourself once you're the guy in the Shar you're answering all the questions and all this other stuff and whatever and you could play humble yeah just me you know what I'm saying you know whatever the case but then he's he feels very good about himself but is a lot of coup or whatever much harder to be the guy telling Hashem I can't Hashem I'm such a such a guy but I'm so you know much easier to be the guy that learns all the time right but what's going to bring him higher is that emis that he's engaging in every single day of telling Hashem you know I'm very far from the March the that he's having with hem that's what's going to bring him up so when the person is uh working on himself I heard your story in the past like you been through about and what if like a person been through stuff he just doesn't like Hashem so much so like it's like hugs him to speak like you did all the stuff to me like going to f if cool yeah so so that the emphasis is that it's rearranging the way that a person looks at the things that happen to them in their life and some people have this natural thing um and I I'll be very honest about that is that it it wasn't natural for me to grow angry with Hashem the time I grew angry with Hashem is when I when I decided to you know change religions at the time and I was looking at yish and I'm looking at Torah in the face compared to to what I had understood before I was a little I felt a little duped by Hashem angry that where I wasn't going to Ser him as Hashem but how could I not known my wife is much more Angry than me but in terms of in terms of all the things that I went through in my life it softened my heart towards Hashem as opposed to making me reject Hashem more the problem that that you guys may have that I didn't have is that Hashem was the answer to my problems I wasn't always told that Hashem was the cause of my problems and the reason why in in your world I would say coming from where you guys may come from by and large Hashem becomes the cause of your problems because he's the default guy in your world in my world nobody was talking about has like that it wasn't it wasn't part of my world so so obviously who's going to save me from my troubles is the is the Hashem that's been this outside distant thing but a lot of things today in the F world we use hasem we say things like and what and it's empty words person don't feel nothing not saying anything when at the time he's saying it's just a part of our or whatever so at that point and we know that is the Pinnacle we have y we have you know those those times when we do actually as a CLA engage Hashem it's not all the time right so Hashem then becomes if Hashem is all this other things he must be the reason that's doing all these things to me right and Emma say I tell you what says sometimes people worse than thear himself you know the EM is that your issues are not with hasem the issues are that we are internally we are battling the biggest issue that we're having right now is that we don't have I found out something right now a medical thing I'm just telling you right now whether it's true or not many people could argue whatever they want so for the many years people have said that acid reflex is caused by the by by the uh M fact that you don't have that you have too much acid buil up so you need some type of medicine that's alkaline that's going to reduce the acid I'm sorry if I'm like totally taking you guys into you know Harvard University at this point but I want you to understand this so the medical understanding was that if you have too much acid in the gut right you're familiar with this then you need to take something that is going to diffuse the acid right so now in recent years they've shown that there are many studies that say it's not the problem of having two much acid that is not enough acid so a person needs to take more acid apple cider vinegar and other things like this now I've tried this and have seen that adding acid to my acid reflex has actually reduced the acid acid that was in it but for many years I'm being told that okay it's because you're Al alkaline you don't have you have too much as overload of acid that you have and so therefore this is what's causing it right so I want to bring that into what we're dealing with so for many years you've been told that Hashem did this Hashem does this Hashem did that hash did this has all this other other stuff and because you have too much Hashem in your life you got problems you understand what I'm saying so why are you doing all this to me and the truth is what's causing the issues is of it's a lack of Hashem that's caused all the issues and our problems because you have to be willing to say on my second part of talking to this atheist guy I told him I said listen I would accept your understanding of everything the way that you look at the world to today if you can sit here and tell me that you gave Hashem everything you got if you gave the relationship I'm saying when two people divorced from a relationship somebody feels bad usually it's the guy we're usually the jerks we'll be honest most of the time I've talked to couples and there was a divorce guy feels like an idiot afterwards because he knows he was stubborn he was an idiot he was a he didn't treat it right he did all this other other stuff right usually the guy that's why 80% of divorces are usually pushed by by women you guys none of us should know from this but the truth is is that usually somebody feels bad then a person has to reflect and ask them themselves did I do every single thing that I could to make it work and when I ask this guy he says I can't say that I did so that means for you for each and each and every one of us you have to ask yourself did I give it everything I had so it's really a result of why I'm feeling what I'm feeling because it's too much AEM or just messing up everything has just is trying to out to destroy me or whatever the case is how much time you spend with Hashem how much time did you make it a point to to to to make hasem the most important thing in your life that your whole life will be dictated revolved around Hashem right so if he's all powerful and he's all big than that so so much so that he's messing up your life how much do we do the opposite I'm really looking at that and saying that the should have this inner piece in my life and everything in my life should be revolving around it so I think that that's the that causes the issues not not too much and what what in your life triggered your change in whatever your path was when you were younger there were many triggers but at least in terms of let me the biggest one of the the I can't say that there was a there was a thing CU even when I was a kid maybe because there was so much going on at my house I needed some type of escas and I grew up I I grew up in a my family was uh was very exposed to a lot growing up as a kid a lot of drug use abuse and different things like that so it became a very um you know natural thing and I would say one other disclaimer I have to say also and this probably goes to answer one of your questions and this is going to sound the truth is that it is funny but it's actually the truth right you know like I'm black so I never like had these many struggles like with believing AEM not it just like comes along with the package comes with the melanation like you know a girl believing in God we don't get too big nothing's too smart maybe because the education's not so great in our neighborhoods I don't know what it is it's certain questions we just don't end up having you know and start having so at least my experience was in the hood that when people got drunk enough or sedated enough or high enough they start talking about God you know so I want to know about God D it happened so so I don't know if it was that in particular but I have had this thirst from a very very young age always feeling like I was a part of something bigger than myself and not really connected to whatever it was so I had that so my natural thing was by the time I was running with street gangs and getting in trouble and doing all the other things like that I had my experience of Christianity and and shortly after that kind of like waning and doing my own thing and falling sort of some back into that lifestyle I felt an internal clock ticking that I knew knew that at some point either I was going to give my whole entire life over to God in terms of the way that I saw things I I I felt this Cas sure I was I was talking to sh at 16 years old I was locking myself in my room huh while by that time I wasn't involved in the gangs in The Gangs I was till I was 14 years old huh what age did you start I start what in the the stre gang 9 eight whatever I smoked pot the first time I was nine what does that me uhhuh I can't imagine you can she probably not smoking weed either I I I I can't say never I could just say when you when you grow up in an environment like that and this is what you see you naturally become a product of your environment right like I had no problem I tell you this if I would have went to my high school I remember if I would have went to my high school and I would have asked everybody on the bask basketball team you know what's your plans for the future I'm sure I would have got at least 90 8.9% of the guys would have told me they're going to the NBA I mean and what's the odds of that it's not likely right so it wasn't realistic but that's in that world it's either that or you know didn't think they don't think past that as much where we came from now when I when I started uh speaking at Jewish schools and I remember the first time I went to school and I was sitting in the room with the basketball team of the Jewish school and and my Reby was actually talking to them asked them you know what's the what's the plans for the future where do you see yourself as an adult you know career-wise what are you going to do nobody in the room said they were going to the NBA not one one said to be accountant like his father one's going to be a lawyer one the doctor whatever the whatever the father was that's what they said they were going to be right most bias they weren't around their fathers so they didn't know who their father was so they going to the NBA just is what it is it's unfortunate it's sad thing it's a horrible thing but it's the truth it's the reality of of what was going on so you become a product of your environment right you know we we're always there's some hustle all the time there some youner doing whe whether it's buildings whether it's Amazon whether it's whether it's some real estate to real estate for sure but it h because of product of your environment so once I saw all those things going on in my life where people were in the streets and and gangs like that's what we looked at that was what was cool for us right that's what we want to be go you want to be a gangster I watch boys in the hood Minister society and all that and I didn't look at how bad it was it's just like man the glorification of such a LIF style you want to be a part of it so you you you join on those so I was young we started our first gang we're like eight or nine or something like that and it really start gang banging until I was about 12 years old I was running with the wrong crowd and from that even by that time by the time I was 16 yeah by the time I was 16117 already I already had a major life change by going to a chrisan organization camp and I was praying out to praying to Hashem a lot during that time and so by the time I hit adulthood 18 when you know I'm looking at life again and I was offered a big contract from uh uh from a major record label at that time that was underneath the universal umbrella I um I started to make gangster music cuz that's what was was there I didn't know I was going to start changing I started to change I got into a rap beef it was either my life or the other guy's life and I turned to prank a rat beef a rat beef don't tell me Tell the that's what me and you have andrick Drake and Kendrick I guess that's your whatever the case Tac Tupac and Biggie essentially two guys you know speaking Lan Hara amongst each other back and forth I know that put the subtitles mhm guys I'm a change man I'm a change man the truth is that one didn't in so well like a friend of mine tried to kill him afterwards and uh after it wasn't because the rap beef we just decided you know we weren't going to make a song back we'll just take it to the streets and that's what we did and uh after physical altercation a friend tried to kill him and after that they thought I sent somebody to kill them after you know they obviously surv they didn't get shot but they were shot at so they were either going to take my life or it was on me to take their life so because nobody was going to call the cops right so after that I started praying I prayed a lot I prayed a lot I prayed a lot we put it behind us and after that I started running team Hashem from from that moment on that was 2008 2008 so 2007 is when it took place and by 2008 as I was on this journey I just told somebody I have a record sh should continue to help me that I I haven't said a single swear word since 2008 I haven't said a single not even bumping my toe nothing or anything like that but the reason why I'm just using something small like that to say that N Pay n Pay we don't talk like that we don't speak like that these things they they I don't want to go into a whole thing on on swear words but at least we all know know that we we all desire you know you know the the the the says that a person needs to make for himself a tum of himself you make it make a make an image a desired image of who a person wants to wants to be and every day in the you measure yourself to that zum that you made for yourself to see how far off you are and I'm sure that any person that is really looking to be close to hem curse words doing drugs all things like that is not a part of the perfect image of who they are right so in a simple way but I'm saying that they say that encounter with Hashem that I had there already by 2007 caused me that all the way to 2025 that I wouldn't fix my words to say certain things you understand my mouth to say certain things I didn't mean I don't have what to work on I'm just saying that something like that was something that was eradicated immediately it went with the package right of of who the old person was so saying that to say that being with the is life altering it changes the way a person looks at the world changes the way a person interacts with the world but it starts with communication guys I got a bar mitzvah I got to go to thank you guys so much [Applause]