Advice You Never Hear - Nissim Black

s of my [Music] love [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] thank you guys so so much I'm so uh delated to finally be here with you m been uh you know hitting me a message every once in a while and we went you know we wanted the were there and he didn't give up and last time we messaged me I wasn't able to I think I was flying or something like that I can't remember what it was I told I said but don't give up on me you know just tell them be a breast Delver you know what I'm saying don't don't give up you know and we finally here I want to apologize also for the delay because the delay happened because you know I know I'm not in America I'm still black and and I got pulled over by the police on the way here I have the ticket in my car to prove it for a while I was going through the old city to come pick up my boys my and I think it was just too many black guys and all in one in a black car and I can't understand it for the life of him saying listen we got serious issues going on today you want to come and give me a ticket but I told say at least you give a guy a warning you don't give me a give me a ticket but he gave me a ticket or whatever so uh I'm only saying that to say this through real Mish that this event is happening right now so we're here you know they have a saying by the the counter missionaries anti-m missionaries but I would say even by Christians themselves they would probably you know anyone that you get Evangelical would definitely admit that say that most of the time when people turn to Christianity even if they were raised as Christians and their way or if they you know new converts to Christianity uh generally hit rock bottom somewhere in their life and at the lowest point somewhere they have some spiritual encounter and I don't know if it came through a friend or however whatever however it happens to a person generally it happens when a person's the lowest place they hooked on drugs what Rabbi toi singer talks about this a lot it's a well-known thing that usually people turn to to to Christianity uh when they hit rock bottom in their life something happened some major thing now the overwhelming majority of converts to yishai to to Orthodox Judaism at least are Christians I would say maybe 90 95% people that are busy with conversions they probably tell you better than me but most people that convert I self- included to Judaism were Christians previously now what Christians were they they're usually the people that had some type of Yearning to know more they're usually not the Christians that don't take the religion seriously they're ones that take it very seriously very biblical principled people who are looking inside and they want more and more and more of God more and more of Hashem and the more and more and Digger they deep they start to lift up the rug and see all of a sudden there's y underneath there and so from whatever reason for whatever reason it is that they start to feel some type of C connection to Hari perhaps it could be that they Jewish Nas but that call usually pulls them in and they come and find their the the theselves amongst the flock such as myself I have the story I know many others like this but these are spiritually healthy people people who are trying to get healthy in their spiritual It generally Judaism is not usually the first option right for a person who's in a very very low degraded space we don't do very good intake when it comes to yish however within yish there's someone who holds this office that y that find thems in the lowest and lowest place somehow usually find themselves in the arms of a so now that we don't have such a thing we have intake we have Bano and we usually can find ourselves somewhere in his arms at a time of Crisis sometime when we're down and when we're low and when we're out it's not the only placeo can reach is hands could get a get a Rosa Rosa learning in such and such a place that comes across AOS TS grab him also was to show the light of AO and what we're dealing with here what type of sadic we're dealing with here that can go up what does he say it's sadik has to be the sadik EM has to be a person and on such a high level that he can go and tell a person who's the biggest the biggest M that you haven't even begin yet and then go take the lowest of the lowest of the lowest person who's who's covered in the darkest of the darkest actions Behavior here and go that person go and tell that person that you don't know how big you really are this is our reab this is rabenu and rabenu says that his a were not only for his time it says that his ases will be ases that a person should should hold by and keep all the way until mashia comes and each person when they learnu each person takes away he is connects with certain things about re's Torah so if I keep saying something's the it's my I share with you my there's a story inside of inside of a very ancient old manuscript I take it that most most of you guys have been to Yeshiva at some point in your life some of you going to Yeshiva been in Yeshiva yeah I'm not talking to guys that don't know anything I don't have have to like put subtitles underneath anything it's motion there's nobody here that hasn't isn't in right okay iniva now whatever the case is so I just want to make sure because this manuscript I'm almost positive you never heard of it before it's called tanak [Laughter] and so there a beautiful story that's told in saim we crack it open you understand that it says that there was a there was a general who name was namon I think it was connected to the king of Aram I think it was and he was his General very very famous story for those who study n that he contracted Saras became a leper and while he was in his home he had a Jewish maid Ser servant and she told him said there's a there's a na'vi there's a person in Israel and Samara that you should probably go and see and go talk to so he goes and does d due diligence and he goes and find out and he comes to uh to The King The King sends a letter ahead of him to the to the melik who was in the north at that time I I think it was aaz but I'm not sure whoever the melik was in the north this is after the tribes had split there was the upper Kingdom and the lower Kingdom so in the shamon this m he's reading the letter and he's all has this message and he and he says that you know he thinks that they're just trying to set him up you know the letter says essentially the messenger comes and brings it to him says that you know give me one of those good Jewish doctors or I'm going to come and see about you I'm paraphrasing but something of that nature so Alicia through his R Kesh he's able to know uh and he sends a messenger to the king that says send n unto me because they need to know that there's a na'vi in Israel to know that there's a na'vi in Israel so he comes and he's got all these gifts now mind all these gifts he comes with men and you know whatever you do even he knew to come and give you're going to see a tadic you have to come with something come give him some G give him something you have to have something so he comes and they get to outside the house of Alisha Navi and the gab goes in and tells him says he's here for you Alicia says I'm not even going to go out to him he sends his Messenger to him and he says and my master says for you to go toal inside of the yarden he's thinking to himself he says why you go too inside of your yarden and he says he says this is this is crazy he says I got better Waters in Damascus over here you want me to come get in your dirty pool over here I I traveled all the way for this so he gets upset and he starts to leave he says this is this was a joke and so one of his servants come over to him and he says my master he says if this na'vi would asked you to do something much more difficult in order that you should be healed would you have done it he says yeah I would have did it he says so why not just go jump in the water so The Story Goes he goes and he gets inside the water and then he comes out and it says over there he had skin like a like a baby like a like a kid fresh skin everything was gone SAS finished if you guys will let me talk to you one of the that I don't think anybody can argue with by reu is pus Simplicity the world has trained us to think that through great difficulty and through great efforts that a person aeve achieves Godless AEV achieves greatness and that's true if the person's efforts are in the right place one of the things that rnas said when he was on his way out leaving this world it says that I I know that I guarded all of renu's ASAS very very well there's only one a that I'm not sure if I was able to be M and that was Posas Simplicity I don't know if I ever reached the level Simplicity that re was telling me to get to I could come here and I can Echo everything you probably heard from the time you were iner from the time you got into Yeshiva and everything and tell you how much it is you should be Big M don't leave the b m should I could tell you that I can I can tell you what the what the people who don't think that so to tell you you want to you want to you want to earn something you want to be somebody who who's very very successful in this world you you know what you should you can't sleep can't eat you got to put everything into your to your career you have to do all of these things but I'm not going to tell you that right before people came to know who I was I was in a very very tight and scary scary situation I've told this story now publicly over the last few years but uh I think it's very very appropriate for me to tell you the story people think they know niss black because uh because of because of because of my songs n in Black was Mish homeless almost immediately after my conversion with a wife with children and for a whole year I was homeless after that year I was homeless my family we finally got a place it was still very very hard for us to make in meet I was working in an office job and in the office job there were women in the office I was really working on my kadia my tahara and I decided you know I'm going to take a way less paying job I'm going to go work for Co and uh just to just to tell you I remember the day I sat with the RO Co and I asked him I said you know are there any benefits with the job and uh he grabbed my hand he took me and we walked into the base M and he showed me all the aform he said these are the benefits of the job and during my time there had a big struggle inside because I felt always that hasem has something for me to be doing in this world I knew and I felt it and I knew that I had an AAS I had a I had a I had something I needed to do with what it was that hasm gave me and uh while I was there there was a song I recorded with God Elbas who was a good friend of mine who set it up El and uh already by the time I was at the kab was they already several months the song didn't come out for several months there was a few different things of some parts of the story I'll skip for the sake of expediency and I remember during this time there was a lot of pushing inside of me my heart that I knew that Hashem was telling me just rely on me rely on me ding but rely on me and it's very very hard for me I was already I think two two months or so behind on my rent I didn't know where the next dime was coming from and finally this is when they want to go and uh shoot the clip I remember going to New York and the first scene that we did was the scene I was under the bridge was really the last scene of the video but it was the first thing that was shot but there was such fire that ran through my body at that moment when I realized for myself I said AEM what am I doing that I'm not doing this that I'm not using my gift that you gave me oh was I doing it but I was already ready to hang up music again for the second time in my life and I'm standing underneath that bridge and all of a sudden we we do these takes maybe two takes and I was on fire and something clicked and so after shooting I remember going back home and I'm telling my wife mind you standing there we're probably about 3 months behind our rent at this point point and I said hun you know what I think after I was there this is what aim wants for me to do and she's looking at me and she says I think I wants you to have more jobs get another one maybe a degree she said but I don't think this is what I said so we we didn't argue we negotiated and by the time we we were done I remember saying to my wife I said to her you know I said listen let's both talk toim about it let's dive and really really really really deeply about this I was already holding at that time already in a hour or two hours already of his b us every day so I told my wife I said listen we're going to ding about it and uh a few days later my wife comes to me and she says what do dreams mean I said dreams don't don't really mean anything you know dreams is the chol was even gaval or was not gaval that's one of the that's what the dream means I said sometimes they mean things but uh you know they sometimes they don't most of the time they don't and she goes okay I said oh well tell me what you dream he like I'm not going to tell you what does it matter if it don't matter then why would I tell you and I said well if it doesn't matter why would you not tell me right back and forth so when she was halfway asleep I remember tapping her and I asked her I said you know hun you said you were going to tell me about the dream she goes oh yeah oh yeah so she uh she sits up and she she tells me my wife I love her she's Mama she's she's uh I want to say too much I want to jinx her but she almost never goes to sleep without saying TI before she goes to sleep she'll wake if she goes she'll wake up and she's m m and she had did whatever her nightly aod was at this time and and she said she had a dream she said I had a dream and I was asleep and and and and and all of a sudden she was in thisam and you were on stage and there were so many people and you were doing your thing and so many people were coming to chuva so many people were coming back to hasem and she said it was it was a very very like powerful powerful experience she said but it was just a dream so I took this as a as a sign from shmay and I went and I quit the uh the co immediately and I went out to go talk to every single day 6 hours I was in the forest crying to hisem every single day every sing on shabas I woke up early way before the minion I would do about four hours then start diving after that then do another two hours after that to make sure I completed six hours and S you comes down raish brings it in a lot of his aform lot of person's in a state of emergency you need to dve into a shim 6 hours he says it's counted as a day there's all many different M that he pulls from to why he holds it 6 hours but I was really big on it so I was already by this time 17 days in and this is what I was doing every day and I got a call from God El that said a we made a hit song went viral I don't know if some of you guys are much younger back then the song ended up going number three on the world charts it wasn't something normal has these are the words that everybody was hearing go even hash so the next day I get calls from all over the world and really the rest is history I tell you the story because I cannot even count on tin hands how many other Jewish musicians were calling me trying to find out what my marketing plan was what did I do I was just like man you came out of nowhere kind of like I want to sit down let's have lunch let's talk about what your marketing plan I don't think they want to know what my marketing plan was see but the real you know people think the and what was I ding on I'm being honest with everybody here I spent very very little time and I have this issue I have a few other friends at bre lovers they know I have this issue but it's hard for me to ask Hashem for material things not that I don't Ru says that you need to talk to on everything so I do I definitely do but to make that the I because I already know for myself I can't make that the because that the r is connected to the GM and I already know Hashem that if I'm being if something's being withheld from me the reason reason why it's being withheld from me is not because you know the marketing plan wasn't great or because I didn't meet the person who was supposed to give me the loan yet I didn't meet the person who was supposed to give me if things are not going right is because something's not right between me and you so the majority of my time I was spending in Chua majority of my time I was asking hasem that I should be I should be able to do what it is that ashm wants me to do in this world that I should be able to use my gifts to be able to bring people close to hasm and I'm saying it for record now there's cameras on there's people here I'm saying it right now I'm in this to bring people close to a been many people over the years that have come into my my circle and every person that comes into your circle you have to investigate but there's a lot of people not not that anybody was was bad or evil or anything but everybody else has their own agenda on what they can do with you oh he's black he's cic we can make him like this we could put him over here it's like you know he's Progressive he's you know everybody has an idea what they can do my idea already is that hashem's name should be known in the world so people are asking me this was a very very simple aod but I put my allil into that aod and I was talking to Hashem I didn't ask Hashem on the how I'm not giving Hashem ASAS I'm just asking Hashem Hashem there something not right I want it to be right there's no way in the world that has will withhold anything from a person unless there's something not right they have to do with the gash Simplicity Simplicity Simplicity I was in uman one time and I heard and he and he said that the hardest of Oda is to do the easiest of Oda as much much easier for a person to sit hours on hours it's much easier to sit hours a day learning Torah I'm going tell you why it's not not that they saying learning Torah is not easy for it's easy to learn Torah because you know what you get to keep your gu it's easier to keep your G everybody's goingon to say he's a big M look at this guy he never leaves a he answers all the questions and the she he it's so it looks good if I'm sitting in with the books over here I hope I actually read this course I'm talking about myself I'm actually read this I have so much in my heart that I want to share with you that to get into REO over here but it looks good to have the books but what nobody likes to look like likes to feel like is that they have to deal with thean that I have in my life have have a and now I have to go and stand before every day and tell him this and tell him hasem I can't but you can very hard for a person to do this why should be the most simple thing that a person could possibly do it's much easier than than than learning sh or making it through a page of Lear i' been breast up for years I still don't know what's going on in laran but it's mamish it's mamish so easy for a person to do all of the work to keep himself busy I was working in uh years ago right before I was mgaya uh maybe a couple years before I was m and I and I retired from my previous in my previous life I retired from my rap career and I started my gas and everything like that I was uh I was working in property management and made jokes as nie maybe you were always Jewish whatever so and I was working for a particular company and I remember being there there and one thing it was there that I started to notice and realize that Hashem I'm the type of person was very very hard for me to give my all when I don't feel like I'm fulfilling my purpose in life there are that if you're in a place that that's your purpose at that moment at that time that's what hasem wants for you but for me I'm I'm a very very sensitive soul and for me I I I knew that my Nish was put here for a specific reason and the longer and longer I do something that my my my Nish is not in it's very very hard for me to continue putting in all my all to it at the beginning you got me it's convincing it was great it was great but if I don't feel like what I'm doing is serving my purpose of bringing people close to hasem and spreading hashem's name and it's very very hard for me to continue with it so one of the things I was horrible at but all my other co-workers were were very very great at was pretending like they were working cuz everybody does it at every job you know say it's not always work to do you know but the the whole the whole the whole science behind all of it is to look like you're busy you know so each one had a different uh each one had a different uh different Minh so one guy I think it was one of the girls that she she her thing was she told me she said you just got to keep your desk very very busy just pile up stacks on it all the time or whatever and then make sure you get up every couple seconds or whatever whatever you know so you know the other guy thing was he you know he comes out of the office he goes and checks the door he redo the coffee even the coffee is already filled up already but he takes it over comes back puts he wants to look like he's uh like he's busy you know me chilling over there man I had a safer be I was over here learning I I just it was very very hard for me to to pretend like I was learning there's nothing to do right now so look busy I'm not going to look busy was very hard sh was like that I'm one of them it's okay you could call me whatever you you want but for the things I believe in I won't sleep won't eat it's easy to look like I'm doing it I feel a gratification I made everybody else I fooled everybody else and when a person stands before Hashem you can't use any of that trickery and it's not comfortable for us so it's hard to get to that place that I have to stand before hasem and I have to tell them all these demons I'm fighting and it's not that we're telling AEM anything that he doesn't know already but it's just on us ourselves it's hard for us to get to that place where we're standing before hasem and rilling to him this emis that he knows we know but it makes us uncomfortable so I'd rather be doing something else even if it's something else in the vusm but asked us for pastas for Simplicity that we should be simple people benu said even on himself that all of his for sure I'm not saying person shouldn't be learning please don't take do sound bites like they do to the politicians and all the other stuff like that for sure not the first first Torah is about about how much a personas aren maab if you're not learning Torah it's very simple if a person doesn't learn Torah theas can't have because he doesn't know what to ask for so the Le is important for the sake of the because once I'm learning Torah once I'm learning hashem's Torah now I know what to ask hasm for and why did Myas have because I'm asking has for things he wants to give me already so don't throw to out of the equation but I'm trying to get us to to Simplicity long before we had Torah long before we had anything if you look at how many times it says that Abraham stopped he invoked the name of hem stopped he invoked the name of Hashem I know I've said this many times before if you hear me actually I say it all the time talking to Hashem is more Jewish than Rashi and toas it's the most Jewish thing you can do it's not foreign I've heard that was on the plane with a certain from a from a from a from a different uh different and he says I believe it's just so foreign to like you know to yish and it's like this is it's talking to a and anybody else in the world doing it they got it from us Simplicity pases getting back to the so says this is the saer which was written WR by shimi who was a AO I don't know how many generations already but he's also buried in uman if you go to uman you'll see that I think his Kev is right by abrah who was the son of who was the main to of person needs to accustom himself at all time [Music] or but whatever it is that a person needs in this world a person has to accustom himself to crying and talking to Hashem all the time about it no matter if it's your panasa if you don't have children yet whatever you need to ask Hashem for your Yeshua you have to ask AEM for for yesu was I remember I was uh I had the wonderful wonderful opportunity to to drive home and uh I didn't even know I was I was there my whole last year and a half I lived in y I was by him almost every night and uh one day Yi tells me it's like he said the re needs to R home I don't know if one they gu by him didn't come or whatever but I was there n now I'm thinking like oh my goodness they sprung this up on me I have children I go to my car I have plates of everything all over the place have diapers have all type of stuff so you know I tried to rush to the car to go you know take everything out move it Mak you know make it to more theb you know I want to makeing nice so I'm moving everything around I'm throwing stuff toing it out the car and I turned around standing there already waiting mov B I don't know if you ever seen it moves very quick so I had no idea that he was coming that soon I thought I had some time so whatever he gets in my car I forgot to put my my smartphone's kosher but I also I wouldn't have put it I was still stuck up there so now I'm like oh would am I going to do and I ever sitting with a safer like this the whole time and they're like this is my opportunity I can ask him a question and I told him I said you know I I I spent a lot of time with theim in my life you know and there was a point in my my voder where you know to spend six seven eight hours with the shim was nothing for me I remember I used to you know take jobs even when I was working for the cola I used to take jobs in that was like two three hours away just because I wanted to talk to hem that was the only reason why the money was so great and there's nothing G about seeing people beat up broccoli also I just in the call cuz I wanted to be able to have that extra time with theem looking for every moment and I said to I said you know I said I said I kind of lost it a bit I don't feel you know okay hour or whatever I can do but I know that that's my lifeline is talk talk to hasm I seen so much yesu hasem everything I experienced was something amazing and he said to me he says it should already be regular for you to be talking to hasem all throughout your day all the time is collected the person you have to just be talking to all day long all day long this is saying here every time I need to be talking to on every single thing is the person needs to know I didn't say it's the main a so that a person ask [Music] for person needs to believe that AEM is good for everything for everything whatever a person's going through person needs to know that hasem is the address h is going to save you from everything person needs to know that if you're asking you're talking to AEM it's not like you're talking to a friend should talk to has like a friend but you're not talking to a friend talking something much bigger than your friend talking to hasem from has you can have everything and this is the access hasm gives to us that's so simple and we we just like it's not you I'm saying even me all of us have times and different things throughout our life that we're busy with other things and we know that the access that we have toim is unlike anything else if he can be busy with everything else except for the one action that's going to help your panasa it's going to help you with your ra it's going to help you with whatever you Su that a person finds himself in and and the and and to be very very honest not going to touch you so much here but the but the but the but the the real thing is to K us AEM the real thing is to K us AEM for a person to understand that I'm going to be out of all of this everything I could be saved from this and that I could have panasa another but what's panasa anyway if you don't have shim in your life what is it be healthy you could be the best bodybuilder and all these other things and whatever is life is so empty without Hashem but by speaking to Hashem what a person does is you bring Hashem into your world and to live a life with theem where where person M feels the this is what we're this is I know it's not a very popular thing maybe in some of the yeshivas that that we go to we should we should just you know serve Hashem we shouldn't feel but that's not what Hashem wants Hashem doesn't doesn't want us to be operating in this world without the he doesn't want us to be in a place where we we we don't know if he's there or not that's not what Hashem wants hasem wants every once in a while there's a h Hashem has to be be uh uh push a person down we have to have idas why do we have to have him re says very clearly because hasem wants the love to feel fresh he wants it to be new don't get used to me but the idea is to get back to that place where I felt the give us hasem that I knew that hasem was with me that's the that's the place Hashem wants us in that place says it's brought down by which is based on he says that if a person goes for a very long time and you're not feeling that K hasem you're not feeling that closer to hashm you need to check your voter is a mistake somewhere this is not the IDE ideal relationship no more than it would be if a person was married and a person didn't talk to his wife except for a Mite he's he's a sadic on Mite he gets flowers he gets rest of the time then talk to his wife don't let it be a time where oh he don't even know she's in there wife broken we're just roommates be roommate with somebody else but if there's no CER and no connection there then what is it all for Hashem says it in the na'vi he says that youres he says the bonus this says all of them he they're nothing to me but hasim is the one to asked us to do it how can all of a sudden it be nothing sh says because the the the the the ideal relationship was that you be doing all of these things with me and your heart and that's what Hashem wants he wants the LA of a person hasem wants that cure that connection to us and by us spending time talking to we could be ding on on small things but the more more we're ding the more more what we're spending more time with theem it's a very simple thing I'm spending time with Hashem the more more I'm spending time with Hashem the more more I'll know Hashem the more more that my conduct and my behavior will be something that Hashem wants because I'm spending time with Hashem and the more and more that my conduct and my behavior as more and more like Hashem I become an ideal individual and many more people M become a vehicle for hasem that anywhere I go everybody have been around a sadic like I say youve been around a realic and his Mish just light around that person I don't know if anybody ever been in the presence of a g been person I'm not talking about a rabbi ra I I tell people all the time I don't do rabbis I do sadik that's all I do I don't do rabbis sadik I'm not against rabbis I'm just saying that the tadik you know when you when you want to be successful in any business anything that you do you go to look for the person who's the best in that business to go learn from them to go know it is you so we want people that know about hasm you want to know people that know hashm you want to be around somebody that does hashm for a living as I like to say I do hash for living that's what I do what do you do I I do hash that's this my thing so it says says that is going to save the person from the so this is everything I'm saying here is that how am I going to get to the my coach my football coach used to say this to us heed to say the 7 American football I don't have to say that in front of you guys I only got a couple people's delusional about what real football is so sorry my South Africans and Europeans Brits um I love you also but you guys are confused so real American football my my football coach used to say to to us all the time he says you know he used to stress that it was very very important to be there with each other in the gym during the off seon because if I'm in the gym during the off seon that when I step in on the field when it's game time those are going to be the guys you trust you were in the gym with them you were running with them you were running laps you were doing drills and all that when nobody told you to do it and when you go out there on the field those are going to be people that you trust the people that show up for the three days afterwards you don't know what the guy's capable of you don't know if you can trust them you're going to be looking over your shoulder to see if he did job right on the field if he knows all the plays he do know anything but the guys who did all the work off during the offseason said I think it was on y says that that he Thea that he Mish built up at the time he was faced with ases part this is very very uh appropriate right now that we're in the show of him as the ases part for that the time that he it wasn't M rash he was finished he didn't have any more K nothing but it was the offse season workouts that when he wasn't being faced with that situation he was putting in so much work and coming close to hasem I think there's a mid that says that Mo that his his mouth wasn't stopping moving at the time that he was in the in the prison because he was spending time he was talking to shim so much mouth didn't stop moving this is ysep sadik so by the time he's faced with a test that he cannot pass he cannot passed this test he was bleed us when a person is f faced with the Temptation he's bleed he has no D at the time he was faced with the test his body took off by itself because of all the work and all the all the that he had put in at the time when it was the off season body took off couldn't help it seen his father whatever however you want to take it everybody he didn't have any more anymore and something happened he took off because of all the a that he did so only through can a person be saved how do I get to in the Shem you can't trust somebody you don't know so if I don't know Hashem how will I ever be able to trust him so I've been asked a lot of times when I came to Y I tell people all the time it wasn't hard for me to start keeping uh kasas to keep shabas and to start to you know keeping on the on the things that we all know for sure it was it was not a it was not a tough thing for me the reason why is because the way I came to Hashem is I fell in love with Hashem first you know by by Bly Chua and by people that are from I said this uh recently you know is much much different than the G even the Bal Chua because what happens with the Bal Chua starts to wake up and realizes that the that the the there some and whatever level to his yish everybody around him wants to catch him up on what he didn't know already the shabas you missed the theill you missed this you you know so what is he doing and he's having time at thead rabbi's house you know whatever the case is however galic they they bring a lot of Yen back however it happens whatever the rabbi Young campus whoever it is but they're so busy to catch him up on what it is that he missed out on in terms of yish if the person who's fromed from birth the way he's brought up is you learned this from you have this Olive bed from Olive you learn about shabas you learned about tias make your bras in the morning I know my kids are from from birth they all have this disease also it's okay so but what happens is by the by by by GED in most cases the first encounter that we have as with the shim first never heard about shabas yet didn't hear a lot of people I've talked didn't even know what the Jew was yet but they pick up this Bible start reading the Hebrew Bible the scriptures and they start seeing things over there that Mish wake them up and they want AEM they start having k for Hashem and the more and more they learn about hash they learn more about what Hashem loves what does Hashem like and they start spending time with Hashem this is exactly what I did the more more time I started spending with the the more more was to me more more the shabas was to me and by the time I I I I I I came to a place I fell in love with theim even before I was even thinking about being M guy I wasn't even thinking about conversion I was looking for the next thing I can do that would be pleasing to Hashem but it starts with relationship the way to get to that relationship is through the says he says like this that if a person by trusting in AEM a person is going to be saved for whatever it is that they're going through whatever Sor that the person is that's by trusting in Hashem and the way we get to Hashem I trusted in theem is by spending time with the I'm being honest with you it's a very very simple vo what fired me up about liur Torah what fired me up about theem ding waking up uh whatever pushing myself I'm not going to say oh my my things the things that got me fired up was because I've been spending so much time with the Shem a person starts looking for the next thing I could do to make you happy I remember one time I spent at a big uh situation that was going on so I went to the Kev and I was there 15 hours straight crying to from the 9th in the morning 15 hours straight that's it everything's all on the line is saying it says that if a person wants it bad enough he'll ding about it I remember over there crying and I'm using all trying to talk toim and nothing's hitting right I know I'm just trying to like get to some place that where is going to at least help me out of whatever it's s was going through at the time and I remember stopping and I said Hashem I I just want to make you happy I just want that when you look down and you say you see me you're going to say that's my N I want to give you all this I've been talking about for the last few hours the main I want that you are going to be happy with me sometimes it's very very simple that all of us should get to a place and we're saying theem I just want that you are going to be happy with me and that that R for to be happy with us to give AEM that it's going to drive a person to learn Torah it's going to drive a person to to take on whatever appropriate ofus that the person is person some people are very into some people very into this or whatever it is but a person is going to find them another thing says about his bodas a person will not leave this world you will not leave this world before before you finish your Tik this gamar that says each person he passes away he dies before fulfilling even half of what it is that he wants to do says not those who listening to me they take this a you're not leaving before your time not only are you not going to leave before you your time but you're going to be able to Bak every single thing that depends on you from the Y creation from the time of Adam arish you're going to fix it you know huh what was the was the tick his brother M this is it talking to has did you have this suff that wasn't hasem didn't have in you is that why like like your R was should love you so you had the suff that he didn't love you the suff or like what what like the suff wasn't that I was I was trying to to to find an access point into my life sometimes a person could talk and you could be spending a lot of time with the and you're talking to hem and you don't have the you didn't hit your heart yet the most important part about talking to hem is is is right's close to those who call upon him in truth you call to in truth that's how I draw has in so I'm trying to find the ud of of that truth that's going to help my words start flowing and that was it for me that my whole nud of why I came here hasem and why I'm talking to you is because I want that you're going to be happy with me not that hasim doesn't love us but any nocean idea you know over the over the years Renu was the you know the what they call Renu he's the you know he's he's a doctor of the Soul you know who we fo to a person the sh but the EMS is is that Ru even says that the beginning of of of a is heish most people don't like to do we do the love stuff all the time they love Hashem loves you and it's true Hashem loves us hasem is head over the hills in love with us but we we we cannot forget that the beginning of does come to tell us that if thinking about it too much is going to drive a person away from AEM that's not the purpose of it the same thing about learning C mus if it's going to drive a person away from from Hashem that's not the purpose of it he said but then that person particular at this moment should stick stay away from it but we have to realize that there is things that we could do that make Hashem not happy and part of the the the year how they get to be right as example I used years ago I was talking to some boys I said uh maybe last a year and a half or so ago that you know when a when a person goes and runs uh pickup games you know a basketball this is actually pretty appropriate you know you're talking about playing a basketball you know and there's always some excus as to why I can't School these guys on the court you know what I mean uh but when it comes to to to to basketball you know I I I grew up in the hood playing basketball so you run to go play pickup game there's always that one guy who comes when you when you're when you're you know picking teams that one guy when he goes up there everybody just you want him on your team and you don't want to play against him you know it's always that guy has got really got game over there and you don't want sometimes it's two but usually it's one guy on the court everybody's already sized up they say this guy want to on my squad I don't want to you know what is that it's year it's respect a person doesn't have year in the shim you have year in your relationship with theim then why would you want him on your team what does it matter to you or not not if hashem's on your side because everything that's out there in the world it can harm you it can hurt you it can do anything so it doesn't make a difference if hashem's on my side but if I have year if I have fear of Hashem and I respect Hashem and I know how big and how great Hashem is I'm going to want him on my team and I don't want to play against him so this is what I mean by making a shim happy everybody wants to be on their side of making Hashem happy not that hash a person doesn't do a small Act and doesn't get the greatest from we can understand but we shouldn't tread in a relationship where we feel like you know it's too spooky to talk about your yeah it's the reality of the situation that we're in it's very very appropriate right now also too something it's very hard for me because I I had like 30 things I wanted to talk to you guys about this is what has went and said this is what happened but it's very very appropriate at these times in the I just heard from from rebi ran berer Rec one of his on he said that why is it that sh was never mentioned and none of thees of the past it's not in the Torah it's not in the in the Yi not in the B not in in anywhere until you get to the you get to a few few things later on then we start talking about the closer closer he said we get to the G becoming even a bigger thing why all of a sudden not P why why now so he said something Mish beautiful he said that when it comes to Tish El and Tish it's a time of chuva but it's a time of chuva when we're we we're we're asking Hashem to forgive us on everything that was written everything that we could see everything that was written black letters during the sh the reason why we don't find it in in our text before is because now we're making Chu on everything that wasn't written meaning you can you could say to that you know I'm sorry because uh you know I miss shakas that's TI but the fact that I daved I woke up I went to the Mikvah I had ausa I did all those things to and I didn't think about you one time that's not a that's is connection caser this is why this is the bris me of sh this is our place of caser with theem our place of bonding with theim you sold this is sh and because it's all about caser that closeness with hasem this is the reason why that during the sh so the question is why is it not in any of ru's talking never brought it even if it's theu didn't bring out anything about the so Ru says something very interesting I was thinking about on my R here Ru says that my say for is a commentary on the now we didn't really see this until n really brought it out and we're able to see that everything was saying really is a commentary on the on the but what did he bring out what hasem put in Black writing was that which was in white writing the things that we didn't see meaning that CER that connection to hasem meaning that it wasn't about the caronus it was never about the the the the the uh the uh the the observance of our shabas alone it was about our heart being with theim while we were doing everything that we did did and this is what ru's whole entire Torah this is ru's whole entire Essence is that I come here to bring you I need to feeler I am to feeler this is why he stressed to feel her so much cuz nobody's telling you it's not written that I have to go and stand before hasem and anything but R was telling you I don't know a sadic in any in the generation that I lived in that didn't get close to Hashem through this and he said I went to every in my My Generation anybody who looks in you see where Ru visited you see where Ru was and who we was by he says this was the secret ingredient on how every single person reached their madrea was through the simple thing said on myself even with all of his assas and everything that reu had and it doesn't there was no uh what's that app that art scroll had back then you know Safar yeah Safari none of that existed you couldn't do Google search for you know like we do for Hala you know whatever it is you can't do any of that to go and find answers and you look at leish a masterpiece of how much Torah R was able to touch in a single Torah and a single paragraph and he said even with all of this it never brought me close to a it wasas to crying to he's B this this is what brings me close to this is sh this ru's whole entire Essence is sh is doing that Beyond we're not making chuba for that which was required in the black writing but that which was required in the white writing wasn't the fact that I wasn't there it's aim that my heart wasn't there and the way to get it back is through the through the simple vter so before I leave I want to read this to you I have it maybe in the back of a ton or CLA you guys don't mind if I read it in English right it's okay to read in English we all understand English if not somebody translate this letter that I'm going to read you rman uh did not personally right it was written by um it was written by uh y brighter I think it was it's Bri who was one of the sikim who came to reeno back in uman many many years ago it's actually died in the in the gas Chambers I think but he was a big uh big ever big breast lover was is he was M person who was he was a but he you know he didn't even like being called Rabbi even though he had they used to call him he only call him he was a big but he he took from um he took from different places where rabenu talked about the in of his buus and he wrote it in the way of a letter and signed it with renu's name so I just don't want anybody after I read this going and look like where's renu's letter it's like right WR it but it's based on all of rabenu everything that Renu said to his tellum over the years butal I hope it uh speaks speaks to your heart it says to you my dear pupils and my followers My tum I call to you and I ask you to stop for a few moments and I want that you're going to listen to my words if I'm speaking for your Eternal benefit know that I worked hard to bring you close to me for you surely can feel some of the Miracles that were performed on your behalf I urge you not to let anyone fool you and not to fool yourself you have already heard and you understand that the way I help those those close to me attain their Tik is primarily by the way of hisus that they set aside a place for themselves where they can speak their heart out to Hashem and ask for everything they need both in the spiritual and in the material and confess to Hashem everything that they did wrong whether willfully or accidentally whether coer are voluntarily also that they thank ashem for all of their amenities both in the spiritual and in the material and in this I succeeded in arranging with Hashem that if a person stands before hasem for an hour a day in his Wilderness and even if he has no spiritual arousal or he can't say a word only that he forces himself to yearn to speak to hisem he will Merit everything good and there will be no Stern judgments against him for his soul will be corrected he will reach his te not only that but all the Heavenly Realms that depend on him since the creation of Adam until the coming of Messiah will be rectified as well the Hebrew says NE sh all of it will be rectified for this is unshakable and I guarantee it sign of BR Ved this if you're ever looking for this letter says I'm going to take you on a path On A New Path it's a very ancient path but it's A New [Music] Path