Nasa Na 1931#10- Different Meditations in Morning Prayer - Excrement of Angels source of Animal Soul

uh we're on page so we spoke about we'll go we'll just re repeat what we began learning last week but we'll do it quickly because we learned a little bit about uh the nefesh obamas so it's the new chapter paragraph of 133. although it's true that it is an animal with tv and natural recording medicine primarily it it functions and operates emotionally i have my coal mocha nevertheless out of the ash by my leg also has a great advantage on my laws say who and its advantages marshall orally spoil the fact that it is it is ripe and ready to be emotional to be to be uh moved to to act with emotions the devil hollowliously spoiled this nature of being uh emotional and being ready for an emotional experience who milo godela it is a great advantage we're on 133 um we just began the chapter again we're on third line as we see but in actuality by in people's by people with their nature the yeshua there are people that are always apathetic and cold and aren't impacted aren't moved the enzymes it's not because of their mind their intelligence that's preventing them from from being emotional rather that's their nature the hey them is true the clown is basically that the general difference between intellect and emotions is the psychologist that say hello that intellect is calm and settling well meet this and emotions hey mister actually spiders are what's the word you used again you're innocent last time aina ignacridis is not tantamount it's not equivalent it's not the same idea as apathy as cold coldness but this is therefore the overall idea of apathy who ain't them it's hard to it's not because the mind dictates be called kim kaku this is the person's nature this is his habit to be um not excited we spoke a lot a lot about this last time so i'm not going to repeat it and the rapper says generally speaking usually why is the person this way it's because of the person's ego and self-love and this person is excited and emotional easily it becomes emotional easily adam as expressed in the colloquialism that people use in yiddish a hitsuke a hot-blooded person and does and whatever he does this type of person he does it with excitement yeah me too he doesn't calculate and usually these type of people they do things that's way beyond their ability and we and i gave you some examples in last year so from all this we see such people that have says are more opt to do things of good needles the things that are no good and the proof is the kasharov dover later when such when a hot blooded person does something that's no good who mishari does there a few minutes later he asked me get oh why did i do that the cash raises but when a hot blooded person does something that's good maybe it's dhaka he gives too much to daca i mean you know he gives a lot of seductive or he exerts himself very much for someone else bushfield type of next page which will travel for he does it to so to help another person he said although it's very difficult for him to do this when we call market nevertheless animals he has no regrets whatsoever yeah well the palm name and sometimes or if sonic goes there he has kind of abraham he has pleasure that he worked so hard for someone else he got nothing from it but he did it for someone else ended up the quotes here another worldly saying in yiddish venn hits it's a beautiful expression which means if not for heat the thing would have never been accomplished and i've seen this so many times in my life there are things if you start thinking and calculating they would never get done there's so many reasons why not to do it but sometimes you get so excited so emotionally you jump but you do it and it gets done and you never look back one thing that stands out when i was uh you know when i had the the the chabad house in marin county and we had great opposition from the neighbors to establish uh a school in a in a in a in an area where there were no no buildings no religious buildings and and there was a residential area and everyone including my own balabotham owned the congregants basically said just in your rented you know little office and and we'll have our minion there and i said you got to be kidding there ever sent me to marin county to sit in a little office no we're going to we're going to purchase a building and we're going to get it's legal in america and if it means we have to fight the system we're going to fight the system and we'll show the system supports us and that's what we did and um so talking to one of my congregants like 10 15 years later he said he said to me rabbi and looking back if you would have not done that we would still be in our little office he said at the time we gave you a hard time that's what he said to me i said i know and i have no i'm not upset that's th that's the that's the game plan you got to give me a hard time and i have to do what i have to do and now 15 years later you look back in bar hashem there's a shoe with a mikv and everything because because of what we did acting with hits with excitement and emotions and and and feeling the rebel wants and the abuse that wants that there should be a large noticeable presence of yiddish kite of orthodoxy of hasidis of chabad in this area if i would have gone about in a calculated way i would we would still be in the little office that's what that was saying right here exactly right here and the same is true in our lives yes yes so what you just said now reminding me a story before these crazy times a couple uh maybe four or five years ago i was on my way back from um i was in the kiev airport and there was this guy who was you know he didn't even look jewish but he was jewish he was wearing a baseball cap yeah and went over to there was a bunch of people a bunch of hasidim that were just they weren't standing online to go on to the plane they were like just sitting around and he said what are you guys sitting around we're going onto the plane he says we can't we can't go on we don't have money he said what do you mean we don't have money it's like we're 12 guys we're hoping you know we'll get from shamayim money and we'll be able to fly back to israel or else we're stuck here at the airport this guy took out a lot of cash and said how much do you need and gave each person a few hundred dollars to get on the plane wow something a spark something in him you know i don't know how from he is whatever but that that sparked him that's right that's right exactly that's exactly another example thank you for sharing let's continue i just want to say one more thing and the same is true with with chuva today we're we're experiencing some people are saying did i make the they're thinking that i make the right choice in becoming about the shoe and becoming from becoming religious i'm telling you that comes from the no good side that comes from the yates or horror that's bad it's bad energy and it's stupid and ridiculous of course you made the right choice there are issues and there wouldn't be issues if you weren't religious so you know we have to really um not allow not don't give any room for that type of thinking today everyone made the right choice and the fact that there's issues believe me ffb's from the greatest and biggest families have plenty of issues and if you want i can give you a list of them okay so so don't tell me that um that that you know because the bollinger families and some of the kids become not religious and they say well if mom and dad benitma you guys weren't religious and you went to parties and and you and you took drugs and you did this whatever you guys did whatever people did why can't i do the same thing so then the parents might think hey but sorry why do i need the whole thing what do i know the answer is a big mistake the big mistake chuvas emes chuvas emes the fact that that there are issues there are issues we'll deal with the issues but don't have any regrets whatsoever and this has to be this has to be spoken about today because i'm telling you right writing your background about chemist people some people think this way right here in boro park some people think this way this is a new mahler a very bad mochal that's crept into our community where people because there are issues they blame they say that they were wrong in their choice it's not true they were right in their choice the fact is they're still un there's still package that hasn't been uh refined and and and and worked on and needs more work okay who who who who who could say whether you're born from or not born from that you've worked out all of your baggage it's absurd that the mother says otherwise the mother says that you're gonna claim gogul couldn't trust he shouldn't trust himself on the last day of his life because he became an apocatis a man who went into the claim god to the queen of shakadasha holy of holies many many times and at the last moment he he he drops it so what what do you what do you need more and what do we learn from that a person should never trust himself so i just i don't want to go any more into it than just mentioning over here because this concept of doing something with excitement is a good thing and and and and shouldn't be looked at well maybe i made a mistake maybe i would have different children maybe i would have been more more accepted by the world it's all clipper okay let's continue specifically those people who have a set time like we do in the morning to learn today and they find themselves like you and i and betcham is going to borrow back in the community of other learners of taita the safe safe harmonic a very important thing the end will be that the illuminati there is the or the light the energy there is the source of light which we call ma or hence the name of some organizations more the illuminati the source that ever says the source source the source of torah which you learned which people learned maxed will make people do chuva in other words what he's alluding to here i believe is once you tasted the torah the title is going to help you do true for even if you make a left turn later in your life and it reminds me of the story i'll say briefly with rabio uh by the spear i was shown rabiel talked would always say over a story where i think he went to lakewood to yeshiva this is probably the 50s or 60s and and there was a a student who was like the best in the yeshiva they had what was called haburaz kaburas where they would they would learn a certain topic in the gemara and then each week or so another student would say a pill pull a dissertation on that suggest and this one particular student jonas who was like the best of the yeshiva he never wanted to attend rabbyoyo's tanya's but he always would speak to him before this year and after this year and he was very bright and the oil is very bright so they really clicked but he wouldn't walk into here this year and rabiel never said anything never said anything he just befriended him and kept the relationship going and one day he comes to the oil and he says i want to meet the rebel the girl was shocked he wants to meet the rebel well so naturally he went through the khadakov and he asked him if he can give this bucker this lit for shabbat an appointment and said yeah you know he put him on the schedule did not ask him at the time why he wants to see the neighbor you know he was i was a very smart person he didn't he didn't he didn't i have to find out you know anyway um the the bucket goes into the rabbit and he's there a very long time an unusual long time like a half an hour an hour very unusual for us a yeshiva student to have so and then when it comes out the buffering 770 book hover over him and they want to hear whether they happen to tell you and he says i'm not telling you and i'll never come back here again and he goes out and slams the door 770 and he leaves wow ten years later he's walking on kingston avenue and if y'all's walking on the other side and he goes over to him and he says and rabia looks at him and he and he's he's he wants to see if he recognizes him he doesn't recognize him because he looked different and he says i was that student in lakewood that never wanted to come to yashir he says wow so what are you doing here because i'll tell you it says that i had an issue that a spiritual issue that i couldn't find resolve and i heard so much from you about the rebbe about chabad that i thought maybe the rabbit can give me advice so when i went into yahidis that ever basically pinned me against the wall by proving to me why my issue wouldn't be resolved if i only study talmud and then did i spend time explaining how the issue would be resolved if i learned qasidis and the third part of the euridus was that the rabbi said and if you don't do that a b c and d will happen like there ever prophesized and he told them you're going to go back to the yeshiva and you're going to say a pill because and everyone is going to be looking to hear your your novel insights into the gemura and you're from the best students and it's going to be a bomb it's going to be a such a foolish and because your ego is so strong because you're the best of the yeshiva it's going to humiliate you and the point is you're going to lose start losing your faith and your hope and your interest in learning and you'll start and that ever says hanging out on this in this corner at this in this store meeting this and this girl girls doing this and slowly your titties are going to come off and your yarmulke is going to come off and mamash that ever forecasted for him what will happen if he doesn't know cities and he did not want to learn citizens because he he's a he's a litchfork [Music] so but there ever cornered him intellectually he could not answer he could not he could not he understood why through only learning dimara the issue will remain and he understood that through this there's a good chance it will dissipate but he didn't want to look see this so he he was stuck so he was so angry so when he went out of here he this he said i don't want to ever come back here son of yours said so why are you back on kingston avenue telling me the story 10 years later so he said it's because over the years exactly what the laboratory said happened in my life i went back and i said a pill and it was a bomb and my friends laughed at me and it bothered my ego so much that i started to lose my interest in learning and slowly but surely i became non-religious dropped at all met a girl luckily she was jewish married her we both were not religious and all that but as the years went on i said to myself and i remember i was i was from the best in lakewood so i started to like feel guilty so from time to time i would i would i would give i would reminisce about my years in yeshiva in my from years and then i passed by a shoe i think he lived actually later in brooklyn i passed the shule and then i and i heard them learning and it reminded me of the gemara which i now hated because of what what you know what i felt caused me to my downfall but then i also passed a hasidic stable and i heard nigunim and it was soothing for the soul and i decided you know i'm going to come to 770. i'm going to come to if i bring him with the lubavitcher rabbit because after all it was he who spent time with me and basically prophesied my life and you know he felt guilty and he said like this if i come to the rib and he he that well once i'm gonna come to 770 see what what that does to me when he opened the door of 770 and walked in and heard the rebels it was purim i think he heard the rebels voice on the loudspeaker and the rebel quoted these words [Applause] verbatim the illuminati of torah will make you do chuva will bring you back for good i felt like he's talking directly to me and the fact that i once learned tito the traitor will make me do truva one day and he said that that like opened up for me for the first time in years the willingness to re-check in to from kite but i wasn't there yet but i started to gravitate and say let me find let me get let me get more involved so now it was before chivalrous and i decided i'm gonna come here and i happen to see you on kingston avenue so if y'all told him thank thank you for sharing and he said to him the river gives out question after yamtiv at the end that they need what we call what people call neil zakhar when the yumptum is over go by the rapper with your cup and see if he recognizes you ten years later and and then he said to him i'm gonna do that and if he recognizes me i'm becoming about the shuffle and i will if the rabbit stops and talks to me i'll talk to him he went by he put his cup up the rabbit said show me and he was so moved he couldn't talk that he just shook his head and he went further and the rest is history became from again with a family and everything else [Music] is very powerful that the source of tata when you learn tighter there is the the source of today meaning god who's behind the theta will one day bring you back to truther so this is why when we learned these words now it reminded me of this story value and these people who learned torah are more apt to be impacted with good meetings with tamil who and the reason is within us spiders may be leth because the nature of emotionalism and excitement is to bring good this is the point of ram that the rebels proving over here that the excitement usually will lead to good rather than bad it can lead to bad and no good but more so it will lead to a good sign so in other words a person shouldn't say i shouldn't get too excited because i get too excited i'm going to end up in the wrong pastures no usually you won't you if and that ever added especially that if you once learned to tie it up tight is going to direct your excitement to a healthy place it's nature it's apt for excitement that's the dna of the nephesh obama's resource therefore when we dive in in chakras and we say the verses of praise and more specifically when we reflect and meditate on the blessings before the shema which consists of talking about the nullification the subservience of the angels to hashem the highest and more specifically which group of angels displays this in the most form in the greatest form it is the holy angels this impacts him arouses him and impacts him in a way that causes an inner engraving what does this mean islam in other words and this is important this this is what the rabbi is saying here is the avoid of krishna people always ask what is what am i supposed to think about when i say the blessings of shema we know verses of praise we know what about these blessings the answer is talks about the angels why what we're saying and this is just in a nutshell what we're saying is look the angels are our spiritual fathers and look how they're subservient to god by bowing and and lordying and praising and if they are this way shouldn't we who are the you know offspring of these spiritual angels do the same so this is a a a meditation that's very healthy to prepare ourselves for the actual saying of shema that's what he says and that's why he calls it remember what he said earlier he said the the the there's the sony is there's the external exterior engraving which is the zamerarizim to cut away the thorns the branches right so that because we have all kinds of stuff so you got to chop that away so you can get to the good flowers and the good produce and all that the good agriculture but then when you get to the good agriculture you have to use it properly that's the birkas krishma so which is to sow deep inside yourself the sense of humility and subservience to hashem as we learn and see from the angels that's what it says over here and there ever says that that that the nephesh obama's being by by nature it's like we said before you're in the hits it's a dick hot blooded it's very apt to this activity it it you it's in the zone it's in the zone of excitement so this is a great place to get your nephesh obama's abram excited so that it joins the the the holy spiritual club of serving hashem the hinesha that besides here the previous rabbit sites here a kabbalistic concept what's the showrish what's the root of the nephesh obama's it's called the excrement murray is the word shmarim of the group of angels that are called ophanin you know just as we have excrement the angels have spiritual excrement the famous story is the husset is walking in downtown moscow or lenigrad he looks up and he sees tall buildings and he comes from this little village and he never saw a tall building saw a hut they saw a little house and he comes to the big city he sees all of a sudden a tall building and he looks up to hashem and he says wow these a funny really uh how should i say this these these i found them really um had a big bowel movement there is a small bowel movement excuse the expression and from that comes average normal gosh me as little houses here i see big build buildings this is a result of a big bowel movement it's a of course it's a it's it's a joke it's it's an insight into the concept of the excrement of the o famine guess what the nephew bomb is it's shinish is the smartest it says in kabbalah in other words all of its ploys and all of its tricks and all of its schmutz originates in holiness that's the point you hear that it's not shmarim it's not excrement from evil it's excrement yoni from famine and the excrement of a family is also holy but it's excrement so a big building if you take it and say wow or a fancy car or a fancy house of lots of money you get all excited then you're identifying with the excrement and you're not realizing that it's excrement of a famine the point is to realize that this is excrement of i found it and if i realize it's excrement if i find him then i will use it properly to enhance god to enhance toyota this is a new one out from you never heard this before did you [Music] by understanding how the angels are subservient and nullified to its source i'm sorry by the nephesha promise realizing that all of gas leaves all materials just but excrement and it's really nullified to the source because it comes from there he becomes weakened in his potency of luring the person to nonsense and he leaves that first position of nonsense then and he becomes suitable to be a vessel to use his passion for god so what we're learning here is a very important point the first thing you have to do is soften the nephesh obama's don't try to eliminate the nefesh obama's in the beginning because you're not going to succeed it's too intense what you need to do is soften the blow hide yourself from the blow you're soften the blow by saying enough your bonus come here come here i want to talk to you i'm going to have a discussion let's go for a walk let's go for a pizza let's go to a ball game and i'm going to say what do you want oh hey just relax be cool we're watching the you know the super bowl now we're eating popcorn and drinking beer relax it tastes good it's fun and meanwhile in between the breaks you say nephesh obama's what do you want from me come on you know where you come from you're trying to make me do these silly things you yourself are just excrement my friend and your excrement of these holy guys so be thankful that they allowed you to be extreme and therefore let's use your your excrement your gas mias for god and then after obama starts thinking you're right you know my father my mother these angels hmm they could have uh you know gone in their own way and made made as we're saying it's an expression make their own shabbos you know go off uh and decide to create their own uh style and they didn't they're still bowing to god and kneeling to god and acknowledging god and lord in god all the things we say in because why because at the end of the day they understand that they are just angels and they have a source so if the angels do this shouldn't we it's like i told you i've run towards was that rabbi doctor tortuga his first year of his yard site he writes in one of his books that his father trained him growing up in milwaukee trained them with the concept of es pastnet the word past is a yiddish word it means be fitting this is not befitting for you you come from a certain family you come from a certain lifestyle you know what i'm saying come on it doesn't it doesn't fit it doesn't fit in now of course if you now you know if you use that to the point where you walk around all your life with that ego it's no good but initially to vacate uh to leave a bad position a bad state it's acceptable as we discussed once before but this is what the rep is saying here that the way to make the nephesh use its excrement its passion for hashem is first you have to bring it in and soften its attitude to to and and have it have some humility because at the end of the day it's excrement so you know what are you bragging with with your with your excrement i mean come on you gotta be kidding me so this type of conversation by the way uh yo listen it this is all even alluded to in chapter 29 and tanya when the altar never talks about this idea with different words if you think about it he says the same thing he he or the matsuma he says the nephilim is man but what's the purpose the purpose is that we use that passion for hashem and in this mind right here he gives us a meditation and opens up for us what the various parts of darwining are so we understand what should we do be doing and thinking about during tsukudo and what should we be thinking about during breakup we'll see everyone tomorrow mr sham have a great day bye guys bye bye