My Unorthodox Life on Netflix - An Open Letter to Julia Haart from Dengie

dear julia my name is danjulin i am a gentile i am also on the process of my conversion a lot of people have asked me why i want to become jewish this is the most persecuted religion in the world why would i want to leave this life behind and settle for something new something unknown to me my answer is not going to satisfy any one of you but i am certain for the fact that i have done all the things that i want to do in my secular life and i have been so fortunate and so blessed because i was able to provide for my family since i was 17. i was able to build them a decent house i traveled the world all by myself and i have had my dream job in a corporate world and on top of that i am also happily teaching in college yes i have been feeding my secular goals and secular ambitions what about my nashamah what about hashem can i also have a shared responsibility to bring kedushah here in alam can i also have that akrio julia i am not the right person to judge you in order to say something that you can see in or to criticize you but i cannot understand your description about judaism as to fundamentalism to me it is not to me it is about hashem knowing him loving him connecting with him and serving him in the right and proper way julia i long for the life that you have abandoned a life that is full of opportunity to connect to hashem a life with torah in which my world is currently deprived of you are just so blessed julia you and your people you are chosen all the i'm israel you have the comfort you have the athlete a responsibility that i do not have i cannot obligate myself and that hurts me yes i envy you i envy you because anytime you want you can have a rabbi you have a jewish community where you can celebrate hag together you have a torah you have a jewish home i do not have all of this and to be honest with you i do not even know when i can become officially and halal jewish yes every day i try to become like you to become a true but i will fight harder i will pray harder and i will work harder to become a jew to become a happy jew and a summer misfocus