Mrs. Shoshana Judelman- Zos Chanukah: This is Our Light

But when Kisslave has 30 days like this year, it finishes today bet. And when Kislave only has 29 days, then it finishes on Gimmel. And the year that I was born, Zos Khan, the end of Hanukkah, was on Gimmelas. So my birthday is really gimmel, but it's really also Zanuka. So it's really two birthdays. And my parents actually owe me lots of gifts. >> You deserve two. >> Yeah, exactly. So, um that actually even though it's it's cute and it's funny, but it actually is one of the things that is going to carry us um at the end of the year. So, we'll get to that. It'll be like a little cliffhanger until there drop that out there. What is so special about Khan? So this is an idea that um is implanted it it exists in all of the Sparum but it's really only in the last uh generation that more and more people are speaking about it and that is that Khan even though it's a mitzvah daban it's a that was put in place by our sages it is not a mitzvah the orita it's not a mitzvah from the Torah. But we find that there are many many Ramazim, many hints to Khaneka in the Torah. So for example, we're reading the the Torah reading that we read this week was from the Nim. Okay, the Nim who bring their contributions to the Mishkan. And that's all about kamishkan, right? So the wordishkan is already you know nothing is random in the Torah. So if if the word is already thereish so then we already know that that's there's a connection already but there's a much much deeper place and we see that in right at the beginning of no right in the beginning of the Torah we see in creation that there's a hint to Khan right I don't know what else you learned today if you learned this already today then just tell me and we'll skip right to the okay so Everyone knows these most famous pukim, the first fourukim in the Torah. In the beginning of Hashem's creating the heavens and the earth and the land was chaotic, right? Empty and chaotic. And there was darkness over the um void as it's usually translated. And Hashem's spirit was like hovering over the waters. What's the very first thing that Hashem creates or you could do this if you want or you could just trust me. >> The or is the 25th word of the Torah. You can check it for yourselves right now. Um but so we have a a hidden hint there. Kaneka starts on the 25th of Kislave and Kaneka is all about light. Now here's the question. What was this light that Hashem created? Was it the sun? >> No. Because that doesn't come until later, right? >> What was it? >> The orhagan news. Excellent. Okay. So, we already So, this this idea is already okay amongst this audience. Beautiful. Hashem saw the light. Light is the very first thing that Hashem said about it that it was good. and Hashem separates um between the light and the darkness. Now in the Gumar, we'll go right to the second source. It says Rabazar said the light that Hashem created at the on the first day a person could see with it from one end of the world to the other. Isn't that beautiful? one there's there's a lot of deep Torah deep Torah in there. My favorite idea about that is that um you know as a uh as a guide at Yabashem so or and also in Poland I I do teach a lot about the Holocaust and one of the ideas that we associate very much is that um you know he who saves one life it's as if he saved the whole world right we talk about the righteous among the nations and and also he right meaning a person every for every person that was murdered in the holocaust it's like a whole world was destroyed so we speak about people as being whole worlds. And my favorite idea as a parent, I guess as a human being really, um, is that with this light, you could see from one end of the world to the other. Meaning I can look at a person and see them with different eyes. I can look at my child. I can look at my husband. I can look at myself. I can look at my community. I can look at the person who's driving very slowly in front of me in traffic. and I can see from one end of the world to the other. It means that it's a light that has a different quality to it. It's not you know for sure not neon light bulbs. It's the light of orhagan means okay what happens read the rash. Let's go to the rashi and this will all come together. Okay. What does rashi say ordashem saw that the light was good and he separated it? Rashi says a okay he says in order to understand this we need dra a now a um has [clears throat] generally been you know spoken of as like legends or the stories or really aata is like the the meat aa is like the in my opinion aa is the best part of of everything okay but it means like looking at it with deeper eyes so he says we need to look at this from a more mystical lens okay a deeper lens Hashem saw that this light could possibly be misused by that it's so powerful. This light this light needs to be understood better before there need to be there needs to be more more development more growth in the world. As the world is going to be in its first um few generations they are not going to know how to handle this light. They're not going to know how to see with this light. So, put it away. That's what ganuz means, right? It's it's put away. It's like hidden away as a as a treasure really as something precious. Okay? It's not h it's not taken away. It doesn't say it's not oral or something like that, right? Like that Hashem took it away from the world. It's organ which means it's like in a secret um safe, right? It's in a treasure chest buried into the world. It's actually it's hidden from [clears throat] us in a re like it's hidden from our real our regular lives. But it's g means that it's like it's it's in there though. We know that it's there. It's like something that you something precious that you receive from a loved one, something that you hold from your ancestors and you know exactly where it is in your house. You don't take it out all the time to look at it, but you know it's there. Sometimes you go and check on it, sometimes you go and look at it, but you know it's there. And even just thinking about it can make you feel can enable you to feel a connection to that ancestor that that gave you that piece of jewelry or that you know some people light monoras that have been handed down, right? We don't have the manura out the whole year but you know it's there. That's manora hagan news right or hagan news it's put away lato to the future when it was going to be needed. Okay, now let's keep on going. [laughter] The roak from Alazer from the middle ages. He says vavos, right? We light 36 candles, not including the shamash each night. Okay, the total candles that we light on the actual minora are 36. So it's it goes according to what Hashem gave us at the beginning. The light that was enlightening let's call it like it says in the midash right actually was allowed to use this light right even after the when was Adam Marishon and Kava of course when were they created >> sixth day. >> The sixth day. Okay. And they were created. It was archabis. So they had 12 days on the sixth day where they were still in Ganaden. Hashem didn't banish them from Ganeden until when? >> Shabas. >> After Shabas, they got to spend the first Shabas of the world in Gan Eden. Okay. So let's add that up. Right. So, right, they had they had 36 hours in Gan Eden. up a braca like it says in braces rabba yomv so Friday they had 12 hours z and the and Friday night was 12 hours the yum and shabas day was 12 hours what do you what does that add up to 36 hours okay they used it for 36 hours and connected that as oft brought down ofto go to the next source number five Right at on Khan at the time of the lighting of the candles yed or hagan news. Guess what comes back into the world? Or haganuz. Okay, the treasure chests are opened. Hashem allows I always think of the candles as like a portal. Okay, that's really what it is. This this light is sitting somewhere hidden away from us, but it's still shining. It's still shining. And when we light our candles, it's like we're opening portals to that light. And we allow that light into our homes. we open this this tunnel, this portal for the light to come into our homes. Um, so this is for next year already. Okay, I'll implant this for now. Okay, that you can sit next to the you should sit next to the candles. Um, shal for a half an hour at least. After this, you're going to want to spend more time by them. Shosh or we light these 36 candles because they are a they are portals to the 36 hours that oragan shown in a revealed way in the world and that's the and he and as repent of court says oras there are 36 mas we know represents to okay the the hidden Torah that's brought out by our speaking about it. And those are the 36 mA and this is all connected to Khaneka and it's all connected to the light of the manora the light the orhagan news that we allow that we invite into our homes and I think I I I said this there's a my my ladies from Ephrad have heard me say this a million times by now that when you sit by the monora it's like a spiritual filling station. So you when you sit and you look at the candles, you should do this for as long as you can possibly do it for because you're literally soaking up that light. You're soaking up that light. By the way, it's not too late, okay? Because there are many sources that say that the light of the monora shines the entire day. Not in a revealed way, but in a more hidden way, okay? But with opening up our hearts to this idea and saying like, "Hashem, I I I missed the opportunity or I I didn't maybe I didn't realize what was happening at the time." I'm sure you all looked at your minora. So retroactively this we could do this with right this is a panemius of Torah it it happens in the heart that you can retroactively say right Hashem I want I recognize now that all of that sitting by the all that looking at those lights was actually me sitting and soaking up this orhagan news so that I can look for the rest of the year with that light so that I can see my loved ones with that light so that I can see myself with that light That's really what Khan gives us and it's growing stronger every year and that's what we're going to talk about in the next piece. But I just want to gift you with that. Bless you all. That that you should, you know, sometimes you can you can say like I I I I know it's true and then it feels more true, right? So you can say like I know it's true. Yes, what she's saying totally resonates. It makes sense. Yes. All the time that I sat by the monora, all that light. Yes, I I soaked it all up. I'm like a sponge sitting by that manura. I soaked it all up and when I the next time, you know, I look at my uh fill in the blank. Okay. I I'm I'm I'm going to I'm going to try to tap into that light that I soaked up and hashem. It should give us all strength to to look with deeper eyes to look from one end of the world to the other to see the whole person, right? Sometimes we see just the spilled milk, right? or the low mark on a on an exam or the you know the the the 18th failed driver's license test, right? Or, you know, there's a lot of ways that that things don't work out the the way that we think that they should work out. This light helps us to also see, oh, but that kid is trying really really hard. My husband is trying really, really hard. My friend, my mother, my sister, my neighbor, my whatever it is, right? They're they're actually trying really hard. And I can see that also. I'm not blinded by the things that annoy me or that frustrate me. I can look deeper with the orhaga news and I can see how you know what I [clears throat] don't need to tell that kid because that kid already knows that kid already knows that about him or herself, right? They beat themselves up much more than than than I need to. Okay? And and when sometimes when we see them deeper, it allows them to let go of a little bit of that. So I bless us all to do that. Amen. >> Hashem should bless us all. Amen. Okay. Now, this will take us a little bit further into why we need Khan so badly and we do. We really, really need Kaneka so badly. I mean, just the very fact that, you know, tish ends and we go into and there's no holidays in Keshvan, right? And then all what what are we doing after sukus? Well, at least Hanukkah's coming, right? we like look forward and and and we really it's really the light that that's that's drawing us to it. So the bases this piece that he's going to share with us was the second grebi. Okay. He was the grandson of the first gerbi and he he he bases it on the garra. So we'll do the gamarra first. Okay. Mayanah this is famous. You probably have learned it um already. Kishik what is khaneka? Right. The garamarra asks the question which is interesting. Right. What is Kaneka? Okay, so just the very fact that the that the Rabbanim asked this question is like already, oh, it's not so clear exactly what Kaneka is. There's there's certain aspects of Kaneka that are revealed and there are certain aspects of Kaneka that they they weren't sure about. They weren't totally sure about what's going on. And we and we talk about this, right, every year. Was it the was it the miracle of the war of the of the um small army beating, you know, theim the Mcabes beating the the great Syrian Greek army? Was it the miracle of the candles of you know the the lights staying lit for eight days? What was it? And if it was this miracle or that miracle, what aspect of it? Right? We're we're we're constantly discussing that because there's some hidden aspect of Kaneka. >> So the Gar goes on, right? So when the when the when the were victorious, they overcame and they were victorious. Right? They wanted to relight the monora. First they had to build the manura. I'm sure you heard that already, right? There was the manora actually wasn't there and they had to rebuild a manora and then they wanted to find oil. They couldn't find, you know, any oil that wasn't to that wasn't made. Matame and and they found only one little p with the seal of the cohen bel. There was not enough oil there to light except to light for one day. So there was a miracle that happened, right? We all know this that they lit it and lo and behold, it stayed lit for n for eight days. This is the part that we're actually focusing on. And the next year they made it a day of celebration. They made it a day of halal of of praise and and and thanksgiving. Right? And that's why we said we've been saying hal for the past eight days including today, right? We we that's the the made it into a and this the one of the characteristics of it is is thanksgiving. Meaning we thank Hashem for everything but we're also thanking Hashem for the itself. Okay, obviously for the events of the but also for the and the beautifully says he says on that last bit, okay, that they made a made the holiday a different year. So skip right after the bold makshin lama sha harisha. Why didn't they already right already by the second day they knew there was something big going on? Well, the the candles are still lit, right? The the node of the of the man of this manora are still lit and the third day and the fourth day. Why didn't they already just then you know make it wrote alham that when they when they understood okay that when they make it for the future. So they they right there were many many actually other things that happened in Jewish history that were actually miraculous. Right. We all talk about like the Assyrians, right? The Assyrian when the Assyrians tried to take over um Yusha, what happened? They got killed by a plague. Huge miracle. What? There was like 500,000 soldiers, something like that, and they they all died overnight. And then that was the end of the siege, right? We don't have a we don't have a holiday for that. Why don't we have a holiday for that? That's a huge thing, but we don't have one. So, so, so is saying that the the things that were made into were for generations because on them they were like they become pillars. [clears throat] They're they're like like this uh like these pillars here, right? Okay. The building is like resting on them. So, we have that that that uphold that uphold the world or our worldim, right? Just like we have three regalim. What is a regal? A leg. Okay. So, the world is standing. We are standing. We're like um um uh what's the word I'm trying to think of? Um >> um >> sustained by Thank you. That's a good one. Okay. We're sustained by those three those three legs. Okay. We're being held up by that. Um it's all resting on it. It's all it's all sitting on on those regalim um regalim. But in the earlier generations before three regalim were enough. What did we do during the three regalim? We went up to the basikdash. We brought corbanas. There were all kinds of other rituals that went along, right? We we ate the corban pesak. We we had all kinds of things that we did and and therefore that was enough for those generations wrote. So there was a there was a a recognition that in the later generations we actually we wouldn't make it we wouldn't make it with just those three regalim lanu moim. So they added on what did they add on Kaneka and Porm, right? They added on Kaneka and PM. Those are the those are the Rabanimalu. There's no doubt. We all feel it, right? We feel it and we see it that in our times I mean specifically in our times right there would we would we would not be able to last we would not be able to exist without these mitzvah without the mitzvah of the neros without the light of these candles that they re that they light up the darkness. I mean I I I first learned this piece many years ago and I I'm I'm almost in wonderment at how much more it becomes true every year. Right. I mean, it's so crazy. I want to tell you, my husband's Australian, so he's from he's from Perth, actually. Um, but his whole family lives in Sydney. So, you know, what [clears throat] happened in Australia really affected him. It really affected um our whole family there. Um, not all of our family are are are observant. Um, and some of the members of of my like some of his family, my my in-law siblings, they've gone to the they've gone to Bondi. They live in Bondi. They live, you know, right around there. So, they they've gone to the site of the candle lighting of the site of the of the murders, the site of the terrorist act act every day, every day of Khan since then. and the amount of flowers that are there, the amount of people that have come. They did a huge event last night. They had over 20,000 people. I mean, Sydney is not such a huge Jewish community. I think there's around 50,000 Jews in Sydney, something like that. So, it's like it's like h it's like half of the Jewish community, right? And probably, you know, other people. and and my my brother-in-law is a doctor in a hospital and and he he actually stood up at the at a at a meeting and he said, you know, like like your Jewish um uh co-workers and your Jewish neighbors need to know that not everybody feels like that. They need to know that. And he wrote to us and he said, I think it was the best thing I've ever done my entire life. like he people came up to him and people have been going up to other Jewish co-workers like good people and saying we don't you know that that's not representative of us but if it and I don't want to say that you know everything is everything is from Hashem right so it's not but if it hadn't happened then this also wouldn't happen right and you know loenu we should never know we shouldn't know Turus but when we do know Turus especially on Kaneka it it like becomes so obvious and so clear how these lights how we need them so badly in the darkest times. I mean those were dark dark moments and the families that are bereaveved and the families who are still the people who are still um wounded and and and need healing and they should all be healed and the families should be comforted, right? I mean, Hashem should show them light, but I think already some of them have spoken about the kind of support that they've received and how they their their their amuna glows so brightly. I mean, the amazing things that Rabbi Ellie Schlinganger, Hashem Kamo, the amazing things that he did and the amazing things that his kids are doing is is just beyond understanding. It's really beyond understanding. And that's Kaneka. Kaneka is really beyond our understanding. How do these tiny little lights, you know, they're just candles, right? We light candles. We might light olive oil, but they're just little lights. And yet their power is so big. Their power is so big. When you walk around your shalim, when you walk around, walk around a frat and you see people's candles outside in little tiny flames flickering in the distance, flickering in the darkness, they they the the power of the light that they shine is so much greater than the actual amount of of of light, like you know, the physical amount of light, the spiritual light is huge. It's huge and it goes right into our hearts. And the knew that in our day and age, that's the that we need. That's the that we need. We need a light in the darkness. A little light dispels a great deal of darkness. And we hold on to those. We are holding on to those lights with every fiber of our being. And desperately need them. And so that's why the next year they made a out of it because we needed them. And we need them more and more every year. Right. Of course, the regal that are in the Torah like a higher level on some in some way of hasham like the difference between the of Mosherenu that he he gave Nva with such such clarity lit up enlightened clarity. and and the the purim which are just I'll put that in quotation marks right just the the the dra kabala which is so deep right the only way that we understand khanaka the the importance of khanaka is with the dra kabala right the the the so the the inner aspect of so because it's oragan news right so you have to use the tools of orhagan to understand oragan news you can't see it with any other eyes. [clears throat] Okay. That is called co because like meaning because that's the okay like the the all the Moshenu gave with [music] Z he pointed to Hashem right this is what Hashem said. Hashem spoke from his throat and other Naveim said co. Hashem said like this. He said like this. Okay. So that's why Okay. So is that aspect of it it's like okay but it's it's essential. It's our it's our air. It's our oxygen. It seems to me and this is very important right? We can actually gain more. Meaning we can't keep the regalimoot, right? We don't have a kakadoshim that the khen can go into. We don't have corbanus. We don't have the corb. We can't do those. We don't have the um the water drawing ceremony. We we don't have there's so many things about those that we don't have. Guess what? We do have and purim. And guess what we do? I mean, we light our own personal monora. So that's a little bit of a different but that's it. That's keeping the there's no other generation that did other things that we don't have access to and pur also right we can keep those holidays totally the same way that they've always been kept. There's nothing missing from them. Isn't that amazing? Isn't that amazing? 100% of the we can keep. I think it's super cool. Um Right. We don't go up to the mdash and that was the main way that the gave okay it's amazing amazing I think for for for our generation that we're doing it fully we're totally doing it fully yeah question >> two things one thing I learned was that if you look in the >> right >> they instituted after the during the time of the stood they didn't do the lights until after that's one thing I learned >> okay >> the second thing is that we're kosh is winter time when the when it's darker and darker >> yeah not in Australia though isn't that interesting [laughter] >> yeah two holidays that gave us right >> is and Hanukkah in the winter time >> to get us through this Right. >> And I just want to get >> Yeah. Beautiful. Right. They fall out in the winter. Exactly. >> Okay. They're not like in July. They're in Yeah. >> Get through the years of those as well. >> Right. Right. I mean, right. That we actually the you know points out that that that puk is actually describing all of the galyot, right? All four galyot are are expressed in that puk. So yeah, exactly. Okay. Hosek is is is galas. Okay. Last last bit. Okay. Okay. So, we're going to learn one more one more piece and it's from the niva shalom. What time do I have until >> 12:15? >> 12:15. >> Okay. Beautiful. So, the niva shalom, the salonbi, okay, he brings a a he brings out a teaching from this puss. Okay. The mish is the path of the righteous is like radiant sunlight right ever brightening until noon. Okay. H is the key word there. Hor. Okay. It's getting brighter and brighter. Okay. Mad Abraham. Okay. So an earlier said is the notion is orret. What's oret? The light of the eight. What's the light of the eight? Okay. So, this is a hint to so like he's saying that this is a reference to is getting brighter and brighter. That's really what he's saying. Okay. Bigger and bigger. And it basically was given to us to light up not just the eight days of Kaneka but the whole entire year. That the made this mitzvah okay for the generations that it will give us light in all the times of darkness that we have and therefore so it's not enough. it it wouldn't be enough if it was just lighting up rather it needs to light up the whole year. Now how do we do that? We're not lighting the monora for the whole year. Okay, how do we use that light to light up the whole year? The next three words are just a emphasis probably my typo. Okay. So, we read today the end of the um end of the para of the nim that so it says and if you look I have the the puki more clearly for you at the bottom in sources 10 and 11. Okay, I'll just read them from the from the bottom. So, these are the the last four of the we read all four of those today. Okay, we read all four of those today. This was the dedication offering for the altar from the chief tens of Israel. Okay? And then he goes through all the offerings. Okay? And then the last of all of the offerings is skip to the end. That was the dedication of the offering for the altar after its anointing. Okay? So we have before the anointing and after the anointing. Okay. Now go back up into the shalom. Um, go to the second line in the second paragraph. Okay, after the period. So he says, why why do we have two two like phrases that are pretty much exactly the same, but one says before the anointing and one says the after the after the anointing. So he says before the anointing is a reference to the days of Kaneka, the eight days of Kaneka. and the the days that are the the um the uh the anointing or the the dedication of the offering after it's anointed that that's the light that continues after Kaneka and it goes and it actually gets brighter and brighter. You might think that the last night, last night, eight, eight nights of Clanica was the brightest that the manora would get. And he's saying here in Shalom, no, no, no. There's a there's there's lights inside of you that went into you during when you were lighting the candles on Khan. And actually, it's just going to keep on growing and growing and growing throughout the whole year and become brighter and brighter. that the whole year we actually find strength and get energy from the lights of Hanukkah. You never knew it but now you will. [laughter] gets bigger and bigger. So he's quoting the Ben Saskar who explains all the all the holidays in a very very deep way it didn't used to be such a big holiday right I mean even in our own lifetimes right we remember it wasn't like so great and so big like okay you let your Kaneka manora I don't even think we had off from school when I was growing up for Kaneka like we had it was a Kaneka play and then you know it just wasn't so big and now we're we're turning more and more to it. Okay. Like you pointed out, what's your name? >> Yehud. >> Yehudit. Like Yehudit, you pointed out that that in the darkness in the winter, right? We're like we like Kales for it, right? We're like, "Yeah, it's Kanuka is coming up and I'm going to let And how many types of donuts did you have?" You know, I mean, especially us in Eritis, right? We get to really I mean, there's there's such treats and you you you feel it all around you that it's Kaneka. You see the candles all outside. You hear the the singing. It's I mean, it's in the air. It's It's more and more festive every year. So he's saying >> it's breathtaking for me that I I'm not living here that long, but how awesome it is that totally totally nonobservant people. >> Yeah. >> Celebrate Kaneka. Oh, it's such depth and joy. >> Isn't that amazing? >> Amazing. >> It's it's so accessible to them, right? Kaneka is not threatening to anybody. I mean, it shouldn't be, right? It's not like for for for Jews that didn't grow up with with a Torah education is just it's so nice. It's so nice, right? It's light. How could you not love light, right? Just come and have a donut. Yala, come on. You know, it's it's you don't have to do anything. You could drive here. You don't have to walk here. You know, I'll Right. It's it's it's so accessible, right? Um Okay. Second line down. The closer we get to the revelation of Messiah will become more and more revealed to us the light of we will be able to see it more and more and more clearly there will be more of it even or and that's the perouch that's really the meaning of this that it's like the path of the righteous is like radiant sunlight and it's getting brighter and brighter. that it go it goes and it gets bigger and bigger and bigger every year and all year like until today. Why why is that? Why doesn't why is it different than the other that they're they've always been we've always connected to them like they've Right. Everybody remembers Pes as a kid. We pes always been a big deal. But is getting to be a bigger and bigger deal. The candle lights up the darkness. More darkness that comes, the more um hiddenness that we have in our world, the more it seems like the dark forces of darkness are overwhelming or um sorry for the typo. We need a bigger and bigger light because Hashem makes this opposite that and in the footsteps in the heels at the we're at the you know we're in the in the the the days right before but it means that we're at like the rock bottom level. We need we have a lot of hester. There's a lot of confusion. There's a lot of confused people. We are very confused even with the light of Kaneka, right? We we live lives of lack of clarity pretty much most of the time. >> Everybody seems to talk about the but says that the reason we celebrate is really because of the war and the miracle of the war. look at and it says at the end okay and it says that the reason the whole reason for the was that people would recognize that there was another miracle the big miracle was the war so >> right but why so so let me ask you a question yeah >> yeah no but when you see see the world isn't that also see the world in terms of seeing that everybody is and that we have to thank People haven't been mentioning that. It really bothers me. >> I don't understand why. >> Because the whole idea of Khaneka is really the fact that there was a war and we won the war with because of Hashem. >> So the question is like the Gamar says Khan, >> right? >> The qu she's saying she's pointing out that nobody really talks about the war anymore, which is I'm not sure I agree with you. People talk about it and we say it in the scene. >> This is the Maharal. So I just >> Okay. So, so, so 500 years ago when the Mar lived, um, maybe the war was what they needed to talk about, but in 2025, the light is what we need to talk about. >> What about the war, >> right? Meaning, and I'm not I'm not I'm not going against the moral shalom, but I think what what the Niva Shalom is saying is that as the generations go by and we're 500 years after the Mahal, we need the we need to talk about the light more and more. That's what Khan that's what I mean. Yes, obviously, of course. And even but even in the Gamarra the question that's what I started with my Khan is that the Gamarra itself is not sure what the what what's the bigger miracle is the bigger miracle the war or is the big bigger miracle the what are we celebrating here and and the answer is of course both both of course and and and we say in Alanim we and we recall it all the time and yet the somehow the power of the small army beating the big army doesn't grab our hearts and open our hearts as much as the miracle of the candles. >> Exactly. That's why we needed the I'm asking about but what about the idea of >> that's what we said before, right? But we're that's that's exactly what we're saying. We're we're we're we're thanking God for this in which we get the light to see the world in a different way. >> Okay. Got it. >> Including the the miracles of this minute, the one now. >> Right. Right. Exactly. Okay. Let me just finish up. Okay. Because I'm I'm out of time here. I'm bad getting kicked off the stage. Um, can I can I just uh can I just read you something very very quickly in English? Okay. So, basically Shalom says we need it more and more and the clo the more hester there is in the world, the more hiddenness there is in the world, the more we rely on Khaneka and the more powerful Khan becomes for us. So, I'm just going to read a very short thing from a um a Holocaust memoir. Okay. I'm sorry it's not on your pages but it's in English and I'll just read it out. Okay. The memoir is called the yellow star. So he says he he's in a camp called Nether Orchel. He was in Bergen Bellson. He gets sent to this camp called Nether Orchel. I decided that we should light a little Kaneka Manora even in Nether Orchel and that this would go a long way towards restoring our morale. We knew of course that Jewish law did not compel us to risk our lives for the sake of fulfilling a commandment. But there was an urge in many of us to reveal the spirit of sacrifice implanted in our ancestors throughout the ages. We who were in such great spiritual as well as physical distress felt that a little Khaneka light would warm our starving souls and inspire us with hope, faith, and courage to keep us going through this long, grim, and icy winter. And so as soon as dinner was over, they they had gathered all the things to make a mana. made this whole plan, but after now they're lighting it, I made the three traditional blessings and a little Kaneka light flickered away slowly under my bunk. Not only my friends from the religious quote unquote table were there with us, but also many others from the room joined us in humming the traditional Khan songs. These songs carried us into the past as if on a panoramic screen. We saw our homes. We saw our parents, our brothers, sisters, wives, and children gathered around our beautiful silver candalabbras singing happily the maur. That tiny little light under my bunk set our hearts ablaze. That's what Kaneka is. Those little lights set our hearts ablaze. And Hashem knew in his in his infinite wisdom how much we were going to need our hearts to be set ablaze in Kaneka 2025 and ongoing. And may every single day as we get closer and closer, those days should lessen and lessen in number of the ultimate revelation with Mashiachu and all that clarity and all that.