Modeh Ani on Four Levels

so welcome back to controversy and uh we made an assertion in the last class that siddis brings out a whole new dimension a new vitality in all the four levels of torah interpretation and i say all the four levels meaning there are four levels not a fifth level because see this is that fifth level that's not a level it's not a level that's the whole point of it it's uh corresponds to essence and just like the the yakida of the soul is not a fifth level of the soul but it's the essence of all the four levels of the soul so to sid this is like the essence of all the four levels of torah interpretation of course we mean shot rem is drush site so we made that assertion in the previous class we haven't really demonstrated that um who said that it's true but we didn't uh give an example or an illustration so now what's about to happen in the mirror is a rather uh detailed demonstration of how siddhis is different from and also expresses itself through the four levels of chat remember site we're going to pick up from where we left off we are on chapter 9. there are literally an infinite amount of subjects dealt with in torah we want to illustrate what how how this looks at a subject differently than the other four levels of torah interpretation and we also want to look how this informs those four levels and we need to pick a subject well what subject should we pick toyota literally has an infinite number of subjects unavoidable so therefore we suggest i'll call upon him at least one concept kamehameha alpie remembers we're going to bring out its explanation according to shot according to remembers according to heroes as well as how this brings out a new vitality and luminescence and depth in all four of those omimeno nilmat and then from these we will learn as sort of like a case in point chicane who that you may extrapolate the same regarding all subjects within tata so we're going to pick one as our case study but really it is meant to be an illustration of the same principle which could be applied to every single subject that tara deals with which again is infinite there's an infinite infinite number of subjects subject terror deals with okay so which one are we going to pick dogma the example that we've chosen as our you know our uh i guess our uh i just can't resist because i just saw it recently there's a beautiful interview that jem did the main counter project with with mrs tartell the principal of basrifka and uh she she writes about how what she spoke about how she wrote to the rebbe she didn't want to be the she's principal-based but she was actually in the first class of basically she'd gone to another school before not not a laboratory school so she didn't want to go to a new school because you know they haven't established themselves yet so she wrote to the deb and she said i don't want to be a guinea pig and the very forthright and she wrote in english and you know the expression guinea pig i don't want to be a guinea pig and that ebba wrote back um like i think that i'm a crosstalk guinea pig and wrote pioneer not a guinea pig a pioneer okay anyways so what subject in theatre have we chosen to be our uh case study we chose maidani why well we're going to give actually three reasons and you know as long as i'm mentioning my encounter project i'll mention something else before we uh give the three reasons there's an interview with uh nahum stellerman and he writes about how his father had a grocery in crown heights and he used to deliver groceries to rabbits and ghana that have his mother and one time she offered that kind of offer that if he had any questions for the rabbit that she would get an answer for him so he said he was about to go off to college and he was sort of thinking to himself about priorities about what's important to keep and so he asked robertson counter what is that eva's favorite prayer like sort of in the back of his mind he was thinking you know what prayer should i be very careful about you know keeping so the next week when he came to deliver groceries episode hannah brought it up and she said i asked that abby your question and he told me his favorite prayer his favorite prayer is maida ani anyways that's the story rabbi's favorite prayer is maidani okay so we've chosen maidani that have his favorite prayer that rabbit chose made on me which is the dub his favorite prayer but it doesn't say here that it's his favorite prayer but apparently it is we've chosen maidani as our example for how many reasons three reasons okay let's let's take a look at them aleph mccabe and shalom valley daisy lovely since it's incumbent upon every person to accustom himself to say maidan immediately upon awakening from his sleep and to quote thereby to remember god who stands over him and arise with zeal therefore this statement is other it is the foundation and beginning of a person's service literally beginning of each day it is a fundamental or foundational prayer kim kol in fact in in in in that way it's like the foundation for his fulfillment of all of the instructions of tata that he will fulfill throughout the day of and really for his whole life because every day of his life starts with this throughout the course of the day so we've chosen maidani because it is foundational it starts every day every day of one service of hashem starts with the maidani and everything else is built upon that okay so to contemplate immediately upon awakening before whom one is lying there before whom before the king of all kings the holy one blessed be as it is written behold the earth and the heavens i fill meaning everywhere including right there in front of you when you get up from sleep and then he will think about this through all of his affairs and all of his dealings meaning you get up in the morning and you realize hashem is right here it's not like i have to go somewhere to start to be in hashem's presence i'm in hashem's presence immediately when i wake up and then that awareness follows us through the day visit this is a general principle of a big rule of the toyota and it's also one of the qualities of the righteous who walk before hashem commission like it says in psalms and king david psalms until him i have placed the lord before me always at all times constantly they say merest that means to say al derek this should be the awareness one has all day long so the idea of getting up in the morning and saying oh hashem is right here right now that is a concept that is you know it's constant it's a constant uh awareness hashem is right here right now so we've chosen maidani for that reason um in addition to the the previous reason we said that it's the foundation of everything else you do every day of your life so another reason is because the the token the the meaning of maidani is the constant awareness of hashem's presence which is constant once you know it the constant awareness of hashem's present presence is constant so in other words it's it's something that is we're doing we're engaging in or at least we're supposed to be engaging in all the time so for that reason it's a great example to take a look at okay gimmel cole hanala vedio sodom la que everything you do to serve hashem it's because you've awakened not literally but metaphorically from the slumber of the vanities of the world that's a that's a uh an expression that uh the rambam uses in chuva so when you wake up you know you know to be woke in the jewish sense of the word right that's maidani and uh you gotta you gotta be awake to avedis hashem wake up from the slumber of being involved in following uh the news and politics and all that stuff that seems so interesting but it's really just professional wrestling yes it is ask your rabbi and if he doesn't tell you that ask another rabbi you've been pissed parenthetically that says now we can understand also an expression that the rebel shabb the fifth rabbi of khabad said there's a little dot after the word it's a punctuation mark why because you say may danny living pause if you don't pause you might think it's become that rabbit is an adjective mattifying kamla that the hamlet is abundant kindness it's really behind law you restored my soul graciously but pause your trustworthiness is great anyway so the rabbit sham said that little dot there srihim la feista fernando straighten in yiddish we have to spread that that out al kolayim kulei over the whole day really has to last all day long so the idea again is why have we chosen maidani even though it's this one moment of the day because what madani symbolizes really touches everything and every moment of our lives as jews so that's why we've chosen maidani and from that we will see as a case in point what the different levels of toyota interpretation look like how they differ from differ from each other how this differs from them and then we'll see this enlivens all four of those that's the premise okay we are on chapter 10. what is the shot of maidani and we're just going to do the shot the simple plain shot we're going to go back later and explain the shot we're going to re-examine the shot in the in the light of siddhis but first let's just look at shot on its own it is thanking hashem for giving you back your soul although there's a bracha you make in the morning blessings my lord my you returned my soul so why it seems seemingly it's redundant to have both of them came nevertheless because the obligation to think hashem for your soul is immediate right when you wake up why right when you see the morning blessings you make later after you got out of bed you washed your hands when you went to the bathroom then you make your morning blessings we don't want to wait until that long so why why don't we want to wait so long like you make on any benefit like eating let's say you make the bracha right when you have the benefit actually you make the bracha before you have benefit right when you take a bite out of an apple you make better periods first and then you take the bite well here obviously it's not possible to simulate dandy before you wake up do you know by the way why it's not possible to simulate any before you wake up try it get back to me and tell me why it was not possible anyways so we can't make it before we wake up but we can make it immediately or as close to as immediately upon awakening as we can the thanking hashem for giving us back on which actually is the greatest benefit if we try to make a blessing immediately before getting any any benefit well how much more so the benefit of getting your soul back which is the mother of all benefits the killer says it it includes within it getting back your soul is a benefit which includes within it all other benefits say so it should be done immediately upon awakening okay fine great so you have to make that immediately so still doesn't explain the redundancy we have maidani and then we have alikai nishama so find so just do maidani no but we can't do that why not um the kindness is a proper broken it has hashem's name in it therefore we have a problem in our days we cannot say that cadem nutella say die before we wash nitil as he die we're going to have a problem saying hashem's name before we wash our hands so what did we do which doesn't include any of hashem's names immediately when we wake up so basically we say maidan immediately before we wash our hands and then later on we have alikai nishama which is a similar i mean the the main point of it is the same which is taking hashem for our soul now we still need the brach because why he nice of allah yes in addition to the fact that there are more details and it's a longer prayer and it has more details but made the ani the main difference is maidani doesn't mention hashem's name um and as we know from the gemara in in in bracha's stuff base any bracha that doesn't have hashem's name or the mention of hashem's kingship is not a proper bracha so maridani is not a proper bracha that's why we still need to make a proper bracha on the return of the soul which is but we don't want to wait until we can make a proper bracha because we want our thanks to be immediate so we have the maida ani and that's why we have both okay um continuing we're still looking at the shot of maidani but we mentioned that nowadays we need that maidani it's actually interesting maidani is post-talmudic it came along after the talmudic era why because they didn't have the same problem that we have moved we can understand now why in the time of the gemara they didn't have maidani they just said ali kindness doesn't have anything that ali kind of doesn't have the maidani whatever in other words whatever maidani has alike has elena ali kind of has even more the mash the fact that we have to say maidani even though content-wise it doesn't add anything new the reason we do it the reason we have maidani is because precisely because it doesn't hashem's name in it we can do it right immediately when we wake up the mayhem but in their days in the times of the gemado shalima mission awesome they would actually say like kindness come up immediately when they woke up they didn't have the same problems with purity uh that we have le hoots said they didn't need maidani because the kainishama served that purpose by being able to you know recite it immediately when they woke up all right so that is maidani according to shot basically it is a prayer that was specifically constructed to be possible to recite immediately upon awakening and therefore it was specifically made without hashem's name or or kingship mentioned so there wouldn't be any problems of needing to wash our hands or purify ourselves before uh before reciting it all right so that's the simple shot of maidani let's continue now let's look at it according to the dramas what is maidani according to ramseram is means allusion it means a meaning that is not exactly the literal meaning but it's like one step it's like one jump away uh like a reference or an illusion that's what we call rem is illusion sometimes rem is translated as hint but allusion or reference that might be more uh accurate hacksaws baker mason waking up in the morning is an allusion to the revival of the dead the resurrection as uh the gemara says that sleep is the sixtieth of death uber mela therefore zoro waking up in the morning is a little tiny little bit like the resurrection that's why we say you return to me my soul great is your trustworthiness from this that you return to my soul on a daily basis we can therefore conclude how great is your trustworthiness with them that you will even revive the dead so based on hashem's trustworthiness on a daily basis returning souls to the sleeping we can predict or get a sense of the great trustworthiness that will be evident when hashem returns the souls to those who have passed away okay that is remis that is the remis interpretation of maidani all right the fact that hashem returns ourselves renewed to us each day uses the expression kardashian love caught him renewed each morning that hashem returns the soul that we deposited by him and he doesn't hold it back meaning he doesn't um tell us what what are you going to do for me if i give it back to you right he doesn't play that game with us he just gives it back to us this shows hashem's great trustworthiness that even though he has something of the greatest value of ours he doesn't use it for leverage he gives it right back um from this we can ex expound that's what dersha means we can expound and we can learn out meaning it's not really what this is about but you can expound another lesson from it shigama of them that so to a person should be this way like hashem is we should be this way we should be so reliable and what does that mean specifically for us you're not allowed to withhold an article and trust it to you because somebody has a debt to you just like hashem doesn't use the leverage and say oh now i got your soul now i'm going to make you agree to give pay up all the mitzvahs that you owe me right no he doesn't do that gives it right back doesn't use it for leverage so two we learn a law that if somebody uh has a deposit by you i'm not talking about collateral that he gave specifically for the purpose of securing the loan i'm talking about if you happen to have something of somebody's and then they also become your debtor you're not allowed to say oh well until you pay me the debt i'm going to hold on to your thing no be like hasha and that's what the drush is all right we have one more one more level the kabbalistic the esoteric explanation of maidani and i'm going to just get you prepared by saying this is kabbalistic and this is esoteric so if it makes no sense that's okay that's to be expected i and we went to shop shop made sense right want to thank hashem for giving back your soul immediately that makes sense well shot usually does make sense rammus was just like hashem is worthy to give you back your soul when you wake up hashem is trustworthy to give us back our souls uh you know to those who are in need of resurrection drush is just like hashem doesn't use the soul is leverage uh so too a person should not say i'm not giving you back your property because you owe me something all those things are kind of relatable and and we understand them on a simple level please please please do not say i don't want to get any emails or letters saying what was the soy i didn't understand the site you're not going to understand the site that's the whole point but we're going to go back to all of these and we're going to unpack them at length so don't worry about it that phrase living in eternal king know what that is that's malchus as it is united with your sight the ultimate sphere as it is united with the penultimate sphere why break it down further malach as they unite with each other and when they unite with each other shakes out to be nishmasi my soul comes back in the shama that the return of the soul is unites with your side that causes the souls to come back to bodies i told you very clearly we're not going to understand it but anyways that's the statement and that's typical like kabbalistic stuff you know different spheroids and spheres are uniting and okay that's what happens so malchus as it is united with the aside causes the cells to come back that's what it is okay fine so those are four levels we have learned and uh that's what we got that's what we got so far and that's hashem what we're going to do we're going to go on not tonight but we're going to go on and we're going to learn the explanation according to this and then we're going to take this and shine that light through all the other four levels and see how they come to life in a new way okay thank you to everybody